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aestheticsuwu · 3 years ago

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Paranoia

In which Robby starts receiving anonymous love notes and with each passing day he starts to dread opening his locker and being at home. Who knew that person he looked over his shoulder wasn’t that far.

@shortkingkeene Sorry for the tardiness Hope you like how it turned out. And thank you for asking me to write this.

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Opening his locker with a tired sigh , feeling tired and his mind felt a bit sluggish. He couldn’t get any sleep yesterday .

Freezing at the sight of the paper ,already dreading to read it. His breath became irractic . Robby took a deep breath in and out to control himself. The Kata that Daniel taught him to be precise.

Fingers tremble as they reached out.

{Every time you kiss him I want to hurt you to feel that same hurt I feel.Stop being a slut and break up with him .Your mine not his.}

It didn’t start like this . It was almost a month ago when the notes started to appear, Robby at first thought it was his boyfriend leaving them but the writing didn’t match.

{ You look handsome . I wish I could hold you in my arms.}

He told Doug, who got jealous but he reminded him that he wasn’t interested in any one else but him . Robby asked his friends but they weren’t the ones . Diego, one of Doug’s friends suggested it was probably an innocent admirer.

So he didn’t gave anymore thought to it, Until he kept receiving them every single day , in the beginning it was just simple compliments about his hair and eyes which did stroke his ego a bit since he did hear that often from his boyfriend and friends. Tory joked about the whole secret admirer making him roll his eyes at the ridiculousness. Demetri proceeded to give a whole discussion about the romantic side and the creepiness .

But he could care less. It’s like meaningless compliments from a stranger and Robby prefers being with someone who made him safe and warm and let you be yourself even loving your flaws.

Hence why he’s in a relationship with Doug.

Then things started to become ugly.One day the note read,

{ Rickenberger doesn’t deserve you. I can make you more happy and satisfied. }

Doug had open it first. He watched the boys eyes get angry and a look in his eyes that Robby has learn that the tall boy made whenever he felt insecure.

Robby felt peeved at the note once he read it . He took hold of the boys hand and laced their fingers tightly and got on his tippy toes to kiss his boyfriend .

“This person has no say in our life’s . Like you said this guy is full of shit.” Robby comforted Doug, Reminding him of his own words when of the notes had said that pink was his color. Doug believed every single color was made for Robby.

Robby crumpled up the paper and threw it to the trash nearby and left hand in hand with Doug. Not even knowing a person watched them and felt angry by his actions.

Since then he’s been receiving worse written notes threatening him about being with Doug, Not letting his friends touch him and to the point where he started getting texts.

Robby tried to ignore them but they kept appearing . With time passing, the notes became texts and more aggressive or sexual which weirded him out and made his skin crawl.

Robby wanted to tell someone but he was warned not to. Anonymous has said he would hurt anyone if they tried to come between them.

There wasn’t no us. but nothing less Robby shut his mouth. He was scared but he was more terrified about being the cause of the people he loved getting hurt. It was like Anonymous took his power in being in control and turned him into something he couldn’t recognize.

Paranoia started to kick. In school his eyes flicker constantly to observe every single student, and at every teenager that was around when he went out with Doug or Tory thinking there was a possibility that the person could be them.

At home he would lock every door and shut the windows tightly . Closed the curtain in his room and checked for any hidden cameras . Robby began to hate being alone , the fear started to suffocate him and get the best of him.

He even started to hyperventilate when others stared at him a bit longer, like when Diego was standing to close and tried to make conversation, Robby felt claustrophobic and the walls were beginning to crush him. Miguel and Sam pulled him away when they telepathically knew their friend wasn’t doing well.

He felt bad doing that to the guy ,Robby knew the guy was trying to be nice. So the next day he apologized, Which the guy looked way to happy for. Robby still flinched when Diego touched him.

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Doug came over .Trying his best to hide the fact he was scared shitless. His paranoia started to slowly drift away ,it was something about his boyfriend warmth that made him feel protected .Robby curled up next to him and spent the day with him at home.

Doug became worried when he he had to go home.The shorter boy tried to convince him that nothing was going on whenever he asked, but his green eyes were glossy to the point of almost crying when he had to go home.

“Baby, You’re breaking my heart over here.” Doug said with a sad chuckle.Even if he was joking the sad puppy look that Robby did tugged at his heart strings.

“Can’t you stay a bit longer.” Robby really didn’t want to stay alone , his Dad was not here but with Daniel on a date and he knew how late his Dad gets back. Back then he didn’t care as they finally got their shit together but now being alone meant someone could be watching him in the dark.

“I’m already an hour late .” Doug’s phone screen showed it was 11:00 P.M .His parents gave him a curfew this year not wanting a repeat of last year.

“I’m sorry . I’m s-s-sorry I just-,” Robby stuttered making Doug concern .Robby really wanted to tell him he was scared so he did .

“I want to take a shower but I watched a scary movie earlier and I’m scared.” It was half of the truth.He hadn’t showered in two days which was bad but you try showering when there might be someone lurking.

“It’s okay, Don’t apologize. You scared me I thought it was something bad. I’ll stay a bit longer .” Doug said, not knowing how much of a relief it was to Robby.

Grabbing his towel and essentials he checked the restroom quick for anything out of place. Nothing.

Doug was sitting in his bed making Robby shift his weight one foot to the other.

Doug glanced up realizing his boyfriend was just standing instead of showering. Robby scratched his head not knowing how to ask but thank God Doug knew what he needed.

“You know, this bed isn’t as comfy you mind if I join you .I promise to behave , Pinky promise.” Doug stood up with a smile and lift up his pinky .

“Only if you promise.” Locking their pinkies together they enter the shower.He signaled for Doug to turn around to undress “Dude , This is not first time I see you naked.” He said but still turns around .

Entering in the shower his fix the the curtain shower and switches the nob on . Flinching a bit at the cold water. “ Don’t call me ‘Dude’ .” Mocking his voice the boy laughs .

Doug made conversation letting him know that he was still there. It really helped since he had to close his eyes to wash out the shampoo .

Shutting the water off , wrapping the towel around him . He stopped wearing it around his waist since anonymous complimented his abs .

Stepping out ,they both walk out and enter once again to his room. Grabbing his other towel to dry off his hair , Doug tells him “come here” gently and he hands over the towel.

He sits on his lap , smiling when Doug starts to help dry his hair gently. “You look hot and cute at the same time. How do you pull it off , my cute wet puppy .”

“Shut up.” Robby laughs and scrunches his nose making the boys heart swell at the adorable action.

. He leans in to kiss Doug making the boy pause his movements. He missed kissing him and not having to worry about someone getting angry about it .

Anonymous had taken a lot of his control.

Doug drop the towel and raises his hand to cup his jaw and Robby grasp Doug’s hair . He pushes the boy down until he is lying down and settles down in his lap.

Robby wasn’t doing this to make his boyfriend stay a bit longer, he was just feeling a bit in the mood but Doug thought otherwise.

Robby reach to unbuckle Doug’s bet but the boy pulls away from the kiss . “Wait, Wait, wait . Uhhh, Maybe we shouldn’t . You don’t have to do this so I could stay with you .” He says breathless , it took a lot from him to not keep going seeing where it was going but he knew he would be a bad boyfriend knowing Robby wasn’t feeling well.

“ I wasn’t. But you can leave now .” Robby instantly regret saying that because he 100% does not want to stay alone.

“I’m sorry , but it’s better we stop now than your dad walking in on us , Don’t you think .”

Robby knows he is right so he nods.” You want some hot chocolate.” Robby ask in a pout making Doug smile fondly at the cuteness .

After two cups of hot chocolates later and watching crack Marvel compilation making their stomach hurt from laughing so hard. His Dad arrives with a pleased grin .

“Isn’t it bit late Rickenberger ?” Johnny questions , his watch tells him is already 12:00 PM . He squints at the two kids .

“Yeah, Sorry about that. I lost track of time but I’ll be heading out now.” Johnny pats the boy shoulder and heads to the shower.

Robby watches Doug pocket his phone and keys making anxiety present itself . He chews on his lip not knowing what to do . He walks him to the door and hugs him. Robby pulls him into a last kiss making it last long as possible .

“Bye. Drive carefully . I love you.” Don’t leave.

“‘Love you too.” Doug waves goodbye and drives away.

Looking around the empty living room , he starts to bite his nails . Freezing when he hears a ping sound. A text.

He was seconds away from crying. Opening the app, he sighs in relief it was Doug.

“Don’t be afraid. You have many people that love you that will protect you from all the bad monsters. I will fight them all for you.❤️”

Letting out a a snicker at cheesy text. Robby felt less scared.

Deep in his sleep he heard his phone ring . He ignored it. Again it rang. Sleep was more important. It pinged 3 times.

Still sleepy he reaches for his phone to see who was texting him this late.

Unknown: I’m so disappointed in you.

Unknown: I expected better from you.

Unknown: If it was me I wouldn’t have rejected you and make you put that mouth in good use. But don’t worry I taught him a lesson so he can stay away from you . Who knew tires are so easy to destroy.

Dropping his phone .He scrambles to get away from it ,turning on the lights he looks around . Picking his phone up he calls Doug.

Each call makes him panic more . No answer. He checks for a text from Doug that he got home but nothing. He started to cry hysterical, he felt like the wind was knocked out of him .

He tries calling Doug again but once again, no answer. He doesn’t how long he sat there crying but he felt drained.Not wanting to stay in his room he goes to find his dad.

Knocking at his Dad door a few times to wake him up . The guy slept like a bear. “Robby? “ His dad asked drowsy in the doorway.

“ I can’t sleep in my room.”

“Is there mold in there ?”

“No. I’m scared.” Robby voice breaks wanting to cry again. Johnny become fully alert and hugs his son ,his own heart breaking .

“Hey it’s okay , pup. I’m here, I’m here.” He holds him as tight as he could but not to tight that he cut the kid air supply. He stays awake until Robby fallen asleep and only then he lets sleep take over.

Once the sun is out Robby is awake getting dress as quick as he can . He avoids his Dad questions and ask for a ride to school.

He sees Tory first . He catches up to her and ask her if she seen Doug .

“No I just got here . What’s wrong is someone dead?”Tory jokes but she sees Robby turn pale making her concern .

“Robby?”

“Just help me find him” Robby pleaded. Tory grabbed his hand and started to search for him . The blonde notice the change in Robby and she wish the boy would tell her . But it was like something kept the brunette from spilling everything.

They soon find him standing in perfect conditions with Diego,Hawk and Miguel . Laughing so calmly,like if Robby was scared to death thinking something might’ve happened to him.

Robby pushes him to wall and start throwing punches that Doug dodge and grabbed his wrist to stop him.

“Yo! What the hell !” He screams at the short boy outburst.

“Why didn’t you answer my texts” Robby spat angrily. The three boys eyes widen and a glint sparkled in one of them.

“My phone died after I texted you. “ Doug said confused at Robby’s outburst.He continues ” And went to bed and forgot to charge my phone.”

“Nothing happened to you ?” Robby felt stupid believing that person.

“No.” Doug looks at the others, they all had the same worried expressions at the brunettes behavior’”Robby what’s going on? And Don’t tell me it’s nothing .”

Robby just hugs the boy impossibly tight feeling the same way whenever he’s at home alone and feeling the creep watching him.

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“ Man, is Robby ok ?. “

“Yeah . Just didn’t get enough sleep that’s all.” Doug said not wanting to spread Robby business to the guy .

“Did he say anything unusual?” Diego asked him, his voice had a unusual tone to it.

“No, I just told you what’s going on.” He kept the chat short to try to go find the group to talk about Robby but Diego kept acting weird.

“ Right. It’s better to leave it alone because if we dig into it would be tragic.”Diego innocent smile felt more like a devilish grin . Doug doesn’t know why but it rubbed wrong with him.

“ Diego you want to say something more clearly.,” Diego just shook his head with that dumb grin that always bothered Doug,” Ok then , get out of my way. I have somewhere important to be.” He says monotone, passing by he and the boy knock their shoulders with each other.

That was fucking weird.

Diego stood with a blank stare . He really hoped Robby kept his stupid mouth shut because this time it won’t be just talk.

….

They all ditch school without a second of hesitation. Everyone had notice Robby’s new behavior. It got them concerned and worried.

Tory noticed how Robby became nervous whenever they were out in public and always watching over his shoulder.

She and Rickenberger had talk about it recently but they never suspected this bad.

Robby told everything when everyone confronted him. Left no details out like when he started getting the notes, when the creep started threatening him or to hurt them if he ever told anybody.

And when he started receiving texts and how he was scared of being in his own house in fear that someone put cameras in his room. But it was after he cried .

It wasn’t an exaggeration when he says his friends and boyfriend were ready to murder this person . None of them couldn’t comprehend who in their sick mind would ever tried to hurt and think they could get away with it.

Doug’s blood was boiling at just having the idiotic person in front of him and just show him the punishment he deserves for just thinking of Robby

Hawk and Demetri took Robby’s phone to track the IP address on the creep. This couldn’t go any longer. Miguel and Sam were going to tell Johnny and Daniel. No way the perv is getting away with this.

Tory and Doug were staying with Robby in all times , 24/7, which he really appreciated. Tory and Doug searched every corner in the brunettes room and found several hidden cameras well hidden.

It made the two teenagers infuriated at how the creep took advantage of Robby.

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Diego believed in love at first sight. Not many people did nowadays, it frustrated him to the point of wanting to break someon-Something .

Now everyone only fall in love with appearances e, white lies , fantasy, or that a person gets with someone they hated.

Nobody ever got his attention like Robby Swayze Keene. He does have to admit he had eyes on the broody Rickenberger at first - That’s why he befriended him as quick so he could get his hands on him.

Diego thought they would make the best couple, the guy had no flaws in his eye -well only one - the guy talked nonstop about a boy , something along the lines ‘that short stack is a thorn that gets on my nerves’ . Diego was willing to make that boy life miserable just for him.

Then summer break came and then it was over . And like cold bucket of water Rickenberger announced he was in love with the one and only Keene and they were together .

He was ready to hurt someone. How could he do this to me . There’s nothing left but to clear the road.

Then the most beautiful thing happened . He met Robby. Those green eyes belong to him. It was like fate . Diego was wrong. Robby is his soulmate . The boy was perfect and it was time to make him his.

But the most he tried to get the short male to look at him the way his emerald eyes to look at him the way he looked at Doug he never succeeded. He never even got a fond look like how Nichols, LaRusso or Alexopolous got .

It made him upset because Diego would set the world on fire for him. But he realized Robby could love him , he just had to adjust some things out of the way.

He starts with love notes that came from his lovely bleeding heart, When the message wasn’t enough he start sending them from his aching soul. Diego wanted more time. So he snuck into Robby’s home and set up two cameras.

Not an ounce of regret , he lost count of times he had a good time with his friend downstairs. He knew Robby was falling in love, he was starting to listen. It was enough for him to reach out .

…..

Once Eli and Demetri finally was able to get a code they went to Johnny and Daniel . They were all headed to Johnny’s apartment.

“ I think now it’s the time to go to the station and have this done.” Daniel spoke up , before Johnny got any ideas to commit a murder which wasn’t that far away at what the blonde wanted to do.

“Where’s Robby ?” Johnny ask Tory when they arrive .

“In his room , he wanted to be alone for a minute.” Tory informs him . He sends her to get him.

…

“Robby?, Your dad wants you to come out. Eli and Demetri came with the information.”

Robby whimpers is muffled by Diego’s hand. The bastard was in his room when he entered. He was confused until he spoke up with a psychotic smile “This is room isn’t that small as how the camera shows.”

All the pieces connected .

Robby made run for it but they guy was quicker. He grabbed his neck forcefully and pushed him making his head hit the wall.

Diego raise a finger to his lips to keep quiet. Robby just stared at the blank empty eyes , those cold eyes always gave him goosebumps.

“What information is she talking about? Huh?” Helplessly Robby just shrugged not being able to utter a word with the grip of the boys hand.

“ Get her to leave.” He ordered,”Be careful what you say” The warning in his voice didn’t fly past Robby.

Diego gave him a kiss on his temple. Robby desperately wanted to wipe off any trace of the guy.

…….

“ Robby doesn’t want to get out of his room.”

Daniel and Johnny share a look , Not even a day ago , the boy didn’t want to be in that same room. Daniel goes to Robby room to see what is going on .

Johnny can’t help but have a bad feeling. The three teenagers stare at him making him a bit uncomfortable. The door opens , The tallest teenager walks in , maybe he could convince Robby to get out.

“Kid come here”

“What’s going on?”

“Robby doesn’t want to get out of the room. Maybe you should try and give it a shot. We got the address already , Daniel made a call to the police.Tory and Daniel are over there- Are you listening?!

The boy was focused on the post-it note the Eli scribbled .

“ i know this address “ The kid say like he can’t believe what he’s seeing.

“What…” It made Johnny freeze. This situation was started to feel wrong. Like something might happen.

“ I think I know who’s doing this.” The kid looks at him , in his eye he could tell the boy was scared just like the rest of them .

…..

“I’m getting angry and you don’t want me angry do you darling “ Diego shackled rise with the constant buggering from the blonde and the man outside . What does he have to do to get some alone time with his love.

It was the 5th time he was interrupted right when he is about to give Robby’s perfect kiss . But Robby might be bleeding when does if doesn’t make them go away.

“Guys please I just want to be alone. I need some space please. Just go away” Robby kept his voice from trembling, Surprising him . It was to quiet and then Daniel just simply said ok and left.

Robby wanted to scream for him to come back. His heart scream for his dad or anyone to come save him.

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Johnny ordered them to not make a sound After Eli and Demetri hacked into the guys phone to track him.The location signaled here.Robby’s room. He had a gut feeling that Robby wasn’t alone in that room. Johnny had to not only hold himself back from breaking down the door but had an iron grip on Nichols and Rickenberger .

Danie and Johnny both go around the apartment not being able to just do nothing until the police came. The window is busted in ,Johnny forget it even had a window, Taking a quick peek in he can see two silhouette.

He prays for that same grace Daniel carried around everyday because his son life depended on him . He and Daniel share a look, a look of determination and thats all Johnny needed to climb in .

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Nosy ass neighbors try to get intell from anyone since they seen the lights of the police and the siren of the ambulance. Even people who didn’t even live here.

Johnny didn’t pay attention to them . He waited on them to finish bandaging the gash on his arm that the dumb lunatic of a kid gave him.

He wasn’t able to give the kid what he deserve , since the kids decided to do that when they busted into the room . It was like a rampage. Looking at the direction of the cop car, the boy is handcuffed and beaten up to pulp. He messed with the wrong family.

The nurse finish bandaging him up , the police reminded them about their testimony for tomorrow.

“Robby are you okay” Johnny ask his son. The kid looks at the direction of car and lets out a long exhale his shoulders dropped like a weight is finally was lifted.

“ Like i could finally breathe” Said Robby, a smile appears and Johnny ruffles the kid hair.

The kids are all cuddled up to Robby . And he knows he going to ask Daniel to let the others to sleepover at his . Johnny knows for a fact that he isn’t going to stay in the apartment.

….

A month later Robby stops looking over his shoulder, stops feeling scared and feeling paranoid. With the help of Tory, Doug, Sam, Miguel, Ei and Demetri - and going to therapy.

He isn’t 100 percent there but almost. Diego was sent to a psych ward where he desperately needed to be. Tory and Doug became more protective around him and it made him laugh how sometimes they would act like bodyguards.

They left their old apartment and moved into a different place in reseda. Daniel offered them to move in with them but Johnny refused, Something along the lines of wanting Robby heal before he has to adjust to another change.

Those two adult stood together and loved each other more which made Robby really happy for his dad.

Robby stood in front of his locker and since a long time he no longer is scared to open it.

Putting in his code , and breathing perfectly fine he grabs his notebooks and books . Walking away with Tory’s arm around his shoulders and him and Doug holding hands , heading to meet with the rest of their friends.

And the walls were no longer crushing him in but with a safe distance Robby can live in peace, We’ll as much as he can he still has to live the torture of school.

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demetriandelibinaryboyfriends · 2 years ago

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Starry-eyed Looking like a movie, every night’s a new scene I’m still stuck in hell

Say goodbye When they go home together, whispering forever I’ll go touch myself

I’ll still be alone when I’m done

All my friends are falling in love And I can’t even make out with him without wanting your touch Hell, I can’t even stomach a drink without hitting you up Know it’s too late But there’s still a part of me that’s hoping maybe one day It could be us Yeah, I’m still falling out of it and all my friends are falling in love

Every night I lay awake at his place, thinking ‘bout you always Dying, can’t you tell? Say I’m fine Faking like I’m happy, hope he doesn’t ask me If there’s someone else

But I’ll still be alone when he’s done

I can barely breathe Yeah, I still miss you Do you think of me when she’s with you, falling in love?

All my friends are falling in love And I can’t even make out with him without wanting your touch And no, I can’t even stomach a drink without hitting you up Know it’s too late But there’s still a part of me that’s hoping maybe one day It could be us Yeah, I’m still falling out of it and all my friends are falling in love

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@karatecaulfield WHAT UP WOULD YOU LIKE SOME YASMOON ANGST ON THIS FINE MORNING

Happy February! For the first day of Romance Month, have some angsty Yasmine content about experiencing the acute agony of realizing your love just a little too late! :D

...so I got really addicted to this song and had it playing on repeat, right?

And then at about the 50th listen, I had the epiphany that oh my god, this perfectly describes the situation of the sad, piney S3 Yasmine who lives rent-free in my mind, yearning for Moon and trying to fill the void by making out with Demetri :O

Gonna put my ramble about this and about S3 Yasmine under a cut because OH LORD did it get long ^^;

So the basic story here goes along with my headcanon that Moon and Yas were secretly, uh...experimenting in S1 (i.e. hooking up in secret). Moon started longing for more than a clandestine relationship behind closed doors, and wanted to tell people they were together. She figured they were the queen bees of the school, after all--no one would have the guts to give the girls at the top of the food chain a hard time for being queer. Besides, this was ever-progressive Los Angeles, wasn’t it? They’d probably become the school’s next big power couple, not losers worthy of ridicule.

Yasmine still refused, terrified of her own sexuality and the reactions of her homophobic family if they ever caught wind. All throughout their sophomore year, she told herself her feelings for Moon were just a dumb phase she’d eventually outgrow.

Naturally, they stopped messing around after the beach party fallout and Moon getting together with Hawk. When Yasmine spent the summer in France, she hoped the distance would help her to forget Moon and move on--maybe even become normal, as it were.

When the school year starts, Yasmine is in for quite a shock. Not only is Moon dating another girl--one Yasmine doesn’t even know, at that--but she’s doing so openly. They told half the grade at Moon’s end-of-summer party, with no shame or discretion whatsoever. Yasmine shoves down any jealousy that surfaces, feeling like an idiot.

It’s too fucking late. She had her chance with Moon, and she lost it. Absolutely torpedoed it on the infinitesimal chance that people wouldn’t accept her. Accept them.

What’s worse, Sam and Miguel seem to have rekindled their relationship...and are being utterly sickening about it. If Yasmine has to hear them giggling all through lunch one more time, she swears she’ll bang her head against their cafeteria table.

Yasmine, meanwhile, has commenced operation “Become A Normal Straight Girl” in hopes of finally shrugging off the unwelcome feelings that have started to bubble up again. After The Wedgie Incident, Yasmine doesn’t have as many romantic prospects as she once did, but...Demetri seems harmless enough, annoying though he is.

She hopes more than anything that their make-out sessions will awaken something in her. That swapping spit with him will make her feel like...well, however the typical teenage girl should when doing such activities.

But he’s not Moon. His body isn’t as soft, as curvy. His fingers on her skin aren’t as delicate. His laugh isn’t as warm.

Nonetheless. Every time she kisses him, she closes her eyes and pretends anyways.

Yasmine takes to crashing at Demetri’s house--sometimes even on weeknights. There’s a certain comfort in it, walking into school with her hair tactfully disheveled and projecting an image of shameless, brazen harlotry. Sometimes she even walks with a slight manufactured limp--to really drive home that she’s no prude virgin.

No one gives her a second glance. She hides in teenage normalcy so well that her classmates look right past the strangeness just underneath. The one thing after a brutal front wedgie that could make her even more of a pariah--if the knowledge fell into the wrong hands, anyways.

In truth, Yasmine and Demetri only try once to go all the way. They abandon the venture halfway. Yasmine knows on some level that they’re both just going through the motions--trying to do what’s expected. Neither of them really want this.

She still spends many a night on Demetri’s bedroom floor, staring at the ceiling. He lends her an old inflatable air mattress that smells vaguely of piss. Usually she’d throw more of a fuss, but to hell with it--it’s just the cherry on top of the shit sundae that is her life now. And Demetri, well...blemishes and all, he might well be the only way to keep up appearances. Keep eyes off her, keep the sneers away.

Because, as much as she hates to admit it, he’s the popular one now. Being on his arm is the perfect camouflage.

And so she puts on a happy face. Tells Moon and Sam and everyone else that she’s doing great. That thank god, she finally found a non-douchey genuinely nice guy to be crazy about.

Demetri takes her to parties sometimes. Surprisingly rowdy ones with his new karate friends, one of whom always manages to provide a keg.

The upside is that after a cup of beer, a make-out session or two with Demetri in the back of Sam’s yard doesn’t seem so taxing. The downside is that whenever she’s not lip-locked with her alleged boyfriend, she inevitably fumbles for her phone and is sending Moon a whole slew of drunk texts before she can think better.

The typo-riddled “I LPVEEEE YOIUUUUU”s don’t do much to raise Moon’s concern. Apparently she just dismisses them as “silly drunk girl-best-friend” texts with no deeper layers, because she rarely brings them up later. Or not as more than a light joke or a bit of teasing, anyways.

Thankfully, Yasmine at least has the self-control to stop herself from saying anything too damning. Anything a little too close to the truth. Anything just a bit more vulnerable and real than what she wants her best friend to see.

Anything that raises questions about why she’s showering Moon with drunken affection rather than her own boyfriend.

She senses Demetri’s suspicion sometimes, drifting down from his bed in a heavy fog. Surrounding them in the hallway as their tongues entangle, showing off to the school how very in love they are. Emanating from slightly-raised eyebrows when she leans a little too hard into a seductive hallway whisper, swinging her hips with a heavily-practiced motion that only looks stiff and forced if you look closely.

Every time she sees him, the question seems to be just on the tip of his tongue. The same tongue she is now far too familiar with for her tastes.

Is something on your mind? Is someone on your mind?

Nonetheless, the question never quite makes it out. Yasmine thinks she knows why.

This dance, this little tango they’re doing...she suspects Demetri's intentions aren’t wholly sincere, either. She sees how he looks at Hawk. How distant and distracted he becomes the second Yasmine spots red or purple approaching. How Demetri’s jerky, unnatural movements and stilted, hollow dirty talk mirror her own.

Demetri is ducking for cover just as much as her, hiding behind having the hottest girlfriend in school so no one will see what he really is. And on some level, they both know it.

Yasmine realizes. It’s only a matter of time before Demetri does too, and then...

Eventually, the pretty blonde alibi won’t be worth the exhausting facade. Eventually he’ll be done, and when he leaves, he’ll take her only cover with him.

She’ll be back at square one, alone at the lunch table as Sam and Miguel and Moon and Piper crawl all over each other.

She can only imagine how much harder it will be to hide the truth then--that her thoughts are constantly swimming with Moon, Moon, Moon. The only person to ever really make her feel anything, and Yasmine let the most beautiful and genuine thing in her life slip away.

And Moon...

She’s moved on. Happy with someone else. Confident and secure in herself and her sexuality and finally with someone who loves her loudly and openly.

And how can Yasmine blame Piper? Moon is so beautiful and kind and warm and loving her is as easy as breathing. Piper would have to be unfathomably stupid not to fall for her.

And Moon wouldn’t be with someone unfathomably stupid. Sans a certain red-haired asshole, perhaps.

Yasmine knows she has no right to be jealous. She missed her chance. She’s told herself that a thousand times. But even so...

She wonders if Moon ever thought of her when Piper was with her. Falling in love, like anyone would. And no matter what Yasmine does, she can’t shut off the tiny, insistent, ever-so-selfish voice in her, whispering that one minuscule possibility that comes to mind whenever she looks at the girl she fell in love with a little too late. The new hand weaved into Moon’s, the new arm around her shoulders.

Maybe one day, that could be us.

***

I didn’t mean to write a mini-fanfiction, but oop. I guess I got a little carried away ^^;

Admittedly I’ve always wanted to delve more into Yasmine’s whole closet lesbian shtick, because like. I’m sure I’ve mentioned before, but that’s the only way I can make any sense of her drastic behavior change from S3 to S4. Like she was not at all acting like the same person??? The whole being-uncontrollably-obsessed-with-and-horny-for-Demetri thing from S4 was so out of left field that it felt like it had to be inauthentic. Her supposed “interest” in him was also just...bizarrely stiff and wooden in a way that like...even Moon’s interest in Hawk wasn’t??? (And y’all know I hate that ship with the burning passion of a thousand suns lmao) Like Moon liking Hawk didn’t feel fake so much as just super shallow. But with Yasmine and Demetri, it’s not even surface-level, it just...all feels like an act O____o

Tbh it’s weird as fuck and there’s not really any way to explain it (while still treating Yasmine like an actual character) without assuming she’s being disingenuous for some reason. But why??? What reason would Yasmine have for getting into a straight relationship purely for show (seemingly) when she was perfectly happy being single all through S1? She’s clearly not one of those girls who feels like they always have to be in a relationship, so...why does the first one we see for Yasmine, someone canonically very attractive and popular (at least formerly popular), feel so fake???

Well. The only thing that makes any sense is that Yasmine felt some kind of outside pressure to get into a relationship (specifically with a boy, I’d guess) and chose Demetri because he’s relatively good-natured and harmless, and probably won’t cause a lot of problems as far as for-show-only boyfriends go lol (actually tagged Yas in a meme about this exact phenomenon a while back!). After The Wedgie Incident, we know Yasmine’s popularity tanked, so my guess is she felt the need to get an arm candy boyfriend (which Demetri technically counts as, since he got popular as of S3!!!) either because her classmates were starting to gossip about her “perpetual singleness” and using that as just another reason she was an uncool freak, OR her parents started prying about why someone as high on the social food chain as her (relatively speaking) didn’t have a boyfriend yet.

So the only explanation I can think of for Yasmine being so absolutely boyfriendless in S1 and so absolutely unbothered by it is that she’s either a) a lesbian or b) on the acearo spectrum and felt obligated to date out of social pressure. A lot of her ice walls really come down around Moon AND she vibes a lot with another character who’s very definitely a closet gay (Demetri obvs), so I’m betting lesbian. Definitely some flavor of queer, in any case--partly bc of the lack of any interest in boys at ALL in S1 AND because she’s so close with Moon. Moon is canonically queer, and queers often end up being drawn to each other, even before they’re out!!!

Also worth noting that sans Kyler, Yasmine seems to prefer the company of girls to boys. We rarely ever see Yas hang out with guys outside of school--the joyride with Sam and Moon, the weed-smoking date hangout with Moon, even her cafeteria table is all girls. The boys visit sometimes, but not every day! Pretty different from Moon, btw, who is more than happy to hang out with Hawk, Demetri, and Miguel during the first half of S2! Meanwhile Demetri seems to deadass be the ONLY dude Yasmine interacts with at ALL prior to S5 (again, with the exception of Kyler), when she and Eli seem to be friends. The whole thing is just kind of a wacky setup that doesn’t lend itself to me believing Yasmine was ever even attracted to boys. And like I’m sorry but, especially considering how absolutely lifeless their relationship is, I don’t buy for a second that Demetri Fucking Alexopoulos was the first guy Yasmine ever liked/dated in high school like??? She was the queen bee, ffs!!! If she really wanted boyfriends, she would have had many more!!! Or at least alluded to dating boys at all prior to 3 seasons into the show!!!

Yes, yes, I KNOW the honest reason Yasmine does a 180 between S3 and S4 is crappy, inconsistent writing, but that’s no fun so I gotta rise to the challenge of attempting to thread together what little we get of her to make her character make any kind of sense akjshnfiasbpi

BY GOD IF I CAN MAKE A BETTER AND MORE LOGICALLY-TRACKING YASMINE THAN THE SHOWRUNNERS CAN, WHILE USING NOTHING BUT THEIR OWN CRAPPY WRITING FOR HER AND A FEW WELL-BACKED EXTRAPOLATIONS, THEN I WILL

Anyways TL;DR Demetri is Yasmine’s beard and I’m pretty sure Yasmine knew this from the jump. Either that, or she was trying to become “normal” through dating him. I feel like Yas has a lot more internalized homophobia than someone like Moon, who as of S2 became pretty confident and sure of herself and is just generally less concerned with keeping up appearances and is more willing to just openly be herself than Yas. This is the main reason why I don’t think Yasmine would be at the point where she could just. Go out and date a girl like Moon did. We’ve seen that Yasmine cares a lot about her rep, and is probably less likely to risk doing something that might damage it than Moon is. This is probably also why Moon stuck her neck out for the “losers” and abandoned her more well-respected “mean rich girl” ways long before Yasmine did.

OKAY, ENOUGH OF THAT! I’m tired, and a full-blown “Why Yasmine is queer” analysis is a post for another day ^^;

I remember when I was making this moodboard, I was so bummed that this song doesn’t have fancy lyrics aesthetic pics (Fellow Swifties, we gotta remember how fucking BLESSED we are to have people who make Pretty Little Pictures with the lyrics, I stg), and then I realized...wait, my moodboard program has a text feature??? I can just make my own??? And so, for better or for worse, I did!!! This thing is probably WAY too excessive, but...I’m pretty pleased with the end result, so I can’t complain ^^; Apologies in advance that there’s probably WAY too much going on to everyone’s eyes but mine XD

Included a flower guitar pic because Moon canonically plays guitar, lest we forget!!! Multitalented queen!!! VERY glad I got around to fitting in that sparkly pink champagne glass pic and that glowing pink heart pic into a YasMoon moodboard, because I’ve been wanting to use them for quite a while now <3 ALSO when I stumbled across the middle right outfit, I was literally FLOORED by how perfect it is for Moon??? Like please let her wear those exact garments in S6, I will pay if I need to O______O

I can’t pay MUCH, like $20 at most, but I’ll still pay asihpfyg

And yes, I definitely maintain that Yasmine would in fact drunk-text Moon asking her what type of detergent she uses and then proceed to have absolutely 0 filter when gushing she was gonna start using that same detergent. So she can smell like Moon. Because that’s a very normal thing to say XD

Moodboard pic credits available upon request, as always! Lots of YasMoon coming this month :3

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