#maybe someone will relate to this longwinded bullshit

[wardenswateringhole]

(In coming long post sorry)

Honestly I love your work on the Vampire au, it’s so interesting how far you’ve come with it from the starting point when Ingo first met vamp!Gateau! Your story structure flows very neatly and the actions from the battles and intimate scenes are so eye catching that it’s hard to stop reading once started. I love how you’ve put more lore into the world where the characters live in such as the Order and Gateau’s home! Now coming to find out that the Order that Emmet and Ingo were apart of was a family business of sorts makes me all jumping with excitement on which route you take! Like if Emmet got rid of the Order or if Emmet found a way to get Gateau, Ingo, and their nibbling to a safer place!

I love how you characterize Emmet as being shy when it comes to intimate stuff, it makes him very cute and it makes sense for him to be that way. His adoptive family was probably very controlling with how he lived his life and probably also dictated who he could have intimate relations with. Kinda that don’t have sex and stuff before marriage, probably was even going to set him up with a girl from one of the families of the order. Meanwhile Gateau captures his heart at first fist fight and actually cares and listens to Emmet instead of just ignoring him completely unless he has something he wants like the Order does!

Ingo, god I love what you’ve done to him, how he trust Gateau and how he chooses those he considers family first and the life he now leads instead of the unhappiness from his adoptive family and their rules. Ingo deserves to have all the love in the world! And who better to give it to him than Gateau, their child, and his beloved twin! Ingo is very smart though I feel, he’s interested in so many thing that was probably useless for the Order besides Sword fighting (dancing?). Smart and graceful probably will be useful in the future if they have to fight the Order.

Finally to Gateau! Gateau, I adore because he meets both twins on their level, with Ingo an intellectual level, and with Emmet, a physical level. He show both his knowledges and strength and they gladly give him a taste of theirs. Gateau is like the perfect guy who also has his own worries and strifes but he listens and cares about them both which makes me feel all fuzzy inside.

Your writing is amazing and I look forward to see what more you’ll do to it after your recovery, make sure you take care of yourself first before the masses. Your health is way more important and your happiness double that! Take care!

Oi.

I have read and reread this message probably about 50 times already.

It makes my heart giddy.

I wasn't prepared for such praise. I was geared up for the haters, only to be blindsided by praise hitting me in the head like a brick.

Thank you so much! I hope I can continue to please!

There's lore about this world that I haven't even put into these pieces. The Order has a full name and their own story. Gateau has history with said Order but he doesn't know it yet.

I have joked with Cupcake about how I could probably write an entire novel about this AU. Maybe going back and writing about how life was for Ingo and Emmet within the Order and what exactly happened to make Ingo leave.

Either way I'm so happy there is someone (besides Cupcake and I, the brainworm twins) that enjoys my longwinded, flowery bullshit writing. lol.

Thank you once again!

[ironicallynyas]

i am Thinking about how hard it is for me to force myself to do things, even if its something i know i need to do or something i actively want to do.

i am Thinking about how one of the only ways to make myself better about doing things (not even GOOD about doing things, just BETTER) is taking prescription meds that suppress my appetite so bad it sometimes causes me to feel unable to eat even if i know im starving.

i am Thinking about how when im off my meds im unable to plan or make myself act, but am able to suppress feelings of anxiety and stay happy, if complacent; but when i take my meds, like a biblical apple i am now capable of understanding the concept of The Future and am able to plan and take actions, but this also opens my mind to constantly worrying about the untold anxieties that The Future can hold.

i am Thinking about how when left to my own devices, i stagnate, but when put under pressure, i break.

i am Thinking about how i have struggled with this my whole life and have never significantly improved or made progress.

i am Thinking about how Intellectually, i try to tell myself that the societal messages ive heard all my life that tell me that i am a Broken and Defective Facsimile of a Human Being are wrong, and that im just simply Different in a way that an unjust society has failed to accommodate for.

i am Thinking about how Emotionally, i have absolutely internalized all of the societal messages ive heard all my life that tell me that i am a Broken and Defective Facsimile of a Human Being, and when i try to convince myself they are wrong, i often do not believe myself.

i am Thinking about how for my whole life i have avoided thinking about this stuff as much as possible because it Terrifies me, and often resort to escapism to avoid thinking about it, using videos, the internet, video games, books, at one point even origami, all to distract from these feelings of Dread.

i am Thinking about how in the dark moments between distractions, i sometimes feel like a Coward hiding and running away from their failure, and how i often feel like i am proving those thoughts right as i try to drown them out with more distractions and escapism.

i am thinking about how the idea of applying for a job both terrifies and disgusts me, and how my gut hyperbolic reaction is that i would rather die than work a 9-5, and am sobered as i remind myself that those two options are often the only two options this world will give.

i am Thinking how lonely i am, and on top of my social anxiety and a global pandemic being obstacles to finding a girlfriend, am burdened with the worry that i will never find someone willing to date an unemployed neurodivergent nonbinary mess like me.

i am Thinking about my sister, and the example i set for her, and how as much as i enjoy how close and similar we are, i cannot help but feel relieved about the ways she does not take after me, and feel a tinge of worry about the ways that she does.

i am Thinking about how lucky i am, with an mother who never stopped trying to understand and help me, and schools that while not perfect, were more understanding and accomodating than almost any school is likely to be, and i shudder at how much worse things would have been if i hadnt had as much support, and wonder if i would have even survived without them.

i am Thinking about how quickly my sense of gratitude turns to a subtle clawing sense of guilt, feeling like a burden on all those that i recognize as having done so much to support me.

i am Thinking about how im dreading my birthday this year because i will lose the ability to use my dads insurance and i have never had a job, and my years of inaction are finally catching up to me.

i am Thinking about how on some level i am Always Thinking about all of these things. i am Thinking about how much i Dont want to be Thinking about this, how i want to Hide and Distract myself because Thinking about all of this Hurts, its Terrifying, but no matter how much i hide it is all still there under the surface. i am Thinking about all of these things now, and i am typing these words, and my blood is feeling cold and my hands are trembling, as i feel like i approach some limit. i am looking at the words i have written, reading all of these things i am always Thinking about but am terrified to confront.

i am Thinking about all of these things

and i dont know what to do.

[canonjesusisbetterthanfanonjesus]

Hey you, yeah you, listen up

I’m a certified idiot filled to the brim with righteous anger so I’m gonna just shout and anyone who feels the need to listen to me can. There are so many people claiming to preach God’s word but all they are is just talk. Because when you're talking about God, if your message is anything other than a message of love, then I hate to break it to ya, but that ain’t God’s message, that’s just you only taking the pieces you want from God just to serve your own bigoted intentions. Unfortunately, this is how most people go about doing their preaching. I intend to change that.

Am I qualified? Maybe not. But let’s try anyway.

I’m going to use this blog as a place where anyone can come and ask questions. The bible, Jesus himself, whatever. Before you ask just know that any answers come from the perspective of a Seventh-Day Adventist (SDA). No, we’re not a cult, and no, we’re not Jewish either. Yes, those are the two most common questions. But anyway, with this blog, I’ll answer questions, post rants every once in a while, and heck, even the odd meme.

But I’ll start with my first rant by saying, anyone is welcome here. Whatever the gender identity or sexual orientation, race or ethnicity, or religion. I don’t care, come hang out. The great thing about this format is that I can yell in my little corner of this hellsite and you don’t have to read if you don’t want to. That way I’m not shoving anything in your face. 

But anyways, in Matthew 4:19 (NIV) it says, "Come, follow me," Jesus said, "and I will send you out to fish for people." And then later in Matthew 28:19-20 it says, “19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

With that in mind, what do a lot of Christians do these days? Shove their religion down your throat, whisper to their friends about how they would never show up to church wearing that, and give you the side-eye like no one else can.

But the thing is, as the above verses show, Jesus and by extension God, just says to go out and get people. Not go out and show people Christianity whether they like it or not, just to go out and get people. At the end of the day, it’s God’s job to judge people. And truthfully, he’s the only one who can. But people try to take that role from him by trying to tell the newcomer to church that they’re doing it all wrong. I have cousins that no longer go to church because of the nasty comments. There’s a gay couple in my church that is scared to come to church. Our only job on this Earth is to love people and bring them to God. But, God’s whole thing is free will. It’s part of the reason why sin and evil exist, but that’s a topic for another day. If God just wanted someone to love him unconditionally and without fail he would have just created himself a couple of robots. He’s smart, he knows how to do it. But that’s not real love, is it? So he creates humans, in his image, and gives them free will. He so desperately wants our love, but not if it’s forced. Again, his whole thing is love and free will.

So essentially what I’m saying, is if anyone ever tries to tell you that God hates you, or you're going to burn in hell for forever (another topic for another time), or that you need to fix yourself up and stop wearing those clothes or that makeup or stop listening to those bands before you come to church, then they’re spewing bullshit out of their mouth with a speed and volume the likes of which not even the Niagra Falls has seen.

That was a really longwinded way to say that you’re welcome here.

And if you ever need someone to talk to, for any reason, even if it’s not religion-related and you just need someone to talk you out of a bad headspace, my dms are open. 

Here’s a song that goes with my mini-rant pretty well:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1OLGUW1VHLY

- Signed, CanonJesusIsBetterThanFanonJesus

(AKA, someone who really doesn’t like door to door ministry)

[habitatforhufflepuffs]

Fantastic Beasts: The Crimes of Grindelwald Opinions

If it isn’t obvious already, spoilers for Crimes of Grindelwald ahead. Also I apologize for how longwinded this is. I just started typing and before I knew it, I had a novel. Bare with me. 

First off, I would just like to say that I absolutely loved the movie, like LOVED. I don’t think it’s possible for me to watch a movie that takes place in the wizarding world and not love it. 

That being said, I had a few issues, minor ones though. I’ve been seeing a lot of reviews floating around where people are complaining about the fact that the entire movie felt like a set up for another sequel, whereas the first one felt like an actual standalone movie, but like, of course it did??? The first one set up the universe this franchise is going to take place in so obviously it’s a full story. The second one is now setting up the overarching plot that’s going to take place over the next four movies so like obviously a lot of it is going to be exposition of characters and isn’t going to conclude the storyline seeing as each movie isn’t taking place one a year like the HP movies did. 

If I had one actual complaint, it would be that there was A LOT going on at once. Which like, I get it because there’s so many characters to introduce that are going to be important moving forward. It was just a lot of new characters introduced in a short period of time that needed backstories and explaining all at once. As well as, what, like four separate plots happening all at once that all merged together by the end of the movie? Which like yeah I get it, it was just a lot to follow. I did go on to read the screenplay of the movie that just came out, and it was a bit easier to follow than the actual movie, so I 10/10 would recommend reading that. Especially the scene where they’re in the Lestrange family mausoleum, and maybe it was just me but I found the screenplay a little easier to follow what was going on than the actual movie which is weird?? Maybe the movie will be easier second watch through. 

I wasn’t a huge fan of the whole Credence is Leta Lestrange’s long lost brother?? Just kidding no he’s not?? But wait who is he then?? scene because like it was a lot to follow all at once trying to understand who the shit was related and how. Especially considering you’ve got 3 siblings from 3 different sets of parents & then you find out there’s a fourth child that was switched with one of them??? Which again, read the screenplay, it’s easier to follow when you can read full names and go at a slower pace and everything. 

As for the plot twist/cliffhanger at the end, I’m very interested to see where that goes moving forward. I’ve seen many people that think Grindelwald was lying to Credence to gain his trust seeing as he was obviously lying in saying Dumbledore wanted him dead. But I don’t really think that’s the case. Solely because I can’t see them doing the whole “Credence is Leta Lestrange’s brother, psych,” thing only to then turn around and then go, “Credence is Albus Dumbledore’s brother, psych,” immediately following. It would just be kind of ridiculous to have Credence’s parentage revealed only for it to be a red herring twice. 

I’ve also seen a lot of people trying to explain how it wasn’t possible for Credence to be Dumbledore’s brother. I will also say now that after a minimal amount of googling, it 100% is possible, if he’s his half brother only. In this movie (as confirmed by the screenplay), Credence was born in 1901 and was being transported to America in this year. We know Dumbledore’s mother died in 1899, and was killed by Ariana, therefore he can’t be her son. But it’s unknown what year his father died in, just that it was after 1890 in Azkaban. Now, obviously it’s kind of a weird thought but it’s 100% possible that somehow Dumbledore’s father Percival sired another child after he was imprisoned in Azkaban via another woman and that that child is Credence. How Grindelwald knows about this, I have no idea. Especially considering that not much time passes between FB1 and FB2, and he was in custody at MACUSA between the two movies. As well as how Credence ended up in America and Leta ended up back in Britain I’m not exactly sure. But it is completely possible. 

That being said, a bunch of people have pointed out that how is it possible that Dumbledore had another brother that has somehow never been mentioned before now, even though HP takes place after FB obviously. If I had to guess, and it breaks my heart to say this, I’m assuming Credence doesn’t survive the FB franchise because if he died, and Aberforth didn’t know of his existence, then it would make sense why he’s never been mentioned. Dumbledore wasn’t exactly open about Ariana, so it would (plausibly) make sense that Credence was never mentioned. Kinda weird, but still plausible. 

One thing I’ve seen EXCESSIVE amounts of complaining about is the McGonagall cameo. Which like, yeah I get it, it breaks canon. But there’s TONS of people that aren’t aware of McGonagall’s backstory seeing as it wasn’t in the HP books, and even if it were, there was a HELL of a lot of information from the books that never made it to the movies (I’m looking at you, Peeves). So like, just let it go and leave it be??? If you’re gonna be nitpicky about canon you could also argue that they made James & Lily way older than they should’ve been in the movies & technically McGonagall would’ve been 46 the night that they died, but in the movies when she’s at the Dursley’s with Dumbledore she looks WAY older than that. So like, just think of the Pottermore information as part of the book universe and the FB movies as part of the movie universe??? 

Also there was a lot of people I saw that were pissed off that they didn’t make it clear enough that Dumbledore was gay, and that were mad that the story didn’t put enough focus on his feelings toward Grindelwald, which I’m sorry I have to call complete bullshit on. This is only the second instalment of a five movie series and Dumbledore & Grindelwald didn’t even share any scenes together. What did you want?? Dumbledore to cover himself in glitter and strip of his shirt to reveal a tattoo that says I love Gellert???? The Mirror of Erised scene alone couldn’t have made it any clearer that Dumbledore is gay and was in love with Grindelwald. The look of pain on his face alone every time he said he couldn’t make a move against Grindelwald made it VERY CLEAR that there were feelings involved. Also, “we were more than brothers.” What the fuck else could that have meant???? They took a goddamn blood oath that they wouldn’t fight each other. There’s still three movies to go in delving further into their relationship, obviously we’re not going to get the whole story in the second movie. So to all of the people saying it wasn’t clear enough, fuck off. 

As far as the movie as a whole, I LOVED IT. Even if it did have too many plot lines happening at once, I still absolutely loved it. The new characters they introduced were fantastic (I’m kind of in love with Theseus). The new creatures they introduced were FANTASTIC. (somebody buy me a kelpie, and also, BABY NIFFLERS!!!!!). Jude Law was an absolutely perfect Dumbledore. Even Johnny Depp as Grindelwald was super unsettling and did a great job. The opening sequence of Grindelwald breaking out of captivity with the Thestral carriage and the final sequence with Grindelwald’s blue magic against everyone else’s fire were phenomenal. And as much as some people didn’t like the ending, I personally love that Credence and Queenie ended up on Grindelwald’s side (and it makes complete sense why to me too) and I’m super excited to see where that goes from here on out. I loved that everyone lost someone in one way or another too. (Newt & Theseus lost Leta, and Jacob & Tina lost Queenie and Nagini lost Credence to Grindelwald) Everyone’s split on different sides and it definitely sets emotional stakes for everybody moving forward. 

I loved how merciless Grindelwald was too & how powerful they made him. Like he’s chained up in prison and being transported by like twelve aurors and still manages to escape??? finds a baby in the house he took over??? who gives a shit, kill the baby??? he’s goddamn fighting off like ten fully trained wizards at once in the final sequence of the movie BY HIMSELF and is winning until the IMMORTAL BEING that’s 500+ years old shows up, and we’re only in the second movie of five. The final battle sequence in HP was a conclusion of 8 movies & Voldemort’s struggling to fight against one seventeen year old wizard that never even finished school??? Grindelwald is badass as hell. (also, a villain that vapes projections of the future, what more could u want??)

Also, the nostalgia that hit me like a fucking truck when they first panned over Hogwarts and Hedwig’s theme kicked in???? Also young Newt??? Also Leta Lestrange is sick as hell, and I’m not convinced she’s dead yet. 

Basically I’m super into Theseus and Dumbledamn, and I need 2020 to come faster, right now. If anyone wants to scream with me, please shoot me an ask, I need someone to rant to. None of my friends share my excessive HP obsession. Also, I kind of want an entire movie of just Newt taking care of his creatures tbh. 

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk. 

[skruffie]

Been a while since I posted a mental health update, huh? well

Not a lot has been going on lately for me to blog about. Therapy is going well, I’m trying to do little things to like, stand up for myself and inch my way through progress.

Today though has been a giant fucking garbage fire.

(abortion, trauma, abuse talk under the cut)

Started off on shaky ground first thing in the morning because I interpreted a thing that a friend said to mean he was talking about me about something I did, since he DMed me personally too relating to Thing so I was like

“aw fuck”

the actual Thing he was talking about involved other people 

an otherwise mild trigger reaction ran right into a different trigger relating to like, feeling as if I can’t talk about a thing or being told to not talk about stuff, so WHOOPS

So I’m at work and kind of trying to just... exist, work, and sometimes I do peek at my phone because this job is slow and low-stress 99% of the time, and I saw an otherwise informed acquaintance of mine post this stupid meme relating to all the abortion talk lately that equated all people with a penis as men, and so like

here’s my thing. When sexual assault was a hot button topic with the Me Too movement I tried to remind people as often as I could to not leave trans and non-binary people out of the discussion. With this, I’m doing the same thing. We have a stake in this too and we’re consistently forgotten. I told her that this was a bad take for trans people’s involvement and she apologized but also said that it’s a lot of men getting involved in this when they have no business... so I tried to introduce her to the concept of specifying they’re cis men, but like

being forgotten pings the childhood neglect

The ultimate bullshit occurred earlier on twitter when someone I was following started griping about a different user adding a trigger warning to a discussion about abortion, so my response was “Wait, why do you think that was unnecessary?”

The response I got was a very angry “because it’s a fucking medical procedure and not a trigger” 

which turned to me pointing out that medical trauma exists and also there are families that end up needing to choose abortion for a pregnancy that they would have wanted to keep, or maybe... that sometimes abortion is forced on someone who actually didn’t have the choice. Any trawl through a sexual abuse survivor forum can tell you those stories. 

It’s thin ice because the debate of WOMEN GET TRAUMATIZED BY ABORTIONS is a tactic that the right-wing uses to try to further stigmatize abortion in general, but again. I’ve read enough survivor stories to know that not every person comes out of an abortion gleeful. It’s a personal experience unique to each person but Twitter doesn’t allow for this longwinded of a discussion.

i pointed out that trigger warnings are also a disability accomodation and explained how I’ve used them with success to help me concentrate without having a complete breakdown and was told it doesn’t count because it’s a different environment. Okay, cool. Some random person jumped in to link to a hilarious “study” about trigger warnings that didn’t even use volunteers with trauma, then linked to a second one that said it could cause negative effects, and also at some point OP compared trigger warnings to lobotomies in saying that “we used to think these were useful but not we don’t” at which point I was already way too far gone and upset

The irony of being completely triggered by a conversation about trigger warnings is not lost on me. Right out of the gate the responses to me were cruel and aggressive, even though they were also a trauma survivor (which tells me they were triggered but like, don’t fucking take it out on other people) and so at one point I said “They work for me, they don’t for you, we don’t have to agree” but they kept pushing that I was wrong and so I told them I was done with the conversation. Actual lived experience doesn’t count for anything.

What triggered me about this mess was going back to my ex friend and how she was so entrenched in the abuse she’d been going through her whole life that the times I tried to help her recognize what was happening was often met with anger. From her. From her family. There was one time I even tried to explain how someone gets triggered to her parents without using the word “triggered” or ‘abuse” and the only response I got from the stepdad was “You should be a psychologist”, which was a complete mindfuck with all the effort I had gone in to not outright saying “You’re the reason she’s so fucked up, you fucking assholes”

This is the kind of shit that makes me want to get mean.

 I don’t want to be nice. I don’t want to be a helpful person. I want to destroy something physically with my bare hands and scream until it feels like i can’t make sounds any more. When I try to approach with kindness and understanding and openness it opens the door for more shit to be piled through. 

[janiedean]

Dude you need to stop. OP hadn't even been aggressive, they just made a random statement on their own blog. It's a personal space. Why do you all have to feel personally offended when 1) it was ONE POST on someone's personal blog, and 2) you're the first whining about how everyone is always offended at nothing! How insensitive. Maybe they were being dramatic, but then what? Show a little compassion, if it bothers you so much just fucking ignore it and move on, jesus. Are you 12?

Also seriously, you're constantly whining about how fed up you are about wank and "Discourse™" in your fandoms, but then you're also continuously participating in said wank by upping it up and up. Ever heard it takes two to tango? Kettle, meet pot?

my dearest darling anon, wow, you really got irked over a post that has..... 50k notes and it’s not such a personal thing anymore at that point. I mean. 50k notes. it’s not just PERSONAL. but however, let’s go over this.

a) it’s my blog. I reblog what I want. If anything, assholes on tumblr who keep disguising their fairly immature rants as *venting* should stop, not me. also, that post has 50k notes and out of the reblogs on the version I reblogged, I didn’t even say the worst thing. did you send this message also to the previous three people in my reblog? :’)

b) one post? that reblog was already two, and if you go on that person’s blog there’s another three reblogs of that same OP with additions which are all OMG STRAIGHT PEOPLE SUCK SO MUCH. lol. venting. with fifty thousand notes. it’s not venting anymore when a post is that viral and they posted it on a public website most likely fully knowing that it would go viral since tumblr dot com is basically ‘straight is an insult but it’s okay to say it because who cares straight people can just take it *SHRUG*’. 

c) HOW INSENSITIVE! MAYBE THEY WERE BEING DRAMATIC! SHOW A LITTLE COMPASSION! okay, you know what?

I’m now going to take OP and reword it with my favorite subject when it comes to show you how this line of thinking is hypocritical af. and at least it’s something I am and I can relate to so y’all can’t accuse me of appropriating someone’s struggles.

good? good!

now let’s imagine this was the op:

Being in a room with religious people talking about religious things is so exhausting.

at that, someone asks me:

What the hell are ‘religious things’?

and I reply:

sunday school and reciting prayers and going to mass and confession talk and discussing about how saudi arabia is actually a very pro-feminist country (spoilers: I heard that irl myself) without being made to feel like you are making people uncomfortable and hearing catholic people talk about how horrible it is for them to talk to atheists and christians in western countries talk about how they are such victims and their lives are shit when what this really means is they are never told that they don’t have morals because of course they believe in a deity and so they are and homophobic and racist crap that drives me crazy like how the only true family is man and woman  and how great religion (ps: this was in the OP so thanks for assuming that all straight assholes in the world are also religious but okay) is and how the world is so lovely and kind and great because people have god watching out for them and he will always be with them and how religious people are like “this person is so lovely” when you know they think you’ll go to hell for being anything other than their religion or listening to religious people say atheists are the worst or talk about people who don’t want to attend religious ceremonies (ie. people who don’t want to go to masses held for dead people) as being weird or rude because WHY WOULDN’T YOU GO, or asking “but have you ever read the bible?” judgmentally as if the moment you read that you suddenly hear jesus speaking to you or getting annoyed at you when you tell them about how not nice it is to be asked all the damned time if you’re gonna kill someone one day just because you’re atheist is because it’s easy for them cause they are religious and wouldn’t know the first thing about it or having to tell people you ‘really don’t practice’ to people all the time cause they just assume you’re catholic and you’ll be getting weird looks if you don’t like, and ‘wait but really??? HOW???’ or “but you look so nice it’d be a pity if you went to hell just because you refuse to believe in god” or “well as long as you keep it for yourself but DON’T TELL YOUR GRANDMOTHER!!!” or having to hear religious people talk about how great christmas is or about the amazing shit they read in church or about how all holy books are ABSOLUTELY NOT WRITTEN BY MEN AND THEREFORE NOT FALLIBLE and about all the amazing movies about jesus or just watching people live super conventional lives and do really sexist old fashioned things just because no one is brave enough to question or think about anything… and worst of all knowing that if you were to say or talk about anything atheist everyone would get uncomfortable and not join in on the conversation and wish you had said nothing… and then people will be like “you hardly said anything”, “you’re so quiet”, “you don’t talk much”, “are you shy”, “you’re boring”.

No bitch I’m atheist and I don’t relate to nor am I really interested in any of the shit that you have been yelling to my face for the last hour.

now, I’ll tell you what would happen: ANY DECENT RELIGIOUS PERSON I FOLLOW WOULD ASK ME WHAT THE FUCK I WAS SMOKING AND IF I REALLY THINK ALL RELIGIOUS PEOPLE ARE LIKE THAT AND ALL RELIGIONS ARE LIKE THAT, AND EVERYONE WOULD ASSUME I WAS A PROPER FUCKING ASSHOLE BECAUSE I JUST GENERALIZED 70% OF THE PLANET IN A LONGWINDED RIDICULOUSLY EMBARRASSING RANT WHERE ON SOME THINGS I MIGHT BE RIGHT AND ON OTHERS I JUST SHOWED A HORRID AMOUNT OF IGNORANCE.

also, since atheists are all assholes, I’d just confirm their ideas that all atheists are assholes who think they’re so much better than anyone else.

does that post look so harmless, put like this? would it look harmless, if the category mocked was anything but straight people? let me tell you: it wouldn’t. not on here, anyway. and now we get to the best part of this frankly ridiculous ask that you of course sent on anon because like hell you’d say that to my face, hm?

Show a little compassion, if it bothers you so much just fucking ignore it and move on, jesus. Are you 12?

no, I’m 29. and OP of that post, who definitely fucking sounds like he’s twelve, because I could have written the above post about how religion sucks when I was in my dawkins phase and I was THIRTEEN and like two years later I already learned to be a little less dramatic, is twenty-seven. out of someone who’s almost thirty, I’d expect some maturity.

but never mind that. the point is: actually, I did it. I ignored a fucking shitload of posts like this since the year of the lord 2013 when they started becoming a thing on tumblr. I ignored posts saying that ‘the only good use straight allies have is getting thrown off a cliff’, I ignored posts about how horrid cishets are, I ignored posts about cishets ‘are like omg they want a cookie for being nice to us that should be the basics’ as if in some places just being pro-lgbt can’t get you fired or put you against your family or get yourself in a hospital, but of course hey, we’re straight, we’re the majority, we inherently oppress anyone who’s not, who cares, amrite? I had to watch this website spiral into a mentality where straight is an insult, basically, and so hey we have a post laughing about straight girls’s tastes, straight girls being into ***ugly boys***, straight girls being brainwashed by the patriarchy because they actually like men when they could be lesbians and be so much better off in tumblr’s amazing pastel unicorns and rainbows lesbian aesthetic where no one feels sexual attraction and everything is platonic and we don’t talk about bills because how fucking boring. I ignored all of that shit for years because y’all were VENTING and you could only do it online so hey what’s the harm in it, and guess what, I’m done. It bothers me so much because it normalizes a mentality where it’s okay to insult people for things they can’t change about themselves rather than aim at, like, HOMOPHOBES. WHO ARE THE ROOT OF THE PROBLEM. but nah, hey, I just have to scroll by the umpteenth post insulting straight people because they talk about things also lgbt people talk about APPARENTLY, because is2g I can assure you that in my fandom group of friends where *I* am camp straight 90% of the time and everyone else is not we actually fucking talk about mortgages and bills and how much renovating a house sucks and how it costs and how it doesn’t and about taxes and about how poor we’re going to be when we retire.

but apparently to OP all this kinda shit is just STRAIGHT TALKING. yeah, lol. anyway, this is kindergarten level attitude and people should have been told to can it years ago, and honestly given that ‘scroll by and ignore’ is an attitude I had for years to avoid conflict and it only caused me trouble, excuse me if I’m done helping feeding a mentality that’s completely fucking useless, because this line of thinking just alienates people. also wow now that I read this post I should feel bad for talking to my non-hetero friends about pretty much anything according to OP? some straight kid younger than me and more impressionable who might actually buy into this website’s bullshit reads this and what will they think? that every time they discuss anything with a gay friend nearby that person is seething inside and hating all of them? could happen. anyway, point is: that post is ridiculous, it has 50k notes and I’m 99% sure most of them actually agree with OP and I wasn’t taught to keep my mouth shut if I hear people saying dumbass things and everyone agrees. that’s not how you do activism. enabling this way of thinking is not helping anyone, least of all OP.

other than that: 

you're constantly whining about how fed up you are about wank and "Discourse™" in your fandoms, but then you're also continuously participating in said wank by upping it up and up

so excuse me, telling people who are actually fucking wrong and spew and enable actually dangerous concepts like idk the fact that people up until eighteen years old have the same decisional capacity as five year olds, that you cannot consent to sex if you aren’t eighteen and one hour old, that you can’t date someone older or younger than you even if you’re both of age because PEDOPHILIA and that consuming problematic fiction is wrong is UPPING THE WANK?

ANON, WHAT THE FUCK. so now if donald trump does ridiculous things and says dumb shit people who disagree should just shut up and let him work and ignore it when the things he does are dangerous? anti thinking is dangerous and keeping your mouth shut and going like ‘they’ll grow out of it’ is not going to work, it’s going to make the situation worse and it’s going to get people hurt.

telling people to FUCKING CAN IT and explaining them a few basic concepts about the difference between fiction and real life is not upping the fucking wank, and calling people out on fucking dumb opinions is not the same as enabling toxic ways of thinking. good lord, if someone irl tells me that interracial marriages are wrong and disgusting what should I do, shrug and let them think I agree or MAYBE EXPLAIN THEM THAT IT’S REALLY RETROGRADE TO THINK SUCH A THING?

I mean, do you need a power point to get the difference?

kettle meet pot like hell. I never started any wank, I never posted one thing purposefully offending an entire category of people just to VENT, none of my posts ever got more than 3k notes - honest I think I had ONE that got that much and it was convention pictures of SPN actors so sure as hell I’m not getting seen by 50k people so OP actually has more leverage than me in this discourse - and assuming I’m actually doing the same thing as OP when everything I’m doing is pointing out that it’s not a healthy way of thinking and that this fucking website is turning into a worse dumpster with every passing moment since at this point the fact that I was born being fine with my sexual characteristic and liking dick is apparently enough to decide that I inherently oppress minorities just by existing and it’s not a line of thinking that activists anywhere should support, is intellectually dishonest and frankly fucking laughable especially coming from someone who doesn’t even put their face to what they ask.

and anyway, OP is a grown ass man and can take care of themselves and of a few disagreeing opinions if he wants to be on a public website where his posts go viral.

and I have absolutely no obligation to keep my mouth shut about things that are imo very fucking dangerous slip-slopes.

there. and now, since I am not going to keep my mouth shut just to make you or OP feel better, you can click the unfollow button if you dislike my opinions that much or you can stick around and learn that sometimes being an adult is a thing that should happen, especially if you frame shit as activism.

anyway, I don’t even know who you are so it’s not like I’ll miss you personally. :’)