#messrsmcrauders

[wolfishmoon]

@messrsmcrauders

It didn't happen often that Remus got this drunk or high, as he didn't like loosing control of himself as a rule - a mental kind of scar left by his monthly transformations no doubt. And he wasn't even sure what had got to him tonight, whether he had drunk too much, or if any of his drinks had been spiced with more than he had thought was in the cup. But the fact was he was absolutely sloshed, finding his way to a quiet corner... and realising with delight that it was the same spot Sirius had chosen to catch a moment of rest too.

"I think they spelled the whiskey." He informed him as he dropped on the tiny sofa beside him, the world spinning a little. "Or I've caught Pete's lightweight disease between last week and today."

Shifting, he threw his arm around the backrest of the couch, getting his long limbs more comfortable, and leaning against Sirius in the process. He tilted his head to watch him and if Sirius replied anything to his comment Remus didn't catch it. His attention was captured by the way the dim lights played in Sirius' grey eyes, by the shape of his nose, the line of his lips and height of his cheekbones. So fucking pretty, he thought to himself, for a hundredth, thousandth time perhaps. Pretty in a way guys had no business being, and frankly not so many were. Mostly it was only Sirius who caught Remus' attention so, his intense eyes, his cocky smiles, his loud laughter and sharp jokes. The dizzying wonder of his affection.

Remus wanted him, and he had wanted him for years now.

He wasn't sure what exactly prompted him to move. The proximity? The enticing curve of Sirius' smile? The warms of his shoulder against Remus'? Finally, the excuse of his drunkenness giving him a false sense of safety, perhaps? He moved and cupped the other's face, and breathed him in for a second, face hovering close, before closing that distant in a flash. A kiss, swift, intense, and thoughtless. Sweet with Sirius' taste, the heat of his lips, tinge of alcohol on both their tongues.

And then - the reality of what he was doing, the depravity of it. He pulled back, head spinning and heart hammering in his chest. What had he done? He got up to his feet on shaky legs, brown eyes panicked. The consequences... oh they were bound to be dire and Remus couldn't face them. In his cowardice, he stumbled away, near tripping over his legs, catching his balance with a hand on the wall then away, away from that corner they shared, away from the shame, the fear. Through flashes of faces, passing through the party, through the deafening music and conversation, and deafening hammering of his pulse in his head. Out, out - to gasp the cold air and try to ease the unbearable knot in his stomach.

Oh what had he done?

[quietvs]

a wee lil starter for ;; @messrsmcrauders | remus.

“ do you think other people’s judgments motivate us or hold us back? ” strange question all of a sudden, out of the clear blue, but it had bubbled up inside his throat and burst out. regulus' blue eyes found remus'. the friend of a sworn enemy, right? it didn't matter. he was spiraling again and needed some sort of grounding. very much unlike himself, his fingers drummed against the fabric of his pleated trousers, " sorry if that was extremely random. i can't seem to stop... -- thinking. "

[starwrittenfates]

@messrsmcrauders said: “I say this a lot, but, look, they’re not good enough for you.” {for Lily from Severus 👀}

She can tell he's trying to help make her feel better. And it's working. Lily wipes away the tears falling from her eyes, a small smile coming back to her face. She can't help but rest her head on his shoulder, finding comfort in her best friend while shedding her vulnerabilities and insecurities to him. "Thank you, Sev. For always being a great friend. I don't know what I'd do without you."

Actually, Lily already knows the answer to that and she doesn't like it. After all, Severus had been the one to introduce her to the Wizarding world, informing her she was magical. If she didn't have him in her life, her childhood would have been lonely and confusing trying to navigate in a new place without him. "But in all honestly, I don't think this person even knows I like them. Granted, I should probably tell them, but...I can't. Do you have anyone you like too, Sev?"

[dementrd]

𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓 𝐆𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐄𝐒 + 𝟏𝟏 ( 𝐏𝐔𝐓 𝐀 𝐒𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐅 𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐑 𝐍𝐄𝐂𝐊 ) — from @messrsmcrauders ( remus lupin )

he  never  dresses  for  the  weather  ,  his  sense  of  invincibility  stretches  so  far  that  a  light  jacket  is  enough  even  in  the  harshest  of  winter  .  so  of  course  sirius  is  shivering  slightly  as  he  waits  outside  the  leaky  cauldron  for  james  and  lily  to  follow  them  outside  ,  a  rare  occasion  during  which  they  can   all  be  together  .  he  glances  up  at  remus  ,  laughing  at  the  concern  he  sees  there  ,  grey  eyes  rolling  .  "  i'm  not  cold  ,  before  you  say  anything  .  "  he  arches  an  eyebrow  ,  gaze  following  the  long  ,  scarred  fingers  as  they  begin  to  unwind  his  scarf  ,  as  he  steps  closer  and  wraps  it  so  carefully  around  sirius's  neck  .  he  sighs  ,  watching  him  from  underneath  hooded  eyes  and  wonders  why  his  friend  is  so  kind  to  him  ,  treating  him  with  a  tenderness  he  doesn't  believe  he  deserves  .  "  thanks  ,  moony  .  "  he  breathes  ,  eyes  falling  as  he  fails  to  hold  his  gaze  so  closely  .

[brightestwiitch]

@messrsmcrauders liked for a lyric starter and got cool girl by dodie.

"How much of a tongue can I bite until we notice blood?"

[potentialbreakupscng]

send “i’ve got you” to help my muse wash off blood from their body - @messrsmcrauders { remus x sirius }

Teddy was with the Potters for the evening while he had his...whatever this guy was with him. He'd insisted on making dinner -- which was far more intimate than he realized. He hadn't even realized he'd accidentally cut his finger in the middle of slicing something until Sirius said something. His pain tolerance was high -- because of the full moons, so when he saw the blood his eyebrows rose.

"Shit, fuck," he breathed, wrinkling his nose and his eyebrows rose when Sirius immediately jumped into action and grabbed something to press against the cut on his finger. He swallowed, looking up at him and offering a slight smile as the man heals up the accidental wound on his finger. "I -- uh, thanks. I'm afraid dinner's...ruined now," he lets out an awkward laugh and clears his throat, "I suppose we could have something delivered."

[mctherslove]

"Never take advice from someone who's falling apart."

@messrsmcrauders liked for a lyric starter, for regulus, and got dear reader by taylor swift.

[selenophobiic]

send “I’ve got you”  to carry my injured & nearly unconscious muse - @messrsmcrauders

Since graduating, full moons had been hard — but he wasn’t going to ask them to come and help like they used to. James and Lily were trying to start a family — Sirius and Peter were off…doing whatever it was they were doing. He wasn’t as good at healing himself up as his friends were — but he got the job done. This night had been particularly difficult, he couldn’t remember what happened but he knew the pain that he was going through that he was struggling to keep his eyes open long enough to seal up any of his wounds that were bleeding profusely. He knew he was bleeding too much — but merlin was he was tired. Not only from the night before, but exhausted from just dealing with this. Having to constantly rely on his friends — not only on the full moons, but with James paying for his flat and providing things for him. He hated it — he hated himself. This was the first time in a long time where Remus had very little energy left — and didn’t reach for his wand to start the healing process.

His flesh was far too warm and pale. He was shivering and sweating at the same time. His breathing was labored and it was impossible to keep his eyes open. He let out a loud yelp when he’s suddenly off of the cool floor — pain shooting through him as he was set down on another, softer surface. Sirius’s voice forced him to open his tired eyes, half lidded and attempting to focus. “Padfoot I —“ he started, his voice hoarse and slurred, but his voice was cut off by a cry of pain — the pain suddenly washing over him. His bloodied hands moved to his mouth to cover a strangled sob, sobbing not only because of the pain but because of the fact that again he needed to be helped. His friend had to come and help him.

[potentialbreakupscng]

"I'm not going to tell him you said that. Because if I do, it's just gong to go right to that huge ego of his, and I can't have that. There's not enough room for Sirius, Remus and myself to have an ego. Rooms too crowded." Though they both know that their friend definitely needed an ego boost. He takes the opportunity to take in her features up close, his fingers gently rubbing her back as he holds her. "Am I allowed to tell you that you're beautiful? Or should I wait for our first official date to shower you in compliments?" He grins and he nods, shifting so they're settled easily on the sofa of their common room -- thankful that they had their own space because if any of their friends interrupted this, he fully would be capable of using an unforgivable curse on them. "I think I can handle it," he mumbles against her lips. "I'll kiss you as much as you'd like -- until all that time that was lost is made up. Then it's gonna cost you." He grins when he pulls away and sends her a wink.

Her head moved with his touch, Lily smiling softly down at him as he tucked hair behind her ear. Eyes studied him, desperate to know what thoughts went through his head and what the 'something' had been. However, she wasn't going to push. If he wanted to tell her, he could tell her in his own time. Lily had learned a lot herself, one of those things being that you don't necessarily always have to be in other people's business. "I -" A sigh fell from her lips, her fingers curling into his shirt. She sat up a little, shoulders lifting into a shrug. "Whilst it was flattering to be constantly asked out by you -" Her lips gave him a gently teasing smile. "I think you stepping back gave me a chance to see the changes. Gave me the opportunity to appreciate you as a person. So, Remus was onto something there." Lily leaned down, playfully nipping at his lower lip. "James, you've been asking me out for yours - Are you prepared for all the kissing that'll be involved to make that up?" Hand slid up to his neck, thumb stroking across his jaw as she smiled softly against his lips.

[starwrittenfates]

@messrsmcrauders liked for a short starter! (for Severus)

Tears were streaming down her face and despite her best attempts to stay strong and keep moving, Lily was reaching her limit today. She had managed to find him and immediately dashed up towards him, taking him into a sudden hug without thinking. "I've had an awful day. Between receiving a terribly hateful letter from Tuney, to being reminded that I don't really belong here, I need my best friend..." She breaks down, sobbing into him.

[dementrd]

𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐈 𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐓𝐎 , 𝐈 𝐖𝐑𝐎𝐓𝐄 𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔 . — from @messrsmcrauders ( remus lupin , older verse )

some  terrible  parts  of  him  are  still  bitter  .  he  knows  the  great  and  lingering  truth  between  he  and  moony  —  and  it  is  that  he  had  believed  he'd  done  it  .  does  he  have  any  right  ?  it  was  sirius  who  had  wondered  too  if  remus  was  the  spy  ,  was  it  not  ?  their  friendship  and  all  of  its  tenderness  which  he  had clung  to  as  a  young  man  was  broken  to  pieces  by  his  own  doubts  .  so  why  not  allow  him  this  ?  "  you  wrote  about me  ?  "  he  looks  up  at  him  ,  a  cigarette  between  his  fingers  ,  one  of  the  vices  he  has  held  onto  in  all  these  years  .  sirius  looks  at  remus  through  a  cloud  of  smoke  ,  teeth  in  his  lip  as  though  biting  back  on  all  the  things  he  wants  to  say  .  "  i  used  to  wonder  if  you  might  write  to  me  .  maybe  come  and  see  me  .  but  you  thought  differently  .  "  he  swallows  ,  avoiding  moony's  eye  ,  he  pulls  his  skinny  legs  against  him  ,  looks  down  at  socked  feet  and  wonders  if  he  will  ever  escape  twelve  grimmauld  place  ,  or  the  terrible  bitterness  he  has  imprisoned  himself  within  .  "  i  apologise  if  i  don't  feel  sentimental  tonight  .  "

[brightestwiitch]

“ i love you guys but if you don’t move i’m gonna start kicking. ” { marauders polycule } - @messrsmcrauders

Lily Evans caught onto things quickly. Being involved with The Marauders, she noticed the patterns. How Remus’s temper would grow short and how the smallest things would get to him the closer it got to the full moon. She noticed how all of the boys had been unavailable the evening of a full moon — what she hadn’t figured out was how the boys helped him out. She wasn’t annoyed by them helping — but she was annoyed by them not mentioning anything to her. Everyone chuckled, except Remus — noting the look of irritation and how he excused himself at James’s words. She arched an eyebrow at him, gesturing for him to follow after him — her other hand reaching to rest on Sirius’s arm to stop hum from following. “They can handle it.” She leaned back on her arms, watching James follow after the other before a sigh fell past her lips. She was now sitting up from the mess of bodies they had been in, leaning back onto her arms as her eyes flicked up to the sky — particularly at the moon that was nearly full. “You know, you don’t have to keep things from me,” she stated after a few moments of silence between the two of them, “You all are going to be busy the day after next — because of Remus.” She looked over at him, emerald eyes scanning him for a moment. “The only thing I don’t understand is how you do it. How you help him.”

[consultingsister-a5]

"Oh, I got over my crush on you at fourteen, like all sane people do. You'll fancy me for years yet. Eventually, girls want more than motorcycles and dragon skin jackets."

She's wondered if she is okay for a while. No broken bones or nasty scars, but she's suffering from nightmares and sleepiness nights worse than ever these days. It's making her sloppy and paranoid. Cee misses the soft noises of others around her; she's never been good at sleeping alone. She shrugs. "Might be nice, I suppose," she says cooly when she wants to jump at the offer. "If your boyfriend wouldn't mind.

"Why am I the one pining over you? You should be the one absolutely miserable for me." Sirius grins cheekily, giving her the middle finger in return.

"True, although tell that to James and Lily. They decided to run in the other direction, straight into a marriage." He reaches to refill his glass before settling back against the cushions again. Eyes study Cecelia carefully. "Are you okay? You know that if you don't want to stay here alone, you could always come and stay at mine for a bit? Or I could come over more."

[starwrittenfates]

@messrsmcrauders said: "Every time I close my eyes, I see your face. And it hurts more than anything." {For Sev from Lily - for Lily’s survival verse maybe?}

He knows he hurt her. It something that haunts him to this day, clawing away at his core of being, constantly reminding him of all the mistakes he's made. And just like always, Severus is at a loss of words for what to say when it comes to her. However, he's learned his lesson now (and the hard way), to choose his words carefully and to keep a leash on his emotions so he doesn't do it again.

"I'm sorry," he breathes out. "I didn't mean it. It was never my intention to hurt you." He suddenly feels like that sixteen year old boy, showing up outside Gryffindor Tower, wanting to fix things and make it right. He didn't think she would believe him. Why would it be any different now? But he wanted her to know that he was still remorseful for it. "You were my best friend...and I let you down."

[potentialbreakupscng]

"From what I've seen from relationships, it's a lot of bickering." And usually transactional. Sirius didn't have a lot of healthy relationships to go off of. His parents, for one. Everything was transactional and -- he shook his head as he thought about it, physically shaking the thought of going home to them over the summer. "I mean, I know I'm wonderful, Moons. There's just too much wonderful to tie it down to just one person," he teases with a smirk, arching an eyebrow before raising his cigarette to his lips to take another drag, "I'm just not made for relationships."

He was surprised at Remus's confession, his stomach leaping and then he desperately tried to remind himself that it could be anyone. Literally anyone. The smoke billows out between his lips -- flicking the ashes off of the end before putting it out with the pad of his thumb. He tucked the half smoked cigarette behind his ear. "Mm, you always think you're a burden, Moony. And really it's not that bad. Honestly, the worst thing about it is how grumpy you get when someone -- definitely not me, ever -- eats your chocolate." He looked over at him for a moment before reaching out and stopping him in his tracks. "Practice on me," he stated with a simple shrug, taking a step toward him, "Maybe it'll seem less -- scary than if you approaching some bloke about it."

Remus listened, a soft frown worrying his brow. "You don't know that it would lead to bickering. Besides, Lily and James aren't as bad as they used to be. He's grown up a lot." A soft tut fell from him. "That's incorrect, you don't give yourself enough credit. Whoever they are, they'd be more than lucky to have you. You're wonderful, Sirius, and I'll tell you that every day if I have to, until you believe it."

Hands shoved into his pockets, he nodded. "I have. And I haven't told him." He murmured softly. "I don't think I could handle the embarrassment if he told me that I wasn't his." He cheeks burned bright red in the darkness, feeling bile rise even just at the thought of Sirius having to let him down gently. Sure, there was a chance he actually might be his best friend's soulmate. But there was also a chance he wasn't. "I wish it wasn't all so complicated. I wish I could just say 'It's you' and see what happens but -" He frowns. "Part of me thinks I should just stay silent, let him move on with his life and never say anything because even if I am his soulmate a life without me would be easier than a life with. Because I don't think I want to burden someone with what growing old with me would mean. Moony's only going to get worse and I don't know if it's fair to drag someone else into all of that."

~ @potentialbreakupscng ~

[dementrd]

𝐈 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐆𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐇𝐈𝐌 𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐊𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐒𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓, 𝐒𝐔𝐂𝐇 𝐀𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐍𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐆𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐎—𝐌𝐄 . — from @messrsmcrauders ( james potter )

sirius  is  drunk  ,  for  when  is  he  not  ?  he  is  intoxicated  and  longing  towards  the  pale  ,  shining  moon  of  a  man  laughing  across  the  crowded  pub  on  a  rare  night  of  peace  amongst  their  group  .  he  is  smiling  at  that  sound  ,  a  set  of  perfect  teeth  grazing  a  plump  lower  lip  and  he  wants  to  go  close  that  space  between  them  which  stretches  so  achingly  far  .  caught  up  on  his  best  friend  ,  he  barely  notices  the  proixmity  of  the  one  he  is  closest  to  next  to  him  .  what  has  he  done  to  their  friendship  ?  in  james's  drunken  words  ,  sirius  can  see  the  bitterness  glowing  green  on  his  lips  .  "  what  are  you  talking  about  ?  "  his  voice  is  uncommonly  soft  ,  because  he  sees  what  is  growing  in  james  ,  has  seen  it  in  so  many  men  before  him  ,  all  of  their  hopes  farmed  in  a  barren  land  because  he  is   in  love  with  remus  lupin  —  he  is  hopeless  .  "  you  don't  want  me  to  look  at  you  like  that  .  you  don't  want  that  ,  james  .  "