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one thing about ik is that she will always reach out
#obey me#art#i had the idea for this and managed to bulldoze through drawing it all without losing motivation halfway through#but Do Not expect me to post art this frequently in future#idk how to do panels so if the middle bit with the text might be laid out weird#i added the stars and feathers and stuff because there was a bunch of empty space around the boxes#obey me satan#jtta ik#(btw the crumbling symbol next to the exploding feather is the wrath symbol from in-game)#(with the pride symbol attached upside down at the bottom)#(not so much symbolism as it is just me whacking you over the head with the point but it looks cool)#i had a lot of fun doing satan's more monstrous design so i might try my hand at some of the other demons later?#i do have some ideas for levi (deep sea creatures are just really fun)#also happy nightbringer release day!! it showed up on my homescreen like half an hour ago and i was like βwait whatβ#for some reason i thought it wasn't releasing til next week??#the new genshin patch is today as well so looks like i'll have plenty to do with the rest of my free time for the easter hols#(i promise i'm also working on the next chapter of jtta but i am so stuck on how to get lucifer actually Talking)#anyway. here's a gold star for making it through all my rambling in the tags for anyone who did so: β
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Doing master studies the only way I know how: Stealing them and making them my guys.
(Barberini Faun)
(The Fallen Angel - Alexandre Cabanel)
(Covent Garden - William Bruce Ellis Rankin)
#obviously. not actually theft...#i was gonna say these are public domain but covent garden actually isnt yet#it will be. in two years.#thats the most different one though like i added a whole new guy..#maybe not the most different. barberini faun is pretty different i just took the post#pose#its barely even a study. thats not true#but. what was i saying.#oh its not theft it's study... the purpose is to learn!!! but also. if im gonna spend like 2 days on something...#its GONNA be my guys#otherwise. idk. i only want to spend 30 or so minutes per study#just to get the notes down and the practice for the skill im working on#i dont get all that much more out of completely rendering a master study. PERSONALLY.#at least definitely not enough to be worth taking 100x longer#but making them my characters makes it worth going all the way!!!#plus it's good practice w like. not just going 1:1 but actually genuinely interpreting whats there so i can manipulate it...#again. personally. this is just how i worm#WORK#youd better worm bitch#uhm... anyways yeah. ive done lots of study but why TF share it LMAO i dont even save it#its just to learn. ive got 1 million other drawings to save and look at later.#once the learning is done it's done its job and i have no need anymore#this is why the only studies i have are from school. i had to save and upload them#well. ok also i dont study as much now BUT in my defense im a full time artist#an hour or so a week is different ok im learning while working too.. i learned how to learn and i do it all the time now#master studies#digital art#my art#illustration#my ocs
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The Fall Collection - Witch Vamp design thumbnails
#coming soon#will i actually make all of these in time for the initial collection release?#probably no#but we'll see#and whichever i end up setting aside for now I'll plan on coming back to later#I'm sure this collection will have more pieces added to it next year :3#witch vamp#the fall#the fall collection#wip#wips#work in progress#thumbnail#sketches#design#fashion#fall fashion#dark aesthetic#spooky season#skirts#joggers#indie fashion#fashion design#goth#gothic#alt fashion
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Here's a big post of some of my doodles of [Cap'n and crew] that I haven't posted yet! Couple are comics, couple are shitposts, you know how it goes.
(Also have some extra character tidbits beneath the cut!)
Cap'n (she/they) has become a Spongebob-adjacent "married to the job" type with sprinklings of "they are not immune to rose-tinted Company propaganda". Cartoonishly loyal to work, she's more upset about lying to the boss about her condition over actually becoming a monster on work time (though she isn't particularly a fan of being a monster, either).
Skeets (she/her) was already implied to be pretty optimistic and curious, but I've doubled down on this. She's constantly curious about entities and the state of her co-workers, asking questions and absorbing new information. She's also extremely lucky when it comes to encountering entities.
Mav (she/him), as implied by her nearly leaving Cap'n behind in the first comic, has become a "I won't hesitate, bitch" bitch. Split second decisions aren't an issue for her, she WILL shoot first and ask questions later. (She also now has a gambling addiction, haha. LOVES betting credits on things)
Kid (he/him) is now Irish. I will not elaborate. He's kind of literally the same otherwise. He's also in major inherited debt because of a Company-caused clerical error, but don't worry about it.
Uh. That's about it, I suppose!
#artists on tumblr#lethal company#lethal company oc#lethal company eyeless dog#eyeless dog#blind dog#werecreature#wereeyeless dog#eyeless weredog#I started adding to this draft back in the beginning of july gUHJNFKFD I'm really bad about posting my stuff#I thought about waiting till I finished up a DIFFERENT comic I'm working on rn but like. man whateverrrr it can be posted later#Anyways I've actually been drawing a lot of stuff with another friend's LC OC too! MAYBE those will get their own post later?#(Mav's voice has shifted to Linda Belcher's and Skeets to BMO from Adventure Time cause of their suggestions!)#(also for Kid... by major debt I mean like... a cool 1 million credits type of level of debt. maybe more. and it was The Company's fault)#they also all have canonical least favorite entities but I might make a sketch about that later hOILJKFD#I also have been quietly developing that were-kidnapper fox concept I posted about a while ago because. I'm? Predictable???#also also jsyk I love the maneater. I LOVE THEMMMMMM love them! ZEEKERS!! MAKE A MANEATER PLUSHIE AND MY LIFE IS YOURS!!#blood cw#capn tag#sfw#my draws
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A compilation of a few notes in no particular order written by two odd scholars found by the Traveler on their journey throughout Sumeru. Some of the words have been crossed out or lost to time, making them illegible.
Forgotten Note (found in the desert inside a huge Ruin Golem)
[A page torn from someone's notebook that seems to be hastily written and forgotten.]
... I can't believe what I've just witnessed. We spent DAYS traveling out here to the desert because Zandik wanted to tinker with that huge robot for ages. Me too of course, but that's not the point. Here he was just a few moments ago, brimming with excitement at being able to pilot it. It was cute...
... And then not even a minute later, he was hunched over, clutching his stomach and mouth. I was initially concerned, but he merely waved me off and began writing at the speed of light, still holding back the urge to throw up. And that's when I realized this fool was βββ-βββ...
... Zandik was going to give it one more go but I quickly stopped him. I wasn't about to have him getting sicker than he already was. Tried to fight me on it but he was dizzy enough to take himself out. He's currently grumbling at me in the corner, but he'll get over it...
... Silly man, he let me put his head on my lap while he rested. Good thing I packed some light snacks... but note to self: for the foreseeable future, don't let Zandik into any kind of transportation. Hopefully, he'll outgrow it one day though...
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Zandik's Note (found on the edge of Sumeru near Fontaine)
[A short note containing idle thoughts - the lack of importance may have caused it to be discarded.]
... There is an area in the desert that provides a clear and close view of the neighboring nation, Fontaine. [Name] insisted on showing me it as we happened to be close by...
... I'm not particularly interested in that land, but there are some things that may be worth looking into. [Name], however, wants to get academic leave to do some research there - more truthfully, they want to try out the macarons. How typical of them...
I suppose it's not the worst idea. They are an excellent partner, plus the extra βββ would be useful for my βββ research, and I'd make sure those people would never know...
... Regardless, there's no rush. Perhaps one day we can go...
β
[Name]'s Observation Log - Page 34-35 (found in the rainforest inside a tree hollow)
[A page torn from an observation log wedged deep inside a tree, preserving a little bit of its contents - it seems the writer wanted to hide it.]
... Day 1 of my first expedition with Zandik. Of course, every course comes with a dreaded group project but I am happy to be paired with him. Zandik, however, not so much. He's barely spoken to me the whole time. Well, he barely speaks to anyone in general, guess that's part of the reason other students refer to him as βββ βββ. But I literally live with him, don't I deserve some special privilege?...
... Day 2 of my first expedition with Zandik. I looked a bit at his notes last night so I could start drafting the research report, but then he snatched them away when he noticed. He's extra grumpy at me now. I wonder what kind of things he writes about...
... Day 3 of my first expedition with Zandik. We've gotten a lot of stuff done but he seems far more interested in βββ than looking at plants. There's this one ruin in the distance he keeps eyeing. I bet if I wasn't here, he'd be there. If I present him with a βββ βββ of each type, would he finally talk to me? Hmm, that'd be hard to hide from the sages though...
... Day 4 of my first expedition with Zandik. I lied and said there was a better spot to get samples and brought him to that ruin. Long story short and after a lot of annoyed Zandik later, we made it in. When the killing machines awakened, it seemed he had a bright idea and had begun instructing me to hit them in a very precise way. Well, he certainly knows how to use someone efficiently... After all of that, all of a sudden he had found his voice and began shooting off orders to fetch this tool or that textbook and so on. Never got a thank you but he compensated with some loud, excited mumbles...
... Day 5 of my first expedition with Zandik. Thanks to Zandik actually doing his share of the work, we finished the fieldwork quickly. I showed him what I had so far and he seemed pleasantly surprised, although his expression was still flat. As we worked, he wasn't as talkative as he was yesterday, but the silence wasn't awkward like before. Well, as long as I get paired with Zandik, I think I'll survive this semester, and it'll be a bonus if he warms up to me. Speaking of warming up to me, Zandik wants to come back to the ruin we went to yesterday - with me too!!!!! It'll be our little secret that no one will find out. I think I got on his good side a bit, he looks cute when he's smiling. His teeth are even sharper up close.....
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Nearly Torn Note (found inside an ancient book in the House of Daena)
[A small paper that has nearly been ripped in half, but some of the words are still cohesive.]
... I βββ them. Why are they here? I told them I did not need help, nor was I interested in assisting them. But they're here anyway. Of course they are. When are they not? Is there ever a moment when they're not constantly chirping in my ear? No, of course not. I'm βββ to live with them after all...
... With their βββ smell wafting through the dorm after a shower, or the scent of their cooking that they specially make βββ βββ...
... Their stupid voice is prattling away right now, and I βββ how I do βββ find it irritating. My mind seems to automatically βββ βββ anything their βββ mouth says...
... I found their touch repulsive, but now I βββ for them to...
... There is something wrong with βββ...
[At the bottom lays a tiny doodle of someone, presumably the person who occupied Zandik's mind, and has been intensely scratched off.]
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Collaborative Note (found in an old camp near the woods)
[An abandoned note that appears to be written by two people. The top half is messily written and smudged thanks to the large amount of ink spills and blots. The second half is neater but the writer seems to have given up.]
... My βββ is a βββ. Thanks to βββ help, we were able to acquire numerous βββ to help with the βββ βββ. Were it not for them, there could have been a great βββ in my βββ...
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...Alright, that's it. Zandik is banned from writing notes now. I'm drawing the line. I bought five pens with us, and he has broken four of them so far. It's barely been a few hours! I still don't know how he does it- okay well now he's tapping me impatiently to write down his thoughts. Best get on it before he breaks this one and starts using βββ as ink...
...After a series of βββ were conducted, it has been concluded that it may be βββ for a βββ βββ to be βββ-βββ. Wait... all the ink is on my hand now! And it smudged more!! Ugh!!!...
... I'm going to start forcing him to wear gloves... he's getting his inked hands all over me... at least we can shower βββ!...
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Paimon and the Traveler reviewed the notes they found contemplatingly - it was definitely not all of them, considering how hidden many of them were - but they found themselves oddly intrigued by the multitude of notes left by these two characters. Paimon was more interested in the love story part.
"You know, Paimon's not too sure... she's getting some mixed vibes from Zandik here... he seems kind of a big meanie to [Name] to be honest!" The Traveler watched in amusement as Paimon got grumpy on your behalf.
"... But he does seem to lighten up sometimes. Maybe he's not as bad as we think. Guess we can't piece together their relationships just from some notes, eh?"
"Well, Paimon thinks they seemed like a cute couple, well, minus for some things. Mostly, um... Zandik's oddness which you can't really excuse but I guess it's okay because they're long dead! Still, [Name] sure had strange taste in men..."
#smooches talks#dottore love notes <3#playable reader <3#dottore x reader#divider by cafekitsune#guess who got an A IN STATS AND 100 IN THE ACCOUNTING FINAL???!?! I LITERALLY JUMPED FOR JOY BC I DID NOT THINK THAT WAS POSSIBLE....#oki yea this semester ended better than i expected. i am content.#ps if yk me ill respond later. smooches must still go to work tmrw... and is eepy... my head and eyes actually hurt.#but still cooked this up bc i was excited to write this idea#they should have added more zandik notes!!!!! ik reader draws silly doodles on all of them and traveler is just like ??????
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can i just say. and this is probably a niche hill to die on. that i am so gobsmacked every time someone vaguely hints at the idea that jotaro doesn't care meaningfully for the other crusaders, usually particularly kakyoin and joseph, when those two actually tend to be the ones he reacts to being hurt the hardest
like he cares for his loved ones!!!! that literally plays into his character motives in every single part he shows up in!!! stop lying to me!!!!!!!
#me.txt#jjba#i'm going to ramble in tags actually. excuse me#ok. rereading sdc and so confused at the general perception of jotaro and his friends/family. he's not NEARLY as flat or as dickish#i understand that the anime (particularly the dub) tends to slander him but even then he still clearly cares for them! i'm confused#i also understand that a lot of people dig against jotaro and kakyoin as a dynamic because 'they're popular' and that generally disliking#popular things across media is a thing that i've seen consistently everywhere but the discredit to them simply as a DUO and not even as a#pairing is so..... odd..... like they're considered to be a duo that clicks for a reason. i enjoyed them even before i got into the fandom#every time i see someone say jotaro is overrated/dull i take a shot and assume they're an anime-only or only read the manga like once btw#joseph and jotaro also have a neat dynamic and they obviously both love and care for each other. like they're not going to go around loudly#or anything but literally the entirety of the lovers and the prelude to the dio fight IS jotaro being worked up over joseph getting hurt#equally i don't know if it translates to the anime as much but joseph is VERY complimentary when it comes to jotaro. like he sings his#praises so often and reminds everyone that he's his grandson so frequently (d'arby the gamer is a good example of this). either way it's so#peculiar....... there's not enough avdol and jotaro content btw (also in canon) because jotaro obviously looks up to him and avdol jokes#around with him on the occasion they interact after their intro which doesn't start very well. it's very cute#i do think an important thing to note about jotaro's character is how he acts AFTER his intro because he's so drastically different. early#jotaro and later jotaro aren't the same character and i do not mean this in a character development way. excluding the jail incident he's#completely different and probably shouldn't really be taken into account (especially considering the amount of slapstick in araki's intros)#and i think that's really???? what people center on for his character? Which sucks balls bad!#anyways. i could ramble more about this if asked i have so much to say but sigh. jotaro cares so much for his friends and family he's not a#flat fully cold asshole character regardless of whether you watch the anime or ova or read the manga. you just have poor media literacy#i wouldn't recommend watching solely the anime for his character though. the dub also changes a lot so it's... questionable#i love the anime and it's still important for him though. also adds neat stuff. i need to stop myself. i have many thoughts on the matter#jotaro kujo#joseph joestar#noriaki kakyoin#adding in case anyone sees: i am not saying that he is perfect about this. in fact he is very ass about it with jolyne and holly and that's#very important. he also is in fact an asshole sometimes. NOT as much as you guys are making him though!#please don't get me started on how much of a dick etc people make kakyoin to veer away from the 'woobified' characterizations of him#in fact i think that's bad if not worse because it CLAIMS to be in character. hes a prim asshole at times but not that angry or dishevelled
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In Time and Stars
#in stars and time#isat#siffrin#josh art tag#been wanting to practice less βliteralβ drawings....#like people doing a certain thing or being in a certain place or even just standing there#and instead do more like conceptual stuff?? idk how to word it#but i love doing stuff like this#and i feel like i havent done it in a while#i think last time i did was early in the year when i was still really into the Magnus Protocol#and was illustrating lines from each episode#some of which are my best performing art ever lol#i still remember my sibling telling me they had come across my art on their dash and later on their insta explore page#they had apologized since me and my sibs have an agreement to not search for or interact with each other online just for privacys sake#but i found it both funny and kinda insane#was not expecting my art to get big enough to find its way to that sib lol#uuuhhhhh anyway back on topic#ive had this idea of a siffrin illustration where either have their face or the back part of their head being a clock#and i tried a couple drafts in my sketchbook#and ended up liking this one! it had the addition of the shooting star and from then i toyed with the idea of adding the title text#i have another less literal piece for zelda that i wanna do#but i also wanna work on my isat animatic#....and i also wanna play stardew....#i need more hours in the day π
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till & clothing symbolism
this isn't anything awfully deep or profound, but i think it's a really interesting connection vivinos makes with till's clothing and his level of rebellion.
throughout (canon) alien stage, we always see till wearing long sleeves and occasionally fingerless gloves when he's outside of anakt garden.
he's shown to be in isolation, collared or leashed in one way or another, in specifically restrictive clothing. and though it's not like long sleeves are exactly restraining per say, it's the visual that matters. the way urak dresses him in everyday life is a visual representation of the control they put over him.
the only time (so far) we've ever seen till wear short sleeves is in round 2. r2, where he rebels against the rules and very principles of alien stage and sabotages his opponent by performing his own song and not letting him sing.
till is the freest we've ever seen him (aside from the meteor shower), unrestrained and proud of himself even when he's punished afterwards. it symbolizes his individuality and the decision he makes for himself in the round. to perform his own song, open up about his feelings for mizi, and guarantee his win despite his blatant rebellion.
but when we see him again in round 6 after mizi's disappearance, he's back to long sleeves and fingerless gloves.
he's lost his will, his fire to fight, and it's blatantly shown in his r6 outfit.
we also see him in long sleeves and a coat in the nightclub scene, and though he acts out he's still overpowered in the end.
his rumpled clothes, while signifying something else entirely (that i won't talk about), are also a testament to his attempt to fight back. one of his sleeves is hanging off his shoulder but it's still on, showcasing the fact that even though he rebelled he ultimately didn't succeed.
on the bright side, till is wearing a tank top in round 7.
i can't say any more but his outfit for the round is confirmed on patreon to be a tank. so, his outfit visibly surpasses that of his round 2 outfit. his freedom at an all time high, his rebellion as strong as ever. judging by the till all-in cover and the fact that the r7 promo says he 'has nothing to lose', i'm really hoping we'll get to see till put it all on the line.
#love this little detail that was added in. i LOVE little pieces of symbolism#alnst till#till alien stage#alien stage#alnst#alien stage round 7#alnst meta#cast's analyses#id do more actual analysis but i have to get ready for work rip. maybe later
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M I K U
#hatsune miku#this was an older doodle from five ever ago tat i tried to fix up a couple months ago and it was mostly finished#i just added a few extra things today but did most of the work like months ago just idk didnt fix it up any more till today so here she is#:3#miku#vocaloid fanart#vocaloid#blood#blood tw#art#should i have made her hair more blue? it stupposed to be like a muted gray blue but idk how much that comes across lol#maybe ill fix it more later but lol#vocaloid art#art work#digital art#illustration#fanart#hatsune miku fanart#artists on tumblr
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if i stop making furry ocs, i need to be put down
what do people think of these curious critters?
#my art#furry#furry sfw#fursona#furry art#2023#fur#furry anthro#these were so fun to work on#i kind of want to flesh out a story for them#but i got to design the characters a little more#got to play character design toys#adding these tags later! i came up with a name for this project now#Venio Venari#oc: francis#oc: tail
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Got bored and decided to do a redraw since I haven't done one in a while! Super proud of it since i went through hell at the begging of it <33
the og image [the commercial video on the awayfrompryingeyes website]
#I think i should had added more line work on it but oh well! always a next time!#Besides i got another image of him from that same video i wanna redraw#but that can wait till later#im tired for now-#eddie dear#welcome home eddie dear#eddie dear fanart#eddie welcome home#welcome home#welcome home fanart#welcome home arg
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Pennyyy :]<3
Character belongs too hoofpeet
Speedraw under cut :]
Had to cut out a bit of the beginning because it flashed to much I hate that ibis does that but otherwise the general flash warning for speedraws it's goin quick
#hrmmmm#hoofology#<- shes from there#aaouhhee this was so funnn i accidentally gave her a cigarette but i think she's allowed#if i draw her again i hope to get her more accurate i thunk i fucked up the horns placement here#kinda messy render but im beginning to think thats just how i work#shes so prettyyyy i need to draw her again later#+ added speedraw in edit#looking at my reference photos a feel a little stupid miss placing her horns
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seeing ppl go "lol jonathan why are you admitting you found them hot what will mina think of you when she reads it!!!" has me go "*shakes you* you are going against the thesis of the book!!!"
I know some of why is dependent on knowledge of future events, and so people new to Dracula Daily won't be aware of it. But to be honest, Jonathan admitting his attraction to the vampire ladies is so, so important to me. On several different character levels, even outside of the entire book proving over and over again that sharing knowledge is absolutely vital (and is also an expression of deep love/trust/support).
Let's just stick the quote in here for reference:
There was something about them that made me uneasy, some longing and at the same time some deadly fear. I felt in my heart a wicked, burning desire that they would kiss me with those red lips. It is not good to note this down, lest some day it should meet Mina's eyes and cause her pain; but it is the truth.
Firstly - he needs to keep an accurate record. This is his only place to speak freely, his only opportunity to be precise about what he is going through. It is vitally important for him to keep his sanity intact that he be clear and try to remain logical in this diary. We see him fact-checking again and again. We can extrapolate from other statements that he doesn't always mention everything he suspects unless he feels it relevant or possible to prove. For example, repeatedly noting Dracula himself doing things before ever getting around to voicing the theory that the Count has no servants (he collected evidence first, didn't speak his suspicions until they were proven). Or putting the crucifix above his bed and taking the opportunity to sleep elsewhere, thus pointing to feeling unsafe and possibly experiencing bad dreams in his own room (he mentioned what he does about it, but not the feeling on its own or whatever nightmares he may be having). Jonathan works very hard to keep his diary focused on a few things above all: what the Count/ladies are, what everyone does, what Jonathan observes or learns, his actionable plans. He of course expresses his fears and emotions at times in his diary, more than he can out loud, but never going all the way down the rabbithole of fear, hopelessness, etc. He tries to calm himself by sticking to facts (all the harder when something strange is happening), which is in itself a soothing process for him so that's helpful too. His goal is to make this diary useful to himself and to others, if he ever gets the chance to share it. There is a goal here.
And what that means, is that the things Jonathan writes in great detail are things that feel relevant to him. The entire encounter with the vampire ladies was extremely important. It revealed a ton of new information to him, as well as being a truly horrifying and traumatic thing to go through. Jonathan's feelings are as relevant as his observations/actions here, because both are directly affected by the presence of the vampire women. Jonathan can't move. He feels dreamy. He feels attracted to them. He cannot resist and in the moment a large part of him didn't even want to. These are all effects they are causing, at least to some extent. I know mileage can vary a lot on how much of Jonathan's attraction is just coming from him, but honestly, I can't agree with any version that doesn't have a natural attraction at the very least being exacerbated by supernatural vampire abilities somehow. If not caused or called forth by them in the first place. The way he narrates, with so much obvious fear and revulsion mixed in with the desire, makes that clear to me. He sounds like he doesn't fully understand his own feelings at the time, at least where they all came from or why they were so strong. It goes along with all the other symptoms he is experiencing, and the other abilities they demonstrate. And so, to keep his record accurate - it has to go in. He cannot leave it out. It might become very relevant later.
Secondly - Jonathan is honest with Mina, specifically. I love this about their relationship. I don't think it's so much 'I noticed they were attractive' that he fears might hurt her, because Mina isn't particularly shy herself about noticing both women and men as good-looking, and even admiring their looks while on a date with Jonathan (poor Pretty Girl in Piccadilly). He also called local women pretty in his first entry as well (though he did say "except when you got near them" so it felt a bit backhanded to me), so again it's not the noticing that's an issue either way. It's more that he felt actual desire to act on an attraction, or rather for them to act. This is unusual, this is a separate matter from noticing people are hot, this is something that comes much closer to cheating or at least wanting to, and he feels very guilty about it. There's no real sense that he is worried Mina will be angry at him, and there's no sense that he will ever outside of that one moment ever want to act on any attraction he feels for someone other than Mina (or someone Mina also approves of, varying depending on your polycula headcanons). I personally do kind of tend to view Jonathan as some form of demisexual so how much he even tends to feel attraction to other people is often a little wibbly to me, but that's kind of irrelevant for the point of this. We can also set aside the shared language of "kiss" between Jonathan and the vampire ladies, and how this may point to a desire to become available for being drunk from, rather than necessarily sexual desire specifically, even if that's the type of language used. With regards to Mina: he's not worried about being caught, because he is choosing not to hide. He feels bad talking about the attraction because it might hurt her feelings, but he'll admit to it regardless because it's more important to him to be honest with her. Jonathan hates hiding things from Mina. This actually becomes plot-relevant later on. Even when she herself expressly forbids him from telling her stuff, he feels anguished about it and is certain to ensure that records are kept which she can read later. He trusts her completely. Embarrassment, shame, bad behavior, or whatever else - he will still share that with her. The only times he doesn't confide in Mina are when he's trying to repress everything because he thinks he was crazy (and possibly may even have some PTSD-related memory loss as well), or when he and the other men are trying to make sure she isn't exposed to danger (which is wrong in several ways but this post isn't about that so I won't get into it), and of course when she tells him not to. Every single time he feels upset about it. So yeah, he's going to regret that she may feel hurt, but deliberately hiding things from her would be worse.
Thirdly - Jonathan admitting his attraction here is a huge comfort to Mina later on. I truly believe this. I've talked about it before actually, but let me try to rephrase a bit to keep it on the same post. By being open about his own attraction and experience with nearly being drunk from, he provides precedent for Mina's October 3rd trauma. It makes it easier (though obviously still not easy) for her to admit to the same kind of desire:
"I was bewildered, and, strangely enough, I did not want to hinder him. I suppose it is a part of the horrible curse that such is, when his touch is on his victim."
Mina never blamed Jonathan for expressing such thoughts. She wasn't concerned about the issue being another woman when she came to him in the hospital, and when she read his diary she never mentioned any hesitations or misgivings about this scene at all. But even if she had secretly felt upset before (I personally don't see her thinking that way at all, but for the sake of argument), I think that experiencing something similar would make her grateful for Jonathan's candor. In a moment when she's already feeling deeply unclean and complicit, Jonathan's earlier honesty here relieves her from a little bit of the guilt she is feeling. It lets her recognize her own lack of desire to stop Dracula as something he did to her, just like Jonathan experienced with the vampire ladies when he couldn't/didn't want to move away. It's possible even that Mina felt more explicit desire for Dracula's 'red lips to kiss her' but didn't feel comfortable saying quite that much - even if so, again Jonathan's account would be a comfort.
And having that account written down long ago means she has already internalized this. If Jonathan had kept it hidden only to try and ease her mind later, well... first off, Mina too might have kept her reaction hidden out of guilt. And even if she didn't or he told her then, a confession at that time wouldn't mean nearly as much or carry the same kind of weight, I don't think. It would feel like he's making excuses for her, like he didn't trust her enough to tell her earlier, just... bad stuff mixed in, which are all avoided by having Jonathan be truthful from the start.
#dracula daily spoilers#dracula daily#jonathan harker#mina murray#jonmina#anonymous#replies#my meta#sorry anon i feel like you were wanting to talk more about the 'sharing is caring' thesis so to speak#but this is where my thoughts went for now#obviously also though the book demonstrates again and again that concealing the truth (whether well-meant or not) is NOT HELPFUL#that trust is demonstrated via laying oneself emotionally bare and GIVING INFORMATION even when it isn't in your favor#that dracula specifically thrives on confusion and hidden fear and a lack of communication and that the key to his defeat#is to work together. to show love through being open about everything that is happening to you no matter how shameful or scary#to support one another. and to admit when you need support.#sorry i probably shoulda added a readmore. didn't think about it till later
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No. Ymir did not know a Ludwig.
A little Christmas gif(t) for @tarnishedbloodhound based on their fics and OCs π
Stills under the cut~
#i decided on adding the little manuscript style illustrations later and i love them!#it was certainly an idea that kept snowballing though#but also thinking about doing more in this medieval style now π€#elden ring#count ymir#my work#elden ring shadow of the erdtree#elden ring dlc#shadow of the erdtree#elden ring sote#sote#elden ring art#tarnished oc#elden ring tarnished#caria manor#really really hoping the gif works. like its fine in drafts but it gave me so much trouble i am scared lmao#π€π»π€π»π€π»π€π»π€π» please work and please do not let me notice any fuck ups after the fact#lmao editting this to say i got an error message after posting it and i almost shrieked#but it was fine π
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Smol made me this absolutely wonderful Pokefusion for my birthday this year, look at how beautiful:
We named it together - itβs a Sableep β₯
#Doodles#Pokemon#Pokemon Fusion#Sableye#Mareep#Pokemon Homestyle#Percy#I don't have a smol tag! :000 Which is funny because I have shared her art before#She said she wasn't planning to post it herself so I asked if I could and she said yes <3 Isn't is gorgeous!!! Ah!!!!#She knew I'd been planning a Pokemon party for ages - I told her pretty early on because I was very excited about it haha#It didn't quite come together how I'd hoped but with everything... Anyhow not the point#The point is she knew and she made this on theme and she knows Sableye and Mareep are two of my favourite 'Mons ahhh <3 <3 So sweet <3#She also made a Mareye sketch and it too is adorable hehehe <3#''Mareye had a little Sableep βͺ'' Doesn't Quite work with the syllables haha but it's still funny to me#What a lovely design ahhh didn't she do such a wonderful job with it <3 The crystalline horns and tail!! Inspired! β₯#She shaped the fur pointedness off Sableye's elbow spikes which looks so cool <3 I couldn't help my love of rounded fluff haha#I also added hoof-claws but Mareep's feet and legs are all the same huh! :0 Crystal claws would look so cool tho ahhh#The shinies are sooo cute <3 <3 Purple-to-pink sheep and the gold-and-green from Sableye ahhh <3 <3 And the classic Mareep colours!#Such a stunner <3 She's so cool β₯βͺ#Very inspiring! Obviously! Haha βͺ Cute little fellow to draw! :D#And also snuck in a bit of Percy since it's been a bit since I last doodled them :) Still a cute lad there!#They're not into Sableep lol more for the rest of us! Maybe they'll come around to it later haha#Cute little lads ahhh <3
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eight years, once again
hi i was reading through the prompts on this list and got some inspiration, so i wrote 1k of, you guessed it, hurt/comfort skk.
i didn't really feel like expanding any more on it or polishing it up more so i'm just going to share it here for now <3 please enjoy
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It was dark outside, that much Chuuya knew. Which was bad. The Port Mafia operated in the darkness, after all, letting themselves move in the shadows and the brief glimpses of moonlight in the night.
Everything hurt, Chuuya knew that too. It was as silly a thought as any other because of course it hurt. It had hurt the first time, too, and Chuuya had been foolish to think that this time would be any different.
It really did seem like eight years was the limit that people could deal with him before deciding he would always be a bigger threat than he was worth. Whenever he started to think on his own, whenever he asked too many questions, whenever he did something for himself⦠that was when he was no longer worth the trouble.
And if eight years was the limit then Chuuya was making a mistake now. It had been eight years for him, too, but Chuuya didn't know where else to go.
He didn't bother knocking, his fingers pulling the paperclip from his pocket and jamming it into the door's lock with finesse born only from hours and hours of practice followed by years and years of well-used muscle memory. The door swung open into a tiny apartment that was barely more than one room, a kitchen only halfway separated from the rest of the living space and a bathroom tucked into the corner by the closet.
And laying on his futon in the middle of the floor was Dazai.
"Oh?" Dazai said curiously, turning his head with a fake smile and even faker surprise in his eyes. As though he hadn't heard Chuuya's feet on the stairs, hadn't heard the lock being picked. "Is there something I can help you with, Chuuya?"
Chuuya wanted to scoff at the irritating lilt in his voice or the patronizing tone he used. He wanted to smack him and say as if you could ever be of any help. But the truth wasβ
"Dazai," Chuuya gasped, voice a broken thing, taking one wobbling step into the room and shutting the door behind him. The surprise in Dazai's eyes turned real as he sat up, eyes finally taking Chuuya in for the first time. Chuuya knew already how he looked: clothes torn, gloves and hat missing, blood shining through in the low lamplight in more places than Chuuya could care to remember right now, bruises lining his wrists, his neck, his face. "IβI didn'tβ"
Dazai shushed him and rushed over to catch him when he tripped over his feet trying to take another step closer. "What happened?"
"I didn't know where else to go," Chuuya said, ignoring Dazai's question for now. His voice hurt, the bruises on his neck probably deep enough to be hurting his vocal cords as well. Dazai's arms wrapped around his back, supporting most of his weight, and Chuuya had never been more grateful than he was in that moment. "I don't have anywhere else to go," he whispered into Dazai's chest.
"Okay. Come on, come sit down and let me look at the damage." Dazai had to halfway carry him to the futon on the floor, helping Chuuya ease down onto the ground before turning to grab a first aid kit from under his kitchen sink. When he returned there was a pain in his eyes that Chuuya wasn't sure he had ever seen before. "What happened?" he asked again as he started to pull at what remained of Chuuya's shirt and vest.
Chuuya did his best to help him, shrugging out of the material with a hiss before speaking, his voice still raspy, "Apparently my use as a member of any organization only buys me eight years."
Dazai froze in his movements, giving a startled glance up to Chuuya, before starting to move again with very intentional motions. "What does that mean?"
"The Sheep found me when I was seven," Chuuya said, as though Dazai wasn't already aware of this information. "They betrayed me when I was fifteen. Eight years."
He stopped there and waited.
"You joined the Port Mafia at fifteen," Dazai continued, pausing again in his movements to look into Chuuya's eyes. He lookedβangry, maybe. Resigned.
Chuuya felt a mournful smile cross his face. Dazai's eyes darted down to take in the expression and his eyebrows pinched in. It was obvious Dazai already knew what Chuuya would say next, but he couldn't help but say it anyway. "I'm twenty-three and they betrayed me, too. Eight years."
"Chuuyaβ¦" Dazai's voice was quiet between them, barely a whisper as he took in the battered remains of his former partner. Chuuya let him look because really, what else could he do? "They must really not like you very much to treat you like this."
"I let them," Chuuya said. When Dazai glared in confusion, he explained. "If I had fought back and run immediately, they would have sent people out to find me right away. I told Tachihara and Hirotsu to make it hurt. That way maybe I could have until the morning."
"They probably sent people right away anyway," Dazai sighed. "And I don't doubt that Mori will send them here first."
"I know."
"Then why, Chuuya?" Dazai's voice wasβif Chuuya didn't know better, he would maybe say concerned. Possibly even exasperated. Almost as an afterthought, Dazai added, "I thought I was supposed to be the suicidal one."
It wasn't a funny joke, but Chuuya felt the corner of his mouth turn up anyway. "You once told me that you had considered asking me to run with you," he said. The words still hurt to remember, how easily Dazai had whispered them in a rare moment of peace between them. One of the few times they had ever allowed themselves to be exposed that way. And what had hurt worse was knowing that Dazai had thought of him back then and had still left him behind. "I told you then that I would have said yes."
Again, he stopped and waited.
He could see the words spinning around in Dazai's head as he tore through them with a fine-toothed comb. He watched as his former partner wrapped a bandage around his arm and checked over the words for any and every possible meaning before catching onto what Chuuya wasn't saying. Or was saying.
"The light would suit you," Dazai told him with a slow smile. Chuuya returned it.
"Now I just need someone with an obnoxiously overpowered brain to tell me how to reach it."
#im sure if i wanted to i could work on this more and make a proper ada!chuuya story out of it#but for now i am just gonna share it and maybe it'll rotate in my brain later who knows#bsd#bungo stray dogs#bsd fanfic#chuuya nakahara#bsd chuuya#dazai osamu#bsd dazai#skk#soukoku#dazai x chuuya#im not adding it but please imagine chuuya then asking dazai if he has fyodor's number teasingly#and dazai smacking the injury he just wrapped up lightly in retaliation#fanfic#shh ac#americancanada
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