#more thoughts. later. its like 2am lmfao

[aberfaeth]

i hope we get to eat ice cream and cast magic forever.

[whatshethinks]

What happened?

BUT OK, MONDAY NIGHT AROUND 7pm - he picked me  up at KFC Marisol and then I got him fries and burger. And he was like whaaat you didnt hafto! I was like i know its cool

And then we got into his car, and he was all giddy and I was too, definitely. And then, I hand fed him fries and he was shooketh. And then I was like jeez, just eat it already. Hahaha! Tapos ayun he got used to me handfeeding him the fries and shit.

Then I was like hey where are you taking me (eh before when he was back in Cali, we talked about how I  had a dream about him and I having sex at Clark, CDC parade grounds) and he was like Im taking us to CDC HAHAHAHA

And then otw to Clark, I was asking him questions about his life like who he lives with in Cali, if he prefers his mom than his dad HAHAHA

So he was answering them, okay. Happily. So i kept going. Once we got to CDC, we just had parked car conversations. And we was eating fries (he's conscious about his diet so he tries so hard not to eat as many fries) and then while I was talking and singing he would just stare at me. Dead ass serious like stare like SEXY stare, like IM GOING TO  KISS YOU NOW stare.

Ofc I was a tease, so I came close to his face and said "what are you doing?" in a sexy voice (at least I thought it was sexy) and then he was brushing my face and hair with his fingers

Okay so! THE STARE. That fucking stare, was so fucking sexy and shit I can cum just by his stare. Ive never had someone stare at me that way before.

So he was staring at me! And I was wearing this baggy  knitted sweater from H&M and while he was staring, I was lowkey tryna make the sleeves fall off my shoulder like the slut I am. So his californian ass was like: damn mami

And then, I was singing Ivy - Frank Ocean, cause thats what was playing. And he suddenly kissed me. And we started making out you know, and he was grabbing my tits and shit, thank god they grew. And then he was like "oh my god" I was like "hehe what, why?"

And then, I got all heated up. I took off my sweater! And I was wearing a bra and jeans only by this time, and he was like "fuck, you're so hot" and then he would bite his lips and stop and just stare at my tits. Like as if they're the biggest tits he's ever seen. Validation right there for me!

And then, things are getting heated. He was trying to remove my pants, I said "adrian" and he would get his hands off immediately off me. Which was n extra turn on! Cause damn, I like me a good boy too mamas. And then I was kissing his neck. He smelled so good. And thats not even the best part of his body yet.

I went and touch his peepee, and then damn. That shit was hard as fuck and LONG... So I was like "oh my god" under my breath. And he removed them shorts immediately.

When he removed them, I was like "fuckkkkkk" cause jesus christ. I dove my mouth into that dick real quick!

His groin smells so good. Like every corner and inch. Which is so hard to believe cause he didn't come from his house, he came from a fucking funeral with his friends for fucks sake. How does it smell so good. So ofc, I had to show him my skills. My god, I sucked that dick for so long my jaw almost locked. Long story short, he didn't cum. He face fucked me while standing upin the car (thank you, Toyota Innova for having a huge ass space inside) and then I deepthroated without a doubt.

And then, he wanted to fuck - "wanna get a room?"

Me: Not yet, be patient Adrian: Fine baby

After a few mins, he tried to squeeze my butt but my ass small so barely squeezed anything. But thats okay.

And then I had to remind him I was on my period. He was like "Oh shit I totally forgot about that"

- We were smoking weed too on the drive to Clark, like the vape pen whatever you had before.

And then oh my god, honest to god the way he kisses me was so good. He would hold my face and squeeze my mouth with his hand and just fucking eat my whole face. And god, if someone was taking a video of it - they would have came.

It was the best kiss I've ever had. And then we'd take pauses after a few minutes. And I lied down on his chest and just feel his chest and arms and tattoos. And then, he would trace his fingers on my back and hair and give me FUCKING SMOOCHES.

R O M A N T I C!

So thats the fucking signal I picked up right? Cause who the fuck gives smooches to someone you just wanna fuck??!

Smooches are for "I wanna keep seeing you you adorable slut" not "I will hit you up only when Im horny"

So i was so gooey with all the smooches and the finger tracing and shit. I was rubbing his chest. And all that ROMANCE shit!

After a while, we decided to order takeout from Mcdonalds. And then, I offered to pay. He was like:

What are you doing? Let's half What are you thinking? Stop!!! Put that back

So he grabbed my wallet and fucking threw that shit back in my bag and said

Wag ka maglalabas ng pera pag kasama mo ko

So of course I went all soft and shit, once again!

While we were waiting for our takeout, I hand fed him fries again with caramel sundae this time. He was like "Im more of a chocolate sundae guy" but he still ate. Then he ate his burger. And then it was so cute cause the servers from McDonalds came out to deliver our food, and there were two of them... and they were all giggling and shit when they handed the 1 pc of burger and giggling when they left too.

I was like, "oooh they like you" He was like "they didnt have to go in pairs when they gave us this burger naman diba" I was like "they probably like you"

I wish I could say, thats my boyfriend.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Then he started sharing his life story back in the Philippines. Where he did a feeding program for his birthday 2 years ago and shit. How he got that trait from his mom and all. How he would do that again after a year. Then he dropped me off at Marisol, the gate at the kanto where you have to enter. I didnt let him drop me off at my house per se.

Then while I was fixing my stuff, he was like are you sure you're okay to walk home? I was like, yeah Im a big girl.

And he laughed, and was like "come here baby" and was gesturing a hug. So he hugged and fucking GAVE. ME. SMOOCHES. AGAIN.

I texted him at 6am to ask if I left my brella in his car. And then he replied at almost 2pm. When I saw that he was online at like 12pm (Facebook). But I brushed it off. Then, his message was dry as usual.

He acknowledged my head and I said we'd transfer to Telegram cause Im at work, but it was just small talk like I asked him when is he gonna pick his dog up downtown so I can meet his dog, Samson. He was like, "Ill def let you meet him, imma take him to CDC some time and you can come with"

And then, I was like Ill look forward to that and shit

And I sent a meme, and he just said "that is me" and I didnt reply na.

I texted him when I got out of work, you know - lowkey dropping hints and shit. And he replied 4 hours later. I just assumed he's with his friends

We talked during dinner and while I waited for his reply, I slept at 12am. And then he replied at 2am. And then I woke up at 5:30am for work, and he said "aga mo nagigising" and I said yeah and he was like "hatid kita sa work" and shit, but as the good girl and angel that I am, I said "No, pahinga ka nalang"

Then when I got out of work again, I asked him where he was at. And he said he just woke up but he was online for hours before that on Facebook. And he had plans with his family for his cousin's birthday and I was like oh okay.

And he said, puntahan kita mamaya? Ofc my heart went oops! Hahaha.

Okay I waited from 6pm to 9pm for him, and I was so tiired and sleepy already and when we met I was like I deserve an apology and he was like, matagal ba? Shet sorry talaga. Sinurprise pa kasi namin cousin ko.

And I was like, yeah a bit but its fine, tulugan nalang kita haha.

And then, I was so tired I couldnt think of a convo. So I asked him where he was planning to take me, and he said, up to you. I was like, anywhere.

And we ended up in a motel LOL. Like jesus christ, how can I say no now.

We got in the motel room, and oh, I forgot to mention on the way to the motel - I told him I got him a gift, cause his bday was on Sept 24th and he was like "OH MY GOD WHAT ARE YOU DOINNNNNNNNN, WHY DID YOU DO THAT"

He was prolly thinking I got him a watch or something like a scrapbook, LMFAO.

Then when we got to the motel, I gave him my gift, which was weed. I was like, I picked those up from the streets. And he was like "oh shiiiiit, you didnt have to" I was like, I know it no biggie.

Then he was like, "shit babyyyy, thank you"

And then we lied down and I was wearing a mini skirt and sweater. And he saw skirt go up and he was like "oh fuck" and then we made out and then I removed my sweater, and bra he was like "oh my god"

And then he slipped my panties to the side, and oof I liked that very much, thank you. And then, from missionary, we went to doggy. And then he was like - can I cum inside, and I didnt hear him the first time and the second time, so the third time, he was like "can. i cum. inside?" and I said, oh yeah go.

"are you sure?" "Yes haha"

and then he fucking did, it was so hot.

The sex is not as good as Kyle, as well as the dick feels. Ya know!? Hahaha but I dont mind.

and then I went to pee and I showed him my underwear with his cum on it LMFAO. And then he was like shookth

And then, we watched Rick and Morty for a while and then he turned the TV on and then in the movie, there was a funeral. And he switched it off, we ended up watching 1 ep of Brooklyn 99 and then we sang the intro of B99 together, unscripted. How cute was that. Cute as fuck.

Then you know how high people laugh, theyre just like "he.he.he" that was our laugh all through out the episode. HAHAHAHA we cute as fuck.

Then someone called him, a guy. I was assuming it was his cousin or something. Asking him what time he'll be home and where he's at.

Ever since then, he felt so uneasy. And off... I was making out with him, he was hard but it would just die. We were blaming the aircon LMFAO, and then I was like hey its okay. So we ended up spooning instead and he was playing with my titties and then, we tried again. And then, he got hard and died again. He was like "fuckkk so sorry baby, I've never had this problem before haha idk why its acting up right now"

I was like hey its okay, so I gave him head. And we started trying again, then ayun after a few mins. He was able to cum, and he came on my pussy naman.

We cuddled after cleaning up, and then he was staring into space, I was like whats wrong? You okay?

Yeah I am, why whats wrong? Ikaw ok ka lang?

Me: Yeah Im okay, you seem off lang

Adrian: No, wala wala. Dont mind me..

Me: Aww, its gonna be okay.

Adrian: De kasi, kanina sa movie may nakita akong coffin... naaala ko sya (his bestfriend who died whos the reason why hes back in the PH)

Me: oh shit, sorry.

And then he was like, no its okay... And then I was like you wanna bounce na ba?

Adrian: Ok lang ba? Kasi I actually have to go.

Me: What, of course its okay. I get it!

A: You sure ha? Feel ko galit ka...

Me: What, noo come  here. *kissed*

A: Sorry talaga

Then we checked out

The trip back home was awkward but we kissed goodbye and shit. And then the awkward texts came.

also forgot to mention, I asked why didnt he cum on my face and he was like: well I still wanted to kiss you after (:

[brotatochip]

Omfg tell me more about the kidnapping story

ALriGHty then FriEnd. Here we go. So I live in California generally by San Francisco, but this summer I flew to Montana (If you’re not from the US, it’s about 2000 miles away, right below Canada) by myself to spend 6 weeks with my extended family that I rarely get to see. So It was like August 1st or whatever, it was a tuesday. And let me clarify, Montana is like the 3rd biggest state or some shit but it is literally Cowboy™Hell™. Their capital city Helena (where we were might I add) only has a population of 31,169. Now, I cant speak for all of y’all reading this, but that is small as fuck. I’m not gonna tell you where I live, but the population of my SMALL city is 84,950. AND MY CITY IS TINY. Like binch get some people. Anyways,,, so I was staying with my cousin Mackenzie and we told her literal trash piece of a mom that we were going to stay the night at her friend Olivia’s house. So we went to Olivia’s and did our makeup and fucked around and decided we wanted to go out. So where do you go when you’re in  Cowboy™Hell™ with population of 31,169? Walmart. So at this point when we are done fucking around and gettin ready and shit, its like 10pm. No matter where you are in the world, all Walmarts are the same. e v e r y w h e r e. When you step into a Walmart you get that feeling and it’s what keeps the world together. So when we go to Walmart, we literally fuck around there for like an hour, and we get some Rockstar energy drinks bc what’s more suspicious than 3 teenagers,, one with bright ass dyed red hair (me,,),,, buying a bottle of chemicals to consume at 11pm,, :)) So let me clarify, there is a “city”-wide curfew from 11pm to 5:30am,, and my cousins terrible excuse of a mom doesnt know we are out. So we leave walmart and we just chill in Mackenzie’s (cousin) car deciding wtf we should do. And then we remember, we know someone with a cute ass dog. This dog is literally the cutest dog anyone has ever seen, not even exaggerating. She is like a 6 week old Australian shepherd mix and she looks like the physical embodiment of if Trump got impeached (the literal best thing in the world). So this chick who owns this dog let’s us come meet her so we can like pet sit the dog for the night. So obviously, we go get this dog,, i mean,,,,, who wouldn’t want to be with the cutest dog  e v e r. So we go get this dog and we were just chillin and talking to the girl for a while so now its like 12am. So now there’s just 3 suspicious looking teenagers with literally nothing to do in  Cowboy™Hell™. And now we have a dog. So let me tell you about Olivia real quick. She has been living off energy drinks for the last 3 years, she’s not the BIGGEST fan of the dog (for some reason..), and her life goal is to go take pictures on all of the statues in  Cowboy™Hell™ with a population of 31,169. And thats what we go to do. We drive downtown and take this cute ass puppy who is no bigger than a football and we start walking around downtown. Now,, as much as I love this dog, I said we probably shouldn’t take it because she can’t walk for that long,, but no,, Kenzie wanted to take her,, So we did. So we walk around with this cute ass dog downtown at like 1am with no one else there and no form of protection,, i know,,,,, smart. In Cowboy™Hell™, there’s a large statue of a propeller on top of a small hill in like the middle of downtown. So we all start walking up this hill so Olivia can achieve her life goal,, well the dog was getting tired or something because it kept like stopping on it’s way up. So Olivia and I went up the hill to the propeller while Kenzie stayed with the dog and tried to get it to come. About 2 minutes after we went up the hill,, Kenzie came running up to the top holding the dog and saying “dude there’s a guy coming up the hill”,, none of us actually thought this was fucking terrifying bc there’s just some random ass guy at 1am,,, but we are all antisocial fucks so obviously talking to him was what we were worried about. But just as Kenzie told us, we saw the guy which freaked tf out of her because she said he would have had to RUN,,,, to be that close to us that soon. So you know when you’re chasing your sibling and theres one of you on each side of the table or the couch or whatever? yeah,,,, that’s what we did with this guy,.. We attempted to ‘hide’ behind the propeller (it was literally the most pathetic thing i’ve ever done, we were all laughing and joking like “oh fucc he’s probably a murderer lmao” (as we needed to be fucking quiet) and as he walked by he said something but none of us know what he said. it was really short but idk. So he went into this tunnel that’s filled with graffiti that’s literally right behind the propeller statue and then we actually had some logic and were like o shit we should probably go,,,,,, so we all like ran down the other side of this hill,, and let me remind you,, we are still holding this goddamn dog,, that i said we shouldn’t take.. We were all laughing like omg we are gonna get raped lmfao (which we shouldnt joke about but some creepy ass dude just walked by us at 1:30 am like tf). So we were just chillin and then we notice, this guy started walking down the hill. Towards us. Now we are actually creeped the fuck out and we starting to think like oh shit is this guy actually following us,, so we start walking away, making sure to keep looking at him to see if hes still following us. Okay, sidenote; I currently have a balloon tied to my wrist (i found it while climbing statues earlier), I am holding a book that we also found, Olivia is holding the dog because the puppy can’t run with us, and Kenzie is holding a book and Olivia’s energy drink. It’s 1:30 am in the middle of  Cowboy™Hell™ population 31,169 and some guy is now following us. But we wanted to make sure he was following us, so we went around a building and he also went around us, confirming that he is indeed,, a complete psychopath. So we run around the building to the other side and we check to see if he’s still there. Also,, this  e n t i r e  time, we only ever saw him walk. He never ran. Which lowkey made it even MORE fucking terrifying. So me, having common sense, think O SHIT, THERE’S SOME RANDOM ASS GUY FOLLOWING US IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT,, WE SHOULD PROBABLY CALL THE COPS,,,,, mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm,,,,,,,,, nah.. that idea was shut down immediately when Olivia brought up, the curfew. Hmmmmm,,,,, face parents or get raped/murdered????,,,,, obviously the latter. So now it’s probably 2am. At this point, we start to worry a bit, and by ‘worry a bit i mean start freaking the fuck out. Like, we could legitimately die depending on what this guy’s intentions were. Without Kenzie or I even noticing, Olivia picks up a rock in case she needs a weapon,,, like a rock would protect against a gun or knife or some shitt,,, but its okay. And while all of this is happening,,,,,,,,,, we are still holding this cute ass dog. So we decided we need to GO. But the guy is between us and the car. So we run across the street and hide in this little area in the trees. He sees us and starts walking down the MIDDLe of the street.  Creepy as FUCK. So we start running,, with my balloon, two books, an energy drink and a puppy. We ran to this old walking street thing that goes uphill, and they have a bunch of historical buildings or something. We can see the first building has like a back yard so we hop the stone fence and hide back there. I put my balloon on the doorknob to the building so that it wouldn’t fly away, and the guy couldn’t see where we were (ik,, smart af). We set the dog down and take a few moments to chill and breathe and think about what we are gonna do. This building is right on the street and right across from a park, so olivia tries to go look and see if the guy is still there, and she accidentally hit a huge metal thing which made the LOUDEST sound ever. So take a moment to ask yourself, what the fuck would you do if some creepy ass dude was following you at 2am in the middle of a “city” that you dont live in? Well shitt just die apparently. So we started talking and we were like fuck, we need to get the hell out of here, now. At this point, our car is like .7 miles away and we are all lazy ass motherfuckers who don’t run,, e v e r. But I guess it’s our only option. So we have to run this, while carrying two books, an energy drink, and a dog. You might ask you might ask yourself, why still carry the books and energy drink?? Are they really that important??? Yes. We sneak out onto the street to see if he’s even still there, and then we see this dicknugget stand up. He was sitting in the park, waiting for us. And then we started running. Now, running back to our car was a whole other adventure just by itself. We are running slightly downhill, which makes us go faster. We don’t even bother looking to see this guy because  nyoom nyoom gotta go fast – We start sprinting down this road,, and then we hear a car coming. It’s gotta be going like 60 mph down this goddamn road at 2am and they see 3 teenage girls sprinting. Just a normal day in  Cowboy™Hell™ apparently because if you see three people running as fast as they can down a road in the middle of the night, you might stop to see if they’re okay? nahhhh. guess nott. Not to mention, Olivia and I almost got ran over by this goddamn car because we are running in the middle of the street. Meanwhile, we still have 2 books, an energy drink, and a puppy (who at this point is probably traumatized just like the rest of us).. So we just keep running for what seemed like forever (it was probably like 2 minutes), and then,, I drop my book. And me,, being the dumbass that I am,,, i stop to pick it up. Don’t ask me why I risked my life to pick up a book that we randomly found,, a book that i dont need,, a book that later we found out to be erotica,, because i do. not. know. Ya know, I always had this mental picture that if, for some reason, I had to run for my life, my body would trade in my out-of-shape, asthma-stricken lungs for super-lungs from the adrenaline or something– BOI WAS I WRONG. My lungs felt like they were on fire. Like actually burning. So what do I do? I’m literally being chased by a murderer but I really dont wan’t to run.. Well fuck, guess i’ll just die. I start walking because FUCK IT, my out of shape ass needs to chill. Then Kenzie see’s that I am walking she was like THANK GOD i’m tired too. Meanwhile Olivia is way ahead of us, and she looks back to see us,,, and we are walking, and she was like “what the fuCk are you DoiNG ??”. So kenzie and I work up the strength to start running again; and then we see it,,, our car. We unlock the car and just sit. All of us out of breath, scared shitless, apparently Olivia still had her rock, and my first thought after this was all done? I want my balloon. While all these events were occurring, Kenzie was texting her friend what was happening. We went and picked up Kenzie’s friend and his friend who was staying with him. Now it’s like 3am. We almost just got murdered/raped/kidnapped/whatever, the cute ass dog is sleeping in the car, and now we have two guys with us. weLL HEy, I haVe A gREat iDeA; LET’s GO GET MY BALLOON. So we drove the car for another 20 minutes and went back to the same place we almost died; I know, smart. Just a quick reminder that Cowboy™Hell™’s “city”-wide curfew is 11pm… and its 3am,,,. So we park in the same exact spot we were parked 2 hours earlier when we were being stalked by some creepy motherfucker and we got out. We showed the guys what happened place by place, we got my balloon, and then we were just chillin on the street. We saw some car down the street driving towards us and Kenzie made some tdumbass joke like “lmao watch that be the sheriff”, Well GUESS WHO THE FUCK IT WAS??? YOU GuESseD rIGhT mY FrIENd. the sheriff. Quick reminder: curfew. If that sheriff stops, not only do we look fuckin suspicious af just chillin in the middle of downtown on a tuesday at 3am, they will call our parents. And we cant have that.. So what do you do when you’re in Cowboy™Hell™ and can’t get caught by the cops? Run. We all get off our asses and book it, and hide in some bushes for about 10 minutes until the coast was clear,, well we thot anyways,,,, we were walking down the street and he came around again and guess what? We all run for like 20 minutes back to our damn car and drive. BYE BITCH. None of our parents know we are out, so where tf do we go now? Can’t go home. My home is 2000 miles away. Well what perfect place to be in Cowboy™Hell™ then the CHURCH. We legitimately spent a good 3 hours in the church parking lot because where else we gonna go? back to Walmart? Probably,,, then its about 7am and we drove to some park. Welllllll,, since its Cowboy™Hell™ with a population of 31,169, EVERYONE FUCKING KNOWS EACH OTHER. My cousin’s neighbor came jogging by at 7 in the goddamn morning (who does that, get a life, sleep in, just stahp,,) and recognizes our car and guess what happens now? He calls our parents :))))))) Thanks for being a snitching ass little bitch,, because then my cousin’s mom drives up and says heyyyyyy, get your asses home :)) Well guess where we didn’t go? home. Guess where we went instead? Of all the places in Cowboy™Hell™ with a population of 31,169, we went to Walmart. 

[decaffeinatedgentlemancrown]

Tagged by @kingdomheartstrash. Thanks, I needed something to do with my life.

1. What is the color of your hair brush?

Orange handle with gray everywhere else.

2. A food you never eat?

Onions. I despise everything about them from the crunch to the taste. A close second: avocados bc they = itchy af mouth

3. Are you typically too warm or too cold?

Too warm. I always sleep with my ceiling fan on full blast along with a box fan pointed DIRECTLY at me. People around me say that my body heat alone can heat the entire room. So, yeah, now looking for a teddy bear position lmfao.

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?

Hm. Watching 90 Day Fiance: Before the 90 Days Season 4. Big Ed, buddy, you're a hot mess and its hilarious.

5. What's your favorite candy bar?

The Toblerone things. Someone send some bc I cant find them were I live :'(

6. Have you ever been to a professional sporting event?

A ton. Last one I think was a 76ers game.

7. What was the last thing you said out loud?

He deserves to be put on the Scientology mailing list, and that's only reserved for total dicks!

8. What is your favorite ice cream?

Probably strawberry when it has like strawberry chunks in it.

9. What was the last thing you had to drink?

Iced tea

10. Do you like your wallet?

Hell yes

11. What was the last thing you ate?

Um...graham crackers

12. Did you buy any new clothes last weekend?

Nah fam

13. The last sporting event you watched?

Flyers hockey. I totally thought they were ready to win the Stanley Cup before quarantine.

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?

WHITE CHEDDAR

15. Who was the last person you sent a text to?

@kingdomheartstrash

16. Ever go camping?

Dude. This is like one of my bucket list things. Like, I've always wanted to go camping, but like how does one simply go camping?

17. Do you take vitamins?

Not any more. Sometimes I take a melatonin supplement.

18. Do you go to church every Sunday?

Nope, I've never actually been to church.

19. Do you have a tan?

A farmer's tan from mowing the grass.

20. Do you prefer Chinese food or pizza?

Pizza with pineapple

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?

If it comes with a straw

22. What color socks do you usually wear?

White or multicolored

23. Ever drive above the speed limit?

Yes. Sometimes I try not to. But, most of the time, I wake up later than I should and I like the rush.

24. What terrifies you?

Being alone, people not liking me, being assaulted/discriminated against because I'm trans

25. Look to your left, what do you see?

A drawing that @kingdomheartstrash did and one my mom did with the psych and medical symbol bc I'm gonna hopefully be a psychiatrist someday.

26. What core do you hate?

Clowncore. I've watched enough IT.

27. What do you think of when you hear an Australian accent?

That one post where it's like just say "good eye mate" and ur Australian.

28. What is your favorite soda?

Grape.

29. Do you go into a fast food place or just hit the drive through?

Drive through bc convenience.

30. Who was the last person you talked to?

My little brother.

31. Favorite cut of beef?

I eat whatever tbh.

32. Last song you listened to?

Get Lucky by Daft Punk

33. Last book you read?

The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel Van Der Kolk bc IM A NERD

34. Favorite day of the week?

It changes based on my class schedule usually. rn, it's Fridays.

35. Can you say the alphabet backwards?

Pfft. No.

36. How do you like your coffee?

Drowned in creamer or in cappucino form. Usually, I prefer matcha for my caffeine consumption.

37. Favorite pair of shoes?

My Doc Martens. Edgy, I know

38. At what time do you usually go to bed?

1 to 2am

39. At what time do you normally get up?

9am to 11am

40. What do you prefer - sunrises or sunsets?

Sunrises

41. How many blankets are on your bed?

One, a Cars themed comforter.

42. Describe your kitchen plates?

Um paper plates.

43. Do you have a favorite alcoholic beverage?

Yass, I love Mike's Hard Lemonade Black Cherry rn, but my all time favorite is Captain and Coke.

44. Do you play cards?

Yup, poker is my fav.

45. What color is your car?

Like a dark cherry red.

46. Can you change a tire?

Yup.

47. What is your favorite province?

Hm.

48. Favorite job you ever had?

Probably working in a lab doing research about Depression and Anxiety in adolescents.

49. How did you get your biggest scar?

My mom threw a book at me when I was like 8 and I have a giant scar on my leg bc of it.

50. What did you do today that made someone happy?

I talked someone through their self-doubt that almost stopped them from applying to med school.

Gonna tag anyone else who wants to play!!

Tagged by @floweringpopcat!! Thanks bby!!!!

1. What is the color of your hair brush?

Light gray with purple dots on the handle

2. A food you never eat?

Mayonnaise can die

3. Are you typically too warm or too cold?

Too cold. You’d think it gets better in summer, but nooooo, my mother INSISTS on the house being cool then too >:( I can’t escape

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?

Reading porn fic

5. What's your favorite candy bar?

P. Please don’t make me choose ;-;

6. Have you ever been to a professional sporting event?

Uhhhhh like ten years ago I went to see the Phillies play

7. What was the last thing you said out loud?

“Yeah, that’s Animal Crossing, dumbass!!”

8. What is your favorite ice cream?

Chocolate truffle

9. What was the last thing you had to drink?

Milk

10. Do you like your wallet?

Ye

11. What was the last thing you ate?

Spaghetti

12. Did you buy any new clothes last weekend?

Lmao nope

13. The last sporting event you watched?

Volleyball (in Haikyuu)

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?

Caramel

15. Who was the last person you sent a text to?

@decaffeinatedgentlemancrown

16. Ever go camping?

Y,,yes ;~;

17. Do you take vitamins?

Not currently, but I was a Flintstones kid growing up

18. Do you go to church every Sunday?

N o p e

19. Do you have a tan?

Not at the moment but that’s cuz I haven’t left the house since it started getting warm lmao

20. Do you prefer Chinese food or pizza?

Pizza

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?

Sometimes, if I’m at a restaurant and it’s provided

22. What color socks do you usually wear?

N o.

23. Ever drive above the speed limit?

Lmao I don’t drive

24. What terrifies you?

Bugs crawling on me, the malicious ignorance of Republicans, helplessness

25. Look to your left, what do you see?

The textbook I asked my mom to mail back for me days ago :)))))

26. What core do you hate?

Nazicore

27. What do you think of when you hear an Australian accent?

My uncle’s ex-wife, cuz they met and got married while he was in Australia. Also Steve Irwin (for obvious reasons)

28. What is your favorite soda?

Black cherry

29. Do you go into a fast food place or just hit the drive through?

Drive through. Less human interaction that way, and if I’m going to a fast food place for food I don’t want human interaction

30. Who was the last person you talked to?

Like in person or…?

31. Favorite cut of beef?

Um.

32. Last song you listened to?

Blinding by Florence + The Machine

33. Last book you read?

The Last Olympian by Rick Riordan

34. Favorite day of the week?

Either Friday or Saturday

35. Can you say the alphabet backwards?

No

36. How do you like your coffee?

If I’m making it, black with a splash of milk. If I’m going out, either a macchiato or a cappuccino with caramel

37. Favorite pair of shoes?

Probably my Walmart converse

38. At what time do you usually go to bed?

3-4am

39. At what time do you normally get up?

10-noon

40. What do you prefer - sunrises or sunsets?

Sunrises

41. How many blankets are on your bed?

Currently 2–my comforter and my weighted blanket

42. Describe your kitchen plates?

Some are circular colored plastic, some are square colored plastic, some are circular white ceramic with green vines around the edge

43. Do you have a favorite alcoholic beverage?

Monster and vodka

44. Do you play cards?

Uhhhh does uno count?

45. What color is your car?

No

46. Can you change a tire?

Yeah

47. What is your favorite province?

Uhhhhh…?

48. Favorite job you ever had?

My last stint as a lifeguard!! I was the main lifeguard for a small apartment complex, I was there five days a week, eight and a half hours a day, and I got to know a lot of the residents pretty well!! It was also super chill cuz I had a lot of down time to read or draw or write or just dance around the pool lmao, and on the last day of the season I hung out in the pool with the residents cuz idgaf. A lot of them would give me food, too, like the one family who would come for the afternoon every few weeks. They would always make a whole ass meal on the grill and set a plate aside for me. There was also the time at the start of the season when it was rainy and cold, but not bad enough that my super would let me go home, so one of the residents saw me shivering from his balcony and he brought he a blanket and some tea to keep me warm. Or the time when a Muslim resident dropped off a takeout menu for me (and it didn’t hit me that it was for me until after her and her daughter left and I processed that it was Ramadan and she was Muslim and then I deadass almost cried. Her name was Rabia and I think of her and her daughter often). Or the Colombian family who would drop off snacks for me when they came by.

49. How did you get your biggest scar?

Uhhhhhh pass

50. What did you do today that made someone happy?

I painted my nails, and that made me happy :D

Gonna tag @decaffeinatedgentlemancrown @officebeepo @icyhotheartwritings @madammuffins and anyone else who wants to play!!

[sesame-swims]

marmalade’s ulcer is all gone what a good boy

waddup i didn’t wanna make this post until i knew with 100% certainty that marmalade was gonna be totally okay. i’ve know for the last maybe two weeks with 95% certainty that he was going to be fine but now that his ulcer is completely gone i feel 100% confident that he’s pulled thru.

so some backstory

i’ve had marmalade for almost three years now and up until september of last year i had marmalade and sesame together in a 30g (would not recommend u can’t miss a water change or ur fukt).

if you don’t follow me and you don’t know marmalade he has a chronic swim bladder disorder that’s on the generous side of moderate and it weakens his immune system considerably. basically he’s always sick. keeps mommy on her toes.

anyway in march of last year i had a variety of filter malfunctions combined with too few water changes and he developed what i believe to be hemorrhagic septicemia. 

i quarantined him and fed him some oxytetracyline pellets, as well as gave him epsom salt baths twice daily and gently swabbed the area with peroxide (once daily). 

the whole thing was pretty minor he cleared up in a couple days. i was living with my ex at the time and i spent way more time watching my fish than i am able to currently so we spotted it early and treated aggressively and i’m glad i overreacted a little bit because it prepared me for what’s to come...

so in september of last year my ex and i moved across town. within a couple weeks i noticed my fish were less active (i always look to sesame for stuff like this because she’s always been healthy).

i figured it was time to upgrade and my friend hooked me up with a 55g complete with stand and lighting fixure for fuckin FREE-ZY. so i immediately impulse bought basil. 

i thought having a new fish would help sesame be more active cause i mean cmon it must be boring as fuk in there with marmalade’s lazy ass. after a couple weeks qt i decided i’d toss basil in there and while it did help it felt like he started getting less active too.

anyway it took me a minute but i realized that the water in my new place was crazy soft. like 60ppm kinda soft. my fish were super inactive and sesame was gasping at the surface and bottom sitting even though there was nothing visibly wrong with either of them or my standard params. once i figured it out i started treating my water with aquavitro GH mineralize. i’ve been using it since then it’s great it raises my GH without disturbing my pH and it’s super easy to use although kinda annoyingly expensive cause i go through a lot of it.

so i thought i had it under control and everything was fine but then in the month or two leading up to my breakup i was in like a weird mental space. i wasn’t doing enough water changes and i ran out of that liquid stuff (which by the way also makes your plants grow like crazy) and i could tell my fish were a little stressed but i mean aside from some minor stuff with marmalade they weren’t visibly suffering so i didn’t go out of my way to improve the situation. which was stupid cause it weakened them (and by them i mean marmalade) to the following;

i broke up with my ex this feb and me and my fish moved once again. i moved back to the town that i had got my fish in in the first place so my ignorant ass thought my days of dealing with water hardness were over LMFAO STUPID ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

idk how it’s all linked up but basically the water here is super soft too and i didn’t even check. i mean for WEEKS i didn’t check and i also skimped on some water changes too while i got a sink attachment figured out omg so basically i was a Bad Fish Mom™ and just let a bunch of problems manifest while i ignored the shit out of it and slept 12hrs a day.

and then i saw it. in the dead of the night when i walked out to make a sad microwave quesadilla and feed my fish i caught of glimpse of The Red Death on marmalade. except this time it was like 10x bigger and he also had an ulcer on his head. my heart fuckin dropped and imma be honest i really thought he was gonna die. i immediately did an epsom bath and peroxide swab and when i picked him up he was noticeably weaker than ever. the next morning (which to be fair was only a couple hours later) he looked the same and when i went to work that day i really didn’t know if he’d be alive when i came home.

these panicked 3am shots don’t really convey the feeling of impending doom but his red spots were comparatively gigantic and his ulcer was something i’d never seen before. tbh it might have been some kind of sore that got fungus-y i don’t even really know but it PISSED ME OFF AT 3AM.

so i did a couple large water changes and tested my water and found out this stuff is soft as hell too. i bought my magic liquid and for marmalade i just did the exact same procedure i did last time except this time i made the decision not to quarantine.

swab affected areas with peroxide 10-15 minute bath in epsom at 1tablespoon:1gallon  while he was in the bucket i dropped some of the medicated pellets in there and he ate them while bathing which was great for me because i didn’t have to closely monitor what was being eaten (don’t let this food dissolve in your tank its bad for your cycle) i also completely stopped feeding pellets and only fed repashy soilent green gel which in my heavily baised opinion helped a lot. and then i just began the process of slowly raising my gh.

 there’s a variety of reasons why i chose not to qt but the main one is that marmalade seemed pretty far gone and my other two fish were behaving normally and not showing any similar symptoms. i decided it wasn’t contagious/not immediately threatening OR they already had it and it was a matter of time. if i was going to medicate i would want to medicate the entire tank anyway. i would always recommend a qt tho. especially if your fish won’t eat while bathing it just makes the whole thing easier.

thankfully it didn’t get that far. marmalade was noticeably better after 24 hours and his red spots were completely gone that week. feeling him get stronger as i grabbed him for his daily bath was honestly the most reassuring of it all. his fungusy-ulcery thing took another week to fully form and then go away and now he’s all better!

 thanks for reading my sloppy 2am post love you guys~ also s/o to @thebrokeaquarist for always helping me with marmalade drama