#mil tag

[quillkiller]

"he's my brother. he already hates me forever." aughhfhhhgggg i need to lie down.......

I KNOOOOOOWWWWW

it’s been on my mind for weeks its so fucking sick and twisted. everyone bow down to kara or like pray on her downfall for saying something so so so awful and devestating .

just the concept of the black brothers and their lack of communication and how it’s probably too late and they’re just too old now to actually genuinely start over. something about how they still want to be in each others lives but it only works if there’s more distance than not between them…,,, makes me SICK. and they love each other so much!!!!! but they don’t know how to be kind to each other or how to be friends or how not to look at each other without seeing their parents . its HARD to be with each other for too long because it brings back things they’re trying so hard to forget and move on from . when the person you love the most is the one you can’t stand to look at

[sommerregenjuniluft]

ok i'm back!! lune. lune oh my god your JP vision is everything to me, i can see him so clearly and i LOVE the fleamont/treasure/estate situation

i have additional questions: does he also have a fun name for the estate the way john b calls his house the chateau? who's who in the friend group bc me personally i can absolutely see sirius as jj and remus as pope and lily could be kinda like kiera (mainly in that like,, fiery and independent vibe she has) and i feel like for peter you'd have to kinda play around with some characters but i can totally see them as the pogues.....

and then regulus as sarah.... yeah..... please elaborate on the fucked up mentor/mentee relationship with riddle also please and thank you

miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiilllllllllllllllll<3333 that makes me so happy to hear T^T

hhmmmm i havent thought about it, maybe we can come up with something! i love having little easter eggs that relate to something in canon. idk if hogwarts would be too on the nose HAHSAHA but i mean. it is an old, big house that kinda looks like a castle...... sjfds idk i'd love to brainstorm with u. and yes mil you read my mind. that's what i thought too regarding the friendship roles/gang composition. though i think it's fun to mix the backgrounds/family situations/relations to the treasure around a bit. i'd want lily to be the book smart one, the one with the scholarship opportunity and also i think i'd want her to be the one related to denmark tanny (or whatever the name will be in the au). but i want her to have had the kook year that kiara had, lily alone in the nest of the snakes. and possible give her something close to jj's family situation. or like, an apathetic parent perhaps. remus can have the poor but loving family that pope has, with lyall and hope<3 i dunno what else he has going on besides that for now, possible something disability wise? terminal illness.....the gears r turning. sirius is a mix and match again. in this au both sirius and regulus are orphans, lets say their parents died when they were pretty small, then it was their grandparents and at last alphard but it didnt take long then for regulus to get swooped up by tom (i'll get to that in a minute.) so sirius is living with alphard and he kind of has the relationship with him that kie has with her parents, sorta abusing his position in a relatively wealthy home and using up all of his resources for his family, his friends (here his inner jj swings with as well, he's so boundlessly loyal). now coming to reg. riddle is a big shot kook obviously, filthy rich but from rags to riches type beat like ward. and his thing is that every like 5 to 10 years he adopts kids and like sponsors them sort of? like a sick twisted version of carlyall from twilight. i'd imagine maybe he started out with an ophaned niece and nephew or maybe or distant cousins and then just. kept going because he craved the company and liked playing the role. sometimes it's more but mostly he adopts two at a time, a boy and a girl. cue, barty and regulus as rafe and sarah versions. now what i'm about to say next is a bit fucked up so feel free to dip jdhgks. when they're 14/15 barty and and reg have this weird little pseudo incest thing going on where they're dating sort of. or not directly in a romantic and sexual sense but it's wildly different from regular platonic and familial. and it's all a bit bananas since they have the same father figure yknow. so they live with riddle, they have dorms at his estate. but evan is also sort of in the picture. (kind of filling the spot where the topper character leaves a whole). and evan is,, idk probably in love with both of them. which is, again, twisted and weird and bananas. since theyre. adoptive siblings on paper. skjgjsd anywho! i'm still not sure what to do about wheaze and rose. i considered bellatrix and delphini (that affair child bella had with tom) but i could never make her barty's adoptive mom. she'd just encourage his psycho ass and then the plot would crumble in over my head. at this point i also wanna take whoever is reading this by the cheeks, look u deep in the eyes and remind you of the little rafe x kie (bartylily) crumbs we'd get when exploring the s3 plotline :3 oh! oh!! also dorcas as cleo. hot sexy badass, french/jamaican accent having goddess of a young women that lily pathetically immediately falls for. it's just a big ol' OH moment where lily is like. yo i'm into girls?!?!!!!! i've pondered for a long minute what to do with the pope x kie romance plotline and i think i'd wanna make it a mutual comphet thing. remus is pissed at sirius for rejecting him after they have an almost kiss after dancing around each other for so long and then lily is there so he takes the out.

((lmao tumblr told me i need a paragraph here, i really been yapping too much already))

and sirius can't say shit because he's the one that bailed on remus, so remus lets him suffer (and also punishes himself for advancing on him in the first place). and for lily it's just that it takes her a minute to understand that the reason she can't choose between her boys is not that she's an indecisive slut but that she really does love her boys all the same amount, just not in a romantic way. cue dorcas strutting in with her knife wielding skill and her criminally sexy little belly button piercing and her braids and. yeah,,,,.

i'm also thinking latino james possibly, lily being mixed ghanaian (1) (2) (3), cambodian black siblings, and remus can be the token causasian lmao. barty as well and evan will always be some kind of blasian to me.

okay before i come to an end i wanna talk about trans fem reg for a second though. i've been browsing the net and reading about mtf transitioning a bit to portay regulus accurately and give a good enough representation. in my mind regulus, in this au, noticed that she's different pretty early on. and what with having sirius and it being a very modern, 21 century au, her transition began rather early. medically it's typically recommended to start with testo-blockers around 15 and added estrogen at 16. and that's exactly what regulus does. like always, when taking hormones there's gonna be some side effects, unfortunately. thrombosis risk increases, your libido decreases and you're probably gonna be tired and exhausted a lot and also more emotional and sensitive, have a shorter fuse. regulus does a lot of biking and swimming in her free time against the thrombosis, preferably in their long pool at the riddle estate but when she's feeling good enough about her body she does like to take out the boat with barty and evan and beat them in a swimming race. she's nap queen, she's sleeping everywhere, all the time and when her and james start getting together he calls her sleepyhead all the time and in the most affectionate tone and it sorta just keeps being the main pet name he has for her. also the low libido/possible body dismorphia go very hand in hand with the sarah arc where she's unsure about having sex for the first time. all in all regulus is pretty snappy and thin skinned, emotinal. but it makes her passionate and compassionate especially, which james loves and adores. all of it. yknow how in s2 sarah and john b stay at that hotel and jb steals the phone. i want james to overhear a pair of older-ish women complain about menopause and their pills and then break into their room when they're away for dinner and steal regulus some estrogen pills. it's probably not the right dosage and reg can't take them but!!!!!!!!!!!! it's the thought that counts and to regulus that counts A LOT.

[sugarsnappeases]

the exes to lovers was gonna be soooo cunty!! pinky promise!! i had the line "you're deeply unpleasant. like, as a person. did you know that?" but then i wrote down the words "old habits die hard" and my hand slipped ://

oh i believe you wholeheartedly mil!!!! that line is so so so cunty . but then i thought the whole ‘what’s your damage’ thing was cunty and that didn’t preclude it from also being one of the most devastating things i’ve ever read….. do you still?? say yes say yes say yes <- i think about that a slightly concerning amount . will never be normal about it . i reread that microfic so often and it makes me DEEPLY UNWELL!!!!!

anyway that line is super mega cunty i agree and ur exes to lovers jeg remains my favourite type of jeg ever and i’m very excited for if you ever share any more….. what you just posted was sick and fucking twisted tho…… loving regulus is muscle memory…. ohhhhhhhh jesus fucking christ

[lifeisabitch-butimcute]

no you're so real luci,, last time i went to the dentist, the assistant pet my head and told me i was very brave (i am in my 20s)

they’re a lil confused but they got the spirit 💀 mine gave me glasses to block the overhead light they use, which is…not that bright….and I tried to explain that it was really more the Touching Thing but they seemed real proud of themselves for the glasses :/ so I went with it

bro I can’t believe they petted your head….next thing you know they’re gonna be shushing us like frightened horses….

[pretentiouswreckingball]

so mil, what do you think about Percy Jackson’s tv show?

[residentrookie]

hey ily bye

MILLLLLL MIL MIL MIL

[spacexcowgirl]

hi rose!! trick or treat!! 🎃

hi mil !! this took me forever to get to bc work but I am here now. I'm gonna do an upcoming snippet for wm&hf bc why not. warning it is slightly nsfw. also kinda long so I'm gonna put it under the cut.

“What are we doing?” Mary asks, pulling back and looking at Lily with wide eyes. Thing is, Lily has no clue. What are they doing? Sure, they’ve kissed more times than either of them can count, but not like this. Never like this. Never with the intention of going any further. But, here they are; Lily’s one hand slid up Mary’s shirt, fingers teasing a pebbled nipple, other hand pressing her hips down. Both of Mary’s hands are on Lily’s ass, squeezing and kneading, even after she pulled away. Her eyes are wide, earnest, waiting. “We’re dating, aren’t we?” Lily teases, the corners of her mouth tugging up in a small smile. Mary snorts, then immediately looks embarrassed by the sound. There are approximately 2 seconds of them just staring at one another with wide eyes before they both devolve into a fit of laughter.  Once Lily’s gotten ahold of herself, she sits up, still straddling Mary’s thighs. Mary moves her hands from Lily’s ass to her hips, though her grip is loose, like she expects Lily to dart away any second, and she doesn’t want to force her there. Lily reaches a hand down, twirling one of Mary’s curls around her pointer finger. She kisses her teeth, then forces herself to meet Mary’s eye again. “It doesn’t matter what we’re doing, as long as you want to do it, too.” “Too?” Mary’s voice is small when she responds, like she can’t believe that Lily also wants this. The tenderness, the doubt in her voice, makes Lily’s heartbreak. So, she leans back down, using both hands to gently cup Mary’s face. “Yeah, ‘course.” Lily confirms. Mary stares at her for a long moment, before surging upwards and connecting their lips again.

[the-sky-is-full-of-light]

The true college experience is going to shower in the dorm's communal bathroom with your best friends while blasting Cavetown and Dove Cameron.

[greaterfleshmachine]

my mother in law adopted a puppy - she's the cutest lil thing. a 7mo old doxie whippet mix or something like that lmao, she doesn't know. puppies don't rly shed cuz they're busy growing in their coat - she was excitedly talking about her not shedding. Ive worked w dogs loads so have lots of experience w them + raising my own dogs; attempted to educate her abt how dogs don't rly shed much until they're a year or two old, depending on the dog. she's still so firm on the idea that this puppy will never shed, stating something about that she read online whippets are hypoallergenic dogs (not a real thing which I've told her before but she never listens to me bc she doesn't like MEEEEE lol). so now I'm rly excited to see the dog grow up and see how much she actually sheds lmao

this is the same lady who told me not to do the raw food diet for my dog bc he would develop "a taste for the cows and start going after the calves" (we raise cattle) - cuz that's how that works lmaooo

[quillkiller]

hiiii jen <33 can i get 4 and 14 for the end of year ask??

hi mil beloved!!! 💖

4. Movie of the year?

my favorite movie i watched for the first time this year was ’a girl walks home alone at night’ dir. Ana Lily Amirpour!! it’s an iranian-american film about a skateboarding vampire :~) i was in awe after i watched it and couldnt think about anything else for like. a week

my favorite film released 2024 was probably the substance!!! also a film that had me GAGGED… like that was truly my barbie. it’s not a perfect film by any means, and i do think it has some logical issues and plot confusions…. but all in all, i still think it held up. i was going crazy after i saw it !!! demi moore fucking devoured ive missed seeing her on screen <3

14. Favorite book you read this year?

loser warning, but ’the life and death of anne boleyn’ by eric ives!! <- the anne boleyn obsession never goes away i fear. but it was SOOOOOO good. ive read countless books on anne boleyn before lmao, but usually i read books about all of henry’s wives/the tudor era & succession. this was the first book i read that solely focused on anne boleyn. now im on a hunt for litterature focused on katherine howard :~)

i also started a song of ice & fire but it’s taking me a while !!! but i am. very into it so far…

[sommerregenjuniluft]

lune will you tell me more about your obx james vision??

IVE BEEN WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO FINALLY ASK SO I HAVE A JUSTIFIED WAY OF YAPPING MY ASS OFF😭😭😭😭🫶🏼🫶🏼🫰🏼 mil ily. okay here we go. strap in, it’s gonna be long

first of all i want to talk about how similar jb and james are not only in character but literally their names. it’s perfect. it fits so well it’s ridiculous. john b vs james p,, jp!??! jay p jamie p,, like PLS. very funny very fitting. makes my brain tingle. now starting into the story and plot,, i havent had too much time thinking it out so this is a very drafty version. but we know the potters in canon are a pretty wealthy family, historically, and just making james be a pogue, live on the cut, have a poor family would be too easy. so i was thinking the heist gold being related back to the potter lineage kind of like with pope and denmark tanny. and fleamont trying to retrieve whats rightfully his/theirs. once he vanishes i want james to live all alone (except for when his friends are there) on this large, ancient property, in this huge empty house. after effie died when james was very young, fleamont packed their shit and moved with little james back into his ancestors home. it’s not a mansion but it’s a big ass house. rock and cement, lots of hidden nooks and crannies and fun trinkets and weirdly shaped windows. james drives an oldtimer probably, one with a big back bench and a roof that folds back manually not electrically and lots of trunk room. it’s his baby. it’s a she. idk about the name yet. nimby maybe, hinting at the nimbus broom idk fjkhgj. appearance and style wise there’s not a lot i have or want to change. he’s an avid chucks wearer like john b. he’s got his button downs, tits out at all times. the dirty ass bandanna he wears around his wrist or neck. (i want to mention that sirius has a matching one that he wears in his hair mostly, like on his forehead, holding back his longer hair. you best believe i’m not giving sirius jj’s crusty ass cap. not doing that to my angel baby.) mostly this just stemmed from rewatching obx and with a sudden clarity being like.,,, wow jb and sarah are So jeggy coded T^T

[sugarsnappeases]

sea lover (TM)..... to me.....

mil this is the compliment of all time i’m blushing thank you so so much aaaaahhhhhhhh i don’t know what to do w myself now wowweee what a rush

[lifeisabitch-butimcute]

hiii luci! 10 and 12 for the ao3 ask!

hiiii!! ofc!

10. What work was the quickest to write?

oooh Coming Of Age came to be shockingly quickly, and Banana Pancakes I wrote all in one go because I was in A Mood

12. How many WIPs do you have in your docs for next year?

lol. uh. I have my ongoing pandalily fic and pickup or delivery, which both have partially finished next chapters, and thennn another pandalily fic for a fest, and a new rosekiller one shot…so 4! Doesn’t seem like a lot in retrospect hah

ty!! 💕

[pretentiouswreckingball]

hello lovely loops! humbly requesting 1, 50 & 100 😌🤲🏼

Mil!!! Hi how you’ve been?? I’ve miss you, so much!! Hope you are doing great love<3

Since I already gave away 1 and 2, I’ll give you 3 if that’s alright with you

3. Got obsessed with this song due to disintegration (the fic) and couldn’t stop listening after that, this song have something i can’t explain. It just gets me, feels like being known, somehow

50. Lucy Dacus. what else needs to be said, really

100. Can you believe I only recently discovered this is the original song?? I always listen to the gym class heroes one thinking that was the og and nooo. This one is so much better, the clarinet?? Amazing.

[mildarka]

Felt like making a reverted AU

[spacexcowgirl]

you ask, i deliver: 44, 55, 66 for the spotify ask?

i hope you feel better soon <333

ah thank you mil, me too <3

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