#me adding <3 to make it seem more romantic less toxic LMAO

[keyh0use]

can u do more about rafe being obsesseddd with his man

wasn't sure if you wanted 🌞✨❤️ obsessed ❤️✨🌞 or 🩸🔪🖤 obsessed 🖤🔪🩸 so both <3 but not really nsfw cause you didn't ask for that

Rafe has to fight with his hair to get it to be presentable, scooping out globs of gel to slick it back. Meanwhile Barry's hair is perfect no matter what and the kook isn't jealous, no, he loves the way the dark hair curls around tan ears and how strands fall out of a loose bun and how soft it is between his fingers. Barry doesn't let anyone touch his hair except Rafe and the boy takes advantage of that every chance he gets, scratching over his man's scalp after pulling out the hair tie or absentmindedly braiding it while they watch a movie. he also tugs on it to annoy Barry when he's not getting enough attention Rafe has been determined to live his house-husband dream since officially moving in but unfortunately his father's opinion still holds weight so when Ward invites (demands) him to attend a work trip, Rafe agrees to go. It's the first night he and Barry have slept a part in a long time and Rafe can't fall asleep no matter how hard he tries, tossing and turning on the expensive sheets; he puts on a movie and turns it off half-way through, gets a snack but he wasn't hungry, turns on ocean-sounds but isn't any more relaxed, even tries making a vaguely Barry-shaped body out of pillows to cuddle but nothing works. The couple talked on the phone before bed and now it's way too late to call, so Rafe whines into the fluffy pillows and gets up super early to get ready, overtired and annoyed. That night in their shared bed Rafe doesn't even wait for the book Barry's reading to be put down or the lights to be turned off, he just crawls right up the older mans body and passes out on his chest

Rafe has a whole photo album on his phone dedicated to Barry, sneaking some pictures but also wanting to look back on the ones willingly taken of them together. He loves them so much; the way Barry's hand curls around his waist, how Barry's smile is genuine and reserved only for those minutes with him, how they sound like they would be an unlikely pair but look perfect together in those shots

He also has all of Barry's favourite things written in his notes app, knowing what soup to (badly) make when Barry's not feeling well and what shampoo to buy and what team he's supposed to cheer for depending on the sport

Though Rafe obviously would prefer Barry not wear anything, seeing his man come home in coveralls and covered in dirt and oil makes him feel literally feral. Barry can barely make it to the bathroom in an attempt to clean up before Rafe is pushing into the room also his regular attire; big t-shirts, basketball shorts, surprisingly well taken care of sneakers. so different to how Rafe dresses but his man pulls it off so well and when Barry cleans up to go to a kook event on the north side...Rafe sweats all night trying to contain himself. AND chains. Rafe lives to give Barry gifts, especially when they benefit him which chains do because he gets to twist his fingers in it to guide Barry into kisses. besides, the dealer always looks so good when its swinging above Rafe's face

Rafe could write poems about Barry's southern drawl, finding his man's voice so calming and so, so sexy

Rafe's not a small guy, people intimidated by just his size. But not Barry. Barry gets in his face and puts him in his place and manhandles him, slams him against walls and tosses him on the bed like a ragdoll

Public displays of affection are very, very important to Rafe because he likes being shown off. yes, Barry is his but he wants people to know Barry chose him too

Barry works really hard and Rafe is never unappreciative, always going on about how lucky he is and how loved he feels and how well he's taken care of to anybody who will listen (most often his sisters, who affectionately roll their eyes but they love Barry too)

And of course he does the same back for Barry, letting Barry teach him to cook and clean properly, so he can take care of the house. Rafe knows it's not what Ward wants for him and society would likely frown on it, but it makes Rafe so happy making Barry's life easier

Another thing Rafe loves is how Barry isn't intimidated by Ward or Wards expectations. And the way Barry always defends Rafe when his father puts him down.

Rafe feels so safe with Barry. Every time his head gets foggy or his hands start to shake he seeks the man out like medicine, content to be held until he feels better, listening to Barry's soothing voice tell him he's alright

Rafe noticed a pattern in Barry's habits; he would leave really early for work and come home starving, and Rafe realised he would just grab something quick to run out the door with and wouldn't pack lunch so Rafe started doing it for him

Rafe knows exactly where Barry is going to be every single moment of the day. Not only is the older man's work schedules in Rafes phone, but he knows where Barry shops for books & bike parts and which gas station he stops at after work

And Rafe knows all that by following Barry around from time to time (at least twice a week) Barry suspects the stalking after he attempts to set up a special date for their anniversary and Rafe loses it and blows up his phone for not being at work, but Barry doesn't actually care either way

nothing about Barry could ever be gross to Rafe. Rafe loves Barry's hands so he licks up blood from cuts (and ignores Barry scolding him about how unsanitary it is, considering they usually come from scrap metal) and sucks on fingers with permanent stains in the creases and lets them inside his body.

there's so much about that one I can think of because literally nothing is off limits for Rafe (as long as it's just the two of them) Barry can do whatever he wants whenever he wants to the boy

literally anything Rafe steals from Barry all the time. Mostly clothes that the older man has worn a lot and carry his scent. Sometimes Rafe wears them (which Barry loves of course but this isn't about his obsessions so moving on) but usually he just hoards them in a large bag in the closet. Barry has no clue why the kook does it and doesn't really care because all his stuff is replaced by better quality items. and then stolen again, as is the cycle In the beginning when their relationship was newer and Rafe insisted on touching Barry, not caring if his own needs were being neglected, he would use the stuff he stole to get off with; smelling the shirts or wrapping boxers he made Barry come in around his dick to jerk off with. but since losing his virginity Rafe can only get off with Barry, like there's some mental block that trained him to only come from being fucked. it doesn't bother him AT ALL because it just proves to Rafe they're meant to be together forever, obviously <3

Barry doesn't really get jealous (and Rafe would never give him a reason to be) but he is just as possessive as Rafe is which means there's unspoken rules. Usually, its the older man marking Rafe up; biting and sucking bruises into fair skin and being rough enough to leave the boy walking funny the next day BUT when its Rafe who gets jealous (ex: i have a rough draft of a jealousy fic where the receptionist at Barry's job has a crush on him and posts about it online which Wheezie sees and snitches and well...) he goes a little insane. like warning Barry he'll go after whoever and meaning it, wanting to be in control when they have (kinda, cause they weren't fighting) make-up sex and letting him make some sort of permanent physical claim like scarring him up. but Barry is so good at talking him down and reassuring him afterwards <3 <3 <3 <3 Barry gets Rafe's named tattooed on him <3 <3 <3 (my fav!!) and Rafe is literally untouchable then. like feels on top of the world, so happy and in love and needy, too. the tattoo needs to heal but Rafe wants to put his hands and his mouth all over it, take pictures of it, stare openly for hours because Barry is really his

Rafe craves Barry's body in more ways than just sexual (though that's a big one, very important to them) he loves worshipping every inch of tanned skin, running the tips of his fingers and his tongue over scars again and again, never giving Barry a chance to be insecure about anything & being so close, wrapped up in strong arms and made to feel safe kinda goes along with the stealing one/gross one but Rafe wants to be all over Barry at all times no matter what and is obsessed with the way he smells. the smell of his shampoo/deodorant/cologne, yeah that's all fine but Rafe likes when Barry comes home from work and needs to shower, that's the scent and taste that drives him wild. and he nuzzles into Barry's hair to breath in lungfuls and licks up sweat

I could probably go on forever <3 thanks for asking these, they make me happy <3

[malumarca]

Anonymous said: ship bias for Kazimir?

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Kazimir x Hawks ( Romantically / Platonically) : @animaaerius​ I have the lovely Lumos to thank for this beautiful bird and angel ship. Honestly I think it started out as Kazimir being curious about Hawks, since it seems like those with wings are rare to come by? And it grew to friendship, one where they could chat with each other and discuss their wings and even groom each other and then it eventually became a ship. I love their dynamic since Hawks is so easy going ( at least he tries or appears to be ) and then you have the over serious Kaz. Then you have the added complication that Kaz acts like a vigilante at times and you have him drawing the attention of a hero and it makes it all the more interesting. I love birb friends. 

Kazimir x Dabi ( Enemies to Lovers :3 ) :  OOF A BIG FAV OF MINE. I haven’t been able to ship this since.... oof I think I first created Kazimir? But it is one that I still love and secretly hope for. Kaz h a t e s villains or those he deems unworthy and in a verse for this to happen, one thing leads to another and he ends up joining the league of villains as their “healer / doctor.” He HATES Dabi. But as they spend more time together and antagonize each other, they end up sleeping together. It’s a ship that completely pushes Kaz’s boundaries and that is what I love about it? He likes to act as if he isn’t interested in Dabi and that’s another thing that I love to explore with him. Kaz is someone with morals, albeit somewhat grey ones and falling into a ship with Dabi, someone I think we can all agree is twisted due to his past makes the dynamic something that is always fun to explore. Mind you this could happen just as easily as Enemies to Unlikely Friends and I’m all for it. 

Kazimir x Ryukyu ( Romantically ) : Something Birb ( @errantinfinity​ )  and I discussed a while back, again closer to when I first created him, but moving forward. Once again, I love pairing off Kaz with heroes, he’s morally grey and does things he deems “ right “ but by normal standards are not. He plays god a little bit, even if he means well. It adds unknown tension between him and Ryukyu, but ultimately I love the idea of 1) Ryuko having someone 2)  Kaz possibly realizing the error of his ways and 3) at least by Birb’s Ryuko’s standards, someone eventually to open up to who will love her wholeheartedly ( if you don’t know Birb’s backstory for her, let me tell you, it is very sad and she deserves all the love in the world ) . ASDFGH anyways I love them and need to send more stuff to Birb from Kaz. 

Kazimir x Zach ( ZachKaz? AngelSiren? I FORGET) : @seiirenes​ this one here OOF. Kaz and a villain :clap: a ship we just started to dub as Hades and Persephone. Kaz loves to hate ( and love) one Siren. I honestly forget the complete dynamics or how they met and how things completely got off the ground but... Zachariah and Kazimir end up falling for each other despite their differences, both in personality and alliances and it makes for a fun time plotting. ( Eventually they get married too GASP)  Regardless of the details, Zach grew on Kaz and even if he is loathe to admit it, he loves the Siren deeply and wants nothing but the best for him, even if he has to get after him from time to time. Another example of  me loving to place my muses with their opposites. Angel and Demon, Dubiously Morally Straight Vigilante with a Morally Grey Villain, etc etc. I don’t know but I love all dynamics for them, or verses. It’s too good to pass up. 

Kazimir x Overhaul ( Leader/ Platonic / Toxic Romantic ) : Honestly... I can’t say anything other than that I love toxic ships and the thought of the angel being dragged in by a demon, cough Overhaul, and convinced of his world view. There was a time when I desperately wanted to write a verse where Kaz was a part of the yakuza, but I never got around to it. It always made me think about how disgusted Kai would be by his clear mutation of a quirk, but even Kai wouldn’t be able to overlook the possibilities of his quirk. Kaz could easily take over all the healing for Overhaul, aka less touching, plus with the medical knowledge he has, he’d be able to help him as well. Though Kaz would never agree to harming Eri, regardless it was a ship I’ve always wanted to explore but never got the chance outside of my head. 

Harper x Kazimir ( @mckiingbiird​ ) : This is one I’m still exploring and learning about but I love the idea of a civilian and a lawyer at that with Kazimir ( someone who was studying to be a doctor) and once again could be described as morally grey due to his extreme views. Honestly I love Aspie for suggesting this because YES, OC x OC. And Harper is an absolute delight, cutie and badass and probably one of the more normal ships for Kaz. Someone he can understand far easier than any of the villains and heroes I keep tossing at him LMAO. But again, they seem so cute together and I;m really excited to explore the two of them dating and getting to know one another as well as dating one another because Kaz can finally genuinely like someone with worrying about his morals right away or being stopped by his beliefs. 

ANYWAYS. I have a few others, but that is it for now.  This is mainly BNHA, but tbh one ship that was teased with me was Kazimir x Chuuya and I still think about it from time to time. Angel with a literal God? He’d be questioning his very existence. 

[taenys]

tell me why my brain decides to give me nightmares about thomas breaking up with me. TELL ME WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY. i can probably blame PMS for the last one. phew, i woke up in a cold crying sweat that night. but still, why is my brain out to make me feel like shit and worry about things that haven’t happened. bruh. 

probably because sometimes i remember that these exist, and they show me a thomas that perplexes me

“guess I’ll finally work through that game back log.” That was about the one right before me. I wonder what she was like. He’s never really said much about her. I just assume that means she wasn’t that…significant? that she didn’t particularly impact his life or his heart. Not like the one who was obviously the love of his life, that he moved to Oregon for, adopted a cat with, etc. that one is important and always will be. But the one he’s talking about in that post, the one with the celebrity name? they broke up, he made that unemotional facebook post letting people know, and exactly one month later he was complaining on facebook about how much online dating sucks. He moved on SOOOO fucking fast from that relationship that I have to assume he wasn’t DEEPLY in love with her. Yet they were together for like 3 years lmao. how can you not be deeply attached to someone after that long? (that’s a hypothetical question since we’ve already established that thomas no longer allows himself to get intensely attached to romantic partners now). but maybe he was just tired of the relationship by the end. God…I really hope he doesn’t do that with me…stay with me for years even though he’s secretly exhausted by the whole thing. I know next to nothing about her (other than what she looks like) but his one statement about her on his facebook page implies that it was a…time consuming relationship? One that allowed to less time for his hobbies, I guess? Well, I can, with some degree of confidence, say that I’m not a girlfriend that is keeping him from his hobbies. At least I hope to FUCK I’m not.

I always encourage him to play all the games he wants to play. Even if they’re games I don’t particularly care to watch, i’m happy seeing him have fun. but we’re together, and that’s all that matters. He doesn’t need to entertain me, and he knows this (or he SHOULD know this). I honest to god just love existing next to him. I can be playing animal crossing or sims, laughing at memes on twitter or whatever and he can be playing WoW with his friends or whatever and I’m happy with that. I’ll always be happy with that. If he didn’t exist in my life, I’d just be at home doing exactly the same thing with my sister (each of us doing our own thing but in the same space for the company), or alone in my room. I get to do what I’d normally do, next to the boy I’m in love with. There’s truly nothing better in the world to me. Sometimes he apologizes for getting engrossed in a game, idk maybe he feels like he’s neglected me and I’m going to feel unhappy, but I never do. So, I can’t imagine dating me is so completely draining, that if we broke up, he’d suddenly have all this free time. That he’d suddenly feel free to…do whatever he wants or something.

“welp. It was a good five years, I guess.” that’s the most distressing one of all, I think. It’s about Her. The One. His One. The one who never deserved him to begin with. I’ve talked about that too much, though. What distresses me about this post is that she read that. I mean, they’re facebook friends. It’s so…emotionless. for something so significant. for someone he dedicated so much to. The addition of the “I guess” implies that he’s not even sure if it was a good five years (understandable since she WAS draining and toxic as fuck). But still, holy fuck. As much as I hate her fucking guts, my empathy is too strong for me to NOT feel bad for her when I read that. I’m probably reading too much into it, and maybe she didn’t care seeing him say that like a day or two after they broke up or whatever, but the thing is Thomas is an extremely private person.

I remember when I added him on facebook, I expected to see lots of pictures or posts about his past relationships. I mean, even a few. It’s to be expected! But there was…nothing, really? Pictures of his cat. Funny posts. But no couple selfies, no “happy birthday to my girlfriend” posts or anniversary posts, no real relationshipy stuff. Maybe he deleted it all before he added me? That’s certainly possible, but it seems more likely that he’s just not someone to broadcast his relationship to the general public like that. He doesn’t care about that kind of stuff. I mean, it definitely would have made me sad to see him make public declarations of his love like that with past girlfriends, but not be that way with me. I DEFINITELY would’ve over analyzed the hell out of THAT lmao. Anyways, he’s a deeply private person offline and online. But the one consistent thing he has posted online in regards to his relationships are those two breakup posts. It’s so…weird to me. That the one thing he WOULD broadcast is…the ending? and in such a *shrug emoji* kind of way. 

Sometimes I look at those and think, “is this what it’s going to be like if we break up?” is he going to make an indifferent, detached comment about our breakup too? maybe something like “at least I’ll be saving gas money” or something of the like. idk, the only thing I could think of that is less than ideal about our relationship at the moment is the fact that he has to drive over an hour to come pick me up every weekend. A five minute drive to and from my house ruined my LAST relationship, so it wouldn’t be far fetched to think that an hour drive (especially for someone who doesn’t love to drive, like Thomas, who’s been in some serious car accidents in his life) might be something that could get to be annoying and exhausting after a while. And that will probably be a nice relief for him if we did break up.

Thomas sometimes jokes about how he’s heartless and unfeeling, and it makes me think. It makes me think about the after. At this point in time, if we broke up right now for whatever reason, how would he feel? Would he feel sad? i have to assume he would be, right? But would his sadness be quiet? Dull? A slight ache that goes away after a couple months, weeks, or maybe even days. but for me, even thinking about the hypothetical makes my entire body throb with pain, i can’t imagine what the real thing would feel like. Breakup Thomas is so foreign to me. It’s a Thomas I never want to experience, but can’t assume I’ll never meet. I understand relationship Thomas. He’s loyal, patient, understanding, tolerant. He perseveres. Even when it’s tough. Even when he might not WANT to anymore. But breakup Thomas…is he gentle? Does he cry? Does he get annoyed by the other person crying? Does he get angry? Does he get mean? Or does he remain blank. His facebook posts make me think “calm, rational, but generally unfeeling” is more likely his demeanor.

God. I hope he breaks up with me via text if he ever does.

Thomas if you ever read this, you have permission to do so. I’ll need to cry and sob in peace lmao