#me trying to crack the little arg through the tears

[tacticaldiary]

I'm someone who hates goodbyes, it's one of the only things that really makes me emotional. I've been watching Matpat and Steph since I was a kid, and when a constant in your life that's been there for over a decade says goodbye...dude that was rough I won't lie.

I know the coming 4 hosts are going to kill it and I'm excited to see where the channels are going to go, but for nostalgia's sake, nothing is ever going to beat the original for me.

The ability to take topics and spin them into something so digestible to kids and adults alike without sounding condescending or talking down to them is a remarkable, special ability that those guys have. It's like magic how this guy made me excited to learn about topics I dreaded going to school for. I remember I learnt about permutations once from a video and it was so fascinating to me, I was beyond excited when I went to school a month later and the topic got brought up in math class. I got to ace the test and take pride in the fact that I already knew so much.

Matpat's made me cry 4 times over the past 2 weeks with his goodbyes- 5 if you could right now.

I guess what I'm trying to say is thank you, Matpat. Thank you for being a role model adult me is proud of having grown up with.

[wibblewubble]

Argbur x GN Reader

Sorry for not posting anything, didn't have motivation to do anything but look at Tumblr pfft 😋

Warnings: PTSD flashbacks, slight panic attack, emotional hurt and comfort, kissing, mentions of some events in Wilbur's ARG.

Wilbur shudders as another bitingly cold shard of wind seeps through the cracks of the cabin walls and crashes into him ruthlessly. He's curled on the grey couch in a little ball, pulling his fluffy hooded jumper tight around himself, the thick hood covering his eyes. "Please please please be back home soon love," He whispers to the empty room in a quiet, almost numb voice.

"I'm so cold-"

It feels like freezing mist clings all over his body, like frost filling his lungs with every breath he takes, like he's turning to ice from the inside. Wilbur's fingers and limbs feel dangerously numb, even though he knows it's just in his head, trauma from an event years ago that he can't get rid of and out of.

Suddenly water crashes down from out of nowhere, tumbling his body over and over, keeping him from reaching the surface of the black water. He desperately claws his way up, trying not to inhale the water of the Thames. With a gasp, he breaches the surface, half drowned, and pulls himself up the riverbank, retching and coughing harshly, head swirling with deadening cold and the terrible feeling of his own mind shattering-

"Wilbur?! Baby can you hear me? Will!"

A worried voice brings him back from his memories, and he realises that he's rocking back and forth on his knees, hands clutching at his head. Wilbur's eyes are shut tight and brimming with tears, breaths jaggedly catching in his chest. Deliciously warm hands envelop him, and when the male pushes up his hood and opens his eyes, tears running down his cheeks, he's met with the sight of his beautiful Y/N; his starlight, his heart's desire.

They look down at him with a worried smile, cuddling Wilbur tight, letting him wordlessly grab their hands and press them to his face, his lips. A whining sound echoes through the room, the freezing man realising it's coming from him. He looks up at them guiltily, a horrible feeling filling him because he's upset his beauty, had them find him in the middle of one of his episodes and immediately have to go calm him down.

Y/N catches this look in his eyes and shakes their head firmly before he can apologise. They move so they sit in his lap, Wilbur immediately wrapping his arms around his love and pressing them close. He whines again, shuddering as their body heat surges through him in waves, melting the ice in his lungs, making it easier to breathe. His hands hurt, and when he pulls them inbetween the pair to examine them he sees them covered in dark line marks; indents of Wilbur's strands of hair when he clutched at it and pulled. Y/N sees them too and makes a worried noise, before grabbing them gently and pressing kisses to the marks, thumbs carefully brushing over them.

Will blushes red and lowers his head, away from his love's concerned gaze.

He never really understood why Y/N treated him this well; helping him through his panic episodes, keeping the cabin warm and toasty, even spending most of their time with him in this place miles away from civilization. He loved them with all of his heart, and wanted nothing more than to keep them in his embrace forever until he withered away.

Wilbur's head is tilted up by gentle hands on his chin, getting him to look into their beautiful eyes. Y/N smiles comfortingly, not choosing to talk until their traumatized love decides to. They pull him into a gentle kiss, Wilbur moaning softly into their mouth as the heat Y/N emits floods him and brings dark blush to his cheeks. He's trembling with pent up energy so he kisses back hard, hands roaming underneath Y/N's stripey longsleeve and over their back, tongue taking over their mouth and absolutely devouring it. After a while, Y/N pulls back, watching Wilbur open his eyes dazedly. They smile when he looks at them with large brown eyes. "Y/N, thank you so much." He mumbles in a low and tired tone. "You're helping enormously my darling, my love."

The other presses closer, tucking their head into the cold one's shoulder. "I always will, Will." They whisper. "There's no way I'd let you suffer this alone. My amazing boy~" Y/N kisses the crook of his neck, before leaving a trail of soft kisses all over his neck and jaw, smiling into them when Wilbur's hands reach up and thread his fingers into their hair, half pressing them closer to his skin, letting out a satisfied sigh. You didn't mind how touchstarved and high maintenance he was.

He had a horrible thing happen to him; something so traumatizing that he'd developed bad paranoia, PTSD, and a secretive soul. As Y/N got to know him and gently lead him to come out of his shell, the only thing he would say about what happened was that it had involved the Thames on a freezing December night and a person named Kai. They never pushed. They knew when to stop asking. "You're warming me up now. I don't feel so cold like before." Wilbur says into their ear, finally a smile making its way into his face. Y/N hums in response, and snuggles into his chest as he starts to recite a passage from one of his favourite poems:

"But our love it was stronger by far than the love Of those who were older than we— Of many far wiser than we— And neither the angels in Heaven above Nor the demons down under the sea Can ever dissever my soul from the soul Of the beautiful Annabel Lee"

"It's a beautifuly tragic poem, isn't it my darling?" Y/N nods. "But you cannot look over the sheer amount of love interwoven in those words, for I love you just as much -perhaps more- than what he felt for Annabelle Lee. You are my very lifeblood Y/N, my everything. My Annabel Lee. I will love you forever." They blush hard. His kind words always caught them off guard. "W-Wilbur." Y/N says bashfully, looking up at him. "I love you too. I'll never stop." He lets out another content sound, before his arms curl around them tighter and holds them securely as his head drops to press his cheek on Y/N's. It's about ten or so minutes of quiet cuddling before Y/N feels Wilbur's breathing slow down and his hold relax slightly. They look up to see him fast asleep, circle-framed glasses slipping down his nose, fluffy brown hair like fairyfloss falling over his eyes. The other smiles and carefully takes them off of his face, before tossing them carefully on the next sofa so they don't get crushed, once again curling against him like a cat, perfectly content to sit with Wilbur.

Y/N found themself falling asleep as well, so they sleepily give him one last kiss before tucking their head into his shoulder and drifting off into warmth.

Hope you enjoyed it! 😊 Feel free to comment, and reblog, and also if you have any requests for me to do fics on any of Wilbur's characters or SBI things don't hesitate unless it's NSFW between SBI.

-Wibble 💜

[hannahsfanficsforyou]

A Whole New World Pt. 8

Me and Aaliyah get up and I get ready for the job. “You sure you can do this? I mean you are going to have to use magic to heal and restore nature and fertile ground to the whole village, I hope you have enough stored up to do it.” Aaliyah says while getting reading. “Yeah yeah I think I’ll be fine, let’s go, no time like the present!” I grab the flyer and we both head out. 

After checking out of hotel room we find the village leader who posted the job, “my my you are both quite young, I hope you can do it” I just smile “I’m sure I can don’t worry ma’am, I’ll come back after I’m done, and I’m sure you’ll know when I finish.” Me and Aaliyah walk to the center of the village. I sigh and stretch a bit and crack my neck to hype myself up.

“Okay here goes nothing” I say as I kneel down putting both my hands on the ground and feeling the earth beneath my fingertips. I can definitely feel the  dead- ness of this area, but I think I can fix it, it’s gonna cost a lot of magic for this whole village but, no going back now. I breathe in and out and close my eyes and begin the spell of regrowth “Bring back life to this earth, take the soil and nature and bring life back to this once green town, incrementum!” (Latin for regrowth im not creative) as I feel magic flow through my body after a bit I realize how truly taxing this spell is, but I keep pushing. After a bit I start to sweat and my body really starts to take the toll of the spell, ah come on Hannah you can do this you are almost there I can feel it

I keep pushing myself as the spell is almost complete on the whole village I’m panting and feel my body going almost numb. I almost pass out but manage to complete the spell and I open my eyes and the village is flush green with new flowers in bloom all around us. I smile as I fall over on what feels like the verge of death but I manage to laugh as Aaliyah quickly rushes to me and shakes me “I’m okay, just need some rest, I can’t really move my body right now” 

As I say that laying there on the rejuvenated dirt I feel a rumbling coming deep from the Earth under us. “What the hell is happening” Aaliyah says as she gets up, I can barely turn my head to look as a giant creature burst from the ground near the edge of the village. My eyes go wide but I still can’t move my body “Oh fuck!” Aaliyah shouts “Hannah just stay here I’ll go try to fight it off” she says as she runs towards it. 

“Aaliyah wait” I say trying to move my arm weakly, shit Hannah, you did this didn’t you? Doing the spell that healed the Earth here must have awakened this monster. Aaliyah can’t take it on by herself, oh god help us. I try to move again but still can’t find any energy in my body, “shit come on move you stupid body help your friend!” I say with tears pricking my eyes but my body stays still. All I can do is look as Aaliyah does fire magic on the monster but it seems almost resilient to it. 

It grabs her and starts to squeeze her “No stop! Aaliyah!” I try to scream as I move my arm a bit but I start panicking and my brain gets dizzy from trying to move around too much. Suddenly over the panic of people running around I see a huge blast of lightning hit the monster and I see it go down almost immediately. My eyes widen again “could it be...” and I see a large figure walking towards me and “oh shit” I say as Laxus towers over me while I’m laying down. He looks angry beyond belief but he also looks... worried? 

He sighs and picks me up carrying me bridal style, and if I wasn’t on the verge of passing out I would have probably blushed like crazy being so close to him, and him carrying me, but I’m way to tired to care. “Aaliyah..” i say barely able to get her name out and he looks down at me “Shes fine, Freed is getting her.” I smile “thank you god” I whisper before passing out in Laxus’s arms. 

When I wake up I look around and sit up in a bed “where..Oww crap” I say holding my head, “God I feel hungover again’ I groan before all my memories come back from when I passed out and I look around before my eyes land on a glaring Laxus sitting in a chair next to my bed. I gulp and look away unable to keep eye contact with him “s-so, why are you here” I wait but he doesn’t say anything so I slowly turn my head and meet his intense gaze. 

He sighs loudly “really? That’s what you have to say not thank you Laxus for saving me, my teammate and a whole village? Not, I shouldn’t have stole that S class job?” 

I sigh and flop back down onto the bed “Look, arg okay yes, thank you, I appreciate the help but to be fair I did the job, that monster wasn’t in the description, it just, happened.” I say grumbling and rolling over.

I can feel his eyes burning a hole into my back “that’s another reason, if you were an S class you could have handled that monster, when you are an S class wizard you need to be prepared for the unexpected, it’s a tough job and you weren’t ready to take it, you have to earn that right. Luckily no one was hurt” Laxus said surprisingly sounding levelheaded. 

I sigh and roll back over clutching a pillow and give him a downcast look “I know... I really am sorry I just, wanted to see if I could handle it, I had trained a lot in the month you were gone and I’ve gotten a lot stronger, I just wanted to push my limits, I mean I have to, I need to save...Er just never mind.” I say pushing my face into the pillow I was holding for a second before peaking back out of it “did we at least get the money for the job” I ask timidly and he glares again. 

“Yes, but I feel like I shouldn’t even give it to you.” He says but he puts it on the nightstand next to me anyways. “You can have half of it if you want, you did help after all.” I comment.

He rolls his eyes “No I don’t want or need any of that money, besides” a smirk forms on his face “It’s enough to see whatever punishment the master has planned for you and Aaliyah when you get back for breaking a rule.” at his words my eyes widen and a chill runs down my spine. “I’m not getting kicked out am I...” I say feeling the anxiety in the pit of my stomach. 

He chuckles “no, but you better not break anymore rules or who knows.” I sigh in relief but the ‘punishment’ whatever it’s going to be is still in the back of my mind. I sit up again “so where is Aaliyah and Freed” I ask.

“They went ahead and took a train back together since I told them I would stay with you until you woke up and were alright.” He says and I snicker a bit “oohh alone on a long train ride together hmmm interesting hehe”

Laxus just raises an eyebrow at my ambiguous words but I just grin at him, “oh it’s nothing” I say before sliding to the edge of the bed and standing up. Laxus stands up with me, probably in case I was going to fall but I stood on my own. “Hmm, that nap helped a lot, thanks for taking me here, I guess we should hurry and buy the next train ticket back to Magnolia.” I say grabbing my bag.

Laxus chuckles deeply “oh, no no we aren’t taking a train, we are walking back, my own little punishment for making me come out here on a train to get you, I have motion sickness didn’t you know” I make a face at him “Umm, no? Big bad Laxus gets motion sickness..Wait I thought only dragon slayers got sick from vehicles?” I say and he shrugs “I am a dragon slayer” and my mouth drops.

“WHAT? Since when? You weren’t raised by a dragon, the fuck?” I say in shock and he rolls his eyes “I had a lightning dragon slayer lacrima implanted in me as a kid alright, so I’m like an artificial one.” My mouth is still agape and eye squinted thinking about his words and then it clicks “ohhhhhh, that’s how you heard me those time, and you did sense me when I was sneaking up to get the S class job! You looked right at me and honestly it was terrifying.” 

He smirked “yeah I could smell you but I didn’t go up there because I couldn’t see you, just thought it was your sent left from where you were earlier, should have known to go up there and try to grab you, would have saved me the trouble of having to come all this way. How come I couldn’t see you anyways? What other tricks are up your sleeve? I thought you just had nature magic” and I shrug “I mean it kinda is, I just camouflage or blend in with my surroundings, like a nature defense mechanism. Impressive huh.” I say smirking with my hands behind my back as I lean forward toward him in a playful manner. He leans down close to me and I blush before he says in his deep husky voice “maybe a little impressive” before backing off again.

I clear my throat and grab the money I earned and put it in my bag “well it’s like a long ass walk right so we should probably get going.” I say as I put my bag on my shoulder. “Ready when you are.” he says throwing his bag over his shoulder before and strolling out of the room. I follow behind him trying to keep up with his pace as he checks out of the room and we head out.

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*POV change*

Meanwhile Aaliyah and Freed are sitting next to each other on a train ride back to Magnolia. “You know this was a reckless thing to do, even if you did the job successfully Mira still would have known a job was taken without going through her first especially an S class job.” Freed says with a concerned look in his eyes.

Aaliyah sighs “I know I tried to tell Hannah it was dumb but she really wanted to test how far she had trained and she probably would have gone without me so I agreed to come to try and keep an eye on her at least.” 

Freed hums in agreement “Well I’m glad you are both safe and we arrived in time to fend off that monster and you both are alright in the end. Hm, but Hannah really did heal the village despite that, her magic has grown considerably, yours too, you did some good damage to that monster, it was just unlucky it was resistant to fire or you might have had a chance of defeating it.” He says giving her a smile. 

Aaliyah returns it “thank you, yeah that monster really wasn’t part of the job, I don’t even think the villagers knew it was hiding down there, we sure as hell didn’t, I mean Hannah did the job and I was surprised she pulled it off, even though she passed out after I’m glad shes okay too, and getting squeezed by that monster was not fun that’s for sure, I owe you and Laxus one.”

Freed chuckles “yes well, Master also has a punishment for you both breaking a rule when you get back which I’m sure won’t be too bad, since you and Hannah haven’t broken any rules other than that and it’s just your first offence I’m sure he’ll go easy on you. Just try not to make it a habit, for your own sake.” 

Aaliyah looks at him with a worried look “oh great a punishment, just what I’m looking forward to. At least we still got the money for the job, so it wasn’t all bad.” She yawns and Freed looks down to see her head rested against his arm and that she’s fallen a sleep. He smiles down at her and makes sure not to move as to not wake her up.