#more than physically tired

[bpd-bbyg]

[emmet-appreciation]

thank arceus for touch averse emmet hcs

i think both emmet and ingo are very verrry not ok with being touched and having people in their personal bubbles, but they're alright with one another + elesa bc its the Familial Comfort

-🦊 anon (making an anon identity for myself 💖)

Awww, thank you 🦊 anon for giving your input!

Yeah, touch aversion is kinda fickle but familial contact doesn't fall under it (for the most part!). I've only seen a handful of touch-averse headcanons but I do like the ones from @asksubmas :>! also bc of the touch averse solidarity but yeah hehe

[substituted-shinigami]

6th Division Detention Unit Gated off Living Room

The intensity of the scene is greatly diffused by the embarrassingly pink baby gate.

So I was done with the Bleach Dog Au. Honest! I did a quick piece, but then I was done! But then I read this post from polynya about how Rukia was bearing her fangs at Renji in order to try to get him to not worry about her, and I was like, "bearing fangs…HEY, THAT'S SOMETHING DOGS DO!" (Yes, I'm sorry, I know there is way more to the article than that, but I have a one-track mind 😅). 

Anyway, so then, right, I was going to do this super sad piece. Where the Rukia-dog was going to be growling at the Renji-dog from prison, or worse not even looking at him. However, I thought about it, and I was like, "What even is a dog prison??? Is it the pound??? That's really sad, I don't know if I want to do that. What about a crate? That's not so bad." So then I started googling dog crates and other enclosures and quickly learned that some people just use baby gates. And when I saw how cute some of them were I laughed so hard that I knew I had to do it. So here we are.

Did you know that they make bathrobes for dogs? Apparently, they do. And I know that Byakuya didn't appear on the scene when Renji was in this outfit (otherwise he would have fought him A LOT faster) but I couldn't just NOT share this very important information with the world.

[serialreblogger]

if i don't take like five different kinds of medication every day my body's default state is to set itself on fire. but then, the default state of all living things, sans intervention, is death. so i think i'm okay to take meds actually

[montymollusk]

okay so i’m neither a bird expert nor a thermodynamics expert but. i feel like i remember vaguely from reading animorphs that birds fly mainly by coasting on warm air to conserve energy

if that’s true, could a dragon generate its own warm air by breathing fire underneath itself, and just coast on that infinitely?

[maschotch]

I've gone a little deeper about Emily's past in my fic 'Unrequited' and 'As It Was'. I'm just obsessed with her character and the backstory both she and Hotch have. And I just finish reading the little backstory you did about Emily and I loved it!!

i’m really not much of a jemily fan (partly because i think fanon characterizations of jj are completely delusional, partly because i think fanon characterizations of emily are beyond insulting, and mostly because i cannot fucking fathom what anyone could possibly like about jj), but i went ahead and read those two pieces because i figured you came into my inbox already knowing that. it’s just… not how i see either of those characters. not even necessarily the shipping aspect, even ignoring my reservations about jj, but because of the way i think emily approaches relationships

this sounds hypocritical after writing about emily + family, but i feel like emily doesn’t really care about her biological family anymore. at least i’d like to. i’d like to think she’s accepted that she’ll never be what her mother wants and that she’ll never get what she wants from her mother. she’s 36 when she joins the bau���surely that’s enough time to realize she can’t hold onto those childish fantasies anymore. not that i disagree with what i wrote, i just think it's given her a complex ab family rather than it actually being something she truly craves. it was a setup for her life: she wasn't meant to be with others, which is something she eventually tries to change about herself

i’m a big fan of low-empathy emily, so i feel like she has to put active effort into caring about relationships. as a child raised by an extremely distant parent, she probably chalked it up to never having connections growing up, so she never learned how to make connections in the future. it’s easier to assume she’s broken, and it’s easier to blame her mom for it

but really, i don’t think there’s anything wrong with her, she’s just different. at some point i think she had to wrestle with that: it’s hard to think she fell into the job best suited for her personality just by coincidence. being a spy requires that cold, calculating observation and analysis of relationship dynamics. she can view things objectively because she isn’t naturally inclined to get emotionally attached. she can witness unfathomable horrors without a flinch—things that would rock jj to her core, things that would perturb the unflappable hotch. she knows she’s better equipped to handle those types of experiences because having empathy was never really a priority. (it's part of why i think she was the only one who could've walked through hotch's apartment that day: she wouldn't get distracted)  

that being said, i don’t think connections are impossible for her. the bau proves that, declan proves that. but i think that was a conscious choice on her part: she had seen enough—caused enough—pain and grief to realize that she should feel guilty for it. so i think she wakes up every day and decides to care. she decides to be a good person. eventually she confronts that she's tired of living a life she doesn't feel like she could be proud of

she’s not heartless, by any means. she just doesn’t become emotionally involved until she comes to the logical conclusion to do so. she has a soft spot for kids because they haven’t had a chance to truly know themselves and the world they live in. she loves the team because of how deeply connected they are to each other. so, when push comes to shove, she’s always willing to leave if it means keeping them together. it’s easy to make that choice because she loves them: in season 3 when the choice is between her and hotch and she knows hotch’s loss will devastate them; in season 6 when she’s making them potential targets for doyle’s vendetta; in season 7 when she feels the tension that never quite settled upon her return. i don’t know if any of the others would’ve made those decisions as easily, even if it was the best choice for them as a whole. not even hotch, who is terrified that his proximity is enough to hurt people he cares about. she’s detached in a way that can separate her from others, but she’s able to turn that into her strength: whether that means manipulating her way into terrorist organizations or walking away from the only chance at a family she's ever had just to keep them safe

i have my bits and pieces of evidence for it that i can scrounge into a semi-believable character analysis, but ultimately i think it’s so i can enjoy more of her character without getting irked by aspects of the archetypes she could fit that would typically annoy me. i’d like to think she’s above some of that: she’s too cool to have mommy issues, too badass to spend years pining over relationships, too self assured to be insecure about her decisions, too smart to let anyone see through her. 

i say all this as a hotch fan, who has traits very similar to these. but it suits him. it makes him more interesting, to know that there’s a vulnerability behind his stoic appearance. but with emily i think it’s far more admirable for her to choose to suffer because she wants to care. minimal loss is the perfect example of that: she makes the logical choice to put herself at risk because she wants to protect reid. she’s not running away from who she is anymore, and she’s not really fighting it either. she chooses to be a good person, not out of guilt or even love, but because it’s something she values. 

for me, emily is the cool brooding hero who could be a villain so easily. maybe, in an earlier time in her life, she was. but she’s done being selfish. she’s willing to make sacrifices for others because she decided that living by a code is better than living for nothing at all, even if it causes her pain. guilt and love—two burning sensations that were so opposite yet so intrinsically linked—were burdens she chose to bear so she wouldn’t feel so hollow anymore. and it does cause her pain. so, so much pain. to me, it makes her endlessly more fascinating. i’d rather her be a knife that dulls its edges than something soft chiseled to a jagged point. 

[verved]

been feeling p hopeless and shitty the past few weeks and like logically i know there are some v manageable things causing it but i still feel like shit and :(

[chaoticgouda]

not to have a weird online moment or anything but does anyone else feel kind of fucking insane being so wracked with anxiety and a smouldering pervading sense of doom about the state of the world while the vast majority of people in offline life seem so. blissfully unaware and pre-occupied with their immediate lives?

[ingravinoveritas]

As adorable and lovely as this photo is, a lot of people seem to be reblogging it thinking it’s real, but for the record: It is fake, and actually a manip (albeit a very well done one). This is the original pic, with David being carried by Marc Wootton on the red carpet at the premiere of Nativity 2:

It’s especially a bit frustrating because there are so many wonderful pics of David and Michael together at events that are actually real, and full of just as much adoration and love as that manip (and I’ve also written about why I prefer those pics to the ones of David and Marc). These are a few personal favorites that deserve acknowledgement:

[askaziraphaleandcrowley]

Sending love and best wishes to mod!

❤️❤️❤️

Thank you, I’m so sorry I’m so slow, I am very definitely still here!

Long covid is a nightmare and it flares up and down at random so there’ll be days when I feel fine and days when I can’t make it down the stairs from my flat. And because it’s so random I’m having to pile all my chores and life admin onto the first day I feel okay to make sure they get done, which then just exhausts me all over again. I get some time off after next week so I’m hoping that rest will help.

Thank you for bearing with me everyone!

[pics-that-make-you-goku]

One of my honest opinions is that there is a lot of Vegeta-Inspired artwork for Shadow, but not the other way around and there should be more of that. I do not mean Vegeta being a Hedgehog though! I mean having Vegeta have some Shadow-Inspired attributes! Where is Vegeta with red highlights or rings that causes him to go sicko mode when removed? Vegeta with actual stripes that are really cool?

[saltycharacters]

God I am so tired of modern media slightly evolving bury ur gay tropes to be like "yeah ok i guess it could be worse, but why are most of your cishet couples still well and alive and have their physical affection get plenty of attention and screentime, while all of your queer couples have at least one party dead / get to be the "tragic romance" story progression fodder and are not only outnumbered by all the other couples but also get their time together significantly stripped"

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Entering my Dread Pyrate Blackbeard era (ensconced in blanket fort, eating sweet preserves straight from the jar, writing depressing song lyrics and crying)

[lavampira]

waking at 4:30 AM is disorienting enough without the weirdo garage light outside my window making me question if the sun is rising until I check my phone and disrupt myself from, you know, actually going back to sleep

[ettucamus]

aggression against trans people is truly so exhausting like of course there are abrasive and loud trans people on the internet but for the most part. actual trans people are just trying to go about our days managing this very personal struggle while trying not to get hatecrimed. and so much of the discourse about being trans is so removed from what it’s like to be a trans person irl.

[nightiingaled-a]

Activity Update [10.17.22]

   Just wanted to throw out an official update about my current activity status. 

   I’m currently working two jobs. My main job is EMS where I work 24-hr shifts. Depending on call flow, I can work on writing during these hours. When I’m not there, I’m working part time at the library and am now working almost every day.

   Meanwhile, I am continuing to keep an eye on my health. I’ve been seizure free for at least a week or two now, but i have other problems trying to rear their head so that has been affecting my brain and my writing.

    Just continue to be patient with me.