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hanzi83 · 2 years ago

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Wrestling Racism Discourse

Whenever I think maybe for a week I can stop doing a blog because I got my thoughts out plus I am doing it often on the podcast, and whenever I tell myself I am not going to be sucked into the wrestling discourse, you know I always end up giving in because they can manage to have so much thrown at you and if you are online consuming it and other promoted mental illness, someone like me who has mental illness, starts feeling really vitriolic to the system that helps organize and gimmick the discourse where we still don’t want to admit we are basically playing characters online who are trying to act like human beings and I feel I am one of few who is trying to break through from this real life kayfabed shit, and because this discourse is planned out, even if the lawsuit goes nowhere, the fact that is has become cannon online, is basically the system playing with people’s emotions, having their shills set more fires as the world is burning, we need to add more comedy to the situation because apparently we don’t have enough of that in our world. In the last decade, they promoted more diversity and inclusion even if it was still limited, I thought we were going in a more revolutionary direction, but it feels like so much as imploded, that we are now pushing back against the system that is racist, and people who used to claim to be truth tellers are now making excuses for larger racist issues, but will call out the most transparent and cartoonish, over the top shit, like people complain about forced diversity when it seems like a liberal agenda but I never remember a time where the ideology of white supremacy has now a diversity headcount, normally people like that go off on forced liberal minded shit but when people realistically call out the system for the racism, then all of a sudden the people who shit on the diversity head count then use it as a badge of honor when bigger issues get brought up. Like even this situation with the writer who is suing the company, there has to be this fucking doubt about if she can prove this matter, but hasn’t there been enough obvious racism and corruption to kill any benefit of the doubt for this company. If I put this specific situation to the side, in my personal opinion, these entertainment institutions have always had their hand in fundamentalist level shit and it is obvious by who they are aligned with politically, how this alleged mafia world can destroy people’s lives for exploitation so there can be a future documentary about the fall of that person, because once you are a public figure, especially these days, everything is for sale. I know people online want to act like that is not realistic, while they continuously get worked by planted online narratives, and having to cling on to a kayfabed reality of WWE being pure because they momentarily got rid of Vince so you could prolong your unhealthy obsession for this fandom. This isn’t one of those “You people” type of rants, because I feel bad for the brainwashed, and I have empathy for people who used to be human but now reduce themselves to be uncharismatic cookie cutter regressive edge lords, because the system is gonna destroy them. You can get mad at what I say as you and your group chats secretly analyze and make elitist jokes, you can keep doubling down, but the more and more you cross the line in the secretive way you do, it will eventually seep it into your mind, some people can make break free from there but some of these people enjoy this way too much, it feels like you could very well be broken for a very long time, and if it is not there mentally, your nice aesthetic could crumble down. That is how exploitative and mentally ill I perceive the system, even if you don’t buy into my “conspiratorial narratives” I can at least look at the patterns of stuff in the political and entertainment world. There has to be a reason why there seems to be some kind of far right wing pipeline from pro wrestling and since we are headed into a world where we are sports entertaining ourselves into fascism, it becomes scary to see what kind of mindset and regressive shit influential people are doing.

So these pitches were so over the top and I am not saying they are not problematic at all but I feel since everything becomes material for online narratives, it feels a way for the attitude era reboot online to amplify the racist shit and kind of in an “ironic” way try to amplify the ideas because they want that reality and they constantly will advocate for it but if they have to see someone who is out of the closet and using their identity as part of their character, you have to see people like that cry about it because they might accidentally get an erection because they are self hating closeted people who have embraced sensationalist anti LGBTQ shit and that isn’t people who “don’t give a fuck” they have to make it seem like that so it feels like it is the early 2000’s again and like most bigots they rather be problematic as the cool straight guy rather than doing it because there is self hatred there. No one who is am employed social climber online politicking for a gig can be taken seriously about their takes on these limited guise of racism, when you have reduced and dumbed down Vince McMahon to an America’s dumbest criminal level villain who randomly calls every other black employee Shelton, because if we make up a narrative that is spread online so we can embrace made up shit and think we are owning Vince. People who got their gigs have tried to discredit everyone who called out a racist system, and didn’t have a mental breakdown the appropriate way. I don’t forget. AEW shills don’t have a leg to stand on when a lot of people piled on Big Swole for not even saying anything too offensive, but valid criticism, she could’ve even gone deeper I feel, but even that tamed down criticism had to push a bunch of racists to call her all kinds of names, and then a bunch of the mentally ill shills, not the over the top mentally ill shills, but the ones who create chaos so they can act out them being the “Jim from the Office” role, those mentally ill shills then suddenly had problems with the company and they could only do it so we facilitate the fucking ego of someone who has already been vindicated in CM Punk. Not saying I don’t empathize with the guy and understand being in an abusive and mafia system it will fuck you up, but sometimes it feels like he has been so into this system that he is creating his own problematic cult and it only matters when he fucking gets screwed over but because someone like Swole is not a big star, it is okay to pile on her and throw her away. Sorry that shit is not acceptable. I will always bring it up. People also owe ACH a fucking apology, and a bunch of these fake ass shit head mental health advocates online saying “Just because you are mentally ill, or have a break down, doesn’t men you can be an asshole” I am not saying if someone crosses the line you don’t prevent it from getting worse, but dealing with a racist system and it goes deeper than just a racist shirt, already dealing with enough of pressure that comes from being a minority in this world, especially a mafia industry that has had some of the worst racism, mental and physical abuse, and corruption, and people gave him a more aggressive exile because he didn’t mentally ill the right away and these people don’t actually care about mental illness because they don’t disclose what drives mental illness to be fueled and they don’t talk about the layers upon layers that could break someone down.

I am just saying we will look back at racism and past ignorance and denounce it and pat ourselves on the back because it isn’t like how it was back then, but the systemic shit has never fully been explained in this mafia world, and you don’t know how much this shit has advanced and we have paid social climbers to keep up a limited narrative and a lot of times it has lead to going more to the regressive side. This is why people take wrestling seriously because this has seemingly been the playground for other fields and industries have taken from to put out in the atmosphere to manufacture consent. Like when people had an issue with the Apollo Crews character, people online were told that it is racist to not give this shit a chance and it made me second guess myself, because maybe it would be used to mock racism from society and WWE has done that before in 2005 when the Mexi Cools debut, their initial promo was about how this is how America sees them and sarcastically encouraged them to mock them and then proceeded to call the crowd gringos, and then it never got mentioned again and it went on to just be the standard stereotype and this is what Apollo Crews’ gimmick turned out to be. It feels because someday there will be a documentary correlating past shit with current controversies that are real but they are presented gimmicked, this is why they keep throwing repeated documentaries and introducing them back into the public sphere because there will be more twists and turns. If you accept that this might be the reality then it would expose how exploited cogs in the system turn out to be fucked up mentally and some will just go into major depression or others become more successful even if they become more mentally ill, but now they will use their mental illness to use resources where you can fund social experiments and causing more chaos into the world. It feels between the 9/11 character, telling Bianca to talk more “ghetto”, Shane Thorne being a guy who hunts people and one of the people pitched was Reggie, which is not good aesthetic, it feels like it is just another way for WWE to further cement themselves as villains because they have been going that way in general, and when their political affiliates will regain whatever power, they will double down on creating a more regressive product. Like it is easier for the fandom and maybe some of the analysts for this to exist so we can keep denouncing this, but no one is gonna politic for more progressive characters, like when Muhammed Hassan appeared, normally I would get mad that some Italian gets to play the Muslim and for a reduced stereotype, but because I felt his promos in the beginning for inclusive for Muslims to feel like they had a valid gripe against the racism, I felt like I was included, it seems like they will make sure to put effort that there is nothing radical about any character. You can’t even have characters acknowledge in kayfabe there has been racist behavior normalized. MCU just finally started doing that shit, and even in a limited way people will shit on it but they are okay with the regressive shit existing because they can pretentiously denounce it but actually wanting that discourse to exist. We have become parodies in that regard. You would think some of the progressively minded people in the industry would advocate for that, since by default regressive shit is the right wing status quo. People gained credibility for calling out another cog in the system in Hogan who I feel has been designed to be this scandal like figure because that is where the entertainment storylines were going, but what gave it away that it was gimmicked for Hogan mainly, people were ignoring other racists like Flair and we waited until sexual harassment claims to “cancel him” but is he really canceled or was this another way for another celebrity to make this right wing pivot. Again everything I am saying might have some truth, but these are my opinions. Remember you who decided I was to be irrelevant and discredited have weaponized my mental illness, so I am not allowed to use my mental illness to put out theories since I am not important to the masses anyways.

So this woman will probably have to deal with harassment and people downplaying her claims and they will have trolls look up shit she ever posted and discredit her so they can knock another minority down a notch like you did for that other woman writer who WWE hired and then suddenly the radio shows like Busted Open and other shitty system shills, ones who claim they don’t even watch WWE, suddenly were invested in destroying this women’s life, making fun of her comedy even though their online boosted humor is not that enthralling and I have seen it done by better people. Like even with Mercedes leaving right, I feel like because WWE has systemic control of the entire industry because they are that powerful in my opinion, I feel like when people leave and go onto shine somewhere else, they still orchestrate the booking so Mercedes is supposed to do better outside WWE because they never properly utilized her in kayfabe despite having a loyal following and because Noami is not on Mercedes’s level as far as internet credibility etc, people think they know what her limitations are and make her seem like she is irrelevant and not as talented because she may have not have had the best storylines in the WWE, like WWE doesn’t do a good job limiting people’s full potential, but besides being really athletic, in 2015 before Becky/Charlotte/Sasha aka Mercedes debuted, Naomi was killing it on the mic, she didn’t flat out called out racism, but her promos had that tone of her not getting as many opportunities etc and it was really compelling and people forget that and even though I liked Team BAD, it felt like it kind of didn’t ride out the momentum of what Naomi’s character could’ve been, and I saw potential, and despite her booking she has gotten cosigned by Beyonce and people are into her, but even in the “outside the WWE” narrative, you have a bunch of paid social climbers always doing subtle racist shit and rooting for her to fail and acting like she can’t be anything bigger and a lot of it is fueled in racism. This shit is normalized and this isn’t just random crazy assholes, these people in my opinion are funded by the system to constantly put that out there. So this racism is beyond this over the top scandal that is leaking out and it won’t get any better, it will just create more limited conversations that will always end up bargaining with the right wing side so they can always sneak in their fucking bigotry and ignorance while people are not allowed to have revolutionary characters, they want the regressive nature of bra and panties matches, but they are scared to have another Nation of Domination, or another Muhammed Hassan. We have to give this industry the benefit of the doubt constantly and present it like a mom and pop shop and compare Vince to whatever cartoonish boss from your favorite fucking television show.

You have to understand how the entertainment we consume daily and has been part of our lives have helped encourage this manic behavior. I was on Stern Show, i don’t know if any of you reading knew about that, it is not like I ever mention it or anything but when his fandom, the regressive types missed his 90’s persona of ignorance because they viewed him going politically correct, so to appease that fandom I felt I needed to say the craziest and most shock jock level thinking even if Howard Stern officially says he doesn’t support that, he will say if you are interesting he will ride with your call, but if you try to act normal he will get rid of you and only when he sense some instability in your head he will amplify you up and laugh at the regressive shit so you feel kind of pressured to do that shit but officially I can’t really put it on Howard, even though you have a feeling someone of his stature wants that kind of shit, so when people think that this shit in WWE is so random and over the top, what kind of culture has that company fostered where people think this is the stuff that would get approved. We have to continuously give these entertainment institutions and corporations the benefit of the doubt. Don’t think because I don’t get my face punched in, that people with power will use their power to amplify more shit to fuck with me, or make my life more uncomfortable. Everyone can be touched, I don’t ever think nothing won’t happen to me, I know I have their attention with my blogs, that is why there has to be extra effort to drive me crazy by having more more ignored and not acknowledged but they miscalculated because they figure I would just explode and go away but me giving my opinions about how this could play out or how this might be playing out, they do get nervous and they have to align with the trolls who have harassed me over the last decade, they have been on the low right now, but when they are on the low that is when I feel the real planning is going on. And anyone who tries to speak about about shit in various ways other than the kayfabed and limited shit, people get fucked with, but I just lose my mind when I see calculated racism being used while we try to create other gimmicked ways for this to be presented. I am supposed to take people’s concerns about physical health seriously when people love to amplify situations where people’s lives are more in chaos and you are making their followers worse mentally since everyone is now kind of part of a cult. Instead of talking about how this mafia industry could possibly have their initiations and sacrifices to the system where injuries are supposed to happen, trust me if they didn’t want injuries to happen, they could easily fix shit to prevent shit in this day and age. Again my personal opinion, like what MJF said which was in real life kayfabe because he mentioned the pay window and winning the match but I hate when these people tweet and delete and then the company’s shills can lie about the responses it got that they swear were so vitriolic, not saying there isn’t that but generalizing the fans when the system is the one who trains these people to accept this. Ever since the Benoit/Eddie situations, people read the riot acts of how it needs to be more safe and it took a while to getting used to because of the attitude era made us immune to thinking it was a big deal, so now you had a generation give a shit about what these people face, and now we are undoing it more and people can’t just change it so now injuries become subject of discourse. So if MJF really gave a shit, he would call out the bosses that want that kind of shit to happen, in fact people will think WWE is too clean cut on some level, but I feel they advocate for it to happen in other organizations because to me it is part of the initiation process, and maybe someday it can change. Also the way these athletes are this day and age, nothing makes sense, I don’t believe it is just good exercise and healthy living, I will be fully conspiratorial right now and think that there is like a fucking super serum these mother fuckers are taking, maybe they can even afford an illuminati clone, who fucking knows. It is impossible for someone like Bobby Lashley to look 20 times younger than he was 20 years ago. This is why I say these celebs are not like regular people, doesn’t mean they don’t deal with some serious shit but they have to make shit relatable, but I don’t disagree with MJF’s sentiment of not trying to kill yourself, and these companies constantly promoting it while pretending they take the health seriously, if I am judging it by the basic rules you are applying, then it just shows me how exploitative the entire thing is. Maybe that is why I cling on to these shitty conspiracy theories because I wouldn’t want to believe people are this fucking soulless that they even have to practice how to emote human vulnerability on queue. So when sports entertainers shills start generalizing the entire community it gets fucking annoying and as much vitriol as I have for other cogs in the system, my main anger is and will always be this shitty system that creates this hell hole yet we continuously give free passes to it and we love to have these heel turns take place, you know John Mulane is going heel, he planted his seeds by first having people hate him for the parasocial shit of him breaking up with his girlfriend, I don’t care about that shit because most of these celebs are in open or fake relationships, part of their storyline arc now is their relationships, then they gimmick his whole appeal about his drug addiction so now it gets used so it can create art, but on tour he brought out Chappelle unadvertised and not being considerate to people who maybe wouldn’t have gone if they knew he was there, and now the John Cena Hollywood hairdo, it is signs of someone going to be used to being a fucking heel since everyone is becoming one these days. These political analysts will reduce and dumb shit down so we are in this right wing vortex of Candace Owens and Steve Crowder so even though they are both pieces of shit, we have to love one side for a little bit, because again everything has to be levitated with comedy and we just continue to water down that more. And you wonder why I just watch Sopranos rewatches, because nowadays I think humor is at its most useless. I am not saying there isn’t anything funny but it feels like everything has to have humor latched onto it and when we keep doing that, we are watering this shit down, haven’t you gotten sick of that already? Does everyone have to be a fucking comedian? This world is going to shit and every day they are normalizing more shitty laws and continued oppression of marginalized groups only for us to represent the issue by what a celebrity is going through but then we have to sports entertain that too, where we are not getting to root causes of some of the repeated behavior in this world. And for what? More documentaries, more social climbers to aspire to be the main character in this discourse. This is how unwell our entire society is and I know, I know, you will get more mad at me rather than getting mad at the people who helped create this and help fund it. Everyone has to devalue everyone and I am not fucking different, I don’t like getting all irrational and lash out because I feel people are selling their soul and to make shit worse and become status quo type of people, why would I want to root for people to get more success so they can become more awful, because the system tries to make you that, some people are not completely gone and they try to counter the propaganda to some degree, I don’t want to be nihilistic, just because I don’t have desire to be in this world as it continues to crumble, doesn’t mean I don’t want other people to be happy in the future and maybe they can be free from this shit on some level. So you might not like my fucking message, but maybe on some level I am sabotaging myself from getting a gig because if I do, then I will have to become a soulless hypocrite who is being lured into the dark side, I can get myself canceled and then blame the wokeness for it and because these people who get canceled want to hang on to relevancy, the right wing are the only ones saving them, and I know I am not likeable, maybe I would be a better committed heel, it sure as hell easier than trying to be the good guy, but I want to maintain not being a full piece of shit where I fucking trivialize people who have a right to be angry at the system for the shit they do to people, the constant trauma, I am supposed to join that side and become an elitist so I can put people down because I can’t lash out at the real powers that are making me this miserable person. I might never find peace, and I have accepted that, but I don’t want to end up being regressive, I don’t want to be the guy who becomes more conservative the older I fucking get. Maybe being irrelevant and being able to express my irrational thoughts has made it a bit easier not to fall into regressive habits, because anyone who tries to collaborate with me, seems like they are sent to be the voice of the system narrative and keep an eye on shit I am saying. Again if this is not true, again chalk it up to my mental illness and reduce me to a guinea pig and parody that you mock because I don’t want to be an elitist type of person, I don’t even want to be around that kind of shit. If these people wanted to make this industry more exciting, they would let real inclusion to get a voice instead of a diversity headcount, you want everything else back from the shitty and overhyped attitude era, but you don’t want any progressive shit and since we live in an era where it is post BLM protests of 2020, it feels like it is like how it was 20 years ago, where they pushed back against social consciousness and we marketed fake anti establishment people like an Eminem, or Steve Austin, or a fucking Tony Soprano, and we are doing that now, where the person who is “anti establishment against wokeness” gets more traction than someone who wants some more revolutionary change and someone claiming shit is racist, they have now pushed back against it because they might use sensationalist examples of people who had agendas or shadiness behind them to discredit their entire point. So yeah it sucks, and I know me being sad about this going this way is music to people’s ears but trust me, as much as you hate me for going about it the way I am, one day you will be faced with having to deal with these thoughts and the more you double down it will keep getting worse but maybe you are in a mind state where you don’t need to worry because being protected by the system you don’t have to be accountable. I have to be accountable, I have to put disclaimers because I can’t technically prove every theory I have and I don’t expect people to believe me 100 percent and that is fine, I have to accept it. But you have to accept that not everyone has to go down the regressive lane and get a bag to help make the world worse, because when I was dumbed down, me putting energy into shit that I didn’t know was destructive, is bad enough for me and I always tried to look at all angles because even the conspiracy world has even limited people’s thinking and they are the ones who think they are critical thinkers.

Anyways per usual, this blog gets out of control, but every day the wrestling world knows how to fucking get me to react to this nonstop discourse over and over. I look like the biggest hypocrite who can’t separate from this shit, I really wish it was not this way. I hope there is some progressive revolutionary shit but chances are we are not ever getting that, the more people who buy into the system, they will then have their propaganda that they will be okay with even if it means you can kind of be forward thinking to some degree. Who fucking knows. I clearly don’t have the solutions because look at me, I am irrelevant and my aesthetic is all the wrong things with this fucking world apparently but you guys are good looking and have suits and are going to important events etc, so clearly you are the better person because there hasn’t been a fucked up person who has a nice aesthetic before, but you have the propaganda machine creating villains to match the aesthetic so when they discover my blogs and podcasts, you can lump me in with the worst, and I accept people will assume the worst, but as long as I know I am not the biggest piece of shit on this planet, I will sleep as comfortable as I can be. But whenever this discourse gets propped up, this is what the system wants, mentally ill behavior where we are at each other's throats. So maybe you didn’t like how I put this shit out there, but I am sick of the same repeated discourse over identity politics when there is not gonna be a real solution presented, it is just designed to push back so people can say that political correctness and wokeness is what is driving this world crazy and not the normalized fundamentalism within the guise of entertainment taking us into a more fascist future. Congratulations I guess.

#Hanzi 2023 WWE AEW Racism anti blackness ACH Swole CM Punk sports entertainment Vince McMahon political fundamentalism mental illness #regressive industry fascism comedy

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superchat · 2 years ago

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dont think you know just all the shit i did trying to find this video.

first, i found when i downloaded it. cool. october 26th. easy.

i go to my archive. not there.

searching for keywords on my blog? not there.

okay well i remember i saw the video before i read goodbye eri. it was part of my motivation to read it actually. tumblr is eating my searchwords so ill just have to ctrl+f my archive.

wow nov 14th! cool! i still cant find it.

there is a blog i like that posts stuff sometimes and i thought they posted it but they got softbanned which doesnt let you search it. ill go to my likes from december ALL THE WAY TO OCTOBER AND TRY TO FIND IT. WHICH I DIDNT. WHY WOULDNT I LIKE IT I HAVE 71K LIKES I LIKE EVERY POST I SEE THAT CATCHES ME ATTENTION

between doing this i found posts from the blog i think posted it and used tumblrs dumb gimmicks to scroll down from a post in october down as far as patience and buffer loading will allow me. got no luck with that, i try to inspect element on several pages using the mp4 filename to try and see if its anywhere, i go to other blogs and check their archives, i find that the earlier youtube uplaod is from april 10th this year so i check all these blogs up until april for it.

i take a screenshot of the first frame and tried to image search it (also tried using keywords, forcing to only show tumblr.com etc)

i!!!!!!!! i have an archive of my tumblr likes!!!!! its a different one than i use now and its old but i still have it! maybe i can search it and find it! and guess what!!! i DO find it! so then i spend like. such a long time trying to get my brain to make a connection between like. THIS. and my actual blog. or my likes. or even my dash. im stuck still. theres SOMEthing so close i could feel there was a link i could make but this archive was kind of confusing me and i mightve been mistaking it as my likes when it was my blog? but that didnt make too much sense. even writing this i took like 15 mins into making sense out of it and in the end, im pretty sure i just downloaded a ton of shit from the actual DASH ITSELF just to see how it worked. so yes its in there. but that video was reblogged by someone in. november 29th or something. like good luck. finding that.

looked into ways i could jsut to a timestamp in the dash, there isnt one. looked into trying to understand the filenaming system and if there was a way i could use that to reverse search a post, there isnt. went throuugh my likes AGAIN as well as ppls posts AGAIN to try and find it. tried to edit the html in tumblr to get arouund searching through softbanned blogs cuz theres one "exploit" but bot really and that ended up going nowhere.

bro i tried HARD to find this post. io really did.

like dude. https://va.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_rkecphK8mw1zhrcay_720.mp4

this link? it opens to the video from the original post. its right there. its so close. there has to be a way to connect the two, reverse search to the post using the data from the link. something. this bugs me so much. i can have the filename "tumblr_rkecphK8mw1zhrcay_720" but not actually DO anything with it

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ruki--mukami · 2 years ago

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will you do any more animatics? the anniversary one was wonderful & i loved that you draw some of oc ruki interacted with. you are my favorite canon blog.

🧩 First of all, thank you so much, Anon!! It means a lot to me that my canon blog would be your favorite. I always try to exceed expectations when it comes to my portrayal of Ruki. Second, I definitely plan on drawing more animatics in the future!! Although it should be noted that the anniversary one took me a long time, even with the rushed art style. I plan on using my more serious rendered work for the next animatic, which means it will most likely take me months to finish. However, I do have a list of ideas swirling around in my head, and do feel free to suggest ones that I haven’t thought of yet (I can’t promise it’ll be completed within the next year or two, but I’ll do my best).

Harem Ruki animatic. Yes, this is just asking for trouble (and torture). Honestly I probably have to tone it down A LOT, otherwise it would be ill-suited for Tumblr or even YouTube for that matter.

A Rosenfeld inspired animatic (aka Horny Ruki). I would love to draw illustrations for his song in particular ‘Do It for Me.’

Of course, the 2nd year anniversary animatic. This will feature OCs again, as well as newcomers who weren’t here the previous year. I’m still working on the gimmick behind that, since the 1st year anniversary was basically about how Ruki was frustrated he couldn’t become Adam yet still found true happiness with someone outside the Adam and Eve plan. I’d like to revolve the plot around a concept that doesn’t exclude Yui as well, since I want her to have a more positive role the 2nd time around. Maybe this is far too ambitious of me, but I also want to commission voice actors someday to really bring the animatic to life, or even other artists to speed up the process since it’s a lot for me to draw on my own. But I know that would cost A TON of money better spent on necessities, so for now I’ll most likely continue to draw every single frame by myself. 🧩

#the admin speaks #memento #ruki mukami #mukami ruki

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sladewilsonisanantihero · 3 years ago

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The Original Intent of Terra and how Deathstroke got the bad end of the stick for it

Okay, Deathstroke Children (Idk what to call you guys because fellow Deathstrokers would end this conversation immediately), I found the time to do this, so let's get to it!

(Note: My original laptop broke with my comics, so I have no images to spare, so it will be sourced. Another note: Many words will be in bold. Partly so that for those reading will not lose track.)

But if tl;dr:

Cold Hard Truth: Everyone from Terra fans to Deathstroke fans needs to stop seeing these characters as real people.

Original Terra wasn't human trafficked or whatever sob story people want to label her with. The CREATORS intended her to be written as Evil without the mental illness and to die for the shock value. They had Raven, The Literal Empath, spell this out in Judas Contract. As for Deathstroke's involvement, he was shoved into her creation story, and Marv Wolfman himself recognized his mistake in doing that.

And for those calling Deathstroke a nazi, Original Terra had nazi-like beliefs where common people should fear and serve them or be killed off just because they're 'special'. Again, BLUNTLY stated in the Judas Contract. So if you're going to call Deathstroke a Pedophile, we'll call OG Terra a Neo-Nazi. (But I highly advice for Deathstroke Fans to not start that kind of war, but I had to say what I had to say.)

Don't get me wrong. (Hopefully all) Deathstroke fans know that their relationship was wrong just like Marv Wolfman, and we do not support pedophiles! But Slade isn't a pedophile! He was never intended to be written as one! It was a mistake made on many levels and should be rewritten like OG Terra's Evil Neo-Nazi-like personality, instead of being thrown into cancel culture.

Also for Deathstroke fans, don't get upset over their content and begin any argument emotionally. Just enjoy whatever good content we can get and support it if you can. Hopefully we'll get our Deathstroke movies and so on!

So I've briefly chatted with one of you over the matter with Terra/Tara Markov and how upsetting it is about how people refer to Slade Wilson as a Pedophile. That is a serious accusation that would make it very uncomfortable to argue about since it can easily make it seem like we justify the actions of pedophiles, and that we are part of pedophile culture that does exist in social media space.

AND WE SHOULDN'T, AND FOR ANTIS READING THIS WE WON'T.

But there was a time when I used to have a blog called friendlyremindersofsladewilson, where I defended Slade and put the blame all on Terra. I was 14 at the time, and looking back at it, I am not proud of it because I realized now as an adult how I defended it for most of the wrong reasons, but still stand with the fact that SLADE IS NOT A PEDOPHILE.

And since this took place when I was so young, it compelled me to write this post because I fear some of you are really young, too, and may end up in this regretful position.

So to make it clear, what Slade had been written to do is a crime, and we should acknowledge it, but not in the way as if it was a crime acted out in real life.

What I mean by that is that there's a clear separation between fiction and reality where one isn't real (Duh!). In this case, it's about the mistakes made between fiction and reality. In reality, mistakes made by the person responsible is on the person. In fiction, mistakes made is dependent on the creator's intent, and sometimes the creators can make mistakes themselves.

Most notably Terra's:

Tara Markov/Terra was created by Marv Wolfman and George Perez.

In Marv Wolfman's literal website, he stated in his online "What the-?" column:

"Which leads to Terra. That was easy. George and I wanted a Titan who betrayed the others. we also wanted to play against every reader conception of who characters are. George and I knew her whole story before we began and we knew she would die. We set the story up with her trying to destroy the Statue of Liberty to show she was the bad girl, but we knew if George drew her as a cute kid everyone would simply assume she would be ‘turned’ from the dark side because that’s the way it was always done which is why that wouldn’t be the way we did it. Tara was insane an stayed that way right until the moment she died. By the way, she IS dead. I don’t know what other writers will do with her – if anything – but if they want to honor the original series they will leave her dead. The Terra from Team Titans was – as stated – some kid the villain kidnapped and physically and mentally altered her into looking and acting like the original. But she was NEVER the real Terra."

And it should also be noted that he stated before this statement that:

"...Only mistake I think I made with him is having him have a physical relationship with the 16 year old Tara Markov. That was wrong."

So Marv Wolfman himself recognizes that what he did was a mistake, but his intent on Terra was never to write a victim.

And quick note: Insanity isn't written as a mental illness here. It's written like how many villains are labeled as insane for having skewed beliefs that deviates from the common good.

Terra truly had some nazi-like beliefs where she BELIEVED that everyone who wasn't 'special' like her and the Teen Titans deserved to be treated like shit because they weren't 'special' like them. She bluntly said it herself in the Judas Contract.

As for George Perez's comment in an interview I found in this website:

"GEORGE: Tara was just a cute little girl, although I based a little bit of that on my wife Carol’s sister, Barbara. A little upturned nose… Barbara does not have the teeth that Tara had. I wanted Tara to be a girl who looked normal. Which also means her death caught everyone even more offguard.

Tara, she was made to be killed; she served her purpose. That was it.

ANDY: You didn ‘t get any attachment to Tara?

GEORGE: No, because I knew we were going to kill her. So I deliberately used all the things to make her as likeable and cute as possible, so people would never believe we were going to kill a sixteen-year-old. And she was a sixteen-year-old sociopath. She was one of our cleverest gimmicks; we deliberately created her in order to lead everyone astray. So we couldn’t build any fondness for her, ’cause we knew full well what her whole motive for existence was. Her existence was basically to keep the stories interesting; we were tossing a curve that no one would have expected.

ANDY: You didn ‘t even love to hate her, huh?

GEORGE: No. I loved handling her, because she was such a good idea. But she was an idea. Not as much a person. She was there to show exactly how much their humanity can be one thing they have to be careful about, the Teen Titans have to be careful about. . . they can be too trusting, or their own weaknesses can be used against them."

Terra was supposed to be a representation of An Evil Betrayal of Trust and That Not All Cute Girls Are Good.

But they took it too far by making her sleep with Deathstroke because they wanted to truly make her look evil by literally sleeping with the enemy. Y'know because this was the 80s, and women having sex was an evil act back then, and that point of view has somewhat or barely improved 40 years later.

Deathstroke was just shoved into this idea, and Marv tried and perhaps failed at trying to undo this mistake with his talk with Beastboy (Tales of the Teen Titans issue #55) and before his confrontation from Wintergreen (Deathstroke (1991); Chapter 35).

So just as I had stated at the top in the tl;dr, it was a mistake made on many levels and should have been rewritten out just as many had done with OG Terra's true personality, and be done with it.

Random person: "He still slept with a 16-year-old."

And it's not that hard to make other heroes and villains do this mistake. Because again, it's all fiction. Deathstroke's fictional. As in Not Real, so we could literally undo the damage by rewriting this mistake. Or make it worse by making Terra the rapist by her using her Earth powers to bind Slade down and force him, and you can't deny that it's plausible. Because she's fictional. Anything can happen. So why didn't Slade tell Beastboy whether he slept with her or not, maybe it was because he really didn't want to but he was forced into it. And that's just something you can't dump on a very emotional man who was trying to kill you a moment ago.

ALL THE POSSIBILITIES BECAUSE IT'S FICITIONAL!

But ANYWAY, I went way too dark there.

Ending on a brighter note: Personally to all Deathstroke fans, please value your mental health, please don't start any arguments that'll compromise it, and continue supporting Deathstroke in whatever way you can!

#Deathstroke #Slade Wilson

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fucktexas · 4 years ago

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5 years of Fuck Texas - Coming to an end

fuck texas turns 5 very soon, and, well, i dont think it needs to go much further than that, to be honest. this may come as a shock to you, or you may have expected this completely. i’m not your dad, i have no idea what goes on in your mind. maybe your dad doesn’t either. i digress.

ive... never been good with goodbyes, to be quite honest. hate burning my bridges, i suppose. i also struggle with a deep, DEEP sense of nostalgia for a lot of things i spend my time doing online. well, i suppose i should put one of those things im quite fond for nostalgically to bed.

it’s no secret that fuck texas has become a lot less active over 2020. running a blog centered around what’s basically one joke is well, hard! im surprised i kept it running as long as i did especially after taking several extended breaks. im struggling to really find a place for it in my life anymore. im more than moved on and this blog reached its peak like... 2 years ago at this point. it’ll never be the same, and that’s okay i think.

there was a lot of fun to be had running this blog, but, to be quite honest, ive also realized Fuck Texas came from a sort of ignorance i held for a long time. its not really a secret that i dont even live in texas, i live in new york. which, for most people, is seen as the exact polar opposite to texas. i wish it was as simple as me being like “Well we’re like rival states. we HAVE to hate each other.” it’s kinda like that, but it was also general ignorance for how a lot of southern states are run. it was always my impression that the south united states was a bunch of racist rednecks and not a place that housed so many minorities in the united states. that’s absolutely on me for taking years to realize that. the south has a big, BIG voter suppression problem, but to blame that on the people living there rather than the people in power, well, it’s fairly ignorant.

i dont consider fuck texas to necessarily be this Problematic Time Piece or anything, but the origins are less easy for me to swallow as ive gotten older. i started the original fuck texas steam group when i was 15. im 20 now! thats fucked up. literally 25% of my life has had fuck texas exist in some form. its crazy that such a large chunk of my life has involved this dumb joke exisiting in some form.

you can read that second paragraph again, im not good with goodbyes! its taken me a long, long time to say good bye to this thing ive created. but as god said “All Good Things Must Come To An End.” i just think the time is finally right. im ready to move on, and i think most people following are ready to move on.

it’s been a blast the past 5 years. its been crazy to see this dumb thing ive made extend far past my usual reach. i remember that one twitter post that was like “LMFAO THIS GUY ON STEAM REVIEWS GAMES BASED ON IF THEY HAVE TEXAS OR NOT”. insane to think how many people thought that was funny. i dont know if ill ever have that reach with any other dumb little blog or project i have, but hey, even if that never happens, at least that’ll always exist as a good memory.

ive run fuck texas in a way where ive attempted to avoid burnout to keep it going on as long as possible. if nothing else, 5 years is impressive for a gimmick account. ill gladly take that award at the next streamys. i think the burnout has finally set in though, i dont think it’ll ever recover to be honest.

thanks everyone whos followed this blog, who joined the original steam group before it got taken down, who followed the short lived twitter account, thank you. fuck texas wouldnt have been possible without you. i hope you all go on to live long, texasless lives. fuck texas the blog may be ending, but fuck texas the revolution will never end.

okay, maybe that last part’s a bit too pretentious. but im glad the message stuck with you guys at least. see you on the flipside.

if you have any interest in following me further (cool if you dont):

tumblr: @motherfuckermorgan

twitter: @MorganWillBRB

twitch: MorganWillBRB

#long post #hey thanks for scrolling down this far and reading the tags #you have a good day now.

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World: Alternia

Name: Erenyx Erixck (Try saying that 3 times fast)

Age: 8 sweeps

Theme/Story: Since her hatching, Erenyx has been very intelligent. Unfortunately, she’s also batshit crazy. Erenyx gives off an aura of “not quite there”, often randomly staring off into the distance and generally acting weird. She’s very into hypnosis and mind control, trying to command lower blooded trolls with varying methods and success.

Local Mod With Psychotic Symptoms Here: Please Stop Making Characters Whose Entire Gimmick Is “Not Being All There.” I hope this doesn’t come off as rude, but I want to teach you how to be a stronger writer. It’s not as scary or edgy as you think it is and it is 100% of the time more of a stressor for the person who has the condition than for anyone else.

People who are most often stigmatized with the “““batshit crazy”““ label don’t want to harm others and experience significantly higher rates of violence directed towards than the general population because of stereotypes like these! Staring off into the distance and “acting weird” aren’t villainous traits. They’re just how people are sometimes. The “crazy genius” is a strung out trope that’s just shorthand so you can get away with not writing character motivation! We’re gonna dissect your girl like a frog specimen and take out her tender Character Traits to build her back better. Bionic frog.

So to give you a stronger starting base here: If you want a troll to be a bad person, make them a bad person. It’s so much more interesting than them being randomly “crazy” and wacky. Make them malicious, and not because they’re ~not all there~. We’re gonna call New “Bionic Frog” Erenyx a bastard because she thinks she’s better than other people. She was born with strong psionics and she thinks that means she’s a cut above the rest, she thinks they should respect her and like her, and that’s why she wants to control others.

(Cosigned as another mod with psychotic symptoms like… it’s not a great look. Also: Everyone on Alternia is terrible for the most part. It was DESIGNED that way in-universe. It’s a planet of hormonal teenagers who are encouraged to murder their friends and neighbors for kicks. You don’t need a “batshit crazy” smokescreen to just write a terrible fantroll. Vriska already exists, and she doesn’t have anything like that.)

Goals: Due to her, let’s say, interesting personality, Erenyx has no friends. So, she reasons, why not hypnotize lowbloods to become her friends? (I thiiiiink you misread my section on Goals: These are for you and us, not your fantroll’s ambitions (though nice information to have). I’m going to do this as a general review in lieu of anything specific.)

Strife Specibus: Yoyokind. It’s got a swirly pattern and spikes, naturally.

Fetch Modus: I never bother to think these up, it’s more trouble than it’s worth honestly. (Lowkey agree with you there- I’m horrendous with these. I do think something to help flesh out this spiral motif might be fun? Impressionism, maybe? Some late-Picasso looking art and she’s gotta find the items in it?)

She could also have to solve a maze or labyrinth to get out. Or you could go with something that plays on the Cobra angle and do a snake charmer joke with her playing a pungi.

Blood Color: Gold

Symbol: Actually, I haven’t decided yet. I don’t know why, I just never get round to it.

You could probably rip a symmetric chunk for a pattern like this and have a pretty good gold symbol on your hands.

Handle: mesmerisingOptics [MO]

Quirk: Undecided

If she loves to seem purposefully confusing, you could mix up her words. Organize her sentences in a way that people usually don’t. The best example I can think of this is… I used to follow this RP blog a while back, amusedmuralist, and the way sentences are structured here is what I’m thinking. “Waste your lowly selves not the time allotted you.”

A generally ‘better than thou’ attitude and insults/put downs can go a long way, too.

Special Abilities: Various methods of hypnosis, most of which aren’t very good.

Lusus/Guardian: Cobra Lusus

I do like this a Lot but what about . Kaa. She could face the common troll problem of having a lusus that needs to eat other trolls, and she needs to trap them to feed her snakemom before her snakemom gets hungry and turns on her!

Personality: As stated above, she’s not exactly the most sane troll on the block. Likes to dish out weird threats to innocent passerby and giggle to herself for no reason. Likes spirals. (This is barely even window dressing on a personality- you’ve made her theoretical, stereotypical mental illness her whole character. You’re overcommitting to a pretty bad gimmick, to be frank.) (To quote the EZ Gold Signs: “Gold Signs are interested in a wide variety of topics, so they tend to be Jacks-of-all-trade, and can have trouble dedicating themselves to just a single hobby or career. They have a tendency to be high-energy, and can stress people out, including themselves.” This may be a good place to start for a character like this.)

And as I’ve said above, she believes she’s a cut above the rest. She could be a little on the cruel or at least inconsiderate side, a better-than-you type. She could look down on other blood colors and the like. Another gold fact from the EZ is that golds love The Hustle, they like making bank. You could play on a manipulation and control angle and instead of relying on a bad mental illness stereotype, make her an extortionist playing mental health professional? Come to her Hypnosis Clinic, she’ll definitely help you get a good night’s sleep/work through your trauma/cut that chalk eating habit! [Fails to brainwash you]

Interests: Hypnosis, obviously, and other methods of controlling people. Spirals, swirls, other similar things. (You say Spirals and my first thought is early game Uzumaki. Maybe she has an interest in strange art? Really underground, indie shit that the Highbloods would NEVER see as equal to their epic sculptures and Clowns and stuff.)

Actually, I want to step a layer deeper here. What are spirals traditionally associated with in homestuck? C h e r u b s. And what is there evidence of on Alternia? Giant Snake (Cherub) Corpses. And given that the purples worship the merciful messiahs, I’d be unsurprised if spirals actually featured rather heavily in Clown Church Religion. Erenyx could have an interest in art history on top of an interest in modern perplexing imagery. She could be interested in finding the deeper meanings. She could think that she, in all her GENIUS WISDOM, understands this art and the meaning behind it better than anyone else and that she’s unlocked some hidden truth that means she deserves to be in charge.

It could also be a sparking point for her interest in hypnosis- maybe her psionics don’t actually lend themselves well to mindcontrol, but she’s trying to jack into whatever force allows purplebloods to Chucklevoodoo.

Lunar Sway: See symbol.

She’s a prospitan if I’ve ever seen one.

Title: See lunar sway. (I think if hypnosis is her game, she’s probably a Heart/Mind inversion player. Actively messing with people’s brains, passively messing with their souls and identities.)

Yeah, cheesy as it is, I’d rule her as thief of mind. Or witch. One of those.

And design corner time:

Hair: I cannot believe you gave me a spiral character and didn’t give her SWIRLS. I had to just embiggen the hair a little more. Big hair on alternia is associated with the Condesce and thus power, so having a big spirally mess of it? Screams Better Than You.

Face: I adjusted her mouth’s position mildly and changed the glasses to cherub colors as a reference to that cherub comment I made up there, but you could change them out for any appropriate themeatic colors- she didn’t have any Accents before!

Outfit: I changed her outline and sweater color to go for something lighter, so the hair would stand out from it better. I added a conceptual symbol for her! Golds don’t wear patterns, so her socks are solid yellow now. I also fixed up her shoes by bringing in tavros’ sandals to edit. You don’t need to draw out individual toes on a sprite form wearing shoes, or else the area gets visually complicated!

Other than that I love this design a lot.

#goldblood #submission #erenyx erixck #erenyx #erixck #review #sa review #redesign #buttercup-n-stuff #cd review

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kristinsimmons · 5 years ago

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Time Really Can Be Money

By KIM BELLARD

If you are not an IKEA fan, or haven’t been spending any time in Dubai, you may have missed the chain’s marketing campaign to help promote its second store in the area. Titled “Buy With Your Time,” customers got store credits for how long they spent getting to the store.

Gosh, that’s something that should make any self-respecting critic of the U.S. healthcare system perk up. Count me as intrigued.

The campaign involved checking the customer’s Google Maps’ Trip tab to determine how long it took them to get to the store. IKEA benchmarked the average hourly wage in Dubai, and converted the travel time into how much credit they’d generated. It works out to about $29/hour, or $0.48 per minute. Spend long enough getting there and you could get a free coffee table or even a bookcase. Prices in the store include the equivalent time currency.

An IKEA spokesperson explained:

“Before the birth of this campaign, we realized two things: time is precious today, and many loyal IKEA customers spend a significant chunk of it visiting our locations, which are sometimes away from the city center. We think it’s only right to reward our customers’ efforts by repaying them for the time spent reaching us. It’s our way of helping the Dubai community make the most of every minute.”

It is believed to be the first time a retailer is letting customers use their time as a means of payment.

The campaign depends, of course, on Google Maps’ ability to track users’ movements, and for customers to allow IKEA to use that data. On the other hand, Google is tracking those movements anyway, so the least we should get for that tracking are some free meatballs.

Jason Aten, writing in Inc., was impressed:

“I think the promotion is brilliant–even if it is just a marketing campaign to promote a new store. Any time you can turn one of your biggest challenges into a win for your customer, that’s still a win. And it’s also a very creative use of technology.”

Simon Chandler was more skeptical, warning in Forbes: “the promotion is another step towards normalizing the idea that it’s okay to be watched wherever we go so long as we receive ‘free stuff’ in exchange.” Still, he concedes: “this promotion opens the door to a significant and profound change in how consumers purchase goods, and in how they relate to brands.”

The program seems to have been a success:

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I love this campaign for a couple reasons. One is the concept that it recognizes that, yes, our time is valuable, and not just in a lip service sort of way. The second is that “money” is a broader, more elusive, concept than the formal forms of currency that we usually use.

Healthcare should be thinking about both of those.

Travel is often not a prime consideration in healthcare, with medical tourism and centers of excellence still not achieving mainstream status. We like our healthcare local, failing to recognize that, for most of us, local is far from the best care we could get. But what if, taking a page from IKEA’s campaign, the time we spend traveling to — and taking off work for — sources of higher quality care translated into credits that we could use to pay for that care?

More important than travel time is the waiting. I have railed before about how the healthcare system often treats our time almost contemptuously. As I put it previously, we wait to get appointments, we wait at appointments, we wait during appointments, we wait for results after appointments, and, if we’re in a hospital or nursing home, we spend most of our time waiting. Plus, of course, we spend inordinate amounts of time enrolling in our health insurance plan, waiting for claims payments, and, should you ever need it, on hold in customer service queues.

Healthcare should be valuing the time we spend in the system waiting for something to happen. Some parts of the healthcare system seem to track and report waiting time — e.g., urgent care centers or emergency departments come to mind — but they don’t seem to do much with that information. E.g., a three hour wait at an emergency room doesn’t give you any credit off the big bill you’ll get for that experience.

The healthcare system values the time of the people and things in it, not the people using it. Imagine how the incentives would be different if our time cost them money. Note, for example, Nicos Savva and Tolga Tezcan propose in HBR that payments for emergency room visits be tied directly to wait times.

We shouldn’t just be looking at giving wait times monetary value, but also explicitly valuing the kinds of behavior that keep us out of the healthcare system. This has been the goal of “wellness programs” for several decades, despite near-universal evaluations from objective observers (e.g., Rand or Song and Baicker) that they are not really effective.

It boils down to the fact that we have an illness system, not a system of health, and so all the monetary rewards revolve around dealing with how we treat those illnesses. In the ideal health-oriented system of the future, payment should be oriented to activities and people who keep us healthy, or return us to the best health most effectively.

Imagine instead of paying health insurance premiums we accrue credits for our good health behaviors, which can be redeemed when we need some sort of intervention to maintain or improve our health. IKEA couldn’t have done its campaign without Google Maps, and we’re getting close to the kind of 24/7 tracking options that would allow for us to determine and manage such credits.

The problem will be that no existing entities in the healthcare system are really equipped (or incentivized) to administer such an approach, opening the door to new types of market entrants. Maybe we should ask the people at IKEA…

IKEA’s effort may just have been a clever gimmick to promote a new store in an isolated location, but there are lessons to be learned from it nonetheless. As Mr. Aten suggested, turning pain points for the customer into a win for the customer is, in fact, a win. If there is something that we can all agree on, it is that healthcare has too many pain points for its customers. The question is: how can we turn them into wins for those customers?

Kim Bellard is editor of Tincture and thoughtfully challenges the status quo, with a constant focus on what would be best for people’s health.

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lauramalchowblog · 5 years ago

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Time Really Can Be Money

By KIM BELLARD

Gosh, that’s something that should make any self-respecting critic of the U.S. healthcare system perk up. Count me as intrigued.

An IKEA spokesperson explained:

It is believed to be the first time a retailer is letting customers use their time as a means of payment.

Jason Aten, writing in Inc., was impressed:

The program seems to have been a success:

youtube

Healthcare should be thinking about both of those.

Kim Bellard is editor of Tincture and thoughtfully challenges the status quo, with a constant focus on what would be best for people’s health.

The post Time Really Can Be Money appeared first on The Health Care Blog.

Time Really Can Be Money published first on https://venabeahan.tumblr.com

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I have a ferret ask!! I've wanted a ferret for a very long time and your blog has only made that worse, but everyone I bring it up to says the classic "but they stink/smell so bad!!" is that just a stereotype? are there ways to avoid it? thank you in advance!!

Hey, Nonny! Bear with me, because this is going to be a long answer.

Is ferret stink a myth? Yes, and no. All ferrets have a musky body odor due to scent glands, especially behind their ears and under the tail (the latter often removed in “descented” Marshall ferrets. Descented ferrets still have body odor. The surgery itself is generally a gimmick to sell more ferrets; I could go on about Marshall Farms, but I digress); they communicate with these, and you’ll notice a happy ferret will smell slightly earthy versus the mildly pungent smell of a scared or angry ferret, and an undescented ferret can “spray” when a situation gets dire. On the other hand, their body odor does not have to be overwhelming, and the smell from expressed scent glands won’t stick or linger like skunk spray. Usually a ferret who smells overwhelmingly–well…smelly– is indicative of a care problem.

This leads into your second question, are there ways to avoid it? Again, yes and no. A ferret will always have an odor, but a well-kept ferret should smell no more than some large hairy dogs do in their own way. We’re often just not used to their unique ferret odor, so we notice it more at first.

The first way to control odor is not to overbathe or underbathe. Ever met a ferret that smells like skunk? That’s the result of overbathing. If you use a harsh shampoo or bathe more than every two weeks, it will dry out your ferret’s skin, and their scent glands will overproduce to compensate. It’s stressful on the ferret’s skin and makes the smell worse than it was to begin with. A baby, puppy, or (best yet) ferret shampoo works well, especially paired with natural moisturizing conditioner; adult human or dog shampoos are too harsh. Many owners, especially in the “holistic” movement, try to prevent this by never bathing. Ferrets with yellow coats you might see that smell something awful like pee are those never bathed. Like many things, balance is what you want to go for. Every two weeks to once a month will be plenty, as long as you wash bedding weekly/biweekly and clean litter boxes daily. I’m guilty of letting Hobbes’s big litter box go two days and his bedding go several weeks once in a while, and that’s the only time my room ever smells noticeably of ferret when you walk in.

The second thing is diet. Ferrets are obligate carnivores, and need at least 35% animal protein and 20% fat in their diet (I can make a whole nother post on nutrition, but I digress). If they aren’t getting proper nutrition, being fed foods with lots of grains or sugars, they’ll smell more. Also, for the sake of your nose, don’t feed them a fish-based food. They love it, and it’s good for them, but there are other equally healthy meats that won’t make your ferret smell like the fish market with flatulence! Many of the horribly smelly ferrets people met in the 80′s and 90′s before big-brand ferret kibble were on fish-based kitten kibbles.

The third way to cut down scent is numbers. There’s a catchphrase among ferret people called “ferret math”. In other words, owners tend to get more and more and more! Part of this is because once someone knows you’re a “ferret person”, they will try to pawn off every homeless or ill-kept ferret on you. People have a hard time saying no, and many shelters just don’t take ferrets. But the biggest culprit of “ferret math” is that they tend to attract hoarder-types. Hoader-types often leave their ferrets unsupervised in a room to poop wherever they please, and have too many ferrets to individually keep up with potty-training. Plus, no matter how well someone keeps their twelve ferrets, their house is going to smell like a zoo. There’s just so many animals in the space. That’s why zoos smell like zoos! I recommend one or two ferrets unless you are breeding or hunting with them. Maybe three or four if some of them belong to another member of the household. Put a solid cap on how many ferrets you have. Mine is two, but I strongly prefer one. There’s a ”lonely single ferret” myth that you need multiple, but if you have enough time to bond with a ferret (that’s why you’re getting a high-maintenance companion animal, right?), you’ll have enough time for a single one. If you’re really worried about it, there are plenty of bonded pairs in rescue.

Finally, healthcare. Ferrets need to go in to the vet for annual shots and checkups like a dog. Many people just don’t bother, and don’t catch the diseases that are causing their ferrets to stink. Many cancers (notoriously adrenal disease) cause hormonal imbalances that will make your gib (neutered male ferret) have accidents and stink up a room like he’s in rut. Also, as mentioned before, stress will cause your ferret to smell unpleasant. Most people brush off their stressed sick ferret as just a stinky animal, never realizing it’s in pain. Have a rainy-day fund of $400 or so set aside for ferret medical care at all times, and if anything is abnormal, even your ferret being far stinkier than normal, call your trusted exotic vet. I’ve called in two false alarms over the years compared to dozens of real problems that could have been fatal if I had waited for more symptoms.

Overall, if you love ferrets and are ready for the amount of commitment and work they take, the smell doesn’t need to be a deterrent. If you can tolerate cuddling the ill-kept ones at the pet store or a friend’s house (assuming you don’t have access to a well-kept one), you can easily handle one of your own that you put the work into keeping clean and healthy. The big thing is to keep up with it. Soon, you get used to the smell and barely notice it, but that doesn’t mean your guests won’t be able to!

#ferret #ferrets #ferret care #ferret health #ferret smell #anon

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While People Are Supposed to be Watching Mania, How Many Will Secretly Read This Shit?

I have an idea in my head on how to try and structure my thoughts, because I have so many thoughts racing in my head constantly, it is hard to keep up, and sometimes venting on a podcast about this shit does not do it justice because I will stutter and stammer all over the fucking place. First off since the last blog, yeah I am weak minded and gave into watching wrestling this Mania weekend, I have tried to keep off on social media because when you piss off powerful people, the cogs who are trying to socially climb up also get nervous that the shit I am putting out is different than what they are doing, they then have to overcompensate to boast about how much cool shit is being done, and I went through the last decade with other cogs doing the same thing to use tactics to fuck with someone’s mental health, but it doesn’t matter if I express that because I am not the credible one, you can just look at a guy who suffers from severe mental trauma who is watching the world unfold into more right wing fundamentalism, and seeing people double down and commit to their persona who boasts about their connections for their aesthetic, it feels more cogs are created and maybe 10 years ago, it didn’t seem as prevalent to me because the political shit hadn’t seeped in just yet, but in this era where the lines are blurred on social media, and celebrities and poltiicians who make themselves relatable to whatever base they are catering to, all the while playing other characters for the social media currency, and we have to dumb down the narratives, play within scripted rules, and because I don’t play by a fucking script, unless I write an incoheret one for me to recap wrestling shows horribly, when no one is paying attention on the surface, but me not playing by a script to go at other cogs who get their talking points for whatever click they are part of, will not go well because their frustrations and their true sociopathic nature then surfaces, so it is in people’s best interest to steer clear from me. Now on the surface, by my aesthetic and position in life, you would be like “DUH.. WHY WOULD ANYONE WANT TO ASSOCIATE WITH A MENTALLY ILL PAKISTANI TERRORIST IN HIS MOTHER’S BASEMENT WHO HASN’T BEEN RELEVANT SINCE THE STERN SHOW KICKED HIM TO THE CURB AND NO ONE IN THE WRESTLING BUSINESS WANTS ANYTHING TO DO WITH HIM” yet you will keep sending people toward me to entice me to excited and dangling the chance to meet celebrities, because clearly people in powerful positions keep their eye on me, they keep it on anyone who is a potential recruit into their program, but for not selling my soul, I feel I have to constantly have my nose rubbed into shit, I didn’t realize in the 2010’s all the progressive talk from people and having more diversity was just a gimmick before they were going to head towards a more regressive dystopian future, and since I can now see how the entertainment has played a role by manufacturing consent or getting their mafia buddies in the industry in positions of power in the midst of reshaping people’s minds, it makes it difficult to enjoy the shit I watch, even though I still give in. This is how you know I am a pro wrestling fan for live, because I have been influenced by doing and making grandiose statements and gestures to declare I am not watching ever again, and then of course I fucking give in. I wish I didn’t. I wish this entertainment shit was not this powerful, now people who want to pretend they are “human beings” because they take their sociopathic behavior to try and mimic how people emote feelings and act like they are concerned while being soulless and villainous enough to ruin people’s lives with secret plotting in group chats etc so they can win the internet. Those people will say “Maybe you are taking this entertainment shit a little too seriously” when they are the ones who do that, and the reason they can have a calm demeanor about this shit is because when you have your connections and partaken in the spoils and rewards, you then can have the easy position to mock someone who has been suppressed and held back and because I don’t have the resources to have back up, have a bunch of yes people around me to support me if they can be the ones who write for me etc, who would believe me. All this is, is me venting out irrational feelings I have fueled inside me and needing every possible outlet to get it out before the poison takes over my mind. So in my head, I am accomplishing thinking out loud so I can neutralize my mood and my mental state, all the people will see is mentally ill ramblings and will assume I will do something violent because I check every box by aesthetic of what you might perceive to be the presentation of someone who is a danger, and I am not because the system is monitoring me at all times, they have had agents spread disinformation about me so that if you look up ‘Hanzi Stern Show” or “Imran Hanzi Khan” you get negative posts about me and people trying to destroy my image, and I feel like the image is destroyed but even though it sucks for me, knowing deep down that anyone in this system has to do unfavorable shit and are controlled by luxuries dangled in front of them, I already know they are broken souls who can never fucking judge me for being me. I don’t want to even be here but I am too pussy to kill myself, even if I tried, they would somehow find a way to still keep me alive, I feel the system will plan when they need you to get out of here, so maybe each podcast and blog I do, I am looking for these people to just end me because eventually they will get so triggered, even the mental torment won’t be fulfilling enough.

So the reason why I decided to be motivated to do a blog is because political shit is seeping into the pro wrestling world. And because I look at shit in a grand view, I view shit differently because while I am glad people stood up and supported Gisele Shaw, a trans woman pro wrestler, who has been killing it on Impact Wrestling and has become a very interesting character in being the bad luck to whoever she latches onto in a tag team etc, some of the people showing support don’t mean shit to me because a lot of them have ties to far right wing shit with who they support politically. So while I am glad there are hopefully genuine people out there who are showing support, I question some people who clearly have liked posts that have promoted far right wing ideology, it makes me wonder how genuine all of this is. When it comes to celebs, who have had trauma in their life for who they are etc, it feels like an element is to now exploit shit for a real life work because it represents that it will eventually be included in the angles since wrestling is using real issues in the world and reflecting that, which is what pro wrestling has always done, you just couldn’t tell when the by default right wing narratives that have always existed have been sophisticated and normalized for so long that any progressive idea is seen as an agenda, and maybe within the mafia industry you have people who support social causes that do have agendas, but wouldn’t that be to counter the regressive agendas that have always existed in wrestling? Like pro wrestling is so late to the game with social issues on the presentation, they think diversity in numbers is the biggest accomplishment, not saying it doesn’t mean anything, but it is constantly used to counter if you want more diversity in what is being said. You can’t even have characters in the storyline acknowledge that racism existed in the world of wrestling in kayfabe situations. What Gisele went through could be her being initiated into the industry like everyone else who has been hazed or bullied but now we live in a time where there might be more social clout to back her up when that social clout never existed in pro wrestling before to counter the hazing and bullying. It feels since we are moving into a more fundamentalist society where there will probably be a split, that people can establish themselves as real heels, where there is real life consequences, but you have to ask bigger questions of why there is this pipeline from pro wrestling to far right wing politics, from Million Dollar Man and Bret Favre running financial scams, or how Ultimate Warrior was lured into a right wing fundamentalist homophobe, or how Rick Steiner is on a fucking school board, I am sure the school he is part of, probably want to erase CRT. There might be some social cancelation, but these people don’t care and it is like the old guard is now being exposed for their hazing and backwards attitudes, people have the right spirit to call him out, but doing shit like “WELL SIR, I HOPE WWE CUTS TIES WITH HIM” Why? They are probably the ones who enable this shit to begin with, maybe that is why the Steiners are welcomed back to some degree in WWE’s good graces, maybe instead of having discourse about Vince McMahon’s mustache, and continuation of dumbing down industry villains to cartoonish America’s dumbest criminals, maybe we could have nuance, but when people on social media think they are smarter and limit the narratives of what can be said, they get permitted to be thought leaders, so you have to go by what they call out and in their limited ways, we will never get solutions, I see accounts I used to respect wanting the discourse over Rick Steiner’s “opinion” to be what it is and just stop, the people who get paid to bully people online and are being initiated in by doing their edge lord shtick they never got perform in the 90’s, they always say people need to be bullied and people are sensitive, always hate when people decide to fight back and have vitriol for people like Rick Steiner, because they know they are tied to that line of thinking and they want to become bigger by having these edge lord opinions but they don’t want pushback, they rather look credible and people who keep it real rather than being honest that they are just another regressive cog in the fucking system. It goes beyond being a fucking opinion when there are literal laws being put in place while the highest rated right wing MSM channel is fear mongering about all trans people arming themselves after they have normalized more hatred and vitriol toward their directions, the left is getting out of control apparently while fucking shit stains are calling children hospitals with bomb threats. The trolls who are aligned with far right wing shit, and label me a fucking terrorist radical yet there is a chance they have ties to the right wing fundamentalist shit, some of them were probably at the insurrection, and right now I am not relevant to the proceedings but better believe the right wing fundamentalists are keeping an eye on me because they don’t like the message and that someone broke from the sports entertainment script meant to facilitate shitty culture wars. I am not gonna feel sorry for edge lords who want to be regressive because at the end of the day they have sold their soul to be accepted by a mafia industry and use genuine shit that might affect whatever community they are catering to but then they have their own right wing shit they are beating home. See every fandom becomes political, even if you are someone who doesn’t like politics, and look at yourself as apolitical, the political world finds a way to seep into different fandoms, so people can react but not think they are actually being political, like if I was not aware of politics, I could be duped into thinking that the shitty MSM media making fun of Trump over everything like having a fucking wedgie, that it would seem they have an agenda against him, and then the people who are supposed to be more “left” who want to counter MSM as their sole personality trait, they then start doing the usual dunking on MSM because they are not credible, but instead of telling you Trump’s record on what he did systemically, they keep parroting he never did as much as other presidents, they constantly get credibility for calling out George Bush and his neocons, but never talk about how Trump had Bush era neocons in his administration, but then you go “BUT HE FIRED THEM” I personally believe that was all for show, it causes more people to talk about chaos going on behind the scenes, they are so disorganized but what if the goal was to get as many people in the same positions at different times so they can go and do the bidding when they “leave” and this is how it seeps into wrestling because people for decades are convinced what is reported about how a WWE show is written, that it is so chaotic because there are plenty of rewrites and Vince pulled his pants down and took a shit on the creative. We believe it, and we are taught to dumb down the villains, in fact people thinking me saying some of these people in these positions are smart or a genius, you would think it is me kissing their ass, but genius and smart are not positive or negative words, some of the most evil people in the world are fucking geniuses, doesn’t mean they aren’t the biggest pieces of shit on the planet, but we have to dumb down the brains on these people but think the chaos could only happen because of this person, Trump is the storyline reason for why the right wing trajectory wants to further go more right, you need the right characters to play that role. Elon Musk, Trump fit those roles. Again, this is my opinion, I got no facts to back me up. I don’t have insider information whatsoever, people monitor me, so they would know, they are spying on me as I write this.

Another thing I hope this Gisele Shaw thing is, one of those ways to discredit trans people. Like I have pointed out that since minority communities are in danger but since we think celebs are just like us and there might be relatable elements that we can latch onto, and you are happy there is someone from your community who represents, but because the celebs by nature will be involved with shady shit, or be exposed down the line for being grifters, it then helps manufacture consent for people with bad faith acting to then use the celebrity in question as a reason to have vitriol toward the general community, like you won’t take LGBTQ attacks seriously because the system has used Jussie Smolliet as an example of why not to take it seriously and even other bad faith cogs blaming the general communities for not showing support so it makes it seem like the LGBTQ shit is an agenda, they do this with other groups as well, the same tactics, like the Meg/Tory or Depp/Herd shit, like those to me are orchestrated reality show level shit to be put on theatrical display so people can then use that to go “SEE ALL WOMEN LIE AND MEN ARE FRAMED” and not that it can’t happen, but people who scoff at the television shows and movies having their agendas, these conservative online accounts then use these worked shoots of celebs for their bigoted points, and since pro wrestling is going more right wing, I hope this Gisele Shaw stuff is not some planned shit where she may have exaggerated it and then it helps people then go “Rick Steiner is innocent and you tried to cancel him” because the industries can have tokens who end up making it harder for the regular people in that community. Since discourse presented has twists and turns, and constantly keeping us with these culture wars etc, I am looking at the possible fucking angles since that is what online discourse is. If this stuff is a grand work for future documentaries, since everything with celebs is always designed for future art etc, it is still orchestrated to put talents through trauma, then the system can pretend they are saving you when they are just going to make more money. I know regular people will be like “How dare you insinuate that things are a grand work” just because you would not do that, it doesn’t mean performers would not do that shit because everything is for sale, it is like you are now playing a character 24/7 and the reality show types are running it with the online discourse. So I am not denying this happened but I see how celebrity shit has played out before, and I am allowed to take that in consideration when more stories come out, our entire world is just fucking theater and people are becoming caricatures, and while other people are not paying attention to this blog on a Mania weekend, the important people will and will make me regret even putting my opinion out there. I wish I didn’t give a fuck about this entertainment, our society has been so fucking unwell. At least I knew my mental struggles and how ugly it can get, I didn’t go out and have a kid so then I could project my mental issues onto them and make their lives a living hell. I am all over the place again but I just needed to vent. The world is going into a more scary place and seeing more people I know being sucked into the right wing shit because the people in control can throw them luxuries if it means I will feel like shit for not selling my soul. Why don’t you just fucking kill me off then, because even me being suppressed is not good enough, they don’t want me doing podcasts or writing blogs or being creative because they seem me as a threat when I am doing what I think it intriguing or entertaining. I am supposed to partake in nonstop culture wars and become more regressive and work on a way to get myself canceled so I can then feel justified for joining the right wing. I will never like being here on this fucking planet. Whatever I do, I piss people off regardless, people want to make me feel bad for not wanting to associate with them, so to teach me a lesson then all of a sudden them playing the anti establishment type goes out the window and they show who they have connected to them. I don’t have to align with people who do partake in far right wing shit, in fact I would rather be off this fucking planet then ever fucking sell out. But guess what you will keep me here, let people steal my thoughts and ideas and then use people in my personal life to get revenge for you because you hate me so much, all the money and pussy you fucking rich people get and you are still triggered by a fat Pakistani in his mother’s basement. You hate that I can poke fun of myself because it disarms their material on me and because I can assume I know how they were all initiated into the system and what kind of dirty shit they had to do, while they practice to be baby faces on social media and men and women of the people etc, they can never fucking judge me, because all of you who do judge me, you are socially climbing in institutions and industries that are run by predators and rapists, you think you have a fucking leg up against me? You think because you have more connections, but still being very disturbed is gonna fucking rattle me? I rattle you, in fact my fucking name, and the shit I say make your nervous system twitch. Shout out to Obie Trice, “Your nervous system still twitches off Jay Z” don’t worry my nervous system still twitches off of Howard Stern. That shit is for life, that mother fucker is never gonna let me go mentally. Even if I bitch about him, his fans and shills will say I can’t get over him when they are the ones who are trying to get me to call back, so they can find a way to make me a fucking parody again. People are surprised too because they would assume I would jump on the chance to be on the show again because I am supposed to want to be relevant by any means, but I don’t give a shit because I know the important people still pay attention to whatever I say and do. Anyways, I am sure I angered more dangerous people from this blog. They need for me to be radicalized and fucked with, you can’t have me articulating my point of view and maybe makin some valid points, here I will discredit it, illuminati clones, faked death by important people, arranged showbiz marriages, test tube babies, the world is pro wrestling blah blah blah, go ahead add it to the list of shit you can discredit me with. You could be watching Mania or being with your celeb friends, but you will be mad because your fav celebs might be reading this shit, so now you have to relate to them and have to listen to my podcast or read my blog and then get mad because I find a way to be creative the way I see fit, and I don’t need people fake laughing at my shit either, but also I don’t need angry shit heads going out of their way not to laugh because they hate that I am a lot more genuine with my fucking humor. Maybe not. Maybe I am just a fat piece of steaming shit, either way this is either ignored by the masses, or secretly the elite types are monitoring this to see what they can steal from me. Fuck this world regardless. And Fuck the Steiners, I don’t care how good you are with suplexing people in Japan, or Steiner Math.

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Probably the Longest Blog You Will Ever Read.. fuck it. Very Necessary Tho

Since I have not been constantly writing down my thoughts other than the occasional blog, that never seems to get any type of feedback, probably because no one is paying attention other than a few dedicated trolls, who I presume have been sent to fuck with my mental health, even if it is not true, the illusion of trying to implement some kind of devastating fear, and every time I decide to write a blog that expresses what is transpiring in my mind, it is met with no acknowledgement, and when it is acknowledged, it is the cult like trolls who will convert it to audio, so people will not bother to give me a click on where it is posted. I don’t know where this blog will particularly go since I never plan these out, and just write from the heart, and my will has not been into jotting down my thoughts, I still have point form notes on my phone dating back to last June about experiences and topics that have transpired, but for the most part it has mainly been me explaining how I think it is organized and wondering where it is all leading because it has meaning symbolically and how the seeds are planted, it has become clear since I stopped writing stuff down daily to get the frustration out of my system, that I have become exhausted mentally and can barely retain anything, whether it is reciting why capitalism is bad or if it means memorizing a movie or television show reference, mixed with how now to watch this entertainment that I have to read on the discourse about something not being woke enough, or if it something seems woke, then it just people pushing agendas, and then lesser known people expressing the fake wokeness that exists, and I just realize I am too stupid for this world so I just remain in the wrestling bubble, just like I began last decade.

I need to set this up because I am trying to think rationally as I write but I know in the middle of this blog, it will probably fall apart but it is a good thing that most people don’t take me serious, and I am not really on the masses radar, even though important people are constantly on the lookout for me, that is why my broadcasts on periscope are interrupted, my social media posts are practically shadow banned, my facebook lives are not giving out people notifications, so clearly they are trying to censor me, and it shows this is real censorship, not the marketing tool censorship where the masses are aware of the censorship at hand.

I have been writing blogs on a certain person on youtube, who has become completely unhinged, and then a group of people on the application periscope, that I feel have felt they did not get all of their use from me, so now are trying to align with people who have been waiting for anyone to have a mutual distaste, and what is weird is that I am this irrational and irrelevant mentally ill person they dismiss as just some delusional caller but these same people need to try to destroy any good that I try to create and try to bring me down so badly that I lash out with irrational anger that makes me want to go back to my ignorant ways after years of trying to deprogram myself since I was dumbed down majority of my life and fell for the ignorance, and because mental illness to the mainstream is just described as someone being sad, and not the fact that there are darker elements in mental illness people will not want to discuss, but rather they ignore it so when someone else is having a legit mental breakdown, they will pile on them all the while maintaining the “woke” points for addressing the stigma of mental illness, even if it means it is presented in such a limited way,

My trolls also realize that I have not been writing lately so they figure it will be easier for me to snap since they know I am not getting my thoughts out and the plan is for me to be piled on mentally so much, in such a pseudo intellectual way, that I will just snap and lose my mind and then the people paid to harass me can take the audio of me losing my mind and saying some hurtful shit to people encouraging a mentally ill person to go kill himself, and constantly hint that I will be targeted. It feels this aggressive trolling has begun on periscope when I was discussing these Howard Stern leaks, and it feels like we are at the precipice of Howard finally getting canceled because his past will come back to haunt him, so the person that will be of interest to people in the media might be me, and before that could happen these people need me out of the way. If my theories are correct, then these people could probably be sacrificed when they strike down on Howard’s image.

One of the other problems was that when I initially broadcasted on periscope, I would not really follow anyone and just broadcast while promoting it on twitter. Last summer, I got suspended on facebook and twitter and I decided to browse the app and see what kind of people are there. There were plethora of characters etc that existed and I have tried to become friendly with people, a lot of sex workers, musicians, gimmick personalities etc. It seems friendly but also if you browse by the random broadcasts you will see thumbnails of people I perceive to be young and I have to report because I feel people running periscope allow some type of exploitation on there that is truly disgusting, but overall it has been kind of a positive experience, and I am so full of low self esteem I have to constantly name drop I was part of an institution to present myself to stand out but also interview different walks of life and get some good discussions going on, and also because I feel Howard has a stake in periscope, again it is my theory I name drop to see if people who are there are kind of answer to him since I feel the elite use these apps to sell people, but I could be wrong but if I am wrong at least I make a friend out of it. It feels like people also get sent to me, and since I don’t have the resources to do background checks on people, I always wonder if the system is sending people who are not good people to be associated with me, so it damages my reputation further. Even when I talk to people on there, I have to ask their age because if they are not over 18 I have to dismiss them from talking to them because I don’t like talking about the content I talk about in front of people who are not of age, even though I can control who comes into my broadcasts and don’t interact.

So before I get accused of setting a narrative and speaking out like it is fact, I have to preface this by saying whatever I have written on here has been just my opinion, when I do my videos, I express my opinions and I might vent out of frustration because if I don’t express myself I will probably end up harming myself and I don’t want to do that and since I do feel bad and get to reflect when I say some evil shit when being pushed by people, others just want to cross the line and then pretend they never did anything negative while pointing out all my flaws. So I don’t know where to go with this because I am not intelligent enough to deal with the nuances of good storytelling, or maybe I am just underselling it.

This lady came to my scope last summer after people who have been trying to troll me for years were in there and immediately I did not take her seriously because she was presenting herself as an alien and she would full of mystery all while having this soothing voice. I always have my guard up and I do want good content, as long as the people in my periscope are willing to come up and talk etc. I am creating content, and hopefully I can try to move on to a podcast, but there are a lot of people who somehow have some investment in me without knowing and if I don’t move on their watch, they will then start showing their true selves eventually. I entertained this lady’s presence for a while but then when someone from her past came onto my panel when they called into my periscope, that alien schtick went down the tube and I laughed because as a wrestling fan it would be like if the Undertaker was confronted by someone in real life and then him immediately dropping the Dead Man character and freaked out. I was not aware of the drama scopers on this app, because apparently a lot of doxing goes on and organized harassment, basically what I have predicted in my own life, but I am kind of watching it play out to others and it is just completely fucked up.

There was another nice man I met on scope who I gelled well with when discussing stuff and even though we did not agree, he clearly has some resources and his full of encouragement when people want to go for their dreams and if he is cool with you he will help you out but because I was suspect of this alien lady who would not ever address any of my questions for her, and I did not want to talk to her in private because apparently she belongs to some former patriot groups, and when I hear that I can only imagine these can’t be good. It is one thing to have a conversation with someone who might not be politically correct, but I have learned some people who lean right are not as bad and are anti imperialistic, while others are just defensive of anything criticizing Trump. I feel with these conversations I am able to at least talk to someone who I don’t agree with politically and get them to deprogram themselves from the ignorant propaganda, the same shit I used to kind of fall for. This woman does not seem like a Trump supporter but she is an enigma because she will play the Jewish card but still associate with people who have been fucking with me and bothering me to join their podcast network, and these people are insanely racist and bigoted. This lady puts it all on me when she comes into my scopes, and her supposed harassers come in, and because some of them seem like they could be dangerous, I try not to rock the boat with more enemies, but as far as I know they have been nice to me, but then again my trolls do the same thing where they endear themselves to people I try to make friends with and when I flip out they will claim I am the one bothering them. I just kind of wish she would have stayed out of my lives, I even blocked her because she was becoming a disturbance in my sessions, but the nice guy I became friends with would always kind of vouch for her and I did not understand why. The only thing I could come up with, is the typical “Are these 2 fucking?” because I don’t understand how you could just know someone for a month or so and suddenly just become these great friends, I did eventually unblock her and tolerated her but she would kind of want me to have conviction in protecting her when I don’t even know her like that because she has not presented any proof of this happening

The fucked up thing is she claims to be someone that just observes but she is following all the trolls who have been following me nonstop, and these people have become extra aggressive since making new friends on this app, like they are lashing out about me not paying attention to them and having people of color on my panel since I did not know that there were so many black and brown people on the app. They then start saying I am so anti white because I rail against a white supremacist system and then they discredit me with rumors of me beating up a gay couple, or beating my mother. They create accounts where they take pictures of me and blacken it because they think I want to be black. They are doing deep fakes of me talking, and then leaving suspicious messages instilling fear about me being kidnapped and killed. They have a sub reddit dedicated to me, and then when I become rational enough to analyze their mental illness, because if I am so irrelevant and useless and such a drain on society, then why wouldn’t you do something better with their lives? The answer is they can’t, because as useless as I have been, these people are even more useless for the last several years and clearly need to latch onto me to exist, and because people end up having problems with me they all connect because of their mutual hatred for me, but the truth is none of them are interesting without me and they lack creativity.

The alien chick and the supposed innocent dude would be in these scopes with these people witnessing my meltdowns on the Stern Show and apparently questioning them is a big no-no so I assume they get the advice of these trolls who study me that if they are nice enough and I don’t fall for it, it can be easily pushed against me that this is what happens and this is why I was kicked off the Howard Stern Show. They try to be like Howard and Robin and try to dismantle your psyche. I did not trust this lady and I felt like the dude I was cool with was just going to take her side regardless and because I feel like she is hanging out with my trolls, and I figured she was recruiting me for some kind of cult or wanted to capitalize of any value I have so they could get some clout, even though I barely have it on the surface. I am going all over the map and kind of leaving some details out but overall these people she claims were bothering her came into my scope, but according to this innocent nice dude, these are legit gripes, and I am supposed to have some kind of conviction, but not them because they are associating with people who have made my life hell, and they dismiss my claims even though there is a legit thread I have made on twitter on my pinned tweets where you can see the supposed threats made to me.

So the innocent dude eventually blocks me because I had the gall to get mad that I was not trusting him because he was in this dude’s scope who is harassing me, I got tired of periscope so I started doing facebook lives, and then the cult of trolls would fuck with that too by people not getting notifications and there would not be many there and I was so set out on doing it with low views for the principal, because I know when you are supposed to be popping, you will have a plethora of views, and when they punish you they dumb them down, but either way it is all organized. I eventually go back to periscope in December, and the alien lady has choice words for me because that innocent dude had “helped” me and he did but there was something they weren’t telling me, like there was some hidden investment with me, and it set their plans back by me leaving periscope for a bit. She would give me more attitude, and honestly I would have preferred to speak to the dude, instead of this chick who I feel has brainwashed this dude. That is the way I see it, they will probably read this and get mad that I am presenting it as fact, but a lot of the videos are on my facebook public page and there have been a lot of witnesses who can attest that I am presenting the events truthfully mixed with me presenting my theories, whether they are valid to you or not, depending on how low the totem pole I am in social media.

(Blog continued 2 days after)

Now I have been out of practice from writing since I used to do it consistently in my life since 2007, and felt I had to make up for the anger I had years before, and I had a lot of deprogramming to do, it went from writing in notebooks and barely understanding what I was writing, or that I would have to write on my computer so I could read it back and maybe sustain some material for it so I could write a book of my irrational thoughts, but I scare myself with the anger I had and how my opinions would differ often and barely being able to retain shit, so sometimes I felt I would guess people were watching me and monitoring my computer so I would suspect different people and write things to test anyone and see what would prompt them to move my mouse so I know their presence is lurking digitally in some hacker like way.

Anyways, writing a blog has even drained me and I felt I was not aligning the stories well because I have been used to just talking more often on my platform than writing. I had to take a break from it and since the developments are breaking every single day I had to hold off and debate if I wanted to write a blog because it will seen as some act of social media war that will further encourage more harassment, that most people who have power and set the narratives can use to their advantage to further make me feel like a useless piece of shit, more so than already. If I vent, I am supposedly doing the woe is me gimmick, and constantly feeling sorry for myself, because I don’t want to hold in my irrational feelings or I will snap and maybe that is the wave right now.

So I did not bother to know where I left out because I am too lazy to read it so I will try to pick it up from where I left off and there is a good chance that I might repeat the same shit but at least if you are going to read this, I at least came up with an interesting angle of how to write a shitty blog that people will pretend does not exist, or maybe they just don’t know and I have to act like I am this important person being spied on.

I think it was from the time that I got blocked by this one guy from periscope, while he defends the alien lady. I know I should present names but if you been following it you already know the names, but I need to express this and I don’t want to be accused of putting their name out there and seeing as lying on their names, when I have explained ad nauseam that these are my theories, and no one ever listens to what I say and by people being scared people might believe me, it will contradict the whole thing of me being irrelevant and that maybe beneath the surface more people care about what I think.

I just feel when I took a break from periscope because I did not want to deal with more betrayal, at least from my perspective, do these trolls actually wish me harm or are they just testing me and toughening me up mentally and putting me through some shit, or these people are aligning with trolls who have tried to drive me insane by spreading rumors of me hitting my mother, or beating up a gay couple etc, and they put out misleading titles of what my periscope is about so when people do search my name, they will get these negative and untruthful shit at the top of google etc. That was my beef with these new people who wanted to be friends with me, but it seems like I am only supposed to take their safety seriously yet they will be following my trolls who have constantly pushed me to the brink of insanity and make me want to say some irrational shit that I will regret, because the system is so against me, if I irrationally talk shit and tell someone to do something horrible to themselves, they will suspend me. They push me to that so they can twist it into me being seen as threatening

I don’t know if the trolls have been aligned with these people from the beginning or do people approach anyone I make friends with and when I try to create some content with interesting discussion. The trolls hate me for not acknowledging them as much and because I have different people of different races/ethnicities/nationalities on and they spread this shit of me hating white people even though I talk about the systemic corruption and the grander white supremacy that exists on a pseudo intellectual type of way.

I took a month away from periscope, so my facebook lives would suffer when I would do decent numbers prior and suddenly I would be lucky if I would get 5 people in there but out of principle I would still do it and it would anger the trolls even more, because even though I was not broadcasting I was still being a guest on people’s periscope. They got it banned and I had to write a repeal on it and they gave it back. So it was like a test. I don’t know who helped do this but I eventually came back, and this time instead of dealing with the constant disturbance I would just block these trolls and not unblock them, because when I did, they would say I want the drama and want them to come in so when I become strict with it I then angered them even more and they will keep leaving cryptic messages on different troll accounts about them going to execute MK Ultra on me, or that they will kidnap me and that they are continuously watching me and monitoring me and showing so by knowing when I have therapy appointments etc.

It felt like this dude I met on periscope who really helped me for a bit, and this alien lady really wanted to teach me a lesson and maybe fuck with my head but overtly finding all the trolls, when there are people I roll with who have discussions with people who might seem more conservative, and I will have discussions and not budge from my point of view while still having the discussion, and some people I can get through but some have their minds made up on believing Trump is actually anti establishment and I can’t deal with it. So there was these 2 black dudes I have conversations with and enjoy their scopes, but they are constantly getting harassed by a lot of white people or people with Zionist leaning ideals and harass black people for not wanting to give them the time of day and think they are entitled to these people’s time. So when one of the guys lost account after account for defending himself, he had a enough and I shared his scope, because when he comes back with a new account I share it so more people can see it but the guy had a periscope saying “Jew Jokes’ not the best title, but he was trying to get at these Zionists fucking with him, and he even cleared it up that he is just doing that for that purpose, because he was pissed, the other guy, who loses account after account, wanted to troll with someone black in Nazi fatigue, and I expressed concern with it and he was just so pissed about being banned and I had to approach him privately and explain that even though I know what he is doing it is wrong to do it because it feels like you are cosigning some white supremacist shit, and it that people try to discredit black people a lot, that it gives the Zionist more ammo because ultimately it won’t matter if they did racist shit first, it will be all put on the black dudes. So this alien lady, who often tells me that the people harassing her are anti Semites, and I don’t hang around them enough to know, they only come in when the alien lady comes on my scope, and I am expected to just block them, when she won’t even unfollow the trolls harassing me. She starts this campaign that I am hanging out with anti Semites and she seems to dismiss what others are going through, while she is hanging out with anti Muslim type of people who also say anti Semitic shit and actual real generalizations. That is why I hate generalizations and specify Zionism, even though they are starting to say that Zionism and Jewish is the same. The guy I talked to privately was thankful for my advice, because he was so irrationally angry he wanted to do something to upset them, because he is constantly being called the N word and having money taken off his table by getting his broadcasts suspended and making people rebuild.

So this is when I was like I had enough of this shit because it hurt me to know this dude I met on periscope who became friends with will defend this chick for some reason. Why does she get to follow all these people who are often anti Black and anti Muslim? I don’t even know where this is going but if these people are aligning with my trolls, and they are actually trying to do harm to me, because they want me on their playing field where all my trolls are, and think I am using them for entertainment on my platform, which is what the app is for, but when something organic is to be discussed I don’t mind that, but they wanted me in their platform because it supposedly was not for entertainment while all these people in there are guilty of putting fear and severe paranoia in me.

The trolls will constantly try to pretend they turned a new leaf and that they are done harassing me but will still have sub reddits trying to dox me, or mislead with the titles to paint me in a bad light, and the stuff they claim I am saying that is fucked up when I am angry is what made them fans of me on the Stern Show, while probably being associated with people like that dude Jimmernam, who has probably been behind the attacks as well.

Jimmernam has become much more unhinged and he has started to fucking with the True Crime community because everything else has fallen apart and since he pissed off his old crew so much and has done so much fucking damage in people’s lives, wherever he goes to endear himself and then destroy it because that is what he does, he has done it to some poor woman named Limonade. I was done after the summer where I wrote the blog and believing that there are lies about him being a child groomer, and how he has changed from the old guy, but he has that venom in him and he is still full of lies. He hates me for not cosigning his show the first time and not believing his sob story and how he tried to use Wendy to gain sympathy, and then people expected that she was taking her donations to give to him, and he would play dumb about giving it back and change the topic. He even caused a beef with me and that Ross Dawg guy, because he knew I was protective of Wendy so he would get her to say different people are bothering her so I would be insanely angry about it, and it almost started something ugly because even though I don’t like the general way Stern has trained the public to talk to Wendy, I have to understand she is used to that and she gravitates towards that kind of thing and I don’t want to feel she can’t have fun and joke like normal with people etc. So when he fucked with this Limonade chick, I really felt for it and it was like a united front with people who I did not see eye to eye with, to help this woman against Jimmer, who turned her friends against her, constantly doxing her, and her family, and putting out threats within 12 hour streams, all while taking over her community of True Crime and wanting to be the number one guy in town. And the sycophants have become a lot worse, I don’t know how he has convinced these many people to help him and be completely blinded by his tactics, and the ones who are standing up for themselves as doing dirty tactics, when it is not nearly on the same level, and it is being done out of self defense. I don’t agree with everything people say on the panel, but I have enjoyed discussion I have had with certain people because without being this preachy SJW, I try to teach people that the shock jock type of humor is not really the edgiest and it doesn’t mean it can’t be funny but I would rather have people agree with me with systemic shit, and let them do their shock jock style of humor, but Jimmernam’s crew will take stuff and make videos to discredit any type of criticism towards him and create false narratives about him. It feels like what he pretends he is going through, he actually does it to me, so it sounds like me and him are kind of the same, but this guy copies everything, Howard Stern’s personality, Bill Burr generic whit woman voice, NBA commentators closing tags and even channels Chris Jericho by calling himself Le Champion. When he sees that this woman has backup, he will try to get in on the Stream Yard link and claim he wants to talk when he just wants to insult her and project things on to her and questioning her parenting and her divorce, when he is the guy who can’t see his kids because of the shit he is doing. He will send his teenage audience into this woman’s streams and then make videos of how she is grooming him, when he is the one who has had a kid audience and played adult content for them and constantly bringing up how people are calling him a pedophile because he let a kid in his discord in 2018 and it had porn in it, and he will claim the videos of him are being edited, when it is not and that is him. He lost his mind when he lost that reddit money, so now he has just become a lot bitterer and he is threatening me and others.

He did not like that I was on her panel and making new alliances and friendships, especially with people I didn’t think I liked before because I assumed they were just doing ignorant shock jock humor when they are a lot more deeper about their discussions. Now Jimmer did not like that and it gave me confidence to stand up to him seeing how this Limonade chick was standing up to him, even though she has been getting a lot of shit on her from her former friends, one of which is a gay guy who seems so scared he just hangs out with Jimmer, and Jimmer has constantly been kind of homophobic and does not regret any of the hurtful things he has said to people, It feels like that Kitty chick, who he doxxed when she did not have his back, is back with him time to time, even though she is good at hiding her role in doing any dirt, so as far as I know she has nothing to do with this, but it feels like if they want to make money in a field and continuously create drama, they will. I could be wrong though. It felt for a while that he was going to get caught for what he is doing, but he just comes back more confident and making some threats and dedicating streams to putting out private information, and it seems youtube does not want to do anything. He does not like that I aligned with this woman to give her support about what he has been doing, and I did it because maybe if people in that community did not believe the others who are informing these people about the past of this guy and to watch out for him, I would have more credibility since I am a former celebrity essentially and since we in society value someone who seems to have greater value unfortunately because of how “famous’ they are, I thought I would put it for good use, and now Jimmernam aka Misery Box has threatened to come after me, which is aligning with the original trolls who are now constantly bothering me and sending people to my scopes, and maybe get shady people to befriend me so I will be associated with someone I don’t know well. I don’t have the resources to do background checks, I kind of assume if this person is just roaming around I want to believe they are not all scumbags, even if they put on a false bravado of being anti PC, they are buying into ignorance,

So this all ties into the alien lady because she followed me when one of the guys who has power with the app came into my scope, and since I blocked her he and the trolls have become a lot more aggressive, but I also know that these people are associated with Jimmernam, and these people seem hella racist, and bigoted, and this alien lady keeps making it seem like I am the one rolling with racists, while she is claiming to be someone with special powers who can put people into rehabilitation, so maybe she is someone special and I don’t realize it. I am having a hard time understanding what is going on because there is another guy involved who she calls my producer, who started out as a troll, but he and I have gotten a long, but sometimes I wonder since he had a friendship with her and that other dude I met on scope, he has kind of seem iffy by wanting me in their clique and to believe them, but when I don’t give in, he will be on my side, but then the lady will tell me he is the one that is stirring all of this up.

I realize by not giving specific names, I may be confusing people, but keep in mind that no one gives a fuck about these stupid blogs but I did an outlet to write about it and the more I write, I just fucking shake my head how I am so bad at explaining all of this and what makes it worse is that you can’t keep up with people who I am referring to other than a few people. The trolls will be so much more outward aggressively with admitting they want me to kill myself and encourage me to take pills, and what hurts about this, what if I am not the only one these people do it to, and how many people who have killed themselves have dealt with targeted harassment. So while I am tougher mentally than a lot of others, I can take it, even though it hurts my fucking soul, because these people can be protected and say the worst shit and do the worst shit and me standing up for myself is what is magnified because I am supposed to be the better person, even though people want to pile on me and making me a miserable person.

When I separated with the dude and the lady, I figured they would get mad at the fact I am moving forward so they have to try and show up in different scopes I am in and maybe tell people to come and be spies for them. So sometimes when I am hurt about how my friendship with this dude was from the summer, I might be irrational and talk shit and I do this knowing he will hear about it, and he will act like I am talking shit about him, and he will say he does not want part of drama, but he is still monitoring me, and because I am not giving in, this is all I suspect in a theory not fact, that they need to start with me but look like the rationalized ones. I was willing to make peace but because they dismiss what I am going through and claim that I am endangering this lady because she insists on observing my scopes, but hates that her followers are there, like it is my problem, I don’t encourage hatred toward her and continued harassment. I might talk shit about her when she makes my broadcast about her, but she will claim she finds it funny or whatever, but when it is convenient she will then use it as a prime example of why I am an asshole.

Last weekend we had a blow up where I was on her scope with the trolls, who are aligned with Jimmernam, and the dude I was friends with who does good community work, who seems to have conviction, because he did end his friendship with people who treated Wendy like shit, which is admirable but all I did was bring up is that he is careful of his image but he is hanging out and following trolls who might be aligned with someone who might be grooming children, I did not say that he is the one who is a child predator or anything but I can understand why he is mad, but I am making a point that I am getting hated on for people I don’t want to fuck with and get doxxed by, because I let them in my periscope but not following them while he and this alien lady are following someone like this account Gorilla Bacon, who will restream my shit and play my worst calls. Sometimes I don’t know if these people are actual fans and they are just toughening me up or if these people are punishing me and becoming more aggressive because it is their job to get me out of the way before Howard ends up getting canceled when his past and his potential corruption might be brought to light.

These trolls don’t realize that the only reason people are aligning with them is because they all have mutual hatred for me. It could be anyone, it could be this dude on periscope, the alien lady, the trolls, Jimmernam and his kid army, or maybe people in my life who probably hate me. Either way their lives are all better than me and yet they need to make me feel like shit and rub it in my face I am on welfare, like this was not the plan from the system, because there are different rules in this world, and they blacklist me from making a living anywhere else so they can say I am not trying to monetize anything because I am not doing it on their time.

Any chance for anything embarrassing they will run with. Here is an example, if I say something that might be about agendas by the upper echelon of the LGBTQ, they will say homophobia but then if I say that I would consider having sex with a post op Trans woman, then they will mock me for it like they are homophobic. They will say the most racist shit against Muslim women or black people, and then a story comes out from someone as a joke about how I asked a Muslim woman out because we both live in Toronto, and she is a cool chick who has a good sense of humor, she asks me how much I will pay for her and where I will take her and I am willing to pay for something small on first date because it is about getting to know each other but I believe if we should pay our own shit on the first date, but she jokingly said I need to spend more money and I said “I will spend 50 bucks at most” and when I was given the option of over 100, I said “For that kind of money I better be getting laid” but I did not mean it literally because it was my way of conveying that it is ridiculous to expect a man to pay so much on a first date to get to know each other, just like it is ridiculous for me to expect sex on the first night. But the trolls ran with it and said that I am harassing a woman so it becomes a top google search when you look me up. It feels they are amplifying it because if Stern does get exposed, and I am someone who has been a prime target for calling him out, then when the general public looks me up, they will see these false narratives about me, and that is why it hurts to see these people who I thought were good, to align with these trolls who are doing it, and because they are not getting the shit they wanted out of me, they will have no issues to act like I am this dangerous human being who is lying and causing all this pain, and that won’t work. You will not point out at me and discredit me, because I am such an easy target who has no backup.

No media outlet even gives a fuck and it is sickens me because it will continue and it feels like they will only care until something horrible happens to me so then they can pretend they give a fuck about the situation, kind of like they are what they claim the MSM is and maybe someone is investigating and I am wrong but it feels like the worst possible shit has to happen in order for it to be exposed. You know how fucked up that is? It is like no matter what people have to profit off the pain and it shows that all these things are predetermined and will have solutions after the fact. It does not matter and I wrote this in 2 parts and made it this long because I hope if you are reading this, I hope you got a headache from reading all this convoluted mess of an explanation. I know most of you will not get through it all so you might as well put it on vocaroo to so you can get through it easier. Make sure you set it on some stereotypical accent.

I wrote this part with the fact that lately it has been more peaceful but when I was given the choice of not wanting this lady in my scope or wanting her out of my life, they did not take it kindly because if I gave in then I wanted her in my life, but by saying no because she has fucked with me too much and changed the narrative on me to paint me as the bad guy because she couldn’t make me fall for her spell, like she seems to have on other people, she is now coming into scopes of other people I have met and is kind of trying to poach them from partaking in my lives, and now she is coming back to my scope and pretends she is just automatically being put there and that the whole ambush on me on her scope was just comedy, Now that I let her back on, she will twist that, and say I forced her to be put on.

I don’t know what the fuck is going on anymore. I will close with this, that if you are someone of importance and power, you need to check in on this Misery Box guy and what kind of fucked up shit he has convinced his people to do. He has ensured that I will not go on that Limonade chick’s panel because he has threatened me and encouraged me to kill myself, and tell me how my parents don’t love me because I am such a disappointment, even threats of doxing them when people are not well, and I have tried to document this, if you go to my twitter page and look at the pinned tweet where I show old audio of Howard in 97 jokingly threatening the media if they fucked with him he would have dossiers on them to ruin their lives, and in that thread I have documented some of the cryptic videos, and threats of something happening to me, and it just does not matter anymore. I don’t know if the alien lady has anything to do with him but she is allowing some of the people she is associated with.

By the way on a scope where this bigoted guy who I hate was threatening to kill myself because his periscope girl friend cheated on him. Even though I hate the guy for how fucked up he is and feels no remorse I don’t like seeing anyone lose their mind, but he was one of the guys who I used as an example of the alien lady being friends with, who constantly says racist shit when she would point out because I shared the scope of the black atheist dude who was being harassed by Zionists, and now being labeled an anti Semite. So I called into the guy’s scope to see if he was for real and if he was fine, and if this situation was so real, that alien lady chose the time where he was threatening to kill himself and people, to come and tell me it was my fault and that I don’t care. She has no problem with just blaming me flat out and just making up lies, and then act like she is a victim afterwards if I point out her bullshit. It has become such a fucking mess. I don’t even know what this blog will accomplish. I am trying to move forward and it feels these trolls will not allow me, and they have me in a constant state of fear and paranoia, and when I explain myself they will even make more of a mockery because of it. It is so fucking gross and sick.

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fantroll-purgatory · 6 years ago

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Hello! It’s 2am, I’ve been rewriting this for 3 hours because words are the hard and I’m just tired. (Sounds like you are ALSO dealing with Time! But, that doesn’t make you a Time player either- let’s get into it.)

World: Alternia

Name: Tempus Facrem

“Tempus” means “time” in Latin, and “Facrem” is derived from “factorem” which means “maker”. Assuming I’ve not beansed the name (which is very, very possible), it should mean Time Maker which compliments her story and classpect nicely.

Age: ~8 sweeps

Theme/Story: Tempus is a hobbyist clock maker who’s hive is located in a quiet area of Alternia who tries her hardest to keep to herself and keep out of bother. Despite this, she’s often commissioned by trolls higher up the hemospectrum than herself and almost never has time to do her own thing or even make a clock for herself. I try to follow the general theme of time with her overall.

Goals: A general overview would be appreciated, as well as some suggestions for whatever I couldn’t decide on. As Tempus were originally created for a casual and definitely not canon-compliant Lords and Muses only RP session, I couldn’t adapt everything. (I am going to open my review here, because a General Overview of a character like this, by nature, turns into a Overhaul. I talk about Overcommitment To Gimmick A LOT in my reviews, because it plagues many fantrolls, ESPECIALLY Time Players.) (Your Troll is not the first Clock Themed Time Player Fantroll I’ve received, and I always point to canon. Aradia? Damara? Dave? When are any of these characters clock themed? You use the word “Time” 28 times in this profile, which points, once again, that that’s kind of her only thing.) (I will tackle alternate Aspects for her under Classpect. Much of this review is going to be trying to tease a more rounded character out of this. Perhaps your initial RP had more character for her? But, if there was, it hasn’t translated through to here.)

Strife Specibus: Sniperkind (or maybe riflekind, I can’t decide) (Riflekind is more general, and it’s what Jade uses!)

It also leads to some interesting questions you can ask yourself about her character- is she good or bad at guns? If she’s good at it, where did she learn and is this a passion? Is it just for protection or is there more? And if she isn’t good at it, why did she choose to pick it up and why does she stick with it?

Fetch Modus: Honestly no ideas here, chief.

I could probably make a cuckoo clock joke here, but I honestly don’t want to reinforce the already drowning-in-time theme.

God I could more jokingly apply a TikTok reference here. She has to make a musical.ly about the object in question.

Or if she’s fascinated with universal constants, she could have a more abstract time system, like an Orbit system. All the cards are locked into a central ‘orbit’ and can only be uncaptcha’d when they line up in particular ways.

Really, fetch modi usually involve alternate interests or coding jokes and it’s hard to think of any of those to apply here. I’d expand on her interest set and then come back to this!

Blood Colour: With reference to Fir3h34rt’s hemospectrum chart, between scarlet and cardinal.

I know we’re already making a lot of change recommendations and we’re hardly even half way, but I have to say that she really doesn’t read like a rust to me. We have to remember that rusts are rooted in Aries. The extended zodiac says rusts are wild, they crave adventure, they love drama, they’re dynamic, they’re quick to anger, they’re incautious- where is that in Tempus?

Further, clockworking isn’t a very low maintenance career. Most of the rusts we see have “menial” labor or things they can do on their own, adventuring out into the world without much equipment. If a rust can’t have prescription glasses, how are they getting a clock studio? Where is she getting the materials? Where did she get the startup materials? Did someone else act as her patron? Why?

This kind of niche skill and dedication to a craft isn’t something we see as emblematic of rusts, it’s something that’s more in line with bluebloods. That’s not to say I necessarily think you need to make her a blue (though I think it would be an interesting twist on the character and a good way to migrate her away from the obvious Aradia association). I just think you need to bring more of that Rustblood Fire to her, even if it’s repressed. Where’s the boiling under the surface tension? The desire to throw off her shackles and run free?

Her theoretical EZ symbol with your current assignments would be The Headstrong. Where’s the headstrong?

Symbol and Meaning:

A minimalist empty hourglass. Represents a lack of time. (I don’t have a better sign off the cuff, but refer to my comments above as to why I think this is a poor choice.)

Handle: I’m also not sure what to put here. This was another detail that I just couldn’t adapt. Her original handle was timeyWimey because she was meant to be a Lord of Time and my humour isn’t very creative. (I… actually think that’s pretty cute.)

Quirk: Regular capitalisation. Vowels are replaced with respective numbers, unless if the number created from the quirk is greater than 12. e.g. My n4m3 1s T3mpu5 F4cr3m.

Again we can kind of see the overcommitment here. I can’t fault you too much for it, but you might want to step away from the clock thing Too strongly here. You say she likes rhythm, tempo. Maybe you could think of different speaking patterns instead. Find syllabic patterns to give her, or even just chop her words curtly, monosyllabic. Ex: Give. Her. A. Drone. One. Syl. La. Ble. At. A. Time. It. Is. Slow. But. She. Is. Pa. Tient. Are. You?

But I again recommend looking more into her interests and then coming back to this later.

Lusus: Greater Skarthi, a dog-sized beetle with two horns. A very relaxed lusus who taught Tempus the value of patience. They share a good relationship.

I honestly think she could use at least a little conflict. Having a soothing lusus relationship is easy, sure, but how about the interest of trying to focus on her craft when her lusus routinely wrecks her shit? The stress. The Drama.

Interests: Tempus is fascinated with clocks and rhythm as a whole, seeing time as a universal constant that should be respected. She chooses to respect time by making clocks, and prior to her being frequently commissioned she used to make them in a variety of shapes and sizes through different methods for entertainment or to pass the time. (So… her entire interests are clocks and Time. A Time Player is not like this. Let’s look at Dave’s intro page: “Your name is DAVE. It is an UNSEASONABLY WARM April day. Your BEDROOM WINDOW is open to let some air in, and your FAN is cranked. Arguably even more cranked would be your FLY BEATS, which brings us to your variety of INTERESTS. A cool dude like you is sure to have plenty. You have a penchant for spinning out UNBELIEVABLY ILL JAMS with your TURNTABLES AND MIXING GEAR. You like to rave about BANDS NO ONE’S EVER HEARD OF BUT YOU. You collect WEIRD DEAD THINGS PRESERVED IN VARIOUS WAYS. You are an AMATEUR PHOTOGRAPHER and operate your own MAKESHIFT DARKROOM. You maintain a number of IRONICALLY HUMOROUS BLOGS, WEBSITES, AND SOCIAL NETWORKING PROFILES. And if the inspiration strikes, you won’t hesitate to drop some PHAT RHYMES on a mofo and REPRESENT.” Homestuck ACT 2, Page 312) (Aradia gets kind of a free pass for her intro page because she is… well… a ghost. And her stated remembered interest is Archaeology, not Clocks.)

This is where you have to ask your self some additional questions. How might she have gotten into clock making? Did she start with woodworking? Was she inspired by something else? Did she just do it out of convenience because she didn’t have one? Does she just like DIY in general? Because DIY could be a very interesting origin point for a character like her. A lot of self-crafts DO take a lot of patience and you can capitalize on that character trait in ways besides saying it.

And, of course, you should ask what she does in her downtime. Unless she’s a workaholic or is in extortionist circumstances, most people have downtime. Does she have unfair contracts keeping her working constantly and stopping her from pursuing old intrigues? Does she miss her other interests? Or does she choose to burn the candle at both ends and neglect leisure? Because if neither of these are the case, she needs other hobbies.

Appearance: Has long black hair, similar to Aradia’s but slightly shorter and a tad tidier. Her horns share the ram aesthetic of Aradia’s too, however they have significantly less curling and point downwards and forwards. Wears a tool apron with her symbol on it over a dark grey jumpsuit. (I would absolutely love it if you could draw your interpretation of her to see how it compares to mine, but it’s absolutely not necessary.)

Personality: While she isn’t particularly optimistic, Tempus is good at looking at a situation from different perspectives which can be confused for optimism. In reality, she’s far more calm and relaxed under pressure than she is optimistic. She’s incredibly patient, both with people and in a literal waiting sense, thanks to her lusus. As she has the patient of a saint. when she does rarely get frustrated it’s usually very small scale. In spite of this, she’s prone to cursing, but not often to directly insult someone or something and more for comedic effect. (I think we have the beginnings of a solid character here. The thing that she’s really missing is the Time sense of fighting. She’s got this serene, steel will which is a useful trait, but where’s the STRUGGLE? Where is the drama, where is that draw to cyclical destruction.)

^^^ You’ve given us red on red, here. Time and Rust together have an inherent drama and tension. I really think that’s what we’re missing here. I think you could easily do something with the fact that she’s been put on commission to so many highbloods. Is she playing up her patience? Is she putting on airs for her professional career? Does she have a fury boiling beneath her skin? If she about to snap? Is she one snide violetblood comment away from tearing a clock off the wall and committing murder? Is she trying so hard to be a patient person but god people make it so HARD don’t you just want to go APE SHIT?

Lunar Sway: Prospit, as she’s loyal to her acquaintances and often employs a creative approach to problems, even if they aren’t the most efficient ways of doing things. She also lives in the moment as she doesn’t always have the time to plan ahead. (Checks out to me.)

Title: Maid of Time. Don’t have much commentary regarding that :/ sorry

(And here it begins. Is this character a Maid? I don’t think so- Maids have a pretty classic character arc of being pushed around and then snapping and going absolute bonkers- Aradia beats Vriska to literal death, Kanaya chainsaws Eridan, and Jane…. oh boy, half of Act 6 is Jane’s.) (Is this character a Time player? I often use the phrase “Chosen by Time” in my reviews, because Time players are so DISTINCT, and required by Sgrub/Sburb. Time players aren’t chosen to be such because they like clocks or time, but because they have traits that allow them to whether the endless destruction and struggle that the Red Mantle puts on their shoulders. She needs a core of restlessness, a core of churning, if placid. EZ says that “at their worst they are ruthless, defensive, and impulsive”, which I think helps put them into perspective. Time players can and will lash back out at you.) (I think… this might be a Void player. She’d need an overhaul just to be something other than a walking clock reference, but she has the makings of one of those. A draw towards creation but in a lowkey sense, expanding on things that are already known…) (Otherwise, she may be a Space Player. She has that creation focus, and she reminds me more of 1-4 Jade than any Time player in Canon. Jade also leaned very heavily into her Time inversion for most of her life, to the point where she received Seer of Time powers for quite a while.)

I have to agree here. I think if you wanted her to be a Maid of Time you’d really have to lean into what I addressed under the personality section. She has to be ready to SNAP. Her narrative would have to be about being pushed around and then she lets go and finally embodies the full chaotic force of time. Otherwise, she’s just not a time player or a maid. Space player is where I’m leaning, personally. They embody the patience and mutability you describe here way more and they also tend to be of the craftier and more hands-on sort. Void player is also a great way to go for a creative. You’d have to lean into her interest in the universe, in the unknown- you address her caring about universal constants, but why? That’s the sort of question the Void assignment would ask.

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