#me with my 2am thoughts

[mrinafria]

You didn't do it, right?

Been enjoying The Judge from Hell a bit more than I care to admit, and ig it's mainly because how well paced, well-balanced the setup and story have been so far, as well as the way the two (or three depending on how you see it) characters are written.

I couldn't help thinking about Freud's id, ego and superego in forming human psyche, and wondering if Justitia and Daon are supposed to be id and superego respectively. If id represents the unbarred, uncontrolled desires, needs and instincts, and superego represents the self which is driven by morality, civility, conformity, then it makes sense why as an audience, I find Justitia's actions somewhat problematic and yet feel this satisfaction every time she does her whole Ultimate Trial thing with the Gehenna knife. It's disturbing, and can be triggering even, yes, but she does what we cannot do, what we may have wanted to do on many occasions in life.

We want evil to be punished and held accountable, but our morality has taught us that there is a process to follow for that, that we have to trust the system (even if the system is flawed). Because we live in a society, because we are generally law abiding individuals, because we care about appearances and perceptions, because we care about consequences, because 'we should not think that way' or because 'that is not a sane, civilized, acceptable thing to do', because otherwise there would be no order and only anarchy. Because we are Daon, who is bound by the moral compass their superego has constructed.

It makes me wonder, then: who is supposed to be the ego, the middle ground, the mediator between the id and the superego as the story progresses? Will it be Justitia, who'd eventually learn how to pass verdicts that are not in violation with the morality of human world? Will it be Daon, who'd be compelled to go beyond the man-made laws because sometimes, to punish evil/bad humans, one has to call in their inner demon? Or as they join hands (presumably), they're both supposed take on that role as needed? (and what do we make of human Kang Bitna then?) Is Bitna ending up in hell part of some grand scheme, where Justitia gets to redeem herself while helping Daon rid himself of his guilt (because imo Daon would never get to the killer without Justitia)?

[sodaneko]

brother's best friend suna who barks out a laugh when you brazenly ask him for a cigarette, knowing you never smoked one before (not under your brother’s watchful eyes) but here you are, tugging on his sleeve and eyes nervously flicking between him and the party that’s bustling inside. you will never hear the end of it if osamu or atsumu—worse: both—caught you outside in some dark corner with suna, begging him for a smoke. they just don’t get that you’re not a fucking baby anymore.

but suna? suna doesn’t care. or at least he acts like it. he takes a drag of his cigarette, the cherry red tip gleaming in the dark, his big hand encircling your wrist and pulling you closer until you’re nearly standing between his legs. you can feel his body heat, smell the cologne, cigarettes and sweat on him and it’s alluring.

“be good for me.”

his voice is quiet and sultry against the shell of your ear. idle fingers trace across the puls point on your wrist before letting go, cupping one side of your face instead. you have to tilt back your head to catch his gaze—famished, yearning, something dark, too. his thumb brushes over your bottom lip, coaxing your mouth open for him.

suna has a feeling you’d swallow anything he’d put on your tongue when he softly exhales the smoke into your mouth, slender fingers tapping your chin, a silent command to keep it in until he says so. your breath is a little shuddered when you exhale but you don’t pull away, fingers twisting in the front of his shirt, more, more, more, until the half-smoked cigarette is crushed and forgotten under his boot and tongue sliding against yours in a feverish kiss.

[fansblogs]

why are practically none of the popular posts about tech the bad batch right. he’s either white (canon isn’t an excuse), “hot” (as in people trying to make him look uncharacteristically attractive and well-put together), dead (only thing acceptable among these), or dominant. it’s scary. that’s my loser son autisms georg who has 50 versions of block blast 3d all in different languages on his ipad, has the physique of a praying mantis and kinda likes this girl so then to show that he’s interested he smiles at her twice and refuses to ever directly tell her that he enjoys her presence and misses her because he thinks it’s obvious. he sleeps on a generator in his bunker in kamino and threw orange dye on his hair out of curiosity and never fixed it. said hair has never been brushed and is only taken care of when shaved into the worst fucking haircut ever. he wants to study the goddamn zillobeast. first thing he does in his own fucking series was call a droid a slur and then throw a bomb into it’s hands. the only thing slutty about him is his blue jeans. first thing he does in the clone wars was crash a ship and almost kill like 5 people. he plays chess against himself. he has an ego that honestly reaches the sky and yet isn’t exactly self-obsessed but rather very confident in his self-efficacy. he has gamer skulls on his helmet. the masses have confused his dirtiness and foul-play in battle to be equivalent with his sexual nature. he projects an entire autistic meltdown onto his brother. his movements are quite representative of a cat . he has big brown eyes for no fucking reason and has the uncanny ability to look like the cutest thing ever when wearing his helmet. he’s the only one on his team with white/grey armor because he thinks he’s awesome and yknow what. he’s right. he’s inherently ugly and sexless so thus women flock to him like moths to a flame. he genuinely will think they’re interested in his tirades about power converters and the fascinations of spectrograms. he’s a bitch and will yell at you for problems he has caused and invalidate your feelings about it. and he got crushed by a cablecar.

i’m losing the plot here but my point is that i do not think i can take anymore propaganda that tech is a hot normal nerd guy. he does not have a crazy 8-pack, he is studying the natural radiation present within plants for fun. he’s crazy ok you have to know that. he’s not just a nerd there’s something deeply wrong with him and you have to love him like that . ok. also he’s not white and despite all of the whitewashing in his model itself there’s so much to unpack with the deliberate lightening of the skin when relating to an unbelievably intelligent character (which is all obviously disgusting and blatantly racist) so let’s not feed into that stereotype ok. it’s not hard to actually draw him based on temuera morrison so let’s do that instead of drawing sheldon big bang theory.

[tstain-is-an-idiot]

my first transformers art and its a shit meme redraw

[ganondoodle]

Hi! I absolutely love your art! I saw a post saying how demons are able to have kids by themselves. How does the whole process & the birthing process work exactly?

hello! thank you so much for this ask!!!

(i made some sketches and wrote down some notes on this but i will explain in more detail below that ... its pretty long again .. sorry qwq)

demons (in my OC story and world) are .. essentially "built" around the idea of what a natural guardian of an ecosystem could look like that is as indestructible as possible while still being very much a living being

their biology is somewhat simplified (if you want to call it that), meaning they dont have nearly as many organs as we have and it works rather 'simplistic' (like they recover their energy passively through the particles of it in the air- which is a reason why they need to breathe (other being to get the blood to the right places) and usually only eat if they had a loss of energy/blood, like a bad injury they needed to heal quickly or spending too much on magic use- and its literally just converted into magic/blood)

(truth be told i havent thought out or designed each and every organ, forgive me :V) but the main things are, four lungs, a demonic heart (the most important thing that keeps everything running), a second red blood heart (like humans have, but very small and a rather useless remnant of their evolution, sorta like the leg bones some whales still have), the reproductive organ (usually somewhat between the lungs, directly below the heart, but it depends on each demon) and a stomach which is also the dead end of their system (they are supposed to be able to digest everything that goes in there, if theres somethign they cant it has to be vomitted)

-having offspring is generally extremely rare, demons dont die of age and are (or are supposed to be) very hard to kill so its purely a deeply personal choice for them to have one- each demon can have them given the organ isnt damaged and they decide to kickstart the process (you cant really force a demon to carry a child)

-their genes work a little differently, a child from one parent isnt really a clone and inbreeding is technically nigh impossible with them in the sense that offspring wouldnt show any negative defects (culturally it would be a death sentence, as a romantic relationship that is, demons being single parents throughout generations isnt considered inbreeding) -if two or more demons are partners and want a child of them both they can exchange genetical information via heartblood (the highly concentrated blood in their hearts, which is the only thing that openly carries genes) deliberately through .. well cutting and transferring blood (alot about demons is really about their blood) which influences how much a child may resemble them for example but also mixes up the gene pool of both the parents as well as the offspring

-(important add on- this sort of blood exchange would need to happen right before kickstarting the process otherwise it would just mix with the general gene pool- a theory to explain, at least in part, why brutal fights are such a common thing in demon culture is to indirectly raise the chances of heartblood mixing in the act of fighting instead, since romantic relationships are so rare among them and most are single parents)

-once the process is started it can only be slowed down but not stopped (unless getting it out prematurely), and at reaching ca. 5% of development a demon is unable to change into humanoid/their smaller form since the fetus cant change form with them, trying it anyway is extremely dangerous

-offspring are considered to be 'full term' when they are born and can produce their own energy/digest food to gain more, though they can be born at about 50% of development without dying, then however need to cling to another demon to feed on their blood in order to reach that dev. stage

-its largely not visible when a demon is carrying a child, though it also depends on the demons 'built' and general condition (for example, Shargon is very slim and has little energy storage, depending on how long he lets it develop it might cause visible changes on top of typical behavioral ones, if Eadrya would do it they could without anything being noticable except the required refusal of changing forms really)

-a demon carrying an offspring will refuse to change form, likely refuses to engage in fights, generally retreat depending on their social status and might show shortness of breath (it puts pressure on the lungs and heart especially in the later stages and with slimmer or smaller demons), rest more and forage for things that are highly convertable to energy/blood if they cannot recover it passively evenly as it is used (a somewhat stable energy/blood/magic -sorry i still dont know what to call it so its not confusing- level is beneficial to the offspring, a lack of it can put both at risk)

-birth is generally initiated by the parent or when it has reached full term, and since its done so via the mouth it has to pass by the lungs and heart, compressing them both immensely for a short time, not being able to breathe and possibly causing the heart to stop temporarily depending on how far along the offspring is/big compared to its parent- Shargon cant carry fully to term since even an appropiately sized one has to pass through his slim body (Jyothi was born at around 90%, Tyura at roughly 56%) and it causes great stress on his system since hes chronically lacking energy in part from being hunted down alot (Tyuras early birth happened bc Shargon was critically injured by Eadrya and hunted by them during the earlier stages as well)

-it IS possible to allow it to grow to full term even when it cant pass by the lungs and heart though it involves bending or breaking bones (if he carried Jyothi the remaining percentage he would have had to do that) or in extreme cases to cut themselves open, given their healing capabilities that might sound not too bad but it is extremely painful, risks dangerous injury to both and permanent damage to the reproductive organ (also their healing is often more of an active thing rather than a passive one, especially with bigger and more dangerous wounds that need quick healing, meaning they have to actively "do" it, which is hard when you are literally dying)

-the offspring is within an translucent egg like bubble (though squishy) of ideally highly charged demonic blood, the outer layer can withstand quite a bit; ones born before reaching full term (in which case it would dissolve right away) either remain within it (if sufficiently charged with energy) or it dissolves/is cut open during or after birth and the child has to cling to another demon to feed on their blood this way

-uniquely, before reaching full term a young demon can convert any elemental type of blood to their own, losing that ability afterwards

-offspring can be of any elemental type from any parent though the likelyhood is slightly higher for ones with the same type, even moreso when it is a single parent (Shargon is thunder, his firstborn is wind, his second also thunder)

I hope this isnt too long and uuh answers that!! <3

[helsensm]

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[altcvnningham]

adler can’t stop holding bell’s face when he kisses them.

and not gently, either, not the caress of a flower petal, delicate and sweet- bell’s barely a rose if not for all their thorns, and he wrings a hand round their jaw like one might wrench out a weed. rid and tossed to the dirt with all the rest. with all the red. with all that makes them wrong. with everything that came before.

if he can’t muzzle his dog, who can?

he bends their head upward in the interrogation chair, thumb dug into their cheek, squeezing the blood from their mouth into a sanguine rivulet between the web of his fingers; he jerks bell’s face toward the evidence board when their empty eyes fix on him a moment too long, enough to unsettle him; he stamps their chin under a hard thumb when he turns them to the light, soft pupils blown wide as he watches the sweet drug take hold; he digs his fingers into their jaw when they bark too loud at their duly master, shaking sense into his dumb mutt’s whistling hole of a head.

when he deigns to let them go, he makes a point to tear his hand away, sharp and spiteful, so even with the sting they still manage to find suffering in the loss. to yearn for the hand they bit back.

so the rest comes violent, too. the rest comes hungry. the rest comes when he wants it, and he wants bell, with such a blind fervour it drives him mad. where better men might leave, kick their losses to the curb and go elsewhere to get their fill, adler digs his heels deeper in the mud, the dirt where he buries all that red he carved out of them. if it’s tenderness he wants, he can take it for himself, and leave them with the hurt. it isn’t stooping to their level if he’s the one with the leash.

he kisses bell like he’s eating them from the inside. one hand squeezed tight around their flushed face, mouth forced open into an o-shaped pucker. he nicks their lip as smirking proof of his callousness, snags it on his sharpest canine. a peck that mocks affection. licks his way inside their mouth like it’s a threat, a proclamation. you let me do this to you. you let me in, bell. let me in, let me in. such a good dog when they do, loll their tongue out pathetic and starving. he drives his thumb inside, hot, wet, forces their mouth open by the hinge of their stiffened jaw- the last laughable vestiges of their reluctance, crumbling into dust fine enough to sift like sand between his fingers. guess science still has its limits, but so do you.

when he’s worked bell’s mouth nice and wide, he flattens their tongue with a thick finger, face clamped between the rest, and while they’re just about learning to make peace with it all- the humiliation, the degradation, submission made sanctification through the eager expectation of praise- he spits inside, and makes them swallow.

[grungepoetica]

should be sleeping but instead i'm thinking about tfone megastar

like... the way starscream was egging d-16 on in That One Fight Scene? people have already joked about the masochistic implications of it, but even when you put aside shipping shenanigans, the THEMATIC implications are insane

before meeting the high guard, dee is a boiling pot of rage who knows he wants to kill sentinel, but hasn't really been pointed towards any particular path of action yet. if anything, orion's silently been like "oh shit i don't like where this is going dude"

and then dee gets in a fight with starscream, who keeps encouraging him to hit harder, do as much damage as possible, and the only thing that makes anyone pause at all in this kill-or-be-killed rage is the fusion cannon coming out. and that's a temporary pause. dee asks the high guard - who all have the same general mindset as starscream - if they want him to keep going, and THEY FUCKING CHEER

and then for the rest of the movie, he operates with a Shoot First, Ask Questions Later mindset

i've never seen the star wars prequels, but that feels like some anakin & palpatine shit. i don't think d-16 would've truly become megatron (or at least, not as quickly) if it wasn't for starscream and the high guard giving him a convenient model of behavior to channel his rage into

and given the way we see megatron treating starscream later on in basically every continuity? and the fact that getting strangled in That One Fight Scene is why starscream ends up with the voice we recognize?

ough.

[milknbagels]

‼️Self Indulgent, Mentioned Female MC/Non-MC Character, Probably OOC Zayne, I'm too stupid to write someone so smart, written with romantic relationship in mind but can kinda be read platonically‼️

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“What does it feel like to have someone love you? ”

He pauses his movement in flipping to the next page of the book he was reading. Closing the book and setting it down, not even bothering to bookmark it as he brings his full attention to the girl lounging on the other side of the couch.

Just a few seconds ago, they were both quietly reading. Separate books and yet peacefully together. But now there seemed to be a strange tension in the air after the girl beside him blurted out a rather peculiar question.

“Why do you ask?” His response to her question was another in kind.

She looks at him, blinking with a rather cute confused expression on her face. He sees her eyes widen before turning her head away, a tinge of red dusting her cheeks and reaching the tips of her ears.

“I..said that outloud, didn't I?” In a soft and hesitant tone, she spoke.

‘Ah..’ He thinks. It seemed that his companion accidentally spoke her thoughts aloud.

He hums as a response of affirmation to her question.

The room falls silent. A sort of tension in the air. Zayne doesn't move closer nor give any words of reassurance that it was alright and that it happens to everyone. Instead, he thinks about her previous query seriously—aiming to give her question a serious answer.

“What does it feel like to have someone love you? ” He repeats her question aloud as he ponders how to answer that question.

She visibly flinches before curling up slightly into the pillow on her lap.

“Please just forget-”

“I think it'd feel like..a blanket on a cold winter night. Or the feeling of having someone hold your hand through a scary appointment.” His voice cuts her off.

She slowly uncurls herself to look at him. He was looking at her. She notes to herself that his hazel eyes had a softened tinge in their corners paired with that small and barely noticeable smile of his.

“I think, having someone love you..feels like jumping down a tall place, knowing someone was down there ready to catch you.” She listens intently, nodding slowly.

“Like, learning a new hobby with someone close and you know that it's alright to make mistakes because you're both new at crocheting and it's kind of cute that one ear of the bunny you made is bigger than the other.” She lets out a soft laugh before moving closer to his side of the couch.

“And I think, having someone love you feels like you can freely ask them the strangest questions seriously and get an equally serious answer without judgement.” Her eyes look down, her lips pursing slightly before settling in a soft smile.

“Thanks, Zayne. For answering my question seriously…” In her mind, she sounded awkward saying that and maybe she was. But, she was sincere.

It was only then did Zayne move closer, taking her into his arms and placing a soft kiss on the forehead.

“Mn, anytime.”

At that moment, she thought of her own answer to her question.

What does it feel like to have someone love you?

Like nothing else mattered when you were in their arms. So secure and safe, so warm and kind.

It felt like Zayne.

[vagueeyes]

relatable as ever

[socratesgirlnextdoor]

writing fanfic rn and while this is rather sexy lite im just giggling because i love them so much buffy is finally able to fuck and it's so nice i just hate that they punish her for it. hashtag let her fuck! she's able to do the insane kinky shit she's never got to do before because she was so worried about how they would perceive her. "oh but hers and angels sex was so pure and beautiful it removed his soul, that's pure happiness" that's nice and all. this freaky kinky vampire that was married to DRUSILLA for a hundred years can't spell half the shit buffy and him do and he thinks buffy is the kinkiest freakiest most deranged girl in bed. that's kind of beautiful. "imagine thinking you're unlovable until someone loves you like it's breathing" imagine thinking you're bad in bed until some freak who's had a lot of sex thinks you're the best at it

[n1ghteeea]

Does anyone still remember MNMC bc I just started reading it a few days ago, and why the hell did no one tell me it’s THIS PEAK

Scene for context under the cut ⬇️

[fruityfroggy]

Lesbians who dress like this need to HIT ME UP

Um…anyways….

[ladyofthelake]

"As if I'd let you"

is such an underrated line

As if Arthur would ever want to see Merlin harmed or die or sacrifice himself for him

As if he would let him willingly drink poison

Got me thinking that it would absolutely kill Arthur to know how Merlin waits

Like if Merlin said he'd wait out in the cold for him one night Arthur would definitely be thinking

"As if I'd let you"

What about 1500 years...

[pixelatedraindrops]

Yuma when he gets sick (probably)

Based on this.