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I Got Interviewed!
Hello, dearest readers,
I had the honor of being interviewed by @psychosupernatural!
You may have seen the ask that was sent to my inbox.
After a mini-freak out for being asked in the first place, I agreed.
They also permitted me to share the interview with my readers!
I don't want to sound self-centered by sharing this with you.
I just thought that if someone was interested in knowing (even if it was for school), maybe others might want to know as well.
So here you go!
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What’s your motivation for writing fanfiction?
I started my first story, ‘Breaking and Entering,’ for myself because it was the first winter after COVID-19 broke out, and the world was shut off from itself. Then, after reading fanfics for the first time, I started writing my second story (Reciprocal Synergy) and stopped after no one paid any attention to it when I posted it on Tumblr and AO3. After reading a fantastic story by @yoongiofmine, I was inspired to write American Mate—A BTS Hybrid Playmate AU. I was initially going to keep it to myself because the online world had already shot down one of my stories, so why do it again? My oldest child (15 years old) said, “So what? Do it for yourself.” And I did.
I tell newer or struggling veteran writers, “Write for yourself. Enjoy what you wrote. Somewhere out there, someone else will match your freak. Someone else will want to escape into your world. Someone else needs to feel that support, even from a character in a story on their electronic device.” At this point, it's like an inner mantra.
How have you learned to write good fanfiction?
First, it is still being determined whether my fanfiction is good. Like all works of art and creativity, what I do may not be everyone’s cup of tea. The fanfic that I write takes a lot of time to cultivate. Most of my time is spent researching anything from sciences and behaviors to interviews and documentaries. The ability to tie facts into my works is what I think sets me into a category that draws in others because it makes it subconsciously believable despite the characters being werewolves, hybrids, aliens, or soul mates with abilities. I also use my American Sign Language and Psychology education to help build these miniature universes. When I write, I consider the characters' psychological aspects, internal processes, and non-verbal communication. For works that also include animalistic tendencies, I research that to the furthest of my ability. I have done it so frequently that my city's large animal and exotic animal veterinarian has helped me several times. This can make the writing good if the readers want to read it.
How do you judge the quality of your fics?
Quality requires consistency and continuity. If side notes, footnotes, or character reference sheets are not used to ensure a solid foundation in the story, the reader will be confused. That confusion, that difficulty to read fluidly, is where the quality lies. I could have a fantastic idea, but if it is not easy to read, no one will read it. As for the wording, grammar, and the like, I practically failed every English class. My degrees are very much fact-based research papers written in MLA and APA. Due to my horrible history with writing, I never had the guts to take something like a creative writing course, although I have had a poem published worldwide. When I read something I have written, if it pulls me back into the story and makes me want to read on and keep writing, it has good enough quality to show others.
How did you / do you learn the “rules” and conventions of fanfiction?
I don’t think I have to be honest. There are common boundaries of respect, such as placing warnings, indicating where adult themes start and end, and noting where influences have come from. As a writer, I follow these out of a desire not to shock or trigger my reader and to support other fanfic writers. I have been the reader who started reading an out-of-this-world fanfic and was thrown into a panic attack because there was no warning. I ended up messaging that writer and letting them know they have a trigger in their story. That writer was shocked that the story was triggering. When I explained that it was gracing the edge of being a particular type of fanfic, yandere, and how it was doing that, the writer understood and updated the warnings. Unfortunately, fanfics do not have a predetermined set of rules that everyone is made aware of before starting their fanfic writing journey. It is a game of mimicking with individualizations sprinkled in. Also, as a writer, you have to be able to take in the thoughts of your readers and make adjustments without taking offense to that feedback.
Do you tend to stick to only one fandom, or do you migrate from one fandom to another?
I migrate fandoms. My first fanfic was ‘Breaking and Entering,’ an original Young Adult high school werewolf story. I started writing it because I was bored while having COVID. One of my most popular fanfics, American Mate, was inspired oddly. I read a BTS fanfic written by Yoongieofmine. The Playmate AU aspect of her story caught my attention because BTS is not among the top K–pop groups I follow. However, that story made my mind run with the thoughts of combining Playmates with Hybrids. I ended up writing Yoongieofmine and asking permission to write ‘American Mate.’ I have also written for other K-pop groups, Ateez and Stray Kids, and a Thai Boy-Love Drama, KinnPorsche.
What sort of relationship exists between you as a writer and the characters that you create on the page?
Interesting question, to be honest or not… All of my stories, except the werewolf ‘Breaking and Entering’ story, are written in a y/n style, meaning the main character is the reader. These stories are written to pull the reader into them by negating a leading character name and replacing it with the notation y/n = your name. I have to put myself in that leading character role to write these stories. I fully understand that the stories are just that– stories. None of what is written is in any way possible. Still, while the reader or I read the story, I do my best to immerse myself in the place of the leading character and have those relationships, experiences, trials, and fears with the other characters. Each chapter that is written starts as a dream or fantasy that I have personally had. Those give me an outline to work with, but I have had the experience where I am so into and connected with the characters that when I stop writing, I think, “wait, what happened?” So, I have to go back to read over what I have written, and then it's a moment of “Oh!! That is what I wrote. Well, that came out of nowhere.” Simply, I have a connection with them because I don’t think I could write them if I didn’t; however, I am not delusional enough to think they are anything more than words on a page.
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saw a guy freezing his ass off at the bus stop
#i dont support smoking but he came out of the bus shelter to slam 3 simultaneous cigs in the 4 mins it took for the bus to come#it was literally -6C outside!!! poor guy rolled up gloveless hatless jacketless#and it was so compelling i came home and had to draw him#weiwei art#sketch#rkgk#weve got our own freaks here#doodle#people
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Henry I CANNOT fucking defend you on this one. What the actual FUCK
#tmf#the music freaks#the music freaks rosyclozy#tmf rosyclozy#freakblr#henry tmf#tmf henry#WHO PICKS GUM OUT OF A GIRLS HAIR TO EAT IT??? MORE SPECIFICALLY YOUR BEST FRIENDS GIRLFRIEND??????#btw this is obv a joke i love henry i think he is silly#but this was one of the only scenes that had my jaw DROPPED during the premiere#tmf spoilers#<- tagginy this the ep JUST came out like 30 mins ago#speedy liveblogs tmf#speedy speaks about tmf (and other stuff)
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WAOT WERE U THE ONE TSUKASA COSPLAYER AT MIKUEXPO GIVING OUT MIKU STICKERS TO THE PJSK FANS
THATS ME!!!!! i didn't mean to just give them to pjsk fans help but i severely underestimated how many i should've made and cut out .. so i just ended up giving them to cosplayers or people who said hi to me .... T_T
THERE'S ALSO THIS SUPER CUTE BRACELET SOMEBODY RAN UP TO ME AND GAVE ME AND I TREASURE IT SO I NEED TO ADD IT TO THE POST AND SHOW IT OFF .. WAH!!!! ITS SO CUTE LOOK!!!!!!
#again WAS NOT MY BIRTHDAY. MIKUEXPO TORONTO FELL ON TSUKASAS BIRTHDAY IN JAPAN TIME. SORRY TO EVERYONE WHO SAID HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.#i love your icon cause i saw a garf miku cosplayer at mikuexpo toronto too IT WAS SO AWESOME#i saw snother tsukasa cosplayer in hid school outfit and they had cute star glasses i Need some.#in the future n for cons i think i'll just order stickers to hand out .. cutting them out by hand was so much .....#especially when i did the whole pjsk cast. 10 or so of each of them. my best friend helped and it still took like 2 hours#<- I DID THAT FOR ANIME NORTH I MEAN i think i forgot to post about it here. anyways#i dont plan on tabling at cons or snything cause i just like attending them so much. but#In the future i think i'll just pay to get Nice little prints or stickers made and shipped to me to hand out ...#Sorry they arent actual stickers they're just laminated with tape i did them the night before while crunching for the con the week after.#alliellama#ask#sorry to go on but mikuexpo really was such a good time#when we first got there i was in the merch line w my friends and skmeone came up and said can you do the tsukasa laugh right here right now#but everything we said echo and i was like T_T no im shy ...#and then 2 hours later i heard there was a saki cosplayer there and started running around the venue shouting SAKI. SAKIII. SAKI.#WE FOUND HER IT TOOK ME LIKE 20 MINS which is impressive because there were a lot of people. by god.#it was so fun. we had such a good time i could go on. everyone was so FREAKING NICE. AND GAVE SO MANY FREEBIES. AND COMPLIMENTS.#but i literally only had like ..30 mikus. to hand out. i felt SO BAD. CONSERVING THEM.
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finished my first final exam in 30 minutes this is either very neutral or very bad
#ik at leasr 1 kid finished before me & just didnt move untili got up bc i was waiting for Him to get up first & then got bored waiting#so ik 30 mins is not an absurd time but we had 2 hours allotted so it freaks me out
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finding norton on my laptop like,,, thats suspicious,,, thats weird,,,,
#i genuinely cannot tell if it's a virus i got or if it's the real thing HBJAJB#because acer products (which my laptop is) apparently come with it but it says .... 2024...... n i definitely have never touched it#so unless it automatically updates every single one of its files that is . very strange#then again i also havent downloaded anything sussy this year i dont think#& i dont know if i should remove it or if it's protecting my computer#it's either a great evil or a hidden hero#i was cleaning out my program files n i saw it . n i was like hey wait a min. thats. thats not usually there#WAIT unless it was when my laptop decided to forcibly make me finish setting it up#which i had been exiting out of every time i started it up because i do not want those microsoft programs man they r useless to me#that was just recently#honestly it just freaked me out it wouldnt let me close it in the task manager#but. u know that might be like a legit security thing
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#spent the past few days totally focused on preparing a job application#managed to submit it at midday shortly before the deadline#late this afternoon I took a shower and afterwards I saw I had a missed call + voicemail asking me to call back#but by then the office was closed so I will have to call back in the morning#they must be offering an interview right?#they wouldn't phone me to say my application was rejected#haven't had an interview or updated my CV in 10 years so I am freaking out slightly#last week I asked for a preliminary tour of the workplace and met the boss informally#she chatted to me about the job and my experience for like 50 mins so that is also promising?#argh I don't know it's all a bit daunting but sometimes you just have to be brave and try something
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me seeing all of the MD discourse once again cursing out Gil Chae and calling her weak/a bitch for still turning down Jang Hyun's proposal before he left with the Crown Prince:
#tv: my dearest#my dearest#mbc my dearest#namgoong min#nam goong min#ahn eun jin#kdrama#local gay watches My Dearest (and is subsequently f*cked up).txt#local gay watches k-dramas.txt#i still haven't caught up but rn ik it's not as bad as everyone thinks it is. y'all asked for angst you got it why are you freaking tf out#pls. all i needed to know was that Ryang Eum was alive (he is). we can deal with the consequences of his actions later but guess what#people. do. dumb and stupid sh*t. pay for that sh*t. realize it wasn't a good idea. he probably realized that when sh*t went down#but ffs where are y'all's reading comprehension where did it go#she did what she had to do to survive. if it was ep 2!Gil Chae before the war (and minus Yeon Joon) if she had her eye on Jang Hyun#she would have thrown herself at him. f*ck the officer and f*ck everyone else that's her man!!!!!#we're in ep 10. she has been through hell and back. her priority rn is not romance her priority is providing for everyone else#tl;dr i will defend Gil Chae with my life. Ryang Eum is my son so i will also defend him but he needs some sense knocked into him#and hopefully a way to sort things out with Jang Hyun bc that. that will be the breakup that ruins me officially not our OTP#i came in expecting that as a possibility sksksksk#anyway RyangHyun fic coming soon-ish. at least it'll tide me over until October rip
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#pet death tw#i’ve been crying for like 30 min straight#it’s been over a year since my cat died and i still miss her so much#it just hit me like a train out of nowhere#she was so young she didn’t deserve all the health issues that life gave her and i wish so so much that she could have lived a full life#i try to take solace in the fact that i know i gave her a good life for what she had but damn. damn#if it’s possible to have soul mate cats she was it. i loved her so freaking much#i hope you’re resting easy sweet girl you were so loved#my darling willow
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FINALLY FJNISHED THIS GODDAMN OUZZLE
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i love when my parents talk about me when they think i cant hear them 🤑🤑
#mom said im a control freak#this is because when i lose control i fuck up and will ruin my chances of having a future hope this fucking helps#also. said by someone whos only home half the time and half of that time im at school. you dont know me lmao#im not pretending im perfect but you dont see me shut the fuck up and take it for like five hours a day#even like yesterday. took 20 mins to get out of bed. my assigned partner hasnt put a word down on our doc#seating chart in my next class left me pretty much alone. fucking panic attack#i had to stay 30 minutes after to finish an assignment because i didnt do it fast enough#because when im not hard on myself i dont get anything fucking done!
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attempting fully sound design a 4 minute scene of iron man in 6 hours . i’m going to try and fill it out as much as possible but i fear i will have to leave a lot barren. [PROFESSOR NAME] prepare for the worst submission you’ve ever received. please give me a C in this class thank you.
#i have an appointment at 5 and i have to leave the lab at 4:15#worst case scenario i take it home tonight and design parts of it in logic on my laptop but i’m 30 mins in and i have 3 seconds done#i’ve had 2 weeks just every time i’ve tried to work on it i freak out and can’t finish it
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Note to self: a large meal is a very effective sedative for hyperactive cats.
#not something i can do regularly obviously#but Mau was driving me up the wall ever since I brought them inside and closed the windows for the evening#he feels it's his god-given right to gallivant after dark even though i keep dragging his ass inside after every jail break#and he freaks out after 20 mins alone in the garden anyway#Moo also disgraced himself by throwing up his lunch all over my room‚ escaping while I was cleaning#and then finding himself stuck up another fencepost on the perimeter wall and mewling pathetically for me to rescue him#i went back to the house to fetch a ladder again only to find monsieur dragging his sorry butt up the steps behind me after all#maybe I do coddle them a bit too much#since keeping them inside all day is a flat impossibility in this house#they should have some degree of self-sufficiency so their fool asses can come home if they do prowl#i'm hoping that keeping them near home long enough will discourage them wandering too far even if they do go beyond the perimeter#for all dogs were exhausting i never had to worry about this shit with them#just close a door and a gate and boom. problem solved#cats though. fuckin Houdini-ass mfers#knee of huss#Méka Mau Moo#cat mom problems
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my manager is WAY too fucking nice to me im gonna explode
#emeto tw#emeto cw#in tags ->#i started having a panic attack at work earlier but i didnt really get the chance to go in back and chill for a bit so it just got worse#like REALLY fucking bad worse than ive had in . at least years maybe Ever. i have not thrown up in over a decade now but#i started fucking dry heaving behind the register i REALLY thought i was going to be sick it was a close thing#i couldnt even call my coworker up i just had to fucking dip and pray she realized i was gone (she did thank fuck)#and then i was shaking really bad really freaking out still fucking dry heaving in the back of the store and it was just.#easily one of the worst experiences ive had in a LONG time like december will not leave me alone <- covid then appendicitis and now this WH#and my manager hadnt been in the store at the time but she came in thru the back and saw me and i was like hey haha funny story#and she was so concerned and told me to stay in back as long as i needed and that i could go home if i wanted to etc etc#ended up bringing my bag back for me and bringing me water and she checked in on me every 5-10 mins until my parents finally got there#she was rly nice and rly understanding and then the coworker i abandoned who is also kind of my manager. also came back#and SHE was ALSO super fucking sweet about it really concerned didnt want me to feel bad abt it (i feel so fucking bad abt it)#i did end up having to go home early bc. dear god. and i texted my manager just now asking if i could leave a bit earlier tomorrow#bc im supposed to have another 8 hour shift but i didnt even make it to 4 hours today and im rly nervy abt it happening again#and she straight up was like 'are you sure? i was genuinely planning on covering your shift myself' SHE DOESNT EVEN WORK UP FRONT#SHE'D BE GOING BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN THE REGISTER AND KITCHEN AND SHE'D BE THERE FOR AT LEAST OVER 12 HOURS#like okay. okay. when i texted my parents abt it dad told me 'its probably just nerves. try to push through it'#but my manager and coworkers r gonna be the sweetest kindest most understanding people about it. okay. sure. okay.#surely u see why i am exploding WHY ARE THEY SO NICE?????????? i feel so fucking guilty GOD#alyalyoxenfree
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I was so prepared for this morning
#i went on my first 15 min break and one of my managers got a big gash on her hand#my other manager was freaking out and i remembered i had some soft bandages in my bag#bc i always wanna be ready for anything#so i went and grabbed it and grabbed a gauze pad and wrapped it up for her#and thankfully my work had gauze tape bc i didnt#yet my work doesnt have gauze???#well anyway#so i bandaged her up and my first break is already half over#i was called paranoid by all of my coworkers at my old jobs. ALWAYS. For being prepared#well whose laughing now#...ok no not me that bitch looked painful#but i came in clutch w that bandage#i think she needs to see a doctor but my word isnt good enough#it doesnt look like it needs stitches but speaking from experience it looks like it will scar
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im about to be the most obnoxious bitch on earth about it but babygirl came home thank fucking GOD. my hardcore pregrinding was not for naught. how have i won 4 50/50s in a row. what is it about hydro bitches And Wriothesley
also team Throw The Literal Book At Em is real now thank god
#crow.txt#genshin#not writing#i fucking love himmmmm hes so funnnnnn#the only genshin player who has ever leveled frostbearer. just cause.#im gonna throw more wishes at him probably. just cause. c1 would be nice#i love him and his slutty demonias so bad. i have disease. im going to bite him in half#i literally had all his equipment leveled like a week before he was even gonna be out. had him lv 90 within like 20 mins#bc i needed like literally 3 boss mats and the second to last time i fought it it gave me 2 -_-#alternate names for that team. catalyst court. or just The Courtroom. ill level yanfei one of these days#why does he growl a little bit when he attacks. freak. im ill in my brain#i love that i got to be so damn picky with his artis. beautiful 0 def substats#my bait for him to come home was like. neuvi. i made myself tea just cause as a Joke. funny team to put him on. 4 50/50s would also be funn#my favorite number no less. the only funnier thing would be losing to mona. a 4th hydro bitch. and also i had all his stuff leveled#except Him. also his gay little aesthetically matching catalyst that is useful on literally nobody else. they were so real for this#ofc not his BIS but they made his design match. chef kiss#im also gonna get him a full blizzard strayer set. just for fun. for now he can steal rosarias. that domain is a cruel mistress
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