#mb this is kinda a vent

[congratsashiny]

sorry everyone i got nerfed by the adhd hyperfocus 😭

[sleepy-pile-of-ashe]

Oh it's raining

[kito-kat]

Thinking about things my ex friends did and the concept of 'supporting mentally ill people until they're actually mentally ill'

Huh.

[mawenskiblue]

👁️ 👁️ what is this “nmg au”? Tell me more?

🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️💦💦💦 hides snippet under the cut (rambles in tags)

... It’s hard to tell what they’re feeling at times. Still, they shook his hand and introduced their name.

N.

A simple, one-lettered nickname. Unlike his, clearly inspired by his appearance; but he’s not complaining. Nightmare gave him a better nickname than what the multiverse did. ...

[wouldvecouldveshouldve]

i wake up to phone calls, text messages.

i cry out to the wolves that howl in my mind.

i sit at my desk and stare at the pages and paper that i’d prepared last night.

in this moment, i wish i died.

[knownsystem]

you ever forget that you're fronting and also forget your role

like hm I wonder why we've had weird brain stuff the past few days... we rarely have that stuff unless m is fronting...

i have been fronting in some format (co-con, heavy passive influence, etc.) for the past 2-3 days and just now realized

[luffyvace]

Izuku x male reader

This is fluff so it’s gonna be sweet but don’t expect only “cute baby Izuku 🥺” bc I’m writing accurate to canon him/manga him 😜

(Your a UA student in class 1A for these<3)

Izuku’s Love languages are acts of service and quality time

even though quality time sometimes get scarce because class A is hectic

its called quality time not quantity time

Its about how you spend your time together, not always how much

although I will say you make as much time for each other as possible

you guys train, eat, nap, jog, watch tv/videos together

And of course make lots and lots of jokes

you two have so many inside jokes class A doesn’t understand 😂

It fine you don’t explain it, it’s funnier that way

he does you lots of favors for acts of service

you really don’t even have to tell him!

its the little stuff like, cleaning up a mess for you, getting your jacket when he knows your going out, reminding you about tests and to study!

which on that topic you two study together when you can

but izuku is really busy and spends a lot of energy in the day

As we saw in some episodes he goes to sleep as soon as he makes it in his room

but he does his best!

your likely busy too! Like I said UA is pretty hectic

Even though he has a lot on his plate, he makes time for you

he does lots of little things for your relationship

weekly mental check ins where you sit down and talk/vent or chatter if the week has gone good

video game marathons/competitions

going out to events together likes pop up festivals

buying each other clothes spontaneously

(oops this is coming off really gn let’s switch it up<3)

when izuku realized he was in love with a male..

it made no difference

No fr mha is modern enough to have the clock app why wouldn’t this kinda thing be normal

he might not have realized he was bi before you though

originally he thought he was straight bc he always got flustered around girls

but when you came around and made him feel way more nervous than any girl ever had??

yeah you know that bi panic meme?

he got a slap of that

💥💥

Homophobes is not the worst he’s run into tbh so now that he stands up for himself, he will stand up for you and your relationship as well!

he doesn’t really have the best roasts or whatever but he certainly doesn’t let them get away with it!

forget them tbh let’s move on to a more wholesome topic 💗

Meeting inko!!

when she found out you were a guy she raised her eyebrows then slowly smiled

she was 100% supportive!!

izuku wasn’t really hesitant about telling her or anything because he knew his mother isnt judgemental

when she meets you she’s ecstatic!

she makes a savory dinner and probably shares way too many adorable stories about izuku’s past

Which he gets really embarrassed and you guys end up in his room after so she can’t keep rambling

random but I also feel you and izuku also read manga together

If you like it :)

training with him is..harsh to say the least 😀

like fr no holding back for either of you

If you don’t have a combat compatible quirk this is basically a one-sided beating

only playing!

but seriously he’s letting loose

”what if this was a real battle and you were in danger?!”

”ok but..your punching me like IM the villain”

you’ll be aight 🙂

He told you about his quirk depending on how soon you two met

If you met in middle school or before he likely told you like straight away

mb all might he couldn’t keep it in

if you met in UA, However, he probably either waited a few months after you became friends or started dating

he tells you when your friends if your instant best friends but if your just the occasional “hi m/n!” Then it’s likely after you two get together

pranks.

Yes they happen.

him to you, you to him

you still teenagers after all why not?

if your feeling a silly goofy mood what better to do than surprise your partner? 😋

oddly enough, once you get close enough in the relationship, I feel he’s the one that initiated them!

you guys only do innocent little things that don’t hurt anybody, of course

annoying each other also happens

not in the actual annoyed sense

just the type where your like “BRO STOP!!” But your still smiling 😂

like idk putting one putting their feet next to the others face typa thing

again still harmless

your never really mad at each other and you always make jokes and laugh it off in the end

heroes.

how could I not talk about this?

they’re his favs!!

not to mention I hope your fav hero all might..

bc one, his room.

and two, his rants.

like you’d have to explicitly state you either have a diff fav or are just tired of the rants bc…..bro will go ON.

If I’m gonna talk about heroes gotta talk about villains too right?

so izuku tells you that he wants to save the villains

and that he sees children in them

unhealed, scarred, children.

he rants to you about this on mental check in days

and you listen, he appreciates that.

he gets the feeling no one gets him in that sense, and even if you don’t at least you hear him out!

izuku so so so loves you!

it’s super sweet that you so so so love him too 💝

Writing for izuku is so easy! I love writing for my favs bc thoughts pop out like poop :)

(LOL). No seriously I wrote this faster than expected. Hopefully I clear drafts soon so I can open requests :^

[ihaveasparagus29]

I’m gonna be real I kinda don’t like the November 4th/purgatory event but I love it at the same time??? Like I love the story behind it SO much but seeing the server being torn apart like this hurts me on a straight up physical level (or I’m just really ill I have no idea). Also it does feel kinda imbalanced on the part of the red team. Bros grouped all the inactive players into one team and said “yea this is fine. They’re all main characters they’ll figure it out.”. Not the admins fault ofc not their fault nobody is active but it just kinda hurts watching them struggle for scraps while blue team continuously beats them down.

In other news I am in love with the story being told. Regarding fitmc retweeting himself I kind of have a theory… I think everyone in the island were criminals before they were there. And the island is their form of punishment. Like how in the old days of the British empire people were sent to Australia and they built their own civilisation away from society, I feel like the island could mirror that. Purgatory (as I’m calling the dude cuz I’m a slimecicle watcher and we don’t get main story lore) described the group as “criminals who didn’t deserve a break from the island” or something along those lines I forgot. Anyway that could be some sort of lead that I’d like to leave to the cellbit and Philza and whatever watchers who can delve more in depth with this kind of stuff with their plethora of main story knowledge. Also please can we have purgatory man fanart please and Ty.

Furthermore i would like to express what the fuck that list of six people was. I think people who are on the federation’s radar?? ElQuackity and Jaiden both work with the feds I think?? Cellbit is investigating the federation, Charlie and etoiles are both corrupted by the code and something something I have literally never seen maxxo around but I can only assume he is important. These are all people who are either close to the federation or pose a threat to them. The people most likely to betray them or hurt them. Again, I’d like to leave this idea to the people who watch the main story streamers to further delve into these ideas cuz I’m a slimecicle PoV watcher who has no idea what is happening at all times and only understands silly little egg dying 15 times in a row.

Anyway mb for the long post. Sorta like a half vent half headcanon dump I just had to get the autism out <3

[baeddelations]

I think this part of my loathing of seeing this article passed around "i am tw, iam staying in the closet" bc it is a diary entry that was explicitly not supposed to be advice or a rubric. She origanilly aays its just 1 narrative to take in then when it gets past around she says hey this was me venting i didnt intend for anyone to read this.

I think this is the major interest in this piece. A view into the interiority of a tw whos been closeted for 20 yrs and her personal xp growin up then being a closeted tw in a University WGS dept. Some ppl might call this a fetishistic interest in the interiority of this tw, oh how they love poking around in the frankenstein monsters guts, poking his brain to see what horrid mismatched limb will jump.

I think the main reason @autolenaphilia interacted with this is bc this article was passed around by a bunch of transmisogynist who are adpting and pulling together the transmisogyny of jeniffer and her recounting of cismanhating that exists in primarily cisfeminist spaces and by extension radical and queer spaces. Jennifer does not bring up cafab transness or transmasculinity once in this article yet it is cited as inspiration for truther framework.

I do think the way that jennifer talks about not wanting to acquiesce is kinda built on a faulty conjecture which is that if she transitioned she would be able to talk about femininity in these spaces... at one point she says this probably wouldnt be true(mb just for her) but then goes back to the original argumentation on many occasions. This argumentation taken to conlusion posits that it is easier to discourse or even exist in those spaces as a tw than as a cis man that u will be more include and less ridiculed. At the time of this article she had never actually tried out this proposition, so she never got to see how this prop is at least in all the copius amounts of personal and anecdotal xp i have false. But this prop is useful for ppl who want push tw have it easier and that men are reviled for being men. Enter prager xcuse me truthers.

I also hate internalized oppression framework, imo it is an idpol tool used to shift blame from the brainwashed oppressed to som aspirational that oppressive ideology comes naturally to. Is she promoting transmisogynistic ideas? Yah, shes not bad for this but it is why its useful to truthers, and part of why it hurts to read as a tw.

@autogyne-redacted i do think its hard to see point 1, 2, and 5 of y shes not trnsn nd say these arent related to passibility. Repercussion are often contingent with passablity. Movin towards phys transn being dysphoria inducing is connected with what expectations of feminity u hav and how u line up with them(i also xp this). And the gap thing is imo her wishing she could be passable w ease and recognizing she cant so settling and saying its not worth it to try.

I think lena is apply a broader scope of trans xp to jennifers xp i dnt think this is even necessarily harmful and i dnt think shes even saying jen is wrong for it shes saying her words are easy to coopt that they are capering to these tmras which they are however unitentionally. U could also take things ive said in the past and warp them into tmra shit. I fortunately didnt write these things in a medium article. She is handling in other ways and this is wut conv therapy wants... thats what it seems they go for a lot again doesnt mean jen is bad nd lena doest say shes wrong for this. The only thing lena says is she doesnt want this for herself thats not restricting jens autonomy. And that the article and responses made her sick. They made me feel bad too. This isnt necessarily a moral judgement. It could be but idk.

All this is a dissection. I hate it. I wish her vent diary post wasnt being aired, analyzed, and discoursed. Im doing it right now ffs! It makes me want to leave the internet. I hope ppl stop talkn bout it...but they wont bc the corpse of this diary can be a useful weapon against tw so itll keep gettn used.

[tojisun]

trying to be a normal fan and understand where irl is coming from re: davo but she says things that make my eye twitch and i feel horrible for being so invested in someone to the point i almost did a “actually☝🏼🤓” in response to her venting like mb g, im kinda in love w the silly man youre calling annoying 😭

[insufferable-talkstuck]

(HELPP sorry bro gonna ask this blog instead mb 💀😭)

helloo can u classpect me pls (idk heo to do this 🔥) including a little bit of vent for the sake of classpects

basically i am reclusive, secretive, spacey, knowledgeable but not in an arrogant way, creative, pretty absent minded, and very awkward :]

my main interests include TMNT, MBTI, experimental music, psychology, and marine life. (probably says nothing)

i also like drawing but sometimes i get mad jealous over other ppls art

i also have a strong interest in leftism, anti-racism and anti-capitalism. idk what that says tho

i can get RLY obsessive about my interests and i will NOT shut up about whatever im hyperfixating on

i find it extremely difficult to grasp social cues, in other words i am socially inept

i can have a lot of trouble with empathy usually, not saying i have no empathy tho

no social life. 0. not even one (1) friend. offline or online.

if i had a social group tho i think id be the weird one who is very awkward and does not get jokes 😭

i like to consider both logic and emotions when making a decision, but i tend to value logic and rationality more sometimes

i have a tendency to stay up really late, like really late (it is 5 am as i am writing this

(idk of the text below counts as a vent or not but read idk)

ive always been really bad at explaining, wording, or identifying my own emotions, idk why but its just really hard to come up with words that can accurately describe how i feel, which is why im shit at venting

nvm i think im just bad at wording my own thoughts in general, it makes me feel kind of dumb, im just as bad at that on text too 😭😭 communicating is hell

(vent-ish thing is over)

supernatural stuff is pretty cool too idk

ive been told im dry and very monotonous in person 💀 like a robot n shit

i also dont like being wrong but not in an arrogant know-it-all asshole kinda way ❤

idk what else to put here.

Seer of Void

I'm not picking up any sign that you would *want* to be assigned a void player but I don't tell people what they want to hear.

- dissection -

‘ basically — :] ’ in this paragraph you list off some traits that could easily be associated with void

‘ i can RLY — tho ’ classpects aren't political stances and tho some classes and aspects are described as more devoted or revolutionary it doesn't specifically tilt it towards any view on these things. go girl give us nothing

‘ i find it — jokes ’ you're listing traits of autism, not something that could help me classpect you. However in all technicality "lacking" so many things can be written off as void

‘ i like to consider — on text too ’ okay, Dirk strider moment I guess, if you had only left this paragraph i would have given you prince of heart and left it at that

- dissection over -

why I think you're a seer of void

seers struggle to grasp their aspect at first, how it works and how they could relate to it escapes them, but once they learn it they're comfortable in it. you talk like youre rampaging to find fragments of a personality, sloppily putting paragraphs about yourself together, but if you were to take a step back and relax I think you'd be relieved and find comfort in the nothingness, and along with it the unlimited potential you'll master but.. baby steps

bonus round

i think there would be a destructive heart player and/or a mind player in your session, you seem torn between the two, I don't see this talked about amongst the classpecting population but I do think the aspects of the players in your session would affect you. with all my evidence of that coming from the kids and trolls sessions I mean the bond is just so clear

[mintmatcha]

hey mint <3 um. ik your askbox is flooded and you probably have better stuff to do. but do you have any advice for a sad gal who didn’t get into any of the unis i applied to? 🥹 i applied last year too when i was straight out of high school and then it didn’t really matter yk cause if i didn’t get in i’d take a sabbatical. which i did. but now it’s like. i feel like i’ve run out of chances yk. it’s silly ik cause i’ve only just turned 20 but still. i applied to four different music schools (none of which are like. SUPER prestigious so i thought i had a chance) and three for musical theatre (same thing) cause i just can’t envision a future where i work a 9 to 5 in an office, start going out with a coworker and start pop his kids out and get married and live a shitty ass life i don’t want. but time’s sorta up you know? either i gotta start working or i gotta switch lanes and find something else to study. but i want to do music or musical theatre. and i feel so lost lmao and mb you don’t have it all figured out (i don’t think anyone has rly) but you feel safe to vent to lol it’s silly but. i just like your blog and you seem like you’re a really nice person and if i had a nice older sibling i’d vent to them but i don’t. and all my friends are away or getting into schools and i’d just feel like a failure if i told them and i don’t want to tell my parents cause they don’t want me to do music. so i’m kinda stumped lol and now i’m venting to a stranger online. heh. anyways i hope you have a nice day and i know this got really long and you’re free to ignore it but if you’ve got any advice or words of encouragement i really need it. keep up your good work on this planet ❤️

- a lil lost soul

(i didn’t think i was THAT upset but i started crying while writing this and now i feel pathetic lol)

Music is a difficult field to break into, but you can definitely work some gigs in the mean time to bump out your resume if you decide to apply again.

I was actually a music performance major in college at first and changed because I hated music theory so much. paths change all of the time and it's always scary, but that's the way to go forward.

I'm sorry you're going through this. feel your feels and then keep on keeping on

[sleepy-pile-of-ashe]

honestly take me back to last summer

[chiyeko-kurea]

//stupid vent//

it’s so embarrassing to not be liked as a ‘cool classmate’. Like, i have social interactions with people, it’s nice (when I don’t mess it up) but i’m not a fun person. They won’t ever see me as the fun, and cool and carefree girl. I guess I’m known to be very serious about work and grades. Every single seat mate I had this year (we have designated places that change every couple months) tell me after a while ‘i didn’t know you were actually like this, you’re fun’ etc. And it’s so nice to hear, right? But it’s when i get to actually spend time with people, it’s not the first impression I give off at all, which sucks.

My friend is the opposite of that. In the spend of one single conversation, she’s got everyone laughing, smiling, she’s helping them and offering a favor like it’s nothing, she just knows how to keep a conversation going and the right questions to ask to get to know people. And people open up to her that easily.

AS FOR MEEE, well i’m just like ´hey, how are you’ ‘good and you’ ‘good!🙂…🧍‍♀️errrrmmmm…… [blank]…. [more silence]…. [FUCK JUST SAY SOMETHING]… i heard the spanish teacher is not here!’ ‘oh yea that’s so cool’ ‘haha i know right’ ‘yea’ ‘yea.’

💀💀

LIKE GIRL JUST ASK QUESTIONS ABOUT THEM BUT IDK WHAT JUST COMPLIMENT BUT THEN THEY JUST SAY THANK THEN WHAT??💀 THEY LOOK AT ME TO SEARCH SMTH TO COMPLIMENT BACK AND THEY DON’T FIND ANYTHING, IT’S AWKWARD, IT’S AWKWARD AS FUCK.

//

like, the other day, i was talking to this classmate about a movie i saw and tried to get him to see it, he smiled like yea mb i’ll see it, and like just rn this afternoon i saw him typing i was like -why the heck?-, oh wait mb he saw that movie and wanted to tell me😊 Guess what, no he didn’t, he asked me if we had to finish a physics work we started together and if it was graded (because the pairs are random, we didn’t chose to be together) 😐 BRUH ISTG I WENT ‘oh.’

And like, on monday, a girl started talking to me about a final project, and i was kind of honored at first like ‘she’s asking to me hehe’ because yea, i know it’s because i’m the best one in that subject but still? :D kinda cool

and like the same evening (the project was due for the next day) she was asking me questions and i was like bffr you don’t ever usually speak to me, not even a hello, and rn you’re sending my vocals like we’re best friends, asking me what to do and what i wrote, like girl pls. I answered anyway but was kinda saddened.

Like, why always for work man.

(And btw this girl is like, breathtakingly beautiful with the softest, most perfect features (the Pinterest sub nose, ice blue eyes, round soft face with perfect skin and brown curly hair) and every nice guy’s in love w/ her. And she’s honestly quite nice! But like, not the kind of girl who talks to me. Basically, she’s myself but the prettier version, more sociable, charismatic and clever -i just work hard but dumb asf)

//

Anyways, woke up like shit cause i had a dream abt me trying to find my brother (drug addict who left us but i never knew how to stop loving him and expecting from him) in a strange-ass universe including at some point a marathon - whatever lmaoo

ASIDE FROM THAT A GOOD DAY???

[sunnisurrealism]

Hi everyone I just want to give an update on my well-being. Today I realized I didn’t send in a consent form to BC Pharmacare and that’s why my coverage wasn’t working, but I called, they told me what to do, and I found the form. This is good because my psychiatrist said i their was an error. So now there shouldn’t be any issues with me obtaining Person With Disability Status and the following monthly stipend and health care benefits.

I am coming to boundless realizations and I am going through a rage mode. I am quite sure I have severe adhd but I have not been assessed. Every single day is an immense struggle of being organized. I have a billion thoughts that I cannot simply get out without feeling like I have to write a whole series of books. Thus, my state is endless restlessness. I feel like Paul, but I know I’m not alone in my destiny like he kinda is. Don’t worry I’ll delete this later. Im not genuinely pissed at anyone in particular, for that would be pointless. I understand that my secret fans know I am a kind person at heart. Quite deeply. Sometimes I need to vent. It’s just that, I can’t afford to not express myself in fear of upsetting my secret fan(s) you Timothée because they cannot help me. Once I have more money and not chronic financial insecurity I won’t be constantly so on edge. I wish my adhd didn’t get in the way so much, and I wish I could go on meds for it but I can’t cuz I’m bipolar. Please never expect anything from me except mail on our birthdays. I cannot stand the pressure and it greatly impedes on my ability to function, which make it no point. I’m not pissed at you Timmy at all you are literally a baby Angel boi. I’m sad MB stopped replying but I’m assuming it was to protect me against my own manic uncontrollable thoughts and tendencies. I respect trust and understand. I’m mostly pissed I have no schedule in my life, which I will work on once I get back from my next trip to Victoria job I see the psychiatrist again. I’m pissed my life is neverending chasing appointments and the beaurocratic system of the government. I often wish I had my own personal assistant to help me because I am so so so overwhelmed I just end up ruminating my life away and failing to eat.

I know the real core of my issue, which is quite obviously, desperation for contact with My Dearest Love Felix. I constantly feel like I’m drowning in an ocean of jaded confusion without him. I’m annoyed when he doesn’t show up in my dreams when I’ve tried. I’m so god damn annoyed that I don’t know the real him and contextually speaking what his sexuality is like. I don’t know if there is hurt feelings or guilt but from that Coldplay song I assumed there was. I am really sorry, but also know I haven’t done anything wrong. it’s painful beyond comprehension in my little brain not knowing what in him is happening. I know though that he conceptually understand that he needs to be my rock, even from afar. Because my disillusionment levels are higher due to not knowing him and im not PR trained to become famous. This sounds so savage but I really really really need him to be stronger than me. At least in this way this story is gender normy. I definitely have a savior complex with him, although during May I saw myself as his Angel savior because he had been waiting so long. Sometimes Chani comforts Paul and Paul Chani. 🧜🏻‍♂️

The more that my secret fans help to accelerate collective transcendence in the name of social surrealist level global compassion IMMEDIATELY STARTING NOW. I don’t think all of us are taking this seriously enough… The more they lift the burden off me in the future. I know this sounds self-centered, but I am fully committed to the biggest dream theoretically possible on earth which if overcoming all systems of oppression. Not only because of the potential rewards, but also because it is what my heart genuinely wants to do when I become famous. Lots of hella people already align with this dream for humanity, I would say everyone actually. But we have to take it so so so much further if we are to address the climate change and i sustainability problem. And it also is the secret key to the mating crisis because emotional intelligence characteristics are evolutionarily advantageous 🌺this path of humanity expanding empathy is extremely obvious, it has always has been and forever will be. Those who don’t align just have broken hearts, which is another reason for the acceleration of compassion. The way thru is not going to change. It’s just the story of humanity.

I do not understand what is happening in the empathetic telepathy / quantum entanglement thing, but it was never going to always be good. At least it’s interesting 🍿

[peachymilkshakes]

tbfh I just need to vent real quick yall. It feels like the world is working against me again. My phone bill is extremely high this month because I made the mistake of waiting one minute longer to buy a new MB pack from my provider while vacationing in sweden

and now my bosses at work decided to give me less hours. I know I'm a flex worker but previously I was given 7,5h (I work 8 hours but my breaks don't count) and now they're giving me 6. I cannot afford to quit. Its not like my art carreer has taken off. And originally I was gonna get 3 shifts a week during the summer but they just cut 2 shifts this week? Like, that's great and all for my rest but like no? I need money? What the fuckckck??

I seriously do not know where to go from here. I'm really kinda scared.

edit I would like to mention that I am still at the store for 8 hours I'm just only paid for 6.