#medicine tattoos

[drenched-in-sunlight]

after months of eluding my grasp the no.1 Rubicon hater manchild has decided to make his face known in my head.

[pinacoladamatata]

feeling kind of stressed like i'm running out of time to draw solas

[boipoi-wc-designs]

Frostpaw after wind

[jenniesban]

Okay, season 3

I found it tiring and repetitive. didn't need 10 episodes. 8 was enough. just like previous seasons.  

Carmen in this maniac episode was almost insufferable to watch. Everybody on here was waiting for him to be down, but the writers could’ve done better, and Christopher Storer could’ve shown us better.

First of all, his relationship with Claire wasn't that deep. I know it's all in Carmy’s head, the way he visualizes her etc, and yes I have a high degree of myopia, but this was not shown in s2. It makes me mad watching this lack of commitment with his partner and sister in an opening business.

I care about Camy, and it’s so tragic that he can’t get out of this cycle of abuse. but I’m a human, and sometimes I really wanna beat him. I know he's trying, but this man needs to take his head off his ass asap. Showing his situation with one hundred flashbacks was monotonous to watch. 

About Sydney, I’m so mad how they wrote her this season. Are they gonna end this show without showing us a center episode of her??? this season was a perfect moment to develop ONE OF THE LEAD CHARACTER OF THE SHOW!!!

My girl was passing for so much and alone, but the writers were like, nah, let’s show bad comedy with the Faks instead. Put a woman to babysit Carmen and Richie, two grown-up men for the entire season, it’s insane. (she's so much better than me)

I love Sydney so much, and we know she would rather get a shot than talk about her private life with anyone, but I need her to fight. I need her to speak. The panic attack scene breaks my heart, I don't think is all carmy's fault. It was a mix of everything. Fear of the future, insecure about everything, thinking about her found family and the possibility of losing them, starting a new business all over again (when she spoke on s2 that she didn't have in her to try again), fear of failure again. But I wish they had shown it better from her pov. They should have improved this part. 

I ended this season with a bitter feeling. It’s not a good writing job to have ten episodes of preparation to be resolved in the future. 

(And since Christopher Storer likes Taylor Swift so much, he should take all this hate train and enter his reputation era, and give us a better script in s4. #i think the bear is gonna finish in s4, so lets be productive and finish the show in a good way. please, all this with Joana Calo by his side, let her write!)

I loved Tina’s episode (thank god Ayo directed the best one), ice chips were insanely good. Abby Elliott and Jaime Lee Curtis!!!!!111!1 and the first episode was so well edited and directed. i love those actors very much so, they are so talented.

[allthecastlesonclouds]

the headcanons do, in fact, headcanon

(ayda aguefort with dermatographia)

[maliciouslove]

logging in to tell everyone to go watch A Sign of Affection and The Apothecary Diaries

[iamthunderhearmehowl]

Let me tell you about the tattoo that my mom hates (this is a long ass post btw)

✨️Trigger Warning✨️

Suicide / Depression

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Hey, hi, it's me. This is the only place I feel really open about sharing things - but with the holidays and cold months coming up I know how hard it can be for people who are struggling with depression/ bi polar / familial trauma, etc. So here's this post to remind you (and me) that we'll be okay. You and me. We will be okay. We are still breathing, and with every breath we take, we still have a shot at living the lives we've dreamed of.

You see this tattoo? I got it as a reminder. Oh yeah, also it's a Dark Souls tattoo. It says "Don't You Dare Go Hollow".

My mom HATES it, but she has come to terms with how much I love this tattoo.

But anyways, I got this tattoo to remind myself to keep going. I got it about 1-2 years after I attempted to leave this earth on my own accord.

Background (skip if you want)

It was 2020. I had been a Veterinary Assistant (technician basically depending on what state you're in, TN treats the assistants the same as technicians). Clients were beating me down dude. I had phones thrown at me. I had death threats. I had people telling me I was a worthless piece of shit. I wanted to help these animal, but to do that I felt like I had to take and accept this slurry of abuse. I was unmedicated. I felt alone. I felt like I was nothing. An empty vessel. So one day I was supposed to go to work and we were working on a skeleton crew. 12 to 13 hours a day, days in a row, sometimes we would still have to go in on our off days. I couldn't do it anymore. I called out. I said I was sick. The response "I'm sorry you're sick, but that puts our team in a hard spot". That was it. The last straw.

I ended up going to the ER. I stayed there for a week. And thrn I ended up in a mental institution for 3 days. I was started on Zoloft.

All was well for a little bit. I stayed in my profession and decided to go to Tech School to brighten my future and make some more money.

It was. The most stressful time of my life. While I did leave my previous clinic I switched to ER and Specialty and lasted only about 6 months there. Before I realized I was spiraling again. I felt like a failure as a tech. I was worthless. I wasn't enough. I got let go. If I had been doing this for 5 years and could do this what fucking good was I? I saw the signs. I understood what was happening. I sought help and went to group therapy at a behavioral hospital.

It was amazing. The people I met, the counselors, I made so many friends and people who believed in me. We increased the dosage of my meds.

Now. I'm at a new clinic. I'm spiraling again. I'm in bad health. The doctors don't know what's wrong with me, but I have a sneaking suspicion that it's stress from my career. I still come home sobbing. I come home feeling empty. No amount of medication can help free me from the unhappiness of my job. At one point I loved it. Somewhere along the way I realized that this isn't the life I want. I love your pets. I love my current clients. But I can't take the pressures of possibly getting hurt or sick. My back is messed up from this job, all of my joints pop and hurt, I have damaged and fractured my teeth from grinding them from stress. I am always tired. Working 10+ hours with just a one hour break isn't cutting it. I am miserable.

So.

I took the fucking leap guys. I'm doing it. I'm switching my career. I'm going back to my roots. I'm being creative and doing what. I started podcasting and realized how much I missed being myself. My VTNE is next month and I don't give a shit.

The game changer was really being inspired by the voice acting in Baulder's Gate 3. Hearing Neil Newbon's speech when he accepted his award made me cry. I took one of Steve Blums voice acting classes and . . . My God it was like finally hearing the affirmation I never got from my parents.

Back to the Tattoo

My point is, no matter how hard it gets, please allow yourself to enjoy the things you love and fuck what everyone else says. You do yourself a disservice if you don't give yourself a break. If you don't be true to yourself, if you don't strive for the life you've dreamed of.

It's why my tattoo is the Bonfire from Dark Souls. In your journey, you're going to fail multiple times. Sometimes, you get hung up on the same damn spot over and over and over again. Sometimes, you have to reface your enemies. DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE BOSS BATTLES. You may fail thousands of times, but you know what you do? You go back to your bonfire- your safe place- and you heal up. You get the fuck back up the next day and do it again. Sometimes your game plan changes. You don't have to fight this boss today. You can fight him when you're ready. You don't have to make huge progress in the game today - you can dick around and look for good armor. You can change the whole path you take if you want to - it doesn't matter. In the end you will eventually accomplish what you've came to do.

I have really been fighting for my life lately, but I don't want to lose hope. If I give up, then I'll never see the end of the game or move on to the next one.

It's hard sometimes. But my favorite quote is:

"So if you ever find yourself in a slump, remember your purpose - whatever it may be - and never stop fighting for your goals, no matter how crazy they may seem. And don't you dare go hollow"

I don't know you guys but I love you. And if you need someone to tell you that personally my inboxes are open.

[unofficialchronicle]

The Book of Herbal Wisdom, Mathew Wood. p. 472.

[greatmotivation]

Negative motivation corrodes the spirit, transforming ambition into anxiety. It erects barriers to progress, replacing hope with apprehension. Like a dark cloud, it obscures the path to success, casting shadows of doubt and hesitation. In its grasp, potential withers, suffocated by the weight of pessimism and despair.

[silverselfshippingchaos]

just woke up and gah... I bet v.iktor's arms would be so cozy..

[nerdgirlnarrates]

Minor Revelation

Had my meeting with my IM application advisor today, and afterwards I was thinking "hmm, why do I always feel good after discussing applying to IM, but I always feel like shit when I discuss applying to neurosurgery?" Some of it is the relative competitiveness of the specialties (in neurosurgery, I always feel like the bottom of the barrel, whereas in IM I have always been told I’m a strong candidate. Definitely a better feeling). But, I think some of it is that I can be more honest with IM people. I think my academic interests--medical education and quality improvement--are far more valued in IM than in neurosurgery, where I fear at least some people view those pursuits as frivolous. I think being a person with likes and dislikes and opinions is also more welcomed in IM (or at least that’s been my experience). 

 With neurosurgery, I feel a lot more pressure is put on applicants to be as agreeable and conformist as possible. Be friendly, but not too friendly--this has been stated over and over and over when it comes to sub-Is. Never have an opinion because it's not worth the risk of offending someone--also advice I’ve been given repeatedly. And I've been kind of terrified about letting on that I'm a person: I don't want people to know that I’m bi or Catholic or have a boyfriend or like to garden or write fiction or want to pursue med ed. I’m worried any of these things could be perceived as offensive or silly or just Too Much. I've tried so hard to obscure so many things I care about to be A Good Applicant (tm), and I think I'm done. I'm not gonna become abrasive, but I'm gonna stop trying so hard to hide the stuff I like and the way that I am. And if it turns out neurosurgery is hostile to that, then I'll do IM, because I cannot become a professional sycophant. 

I think I’ve been a bit of a coward throughout med school, so terrified of not matching that I’ve tried to reshape who I am, and I’m tired of it. I don’t want to put ambition ahead of my personality and principles anymore. I’m gonna be me, and if it doesn’t work out, then it wasn’t supposed to. 

[ihearasound]

I kept the second skin on my tattoo for a couple days longer than I did last time and it’s nuts. By the time I took it off it’s already almost fully healed. Artist recommended 3 days, but I left it for 5 days and the whole healing process went so much quicker, it feels like I barely have to do any aftercare anymore

[uncanny-tranny]

Hope your new piercing goes well!! I'm obsessed with tattoos and piercings lmao, there's something so healing about getting to decide on these little changes. It's like deciding to put fairy lights and little figures up in your room I think. It's just happy and fun. Just got my first tattoo 2 weeks ago and well... I already have an appointment for another. I think I'll end up getting a sleeve of pretty things that make me happy hehe

Thank you! While I'm at the shop, I definitely need to talk about tattoos - I haven't had a professional tattoo yet, but I want one so bad (planning on making it my first intense hyperfixation/special interest). If I wasn't planning on going into medicine, I'd definitely get a full sleeve or a hand tattoo... alas.

[roadtrippinlilly]

All In A Roll...

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[chillydownhere2]

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[notwxrriors]

heeeyyyy hii. not to interrupt jawn liker hours or wtv but i cant stop thinking about geoffs dick being called a clit. thats all sorry . we can go back to normal stuff now

no feel free 2 interrupt but ur wild for this. I totally agree w u, fwiw, it's good and im regular ab it !!!!!!! totally not thinking ab otto testing him on tht night they were all in wedding dresses or anything. :)