#moreromance

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#berlin #berlinstreetart #streetart #streetartberlin #moreromance (hier: Berlin, Germany) https://www.instagram.com/p/CG7XvN_FFCE/?igshid=dy3lb0mnic4w

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[somemilanlove]

BoBo’s Gravy

Day 3 & I’m def behind for most of the day. Despite being up early  I spent my morning looking for a good body shop that isn’t backed up for months due to the oil boom out here. Demarcus’ truck is leaking oil and it’s up to me to find someone to find out why. I am planning to remake the gravy for dinner. It just wasn’t as good as I know it could have been so I’ve got myself mentally ready, Besides, we still have biscuits and I don’t know what else to do with them.

Demarcus always helps by sending the kids off in the morning. I’ve fallen back into  a night owl routine & fit in uninterrupted work hours. Anyway he hasn’t sent any extra biscuits with the kids like I had hoped he would.

Anyway the day goes by so much faster than I expected, I fit in a few good pockets of work between the “let me check under the hoods” and googling where else to go, but I didn’t get enough done. I’ve made a pact with myself that no work will be done when the kids are home. So as soon as the school kids are home I won’t be on my phone at all until they are in bedtime mode. It’s’ hard for me to do that esp. this week when I’m hosting a behind the scenes look at what a virtual online coach does.. ugh.

Idk if I mentioned but this year my goal is to help 5 women every month learn how to earn an extra $1000 a month, part time. It’s a huge undertaking and I’m def under pressure because a leadership role for me has always been scary. It’s one way to be able to push yourself to achieve big things, but to lead others and help them stick to their goals well not so easy for me.  I’ve always been the quiet one in the group or room, who never spoke up, just remained unnoticed. Leading, as I’m finding out isn’t telling people what to do, per say, it’s more of a teaching thing. You show what you’re doing and set an example. They can follow it or tweak it as long as they find something that works for them and still gets them the results we both want.

As soon as the kids get home I start whipping up the BoBos Gravy (where do these names come from anyway?). The recipe was so simple that I remembered exactly what I needed and how much, the only difference this time is that I’m working with raw Jimmy Dean sausage. This way I get more of the fat reserves from the sausage.

Without dragging out a simple gravy recipe I’ll say that it went really well. I followed the recipe exactly as it was and it came out perfect. The kids were not as excited this time around to have it for dinner.

I really don’t have much to say about the food today or feel inspired to share very much in a hopeful light. . I’m tired more than anything and have of ton of mundane mom duties to get to tonight. To add to it Demarcus and I had a huge argument about how his expensive taste in cars were consuming unnecessary money. I’m not usually one to fight about money these days. Especially since I know it comes and goes.

I think maybe it has to do with the fact that I didn’t have money growing up. We grew up poor with a single mom, usually getting things from salvation army and Goodwill. We never had fancy cars, brand name clothes, and almost always shared a room with one of my four siblings. As long as I had clothes on my back, food in the fridge & people that loved me back I was happy I’ve never cared for flashy or fancy things, but experiences.

DOING things is what I would spend any $$ amount on. To me spending 90K on a car is absurd unless it’s going to pay you back in a way other than getting you from point A to point B.

Earlier this year we traded in my car in to get another. I almost feel embarrassed to say the words traded in. As if its something poor people do. And now in writing that I guess I do have some sense of significance when I own nicer things. My husband had traded his brand new Chevy Silverado in for a more “useful truck”. An F250 Diesel- lightly used and costing twice as much as the other, the year before & I was still sour about it. The repairs on a Diesel are outrages and finding someone to do the work out here, in the middle of a boom? Damned near impossible!

Nevertheless we traded my car in since he would not be giving his baby away. I thought it would be a good way for us to trip the fat off of our spending & get ahead. Makes sense. A one Chevy Suburban for a Jeep Cherokee. We traded in one car only to wreck it 6 days later. Totalled. I hadn’t even received our plates yet. Don’t worry we were ok, but the deer Demarcus hit on our way to Big Bend National park didn’t make it.

We(I) decided to take this as a sign for us to use the extra money to pay off debt and get ahead on other bills like the house payment. (well I decided and spent the next 30 days convincing Demarcus it was in our best interest) That lasted all but 6 months. He just couldn’t keep sharing his truck, he won’t openly admit it but the evidence of 4 kids in he PRIZE truck was/is too much for him to handle.

I gave in, tired of hearing him complain about crumbs and the miles I was putting on his truck,  and agreed to choose a car, nothing new, and something that would fit all my babies. I didn’t want new because that would automatically come with a high payment and I had ZERO interest in paying interest for the next 5 years.

I found a fully loaded GMC SUV of sorts, nice enough for Demarcus to agree & big enough to lug my kids and all their things in. Mileage was so so, and it was made in the USA.  It was priced around 11-12K so totally affordable, which made me happy.  I thought this is the one, but nope. Demarcus had other ideas.

Long story short we ended up with a 2008 Land Rover. I know what you’re thinking. Who would complain about a Land Rover? ME.

Not only was it not what I had picked out, it was a year older, with more miles and foreign. Despite every I came up with to convince him this was NOT the one, that’s what I ended up with.

Buying a used car is a gamble as it is, but anytime you add a label to it becomes an expensive gamble. Not even a few week in I had to pay for an oil change.

$500!! We live in a small West Texas town with 1 person to do repairs on this thing. A few days later, turns out I need 2 new tires. “You can’t replace just 1 of the tires ma’am, because of the suspension sensors on this thing.” its a special made car, $600. We still hadn’t made the $300 car payment on this thing and I was out 1K!! FML.

A few weeks later --check Engine light -- catalytic converter. $440 a piece (it has two). A repair my husband pretended was optional and could wait. Now my “mom car” sits under the carport awaiting an $3000 repair factoring in labor.

So yesterday as I drove around desperately trying to find a Diesel mechanic with time to get the oil leak fixed in his truck I lost it. I tried to explain to him that it’s not the money, or the fact that a car needs repairs. I am fully aware of the fact older cars need repairs & that with maintenance a vehicle will last longer. What I was so upset about is that we were paying high end prices for these repairs. I’ve owned 4 other cars in my life time one used and 2 new so I totally get it!

My Nissan cube had the same issue with catalytic converter a few years back & it cost a fraction of the price to repair.

My husband is the kind of man who wants physical proof of how hard he works, big house, big truck, big guns. Maybe to compensate for the things he didn’t have growing up. idk , but Not me. It baffles him that I don’t “ooo” and “ahhh” at the fancy cars. He is totally confused how I could turn down the change to drive such a “classy car” and why I wasn’t happy when he got this car for me.

So that was it. Our huge battle over paying too much for basic things had me under stress. I was tired. Not inspired in anyway to make my mark on the world and certainly not any closer to finding my purpose as I poured extra creamy gravy over soft flakey biscuits and thick bits of sausage.

Maybe tomorrow’s recipe will bring me more luck.

[juleznice]

#moreromance #romanticfuture (hier: Corny Corner)

[riskyourun-blog]

What I’m about

I’m all about making a revolution that will take us beyond capitalism. Making revolution is risky but if it means an end to the exploitation of people by other people than it’s just the risk you run pursuing the depths of love.

This tumblr is a place for me to play with new ideas, get feedback from comrades, and hopefully inspire some folks to help make revolution. Like every other person with a beating heart I’m trying to change society so we can keep living on this planet. But as a socialist I know we have to struggle with each other to end white-chauvinist, male-supremacist, and queer-hating thinking or we won’t achieve our birthright or see our promised land... a world economic system built on solidarity.

Follow me for practical and theoretical thoughts on #classstruggle #romance #ecology #ecologicalliteracy #leftunity #laborunions #organizing #labororganizing #scifi #socalism #marxism #antiracism #marx #poetry #mao #lenin #moreromance #militantclassstruggle and other stuff related to how we’re gonna make revolution that ends the rat race and eradicates this system of haves and have-nots. 

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Bruxelles. Mail time. • • • • • #cappuccino #instabruxelles #großstadtliebe #wanderlust #lawyertobe #visitbrussels #morningstroll #etterbeek #magritte #coffee #urbanphotography #igersberlin #berlinstagram #berlinliebe #ig_europe #lawstudent #igbelgium #ig_germany #actromantic #referendariat #concretejungle #coffeetime #moreromance #sprouttobebrussels #welovebrussels #cafebelga #brussels #bruxellesmabelle #igersoftheday #travelgram #coffeelove #postcards (at Jean Rey Square)

[floatingbohemian]

🌹❤️#moreromance (hier: Berlin, Germany)

[tyrannuspitch]

kinds of books in the teen/ya section of my local library:

read it already

Wow Sounds Hetero And Unnecessary

Wow Sounds Masculine And Unnnecessary

kinds of books in the adult section of my local library:

a detective with a dark past moves to a quiet coastal village and you'll never guess what happens next (10 copies)

Romance™

STOCK PHOTOS OF BULLETS: A Masculine And Unnecessary Novel

oh look some more

Romance™

Obscure Yet Generic High Fantasy Saga (Vol XVI)

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[tachtutor]

Pope moves against Polish bishop accused of hiding predators

Pope moves against Polish bishop accused of hiding predators

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Pope Francis delivers his blessing from the window of his private library overlooking St. Peter’s Square, at t…Read MoreROME: Pope Francis has ordered a Polish bishop to leave his central diocese and let someone else run it while he is under investigation for covering up cases of sexual abuse that were featured in a second clergy abuse documentary that has rocked Poland’s Catholic Church

[denissouilla]

More romance. #moreromance #urbex #berlin #germany #streetart #urbanart #arturbain #artderue #graffiti #graffitiporn #wallart #sprayart #art #paint #rsa_graffiti #tv_streetart #dsb_graff #jj_urbanart #total_urbanart #streetartorbis #streetartberlin #berlinstreetart #streetarteverywhere #igersberlin #igersgermany #urban #streetphotography #street #nofilter #bird (à Berlin, Germany)

[instafashionfix]

"Make Social Media a nicer place" lautet die Kampagne von @mintandberry. Wobei es darum geht? Um den freundlicheren Umgang im Netz, sei es bei Kommentaren und Posts. We love! ❤️ #romancetothefront #moreromance 📸 @alexaslink

[penguinssuitup]

Bruxelles. 🐘. • • • • • #streetart #instabruxelles #großstadtliebe #wanderlust #lawyertobe #visitbrussels #plattenbau #installation #urbanphotography #igersberlin #berlinstagram #berlinliebe #ig_europe #lawstudent #igbelgium #ig_germany #referendariat #concretejungle #weekendescape #sprouttobebrussels #welovebrussels #flagey #elephant #brussels #actromantic #bruxellesmabelle #igersoftheday #travelgram #moreromance (at Flagey)

[floatingbohemian]

🌹Romance to the front #moreromance *Markennennung (hier: Berlin, Germany)

[floatingbohemian]

#moreromance with @mintandberry 🌹 Personal post is now up on FLOATINGBOHEMIAN.COM ❤️ #theworldneedsmoreromance #blogpost *Anzeige / Advertisement (hier: Berlin, Germany)