#maybe you are better than me cuz ur still trying and i seem to have given up

[11queensupreme11]

Hey!! I’m back😭😭😭was on vacation after my brutal exams!!! I passed!! But it was INTENSE! Anyway, I just read ur recent chapter and OMFG!!! WTF!! That was literally insane!! It felt like I was reading pure cinema! Like, I completely didnt think u were gonna have Demeter just straight up deleted like that💀💀😂😂.

(Although, not to be a hater, but she lowkey had it coming… I mean…that’s POSEDION’s daughter ur messing with hun. How else did she thing this would go?)

On that note, I DO feel a little bad for Persephone (only a little, tho, because who basically tries to get their cousin “date-raped” by their uncle so that they can get out of their own marriage 😑. Like girl don’t piss me off 😤����) at the same time tho. Even tho I didn’t really like him, Zagreas (totally butchered that spelling😭😭) was still her son and I can imagine that no mother wants to have to chose between their kids like that.

(Even if she did have it coming)

With that thought tho…it does lead me to wonder…

If, hypothetically, Percy was ever put in a situation where she has no (absolutely NO) way to save all her yan children which group of kids would she choose to spare amongst the yan children?

Personally Im thinking…

Chances of survival (which group of Percy’s children is she most likely to chose all the way to least likely):

1: Anthonius kids (obviously)

2: Apollo kids- okay so I actually have a reason for this!!! Personally from what I can remember of past asks. Of all Percy’s children the Perpollo kids are the most likely to not turn out complete psycho’s like the rest of the yans because their dad actually raises them like a normal parent would. Apollo has experience with raising children too! And almost all of them were raised to be decent people. So their kids will have the most stable (as stable as it can get for a god I mean) household out of all the yans and are the least likely to be overly violent and sadistic.

3: Anubis kids- same as above^ honestly I think that Anubis’s kids will be pretty chill most of the time, like their father (unless extremely provoked), and stay pretty low key. They might be a little spoiled because Anubis seems like the type but not overly so. Like Apollo he also has experience so I think that their kids will turn out better than the other yans kids and I can’t see Percy as being the type to hate her children solely for their father’s actions towards her

4: Hades Kids- same as above.

5: beelzebub Kids- this is where things start to get…interesting. Percy loves all her kids but I’d imagine her kids with beelzebub will have it rough in a situation like this because if their anything like Beel… I’d imagine that they flip flop between cruelty, sadism, and/or indifference

6: Poseidon kids-bruh💀💀. With the way Poseidon be raising kids Percy would be lucky if they weren’t all sadistic monsters. She’d love them DEEPLY (I just don’t think she would LIKE them very much, you know?)

7: Loki kids- same as above

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8:Cu kids- I don’t know too much about their children yet but I don’t think they would be too bad so TBD

omg hey i missed you 🥺💖 i feel like it's been forever omg 😭😭

about your question, it reeeeaaaaally depends on the kid SPECIFICALLY in most cases. like for example, not ALL of poseidon's kids will be evil menaces.... or at least maybe not to a high degree lol, but since we're going my majority i'll judge them based on which yan dad are the most likely to have mostly unhinged kids 😂

1: anthonius obviously 💖 there's no damn way percy and anthonius would ever raise their kids to be evil, they would literally be the most normal, kindest, and empathetic of the bunch

2: cú chulainn! ok so i don't have much on sécy kids yet, but i plan on giving them more daughters and he sucks at handling girls cuz he's too clueless (he'll try tho!). but tbh, i think even the sons would just be huge assholes then psychos really 😅

3: anubis!!!!! you saw how he is with kebi, he's a really good dad 🥹 and he listens to percy (mostly) so he won't corrupt the kids too much.....

4: apollo! as long as they don't fall in love 💀

5: hades! hades is a decent dad so they won't be that bad.....

THE ABSOLUTE WORST WHERE PRETTY MUCH 90% OF THE KIDS ARE SHIT

6: loki. this guy is fucking crazy and unstable. YES HE IS A GOOD DAD but holy shiiiiiiit is he a bad influence on his kids

7: poseidon 💀

8: beelzebub 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀

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[wholoveseggs]

I see ur taking requests 🙈🙈 can u maybe do an Elijah smut where he’s gentle af with reader cuz she’s human 🤭 I think it would be cute.. also I love ur writing

Gentle

18+ ---- {Masterlist}

As movie night with Elijah gets heated, you voice your insecurities and he dispels your fears.

~Thanks for the request anon ♡♡ I believe Elijah is always gentle, unless you ask for him not to be (◕‿↼)~

2.7k words - Warnings: smut, riding, oral sex.

You had been with Elijah for about three months and things had been going well. However, the only problem was that you hadn't had sex yet. You'd wanted to take it slow and he was completely fine with that.

He was a vampire, one with centuries of experience, it intimidated you. He had been nothing but a gentleman and had always treated you with the utmost respect. But the fear still lingered in the back of your mind, was he expecting someone who knew what they were doing? Someone who knew what they liked? What if you couldn't satisfy him? Or he could hurt you, not intentionally of course, but he was a lot stronger than you.

You couldn't voice these fears to him, afraid he would think less of you or leave you. You really didn't want to lose him, especially over this.

That was until one day you were at his place, cozying up to him on the sofa as you watched a movie. There was a particularly erotic scene playing on the screen and it was causing all sorts of reactions in your body. Elijah had an arm draped over your shoulder and you felt his eyes on you. Your breath caught in your throat as his gaze darkened, the desire evident. He looked away, trying to concentrate on the film but you weren't making it easy. The tension in the air was palpable, causing you to squirm slightly. You saw his eyes dart to the movement and the corner of his mouth turned up in a slight smirk. A gasp escaped your lips as he pressed a light kiss against the crook of your neck. You arched into the touch and the hand on your shoulder began tracing up and down your arm. He pulled back, looking deep into your eyes, his gaze full of lust.

"Are you enjoying the movie?" He asked, the smirk evident on his face.

"I, uh…"

"You seem rather distracted." He pressed another kiss against your neck and you could feel the smirk against your skin.

His lips captured yours, the kiss slow and gentle. You tangled your hands in his hair, pulling him closer. His hands ran down your sides and gripped your waist, pulling you onto his lap. His hands rested on your hips and he hummed into the kiss.

Your hands began to tremble, your heart beating wildly in your chest. This was the most heated the two of you had ever gotten, it was only a matter of time before things progressed. You wanted it, you really did, but you were just so nervous.

"Tell me what's wrong," he mumbled, pulling away from the kiss.

You shook your head. "It's nothing."

"I can sense when you're nervous, it's radiating off you."

You bit your lip, his brown eyes searched your face and you knew he could sense the doubt inside of you. You wanted him, your body was practically screaming out for his, but you were afraid.

"I've never been with a vampire before. What's it like? Is it different for you?" You asked

"I've never had any complaints," Elijah replied, a cheeky smirk tugging at the corners of his mouth.

He could sense that his answer didn't make you feel any better and his expression softened. You looked down, unable to meet his eyes. He took hold of your chin and gently made you look at him.

"You have nothing to be nervous about. It's just you and me here. You don't need to do anything you're not comfortable with." He said

You gave a nod. He brushed his thumb over your bottom lip before he leaned in and pressed a kiss to your lips. Your fingers went to the buttons of his shirt, undoing them slowly, with shaking hands. He watched you closely, smiling softly as he allowed you to pull the garment off his shoulders, tossing it somewhere to the side.

"It does feel different for vampires," he began, his hands slowly moving up your thighs and under your dress. 

"Everything is heightened, each sensation is more intense," he paused to kiss your neck as he pushed up your dress, bunching it around your waist. 

"More pleasurable." He continued, lifting your dress over your head, so you were only in your bra and panties.

You reached around and unhooked your bra, letting it drop, his eyes remained on you the entire time. He grabbed your ass and pulled you closer, a pleasured gasp leaving your lips. His kisses were light, teasing, grazing across the sensitive skin of your neck. You fumbled for his belt, trying to get his pants undone. You felt like your fingers were heavy and clumsy, as you struggled to unbutton him. He chuckled softly as your cheeks flushed from frustration.

"Let me."

His lips claimed yours once more, a deep kiss, whilst his hand went between the two of you and made quick work of the button and zipper. You grabbed the waistband of his boxers, tugging down. He raised his hips, helping you push his clothing to his ankles. Once he was bare beneath you, you couldn't help but run your hands all over his chest, abs and pelvis, moving lower.

"You feel nice," you mumbled, your fingertips grazing over his cock.

"Mmm, you feel nice too." He hummed

His grip tightened on your ass and he pulled you forward a little more, so his cock rubbed against your panties. You gasped from the contact, it created a delicious friction, causing you to press yourself down on him, grinding into his erection. Your breathing picked up and your cheeks flushed.

His hand traveled down between you and he slowly pulled your panties aside. He curled two fingers in you, groaning at the tightness. He began slowly pumping you with his fingers, rubbing his thumb against your clit. Your eyes shut and your hands gripped his shoulders.

His lips remained on your skin, kissing and sucking, leaving marks on your flesh. You were incredibly worked up, moans tumbled out of your mouth and you cursed under your breath. Soon enough, your wetness was coating his hand. His other hand held you tighter and pulled you against him. You bucked your hips, rolling them back and forth, pressing down against his hand, riding his fingers.

Elijah pulled away to watch your face, admiring the blissful look that fell over it. Your cheeks were flushed pink, your eyes glazed over, as a silent moan got caught in your throat, your hips stuttering. You came undone, letting out a soft moan as you tightened around his fingers. He slowly pulled out of you and wrapped his arms around you, holding you close as you came down.

"Fucking beautiful," he murmured in your ear. You couldn't help but giggle at his comment, pressing your body against his, humming happily.

You leaned back, your eyes traveled south and you took in his impressive erection. Your heart began to speed up, your anxieties returning. It had been so long since you had sex, not to mention your last partner was human, they didn't have super-strength or centuries of experience. Your body tensed as a wave of uneasiness washed over you. He was perfect and you were afraid.

Elijah shifted you a little further down his lap, so his erection wasn't pressed against your pussy and placed his hands on your hips. You held him by his shoulders, gripping him tightly. The more your gaze lingered, the more uneasy you felt. This was Elijah. He wouldn't hurt you. But the doubt lingered, was he expecting someone with years of experience? Someone who knew what they were doing? What if you were the most disappointing fuck of his life?

"What do you like? Do you like it rough?" You asked nervously, your fingers tracing patterns on his chest.

"No, sweetheart. I want to be gentle and slow, to make you feel good." He spoke, his voice soft and tender. 

Your stomach did a somersault and warmth spread between your legs. He was looking into your eyes, running his hands over thighs. He cupped the back of your neck as he pulled you in for a kiss. Soft, sweet and slow, he didn't rush it, like he was savoring you. 

When you pulled back, your eyes slowly opened, pupils blown wide and heart racing in your chest. He reached up and brushed some hair from your face, placing a quick kiss to your forehead. You glanced down at his chest, feeling a bit shy, the anticipation making you dizzy.

"Would it make you feel better if you were in control?" he asked.

You bit the inside of your cheek. That actually sounded like a good idea, starting off in a position you could control. You nodded your head in response.

"Okay." He said simply, leaning forward kiss you.

You moaned when you felt the tip of his tongue slip past your lips, granting him access. His hand slid from your waist down to your thighs, nudging your panties aside, gently circling your clit. You were thankful that he wasn't rushing things and that he wanted to put your anxieties to rest first.

You sat up a little, guiding his cock to your cunt, lowering yourself slowly on to him, gasping once you were fully seated. One of his hands rested on your thigh, the other stroked your side, soothing you. He wouldn't rush, taking time to let you adjust and enjoy the feeling of him. You kept your hand on his shoulder for balance and you slowly began to grind against him.

His lips found yours and you could feel him everywhere, inside and out. Your moans were muffled by his kiss, his hands soon found your waist, helping to guide you. Your forehead pressed against his as you tried to catch your breath. The feeling of him inside you was intoxicating and you just had to have more. You sat up straighter and moved your hips, riding him slowly.

He groaned from the sensation and watched you with adoration, his hands firmly holding your waist as you picked up the pace, setting a rhythm. His hands moved to grab your ass, gently guiding your movements, hitting a particular spot that made your vision blur.

He kissed up your chest, neck and jaw, leaving soft bites as he went. A quiet, drawn-out moan escaped your throat and he swallowed the sound with a kiss. His hands went to your lower back, pulling you against him, you melted into his touch. Gasping, crying, moaning into the kisses and getting high on the lust you were exuding into the air.

"Do you know how beautiful you look right now?" Elijah whispered between kisses.

Your hands slid from his shoulders to the back of his neck, clasping there. He pressed you closer, and all of a sudden, he lifted you, keeping your bodies connected. He'd flipped your positions, you were now lying on the couch, Elijah above you.

"You're so perfect," he mumbled, a soft smile on his lips.

His hands moved your legs further apart, so they wrapped around his waist. His arms slipped under your back and he held you close, as he thrusted his hips slowly. You couldn't take your eyes off him, watching his face and enjoying the expression that overtook his features.

Each thrust was deep and slow, pulling soft whines from your mouth. There was a feeling of fire burning beneath your skin and all you wanted was for him to set you ablaze. You rocked your hips back and forth, meeting his thrusts. You clawed at his back, your nails leaving temporary marks. His hair hung in his eyes as his mouth trailed kisses across your neck. He tilted his head up to suck at your jawline. The sound of skin slapping skin and heavy breathing filled the room.

He was rolling his hips hard, the sound of your pleasured moans reaching his ears and his eyes roaming over your face. He was in awe, as he enjoyed the feeling of being inside you. You could tell he was close as he grunted and pounded into you, he still had enough sense to drag out your pleasure, his fingers rubbing against your clit. It was more than enough to push you over the edge.

He held you tightly, his hips moving erratically. He was moving much faster now, chasing his own orgasm. His teeth skimmed over your sensitive skin and his breathing was short and erratic. Your name tumbled from his mouth as he came, resting his forehead against yours as he closed his eyes. After he had caught his breath, he lifted his head and began to pull out, making his way down your sweat covered skin, covering your abdomen and hip bones in kisses.

He hooked your legs over his shoulders, pulling you further down the couch. You felt his nose run along the length of your pussy. You lifted yourself on your elbows to see him eye level with your cunt, his pupils blown wide with desire, his tongue running a stripe up your soaked slit and then slipping into your heat.

Your hands tangled in his hair, tugging at the strands in pleasure, murmuring his name. He began to suck on your sensitive clit, rolling his tongue over it. Your other hand gripped the couch, your toes curling, head tilting back and eyes squeezing shut. Your legs were already shaking and you felt like you were going to fall apart at any moment.

Elijah began to suck harder, drawing out your pleasure. His tongue was dancing back and forth across your clit as he pressed two fingers into your wet pussy. He curled them just right and hit your sweet spot, making your legs twitch and a moan of his name fell from your mouth. He increased the pressure and started pumping his fingers, pushing them deep inside you, your arousal dripped over his hand and your legs quivered. He sped up his efforts and a minute later you were gasping, letting out a long, drawn out moan as you came.

Your body sank down, breathing heavily as you came down from the high of your orgasms. His gaze remained on you, his eyes wandering over your body. He moved to lay next to you on the couch, pulling a blanket over you. His arms wrapped around you and your body molded to his, fitting perfectly, humming happily. You curled up against him and took hold of his hand, intertwining your fingers together.

You looked up at his face, his features soft and peaceful. He met your gaze and gave you a lazy smile, you leaned forward, placing a slow kiss on his lips. You snuggled closer and sighed, closing your eyes, getting lost in the feeling of happiness you felt.

"I'm sorry I was so nervous," you apologized, tracing circles on his chest.

"You have nothing to apologize for. I enjoyed it, as I do with every aspect of my time spent with you," he replied

His words were gentle and sincere, the praise did not go amiss and a smile tugged at the corner of your mouth. He moved his head, his mouth brushing over the shell of your ear.

"I enjoy every single second with you. Especially when you are moaning out my name. I can't wait to hear it again," he whispered.

"You're not tired?" you teased, a soft chuckle left your lips as you met his gaze.

"Vampire," he murmured, kissing your cheek. "Means I have an incredible refractory period."

He raised one of his eyebrows suggestively and wiggled them at you, making you giggle and playfully shove him, as you tried to stifle a laugh. He captured your mouth in a sweet kiss.

"Round two then? Or maybe three," you smirked against his lips.

He smiled as he pulled you closer, you were eager to continue what you started and neither of you were tired enough to stop yet. He definitely wasn't complaining.

[flightfoot]

Ur a pretty fair voice in my opinion when it comes to the whole mess in miraculous. Would you mind telling me what your favorite things are about Marinettes appreciation of Chat Noir in Canon? Not fanon, CANON.

I'm still grieving LadyNoir and recently I'm feelin very down in life in general and now I don't have my comfort show and ship anymore the way I used to love them for.

The way Marinette treats Chat Noir in and outta her transformation never stops hurting my poor broken LadyNoir heart n as much as I wished I could love the potential of her love for him as I once did, it just feels so paper thin and shallow to me now after everythin this show did.

The show is clearly trying to have her feelings for him be smth now, but for me it never seems to go beyond her infamous vague heart eyes the show likes to hav her throw around for damage control & surface level appreciation of his presence when she has to. But if you'd tell me that she still has no real feelings for him, I would believe u, cause he as a person doesn't truly matter at any given moment her words have to MEAN something more than a vague "<3" she's never asked to back up with anything worthwhile (srry, I know you've heard that complaint a million times before. It's at least comforting to know that others feel the same)

Wasn even her taking any interest in Chat for his person in the first quarter of season 5 only caused by Marinette wantin to proof Alya wrong and that her love for him instead of Adrien is real and valid? That's so disheartening...

Going through the tags isnt helping either, cuz most i find it is either much more fanon than Canon, or it's in line with Chat prrty much being her servant now instead of her finally giving care back

Idk, I hope I'm not bein too much of a downer. So imma get back to my question now. Maybe u can help me see Canon in better light again.

Could you tell me what you like most bout Marinettes and Ladybug's connection with Chat Noir? Things she does for him, what she values in him and so on and so forth?

I like the times we see her getting upset when Chat's hurt, or when she comforts him when he's clearly not feeling good. I adored how angry and upset she got in Timebreaker when Chat was "killed" in front of her for the first time, how she suddenly became more vicious. She doesn't want to lose him.

Or like, for times when she's comforted Chat, I adore how calmly and patiently she spoke to Chat in Reverser, after his courage was taken away, how she gently coaxed him where he needed to go. I took great solace in that, the first time I rewatched that episode, since I'd been exposed to a lot of Saltinette at the time, and I needed the reminder that Marinette does, in fact, care about people, even when it's inconvenient.

While I wish that Marinette had really thought through Chat's potential reaction to someone new showing up with her Miraculous without warning, I DID love that Marinette had this long list of protips. I especially liked this one:

Marinette: (v.o) Protip 33: When Cat Noir tells a joke, try to laugh at it even if it isn't funny. It makes him happy.

Even in episodes where I have a problem with the way Marinette conceives of Chat Noir, I generally still like elements of it. Like even in Ephemeral, while I think it was very, very wrong for her to try to trick Chat the way she did, she WAS doing it because she didn't want to risk Su-Han taking Chat's Miraculous from him. Or in Kuro Neko, when she didn't want to give the miraculous back to Plagg to give to Chat Noir, because she was afraid they'd end up back in this same situation, and she didn't want to keep hurting him.

At her core, Marinette cares about Chat's feelings and wants him to feel good, to be happy. The issue comes from her not seeing things from his perspective, from being terrible at reading him. Marinette has a lot of compassion towards Chat Noir, she just doesn't understand him.

[changbinsboobs]

im the anon from before: told ya in my chan observations "knowing chan and his tendencies for a victim-complex, pick me, delulu and stuff" bound to cause some issues in his personal relationships but also this is why lee know is my fave out of the two bro would not give two hoots compared to chan who seems always on edge, kinda not trouble maker but doesnt mind stirring the pot to make a mountain out of a molehill.

although I do blame their coddeling from the companies for their inability to have stable relationships because they cant seemingly get out of their own delulu bubble (mainly chan).

u know what im also glad for these readings for? bc it makes me less delulu about certain idols lmao, its weird because some idols i thought would have dreadful personalities or types do not and its the ones that i have suspicions of and chan was one of them mainly due to his overly unhealthy attachments to stay but now i still find him interesting i just dont know if i would date him? yaknow? i think sometimes an idol having very very specific ideals can limit their overal perspective in dating bc theyre not really seeing someone for their personality or their natural charms or anything else its literally all about other attributes that they maybe look too much into and not giving some others enough chance becaude if u only look on the outside u never going to see ppl in different way, its very concieted. like what if chan met someone who fitted the appearsnce he wanted but they also had toxic behaviours or would just use him? he would still prolly date that person. im sure the girl he was with was lovely but no one wants to babysit a grown man. period. he actually gives manchild vibes no fr

honestly if anything i dont want him to be defamed cause she may or may not use it against him even if she sign nda but if hes that toxic it may very well backfire even further. i think he would be better more as friend material than romantic but he said he wanted family as well in snother reading. bro got a lot of growth to do before any of that

i hope other stay who maybe too deluded to see thru his behaviour i hope they somehow learn abt it thru readings cause itd suck to put so much attention and for it to all be unhealthy and shit

So first things first - my personal opinion is that nowadays there's just s HUGE gap between men and women in terms of being a a well rounded, capable, mature human being. Sadly. And so i i wouldn't necessarily put the blame on the companies but rather just on the guy himself - at the end of the day he chose that path and no matter what ur environment is you can still learn and choose to be well rounded human being - like thats on u bro🥲and i also do see him as a man child, sry not sry. Ive noticed that for a very long while actually and i think he knows that on some level too and thats part of the reason why he pushes that "taking care of y'all" image on himself so mich to try and make up for what he on the inside knows that he lacks.

And i think too he would date someone for SURE that he finds attractive but knows they're toxic cuz lets be honest - lots of people do😂 some people just crave toxicity and some people are toxic themselves and like attracts like.

Also i don't think the situation is that bad for him to be defamed - as i said i think the whole thing was much bigger in his perception than it probably was for the girl. I don't think he was toxic to the extent where he would be hurting anyone other than himself. In fact i think his toxic is rather embarrassing than hurtful. Its the type where you just sit there in shock and wonder how someone like him, with a certain image, status, money, power even, life experience etc - can act and be so immature and cringey. I think he could also be someone that would be kinda gaslighting but not out of malice but rather because he's just too sensitive and cant regulate his emotions so well hence why he can't really grasp the situation in a right way. But thats as far as it gets.

As negative as readings like that might sound im actually happy to read on energy like that because as you sed it helps delude people a bit and also just plain shows you a persons bad side (which we all have) and makes them much more human. And the best part - i would much rather stan an idol thats a manchild and is just a bit cringey, than stanning an abuser and not knowing it. That way you at least know his red flacks aren't THAT type of RED iykwim...👀

[jkgnggj]

Question, is saiki & toritsuka's friendship better(healthier) or hii and toritsuka's?

Just a question!!! for me it's hii's and tori's

(Is healthier spelled wrong????)(ᗒᗣᗕ)՞

I FUCKING WROTE A LONG ASS ESSAY TO THIS AND WHEN I TRIED TO POST IT TUMBLR WAS LIKE "WOOPSIE SOMETHING WENT WRONG 🤪" BITCH !!! ANYWAYS SORRY FOR SUPER LATE REPLY I HAD TO RETYPE AND RESEARCH STUFF AND REWATCH THE EPS FOR THIS LOL

Ok so basically I think they're both healthy / unhealthy in their own ways its just up to ur interpretation yk. Like ultimately it's up to everyone to decide whether it's toxic or not in their hcs and fanon aus and stuff bc note everyone's gonna have the same opinion but to me I think both friendships are very healthy in their own right.

I think at first tori's def a bit selfish and only seeks out relationship out of his own selfish desires like he seems out Saiki bc of his cool powers (though there isn't much wrong with wanting to befriend someone bc u think they're cool) but he also mentions he wishes he had those powers and then he goes on to try and make saiki use his powers for saikis benefit (aka be popular and get a girl) which again isn't like the worst thing ever like it's obvious Tori would want his only friend to help set him up with someone but the way he does it is a bit disingenuous bc he's pretending to be something or someone he's not. But regardless saiki always helps him even if he doesn't actually help lol sometimes he sabotages him tho usually Tori does that to himself LMAO. But saikis supportive of Tori even tho he insults him and shit he's just a tsundere who doesn't know how to show affection and his way of doing it is a lil violent but he doesn't actually ever harm Tori he always heals him and stuff when he actually physically does damage so Tori can't even feel it when his insides explode lmaooo. Also saikis constantly helping Tori become a better person and do the right things. And u could say it's "toxic" or one-sided cuz only Tori gets something out of their friendship but that's simply not true bc saiki gets a friend out of Tori and the first friend to know Abt his powers too, the first person out of his family to know him for who he truly is powers and all. He's also really reliable even if he's kinda incompetent or useless he is still a huge help when it counts. Tori's constantly putting saiki above his selfish desires when it really matters. They each give and take from each other which I think is necessary for a healthy relationship tbh. It's not one sided at all bc they each risk their lives for each other (cat tank arc).

As for hiitori like any relationship Tori pursues it's a lil superficial at first bc he's got unpure intentions and like selfish reasons for approaching her. He wanted to flirt with her and date her simple as that he wants to be loved lol. And he's a bit of a jerk Abt it bc altho he's nice and kind to her u could say he's probably mostly or at least partly doing it to end up dating her or so she doesn't end up hating him or losing feelings for him bc he's never really had a girl like him for more than like 0.2 seconds. He approaches Saiki to help cure her unluckiness so that he can date her without the fear of getting killed (which like sorta fair but at the same time still douchey lol). He also gives up and runs away bc he's a coward and tries to dump her into Saiki and Mikos hands bc again he's selfish and prioritizes his life over anything else but he tries to protect her (and himself, or maybe himself and by extension he protects her) when they're together like when he offers to take the dangerous chemicals to class himself instead of letting her touch them. So you could say his motives are more Abt self preservation than love but I do think he still cares about her safety and well being (even if at first it's just bc hes desperately and selfishly attached to her love for him). And he gets a lil "toxic" or like possessive when satous in the pic bc now he's got a love rival and he doesn't really like being dumped over the average dude (like fair again but it's still seen as toxic bc he calls hii-chan his girl LMAO) and so he tries to get between them right but backs off when he's literally almost killed at the stationary store haha what a coward. But then when they find out why she's so unlucky although reluctantly Tori ends up helping Saiki figure out how to cure her misfortune. And u could argue he only did it for Saiki's sake so he could praise. Him or be proud of him but I think the reason (if not most of the reason anyways) he does it is because he does genuinely care about hii-chan's safety at the end. He can't just leave a poor cute defenseless girl with that shitty guardian spirit. She's the first girl who's ever really had feelings for him for this long and like genuinely doesn't hate him or whatever so ofc he's gonna have a lil soft spot for her she's the closest thing he has to a friend in class since most of the girls hate him and call him "pervitsuka" and shit so im sure he was trying to be legit helpful and useful to if he wouldn't get recognition for it. I mean he goes full on mom mode on the guardian spirit and then nendou sr comes and goes mom mode sr on the dude too and cleans him up and then it's still not enough so Tori sacrifices (literally, he holds a fucking funeral for them) his getas burning them at the stake just so the guardian spirit can be happy and protect hii-chan like he should've been. He doesn't even complain about giving up his high heels what a brave girl he is 😔💔 oh u also made a post I think Abt how when tori was missing for a whole fucking week the only one who noticed was hii-chan and she went and told Saiki and that's the only reason he found out lol. Maybe it's because the dude sits next to her in class or bc he was her first friend at pk or her first love of something but whatever the reason it was still incredibly thoughtful of her to worry about him and his wellbeing. That's something that didn't really occur to kusuo so I guess if u really wanna pin them against each other hii-chan wins by being the more thoughtful of the two but hey Saiki felt guilty and wanted to rescue Toritsuka despite him being brainwashed and hating him at the moment that he risked his life for him just so he wouldn't get hurt by the cat tank so I think they can't really be compared since. They're different circumstances lol.

Anyways, I think that although his motives for starting any relationship and approaching anyone are usually selfish, Tori sticks around and helps them when they need it. Both saiki and suzumiya are important for Toritsuka's growth as a person / character and their relationships are both fairly healthy at least by the end. I think toritsuka loves and cares for suzumiya and saiki as much as they do for him <3

[ixesese]

Do you like song recommendations? :0 :D (if not, just ignore me ;P)

Anyway, anyway, get ready for me to ramble!!!

Okay okay, so! Have you heard Kendrick Lemar’s song: United in Grief? (The intro was sampled from a song called Paradise by NOT THE TWOS, which fits also…but I think Kendrick’s sample sounds better :0 just a preference tho) It’s specifically the intro (…not so much the rest of the song :|)! Aaand I think it fits because :D I translated that Morse code message from a while back (a little lost on the binary :/ I don’t think it throws my theories into oblivion tho)! So idk spoilers for anyone who didn’t translate it, but from what I’m understanding!!! Starlo told Ceroba about Kanako (I’m assuming, might be wrong, probably wrong), and that might have something to do with Star’s burns(graspin at straws here!! I wanna know soo bad!!). But Star seems torn up about it (not the burns…maybe the burns… but mostly abt the fact that he doesn’t know what to do)! He’s trying to fix everything! Be the best! Make everyone proud!

But he can’t :( He’s trying so hard and it’s not enough!!! /-\

He told the truth and yet he is not at peace. He has abandoned his happiness and given up on finding his paradise in pursuit for fixing ‘his’ mistakes(Hehe tied it back to the song)

And! And uuughh fav character stressed out got me thinkin overtime!! (I got more thoughts but back on topic!)

There’s also Wildflower by Billie Eilish! (I feel kinda basic suggesting it but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) and I know it’s kind of a love song, but I’m gonna twist and turn and pick it apart until it fits >:/!! …it mostly stems from when I thought shadow Kanako was a manifestation of Starlo’s guilt, haunting him, buuut I’m p sure that’s not the case :/ (gonna be real, it’s just a liiittle bit hard to read ur handwriting, but don’t feel bad cuz I have trouble reading just about any handwriting that isn’t printed, even my own!! …I manage tho, obviously) anyway specific lyrics I’d like to point out are!!

“Did I cross the line?” Which can apply to just about everyone (I think :0) for Chujin and Starlo abt their experiments/involvement/knowledge and for Ceroba (and Orion?) for hurting Starlo in a way that he (maybe? probably?) can’t/won’t forgive. Dalv got rid of something too 👀(still putting the pieces together on that) Not sure abt Lily and Kanako tho (maybe a certain line is crossed when trying to help…when trying to be…?)

“But I see her in the back of my mind - All the time” I imagine that Kanako/the thought of Kanako haunts more people than just Starlo :) and other things as well, Dalv is hung up on something (integrity human maybe? forgive me, I am unaware /-\) and I’m getting vibes that Orion miiight regret what he’s done, that he jumped to conclusions (what did Star do tho???).

“Like a fever, like I’m burning alive” :) I meeean, Star’s got physical burns, certain someones gave him those burns… I know anger is often associated with fire (think burning rage, maybe described as a raging inferno :0) buuut :) grief stings. It can burn. Betrayal (even just perceived) too. It can light emotions in the void it creates. It can make you feel like dying, like you are dying…especially when done by someone you love and/or trust…and…yea…

“I know you didn’t mean to hurt me, so I kept it to myself” (based on my interpretation ;) ) Starlo. He’s hurting. Very much so, and… maybe he thinks he deserves it, for what he’s done (what exactly has he done? Idk, can’t wait to see!!)? Maybe he sees the actions he’s taken (no matter how good his intentions were), as bad simply because those they were meant to benefit, got hurt or misunderstood. But they don’t know or won’t believe the truth, but they still lash out and…and Starlo just keeps it to himself. If they knew…they wouldn’t have hurt him…they didn’t mean it…not really…it’s not their fault… (which is a very unhealthy way of thinking!!! [guilty, I also think like this!] >:/) (sad boi hour, listened to Wildflower on repeat and this was the result)

Anyway! That’s all I’ve got for now! I’ve only recently found your page(new obsession btw), so I haven’t been able to do a deep dive yet (exams >:/). BUT!! I will!! I’m gonna know everything!! I am!! Just give me some time!! (Patiently waiting on that master doc :D still gonna do a deep dive tho)

listened to the songs and this ask gave me a happy meltdown holy moly. Okay so, i do like the song recommendations and I encourage you and everyone else to ask me more and give me matching songs for uty mistakes!!

in another point. You are close with your theories.

Starlo and the incident with Kanako are related, but he isnt really at fault and didnt tell anything to Ceroba. The sratch on his arm is related with this event. He is torn up about it (an example about what he feels is seen in the song AUDIT- a fanmade walten files song)

2.he didnt give up on ficxing his mistakes actually, quite the opposite: but it'll turn out in the uty events.

3.At first, S!KANAKO was a manifestation on his guilt! but i changed it to it being the only source of communication of kanako, since she has been mashed with a mind powered monster. But he does see her that way.

4. Yes, that line applies to everyone in their own way. but to be fair, its not in the way you might maybe think.But there is one thing. you did get right lily's.

5. yES, KANAKO DOES HUNT CEROBA IN A WAY. Dalv too, but in a more wondering if shes okay way. But, for Dalv in being haunted by someone, we all know its intergrity cmon./silly And correct, orion does regret hurting starlo (i wont tell you what he did, but, i will share something.

last point you said is correct

[candysharkart]

hi would u be willing to talk more ab ur belcher hcs that theyre all schizoaffective? :]

i can defs try! i cant promise i have really anything "smart" or insightful to say, cuz my husband and i just kinda draw from our own experiences :o

(if u are reading this and dont know what schizoaffective disorder is, im writing this w/ the definition of "a combination of schizophrenic symptoms and mood disorder symptoms like major depressive and bipolar disorder")

bob has felt the most schiz to us from the start, he's got his voices, which feel way more like he's acting as a mouthpiece for the objects he's talking to, rather than him just doing a bit. he knows its not "real" but also. it is to him. (i think hes also had some? hallucinations? but most are drug or stress induced and he also has a lot of cartoon dream sequences so...?) he struggles with paranoia and anxiety, and he's had pretty manic and depressive episodes in the show. i think he tries his best to stay grounded and self-aware with his delusions. he's very skeptical, and gets really irritated by misinformation. (probs also an affect of his autism tbh)

we also have a hc that he's more irritable and negative in the early seasons bc he's on meds that arent a good fit for him. (we dont really have meds hcs other than that. they might not be able to afford them)

linda's symptoms arent as obvious beyond her delusions like the raccoons and the cemetery stuff, but i think she's taught herself to suppress her issues so she could better support gayle who had more disruptive ones. her parents seem like the "stop being mentally ill its annoying" types. she has her own instances of paranoia and anxiety, but she mostly tries to smother and ignore anything negative she feels. VERY manic and impulsive tho. i think she also has some hallucinations in show but im drawing blanks on specifics.....

i would personally say tina is pretty depressive, but she's good at trying to cope in (mostly) healthy ways. her family is a good support system for her! she does have the most instances of visual hallucinations that arent cartoon bits (she seems to have them a lot when shes feeling guilty...) her anxiety and paranoia reminds me a lot of bob but also of gayle. they have similar outburts

gene has the least examples that i can think of.... i think he considers ken to be pretend and is just joking about him being real bc it annoys bob (compared to tina who thinks her horse Jericho is maybe...a little real) but i think he has some other hallucinations tht arent like that. hes surprisingly anti-social! he definitely often views himself as superior to the kids he knows. gets that from his dad lol. and his mania and impulsiveness are very much like linda :) he doesnt have depressive episodes as much as the others, but they hit him really hard :(

and louise! shes paranoid and has lots of aggression issues! to me she is also very depressed. (the puppet ep is esp relatable to me lol........) and she's VERY manic in the ambergris ep! i think she also has a couple instances of voices similar to bob's? but its kinda hard to tell the difference when shes still a kid who plays pretend with her toys. her talking to the taffy dummy feels more like what bob does tho.

i hope? thats the kind of hcs you were talking about? ive been trying to think of the right words for like 3 hours now. im very bad with words and so much of this stuff can also be attributed to other brain stuff, and one person can have a lot going on in one brain! so i hope i dont upset anyone with this post. thank u for ur time :)

[sueske]

I saw an interesting personal opinionated input on the test tube theory and was curious what you think. Skipping past the part on how Sarada came to be and diving into the decision of it all. From this person -who I can't remember if they were an ask or another post - theorized when SSK discovered what Orochimaru did, Sasuke wanted to terminate the fetus, but was guilt tripped by both women into keeping it and implanted it into Sakura as she was seen best fitted.

It's a great theory, but I had questions of my own: Why was Sakura best fitted for not only pregnancy status, but mother too? With Karin's past love for Sasuke, why is she okay with another woman raising her and Sasuke's child? It seems unnatural to me especially if BOTH wanted it. Is it possible SK wanted it terminated, but Sakura was the only one wishing to keep it?

And going off on what I read from someone: do you think Sakura's main reason for doing it all is because she was secretly jealous of NH expectancy and everyone's relationship that this was her only opportunity to have a child and Sasuke all to herself? Since Boruto's and Sarada's birthdays are 4 days apart? Or could this all be too far fetched?

funny cuz I was also thinking about implantation the other day. anw the main thing that differentiates karin from sakura is this:

so while karin still seems to be harbouring some secret feelings for sasuke, she keeps them to herself and says she just wants him to be happy. she 'let sasuke go' basically. would karin have wanted to keep the foetus? maybe. but would she have also listened to what sasuke wanted first? I think so.

the sakura vs karin argument can be answered by considering popularity and practicality. sakura has a bigger fandom than karin, she is a member of team 7, and the ss fandom is bigger than the sk fandom. if sk was endgame how do you think the fandom would react? also, sakura is a member of konoha. she has good standing in the village. have team taka been fully pardoned for their crimes? they're working with orochimaru but is that cuz they want to or cuz they were told that would be... best for them? yamato still watches orochimaru too doesn't he... so from a child's perspective it's better to be raised in konoha, with sakura, instead of karin in orochimaru's labs.

would sakura have guilt tripped sasuke into keeping the foetus? well, she would do anything to make sasuke hers, she even said smth to that effect in chapter 3. I could see her saying things like 'look the heart has already formed etc don't you want to rebuild ur clan etc I'll take care of the baby etc'. she has a habit of making herself appear pitiful in front of sasuke and trying to guilt trip him (see first and second confession) so it's in character for her to do.

sakura's desire to carry sarada mainly stems from her desire to make sasuke hers, not cuz she's jealous of nh's baby and other's relationships, though I am sure she is envious of them. we know what sasuke's forehead poke 'maybe next time' actually means - no next time even in death, so from sasuke's parting words it doesn't seem like he planned on doing anything with sakura. again, sakura had to chase after him. and I don't think it was a coincidence that when she decided to chase after sasuke, finally, it was when hinata was pregnant. 4 days between birthdays doesn't mean much really because pregnancies can have different gestation periods. hinata could've been pregnant for a month before sakura got sarada for example and the dates would still match up. I'm sure sakura told sasuke of hinata's pregnancy either way. all in all I think sakura saw a chance and she took it and gave it everything she had to make it possible. I'm sure she thought having a baby with sasuke would perhaps change things but sasuke sure kept his distance afterwards anyways. and in boruto, sakura said that it's 'plenty enough now'. she was obviously not okay with how things were before. though sasuke didn't care enough to change that.

I guess she got what she wanted in the end though. sakura and sasuke do have sarada. sakura can stay forever a girl in love. if sarada didn't exist, well...

[luckyqueenreign]

so I had originally started this season doing a loyal Lewie route but these last 2 weeks just really rubbed me the wrong way so I went back and did an Ozzy route and honestly it makes the season a million times better! Ozzy actually feels like a real character and you actually have chats with him more than just "where's your head at?" It sucks for the people doing the og LIs routes (+Roberto) cuz they shouldn't have to deal with all of them basically becoming the same person. that is the biggest flaw of the season and if fb actually had different routes for them it would improve the season by a lot.

OMG bestie.

YES. YES. YES.

Ozzy is def the main LI this season.. im convinced after these last two weeks. the way fb "branched" out the LJR + Roberto storyline honestly makes zero sense. For example, you can be all about Lewie from the start...kiss him a million times then Roberto comes in and maybe your heads turned a bit and you start flirting and kissing him too. When the girls ask u, who ur more into let's say you tell them "im still into Lewie but Roberto's a bit of me and I think he's turned my head". Ivy starts to crack on with Roberto and tries to kiss him. so maybe thats turned you off him a bit and made you look back to Lewie. So then when Grace tells you he's planning to kiss you that night you say "absolutely we're back on the Lewie train"...then this man attempts to kiss your sister. so u say f*ck this and choose Roberto at the recoupling only for your sister to say well Lewie and I kissed last night. BITCH WHAT????? like how is this a real thing??

meanwhile Ozzy is just sitting in the corner cracking jokes and watching MC to see if she laughs....yea I'll stick to Ozzy lol

fb needs to have different routes for the different guys. they shouldnt be so easily interwoven like the example I laid out (which btw an anon sent me that this is what she basically did) Especially bc the three personalities are so different. Like Jamal has had many more partners than Lewie but acts exactly like him?? I feel like someone with as many partners as him, who's only ever had situationships he'd be more conflicted about settling down so fast. I wouldve loved for his route to be a bit more chaotic, maybe he really likes MC but he's scared to get hurt/settle down. The Ryan we saw at the end (if ur on Lewie or Jamal's route) chatting to all the girls and trying to see where everyones head was at makes more sense to me than a super, dopey and lovestruck for MC Ryan. Especially because he too had so many partners and seemed to be more "go where the wind takes me vibes"

sorry this is so long but I had so many thoughts 😭💖

[notinmybackyard]

I enjoy coming to new york for the most part. I think.. I always have mixed feelings on this place.my friendships,the lifestyle, people, rent. It all seems like a blur though. It is quite an overwhelming place, I feel tired and hungover most of the time. perhaps it would be different if i lived here, i feel as if i cannot afford it.- yet seems as if every cool artsy sk9 person is here. wtf? how? it doesn't add up to me most of the time. rich kidds playground, or just poor for eternity. ugh. I try to make the most out of it. I say yes to most social obligations and a lot of it involves partying. I dont like partying. raised by an addict and half my friends growing up dead from drug related causes. None of my current friends seem to like it either, everyone seems tired and over it.. yet engage wit it. its unhealthy and will catch up eventually if it hasnt already. I feel like I cant hang here - in ways its threatening to my insecurities. i need 2 work on that. its better to spend a more intense time with one or two people rather than a bunch of others I dont know. yet I still long for new friendships or the potential. plus u gotta go to a bar here it seems. Sometimes I find myself in situations where I wish I was staring at a wall or could be anywhere else, but struggle to leave or take action on those feelings. Why do i think i owe the truth to everyone?Its overwhelming and I struggle to talk about myself. though I believe im unique, have stories and experiences - at times the stories feel unrelateable, strange, or Im reluctant to share or inferior. Maybe I'll write them out. Of course it depends on the social dynamic - some people I feel more comfortable opening up with faster. fake it to u make it i guess, but everyone here is on some hella interesting shit seemingly and doesnt seem to understand you can have an interesting lifestyle elsewhere. I guess it all boils down to perspective - but overwhelming cuz the avg. Joe here seems so far more cranked in stats,looks, or at least knows how to talk abt themselves at least. I honestly think a good amount of young people here are insufferable. im insecure. Everyones trying so hard. im trying hard. respect to a certain degree, but also u can try in a plaxe ur from and unique to u and localized? ugh idek what im talking about, wanna rant. half these mfs complain constantly about privilege, gentrification and displacement but dont do anything for the community they move to and their parents supplement their income. I admire and respect those who travel - but stay in a place either long enough to immerse and be involved - or stay in an area for a long time because thats where you r based. It might be weird right now cuz everyones young, but also people I know seem to make it last one to two years and thats it. kool. Perhaps the mid/late twenties or 30's are better because time seems to move a bit slower. swear everyone a different person every year. Im cynical , but how do u not feel weird when u tot thru bushwich - kamo hat, cordtado, handrolled ciggie and cowgirl boots blowing smoke in the lifelong brooklyn residents face? Single earring dope tats high fashin desighner speedglazzes alfa male. Cool I guess, tik tok core fashion adults. I think the people Im attracted here are the people that have been here at least 5 years, from here, or honestly go elsewhere. shits blown out at this point and i don't see that its worth the struggle just to claim it for a year. Sardine moments. u can make art anywhere, . Here I am complaining about all this shit. I guess its cathartic, I have so much good,thankful forthat, my friends letting me crash, i get a bike, I'm here - alive in a vibrant city, that I can experience, with people that do love me. Biked to williamsburg, lurked an abandonded yard yesterday and got sprayed by a fire hydrant. it was fun. dont like partying and pretenting, hate that everything seems to revolve around it at this age. time will tell ig. Im riding out my hangover. I usually write in my journal but went to bed at 6am last night so this is what I got.

[3dayweeknd]

here is a vent tw for weight and body image

ok i know parents lecture u and stuff no matter what and theyre gonna be annoying or whatever but why does my mom have to corner me to do it like she only does it in a situation in which i have no escape and in which i have to bear a weird silence after because i literally cannot escape. it's either gonna be in the car or right before i shower so im either having to sit in silence through the entire car ride and trip to the store after or i have to shower in a weird silence since im stuck in the fucking shower while she's brushing her teeth or something. why does it always have to be like that like why cant u just say ur part and leave me alone. in the car today she gave me unsolicited advice in which was useless she said to prioritize my academics. like duh what the fuck. she was like it doesn't seem like you're taking it seriously well ok then I guess me looking for tutors and staying up late to do work means nothing then. and then she told me to fucking smile. yeah i lectured u and made u feel bad now u better fucking smile like what the fuck. who does that. like she can never just say what she wants to say and then leave me alone she always has to be like "STOP POUTING" "JUST SMILE" like what the fuck. if you know it's going to upset me you should just don't say it or say it and let me be upset. it just makes me so mad like why can't you just don't say things that literally have no point or if u do then just leave me alone after like why do you have to make me endure you after it. have u ever heard of when people are upset they need time to calm down. like i'm still mad from this one time she was like "i have advice maybe try not to gain weight so u don't have to keep buying new clothes when u change size" like DUH WHAT THE FUCK. i'm still not over it cuz she said it right after i vented to her about how sad I was about gaining weight and my clothes fitting wrong. like do you think i didn't fucking think of that. like how is that a piece of useful advice at all. and then she was all like 'why are u upset!!!" and i was like literalyl what was the point of saying that and she was like "I was just saying!!!" like ok have you ever thought that maybe if you know something is going to upset me and if there is no other purpose of saying something other than just to say it oh idk. maybe just don't fucking say it. like this is how it goes every time she tries to give me a talk like its always some useless shit and then she tries to talk me out of being upset and then she corners me so i cant leave. and i give up trying to talk to her about it because she makes me feel bad for feeling however i feel. i just want to be left alone

[sweaters-n-socks]

I have a younger sister

But no matter whatever i try I can never seem to bring myself to like her. Every time I see her she is just so annoying and I feel like I wanna smash something and just break my head off. Everything she does irritates me from her mannerisms, the way she talks, the way she steals my stuff but never gets scolded, the way she has had a kinder bringing up than I did, the way she’s only been hit once or twice her entire life but I’ve been slapped well into my higher teens, the way she just starts dancing out of nowhere like an absolute crackhead, the way she gets to grow up with a tv while I didn’t have that chance because when we got a proper connection I was already in grade 11 and I had to focus on school, the way she gets to keep all the relative given money and spend it on whatever without a question but I’ve been taught to hand it over straight to my dad the second it touches my hands, how she is going to be able to spend her teen years happily with a separate room and alone with all my parents’ full attention while I’ve had to suffer with her annoying ass at home all my life till now, the way she already has a laptop of her own and was also given a phone before she even hit her teens but I still have to use a hand me down broken laptop that has a barely functioning keyboard and got a phone of my own only in senior secondary and only because I had to travel far for coaching classes and not because my parents actually wanted to get me one and even now my mom keeps checking my phone and keeps reading all my texts and I have no privacy so what is the point of whatsapp anymore , the way she gets to have the door to her room closed anytime she wants but my mom keeps my door open and keep checking in on me, the way my sister is allowed to go to the terrace alone with her friends whenever she wants till whenever she wants but I always had to ask for permission and had a early curfew, the way my parents always tell me that I have to guide her once I’ve gone to college but why the heck should I who guided me who told me what to do who told me how to study when I didn’t have that guidance I don’t feel like she should have an unfair advantage because I know that if she turns out better than I did my parents will rub it in forever, the way she’s going to get to go on vacations every summer from now on and they’re already making a list of all the countries they’re gonna go to next year after I’ve left to college because my family is doing better than when I was a kid but I’ve never gone anywhere apart from my native place and the only time I’m gonna get to travel is when I can afford it myself, the way she just randomly screams for no reason like she got stabbed but will just be ignored but if I yell out of shock because I spilled water on my notes I get screamed at for acting immaturely, they way my parents won’t repeat the same mistakes they did on me when it comes to her because even though they may have meant it as a joke they said that now they know how to raise a kid but for some damn reason I can’t take it as a joke, the thought that I know is wrong to think but I can’t help it which is that if my sister weren’t there my parents maybe could spend more money and time on me and I could worry less about how they’re gonna afford my college fees, the way she gets to have no restrictions on what she gets to watch but I’m always constantly monitored even though I’m literally almost 18 now, the way my dad keep a saying that I’m her second mother but why the fuck am I supposed to take on that responsibility unwillingly cuz if it’s ur child you raise it and stop putting pressure on me to help you raise her if I don’t want to, the way I’m crying while typing all of this and my mom just came and asked my why I’m crying and when I told her the reason she just yelled at me for not understanding that this is how I family is and how I’m not being kind enough when she doesn’t even realise how much this is affecting me, the way I just really really want to move out to college as soon as I can and never see my sister ever again.

[thewingedmuse]

hi muse <3 thank you for answering the Entwined Bond AND delivering it on valentine's day oh my god. it means so much to me <3 it caught me by surprise as well LOL maybe this is why i had the urge to send u that ask the day before vday🤭🤭

i'm not sure if i've said this before but i rlly love the way you write! the way you describe things, it's so lovely. are you a poet by any chance?

when you started talking abt how much soul is like, i immediately went "she is so beautiful🥹" and OMG i was very happy to hear that there was an aura of luck surrounding my soul😇😇 lucky girl syndrome things hehehehe🤘🏻🤘🏻

regarding my soul's message to me, i feel like it resonated well because i think i'm a very impatient person and also cuz i live in a fast paced society, i tend to 'walk very fast' and not slow down and actually enjoy and appreciate the process. i have no idea how to slow down and idk what that means but i'll take that into consideration and maybe try to relax and enjoy my life abit more~~ maybe because society demands so much nowadays, that's why i'm so eager to become what i wish to be as time doesn't wait for no one and i won't get any younger soon.

ALSO I LOVE THE SMELL OF BABY POWDER OMG LOLLLL. but wait, does that mean i have 2 romantic soulmates or smth? bcuz the peaches one said she doesn't want to answer the question and then you went to look for another? i'm pretty confused. but wow the peaches girl. i hope she's fine HAHAH but wow so mysterious "find out when the time is right" i hope so girl... although i don't really have any knowledge on past lives HAHA!

my past life sounded so good omg. 'so boyish' i lowkey am now too but still have some fem in me hehe💅🏻💅🏻this female soulmate of mine seems so cute LOL "me! my love!", it sounds like something i would say too to my crush HAHAHAHAHA i love bantering and teasing people i love so i guess it's a trait from my past life as well ;)

when you talked about lessons i've learnt in the past life, you said that "how to take care of herself better bcuz she wldnt want ppl who love her to get sad over her" i actually cried (for real). recently i've been struggling with my body image and have been super hard on myself too and didn't rlly take good care of myself, so to hear that, i teared up and cried for a few mins LOL. thank you, i needed to hear that.

i'm pretty sure this female soulmate of mine looks just as pretty❤️

AHHHH this is so sweet, her message to me🥹🥹

i have no idea what the light and dark pink makeup palette meant but i'm pretty sure i'll know soon.

again thank you muse for this beautiful reading. thank you for ur generous time and energy <333 so grateful for you

Hiiiii Ying thank you for your detailed feedback!!! Lol yeah I'm a poet. I'm really happy whenever someone says they enjoy the way I write! Thank you so much for your appreciation 💖

It's normal to have more than 1 soulmate. After all we can be vast in soul connections. However the one who came forward for this interview would be the one who is most eager to connect with you, or have a unique message that would spur you forward on your growth.

I'm really glad this reading helped you. I got emotional too when you said you teared up reading the lessons part. I hope you'd progress with the knowledge that you are loved by many, especially your soulmate and your soul, and also many others who quietly support you 🌸 I wish you all the best in your journey!!!

[kusundei]

chat^_^. i am kind. imsokind. i dont fucking care its okay^_^. how i wish i never told them bcuz why is this your business??????? i dont mind talking ab it but sharing it with other people and brhind my back?? maybe im a hypocrite and im evil but i dont need to hear you talking ab her inches away from me. something ab it just. sincerely pisses me off. like what do you know???? i dont care ab sav and ajax thats granted and they know and honestly i think i bring it up more than they do and its fine because ill talk ab it its just.? i truly only wanna talk ab that w them. i wish i didnt overshare at the time i always regret it??? and going out of ur way to interact w her and harass her??? idk chat. ayden was already pushing and i think the reason its making me so upset is just. what they say cuz they dont know. and then??? interacting w her??? following her and trying to comment,????? sharing it with pther people like what the fuck are you doing???? idk i think its just cuz its. them but its fine im okay.

if anything i thought. the tweet was abit? humorous? also cuz like what the helll . like ik what lyric ur talking ab u dont have to act like its only that part ur referring toooo ^_^ god forbid both of my exes would end up??? evil and.??? transphobic????? just oddd. im sorry i was emotional and i wasnt what you wantef and didnt dooo what you wanted i was just. being. vulnerable with you. comfortable enough to cry and be honest and im sorry i was always hurting???? truth be told iiii an honestly still the same way. i can definitely cope w it alot better but nooo i still bounce back and forth the same way j suppose. still sad most pf the time like i was before so idk. i was just rlly in a state back then^_^ but i swear im not always falling to bits (heh) ^_^. anyways nooo im kind. ill be fine its just a little bothersome. ill give her the benefit of the doubt and hope she didnt truly mean it like that. just odd because shes. talking ab me again. perchance ive?? enabled her??? i just hate that its alsooo. made ajax upset. oh to not have gotten him wrapped up in my shit i wish even now we had kept everything between the two of us but i was selfish because she was too??? but i was supposed to be MORE MATURE. if anything i just truly wish i had never told ethan. aleena if i had asked probably wouldve kept her mouth shut but no she. talked too much. same w kyle and alex i wish it just. stayed between me and everyone not everyone w everyone???? but its fine. im kind i dont know why shes at school today its a friday??? but its okay. i have bigger worse things to worry about . just hoping ill be fineee when i go home and ajax would be feeling better…… but its fineee its fine. i love savannah she keeps me sane in times of despair 💗

praying my mom stays kind because of yesterday. it seriously hurts likr alooot. kyle kept pushing on it and it hurt so bad ??? jot to mention hes just being evil again but im not letting it get to meee. i need to stop wearing this shirt he always … is more handsy when i do??? id put the cardigan back on but its making me evil. but yeah no its aching so bad and i wanna check the thing but im aftaid the bandaid wont be sticky anymore if i do and erm. wouldnt help. no because she was talking about like stitches??? i think it just looked really bad wuen it happened cuz after cleaning it it seemed fine. maybe cut through the first or second layer or whatever im still just shocked a chair did that to me. but oh well i think. if it truly went further it’d hurt alot more than it doesss. its just i can eee the putline of the blood jn the bandaid cuz it wouldjt stop bleeding but i wohldnt need stitches for this??????? im just gonna stop thinking ab it. i neeeed to lock in….. im being dramatic everything is fineee.

i am sooo. out of it? idk i woke up this morning just a little humored oddly enough but it is draining out of meee. i am so tired i genuinely contemplated just waiting so id miss my bus or something. im exhausted and im tweaking like physically but i guess im okay still??? my hand is aching even more today and its bruising around the sides but regardless its fineee. was gonna say ohhh i hope no one asks (someone is going to ask. sav probably) but its finee.

just feeling veryyy. exhausted today. like i wouldnt mind if i got hit by a car just now sorta thing. also just threw on whatever and called it a day and i also have that test and allll that other shit like ughhh. but its fine ill lock in. a little worried again but im sure he’ll be okay when he wakes up or something.. still pandering to my mom and praying kyle isnt here this morningg i dont feel like dealing w this today ^_^ but it is. okay. im filled with loveee. i think ^_^

[adorejungkook]

Baby got Back!!

CHAPTER 2

Synopsis; Jeon Jungkook has the fattest fucking crush on you meanwhile Jimin and Taehyung don’t find you too hard to look at either. Now Jungkook has to find a way to confess his feelings, maybe even show you, before the other two find their way into your pants during your “staycation”. 

Warnings; series, eventual smut, pining, the boys are horny they talk a bit raunchy about you, big dick!jk, you canonically have a nice booty <3, still exposition but expect smut within the next two chapters... maybe, this chapter seems shorter so I may also update tommorow

chapter. 1 , 2, 3

Jimin somehow felt like the worst friend at the moment, but also the luckiest man alive. He couldn’t decide if having his hands around your waist was better than the look on Jungkook’s face when he pulled you closer.

 “Hyung,” Jungkook said flatly, lip between his teeth as he lifted your bags into the trunk of Jimin’s van, “Come help me with the bags for a second,”

 “Oh wow, the gym rat can’t lift a few bags? I’m comin’,” Jimin chuckles, squeezing your sides one more time before strolling over to the back of the car.

“Thanks for letting me ride with you guys, I was not trying to drive,” You laughed, peeking your head around to give Jungkook a wave and a smile. You don’t notice the shade of red his ears have turned when you look away.

“You can’t get mad when we’re around her if you don’t even talk to her,” Jimin sighed, nudging his doe-eyed friend who was still staring at the place you had been standing, “You’re like the only guy who can cockblock yourself and everyone around you at the same time!”

“Holy shit, can you be any louder?!”, the younger boy hissed, slamming the trunk closed. 

“Yo, do not fuck up my car cuz you wanna act like you’ve never met a girl before,” Jimin warned, pushing him toward the front of the car. 

“I’m sitting up front this time, Kook,” Taehyung called out, waving him off when he came towards the door.

“Oh. Okay!” 

Oh, not okay. You were in the back of the car so obviously, he couldn’t be back there! Jungkook was sure that if he even looked at you while you were both sitting back there he’d either nut or die…probably both at the same time. 

This was so weird. He’s known you for the longest and he’s been into you for just as long but for some reason, he could barely give you a hello when he saw you lately.  He knew he had to get over it before Park fucking Jimin eats your ass or somethi-

“JK, I got peach gummies anddd barbeque chips!” You say excitedly, shaking the gummy bag before popping a ring in your mouth.

Your warm voice brings him back to earth and makes him realize he was the only person not in the van. Way not to draw attention to himself, right?

“W…wait for me!”

 

About ten minutes into the car ride, Jungkook started to relax a little bit. He was still a nervous wreck, but he managed to push out little jokes albeit very corny jokes but at least now he had a reason to be staring at your lips.

[Tae-Hyung 🤠] : Ur Stuttering btw😶(Sent 9:46 AM)

[Me]: Focus on the road pls? 😐

[Tae-Hyung🤠]: Jimin is driving not me hehe 

[Me]: EW you typed out hehe

Asshole.

Thank you all for the love on the first chapter of baby got back! please anticipate the third chapter :)

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