#me thru tears: THEY DO NOT KNOW EACH OTHER YET. BUT THEY WILL LOVE EACH OTHER ONE DAY

[tenderhooked]

lil babie 5 yr old jamie & his perpetually angry big brother roy is something that can actually be so personal............................ . . . ....

[jellymochii]

OT8 SKZ - What Kind of sub are they?

the sequel to dom!skz hcs

𐙚 pairings: ot8 sub!skz x fem!reader

𐙚 genre: SMUTTTTTTTTT

𐙚 cw: oh boy, where do I even start, dom!reader x sub!skz, cnc, pet play, dacryphilia, BDSM, oral (m and f receiving), shibari, masochism, mentions of knives, unprotected s3x (please don't), use of strap-ons, etc.

𐙚 wc: 2k

↪author's note: hello! sorry for procrastinating on this lol I'm still goin thru it. anyways this one contains some themes that may be nasty to some (like eating men out) so reader discretion is advised. Hope you enjoy!

**THIS IS PURELY A WORK OF FICTION AND DOES NOT REFLECT THE TRUE NATURE OF THE PEOPLE MENTIONED**

Chan - Pleasure Sub

My sweet channie bug

He's totally obsessed with being your perfect little fuck doll

PLEASE use him and ride him whenever you want–even if he's busy in the studio, the others can wait.

Looooves when you ride him unprovoked. Feel free to take a seat whenever you feel like it. (Railway Reference lol??)

Even if he's overstimulated from how raw his cock feels from multiple orgasms, he'll always sit still and be your good boy!

“Fuck that's it baby, use my cock however you like.”

This is honestly such a good way for him to relieve stress too. Had a rough day at work? He'll flop into a chair and let you ride him for hours.

And his face is so so cute whenever he's about to cum. He gets all scrunched up with high pitched whines while he holds onto your love handles for dear life.

He's more than happy to let you manhandle him into any position you want for your pleasure–his thick cock can reach every single one of your spots without him even moving it!

Poor baby loves shutting off his brain after a rough day and becoming your brain dead little dollie~!

Subspace is so real and yet so sacred for him. He trusts you enough to treat him with respect no matter how rough you are–especially when he's oh so zoned out from pleasure and overstimulation.

Moral of the story–Chan would do anything to please you and let you use him to your heart's content–all out of love.

Lee Know - Brat

Just like in the previous parts–It's all a game to him.

And he is just soooooo stubborn about it too.

Likes to rile you up and tease you all day because he knows what's coming as soon as dinner is over.

Or, if he’s really misbehaving–you might just punish him then and there over the kitchen counter.

And this man is strong willed. It's gonna take a lot of patience to tame this man–and you're gonna have to do it over and over again each time.

He's decently strong and can handle any punishment you dish out at first, so be prepared to go for hours with him.

Your go to is to cuff his hands to the bottom of the bedframe and hover over him–forcing him to eat your pussy while you smack him if he refuses.

If he’s being extra bratty? Cuff his legs too and tie a vibrator to his dick and leave him there.

“Oh really? You think that's mmph–enough to break me?”

Or even worse, keep edging him with a fleshlight until tears start running down his face from the pain.

Eventually after many hours of smacking and edging, he'll go brain dead and obey your every command! Mindlessly eating you out and begging you to cum.

The worst part? He does all that teasing because of how much he loves being your little bratty whore.

Changbin - Pillow Princess

This one is kind of a hot take but

The man is exhausted. If he's not busting his ass in the studio he's pumping out any of his remaining energy at the gym.

You feel so bad knowing that he'll come home with a raging boner but no energy to do something about it.

That's where you, his sweet baby comes in!

Like Chan, you can ride him as much as you want and he'll take anything you give him.

Sometimes he just prefers to lay back and let you use your strap on him while he holds onto the pillow for dear life.

Eat him out pls!! It feels soooo good to him after a long day at work, and you don't even have to stroke him to make him cum if you do!

“Annngh~that feels so good, jagi.”

Eventually his grunts and moans will turn into high pitched whines when he's close, practically begging you to make him cum.

Binnie has a lot of trust in you in general, he's not used to being this vulnerable physically since he's usually perceived as the big and tough rock of the group.

But it's nice for him to come home and let out all of his emotions while cumming on your strap.

Pls treat him nicely he's gentle on the inside.

Hyunjin - Masochist

Hyunjin is by far one of the most loved idols in all of kpop. Everywhere he goes girls are dying for just a chance to touch his shirt.

But something about you treating him like shit in the bedroom (consensually) just makes him feel so alive.

He's always been the experimental type so when you suggested being the dominant one he was all for it, and over time his taste got more and more filthy–to the point he loved feeling pained.

His favorite position is being handcuffed on his knees while looking up at you with pleading eyes, as if he’s begging to be bruised and battered.

It starts out light–smacking him across the face and twisting his nipples, but his need for further stimulation made him into a starved man.

“More.” Is all he’ll say to earn a kick to his cock while your hand collapses over his throat choking him out.

The first time you ever did it he fell over in pain and…came.

Needless to say both of you were very surprised and he almost considered begging you to do it again right then and there.

His pain tolerance has gotten a lot better, which has made you have to get more aggressive in terms of choking–almost to the point where he’s turnt blue and about to pass out.

Even after you release, he’ll wheeze and look up at you while licking his lips and smirking in satisfaction.

He'd never dare tell anyone that despite his tough and charismatic exterior, he desires nothing more than to be broken down and degraded.

But hey, that's dopamine addict Hyunjin for you.

Han - Rope Bunny

Oh this man is nasty

Loves everything involving sex toys as it is, so when you brought up the idea of doing Shibari he was ecstatic.

And best believe he wants it all–being tied up, blindfolded, ballgagged, and edged to the end of eternity.

Acts so whiny and whimpery like he wasn't the one humping your leg an hour ago begging for you to tie him up and make him cum.

He loves the way your pretty rope designs highlight the best parts of his body ever so delicately. The ropes are so tight and snug around his wrists and ankles, making it impossible for him to move at all and make him feel helpless (he's never been harder.)

Poor whiny baby always begging you to let him cum with tears streaming down his face.

“P-Please, Mommy--I've been a good anghh boy, just please let me cum!”

He's so lost in pleasure he's begging for even just a taste of your sweet pussy to help him cum faster.

I'm a firm believer that he sticks his tongue out and pants like a dog when he's about to cum.

If you're feeling extra fun that night, you can even finger him or eat him out until his cock is spasming from how angry and red it is.

And yes, if it becomes too much for him he will squirt and probably be forced to clean it up later.

His orgasms are so pleasurable for him, he lives for this moment and loves enduring all that pain from being tied up just because of how amazing he feels after.

Felix - Service Sub

My sweet people pleaser lixie

You could tell him to steal a million dollars from Mr Beast and he’d be back in an hour with an extra 5 million.

The point is, he’d stop at nothing to please you.

It doesn't matter how kinky or nasty you’re feeling–he’s gonna deliver on his promise to do whatever you want.

You want him to eat you out for hours and make you cum? He’ll get as many orgasms out of you as possible. You want him tied up and pegged till he’s crying? No problem.

He's always watching your every facial expression attentively to see if there's any sign of satisfaction on your face.

“Mommy…do you like when I do that? I-I'm your good boy, right?”

And a good boy he is, always so doting and loving on you.

He looks up at you with his adorable boba eyes, even when there's tears in his eyes from overstimulation as if to say “You love me, right?”

Sometimes you like to toy with him by seeing how long he can go without cumming. You're often surprised by how long he can hold out, all for you.

Even with his angry red tip spasming from the lightest touch, the sheer overwhelming desire to make you happy lets him stop himself.

He's so sweet, please tell him what a good boy he is for you.

Seungmin - Puppy Sub

Ok so I know in the dom skz hcs I said that he's the one who enjoys treating YOU like a dog but hear me out–

I think it's fun for him both ways, he's the puppy of the group for a reason.

If he's feeling extra subby after a long day he'll put on his collar with your initials on it and snuggle up to you–signaling to you that he wants to let it all out.

Or if he's extra needy he'll crawl up to you on the couch and start humping your leg mercilessly like a dog.

The only difference is that he's not a bratty puppy like you, he's a sweet puppy!

He'll gladly eat you out for hours if it means he'll get his sweet release from you~

If he’s been extra mouthy that day and gotten on your last nerve, he’ll go in the very kennel he's so used to putting you in and have your vibrator tied to his tip while he whines and cries.

You’ll only let him out if he barks like a good puppy, of course.

“Mommy please! I've been a good puppy, I swear!”

You may as well just hold your hand out and let him rut his cock relentlessly into it.

He’ll get you back once he’s the dom though~

Jeongin - Prey Sub

All i gotta say is get ready to run, I hope you’re good on a treadmill.

There's nothing more exhilarating to Jeongin than the feeling of being chased through the woods by you, only to be caught and have his hole brutalized.

You talked this out extensively with him and made absolutely sure that this is what he wanted, and his face lit up with excitement.

You can even chase him down with a knife for extra adrenaline on his part. (pleeeease do not do this unless you know what you're doing.)

Even if you're just at home and you're feeling needy, he’ll look at you with a smug ass smirk and say “Oh yeah? You want me? Well, you better catch me first.”

It's almost comical watching him jump around furniture to “prevent” himself from being caught.

But that's not what he wants, he wants to be caught by you because he knows how good he's gonna feel underneath you–-so he'll run slower on purpose.

He loves feeling small and helpless underneath you (even when he's 10x stronger than you) and letting you use him like a whore.

He's typically face down ass up while you thrust unbearably fast with your strap, earning ungodly guttural moans and pleas of mercy.

The feeling of getting caught and ultimately punished for trying to run away from you makes his head fuzzy from all the primal urges swelling in his body.

And oh boy he could go for HOURS like that too.

It's all worth it to him at the end though, when he's soiled the sheets beneath him with layers of thick white cum.

[worksby-d]

Wrong Donut

Pairing: Andy Barber x pregnant!Reader

Summary: You can't get your favorite donut with your coffee, so Andy lets you cry to him about it over the phone 😖 (Idea from a lovely anon).

Warnings: None. Just soft and silly 🤭

Word count: ~800

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Don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry. 

You roll your eyes at yourself. Repeating the words in your head only makes it worse really. 

Pulling up to the drive thru window, you’re thankful you have your sunglasses on so the teenager working doesn’t have to see that he inadvertently ruined a pregnant woman's day by telling you that they’re out of your favorite donut.

The short drive back to work is spent blinking tears away so you can see. You think–hope–it does the trick to ward them off completely.

It feels like you’re in the clear until you sit down at your desk to drink your coffee and, reluctantly, the donut the guy recommended to you instead of your usual. You only said yes to it because any more words out of your mouth would have given away the sob you were holding back.

You break down when you open the paper bag and catch a glimpse of it. Not the same.

“Fuck,” you curse at yourself for being so upset, pushing the bag away. 

Wiping some tears off your cheeks with your sweater, you grab your phone and fast walk down the hall to a restroom so no one can see you. 

The only way you know how to cope lately is calling Andy and hoping he has time to let you vent. The poor guy. You suspect one of these days he’ll just stop taking your calls, but you hope it's not today. 

It takes a few deep breaths before you can get yourself to dial his number.

On his end, he sees his phone light up and he knows the drill since you're only voice calling and not video calling like you usually prefer with him. 

“Hi, honey,” he answers carefully, bracing himself. 

“Hi,” you answer back, ready to lose it again from just hearing his voice. 

He can hear the frown on your face. 

“What's wrong?” 

“I got the wrong donut,” you sniffle. 

That's a new one, he thinks to himself. “What?” 

“I went to get my coffee and donut, but I had to go during lunch because I was running late this morning,” you recount. Tears fill your eyes again. “But because it was later in the day and they were busy, they didn't have the donut I wanted. I had to get a different one. And it's just not... right.”

He tries his best not to laugh, he really does. 

“I'm sorry that happened.” You can hear the tinge of amusement in his voice, but he's also being genuine. “It’s just a donut though, baby…” 

“I know,” you sob – Loud enough for him to hold his phone away from his ear for a second. “I think that's why I'm crying. I know it's stupid.” 

He can't help but laugh now. “It's not stupid,” he assures. “You’re just emotional.” 

He just listens to the residual crying on your end until it sounds like you're ready to talk again. 

“Where are you, by the way?” 

“Hiding in the bathroom.” 

He smiles hearing you laugh a little. 

“Did you eat?” He asks. Stupid question. He bites his lip. “I know it wasn't the you-know-what that you wanted, but you have to eat.” 

You roll your eyes at the way he censors the word. 

“Not yet…” You sigh, fixing your smudged makeup while you finish talking to him. Or maybe not. “Will you stay on the phone with me? Distract me while I do?”

He can't say no to you. “Of course.” 

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When you get home from work a couple hours later, you’ve forgotten all about your mid-day crisis. It was just like all of the other minute things that have made you cry over the past couple weeks. 

You don’t question that you got home before Andy. Every evening is a little different depending on how busy each of you are. Besides, you probably did hold him up by crying to him during your lunch break anyway. So you just go ahead and get everything out that you need for dinner while you wait for him.

Hearing the door open, you call out to let him know you’re in the kitchen. 

“Hi,” you beam at him. 

He’s relieved to see you smiling as he crosses the room to give you a quick hug and kiss on the cheek. “Hey, sweetie.”

Your eyes become focused on a paper bag in his hand though, giving him a look when he sets it on the counter in front of you. 

“What’s that?” 

“For you,” he winks. 

You’re skeptical, grabbing the bag and opening it slowly. You let out a short laugh catching sight of the donut that you wanted so badly earlier. 

“My donut?” You pout, looking back at him. “You found one?”

“Oh God, don’t cry,” he chuckles seeing the look in your eyes and pulls you into his arms. “That was supposed to do the opposite.”

“I can’t help it,” you sniffle, closing your eyes and pressing your face into his neck to keep yourself from crying. “Thanks.”

“It was a fresh batch. I'll go back and buy them all for you...”

He says it like he's joking, but you don't think he is. That's exactly something he would do for you.

“No, it's okay,” you laugh, holding your arms around him tighter as if to keep him from doing so. “Don't want anyone else going through what I did.”

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[lara4eclipze]

OKAY HEAR ME OUT i know your bio says you like angst but no one has sent you anything except fluff and smut skfkskfkskf so could i pretty please req an unrequited love trope w/ lara? (or who you prefer) like maybe she has feelings for reader but reader is with another member already or somerhing like that? 🥺

“love is a drug that I quit”

sypnosis -» each passing moment, each heartbeat — guilt gnaws lara knowing she had a crush on her best friends girlfriend

beware! -» angst , touch of fluff , breakup , established relationship, toxic/cheater!sophia , swearing, crying, eventual mutual liking , guilt, I think reader is also kinda toxic in here

talks -» hey babes idk if you wanted a good ending or bad one so I give you a somewhat okay one , also thank you for requesting angst!!! , lovesick girls reference on the title, I think I went off the request a. tad bit hope it's okay though :((

taglist (open) : @nyssalvr @ohmyhaely @vrtualstar @jellaaa @c-yerim

knowing lara she would never ever ignore you on purpose — yet here she was being distant , it didn't bother you much since she was only a friend , right?

sophia invited you to stay the night in the girls house , it wasn't out of the normal — what was out of the normal was a lipgloss that sophia and yoonchae didn't use, it was near sophia's bed , at first you didn't look into it thinking maybe it was lara's or maybe megan's lipgloss

yet something in you tingled , something that told you it was someone elses

so without thinking much you asked the girls around the house if they used this specific brand of lipgloss

"manon— do you like rare beauty lipglosses?" you ask the eldest "no.. I kinda like lip oils better" she replied after so you thanked her

"hey do you guys use rare beauty lipglosses?" you ask the youngest duo while they play a video game "nope!" they both replied after so going back to their game

the same response was heard from the middle kids aka lara and daniela , now your actually seething who the fuck owned this gloss then

"sophia elizabeth laforteza—who the fuck owns this gloss and don't try to lie to me!" you scream startling her to stop using her laptop , your hands were fisted , everything felt warm or too hot as sweat dripped down from your forehead

"baby I don't know—maybe it's megan's" her voice trembled as she focused on other things rather than looking at you — she was fucking lying "are you fucking with me?! — she doesn't own this! she told me earlier!" you scream at her , she stood up and tried to calm you down but you swat her hands away

"baby—its no ones I swear" sophia tries to reason out using her soft voice that could've worked but god your tired of her lying to you, "soph don't fucking lie to me—ill find out one way or another"

you snatch her phone opening it , she tries to get it back but you push her off you , scrolling thru her dms you stumbled upon a mysterious number opening it you were not so warmly greeted with a exchange of heartfelt messages , between your girlfriend and some bitch named gabbie

"sophia I'm not gonna do this anymore — why the hell are you talking to gabbie? and why the fuck are you both so lovey dovey?" you angrily threw her phone to the floor — she looked pale almost as if she saw a ghost

"baby it's not what it seems!-"

"no sophia I'm done with you and everything — I thought maybe just maybe giving you a second chance would work , yet here you are back to your old schemes" you cut her off , your eyes blur as tears start to threaten leaving your eyes , you couldn't think properly, you packed up your things with sophia still trying to defend herself , trying to stop you from leaving

she wasn't the sophia you fell in love with certainly not the sophia you're gonna stay with

"I'm sorry — I love you but if you love me too sophia you would let me go" you said trying your very best just to look or even sound composed

now sitting in your car crying like a kid — you couldn't even bear going home when all you can think about is sophia , her hugs that made you comfortable, her kiss that made you melt especially the moments you both cherished

♪

nights passed — sleepless ones even and you still think about her , it wasn't getting any better , the more you cave in the more you became a wreck

the girls all heard the conversation — honestly it was very sick and twisted for sophia to even think of cheating on you, the girls especially lara who was very close to sophia started to distance themselves often times only getting close for fanservice

each passing moment, each heartbeat — guilt gnaws lara knowing she had a crush on her best friends girlfriend

well now ex best friend and ex girlfriend , lara didn't know what to do , whether to pick you or sophia

she wanted to approach you , to talk to you not even in a way to date but just a way to make sure your okay

so she did with her not so impeccable social skills chatting you one random night

freedom girl: y/n? can we talk? I know you're not fully healed yet but I would love to just sit down and talk with you even for a few minutes

you: sure , meet you at the studio?

freedom girl: yes be there in 30

you got ready , you knew damn well that you needed to talk to someone even if that meant it was lara — just because you didn't like her friend doesn't mean you didnt like her

driving there was quiet, no music just the gentle breeze of the air-conditioning in your car , your comfort was soon just silence

"hey how are you?" lara greets you as you park infront of the studio

the weather was cold yet in her presence everything felt warm and comforting

"I've been okay—how about you?" you replied as you both walk in the studio , soon sitting down in front of some equipment as you talk heart to heart

♪

it felt like you two were dodging the obvious topic , the break up or was it that? , or the obvious liking towards you by lara

you noticed it the minute sophia introduced you to the rest — yes you found it icky but when you first broke up with sophia she was the one to reconcile you two now for the second break up she was the one who also talked to you

she was the only one who truly cares more than sophia, the one who would actually go to war for you

yet you couldn't find it in you to date her or even confess the confusing feelings you felt , "can I tell you something?" lara suddenly stops you from thinking

"yeah anything" you replied , you look at her face trying to analyze even the smallest tug of her lips or the blink of her eyes

"you changed my perspective on a lot of things—the time you told me that love can be found anywhere, or maybe the time you helped me in my dark times" she then follows "even when you didn't have to"

you felt like a billion bricks were lifted off your shoulders — at this moment you even forgot about sophia, time was stuck and everything was right

"I'm glad I made you feel that way—you make me feel the same , I really hope this doesn't sound weird but I really love you" you mumble not thinking about the words that spewed out of your mouth and frankly you didn't care , you felt safe with her you felt like living again

"I love you too" she replied in a whisper like tone

the line was crossed , boundaries were broken and you're thankful you did

[foursaints]

Do you have any Rosekiller headcanons??

bro the amount of hcs i have about them should get me locked away

i love the idea of a rosekiller as opposites? evan as an extremely competent but also insanely neurotic and controlling nightmare of a premed student who takes frightening color-coded minimalist notes… and then you have barty. who fully vomited in the campus fountain that week

(except on the inside barty is actually quite clever and evan can be a MESS)

they meet through regulus and it’s one of those situations where two people should NOT be sleeping with each other (how do they even know each other?) because it makes no goddamn sense, they have nothing in common, and- oh they’re fucking. i guess this is everybody’s problem now.

complete train wreck together but it’s beautiful. they’re mutually questioning all their life choices

barty commitment issues jr introduces evan as "his little buddy" while theyre fucking and evan responds by burning all of barty's dumb Nine Inch Nails band shirts in a trash fire. and barty is just like Wow he must really like me <3

"why is my uptight medical school TA doing the world's drunkest karaoke to You Shook Me All Night Long with that guy in hot topic chains. what are they d- oh my god that is SO explicit"

they're both freakishly obsessed with each other but refuse to admit it and then will be in the McDonald's drive thru bullying each other like "AWWW does the little baby have a little CRUSH ON ME 🥺??" <- said mean as fuck

their friend group has to put up with minimum 6+ months of this shit yet the INSTANT they officially get together rosekiller shows up in matching couple's windbreakers that say "HELLO VIRGINS" on the back. evan is spitting his gum into barty's open mouth.

theyre insufferable together. they shouldn't last a week

barty loudly publicly proposes in the middle of regulus's wedding (interrupting everything) and evan thinks its the most romantic thing he's ever seen

he's on his knees and quoting bleachers lyrics. "hey baby baby, ive been so far gone lately", he's saying. he has tears in his eyes. evan is openly weeping. regulus is about to call security

[lucychenfordtim]

Just now realizing how hard it’ll be for me to process and deal with chenfords breakup. The thing is, I haven’t watched any episodes air yet, so like usual, I would watch stuff in advance of that ship. In this case, it’s chenford. Now I remember pretty clearly that I was on YouTube shorts one day when I stumbled across a clip of their breakup. At the time I thought that it was sad but since I didn’t know chenford I didn’t think much more of it.

Anyways, I’m currently watching 6x05 and it’s crushing me already. Lucy laying in bed by herself, possibly wearing Tim’s shirt (idk for certain but so fans say), Tim keeping this secret from her, not calling her. Literally on the verge of tears. Also knowing that he is broken inside and will break up with her bc of him thinking that he’s not good enough for her. I do have hope tho. It’s actually my first time watching live when a ship is in their breakup stage which is interesting.

As for stellaride, I haven’t completely watched Chicago fire, but I know a lot about that ship. So glad I didn’t have to go thru that breakup era while it aired. For them I feel like it’s harder to watch. Chenford is enjoyable to watch at any moment wether they are just co-workers, friends or as a couple. The way that they’re always there for each other and each other’s support. It’s really sweet. That’s one thing that I’ve loved about them from the get go. I also really love their buildup to becoming a couple. It took some time to acknowledge their feelings and be ok with it, but in the end, I think it was a good decision. Idk if you call this a rant or whatever it is.

If you made it this far, thanks for reading my thoughts on chenford so far! And if you’d like me to share more, feel free to let me know!

I tried dividing it into sections to make it somewhat easier to read. ☺️

[urieskooki]

greetigns gratuitous sniiFFFF it's General Grievous Dating Sim will u please indulge me and gossip about venom and also growlers thanku xoxo i love u

KEL.... i'm so sorry u already know so much about both of these wips but i shall indulge u! i have another ask about venom so i will answer just growlers in here xoxo

gay thoughts by the growlers is window lesbians (and also an excellent song)! basically a pwp where lee and gaara live in apartments facing each other and flirt thru the windows.... and maybe do other things perhaps.... potentially... (yes) it's mostly just lee being a creeper tbh.

a snippet for u that u maybe have not read yet is below :) it's not nsfw but it is suggestive ohoho

Her neighbour's door is swung open, followed by said neighbour trudging in with yet another enormous earthen pot overflowing with trailing green vines. They wrap around her arms, long and vibrant, and Lee yearns to ask what they are, what her neighbour does with this collection of greenery, anything. Really, she yearns for any excuse she can get to speak to her. But she can't. Instead, she watches her neighbour unload the pot onto the nearest available surface.

Her neighbour stands back with her hands on her hips, contemplating her newest addition. Slightly to the left, Lee thinks, noting the slight unbalancedness of the vines. They trail down over the edge of the table, giving the table a strange heaviness when in collaboration with the countless tiny pots of succulents. Really, to Lee’s untrained eye, it needs to be more centred.

Instead, her neighbour turns to eye the fall of sunlight through her windows and instead shuffles the pot to the right. Lee decides it looks better this way. But her neighbour isn’t done - she kicks her sandals off and heads over to her window. Fearing she will be caught looking, Lee turns her head.

It’s eery, how one can feel watched even when their gaze lies elsewhere. Out of the corner of her eye, she spots the pale shape of her neighbours face, bleary features, all turned to Lee. Hastily, Lee shoves another mouthful of noodles into her mouth only to slurp far too many down at once. They’re a thin, tough noodle, and tend to choke when swallowed without first chewing copiously.

And Lee has done precisely that.

She hacks, coughing up chunks of food with every fist banged on her chest. This would be a humiliating way to die - in her undergarments with a throatful of poorly chewed noodles. Through the tears in her eyes, she thinks her neighbours’ shoulders might be shaking with laughter.

Lee straightens and tugs the hem of her tank top down over her panties, grateful that her flat chest won’t leave her too indecent when she lifts her arm to wave through remnant coughs. Her neighbour doesn’t wave back, but turns and heads for the door to the right. Through the crack of it, Lee spies rows and rows of forest green tile, dark wooden floors. A bathroom perhaps.

That would excuse why, despite knowing Lee is watching, her neighbour hooks her thumbs in the waistband of her loose, calf-length skirt, and drags it down. Underneath is a sight Lee struggles to avoid memorising. Soft, pale skin clad only in a pair of maroon (to match her hair) panties. Her t-shirt comes off, exposing a matching bralette and the delicate line of spine against gentle flesh. When her neighbour reaches for the clasp at the back, Lee ducks her head away entirely lest she be caught staring.

She could pretend she wasn’t - if she wasn’t certain her neighbour is looking right back over her shoulder.

[gfnicarl]

Fool

Carl Grimes X Reader

Angst

As you squeeze the icing on the piping bag, swirling the cupcakes you have made, you smiled as you continue to put icing on the cake and the other breads. This is your very special day and it's uncommon since it's on a apocalypse but with the group, they help you with your birthday and will celebrate it together later.

"Happy birthday kiddo" Rick said messing your hair as he give a small gift to you

Smiling as you received his gift, you opened it and it's a pearl bracelet

"Thank you Rick, and thank you for helping me to organize this small party of mine"

"No worries, i know you always want to spend your birthday with the people you loved and besides you're like my kid and i do anything for you" Rick hugged you as he walks away carrying Judith on his arms

Maggie and Glenn organize the decorations, Rosita and Tara for the plates and utensils while you help carol for baking breads and cupcakes. The other members of the group sat on the chairs as they chat on each other.

You stood on Carol's back while holding the cupcakes you have made, asking her

"Carol, Did you see carl yet?"

"Oh i haven't seen Carl since morning maybe he will come soon" Carol smiled at you, holding your shoulders, reassuring you not to worry

"Yeah i hope so cause he promised me" you looked and smiled at Carol as you both continue to bake and chatting other stuffs to each other.

Time fastly passed as you see on your watch it's already 4 in the afternoon yet still no sign of Carl, you started to worry on him

you breathe deep looking at the window

"Where are you Carl...."

While you continue to stare to the window with a worried face but a loud singing made you turned your back and made you forget about your thoughts

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY OUR DEAR Y/N, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~" The group sang to you happily as they clap their hands. Glenn holds the cake as he stood infront of you, asking you to make a wish.

You glance at the group looking at you happily, this is your only wish, spending your birthday with the one's you loved as you blow the candle on your cake and brightly smile. you still wish carl would come even at the last minute of this party even though you're losing hope

You and the group celebrated your birthday with a blast but every minute of the party you're looking at the door and outside, wishing you will see his presence but it's just air passing you by.

Evening came as everybody leaves the party making their way to their house to rest. You sat on the chair and looked down fidgeting your fingers. The feeling of disappointment towards carl crippled you.

Maybe you're not just important to him that's why.

When you closed your door there's someone sneaked their hands and pulled you seeing it's carl with a gift on his hands

You dropped your hands as you ignore him and continue to walk thru the kitchen

"The party's over do you see right?"

"I'm sorry y/n, I'm sorry there's just an emergency because the new girl here bumped her head and i was the one to see her so i took her on the clinic" carl said with his eye couldn't stare at you, putting his hat down

"It's okay carl i understand i know you don't care about me at all, I'm sorry if i pushed myself into you even though i already know" you looked away as you stopped your tears to fall down from this moment

"Y/n it's not that, i always cared for you, you know that right" carl held your hands touching them softly.

"You cared since when? And i wish you make your promise true and not just words on your mouth" tears falling down as you wipe them with your hands.

"If you only knew i looked silly waiting for you, it's like I'm waiting for a ghost to show up Carl" you stare at him with disbelief, as you leave him there and walked your way to your room

"Y/n i love you so much" carl suddenly hugs you tight but you released yourself on the hug fastly

"Don't touch me! i hate people who can't keep their promises" rolling your eyes, as you open your room and locked it fastly

That's true you know promises are mend to be broken but it still hurt since carl promise it to spend your birthday with you. You understand emergency are prone to happen this time but wishing carl made an effort to go even on a last minute of your party would make you happy instantly

Leaning on the door as you cried and cried, even how much you wanted to hate carl right now you just can't. Even how many times Carl disappoint you or break your heart you still love him no matter what.

You were forever fool for him.

[hotheadrednecksimmer]

Can't Help Falling In Love - Struck by Love Legacy Challenge - Season 2, Episode 17

The next morning, Kaito prepared for his surprise proposal and making sure Suzu was none the wiser. The family stayed near, while Naomi was actively avoiding Hiro as much as she could.

Kaito took Suzu on a beach walk to the waterfall he heard so many good things about. He had been coming here for years yet had never seen the waterfall for himself, though he thought that would be the perfect place to propose. What's more romantic than a waterfall?

As they approached the waterfall, Kaito was getting less and less nervous. He knew that the woman next to him was the woman he was going to spend the rest of his life with. Kaito stopped her and got down on one knee.

Kaito: Suzu, I know we haven't been together long, but you are my entire world. Since entering my life you have only made it better in every single way imaginable. I want the world to know that I am yours, and you are mine. Suzu Mei Komatsu, will you do me the honor of becoming my wife?

Suzu's eyes filled with tears. Suzu hesitated to speak: I love you more than anything in this world and the next. Yes, I will marry you!

Kaito: You had me said with pausing and such!

Suzu: Well, I only paused because ... I'm pregnant Kaito, you're going to be a dad!

Kaito: Really? For real?

Suzu: I just found out before the vacation, I wanted to make a cute surprise when we got back but of course you surprised me too.

Kaito: That's us baby, I'll never stop surprising you.

Kaito and Suzu spent the rest of their walk in complete bliss, talking about wedding plans, possibilities of who their baby will be, and talking potential baby names. When they got back to the vacation rental, the family was waiting for them.

Kaito and Suzu stood before their family to share all the good news.

Kaito: As you guys know, I proposed to Suzu this afternoon and she said yes!

Suzu: Everyone knew??

Hiro: Yes! It was the hardest secret I've ever had to keep sister! I'm so happy for you both!

Maeve: I'm so happy to be gaining another daughter, you were already apart of our family in our hearts, but now it will be official!

Star: Yes, what Maeve said! Welcome, officially, to the family Suzu. You already know how much we adore you.

Suzu: Thank you both so much, you have given me a family that I have been missing for so long.

Kaito: Speaking of family, we have more news to share.

Kaito looked over at Suzu who looked back at him. Suzu: We're pregnant!

Maeve: Ah! We're going to be grandparents?!?

Kaito: Yes! Suzu and I were talking about getting married sooner rather than later so we can focus on the baby.

Star: I think there's a wedding spot not too far from here. I'm not sure if you have to plan it out or if it's a spur of the moment place.

Naomi swallowed her anxiety for her favorite and only brother: That's so exciting! Congrats!

Hiro: I think they do on the spot weddings! Kinda like a drive thru wedding chapel in Vegas without the Elvis.

Kaito and Suzu looked at each other again lovingly. Kaito: What do you say babe? Wanna get married this weekend?

Suzu: Marrying you this weekend? Let me check my schedule, I don't know I'm pretty booked.

Kaito: Ha Ha Ha, very funny. Seriously, if you want to we can.

Maeve: I think there's some dress shops in the village that has some type of dress you could wear.

Suzu: Of course my love, we're getting married this weekend!

Maeve: I'm so excited for the two of you. I know you guys are all the way out in Oasis Springs, but these days I can work anywhere. If you need us for anything at all, please call us! And maybe plan on staying and helping after the baby is born? I remember feeling so alone after Naomi was born, and I was so tired and still had to clean, cook, and had to go back to work early to pay bills. I don't want either of you to go through that.

Suzu: We would love to have you and Star there, meeting your newest grandchild and helping.

Kaito: I'm thinking Kaito Jr or Kaita for names.

Suzu: Absolutely not.

Star: Get better baby names Kaito.

Maeve: My little duck having another little duck. I can't believe this! I'm so excited!!

Kaito: You'll have to start picking out your grandma name.

Maeve: Well, I'll let the littlest duck decide what they want to call me. I'm not picky.

Naomi felt so much dread and anxiety while everyone else filled the room with cheer and excitement for the future. All Naomi could think of is when Suzu was going to hurt her brother, when she was going to cheat. She didn't think Suzu was capable of it, but that's what happens when you're in a relationship.

Naomi: I love you brother, I am happy that you're happy.

Kaito: Thank you Nay, you're the best big sister and you'll be an even better Aunt!

Naomi: Aunt Naomi has a nice ring to it I guess.

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[musingsofamisfit]

Range

A spectrum of emotions exist within all

Typically a sliding scale of progression in one way or another

Yet folks like I can experience the highest of highs before falling into the deepest despair

Not momentarily, no, it has an appetite of a thousand suns and devours any shred of brilliance

All the habits of health learned are no match, they are the first things thrown out

No need to care for oneself if the outcome will be death,

Death will happen eventually, lacking care within only expedites the process

I am not begging to die, merely allowing them to shake my hand

Never actually within their reach of reaping, but always close enough

The whiplash of life shudders thru my bones pleading for another day

And so I do, I continue on and on until it seems picturesque, pristine to those peering in

But then is when it collapses again, and again, and again

When will my soul be rid of this cycle? Nearing nirvana and tearing it away

For some sick pleasure? For some convoluted humor? To stifle me with agony?

I need not know what, who, or why it plays out this way...

What is needed is the power, strength, and courage to keep fighting, keep achieving

Out of spite? If that's what it takes to start, then so be it

I will not let the circumstances of my downfall repeat without change

No, I will be the change, growing and learning with each new challenge, because there is no other choice

Welcoming death's warm embrace isn't permitted, not now

They may be kind with the "you've done well" 's and "you can rest" 's

But I know this can't be all I am meant for

There has to be more and I simply need to survive to see it

If I can't believe in that, well...then we know who will guide my hand into nothing

~zen

super personal one today, i have been going thru it and maybe this will be your reminder to stay one more day. people love and care about you, despite what your brain and illnesses say, choose to stay just one more day, and say that until you don't have to anymore❤️

[libidomechanica]

With light by

A kimo sequence

               1

That grew beside a human door! With light by light: lonely thing, that soon he rose and warmth of loue.

               2

But Flight. Of air, not pure as it, yet pure, doth well delight. My slumber was gone for you, my dear.

               3

Because the blue sky bends over and trust that I shall those tears; take me to the centre. But there.

               4

Pushing toward daybreak. A dainty dish to set before me, when the trance was o’er, the mastiff bitch?

               5

I do not the disaligned. Though yet, heaven seems half-way to lift some weight of low replies.

               6

That hole where leather men are vain? And slowly rolled her with me, we’re wed to one eternity.

               7

I have been faithful to you, Cynara! Harry, Tommy, Wilfred, Edward, Bert—and light and song.

               8

Stay with your old baggage. Plunge them in up to thee, and thee to mee: no, no, no, my Deare, let bee.

               9

Says, I wanted to get married. With blushing shame, by rage suppress’d, let tears, and weep each other?

               10

To sit a star upon the floor below. And, Do I dare? No, no, my Deare, let bee.

               11

Cannot flie away. Nor equal, nor unequal: each fulfils defect in each, and lang’rous waist!

               12

—Thy words, relieve my verse in time, your fortune— range the wilds of Time, perhaps not a woman, off!

               13

Make in misery to live. And lie, ever singing, each to each. Makes you tyrants in the end.

               14

Free from fear, they cross’d the diver’s brain, for a lady’s chamber floor. Yet so did I let my friend.

               15

Now do I know this: I fell in love wilt hear; if from thee. Oh Angel of hopeless, lasting flames!

               16

After than Phoebus, if he seav’n times bright! For forbidden fires. To spit out all the dance was mine.

               17

Bright eyes, that all her hard and cold white as stone. Involved in stillness, plighted vows fleeting as air!

               18

Assist the field is universe into a lute. Is it indeed so? Be thine! The air is still!

               19

I told my love had seen mine execution. Curse on all best exceed proportions of the year.

               20

And gave a twist to me. Which stands check’d; Religion of my mind, thy words, thou art as tyrannies.

               21

I’ll wrap it round. Till the same chance!—Harry, Tommy, Wilfred, Edward, Bert— and light a cigarette.

               22

And all thou know’st to my dear doting heart. Do love you here is none like a dog in a kennel.

               23

But tis twilight dawned; and out of sight. Owe this dearest, that long-wish’d-for end, full to thee, and doubt.

               24

The lovely lady’s shroud. I heard the mermaid now, for I will say: How his hair is growin’ yet.

               25

Give me the shade of the sky.—An’ Charlie, he’s my darling, the young Chevalier. And is he gone?

               26

Ah! The Castle wa’, she saw three bonie boys playing with a dying fall beneath the huge oak tree?

               27

Our bed is lovely maid and sees a damsel bright a dame! Hand, turning her grave. By more than dead!

               28

And like a noon-dew, wanderings I have sinn’d! I want to glide a sunbeam by the Maiden’s side!

               29

Where I fly, pursue, rise in the brain is not so. Spake words Sir Leoline. I dreamed I was a child!

               30

By thee to mount, and complaint of present the bonie laddie in. Bare, lest aught unholy loiter here?

               31

And love to so base a vice, for no man knows. Much, Cynara! No matter by the might be well!

               32

He danced with rough. Amid that scenes appear where’er I turn me not to belie his soul with clay.

               33

Run afresh, as if she ’d said, Gee woe! I lift my heavy eyelids my anguish hangs like shame.

               34

To the fault; I view my crime, but kind? To labour was thine! And do accept my madness, and weak.

               35

He drank: her fair large bright and slender oats foraged in the lady’s chamber door; and the sun.

               36

A cool suspense from pain; thy life destroy. The wanton thru the flower amang them very ill.

               37

Of lonely way, close by the castle bell. As if she be small, jewel-like flower unfamiliar.

               38

The way to the blood runs out across the sounds and strange man should presume? That is so vex’d with thee.

               39

To know her but I? Or foxlike in difference. And thus she stooped, methought I heard a hollow sound.

               40

A blue moon for an instant leper. Lord of her beauty lies, when faithful to the land of spike?

               41

And none of us thought thus watred was my strange death of Jesus set me free. In this fashion.

               42

But could have this; she shall: then my hopes and men, who looked askance and end with his society?

               43

And those tender-ship, cried Sally Brown! Sleeps, and love all night upon mine ears, both I and the brow!

               44

Within the bathroom floor mocks your haire with me! So, the year, that yours and mine had bound us lie?

               45

Van Diemen’s land if certain when two dewdrops on the best, even to life in the airport. Ah!

               46

Seized, inside my honest faith in this man no more, but other me? A shining steps of thy child!

               47

Lingered in the moon is behind, and saw thee woman in contractions are five minutes apart.

               48

Comes first—light in what they might half undo it. Of loue new-coin’d to her from the pitiless wave?

               49

And his Anguish grew—how bear it? But, as luckless, I have sworn to bury all things undo me.

               50

That looks up at the lady by her word were it even for me. Loathe the side-lie of a truth.

               51

For once, a tremor breakfast the sky ascends, wi’ sangs o’ joy. And damning their necks, where away?

               52

And flush themselves forsake and for very feare would return to life, to life in thee has killed it.

               53

And the rain on my soul. And I was a rose that green mama who first forced me to Mortal part.

               54

Scott, Rogers, Campbell, Moore, and Crabbe will trim. To sail with old Benbow; and here, ev’n then, shall be poor.

               55

The Sexes rose to work upon is much too much, some say, she seems that sweet said, that thou to dread?

               56

And hark, again! From happy pieties, thy lute, thy pipe, thy incense sweet face of you and me.

               57

Why should poor beauty from my love, my life. But, as luckless, I have known the rain lasts anywhere.

               58

In the bud will wear white despair? Wilt thou go with me, we’re wed to one eternity in days?

               59

Not Ida; ’ clasp it once all-fragrant-curtain’d love begins again. Then downward like those who love.

               60

What peace. And her voice is strength beguiled, this golden foot of May is on the bloated hiss of death.

               61

For I have slept on the brands were stopt with griefe. Still as death, can break her word were it bitterness.

               62

The earth forever! It must be because it is a precious seal of my life, myself—and you.

               63

Is changed in a convent’s solitary Child. When I break through all the grist of its insides grow.

               64

Now folds the maid and thine for me. Than Heaven, my Lover, were my Chamber Heaven’s sun staineth.

               65

Err I dare to look at the basin and wriggling on thy fame! My own heart’s heart, where, while I weep!

               66

Till love you, dear, I’ll love you all; let Virtue be your soules; come wait on hir whom winged Psyche true!

               67

I waste my heart and mine should hindred be. Gloom, and nothing can be old, for as you with my death.

               68

For once and show me what I meant, at all. Proud of many, lives upon his gaine is our lost will.

               69

I call, I call: who do ye call? And the rent, and long to stay with your old baggage. I would get.

               70

—Not the power to burn and be all that bloody torments you doe give, creatures, couched her homage.

               71

Geraldine shakes thee hence. Yet, if Hope has flown away in a night, or in nothing but a feint.

               72

That heart to this fool lord, dare I bid her abide by her side; nor strange. That is misunderstood.

               73

You soarer, you of the sea. ’ Echoing straits between the hills? Again she sees my lady’s maid.

               74

Nor shall die tonight, I wrote this morning. Black Melancholy reigns; what means the warm leaden sheet.

               75

And the gravelly sand take a body to it, even blue-eyed fly to the field. Sir Leoline?

               76

From op’ning on the crowing cock, how drowsily it crew. Shall ever was in our own child-bed.

               77

Within and whom I am confined. Water so cleanly I myself upon the floor below.

               78

Cries to catch her but I? Of all that we see or seem is but as a tomb which happened balloon.

               79

Out for love, to give the wreath’d trellis of a working brain, love alone. With a moonlight and song.

               80

I lift my heaven knows, in joys and woe so many times. To the banks, close of each too, too late.

               81

My soul would only be the best, even to life in losing mine? Naked, a double behind.

               82

Like cliffs which have no fear! Beneath the weight of soil, nothing new is in us, and were at peace.

               83

I knew a beautiful olives. We men and drivers in a bar-room around its wings and neck.

               84

—Come live with me—or fall from its boundless mere, with true sight! This day my journey should I presume?

               85

Into many a summer’s front doth sing and saying plainly of not turning from yonder bay?

               86

Oft did I rove by bonnie Doon, how can you bloom so fresh and faithful to its crisis? Have guessed?

               87

I fell, and fro, while I weep! And turning away, wants to be made, cobbling at the lasting flames!

               88

Such gentle still dictates, and those faire skin, beamy eyes, for the quarters, and looking to the Pole.

               89

Pitiless wave? Flickering gyres, but he’d once about to have gone to the sun delights me.

               90

And may appear so when this rebellious heart, and that will show itself to stone. Nay, fairer yet!

               91

To swell a progress, start up, the same chance! As old as a dog, as quiet as a skeleton.

               92

Move still doth breeding flow’rs. They will sing to me. That even its grossest flatterers dare not brave.

               93

That looks up at the happy again. A clover, a Fisherman mends a glimmers on to me.

               94

To them through my fingers am I at all satisfied. Her deadly pangs be drown’d, while I slept.

               95

Rain on thee; yet eyes this curious friend. The winged’ steed, I wish we never looks both small and dull.

               96

And make my old excuse, ’ proving his caresses by the cold. With open eyes ah woe is me!

               97

To deem, as a most logical conclusion, that ’s underneath the weight. It even for me?

               98

Nay, by my own eyes inspiring hole. My heart is dust at the pin; and here, ev’n then, shall meet!

               99

Unto the straitest best of all to Love than is or ever dear! Angels of the precious jewel.

               100

Ida came behind. That brought to. But to- morrow, the field. While prostrate here increase! To the field.

               101

I cried for madder music and forms of men! His gentle daughter is safe and fro, while I weep!

[jakowskis]

im SO pissed i didnt listen to believe for a fucking year bc i heard bad things about it. im never listening to anyone else's opinions again cuz THAT WAS BRILLIANT. THAT WAS EVERYTHING I WANT OUT OF TORCHWOOD i mean it was still a bit shit highkey but it was EXACTLY what i want out of this garbage show. sooo fucking season one core (aka my fav) all sorts of dark horrific connotations and unhealthy dynamics but no emotional weight or responsibility xD once again i cannot tell if the writer was even fucking AWARE of a lot of the things he was implying but what i interpreted as being implied is making me fucking tear up the floorboards im. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

that was so cynical and bitter and awful and miserable and edgy and shitty ITS EVERYTHING I WANTED. i love torchwood being goofy i do but what draws me into the show and the reason it's become one of my most, uh, aggressive hyperfixations ever (which is ridic btw) is cuz its FUCKED UP AND UNHAPPY and that? was fuuuuucked. obsessed.

cult leader jack cult leader jack cult leader jack U DONT UNDERSTAND IT MAKES ME RABID and they ran with it i. stick figure violence stick figure violence. feeling rabid. AND HIS FUCKING SPEECH AT THE END. DOES HE KNOW??? hes so fucking deluded I LOVE IT. ITS FASCINATING he thinks hes good.... he thinks hes good... hes aware n he feels responsible and yet he doesnt SEE he doesnt see he thinks hes doing his best. NOOO it had the be intentional literally "jack tell us what that was about" "later lol" "sure yeah always later" and then hes like "YOU HAVE TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY" GRRR JACK. JACK. also faith n believing.... ianto's trust. ianto's trust. you believe me like a god FUCK MY LIFEEEEEEEEEEE

jack always being five steps ahead + being 10x more competent than the team always makes me fucking roll my eyes but at this point i just kind of perceive it as the way tw constantly paints him as a deity figure. he can do no wrong

GWENS CYNICISM. TORCHWOOD BREAKING HER. TORCHWOOD BREAKING HER!!!!!!!!! FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK it's toxic... it's toxic... this job gets inside you THIS JOB GETS INSIDE YOUUU. torchwood thesis statement: this job fucking breaks you.

FINALLY some good fucking tosh x owen food. DONT GET ME WRONG THAT WAS FUCKING AWFUL but that was sooooooo much more compelling than the fucking bullshit that canon gave us. owen being a toxic abusive fucking manchild + doing smth bad enough to tosh that she FINALLY went "wow THATS the man im obsessing over" like g-d i would've killedddd for that to happen in the show i HATE that she wasted herself on him. i hate it. her disgust and anger at him was so THERAPEUTIC for me 😭 idk what it says about me that the way i was grinning when they were arguing n bitching at each other was probs the closest ive ever gotten to actually shipping them HFKJDSF theres smth wrong w me. i just think s2 tosh is too fucking sweet and good and probably naive and i think owen could so easily fuck her up, like i don't think there's a world where he wouldn't hurt her tbh, and i don't want that to happen i adore her too much. like i don't think he's irredeemable, i ship him w other characters who i think could handle him, but i don't think tosh could, and that was validation of that opinion, you know? i'd be more willing to ship them if tosh was firm with him and didn't let him walk all over her, and it sucks that she didn't do that and got herself hurt and THATS what it took to make her call him tf out and tell him how much he sucks. ig a lot of why towen bugs me sm boils down to the fact that im not comfortable shipping someone who's kind of awful with someone who idealizes them and doesn't seem to grasp the scale of how bad they are. that's a recipe for an unhealthy dynamic and if i didn't like tosh i might be intrigued by it ngl HFSKDF but thats my babygirl and the idea of putting her thru Being With Him disgusts me. she deserves better until he gets his fucking shit together. which he never does and she never gets to have something good bc she was waiting for his shitty ass lmao YAYY!!

owen was AWFUL in that btw. and i adored him in it. my fav owen is an owen who's spiraling and destructively fixated on something for selfish purposes to the point that he doesnt care who he hurts to accomplish it. he's so villain coded fhsdkfjdsk he redeems himself in the show and i love that but the audios further explore the fact that he's got such a darkness to him he SO EASILY can be pushed into destroying everything. hes constantly on the precipice of monstrosity and cruelty bc of his own hurt. it's like hes so full of rot it leaks out of him and infects others and he hates it but he cant help it. i will never get over the doctor with poison fingers oh he makes my heart ache. he's just so misguided. he's so broken.

which brings us back to jack's speech. (him talking to the cult leader lady) "They were broken, and you were the person they turned to for help. If you don’t accept their problems, then don’t offer yourself as a solution." literally im gonna think about this for months. HE DOESNT SEE!!!!!!!!!

g-d and ianto's orientation or whatever. that was Fantastic ianto insight. he's so much more interesting when he's away from jack it's almost impressive.

i am just. gdddddddddddddddddddddddd. i am so distraught. help meeee

[anwiel13]

the current Rammstein situation is fucking with my mental health a lot right now. I'm so confused, heartbroken, sad, idk what to do... what are your thoughts on all of this?

Hi 😊

Yes, the situation is heartbreaking. It is like rollercoaster of emotions. I absolutely understand that fans are confused, hurt, unsure. And I also understand that some fans decided not to listen or support them anymore. Emotions are all over the place, good or bad.

I will say right away, I do not think that something bad happened, I do not think that somebody drugged her or hurt her. And any sympathy for this girl is long gone, especially after her response to Schneider's post. And maybe this is unpopular to say it, but I have never had any problem with row 0 or parties, but the system how to get there was unfortunate. Very easy to attack it.

I am very heartbroken for the band. This thing happened in very beginning of the tour and it is like shadow over them. They prepared amazing show with some new songs, with all the pyro effects and yet majority of the world talks only about this one thing. People do attack them online, attack one each other, attack the girl.

But I am also extremely happy for all the support they have. Fans are amazing. The response during the shows is overwhelming.

I am not saying I know what is going thru their minds, but I saw them enough, I can say how much it effects them. And also me.

Right before first München show everything blow up so much. And knowing Germans, I was not sure what to expect. And the band neither. I was very anxious. But the show was amazing, fans were the best I ever experienced. Schneider crying on the stage got me hard, but in good way, because I believe it was tears of relief. I can say they were all so happy that fans are still with them. Till's speech during third and fourth show melted my heart. Big group hug, playful Till during the last München show. I went home with hope for great future.

Than, just before Trenčín show it was announced that investigation will be open in Berlin and also their record company is ending their cooperation. Which must hit much harder than, let say, Rossmann. I wish that they will not be effected by this, but since first second, I could say they are. A lot. The show was amazing, but it missed the spark from München. No Ausländer outro at all. Paul was not dancing around. It was sad to watch it. Also, they did not leave their hotel, only for the show and than they went back. Plus they did refuse to take any photo with fans waiting by the hotel.

Than we get that heartbreaking post by Schneider. It is sad to read about how Till is not that close to them anymore and how they feel about it. But it also show that they stick together even now. And they will not throw Till overboard. They will go thru this together.

Watching all these videos from Bern, the mood seems to be much better now. They again do silly things on stage. The were seen around the city. And that makes me happy. I hope it will be the same when I will be back for Berlin shows.

What I am afraid is how it is going to be after the tour. Right now, they have all fans showing all love and support during the shows, but I think it will hit hard when they will not have it. When they will be at home. I wish to be wrong. And I hope they will surround with beloved ones, with family, especially Till. And I wish the investigation would be short. I am positive that it will end up in good way for Till but if it will take a long time, it is big pressure for him.

He is strong human but also very sensitive soul. And everyone have breaking point. I honestly hope he will not find his. I think he will have to cancel his tour. If he would do the same show as always, people and media would tear him apart. If he would do less provocative show, fans would not be happy. But of course, if he will cancel it, fans will not be happy neither.

Damn, I let my feeling out and it is terribly long. Sorry.

I am positive that everything will end up good, but the journey to it will be hard and not nice.

Anwi aus 😁

[bejuledjules17]

I’m feeling at a loss.

If I stand up for myself, I’m an asshole. If I don’t say anything, I’m a doormat. It feels like many people don’t like me, for what seems like no reason. I really don’t know what I’m doing wrong. Or why I even care so much about other people’s view of me. Why do I need to be liked so much? Or maybe, why do I want to be liked? To quote Halsey, “why do you need love so badly?”

I don’t even want to be like this. I want to not care. How do people even do that? I’ve been working at this for over 30 years. I’m exhausted. I want to recluse. But I want to be included in things too. I don’t have any close friends anymore. I’ve moved too much. I’ve finally settled down in where I want to live & stay. Ever since the pandemic started, it’s been even harder to make friends.

I’ve only had three best friends in my life. All in different states. One in high school, one in college & one right before COVID started. Only one of them is in the current state I live in, and unfortunately I had to end things with her. I can be the bestest friend ever, do anything for that person, be there whenever. It’s been so hard to find someone willing to do the same for me. I’m constantly giving my all to others and getting breadcrumbs in return. I even tried to meet friends thru BumbleBFF. I met someone who I thought was great, but as soon as I started to pull away to see if they’d reach out; they never did. We were literally texting novels to each other for months. Getting into the deep stuff, what we were looking for in a friend among other things. We finally met up after months of texting & snapchatting. And honestly it was great! We were back to texting everyday after that. Over the next several of months I asked her to hang out at least 5 times. We only made solid plans one of those times and then she cancelled on me at the VERY last minute and never rescheduled. Which is why I gave up in the first place.

Thankfully, I’ve found my partner, the love of my life. We got married last week. Truly, he’s someone who treats me like a queen. I am so so so happy with that part of my life, but why am I so unhappy with other parts? Why can’t I just be happy, content even? My husband is amazing, but he’s also very introverted. He doesn’t really talk much to others except for me. Which is really special in some ways. He can’t always give me what I need in the sense of going out, being social. I don’t necessarily want to do these things all the time, but I do every one in a while.

Oh and my job. My job has me in a weird position. My business is solely based on me, my skills & my personality. My job is great for my personality type. I talk a lot, which helps distract my clients from the pain of getting waxed. I feel that I have gained so many friendships through my work, but it’s surface level. I’ve hung out with a few of them outside of my work and that’s been great. But I also don’t want to overstep. I still need to be a professional. I thought my coworkers would be a safe bet since we have similar personalities & stuff in common. Boy was I wrong. Every thing I’ve done has gone down in flames. Scorching hot flames. I hosted a clothing swap that literally no one showed up to. Went to FL for a hair show to hopefully bond with the other ladies that were going; I felt so isolated & ended up in tears.

Like, am I annoying? Is that what this is? It feels like people avoid me like the plague. Like they’ve all had this secret meeting to warn the others about me. Yet, I know my clients love me. & I’ve had some great friendships in the past. So I don’t know where the disconnect is.

Anyways, all the questions are rhetorical & I just needed to vent. Ty if you read this 🩷

[babyjaeb]

#35

Sabi nga nila: “Love isn’t only love, sweetheart. It’s hard work, and trust, and tears, with even a few glimpses of devastation. But at the end of each day, if you can still look at the person at your side and can’t imagine anyone else you’d rather have there, the pain, the heartache and the ups and downs of love are worth it.”

Parehas tayong devastated in our own ways sa situation nating dalawa. Pero I think our biggest fear, our biggest pain, it all comes down to us not existing in each other’s lives like we promised each other we would. All the talks of forever and promises meant to be kept forever now slowly has its time limit; has its time of expiration. I’m clouded with the thought of you leaving me for good, but if there was a way to make you stay without burdening you of the hardships that come along with being in a relationship with me, sana ginawa ko na. Times 10 pa. Gagawin at gagawin ko, kahit paulit ulit, kahit araw araw. Kahit na I will die trying to get us to the other side, to the road to forever. If there was a way lang talaga, di ako magdadalawang isip. No amount of prayers, words, letters, notes, nor tears can save us both from what we’re experiencing. From all the pain and sleepless nights and grey clouds and unexpected waves of pain that we have yet to experience. Pero alam mo, at the end of each day, I’m glad that it was you who get to break my heart. I can’t imagine going through this heartbreak with anyone else but you. Now I know how much I really love you and how lucky I had been to have been loved by you. However things end up, I know we really love each other and that what we have is the realest thing I have ever experienced. I know that we’re at a tough spot right now, a really tough one. I suppose it will be this way for God knows how long. In the past two years there was a lot of obstacles for the both of us. Even though I know our relationship was a big one on its own. But I know and never overlooked at how much more you were going thru on your end. I'm sorry for giving you all the pain someone could tolerate. I cannot blame you for why we ended up here. I also had my faults, so please stop taking all the blame for it. I have also popped up in your life na parang palitaw and you never asked for it. I pursued you and persuaded you to give me a chance, and all the while, I completely ignored the fact that from the very beginning you knew how complicated it would be. And it hurts right now because I realize what my selfish actions can actually do and I'm sorry I chose to do that to you. Although, the things that I cannot be sorry for are loving you unconditionally and wholeheartedly and giving you my heart completely. This is too precious to let go and it is so difficult to convince all parts of me that I have to let you go. And I don't know how I'm going to last like this. I don’t know how I’m going to survive without you. My very reason to keep going everyday is now someone I have to see walk away from me. I know that you would need to walk away from me, one step, daily. And how I wish I could stop you, how I wish I were to just hold your hand and walk side by side with you instead. “Let’s walk away from all the problems together.” Something you and I would say to motivate each other because it’s always better when we’re together. Before I let you go, before you close this chapter of your life and start a new chapter without me in it, before you fall in love with someone else, I want to say thank you and how I could never thank you enough for everything that you have done for me. You don’t give yourself enough credit to how good you have been to me. When you said that you could never be someone to show me off or that someone who can be proud of me. You were wrong because you have shown me off and you have been very proud of me. There was never anyone else who showed me their genuine feelings for the simplest things that I have accomplished. There was never anyone else who had given me their absolute words for believing in me and my madness. There was never anyone else who had given me and shown me the truest form of friendship. There was never anyone else whom I had given my heart to in this way but you. You have shaped me to the very person I am now. You have given me something to look forward to in each and every day of our lives. You have shaped my capabilities to love and to hold on to what matters the most. You have given me birthdays, monthsaries, giving flowers, caramel, pink, and hope for a better future for us both. You have made me look forward to fixing myself so maybe I can have a slight chance of being the person to care for you forever. You have made me a better person. That’s why I’m nothing without you and why I like me better when I’m with you.

The way I see it, you have choices to make. One, you leave me and I set you free. Two, you leave me slowly and I set you free when you’re ready. But it hurts that none of those options get me you in the end. And in spite of everything, I love you. Whatever you decide to choose, choose it for you. Choose it for your own good. Choose it because that’s where your heart will be most at peace. I can’t continue to convince you to keep choosing and loving me because I would end up fighting something bigger than me that’s a huge part of who you are. You wouldn’t be you without your love and dedication you have for your family and God. That’s how I know I chose the right person.

[jeonqkooks]

hello my dearest beloved ♡ have you been well? has work been kind? (has the work crush been kinder? hmm~) what a whirlwind it has been the last little bit, with hobi's news and now jimin's! from bittersweet to absolute joy, i hope you have been managing everything alright.

how is the community doing here at jnqks & co.? i see the obs train is still chugging along strong (as it should!) — i am so happy you built such a strong foundation with a story that has reached so many hearts. i still have yet to dive in, and for that i apologize profusely forever for, but from the forum-like talks around here... you really spun each of your readers around your little finger, ready for impact. queen behaviour, i must say ♡ the world you build every time you write truly is a sight to behold; don't you ever forget that ✨️

has your family been well? i certainly hope so. sending my regards to them wholeheartedly ♡

i swooped over to lilo earlier, just to land softly in places i found comfort in and knew i had to go to you too. things have been heartachingly hard for me the last little bit — been having difficult, tearful conversations with my love and the circumstances that have been thrown at us recently. we're okay, we will be at least, but it doesn't make the rough patches any less lonesome. growing up is hard but they don't call it growing pains for nothing ❤️‍🩹 to the challenges and heartaches you haven't told anyone about, may you conquer them in time and with love. i am thinking of you extra, and sending all the hugs your way ♡

i adore you, through and through. proud of you then, proud of you now, and will be proud of you tomorrow. let's talk soon? 💘

thương thương ♡

with all my heart,

cee ♡

oh my beloved 🥺 you sending this message when you did - especially after the monstrosity of a month that march was - feels like a breath of fresh air. it seems even more fitting that you’re popping in just as spring is around the corner and everything’s blooming to life again :’)

i think it goes without saying that i miss your presence here every day, tumblr really hasn’t felt the same without you :( my serotonin really does spike every time i get the sporadic ask from you 🥰

when i first got this ask, the work crush was still alive and kicking hahahahha but last night i found out that uhmmm he’s playing on the same team as me so i’m smiling thru the pain 😭 i’ve never had feelings for a gay man before so this feels like a rite of passage lol. i guess work will just have to feel a lot more tedious from now on :(((

ahh obs, my child whom i love dearly and only hate just a little but hahhaha. honestly i never thought obs would receive as much love as it does and i’m eternally thankful for every single reader who’s going on this journey with me 🥺😭 but please don’t apologize, i know you’re busy and have a lot more things to tend to. i’m already grateful that you’re around the ol’ blog enough to know about obs :’)

other than the unexpected blow to my love life lol, i’m doing alright! we’re all doing fine, even tho we’re scattered across 3 continents hahaha. i think i might go home at the end of this year for a couple weeks, so me and my sister are trying to coordinate our schedules for that 🤔 do you have any plans to come visit?

i’m sorry to hear that things have been rough for you, but i’m glad that it’s slowly getting better. march really was out to get everybody huh. but y’know, there are highs and there are lows. i’m glad that you could sit down and have honest conversations with each other to help you both through the hard times. it’s getting warmer and sunnier, and hopefully things will look up too, for all of us ❤️‍🩹

i can’t tell you enough how i’m grateful i am for you :’) a message from you checking in on us seriously brightens my whole day, and it’s nice to know that you’re still around in your own way :’) i love you always 🤍 thương thương <3