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One Good Fuck/ 2

Pairing- Hongjoong x Named Reader

Word count- 6k

Includes- Dom reader, sub Joongie, blow job, deepthroating, teasing, cum eating, face riding, tongue riding, pussy eating, cock riding, choking, orgasm denial, squirting, multiple orgasms, fluff

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Two months later

Hongjoong POV

"Hey, you free? Wanna hang?", I text her

Now comes the anxious waiting

We're on a practice break and I'm sitting all the way in the corner, trying not to freak out

Last week, when I texted her the same thing she hit me with "I can't I have a date"

And I kinda lost it

Figuratively speaking

It's just, as soon as I read those words insane jealousy came over me

I felt so possessive over her, felt like she's mine but she's not

That confirmed what I already knew and was trying to deny for two months

My feelings for her

The desperate want to touch her

The desperate need to kiss her, hold her, be with her

The love that's more than friendship love

And the utter hurtful realization that she doesn't feel the same way for me because she's going out with someone else

I don't know what to do

Should I tell her how I feel?

Keep it to myself?

Get one of the guys to talk to her?

Talk to one of her friends?

This is new territory for me

I have no problems getting a girl to fuck or date but I've never been in love before

I've never wanted someone like I want her

And I have no idea how to go about things

And there's the, you know, crippling fear of her rejection

I never cared about rejection before

If the girl I hit on didn't want to fuck, it was cool, I'd just find another girl

The girl I wanted to casually date said no?

No problem

But just the thought of her saying the words, "I don't feel the same" makes me feel like I'm going to throw up

Like it'll completely rip my heart out

I just don't know what to do

My phone goes off and I anxiously open her text

"If you mean today then yeah I'm free. But not tomorrow"

Curiously, I send, "Why, what's tomorrow"

And when she answers me back, I wish I hadn't asked

"I have a second date with the guy from last week"

My heart drops to the floor, tears springing in my eyes

Another date

With the same guy

She must like him enough to go out with him again

I lost my shot

If I hadn't been so scared, hadn't let work take over so I could avoid my feelings, she maybe could of been mine

But now I can't say anything

She likes this guy and as hard as it is, I'm not ruining that

I want her to be happy even if I'm not

I text her that something suddenly came up with work and I have to fix some songs

No way I can see her today

I don't trust myself not to be sad and upset

Then she'll ask what's wrong and I'll have to pretend everything is ok

I don't have the energy to do that today

She texts back that she understands and to call her to hang out next time

I send her a thumbs up emoji, then shove my phone in my pocket, dropping my head in my hands

This fucking blows

"Joong"

I look up to San, Seonghwa, Jongho and Mingi looking down at me

"What?"

"We're trying to figure out what to do for food after practice. Are you gonna hang out with Jo?", Seonghwa asks

"No", I answer, then drop my head in my hands again

"Are you ok?", San asks concerned

"Fine"

I so don't want to deal with this right now

"You're not fine", Mingi says, "You look upset. You said you were hanging with Jo today and now you're saying you're not. What happened?"

I don't answer, not wanting to talk about this with anyone and hoping they'd just go away

No such luck

"Hongjoong!", Seonghwa shouts

Lifting my head again, I glare and tell them, "She has another date. With the same guy"

"Tonight?", Jongho questions

I shake my head, "Tomorrow"

"So why is that stopping you from seeing her tonight?", Seonghwa asks

I glare yet again

They know how I feel about her, especially Seonghwa as I talk to him the most

"I can't be around her right now. Not knowing that she's going....out with someone else"

"Oh my god, just fucking tell her Hongjoong!", San exclaims

Easy for him to say

And the whole situation sounds ridiculous too

"Tell her what? That after one time sleeping with her I...", I trail off

"That you love her! Jesus, she's your best friend! She's not gonna bite!", San rolls his eyes

And I get so fucking mad

Didn't he fucking hear me a minute ago?

"She's dating someone else!", I yell, "That is a sure fire way of her not having feelings for me!"

Are they dense?

I just told them she's dating someone else, what aren't they getting?

"She's going on a second date with someone. That's not dating", Jongho points out

"Doesn't matter, she doesn't want me"

"You don't know that!", Seonghwa exclaims, "Go to her apartment now! Tell her how you feel! See what she says. Before you actually lose her to this guy"

"Don't be afraid", Mingi assures me, "You'll regret it if you don't say anything"

I mean I already regret not saying anything to her before she went out with this guy

I had two months to speak up and I blew it

Maybe, I shouldn't blow it again

But I'm scared

"I..I'm scared", I whisper

"There's nothing to be scared of", San reasons, "You two are best friends. The worst case is that she doesn't feel like that but you still won't lose her. She'd never drop you"

"And sometimes you just have to just take the risk to get what you want", Jongho adds

"Just go. You won't be able to finish practice while thinking about this anyway", Seonghwa says

Are they actually kicking me out?

I'm the leader here, how are they telling me what to do?

"Go Joong. Now", Jongho demands, "Before I throw you out of the room"

I raise my eyebrow but I believe Jongho

And he's strong enough to do it

But still, I'm the leader

"Now", he says in a serious tone

When I don't move, he starts coming towards me and I immediately stand up

"Alright! Alright! Jesus", I exclaim, "Fine, I'll go"

"You better. You're Uber is almost here", San says

"What?"

He called me an Uber?

Seriously?

San shows me his phone and it is on the uber app, with a one minute ETA

"But I'm all sweaty"

"Please, like she cares", Seonghwa snorts, "And anyway, girls love that shit"

Mingi and San nod

Whatever

"It's here", San announces

I glare at them one more time then I turn and leave the practice room, heading to the exit and my heart pounding in my chest

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Ringing her doorbell, I wait nervously for her to answer it

God, my hands are so sweaty and I'm actually fucking terrified

I hear the locks turning and I'm ready to run

"Joong?", she says, surprise on her face, "What are you doing here? I thought you said you couldn't hang out today?"

I can't tear my eyes off her and I can't stop myself

Stepping inside her apartment, I kick her door closed, move close to her, my lips against hers

I melt into her as I feel her kiss me back, her hands bunching in my shirt

Fuck this is exactly what I wanted

This feeling, her soft lips against mine

My arms tightly around her

When the kiss ends, she looks at me in confusion

"Don't go on the date tomorrow", I whisper, softly touching her cheek, "Stay with me"

"I...I don't understand Joong", she answers softly, confusion in her gorgeous eyes

It's now or never

"I love you", I tell her, watching even more shock form on her face, "I don't want you to go out with this guy. I want you to be with me"

"Are...are you serious?"

I nod, "So serious. I can't stop thinking about you. After we...you've been the only thing on my mind. I want you. I want to be the one to take you on dates. I want to kiss you, hold your hand, hug you, spend time with you. I want you to want me"

"But you said you're with the makeup artist?"

I shake my head, "I'm not. After we were together I stopped seeing her. I couldn't be with her when you're all I wanted. I ignored her phone calls and when I realized I loved you I ended things with her. I never slept with her after we were together. I didn't kiss her, touch her, not even hold her hand. I didn't see her outside of work and even at work all she did was my makeup. I don't want her or anyone else. You are who I want"

I hold my breath, waiting for her to say something

I confessed everything, there's nothing else I can say

"I do want you Joongie"

I let out my breath as I realize what she said

"Yeah?", I ask, hopeful

She nods, "I love you Joong. I always have. You've always been my dream guy but I figured you didn't see me like that or you would of said something. I..I didn't want to go out with Kwan but I was trying to get over you"

"Don't jagi. Don't get over me. Please baby don't. Be with me, let me love you Jo", I say softly, "I want to love you. So much"

She smiles softly and it fucking knocks the breath out of me

"I want to love you too Joongie. It's all I ever wanted"

I nod, leaning my forehead against hers, "You're mine baby. I'm yours. We can love each other just like we want"

"Ok baby", she agrees, then presses her lips against mine, fireworks exploding in my vision, my entire body heating up

Fuck, I want to feel this way every single time I kiss her

Like the earth fell away and there's nothing but me and her

Somehow, I know I will

With her, I will

I move my tongue in her mouth, hers immediately playing with mine, the kiss turning desperate

Our hands move quickly, shirts pulled off, her bra on the floor

She pushes me against the wall, her lips pressing kisses to my neck, her hands on my body, touching everywhere

Heat and fire flood every inch of me, from her fingers, from her lips

This was what I was craving these last two months

Her touch

Her

Just her

Her kisses spread down, all over my chest, her tongue licking my skin before her lips press against it

I moan, watching her kiss me over and over again, going lower and lower

She moves to her knees, my heart pounding in my chest as her lips kiss my stomach over and over

Her hands so very slowly, undo my belt, the clinking sound of it ringing in my ears

She undoes the button on my jeans, the zipper following, my jeans falling to my ankles

"Off Joongie"

I kick my shoes off, followed by my jeans, doing as she asks

Her hands run up my legs, staying on my hips, her mouth kissing all over my lower stomach

I breathe hard, her kisses feeling amazing, my hand moving in her long hair

One of her hands drop to the tent in my boxers, palming my hard dick

"Fuck", I whisper

Her mouth moves down, her lips now kissing my hard on through my boxers, my cock twitching against her lips

"Mmm, nice and hard for me baby", she murmurs

I nod, so fucking turned on

"All for me?"

"Yes jagi", I whimper

"Good baby", she says softly, continuing to kiss me through my boxers

I whine, wanting to feel her mouth on my bare skin

"You gonna let me suck your cock this time?"

"Yes", I shout, so desperate to feel her lips on my dick

"Good because I like sucking cock. I've been told I'm good at it"

"Show me baby", I whimper, "Please jagi"

"Hmm want to see me suck your cock that much baby?"

"So much jagi", I pant

God, the thought of watching her with my dick in her mouth is making me feral

Her fingers move to the waist band of my boxers, slowly pulling them down

As soon as my cock springs free, she's kissing all over my base, her lips so soft against me

"Oh my god", I moan

My boxers drop to the floor, her kisses dragging along my length, slowly, blissfully

God, I've never had this done before

Never had kisses on my dick, never knew how fucking good it feels

Most girls just go right to sucking but this feels phenomenal

A new experience that I know I have to have from now on when she's gonna blow me

It's non-negotiable

After the kisses, she licks me, her tongue moving from the base of my cock to my head in one long lick

That she repeats over and over, all over my length

"Fuck jagi", I whimper, "Love seeing your tongue on me"

She smiles, licking under my head, her hand wrapping around the rest of my dick

Her tongue slides up, licking along my slit

I'm so hard, so horny, I'm leaking all over the place

She licks the cum off me, swallowing then smirking up at me

"Tastes so good Joongie", she says, continuing to lick which makes me leak even more, "Gonna give me more?"

I nod rapidly

"Gonna cum in my mouth so I can swallow it all?"

"Yes", I whimper, wanting that so much

I feel like if she keeps licking me, I'll definitely cum which is completely mind blowing

She doesn't even have to suck on me, just lick me but God do I want her to suck my cock

Her mouth moves around my head, keeping her tongue on my underside and she sucks once

"Fuck yes", I cry, pleasure filling me hard

Her mouth keeps moving, sucking on me, her hand jerking me off in time to her sucking

Her big eyes are on mine as she blows me, the brown of her iris so pretty, so intense

Every few sucks, she moves down an inch on my cock, the pleasure increasing

"Baby, baby, fuck baby", I whimper, thankful I have the wall behind me to help me stay up

She takes half of me in her mouth, sucking so well, her hand moving up and down my shaft so pleasurably

I'm so close, ready to cum down her throat

"Baby...jagi...", I pant, my hand fisting her hair

And suddenly the pleasure stops

"Baby...what...what happened?", I whine

She smirks, "Can't let you cum so easily baby"

"No jagi", I cry, wanting her mouth back around me

Instead she gives me more kisses along my shaft, moans spilling from my mouth

After a minute, her mouth moves back around my length, sliding down a bit more

She sucks hard, her head bobbing back and forth on my cock, pleasure roaring back

"Oh baby", I moan, holding onto her hair tightly

The sounds she's making as she blows me are so hot

Moans, swallows, so fucking arousing

Her mouth is amazing, she's so right, she's incredible at blow jobs

I'm close again, my eyes closing, my head pressed against the wall

And again, she pulls off my cock right when I'm gonna cum, making me whine and beg

She ignores me, kissing my length again until I'm calm

"Mm baby", she murmurs, "You're cock is so hard"

Yeah because she's teasing me

Her tongue licks my dripping slit, swallowing my cum from there

"Jagi", I whimper

"Aww baby", she teases, "Do you wanna cum that bad?"

I nod, "Yes baby. Please"

"Wanna cum in my mouth that badly?"

"Yes jagi. Fuck, wanna cum down that pretty throat, watch you swallow it all", I moan, "Please baby, suck my cock"

She smirks, nodding

This time, when she gets her mouth around me, she removes her hand and slips down my entire length

"Oh my god", I cry, shocked that she's deepthroating me

She chokes for a few seconds and that sound is music to my ears but I don't want to hurt her

"Jagi", I murmur, trying to pull her head back, but she shakes her head, moving her hands on my hips and pulls me as close as she can, nestling my cock in her tight throat

She swallows, her throat constricting around my cock making unbelievable pleasure shoot through me

Her head slides down to my head, then she bobs back up taking me in hard and rough

"Oh my fucking god!", I cry, as she moves quickly up and down

Tears fall down her gorgeous face, spit all over the place as she gives me the messiest and most pleasurable blow job I've ever had

I don't ever want to be blown any other way than this way and through the bliss I realize that I can have this all the time now

Because she's mine

I watch my cock move in and out of her mouth as I moan so loudly, the pleasure turning my head off

She goes hard on my cock, each bob bringing me right there

"Please baby, let me cum", I plead, "Please don't stop jagi. Please"

She nods, her gorgeous wet brown eyes on me and god she looks so pretty with my cock in her mouth

She slides down my , keeping me in her mouth and sucking rapidly

"Joanne, oh my god, fuck!", I yell, bliss crashing over me as I shoot my cum down her throat

I close my eyes, yelling wordlessly, pulling her hair hard while keeping her on my dick, even though it's not like she's even trying to move off

Instead she's pushing me even more into her mouth as she can, swallowing eagerly, the pleasure from that mixing with the bliss I already feel, making everything so fucking mind blowing

My legs are shaking and I lean against the wall to keep myself up

When it's over, I let go of her hair, my brain a complete mush

I feel her pull me out of her mouth, her tongue licking my slit for more

I feel her move away, her lips pressing kisses on my neck, my arm moving around her waist, keeping her against me as I get it together

Once I'm back to earth, I lift her face to mine, kissing her in a loving kiss

When the kiss ends, she smiles at me, takes my hand and leads me to her room

She maneuvers me in front of the foot of her bed, smirks at me, then pushes me back so I fall on the bed

"Lay back baby", she tells me as she pulls down her PJ shorts, then her lacy barely there panties

I know I just came but fuck, I'm already so hard watching her take her clothes off for me

My girlfriend is so fucking hot

I look at her sexy body that I was missing for so long

My eyes land on the new sternum tattoo she got

It's so beautiful, so delicate and I know I'm going to be spending so much time kissing all over it and tracing all the lines later

She climbs on me, sitting on my lap, her cunt soaking me

Her hips move, grinding along my cock, pleasure humming in my body

I can't believe I'm this hard again, she just turns me on that much

She keeps rubbing her cunt on my dick and I'm getting desperate to be inside her

I crave to have her wrapped around me

I need it and I'm so fucking stiff, I feel myself leaking all over the place

"Please baby", I whine, sitting up on my elbows, "My cock hurts. Wanna be in your sweet pussy"

"Shhh", she growls, shoving me down on her bed, still not putting me inside her, moving and sitting on my stomach instead, "I'll sit on your cock when I'm good and ready"

I shiver, loving how she's taking over again

"And you're gonna be a good boy and do what I tell you or you don't get pussy"

"No! No", I cry, lifting my hips, trying to get some friction, "I'll be good. I promise jagi, I'll be good. Want your pussy baby. Please, I'll be a good boy"

"Cute", she says, tilting her head as she looks down at me, smirking, "You're so pretty begging for my pussy Joongie. Thrusting your hips up even though my cunt is no where near your dick"

"Want you", I moan, my hands gripping her sheets so hard, "Want you so bad. Promise I'll be good. I swear"

"Then show me", she answers, "Stop moving"

It takes so much control for me to lay still on the bed but I do it for her

To show her I can be good for her

She was good for me last time, I can do it too

"Good boy", she smirks, leaning over me, kissing me softly

I eagerly kiss her back, wanting her lips on mine every second of everyday

All too soon for me, she pulls away then gently kisses my cheek

She moves up my body instead of down, her legs around my head, her pussy in my sight

She's already so wet, glistening in her juice and I just want to devour her

I move my eyes to hers, pleading to let me eat her pussy

"Go ahead Joongie"

I don't want any time, my hands around her thighs, pulling her right against my mouth, my tongue buried in her sweet cunt, tongue lapping up all her juice

"Mmmm", I moan, swirling my tongue everywhere I can

"Joongie", she whimpers, her hand slipping in my hair, "Fuck, such a good fucking tongue"

I swallow her cream eagerly, licking between her pretty puffy lips, then circling her tiny hole

I slip my tongue inside as much as I can, wiggling around, her shouts of pleasure so loud

"Keep your tongue there baby", she moans and I do as I'm told

Her hips rise as she slides up my tongue, then goes back down

She bounces on my tongue, clenching down on it, sending bliss straight to my hard cock

I moan in her pussy as she completely soaks my face

"Yes Joongie", she praises, "Fuck, gonna ride your cock just like this"

I nod rapidly, my fingers digging in her hips as she keeps bouncing, her cream running in my mouth, drowning me in her pussy and there's no where else I rather be

After another few bounces, she moves off my tongue

"Keep your tongue out", she orders, pressing her pussy against it

Her hips move, grinding and rocking against my tongue, her fingers pulling my hair hard

I help her move on me, holding her hips and rocking her on my tongue

She's creaming my face so much and I'm trying to swallow as much of it as I can

I'm loving this so much

She's using my tongue to cum and I'm so here for it

Her pussy is so soft against me, tasting so fucking good, the sounds she's making so fucking erotic, her clit throbbing against my tongue

I want to suck on her so bad but I know I have to wait until she tells me too

"Fuck, I love your fucking mouth Joongie", she moans, now rubbing her clit against the tip of my tongue

I'm hoping so much she's gonna tell me to play with her clit

I'm literally drooling for it

"You wanna suck my clit don't you", she asks

I look up at her from between her legs to find her smirking at me

"Your mouth keeps closing around my clit baby, then opening again like you remember I'm just rubbing my cunt on your tongue"

I feel my cheeks blush

I didn't even realize I was doing that

"You wanna suck on me that bad?"

I nod, desperately wanting that

"Ok baby. You can"

I immediately pull her clit in my mouth, sucking on her desperately

I live for how her pretty little swollen clit pulses in my mouth

It's everything

"Yes Joongie. Faster baby. Fuck. I'm gonna cum baby"

Sucking as fast I can, I moan against her, my tongue against her clit, playing while I suck on her

"Hongjoong! Baby, yes baby", she moans as she cums beautifully

I suck her through it, watching her, listening to her cries of my name, so turned on

When she finishes, I ask, "Can I eat jagi? Please?"

"Yes baby"

I immediately move my tongue to her hole, licking up her sweet cream

God, I can eat her cunt every fucking day

And now that she's mine, I can

When I finish, she moves down my body, my cock against her cunt, her lips against mine

As she kisses me, she aligns me to her hole, starting to sit on my cock

Her tongue plays with mine as I grip her hips so hard, wiggling down my cock so slowly, her cunt impaling on my length so pleasurably

I feel her pussy walls open slightly for me, then cling onto me, throbbing and sucking me in

I moan in her mouth, breathing harder and harder as she bottoms me out, her cunt squeezing the life from my cock

"Oh god", I cry, breaking the kiss, "Yes baby. Fuck, oh my god"

She sits up, pleasure on her face as her cunt spasms around me

I'm so antsy, wanting her to move desperately

My cock hurts from being so hard and while her fluttering cunt is helping, it's not enough

"Please, fuck me jagi. Please", I beg, dying for her to bounce on my cock, "I...I was your good boy baby. I'm still your good boy. Fuck me baby. Please, my cock hurts so much jagi. Please, fuck me"

"Aww baby's dick hurts? Why", she teases, her tone mean

And it does nothing but make me more horny

"Bbb...because I'm so hard baby"

"But you're in my pussy. Isn't that what you wanted? I'm clenching on your cock, that isn't that enough?"

I shake my head, "No baby. Mmmm...maybe if I wasn't so horny but I've wanted you for the last two months and now that you're around me....I need you to fuck me. I promise I'll listen to you baby, I'll do whatever you want, just fuck my cock. Please"

"Hmm...dunno what I like better. Dom Joongie or sub Joongie", she smirks, tilting her head, "Sub Joongie begging for my cunt or Dom Joongie demanding it"

"I..I can do both jagi", I tell her

I can be a switch for her

Honestly, I like being dominated by her

I'm usually dominant because I haven't felt comfortable or really trusted the girls I fucked to be submissive to them

But I feel absolutely comfortable with her

I trust her with my life

I know she'd never judge me, never hurt me

I feel completely safe with her

"Hmmm I like that. I can do both too Joongie", she giggles, rocking on my dick, her pussy throbbing wonderfully, "We can play a lot together, baby"

I groan, nodding, "Fuck yes. Play with your pretty pussy jagi. Fuck, as long as I'm inside you, I don't care how we play. I'll do whatever my baby wants"

"Good boy", she says, shivers running up my spine

She leans over me, her hands on my chest as she starts bouncing

Hard and fast

Pleasure explodes in my body, a loud cry leaving my mouth, fingers digging in her hips again

I know I'm gonna leave so many bruises and nail marks on her but I can't help it

It feels so mind blowing good

Her cunt is swallowing my cock so well, creaming my length in so much cream and juice, it's absolutely everywhere, the wet squelching sound of her pussy taking my shaft so fucking beautiful

As is the sight of her riding me

So fucking stunning

Her hips grind against me when she takes me in, my head hitting her spot again and again, her moans so fucking pornographic

She is fucking amazing at riding cock

The pleasure is fucking intense and I'm both shocked and not shocked to feel tears running down my face

I made her cry last time and now she's working my cock so good she's making me cry

"Aww baby, so pretty crying for my pussy", she teases

I nod, hiccuping, "Sss...so good. Mmm..my pretty jagi"

"Yeah baby?", she smirks, "Wanna try something that I like and see if you like it too?"

I nod rapidly, "Yes baby"

I'll try anything once, especially with her

She smiles wider, her hand moving from my chest and wraps around my neck

My cock throbs so hard in her cunt at this once gesture and I'm so fucking excited

"Hmmm I think my baby boy is excited", she giggles, "I feel you're pretty hard cock throbbing in my pussy"

I nod, "Please"

She bounces harder just as her hand squeezes my neck, cutting my air off

My head fills with fluff, my heart pounding the only sound in my head

The feel of her pussy around my cock heightens, the pleasure soaring to an intensity level I've never felt before

She lets go of my neck and I suck in a breath, then sob so much more out of the phenomenal pleasure

She wipes my eyes, asking, "Good baby?"

I nod, not able to say anything at the moment

"Good", she says, bouncing on my cock like no one has every before

It's like she has leg muscles of steel

"My cock feels so good", she whimpers

"Yyy...your cock?", I ask, her eyes flashing at me

"This is my cock", she tells me, her hand choking me again as she speaks

God, its so good

Her pussy is so tight, feeling fucking out of this world to barrel through

"My cock to fuck. My cock to cum on", she continues, "This cock belongs in my pussy only. This cock cums in my cunt only. In my mouth only. Understand?"

"Yes", I shout when she lets go of my neck, my body arching, pushing my cock in as much as I can, "You're cock jagi. It's yours. I'm yours. All yours"

"Damn right", she says, her pussy so close to coming

The way she's tugging on my cock, holding me in a death grip, I'm so excited to feel her cum again

"Cum on my cock", I beg, "Please"

"Begging again baby?"

"Yes", I whimper

"You're lucky your cock is amazing baby. I'm gonna cum really soon"

I nod, waiting anxiously

She moves down, her spot right against my head and she screams my name as she climaxes

Her beautiful body shakes on top of me, her head back, eyes closed, squirt exploding from her cunt, all over my cock, my lap, her bed

"Hongjoong! Oh fuck, god! Hongjoong!"

I take the absolute pleasure that assaults me, screaming her name

"Baby..I'm...I'm..", I cry, so ready to blow my load

"No", she moans loudly, "No Joongie. Don't cum"

Ffffuuucccckkk

I do my best to push it back, whining and sobbing harder as I let her ride out her orgasm on me

When she finishes, she looks down at me, "You cum when I say you can"

I nod, breathing hard, trying to calm down my sobs

"Good boy", she answers, rocking on my dick, rubbing her spot on my head again, "I'm gonna cum on this cock one more time then you can ok?"

I nod, whispering, "Ok"

"Good boy", she says, leaning down and kissing my cheek, "My good Joongie"

She moves her hands back on my leg, grinding on my cock, giving me bounces in-between

I watch her boobs jiggle, sweat dripping down between them, mesmerized at how this gorgeous girl is mine

At how much she wants me, just as much as I want her

At how her pussy easily and eagerly takes my cock, at how ready she is to do anything with me

I'm so fucking lucky

"Hhh.. Hongjoong", she moans, bouncing now, tremors rippling in her perfect skin, "Oh baby, fuck"

She orgasms so beautifully, her cunt clenching my cock in a death grip over and over, pretty cream running from her pussy

Pleasure hurdles over me as I watch her, holding off my orgasm until she tells me I can cum

She rides me through her orgasm, her pussy so fucking tight

When she finishes, she leans over me, her hips still bouncing, her hand wrapped around my neck

"Make a mess in my pussy Joongie", she smirks, her hand cutting off my air as she bounces down hard, feeling her cunt pulse so acutely

I can't hold it, gripping her hips hard as I hold her on me, astounding ecstasy washing over me as I cum deep in her cunt

My body arches and shakes hard, my mind blank, shivers running up and down my back, all senses heightened

My screams of her name break the silence when she lets go of my neck, her amazing pussy throbbing and milking my cock

"Joanne...ngl...so..baby...", I babble as tears of pure pleasure run down my face

"Mmm yeah Joongie", she murmurs, rocking on my dick, "Cock feels so good. Throbbing so much inside me. Nice warm cum filling me up. Love it baby"

I choke out sounds as the pleasure lasts for what seems like hours

I swear I've never come this hard or this good before

Finally when it starts tapering off, I sink into her bed, completely exhausted

I feel her hands wiping my tears, her lips pressing kisses all over my face as she praises me

"Good boy Joongie. You were such a good baby. I love you so much"

"Llll....love...you", I get out, my head still pleasantly empty

She climbs off me and I hear a door open but I can't manage to open my eyes

I can't move

A minute later, I feel a cool wet towel around my lap and dick, realizing she's cleaning me up

Fuck, I should be doing that for her

I want to, it's just a monumental task to even open my eyes

The bed dips next to me, her arms moving me until we're snuggled together, my head laying on her squishy boob

Her arms encircle me, fingers of one hand running in my hair and I'm in such bliss

"I love you Hongjoong", she whispers, pressing a kiss to the top of my hair

"I love you Jo", I manage to get out, slowly moving my arms around her

Her other hand moves to my back, rubbing up and down as she continues to play with my hair

I should be doing this for her

I should be rubbing her legs and thighs

She rode me for over an hour, giving me so much pleasure

I should be holding her, playing with her hair

Last time I didn't take care of her either

She took care of me

I'm already slacking and I need to be better

"Jagi", I say sleepily, moving and trying to sit up but her arms stay locked around me

"Stay baby. Sleep ok?"

"I...I. can't....I should....take care....you", I mumble, fighting to stay awake

"Shh baby. I'm taking care of you now baby"

"But I should...last time...didn't.."

"Doesn't matter Joongie. You need it baby. I love taking care of you baby. I promise", she whispers, pressing kisses to my forehead

"But-"

"It's ok baby", she says softly, reassuringly, her fingers running through the strands of my hair, "I promise. Sleep Joongie. I love you so much"

"I love you....so..much", I answer, halfway asleep

She kisses me again and this time I just give in to the feel of her hand on my back, her fingers in my hair, the feel of being in her arms

The feel of her love surrounding me

And that's how I fall asleep

[littlespacereader]

Writing/Life Update 📝🍂

Hi everyone! It’s been a while since I’ve posted a little writing or life update. To be honest with you I’ve been struggling a lot late. Just seems like life has been crazy lately.

It’s because of this I’m putting my writing on a temporary hold. I apologize for doing so but mental and emotional I know I won’t be making stories I’m proud of. I also will be pushing myself to write, and I never wanted to do that. I love writing and I take pride in every story I’ve made!

I’m hoping maybe with the season change and some other changes in life will happen soon and I’ll be making a post about how I’m back to writing. But for now I wanted to keep you guys updated on why I’ve been so quiet suddenly.

I’m okay! I promise I am! I just need some time away so I can work on myself and things, then come back better than ever💞💞

Love you guys!

-Clara💞

[idv-ask-the-showman]

✨🪷The Wedding Ball Had Return🪷✨

Hello hello!

It had been a while since the last ball I hosted no? I remember all your lovely faces enjoying the last one and I truly missed those beautiful priceless smiles on your faces not to mention that there are now new faces who didn't get to have the fun of the ball!

SOOOOOO~ I WILL HOST ANOTHER ONE SOON, YAAAAY! there would of course be some changes here and there but the concept overall would still be the same and the rules the same. ya can go and try to find your partner for the ball or you can come without any, whatever suit you best! Have Fun~

📝{Rules}📝

pls use the #IDV-WeddingBall tag so me and everyone can see ya post and use #IDV-WB-RP when you start one and only use it again when you finished with that one rp.

The event may be a wedding theme but you don’t have to dress as a bride or a groom for it, you can simply dress any other role if you wish!

The kids of the event can still attend and wear pretty dresses by any colour but please don’t let them wear what resembles a Groom/Bride outfits. The kids would even be able to take the role of The Flower Girl/Boy if they want.

In the event you can either come alone or pick a partner to come with you.

Please put in mind that you can’t keep asking or forcing someone to be your partner after they refuse in the event or else you would be a nuisance to other and would be kick out immediately! be respectful to other people’s boundaries.

Gender rules doesn’t matter here, if you a boy and wanna wear a dress or a girl who wanna wear a suit or None-binary who wanna wear a mix of the two, THEN DO IT!!

Please keep it age appropriate tho.

Please do not cost any distribution to any of the other guests in any shape and form and if you have some kind of a huge plot idea for the ball pls tell me first in DMs so I can give you the green light to go for it or not, this is a event for fun and not too much drama! Do not get me wrong I would not mind drama here and there but there is a limit to it soooo- YEAH! Drama between two or few characters are okay but for the whole ball nah!

If you have some event in your blog that may hold you back from joining the ball, do not worry! You can separate the two events from each other, having your blog’s event still going on its own while also joining this ball as a side one if ya get what I mean.

Ya do not need to have an idv ask blog to join, ya can use any other blog to let ya OCs join!

if you have any problems during the event pls dm me!

🎊{Event Activity}🎊

The event would last for a whole month (but maybe longer if needed) so take your time and have fun with everyone who joins in, from drawing together to RP and so forth!

As before If you already have a partner use 💐 if not and you looking for one use 🌸 if you don’t want anyone at all use 🥀

Do not hesitate to flex your outfit by either drawing or just posting photos of what you may wear, I would may even reblog it!

I may suddenly send you guys some random scenarios in your inbox and you can reply to how you act during those scenarios! It's not gonna be just me sending scenarios in your inbox only, I may even at times make a post with scenarios writing in it and ya can reblog it with what ya gonna do!

Of course~ there would be some special events and scenarios that I would send to you or post with a “❗️” and depending on how you answer them, you would gain points, lose points, or lose or gain nothing at all! What are those points for?… well~ the ones who has the most points would have me draw them! It would be up to 3 winners so keep tabs on your points and do not cheat for I would also gonna keep tabs!

However, keep in mind I am but one person, and I may not be able to send it to everyone so I may need help to send those scenarios if anyone is willing to help it would be nice!

There of course other ways to gain points, like writing small stories yourself and I would Grand each one 5 point of course ya can not abuse this power and you can only use it once. as for rps is the same but only once for each rps that is started and finished, if you started a rp you gain 5 point and when ya done you gain 5, making it ten!

also pls make sure to type down your points maybe in your bio or post so it would be easy for me to know!

[songue85]

Questions for Fic Writers ✏📝💻

@faeriekit tagged...

1. How many works do you have on Ao3?

Only one! Most of mine are all in FF.net, maybe one day I'll post them there, but for now, yeah, single fic.

2. What’s your total Ao3 word count?

Today (10/30/2023), measly 45k, but I'll be posting two chapters this week, so... 50k soon?

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Now, Spider-Man and Batman, but I've mostly published Doctor Who fics, usually crossovers.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Just AO3, that is Arachnomaly. If I include the works in FF.net, then, by favorites, it would be:

5) Maelstrom in the Darkness - An Essay on Blindness: What if Uzumaki Naruto had been incurably blind from birth? Oh, I wish I had time to write more, so many ideas, so LITTLE TIME!

4) Smoke on the Water - The Untold Stories! Based on the popular "Smoke on the Water" story by Sir-Mercutio-McHuffer, who authorized me to publish chapters as a separate, sorta-not-exactly-canon bonus chapters!

3) Different Doctors Meet a Most Unique Universe: after a talk with @zaziecurie , I started writing this collection of short stories about The Doctor in Steven Universe's reality, different takes as his many incarnations (4, 10 and 12 posted, but I had other ideas)

2) Justice-Whimey : formerly my longest fic to date, it's a tie with the first place, The Tenth Doctor is a patient in Arkham Asylum, DC Universe, in an reality-altering adventure;

And at the top

1) ARACHNOMALY! Surprise, two months of posting and it is my most favorite story at the moment at FF.net, though it's always a one chapter behind from AO3's schedule (less than half of its ao3 equivalent in kudos as well).

5. Do you respond to comments?

Sure, always! I don't have too many comments, but what I get, I try to reply on the same day or the following, at most!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

My short story Destiny is Not A Game , in FF.net, based on the finale of the game X-Men: Destiny.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

What is this 'happy ending' people talk about so much?!

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Hate in ao3? Maybe... overzealous criticism?

The worst stuff, as expected, is in the reviews in FF.net, but, again, it's FF.net, so what can you do against great guest reviewers such as...

9. Do you write smut fic? If so, what kind?

Used to, but they are for my wife's eyes only !

10. Do you write crossovers? If so, what’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Currently, Spider-Man x Batman comics, but the craziest were my forays into Doctor Whooves stories (my focus, as always, had been more of a whovian than ever a brony, I'll admit)

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I hope not!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope! Maybe I'll do it myself for Arachnomaly, one day!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes, long time ago, but never published it - it was a crossover with The Idealist 33. Actually, I fibbed, I heavily edited a chapter for their story, Doctor Whooves?, chapter 7, which almost makes it half mine, kinda?

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Oh, wow, let's see, there are so many... NaruHina ? Though I always had a spot for NaruIno? In RWBY, Dragonslayer, just for the fics I've read. Peter Parker x Kitty Pryde, just because of the Ultimate Comics, but PeterxMJ for life.

... and in my writing, yeah, The Doctor (Whooves) and Ditzy Doo.

... it was a phase, mom.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Well, "Spider-Man Must Not Ruin the Future" is an old project, Spectacular Spider-Man crossover with X-Men: Evolution, trying to integrate both realities in one story.

Also an untitled story where the six original Mighty Morphing Power Rangers get saved by the arrival of Black Dino Thunder Ranger, hilarity and feelings ensue (those who know, will understand the potential!)

16. What are your writing strengths?

I've been told that, when I get the character, I REEALLY get them. Like,

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

If I feel the chapter needs to be short, it will be short. Sometimes, I can get too concise for my own good.

Also mispeling, but I've been getting better, I think.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I'm always writing in another language, but I've been venturing on writing a character who communicates mostly in ASL.

19. First Fandom you wrote for?

Doctor Who!

20. Favorite Fic you’ve written?

Tie for Justice-Whimey , Arachnomaly and Charades 4 6, actually!

And that's all, folks!

Thanks once again to Faeriekit for the tag!

Whoever would like to continue, follower of mine or not, feel free to consider themselves tagged!

[agooberscanons]

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564 posts created (45%)

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I tagged 1,091 of my posts in 2022

Only 13% of my posts had no tags

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Longest Tag: 66 characters

#i'm just gonna sit here and wonder where i lost control of my life

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Oh, look it that. It's May 3rd! You know what that means?

Happy birthday, Tifa!

There will be little celebrations at 7th Heaven and it'll be time for Tifa-focused asks and, if you'd like, to give any gifts to the barmaid.

Today, people are serving her and it is a nice change of pace~!

13 notes - Posted May 3, 2022

#4

@fullcoarse

Another quiet day out in the Wastelands, it would seem. Not that Chi-Chi would mind this in the slightest, though. She does enjoy the peace and quiet most days, but she's not one to admit how lonely it is out here. Her family still comes to visit her and she's thankful for that, but she really wishes there was someone else out here more often!

She might just get her wish granted, even without the need of the Dragonballs. She feels a disturbance nearby that she can't quite place, but something else in her body tells her it is familiar. Something about..mine travel? How would she know, though? Her body suddenly aches in a way that she needs to go investigate, feeling an odd sort of need and want.

Grabbing her overcoat to try and hide her tail and self a bit more to not startle her visitor, she heads out to fly off towards where she felt the energy. She'll touch down and walk the rest of the way, once she's close enough. She figures that would help not frighten away a potential visitor, at least.

Now, what exactly was she dealing with here...?

14 notes - Posted August 29, 2022

#3

📝Eh, screw it. Splatoon!

Maybe...maybe...

17 notes - Posted May 15, 2022

#2

The pseudo-anon who's been sending in numerous questions for GF has appeared, also seeking hugs! "Um. Hugs please?"

Oh and she's blushing up a storm because you know. Gay.

“Oh? Hey, you’re different than those other ones...?” She sort of stares for a moment before standing up and putting her arms to her side.

“Come and get it, sweetheart. I’ll give ya a hug you won’t soon forget~.”

22 notes - Posted April 29, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

It’s Funkin’ Friday~!

“Well, here’s another Friday, even if I’ve been gone for awhile! Sorry again, hehehe. Time with BF and all, ya know~?”

“Anyway, I’m here to make an announcement! Mun says I’ve got permission to take over the entire Friday now, so come on and send me stuff. They say they’ll continue other stuff as they can through the day/Saturday, but I get the spotlight~!”

See the full post

22 notes - Posted April 29, 2022

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[butterbeerblurbs]

you were always number one (f.w.)

💌: in fred’s heart, you were always number one–if only he acted like it in the first place, none of this would’ve happened.  📝 word count: 3,130 words / fred weasley x reader / ☔️🌸 angst to fluff 💬: this is heavily inspired by hermione and ron’s situation at the yule ball! written for our fave freddie >:) i wrote this a bit differently, hopefully you guys enjoy it as much as i did writing it!  🎧: astronomy - conan gray [this version]

fred knew in his heart of hearts this wasn’t what he wanted. in his mind, things panned out much differently. he had the imagery of a fairytale-like scenario to unfold; you would walk down the steps in your beautiful dress, headed towards his arms to walk into the yule ball together. you would dance the night away, in his embrace as he made you laugh and you’d for sure make fun of his corsage but appreciate that he put in so much thought to match the colour of your dress, the beauty of your smile.

instead... the two of you are now standing outside in the open, grass beneath your feet. the ballroom behind fred, the trees behind you. fred’s stammering terribly over his words at the sight of you crying in front of him. 

let’s... take it back a couple of beats.

thump. it’s the week before the yule ball. while the glamour falls upon the triwizards, especially having four than the usual three, it’s all the hype and buzz. for those who weren’t involved, the excitement for the yule ball takes the full swing.

you’re excited. beyond ecstatic at the thought of... of... your train of thought takes a break as you watch your fantasised date... asking angelina johnson to be his date.

thump, thump. it’s five days before the yule ball. dateless. well, not until a good friend occupies the space across from you. instinctively, you look up and–”ollie?”

“mind if i join ya?” oliver grins, already getting comfortable as he crosses his leg on the grass. you snort, closing your book on your lap as one of your stretched legs reach to kick his side, “you’re already joining me before you ask.”

“then i guess it’s natural for me to lead into asking if you would like to join me to the yule ball?”

ollie’s waving a hand in front of your face, smiling despite your confused face.

“m-me?” gulp. blink. “you can’t possibly–”

“what? you don’t fancy me?”

“ollie, that’s not what i meant–”

“you’ll go with me, then?”

“i–well–”

“as my best mate?”

you take the biggest sigh. this boy nearly gave you a fright. you didn’t have the emotional capacity to wonder if he actually had a crush on you but seeing that playful glint in his eyes, oliver wood’s had a knack for messing with you. maybe that’s why you two were best friends. speaking of...

“you nearly gave me a heart attack, ollie! maybe start off with that sentence, next time!”

“oh, so there’s a next time, then?” ollie taunts, hurriedly getting up from the ground and he’s bolting for it when he can tell you’re about to smack him in the head. or kick him some place where it hurts.

“get back here!”

“will you give me your hand for the taking, then?!”

“fine! just let me hit you first!”

“alright, c’mere!” oliver swiftly turns around and catches you to fall onto the ground. despite the onslaught of hitting that oliver takes to the chest, the both of you soon laugh after, excited to go as best friends just to have a good time. you weren’t going to lie, it made you feel a lot better knowing you would be having a fun night with someone who cared about you. you can see it in oliver’s eyes but what you couldn’t see was the pair of brown ones watching from a distance, pained.

thump, thump, thump. two days before the yule ball. the chair in front of you is being pulled out in the quiet of the library. looking up, it’s–”freddie...”

“you’re one tough cookie to find, y/n.” the ginger head chuckles as he settles down, glancing to your notes before back up to your face. you blink at him a couple of times before managing a smile. you can’t quite decipher the look in his eyes and... neither can fred. on his end, he has no idea what he’s doing. he doesn’t know if this was him being impulsive or if he had calculated what to do, what to say.

being here in front of you, he felt at ease but... he felt nervous.

nervous with what he’s about to ask.

"could i ask you something?”

you nod.

“say... do you have a date to the yule ball?”

you nod again. he playfully huffs.

“what? not gonna let me hear your voice, now?”

you won’t admit it but fred’s nature made you feel less tensed. it makes you chuckle out of habit. feeling a little at ease.

“yes, mr. fred weasley. i have a date. as do you, i assume?”

he frowns, “what’d you mean?”

“you’re going with angelina, right?” 

fred failed to hold back his thoughts, quickly chipping back: “and you seem excited to go with ollie, i assume?” at his words, though you have nothing to hide, it makes you hang your head low as you avoid his gaze. he carefully shifts forward, trying to lean down to get a glimpse of your eyes. “are you?”

“what does it matter, anyway?”

fred lets out a sigh.

“so... you weren’t gonna take up my offer?”

that makes you furrow your brows. he sees you’ve forgotten. he doesn’t remind you verbally but somehow looking into his eyes, his words echo in your mind. the reminder that if the two of you didn’t have dates, he offered to go with you. 

surprisingly–not–it strikes a chord in your chest. painfully strumming on your heartstrings. as if this was a joke. as if your... your feelings were a joke. that’s what it felt like. fred watches as the look in your eyes change. the shift scares him. not knowing what was about to hit him.

“is that all i am to you, then?” you sounded sad, so sad. fred can’t pick up the hint quick enough, can’t find the words to reply with when you’ve pinned him down with: “am i just a last resort to you?”

fred gapes, eyes widening at the implication even if... even if he... even...

he only processes what’s happening when you’ve quickly packed up your things and you’ve made a move to stand. panicking, he reaches across the table to grab onto your wrist, having a couple of seconds rooting you in place when you gaze down. how tight he’s hold onto you, wanting to make things right even though he didn’t know how. 

fred watches as you remove your hand from his grasp, bidding him goodnight and leaving the library. he doesn’t know how badly he’s messed up until you’re far away.

thump, thump, thump, thump. ten minutes before the yule ball began. dates were uniting at the bottom of the staircase, by the entrance of the huge doors. fred’s nervous for the wrong reasons. angelina’s trying to calm his nerves down, ushering him things will be alright, they’ll fall into place; they always have for you. for fred. it’s just... a small bump in the road.

angelina’s gasp is what reels fred to gaze towards the stairs, where his breath gets caught in his throat watching you begin to descend the stairs. it’s a pretty colour on you (anything on you looks beautiful), your hair with tiny accompanying flowers pinned to your locks and... and you’re... walking towards oliver wood who has a matching corsage tucked into his coat pocket.

fred’s still mindful of angelina, turning back to her but she gives him a nudge towards your direction. whispering a soft it’s okay, go! when he does build up the courage, all you do is pass him by, another guy hooked onto you as you head in.

thump, thump, thump, thump, thump. it’s almost the end of the yule ball and oliver’s no fool. past the attempts of trying to forget, oliver’s still a good friend who can read you like the back of his hand. he lures you to the side and gets you a drink, a breather, a thank you when you look into his eyes and he knows.

“you’re gonna want to head out for a bit,” oliver murmurs past the music growing softer, mellow dance music starts to fill the ballroom and you nod. even though you know you’ve held a tough front, it’s still so hard. you’ve been dreaming of the yule ball since... since chatters and rumors filled the hallways of what if’s and who’s going with who began. the playful push and pull you and fred had... or what you thought you had... it was driving you mad.

“i’ll be back later, okay?”

oliver nods, easing the glass cup away from your hands so you can step out to take a breather. he watches as you walk along the sides and find a door to step out towards the grass and head towards the trees on the field. when he gazes back to the dance floor, he swears he sees a flash of ginger darting across and he just knows you’re not alone out there.

thump, thump, thump... sniff, muffled liveliness from the ballroom, heavy breathing... fred stands a couple of steps from you, watching as the tears fall from your eyes and your desperate attempts to stop crying. he hates how you still look breathtaking with the beauty of nature enveloping you, a gorgeous backdrop. you... you hate in your guts how your stomach somersaults at the sight of fred out here with you, the sight of the ballroom and twinkling lights behind him like a bokeh effect.

yet, you felt pathetic. you felt... a lot of things, being in this moment with him.

“are... are you alright?” fred knows it’s a weak and feeble attempt but he’s trying.

you don’t answer immediately. taking the time to breathe, to blink away the hot tears stinging your eyes, wiping your face with the back of your hand before you can glare at him to ask: “what does it have to do with you?”

perhaps it’s well-deserved. perhaps... he should’ve seen it coming. perhaps... fred weasley was simply in denial. in denial he could feel this much for a person, that maybe he was in it alone. that maybe, maybe selfishly, he was testing the waters so he wasn’t the only one who fell hard, alone.

“i care about you. i... i always have and–”

“then why?”

fred’s stumped again, shaking his head as a sign he doesn’t follow.

“why would you treat me like a last resort?”

at your words, fred’s furious. furious at the implications he’s mistakenly allowed you to assume. everything comes crashing down so fast, fred hadn’t realised he’s speaking before his mind stops him.

“you’re not!” his voice is louder than usual. he notices when you flinch, but the anger has gone to his head. he can’t stop now. “you were number one–the only one–you and only you.”

“you didn’t ask me!”

“i didn’t know you would go with ollie!”

he knows he’s hit the wrong nail when your face contorts with confusion. you visibly try to suck the tears in as you turn on your heels, willing to run from him. he watches as your hands grip onto your dress to lift the fabric up, body half-way turned from him. his heart stops, mind going blank; cold, static starts to ring in his ears to do something, fred weasley. 

he’s allowed you to escape once. he’s not about to let it happen again.

just as you face the sea of trees ahead of you, you manage to take a couple of big steps to create a distance between you and fred, the arms that envelope you in holds you in place. literally... maybe... emotionally, too. the sound of surprise leaves your lips, a choked breath, the tears still trickling down as you slowly look down to see fred’s arms around you.

when you don’t shuffle away but instead lean into his embrace, fred lets out a shaky exhale and first whispers: “i’m sorry.” at your silence, fred feels like it’s an admission to listening to what he has to say. he feels you shaking in his grasp but... somehow moulding against him as your eyes flutter shut, breathing evening out past the sniffles and possibly blocked nose. he takes this opportunity to start talking.

“i... it’s going to sound absolutely shit but i asked angelina out because i was afraid to ask you.” he feels your body tensing–within good reason–but you don’t interrupt. your hands, gently placed over his covered arms around you, giving a small squeeze for him to continue. so he does. “i was afraid. afraid that you wouldn’t see me the way i see you and it’s... it’s such a coward move but i did it anyway.”

fred’s able to turn his cheek, just a little to get a glimpse of your side profile. even more of your face is revealed to him when you try to have a look at him, softly asking: “w-what about angelina?”

he sighs at you, “could you stop worrying about other people for a few minutes? you’re always so worried about the people around you that you–”fred stops in his tracks when you look away from him, huffing. it’s like you know what he said without him saying it.

with a deep breath out, fred retreats his arms from you to carefully turn you around. when you oblige and keep your eyes glued to his chest, fred gently grabs ahold of your hands. they come within your peripheral, admiring the way your hands fit in his so... so naturally. fred brushes the back of your hands with his thumbs, and it takes you a couple of seconds to realise he’s speaking.

“i’m so sorry for the way i’ve made you feel. and i’m sorry for giving you the impression that i thought no one would go to the yule ball with you. that would be mental considering i thought nearly half the castle would’ve asked you out.” fred only chuckles when you lightly kick his shin, well-aware of his jokes but you know fred genuinely thinks that based on his tone. over the years there had been one or two admirers but nothing more. they were just... admirers–reaffirming the one you wanted to be with was the same one holding onto your hands.

“i would like to redo my chance with you, if you’ll let me.”

fred can’t believe you have the nerve to be this adorable at a time like this because all you can think about is: “now?” your voice gives out to a soft crack, almost like a whine, "my makeup’s... i look ugly now...”

he scoffs a laugh, using one of his hands to cup your cheeks to brush away the couple of tears on your face. soon, he’s easing away the frown with a thumb that gently pokes the corner of your mouth. “you’d have to be mad to think i don’t think you look stunning. whether you have mascara or–what is that called–whatever that’s staining your face–”he ignores you when you gasp i have a stain on my face?”–because you could be dressed up in feathers and i’d still think you’re the most beautiful thing i’ve seen.”

you give him an answer with the way you lean into his palm, eyes lingering on his before they flutter shut. your erratic heart calms, the nerves eases ever so slightly when fred leans in to press a kiss to your forehead. almost immediately, it grants you to open your eyes and your heart somersaults when fred’s on one knee, a rose in his hand as he gazes up to you.

“y/n y/l/n, would you do me the honours and go to the yule ball with me?”

fred doesn’t poke fun at you with the tears welling in your eyes and the small frown on your face that still does nothing to your beauty. with the moonlight casting down on you and the angle fred looks up to, you look like an angel. cruelly holding him captive without trying, hooked around your fingers without effort.

you sniff, lightly wiggling your hand in his grip, the other nervously grasping your dress, “it’s almost the end of the night...”

“means there’s still time,” he grins, shaking your hand gently, “c’mon now, i’m not getting up until you give me an answer...”

fred knows you can’t wait long, especially when he’s down on one knee. he watches you debate on testing him but he knows you too well. too well that he’s rising to his feet the second you whisper of course i would. he allows you to accept the rose from his hand, only to maneuver your arms to put them around his waist where you’re able to admire the rose from over his shoulder as he tucks you into his embrace.

the silent of the night accompanies the pair of you, the glow of the moon and the muffled music from the ballroom behind. he’s aware that this isn’t him getting off the hook just yet (and he plans to make it up to you) but right now, with your head resting by his neck, arms loosely hugging him as you two quietly sway to the music you two can barely hear, fred wants to make the most of it as he closes his eyes and feel your warmth against him.

it might’ve not been the way he thought yule ball would’ve gone down but he wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world even if it was just the last ten minutes with you.

((”you would think he’d have it in him to ask her in the first place,” angelina chuckles, with oliver in tow as her ‘new’ date.

“eh, good to know fred’s got one weakness.”

“d’you think we should tell the others?”

oliver thinks about it as he watches you at ease in fred’s arms. eyes fluttered shut, peaceful. for the first time, fred looks like he’s the calmest as he could be and oliver feels this kind of radiating warmth from within; two of his good friends, finally where they should be despite... a couple of bumps on the road. it seems like angelina knows oliver’s answer in his silence... that his vocal answer comes later to solidify her assumptions.

“nah, we’ll let them figure it out on their own. doesn’t look like it’s gonna take long for them to break the news.”

on cue, fred manages to spot the two of them from a distance. his shit-eating grin comes to view but it doesn’t faze oliver or angelina, only bringing out chuckles as fred playfully waves. when you notice something odd, fred plays it off by easily turning you around to avoid their gazes.

“cheeky prat.” angelina scoffs.

“as if you expected anything different.” oliver snorts.))

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Dirty Little Secret/ 3

Pairing- Wooyoung x Named Reader

Word count- 3.9k

Includes- Sex, missionary, slow sex, multiple orgasms, angst, fluff

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J POV

Trying to move in my sleep, I feel something heavy on me, keeping me in my place

What the hell?

I blink my eyes open, waiting for them to focus

When I can see, I look down, pure happiness hitting me hard

And I remember last night

Wooyoung is still here in my bed with me, still in my arms, cuddling into me

My god he's gorgeous when he sleeps

My arm and shoulder are aching, probably from his head laying on me all night but I'm not moving

I don't know when the next time I'll be able to hold him will be, so I'm taking it all now

I watch him sleep, running my fingers in his soft black hair

My eyes land on the beauty mark under his eye that I absolutely love

I can't count the number of times I wanted to just touch it, kiss it but I refrain

And the one on his lip....

Obviously I can't kiss that but sometimes when he's talking to me, every sound leaves my ears and I just stare at it

Now that he's sleeping, I can oogle his beauty marks all I want

I can oogle his everything but my eyes just stay on his face

---------------------------

I don't know how much time has passed but Wooyoung is stirring now

He's letting out little sighs, his eyebrows furrowing as he snuggles closer

"Mmmm", he groans, his eyes opening

I hold my breath as he looks at my chest, his eyebrow raising up

His eyes move up to my face and I wonder if he's going to freak out

Instead, I watch a huge smile burst on his face, confusing the fuck out of me

His hand moves from around me, softly touching my cheek, then moving into my hair

I have no idea what's happening and the next thing I know, his lips are pressed against mine

He's fucking kissing me

Oh my god, he's kissing me

He's never kissed me before

I immediately melt into his amazing kiss, feeling like the floor, the ground, the earth fell from underneath me

It's him

I knew it was him

His tongue licks my lip and I immediately open my mouth, letting his tongue in

When his touches mine, presses against my tongue, stars blast in my vision and I moan softly

He presses his body against mine, kissing me like he's never going to again

Which to be fair, I don't know if it ever will happen again

I need to take it now and hope that maybe kissing me will make him realize I'm here, I love him, I'm someone who wants him and will love him unconditionally

But I doubt it

Burying my hand in his hair, I kiss him hard, playing with his tongue, his hand running down my back, sending shivers down my spine

When he gets to my leg, he pulls it over his, his hard on pressing against me

That makes me so wet

How could I be so horny as soon as I wake up?

Because the guy I'm in love with is kissing me

That's why

His hand stays on my ass, squeezing softly

"Please", he asks, between kisses

I nod, pressing closer to him, his length right by my entrance

He moves a little, inside but instead of thrusting hard, he slowly goes in, inch by inch, spreading me open around him so pleasurably

"Oh god baby", he whimpers as I moan his name

"Woo"

Bottoming out, he stays inside me, holding me on him, my pussy clenching around him

God he feels so fucking good

"You feel so good", he whimpers, pressing kisses to my neck, "Fuck princess you're perfect"

Princess?

Did he just call me princess?

"I'm gonna move baby, ok?"

And baby?

What's going on?

"Baby?"

"Yeah Woo", I say, confused

He slowly pulls back and I whine from the loss of him inside me

I crave him

"I'm coming princess", he whispers, slowly sliding back in, his head brushing against my spot

"Wooyoung", I moan, shaking against him

He moves, slowly getting me on my back and going on top of me

He leans on his forearms on either side of my head, while I wrap my arms around him, hands against his back

He looks down at me, smiling softly, then leans down to kiss me

At the same time, his hips pull back, then moves forward, over and over, keeping a slow pace

I can feel everything

Feel him open me wide, feel his rock hard cock moving and throbbing inside me, his skin against mine as he lays on me

The feel of his tongue pressing against mine, his mouth moving with mine, his perfect muscles moving under my hands

God that's so fucking sexy and turning me on so much

He moves his arm under and around me, lifting me slightly but keeping me against him, while his other hand travels to my boob, squeezing it

The way he's holding me makes his pelvis rub against my clit every time he moves and it's fucking heaven

"Fuck princess, too good. You're too good", he whimpers

"You're too good baby", I answer, pressing kisses to his jaw

I love this, slow sex but still passionate

He still manages to make everything feel incredible

Every thrust brings me closer, clenching his cock harder until I'm ready to explode

Just as he slides back in, he presses his lips to mine, kissing me as I orgasm all over him, my body in so much pleasure that I can't stop the shaking

Nor the moaning in his mouth

He doesn't stop, fucking me through my orgasm

The kiss ends and I moan his name loudly

"Wooyoung. Oh god Wooyoung"

"Yes princess", he murmurs, nuzzling his face against my cheek, "Fuck baby. One more for me?"

I nod

Definitely

"Yeah baby", I agree

His thrusts get a little faster but still the pace is slow and it almost feels like....

No it can't be

He's not....he's not making love to me

It feels like that because it's slow but I know that's not what's happening

It's just probably because he just woke up, is being lazy and doesn't want to get into his kinks now

I know it means much more to me than him

To me it's him actually having sex with me

Calling me pet names although I know he's doing it in the moment

But for now I can just pretend

His thumb brushes against my nipple and I gasp at the sudden increase in pleasure

"Fuck Jo, so pretty for me", he says, kissing my cheek, "Always so pretty"

Turning my head, I kiss him again

I need to feel his lips against mine

I may never have it again

I need it

As he slips back in, I move my hips up, meeting his thrust

He goes in deeper and fuck me, stars blast in my vision from the bliss

"Oh god", he moans, then kisses me again

We move together, over and over, moaning, gripping each other hard

He buries his face in my neck, moaning and kissing my skin

"I'm gonna...Woo...I'm..", I trail off, not able to keep talking

"Yes princess, say my name, please baby, yell my name", he begs

"I...I"

My orgasm is so close, it's right there, I feel myself throbbing hard on his cock

"Yes baby, fuck, so good. You're right there princess. Fall apart for me", he pleads, moving a little faster, "Fall apart on my cock. Please"

"Www..Wooyoung!", I cry, ecstacy blinding me as I cum so fucking hard, "Wooyoung!"

"Oh fuck, Joanne!", he yells, "I'm coming. Princess, I'm coming"

I feel his cock throb over and over as his hot cum fills me

"Fuck baby", I moan, all of it feeling so good

I love feeling him orgasm

I love being full of his cum

I love being with him

"Yes baby. Feels so good Jo, fuck you feel amazing", he whimpers as he finishes

He pulls out but doesn't go far, laying down next to me, keeping me in his arms, his face still in my neck

I have no idea what's going on or what I should do but I can't just lay here and do nothing

So I wrap my arms around him, holding him close, playing with his hair

"Do you have to work today?", he asks softly

"Uh no. It's Saturday. I don't work Saturdays"

"Right. I remember", he says, "Would you...would you wanna come to the performance tonight?"

I didn't know he had a performance

Or maybe I did and I forgot

But I have nothing to do anyway and I'll always support him

"Yeah Woo. I'll come"

He nods, "Ok. Can....can we sleep a little more? I don't have to be at the venue until later"

Is he ok?

He wants to sleep with me?

I expected him to get up and leave, like he always does

I get him wanting to stay last night

I pushed him far and he was exhausted

I get him wanting to cuddle- he was needy after the intense sex session

I just don't get it right now

Of course I want to sleep more with him and I'll never deny him anything

I just find it weird

"Yeah Woo, we can sleep more"

He hums in agreement, lifting his head, pressing a soft kiss to my lips

Then he just lays on me and cuddles into me like he didn't alter my entire world

I have no idea what to think and my brain isn't fully awake to process this

"Can you hold me?", he asks

"Yeah", I whisper, wrapping my arms around him

It feels so right to have him in my arms

I'm too tired to think and I know that eventually I'll just have more questions than answers

Questions that can't be answered unless I talk to him

Which isn't going to happen

So I just close my eyes, cuddle into him and try to fall asleep

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Wooyoung POV

I walk into the dressing room after changing my clothes, my eyes on her

On the couch

Where she always is when I'm getting dressed

Waking up to her was fucking amazing

Seeing her asleep, feeling her arms around me, being tangled with her

It's my dream come true and I want to wake up that way every day

We woke up kinda late and we rushed to get dressed and over here

It was kinda awkward at first, both of us not talking as we dressed but I guess the rush over here distracted from the weirdness

As soon as I came in, I was reamed by Hongjoong for being late, then thrown clothes and told to change then get my ass in a chair for hair and makeup

I got changed and now I'm gonna wait to be called for the rest

I'm heading towards her to sit with her when Mina walks in my path

"Woo", she greets as she comes closer to me

Great

Fucking great

"Uh hi", I answer, taken aback when she throws her arms around my neck hugging me

I awkwardly hug her back then try to step back but she keeps her arms around my neck

I want her off right now

This feels wrong

She's not the one I want to be touching me

"I had so much fun the other day", she gushes

I glance quickly at Joanne, sitting on the couch

Her eyes immediately snap away from me back to her phone

Fuck, she was already watching this stupid interaction

And I saw the upset look on her face

Or maybe that's just my wishful thinking

"Yeah uh, it was fun", I lie, trying to get her arms off me

I want to just rip them off but what I'm doing right now is not working

"Do you think we can maybe go out again?"

Wait, she's asking me out?

Shouldn't she wait for me?

"Uh maybe. I uh have to check my schedule"

She smiles, "Ok Woo"

Then she leans closer, kissing me on my lips

And my body screams that this is wrong

This isn't what I want

This isn't who I want

And then I remember her, sitting right there on the couch

Shit

Movement in my peripheral vision makes me tear my lips from Mina's, watching Joanne wipe her eyes as she gets up and starts heading for the dressing room door, visibly upset

"Mina let go", I say automatically

"What?"

"Let go of me", I say stepping away from her and she drops her arms

"Wooyoung-", she starts but I run after Joanne

She's upset

Could that mean she feels something for me?

Running out of the room, I see her further down the hall

"Jo!", I call running after her

She stops but doesn't turn around

"Jo", I call again as I catch up to her

She slowly turns around, a smile plastered to her face

"What's up Woo?"

I'm not letting this act fool me again

She tried that last time and I fell for it

Not this time

"What's wrong Jo? Why did you leave?", I ask

"Oh, I uh...I got a message", she holds up her phone, "It uh...it upset me-"

"Stop it", I demand

She stops talking, staring at me with a raised eyebrow

"What's really wrong?", I ask

I'm scared I might be wrong

That she doesn't feel anything for me and I'm just embarrassing myself

But if there's a tiny sliver of hope, especially after this morning, I'm taking it

"I told you, I got a message-"

I shake my head, walking closer to her, "Stop lying to me"

"I'm not-"

"Yes you are", I say bravely, standing right in front of her, "Don't lie to me anymore. Don't hide anything from me"

"Then you don't hide anything either!", she shoots back

"I won't", I promise, "Never again"

With that, I pull her to me, my lips crashing against hers as I kiss her deeply

Again, my world shifts and I feel like I'm supposed to be with her

She's mine

Her arms slide up my body, wrapping around my neck, holding me tightly, kissing me hard

And this feels right

Just like this morning

It felt right to be in her arms, to sleep with her, to wake up to her

To kiss her

All too soon the kiss ends, I lean my forehead against hers, breathing hard

"I love you", I whisper, still scared to say it any louder than that

Her eyes lift to mine, surprise and...hope in them

Hope?

"You....", she trails off

"Love you", I say, a bit louder, "My god Jo, you have no idea in love with you I am"

"What?", she breathes

"I know it's...it's like it's out of nowhere for you but for me it's not. I've...I've loved you for a long time and all I ever wanted was you"

I feel her hands on my face, cupping my cheeks then her smooth soft lips back on mine

She's kissing me

Fuck she's kissing me

I move my arms around her wrist, holding her against me

She pulls away, looking in my eyes, "I love you Woo"

I feel the shock hit my system

I swear I didn't think this would happen

I thought she'd say that she just sees me as a friend or if I was lucky at the very least she'd try to date me

I never thought she'd love me too

"Are you serious?"

"So serious Woo. I'm in love with you just as much as you are with me. For years"

"Years?", I gape

God, if only I said something sooner, she could of been mine this whole time

"Yeah Woo. I've always loved you. Since high school"

"Why didn't you say anything?", I ask

She looks down, "Well because I was a dumb awkward teenager then and I didn't know what to say. Then you went for training, then you debuted and you're this amazing idol who is literally the dream guy of so many girls. You're so talented with an amazing voice and the way you move when you dance is mesmerizing. You're beautiful and hot and so totally out of my league. Beautiful girls like Mina go after you, they're the ones who deserve you, not a loser like me who still has no idea what she wants to do in life"

I hate the way she's talking about herself

She's not a loser and she's gorgeous

"You're everything and I'm not. There's no way I could of ever told you"

Lifting her face to mine, I'm determined to set her straight

"You are not a loser. You're only twenty three, you still have so much time to figure out what you want to do. And you are seriously the most beautiful woman I've ever fucking seen"

"Don't Woo-"

"Shush princess. You are. God you don't even know. I can't look at another girl without comparing them to you. And none have come close to you"

Her cheeks are a bright pink and it's adorable

"You went out with Mina"

"Because you talked me into it!", I exclaim, "I never thought about dating her once. Never. And even when you suggested it, I didn't want to. But you were so insistent and I thought that if you wanted me you wouldn't be convincing me to date someone else"

"I just....I thought she could make you happy. And if you were with someone, then it might help me get over you"

I shake my head hearing her, "I never want you to get over me princess. The entire time on the date all I wanted was you. I wish I was out with you. The date sucked, it was so boring, I spent most of it just eating and not speaking. She talked the whole time for us, telling me about herself and everything she likes, doesn't like and I felt like I was going insane"

It was fucking horrible

She never tried to get to know me, the real me that's behind the idol

Joanne is the only one who knows me like that

The only one I can be myself around

"Jo, I'm yours. Completely. Always have been. It's the only thing I want to be. Please, princess. I love you"

She comes into my arms, hugging me tightly and I wrap my arms around her, keeping her against me

"Yes Woo. Always yes. I love you, I always wanted you. Just you"

"I love you", I say against her hair

"I love you"

I don't think I can ever get tired of hearing or saying that

Moving my hand down her arm, I finally take her hand, locking our fingers together

She squeezes my hand, smiling up at me and I can't help smile back

Leaning down, I kiss her, not wanting to be away from her lips for long

"Wooyoung! What the fuck? Get the fuck inside!", Hongjoong yells as the door to the dressing room slams open, "Holy shit are you kissing Joanne?"

She pulls away from me, laughing

Me, I roll my eyes and look towards him, "Yes I'm kissing my girlfriend. Fuck off"

"Girlfriend?"

"Yes girlfriend", she confirms

"Oh damn, I didn't know you guys....well congratulations but get the fuck inside Wooyoung! You're not even ready yet!"

I sigh but she starts walking back to the dressing room, tugging me along

"Now that you're together, Jo I expect you to rein him in. Make him do things on time", Hongjoong exasperates

"She's not a babysitter!", I argue

"Please Jo", Hongjoong asks, ignoring me, "Please help me out. I have to deal with the rest of them and you know Wooyoung is like the wildest one"

She laughs, "Ok Hongjoong. I'll help you out. He'll be good for me"

She looks over at me, "Right baby?"

I mumble, "Yeah princess"

"I'll get him to places on time, get him to get ready on time but I'm not stopping his silliness or wildness. That's just him", she says

I smile widely, happy she knows me, happy she accepts me the way I am

I already knew she did before, it's just nice to hear it

"Yeah ok, just help me please"

She nods and he thanks her

"C'mon baby. Time to get ready", she says softly

"Yeah ok princess", I answer

Leaning down, I kiss her then reluctantly let go of her hand and head towards a chair for hair and makeup

Sitting down, I look through the mirror and see her sitting on the couch, watching and smiling at me

A hairstylist and makeup artist come over and start working on me

Mina comes over as well and I get ready for a confrontation

"Wooyoung, were you kissing Joanne?"

I nod, "Yeah"

"Why? You were kissing me before"

I take a breath, "No, you kissed me. I didn't kiss you back. I'm sorry Mina but I'm with Joanne now"

"What? She's your girlfriend? But you went out with me"

"I know but......look, I love her ok? I've always loved her and I finally opened my big mouth a few minutes ago and she loves me too. We're together. I'm sorry if I led you on but I don't feel that way for you"

She glares at me, "So you what? Used me to try to get over her?"

I wince, "Not exactly. We went out and I just wasn't feeling it ok? I'm sorry"

"Yeah whatever", she huffs, then walks away

Well that sucked

I look at Joanne through the mirror, a worried look on her face

I just give her a thumbs up and she nods, a soft smile on her face

She's so fucking beautiful, I'm so fucking lucky

When the stylists finish, I get up and go right to her

"Hmmm", she smirks, grabbing on the tie I'm wearing, "My boyfriend is so hot"

I grin, lifting my eyebrow, "Oh yeah?"

"Definitely", she says, playing with the end of the tie, "Can you wear this later? When we go home?"

Home?

"Home?", I ask

She nods, "My apartment. I know you live at the dorm but you can stay over whenever you want"

She has no clue how happy I am to hear that

"Yea baby, I'll keep the whole outfit on and we can go home quicker that way"

"Yea ok Woo"

I nod, kissing her forehead

"Let's go Woo", Yeosang says as he passes us

"Coming", I tell him, taking her hand and leading her with me

"Woo where are we going?"

"I want you here", I say as we get backstage and I'm handed my headset

A staff member comes over to me, helping me fix the headset, the mic and my inner ear piece

"But I can't watch you", she says

"Yes you can baby. You can stand at the edge of the stage"

"I can?"

I nod

She's going to whether the staff likes it or not

"Are you sure?", she asks

"Yeah. I want to be able to come right to you after the performance princess"

That's like a dream come true, walking right into her arms and kissing her as soon as I get off the stage

"Ok baby"

When I have everything I need for the performance, I walk up the stairs to the side of the stage where the rest of the guys are, her behind me

"Let's go", Hongjoong says

I turn around, leaning down and kissing her softly, "I'll be back"

She smiles, nodding, "You'll be amazing Woo. You always are"

"Thanks princess", I answer, her words amping me up

"I love you Woo"

"I love you Jo"

She kisses my cheek and I smile, turning from her and walking onto the stage

[bteezxyewriter12]

hii!! can u please make a seonghwa angst imagine about him cheated on his partner and then seonghwa regretted about his actions thanks thanks <33 love ur imagines so bad

Heartbreak

Pairing- Seonghwa x Named Reader

Word count- 9.2k

Includes- Cheating, heartbreak, death, battle-violence-gore, set in Buffy the Vampire slayer world during last episode of season, vampires, reader is a slayer

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Gif from Google but I think it was originally posted by @monjae

She opens the door to the building where ATEEZ's studio is

Seonghwa told her they were recording for their Japanese album

She wants to see Seonghwa before she leaves for Sunnydale

She's been called there to help Buffy and Faith fight the first evil

She and Seonghwa had a huge fight about her leaving because his comeback is tomorrow night and she's going to miss it

Ever since she was called as a slayer, her relationship with Seonghwa had been strained

He doesn't support her at all, complaining and getting angry when she has to cancel

He never wants to talk to her about anything that has to do with slaying

It hurts that she can't talk to the man she loves about her fears because yes she is terrified when she goes out there and fights demons

Huge monsters she's never seen before, with talons, sharp teeth, claws, spikes, and a number of other dangerous features on their body

And she's expected to run towards them, towards the danger and kill them, save the world

Even when she's hurt, he doesn't say anything about the injuries

He has said she's fine because she has super healing but that doesn't change the fact that the injuries hurt

The only one she can speak to is her best friend San

He listens, he talks to her, he tries to comfort her

He's been there since they were little and he's always been her rock and she his

She wishes Seonghwa would be that for her and he was but since she became the slayer, he's been distant

She doesn't want to go to Sunnydale on a bad note with Seonghwa

She wants to talk to him, apologize again and spend some time with him before she has to go

She heads towards their main recording room, passing by Hongjoong's open studio door

"Uh Jo?", she hears behind her

"Hi Joongie", she answer, turning to him

"What uh what are you doing here? I thought you were going to California?"

She nods, "I am but I can't just leave things with Seonghwa in a fight. I want to talk to him and say bye before I go"

"Oh", he says, his voice higher than normal, "He's busy recording now"

"That's ok. I'll just wait in the room until he's done"

Maybe if he sees her there, he'll know she cares and doesn't want to leave him

"Uh the guys are there. It's kind crowded"

Hongjoong is acting very strangely but she doesn't really have time to deal with that

"It's fine Joongie", she says, turning around and heading to the room

"Uh-", he says, following her

As she walks down the hallway, Wooyoung, Yeosang, Yunho and Mingi come down the opposite way, towards her

"Oh Jo! Hi!", Wooyoung says loudly

"Hi", she answers wondering what's wrong with them

From their body language they're all acting weird

"Thought you left", Yeosang says

"Uh not yet. I came to talk to Seonghwa"

"Yeah he's busy. Recording", Yunho says

What the fuck is their problem?

She's been in the recording room while he's in the booth before

Why are they acting like it's such a big deal now?

"I know. Joongie told me. I'm just gonna wait for him"

"Cool, you can wait in Hongjoong's studio and I'll tell him to go there as soon as he's done", Mingi suggests

She has no idea what is going on or why they're trying to keep her from the recording room but she doesn't have time for their crap

She moves quickly, side stepping them and walks fast down the hall

She hears them following her, making her wonder what they're hiding

Jongho comes around the corner, his eyes widening at seeing her but she bypasses him and gets to the door

She turns the knob when Jongho says, "Jo, wait"

She opens the door, walking in the room

And gets an eye full of Seonghwa

With another girl on his lap

She can see him behind the glass in the room, sitting on a chair, his back to the glass, both him and the girl naked

And she's riding him hard

The image sears in her mind and she can't tear her eyes away from the horrific scene

The girl moves on Seonghwa, moaning, while his hands grip her ass hard

"Yes fuck. God so fucking good jagi"

Her heart shatters in that moment

He called this girl jagi

That's his name for her, the nickname he always called her from day one

And he's calling this girl that

"Love this pussy fucking hell, best pussy I've ever been in"

The hole where her heart was is in agony hearing him

She knows he can't hear her unless she talks into the microphone or he'd hear her soft sobs

The girl smiles at him, bending down and kissing him

The scene becomes blurry as she realizes she's crying

Her body gets pulled back, the door closing, cutting her from the heartbreaking view of the love of her life fucking another girl

My god she didn't know someone could hurt this much

Didn't know that emotional pain is ten times worse than physical pain

She wishes she was in physical pain right now

"Jo", Mingi starts

"How long?", she asks, her voice shaky

They exchange looks and she doesn't want anymore lies

"How long? Don't lie to me?"

"Six months or so"

What?

He's been cheating on her for six months?

Where the hell has she been?

Yes she hasn't been with him as much as she used to but it's not like she doesn't see him

How has he been able-

She stops, her thought remembering how the guys tried to stop her from going to the recording room

They...they know?

"You knew?", she whispers

One by one they all nod

Oh god, they knew

And they kept it from her

That's how he was able to cheat on her

They helped him, covered it up, kept her in the dark

Then a truly terrifying thought hits her

Did San know?

He has to if they all knew

There's no way he could not know

"San knew?", she asks, sadly

Hongjoong shakes his head

"San doesn't know"

"How is that possible?", she says quietly

"We...we kept him away. Preoccupied him when Hwa was with her. Lied to him about where Hwa was during performances or practices", Wooyoung answers

That's why he's not here right now

"Where-"

"Home sleeping. He was really tired and we convinced him to go home", Yeosang says

So they lied to San too

"San doesn't know", she repeats

Theret's so many things running through her head and she just wants confirmation on this

"No, he doesn't", Wooyoung confirms

"But you all did and....you....didn't tell me", she accuses

"I just...he's happy when he's with her", Yunho says slowly

"You're not there for him anymore", Wooyoung adds

"He's at everything alone. All the comebacks, all the shoots, practices, he's always alone", Yeosang says, "And he's always unhappy"

It's funny that they mention that when she's been by his side for years

It's just been the last two years that she's been absent

And she tries as hard as she can to go to everything she can

She can't help if there's an apocalypse she needs to stop

"We....we don't condone it but we understand", Mingi says

And what, fuck her feelings right?

She doesn't matter right?

She's only been their friend since ATEEZ started but I guess you have to be in the group for them to care

At least San didn't know

That's a small favor in the hurt she's feeling right now

San didn't know and betray her too

It was just Seonghwa and the rest of them

"I'm sorry Jo", Jongho says, "But it's been over between the two of you for a long time"

Well this is the first time she's hearing this

She still loves him with all her heart and she thought he felt the same

"Jo, look-", Hongjoong starts but she can't bear to hear anymore

"I have to go....I have to get to... Sunnydale....flight leaving soon"

In reality her flight is in five hours

She just wanted to spend time with Seonghwa before she left

Now she can't and she never will again

With that she turns and walks away from her friends

From the love of her life, her heart in shambles

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She gets off the plane and heads to the airport exit

Giles is supposed to pick her up

She's exhausted

She spent the last several hours crying, the pain overwhelming

And through it all, she wonders when it changed to become this

Why didn't he talk to her first?

Why did his feeling change?

When did they change?

Why did he stop loving her?

Why didn't he just break up with her instead of betraying her and putting her through this agony?

Why did he stop loving her?

Yes she hasn't been there for every single thing like she used to, yes she cancels a lot but why did he have to stop loving her?

She still loves him, more than anything, more than her life

And when he became an idol, when wasn't there in the beginning, when he cancelled a lot, her feelings didn't change

She stayed by his side, she dealt with the loneliness and she loved him

She doesn't understand why it's different for him

These thoughts are just the same ones that have been circling around her mind and it's driving her crazy

Maybe she can crash at Buffy's for a few hours

She needs to sleep to get ready for tomorrow

As she walks to the exit, she unlocks her phone and texts San, telling him she's in Sunnydale

He texted her before she got on the flight and asked her to text when she got there

She got nothing from Seonghwa, which hurts but isn't a surprise

Not anymore

She puts her phone in her pocket, not bothering to text Seonghwa that she landed like she normally does when she's away from him

It's not like he cares anymore anyway

She exits the airport, looking for Giles car

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She's nodding off during Buffy's team speech

She's heard these before when she's come to help out during the last two years

Buffy got her up to speed when she got there

Buffy got the scythe that belongs to the slayer, they're attacking the first and it's army tomorrow morning, Willow will use the magic in the scythe to make all the potential slayers real slayers like her

She already knows what's going to happen, so her mind isn't paying attention

She's crashing and it takes everything in her to stay awake

She took an hour nap on the drive to Sunnydale but then it's been introductions to the potentials, "war" meetings with Buffy and the Scooby gang and a number of other things that are keeping her from sleeping

Seonghwa still hasn't texted her

He's probably busy with the girl

Tears spring to her eyes as she remembers what she saw

Even though he's cheating on her, she missed him

She still loves him, she wishes she could be in his arms, with him and it fucking hurts to know that will never happen again

Because as much as she loves him, she can't be with him anymore

That thought kills her every time

"Are you ready to be strong?", Buffy asks, finishing her speech

The potentials nod, then the meeting disperses

She has one thing to do before she can go to sleep

Approaching Buffy and Willow, they turn to her

"Hey Jo. Ready for tomorrow?", Willow asks

"Yeah"

"Really? You don't look so hot", Buffy asks

"I just need sleep. Jet lag", she says, then hands them a piece of paper with a phone number on it, "If anything happens to me, call San. He's my best friend"

Willow raises her eyebrow

"Not Seong-", Buffy starts

"Call San", she insists, "His number is on the paper. His name is Choi, San"

Willow and Buffy exchange a worried look

"You sure?", Willow asks

"Call San", she repeats

"Uh sure", Buffy agrees

She nods, the turns and heads to the room Buffy gave her for the night

San is the only one she has left

And the only one she loves to let know if she dies

No one else would care

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She stands over the hellmouth with Buffy, Faith and all the potential slayers

One by one they each pass the knife and slice their hand open

Narae leans over Seonghwa, pressing her lips to his, kissing him sensually, his arms wrapping around her

He has the whole weekend uninterrupted with her since his girlfriend left to fight with Buffy

He misses her and he'd rather be with her but everything is so strained

He's contemplating ending things with Narae and really focusing on fixing everything with Joanne when she comes back

But for now, he falls into Narae's kiss

She holds her hand out, squeezing a fist, her blood hitting the seal at the same time as the other girls

The pieces of the seal crack open until there's a hole big enough for a person to slide through

The entrance to the hellmouth

He slides Narae's shirt up her body, tossing it to the floor

He's already naked, with a condom on as she jumped on him as soon as the door closed

He unclasps her bra, that joining the pile, his mouth around her perky nipple, sucking softly

The rest of her clothes come off, then he helps her climb on him, her wet cunt dripping on him

She walks next to Buffy and Faith, towards the edge of a cliff

Spike is complaining about the necklace and something about Elizabeth Taylor

She's not paying attention to anything really

She woke up worse than yesterday and inside she's falling apart

She doesn't want to be here, she wants to be at home, in her bed

She doesn't care about this whole battle when her life is in shambles

She doesn't care if she lives or dies

Narae holds his cock up, her pussy engulfing him as she slides down

He moans loudly, the pleasure good

Not as good as when he's with his girlfriend though

He tells Narae she's the best but she's not

Joanne is

Everything about her is ten times better but him and her are in such a bad place and he doesn't get to be with her as much as he'd like

So Narae will have to do

She's good at sex, she rides him good, her body is hot, her face is pretty

It's good enough

Narae kisses him hard, bouncing hard and fast on his cock right away, throwing him into pleasure and every thought of his girlfriend leaves his mind

"I'm not worried", Buffy says in a worried voice

She and their group get to the edge of the cliff, the tens of thousands of ubervamps coming into view

Great

Just great

They're all dead

"As long as Willow does the spell before they-", Buffy is saying as the ubervamps all stop what they're doing and look at us, "Notice us"

Wonderful

"Harder jagi", he gasps, getting lost in Narae's tight cunt

She's pulsing so quickly making every stretch of her around him all the more pleasurable

Her hands move in his hair, pulling his head back, her mouth kissing his neck

His hands are squeezing her ass hard, helping her slide up and down his cock

The ubervamps charge and she gets ready to fight

Buffy has the scythe, while she has a sword and a stake

An ubervamp runs right in front of her and she immediately shoves her stake in his chest, the vamp disintegrating in front of her

Much like her heart when she saw Seonghwa yesterday

She swings the sword, decapitating three ubervamps in a row

She smashes her fist into the vamp's face to her right, then turns and kicks another right in the stomach, it flying backwards

She ducks under a punch, then swings the sword up cutting a vamp in half, turning him to dust

He thrusts into Narae's pussy, her legs on his shoulders and shoved towards her chest

She screams his name as he pounds into her, splitting her open on his cock

She already came once but he doesn't really care

He's not about giving her multiple orgasms like he is with his girlfriend

With Narae all he wants is to cum

"Get tighter", he whines, feeling her clench him so hard he gasps, "Good girl"

Her fingers dig into his upper arms, her body right against his, their sweat mixing together

She feels so good and he's in so much bliss, getting closer

Blocking a punch with her arm, she stabs the stake into the ubervamps eye, then pulls it out and buries it in his chest

She threw her sword to Faith awhile ago, when Buffy was stabbed and fell

Slapping the hand of a Ubervamp away, she uppercuts his chin then pulls her arm back and embeds her hand in it's chest

She grabs it's heart and pulls it out, the vampire dust in seconds

Vamps and Bringers are escaping, potentials turned slayers are dying around her and she's desperately trying to kill as many as she can to spare them

She doesn't care about herself, more about the young girls whose lives haven't started yet

She jumps, doing a flying kick to a vamp's face knocking it over

Grabbing a vamp's oncoming fist, she twists it's arm, bones snapping, then flipping him over her shoulder

It lands on its back, her stake in it's heart

Quickly turning, her hand flies out, stopping a kick then punching hard into the stomach of the ubervamp three times before staking him

She sees Buffy getting up, one of the potentials throwing Buffy the scythe

Suddenly she gets knocked down, four ubervamps surrounding her, slashing her body, pain hitting her hard

But it still doesn't compare to the agony inside her, to the pain of losing Seonghwa

She grabs one of the vamp's hand, completely snapping it in the opposite direction

Her legs fly out, kicking one of them in the knee cap and it goes down

She throws her arms out, her palms hitting two of the vamp's in the chest, them flying back

She flips herself up, spin kicking the one she hit in the knee in it's face, then stakes him

As one ubervamp tries to run pass her, she grabs it, shoving her stake in it's back and hitting it's heart that way

As it turns to dust, she throws the stake forward, embedding in the heart of an oncoming ubervamp

Another one replaces it, the amount of vamps seeming endless

He jackhammers his cock into Narae from behind, her pussy squelching so loudly, sucking him back in with every stroke

He's covered in sweat, his hair pasted to his forehead, his skin smacking against hers while she screams for more

He's so close, he just needs a few more tugs on his cock from her pretty little hole

"I'm gonna cum", he yells

She looks around, the number of vamps she killed not dwindling the sheer number of ubervamps at all

She does not know how they are going to win

If they're going to win

She keeps fighting, Buffy having thrown her the scythe

Buffy was right, this belongs to the slayer

She feels the power in the weapon, feels like it belongs to her

She hears Buffy yelling her name as she decapitates two vampires

She lifts her head towards Buffy, seeing Buffy's mouth moving but not hearing what she's saying

Suddenly she feels agonizing pain in her chest, her eyes looking down, her brain trying to register what it's seeing before it completely shuts down

A taloned hand coming through her chest from her back, a heart in it's hand

Her heart

"Joanne!", Buffy screams, running towards her

The pain dulls, her eyes closing as the hand pulls back and out of her, her body crumpling to the floor, Seonghwa's face the last thing in her mind

"Oh fuck Narae!", he moans as he cums inside the condom, pleasure so fucking incredible, her small pussy milking him for everything, "Yes jagi, fuck"

Buffy runs at the vampire that just killed Joanne

That just ripped her heart clean out of her body and is licking the blood off it

Buffy sees red, grabbing and swinging the scythe and decapitating the ubervamp in one swing

It won't bring Joanne back but Buffy promises her that they will win this fight

For her

Seonghwa leaves his room for a minute while Narae sleeps

He unlocks his cell phone, calling Joanne's number

She never called him when she landed and he was too busy to call her

The phone rings and rings and rings

"Hi, this is Jo, leave a message and I'll call you back. Maybe"

He smiles to himself at her sass

He waits for the beep then he says, "Hi jagi. I'm calling to see how you are, if you got to Sunnydale ok. Call me back when you can"

He hangs up the phone, then goes back to his room, into his bed, cuddling with Narae as he falls asleep

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Seonghwa POV

It's unusually quiet in the dorm this morning

Normally Wooyoung is yelling and making a huge scene about something, Yeosang telling him to knock it off

Hongjoong's not shouting 'shut the fuck up' every five minutes either

I wonder if they left already and forgot to get me

I disentangle myself from Narae, getting up, pulling on a t-shirt and sweatpants

Opening the door, I walk in the hallway looking for the guys

Hearing some voices in the kitchen, I head there

Walking in, I find all the guys surrounding San, who's on the phone and sobbing

What the hell is going on?

Hongjoong looks up at me, tears pooling in his eyes

Oh my god did something bad happen?

"Yes, I understand. Thanks for calling", San says, his voice cracking

He hangs up the phone, puts his face in his hands and cries harder

Wooyoung stands next to him, side hugging him

"Uh what's going on?", I ask, bewildered

San looks up at me, his eyes full of anger

Did I do something to piss him off?

I don't think I did

"Joanne is dead", he spits

It takes a few seconds for his words to process and when they do, my heart slams in my throat

"No she's not. That's not funny"

He's an ass for joking like that

That's not something to joke about

"I'm not fucking around", San growls, tears streaming down his face, "She's dead. She died in the fighting in Sunnydale"

"What are you talking about?", I yell, panicking, remembering that she didn't call me when she landed, which is so unlike her

"She was killed. By an ubervamp"

"A Uber what?"

"I don't know. That's what Buffy said. It's like a super vampire or something. They were fighting an army of them. One killed Joanne"

"How? Will she come back as a vampire?"

He glares at me, "She can't come back without a heart"

"What the fuck?", Mingi gasps

"What are you talking about?", Jongho asks

"That's what Buffy told me. This ubervamp ripped her heart out of her chest"

"You're fucking lying!", I shout, panic hitting me hard

I can't believe that

She's not dead

She's not

She's coming back

"I'm not lying! The vampire punched through her back into her chest, his hand bursting out from her chest. With her heart in his hand. Buffy saw it. She said she can't unsee it"

Punched through her?

Oh god she had to have been in so much pain

"I can't...oh god", Wooyoung says, getting to the garbage just in time to throw up

"The fucking vampire was licking the blood from her heart when Buffy killed it. And Jo is dead", San whispers

She dead

Gone

She's not coming back

My heart seizes and the agony I feel is beyond any pain I've ever felt in my life

"We...we...we should give her a funeral. Did you tell Buffy to send her body home?", Yunho says

San shakes his head, "There isn't a body"

"What are you talking about?", Hongjoong yells, "Of course there's a body"

I can't handle this

I'm going to have to see my jagi in a....in a coffin

Oh my fucking god

I lean on the back of a chair to keep myself upright as tears fill my eyes

"There isn't. Sunnydale, the hellmouth imploded. There is nothing left of the entire area. Just a huge crater in the earth. She's.... she's either buried thousands of feet under it or...or her body was crushed from everything falling on top of her. There is no more of her to bury", San cries

I can't help it, I burst into tears

She's gone

She's really gone and I...I didn't talk to her before she left

I'm never going to see her again

I'm never going to hear her voice or see her smile

The pain that hits me almost brings me to my knees

"Why are you crying?", San snarls

I look up at him in shock

What is he talking about?

He just told me my girlfriend died

The girl I love is dead

"What are you talking about?", I sob, "She's dead!"

"Like you care!", he shouts, anger in his watery eyes

"Of course I fucking care!", I yell, "I love her!"

He stands up so fast, his hands in fists at his sides, "You don't! You can't love her if you're fucking that skank!"

Fuck

He knows

But even so, that doesn't mean I don't love her

I do, with all my heart

We're just having problems

"You're cheating on her! When she was fighting for us, dying to save the world, you were fucking another girl!", he roars, "Don't tell me you love her, you fucking liar"

"I do love her!", I yell, "We just...there are problems and....I handled it wrong"

He scoffs, "You've been fucking this bitch for months. And why? Because you're upset that she doesn't have as much time for you like she used to? Because she has to miss performances?"

I mean yes, it was bothering me and anytime I brought it up, she apologized but said it was her job

I was getting tired of it and I was getting tired of her ignoring the problems, never talking about it

"You're so fucking selfish. She loved you with everything she had. She was upset that she had to leave you to go fight. She used to cry about it to me and she used to be so scared that you'd be angry, that you'd break up with her", San snaps, "But all you cared about was yourself. You didn't care that she was facing death every time she went out there. You didn't care that she was so scared of these things that she had to fight. Instead of trying to understand, you went behind her back and betrayed her"

I didn't know about any of this

I didn't know she went to San to tell him her fears

And I had no idea she was scared of these demons

She never showed fear, she acted like she knew what she was doing, that it wasn't a big deal

But I would have if I would of talked to her

"You never wanted to hear anything about her being a slayer. You just fought with her about it. You were never there for her like she was for you. And now that she's dead you want to say you love her? Fuck you!"

I don't know what to say

I am an asshole and I shouldn't have cheated on her

And I can't make it better

She's never coming back and I can't fix it like I wanted to

"You're so lucky she didn't know about you cheating on her. Because that would have fucking devastated her"

I know it would have

I would be devastated

I guess that's something good in this horrifying situation

"She knew", Hongjoong whispers

My head snaps to him immediately, shock and horror filling me, making more tears flow

"What?", I whisper

"She knew", Hongjoong repeats, "She...she found out the day she left for Sunnydale"

I feel my heart drop to my feet

How did she know?

How did she find out?

"How?", San asks for me

"She...she came to the studio. To say goodbye to Seonghwa. She..she wanted to say bye to him", Yeosang whispers, "She saw them. Saw her on him, heard him"

Oh my god

No, fuck

"We tried to stop her from going to the recording booth to talk to him but she pushed through us and went anyway", Yunho says soflty

I feel sick to my stomach

What did I do to her?

Oh god

"You all knew?", San asks, in complete disbelief

Hongjoong nods, "Yeah, we all knew. And we....we said some things...."

"What things?", San yells, fury on his face

"We uh told her that she's never there for Hwa. That uh...he's happy with Narae. And we understand why he's with Narae", Mingi answers

"We told her it was over between them and had been for a long time", Jongho whispers

Oh my god they did what?

Why would they tell her these things?

Why would they speak for me?

"Are you fucking kidding me? You told her these things after she saw Seonghwa fucking another girl and you let her leave?", San screams, "You knew what she was up against and you let her go after all that? Why didn't you fucking tell me if you knew? Why did you hide it from me?"

"Because we understood where Seonghwa was coming from and we knew you'd stop it", Yunho explains, "We just wanted Hwa to be happy"

"And what, fuck her?", San roars, "Fuck the girl who's your friend, who's saved your asses countless times from vampire sasaengs, who fights to save the world to keep you from dying a horrible death. Her feelings don't matter?"

No one says anything and I'm just completely horrified and devastated

"You all are so fucking wrong for this. You sent her into a fight after all this and now she's dead! You might as well have killed her yourself!"

Oh my god he's right

She went into the fight devastated, hurt

I betrayed her, her friends turned their back on her

It's my fault she's dead

Oh my fucking god, it's my fault

I feel sick, like I can't breath and I cry harder, hyperventilating

She's dead

The last time she saw me was when I was fucking another girl

She died knowing I was cheating on her, thinking I was happy with someone else

She died thinking I didn't love her

My stomach turns and I run to the garbage, just making it as I throw up into it

I can't fix it

I can't tell her I love her, I can't apologize, can't tell her how sorry I am, can't beg her to forgive me, to take me back

I can't do any of that because she's dead

"Fuck all of you", San yells, then looks at me, "Fuck you Seonghwa. Not only did the vampire rip her heart out, you did too. You fucking asshole. Because of you asses, she died thinking I knew he was cheating on her!"

"No she didn't San", Wooyoung says, "She knew you didn't know. She asked and we told her you didn't"

He looks at me, rage in his eyes, "At least she knew that I didn't betray her. At least she knew she could count on me when she couldn't count on you"

San turns away from us, walking away

"San, wait-", Wooyoung calls

"Fuck off. All of you. Leave me alone", he snarls, "I'm going to a hotel. I can't stand the fucking sight of any of you"

"San please", Yeosang pleads, "We messed up. We're sorry"

"Sorry doesn't bring her back"

He's right

Sorry does nothing

Sorry doesn't put her heart back in her chest

Sorry doesn't make her body reappear, doesn't make her alive again

Sorry is worthless

San leaves, slamming his door closed

Hongjoong turns to me, "Hwa-"

"Why would you tell her those things?", I ask quietly, wiping my eyes

It's no use, the tears aren't stopping anytime soon

"Why would you speak for me? Especially after she saw?"

"Because we were telling her the things you said to us. We were trying to defend you", Mingi explains

I shake my head, "I didn't need to be defended. I needed her to come into the room and yell at me and curse me out and make me realize the fucked up shit I've been doing. I needed you to tell me off for cheating on her, not help me keep doing it"

They're silent

It's not like anything they say will make anything better

"She's gone", I whisper, "She died thinking I didn't love her. That is so far from the truth. I love her with all my heart. And I can't tell her that. I can't fix this. I can't...."

I stop talking, my heart shattering into a million pieces as it hits me that she's really not coming home

I can't handle this

I can't

I need to sit down

I need...I need her

But it's too late

I turn from them, going back to my room

I forgot that Narae is there

She's already awake, sitting up and on her phone

She looks up at me, alarm on her face, "Seonghwa what's wrong?"

I sit at the edge of the bed, just looking at nothing, my thoughts all on Joanne

My jagi

"Seonghwa?", Narae calls, coming closer to me

"She's gone"

"What?"

"She's gone", I repeat louder

"Who's gone?", she asks, confusion in her voice

"She's dead", I whisper, tears falling, "She's dead and she's not coming back"

"Who?"

"Joanne"

"Your girlfriend? The one who's never there for you, who fights with you?"

I hate hearing her talk about Joanne like that but it's my fault

I vented to her about Joanne

"She died?", Narae asks

I nod, "She's gone"

"Oh wow...I uh....that's...horrible", she says, although I doubt she means it, "Do you need anything?"

"I need you to go"

A pause

"What?", she asks

"I need you to go. Leave", I answer, wanting to be alone

"Uh really?"

Yes really

I just told her my girlfriend is dead

What the hell does she think, I'd want to spend time with her right now?

"Yes. Leave and don't come back", I say, doing what I should of done months ago, "This is over. It shouldn't have happened at all"

"But Hwa-"

"Please, just go", I say, tears breaking over my waterline, falling down my eyes

"Fine", she says sounding upset but I can't care right now

I barely hear her getting dressed or notice she's leaving until I hear my door slam closed

I immediately turn, laying on my pillow and completely lose it

I sob hysterically, just wanting her

Wanting her in my arms right now

Wanting to apologize and beg her forgiveness, tell her I love her more than anything

But she's not coming back

She's never coming back

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One week later

I lay in bed awake, staring at the ceiling

I can't sleep

I haven't slept much in the last week

Everything has gone to hell

San is gone

Took a break from the group

KQ made an announcement, saying someone close to him died and he needs time

He didn't even tell us, we found out through our managers

We don't know where he is

We haven't seen him since he went to the hotel

I know he bought Joanne a plot in a cemetery

He put up a picture on Instagram of it with flowers he laid on the grass, saying that he's going to miss her so much

I tried texting him to find out where it is so I can go but he told me to fuck off

I don't know which cemetery it is and even if I go to one I'd have no idea where to look

I don't want to get another plot for her since San has one

I just have to hope that he'll eventually tell me where it is

My life sucks

The public didn't know about me and her so I can't take a break like San is

It'd be suspicious if two of us took a break

The managers are being more lenient with me since, you know, my girlfriend died

I'm kinda on a break but the public doesn't know about it

I've just been staying home, trying not to fall apart all the time

The guys are fucked up, guilt eating at them for what they said to her before she left

Hongjoong is especially feeling guilty for not stopping her from leaving

I don't know what San is feeling although I know it's not good

I just a mess

Sometimes I forget she's gone and I pick up my phone to text her, then when I realize I can't I break down

I wish I could see her again, tell her I'm sorry, tell her I love her, I miss her

Just talk to her

I really don't know how I'm supposed to live my whole life without her

I know I fucked up and if she found out I cheated she'd break up with me

But at least she'd be alive, at least she'd be here so I could try to get her back and show her I love her

I can't do that now

And I can't believe I was an idiot and let her leave without seeing her

I didn't even call her until after I fucked Narae and realized she never texted me

I know when I called her she was already gone

That's why she didn't pick up

And I didn't think anything of it, didn't freak out she didn't pick up

I just went right to bed with Narae

It makes me sick to my stomach and I hate myself

I close my eyes, despair filling me as I start crying again

"Hwa", I hear

In her voice

That's impossible

I have to be hearing things

"Seonghwa"

Opening my eyes, I sit up, turning around towards the door and my heart jumps in my chest

"What the fuck?", I gape, staring at her

She's here

How...how is....she's...what?

"Joanne?"

"Hi Hwa", she says softly

"How...did you...are you alive?", I stammer

She shakes her head sadly, "No. I'm dead"

"But-"

"I'm allowed to come see people who are having a hard time with my death. Only once", she says, "I already talked to San"

"So you can stay-"

"For a little. Then I have to go"

"Where? Where are you going?"

I don't want her to go

There's not enough time to spend with her

"Heaven"

My eyes bug out of my head, "Heaven?"

Like actual heaven?

If anyone deserves to go to heaven it's her

She's the ultimate good guy

A hero

She shrugs, sitting next to me on my bed, "Yeah. Or a heaven dimension. There's literally hundreds of them. I'm not sure which one and I don't know if it's the heaven heaven that the religions talk about"

"What's it like?"

"Peaceful. Beautiful. Happy. Everyone laughing. Everyone getting along. No violence. Everything has a soft tint to it"

Sound like an amazing place

A place where she belongs

I just wish it wasn't away from me

"So you live on a cloud or something?"

She laughs, "No. It's like here. A city. Countryside. Houses. Parks. We live like you guys do we just don't need to eat or really sleep. It's like a big mellow party"

"That's sounds great", I say, looking down at my floor

A silence rises and I don't know what to say

She's here, right next to me, something I've been wishing for and I don't know what to say

"Hwa, I'm here. I know you're having a hard time with my death. Talk to me", she says gently

Tears fill my eyes, "I'm sorry"

"I know Hwa"

"I'm sorry I hurt you. I...I handled everything wrong. Instead of talking to you, trying to fix everything, I strayed and I cheated. I'm sorry"

She stays silent, waiting for me to continue

"I hate that you died thinking I didn't love you. I hate that the last time you saw me I was...with another girl. Do...do you hate me?"

"I don't hate you Hwa. I wasn't angry with you. I didn't have time to get there. I was devastated. Hurt. And I didn't even get to deal with those feelings. I had to go to Sunnydale, I had to listen to war plans, I had to fight thousands of ubervamps. I didn't have time for anything", she explains, "And yes, I did think you didn't love me anymore. And I did die thinking that"

"I'm sorry", I cry, tears breaking over my face

"Hwa, when I died...how do I put this..", she says, "It's like...you know things. Everything that you always questioned, everything you thought you knew is confirmed, answered or changed. Especially concerning the people you love"

She continues, "I did think you didn't love me but when I got to...heaven...I knew that you did love me. Somehow I knew. Even though you cheated, I know that you love me with all your heart"

I feel a huge relief in my chest

I'm glad she knows I love her

I was a massive idiot, but I do love her more than anything in this world

"I do jagi. I love you so much"

She nods, "I love you too Hwa. I always loved you. And I forgive you for cheating"

I break down sobbing hearing that

She forgives me

I don't deserve it

I know I don't and I'm so grateful

"I'm sorry Jo. I'm sorry I was such a selfish asshole. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you like you were for me. I should of been. I should of talked to you about your slaying. I should of been the person you could talk to about your fears instead of San. I'm sorry I made you constantly worry I was going to break up with you. I should of supported you like you always supported me. I shouldn't have been so self absorbed. And I should never have cheated"

"It's alright Hwa"

I shake my head, "No it's not. It's not ok. And I'm sorry the guys told you those things. I never asked them to speak for me"

She nods

"And I didn't love her baby. I swear. As bad as it was, it was just sex. I love you. I'm only in love with you. Never her"

She nods, taking my hand and I hold on to her for dear life

"I know baby. You should have talked to me instead of cheating so we could of fixed things. But it's over now baby and I forgive you"

Tears pour down my face hearing her call me baby

I didn't know I needed to hear that from her one last time

"I miss you so much", I sob

She takes me in her arms and I hold on to her tightly, never wanting to let go

"I miss you Hwa"

"Baby please don't go. I can't...I can't be without you. Please I'll do anything. I'll give anything. Please don't leave me"

"I'm sorry Hwa. I want to stay with you but I can't"

"No please", I panic, burying my face in her neck

I desperately smell her scent that I'm trying to commit to memory

I'm aware that this is the last time I'm going to see her and I'm savoring everything

The feel of her arms around me, the feel of her soft hair, the sound of her voice, everything single detail about her

"I love you so much Seonghwa"

Lifting my head, I look at her beautiful face, commiting everything to memory

"I love you Joanne. With all my heart jagi"

Tears fall down her face as she smiles softly, touching my cheek

"Please don't baby", I beg

"I wish I could stay Hwa. I want that more than anything"

"Wait for me. Please baby. Wait for me there until I can get there and be with you"

"Baby, I..I want you to live your life. If you fall in love again, I want you to go for it. I want you to get married, have kids, live a full life. I don't want you holding back because I'm not here"

I shake my head, "I can't baby. I don't want that without you"

"You feel that way now baby. But if it happens I don't want you to feel guilty. It's ok baby. You still need to live", she says gently, "Live your life, for me baby"

"Jagi-"

"Please Hwa. Promise me you'll live your life. However you want, with no guilt. I want you to be happy"

I can't be happy without her

She's my happiness

My everything

"Please Hwannie"

"I'll promise if you promise to wait there for me"

She looks at me wearily but I'm adamant about this

"No matter what kind of life I have, I know I want to spend my forever with you. We...our life together was cut short jagi. I hate that. And I have so much to make up for"

"You don't Hwa"

"Yes jagi, I do. Please promise me"

She smiles sadly, "Ok Hwa. I promise"

"I promise too", I say sadly

"I love you", she says softly

"I love you"

She moves closer, her lips pressing against mine in our last kiss

That thought completely breaks me but I'm not going to fall apart now

I'm going to make sure this is the best last kiss we have until we meet again

Pulling her against me, I kiss her deeply, pouring all my love into it so she knows it's not just words

The kiss lasts for awhile but for me it's too quick

She looks in my eyes, smiling softly, "I'll always be here baby. Even if you can't see me, I'm here"

I nod, not believing I'm not going to see her again

"Goodbye Hwannie"

"Goodbye Jo. My jagi", I choke out, a new wave of tears falling

Her soft lips press a soft gentle kiss to my lips and the next thing I know, she's gone

"Jagi?", I call, freaking out, "Jagi!"

She's gone

She's really gone

"No jagi, come back!", I cry hysterically, "Please baby, come back"

"Hwa"

I turn to my doorway to see San standing in the threshold, crying as well

"She came to you?", he asks

I nod, trying to wipe my eyes but I can't stop crying

I miss her so much and I feel like there's a hole in my chest that will never heal

"Me too"

"I...I miss her", I sob, my hands shaking, "I can't...I can't do this without her San"

He comes towards me, hugging me tightly and I cling onto him

"I'm sorry San. I'm sorry"

"I know Hwa. She....she told me she forgives you. And she loves you"

I burst out into more tears, hugging San tighter or I'm gonna collapse

"I want her back. I need her"

San nods, "She wants us to live our lives Hwa. She wants us to be happy"

"I can't", I sob

"You can. It doesn't seem like that now but you can Hwa. You have to. We have to. For her. It's what she wants. We have to do it for her"

I nod, knowing that it will be hard but I'll do anything for her

She told me she wants me to live and for her, I'll do it

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The next day

Placing the flowers on the grass in the cemetery, I sit down

"Hi jagi", I whisper, tears pooling in my eyes

I know she's not in this grave, her body isn't either but I know she's here with me

I asked San to bring me to the cemetery and he did

Last night him and I spoke to each other and I told him everything that happened

The cheating, the way I was feeling, the mistakes I made in our relationship

He listened and why he got why I was feeling the way I did but he still told me I was an asshole for cheating and gently reamed me for it

I agree and I deserve what he said

I even think he went too soft on me

"I miss you so much jagi. I know I saw you last night but it wasn't enough time", I whisper, "It'll never be enough time"

San told me about the headstone he ordered

A black one- her favorite color

Her name engraved on it along with her birth and death dates

He also said her put "Best friend, loving girlfriend, Hero"

She deserves to be called a hero

She was one

A silent hero who protected the world and no one knew about it

And I was too stupid to appreciate her heroism until it was too late

I stay talking to her for awhile, just about stupid things, telling her I miss her and love her every few minutes

Apologizing over and over

"Hwa", San calls softly, "We have to go. The cemetery is closing in ten minutes"

I nod

Turn back to her grave, I touch the grass

"I love you Joanne. More than anything in this world. I'm so honored to have been your boyfriend even if I was a sucky one. I'm so lucky to have had your love. I promise I'll keep the promise I add you and I'll live my life for you"

Kissing my hand, I put it on the grass then stand up

"I love you jagi"

Then I turn and walk with San to the car determined to keep my promise

And I know, I'll see her again

Not matter how long it takes, I'll see her again

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Years later

"Seonghwa?"

I open my eyes, turning to the sound of her voice

She's looking at me in complete shock

"Hwa? Is it really you?"

I smile, nodding, "It's me jagi"

"Hwa!", she yells, running towards me

I catch her, lifting her up, her lips crashing into mine in a kiss I waited my life time for

Her arms slide around my neck and I feel like I'm home, kissing her with everything in me

When the kiss ends, we hold each other tightly

"I missed you Hwa"

"I missed you so much jagi"

"How are you here?"

"I told you I'd come", I answer

"But Hwa-"

"I died jagi", I tell her, "I did what you asked of me. I lived my whole life and I died an old man. 97 to be exact"

San was right that night

I had to go on living

For her

Living without her was the hardest thing I've ever did in my whole life

The pain of losing her, of being without her lasted my whole lifetime

It dulled over the years but it was there

And even though I was without her, I always remembered her, I was happy

The headstone San got was beautiful and I visited her grave as often as I could

ATEEZ became popular and we were known worldwide

I never did get married or have kids

I never fell in love again

I did have girlfriends but it was never love

She is the only one who had my entire heart and she had it for my entire life

It was always her

I didn't have kids of my own but I did help out with the guy's kids when they got married and had them

The eight of us stayed best friends, brothers for our whole lives, living close to each other and seeing each other often

Even in our old age we did things together

When I got sick, I wasn't upset or scared

I knew I was going to her soon

See her again, hold her again, kiss her again

I knew I'd be able to spend forever with her

And I was right

"It's been that long?", she asks

I nod, "Yeah jagi"

"Wow. Time moves differently here I guess", she says, "It feels like I just saw you when I went to talk to you"

"No jagi. Lots of time passed", I smile

I put her down and she takes my as we start walking

I realize where on a street

Looking around I see we're in a neighborhood with lots of houses

"How was everything baby? What did you do?"

I tell her everything that happened, personally and with ATEEZ

She frowned when I tell her I didn't get married or had kids

"I never loved anyone but you Jo. I couldn't marry someone else. I only ever wanted you"

"But I wanted you to be happy Hwannie, even if it was with someone else"

"I was happy baby", I assure her, "i was single but I was happy. I missed you so much. I did feel your loss my whole life baby but I was happy. I knew I'd see you again. I just had to wait"

She smiles brightly, "You we're right. I don't know how you ended up in this dimension but I'm glad you did"

I have no idea how I ended up here either but I'm estatic I did

"I don't know jagi. All I know is as I was laying in my bed I kept asking to please send me to where you were. I guess that worked"

"Guess so. I'm glad whoever decides where people go, listened to you"

"Me too"

As we walk towards a house, I ask her where we are

"This is where I live baby"

"Here?", I gape

The house is huge

"Slayers are praised here. I think this place is a slayer heaven dimension. Most of the women here are slayers"

I'm glad she's praised here and getting "rewarded"

She didn't get it when she was alive because no one was allowed to know about her

It just sucks it's happening when she's dead

"You live here now here Hwa. With me", she says

"I do?"

She nods, "I want you to stay with me"

I smile widely, "Alright jagi. I want to stay with you too"

"Great", she says, reaching for the doorknob

I stop her, holding her hands, turning her to me

"Jo, I'm so sorry-"

"Stop Hwa", she says gently, "I know you are baby. I told you years ago, I forgive you. I want to put it past us. Start over. Just be happy together"

I seriously don't deserve her

"Ok baby?"

I nod, "Ok"

She moves her arms around my neck, pressing her lips to mine in a soft loving kiss that I completely melt into

When the kiss ends, she takes my hand and asks, "Ready to see our house?"

"So ready"

I'm ready for my forever with her, the love of my life

She giggles, opens the door and leads me inside

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No More Lies

Pairing- Wooyoung x Named Reader

Word count- 6.9k

Includes- Angst, fight/argument, sex, oral, pussy eating, cum eating, fingering, missionary, riding, multiple orgasms, fluff

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J POV

I rush down the hallway towards the set where Wooyoung's photoshoot is being held

My best friend, the idol

Lately he's been asking me to come to more and more shoots and I always say yes

He's kept me kinda away from his members so I don't really know any of them too well

I met them the first time about three months ago when I went to a photo shoot

I don't know why he didn't want me to meet them before

He's been in ATEEZ for three years already but he always hung out with me alone

But I'm not making a big deal out of it

I'm just happy he's asking me to come to more things for ATEEZ now

Stepping onto the set, I find him sitting in the middle of the room on a couch with his members

I start heading towards them

"Yeah right", Wooyoung snorts, "I would never fuck Joanne"

I stop a few feet away from him

What did he say?

"Really? You never thought to have sex with your best friend who's a girl?", One of them, I think it's Yeosang, asks

"Eew no. Have you seen her?", Wooyoung answers like he's grossed out

My heart falls to my feet and I quickly hide behind the rack of clothes nearby

"I mean she's nerdy yeah but she's pretty", San says

"Maybe to you. Not me. I wouldn't touch her with a ten foot pole"

I can't believe he's saying this

It's the opposite of everything he ever said when we're together

"She does seem kind of a dork", Seonghwa adds

"She is totally a dork. All she does is study and she doesn't know how to have any fun"

That's so not true!

Yeah I study a lot but that's because I'm going to be an exotic vet

I need to study

I have hard bio and medical classes

And I do know how to have fun

Him and I have fun all the time

Although now I think he's just been lying to me

"Wooyoung this is your best friend you're talking about!", Hongjoong scolds

He shrugs, "She's my best friend from childhood and honesty I feel sorry for her. It's why I haven't invited her to things up until the past few months"

That's the reason why he's kept me away from his idol world

He's ashamed of me

I feel like I can't breathe

Not only is every he said when we sleep together a lie but it seems like our whole friendship is a lie

"Then you wouldn't care if Jongho asks her out?", Yunho asks

"What?", he says, while I think it

"Jongho likes her. He thinks she's really pretty and nice. He would never ask you if you're ok with him dating her but since you're saying all this, I'm asking for him"

I don't want Jongho

Yes he's very sweet and shy and cute but Wooyoung is who I want

Who I stupidly fell in love with

"She wouldn't know what to do with a guy if she ever did get one", he snaps

I thought I did but I guess all the times he told me I felt good, what I was doing was amazing was a lie

I guess I was just easy sex for him

And it's devastating

"So no I'd never sleep with her. She's kinda pathetic", Wooyoung continues, "And I don't suggest Jongho try either. She has no experience and he'll regret it"

I bite my lip to keep from crying

I guess he regrets it too if he's saying that

"And anyway, I got my eye on Ara. She's hot and I wouldn't mind fucking her."

"God is sex all you think about?", Hongjoong snaps

"No. I think I may ask Ara on a date. See where it goes "

He likes Ara?

One of the hairstylists?

I haven't seen him give any interest in her

He never talks about her to me

But then again I don't really know him anymore

Especially not after this

I need to leave

I can't listen to anymore

I practically run from behind the rack back into the hallway

Going as quickly as I can, I head for the exit, shoving the door open when I get there

I beeline for my car and as soon as I'm in it, the tears burst from my eyes

I can't believe that's how he really thinks of me

He never wanted me

I didn't expect him to have feelings for me but I hoped

I was an idiot

I take out my phone, my hands shaking as I type a text to him

"Hey Woo. I can't make it today. A project was suddenly sprung on us in class and I have to meet with my partner, Han, to talk about how we're going to handle the assignment. Sorry"

After sending the text, I throw my car in drive and head home

I have to keep wiping my eyes because the tears don't stop

I wish I wasn't crying, I wish what he said didn't bother me

Didn't hurt

No such luck

My phone goes off when I open the door to my apartment

"Oh that sucks. I miss you and wanted to hang out after the shoot. Next time then"

I just send back an, "Ok", then head to my room, laying on my bed

Putting my head in my pillow, I let the tears fall, crying my heart out

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I stare at my phone

It's been a week since I ran from Wooyoung

A week since I've been pulling away from him

But today he sent me a text asking me to come to another photo shoot tomorrow

I'm not going

I can't be around him right now

Maybe ever

I have to stay away

He doesn't want me

He feels sorry for me and that's why he's continuing this friendship

And he wants Ara

I decided to distance myself more and more

This way he won't be burdened with me and he can go after the girl he really wants

I can let him be happy without any interference from me

I just have to figure out how without causing suspicion

I came up with an idea that's dumb but may still work

"I can't Woo. I actually have a date. With my boyfriend", I text back, hoping he buys it

"Boyfriend? Since when do you have a boyfriend?", he immediately texts back

I already have an answer prepared

"Last week. It's my partner for that projected I had last week. Han. He asked me out that day and I said yes"

"Wow. That's great Jo"

Yeah of course he'd be happy that I have someone else

Now he can ask out Ara without worrying about me

God this fucking hurts

Tears spring to my eyes as I type, "Thanks Woo. He's a really nice guy and I hope it works out"

"It will. Have fun tomorrow 😉"

I send a thumbs up, then toss my phone on my bed, pulling my knees to my chest

He didn't even care

Not one word out what would happen with us

No regret that we can't be together anymore

But then again, what did I expect after I heard what he really thinks about me?

He's probably happy to pass me off to some other guy so he doesn't have to deal with me anymore

It hurts

I didn't only lose the guy I love, I lost my best friend

Who I guess, in reality wasn't my best friend anyway

Or I wasn't his

Laying down in bed, I just stare at the wall, tears falling down my face

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Four months later

Wooyoung POV

"Wanna hang out after work?", I text her, hoping she says yes

I haven't seen her in months

Not since she said she got together with Han

I miss her

And yeah, I get we can't sleep together anymore but that doesn't mean I want all contact to stop

We can still hang out like we used to before sex became involved

And I'm also suspicious that she's lying to me

She uses the Han excuse every time I ask her to hang out

And I ask her often because I miss her

A few times I've seen her out and alone when she's supposedly with Han

Walking into a cafe, alone

Crossing the street to her apartment, alone when she was supposed to be at his place

At her job when she told me she was going to be with him all night

She works in a Starbucks so it's not like I was stalking her

But depending on her answer, I will or will not be

"I can't. I'm going to Han's. Spending the night there", she answers

I call bullshit

"Oh alright", I answer, "Maybe next time"

"Yeah. Next time", she replies

"Yeah for sure. Next time", I text

She sends a smiley face to end the conversation

I get up from my bed and walk out of the dorm to Yunho's car

I already asked him to borrow it so it's fine

Getting in it, I drive to her job

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I'm seething

As I suspected, she's not with Han

If Han is even real

I followed her from her job at Starbucks

She walked home, the Starbucks a few blocks away and I followed in the car

I parked across the street from the apartment door so I can see if she leaves

An hour after she got home, a food delivery comes to the door and it was for her

She came down, in her PJs and got the food

After another hour, I saw her leave again, with a big dog on a leash I've never seen before

A pitbull

When did she get a dog?

She took the dog around the corner of her apartment building and she came back twenty minutes later

She and the dog went inside and she hasn't come out in over a half an hour

It's nine now and she's definitely not going out

With anyone

Opening the door to the car, I get out, slam the door closed and lock it

Then I stalk to the door to the building, pulling the door open

I'm so fucking mad

I take the elevator to the third floor, get to her door and pound on it

She needs to explain to me why she lied

I'm not leaving until she does

She opens the door, shocked to see me

"Wooyoung?"

"You lied to me", I say evenly, walking in her apartment, her huge dog barking at me

Gotta admit, the pitbull is scary

"Nnnn...no I didn't", she answers, closing the door

"Shush Noodle", she scolds and yeah ok, that's a cute dog name

Maybe not for that dog though

But not why I'm here

"Bed", she says and Noodle turns, going straight to his bed in the living room, whining

She turns back to me and I confront her

"Yes you did Joanne. You said you were gonna be with Han all night and instead you're here. Alone"

"We uh....we broke up"

I raise my eyebrow

She has to know how fake that sounds

"No you didn't. I doubt you were ever together with him"

She narrows her eyes, "What the fuck Wooyoung? You don't know anything!"

"I know you've lied to me before. I've seen you when you were "with Han", I say, using finger quotation marks, "You weren't with him then and you weren't today"

"How the fuck do you know?"

"Because I followed you!", I exclaim, trying not to get angry

But it's hard

She's blowing me off and I don't know why

I didn't do anything

"I followed you. From when you were still working. I saw you leave, I saw you come in here by yourself, I saw you go downstairs to pay for the delivery. I saw you walk your dog that I didn't know you had. You were never going to see Han today"

"Wow way to be fucking creepy Wooyoung", she snaps

I'm not letting her change the subject

I know it was creepy but there wasn't any way I could find out

She just would of lied to my face

"Why are you ignoring me? Every time I ask you to hang out or to come to a photo shoot, hell anything, you blow me off. Why?"

"I was with-"

"Don't lie to me!", I snap, my anger finally breaking through

How can she lie to my face after everything I just told her?

"Tell me the truth Joanne! Don't lie! I never lied to you!"

Fury fills her eyes, "Yes you did! You lied to me for months!"

I stare at her in confusion

What the hell is she talking about?

I never lied to her

"No I haven't. Stop trying to change the subject"

"You lied to me", she snarls, "Telling me things when we...we slept together that you didn't mean"

I literally have no idea what she's talking about

Everything I ever said I meant

"I don't know what you're talking about. I didn't lie about anything"

"I heard you!", she yells, tears pricking at the corner of her eyes

She's gonna cry?

Why?

What is happening?

"You heard me?", I ask, trying to get to the bottom of this

"Yes Wooyoung. I heard you. What you said to your members about me"

What I said?

I didn't say anything

I don't talk about her to them

She's just mine, I don't want to share her with them

"Joanne, you're going to have to tell me what you're talking about because I honestly don't know"

"I heard what you told them! That I was ugly. That you wouldn't touch me with a ten foot pole. You laughed and agreed with one of them who said I was such a dork and a nerd. You said "yeah all she does is study, she doesn't know how to have fun"

The memory of that day slams into my head

Oh fuck

She heard me

That's why she texted me and said she couldn't come to the photo shoot

She was there

Then she left?

Fuck

"Remember now? You said you'd never have sex with me, that I was just your nerd best friend from childhood that you felt sorry for. You said I wouldn't know what to do with a guy if I ever got one"

I did say that

But it was to get them off my back

It was the fourth photo shoot in a row she was coming to and they were harassing me about having a crush on her

I didn't want anyone to know I was with her or know about my feelings for her

She was the one thing that was just mine, the one thing not tainted by the media, not tainted by the idol lifestyle and I wanted to keep her for myself

If I told them about her, then they'd want to hang out with her and it wouldn't just be me and her anymore

"You said I'm pathetic and that Jongho would regret being with me. Apparently I suck at sex"

That's not true

I said that so Jongho wouldn't go near her

She's mine

I didn't want him taking her away from me

"I heard you talk about Ara. How you liked her and wanted to ask her out. Wanted to fuck her"

Of course I don't want Ara

I want her but I'm terrified to tell her that

I never had these deep feelings for any girl I went out with

I never fell in love before

And I did with my best friend

I didn't know how to handle that and I still don't

But all this time, I missed her so much, wishing she was with me

Just laying next to me, in my arms

I haven't really been happy since she disappeared

"You lied every time we were together. The things you said.....how good it was, how I was the best you ever been with, how pretty I am, it's all lies", she shouts, tears rolling down her face, "And still, I left for you! So you didn't have to worry about being friends with a pathetic loser. So you could be with Ara and be happy!"

I shake my head

Ara would never make me happy

Ara isn't her

"And still you fucking text me asking me to hang out when I know you don't want to. That you're only doing it because you feel bad for me", she snaps, "And you have the fucking nerve to come here and tell me I lied to you?"

I don't say anything because I'm shocked and still taking everything she said in

"Get out", she snarls

"No", I shake my head

I can't leave

Not now

I have to explain everything to her

I hurt her and I didnt mean to

I have to fix this

"Leave Wooyoung"

"No Jo. Please listen to me"

"Why should I? You're just going to lie to my face"

"I'm not Jo. I'm going to tell you the truth", I tell her, "I lied to them. To the guys. They were making fun of me, about having a crush on you since that was the fourth photo shoot you were coming to in a row. I wanted them to stop so I said all those things to get them off my back"

She snorts through her tears, "Yeah ok. Sure"

I shake my head, "It's true. Of course I don't think your pathetic or your a nerd or a loser or you don't know how to have fun. I know you know what to do with a guy because you've done it with me. I said that Jongho would regret being with you because I didn't want him to go after you"

"Why not? You didn't want me. You wanted Ara"

"No I don't!", I exclaim, "I don't want Ara! I want you"

She stares at me for a few seconds in silence

Then, "You must think I was born fucking yesterday or something to believe that"

"I'm telling the truth! I only said those things to them because you're only mine! You're not theirs, not the media's, not ATINYS'. You're mine and if I told them about you then you wouldn't be mine anymore. They'd want to hang out with you, the media could get pictures of you, ATINY would find out about you and that would take you from me. I want you to only be mine"

"What are you talking about? Nothing you're saying makes sense. Why would you care about people finding out about me if you don't care about me?"

"I do care about you Joanne", I say frustratedly

"No you don't"

"I fucking love you", I shout, shock all over her face, "I'm in love with you ok? And I didn't know how to handle it. And at the time the guys were teasing me and the only way I could think of to get them off my back was to say that shit to them"

She just shakes her head and I'm desperate for her to believe me

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry I hurt you. I never wanted that.", I apologize, "I want you. I love you so much. I miss you so much it's driving me crazy. I'm only happy when I'm with you"

"I don't believe you", she says

"Then believe what you feel", I tell her

Taking her hand, I pull her to me, kissing her, pouring all my love into that kiss

She lets my tongue in her mouth, and I touch mine to hers, chills running down my spine

I drown in her kiss and I don't want to be saved

I kiss her for a few minutes, then we both pull away

I down at her, in her brown eyes, anxiously waiting for her to say something

Her hand moves to the back of my neck, pulling me back for another kiss

I willingly go, gluing my lips to hers, my tongue to hers

Her arms move around my neck, my move around her waist, pulling her against me

The kiss turns heated, both of us moaning softly

Bending down, I pick her up, her legs going around me as I walk to her bedroom

Once inside, I kick the door closed, getting her on her bed

She pulls me on top of her, her hands going under my shirt, fingers running along my back, heating every nerve

We quickly discard each other's clothes until we're both naked

I move in-between her legs, laying on top of her, kissing her again

I never want to stop kissing her

She moves her hips against me, rubbing against my hard on, getting me wet

Fuck, I just want to be with her

Moving my length to her, I push my head in first, then slowly sink into her, inch by inch

I moan in her mouth, feeling her tight pussy open just wide enough for me, hugging me tightly

"Wooyoung", she moans, her body arching into mine when I bury all in

"Oh fuck princess", I groan, feeling her throb hard on me already, drenching me in her creamy juice, "God you feel so fucking good. I missed you so much"

"I missed you Woo", she says softly

Pulling out, I thrust back in, over and over until I get a good pace going

And I'm in fucking heaven

"Fuck princess, you're so good for me. The best for me", I tell her, pressing kisses into her neck

"Woo", she moans and fuck me, I Iove hearing her say my name

"I meant everything I ever said to you baby", I assure her, "Every single word. You are the best, perfect. You're so fucking beautiful, I can't take it. I can't stop staring at you. I swear everything I said was true. You're my perfect everything. I love you"

She moans loudly, her fingers digging into my back as I bury inside her perfect cunt again and again

I go a little harder, going deeper, my head hitting her spot

"Wooyoung!", she cries, pleasure all over her face

"Fuck yes, say my name baby. Fuck I missed hearing my name in you're beautiful voice"

She clenches on my cock hard and after a few more hits to her spot, she screams my name, coming all over my cock

Intense pleasure hits me so hard as I gasp, feeling her orgasm

So fucking good

I missed this so much

"Again", I whisper, fucking her through it and continuing to pound into her

"God, baby", she moans, her hand sliding in the back of my hair, pulling hard

"Don't run from me again baby", I whimper, kissing along her collarbone, "Please baby. I...fuck...I was so fucking devastated when you told me you had a boyfriend. It was torture not seeing you, not hearing your voice, seeing your smile. Please princess, don't disappear again. I want you so bad. I love you"

"I...", she whispers in my ear, "I love you Wooyoung"

My heart explodes in pure joy, smiling against her soft skin

"I want you Woo. I want to be with you"

"You are baby", I assure her, "You're mine"

She nods, holding me tightly against her, "Please Woo, don't hurt me again"

"Never baby", I promise her, "I never will again. I swear. Never"

She nods, "Kiss me"

Lifting my head, I crashed my lips into hers, kissing her deeply

I move my arms on either side of her head, hovering over her, burying inside her at a fast pace, hitting her spot every time

I know everything she likes and I'm going to do it all for her

Make her cum over and over

Make everything up to her

Today and everyday after that

Moving one hand to her breast, I squeeze, moaning in her mouth as I feel how soft it is

How hard her nipple is against my hand

Pinching her nipple, I play with it, roll it around as I fuck her into the bed, feeling her soak me

She's so close, holding my cock in a vice grip

"Cum on my cock baby", I urge her

"Fuck Wooyoung!", she shouts, her body shaking under me, her cunt going crazy on my cock as my brain shuts off from the bliss

Good God, her orgasms never cease to give me so much pleasure

When she finishes, I pull out, laying down and burying my tongue in her pussy, tasting her sweet cum

"Fuck", we both moan, her from the pleasure my tongue is giving her, me from the pleasure of tasting her

"God I missed your cream baby. So fucking good", I praise her, licking around her slit, then moving up between her swollen lips

Taking one of her lips in my mouth, I suck on her, listening to her moans

When I let go, I slide my tongue on her engorged throbbing clit, her screaming getting louder

"Wooyoung! Fuck! Right there!"

Swirling my tongue around her bump in circles, I feel her drench my face and chin

Changing it up, I lick her clit, slowly, teasingly, making sure she feels my entire tongue

"Oh Woo", she whimpers, her hand snaking into my hair

I go at it, flicking her clit with my tongue, drawing circles on her, anything to give her pleasure

I know what she wants and I'm teasing her before I give it to her

My tongue travels slowly down her cunt, circling her hole right before plunging my tongue in

"Oh god!"

Her cunt immediately clenches on tongue, pulsing around it as if it was my cock

Licking up, I slide back in as far as I can

I fuck my tongue into her cunt, relishing in the taste of her, in the spasms around my tongue

God she's so fucking good

I don't stop, burying my tongue in her over and over

"Wooyoung!", she cries, clenching my tongue and covering it in her delicious sweet cream

Moaning loudly, I swallow all her cum, letting her ride her orgasm on my tongue while she cums in my mouth

When she finishes, I clean up her hole then immediately wrap my lips around her clit, sucking like my life depends on it

She screams, pulling my hair hard, making me moan

I live for her pulling my hair

It turns me on so fucking much

It should hurt but it doesn't, it just gets me going

I slide two fingers inside her, pulling them in and out of her wet warm pulsing cunt, making sure my fingers press right into her spot

"Woo baby, yes, fuck yes", she cries, "Right there baby"

"Fuck baby, I fucking love eating this pussy", I moan, licking and sucking her clit while I massage her spot, "Best pussy I ever tasted"

"Don't stop Woo. I'm gonna cum", she cries, "Wooyoung I'm gonna cum"

Her cunt tightens on my fingers as she screams my name, coming hard, her body arching so prettily

Pulling my fingers out, I lick around her slit, swallowing over and over

When I finish that, I suck her off my fingers, reveling in her taste

Taking her hands, I pull her up, while I lie down

"Ride me princess"

"You don't want me to suck your dick?", she ask innocently, biting her lip

Fuck me, I do want that, but I want to be inside her more

"I do but right now I want to watch you bouncing on my cock", I tell her, "My cock hurts so much princess and I need to be inside you"

"Mmm yeah?", she teases, slowly climbing on me

She moves my cock, laying it on my stomach, sitting on me

"My baby boy wants to be inside me?", she asks, sliding her wet cunt along my shaft, her hands on my shoulders

"Oh fuck", I moan

"Feels good?", she asks, moving faster along my length, leaving the underside of my cock a creamy wet fucking mess

I nod my head quickly, my fingers pressing into her hips

She moves one hand in my hair, pushing the sweaty strands off my face, "My Woo likes getting his cock massaged?"

"Yes", I whine

"With my pussy?"

"Fuck yes. Oh god fucking hell, yes I love it"

I can't take the pleasure, it's so good and I'm ready to fucking blow

"Please baby", I struggle to say, watching her swollen lips move along my dick, "I....I wanna cum inside. Please let me"

"Whatever my baby wants", she says, kissing me so softly

When she slides up to my head, she wiggles around, getting it inside her

Then she slips down my cock, her ass slapping against my thighs

"Good damn", she cries, "How does your cock always feel so good Woo?"

Literally I have no idea but I definitely can say the same for her

Her cunt wrapped tightly around me is fucking heaven

"Always fills me perfectly", she moans, her eyes closed, leaning on my abs as she circles her hips, rubbing her spot on my head, her perfect pussy throbbing hard around me, "Fuck seriously, no other cock has ever filled me perfectly"

"Princess is you think any other pussy wraps around me so perfectly, takes me so perfectly then your insane", I answer, "You fell the fucking best and I live for having my cock inside you"

She bounces once, smirking, "Is that all? You just like your cock inside me?"

"No baby", I groan, feeling her bounce again, taking my whole cock inside her, "I love you. Everything about you. I love spending time with you baby. Without sex. I want to do that more. After tonight"

She smiles genuinely, nodding, "Yeah Woo. I want that too"

"Good baby", I smile

She nods, leaning over, kissing me again and I return the kiss eagerly

"Lets get you coming inside me", she whispers in my ear when the kiss ends, "Fill me up so I'm full of your hot cum"

"Yes baby, please", I whine

Sitting up, she moves fast and hard on me, taking my cock deep inside her with each slam

"Oh fuck princess", I yell, stars exploding in my vision from the pure pleasure

She rides me so fucking hard, her body full of sweat, her face in so much pleasure

My beautiful princess

"Wooyoung, Wooyoung!", she cries, her cunt spasming rapidly

"Cum baby. You pussy wants to", I moan, helping her move up and down my length, "Cum and I'll fill you up princess"

"Yes Woo", she moans, falling apart on my cock

The ecstasy takes over and I scream her name as I cum the hardest I ever had in my life

"Stay on my cock! Stay on my cock princess", I yell, stopping her from bouncing and holding her down on me, "Please stay and cum on my cock"

She leans back, her nails digging into my thighs, both of us screaming each other's names as we both orgasm

Oh fuck, her cunt sucking on my cock is the best fucking thing ever, prolonging the pleasure

I don't want it to end

Of course it does and when it's over, I pull her right on top of me, cuddling her and kissing her all over her face

She giggles, wrapping her arms around my neck, holding me tightly

Rolling us over, I lean my head on one hand, looking down at her

She smiles at me and I softly touch her cheek, feeling all the love I have for her

"My baby. I love you so much"

"I love you Woo. More than anything"

And she'll never know how grateful I am that she still loves me

I'll show her every single day how much I love her

"Promise you won't disappear from me again? I don't think I could take it again", I whisper, "I missed you so fucking much you don't even know Jo"

"I do know Woo", she says, touching my cheek too, "I missed you the same. It was so hard not to see you. It hurt so much to think that you were....with Ara. I thought you....we're happy with her"

I shake my head, "I told you princess, I can't be happy with anyone who's not you. You make me happy. So fucking happy"

"You make me so happy Woo. You always did"

"I'm glad baby. I want to make you happy. I promise I'll make you happy"

She nods, "I know Woo. And I promise I'll make you happy"

"I know baby", I tell her, kissing her soft lips again

After, she cuddles into me as close as she can and I love every fucking second

"Tired baby?", I ask, hugging her tightly

She nods, "You wore me out Woo"

I laugh, "Yeah you did as well to me too princess"

"So sleep now?", she asks

"Sleep", I confirm and both of us settle in for the night

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"Noodle, this is Wooyoung", she says to the pitbull the next morning

I stand there and I have to admit, I'm scared

The dog is freaking huge for a four month old and the fucking jaws on this thing are massive

When we woke up, I got up to go to the bathroom but when I opened the door, the dog was sitting right there

I shrieked like a girl while she died laughing on the bed

She commanded the dog to stay in the living room and I ran to the bathroom the ran back to her room

Now we're in the living room and she's telling me that this massive dog is very friendly and playful unless she gives an attack command

Apparently she's still training him

Oh it's a boy

"Woo, this is Noodle"

I wave stupidly at the dog, who just sits there, eyeing me

"How uh did you pick that name?"

She shrugs, "I wanted something silly for a big dog. To take some fear away"

Well it's not working

I'm still scared

"Wanna pet him?"

"I...uh.....I...."

"C'mon baby. You're my boyfriend now and you're gonna have to see Noodle more often now"

She's right but shit I don't want the dog to bite my hand off

She kneels on the floor calling Noodle to her

Noodle immediately runs to her, jumping on her, licking her face while she laughs and pets him

"Good boy", she smiles, "Such a good boy"

"I thought I was your good boy", I say, then realize what I said, my face on fire

She just smirks up at me, reaching up and taking my hand, "You are baby. I want my good boy to meet my other good doggy boy"

Then she pulls on my hand, dragging me down next to her

"Stay", she says to Noodle

To me she says, "Sit with your legs crossed"

I do, my hand shaking a little in hers

"Don't be scared", she tells me soothingly, "Noodle won't hurt you baby. I promise. Just let him smell you ok? If he jumps on you don't get scared. He's still a puppy and that's how he plays"

This dog is still a puppy?

"Ok Woo?"

I nod and she gives me a kiss to my cheek

"Noodle come"

Noodle comes closer to me and when he gets right in front of me she says, "Sit" and he does

She holds out our hands to Noodle, my hand on top

Noodle comes closer, his wet nose on my hand, sniffing

Noodle then continues sniffing up my arm

When she moves away Noodle walks around me, sniffing, his nose in my hair and I try so hard to stay still

I hear her soothing voice talking to me to keep me calm

Noodle gets back in front of me, his nose against my cheek

Suddenly I feel my cheek get so wet

He licked me

Noodle comes in my lap, continuing to lick me, knocking me down

She's giggling while Noodle continues to give me kisses all over my face

This can't be good for my skin

"Noodle, off baby", she says and he immediately moves off me

"Oh baby", she laughs, helping me sit up, "He likes you"

"Great", I say, wiping my face

At least he won't attack me

"Pet him", she says, "Just hold out your hand and he'll come to you"

"I don't think I need more kisses"

"He won't baby. I'll stop him if he does"

Well ok

Holding my hand out, Noodle comes closer, putting his head under my hand, nuzzling into my hand

I just smile and run my hand over his head, his tongue hanging out as he pants

Yeah ok he's really cute when I'm not terrified of him

After awhile, I tell her I need to wash my face and she goes with Noodle to the kitchen to feed him

After I wash my face, I head to the kitchen, and I hear her talking

"He loves dogs Noodle. I know when he gets more comfortable he's gonna play with you all the time. I think he's just used to small dogs and you're a big boy. But he'll love you like I love you"

I just smile to myself at her ultimate adorableness while she talks to her dog

Walking in, she looks up at me from her place next to Noodle, who's eating

Getting to her, I hold my hands out

She puts hers in mine and I pull her up

"I already love Noodle baby. I'm not scared anymore. He's adorable"

"Really?"

I nod, "Really baby"

Moving into my arms, she hugs me tightly and I hug her back just as hard

"Princess, I have a performance tonight-"

"And you have to go", she finishes, "Practice and getting ready right?"

I nod

"Ok Woo. I'll let you out-"

"Actually, I want you to come with me"

She looks up me, her eyebrow raised, "You do?"

I nod, "I do. I want you with me from now on as much as you can be"

"But what about the media, ATINY and the guys?"

"Well I figure you can get to know the guys as they're kinda a bigger deal in my life. And I'll do everything to protect you from the media right now. And the media and ATINY don't have to know about us just yet. Is it ok if it's just me and you for awhile?"

She moves her arms around my neck, smiling, "I'd like for it to just be me and you baby. For as long as we can"

I'm relieved to hear her say that

I don't want to share her with everyone right now

Not yet

The guys I have to, but not with anyone else

"Yeah baby. I want that too", I agree

She leans up, pressing her lips against mine in a soft kiss and I'm happy

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"C'mon princess, don't be shy", I say, pulling her behind me, "You've met the guys before"

"Yeah but now I know some of them think I'm loser and a dork"

Right, I forgot about that

"Don't worry baby, I'll tell them off for that later"

"Don't Woo. Just forget it"

I stood walking and turn to face her, "No baby. I'm going to tell them why I said that shit. And once they get to know you, they'll see what they thought was complete untrue. I promise"

She blushes, "Ok baby. If you say so"

"I do", I smile at her, "So c'mon"

Putting my arm around her waist, I lead her into the dressing room

"It's about ti-", Hongjoong says, his voice trailing off, "Hey Jo. I didn't know you were coming. Haven't seen you in awhile"

"Hi Hongjoong", she answers nervously

"It's ok baby. Don't be nervous", I tell her, kissing her temple

"Did you just kiss her?", Seonghwa gapes

"Yeah", I answer, leading her to a couch

We sit down and I keep my arm around her, holding her hand with my free one

"So....what's going on?", San asks

"Oh, she's my girlfriend now", I answer nonchalantly

"Uh what?", Yunho squeaks

"Didn't you say-", Yeosang starts but I cut him off

"I lied. Everything I said was a lie. You were all on my back about her and I lied to get you off of it", I tell them, "The truth is I love her. I loved her then when I said all that stupid shit and I still love her. The only difference is that now we're together"

"And she loves you?", Mingi asks

"Yes", she answers, "Very much. I uh loved him for long time"

I smile, kissing her cheek, making her blush

I love making her blush, it's adorable

I notice that Jongho isn't saying anything

I know I have to talk to him about this

I didn't know he liked her before and he didn't know I loved her

I feel like I should explain to him and hope he understands

The guys all continue with the conversations they had before while her and I just sit together in comfortable silence, waiting for me to be called for makeup

"I love you", she whispers

"I love you", I whisper, holding her tightly and loving the cuddles she giving me

And I get so excited knowing that her cuddles are something I will always be able to have

Her cuddles and her love

Her

My perfect princess

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Pairing- Jongho x Named Reader

Word count- 4.8k

Includes- angst, heartbreak, crying, Jongho is a comfort bear, body kisses, oral, slow pussy eating, blow job, deepthroating, sex, multiple orgasms, Jongho's hands

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J POV

"I'm sorry Jo", Jongho says, hugging me and trying to comfort me

It's not working

"It'll be ok"

No it won't be

Nothing will be ok

Not after this

Jongho tightens his arms around me, his hand rubbing my back

"He's an idiot Jo. A big idiot but he does love you and he's so sorry"

I shake my head, "He doesn't love me. If he did he wouldn't have fucked that staff member. Don't defend him Jongho"

That image of him with the staff member in the empty dressing room is seared in my mine

The way she clung onto him, the way she sounded calling his name, I can never forget that

My heart shattered, my world over

I love him so much but obviously he doesn't love me

He threw away our three year relationship for one fuck

"I'm not defending him Jo. I'm just telling you what I see. He's crying, he's upset, he's so sorry and he wants you back"

I can't take him back

He hurt me so much

I can't forget, can't get it out of my mind

Wooyoung keeps calling me, leaving voicemails and texts messages

Crying on voicemails, begging me to talk to him

To take him back

I can't

Not now

My world ended last week when I caught him and it's too soon

I can't see him, I can't talk to him about any of this

Not yet, if ever

I was terrified to answer the door today when the bell rang

Until I saw it was Jongho

I got close to him through the time Wooyoung and I were together

We're the same age and similar in certain ways

He became a close friend

He said he's here to check on me but I know he's here for Wooyoung too

To tell him how I am

I don't resent him for it

I'm glad he's here

He's been helping me just by being here

I've been alone the last few days, crying my eyes out

The pain is just so intense sometimes and I want it to stop

He's helping to take my mind off it even if it's just miniscule

"I can't take him back Jongho. I can't"

He nods, "I know Jo. Not yet. Maybe once you feel better then you can talk to him and see"

I stare at him

When I feel better?

Is he being serious?

"Jongho this isn't a stupid fight and I'm going to feel better soon", I snap, "He cheated on me. Do you get that? And it's not like he just kisses someone. No he did the worst thing possible. He fucked someone. He got naked with her and put his...and I'm supposed to get over that like it's nothing? Like he didn't just rip my heart out? Like I didn't just lose the person I love and everything crumbled around me? And you expect me to talk to him? To feel better soon? Not happening"

He stares at me with wide eyes, looking a little afraid

"I...I'm sorry....I don't...I was just trying to help. I don't really know what to do here"

I take a breath, realizing that I just went off on him and he doesn't deserve that

He doesn't deserve me yelling at him when I should be yelling at Wooyoung

"I'm sorry Jonghie. I just...I don't know what to do. I can't sleep, I can't stop crying, I can't take the hurt and I took it out at you. I'm sorry."

He shakes his head, "Don't be sorry. I know he hurt you and I want to smack him for being so stupid. All of us chewed him out after you ran away."

They did?

Well I'm glad they care enough about me to tell him how badly he fucked up

"I didn't know that", I whisper

He looks at me in disbelief, "Of course Joanne. We aren't ok with what he did. We all love you Jo and it's fucked up that he hurt you like this. And we let him know that"

This makes me feel a little bit better knowing my friends have my back

"Jo maybe you should try to sleep. You said you haven't been and maybe you're just exhausted"

I agree

I am exhausted but I don't know about sleeping

I can't sleep for more than an hour, maybe two before I wake up and fall apart again

I'm not used to sleeping alone

I slept in Wooyoung's arms for three years, only apart when he went on tour

And even then I had a hard time

And it's also like twelve in the afternoon

I can't sleep with all this light

But he may want to leave, that's why he's saying that

So I just nod

He nods back, "Ok. I'll go so you can rest"

He starts to get up but I immediately stop him

I don't want to be alone again

I don't want to think of him and hurt and cry

I want to be comforted even though I don't know if I will be

"Stay with me", I ask

His eyes widen, "I don't know if that's a good idea"

I nod

I should of known he'd say no

Even though he's my friend he's been Wooyoung's friend longer than mine

And he really did just come to check on me, nothing more

"Ok", I whisper, "I'll let you out"

I start to stand up but suddenly I feel his hand on mine

He's already looking at me, not saying anything

He moves, laying down, pulling me against him

"I'll stay until you fall asleep"

"Ok", I whisper, feeling some relief, "Thanks"

He nods

I lay my head on his chest and he's stiff at first but then relaxes slowly, his arms move around me

And I feel comforted just a little

Closing my eyes, I decide to pretend to fall asleep quickly so he can leave

I'm not tired anyway

It's silent in my room and of course Wooyoung comes back in my head

Memories of us, happy together bombard me

The first time he spoke to me, the first date, the first kiss

The first time we were together

The first time he told me he loved me

His smile, his eyes

And I just break down again, the tears quickly falling

I try to cry quietly but trying to breathe in causes a sob to escape

Jongho's arms tighten around me

"I'm sorry", I whisper

"No it's ok", he answers softly, "You can cry. I'm here"

His kindness hits me hard and I just become an even sloppier crying mess

I feel his fingers move into my hair, running through it and it feels soothing

"It ok Jo. It'll be ok", he whispers

I cling onto his shirt, crying, wishing the pain would stop

----------------------------------------------------

I wake up to a heartbeat in my ear

Huh?

Where am I?

I lift my head a little to find Jongho asleep, his arms around me, holding me tightly

And suddenly I remember

He came to check on me, I didn't want him to leave and be alone

He stayed

He was supposed to only stay until I fell asleep but I guess he did too

And I actually slept

For awhile

The feel of his fingers in my hair must have lulled me to sleep

I actually felt comforted enough to sleep

I'm greatful to him for that

I was so exhausted and everything I felt was ten times worse

Now it just feels five times worse

I lay my head back down on his chest, just wanting to relax for a few minutes more before I fall apart again

I listen to his steady heartbeat, the scent of his skin filling my nose

He smells good

After a few minutes, I shift because my arm is falling asleep

He stirs, yawning, his eyes slowly opening

He looks around confused for a few seconds before he looks down at me

His eyes widen in realization that he fell asleep

With me

He immediately starts to move, but I put my arm around him, stopping him

I don't know what I'm doing, what I'm feeling but I don't want him to leave

He stops moving, his body tense, his eyes on me

As I look at him, I realize he's fucking beautiful

His round cheeks, his strong jaw, his gorgeous eyes, his black hair styled off his forehead

And his full kissable lips

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me or why I'm noticing all this about him now

He's not moving at all but I find that I am

My lips are right by his and he still hasn't moved

Without thinking anymore, I press mine to his

My god, his lips are so soft, so smooth and feel good

He finally moves, kissing me back

It's just an innocent kiss, no tongue, nothing wild or hard

And it feels nice

My hand moves under his button up, touching his warm smooth skin

Suddenly he pulls away, sitting up, making me sit up too

I don't want him to pull away, I want him and I find myself going closer to him to kiss him again but he stops me

"I don't know if we should-", he says softly

And I realize what I'm doing

And that he rejected me

And I shouldn't be doing this to begin with

Embarrassment washes over me

"It's ok", I whisper, "If you don't want to I won't force you"

"It's not that, it's just, I don't know if you're thinking clearly"

I'm so not but I do really want to be with him

And I decide to be honest with him

"I'm not Jongho. I don't know what I'm doing or how I'm going to handle everything with Wooyoung", I confess, "But right now, all I know is I want you"

I'm not dumb

I know this is a bad idea but I don't care right now

I know this will blow up in my face, I know I may be using him to forget, to get my mind off everything but right now I'm not thinking about that

I'm thinking about how it'll feel to really kiss him, to be in his arms, to feel him against me

He looks at me, not saying anything

He's really a quiet person, not giving away anything he's thinking

I look down, cursing myself for assuming he wants me like that

God why am I a fucking idiot?

There's nothing to ever indicate that's how me feels about me

I'm kicking myself, when he gently lifts my face to his

The next thing I know, he's kissing me and fuck he's good at it

His tongue slips in my mouth and I fall into his kiss, his tongue against mine, sending shivers down my back

I move my hands to his shirt, unbuttoning it as I kiss him

Pulling away, I look at his body for the first time

And proceed to choke on air

Holy shit

Putting my hands on his chest, I slowly move my hands down, touching his smooth skin, feeling his hard muscles

No one would know how built Jongho is from the clothes he wears for performances or hell even the clothes he wears normally

He always wears baggy clothes and the stylists always cover him up completely in long sleeves, suits, turtle necks, jackets while the other members have some sort of skin exposed

But never him

And it's a damn shame because his body is fucking amazing

I touch his abs, the defined six pack cut into his skin

God, I just got more wet

Moving my hands around his back, I move up, feeling the muscles there too

God, he's so hot

So beautiful

My eyes move to his face, his eyes closed, biting his lip

I move into his lap, pressing a kiss to his neck

I feel his skin shiver under my lips, making me smile

Slowly, I trail soft gentle kiss down his neck, my fingers trailing up and down his back

I kiss the cute beauty mark on his neck, hearing his quiet moan

Oh god, that sound is so hot

As I continue my kisses along his shoulder, I push his shirt down his arms and off

I glide my hands up his arms, feeling the huge muscles there, then kiss them

I don't know why I feel the need to kiss him all over but I do

After a minute, he softly moves me back, his big hands on my waist

Like I did, he slowly moves his hands up and under my shirt, moving it along my sides as he goes

His fingers leave every single nerve awake and on fire

I raise my arms as he pulls the shirt off, his eyes never leaving mine

Only once the shirt is off does he move his eyes down my body, his breath hitching

He moves his hands around me, undoing my bra and throwing it on the floor

I close my eyes when his hands touch my breasts, him squeezing softly, his palms against my nipples

His hands drop to my waist, pulling me against him, his mouth on mine

I kiss him hard, my arms flying around his neck, fingers in his black hair

He turns us around, laying me on my back as he hovers above me

He looks down at me with something in his eyes I can't read

His fingers slowly move through my hair, feeling so good

"You're so fucking beautiful", he whispers and my heart pounds hard, eyes widening on their own

He really thinks that about me?

Or is it just something he's saying in the moment?

Before I can answer, he kisses me again, his hands pulling down my pants and panties

I move my own hands, undoing his belt, opening his jeans, pulling them and his boxers as far as I can

He stands up pulling all my clothes off then taking off his

I look down, at his dick, my eyes flying open

I had no idea Jongho was packing that

His cock is big, long and unbelievably thick, hard as a rock and sticking out, leaking from his head

He's so fucking stunning, I can't believe it

I immediately sit up, moving to the edge of the bed and off, kneeling down

"Jo you don't-", he starts then moans when I lick his slit

I taste his cum and Jesus Christ, he tastes good

Running my tongue up from his base, he visibly shivers and so I do it again and again, enjoying the way his soft skin tastes

Finally I take him in my mouth, sucking as I keep my tongue on his underside

"Oh god", he moans, his hand moving in my hair

I take him all in, his thick cock pushing in my throat, my hands on his hips

I've done this a thousand times before

Deep throating doesn't hurt me anymore

His inhales sharply, as I bob my head back and forth, taking him in my throat over and over, sucking as I go

It actually feels good and from the quiet sounds he's making, it feels good for him

I'm glad, I like pleasing him

His cock is really good to suck on too

Moving halfway down his length, I suck on him fast and hard

His eyes don't leave me, watching me

"Fuck oh god", he whimpers, his hand tightening in my hair, "I'm...I'm gonna...im-", he stops as his body shudders

I taste his cum and greedily swallow, moaning myself

Fuck I love how his thick cum slides down my throat

As he keeps going, I move down his whole length, keeping him in my throat and swallowing everything

So good

When he finishes, he pants hard, letting go of my hair

I stand and sit on the edge of my bed, still swallowing

He gently pushes me back, kneeling down

He opens my legs, his tongue on me right away

He so slowly licks up and I can feel every inch of his tongue touching me in all the right places, pleasure coursing through me

"Fuck", I whimper

He moves away, his tongue back down and again licks slowly up

Again and again and again

My god, he's so good with his tongue

I've never been eaten out slowly

Sometimes it starts that way but always speeds up

Jongho keeps his slow pace, his hands squeezing my thighs softly, then gently moving to my hips

His tongue rolls along my clit, amazing pleasure running through me, making me shiver

His tongue slides along my clit over and over, feeling his whole tongue until he moves it so I just feel the tip

My god how does he know how to eat pussy?

One hand moves up my body, cupping around my torso by my ribs

His hand is so big, it wraps around my side perfectly

He keeps it there and I had no clue I like being held there

His other hand is around my hip, holding me down gently

I look down at him and I gasp at the sight of him in between my legs, his eyes closed, his tongue moving against me

Even while eating me out he's so fucking hot

How is that possible?

His mouth moves around my clit and I moan loudly at the sucking sensation

His tongue is against my clit, moving it as he sucks so fucking slowly and the pleasure is incredible

My hand slides in his hair on it's own, holding on

His sucking is bring me right there, my legs shaking around his head

He squeezes my hip softly just as he sucks again and I'm thrown into an orgasm

A fucking amazing orgasm

"Jongho, fuck fuck fuck!"

He doesn't stop until I finish, his tongue sliding down and licking up again

He groans a little louder, still keeping his tongue at his slow pace

"You taste so good"

My mind explodes hearing him

I heard Wooyoung say that to me so many times before but I never in my life ever expected Jongho to say this

Or for me to be the one to hear him say it

His tongue moves again, making me shiver

"No, keep your legs open for me. Please", he asks

I open them wider, having no idea that I was even closing them

He moves his tongue down, sliding inside me and I gasp from the fucking pleasure

Just how slow he's going makes it feel better somehow

More erotic

He pulls his tongue out, going back up and lavishing my clit before sliding down

His tongue pushes inside again, little by little, burying it in me and I can't help but clench on it

He moans but still pulls out again

"Jongho, please", I cry wanting to feel him so much

He doesn't change his speed, the pleasure agonizingly slow but intense

Every time his tongue goes inside, I throb harder around it, getting closer

I move my other hand down to his that's on my hip, gripping tightly

His hand loosens on my hip and I lace our fingers together, holding on to him

He pushes inside again and I snap, out of the world pleasure taking over my body as I cum around his tongue

He keeps it inside me, letting me ride out my orgasm on it

I squeeze his hand so hard, pulling his hair as I moan his name

When I come out of the fog, I feel kisses all along my thigh, my skin trembling against his lips

He stands up and I move back onto the bed, giving him room to get on it with me

He moves in between my legs, hovering over me, his eyes on mine

"Are you sure?", he asks

I nod

I am sure

He lowers himself and I wrap my arms around his body, pulling him against me

When his skins touches mine, I breathe in, loving how it feels, how smooth and soft he's is, how he feels against me

He looks down, lowering his head, his lips against mine

Fireworks flash in my vision from his kiss and I don't know what the fuck that means

If it even means anything

He aligns himself to me, then slowly starts to move in

I feel part of his head go in, then he starts to push lightly

But he doesn't move in more

He breaks the kiss, looking confused, continuing to push gently

"I...I don't fit", he says softly, upset all over his face as he looks away from me

Yes he does

He will

Touching his face, his eyes move back to mine

"Yes you will. Push harder"

"I don't want to hurt you"

I shake my head, "You won't. I promise. You just have to get in then it'll be ok"

He nods, his hips thrusting harder into me

And he slowly moves inside, his thick cock forcing me open around him

"Oh fuck", I moan, pleasure clouding my brain

He moves in a little at a time, pushing hard but not barrelling in

He's so hard and it feels so good, his moans so pretty

"More Jonghie. All of you"

"I don't...think...I can fit", he gasps, his eyes shut in pleasure

"You can. I can take you. I want all of you. Please"

He nods, "Ok"

It takes a minute or two before he's all the way in

And he's fucking big, fitting in but just barely

There's no extra room and his head is right against my spot, the rest of him touching all the right places

And my body goes crazy, shaking, pussy tightening on him even more than I thought possible

"Oh god. Shit. You're so tight. How are you so tight?", he whimpers softly

"It's not just me Jongho. You're really big. And you feel so good"

He opens his eyes, disbelief in his face

"I do?", he whispers

I nod, "Yes you do"

He still seems to be in disbelief about that although I don't know why

"You feel amazing", he answers, shyly, "Really wet. Tight and uh...warm"

His cheeks turn a cute shade of red and it's adorable

I pull him back to me, my lips against his

Wanting his kiss so badly

He gives it to me, his tongue moving against mine

He pulls his cock back then slowly moves back in

I moan, his head hitting my spot so fucking wonderfully, sending chills up my spine

He gets a slow pace going, pulling almost all the way out then moving back in

The drag of his cock feels amazing, touching all the right spots and I absolutely love the feeling of him opening me up again and again, feeling so full of him

I can't help but moan loudly as his kisses move to my neck, his hand moving around my breast

I run my fingers ever so slowly, softly up and down his back, feeling his muscle move with every thrust

How he feels this amazing, how he's making me feel this incredible, I don't know but he is

And I realize through all the pleasure that I'm going to cum

It's never happened this fast before

I don't have time to wonder why before his head rubs against my spot and I lose it

"Jongho. Oh my god Jongho", I cry, my fingers gripping his back hard, shaking under him as a wave of massive pleasure hits me

"Oh my fucking God", he gasps, "Oh god, so tight. Fuck, feels so good"

I'm vaguely aware he's getting pleasure from my orgasm but I can't think at all

When I finish, he lifts himself on one forearm, his other hand pinning my hip down

"You need to do that again", he chokes out, his breathing labored

His hips move rhythmically, bottoming out every time but he does not change his slow speed

And I can feel every inch of his cock, every throb he does inside me, every graze against my spot, every single move

I feel his hand on my hip, squeezing lighting, hear his hard breathing, feel his sweat against my skin, feel his gaze that is solely on me

I can feel how strong he is, holding me down with just one hand

And that turns me on

The guys always say Jongho is built like a tank and they are so right

They just don't know how fucking incredibly sexy he is

His hand moves to my clit, starting to rub but I stop him

I must be insane

He raises his eyebrow at me but I shake my head

"I want you to make me cum with just your cock"

He sucks in a breath, his gaze not moving from mine

"You did it once already. That's how I want it with you. You don't need to touch me, it already feels so fucking good"

Surprise enters his beautiful brown eyes but he nods, not saying anything, just continuing to move and giving me more pleasure

I feel my orgasm coming and I'm so fucking excited

I close my eyes just as it hits, riding the waves of pleasure as I call his name louder than before

I can't, it's so much

There's no words to describe how amazing it feels

"Yes shit. Fuck fuck fuck", he whispers to himself, burying inside and letting me cum all over his entire length

I open my eyes to see his face in so much pleasure and it shocks me at how much my orgasms give him

His head drops to my shoulder, his sweaty body against mine again

I move my arms around his back again, holding onto him

"One more", he whispers

I find that I still want to orgasm, so I whisper, "Yes"

He starts moving again, pleasure coming back

I had no idea that Jongho is a sex god

Really, he knows how to eat pussy and he knows how to fuck to give ultimate pleasure

Where the fuck did he learn that from?

I reach up, pushing his sweaty hair from his face and he gives me a small smile

For some overwhelming reason, I want him to kiss me

So I ask him too and he immediately presses his lips to mine

His arms move under my shoulders, holding me and pressing his body as much as he can against mine

I can't stop the throbbing on him especially when his head moves against my spot

"I...I don't think I can last another one of your orgasms. They feel too good"

That renders me entirely speechless

Like really, I don't know what to say

Wooyoung didn't even say that to me

"When you cum, I'm going to. Where-", he starts

"Inside", I answer automatically

His gaze snaps to mine, asking me if I'm sure with his eyes

And I am

I want to please him, making him feel as good as he's making me feel

And it'll take him out of pleasure if he pulls out

And to be honest, I want to feel him cum, I want to feel him fill me up

"No...condom", he gets out

"Birth control pill", I answer

I was already on it before I met Wooyoung to get my cycles on a monthly schedule

When I got with him it made sense to stay on it

He nods, his hips still moving

He goes in so deep and I'm thrown over the edge, ecstasy hurtling me into my last orgasm

"Jongho! Jongho!"

"Fuck, Joanne. Oh fuck", he cries

Fuck me he's so fucking stunning when he cums

I feel his cock throb and then the warmth of his cum as he shoots it inside me

I can't stop pulsing on him, milking his cock for all of his cum

I want all of it

I feel some of it leaking around us, all over my thighs

I love that feeling

He pulls out when he finishes, laying next to me, breathing hard

I turn to face him, cuddling into him

I'm completely shocked when he moves his arm, putting it around me and holding me close to him then kisses my forehead

"Do you have to leave?", I ask

"Not yet", he says softly

I nod

Nothing else is said, just us laying together in silence

After awhile, I feel my eyes getting heavy and I close them

Then I remember Jongho is here and I force them open

"It's ok. You can sleep", he whispers

"But-"

"I'll stay until you fall asleep"

I smile at that, remembering him saying that earlier

His hands move back in my hair, running through it gently

Just like last time it lulls me to sleep and I cuddle into him, strangely happy and so relaxed

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Smut Wednesdays!

Ponytail

Pairing- Wooyoung x Named Reader

Word count- 3.2k

Includes- Wooyoung in a ponytail, oral, mirror sex, sex, multiple orgasms, sweaty Wooyoung, yes I'm a slut for Wooyoung's ponytail

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J POV

"Princess where are you?", Wooyoung whines through texts

He's such a baby sometimes

But he's my baby

"Parking the car you big baby", I text back

"Hurry! We're getting a break after the next song and I want to spend it with you"

I smile hearing his text

He's so clingy but I wouldn't have it any other way

The amount of attention he gives me is astronomical and while sometimes it can be annoying, I really like it for the most part

"I'm getting out of the car now baby"

"Hurry!"

Giggling, I speed walk to the KQ building and enter it, heading for the practice room

I hear music for their Thanxx song through the door

Maybe I can catch the end of the choreography

But I open the door just as the music finishes

Damn

"Princess!", I hear him yell from across the room

My eyes find him

And my heart stops

Oh my god

He comes running over, engulfing me in a huge hug

"Hi baby. I missed you"

Now would be the time I'd tell him that he saw me this morning if I was able to speak

I'm not

He pulls back, his lips against mine

I barely kiss him back as I'm still in a state of shock

And horniness

"You ok Jo?", he asks frowning

"I...", I trail off

"What? What's wrong? Are you hurt? Did something happen"

"You...your...your hair", I choke out, squeezing my legs together

"My hair?", he says confused for a second before a look of realization hits him, "Oh you mean the ponytail?"

I nod

It's so fucking hot

I'm not one for guys putting ponytails in their hair but on him....on him it's amazing

Half his hair up, his bangs parted in the middle and framing his face

I can't

"Is it stupid? The stylists want me to have one for the Thanxx music video and I'm trying to get used to it"

"Nnn...not stupid", I answer

God I sound like an idiot

Like I did when he first spoke to me at one of the venues they were playing in where I was a staff member

Stuttering, one word answers, just being a complete idiot

"No? So it's ok?"

I nod

"So then what's wrong?"

"Nnnn...nothing"

He raises his eyebrow, his eyes moving down just as I press my legs together more

His eyes snap to mine, surprise in them

I'm fucked

"Are you....are you turned on?"

I feel my face on fire but I don't answer

"Baby", he says, coming closer to me, "Are you turned on by my hair like this?"

I nod slightly and a huge smirk breaks out on his face

"Oh yeah princess? You want me to fuck you?"

Oh god yes, please and thank you

"Want my cock inside you, making my pretty little pussy feel good?", he murmurs in my ear, his lips pressing a kiss to my neck

"Yyy..yes", I stammer

"I can do that for my princess", he says

His lips press against mine, pulling me close to him

I go willingly, letting his tongue in, against mine

Fuck, chills run up and down my back

His kisses always do that to me

He pulls me further into the room, until his back hits the mirror

Shit, is he ok?

"Are you ok?"

He nods, kissing my neck

I close my eyes, enjoying the feel of his lips on me

All too soon he pulls away and I open my eyes

"Woo", I whimper, watching him go down on his knees

"Shhh princess. I haven't eaten yet and I'm hungry. I wanna eat my favorite thing in the world ok?"

Shit, his favorite?

"Ok baby?"

I nod, "Ok"

His fingers pull on the button of my shorts, undoing it, then pulling the zipper down

"Here Woo?", I ask, realizing we're still in the practice room

"Yeah baby. Right here"

"But anyone can walk in", I protest

"Doesn't matter princess. I want you right now. They all left anyway to get food. We'll be done when they come back"

My shorts are pulled down, him helping me step out of them

"Relax baby. I'm gonna make you feel so good ok?"

I nod, knowing he will

He always does

Peeling my panties off, he opens my legs

"So pretty", he murmurs

I blush hard

He's always saying I'm pretty down there

I like it but it also makes me blush at the same time

He holds onto my thighs, his tongue licking up my pussy so slowly

"Woo", I moan, pleasure running through me

"Tastes so good princess", he moans, slowly licking again

Fuck

He's such a turn on

His tongue keeps moving slowly, laying flat so I can feel all of it

It's fucking bliss

My eyes look forward, making me whimper at what I see in the mirror

Wooyoung on his knees in front of me, eating me out

Christ, I can watch everything

Well I can't see him actually licking me because his back is in the mirror but knowing what he's doing is making me hornier

"Like watching in the mirror baby?"

My eyes snap down to him and he's smirking before he licks again

I nod

"Good princess. You can watch. I'm just gonna eat ok?"

I nod, "Ok Woo"

His tongue moves a little faster, up and down and fuck it feels so good

"Cum baby. I want it", he asks

"Fuck Woo!", I cry, coming in so much pleasure, his tongue licking faster

"Mmmm", he moans, tongue all over, "My fucking favorite"

He's fucking amazing

His tongue slides against my clit, making me shake

I feel like I'm going to fall from how good it feels

He hikes my leg up over his shoulder, exposing more of me

His mouth goes around my clit, sucking hard

"WOOYOUNG!"

He doesn't answer, just keeps going

Looking back in the mirror, I notice that I have a clear view of him eating me out

When he put my leg over his shoulder, he opened me up wide

I watch his mouth move and just knowing that he's sucking on my clit, turns me on so much

He pulls back, his tongue running along it

I moan so loudly at how good it feels

He smirks, then kisses my clit, licking right before he sucks again

"Woo"

"Yeah baby girl. Am I making you feel good baby?"

I nod, "Yes Woo"

"Good baby girl. Want you to cum for me"

"Mmm"

"Don't you want to baby? Don't you want to feel so good?"

I do

Of fuck, I do

He always makes me feel good

His sucking gets faster making my brain explode

"Wooyoung", I moan, pleasure taking over my body

I watch Wooyoung through the mirror, his tongue licking by my entrance, swallowing and moaning, squeezing my thighs hard

My god he's so fucking hot

And he's mine

He puts my leg down, then tugs my hands pulling me to the floor

"I fucking need you naked right now", he murmurs, quickly discarding my shirt and bra

My hands move just as fast pulling his shirt off and pants and boxers down

"You don't want-", I start, trying to offer him a blow job

He grabs me and lays me down on the cool floor

Shivers run up my back from the cold

"I need to be inside my princess right now", he answers, opening my legs wide

Hovering over me, he crashes his lips against mine in a rough kiss, thrusting inside in one stroke

"Mmmmm!", I yell against his lips, feeling his hard cock inside

God it feels so good

He immediately starts moving, getting a hard and rough pace going, immediately hitting my spot over and over

He knows just where it is and always gives it to me good from the beginning

"So fucking tight princess, no matter how many times I fuck you open"

"Mmmm hmmm", I moan, feeling his cock touch every single place I need him to

"Oh baby, you like it so much you can't even talk?"

I nod rapidly

Fuck yes I do

He knows I do

He moves on his knees, slamming into me at an impossible pace but he keeps it up

I look at him as he moves, wondering how he's even real

His face is in full concentration, his hands gripping my thighs and holding them open so hard the veins in his arms popping

His beautiful body is glistening in sweat, his abs covered and shining in it

And his fucking hair, wet and in that fucking ponytail

He's pounding my spot so hard, I'm almost there

"So close baby. Almost", he whispers

I glance in the mirror getting a full view of him fucking me mercilessly and it turns me on so much

"Wooyoung fuck", I moan, pleasure running through my veins as I cum all over his cock

"Yes fuck, there we go. God you feel so good. Throbbing so well. Keep going baby"

My god it feels amazing

When I finish, he pulls out and turns me on my hands and knees, making me face the mirror

---------------------------------------------------

Wooyoung POV

"Open", I demand, watching her legs spread for me

Goddamn it my girlfriend is so fucking hot

I completely lucked out with her

Pushing back inside slowly, I feel her cunt suck me back in

She always wants me inside her and honestly I don't want to be anywhere else

"Yes baby, god so good"

I know I sound like a broken record but I can't think when I'm with her

It just feels too pleasurable

Gripping her hips, I pull almost all the way out, then smash back in, hitting her spot right away

"Wooyoung", she groans

Hear my name fuels me to go faster and I begin to fuck her mercilessly, pleasure soaring in my body

I love hearing her say my name, scream my name

It just turns me on so much

Her cunt squeezes and holds on to me, making it so tight to push through

My eyes move to the mirror to find her watching me

I smirk at her, "Like what you see baby?"

She nods immediately, "Yes Woo. Fuck you're so hot"

It feels so good to hear her say that

I know a lot of ATINYS say that but it means nothing unless it's coming from her

"Yeah? Well my princess is beautiful", I smile at her

She blushes, smiling back

God her smile is one of the most gorgeous things I've ever seen

And it's all for me

"How about we get you coming baby? Hmm? Make a mess on my cock?"

She nods again, "Yes, Woo. Please"

I can do that

Thrusting into her spot once, twice and her body shakes, her pussy throbbing on me so hard as she orgasms

"Wooyoung fuck", she cries

"Good girl"

When she finishes, I get out, stand up and pull her up to her feet

Holding her against me, her back to my chest, I lift up one of her legs so I can go in deeper

Thrusting up in to her tiny hole, I smash her spot hard, making her tremble

"My baby is so good for me", I praise her, pounding into her

I watch her eyes glued to the mirror where I'm fucking her

I smirk, I knew she'd like this

"Like watching yourself getting fucked?"

She nods

Kissing a line from her shoulder to her neck, I whisper in her ear, "Now you know why I like watching my cock disappear inside you"

"Fuck Woo"

It really is the best thing ever

I get mesmerized just watching her take my cock over and over

It's something that'll never get old and I can watch for hours

"Mmm princess look. Look how your tiny pussy takes my whole cock inside. Swallowing me over and over"

"Yeah baby", she whimpers

Moving my hands, I spread her open, getting a clear view of her hole wrapped around me

"So fucking pretty, all stuffed with cock", I murmur, moving faster, "My cock"

Her hands reach behind her, clinging onto my torso, her hands squeezing my skin hard

"Feels good?"

"Yyy..yes"

"Good then how about you cum for me?"

"Yeah"

"Yeah? Watch your hole cum around me?"

"Yes Woo", she cries

"That's my girl", I whisper in her ear

Pressing kisses to her neck, I pump my cock in her perfect tight, wet hole

"Make a mess baby. I want to see it"

She throbs hard, moaning loudly, her eyes on my cock in the mirror, keeping her pretty pussy lips open so she can see her cunt cum on me

"Wooyoung", she calls, her body going rigid against me, slightly shaking, pussy spasming in a huge orgasm

"Yes princess", I praise her, "Fuck baby look at how much you're creaming my cock"

Glancing up, I see her watching, pleasure on her face

"Fuck my creamy pussy is so pretty. Are you watching baby? Do you see how much you love my cock? Do you see your pretty hole throbbing on me?"

"Yes Woo. I see baby"

"Doesn't my cock look good in your cream baby?", I egg her on

She nods, "Yes Woo. You're cock looks so pretty"

It does

It really does

"Want another one?", I ask, tilting her head against my shoulder

"Yes Woo. Please"

"Anything for my baby", I tell her then kiss her smooth perfect lips

I move my hand to her breast, squeezing and playing with her nipple, my other hand holding her leg higher

Moving faster, I slam into her so deeply, her screams music to my ears

I don't know how I'm moving this fast but all I know is that I want her orgasm

Now

Sliding my hand down her sweaty body, I rub circles on her clit, immediately feeling her tighten on me

"Yes baby. Fuck so good. Cum around my cock princess. I fucking need it"

As soon as I finish talking, she yells my name, releasing all over me

And it feels out of this world

"I'm gonna cum princess", I gasp, right there

"Yes Woo, gimme your cum baby"

"Fuck", I moan, leaning my head against hers as I let go, shooting cum inside her

"Oh god, so good baby", she moans, "Fuck, your cock is throbbing so hard, feels so good"

"Shit princess", I groan

God the things she says to me turn me on so much

Even when I'm coming it turns me on

"You're so fucking hot when you cum Woo"

I open my eyes, seeing her watching me, biting her lip

I finish, staying inside her for a minute

"Not as hot as you are baby", I whisper to her

I mean that

She's always raving about how hot I am, how sexy and while it feels good to hear, she is way more hotter than I am

And I tell her all the time how hot, sexy and fucking gorgeous she is

I'm so in love with her it's honestly kind of ridiculous

I want to be with her 25/8, I text her all the time, call her when I can't be with her, get upset when I can't be with her

Like I said, ridiculously in love

I slowly pull out of her, my cum leaking down her leg

"Fuck baby, look", I say, touching my cum on her leg, spreading it on her, "Your cunt is dripping my cum all over your leg"

Her eyes immediately move to the mirror watching

I still have her other leg up, sort of tilting her to the side so the cum leaks out

"Christ Woo. That's so hot", she whimpers

"Yeah baby. You like the mirror? Like watching yourself getting fucked and eaten out?"

She nods, "Yeah baby. I liked it a lot. And you did too"

"Oh for sure princess.", I tell her putting her leg down, turning her to face me

I pull her closer, kissing her

I can't stop kissing her

I want her kisses all the time

Anytime I can get them, I will

I'll do anything for her kisses

"How about I buy a stand up mirror for your room?", I smirk

She smirks back, "I'd say that's a great idea baby"

"Good"

I kiss her again, our tongues against each other's

After the kiss ends a few minutes later, I tell her we should get dressed before the guys come back

We spend the next few minutes walking around the practice room picking out clothes up and getting them on

I look at myself in the mirror and grimace at my hair

It's so sweaty and sticking up everywhere

Pulling out the hair tie, I gather my hair up into a ponytail again, running my fingers in it and smoothing it out

"Oh my fucking God", I hear her gasp

I look at her in the mirror, seeing her watching me like I'm the hottest thing on the planet

I just chuckle, smiling at her

I love that she looks at me like that

I think she's the hottest person I've ever seen in my life

Tying my hair, I pull her to me by her shorts loops

"I think you really like my hair like this princess"

"I so fucking do", she agrees, moving her arms around my neck

"Well baby, if you want, I can wear it this way more often for you"

"Really Woo?"

I nod

I'll do anything for her

"I don't want you to do it if you don't like your hair like this. You don't have to do it for me", she explains

"Shh princess", I tell her, pressing my lips to hers, "I do like my hair like this. I don't mind putting my hair in a ponytail. Especially if it gets you so fucking wet and makes you want to fuck me all the time"

She raises her eyebrow, "Wooyoung I always want to fuck you all the time"

Well, she's right about that

"True baby but today...fuck your cunt was making such a mess and I really liked it. I figure my hair in a ponytail and a mirror..."

She smirks, "Ok baby. Whatever you want. And yeah I'd like if you wore your hair like this from time to time"

"No problem baby"

Pressing my lips to hers, I kiss her softly

"Oh god really?", Hongjoong whines as soon as the door opens, "Cut it out"

Pulling away from her, I roll my eyes

"Don't be jealous"

Hongjoong glares at me, "I'm really not. I just don't want to see you guys sucking face all the time"

"Oh god", she whispers, pressing her face in my chest

He fucking embarrassed her and I pisses me off

"Fuck off Hongjoong"

He just rolls his eyes and moves to the other side of the practice room

"It's ok princess", I tell her, lifting her face up to me

I give her a quick kiss, then hold her, keeping her against me

"So did you guys eat?", San asks, changing the subject

I look at her, smirking, "Yeah we ate"

"Oh god, I don't want to know", Mingi says walking away

"Woo you bad boy", she scolds

"What? They asked"

She just laughs, then pulls me in for another kiss

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Best Friend/3

Pairing- Hobi x Named Reader

Word count- 3.3k

Includes- sex, love making, kisses, fluff

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Part 1. Part 2.

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2 months later

"Hey Hobi. Can I talk to you for a minute?", Namjoon calls

I'm on my way to the kitchen to get the snacks I bought for Joanne

She's coming over soon and she's staying the night so she can come with us to the interview and performance we have tomorrow afternoon

I got all her favorite snacks and told that guys that if they eat them, I will have them go get more then murder them

"Yeah", I answer, going into the dining room

He looks up from his computer as I sit across from him

"What's up?"

"Uh this maybe awkward for you but uh I wanted to know if you have feelings for Joanne"

I raise my eyebrow

Why is he asking that?

Why does he care?

"Why?"

He blushes, then says, "Because I really like her and I wanted to ask her out."

No

Absolutely not

He can't

He can't take her from me

"I wanted to talk to you first. I know you guys have your thing where you sleep together and I wanted to know if it's because you have feelings for her or it's just sex"

It used to be just sex

For about a week

Then I started to have feelings for her

No wrong

I started to realize the feelings that were already there and accepted them

Accept that I'm in love with her

So much

She's all I think about every fucking waking moment of the day

I just want her

I want to call her my girlfriend, I want to take her on dates, I want to be able to finally kiss her, hold her hand whenever I want.

Be around her whenever I want

But I'm so terrified to say something to her

I promised her that us having sex wouldn't change our friendship

And I'd be backing out of that promise if I tell her how I feel

But I can't see her with Namjoon

Not with anyone but especially not with one of my group members

It'll kill me

But I won't admit it to him either

"No, we're just friends"

"Oh ok. Do you think she'd go out with me? I'm scared to tell her"

"I uh, I don't know. She likes you as a friend, I know that. She'd be open to giving you a chance"

It's tearing me up telling him this

I want to forbid him from going after her but she's not mine

"Ok. Cool", he nods, "Is it ok with you if I ask her out?"

I want to say no, tell him to stay away from her

But instead I tell him, "Yeah, it's ok with me"

It's so not

But I don't know what to say to him

"Ok thanks Hobi"

"Sure", I get out

I stand up and go to the kitchen

What do I do now?

----------------------------------------------------

"You ok Hobi?", she asks

I know I'm being quiet around her but I'm still wondering what I should do about Namjoon

I don't want her to be with him

I want her to be with me

I love her more than I've loved anything

I can't lose her

She came over, happy to spend time with me and I'm fucking it up by being quiet and distant

"Uh it's just...Namjoon talked to me today"

"About what?", she asks, tilting her head

I love that fucking habit of hers

It's adorable

"About you"

She looks surprised, "Me? What about me?"

This is so fucking hard

"He uh likes you and wants to ask you out"

Silence

I look over at her

She's looking at me with her eyebrows up

"He likes me?"

I nod, "Yeah"

"Oh"

That's it?

Oh?

Does she like him back?

Is she excited?

What is she feeling?

And why isn't she telling me?

She normally would of said something to me already, positive or negative

"Are you interested?", I ask

"Uh well I mean, I never thought of him like that. I never thought of any of you guys like that"

That hurts

Because I'm part of the "guys" she's talking about

She's never thought of me like that

She doesn't have feelings for me

And it's upsetting because she's everything to me

"Uh are you going to say yes to him?"

I need to know

"I uh...I....do you want me too?"

Of course I don't fucking want her too

I want her to want me

"You can do whatever you want"

"I know Hoseok. But do you want me to?"

I don't know why she's asking me and I don't know what to say

I'm just frustrated, upset and hurt

"Do whatever the fuck you want Joanne. I don't fucking care who you date or fuck", I snap

She doesn't say anything and when I lift my gaze to her, I feel like such an asshole

She's looking at me with wide eyes and hurt on her face

I didn't mean to hurt her

It just came out

"Uh ok. I guess I should go talk to Namjoon", she says softly, looking away from me

Now?

We're supposed to hang out together

I don't want her to go

She stands up and starts walking to the door

What do I do?

What the fuck do I do?

I can't let her walk away from me

She starts turning the doorknob and I immediately shoot up from my bed, getting to her quickly

She cracks open the door and I slam my hand on it, closing it

I turn her to me, crashing my lips to hers

I put everything, all my feelings, everything I want to say to her behind that kiss

And I'm completely shocked when she kisses me exactly the same way

Her arms are around my neck, holding me tightly to her

I slip my tongue in her mouth and she kisses me back harder, her tongue against mine

It's our first kiss and it's perfect

When we pull away, I just start talking

"I love you Jo. I'm so in love with you. I don't know when it happened but it did. I'm sorry. I know I said things wouldn't change but I can't help loving you"

She's looking at me with her gorgeous brown eyes and I just fall into them

"I think about you all the time. I want to just be near you all the time. I want to love you, show you how much I love you every single day. When Namjoon told me he has feelings for you I almost died. I can't let you walk away without telling you how I feel about you. You make me so happy and I just want you", I confess

I'm so scared of what she's going to say but I couldn't let her go to Namjoon without knowing that she's my everything

"I love you Hobi"

"You...you do?"

I'm so fucking shocked

She really didn't give me the slightest hint that she did

She nods, "Yeah Hobi. That's why I asked you if you wanted me to give Namjoon a chance. If you said no, then I wouldn't have."

I'm so stupid

I was just consumed with hurt that she didn't feel anything for me that I didn't notice how weird her question was

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. It would probably kill me if you dated him"

"Then it's lucky for you I'm in love with you and you're the one I want"

"Do you mean that?", I question, still unsure everything is actually going my way

"Yeah Hobi. I mean it. You're my best friend. You know everything about me. I know you. I can't think of anything better than falling in love with my best friend"

I nod, "Yeah Jo, I agree"

"So now that we're together can you just kiss me?"

I smile at her

I can so do that

She meets me, her lips on mine in a soft kiss

My god her kiss is fucking perfect

It feels right, like she was meant to be mine

Everything with her feels right

Her arms slowly slide up my chest and wrap around my neck

My arms encircle her, pulling her right against me

Her tongue feels so good against mine and I just want her

All of her

I bend down, picking her up, my lips never leaving hers

Putting her on my bed, I lay on top of her, mindful not to crush her

Her hands slide in my hair, playing with it while she kisses me

I move my hand down her body slowly, really touching her, feeling her

We always go hard and fast, touching each other but never while kissing

And I want to take my time

Kiss her, touch her everywhere, feel her

Her hands move my shirt up and I pull away from her lips only long enough to get the shirt over my head and hers off too

Then I'm right back to kissing her, my hands slowly touching her soft smooth skin

Reach around her, I undo her bra and pull it off, throwing it on the floor

She moves me on top of her, her skin against mine, her hands touching all over my back, her fingers leaving trails of fire everywhere she touches

I had no clue touching can feel so good

"I love your hands on me Hobi. You feel so good"

I smile at her, "I love when you touch me too Jo. It's the best. You're the best"

"So are you", she answers

I press my lips to hers, so happy she thinks I'm the best

And I will be the best for her

I will make sure I'm the best boyfriend she's ever had

"I need you Hobi", she whispers

I need her too

She has no idea

I get her pants and panties off while she gets mine off

Opening her legs, I lay between them so excited to be with her this way

To make love to her

That's what I want to do

We did the wild sex already, now I want to love her

My lips attached to hers, kissing her deeply, our arms around each other

I'm right there and I start to move inside her

She moans, kissing me more urgently as I slide all inside

"Oh god, oh god, Hobi", she moans

"My aegi, baby", I whimper, moving my lips to her neck, kissing her all over

I move my hips slowly, moving inside her, listening to her moans getting louder and louder

"Good baby? Like it?"

She nods her head rapidly, "Yes. Do you like it?"

"Love it Jo", I answer

Kissing down her chest, I hold up her breast as my mouth wraps around her nipple and sucks gently

"Yes Hobi"

She floods my cock in her juice, her throbbing getting harder

She's almost there

The next thrust moves my head into her spot and she moans my name, grabbing onto my arm hard as she orgasms

"Yes baby. Fuck you're so beautiful", I tell her while I watch her

Her beautiful face has so much pleasure on it

Pleasure I put there

She's feeling so good because of me

And I want to give her more

I keep moving, in and out during her orgasm and after she finishes

"Want more?", I ask, kissing her shoulder

"Yes Hobi. More of you"

"Anything you want baby"

I thrust just a little bit harder, her hips moving to meet mine

I slide in deeper, against her spot and fuck the pleasure gets more intense

"Jo, baby", I moan

Reaching down, I take her hand and lace hers finger with mine, kissing the back of her hand

"Kiss me Hobi", she asks and there's nothing that I'd rather do more

My lips touch hers gently, her free hand going around my neck and sliding in the back of my hair

Moving together, I feel her getting close again and this time I am too

"Hobi", she whispers, looking up at me with her gorgeous eyes and I fall into them

I move into her again and she squeezes my hand so tightly, whimpering my name as she cums

"Hoseok"

The sight of her coming and the feeling push me over the edge

"Joanne", I moan, burying my face in her neck as I cum and shake against her

Her arm goes around me, holding me tightly as we feel each other

"Hoseok baby. You feel so good"

"Aegi. So good baby."

After, I stay inside her, laying down on her chest

"Can I stay?", I ask, hoping she says yes

Her fingers run in my hair and she kisses my forehead

"Yeah sunshine. Of course. I love you"

My heart bursts into pure joy hearing that cute nickname

I hug her tightly, "I love you Jo. So much."

"So much Hobi"

She continues to play with my hair, making me sleepy

"Aegi"

"Shh sunshine. You can sleep. I'm gonna hold you all night ok?"

That sounds like fucking heaven

"Ok aegi. I love you"

"I love you Hobi"

I can't help but smile, so happy hearing her say she loves me

I can never stop hearing that

Closing my eyes, I fall asleep listening to her heartbeat

----------------------------------------------------

My alarm goes off, waking me up

"Ugh Hobi turn it off", she whines

"Sorry aegiya"

I reach for my phone and shut it off, then lay back on her

"You have to get up now?"

"Yeah aegi. In a few minutes"

"Wah what time is it?"

I glance at my phone

"One"

Her eyes open, "So late already?"

I nod, "I know you like to sleep aegi, so I set my alarm for later"

"My god you are the best boyfriend already"

I laugh, "Yeah well I know my baby so well"

She giggles, "And I know mine so well"

I nod, "You do"

She smiles at me, playing with my hair, just looking at me

I wonder what she's thinking

"Are you ok?"

She nods, "I just can't believe you love me. I can't believe you want me."

I frown

Why would that be unbelievable?

"Of course I want you. I only want you. You are perfect for me baby."

"You're perfect for me too. I'm just surprised that J-Hope from BTS wants his best friend instead of a gorgeous idol"

I never wanted that

Ever

I never wanted an idol

I always wanted a regular person and I'm so glad it's her

"You are gorgeous aegi. And I never wanted an idol. I'd never see her with how busy our groups would be. And I haven't seen an idol that I wanted to even take on a date with. But you, you're everything I want and so much more. If anything you shouldn't want me"

She raises her eyebrow, "What?"

"I'm an idol. I'm always busy, I have to practice all the time, go on tours, events, performances and more. Most ARMYS are girls and some say things like they want to marry me or other sexual things. It will be hard sometimes."

She shakes her head, "I don't care sunshine. I know everything you have to do. I've seen it since the beginning. I've been here. And I don't care. As long as you love me, I'm ok. We can get through the hard times ok? I love you"

I'm so aware how lucky I am that I got her

That Namjoon didn't get her

Because last night I was so close to losing her

"I'm always going to love you Jo. Always. I promise I'll make time for you, I promise I'll be there for you for anything. I love you and you're my everything"

She smiles again, love in her eyes

For me

"I know Hobi. You're my everything too sunshine"

Pressing my lips to hers, I kiss her passionately, her arms around me

God I love feeling her arms around me

When the kiss ends, I ask her, "Are you hungry aegi? Do you want go out with me to eat?"

"Out? Like outside?"

I laugh, "Yeah baby. Out"

"But-"

I know what she's worried about and it's a non-issue for me

"Don't worry aegi. It's ok. I promise"

"Oh uh alright", she answers not sounding totally convinced

But I am

I'm not hiding her

She's too good for me to hide

I want to show the world the beautiful amazing girl that I have

I want everyone to know I love her

I kiss her again, then we take turns using the bathroom and get dressed

I take her hand and lead her out of my room

We pass by the kitchen and I spot Namjoon

I should talk to him, let him know me and her are together

"Hold on aegi", I say

I walk into the kitchen to him

"Namjoon"

He looks up, "Oh hey Hobi. What's up"

I don't know how to say this

I feel a hand in mine, Joanne coming next to me and smiling, squeezing my hand

"Holding hands?", Namjoon asks, his eyebrow raised

"Yeah uh Joanne and I are together", I say softly, "So uh you can't be with her"

"Yeah I know. I don't like her like that", Namjoon answers

What the fuck is he talking about?

He just spoke to me yesterday

"But you said-"

"I know what I said", he says interrupting me, "But I didn't mean it"

He didn't mean it?

Then what the fuck?

"What?"

"All of us notice that you two love each other. All the love sick looks you give each other when the other isn't looking. The way you both look like you're each other's worlds. They way you two gravitate towards each other. And not for nothing, you're both so fucking loud when you're fucking and it sounds like two people who love each other, not just casually fucking"

"Oh God", she squeaks, hiding her face in my arm

"We got tired of waiting for you two to get together. We decided that one of us would talk to you, telling you we like her and want to be with her to get your ass moving and tell her how you feel"

I stare at him in shock

He played me

And he did it so well

So convincingly

"How did you know I'd tell her? What if we both didn't have feelings like that for each other?"

"Oh please", he snorts, "It was a sure thing. We all know you two love each other. The fucking staff knows too."

"The staff?", she gasps

"It's ok aegi", I tell her, putting my arms around her

Not gonna lie, I'm surprised about the staff comment

But whatever

"And I knew you'd tell her. The look on your face when I said I liked her said enough. The way you were talking to me, like you were dying, gave it away"

"You really felt that way?", she asks, "I thought you were exaggerating"

"Yeah aegi. I love you and when he told me he likes you, I fell apart"

"I'm sorry sunshine. But you have me now, so it worked out"

I nod, "True"

I turn back to Namjoon, "Uh thanks I guess?"

He nods, "Sure."

"Ok well uh, we're going out", I say

"Already? In public?", Namjoon asks

Of course

Going out means public

"Fuck yeah. I'm not hiding her. I love her and I want people to know she's mine"

"Hobi, we don't have to. I don't want to cause trouble for you"

"You won't baby. I promise. We're going"

She smiles and nods

"Ok so go. All this baby, sunshine and aegi shit is making me nauseous"

She sticks her tongue out at him, making me laugh

"Be back before we have to leave for the interview", he calls

"Ok dad! We will", she sings

Laughing, I take her hand and lead her to the door

"Ready aegi?"

She nods, "Ready sunshine"

Opening the door, we walk outside and I'm so happy I finally got the girl of my dreams

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Chain and Sweat

Pairing- Namjoon x Named Reader

Includes- sex, riding, missionary oral, pussy eating, cum eating, multiple orgasms, light bdsm, SWEATY NAMJOON!!!!, COLLAR AND NECK CHAIN NAMJOON!!!!

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J POV

Namjoon smiles at the camera and poses, moving his hand, winking, making little movements every few clicks of the camera

I take him in and god my boyfriend is so fucking hot. I just want to take him and fuck his brains out all the time. But he's been very busy and he's exhausted every night. Like today, he has this photo shoot, then a performance after

So I take care of him, make sure he eats, give him massages and put him to bed. Then when I'm ready to sleep, I cuddle him. He loves cuddles. He's a huge baby but he thinks he's tiny with the way he holds on to me and lays on top of me. Sometimes he crushes me and I have to wake him up to get him in a more comfortable position. I love him more than anything and I'll always take care of my sexy dork

His hair is dark brown now, styled off his forehead. God I love forehead hairstyles on him. White button up, black pants, black suit jacket with safety pins on it, black choker around his pretty neck

But the thing that is making me all hot and bothered is the fucking chain around his neck

Silver and chunky, fastened by a toggle that goes in a hole. And a long chain hanging down to his chest. Good for pulling. I just imagining riding him and pulling that fucking chain, hearing his low moans and growls. Fuck me I'm horny

"Babe?" I snap out of my horny thoughts and focus on Namjoon. "You ok baby?", he asks

I nod. What's happening? Why is he standing here? Shouldn't he be posing? I look to the set but the camera men aren't there

"Where is everyone?"

"Oh. We're done over babe. We're gonna wait in the dressing room until we have to go to the venue. There's food and you know they want to eat"

I nod. The guys love food. They're all huge pigs. "Ok"

"Yeah. C'mon. You can wait with me. No cameras are there"

I nod, take his hand, letting him lead me to the room. He still hasn't announced our relationship yet. Three years of hiding but I'm used to it. I know how it can affect his career, so I don't say anything

Sometimes it sucks. We can't go on dates unless he's wearing the whole get up of sun glasses, mask and hat. And that looks stupid inside a restaurant or theater. But I love him so I suck it up

He opens the door and all the guys are there already

"Hey Jo", Yoongi greets

"Jo! What's up?", Hobi asks

"Nothing much"

Jungkook is playing a Nintendo DS and he just lifts his hand in a wave. Jimin and Tae are absorbed in their phones, muttering a "hey". And Jin is eating. As usual

Namjoon pulls me to the couch that is occupied by Tae and Jimin, with one seat left. He sits down, then pulls my arm, getting me in his lap

"Baby", he whispers, hugging me tightly

He's cranky. It was hard getting him up this morning . He hides it well in front of people. When he has to be the leader. But alone or when it's just all of us, he becomes a cute needy whiny baby

"Tired Joonie?", I ask softly. He nods. "I'm sorry baby. Maybe you can take a short nap before the performance?"

"Want you", he murmurs

I giggle, "I'm right here cranky baby. Just lay your head back ok"

He whines and it's cute. I kiss his cheek, then push his head back against the soft back cushion. Moving my fingers in his hair, I play with the strands, telling him to close his eyes. He fights it but as soon as I kiss his lips softly, his eyes close. I continue to run my fingers in his hair, putting him to sleep

"Wow you're like the Namjoon whisperer", Hobi laughs

I shrug, "I know how to make him relax and put the big baby to sleep"

"You got the big baby thing right. He's annoying when he's cranky and you're not there", Jin informs me

"Yeah I know. He just wants cuddles and you guys aren't going to cuddle him", Iaugh

"Ha no", Yoongi shakes his head

I roll my eyes and just watch Namjoon sleep. He is fucking gorgeous. He gets down sometimes when assholes still call him ugly or untalented. It's not true and I make sure he knows it. How anyone can say he's ugly is an idiot.

Must suck to be blind

I can stare at this man for hours. I love his beauty marks all over his face. He loves when I kiss them and his dimples. He's just my everything and I'll do anything for him

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Watching Namjoon through the monitor back stage, I affirm that my boyfriend is hot. I love watching him perform. So many people talk about how he can't dance but he can. Sure he's not the main dancer but he's good

And so fucking sexy

He's working up a sweat and it's turning me on. He always sweats through his clothes during performances. Yet he doesn't smell bad. He just smells like Joonie

The performance ends and I wait til he comes off the stage. He smiles as soon as he sees me, coming over

I just stare at the sweat that's dripping off him, the silver collar shining against his wet skin. And my panties get flooded. Fuck

"Baby? Was the performance good?"

"Huh?", I ask, looking up at him, "Oh yeah. Amazing as always"

He raises his eyebrow, "Jo what's wrong? You were out of it before and now. Are you ok?"

I just answer him honestly, "No"

Alarm fills his eyes, "What baby? What happened?"

I can't fucking take it. I grab the chain and pull him to me, crashing my lips against his, my tongue in his mouth in a second. He kisses me back although I know he's confused

Pulling away, I look into his confused eyes, "Need you. Now."

His eyebrows raise, "Now?"

"Right now", I affirm

"But I'm sweaty-"

"Don't care. It's hot. Want you now"

He smirks, "Ok baby. You can have me"

"Good. Let's go"

I pull on the chain, then let go and he follows me. After a few minutes of looking around, I find an empty dressing room. Grabbing the chain again, I drag him inside and lock the door

Leading him to the couch, I push him down and he sits. Then I climb in his lap and attach my mouth to his. He responds right away kissing me back desperately. My hands moved to his jacket, pushing it off his body, then start undoing his button up shirt

Pulling away from his lips, I get the shirt off him, then slide my hand in his hair at the back of his head, pulling his head back. I press kisses to each of the adorable beauty marks on his face- the ones on his cheeks, the side of his eye, his nose, by his hair line and under his lips

Then I move down, my lips landing on his neck, kissing the spot he loves. He moans and fuck it makes me more wet

I move back for a second, then run my tongue along his neck, tasting his sweat. It fucking tastes so good

"Fuck baby, do that again", he whines. Smirking, I lick up his neck again and then a third time. "Fuck", he wheezes, his hands pulling my shirt up, throwing it in the room, then unhooking my bra

It too joins our other clothes on the ground. I get up pulling at his belt and pants. Getting it open, he lifts himself up so I can pull everything down. He kicks his shoes off then gets his clothes off. His grabs my jeans, almost ripping it open, pulling them down

He gets me to lay on the couch, turing to me and lifting my legs up, taking my shoes off, throwing them across the room, getting my jeans completely off

He looks at my panties groaning, "Why do you wear this when you know I'm just going to rip it off you?", he growls, his hand tugging and tearing the lace panties off my body. He opens my legs, touching me, making me shiver

"So pretty baby. So fucking wet. All this is mine?"

I nod, letting out a whine. I'm so horny and I want him right now. He moves his head, his tongue against my pussy, licking up slowly

"Oh god", I moan, pleasure finally hitting me

"Fuck baby just got more wet. Like my tongue baby?", he asks licking again

"Yes Joonie"

"Aww baby. I haven't fucked you or ate you out in awhile. My princess hasn't cum in a long time", he says, the tip of his tongue running between my lips and flicking my clit

"Fuck", I yell, trembling

"You've been such a good girl, taking care of me, cooking for me, cuddling me, making me feel better every night."

His tongue moves agonizingly slow up and down. I can feel all of his tongue, feel when he presses it against me

"I'm gonna take care of my baby ok? Make you cum over and over, in my mouth and on my cock. Make you squirt and soak me". I moan loudly, wanting that right now.

"Then after the show's over, I'm gonna take you home and fuck you good and hard until your sore and you won't be able to walk tomorrow"

"Yes Joonie"

"Good girl. Now. Let me hear you scream"

He buries his tongue in my pussy, tongue swirling around so fast and I scream in pleasure, "Namjoon! Oh god baby yes"

Burying my hands in his soaking wet hair, I pull hard. His tongue is fucking amazing. His lips wrap around my clit and he sucks on me nice and fast, pleasure making my brain short circuit

I'm gonna cum. I've been so sexually deprived that I'm ready so fast. His tongue plays with my clit when he sucks and I'm done

"Fuck!", I cry, exploding pleasure hitting me so hard

"Mmmm fuck. So goddamn good baby", he moans. He doesn't stop, his tongue sliding inside me, licking

"Oh fuck!"

"Yea princess. My baby tastes so fucking good. I need more. God I missed your cum"

I hear him but it's so hard to process what he's saying. He fucks his tongue inside me, sliding in and out over and over, my pussy clenches his tongue involuntarily. I want to keep his tongue inside. It feels so good. He keeps eating me hard and I'm ready again

"Namjoon!", I cry, stars bursting in my vision as I cum hard around his tongue. He moans so loudly, licking furiously. When I finish, he kisses my pussy, then lifts his head, smirking, my cum and juice all over his face

"Tastes amazing baby"

Jesus Christ, he's so fucking hot. Taking my hands, he pulls me up, putting me on his lap, his lips against my neck

"Ride me baby", he whispers

I lift myself up as he holds up his cock. Positioning myself, I sink down on his massive cock, feeling him open my cunt wide. I grab the chain, pulling hard as I force myself down his length, bottoming him out

"Yes baby, fuck. You take my cock so well, every time"

I nod. I fucking do. He's big for me, but I stretch around him, forcing him in because I want him so much. His huge cock, fills me perfectly, touching all the right places, his head against my spot. I love him inside

"Bounce baby girl"

I start off slow, bouncing lightly, only taking half his cock in until I get used to him. His head presses hard inside, making me drip around him

"Yes good girl"

I pull on the chain and he comes forward, his mouth against my chest where he automatically kisses and bites my skin. God I love this fucking chain

I take in more of his cock as I keep moving. I move my hand into his hair, playing with the wet strands. His hands reaches up, holding my breasts, squeezing, his thumbs flicking my nipples

"Oh f...", I whimper, drenching his cock more

I start to bounce faster, taking his whole cock now, my spot smashing against his head. His arm moves behind my back as he tilts me back, supporting me. He lifts my breast up, his pretty lips wrapping around my nipple. I wait for the pleasure, then scream when he starts sucking

I move my fingers to the part of the chain around his neck, hooking them around it and pulling, keeping him on my nipple. He fucks his cock up into me, meeting my bounces, pure pleasure smacking my body. I can't...it's too much

"NAMJOON!", I scream, coming, my body shaking uncontrollably. I feel his cock continue to smash against me, fucking me through my orgasm

"That's it princess. My good girl", he murmurs, "Again baby girl"

My bounces stop but he keeps jackhammering his cock into me, his mouth around my other nipple. My fingers are still wrapped around the chain, holding him on me, the other hand gripping the loose part of the chain

His hand moves down my body, squeezing hard until her gets to my clit.Then he puts his fingers on me, rubbing in a circular motion. Ecstacy takes over and I can't think, just feel

"Come on baby girl. Cum for me. God I want it so bad". And I want to give it to him. "Please baby. Gimme your cum"

I shout wordlessly, bliss taking over and I explode on his cock, squirting all over

"There we go. Yeah baby, good girl. Wetting me so much. I love it"

I feel myself being moved onto the couch but I can't comprehend anything. His cock slides back in and once again pleasure fills me as he fucks into me

I pull the chain, wanting to feel his sweaty body on me. He moves forward a little, but I tug hard and he comes where I want him to. Wrapping my arms and legs around him, I hold him, feeling his sweat on me and completely loving it

I move my fingers slowly up and down his back, feeling his muscles tense and move as his hips hit mine, burying his cock inside over and over. God I love feeling him move inside me. He belongs inside me, I belong with him

"My baby feels so good", he murmurs against my neck, "So tight for me, such a good girl. I love you so much"

"I love you Joonie", I whimper

"Please baby, cum one more time for me. I need it baby"

"Joonie", I whimper, my fingers going between his neck and the chain, gripping it hard again

"Yes baby girl", he moans. He slams my spot three times and I scream, my orgasm so fucking intense

"Baby fuck yes JOANNE", he yells, shaking on me, his warm cum filling me up

I love feeling him cum in me and I absolutely love feeling it leak onto my thighs. I feel him pull out, his face burying in my neck, kissing me softly. Each kiss sends a shiver through me, making him laugh

"I love you baby", he whispers

"I love you Joonie"

"Baby?", he asks

"Yeah?"

"I'm gonna need you to let go of the chain ok?

Oh yeah. I'm still holding it. I unwrap my hand from the chain and lower it

He lifts his head, smirking at me, "Like the chain huh?"

"Www...what?"

"You were pulling it the whole time, pulling me to right where you wanted me. Holding me there"

I blush, looking away

"Hey baby", he says, touching my cheek softly, "Look at me"

I do and he smiles. "I liked it too"

"Yeah?", I ask genuinely surprised

He nods, "Yeah, I like you pulling me around, taking over and making me stay where you want me."

My eyes widen. He likes it just as much as I did

"I can keep this you know"

"Huh?"

"The chain", he says, "I can keep it and we can play with it whenever you want"

"Really?", I ask in disbelief

He nods, "I like you riding me and pulling on it. And you can pull on it when I have you on your back too. Or when I hold you against the wall. Or when I eat your pussy. Or-"

"I got it baby", I giggle

"Oh yeah", he says, blushing

"Yeah Joonie. Keep it."

He nods, "Ok. We uh we can play again tonight?"

I smirk, "Oh yeah baby. We definitely can"

He smiles widely, then presses a kiss to my lips. He moves back and helps me up. We both walk around the room, grabbing our clothes and putting them back on. I help him fix his clothes as best I can

"I look ok?", he asks

"Absolutely sexy"

He laughs, his dimples on full display. I tug on the chain, signaling him to bend down. I meet him for a kiss, wrapping my arms around his neck as his goes around my waist

I love him so much

When we pull away, I smirk, tugging on the chain as I walk to the door, "C'mon baby. Follow me"

"Anywhere princess"

Leaving the room, he takes my hand and leads me back to the guys

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Dominant

Pairing- Namjoon x Named Reader

Includes- Oral, pussy eating, cum eating, name calling- slut, Sex, Dom Namjoon- Sub reader, missionary, riding, from behind, teasing, Daddy kink, orgasm denial, multiple orgasms, reader is so sore, fluff

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Namjoon brings me straight to his room after we get back from dinner

I know what he wants

Sex

We have an intense sex life

Sometimes it's hard and fast, sometimes slow and loving, sometimes lazy. And sometimes it's just wild and crazy fucking. I can always tell which it is when we start

He kisses me hard as soon as his door is locked and closed.

"Take you're fucking clothes off now", he growls

So wild and crazy it is

I don't care, I love it anyway he wants

I start to strip and he does too

"Faster baby girl", he says and starts to pull my pants off

Baby girl. I know what he wants when he calls me that. Or I know what he wants to be called when he calls me that

Daddy

I'm not into that kink but Namjoon likes it when we're fucking wildly. And he doesn't ask me to do it all the time, just once in awhile. So I do it for him, because he wants it. He never tells me no for anything and I can't tell him no either

I'd do anything for him. Because I love him so much. So I suck it up and call him that when he wants it.

"I can do it daddy", I smirk

I see the happiness on his face because I'm doing what he wants without him asking. I'll do anything to see that beautiful dimpled smile.

"You're taking too long and I want it off now"

He pushes me on the bed and rips my pants and panties off me. Then he pulls me up and rips my bra off my body.. I hear the fabric tearing

And I start to get so wet.

He pulls me to the edge of the bed and opens my legs wide.

"Fuck baby girl you're already wet", he smirks at me, "And you're getting all over my sheets"

I know when he's like this he likes me to talk dirty to him too

"Of course daddy, you make me dripping wet all the time"

"What does my baby want me to do to her?"

He looks at me and all I see is pure lust in his eyes

Fuck, he so hot

"Use your mouth daddy", I beg

He loves when I tell him what I want

He smirks, "You want daddy to lick your pussy until you cum in my mouth?"

Holy Jesus, I feel myself get so much wetter and so much hornier.

"Yes. I want that. Please daddy", I cry not caring how I sound

I just want his tongue on me

"Ok", he says and immediately puts his tongue on my pussy

He starts moving his tongue so fast and the pleasure is instant. He has my legs open as wide as they can go while he buries his tongue in me.. I can't help but watch as he goes at it and that turns me on so much more

I grip his hair and his arm tightly as I moan. I'm so horny that I feel myself getting ready to orgasm already. Just as I'm about to, he pulls away. The pleasure stops but the want is still there

"What?", I say not really understanding why the pleasure stopped

I hear him chuckle

"You can't cum yet baby. That's too fast"

"But...but...", I splutter

"Relax baby. If you keep being a good girl, I'll let you cum"

He looks at me and I just nod

"Now open your legs"

I didn't notice that I had closed my legs

"Now!", he yells

I immediately open them wide and he goes back to licking me. The pleasure rushes back and I start moaning again. Namjoon uses the tip of his tongue to lick my clit

"Oh god!", I cry out

"Does my baby want me to suck her clit?"

"Yes", I cry immediately

His lips shut down on my clit and he sucks on it while his tongue still licks. My body goes crazy and my hips move up on their own

I hear him laugh again, "Aww are you fucking my face baby?"

I whine and nod

"You're such a slut for daddy's tongue aren't you?", he asks smirking

"Yes. Yes I am.", I cry, just wanting him to keep fucking me with his tongue

"Maybe I should stop for awhile", he teases pulling away

"No! Daddy no! Please no. I'm a good girl", I shout, saying anything to get his tongue back on me

"Yeah you are baby. I'm gonna let you cum now"

I never felt such relief as I have hearing his words. He fucks me with his tongue again and I scream from the pleasure. My hips are bucking against his face and my hand is pulling his hair

I feel myself getting ready

"Cum on daddy's tongue baby", he says and I do exactly what he says.

I can't help but scream as the waves of pleasure hit me and stars cross my vision

"NAMJOON, oh God, NAMJOON!"

"Yeah baby", he says as he keeps going

I see him swallow my cum a few times and that sight makes me cum again

"Mmm baby you're so good", he moans, "I love you're cum. It tastes amazing"

Fuck, is he trying to make me orgasm again because if he keeps talking I will. He pulls away and looks me right in the eyes, then licks his lips. Good god the things this man does to my body without even touching me

He climbs on the bed and lays down

I immediately go to his hard cock and suck him. I love him in my mouth and I love his cum as much as he loves mine

I suck his cock a few times, then let go. He looks down at me, questioning in his gaze. Now it's my turn to tease

I crawl up to him and kiss him

Then I whisper, "Does daddy want me to ride his cock hard?"

He whimpers and nods

"Yeah? Daddy wants my soaking wet pussy sliding up and down on him?"

"Yes", he answers with his eyes closed, "Baby girl yes"

I straddle him and position him under me. Then I slam down on his cock and we both shout from how good it feels. I start moving up and down quickly, increasing the force every time I come down. I start talking to him because I know he likes it and it'll turn him on more.

"Fuck daddy, your cock is so big and so hard. You know how to fuck me good"

He just moans

"I'm a slut for your cock too daddy"

I start to rotate my hips as I move on him.

"Touch me", I command

His hands immediately start roaming my body, touching my hips, grabbing my breasts and nipples.

Right when he's about to cum, I get off him

It's so hard for me to do it because it was feeling so incredible, but I want to tease him

"What the fuck?", he yells and sits up

I just move back from him and smirk. I open my legs wide and his eyes immediately go to my pussy, that's still so wet.

"You want my pussy daddy? Come and get it", I tease

He growls and moves pulling me to him by my ankles. He slams himself in me and I shout at the contact.

He fucking me so hard as he angrily says, "You're such a bad girl doing that to me."

"I know daddy. I want you to punish me", I cry, lost in the pleasure

"Oh I'm going too baby", he agrees, "I'm going to fuck you so hard you can't walk right for a month"

I never wanted something so much

"Yes daddy, do it. Fuck please do it"

He grabs my legs and puts them on his shoulders and he hits so hard and so deep. It hurts but it hurts in a good way and I don't want him to stop

The pain with the intense pleasure is a phenomenal mix that runs through my body. He keeps going, harder and harder. He's never fucked me this hard before

I hope he does again in the future

I feel myself getting ready again and my pussy starts to tighten on him

"No", he says and pulls out

Namjoon flips me over and puts me on all fours at the edge of the bed. He stands behind me and rams his cock in again

"You can't can cum until I tell you to"

"Daddy!", I whine

"No. You were a bad girl. You can't cum yet. If you do, then I'll only let you cum that one time. No more"

Fuck no

I love coming multiple times. He's the only one who has ever done that to me

"Ok. I won't", I whimper

"Good."

He opens my legs more and thrusts harder. He grabs my hair and pulls it making me moan

"God baby you're so fucking wet"

I can't answer, my brain isn't working from all the pleasure

Again I start to clamp down on him.

"I said no", he yells as he hits into me harder than ever before

I shake as I keep myself from orgasming

"Whose cock does your pussy love?", he asks

"Yours", I pant

"Who fucks you this good?"

"You daddy, you. Oh god"

It's getting so hard to not cum. Just the feeling of his hard cock in me is enough at the moment

"Who makes you cum hard, over and over?"

"You Namjoon, you!", I cry, in pain from holding my orgasm back

"What do you want baby girl?"

"I wanna cum daddy, please let me cum. I want to so bad"

"I don't know if I should let you after you teased me", he shouts

"I'm sorry. I'll be a good girl. Please. It hurts. I want to cum so much.", I yell

"I don't want my baby to hurt. You can cum on daddy's cock now baby", he relents

"Ahhhhhh", I scream at the top of my lungs

My orgasm has never been so intense. My pussy tightens on him and I feel him continue to pump.

Fire races down my shaking body and its all I can do to keep myself from collapsing right there.

The pleasure is too much and it takes over

Namjoon still keeps pounding away and within another minute, I cum again, screaming, sweat drenching my body

"Again", he demands, fucking me as hard as he can,

"Namjoon, I...", I start but he slaps my ass

"Don't call me that right now", he growls

"I'm sorry daddy. I can't..I..fuck...I'm gonna..", I can't form complete sentences or thoughts

"Cum now", he orders and my body listens to him, coming on his cock for the third time.

And he still doesn't stop. He's going kill me with orgasms

Not bad way to die

"One more time baby girl. I want to feel your pussy desperately clench on me before I cum. I love seeing your cum on my cock"

"I don't..think....I can...", I cry

I don't know if I can handle another orgasm

"Too bad. I'm not asking you. Your pussy is mine and it does what I say."

Fuck I love how possessive he gets

"I'm going to fuck you harder and if you don't cum, I'll be very upset", he threatens

"Ok daddy, I will"

"Good girl"

He starts moving at the speed of light,his cock hitting my spot, so deep inside and I instantly cum, screaming.

"Yeah baby, Fuck, your pussy is amazing. Keep going baby girl"

This time my orgasm goes for longer that before

"Fuck JOANNE!", Namjoon shouts slamming in one more time and cums deep inside me

I collapse on the bed while Namjoon pulls out and collapses next to me

After a few minutes he sits up. How he still has energy to move, I don't know. I still can't breath, and moving?

Forget it

"Baby", he calls turning me over

I look at him. His hair is wet with sweat as well as his body. And fuck he's still so hot. But my body can't handle anymore right now.

"Jo? Are you ok? Answer me please", he says sounding panicked

"I'm ok Joonie. I just need to rest for a minute"

"Are you sure? I didn't mean to go so hard, its just-"

"No Joonie", I cut him off, "I'm good baby. I loved it. I love when you go that hard"

"Yea?"

"Yea", I smile, "You're so good at sex baby"

He laughs, "I wasn't until you. I only got good because I want to please you"

He's so fucking cute

"Funny. That's the same reason I got good at it too"

He leans over and kisses me

"Wanna shower baby?", he asks

"Yeah ok", I agree

I sit up. Fuck my body is sore. Namjoon gets up and pulls some clothes on. I stand but my legs wobble and I fall down

"Fuck Joanne, are you ok?", he runs over to me.

"Yeah, I guess I lost my balance", I say frowning

He helps me up and I'm able to stand. He lets go and I take two steps before my leg give out again

"What's wrong?", he shrieks, "Joanne what's wrong?"

"I uh think uh...you actually you know", I say

"What?"

"Uh made me unable to walk", I reply, blushing

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry!", he yells, looking so upset

"Joonie, it's ok. I'm sure I'll be fine.", I respond

He comes over to help me stand up, but my legs still feel shakey and sore, along with my thighs.

"Yeah I think you have to carry me for now", I say, "Or you can take a shower and I'll stay here"

"No I'll carry you baby. It's just I can't believe I...I'm sorry", he apologizes again

"Don't be sorry Joonie. It was fun and I liked it", I assure him, "Can you get my clothes?"

I put on my shirt and he helps with my pants. Then be picks me up in his arms and carries me out the door.

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We pass through the living where the guys are watching tv.

"Hey Namjoon! What happened to Joanne?", Jungkook gasps

"Yeah, why are you carrying her?", Yoongi asks

I smirk at him

"Well...uh...I....she..", he stutters

"She what?", Hobi prompts

"She can't walk right now", he mumbles

I glance at them to see six shocked faces

"Holy shit Namjoon!", Jimin gasps

"Because of before?", Yoongi asks

"Uh"

"Because we heard you", Tae says, "You were both loud and your bed kept hitting the wall."

"Uh...um", Namjoon says, at a loss for words

"Yeah from before", I answer

"Damn Namjoon", Yoongi remarks while Jungkook and Jimin snicker

"Fuck you", Namjoon snaps

"She's already doing enough of that", Jimin shoots back

"For all of us", Jungkook laughs

"Don't tall about her like that!", he snaps

"Joonie, it's ok. Just ignore them. They're just mad because they're not getting any", I say, smirking at Jungkook and Jimin

They glare at me while Hobi laughs and says, "Damn Jo, that's cold"

I shrug, "They started it"

Then I whisper to Namjoon, "Come on Joonie. You gotta be tired holding my fat ass"

"Don't say that baby. You're not fat. You're perfect"

I smile at him and kiss him

"C'mon man, not in front of me", Jin whines

Namjoon ignores him and starts walking to the bathroom.

"Where are you going?", Jimin asks

"To shower in your bathroom", I sing

"What? No! The other one is closer to his room!", Jungkook yelps

"That's not fun", I giggle

"No Jo, c'mon", Jimin pleads

"Keep your mouth closed next time Chimmy", I say as Namjoon walks straight into their bathroom and locks the door.

[bteezxyewriter12]

My Everything/ 1

Pairing- Jin x Named Reader

💀Includes- car accident, recovery, mental recovery, derogatory hate, some fluff

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Part 2. Part 3

Jin POV

"Hello Mr. Kim", the receptionist says as I sign my name in the log

"Hello Mrs. Kang", I answer

"She's in her room today. She didn't want to leave again"

I nod, my heart aching

"Thank you", I reply

Then going to the elevator, I press the number for her floor

4th floor

The elevator opens and I walk to her room. It's not good that she doesn't want to leave her room again

When I get to her room, I open the door. She's sitting on her bed looking out the window. I walk in slowly but making noise so I don't scare her. She turns to me and smiles. She's smiling, that's a good sign

"Hi Jo", I say softly

"Hi"

I sit next to her

"How are you today?"

"Uh...um...ok....I uh guess", she stammers

I nod

It's the same thing she says everyday. Her arm twitches on it's own, getting my attention. I thought that was getting better. That's what the nurses told me last time

"Did you eat today?"

"Little bit. Not hungry much", she answers

"Oh ok"

More silence

"Why you here again?", she asks

I'm trying so hard not to cry

"To see you baby. I love you"

"I love you too", she answers

I know she does

I know she remembers that

"Uh Jo, can you tell me my name?", I ask her

"Yeah silly, it's.....it's.....uh.....", she trails off

She has a look of confusion on her face

"Uh, it's...it's..."

"Do you remember your name?", I ask

"Yes", she nods, "Joanne....uh....um....Kim. Joanne Kim. You say Jo. And princess."

She beams at me

At least she knows her name

"Yeah that's your name princess. But you don't remember mine?"

"It's....uh....it's", she says frustratingly, "It's..."

"It's ok Jo. It's ok"

"No I know...I know...", she says starting to cry

Fuck

I don't want to make her cry

"It's....it's....I know it...it's"

"I'll help you Jo ok. Don't cry"

I wipe her tears away

"My name is Jin", I say

"Jin", she repeats

God, I miss her saying my name

"Jin....Jin Kim...", she says

My mouth drops open. Did she really remember my last name?

"I say Jinnie", she responds again

"Yes Jo. Yeah you always call me Jinnie", I confirm for her

"You....uh....we...married. You Kim and I Kim", she says slowly

Oh my god she's remembering on her own

"Yes baby, we're married."

"But....I....stay here. You not here. Why? We have to stay....uh...same place...together?", she asks

This is the most she's talked in the seven months she's been here

"Do you remember what happened to you?", I ask

She always gets somethings wrong but she's knows something happened

"Uh accident. Car come....to get you...but I uh..move you? Car hit me", she answers

"Yes baby. That's why you have to stay here for now."

This is new. She never remembered the details before. Just that she was in an accident

A fucking crazy sasaeng tried to hit me because she was upset I was married

I can remember it clearly

A year ago BTS had a fan meet

After the fan meet, I was walking with Joanne back to our apartment. It was a half hour walk but it was a really nice spring day and we decides to walk and maybe shop a little.

Joanne and I had been married for two years. We were ridiculously happy

As we crossed a street, I heard someone scream, "If I can't have Jin, no one will"

Then I saw a car come flying down the street. Coming right at me. I let go of Joanne's hand so she can run but instead she pushed me out of the way, the car slamming right into her

I had to watch in horror as she hit the front of the car, crashing into the windshield, then rolling off hitting the ground face first when the car stopped

There was blood everywhere and she wasn't moving. I ran to her, screaming her name and crying hysterically

The sasaeng got out of the car and ran away

Joanne was bleeding from a huge gash in her head. I called an ambulance and they came so fast. She had to go into surgery immediately, as soon as we got to the hospital

I called the guys and they rushed over

The doctors told me that Joanne had bleeding in her brain and her brain swelled. The car shattered her hip and leg when it hit her. She had broken ribs, so many cuts and scrapes

And she was in a coma

They weren't hopeful she'd ever wake up. They told me that if she did, she would probably never walk again from the extensive amount of damage to her hip and leg

And they said they had no idea how she'd be mentally if she woke up.

She was in a coma for two months. I didn't leave the hospital. I was by her side the entire time

She did wake up though but it was horrible. She didn't speak, she just looked around terrified. After the doctors checked her out and a few days of testing, they told me how she was

And it wasn't good

They were right about her not being able to walk. She hasn't been able to the whole time she's been in the rehab facility. The doctors and nurses here tried to help her but her legs just don't work. They try once a month to see if her legs have gotten stronger but so far no.

At least for now

They told me she's has severe damage to her brain that controls memory and speaking. Basically her memory is shotty

She remembers some of her life and our life but some things she doesn't. The last year has been hard for her with her memory. She forgets simple things like my name or her name which gets her upset

The doctors don't know why and they don't know if it'll ever change. She gets therapy for it to try to strengthen that memory and gain some back but it's hasn't had much success

She wasn't able to talk for months. She had to learn how to talk all over again which is why her speech is all over the place

It's like when a baby learns to talks. She's at a four or five year old level of speaking. She can't read yet, she has to learn to do that again

But she's able to learn and learn fast. She can think normally and she can understand what is said to her, she just doesn't have the speech to answer

She developed seizures from the accident as well. When I first saw her have a seizure, I panicked and cried so much. But the people here taught me how to deal with it and what to do when she has one

Right now they're trying to find which medications and what dose is right for her

She can't write, hold a pencil or anything like that. Her fine motor skills are bad and she's getting therapy for it

She can't wear rings so she has her engagement and wedding ring on a necklace I bought for her

The staff told me she never wants to take it off and she fights them if they try

Her left arm twitches for no reason and they don't know why. It was bad at first, but recently its been better. It's just today I noticed it again

I left BTS until she gets better

Some ARMYS were so nasty about it

They said things I could never imagine saying about someone- that I should leave the "veggie" behind and find someone new; asking me why I'm still with what now is a little girl, telling me I should pull the plug on her

Seriously what the fuck is wrong with people?

Needless to say I lost it

I went on a rampage on vlive, telling everyone to fuck off, that I still love Joanne more than anything, she's still my wife and I'm not leaving her just because she's having difficulties now.

Then I reminded them that she saved me from being hit by the car. That I could be in her position if she didn't push me out of the way and I know one hundred percent she would never leave me either

I said I'm taking a break from BTS for as long as I need to, to help her and if they don't like it they can go fuck themselves

I really don't care

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"Ji....j...Jin...I tired", Joanne says to me after a few hours

"Ok princess. You want to sleep?", I ask

She nods, "But you stay?"

I nod, "Yes Jo, I'll stay with you"

"You sleep too?"

"Ok Jo, I'll lay with you"

"Yay", she claps

I help her lay down, then I lay next to her

"Hug?", she asks

"Ok"

I hold her in my arms while she snuggles into me. She still loves sleeping together with my arms around her

"I love you Jin", she says

She sounds just like she used to before the accident and it makes me start crying

"I love you too Jo"

She closes her eyes and I hold her tightly to me.

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After about a half an hour, I slowly get up from the bed

I have to see her doctor. I have some stuff I want to give her

I walk out of her room and ask a nurse to call Dr. Jang. A few minutes later, Dr. Jang comes walking down the hall

"Mr. Kim, hello"

I nod at her

"You want to talk in my office?", she asks

Again I nod

As we walk she asks, "How is Joanne? She was agitated when I saw her this morning. She kept asking for you"

"I know. She gets like this when I don't come for a day or two", I answer

I can't come everyday

I tried talking to her, telling her that she doesn't have to wait for me in her room..m That she can go to the library or the living room or any place. But she still refuses

"She's asleep now", I answer

"Yes she still gets tired a lot."

We get into her office. I sit in front of her desk and she goes to sit behind it. I pull out the stack of papers I brought

"Here's all the paperwork. I'm now a certified nurse and can legally take care of her as her caretaker. I did all the schooling, all the training for her specific condition. I got everything you suggested I get for her at home. I talked to her therapists and they gave me some things I can do with her at home to help her in between their sessions. I want to take her home", I say

This was the reason I wasn't able to come everyday. I went to school and studied the entire year so I could take care of her

They wouldn't let me take her home since I wasn't qualified to care for her. I don't want a nurse to live with us, taking care of her

I want to take care of her. So I made damn sure I can. And now I want her home with me

"Was your house inspected?", she asks as she looks over the paperwork

"Yes. I had to go get papers yesterday that's why I didn't come"

"You do realize what a huge responsibility your taking right? She needs helps with basic things like eating, showers, going to the bathroom, getting dressed?"

Of course I know that

"Yes I know. It's fine"

"Are you having the therapists come to her or are you going to take her?"

"For now they agreed it's best for them to come to our house while she gets used to being home. After a few months I'll take her to them. And yes I know I have to schedule doctor appointments and take her. It's not a problem", I answer

"You know her medication and her schedule of when she takes what?"

"You know I do", I answer, getting a bit annoyed

What the fuck? She's my wife of course I know how to take care of her

"It's very different when you are caring for a family member than a stranger"

"Look, she's my wife ok? I love her more than anything on this goddamn planet. It's been killing me to leave her here everyday. She belongs with me. I don't care what I have to do. I will jump through hoops if it means she can come home."

Dr. Jang nods, "I understand. I just wanted you to know what you were getting into."

"I know"

"You do understand that even if she gets close to her old self it will take a long time. You can't rush the speech, the memory, the fine motor skills, the walking. It has to happen on its own, if it's ever going to happen"

"I know. Buts she's becoming her old self little by little. So what if she can't walk or use her hands or talk well. She's still the same girl I fell in love with. Her personality didn't change. She's still Joanne"

Dr. Jang nods, "I'm glad you're aware"

"She remembered things", I tell her

Dr. Jang looks up, "What things?"

"She remembered my last name. Not my first. Once I told her Jin, she remembered Kim and that she calls me Jinnie."

"Really? That's very good progress"

"She also remembered that we're married. She asked me why we dont live together if were married. Not in those words but she got her question across. She remembered she had an accident. That a car was coming for me, but she pushed me and it hit her", I go on

"That is incredible! That is the first real significant memory retention she's shown so far. Hopefull this means she will be able to recover her short term memory ability. It may never be the same but it can be close"

"I hope so", I answer

"Well Mr. Kim, it looks like all your paperwork is in order"

"Can I take her home today?"

"It's not normally how we do things but for this time I'll make an exception. Yes you can take her home today"

I breath a sigh of relief

I'm getting my baby back

"I'll have the nurses pack up her things. You can tell her the good news"

"Thank you.", I say standing up, bowing

Then I leave the office and rush back to Joanne