#maybe ill do more poly stuff or something

[dissidiacloudstrife]

this went through so many changes, and ill include the part of the sketch i actually really enjoyed before trying to finish this under a read more

uh thank you for being on this journey of doodles with me, i love them all your honor

Sephiroth | Genesis | Angeal | Zack | Aerith | Tifa

[charlottes-diary-entries]

Hello love! I absolutely adore your writing, I was wondering if maybe you could do a poly!mauraders x reader where maybe the reader got injured somehow (maybe quditch?) and the mauraders are like all worried and stuff? Totally fine if you don’t want to do it, I just got injured at my competition and I’m feeling sorry for myself 😂

baby i feel your self-pity, i hate getting benched from injuries!! it's the total worst and i hope you heal quickly, but in the mean time here's something special! it turned more into an independent reader struggling with being worried over, but i hope you enjoy darling. <3

CW: injuries, but thats about it <3

The sound of the students in the stands could only be described as a frightening roar during the match. Through some drizzling rain, Gryffindors and Slytherins had poured out of their common rooms by the dozens to witness the match, which had become increasingly intense.

Foul plays from Slytherins, attempts at similar plays from Gryffindor (which James shut down immediately with a reprimanding and a few threats of what practice would become should such poor sportsmanship continue). You had dodged more ill-aimed bludgers than you could count, and as the wind picked up and the rain got heavier, it was all you could do to stay on your broom.

And at some point, even that became unmanageable.

You could have sworn you'd just blinked and suddenly the noise in your ears increased ten-fold, deafening you, and there were these horrible stars in your eyes.

Then you were on the ground, and there were lots and lots of people around you, and you couldn't really see right, and-

"Shit, shit, shit, love! Shit!"

Was that James?

"What happened? What the fuck happened? Was this one of the snakes, because I swear to fuck-"

Sirius?

They kept shouting, until someone else (a professor?) was shouting at them to quiet down. A lot of movement, fuzzy, dizzying movement, then someone was picking you up and suddenly falling asleep felt like a very, very nice idea.

"No, no, no dove, stay up for us, yeah? I don't- Maybe falling asleep isn't a good idea okay?"

Ah, so Remus was carrying you. You tried to lift a hand to your eyes, to hide from the light, or hide from Remus, or something, but you could barely feel your hand. Scratch that, your entire arm felt like it'd been pulled clean off.

Tears began to slip down your cheeks because fuck, now that you thought about it, your head really, really hurt. Your whole body was burning in pain.

"Oh, don't cry dovey, please, don't cry, Madame Pomfrey'll fix you up so quick, you won't even know..."

You lost the rest of his sentence as you began to drift away. Not that you really wanted to, it just felt much, much easier than staying awake...

All that was what had landed you here, benched at Quidditch with a pair of sunglasses on, a nasty cast around your left arm, and what your boys had deemed a permanent frown that worsened by the minute.

You had woken from the concussion very early the next morning to find an extremely frantic Sirius at the foot of your bed. He kissed you and talked while Remus and James were both still asleep, holding hands as they sat by your bed. Apparently, Sirius couldn't sleep he was so worried about you.

(The conversation didn't get much further than that as Pomfrey entered and began to shoo off the boys. Poor Remus and James only got to give you quick "I Love You's" before being firmly ushered out.)

You had been on bed rest the entire day, Pomfrey also dealing with a freak accident from a first-year potions class. Several children with boils and fevers and a need for so much attention that Pomfrey could not spend time brewing fresh Skele-Gro for you, hence, the traditionally muggle healing methods on your arm. Her potion for your concussion was helping you heal faster, but damn did it make every light blinding.

James had determined you banned from Quidditch practice until you were fully healed. While you understood his reasoning, it did not mean you had to be happy about being benched.

"Lighten up please, darling, glaring at them isn't going to make your head better."

You turned to glower at Remus instead, who sat to your right and handed you a cauldron cake. He smiled brightly and bumped your shoulder before kissing your forehead. Your frown deepened immensely.

"Maybe so, but it's certainly making me feel better knowing they know how much I hate this."

"Am I really such horrid company?" Remus said, a cheeky grin on his face. You rolled your eyes (which definitely did not hurt your head) and turned back to watch James and Sirius fly about in the air. You leaned your head on his shoulder and shut your eyes.

"No," You began, "I just wish I could be up there."

Remus's grin dropped and he placed a kiss to your temple before leaning his head against yours.

"I know dove."

You watched them continue their drills in silence and you had begun to eat your treat when Remus spoke up again.

"Though, it is nice to have you for company. I finally have someone else to ogle the boys with."

At this you snorted, looking up again to follow James and Sirius in the air.

"Yeah, they are pretty hot when they do their thing, huh?"

"Very. Very hot."

"Please, Sirius, my arm's fine now, I can carry my own bags-"

"Not if I have anything to say about it."

Sirius held your books out of your reach with a grin and you huffed, crossing your arms as you both walked to potions. None of the boys had let you carry anything the past week, which was sweet and very gentlemanly of them, but quickly beginning to bother you. Especially as Pomfrey had had you up in the Medical Wing very quickly, choking down Skele-Gro so your arm could heal. Was your arm a tad weaker than normal? Yes! Did it make you a helpless doll? Absolutely not!

"I'm completely serious-"

"No, I am!"

"Siri!" You tried to glare at him, snatching at your bag which he expertly kept to himself. "I can carry my own books, really, I'm fine."

"Hmm..." Sirius stopped cold and began to study you, inspecting you from head to toe. He stepped closer, grabbing your chin, which in turn made you gasp a little bit and lose some of your bravado. He tilted your head each way before grabbing your freshly healed arm and staring it down. You went to interrupt when he slipped your hand into his own and began pulling you along.

"Since you want to hold something so bad, you get me until we say you're alright."

You scoffed as an awful grin grew on his face.

"This is ridiculous. It's almost been a week and still."

"Still what, dove?" A new voice popped up, and James sidled up beside the two of you, taking your other hand.

Your face warmed a little bit as he leaned over to place a kiss on your cheek, but you rolled your eyes and powered on.

"Still you're all coddling me. I mean, you have to let me back on my broom someday, James. Can't keep me benched forever."

At this he frowned, growing a little more serious. "Darling, you need rest to heal. You still need those glasses outside and I'd rather play it safe with you. Don't want you mucking up a solid week of getting better just cause you couldn't wait to be back on a broom. It'd make me a bad captain to let you do that, and an even worse boyfriend."

Again, you grumbled, trying to accept their caring as simply that; caring. He placed another kiss on your cheek and swung your hands back and forth as Sirius spoke up again.

"We don't get many chances to worry over you like this darling, let us baby you just this once? Pretty please?"

He flashed you horrid puppy-eyes as James squeezed your hand again. You rolled your eyes, feeling warmth spread throughout your cheeks and neck.

"Just- let's get to potions. Please."

Both boys grinned and began chattering away as you walked. Would it be so horrible to let them treat you for a while?

Yes. Yes, it would.

Because it would seem, after nearly two weeks of resting and healing spent half in your bed and entirely in the arms of your boyfriends, they still were unwilling to let you return to practice fully.

This thought irked you horribly as you sat, hovering on your broom like a first-year, doing slow laps around the quidditch field no more than a meter off the ground. You picked up your pace a little bit, beginning to feel a bit of wind on your face as you thought of how badly you wanted to be doing more.

"Oi, quit it."

The glare you sent James's way was burning with simmering frustration. You proceeded to stick your tongue out at him and cross your arms, as childish as it felt.

He merely frowned in response, turning to watch the rest of the team drilling catching and dodging with some quaffles. Even if he wanted to place all his attention on you, it would've been entirely unfair to the rest of the team. Sirius was also distracted, i.e., finding a little too much fun in their game of dodgeball. (He'd nearly given a keeper a black eye.) Remus was not there to watch today, instead spending his time studying for an upcoming exam.

With all eyes turned away from you, and this endless itch to actually, finally do something, slipping away was a very easy thing to do.

As you began to fly around the grounds of Hogwarts, shooting up into the sky and diving back down to pick up even more speed, you could've sworn the wind wasn't just whistling in your ears. It was whispering to you that slipping away was the right thing.

You whooped and hollered and laughed as you chased your way around the towers and over the Black Lake. You dared to let your hand fall and scrape the inky dark surface of the water, and the resulting splash endlessly delighted you. Eventually, you decided to settle your little escape under a tree by the shore.

A few pants escaped you as your lungs caught up with all you had just done. After, you'd relaxed for maybe another twenty minutes and it felt like nothing could wipe the smile off your face.

"Jesus, dove, there you are."

Alright, maybe nothing.

You turned to find Sirius landing his broom and jogging over to you, and your face slowly began to drop. He dropped to his knees next to you and gave you a cursory glance, and when he was happy with the state of you, relaxed against the tree as well.

The two of you sat in silence for a minute before you managed to speak up.

"I'm not sorry or anything. By the way. And I-" You glanced over to Sirius, before staring forward and plowing on, "I've appreciated you all caring and coddling me but I'm better and I'm sick of being sidelined and babied and- and-"

You looked at Sirius again to find him smiling at you, completely in love. There was so much care in his eyes that it caused you to stumble over your words and past your point completely.

"And... yeah."

Sirius only continued to smile at you. He then sighed a little and wrapped an arm around your waist to tug you into him.

"Sorry we've been babying you, gorgeous." He paired this with a kiss pressed to your temple. "We're just nervous about making sure you're okay."

"I'm okay. Believe me, I am okay now."

"I believe you, love."

"Good."

You relaxed against him and soaked up the day together. There were birds singing in the distance and a light breeze dancing across the grass. It felt peaceful. You turned your gaze to Sirius and pressed a loving kiss to his cheek.

"I do mean it, I appreciate you all worrying about me. Even if you don't need to so much anymore."

"Not a problem dovey," He grinned, still looking out across the lake before he turned to return your kiss. "It's our job as boyfriends. And now, our job is to convince James you're well enough to do more than float an inch off the ground."

A snort escaped you as you laughed at that, sighing and hiding your face against his shoulder.

"He's gonna give me so much shit for skipping out on practice, floating or not."

"I'm sure it won't be all that bad."

Sirius now smirked down at you, unable to resist pressing yet another kiss to your cheek.

"He's completely smitten with you after all. We all are."

oh my god this is a million years late babes, i'm so sorry. between finals and dorm moveout i've been completely swamped. i'm planning on getting back into the fanfiction grind though, so you have plenty to look forward to coming up darling!! all the best!!!! <3

[poltxrgxist]

The Water is Fine (hsr isekai fic)

Dan Heng x Reader x Blade

Pt.1/???

CW/TW for series *more will be added eventually* - Gore, Murder, Blade, Typical HSR violence, description of medical treatments/injuries, Typical Demon Slayer violence, Canon but also not canon, Eventual Smut so MDNI 18+

A/N - got a little silly and decided to indulge myself in a poly relationship with RenHeng. Also had to mix the two main fandoms I’m in. This was also finished on an airplane so like, no proofreading done yet.

Expect grammar/spelling errors due to my dyslexia.

WC - 1715 - Crossposted to Ao3

A girl sat quietly on a roof, gazing out at the sunrise. It was a relatively quiet night in the butterfly mansion, she didn’t even notice the girl with pink and green hair coming up from behind her til they spoke, “Is something on your mind?”

The other girl startled had quickly turned to look at the source of the voice, her body visibly relaxed once she recognized the girl. “Oh. Mitsuri, how are you feeling?”

“I’m doing fine, I’m more worried about you (Y/N) you haven’t given yourself a break since…” Mitsuri seemed hesitant, unsure if it was the best idea to continue with her words, worried about how it’d affect the other girl seeing as it was still a fresh wound.

“I know I haven’t… however it’s been a quiet night so I suppose it’s been a quiet night which has been sorta of a break.” (Y/N) responded briefly as she turned back to look at the horizon.

“Then why do you look so glum?” Mitsuri asked as she took a seat next to her.

“Just thinking about stuff,” She responded, her gaze unmoving, Mitsuri seemed to frown at this response but looked at sunrise alongside (Y/N).

“Do you want to share what you’re thinking about?” Mitsuri inquired softly, trying not to stress her out too much.

(Y/N) inhaled softly before letting out a breathy sigh, “Do you think there are other worlds out there? A reality where the world isn’t terrorized by demons… a world free of Kibutsuji or a world where things are completely different than here.”

Mitsuri didn’t respond immediately, just closing her eyes before letting out a breath she didn’t know she was holding. “Maybe… if there are different realities or worlds I do hope we get the world free of demons. What made you bring this up?”

(Y/N) shrugged, “I don’t know I’ve just been reading a lot of things and there has been a theory of alternative universes.. some people think people can be pulled into these worlds without warning.”

Mitsuri hummed softly, “You say that like you want to be pulled into a different universe.”

“Wha-? Of course not! Someone has to take care of the butterfly mansion.” (Y/N) was appalled by Mitsuri’s accusation even if it wasn’t meant with any ill intention.

“I’m just messing with you, you already have your worlds with how much you daydream.” She teased as she playfully nudged (Y/N).

(Y/N)’s face flushed a rosy hue as she looked away due to embarrassment. Her gaze landed on the small piece of a jade pendant she wore on her uniform belt. “I can’t help but fantasize about the history of this jade pendant I have.”

“I don’t blame you. It looks like a piece of a whole pendant, I wonder how many pieces are left and if other people have the missing parts.”

(Y/N) rolled her eyes, “Are you sure you don’t fantasize about it more than I do?”

“Hey, don’t blame me! Who wouldn’t be curious about the history of this mysterious pendant? Ever since you told me about when I started teaching you love breathing, I just am dying to know the history since you also have no idea.” Mitsuri giggled as she briefly glanced at the jade pendant on (Y/N)’s belt.

“Logically speaking though it likely doesn’t have a cool history, it’s probably just an old pendant that has been in my family and it just broke over time. Also speaking of love breathing, I know I’ve said this a million times now but thank you for teaching me it. It feels nice to have a breathing style that suits my body.”

Mitsuri rolled her eyes, “It’s nothing, you picked up so quickly like you were the one who made the style!”

“It was because I had a great teacher.” (Y/N) snickered as she reached up and poked Mitsuri’s nose with a playful smirk. She then looked back at the sunrise and yawned.

“Why don’t you head to bed? I can keep watch, besides I don’t have any missions.” Mitsuri nudged (Y/N) gently to convince her to go to sleep.

“Don’t you have a region to patrol though?” (Y/N) asked after blinking a few times to clear the watery eyes from yawning.

“Nope. Giyuu agreed to cover it for me since it’s so close to his region that he patrols. Besides the master wants me to keep an eye on you, to make sure you don’t do anything harmful to yourself.”

(Y/N) was about to remark that she would be fine and that she wasn’t tired but had yawned again instead. She let out a sigh of defeat after yawning before standing up, “Alright, fine I’ll go to bed.” She bowed her head, exchanging a good night with Mitsuri. She then jumped off the roof and headed into the butterfly mansion. Her steps are quiet to avoid making noise to wake up any patients who may be sleeping.

She quietly pushed open the door to her room, stepping inside. She walked over to her vanity, getting ready to take out her butterfly hair clip. She then spotted a strange black crystal with golden undertones to it. (Y/N) blinked a few times in confusion, “Huh…? I didn’t put this here..” She murmured to herself as she reached out to pick it up.

She paused when she felt a strange energy coming off it. It felt hot, yet not enough to cause burns on the skin. She wasn’t sure if she should grab it, but she wanted to see if it had a tag saying who it was from. She assumed one of the girls had left it as a gift but it certainly didn’t seem like something that they’d get her. She looked around her vanity, to see if there was a note nearby. She let out a breath as she stepped back, “No note… just a strange crystal on my vanity that I didn’t put there… just everyday things..”

She ran a hand through her hair, moving some of her hair out of her face. “Alright… what's the worst thing that could happen? It might just be feeling like that because I haven’t slept all night.” She was desperately trying to reason with herself, trying to find any sort of logic that she could. However, she couldn’t find anything that seemed logical in this situation.

She shook her head and just grabbed the crystal. She didn’t even get to process what had happened when she got blinded by a bright light. When the bright light subsided, it was cold, like the winter air clinging to her body. But then she heard voices which caused her to open her eyes. Wincing at the bright light, she gave her eyes a moment to adjust before she looked around.

Tensing up when she noticed five people looking at her. She tensed up, instinctively placing her hand on the hilt of her sword, she was about to speak before the woman with long gray hair spoke, her weapon aimed at her, “Name yourself.”

(Y/N) tensed up, she didn’t understand what they were saying, it was a foreign language, well it was foreign at least to her. She tilted her head before speaking, hoping they’d understand her, “I.. I’m sorry. What did you say?”

The people standing before her shared confused glances with eachother. The pink haired girl looked at the male, saying something, “Dan Heng you’re smart, do you know what she said?”

The male looked shocked for a brief moment before quickly regaining her composure. “No, I don’t. However, it might be easier if we bring her to Belobog so she can write something so we can translate on our phones.”

The two gray haired girls nodded her head, while the black haired girl spoke, “But what should we do about Cocolia? Do we tell the people that she died?”

While four of them talked amongst themselves Dan Heng approached (Y/N) holding a hand out. She instinctively placed her hand on the hilt of her sword, eyeing the male suspiciously. He looked familiar but she couldn’t figure out why, but she assumed he looked similar to a slayer she saw. The male noticed her holding the hilt of her sword, he retracted his hand, holding both hands up to show he meant no harm. She blinked a few times, lessing the tension in her body, still being extremely cautious and wary. Dan Heng visibly relaxed before lowering his arms and extending a hand towards her.

(Y/N) very hesitantly took the extended hand, allowing the male to help her up to her feet. She didn’t let go as the male led her over to the group. She watched as they talked amongst themselves, while she held the male’s hand. The pink haired girl seemed to notice and smirked at the male, grabbing what (Y/N) could only assume was a camera. It looked different then what she remembered they looked like but she assumed technology was a lot different here then Japan. The male narrowed his eyes, “March…”

The pink haired girl giggled, “Please! It’s the most action you’ll ever get with a girl.”

“No. We can’t even ask if she’s okay with taking a photo because she doesn’t understand us.” Dan Heng shook his head, not even going to respond the remark March had made. “Anyways, have you guys decided what we’re going to do?”

“I will be telling people that mother sacrificed herself to rid of the stellaron. It’s best if they don’t know what actually happened.” Bronya spoke, the others didn’t give much of a reaction.

“I suppose our sudden guest will be handled by the astral express, huh?” March asked, placing a hand on her hip.

Bronya nodded, “I figured it would be best as she did appear after the energy from the stellaron overwhelmed my mother’s body.”

Dan Heng nodded, “When we return I’ll send a message to Mr. Yang and Himeko.” The group exchanged a few more words with each other before they began walking. (Y/N) continued to hold Dan Heng’s hand as she didn’t want to get lost and wasn’t the best at navigating snowy terrain.

[pipileo]

OC Revamp: Cupie + Lore Drop

Cupie is an angelet, a creature that was created for the sole purpose of being used to correct the impurities of the universe. How? Cupie was given an ability to expel a potent cloud of gas of which caused any organism that inhaled it to immediately become docile and/or friendly, regardless of current level of aggression. It's very effective, maybe even overpowered, but luckily, Cupie doesn't know how to trigger his ability on command. It only ever goes off when he's scared.

The opposite of an angelet is something called an erronite. An erronite is created by the great mistake himself, Erroneous. Erroneous wants to spread his impurities across the universe, and the erronites were created to help with that, albeit at a smaller scale. Loomer, Cupie's current day boyfriend, is an erronite.

How did Cupie meet Loomer? Well, uhm. through cringe. More details under the line, but warning, its mostly fluff and corny boys love

Cupie met his boyfriend in a very peculiar way. When Almus, Cupie's owner, was looking for an impurity to capture, Almus spotted Loomer stalking people from a distance. So, without thinking, Almus jumped into action, and decided to test out Cupie's ability by trying to toss him like a grenade. Almus scooped Cupie into his arms, curled him up like a roly poly, and tossed him in Loomer's direction like a football. Cupie's ability went off in the air, much to Almus' frustration, and Cupie continued his flight towards Loomer with zero chance of his ability going off again in time. Loomer turned around, only to see a tiny angelet hurtling towards him at 70 miles per hour, and with no time to react, Loomer reached his hands out and caught Cupie before he collided with the ground. Everything in the world stopped for a moment to process what happened, and things quickly grew awkward when neither Cupie or Loomer moved to break the silence. They just stood there in silence, Loomer unsure whether to let Cupie go, and Cupie hardly resisting Loomer's grasp.

After a about a minute, Cupie started to realize how fluffy this Erronites chest was. He floofed it a couple times, to test the waters, before he straight up began to

Loomer found himself dumbfounded, but strangely finding a sense of comfort from Cupie's paws in his fur at this awkward moment. Suddenly, Loomer didn't want to hurt this angelet, nor did he want to make himself look bad from of them. When Almus came over to retrieve Cupie from the erronite, he was concerned at how neither of them looked at each other as enemies, but as friends. Almus decided that since Cupie still couldn't use his ability yet, they would just wait and see if Loomer would try to do anything bad. If Loomer did something bad, Almus would have Cupie purify his darkness forcefully. If not, Loomer would become a better person on his own terms. Comment the word cringe if you read this thoroughly.

When Loomer behaved himself, Almus allowed Cupie to be **FRIENDS** with him, and as a result, Cupie and Loomer's relationship grew stronger over time until they were changing their personalities to appease each other. These personality changes were actually reflected in their appearance as well.

Loomer was becoming more thoughtful and generous as a result of his introduction to Cupie. As a side effect of his transformation, Loomer's chest fur began to develop a bright yellow tint. On the other end, Cupie was being mischievous to keep Loomer from getting bored. Cupie began to develop dark fur spots on his arms and legs, reflecting his slow transition to the dark side, and maybe making him look like a cheetah, i guess.

Anyways- I think im done. Im probably done. Theres more but i dont want this to be too long. Erroneous does more stuff to annoy Almus, but maybe ill talk about it later. Bye now!!! Thanks for reading, if you did!!

[velvetwyrme]

oouuouua please make a follow up on the superhero pap x reader theyre one of my favorites also im excited to see tf fic from yuo

im glad you enjoyed it!!! i got a comment on it recently while i was thinking abt how to continue it and that seemed to click my brain into action LMAO

EHEHEHE hopefully! soon!! ive got a few things in mind but im also waffling over Really Starting because i have so many things ongoing but... auauugh the IDEAS plague me!!!!

also heres a sneak peek into my brain because im in the mood to chatter, but feel free to skip it if you so desire:

for Origin Story im LOOSELY planning any continuation/s to be kinda standalone stories all centered around a superhero trope (like the Origin Story ;]) because i think that could be fun to work with. i enjoyed writing some of the larger Undertale cast, something that i WOULD have liked to do in FF, except Edge and the MC in that are both pretty reclusive socially abfjfbdjdghkf,, oh well.

anyway. i have tons of ideas for the various tropes, so its really a matter of picking a place and Writing. i really want to feature more of Alphys in this because i love her dearly <3

as for TF fic... most of them are reader inserts unsurprisingly lmaooo but ive got a few non-reader inserts floating around there too. im kinda just throwin stuff at the walls of my mind to see what sticks, but heres a few of my draft titles for your perusing pleasure:

into the fire: noble-ish au with a human reader who is supposed to be gifted to one of the members of the household. reader makes a failed escape attempt torn bedsheet style and is saved :] inspired loosely by the visual novels i used to read/play back in high school LMAO. skeletiano, i will forever be sad i could not romance you.

between you, me and soundwave: reader writes rpf abt mechs on earth LMAO. i see people mention humans writing fanfic about Cybertronians in passing but i think itd be funny to put that at the forefront. extremely silly and low stakes fic. probably.

drift compatibility: mecha! pilot! au!! exists purely because i read 1 (one) fic about plugsuits and just went "hmnngh... mecha pilots are fun to imagine interacting with Cybertronians... also there's DRIFT compatibility... i can totally do some fucked up shit with that" and now it's spiralled wildly out of control because at some point i started thinking about Governments and Social Structures and got distracted with worldbuilding lol. i have many many many ideas and i can only hope i can string some of them together so I can EXPLODE it out of my brain either through writing or art. also theres smut that happens wayyyy down the line which ill probably end up writing first and posting separately LMAO

penance is a prison: my take on Titan AU but as a fic because my brain is so so full of thoughts abt this au. i'll probably just end up drawing a lot of these scenes instead but like. its there! partially written!! im emotions abt it!!!

self explanatory long title: human/borrower au constructicons/jazz/prowl poly. i love rare not-so-pairs a lot and im particularly fond of this set. also i just like thinking abt either jazz and prowl getting menaced by a bunch of tiny guys OR the opposite where a group of construction workers have two borrower roommates. this one is more just random idea dumps instead of a fic but still fun to think about LMAO

ALSO! MINI REC. while you wait for me to (eventually maybe) write TF fic, you should check out boostergoldishh's works on ao3 for some tasty tasty TF reader insert fics. im still planning on making a rec list but they updated today and im filled w/ much love for good writing.

and as a bonus if you got this far (thank you!!): the super secret draft chapter title for the next NEXT FF chapter because its pretty silly

if my cowriter sees this hi. ill share the doc soon but its pretty much empty, its just there to remind me whats coming next LMAO 👍

[sensei-venus]

Thoughts on poly binary boyfriends and their chubby girlfriend who is too insecure to wear lingerie bc she thinks she's "too fat for that"?

“Put It On Yah”

(Unesited) (Mentions of Body Image Issues, Squint to find Monster Cock! Demetri, Moon being a good friend in the background.) (Moster Cock!Demetri 🤤✊ @gemini-sensei )

“But it's so cute! You have to get it! Hawk and Demetri will love it on you.”

Moon pouted and whined as she held up the lacy lingerie set. She twisted it around as she held it up, looking at it from different angles. She picked at the fabric for a moment. Reader didn't even want to look at her as she messed with the lacy underwear.

Moon had talker her into going out and shopping with her at the mall together for the day and she just couldn't say no to the girl. Hawk and Demetri where at the dojo with the rest of the students from Miyagi-Fang. A day class wasn’t that odd but it did leave her with some free time away from them. It was a little lonely so when Moon texted asking to go out, she said yes.

She was slowly starting to regret the decision to go out with the giggle girl.

The little lingerie shop in the corner of the mall wasn't on her to do list so when Moon pulled her onto the little boutique she was a little shocked. She wasn’t expecting it at all. When Moon started pulling out random sets of underwear from different bins she knew her fun time was over. The idea of lingerie always made her stomach bubble in embarrassment and dread. It had never crossed her mind to try on anything like that let alone actually wear it.

When she brought up the idea of wearing it for Hawk and Demetri, her stomach turned even more in insecurity.

“I don’t know about this Moon, do you even think they will actually like it? Iv never even heard them mention liking this kind of stuff.”

“Oh come on all guys like to see their girl in something revealing~ a little spicy- every once in a while. Then again you could just tease them in it if you really wanted too.” Moon shrugged as she handed the little number to Reader.

Readers eyes looked over the sketch fabric in her hands as Moon walked around the shop. She bit her lip as she really looked at it. Maybe it wasn't a bad idea to get it. She could just come back and return it if it didn't work out, no harm done. Maybe it would be fun to tease the boys with a skimpy little number.

“I'll get it but I'm blaming you if I make myself look stupid for my boyfriends.”

Moon squealed from the other side of the store making Readers eyes roll.

Reader decided to plan out the whole night the guys got home. The training ran over so they didn't get back until later that evening.

Now everyone was home.

The boys had showed and where relaxing on there bed. Demetri was on his phone doing something while Hawk was flipping though a book that Demetri let him borrow. The two of them where pretty quite beside the occasion comment to one another.

Reader poked her head out of the bathroom and into the bedroom to get a better look at the two. She chewed at her bottom lip as her eyes scanned over their relaxed figures.

“ I uh-uh wanted to show you guys something-”

She couldn't fully form her sentence when they both turned to look at her. Her body froze before she could even walk out from behind the bathroom door. Her face felt like it was on fire and her head felt fuzzy in that very moment.

“Forget it! I uh, just give me a few minutes and ill be out.”

Both guys looked at each other before looking back at the now closed bathroom door. Hawk was the first one up. He slowly walked to the door and lightly knocked.

“You ok in there? Kinda sounded like you really wanted to show us something.”

“I don't think it's a good idea now. I thought it over and I don't think you guys will like it. I'm just going to change and get ready for bed.”

Demetri’s ears perked up at the mention of getting dressed.

“Changed? Did you get something new? I know you and Moon went to the mall recently. Did you want to show us a new outfit or something? We would love to see what you got.”

Reader was silent from the other side of the door. She couldn't help but stand in front of the bathroom mirror and look at herself.



(I thought this was cute-)

She really couldn't decide if she wanted to show them the new lingerie. She could just take or off and put a shirt and shorts on and call it a day. Take the lingerie and hide it in their closet somewhere. Maybe she could just return it at the mall-

“Shit that's hot-”

“Babe you look so fucking sexy in that-”

Reader nearly jumped out of her skin as she tried to cover herself with her hands and arms. Her eyes wide as she turned to the door to find it now open and both of her boyfriends standing in the door way. Both of them stared her down. Their feet rooted to the spot where they stood. Hawl licked his lips as his eyes drank her in. Demetri was chewing on his bottom lip as his eyes widened and scanned over her almost naked form.

“I didn't think you would like it...”

“Why did you think that? Your so sexy in that princess. And all for us? Why would you say that.”

Reader fiddled with her fingers. She looked down at herself.

“Because I'm to big for this kind of stuff... I'm too fat to wear things kind of stuff and still look as sexy as those girls on the magazine covers. I'm not a cover girl or anything...”

Hawk rushed over to her and pulled her into a hug, Demetri following. The two boys hugged her tightly.

Hawk kissed at her cheek saying “Don't go there, you are just as amazing and hot as those girls on the magazines. And the thing is, we think your hot in it so it doesn't matter. Those girls mean nothing to us.”

Demetri nodded saying “I uh don't think I would be as uh happy as I am if you where anything else but sexy.” Demetri lightly humped into her upper thigh. The large bulge, his rapidly growing erection that strained his shorts,rutted into her naked thigh. Her eyes widened and her face grew warm out of pure embarrassment. Hawk ginned at Demetri's equally as embarrassed facial expression.

“I-oh my-”

“Oh my indeed, I think we should get you back to the bedroom before Demetri blows a load in the bathroom.”

[the-togepi-man]

That was really sweet. Why don't you tell him how you feel? Do you think Sean gets jealous?

Haha who says I haven't! - but that's all I'm saying on that haha! And so far, no! Sean and I talk about everything- to the point that he's probs just tired of me being confused or saying the same things over and over haha! He and I have a lot of really cool talks. Like yesterday we were talking about how if something ever did come of this or any other fella that maybe falls in to place it would be very important for us to make that person feel as welcome as they could because not only are -we- poly, the person we are adding may or may not be ready for it, may compare themselves to Sean or I, or get flack from others. So like if we got invited to a wedding I'd say we need a plus 2- since both of them would need to go. Or if families were going on vacation we'd tell them the deal- regardless of what they think because us prioritizing our happiness is the most important. Stuff like that! But also have like, date nights one on one with each other, and that includes and doesnt include me! Like example, Sean and Dude both like hiking a lot more than I do- so while ill go with them sometimes, they can do that on their own then grab dinner or something! Dunno. Sean is the best, we talk about and work through everything- so I am going to say I hope hes not jealous

[shaampoo]

*Bams the door down*

Hello!

Tell me about your ocs please! All the random facts! Well not technically all, just some of them, you get what I mean. XD

I Want To Know More!

And also how's you been? And what do you think about everything that exists? =>

Random facts time!!!

Ill try to list them in order of like, my first OC to my most recent OC's

Jinx first!!!

Jinx was once turned into a cat by the villains, and Jinx was pretty chill about it really, they loved knocking stuff over at the villain base, and since the villains thought they was just turned into a cat, no JInx inside, they just assumed it was normal cat behavior

Jinx is a magpie, like they LOVE shiny stuff, like, once, the heroes and villains were fighting over an ancient artifact, who gets it, the heroes want it so that they know the villains cant abuse it, and the villains want it for power, and then Jinx just ups and steals it just cause its shiny

Jinx has a twin brother Aegis, hes the opposite of Jinx, a hero, no-nonsense, his powers is to create shields, i made him after i made Jinx, but using the base i made for Jinx

Aegis is Bisexual and up for poly btw (i even thought about making him date the leader of the heroes and the leader of the villains just for the shits and giggles,)

Jinx lives with their brother (Aegis is older by 2 minutes ["best 2 minutes of my life" lol], cause their parents kicked Jinx out at 18, and Aegis was disgusted by that, so he lived with Jinx

Jinx didnt get much attention as a child, so that's why they're what they're like today, he has flair, a loud voice, just so that they get attention,

also, Jinx had to mostly fend for themself as a child, and they were given almost no supervision, since their parents gave Aegis more attention and training, believing that AEgis was more fit to be a superhero, so Jinx could do whatever, really, so they ate a lot of candy, thus giving themselves a sweet tooth. This is also why Jinx is childish, they wasn't allowed to be a child back then so their allowing themselves to be a child

Also, im starting to wonder if Jinx does have a label on what side they're on, like, anti-heroes, to my research, do bad things for good. Anti-villains do good things for bad stuff, so I don't know if Jinx does have a side, cause they just do their own thing, sometimes joining the villains, sometimes joining the heroes, sometimes being an annoyance to both, so like, they're undecided i guess?? (Kinda like they're gender, it switches lol) Lemme look something up real quick...i guess JInx is like a rogue?

Also, Jinx, having no side, maybe has a lair of their own, a small one though, I've been thinking maybe a candy shop? Like, there's a basement of operations down there, and there's a candy shop up top?

Also, Jinx is Chaotic Lawful (or lawful chaotic), where they have a moral code, no one knows what it is though, but thank goodness its there

At first, i wanted to make Jinx have a double life as Casey, but then the more i thought about casey and their stories, it kinda spiraled into casey becoming their own character,

Now, onto Casey!!! Doing this cause he inspired a TON of characters

Caseys a trans man (aka ftm,), and has transitioned now.

He's a tired photographer and journalist (online), goes to college, engineering, he lives with his brother, Ryan Thompson (or Velocity as his hero name), also lives with his brother

Casey is Ryans adopted little brother, Caseys parents are Lady Luck and Mr. Misfortune (idk if i should give him siblings he was separated from)

So pretty much Casey has terrible and Amazing luck, they don't cancel each other out

This is pretty much where chaos happens around casey, but casey somehow gets out unharmed, which is great for his Photography and Journalism blog cause he usually stumbles into super fights!

Also, Caseys like, the go-to kidnapping victim for the villains, where they kidnap him a lot (they don't hurt him, cause i think I'm leaning more into comedy in my world ), and the heroes save him a lot, this led to him knowing a lot about both sides, also, once, Casey got out of his binds when the villains kidnapped him and left him, and instead of escaping, he takes pictures of the lair first, and gets out, and then proceeded to post the pictures and compliment the villain's style.

Also, Casey usually doesnt talk, mostly to people he doesn't know that much, if he's with Ryan or anyone he's really comfortable with, he will not shut up, showing them pictures, stuff he made using engineering, etc.

Also, every character inspired by Casey (like, they first started out as, haha, what if Casey was ___) has a white streak on their hair, so if you see an OC of mine with a white streak, you know what that means!

Now, Dr. Wilde!!

As you know, Dr. Wilde is a crazy scientist!

Dr. Wilde allows Lumi to call him Ezra (at first Lumi called him Dr. Ezra, but as they got more close Lumi started to call him Ezra, like a friend)

Casey has interviewed Dr. Wilde at some point, and even took pictures of his lab, and Casey has taken care of Tar once (picturing Tar and uploading to the internet how weird the rat is, and that once, the rat got in the oven while Casey was baking and it somehow survived)

Dr. Wilde has dyed Tar's fur a bit (haven't decided what color yet), just so that he can differentiate between the lab rats and Tar

Dr. Wilde's lab is right next to his room (which is like a house, having a kitchen, bathroom, bedroom, etc.),

Dr. Wilde rarely leaves his lab / room, as he isn't really interested in the outside world, and when he does leave, he brings Tar with him, and Tar is just perched over Dr. Wilde's shoulder

Dr. Wilde is pretty short, compared to other villains (i should make a height chart actually), where the villains tower over him

Dr. Wilde has green eyes, also, if you look at him, he WILL stare into your soul, no one has ever seen him blink,

Now, Onto Darian Knight / Eclipse!!

As you can see, Darian is inspired by casey,

Darian, at first, joined the heroes to spite his dad, who was a villain back then, but after a while, he did come to like being a hero

Darian joined when he was 18, and he's surprised people still think he's a villain

Solar Flare and Casey are the few people who believe he's a genuine hero, Solar Flare cause he's worked with Darian long enough to know he's being genuine, and Casey cause he interviewed anough people to know whats a lie and whats not, Lumi also knows Casey isn't a villain

Sunny Knight / Lumi!!

He joined the villains at 19, about the same time as Darian,

At home with their parents, Sunny and Darian are more civil, more sibling-like,

In the battlefield, Sunny and Darian try to incapacitate each other than hurt, since, yknow, they're siblings. But they don't fight in the battlefield much, since sometimes Sunny and Darian converse, and the hereos and villains think that Sunny and Darian are teaming up and switching sides (Darian to villains and Sunny to heroes),

Also, Lumi joined the villains just because he could, and it looked fun

i dont have much on newer OC's lol, since i havent fleshed them out much lol

I also have a few more OC's i haven't talked about / fleshed out that much, like they're just an idea, but not a person yet.

Like uhh

Viz:

Theyre a hero with high anxiety, but despite having anxiety, and knowing he would get attention, interviews, etc. He still decides to be a hero, since to him, its the right thing to do. I still haven't showed them yet cause 1. i haven't drawn them yet, 2. with anxiety like them, i want to make sure i represent them well and make them realistic and that i don't make them like a stereotype

Starlight / Adrian Celeste:

Hes a self absorbed egocentric hero, and he's vain, he's kinda a joke hero i thought about, where like, he's self absorbed to the point its funny, hes still nice though, he doesn't show it much though, since he doesn't want to seem vulnerable and stuff. a simple backstory I thought about is that he was put down back then when he was young, so to make himself more confident, he started to compliment himself, and other stuff, but then it quickly spiraled put of control, and now hes like this. He also carries a mirror with himself at all times, just to admire himself, and his mirror in his room has sticky note surrounding where his face would be, and it says "perfect" "amazing" etc. also, he can glow, heal, teleport, and kinda has the ability to see the future (in like a vague way, like, he sees the stars and can sense something in the future, but its just really vague)

Jester / R.J. Santos: (Civilian name im not sure on yet)

Theyre a villain, a non serious villain, think like a cartoon villain, a goofy villain, they dont do any harm, just there to have fun. they also wanted to name themselves Jester Jinx, but since Jinx already had the name, they were okay with going with just Jester. Also, he's filipino. Also, he cares for young heroes (being an impromptu dad himself [long story where a kid of a hero wanted to be a villain, but the parent wanted them to be a hero, so the kid ran away, and got to casey, and casey took care of them and helped them be a villain {the kids, actually a teen, like 16, the teen is names Shadowstrike and their civilian name is Micheal, they hate the name by the way},]), and once, casey saw that the heroes were sending young heroes to his base to defeat him, and R.J. doesn't spot a singular a singular adult there, so he makes the young heroes (teens and even kids) sit down and stuff, and then he calls the heroes (he has their number cause they're usually on good terms), and yells at them over the phone for sending kids to a villain, and that they could've gotten hurt, and he gets so angry he starts shouting in filipino. Also! R.J. has a big family (based off my family), where his great grandma had 12 kids, and those kids (his grandparents and grand aunties and uncles) had kids (about 3 each), his aunties and uncles, and they have kids as well (about 3-5), his cousins and such, and his cousins had children as well, R.J. tries to remember them all by name, but its pretty hard, cause like, he has about

...

three- three thousand, three thousand family members?! Uhm, hold on i gotta ask my mom something about my family, or my dad since that family is on his side

Oh thank god, i only have 106 family members,

uh, so like, new and revised family tree!

my famly is gonna be R.j's family (cause holy fuck no way am i writing 3 thousand family members , J.C.) that's whats R.J's family is gonna be, 106 family members,

Anyways, ive been doing okay-ish! Could be better, but could be worse XP (lets just say the AO3 author curse is real). And i think of things that exist are poggers.

[forever-will-last]

How did this amazing polycule come to be? Both in verse and in the discord if it isn't too much trouble

Sooooo in verse? I don't have an answer LOL the lovely thing about crackfic is you don't always really need an explanation for stuff like this. I have no idea how this polycule came to be but what I DO know is that the in verse characters do NOT follow canon. There was no burn book. There was no bus. Regina still got her back fucked up at one point (not entirely sure how yet, or if I'll go into the details of whatever accident she did have at all) but that's just bc I love disabled and chronically ill Regina and want to write her into some of the one shots.

When did these characters meet? Was it high school? Was it college? Who fucking knows! All I know is the EARLIEST in their four years we'll see is the fall semester of their sophomore (second, for the non Americans) year of college with occasional references to things that happened spring semester freshman year (I only mention this bc I literally reference exactly one thing from freshman year in chapter 3, not sure if itll ever pop up again) because I'm being purposefully vague about it. Maybe later on into writing in this verse I'll have more of a concrete answer but I wouldn't count on it lmfao.

As for the discord server, that I CAN give a better answer on! And this is going to be the WILDEST answer of all time so hang in there.

So we have channels for three different poly ships in our ships channel list on that server: one for Polystics (Regina/Gretchen/Karen (and sometimes Cady, depending on the person/mood/setting/etc)), one for Nightmare Blunt Rotation (Regina/Cady/Janis) and one for Dream Blunt Rotation (Cady/Gretchen/Karen). Now, Nightmare Blunt Rotation as a joke predates me joining that server, so I can't really give you much on how THAT came to be, but Dream Blunt Rotation's name was spawned as a riff on the other, obviously.

Literally just last week we were having one of our "blending sessions" where we basically just brainstorm back and forth about what a specific character or characters would do in a specific situation that can be varying degrees of angst. For example, one of these blending sessions is actually how the entirety of the first Dead!Aaron AU Fic came to be.

In this particular session we were taking a deeper dive into "what if Regina jumped in front of the bus and it wasn't an accident" essentially and I had said something along the lines of "Sui***** Regina in any partnership (take your pick from the standard and adjust their reactions accordingly) where she doesn't let on that there's anything wrong until an attempt."

I was primarily thinking of Cady, Janis, and Gretchen when I sent that, as those are the big three Regina x ___ ships in that server, but someone else said "consider Polystics where she attempts bc she thinks the other two would be better off without her" and this had me thinking. What if there was an insane polycule of Polystics + Cady + Janis...

So I asked the fateful question of "do we have a silly name for this yet like NBR and DBR?" The original suggested names were "Pile of Lesbians", "99 Bottles of Beer on the Wall", "Mean Girls", and then... The brilliant Tumblr user Sexycornenthusiast busted out "The Psych Ward" and that was it. We all laughed really fucking hard and knew that had to be the insane name.

This all happened on 4/17 and then on 4/20 I got astronomically high as god intended but I really wanted to write. Now, I have a rule for myself where I don't write fic I intend to publish when I'm high or drunk bc I generally write very serious fic (I cannot imagine what hell chapter of a thousand pictures i would have put out with the level of high I was). But I still REALLY wanted to write so I was like fuck it and asked for one-shot suggestions.

Someone recommended hitting Regina with progressively weirder things throughout the day, as we have an ongoing joke about the various shit Regina gets hit by in fanfic (there's a PHENOMENAL cadina fame au another server member wrote where Regina gets hit by a golf cart and then in my main fic a thousand pictures Regina gets hit by a chair). I loved that idea but was like "wait what ship should I write this with bc I want the first thing to be her getting elbowed by her partner when she wakes up" and someone suggested psych ward and that was it. I knew what I had to do.

After I wrote that one shot i started getting more ideas for this crackfic and decided to make a one shot collection set in the same AU because fuck it. The world needs more crackfic and by God does the world need more psych ward.

(final fun fact before I end this behemoth of a post - I tagged every possible duo/trio of psych ward on the fic on AO3 because I do intend to have at least one chapter dedicated to each possible pairing or trio and there are SEVERAL tags where this is now the only fic in its tag and SEVERAL of the trio tags I had to fully type out because they straight up did not exist at all LMFAO)

[doyelikehaggis]

https://www.tumblr.com/hydesjackiespuddinpop/723400504889294848/send-me-a-character-and-ill-answer-with-my

Elena Gilbert, Bonnie Bennett, & Tyler Lockwood pls 🥹

AHHH bestie YES thank you for this, I need some good distractions right now and this is PERFECT, let's do it!

Starting with our Main Character, Elena Gilbert!

• My NOTP for them: Might be (definitely is) controversial but D*lena. Anyone who follows me and has seen a few of my posts about TVD knows this about me but I just do not ship, do not like it and wish they weren't endgame.

• My BROTP for them: Ooh, okay, either Jeremy or Tyler. The only problem I have is that I ship Tylena, so I should probably choose Jeremy. I genuinely love their dynamic, they make me very happy <3

• My OTP for them: *Deep breath* STELENA. It will always be Stelena. Despite the fact that I totally agree with people who say that both Salvatore brothers were bad for Elena, I can't help but love those two and wish that Elena and Stefan were allowed to be endgame. Early seasons Stelena will always have my heart <3

• My second choice pairing for them: Probably even more controversial but my answer is Matt. There's something so sweet to me about their relationship in the beginning, and how much they genuinely cared about each other, and I just think life would have been a lot better for both of them had they gotten back together before everything went completely wrong, and I just love the idea of them getting a happy human life together.

• My fluffy pairing for them: Oh god, that's hard because I still want to say Stelena or Mattlena but... they've been through some shit. They're both really fluffy though! Okay, no. A genuinely fluffy pairing for Elena would probably be Elejah. I KNOW there's some history and angst stuff but the IDEA is SO FLUFFY. I just know Elijah would worship the ground she walks on, and just AHHHH.

• My angsty pairing for them: I think I've already answered this three times above. However, if we want to go REALLY angst then Beklena is the perfect candidate. I really don't need to say anything else about this. I love them and their angst.

• My favourite poly ship for them: Probably Barolena <3

• My weirdest pairing for them: Probably Elena/Tom Avery considering she literally never met him lmao but I like the idea of Elena with her actual fated doppelganger!

• My intrigued-by pairing for them: I think I want to choose Tylena for this one because I didn't initally ship them but I was super intrigued by the idea of them because of a few posts that came across my dash!

Now for our Queen, Bonnie Bennett! <3

• My NOTP for them: B*nkai. I just can't quite see their dynamic being anything but hatred after everything they went through. Bonnie was too hurt by him for me.

• My BROTP for them: Baroline <3

• My OTP for them: Okay, maybe a tad hypocritical considering my first answer but Bamon. The dynamic between her and Damon was just so interesting and special, and there was a genuine mutual love for the other in both of them that breaks my heart over and over again. Not to mention book!Bamon!

• My second choice pairing for them: Bonenzo <3 I didn't love them at first because I was (and still am) an avid Denzo shipper but they grew on me and now I really appreciate the love between them and how they found a bit of comfort and security in each other. They deserved to be happy together in the end, honestly.

• My fluffy pairing for them: Bonora because witchy lesbians <3

• My angsty pairing for them: God, Bamon and Bonenzo both qualify for this as well lmao but I'd say Bonenzo wins this ones considering Enzo actually died in the end. Their entire relationship is a ball of angst.

• My favourite poly ship for them: Probably super obvious but Bamenzo. I love Bamon, Bonenzo, and Denzo so it just makes sense to combine them! Bonnie has two hands <3

• My weirdest pairing for them: I'd probably say my weirdest pairing for Bonnie is Klonnie but I just think the idea of Klaus and Bonnie is a very interesting one!

• My intrigued-by pairing for them: Stefonnie. I don't absolutely know that I ship them, but I'm intrigued by them. Especially if Stefan got with Bonnie in the beginning of the show instead of Elena. I loved the scene between them during the dinner episode when she said she had witches in her family and Stefan was genuinely curious and made her smile.

And last but certainly not least, my fave little werewolf, Tyler Lockwood <3

• My NOTP for them: Tyler/Vicki is just a no-no. Their dynamic was awful pretty much the entire time and just. No.

• My BROTP for them: Matt is his bestie, obviously <3

• My OTP for them: Parkwood. Don't even talk to me. They deserved the world and were screwed over at every turn.

• My second choice pairing for them: Forwood. Also screwed over at every turn and it makes me want to scream if I think about them for too long because they really did deserve better and they were SO GOOD and just ! Damn it, Klaus!

• My fluffy pairing for them: Probably also Forwood despite the fact that they were constantly angsty as well but they had their fluffy moments.

• My angsty pairing for them: Also Forwood. Assume Forwood for everything because I miss them every day.

• My favourite poly ship for them: Tyler/Caroline/Bonnie becaue I just think they're neat <3

• My weirdest pairing for them: Probably Jyler. I just love the enemies to lovers dynamic they would have, and the idea that they had so much hostility towards each other in the beginning not because they both liked Vicki but because they liked each other.

• My intrigued-by pairing for them: Also Jyler.

This was really fun! If you have any more characters you want to send in, feel free! <3

[chsopnk]

AKAKAKFHFJ PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU MORE FLUFFY MORNINGS WITH KENTO 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 or maybe poly with yu haibara & kento nanami if you write that idm but PLEASE 🙏🙏🙏🙏

Idc if it's headcanons, a fic, a drabble, IDC plz just write whatever you want hnghdnfhfb my bbgs need some relaxation !!!

oooo yes yes ‼️ i just wrote it w nanami bc i honestly wasnt 100% sure how to portray haibaras character just yet. i’ll def look into it tho and maybe ill write something abt it in the near future!!

also sry that it took me a while. ive been procrastinating doing uni stuff so i had to do that first 💀

u can find ur request HERE.

thank u so so much for requesting & i hope u enjoy!! 🫶🫶

[hayakawalove]

The way I am giving my phone puppy face the way sugu would rn AAAA. ima bully the manager at round1 to make the crane machines easier so i can get u any plushie u want >:o..You are so wonderful and it reflects in so many ways in your works, I lit rally got hooked from ur poly stsg fics. SUGUS HUMOR thank you for mentioning that that man is dangerously silly! Knowing that there’s a v vulnerable WIP coming I feel so blessed to know that and excited!! Thank you for sharing more vulnerable sides,, it’s so valid to feel unsure openly diving into those kinds of themes in fics but the comfort it can bring is so beautiful too :’). I wish for better and easy days for you! Suguru just gets it fr and I love imagining being able to take care of him back like the 6’2 cat he is! Playing with his hair would be so soothing:((

He deserves the world and would give u it and more ! Thank you for the well wishes and bear MWAH

-🗿

THATS SO FUNNY AND KIND SIDKEKDKDKDK thank you I will appreciate the plushie and ILL CRY YOU’RE SO NICE I’m so glad you like my poly satosugu fics. At times I’m like maybe I do too much of them and the novelty has run out or people want something else like just Gojo fics or just suguru fics. But then I remember how much I love writing them,, I think I will be writing them until everyone is sick of it KDJCKDKDKKD AND YEAH he is so silly goofy. I feel like it gets overshadowed by Gojo because suguru is the more responsible of the two but don’t let that man fool you. I think it’s sexy with Suguru too because like. When he makes fun of you he does it in a way where you don’t really notice it,, hot of him to do that. OKAY GOOD IM GLAD YOU’RE INTERESTED IN THE VULNERABLE WIPS I’ve just been focused on other things first but eventually I will post them. I feel like it’s scary cause you’re opening yourself up by writing something like that but so many people feel that way. AND THANK YOUU I hope life is treating you kindly.

HE REALLY DOES and babying him back is so,, playing with his hair would leave him crazy he likes it so much. I feel like he’s used to dealing with stuff by himself but it’s like baby you don’t gotta do that :(( let me hold you and play with your hair and talk about how much I love you. I AGREE HE DOES and yes he would do anything to give you the world, all he needs is for his baby to be happy and he’s good

[the-aleksy-show]

😅 Any sort of kiss scenes (especially when I'm sex-repulsed)

🥺Angst with a happy ending (I cry mentally when I write that stuff)

🤡 "It's all tits, pain and suffering from then on" - A long abandoned Stranger Things wip I haven't touched since august.

😈 Its usually when I make the characters (ocs or not) have mental breakdowns at the end of the story because I need to project my problems onto them.

✍ No. I'm just going balls to the wall, ten million spelling mistakes insane.

🛒 I usually project whatever shit I'm going through (ergo; chronic pain, gender crisis, pain) to make myself try to come to terms with this stuff. And, also, there's always going to be a main character that is gay and traumatized. I swear. Those are the two things you will always find in my books, fics or original works

🎢 Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride? Probably that fic I haven't touched since august (I wrote like a 30 something page chapter that spanned like, two hours in incredible detail)

✨ I'm so good at writing angst and bad at resolving it.

💋 I. Love. First. Kiss. Fics! They make me want to explode.

🎶 I usually listen to punk stuff when I write, and, lately I've been listening to 'Bitchboy' and 'The Boys Wanna Be Her' over and over again.

🛠 I use Microsoft Word (I've tried to use google docs but I fcking hate it)

⛔ Yes. Many, actually. There's this Outlander fic, this... other Outlander fic, that good good poly Stranger Things fic, an Anne with an E fic, and I

🙋‍♀️ Yes. Most my friend group know about my fic writing, I even gave one of them the link to the fic.

🍦 What's the sweetest fic you've created so far? I don't know, but I am planning a Slow Burn AU

🍷 I drink orange juice when I write sometimes if that's what you mean

🍆 Oh my god no. I could never (no hate to smut writers, I love you guys so much, but i could never. You guys are braver than me).

🌞The early mornings and late at night.

💖 Quarantine. I had nothing else to do, so I was like, heck yeah, lets start writing

💌 Terrified. I feel absolute terror.

❌ Kidnapper/ Stalked romance or anything abuse (I have it and it makes me so uncomfortable)

💲Maybe, I don't really know.

🧐 Yes. Most of the time, yeah

🏆 I've only posted one, so... that's the most popular.

🎃 I like writing Christmas and Summer Holiday fics

🎯 No. I have 21 hits on ao3 its not really a big thing.

🎨 I would marry them at once.

📈 I have about a million wips.

🦅 I either overplan the fic or just start something without thinking

👀 Okay, so there's this Autumn AU thing going on with a slow burn and stuff like that, I don't even want to talk about it.

🤗 Just do it. Like, just go ahead. Do whatever you want. Write the fic. Go utterly insane. Have fun.

💞 Don't ask, I cant. I don't even beleive that... that's the comfort character that I picked to obsess about.

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🤩 Who is your favorite character to write? I'll take that as meaning character trope or something, and that favourite character trope is 'Swagless Bisexual Man Wearing A Leather Jacket And Eyeliner'

🤲 "Hey. Is it gay to look at a man and have your breath gey caught up in your throat and then your eyes get all wide and you want to like... run away and jump into your bed and scream into a pillow while kicking your legs in the air like a highschooler?" - The Autumn AU wip

😬 Probably the one Im planning to post. If anyone in my friend group ever found that one I would let the earth reclaim me.

🎉 The only one I actually posted.

✅ Trauma.

📚 Of course. I've wanted to be a writer since I was eleven.

⌛ Maybe four days to write a chapter, maybe more.

🤯 I'm really bad at writing sci-fi and mystery.

💔 Well, there was 5000 Miles Away which made me litterally cry throughout the whole thing. The fluff killled me.

💥 As long as its constructive and given in a nice way I'll let it happen. Ill still regret existing and cry for three days, but... okay?

🤭 Everyone Is Gay

🥰 Of course! That would be amazing!

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[wooahaes]

hii its tattoo anon again <3 i just wanted to update you i loved cheols part of uts and cheol is one of my biases and i am so in love with his part!! i found this series almost a year ago and its bittersweet now that it has ended. i am so excited to see what comes next for the poly fic and your new works in general. i also hope that u saw my last message!! also i wanted to ask because idk if i didnt realize it or missed it but did you ever reveal who gave mouse the little stuffed mouse? if im not mistaken was it jeonghan? i have been wanting to figure out who it was but idk if i got it wrong lol. have a good day!

omg hi lovely!! i 100% saw ur last message and meant to respond and then. either forgot or got busy w school stuff, im blanking on which is it which probably just means it slipped my mind :( sorry!!

im literally gonna copy it over here and answer both this ask + the previous one to make it easier so uhh long response under the readmore !! i hope that's okay :(

okie dokie ill address this ask first

hi!!! you've been following the series since like... very close to the beginning then haha which is v v sweet and ill sob rn!!

i think i mentioned jeonghan working on the lil plush mouse during cheol UtS but didn't address it further, but yes! it was going to come up during poly fic at some point where he made all of the plushies for each person as a way of like. giving ppl comfort, esp when they show up & don't join the group at first (so that they have Something there w them, im the kind of person who needs something in my arms in order to sleep haha so that's where it's mainly coming from).

and for ur last ask:

hi its me again the tattoo anon LOL. i just wanted to reply to what you said and im so glad that i made you happy with what i said and i genuinely mean it. this is a little vulnerable but ever since i started liking svt i think a major reason why i love them so much is because they are a big group of friends and i have friends, but not that many so stanning svt in general is so comforting because of the closeness of all of them but finding this fic was like. a fucking dream for me because them being such a big close knit group and it being like the found family trope is perfect and the way you write and portray them is so comforting. genuinely i meant it when i said its one of my favorite things i have stumbled upon in my life, i have shared this story with my friends and they love it too and when we watch some edits of seventeen or see something in general that reminds us of this fic we say “this is so under the sun coded” and its like an inside joke with me and my friends. you literally changed the trajectory of my life with this fic lol. when im having a hard time in my personal life i come back to this little world u created by either just thinking about it before i fall asleep or rereading it and i want to thank you for being a writer. i hope you enjoy writing what you write bc i know that i certainly enjoy it and i hope you are proud of urself. anyway i think selling subtle stickers would be so awesome and i will definitely buy them. also since i submitted my last ask i have thought about little ideas for a tattoo maybe?? like what about like a small drawing of a church and like 13 little people around it with a little sun?!? or flowers like you said OR getting little drawings of the animals each person has? i think that would be so cute. or like maybe a little sash blindfold?? anyway ur awesome i love u thank u

the first time i tried to answer this ask, my long response ended up deleted bc i switched tabs for a second to check something and then tumblr just... deleted it??? which was v frustrating, kind of makes me hate the new post editor a Lot!

but to be vulnerable as well, i think i started writing UtS at like... a difficult point in my life? not difficult as in the painful way, but difficult as in 'there's a lot going on right now and i've never felt more alone than i do now' i guess? it's like... i started writing it right before my final semester of college, and i'm an online student, so i don't get to go out and be in a classroom with other people. sometimes i call myself an introvert when i think the term 'ambivert' has always fit more--i don't detest being social, i do tend to enjoy it! but i still need alone time to make up for it since it's draining. and idk, i was lost for a while on who i am and what i want to do with my life?

and i feel like writing UtS has put me in a vulnerable position to like... question a lot more about myself as a person. i have friends, sure, but no one i go out to see in person since i'm not exactly like... in a good place for that kind of interaction (deep south bible belt, haha... makes not being straight something i struggle with sometimes). i think the important part of UtS is the acceptance they all have for one another, and it's something i personally wish to have a lot more of in my offline life. i think even if i had the idea without darl+ing, it would have ended up being a svt fic due to how close they are and how much they care for one another.

also tbh i just love the found family trope. i love the idea and process of choosing your own family in a sense and saying 'these are MY people and i love them' ig.

also u showing the fic to ur friends + the comment abt being like 'this is UtS coded' ill SOB!!! i will!!! thats literally so cute and sweet of u!!! (pls feel free to send me any of ur 'this is UtS coded' thoughts i would always love to hear them haha)

but like. this is why i write. i like being able to impact people and help them escape life and be happy for a while. its why it always means a lot to me when i get feedback on my work and see people be happy with what i write (... even if sometimes its angsty haha--moving people to feel is a huge compliment by itself!). im glad you have UtS. im glad i have it now, too.

i do enjoy writing, btw, and i loved writing uts. even with the frustration periods where i didn't touch it for a while, i genuinely enjoyed writing uts a lot. i think i owe a lot of that to people like you, who read it and show support for the series! its always easier to read something when i know there's someone who will enjoy it. i remember smiling hard when i rewrote the ending to cheol uts bc of how fucking stoked i was to share it tbh!!! also bc i messaged savv 'lol this is gonna be devastating (/pos)' at one point i think sdkfhsdf but i was genuinely excited to finish it and get it out to u guys!! i dont know who i would be if i didn't write, and despite like... all of the bad shit that's happened in my life that i've turned to writing to pull myself out of it, i don't think i'd ever give it up. i think it's too deeply a part of me to ever give up. maybe one day i'll get published lol

ill definitely put more thought into subtle stickers for UtS (and maybe some other series haha cant remember if i mentioned that last time but UtS felt like the bigger one)! might have to ask around my friend circle for tips on designing them >:3

ohh i like ur tattoo ideas :0 im not sure what would look good so i hope u consult a tattoo artist with ur ideas eventually!! the idea of the lil church w a sun + 13 ppl is rly cute? if u do the sash-blindfold thing, u could always have a lyric inside of it or something if u wanna play w that :3c pls feel free to keep me updated further!!

sorry i didnt get to this ask until now but i hope u are doing well mwah mwah have a good day ur awesome ily

[ladyknightskye]

Ask game ask game ask game!

Do you plan each chapter ahead or write as you go?

What do you do when writing becomes difficult? (maybe a lack of inspiration or writers block)

What do you think makes your writing stand out from other works?

Putting it under a cut because I got really rambly there. >.>

Do you plan each chapter ahead or write as you go?

Little bit of column A, little of column B. In general I have a rough idea of what happens in a chapter, but I don't usually have like, a bullet point list of what all has to happen. Since getting into SPN and doing a lot of fandom Bangs, I have gotten to the point where I will plan more than a chapter ahead, but I don't have to stick to any of those plans.

2. What do you do when writing becomes difficult?

Honestly? I take a step back or work on something else for a little while. Or, if it's just a part of the work that's not vibing with me, I'll go back to either the beginning of the scene or the chapter and simply redo the entire thing. Usually when I do that, the cut goes into my draft file somewhere else so I can keep it just in case. If it's the whole work that's not working? I tend to abandon it. (I am so sorry to everyone who ever follows me and starts reading WIPs. Someday. Or honestly you can ask and I'd at least give you bullet points of what'll happen next)

3. What do you think makes your writing stand out from other works?

Mmm, I think it's my ideas more than anything really. Not necessarily the tropes and stuff, but the combinations of them. I had a fairly atypical upbringing (combination of where I live, who I was raised by, the environment of my home) for a woman of my demographics, and a pretty meandering list of interests. I think that kinda combines into a willingness to play with the source material and tropes in such a way that you end up getting interpretations and combinations that aren't that common in many of the fandom spaces I've been in.

I say that not in, like, an "I'm so special~" way, because I absolutely had all the normal "girl" stuff as a kid. Like, I was a horse girl, had an astrology phase, all of that - but I was raised by an extended family (three to four generations at once on two contiguous acres of land, my mother was a military brat that has actually visited other countries and my father was a hippie that graduated from Notre Dame; my paternal grandmother and grandfather met while working on components of the Manhattan Project and said paternal grandmother was a well known pillar of the community; this entire motley crew all lived on the same land as a camper/trailer park that had some permanent residents but renters who came from all over the state as well as families from all over the east coast since to this day I remember the girls I hung out with from West Virginia; I am a character from a family of them), was introduced to the romance genre by Jean Auel's The Valley of Horses at the precocious age of eleven, and by thirteen had my sister handing me her Bertrice Small books on the regular. I read The Kadin at like, twelve or thirteen, so I was introduced to the idea of a healthy polyamorous relationship (let's be real y'all, our mom and grandmama's harem books were basically poly even if the ladies weren't having sex amongst themselves) at a time when most teens around me were discovering their sexuality for the first time. My special interests run the gamut of angelology/Abrahamic folklore, dinosaurs, cosmology (the science of space), epidemiology (heh heh, I was smacked in the face by that fuckin' red dodgeball of Apollo the first time I heard about a mysterious respiratory illness in China in January of 2020), cryptozoology, and music. Like, you throw all that into a blender, some weird shit is going to come out.

[lokisprettygirl]

The Night Screams at The Slumber Island (Loki x Female Reader) (Horror Romance) (Dark) (Au) (18+)

Read Chapter 17 here //Series Masterlist

Chapter 18

Summary : A nightmare brings you back to where you begin from, you attend Natasha's birthday party, you find your way back to healing with a realisation.

Trigger Warning: Rape, Steamy stuff, this chapter is also long, 18+, discussion of rape, discussion of threesomes and poly relationships, sexual abuse, gaslighting, cheating, drinking, mention of Suicide, discussion of mental illness, therapy, imprisonment, god kink has a potential here, please read carefully. If something triggers you please don’t read it

You opened your eyes and there he was, the man who ruined everything. Your heartbeat raised and you could hear the ECG making fast paced beeping sounds. 

"Hi baby I'm here again..how are you?" He caressed your head and your eyes teared up..no not again..it can't be happening again. You wanted to move and you wanted to fight him off but you couldn't, your body was paralyzed and you couldn't do anything to fight him, there was darkness all around you but you could still see him and feel him, it disgusted you, why wasn't anyone helping you, checking up on you? Why? 

"Stoppppp please" you mumbled in your head as you heard the sound of his zipper being pulled down, and then you felt him inside you, it hurt, the searing pain you felt destroyed your every will to live, and you couldn't do anything. 

"Ohhh yeah oh baby you feel so good, that's it ..take me you fucking prissy bitch" he leaned over you to whisper in your ear, everything about him felt agonizing, his voice, his smell, his fucking taunts, he didn't just violated your body, he violated your trust, your dignity, your self esteem, he ruined everything. You considered him a friend, he promised to take care of you, then why was he hurting you?

You woke up from the raging nightmare, hyperventilating and you couldn't breathe.. you felt disoriented.

"Hey .." you heard a voice and it only made you feel worse, in that moment you couldn't see Loki, you only saw him. Your exposed body and his bare skin triggered you even further, you got off the couch in hurry, you just wanted to get away from him, you wanted to protect yourself, however it only made your ankle twist and you fell down on the floor.

"Get out…get out ..get out please..get out" you screamed and cried at the same time, you couldn't even think at the moment, you just wanted to feel safe.

"Darling listen.." he got off the couch in an attempt to comfort you but it only scared you more. He will hurt you. You didn't want him to hurt you anymore.

"Get out ..leave me alone please..I'm begging you..just goooooo" his eyes teared up as he looked at your broken state, until now he had seen your minor breakdowns but never like this, maybe what happened last night triggered something and you had a nightmare.

He wanted to comfort you, he really did but knew better than that so he vanished, as soon as he disappeared you laid down on the floor and started to sob, clutching onto to the shawl Loki gave you cried your heart out, the nightmare was still afresh in your head, you could still feel that monster around you, still felt his touch and it made your soul want to crawl out of your skin, in moments like this you just wanted to give up. You couldn't be strong enough. 

As your sobs got controlled slowly, and you came out of the maze your mind has created, you were able to make out your surroundings. You weren't in the hospital anymore, you were far away from that place and that monster, he would never harm you again, Loki would protect you lik– . As soon you thought about him you felt immense guilt and regret, you yelled at him, you asked him to leave, you treated him as if he was the one who had hurt you. 

Maybe the vivid nightmare was the result of the intimacy you had shared with him last night but it wasn't his fault, you wanted it, he never even asked for it and you had treated him so horribly just now. Your eyes welled up again as you thought about the implications of your actions, why was he even tolerating you? Would he even want to see you again? He didn't deserve that treatment after the night you both had shared. 

You sat up as you felt a pain in your ankle, in order to get away from him so quickly, you had tripped and twisted your right ankle.

"Owwww" you winced as you brought your feet up to check the injury, just what you didn't need at the moment. You got up from the floor somehow and sat down on the couch, it was starting to swell and you knew that wasn't any good, you grabbed the shawl again and laid down on the couch, it smelled like him and that only made you weep harder. 

"I am sorry…I am sorry Loki. .I'm sorry..I never wanted to hurt you..I'm sorry" 

Loki wasn't any better, he heard you apologizing and his heart only broke into tiny little pieces, it wasn't your fault and you shouldn't be apologizing for this, he wanted to hold you and comfort you but he didn't want to hurt you or scare you even more, you were still sensitive from the nightmare and he wanted you to have your time so you could decide what you needed from him. 

You got up and called Clint to tell him that you didn't feel good, he was furious, this was your second leave in the last three days, he called you unprofessional and insane, after a point of time you stopped listening to him and hung up. You didn't care about his opinions anymore now that you remembered the truth.

Somehow you managed to shower, it hurt to walk but you needed to talk to Loki. After making a cup of tea you sat down and contemplated over weather you should call Loki and apologize so things could go back to how they were last night or do what you were thinking of doing, it would hurt to take that step, you didn't want to but you knew he didn't deserve this disrespect over and over again, he was just trying to help you and you lashed out at him every time you felt triggered by your past.

After thinking carefully you called out to him, you felt embarrassed about the outburst you had but you couldn't ignore him for long. You did need him, he was your only true well wisher in this awful place.

"Let me heal you darling" he said to you as he pointed towards the ankle so you nodded, he sat down on his knees in front of you then he looked at you. Your teary eyes didn't go unnoticed by him.

"May I?" He asked you before grabbing your ankle in his hands so you nodded again. So considerate and respectful, he was always like that but you lashed out at him only. He ran his thumb over the swollen area a few times, it brought you instant relief, he worked his charm and you felt blessed, you didn't want to be ungrateful for everything he was doing for you but maybe this would be for the best.

"I wanted to say something" you mumbled softly so he nodded, 

"I can't.. I don't want us to..get intimate again" his eyes flickered and it bothered him a great deal but he understood your stance, he didn't want to do anything that would hurt you either.

"We don't have to do anything you don't want to do.. I just want to keep you safe, that's it" 

It wasn't that you didn't want to do it, you wanted it all and you wanted it again but he didn't deserve to be treated how you treated him this morning. And you knew it would happen again. You'd never be undamaged again.

"I'd still want to be your friend lo..I just..can't do what we did" he nodded as you said that, as much as he wanted to read your thoughts and learn your actual reasons behind the decision you had taken, he knew better, it would have been unethical. Especially he can't do that to you of all people, your mind was one the thing you had under control and he didn't want to take that away from you or break that faith you had in him. He knew you enjoyed what had occurred between you two last night but he also knew how hard it was for you to take that step with him.

"And it's alright..I'm still going to be here however you need me sweetheart " you nodded as he said that, you looked into his eyes so he gave you a small smile, all you wanted to do was jump into his arms and kiss him, you wanted to touch him and be touched by him but you can't. You can't disrespect him like that over and over again.

"Let me cook something for you please" You nodded again and he stepped in the kitchen to make brunch for you. You hadn't eaten since morning and he just wanted you to be fed. 

He vanished after you were done eating and you spent your day sulking in your bed, the longer the time has passed since you had seen him last, the angrier you felt with yourself. You missed him desperately, you missed his touch.

For those long six months at the hospital you felt suffocated, and now every time you had a nightmare you lived those moments over and over again, but Loki has been so good to you that last night you forgot everything, even if temporarily, you forgot everything but him, the intimacy and the sexual nature of the act you performed on him didn't feel suffocating, it didn't make you feel violated, it felt liberating instead. 

You were able to replace those awful feelings with his touch, with his sounds and with his scent then, you thought you had taken a step forward but everything was still the same now. You'd never heal.

That night you couldn't sleep but you didn't call Loki either, you felt scared and you just wanted him to hold you in his arms but you couldn't, you felt humiliated by your act this morning.

You couldn't help but wonder if he was hurt. If he was disappointed with the way things turned around after last night? You also felt utterly confused about your feelings regarding him, what were you feeling? It can't be love right? It sure can't be. He was a god for god's sake. You can't be in love with a god.

 In the middle of the night you noticed the light outside your window so you got up to investigate, at first you felt scared that you were going to see Minola again but it was a house instead, Loki's house, all lit up like it used to be in the beginning, it was his way of reminding you that he was there and you weren't alone.

Loki didn't sleep that night either, how could he when he knew you were crying and scared, all alone, feeling as if you had no one, you would always have him and he just wanted you to heal, he would take this journey with you however you needed and he knew for now you needed your space so he gave you that but he knew the decision you had made to not want the intimacy was bothering you too, he could tell, he could gauge your lies but there was nothing he could have done but be patient, this wasn't about what he wanted, it could never be. 

Next morning when you woke up after three hours of sleep you felt as if you have been run over by a bulldozer, you couldn't even miss the school today so you managed to get ready and leave, you needed to go outside, staying all cooped up in the house was only making you miss Loki even more.. you hoped that he was okay and he wasn't hurt by your decision, you didn't want him hurt that's why you had to take this step. 

As you reached the school, Clint invited you to his wife's birthday party in the evening, weird because it wasn't even her birthday today, you wanted to see her again so you accepted the invite. Not that you had any other option, it would probably provide you a distraction from the god who has been clouding your thoughts every waking moment since yesterday. 

"Godd I miss you" you mumbled to yourself as you walked home then you spent rest of the day making Natasha's favorite apple pie, you didn't have a gift so you decided to remind her that she had a life before this and there are people that she had left behind who were still under the presumption that she was dead. 

Your heart felt heavy as you got ready, after putting on a simple dress you fixed your face to look decent, then you walked towards her house, on the way you bumped into Steve. Great. Just what you needed.

"Heyy y/n..where have you been these days, did your friend leave?" He asked you so you nodded.

"He was my ex" Steve looked at you as you said that, you had to find out why he was so scared of the house, Minola was the reason you knew that but why? Even Loki haven't told you the complete truth just yet.

"Ohhh the cheater right?" You looked at him as he said that, you remembered telling him that the last time you were here, it had slipped out of your mouth during a random conversation.

"Wait how do you know that? I have never told you about him being a cheater" You watched him go pale as a ghost, he ran his hand through his hair to think of an answer.

"I just assumed..Also..I'm really sorry about that day baby.. I didn't mean to scare you" your insides shriveled up but you didn't want to snap at him right now, you needed to find the whole truth. Why were the people of the island so weird around the Minola house? They never visited the house alone. Why did Natasha wanted you to seduce Steve?

"Well it's done now, just don't do it again" you forced a smile and he smiled too. Dumbass.

As you entered the party with Steve, everyone looked at you two, Natasha was dressed up lavishly, wearing diamond jewelleries and all, where were they getting the money from? His salary surely can't be enough.

"Happy birthday" you walked over to her and passed her the apple pie, her eyes teared up so she looked away, then Clint pulled her towards him so she smiled and kissed him. You wanted to slap the shit out of him.

"You have a beautiful home" you told Clint and he snickered,

"Thank you y/n, enjoy the drink and the food" 

Everytime you looked around you caught at least one person averting their gaze, they were all looking at you and you felt extremely unsafe. They still didn't know that you had your memories back, if they did you wouldn't be standing here right now.

Steve brought a non-alcoholic drink since you told him that you won't have alcohol so you took it from him.

"Don't drink it darling" you gasped a little as you heard a voice, you turned your gaze and he was standing so close to you, Loki. Nobody could see him except you. He placed his fingers on the glass you were holding and his thumb accidentally rubbed against your skin slightly, just a mere touch knocked the wind out of your chest.

"You look beautiful love, I'm here if you need me, I made it safe for you to drink now" he whispered again, all you wanted to do was kiss him and hug him. Why did you have to ruin this for you? You blinked twice to let him know that you understood. He said that he had made it safe, that means either Steve or Clint had done something to the drink, you didn't know what they needed from you. The island was haunted, you knew that, it was like a weird cult. You and Natasha were meant to be the sacrifices, but what were they getting from it, for whom they were making these sacrifices? How was Natasha still alive if that was the case? 

"I should go" you told Natasha and she looked at Clint, so he spoke to you instead. Could you even trust her anymore? You had no idea

"Stay for dinner, I insist" you nodded as he said that, you didn't want to offend him or have him doubt you just yet but you also couldn't ignore how scary all of this was for you. You excused yourself to use the loo so you could get away from them for a moment, they all had their eyes on you, the drink was contaminated with something and they possibly were waiting for it to have an effect.

As soon as you got inside the bathroom you braced yourself against the door to calm down.

"Lokii please I need you please..pleasse" you squeezed your eyes shut as you whispered, your voice came out so low and he didn't need you to be loud for him to be there for you. He knew when you needed him. 

"Darling" you heard his voice and your arms quickly wrapped around his neck, he locked his arms around your waist to lift you up and took you to the other side of the bathroom, away from the door. He leaned against the sink but his hold on you remained strong, you needed comfort and safety. You needed to know that he would never allow you to be alone again

"I'm so scared" you whispered in a hushed tone so he pulled you away a little and made you look at him 

"Don't be..I won't let them hurt you, I promise, trust me.. just trust me" your eyes teared up as he said that, you trusted him more than anything.

"I do..more than anything" you whispered again so he kissed your forehead, he was so close to you and you wanted him to kiss you, you craved it badly but you took that away from him so it was entirely your fault.

You gasped as you heard the knocks on the door, you heard the flush running on its own so you looked at him and he gave you a small smile.

"I am here, nothing to be afraid of" you nodded as you stepped away from him, you turned around to walk towards the door but he was still there, as you opened the door Natasha seemed worried.

"Are you okay?" She asked you and you nodded, you looked behind and Loki was still there, leaned against the edge of the sink, looking like a supermodel but Nat couldn't see him.

Most of the guests had left, it was only Clint, Natasha, Steve, Bruce and his wife Marjorie - a thirty something brunette with a judgemental glare in her eyes, and you. 

They also had a woman they had appointed to serve the food, you had seen her in the farmer's market before. 

"Umm Phil wasn't invited?" You cleared your throat as you asked the question, the quietness was really uncomfortable.

"He is off to the mainland" Bruce answered you so you nodded "Are you feeling alright y/n? Any dizziness or something?" He questioned you and you noticed Clint glaring at him.

"No..why?" You asked him and he chuckled.

"Well .. I just assumed crazy people got those sometimes" Dear lord, You really wanted to punch him very badly right now.

"Huhh wouldn't know, I am not crazy you see" you glared at him and you could tell he was picturing hurting you in his mind. 

"Ohhh then it must have been me who imagined a whole ass house in front of my own" Bruce chuckled and it was Steve who shut him up this time.

"Come on..learn to take a joke..look at Nat..she never minds..right Nat?" You looked at Natasha and she seemed really uncomfortable.

As the dinner was served, you saw Loki sitting next to you, he placed his one hand on yours, his thumb rubbing circles on the back of your hand, then he waved the other hand over the food you were served 

"It's safe I promise" he mumbled and you took a deep breath, what would you have done without him? You didn't think you would make it out of this island again without him, his actions made you think of all those instances where you could have been hurt but he must have saved you just like this. How did you get so lucky? They kept staring at you throughout the dinner, whatever they planned to do failed miserably and it must have been confusing for them, they didn't have anything left to keep you over so you got out of there as swiftly as you could. 

"Hey Steve? Would you like to come to my place..get a cup of coffee?" You asked him and you could tell he was scared even at the mere mention of that place.

"Why don't you come to mine? It's closer" he made an excuse and you sighed.

"Nooo .. school tomorrow.. have to be up early.. anyways see ya" you smiled as you walked away from him, he was frustrated by the development, he wanted to spend time with you and he lost the one chance you had given him, he didn't know that you knew everything and he won't be able to fool you.

As soon as you got home you paced back and forth in the living room. There wasn't much time, they were already trying to hurt you or do something today. Was Natasha helping them? You couldn't tell.

You changed into a night dress for the bed but sleep wasn't what you needed. You felt lonely again, you couldn't help but think whether Loki had eaten or not, you worried about him and wondered If he was okay and if he was missing you as much as you were missing him.

The confusion remained, you feared your feelings were only growing every passing second but you can't be falling in love with a god right? He wasn't attainable, it was impossible.

"Stop thinking…you're so stupid" You mumbled to yourself. You decided to make a cup of tea, and you could never have tea without him so you called for him, you prayed to him to come see you. Instead of standing next to you this time like always, he was standing next to the counter top on the other side.

"Did you eat lo?" He hummed as you asked him that.

You turned around to look at him, he had his arms crossed, a curious look appeared on his face.

"I'm sorry " you whispered softly as your eyes got teary, he tilted his head then he opened his arms for you so you walked towards him and hugged him tightly, you didn't stop crying after that. Why life couldn't have been simpler than this? What did you do wrong to end up on this island? And what did you do right to have him by your side?

"Why are you apologizing?" 

"For yesterday morning..I'm so sorry loki..I'm sorry for hurting you like that" his eyes teared up at the broken sound of your voice, you were dealing with so much already, you didn't need the misconception that he'd ever get upset with you for something like that.

"Hurting me darling? You felt terrified when you woke up, and you think you can ever hurt me in that state? I knew something would prompt that reaction after the night we had shared" his face warmed at the imagery, and so did yours, it was a beautiful night.

"I am damaged lo" your lips quivered as you spoke, that's how you had felt since that incident.

"No you are not, don't give that wretched scamp such a power darling. He wounded you when you were bound and helpless, it was him who carried not just a damaged soul but a blackened heart with him. Those wounds would take time to heal. It is never that easy now is it?"

You shook your head as he asked that.

"But I don't want to disrespect you like that again and again..I don't want to annoy you or make you leave..I need you" He cupped your cheeks to kiss your forehead as he couldn't even tolerate the notion of you thinking this way.

"Oh sweetheart, you did nothing of that sort, you could never annoy me. I do not care how long it will take for you to overcome the fear and hurt, I'll continue to be here as long as you would need me. I am not leaving, not going anywhere not unless you want me to..and I need you to understand that your flare ups aren't going to drive me away, it's not disrespectful towards me, it's not even directed at me and I understand that really well" 

You were speechless, you hugged him as tightly as you could, you had nothing to say to him, he was there for you. No questions asked, no conditions imposed, he was just there, selflessly and wholeheartedly. 

"Can you lay on top of me? Pleasse?" He looked at you intently as you said that, the nightmare, he presumed that's what you saw today, that monster on top of you again and it made you feel unsafe, it made you feel repulsed. He had promised to not hurt mortals but he was contemplating over that decision now, you hadn't gotten any justice in court of law as you should have and deserved, maybe he can take the matters in his own hands and use some of those godly rights for as long as he had them still.

You laid down on the bed, and he did what you asked him to do.  

"Shirt off…please" your lips trembled as you spoke but he followed your command instantly. You turned the lights off but it made you feel scared so you instantly turned it back on, it reminded you of that hospital room.

"Sor..sorry" you whispered, your whole body felt weak with images you didn't even want to have in your head any longer "I'm sorry..it's..sorry"

"Shhhhh it's okay..it's okay, you are safe I promise" he whispered softly, your arms wrapped around his neck as you pulled him closer to you, you were trying to replace the feelings that horrible man gave you with the feelings Loki was giving you in the moment, the feeling of safety and consent. 

Your body still couldn't stay still, you couldn't even close your eyes for longer than a few seconds but you tried, you closed your eyes and you felt his skin under your fingertips, his scent that you had come to love so much filled your senses, the warmth of his body engulfed your entirety.

"Kiss me please" you mumbled again, he placed his forearms right next to your head as he leaned into you and kissed you, a proper kiss, a consensual kiss where you wanted the man of your dreams to kiss you, replacing the forced touch of that monster who gave you those nightmares. 

As he pulled away, he placed a soft kiss on your earlobe before you heard him cooing in your ears, soft gentle whispers that made you feel alive instead of the threatening ones that had made you wish to never want to wake up from that coma again, 

"Everytime you feel scared or lonely in life, just remember that you have me darling, you have a god who'd never allow anyone to touch you ever again, not without your consent. I would never let anyone harm you and I promise you that my sweet sweet princess" your eyes teared up as his gentle words melted in your ears. You nodded as his eyes met with yours. Those shiny orbs looked at you with such sincerity, there wasn't an ounce of malice or fakeness in them, he was so pure and he was your god.

You raised your hand to the side to turn the lamp off, you closed your eyes as you engulfed him into you as tightly as you could, you were submerged beneath him and you loved it.

You knew this wouldn't heal you completely, but it was a start, you couldn't even imagine having a man on top of you after that incident or even have anyone touch you, hold you, kiss you like this, so this was more than enough. 

Every new day, The Slumber Island brought something strange for you, something sinister, and you had no clue what would happen to you tomorrow but the events of the past two days -- no that wasn't exactly right. Events of the last year had solidified the confusion you had in your mind regarding Loki. You weren't pondering over whether you were in love with him or not, there weren't any doubts or confusions anymore.

Attainable or not, you knew you had fallen for a certain god, madly and truly. 

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