#meng yao kin

[airplaneshootingtosky]

— Meng Yao icons with themes of roses and fans for Anon

[yix1n-g]

Request completed: Meng Yao playlist

[mxtxkinfessions]

i feel like i may not be getting myself across properly. being a meng yao kin with more knowledge of canon than memories of it, maybe i have no place to speak or apologize. but even though i do not remember canon does not mean it didn't happen, so i feel responsible despite my life being different. i hope i am not making anyone uncomfortable. i just want everyone to be well- the feelings my canon counterpart have still exist in me, after all. i wish i could make all of it go away.

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[kincalling]

hello, i kin jin guangyao / meng yao from mo dao zu shi! i'm hoping to find lan xichen especially but don't mind anyone else! i also am in a mxtx kin discord server so i don't mind doubles for any character! i love all mdzs kinnies! please interact with this post if you kin from the source, thank you! i'm seventeen as well if this is a problem !!

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[airplaneshootingtosky]

— Moodboard for a Meng Yao with themes of fans and tea for Anon

[mxtxkinfessions]

oh dear. um, well. i'm sorry to you too, er-ge, you definitely did not deserve any of that either. (i have huaisang on the brain a lot lately, i apologize for the mixup, how awkward...) you were always the one in my corner, the sole person who believed in me from the start. a kind, warm presence who only wanted what was best for all of us, who always looked out for me. you were taken advantage of and it is not, nor would it ever be, your fault. you gave so much and lost so much in return, and i am so, so sorry for all the pain i caused. i never wanted to hurt you. (i, of course, can only speak for myself, but i'd hope this is something we can all agree on). again i may not remember much, but all my memories of you are good. -meng yao

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[mxtxkinfessions]

to huaisang, even though i can't say i remember much of the bad and a lot of my memories are from a much kinder life, i just want to say i'm sorry. i'm sorry for everything that went wrong, everything i put you through. sometimes i wake up selfishly embittered for all i suffered, especially when i don't remember it, but i know in the end it was all my fault and all the actions of jin guangyao are inexcusable. any and every version of me should have stayed with you and that's the bottom line. -meng yao

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[mxtxkinfessions]

if only you knew how much i'd change the world in order to make you happy. i didn't deserve you, and i am so sorry my actions ruined you, although i do not remember them. you deserve kindness and someone who can truly love you.

-meng yao

[mxtxkinfessions]

m. my very dormant feelings for nie mingjue are resurfacing due to those manhua panels. mm. 😳 - meng yao

[mxtxkinfessions]

i'd really love to turn back the clock and be able to have tea with my sworn brothers again. - meng yao

[mxtxkinfessions]

(tw: parental abuse)

i wish i'd had a better bond with my brothers. i know it was near impossible, due to them being used as tools to manipulate me and keep me in line by our father, but i wish i'd not fallen for it so easily. i wish i hadn't craved that monster's approval when i knew deep down i'd never get it. how much happier would we all have been if i'd dealt with him sooner? would any of us have lived? would i have also been able to save our sister?

- meng yao