yeanabilajackson

[yeanabilajackson]

too much thinking..

too little living..

[yeanabilajackson]

[yeanabilajackson]

Trying to figure out

Who I really am

[yeanabilajackson]

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[yeanabilajackson]

IAMYBJ

Let Me See What You're Really Made Of

KEEP IT G OF COURSE

[yeanabilajackson]

It is 11/11/22 at 3:38 am

I don't believe myself what I just experienced and feel tonight.

I try my best to put it into words.

It's late and I can't sleep. I'm in the living room, lying on the couch, only the television gives me light. My window has been wide open for hours, the door is open up to the wall. There is no wind and the sky is clear..

I just hope to get tired.

I'm just watching an episode of Dahmer on netflix. Well, only a few minutes, then I felt the need to look for the ending melody on Youtube.. found..

I hear the first 3 seconds of the whale sound's and try to express my feelings about it in a loud voice..

It Touch my soul.

I tell myself for the first few seconds "first of all it feels like an epiphany, no, more like my soul is taking off to heaven". After the sentence, taking deep breaths and holding my head up, I exhale all my air from my lungs, towards the sky. The door starts to move a little and stops at about 1/3. That seems strange to me since there is no wind, but I don't think anything of it..

I continue.

From the 4th second you can hear the shrill violin, I say to myself "and now it feels like everything is going to break". As I say this I see the door move more and more as my sentence progresses, so that it suddenly slams with real force and noise and stays closed, even though the door can only be kept closed with a key..

How can this be possible?

I am shocked and tears well up in my eyes. I run to the door in a panic, open it, look out the window at the sky and say with a crying voice "I'm here and I'll be there. I won't let the door get closed"..

Those seconds feel like hours.

There are 2 long, large mirrors on my lowboard between the door and the window. Immediately after my words they start to move so much that they threaten to fall off the lowboard. This frightens me so much that I quickly close the door. Everything was quiet and everything was over, instantly..

I can't explain what happened here, but it feels like I couldn't withstand the great storm.

[yeanabilajackson]

Sometimes I want to say so much but can't find a word...

...but sometimes many words say nothing.