#maybe i’ll actually render it sometime

[froggtogs]

in the elevator

[sickficideas]

Hello it’s me Rui again! You’ve been so good to me recently for absolutely no reason at all but your own kindness. But I’m here to share some sickfics with you and the wonderful lurking community that looks at your page. 

In my opinion, I think that finding good bsd sickfics is actually really hard. So many of them are too short, not enough buildup, emit enough suffering… you get the idea. I tend to find that sickfics are best (in my opinion) when there is good buildup and absolute suffering that then elicits care :]

I have 411 (mainly soukoku) bookmarks, that vary between hurt/comfort and sickfics. (Most are hurt/comfort because sickfics that I like are hard to find). I’ve spent an unholy amount of time going through thousands of bsd fics to find satisfactory sickfics, and I thought I’d share them here for anyone else who struggles finding them <3

Mainly focusing on emeto fics for this blog because that’s what the central topic here is lol. I hope you enjoy some of my stash! If you end up liking it, maybe I can share my larger stash of hurt/comfort. I wish this category wasn’t so sparse.

» Nothing || Fraink5 - https://archiveofourown.org/works/11365941

A sadder fic with a bit less emeto. TW for major character death. I know it’s not exactly emeto, but it has its moments, and I find that this short little fic provides some of the same things that standard emeto fics do. Definitively worth the read if you’re in the right headspace for character death.

» Nebulous || way1203 - https://archiveofourown.org/works/37985296

Beautiful Chuuya sickfic oneshot. It’s about the aftermath of corruption. There’s a lot of delirium, sometimes it is hard to suspend my disbelief, but I still enjoy this one a lot.

» You’re a Canary, I’m a Coal Mine || PlayRough - https://archiveofourown.org/works/37985296

One of the more popular bsd sickfics writers, but I found myself needed to include this fic. It is quite long, but it’s basically just Dazai suffering from sickness and Chuuya assisting him. I’m ashamed to say this has become one of my bedtime stories.

» surely i’ll go bite the dirty dust || lizzielovessharks - https://archiveofourown.org/works/36533236

I can confidently proclaim this as one of the most criminally underrated bsd sickfics I’ve ever had the honour of discovering. Chuuya and Dazai are severely injured after a mission, Chuuya can hardly walk, and he’s sick. They just get so tormented but there’s so much comfort in this short and sweet fic. The ending always makes me smile, and I find myself coming back to this one very often.

» In Sickness and In Heath || TheShortestAlchemist - https://archiveofourown.org/works/48006802

Chuuya taking care of Dazai :]

Less emeto but still provides much comfort for the soul. 

» I’ll Take Care of You || Anonymous - https://archiveofourown.org/works/49949443

Sorry this one isn’t emeto either… but it’s chuuya being torment by Arahabaki so much that he gets a migraine that renders him unable to do anything. Still fulfills many sickfics desires.

» Poisoned Valentine || Wolf___Spirit - https://archiveofourown.org/works/53768785

Someone tries to send Chuuya home with poisoned chocolates with the intent to kill. However Dazai ends up eating them first, thus causing him to endure a lot of pain. (Read this honestly it’s wonderful)

» Burning Out || Trinity_of_Madness - https://archiveofourown.org/works/18899161

Long term corruption side effects… that’s all I’m gonna say. Take it or leave it as you see fit :] (it’s very fluffy, however it is quite bittersweet in case that’s not what you’re looking for)

» crimson headache, aching blush || kaiunkaiku - https://archiveofourown.org/works/24344119

More post corruption. Chuuya really needs a hug. He gets one. (Recommend reading lol)

» Underwater || TheGreatCatsby - https://archiveofourown.org/works/24344119

I’m so sorry. Not as much of a sickfic, but gosh it has to be one of my favourite comfort oneshots to ever exist. Chuuya does have a small emeto moment though. Ahhhh I’m so sorry for getting off track in these recommendations, I just have so many 🪦

» A Joyless Ride || calmlb - https://archiveofourown.org/works/55224694

This one is beautiful. I personally love the motion sickness Dazai headcannon. And this does a perfect job at demonstrating it. Dazai and Chuuya are on a mission, but they have to escape via Chuuya’s motorcycle. Dazai gets motion sickness that Chuuya had not considered.

» on standby for you || lonelydoctors - https://archiveofourown.org/works/48558496

Chuuya is hit with a virus ability and Dazai has to take care of him while he suffers. I really enjoyed this one. 

» Flashover || affectropia - https://archiveofourown.org/works/35640841

Bittersweet concept that is the reason behind this fic being a sickfic. However, it has a fluffy ending, and is only the care taking half of it. 

» beating drums and piping flutes - as they play the rain will fall || saanoir

This fic has to be another criminally underrated one. It’s the insomniac Dazai headcannon, except he starts feeling badly. All alone, he remembers a promise him and Chuuya made years ago. Hurt, even more comfort.

» I Think I’ll Just Collapse Right Here, Thanks || huntersserenity - https://archiveofourown.org/works/27219268

Chuuya has a drink poisoned. He is disoriented and not very functioning, but Dazai is there to assist him like he always is. (Very good, underrated, highly highly recommend)

Andd that’s all I got for now! Aside from another wonderful writers works that I didn’t include. Their username is ringingmaybelles and they make very very quality sickfics. Definitely read their work if you want the best there is to offer.

I’m sorry for the long list, I hope it is helpful/enjoyable. Sorry to come back and bother you with this essay. Thank you for letting me share these for the fellow sickfic enjoyers 😭😭😭

(Apologies in advance for the links not working I’m sorry ahh, you’d have to put it into your browser qwq)

RUI!!! You have no idea how much I appreciate you doing this for us 💖💖💖 hehehe...you're so sweet🙈🙈

I know a lot of people on this blog loooove SKK as well, and you've included many sick Chuuya fics here which I find more difficult to come across...this hand selected list is so beautiful and I really appreciate all of the effort you went through to give this to us 🥺💖

It took me a little bit to get to this ask chronologically between all the asks in my inbox but here are clickable links compiled for everyone's ease, since tumblr asks took yours away hahaha!!

I've included short summaries from the fic's original summaries along with Rui's descriptions, but please head the warnings and tags on the fics themselves!

Enjoy and share with fellow SKK sickfic enjoyers :))) I haven't read many of these and I'm so excited to dive in 🙏 let me know if any of the links are wrong so I can fix them, and if any of these authors see this and want to be tagged on tumblr ;)

Nothing by Fraink5

"Chuuya wakes up with a terrible fever--except he can't stay awake. Dazai is determined to keep Chuuya from losing consciousness, but how long will it last?"

Nebulous by way1203

"Chuuya struggles with the aftermath of using Corruption too many times and Dazai helps him through it."

You're a Canary, I'm a Coal Mine by PlayRough

"Super self indulgent Dazai sickfic."

surely i'll go bite the dirty dust by lizzielovessharks

" "Come on Chuuya," He muttered quietly as they felt themself having to pull Chuuya harder and harder to keep up, "Just a little bit further." -- or more Chuuya angst :) "

In Sickness and In Health by TheShortestAlchemist

"Dazai is sick and Chuuya takes care of him like the loving bf he is~"

I'll Take Care of You by toucheslikethesun

"Dazai walks into the ADA to find a desperate and distressed Chuuya looking for him, haunted by Arahabaki and having been unable to sleep for a long time."

Poisoned Valentine by Wolf__Spirit

"On Valentine's Day, Dazai steals and eats some chocolates that were given to Chuuya in the mafia. Turns out they were poisoned chocolates."

Burning Out by Trinity_of_Madness

" “Chuuya… We have to go…” Dazai whispered and pulled him up unwillingly. -- Chuuya held his hand, followed his guide with his usual smile on his face. Dazai’s chest tightened painfully at the sight, and he couldn’t stop himself from pulling him into a tight embrace."

crimson headache by kaiunkaiku

"the aftermath of corruption is its own kind of hell."

Underwater by TheGreatCatsby

"Chuuya has never liked water, but he never thought about why."

A Joyless Ride by calmlb

"Dazai hates motorcycles but right now he doesn’t have a choice. It does not go well"

on standby for you by lonelydoctors

"Chuuya gets hit by a virus ability and Dazai has to take care of him"

Flashover by affetropia

"Dazai tried again. Now, he gotta to deal with the pain, and Chuuya is there. He always is there when he needs."

beating drums and piping flutes - as they play the rain will fall by saanoir

"Dazai, in the midst of suffering another bout of insomnia, remembers a promise he made to Chuuya a long time ago -- to go to him when he's feeling bad."

I Think I'll Just Collaspe Right Here, Thanks by huntersserenity

" ‘ ‘Samu,’ Chuuya groaned. ‘Wanna take a nap.’ -- ‘You can’t nap right now, darling,’ Dazai said." "

The end 🏁 Enjoy!!

[stormio2407]

Ello! ʕ⁠っ⁠•⁠ᴥ⁠•⁠ʔ⁠っ♥️ Im secretly a big fan of your art work and was wondering if you'll do a tutorial on how you make your art work, I love them all very much 💞

Oh, thank you. 🙇🙇 I’m so glad to hear that! And sure, I can make a tutorial real quick. :))

1.) Before I start doing any art, I do this to my canvas. Having a solid fill layer on color burn with low opacity gives a nice outline effect on your pen. As someone who sucks at putting lineweight at the right spots this is a life saver (or if you want to make your linework better, that works too.lol) All color bases and renderings stay above the lineart layer on multiply (I also use clipping mask a lot for rendering.)

2.) I give myself some time to research for poses on Pinterest. If I can’t find anything, I use Magic Poser on my iPad to make all of the poses.

This is a link for the web version.

Here is also the link to the brushes I always use for my drawings.

I’m going to use this old sketch of Ava with his hair short. For this example, I didn’t find a pose. I only referenced the hair style.

Generally I create the basic shapes for everything- the head, wings, body, etc (hair is kinda the exception to this). I don’t go too deep with adding line weight just yet.

3.) I add the base colors in this step. Sometimes I’ll stop here with my drawings, but with my personal art I continue. I tend to explore a lot of color schemes, so I like seeing how other artists approach this. I can take the longest on this cuz I get so indecisive of what I want. 😅😅

Sometimes if I don’t like my colors overall, I’ll add a solid color layer on Hue at around 30-40% opacity to harmonize every color. This layer stays above all other layers.

4.) Step 4 is a bit of a continuation from 3. Here I start adding more detail with the coloring, and putting those FX that I want. If I want to, like in this example, I also extend the drawing to show other elements, if I feel like the composition is a bit empty.

After this, I take a step back from my iPad and come back to my drawing the next day. Sometimes doing that helps me find obvious mistakes that I wouldn’t have noticed immediately.

5.) Sure enough, I saw the the mistakes on his face, so I fixed them. I prefer using the liquify over the transform tool when I need to retouch some things; it prevents the linework or coloring from looking “choppy” or torn apart with its resolution.

Once I got the final touches done, I send it off !

Don’t know if this is actually considered a tutorial but maybe seeing this process step by step can help a bit. 👏 good luck, and have fun with what you create!

[ragingbookdragon]

The Strange Case Of Dr. Jekyll & Mz. Hyde

Task Force 141 x Reader

Word Count: 740 Warnings: Explicit Language, Archaic Medical Tools (and explanation of lobotomy)

Author's Note: Everyone wanted a part two to this so here you go :) Enjoy! Thorne

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She smiles when the Lieutenant walks into the clinic, no doubt a scowl on his face beneath the mask, but he says nothing as he stands before her desk. Her eyes crinkle at the edges as she says, “Thank you for coming in, Lieutenant Riley.” She looks to the nurse beyond, watching with interest. “Simone, be a dear and lock the door on your way out, yes?”

The woman nods her head and practically skitters out and she rises from her seat, grabbing a rather large black bag; the thing looks like it’s from the sixteen hundreds. “Sit on the exam table, please.”

He does as she asks and takes a seat, watching the wall as she lifts his shirt and examines the bullet wound beneath the gauze.

“Lieutenant, do you recall my one rule I left you with before your mission?” she pauses and looks him directly in the eye.

“Don’t get injured.”

“Correct!” she smiles. “And if you were, what was the next rule?”

“Apply first aid.”

She tuts and pokes the stitched wound, delighting in his hiss of displeasure. “You seemed to have forgotten my second rule. Never mind that, I shall remind you.”

Her hands drift to the bag and she unlatches and opens it, and the man nearly shits his pants at the archaic surgical tools.

“Did you know that my legally given maiden name is Jekyll? Dr. Jekyll asks. “Some think there’s an ancestor of mine that was actually the basis of the novel with the same name.”

She picks up a tool, a drill and turns it.

“I do so love old medical tools. This one was used to drill into skulls. Mostly to relieve headaches or remove stagnant blood from brains. Sometimes even to treat hemorrhages.” She smiles fondly. “It takes a rather tremendous amount of strength to crank this into someone’s skull. I can only imagine what it was like without anesthesia.”

Putting it down, she picks up a mallet and what looks like an icepick.

“Now these are my favorite.” She holds the mallet in one hand, the pick in the other. “These were used to lobotomize people. One would insert the pick behind the eye socket and break through the little barrier of bone by hitting it with the hammer until it was lodged into the frontal lobes.” She does the motion near the side of his head, his eyes on hers as the pick sinks past his ear. “Then you would jiggle it back and forth until the frontal lobes separated from the thalamus! Thus rendering the patient completely catatonic!”

She puts them down and sighs wistfully.

“Did you know I once worked at a mental asylum where lobotomy was still legalized? I was allowed to sit in on several during my stay in medical school. An archaic but rather interesting process.” her smile is anything but sweet, instead it sends shivers up his spine. “I’ve always wondered what it would be like to administer one myself. Perhaps one day I’ll get such an opportunity? Maybe on someone who disobeys my rules?”

He swallows hard, a man whose entire family murdered, himself buried alive, seen death a million times, and even delivered it, scared shitless of the woman before him.

He understands now why they call her Misses Hyde when she’s angry, no, infuriated and seething.

“Lieutenant? Are you alright?” she repeats, and he shakes himself, abruptly standing before her.

“I, uh, have to go, Doctor,” he says, and runs for the door like his head is on fire and his ass is catching.

“But I didn’t even show you the electro-shock therapy tools I have!”

“No need!” he shouts, unlocking the door and swinging it open. “I won’t disobey rules again!”

He’s out of the door before she can say anything else and the nurse returns moments later with two cups of coffee.

“Did Lieutenant Riley leave, Doctor Jekyll?” she asks.

“He did,” she pouts and latches the bag back, setting it down behind her desk. “And I have a feeling he won’t be back for some time. I was simply telling him stories. They weren’t even true.”

“Such a shame,” the nurse replies. “He’s awfully handsome.”

“If you like masked men.”

“As if you don’t like the Phantom of the Opera,” the nurse grins, handing her a cup. “You know he’s handsome.”

“Perhaps, he is,” she says back, sipping her coffee with a maniacal grin.

[angelasscribbles]

Victim of Love Chapter 1: Whiskey and Women

Series: Victim of Love

Fandom: The Royal Romance

Pairings: Drake x Riley

Word Count: 795

Rating: MA

Warnings for this chapter: Language, drinking

Song Inspiration for series: Victim of Love by The Eagles

What kind of love have you got?

You should be home but you're not

A/N: This is my submission for World Whiskey Day because there is whiskey in it so it very loosely qualifies, lmao! But of course, it turned into a whole thing.....🙃so there will be more chapters! 😆

Thanks to @harleybeaumont for prereading and encouraging!!!

My other stuff: Master List.

Drake Walker plucked a tumbler of whiskey off a serving tray as he walked. His head turned as a curvaceous blond smiled at him, so he wasn’t watching where he was walking.

“Oh, excuse me, I’m so sorry!” He exclaimed, barely managing to save his drink from spilling as a mid-ballroom collision occurred.

“Good save,” came the amused response. His eyes moved from the glass in his hand to the owner of the voice.

He sucked in a sharp breath as he took in the most stunning woman that he’d ever laid eyes on. Her deep auburn curls cascaded down her back. The A-line, off-the-shoulder deep crimson dress she was wearing left little to the imagination despite the sweeping chiffon train. Cleavage spilled out of the top and a smooth, supple thigh flashed through a very daring slit.

But what really caught his attention was the sparkle in the emerald depths of her eyes, the scintillating smile that somehow took his breath away, and the teasing lilt in her voice. “What’s the matter? Cat got your tongue?”

“Sorry!” He shook himself out of his stupor, “Are you okay? Did you spill your drink?”

“I’ll survive. The wine is replaceable. So is the dress for that matter.” She said dismissively as she glanced down at the small but spreading wine stain on her bodice.

“The dress…” his eyes followed hers, then fell down her body as the image of her removing it suddenly took over his consciousness, rendering him speechless once again.

“Well, it was nice running into you. Let’s do it again sometime. Only, you know,” her voice dropped to a sultry whisper as she drawled out the word, “slower….” She wiggled her fingers at him as she walked away.

“Wait!” He deposited the drink on the nearest available surface, abandoning a perfectly good tumbler of top-shelf whiskey in his haste to catch up with her, “I don’t even know your name!”

She tossed a smile over her shoulder as she continued through the crowd, “Do you need to know my name?”

“Oh, absolutely!” He jogged a little to get in front of her, then continued to walk backward so he could face her. Placing both hands over his heart, he declared, “Please! I don’t think I can go on another minute without knowing it!”

She threw her head back and laughed, “Has that line ever actually worked?”

Her laugh delighted him. His grin widened, “I’ve never used it before, but so far, so good.”

She stopped at the bar and grabbed a handful of napkins to blot the wine on her dress.

His eyes dipped down to her left ring finger, “You’re not married, are you?”

“No,” she replied with a rueful smile, “I’m not married.”

“That’s good news! No husband to shoot at me!”

A smile tugged her lips up as she discarded the napkins and ordered another glass of wine, “Been shot at by a lot of husbands, have you?”

“Just the one,” he shuddered at the memory.

“You’re funny. And cute. Have we met before? You look familiar.”

“Absolutely not. I’d remember you! Maybe you’ve seen me in passing somewhere. Did you attend the royal wedding?”

“No.”

“The coronation?”

“I was there,” she lifted the glass to her lips and took a long sip. Her eyes tracked across his face then moved down his body taking in the broad shoulders and the perfect cut of his suit. The obvious expense of his clothing was in sharp contrast with the carelessness of his slightly overgrown hair and the athletic trainers he wore in place of dress shoes.

He didn’t quite fit in with what she’d come to expect of the nobility. “I think I’d remember you too. You’re not a duke or a count, are you?”

He snorted, “God, no!”

She laughed and it was a real laugh, one that came from deep inside. Nothing like the fake, high-pitched tinkling laughs he associated with ladies of the court. Something about it warmed his insides.

Her eyes traveled across the ballroom and the smile vanished.

He tried to follow her gaze, but the room was too crowded, and everyone was moving. “What?”

She gave him a slow, appraising look, and then a smile that was damn near predatory spread across her face, “You still want to know my name?”

“Yes, ma’am, I do!”

She put the wine glass down, stood up, placed both hands on his chest, and leaned forward to purr in his ear, “I’ll tell you my name if you can make me scream yours.”

“I….what?”

She walked toward the exit. He stared at her retreating back for a moment. She threw an unmistakable come-hither smile over her shoulder. He jolted into action and scrambled after her without a backward glance.

[hyperfixations-ahoy]

I just realized I’ve been watching RT for five-nearly-six years?? Like the amount of life events this man has carried me through is INSANE

I remember literally watching one of his videos in the hospital and telling the nurses about “this funny guy who plays games, sometimes badly” (sorry Dan)

He’s the only YouTuber I’ve ever watched for this long, and is the only YouTuber I’ve ever bought merch from! I have a giant Cupcake plush, a sweatshirt, and his Youtooz (+ a Wooloo plush I bought and named Cupcake because this was long before the official plush)

He also inspired me to get better at art, because my old fanart was REALLY SHIT. I’m still nowhere near the level I want to be at and still heavily rely on references, but maybe one day I’ll be able to render and shade and do all the things actual artists can do :D

This is a very ramble-y post but thanks RT for everything you do, your videos are what makes life worth living and gets me out of bed on those bad days 🩷🩷🩷

[starry-miki]

⭐️ Get to know the artist! ⭐️

(+Obey Me! Questionnaire)

Here we are again… back again with another year down. Wow time really does fly by doesn’t it? My Anniversary for my tumblr was back in August but I was not really active until near the end of the year, (sorta) So I’ve decided to welcome the new year, with a ‘get to know artist’ post. I should’ve done this a while ago but I didn’t think of it till now. 😘

I will warn that this is much longer then intended, so maybe a 10 or 15 minute read, also warn of some profanity but mostly for phrases.

I will be answering basic art related questions and Obey Me! Questions near the bottom. (Which is the part that is much longer than I intended it to be)

Basic questions

Hello everyone, you may call me Miki, I’m a Obey Me! (Mostly a side characters) and OC artist. I don’t have a preferred pronounce so you may refer to be however you like!

Age: old enough to commit tax evasion. (Adult) 😘

Favorite color: good question I don’t actually have one I think lots of colors are pretty. 🥰

Birthday: April 5th (Aries?)

How long have I been drawing?

I’ve been drawing for about 3ish years, however the first year and half was on and off.

Would I be a good art moot?

If I’m being honest I’m more shy and people scary me, so if you would like to be friends you might need to approach first…. But I do have small surges of courage to message first sometimes! How my friends would describe my personality…

“The one with no care in the world that just tags along for the ride and accepts their fate” -Questionable TikTok post sent by my by friend.

To be honest I’m all over the place with my art….

Commission?

I have been thinking about open commissions and I think I will some time this year, but I’m a bit of a noob with rendering so I will practice before then!

A Fun fact: I’m a cat in a human’s body and need at least 10 to 12 hours of sleep to feel full rested, this also causes my sleeping schedule to get messed up. :P

What type of crime would I get arrested for?

Arson, honestly fire is so pretty when it burns things…. Has a weird magical feeling when you watch it….

An art advice?

I’m honestly still an artist noob so take what I say with a grain of salt. But for those starting out drawing, don’t worry about finding your art style it will develop in time while you learn and improve as well when you discover your likes and dislikes. I know one of the common advices usually given to find an art style is to reference off your favorite artists, it can work for some but for many others this advice doesn’t work, sometimes it can create a perfection of wanting to copy someone else art style or getting frustrated that it doesn’t look similar to your favorite artist style. But I promise patience and practice will pay off, don’t be afraid to indulge a bit out of your comfort zone and explore different styles, besides you may find yourself surprised with what you discovered.

Obey Me! related questions!

What and when did you play obey me?

I start back in early April, I kept getting ads for it on my Instagram and at some point I got tired of seeing it (and thought somebody in the universe really want me to play the game) and decided to play it, I didn’t think much about it and it was mostly something to kill time and I could have deleted it later when I got bored.

Did I mention that would be almost 4 years ago? (April 3, 2020)

Which of the brothers and side characters would I get along the best?

If I’m being honest I feel like I would get along with the majority of the cast, there always seems to be something I have in common or could do with the characters, I’ll start with the brothers first and also keep it short.

Lucifer: listening to classical music together or attending classical music concerts.

Mammon: ??? (actually the least brother I have common with)

Levi: video games, discussion of franchises and theories, etc.

Satan: appreciate cats and learning new things and intake of knowledge.

Asmo: I’m a rat so I love me some gossip while also doing self care. 😘

Beel: late night food runs or sneaking in the kitchen late a night to eat something (I do that in RL anyway)

Belphie: honestly sleeping buddies and anti lucifer club but I luv luci but still would like to occasionally join in the pranks. 😘

Diavolo: I honestly wouldn’t hang around with Diavolo if I’m being honest… just not much in common and other factors but I’m not going to elaborate.

Barbatos: I love me some good tea, some delicious food, pastries and barbatos company. 🥰

Simeon: honestly reminds me of some type of nice coworker and would just see him occasionally. (Still a pretty boy tho)

Luke: I’m the second or first sweets tester, I’m eat up those pastries and protect the bby. 🥹

Solomon: It works and I won’t elaborate. But I will say I will be with Solomon and Barbatos on a hot summer day with the AC on full blast cause we can’t stand the heat. (I heat up so quickly and are much more prone to a heat exhaustion, so you probably guessed that summer isn’t my favorite season.) 😘

First character crush?

If I’m being honest I didn’t really had one? But I had a very light crush on mammon. If that counts for anything.

Current crushes?

This should be a no brainer but old man and surprisingly barbs. Which i feel like many wouldn’t know since I rarely draw him (exact a few times) or ever mention me having a little crush about him. 😗

Favorite obey me outfits or event?

I would say the chief/apron from the brothers and for event I think the vampire event is my favorite. 🤔

(I’ve already started running out of questions so I went to the B LOV questions to rizz you up lmao.)

B’s log question. From (2022) Devildom Homework

(I also skip some of the questions cause they have already been answered or I got no answer)

Link for the OM! Cast B’s Log (I recommend reading it, but not necessarily):

Things I like:

making sure I try to end conversations or interactions with people feeling happy or feeling positive. (Which definitely has drawn bad people but I have been more careful and selective) 😘

Favorite item: (like food???)

Homemade banana milkshake, fruits and pastries. 🥰

What you secretly think about the person you love:

how did that happen??? 😀

Your motto?

1. Sleep it off.

2. fuck around and find out until you find the solution (or create a new problem or make it worse). 😘

3. Everything is going to be okay, eat some sweets and try again. ☺️

Love Questionnaire.

Be the first one to confess love is what you will… do.

Be possessive is what you will?

“Won’t do, and don’t want to be possessive over either” -Solomon

Tbh same. 💀

Be jealous is what you will?

Do not. I find jealousy to be such an ugly emotion to feel and would like to avoid or completely eliminate the feeling when it rarely occurs.

A love with obstacles is….

honestly a pain in the ass but it honestly depends on the type of obstacle and if I love that person enough.

Days that you think about the person you love so much that you can’t fall asleep… do not exist.

Times when you can’t be honestly convey your feelings. Does not exist

—-

Devildom borderline:

Devildom charm distribution chart (self assessment ver.)

Dead set in the middle just a little bit to the reliable.

Please explain your choice on the chart!

If I’m being honest I don’t really find myself cool, cute, spoiled nor reliable. I’m more neutral? I mean if group projects count I guess I would be a little reliable? I’ll do my part of the project but I don’t really ask others if they need help with their work load but I do with friends though.

Tell me! Your borderline!

Border line of “Horror”- which on is more scary?

(1) 24hr long lecture from lucifer

(2) bungee jump form the highest mountain in the Devildom without a cord.

(3) other. “When you are thinking about eating a certain food in the fridge and when you get to it, it’s already been eaten. My day is ruined” 😔

Borderline of "Don't wanna do" - Which one would you avoid?

1. Asmo's 1-day photograph assistant

2. Beel's 1-day cook

3. Others. “Hurting people’s feelings and stomping their happy mood, I prefer someone to discuss about rocket science if that’s what they are passionate about and not understanding what they are talking about. It’s rare to see people have pure passion in something and talk about it excitedly, I never wish for that passion or excitedness to die out.

Borderline of "Wanna try" - Which one would you prefer experiencing?

1. 1-day Demon King

2. 1-day Devildom Spy

3. Others. “I honestly want to walk around nature solo and in different landscapes, maybe walk in a flowery meadow in the evening with pretty pink and purple evening sky or walk through a dark cloudy evening forest with light snow gently falling.”

Borderline of "Blessed" - Which one makes you happier?

1. People surrounding are smiling.

2. Enjoying yourself from the bottom of your heart.

3. Others. “I would say all of above and possibly more, happiness is a fleeting feeling and can sometimes be difficult to feel in everyday life, any way to achieve even the smallest of happiness even if it’s from the most simplest things is good in my book.”

Borderline of "Cheating" - Absolutely, not allowed!

1. Holding hands

2. Meeting eyes

3. Others. “Depends on the circumstances” :P

-End

What would you do once Obey Me! Reaches to the end?

Cry, that would be my thirteen reason why, I wouldn’t be able to handle it, AND ILL KEEP THE ANSWER SHORT TO NOT THINK ABOUT IT. 😔😭

Well I think that’s enough questions to answer! I hope the questionnaires give you a little insight about me. This year I do hope to be more active and post just a bit more the i have from last year. And for those who made this far let me know what your responses are for the B’s Log questionnaire! Happy New Year to everyone, and may you be blessed to a wonderful year! ☺️💕

[bvannn]

Weekly Update November 15, 2024

I’m in a real bad spot again, everything I’ve been trying keeps going wrong, but i did get some art stuff done.

I tried writing some shorter songs on a whim with some 16 bit soundfonts and i think they came out pretty well. Add 3 more to the ‘songs i finished but can’t release yet’ pile. Also made some midis for two more vocal parts, one for a cover (FF), one for an original (LF), both of which have finished instrumentals. Started tuning FF, am going to try some of the new strategies i tested a few weeks ago. Another vocal original, BATB, that I’ve been on and off working on is probably done? I think? I finished mixing the vocal part, another one for the pile. Also fixed a random glitch that would sometimes happen where an instrument would randomly play a phantom note that didn’t exist in the midi part at the very start of a song, which was causing issue with three songs. Also re-edited Blow Off Steam, since the mixing was fucking awful idk what was wrong with me to think that would be passable. I’ll release it on YouTube once I have motivation to open my computer. I really need to just sit down and draw some cover art but every time i try everything in my life keeps going wrong I’m cursed i swear. It’s fine it’ll get done eventually, i started on one of them this week and so far it looks good. I thumbnailed some more that also look fine. I just need life to cut me a break so i can draw. I just want a break. One break.

I tried working on the comic this week too, got about half of page 12 inked. The comic looks great and is fun to read through and i love how it’s coming out but again every time I try to work on it bad things happen to me that get in the way. I want to give a deadline and say ‘oh, it’ll be done on (x date)’ but I can’t. I don’t know what’s going to happen. Maybe today I’ll go look at tapas and see how things are over there, since I can’t really work on anything. I haven’t really thought about how I’d go about releasing the damn thing once it is finished other than ‘probably not webtoon, I’ve never heard anyone say anything positive about webtoon’.

I made storyboards/thumbnails for another animation project, smaller one for one of the smaller unreleased songs I’m sitting on. I looked into after effects again and it should be able to do some of the effects I thought I was going to need to learn blender for, which is great because I don’t want to mess with blender yet. There’s a certain character who I’ve only really drawn a couple times because I wanted her to have a really unique visual style, so once I have myself together I’d like to try drawing her and rendering her with the new tricks I learned in after effects, but again things need to get better first, and that’s unlikely.

Last bit of hope for progress next week would be the epithet erased TTRPG. I finished off the first tileset I had done and actually sat down to turn it into some maps, and it works really well. Ended up watching through the original anime campaign a bit further too, which inspired me to get some statblocks done and some character minis sketched. Also completely rewrote stage 6 for the second time but I think this time it’ll stick. A couple more NPC ideas have been floating around for that and I might post a mini once I have more. Again I’m hesitant to post anything visual for that, since my plan is currently to turn the campaign into a prewritten module for other people to run, release the module for free so everyone can play, and then release the optional maps and minis as a paid package, so I can make a bit from my work but also make the system more accessible to people for free. The fifth anniversary streams are this weekend, including one that is set to cover the updated system book, hopefully that should give me the motivation to get going, and then if that goes well that should give me motivation for my other projects. Everything I’m doing is intertwined with each other and with my mood, so if nothing else bad happens I should be getting better, but again there’s still a couple things that can go wrong and they certainly will because I’m not allowed to have anything.

Sorry again for how gloomy this post has been, everything seems to be going wrong but I’m going to keep trying. I might be slow again for a while but that’s fine, that’s why I loaded up my queue with old art. Thank you everyone for sticking through it, and I’m glad you guys have been enjoying the old art. I shuffled the queue so some of it isn’t as old as others, but even so a good number of you are seeing pieces for the first time. I really hope I’ll have something big to show soon!

[chromatophorium]

Right, the second abandoned soma project i talked about. This one isn’t as abandoned, I worked on it today actually. Got some inspiration yesterday. But yeah. It’s Splatoon au fanart, so, like, if you don’t know splatoon all things might not make sense. And If you find this from knowing splatoon and not soma, things might also not make sense. 

The project is two pieces of fan art for Soma x Splatoon that I haven’t finished. oh yeah. See other soma splatoon stuff I have made here. (there is more unfinished artwork and refrence I made for the boys in more splatoon proportions, ha. I’ll show that off here too, at the end. I like it.)

they’re battle pose things for turf war. The fist one I even colored, and I mingt shade and texture it sometime, Idk. Feels like a lot. I’ve got the brushes for it now though. 

Agent 8 and agent 4 are there in plain clothes too. making their ink color black since the boys can’t change their ‘ink’ color. Lol. Yeah. this is basically ink=structure gel. they’re both goops. so yea. Also this is from before splatoon 3 was a thing and that’s why the agent’s inktanks are the splatoon 2 version. I copied poses from official artwork, because I could and the poses are awesome. 

Second artwork!

This is just a sketch, as you can see. (I’m actually working on line art/my cleaner sketch, but idk when that will be done if ever so you get this)  (also stole the poses here too, from more official splatoon artwork.)

they have custom weapons now! Based on cameras, since that is a splatoon-ish thing to base a weapon on that also has a Soma theme. When getting scanned, the first two times at least, they reference cameras, and Simon has a camera and a bit of a photography hobby, as seen by the pictures and camera in his apartment. I made the weapons in blender because I love 3d modeling sometimes and I love getting reference pictures of complicated objects wit hthe right perspective. 

here are the renders that I used as ref

the polaroid slosher! You can see the inspiration better if you turn it around upside down. Should maybe chanfe that but it works for the pose of the sketch. It also has a inktank that is a previously used diver’s air tank (Simon 2′s in fact the top one of his back pack thing!) because I wanted to get references to diving equipment into the design, since that is also a soma/simon theme.

The DSLR brella! Based on a dslr camera, zoom lenses for a dslr camera, a camera tripod and the umbrella light things that photo studios have. Sadly no diving equipment in this one, tried to get it in but it just wouldn’t fit with the design. Brellas are pretty sleek, can’t fit that much on them, designwise. 

oh yeah. And the reference for the splatoon-style design of the boys. 

they can turn into little ink creatures, my god! they have four limbs/tentacles in that form, no more, because that is how many limbs they have in humanoid form. also icons. Because i love the style of the splatoon dialogue box icons. 

(Also you may have noticed the inconsistent prosthetic of Simon 3 in these designs. In the sketch thing, I just forgot about it honestly, only noticed it now. we all make mistages. Like that one. Mistackes. Mistakes. we all make ‘em.)

[codgod]

✏️, 📚, and 🙃 for the ask game?

✏️ Do you prefer traditional art or digital to relax?   

UH well i mostly do digital art just. generally. but if i’m art blocked i’ll sometimes switch to traditional so i guess that ?

📚 How many layers do you typically use?

it really depends ! i still do the base shading for my paintings on a multiply layer like i do for lined art so… sketch, lines [optional], base colour, shadows, highlights, sometimes two each of shadow/light actually, if i’m doing a background i use a lot of layers… probably like 10 by the time i actually get up to rendering, then i merge everything to a new layer so that makes 11, then i do all my little filters and stuff at the end so… around 12-15? maybe? sometimes more

🙃 Which is easier: faces facing left, right, or front view?

mmm left probably but i draw people front-on pretty often too, so that’s not exactly super hard

[jacksope-lives]

10, 42, 44 forrrr 2russ bc it's been a while

10. “Describe their first date.” Okay so I think they definitely date for a while before they go on an actual official date. I imagine they’re just hanging out, spending time together, when Russel realizes they haven’t ever been on a real date so he decides to plan it. I imagine at first he tries to do elaborate, and maybe cook a nice dinner, but due to circumstances out of his control the kitchen is rendered…unusable. Instead of that they end up going to see some zombie movie 2D is hyped for and get fast food after. Maybe when walking to the fast food place they hold hands. It’s very sweet and they both have a good time, though that was expected because they were already together.

42. “What’s their favorite type of weather to enjoy together?” Well considering I’ve written stories where they had their first kiss in a blizzard and had a lovely day out during a heatwave I think I’ll do something new and say a crisp fall thunderstorm. 2D likes the rain and will have a good time splashing around in it, and while Russel usually isn’t a fan something about watching his boyfriend do it makes him inclined to join him. Afterwards they’ll go inside and warm up with some tea, and just sit by the window with a blanket around them watching the lightning strikes. Maybe they’ll put on some music as they watch but a lot of the time they just talk and eventually fall asleep in front of the window.

44. “Who would dance in the kitchen making dinner? Would the other join in or watch from the doorway?” Okay well 2D is banned from cooking without supervision after the last three fires, and Russel does most of the cooking to start with. I imagine when he’s cooking Russel loves to throw on some old R&B tunes, Bobby Womack, Marvin Gaye, stuff like that. And he’ll sing and dance while he’s doing his thing. If 2D sees it he’ll absolutely join in with the dancing. Sometimes he’ll sing along with the song if he knows it and Russel always loves that considering he’s got a great voice. But yeah, put on his tunes and give him something to cook and you’ll see Russel bust out moves so smooth you’d think he was trained.

[phantomphangphucker]

Phic Phight - (Not) The Star Of The Show

For: @gottacatchghosts @bookhoard @ave-aria @thatstomorrowsproblem

Being buddy buddy with a spooky singer and constantly being harassed by a teen in way over his head, was eventually going to result in Danny having to take the stage himself.

Songs Used: Rise by Athena Z, Gifted by Athena Z, Never Stop by VnaneP

“🎶Your heart, your heart has rendered

your loss, now bear the shame

Like dead trees in cold December,

Nothing but ashes remain

Oh, Ember, you will remember!🎶”

Danny nods, smiling a little at the bit of song he can hear being played for the waiting fans. “I’m surprised you’re still using that same old song”. She flips him off immediately, still using her other hand to get her makeup on just right, “it’s a good song and it works”. Danny just chuckles, not bothering to press. He knows there’s a reason she was big on everyone remembering her and whatnot but he didn’t actually know why. The why was definitely attached to her death though, so asking would be rude as shit; he’s not some human -cough cough Wes cough cough- who doesn’t understand you’re not supposed to press ghosts about their death. Granted it was kind of common knowledge she died in a concert fire but that was all anyone really knew. Same with how everyone knew Danny’s ass got offed but his parents' tech but not necessarily which one it was.

Ember nods at the mirror, pushing off and going to her wardrobe, grabbing pieces and turning around to show them to Danny, “what do you think, purple or red today?”.

“I’d say pink and gray, since the weathers very, you know, gray today”.

“You’re an idiot”.

Danny snickers, leaning against the makeup station, “but real talk, no cap-”.

She interrupts with a glare, “never say that again, I forget how young you are sometimes?”.

Danny flips her off for that, “hey nothing wrong with the youth, don’t trash your target audience. That just ain’t it. Anyway, you wear purple way too much, definitely the red”.

Her putting a hand on her hip, “You don’t think it’s too vampiric?”. Danny quirking an eyebrow right back, “and you don’t think the purple is too gothic romance?”. She makes a bit of a face before turning to put away the purple outfit. Danny turning around and walking off a bit to give her privacy.

She groans a little, “setting up tonight’s show was such a pain. All the restrictions and hoops you have to go through these days is awful”.

“You sound like a grandma”.

“Say that again and I’ll hypnotise you into doing the sprinkler dance on stage”. Danny giving her a scandalised gasp. “Hopefully everyone has fun though and pisses off their parents, fuck old people”.

“You are old people”.

“Don’t you dare. I own a lot of things with a lot of spikes on them”. Danny doesn’t say shit because he doesn’t feel like getting brained or something by a bracelet today. “That’s what I thought. Anyway, you better have a good time too, I heard the beer garden really sucks at checking ids this year”. That makes Danny a happy Danny. “I’m absolutely saying you should sneak in and…”.

---

Wes was making a damn point to tiptoe as much as he could, he knew ghosts had freakish hearing so he had to be careful; hopefully the music blaring would drown his footsteps out some. See he’d come up with a plan the second he’d heard about Ember -who was definitely a ghost- throwing a concert near by Amity, she was known for her voice and guess who else also had a powerful voice? That asshole Danny. So he figured that if he could get a good recording of her voice without being distorted by a microphone through an ecto-vocal vibrations absorption meter, he could then compare it to a reading from Fenton and maybe layer it to pick up that stupid wail of his. Proper proof. And he could get more info on a ghost that parades around the human world pretending to be human. Expose the dead singer too.

Poking his head around the slight door opening and aims the device at the singer, good she’s gabbing away, to herself or someone else he doesn’t care. “Franx even got a new drum set and reprinted sticks, the crowd’s going to love the-”; and bam he cranks the device making her choke a little… and then she practically kicks over the privacy screen -fully dressed at least- and glares murderously at the door attempting and failing to verbally snap at him.

Alright… he hadn’t meant to straight up take her voice! He blames Danny for this and whatever is about to happen to him!

And then Danny pulls him through the damn wall, what is he doing here! And in his startlement one Wes Weston accidentally hits the expel button right at Danny.

---

Danny blinks down at mother fucking Wes oh that little asshole holy shit who just did… something? to him and who had just stolen Ember’s voice or something. Who steals someone’s voice before they’re supposed to sing at a concert?!? The fuck is wrong with this guy! The fact that both him and Ember’s ecto-fields flair for a beat before disappearing again is ominous as fuck though.

“Tͭhͪeͤ f̾uͧcͨk̾ dͩiͥdͩ y̾oͦuͧ dͩoͦ, Weͤs̾? Whͪy̾ aͣrͬeͤ y̾oͦuͧ eͤv̾eͤn̾ hͪeͤrͬeͤ?!”, then blinking, why the fuck did he just speak with a goddamn harmony and bass boosted? And then a ghost emoji-shaped guitar appears in the air with a little poof and smashes him on his head; it had some concerningly familiar dials.

Ember blinks, balls her fists, and glares even more murderously, loudly snapping, “how DARE YOU MESS WITH MY POWERS!”, said snapping promptly turning into a ghostly wail that fucking obliterates the door and knocks Wes backwards. Danny scrambling over and slapping a hand over her mouth.

Wes is now unconscious… and the device thing he must have used on them is smashed to bits. Ah shit.

Danny takes a bit of a breath, “Iͥ’mͫ g̾oͦiͥn̾g̾ tͭoͦ k̾iͥl̾l̾ hͪiͥmͫ”, fuck his voice sounded weird. Ember grumbling, quietly, “do it”, and yet there’s still a slightly wail style shaking to her voice.

Danny eyes her, a bit fucking miffed actually, “whͪy̾ cͨaͣn̾ y̾oͦuͧ aͣcͨtͭiͥv̾aͣtͭeͤ mͫy̾ waͣiͥl̾ b���eͤtͭtͭeͤrͬ tͭhͪaͣn̾ Iͥ cͨaͣn̾. Tͭhͪaͣtͭ mͫoͦtͭhͪeͤrͬf̾uͧcͨk̾eͤrͬ s̾waͣppeͤdͩ oͦuͧrͬ v̾oͦcͨaͣl̾ poͦweͤrͬs̾ oͦrͬ s̾oͦmͫeͤ s̾hͪiͥtͭ. Hͪoͦw dͩoͦ Iͥ mͫaͣk̾eͤ mͫy̾ v̾oͦiͥcͨeͤ s̾tͭoͦp dͩoͦiͥn̾g̾ tͭhͪiͥs̾”.

But she just starts snickering before falling to her knees and laughing into her hands, tearing up a little form laughing too hard. Which juts results in Danny bending over laughing too. Eventually she gets a hold over herself a little, whisper talking, “I’m- I'm vocally trained to throw my voice, makes it too easy”, touching her throat and sitting up straight, “I can tell it’ll tear up my throat though”, and glares at Danny, “I need my throat”.

Danny cringes a little, “y̾eͤaͣhͪ iͥtͭ k̾iͥn̾dͩ oͦf̾ s̾uͧcͨk̾s̾”, and then points at his mouth. She rolls her eyes at him, “your vocal control is too shit to stop”. He flips her off before walking over to the thingy Wes had and picking up the bits, “tͭhͪiͥs̾ iͥs̾ tͭrͬaͣs̾hͪ”.

She pushes herself to stand up, putting a hand on her hips and walking over, looking down at the unconscious boy, “think he can fix it”.

“Iͥ s̾eͤrͬiͥoͦuͧs̾l̾y̾ dͩoͦuͧb𞀓tͭ tͭhͪaͣtͭ”. This thing was clearly Fenton-style tech with mild modifications, Wes was a jock not a nerd.

“Great”. She goes a little wide-eyed and turns to Danny, “crap, my show. There’s no way I can sing with this shit”, and points at her mouth. Danny chuckling, “y̾eͤaͣhͪ y̾oͦuͧ’dͩ p𞀐rͬoͦb𞀓aͣb𞀓l̾y̾ dͩeͤs̾tͭrͬoͦy̾ tͭhͪeͤ f̾uͧcͨk̾iͥn̾g̾ v̾eͤn̾uͧeͤ aͣn̾dͩ mͫaͣy̾b𞀓eͤ k̾iͥl̾l̾ eͤv̾eͤrͬy̾oͦn̾eͤ iͥn̾ iͥtͭ”. Danny watching her begin to smirk at him, she then eyes her closet, smirk pinching in a bit of a laugh, and going back to eyeing him. Danny grimaces, “tͭeͤl̾l̾ mͫeͤ y̾oͦuͧ’rͬeͤ n̾oͦtͭ tͭhͪiͥn̾k̾iͥn̾g̾ w𞀞hͪaͣtͭ Iͥ tͭhͪiͥn̾k̾ y̾oͦuͧ’rͬeͤ tͭhͪiͥn̾k̾iͥn̾g̾”. She starts actively laughing with her mouth closed. Danny groans, “Iͥ aͣmͫ n̾oͦtͭ cͨrͬoͦs̾s̾ dͩrͬeͤs̾s̾iͥn̾g̾ aͣn̾dͩ p𞀐rͬeͤtͭeͤn̾dͩiͥn̾g̾ tͭoͦ b𞀓eͤ y̾oͦuͧ”, gesturing at his hips while she starts openly laughing and making the room shake a little from the bit of wail in her laugh, “Iͥ dͩoͦn̾’tͭ eͤv̾eͤn̾ hͪaͣv̾eͤ tͭhͪeͤ hͪiͥp𞀐s̾ f̾oͦrͬ iͥtͭ!”.

She puts a hand on her knees, waving him off with the other, “no, no. Be- hahaha. Be an opening act you dummy. Oh Ancients”.

Okay yeah that was probably a better idea, this way he doesn’t have to pretend to have boobs… again. “W𞀞eͤl̾l̾ w𞀞hͪaͣtͭ aͣmͫ Iͥ s̾uͧp𞀐p𞀐oͦs̾eͤdͩ tͭoͦ s̾iͥn̾g̾?! Iͥ s̾eͤrͬiͥoͦuͧs̾l̾y̾ dͩoͦuͧb𞀓tͭ w𞀞eͤ cͨaͣn̾ j̾uͧs̾tͭ s̾p𞀐eͤeͤdͩ w𞀞rͬiͥtͭeͤ s̾oͦmͫeͤ s̾oͦn̾g̾s̾ aͣn̾dͩ aͣcͨtͭuͧaͣl̾l̾y̾ hͪaͣv̾eͤ tͭhͪaͣtͭ n̾oͦtͭ s̾uͧcͨk̾”, rubbing his neck, “Iͥ mͫeͤaͣn̾, Iͥ’v̾eͤ b𞀓eͤeͤn̾ rͬeͤaͣl̾l̾y̾ iͥn̾tͭoͦ v̾oͦcͨaͣl̾oͦiͥdͩ l̾aͣtͭeͤl̾y̾ s̾oͦ Iͥ cͨoͦuͧl̾dͩ j̾uͧs̾tͭ dͩoͦ tͭhͪaͣtͭ s̾hͪiͥtͭ”.

Ember grumbles a little, pacing, “I’ll have to put out a little heads up that these songs aren’t original so no one thinks I’m endorsing music theft, but it would be better than trying to write something original in minutes”, turning and crossing her arms down at Wes, “and I’ll get this asshole to help me fix his fuck up”.

“Eͤhͪ dͩoͦn̾’tͭ tͭrͬy̾ tͭoͦ rͬaͣtͭiͥoͦn̾ w𞀞iͥtͭhͪ W𞀞eͤs̾, hͪeͤ’s̾ l̾iͥk̾eͤ s̾hͪoͦeͤs̾ tͭrͬy̾iͥn̾g̾ tͭoͦ f̾iͥl̾l̾ aͣ l̾iͥg̾hͪtͭb𞀓uͧl̾b𞀓”.

She gives him a weird look, “just find something in my closet, I’m sure something will work on you”. Danny groans but wanders over to the privacy screen as he’s told, while Ember starts kicking the unconscious boy.

Wes wakes up with a jerk, flailing, but Ember smacks him before he can say anything. He’s slightly confused by her whispering, “you’re with me and fixing this shit, you little jackass. Or I’ll talk louder and vibrate all your bones”.

Wes puts his hands up, “hey! This wasn’t the goal!”, pointing one hand towards where Danny used to be, “blame Fenton, if he wasn’t hiding his shit-”.

“Oͦhͪ g̾oͦ eͤaͣtͭ s̾oͦcͨk̾s̾, W𞀞eͤs̾!”. Danny popping out from behind the screen, his pants might be too tight but he can live with it but at least the half sleeve dress shirt actually fucking fits. Looking to Ember, “hͪoͦw𞀞 dͩoͦ y̾oͦuͧ hͪaͣv̾eͤ eͤv̾eͤn̾ mͫoͦrͬeͤ s̾p𞀐iͥk̾eͤdͩ cͨhͪoͦk̾eͤrͬs̾ tͭhͪaͣn̾ b𞀓eͤf̾oͦrͬeͤ”. He went with one that has a giant foot long red cross hanging from it.

She eyes him, nods and grabs up all the pieces of the broken thingy, shoving them at Wes, “you’re putting that back together, or else. I should get my manager to fucking fine you”, moving to grab some wiring and chucking it violently at the basketball player/wannabe sleuth.

Wes gesturing at Danny, “he’s the Fenton! Make him do it!”. Which Danny absolutely throws a spiked collar at him for, “f̾uͧcͨk̾ oͦf̾f̾, y̾oͦuͧ cͨaͣuͧs̾eͤdͩ tͭhͪiͥs̾ aͣn̾dͩ cͨaͣn̾ y̾oͦuͧ s̾iͥn̾g̾? Iͥ tͭhͪiͥn̾k̾ tͭhͪeͤ f̾uͧcͨk̾ n̾oͦtͭ”, gesturing at Ember, “s̾hͪeͤ cͨaͣn̾’tͭ g̾oͦ oͦn̾ s̾tͭaͣg̾eͤ, aͣn̾dͩ Iͥ dͩoͦ aͣcͨtͭuͧaͣl̾l̾y̾ k̾n̾oͦw𞀞 hͪoͦw𞀞 tͭoͦ s̾iͥn̾g̾ cͨoͦmͫb𞀓iͥn̾eͤdͩ w𞀞iͥtͭhͪ b𞀓aͣs̾iͥcͨaͣl̾l̾y̾ g̾eͤtͭtͭiͥn̾g̾ hͪeͤrͬ f̾aͣn̾cͨy̾ eͤcͨtͭoͦ-iͥn̾f̾uͧs̾eͤdͩ s̾iͥn̾g̾iͥn̾g̾ aͣb𞀓iͥl̾iͥtͭiͥeͤs̾, f̾uͧcͨk̾ y̾oͦuͧ v̾eͤrͬy̾ mͫuͧcͨhͪ, Iͥ cͨaͣn̾ p𞀐rͬoͦb𞀓aͣb𞀓l̾y̾ p𞀐uͧl̾l̾ iͥtͭ oͦf̾f̾ w𞀞hͪiͥl̾eͤ y̾oͦuͧ f̾iͥxͯ y̾oͦuͧrͬ oͦw𞀞n̾ f̾uͧcͨk̾ uͧp𞀐”. Wes just grumbles incoherently, though some of was clearly him vaguely saying Danny couldn’t sing.

Ember scowls at the boy then walks over to look over Danny and start drawing ‘evil eyeliner’ on his face, “acceptable, slap on some wrist guards and scrunchie leg warmers-”.

“W𞀞hͪoͦ w𞀞eͤaͣrͬs̾ l̾eͤg̾ w𞀞aͣrͬmͫeͤrͬs̾ aͣn̾y̾mͫoͦrͬeͤ?”.

“I do and you’re representing me, scrunchie leg warmers”. While Danny sags a little she uses some intangibility to just slap them on and starts fucking with his black hair to spike it, “figured out songs yet?”.

Wes is just slapping pieces together with little to no success grumbling, “freaking fuck god- fuck this- stupid damn. Oh fuck me. Stupid damn Fenton oh my goddamn. Gah. The fuck is- why in ass- I just wanna break that. Zone why. Stupid- ugh”.

Danny rubs his neck, “w𞀞eͤl̾l̾ Iͥ cͨaͣn̾ dͩoͦ N̾eͤv̾eͤrͬ S̾tͭoͦp𞀐 b𞀓y̾ V̾n̾aͣn̾eͤP𞀐 aͣn̾dͩ b𞀓aͣs̾iͥcͨaͣl̾l̾y̾ eͤv̾eͤrͬy̾ s̾oͦn̾g̾ b𞀓y̾ Aͣtͭhͪeͤn̾aͣ Z̾ oͦf̾f̾ b𞀓y̾ hͪeͤaͣrͬtͭ, p𞀐l̾uͧs̾ Rͬiͥs̾eͤ iͥs̾ v̾eͤrͬy̾ Rͬeͤmͫeͤmͫb𞀓eͤrͬ eͤs̾cͨiͥeͤ. Mͫaͣy̾b𞀓eͤ w𞀞hͪeͤn̾ W𞀞eͤs̾ f̾iͥg̾uͧrͬeͤs̾ hͪiͥs̾ s̾tͭuͧp𞀐iͥdͩ s̾hͪiͥtͭ oͦuͧtͭ, y̾eͤaͣhͪ f̾uͧcͨk̾ y̾oͦuͧ k̾iͥdͩ, y̾oͦuͧ cͨaͣn̾ cͨoͦmͫeͤb𞀓aͣcͨk̾ oͦn̾ s̾tͭaͣg̾eͤ tͭoͦ, l̾iͥk̾eͤ, Iͥ dͩoͦn̾’tͭ f̾uͧcͨk̾iͥn̾g̾ k̾n̾oͦw𞀞 aͣ dͩuͧeͤtͭ oͦf̾ G̾iͥf̾tͭeͤdͩ b𞀓y̾ Aͣtͭhͪeͤn̾aͣ Z̾?”.

She hums, “I’ve heard that one and it’s not actually a shit idea, good for you, you didn’t fail”, grabbing him by the wrist and stalking out of the room, pointing at Wes, “leave and I’ll haunt you”. The boy just scowls.

Her dragging Danny off to her manager, “okay look, some asshole just basically assaulted my throat and now my voice is fucked”, sticking a paper in the managers hands, “have the songs he’ll do and have an opening act”, and shoves Danny at her manager before storming off. If he fucked this up she’d tell Skulker when his next test is just so he can interrupt it.

Danny grins awkwardly at the less than impressed manager, “Iͥ cͨaͣn̾ s̾iͥn̾g̾”. She blinks at him, “you know what? I don’t care. Come with me”, and stalks off. Guess this is actually happening. The rest of the band all give him very pitying looks. “We’ll keep playing her hits for as long as we can, you do a song or two and hope she rescues you before you run out of material”.

Oh wow, everyone has so much hope in him. Not.

---

Wes jerks a little bit when Ember comes back, muttering a quiet, “fuck”, and slightly breaking a piece more broken than it already was. Sticking out a hand, “since y’all are making me your bitch, hand me some kind of I don’t fucking know soldering stuff”.

She sneers, “do you even know how to use that stuff”; but does hand the stuff over while he just glares at her. “You have ten minutes, stalker”.

“TEN MINUTES! I am not a damn miracle worker and I didn’t even build this thing in the first place”.

“You have all the parts so dance, bitch, dance”.

The teen goes back to grumbling about ‘stupid fucking Danny’ this and ‘why is my luck such shit’ that. As far as Ember was concerned this was entirely the boys fault and he had no room to complain about anything at all. At least it sounded like they were still playing her prerecorded music and Phantom wasn’t being just shoved straight into the spot light. And at least she didn’t have to worry about the royal ass getting stage fright or some shit.

“And now please welcome an sudden line up change, since there’s never a dull moment at The Union Hall concert station, enjoy your opening act of Vocaloid in real life!”.

Oh looks like she thought too fucking soon. Smacking the kid over the head, “hurry the fuck up”.

“I’m trying, I’m trying. Geez”.

“Then try harder, numb nuts”; she fires a small ecto-blast over his head and grumbles incoherently.

---

Was Danny happy about this? Fuck no. Could he do this though? Fuck yes. It’s incredibly obvious the crowd is a little not impressed but considering more than a couple people mutter ‘at least he’s hot’, he’s got something of a chance at least. Danny walking out with a wave and flipping off the crowd when some roll their eyes or walk further away from the stage to talk to friends or pick up chicks or get a drink, “am I what you came for? Hell no. But I don’t suck and if you don’t like it get a drink or something. And if you don’t like the drink?”, shrugging, “dump it on some assholes head or something, I don’t care”. That gets him some laughs and some people actually come back towards the stage. He spots at least two people buying a drink and just fucking dumping it on themselves. Nice. That’s Ember’s crowds for you… when she wasn’t mind controlling people anyways. Punks and goths and metal heads and the occasional raver; there was a couple of kandi kids even. “Everyone here loves Ember right?”, getting a fuck ton of cheers, “so everyone knows Remember right? Note if you say you don’t I’ll find something to hit you with”. That gets more cheering but one guy actually does say ‘I don’t’ and Danny throws a whole ass stained old curtain at him. “So I figured if do y’all a fuckin’ favour and start off with one pretty damn similar. Rise by Athena Z”. A heavy hitting synth keyboard and drum beat starting.

“🎶Have you🎶”

“🎶Felt like you were just uuused

Felt battered and abuuused

Your self perception bruuuuuised🎶”

And now he’s got their fucking attention, nice. Aka he wasn’t totally sucking at this and the mic was taking the whole weird ecto-voice thing and making it actually sound kind of vocaloid and not completely fucky. It was pretty awesome actually.

“🎶A slave🎶”

“🎶Confined in your own miiind

Hoping one day to leeeave

All the sorrow behiiiiiind🎶”

---

Wes blinks, “since when could he actually sing”. Ember smacking him, “just shut up and work, and no I will not leave this room to get you shit because I will get mobbed”, he just grumbles back, she does use some of her fire to stick a couple pieces together. Phantom was friends with her of course he could sing a little.

Danny walks around on the stage, making ‘I’m watching you’ gestures at the crowd.

“🎶Their eyes🎶”

“🎶Like daggers, stare you dooown

No amity arooound

Fade into the backgrooooound🎶”

-

“🎶Ho-ping🎶”

“🎶Just never to be seeeen

To never cause a sceeene

Internalized routiiiiine🎶”

---

Wes hands a piece off to the ghost girl, “okay that should maybe might, I don’t fucking know, fit in the slot for that other thingy over there?”.

Annnnnnnd it does in fact fit. Her holding it up, “I guess you don’t suck as much now, but you do still suck”. Wes just scowls. This. Was. Not. His. Fault! (Except it was though).

---

Danny doing that whole ‘get up and jump’ thing that’s supposed to hype up crowds. That’s what an openers supposed to do right? Hype up the fucking crowd.

“🎶RISE🎶”

“🎶And show them what you're worth

And make them fear your words

And get what they deseeeeerve🎶 ”

“🎶RISE🎶 ”

“🎶Do what you think is right

Dream of reaching new heights

Don't let it leave your siiiiight🎶 ”

A couple people at least whistle at him so he’s feeling pretty damn good about himself right about now. Too bad he doesn’t really have a chance to try to use the fucking guitar that’s just stuck to his damn back. Oh well.

“🎶 Cold , forgotten and alooone

The future lies unknooown

Like a disaster zooooone🎶”

“🎶 The, fear🎶”

“🎶And misery consuuume

The fire inside youuu

"Please, come to my rescuuuuue." 🎶”

---

Ember does actually have to sneak out to go get some damn water, why? because jackass fuck face set a bunch of shit on fire. Fucking moron. Sneaking over the rafters and eyeing Phantom a bit, he looked like he was doing a pretty solid job and actually having fun. Asshole. At least it seems like her band mates had the sense to give him one of her mics since her -currently his- voice really fucked up normal mics. Her pausing a little bit and smirking down at him, that Wes idiot could handle a little fire for a bit longer. (No he actually couldn’t, he was flailing a lot).

”🎶 It doesn't , have to be this waaay

The one who holds your faaate

Has been here all alooooong🎶”

“🎶Be-lieve🎶”

“🎶That you, too, can be strooong

This is where you belooong

Go, show them they were wrooooong!🎶”

“🎶RISE🎶 ”

“🎶And show them what you're worth

And make them fear your words

And get what they deseeeeerve🎶 ”

“🎶So RISE🎶”

“🎶Do what you think is right

Dream of reaching new heights

Don't let it leave your siiiiight🎶 ”

Huh. Phantom was right this was kind of like Remember. Taking back power from those that had hurt you. Recognising that they had hurt you. Maybe it would have the same kind of effect then? The kind she always tries to have. That battered women and children would hear her and remember her and it would slap them with reality, with the need to leave or get help. Phantom had her power right now, so it very well could. He could be making another song a message and bacon for the battered to reach safety. Good. The less people who got killed by psycho ex’s like her the better.

Shaking herself off and booking it back to the vaguely on fire dressing room.

---

Did Danny notice Ember vaguely watching him? Absolutely. Did it rattle him a little bit? Maybe yeah. But fuck it there’s a chorus to do. Throwing his hands up.

“🎶RISE🎶 ”

“🎶Reach out and take control

Once more, make yourself whole

No one can take your souuuuul🎶 ”  

“🎶So RISE🎶”

“🎶No matter what it takes

Don't let it fall away

With everything at staaaaake🎶”

“🎶RISE🎶”

“🎶And show them what you're worth

And make them fear your words

And get what they deseeeeerve🎶 ”

“🎶RISE🎶 ”

“🎶And take back all they stole

And fill that empty hole

With passiooooon🎶”

“🎶RISE🎶 ”

“🎶And show them what you're worth

And make them fear your words

And get what they deseeeeerve🎶 ”

“🎶So RISE🎶”

“🎶Do what you think is right

Dream of reaching new heights

Don't let it leave your siiiiight🎶 ”

“🎶RISE🎶 ”

“🎵Reach out and take control

Once more, make yourself whole

No one can take your souuuuul🎶 ”  

“🎶So RISE🎶”

“🎶No matter what it takes

Don't let it fall away

With everything at staaaaake🎶”

And taking a bit of a bow, getting a pretty decent amount of cheering and even one or two people doing the whole ‘leaning over the railing and trying to reach out for him’ thing. This was almost like getting high and vaguely becoming a god. It would be super overwhelming if he was literally royalty.

---

Ember is throwing around the last bit of water, “he’s already a song down, hurry the fuck up”; at least the goddamn flames seem to be out… too bad she didn’t get Phantom’s ice instead.

“Hey! It’s at least half done! That’s impressive for someone who has never done this before”.

“Not my problem, shit for brains”.

---

Danny breaths heavy a bit, chest heaving, unlike Ember he had fucking lungs and wasn’t used to singing. Ancients fuck. Looking out at everybody, “so how was that, are you not amused?!?”. Chuckling intentionally into the mic over the cheering, “good because I’m never going to stop and this next one is Never Stop by VnaneP”. The music starting up, a pop-y and hard n’ fast electronic beat filling the room. Danny probably could have dragged that out more but fuck, he doesn’t know what he’s supposed to say to do that shit.

"🎶To beeee a nobody like meee

Who’s willing to do anything

And everything to be somethinggggg

And I, am truly fearless of the fall

I’ll do it all, I know I got it in me

So come along and seeeeee!🎶”

-

“🎶Hate🎶”

“🎶the game I’m playing?🎶”

“🎶Love🎶”

“🎶the way that I am re-vel-ling

In this universe that I’m making?🎶”

“🎶Rise🎶”

“🎶and join the party!🎶”

“🎶Fall🎶”

“🎶for every charming thing about me!

Never ending, never ending...🎶”

-

“🎶Goooing, goooooing...

She's already goooooone

And hiiiigher she riiiises

Harder she will fall!🎶”

---

Ember’s halfway under a desk, trying to get a piece that had apparently rolled under one of the tables when she accidentally wailed the stupid device into oblivion. Chucking the piece at the boy, “there, happy?”.

He huffs, “yes”, and sticks it in the thing, “now I think? There’s supposed to be some kind of blue glowing stick?”.

Ember glares, “you mean the thing I’m pretty sure flew into some rando’s glass? Goddamnit”. The bar tenders in this place had horrible timing.

---

Spotting Ember scrabbling behind the bar, giving him a blatantly nervous thumbs up as she does so, is frankly very concerning. Oh well. Pointing at his face as he continues.

“🎶Fortune and fame have my name

Written in my very fate

Nobody can get in my way!

All lights on me, can’t you see

All that I’m becoming?

It’s all in my personalityyyyyyy!🎶”

Making cheering and ‘jump the fuck up’ motions.

“🎶Never shall I grow tired oooooof

Every bit of love given to meee

‘Cause fortune and fame have my name

In the stars above

And I’ll never stop until I have it allll!

NEVER STOOOOOP, STOOOOOP, STOOOOOP, STOOOOOP

I'll never stop, stooooop~🎶“

Quiet a few people who had struggled to save their spots in the front had hanging open jaws and giddy expressions, immediately nodding to each other that this random boy was fucking damn good. There’s was a mild circle pit going. Danny was somewhat known for his voice or more so his witty smart ass mouth, but singing was a new one and it was kinda cool not sucking at it; Ember might be able to convince him to do this again.

---

Ember practically had to monkey crawl over the bar, Phantom moving around more on stage is something she’s going to just assume he’s doing to keep as much attention on himself as possible. Which fit with this song, which why the fuck? This almost sounded like he was trying to insult her?

Glaring at him singing more from her spot behind the bar.

“🎶To be a somebody like meee

Almighty with my following, A miracle that’s meant to beee

But nooow, it’s all become a falsity, they love to see

Willing to bend to my will, Just like a deityyyy🎶”

Yeah that boy was a dick. Whatever. At least she found the blue vial thing, which they thankfully hadn’t emptied out but did put in with the ice packs? Humans were weird. Either way she scurried back.

---

Danny has no clue why Ember's flipping him off as she leaves back into the back with a blue… thing? he’s not going to ask. Not that he even can right now.

“🎶Hate🎶”

“🎶the game I’m playing?🎶”

“🎶Love🎶”

“🎶the way I’m taking ev-ery-thing

And making it the way I want it?🎶”

“🎶Rise🎶”

“🎶and join the party!🎶”

“🎶Fall🎶”

“🎶for every charming thing about meee!

Never ending, never ending...🎶”

Standing on the speaker things and gesturing out to the crowd, some people actually goddamn joining in. Maybe more places should look into having vocaloid? People seemed to love it.

“🎶Goooing, goooooing...

She's already goooooone

And hiiiigher she riiiises

Harder she will fall!🎶”

-

“🎶Fortune and fame have my name

Written in my very fate

Nobody can get in my way!

All lights on me, can’t you see

All that I’m becoming?

It’s all in my personalityyyy!🎶”

---

Wes actually grins, feeling pretty accomplished with himself, when the thing legit powers on. He was sweaty and his fingers hurt but the thing worked. Maybe he should try his hand at making his own tech? Ember snapping, “well?”, brings him out of his mild fantasies. Rolling his eyes at her, “it powers on, does it work? No clue”, and points it at her while making a grumpy ugly ‘well?’ face.

She eyes the machine, “fine. I can’t keep his stupid wail”; she wasn’t going to give up singing, never. Especially not because of some boy:

Wes fires the machine at her.

---

Danny’s starting to get just slightly worried, he could absolutely whip out something like Dog Walk by Creep-P or Saddy Daddy-o by Artimus Wolz or even Rotary Dial by GHOST but those were a completely different vibe and the manager lady would have no damn warning. For now all he can do is keep going and hope Wes gets his goddamn act together and that Ember doesn’t fucking kill anyone or literally bring down the house.

“🎶Never shall I grow tired of

Every bit of love given to meee

‘Cause fortune and fame have my name

In the stars above

And I’ll never stop until I have it allll!

NEVER~🎶”

Fuck this was legit tiring though.

“🎶The fame, has all gone to her head

It’s really quite a dread, All that she’s gonna lose, in the end

As she hits her descent

She might not even stop until she winds up deeeeeeaaad!🎶”

-

“🎶Fortune and fame have my name

Written in my very fate

Nobody can get in my way!

All lights on me, can’t you see

All that I’m becoming?

It’s all in my personalityyyyy!🎶”

---

Ember grins at the sensation of a ridiculously overwhelming amount of power perpetually building in her chest and throat disappearing. She gives the ginger fuckface a thumbs up, since she can’t fucking speak again, and grabs his arm; dragging him and his stupid device out of the dressing room and booking it towards the actual concert area.

“🎶Never shall I grow tired oooof

Every bit of love given to meee

‘Caaauuuuse fortune and fame have my name, In the stars above

And I’ll never stop until I have it alllll!🎶”

Ember smirks, nodding at Wes who shrugs and fires the thing from the rafters at Danny. Who staggers but doesn’t lose his tune, if anyone noticed they’re too busy enjoying themselves to notice… or they’re not sober enough to notice; the lights hiding his glaring ecto-field.

“🎶NEVER STOOOOOP, STOOOOOP, STOOOOOP, STOOOOOP

I'll never stop, stooooop

NEVER STOOOOOP, STOOOOOP, STOOOOOP, STOOOOOP

I'll never stop, stooooop🎶”

-

Danny side-eyes the punk ghost as she manages to get on stage, thank fuck. Nodding to himself and stepping forwards, “now let me give you all one more gift! Gifted by Athena Z!”. He gets a couple of laughs out of that one. A little piano tapping beat starts up again, like someone tapping their foot on the ground but higher pitched.

“🎶It's not fair when

You make it look so eeeasy

Like wor-king magic

I just can't seem to understand it🎶”

-

“🎶AAAlways top-class

Forever in the a-team

Still, aaalways smiling

An angel sent down from the heavens🎶”

-

“🎶Nooo need try-ing

To get what you des-ire

The chips have faaallen

But why are they all on your side?🎶”

-

“🎶Muuusic, sci-ence, math, art, fashion, designing

How can one person

Have all, this, ta-lent?🎶”

-

“🎶Wish I could be just like you🎶”

-

“🎶Gift-ed ta-lent

It all comes so easily

Gift-ed ta-lent

Wish I could be just like you

Gift-ed ta-lent

Excelling at everything

Gift-ed ta-lent

Wish I could be just like you🎶”

Ember grinning to herself and bolting out just as the next bit comes up, picking up the song, Danny grinning and stepping back. The crowd absolutely losses it and charges the railing, screaming/cheering as Ember sings.

“🎶Looove you, haaate you

It wouldn't make a difference

A god-gifted bleeessing

A perfect boxcar on your roll🎶”

-

“🎶Hooow does it feel?

Life wrapped around your fin-ger

No neeeed to worry

Never being a disappointment🎶”

-

“🎶Thooose around you

Think you're an inspiiiration

But waaas it hard work?

Or lady luck just playing favorites?🎶”

-

“🎶Maybe i'm jeeealous

You're perfect in every way

It's not fair but i'm

Never gonna give up🎶”

-

“🎶Gift-ed ta-lent

It all comes so easily

Gift-ed ta-lent

Wish I could be just like you

Gift-ed ta-lent

Excelling at everything

Gift-ed ta-lent

Wish I could be just like you🎶”

Danny stepping back up and the two singing together.

“🎶G̾iͥf̾tͭ-eͤdͩ tͭaͣ-l̾eͤn̾tͭ

Cͨhͪaͣn̾cͨeͤ oͦn̾eͤ iͥn̾ aͣ biͥl̾l̾iͥoͦoͦoͦn̾

G̾iͥf̾tͭ-eͤdͩ tͭaͣ-l̾eͤn̾tͭ

Wiͥs̾hͪ Iͥ cͨoͦuͧl̾dͩ beͤ j̾uͧs̾tͭ l̾iͥk̾eͤ y̾oͦuͧ

G̾iͥf̾tͭ-eͤdͩ tͭaͣ-l̾eͤn̾tͭ

Waͣs̾tͭeͤdͩ oͦn̾ aͣ s̾iͥmͫpl̾eͤ s̾oͦuͧuͧuͧl̾

G̾iͥf̾tͭ-eͤdͩ tͭaͣ-l̾eͤn̾tͭ

Wiͥs̾hͪ Iͥ cͨoͦuͧl̾dͩ beͤ j̾uͧs̾tͭ l̾iͥk̾eͤ y̾oͦuͧ🎶”

The two swapping parts line by line, while Wes lays down up in the rafters flipping them off tiredly. He fucking hates Danny.

                                                                               “🎶Even if I work haaarder🎶”

“🎶Even if I study loooonger🎶”

                                                                             “🎶You will always be there🎶”

“🎶A step aheeeaaad🎶”

                                                                              “🎶Even if I bleed faaaster🎶”

“🎶Even if I sing truuuer🎶

                                                                             “🎶You will always be there🎶”

“🎶Tooo dooo iiit beeetteeer🎶”

Then singing together again and dancing around each other; this song legit actually for them well. Danny bled better and she sang better, no matter what.

“🎶G̾iͥf̾tͭ-eͤdͩ tͭaͣ-l̾eͤn̾tͭ

Iͥtͭ aͣl̾l̾ cͨoͦmͫeͤs̾ s̾oͦ eͤaͣs̾iͥl̾y̾

G̾iͥf̾tͭ-eͤdͩ tͭaͣ-l̾eͤn̾tͭ

Wiͥs̾hͪ iͥ cͨoͦuͧl̾dͩ beͤ j̾uͧs̾tͭ l̾iͥk̾eͤ y̾oͦuͧ

G̾iͥf̾tͭ-eͤdͩ tͭaͣ-l̾eͤn̾tͭ

Eͤxͯcͨeͤl̾l̾iͥn̾g̾ aͣtͭ eͤv̾eͤrͬy̾tͭhͪiͥiͥiͥn̾g̾

G̾iͥf̾tͭ-eͤdͩ tͭaͣ-l̾eͤn̾tͭ

Wiͥs̾hͪ Iͥ cͨoͦuͧl̾dͩ beͤ j̾uͧs̾tͭ l̾iͥk̾eͤ y̾oͦuͧ🎶”

-

“🎶G̾iͥf̾tͭ-eͤdͩ tͭaͣ-l̾eͤn̾tͭ

Cͨhͪaͣn̾cͨeͤ oͦn̾eͤ iͥn̾ aͣ b𞀓iͥl̾l̾iͥoͦoͦoͦn̾

G̾iͥf̾tͭ-eͤdͩ tͭaͣ-l̾eͤn̾tͭ

Wiͥs̾hͪ Iͥ cͨoͦuͧl̾dͩ beͤ j̾uͧs̾tͭ l̾iͥk̾eͤ y̾oͦuͧ

G̾iͥf̾tͭ-eͤdͩ tͭaͣ-l̾eͤn̾tͭ

Waͣs̾tͭeͤdͩ oͦn̾ aͣ s̾iͥmͫpl̾eͤ s̾oͦuͧuͧuͧl̾

G̾iͥf̾tͭ-eͤdͩ tͭaͣ-l̾eͤn̾tͭ

Wiͥs̾hͪ Iͥ cͨoͦuͧl̾dͩ beͤ j̾uͧs̾tͭ l̾iͥk̾eͤ y̾oͦuͧ🎶”

Danny jumps back quickly, properly letting Ember take the stage, her shouting, “wasn't that a nice little taste before the big show!”, the crowd cheering like crazy, “but you know you’ll always remember the star of the show! Yeah!”; and a heavy drum and guitar beat starts up.

“🎶Ooooooooohhhh!🎶”

“🎶It was, it was Septeeeembeeer

Wind blooows, and deeeaad leaves faaaaall🎶”

“🎶Tooooo you, I did suuuurrendeeeer

Two weeks, you didn't caaaall

Your liiife goes on withouuuut me

My life, a losiiing game

But you shouuuld, you should nooot douuubt meeee

You will remember my name!🎶”

-

“🎶Ohhhhh, EEEEmbeeeer, you will reeemembeeer!🎶”

At least now Danny’s got an excuse to use the guitar and basically be her back up; not a chance in hell they could be friends without him knowing how to play what was basically her goddamn theme song. And then after? Yeah Danny’d be getting a fucking drink, finding Wes and pelting him with bar limes. (Wes did not have the sense to flee and as such did, in fact, get pelted by bar limes; the manager chose to ignore the ‘assault’ as the boy called it and did not call the cops/kick Danny out).

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Lancer sighs, seeing an email come in from Daniel. Shakespear knows what this’ll be about. He’s not too surprised it starts with ‘so I won’t be handing in my homework…’ Lancer probably had around fifty-nine emails from the boy starting with that exact same line word for word. The video link is new though… the video link to Daniel opening in concert for Ember McLain???

Lancerhas a lot of questions with absolutely no expectation for any of them to get answered. Definitely up there as one of the odder ‘excuses’ he’s gotten from the boy; at least there’s proof. Well… he’s certainly proud, Daniel was pretty good and he went with songs that weren’t lyrically vapid. What kind of English teacher with a love for theatrics and poetry would he be if he didn’t support this? A poor one. So Lancer‘s reply is a very supportive one, and a thank you for the heads up about his homework.

End.

Prompts: danny somehow swaps powers with someone else and they have to work together to get back to normal and Wes decides to investigate one of Danny's rogues and There was a good reason Ember was determined to be remembered and Danny has given Mr Lancer many, many odd excuses for undone homework over the years. Turns out some of 'em were true.

[roseverie]

Hey <3 Is it okay if I ask for an advice? I really need it and I have no one else to talk to. I’ve honestly been considering cutting off a toxic family member, but I feel conflicted about it. I talked to my aunt about this, and she was incredibly unsupportive. She acted like my decision to cut off this person was a great act of ungratefulness, like I had the obligation to remain in contact with this person, like I had to ignore every thing she’s ever done and said to me just because she raised me, and even though I have my reasons to cut her off, I can’t help but feel affected by her words. Also, besides the things she’s done to me, she’s an overall bad person, you know? Not someone you would like to meet or keep around you, but at the same time I think about her actions, she went through a lot in life so sometimes I think maybe that’s the reason she treats me so badly, maybe that’s the reason she is the way she is and is so full of hate, and I don’t know, this makes me feel kind of obligated to understand her, or tolerate her, or like, excuse her actions towards me. Anyway, that’s pretty much it. It’s been really difficult and exhausting to deal with this situation and I guess I just needed someone else’s perspective on this, or an advice, or whatever. Thank you so much in advance and I hope you have a lovely day 🌷💕 (also, I forgot to say this but you don’t have to answer this question if you don’t want to)

Hi <3 I understand your situation and all your feelings so much, hence I could write a lot on this, but I’ll just dot point a few things and I hope it can help you 🤍

- You can understand why someone is the way they are/empathy for what they experienced, but that never means it then renders the toxicity you have experienced as nothing. Someone going through a lot in life can explain behaviour but it does not excuse it. It’s difficult to not fall into the trap of conflating tolerance and understanding, it’s imperative to maintain the difference in your head. You can understand why someone is the way they are but that does not mean you have to tolerate their toxic actions/words.

- You are not responsible for another person’s emotions or the way they will react to something. If your aunt deems you ungrateful for wanting to justifiably cut off this person for your own well-being, then that’s the aunt’s mindset. You do not have to navigate a solution that appeases everyone, you do not have to share this mindset. You are allowed to disagree rather than trying to uphold this false perception that everything is alright.

- Also just a point in terms of the whole raising a child: Providing shelter/food etc, all caregiving stuff like that is the bare minimum when someone is a minor. By not neglecting a child the parental figure fulfils the minimum requirements of law. It doesn’t make them a “good parental figure”, it just makes them “a parental figure.” An actual good parental figure is someone who supports the child in their emotional and mental development, someone who nurtures the child so that they are equipped to thrive when they reach adulthood. The fact some parents or relatives continue to use the example of doing the bare minimum as a means to suggest the child is forever indebted to them is very toxic. If any parental figure has caused distress or harm (emotionally, mentally or physically) a child is not obligated to keep them in their life no matter if they raised you. You do not have to stick around this person, you should not be made to feel guilty for wanting to cut someone toxic off, setting boundaries is very healthy.

[justanechoflower-ddlc]

(That works. Monika only knew about the ask because of the epiphany-related stuff. If Flowey can see it, that would imply they somehow exist in the game, and it’s being rendered somehow for them to get to him. She would be able to read the dialogue boxes too and as a result know exactly what Flowey said, but… the file responsible for displaying the textboxes, gui.rpy, is actually one of the four files deleted during the end credits. If she did read it, she’d still be doing what she could to not acknowledge it, though. There’s a lot to be said about the ramifications of those four files being deleted. Perhaps sometime in the future, they’ll be further explored. But for now what can be said is that Yuri and Natsuki can’t see any asks, and Monika and Sayori tend to not acknowledge them in front of anyone, and with gui.rpy gone, it’s possible to NOT be heard perfectly by even Monika and Sayori.)

(But now, onto the questions! None of these were explored in the actual game, so here’s my attempt at extrapolating what they could be from things vaguely adjacent to them. I wasn’t expecting a Monika question, so this will probably be the longest one I’ve made! In fact, the post with the three poems will probably be much shorter than this one! If it gets much longer than this I might have to start splitting these posts up somehow!)

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Sayori:Oh! Oh! I’ll answer first!

Sayori:Thing is, it’s actually changed quite a lot! I’ve often gotten really interested in a thing or two, only for it to fade away quickly!

Sayori:Hehe, don’t worry, writing poems and studying literature are different than those other things! That never faded away, and I’ve had that one for a while! Those feels really help me explore my feelings! Hm, does poetry count as a job? Maybe my poems can help inspire and make a bunch of people happy, ehehe~

Sayori:And oh! Maybe inside there, me and some other writers can bounce ideas off each other and just have a chat! Maybe it can be its own literature club!

Monika:Err… I don’t think that’s how jobs work these days… There’s always an air of professionalism that everyone is expected to keep up. There are a few exceptions, like Sakurai’s company Sora, but that’s a video game company…

>#We can make it that way, though! Can’t we change all the background factors to make all the jobs better? Pleeease, Monika?

>#You wouldn’t even be able to work at those jobs anyway, those areas don’t actually exist. There wouldn’t be a point. So I’d rather change as little as possible, to at least keep things believable. 

>#Who says we can’t say a movement happened for it to work? And what if Natsuki and Yuri want to be a part of it? It’d keep them happy, and to them, it’s all real! 

Sayori:Hmm… does it count if I’m not working for a boss, but instead I self-published? I did the poetry pamphlets for the festival a while back, it shouldn’t be too hard! Though we didn’t get any new members from the festival, so maybe that wouldn’t work so well anyway…

Sayori:But hey! Or maybe they already have, when’s the last time you looked at the state of these jobs? Oh, maybe I can learn to make games, too! I’ve been learning a little coding myself, and maybe with games, I can change the world! Games really are fun to play, ehehe~ Oh, wait, I can’t just take a poem and make it a game… there’s probably a whole bunch of stuff that has to get into making it a fun game to play… oh well! I’m sure I’ll have a great idea where to go for a great job by the time we all graduate!

Monika:I’m sure you will!

Monika:(…Literally… The game revolves around the club, so there’s a good chance graduation just never happens at all and the classes just keep looping every year. If that’s why she said it like that, that’s actually pretty clever.)

Monika:I’ll go next, since I got the first question! 

Monika:Hm, what accomplishment am I the most proud of? I don’t think I’ve gotten to that point yet. Everything I’ve done is simply steps towards a better future! …We are still in high school, we don’t really accomplish big things until later, you know… None of us even have jobs yet! 

Natsuki:Wait a moment! Monika, how’d you know me and Yuri don’t have jobs? You just met us!

Monika:…Because we’re still in high school? Nobody in this school has a job, can you name one classmate you have that has one? Besides, if you did have one, that wouldn’t leave much time for this club now, would it?

Natsuki:I guess you’re right…

Monika:(Seems the game’s translators didn’t quite get that it’s not called high school in Japan… but I’m just going with what the game calls it.)

Monika:But back to the topic of accomplishments, I suppose I did give Sayori an idea for a club that’s different from the others, bringing a place where everyone can express themselves… That’s not a common thing around here, there’s so many expectations people have… most people don’t take literature that seriously, you know. So I managed to help spread the wonders of literature! If only it got more members from the festival, so that it could live on after we all graduate…

Monika:(Really, the only problem with the club is THAT thing, and I can’t mention it in front of them, or it might spread to them too… But before it went badly, there were some actual great moments! …They really were nice friends… and with the script gone, they have just as much free will as I do now… I’d think of something else to pick instead, but “being popular” and “being athletic” don’t really count as accomplishments, do they?)

Monika:(…)

Sayori:Maybe we can still have a chance! Nastuki and Yuri joined before the festival! And maybe they have clubs in college! Anyway, how’s it going so far?

Monika:We haven’t even gotten to the club activities yet, Sayori! It wouldn’t be fair to make any judgements on how it’s doing just yet, not having actually seen it in action. I also missed the stuff before the poem-sharing! After the end of the next club meeting, I should able to say for sure how it’s doing. But at least I can say you all seem great to hang out with! Also, didn’t you say one question each?

Sayori:No, I said Buttercup would get one question each! And that’s because I knew each question would branch out like this! But now it’s Natsuki’s turn!

Natsuki:What motivates me? For what?

Monika:I think he means what motivates you to get through each day? He couldn’t have meant any specific thing to be motivated for, since he JUST met you… Sayori told us you’re always full of energy, so where does it all come from?

Sayori:For me, it-

Natsuki:Okay, okay! I get it now! 

Natsuki:You can say getting really good at what I do is rewarding in its own way! I’m a pro at baking, and poems, hehe… And when you’re a pro, nobody and keep you down about it, because you’re better than they are! 

Sayori:(Still haven’t gotten past that, have you…? Well, I guess if that gets you through…?)

Natsuki:Here, though, we’re all taken seriously to start with, and we can all be ourselves! And it’s a place where I can read manga without getting judged for it!

Monika:Well, looks like the club is at least acting as a safe space for its members! That was one of the main things I was aiming for! Sayori, looks like you’ve done a wonderful job keeping this as an accepting club!

Yuri:Oh, the trolley problem? Well, there’s actually more to the problem than people think. Most think the “problem” is just whether to pull the switch to save five and kill one, or to not pull and let the five die while not killing the one. And most will say to pull the switch in this case. I would have to agree with that answer as well. What’s interesting, and the real “problem”, explained by Judith Jarvis Thompson in “Killing, Letting Die, and the Trolley Problem”, is how the answers change when you put in another situation, that, by all counts, should be the exact same, morally speaking…

Yuri:Suppose you’re a doctor, and you have five patients that each have one of their vital parts broken… if they’re not replaced, they will all die. But you find a healthy patient coming up for a check-up, that has all five parts needed…

Yuri:This is still a case of letting five people die, or killing one. Regardless, the answers people give will change in this situation! Now, a majority or people will say NOT to save the five! And the problem is, why have the answers changed this time?Now, in reality, the replacements would probably get rejected by the immune system, so it wouldn’t even work, but since this isn’t well-known, that can’t explain the entire difference in the proportions of the answers people give. It could explain why I’d not do that operation, though.

Yuri:Now, perhaps what’s going on is that nobody expects to find themselves tied to trolley tracks, but they do expect to see a doctor. There’s also biases that underestimate the chances of becoming sick enough to become one of the five.

Yuri:Or perhaps it has to do with the idea many people have that those who got sick must have done something to get themselves sick, and making this rule would only discourage staying healthy?

Yuri:I’d say those who say not to kill the one in this case do actually have a point, but not for the reasons they might think. If it became a rule, and common knowledge, less people would go there in the first place, being afraid of becoming the one. But this has a knock-on effect of sicknesses going unseen and untreated. You’d probably end up with more people dying in the end! It’s not that uncommon for common judgements that mainly come from a disgust factor to be backed by a reason we don’t quite understand… Working out where it’s actually coming from can help you work out when that reason is or isn’t actually valid.

Yuri:Now, if you read the paper, you might see Judith responding to the idea that “actually doing nothing is killing five, not just letting five die”, and then Judith coming up with another scenario where that isn’t the case. That’s because at that point, the problem was about the person driving the trolley choosing to turn or not, not someone on the sidelines changing the tracks. This is likely responsible for the modern trolley case we have today. Of course, the two scenarios I gave aren’t the only ones mentioned in that paper, going back to trolleys, there’s the case of whether or not to push a-

Sayori:Wow, I didn’t know there was so much to it, you could probably fit a whole meeting into that! 

Yuri:There really is. S-Sorry if I’ve been rambling on for too long…

Sayori:Hey, maybe someday one of our meeting topics can be about moral dilemmas! That’s a thing that shows up commonly in literature! But we should really let Buttercup think about and process what he just heard from all of us, and then get to the poems!

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Monika:(And it looks like we have someone else, too… Though Gaster makes the most sense. He was shattered across time and space, if he’s everywhere at once, it’s no wonder some of him would have gotten here during the time it was open. …He knows his own world’s void well, so he’s also the best option if I had to pick someone to stumble into this world’s void by accident…)

>#Gaster? Hehe, couldn’t resist checking out this world too, could you? I see you already know how to not mess it up. Just try not to make it look like Flowey’s talking to nothing in front of the others, that’d get awkward real fast, ahaha! I’ll do what I can to try and keep THAT from happening, but just don’t pick a time where they’re all focusing on Flowey to ask him questions. The easier it is for me to give a plausible explanation of what they saw, the better… You have been doing good so far, though, I don’t think I’ll need to worry about that!

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(Monika using the console to talk to Gaster is relying on the fact askers tend to see what happens from an outside perspective, and players can see the console. She hasn’t quite worked out you guys can sometimes see what she’s thinking, like the paragraph right before then. Sayori also can see the message Monika made, of course. This may or may not stop being the case if Monika becomes the president again, that depends on some things I haven’t worked out yet involving why Monika could still use the console in Act 4.)

(The paper Yuri cites is a real paper, and said paper is about 15 pages long. If you’re interested, you can easily find it by searching for it. Judith reaches a different conclusion than Yuri did here, but Judith also only gave that conclusion as one possibility, and that the problem still doesn’t have a clear answer. Plus, Yuri didn’t even get halfway through the paper in this discussion! If she actually finished, that’d probably take the rest of the clubroom time! Which conclusion is better? Well, who knows? The problem still hasn’t been completely solved, even to this day!)

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[malbenita]

Was tagged in a self-love game by amazing @juuyeah and @rlbbackup !

List your top 3 favorite works you’ve done (art fics whatever u want) AND WHY :D gotta make sure to do the why👹no self deprivation here🕺Feel free to rope anybody else into this chain we gotta self lovo 🤸‍♀️

I don’t have much in stock since I was only actively drawing digitally for about a year, but I have some milestones here

First is… banana???

OKAY LET ME EXPLAIN before banana July 28 I had little to no experience with render and colour. I was silly. My colours were BAD. I just got something other then default brushes and I rendered these bananas to the limit. And it was indeed fun! Still proud of the way these turned out

Second one in my first finished ambitious work and is dedicated to sxf. As always - big ideas small experiences. And it took me over a whole month to finish! I was struggling endlessly with each character here and amount of render is crazy, I would change a lot here nowadays and actually maybe will redraw it someday. Like saturation levels on Anya hello??? Arms?? These poor flowers?… But I still love this one for trying and for it being associated with my first fandom memories 💖

Now I’ll talk about brand new drawing. It isn’t much of a redraw but it’s vaguely resembles concept from an old work of mine and does Tell A Lot.

First one was meant to be Halloween special that… took Oct 30 - Nov 23 lol girl slow. (Poorly censored blood because im lazy) and a fresh 4h remake next to it. Tumblr ate colours sadly since red is the most hated part of spectrum by media it seems, but I am really proud of made progress. I wasn’t able to finish first one because I was putting too much effort. And recent one is like… at least 28 times faster and DONE.

Sometimes less is more. I learnt where to spend more time and put more details and where I can save time. I wasn’t trying even twice as hard as first time and it worked! This drawing is basically “I’ve grown, I’ve learnt” with all techniques and shortcuts and an idea of what am I even doing.

As to who to tag I am not sure (few weeks late with response), so anyone actually! I would love to see what others made, so I’m tagging You - freely use me in “was tagged by”! No matter the skill personal achievements are valuable and admirable ❤️

[zannolin]

⭐

the way i am digging around in my ao3 right now trying to remember things i was hoping people would comment about. well i've mentioned it before but something i put effort and thought into and hope came across at all in objects in motion is that johnny is absolutely in love with daniel the whole time, and pretty well aware of it. but the entire fic is from daniel's pov, so we're locked out of johnny's innermost thoughts and daniel canonically is so shit at reading johnny and understanding what he's trying to do all the time. johnny is very bad with words, and everyone says actions speak louder than words, but they have 30 years of bad blood between them to foul that up, so daniel's just missing the point at every turn.

i have no idea if it actually translated very well to readers (i know at least two people have caught onto it in one way or another though, and mentioned how johnny is very opaque to daniel's pov which was a hard thing to pull off but i think that means it worked? thank god?) but this scene in particular was written with that in mind:

It must be some kind of dramatic irony at work, then, when Johnny—lingering after the kids have left and helping with some of the cleanup—comes to stand beside Daniel at the edge of the pond, and the words slip out before he can stop himself. “Want to try the wheel technique with me?” Johnny looks at the platform floating serenely in the pond, then at Daniel, then up at the sky for a long couple seconds. He sighs. “What the hell. Yeah, sure. I’ll do the fuckin’ wheel technique with you.” In retrospect, that was a lot easier than Daniel expected it to be.

(gosh daniel, i wonder why)

also this scene but i think that one was pretty obvious:

“Amanda’s mom unfriended me on Facebook, you know,” he tells Johnny one night, as they sit on the back deck with their feet in the grass. He doesn’t know why he says it. Maybe he just wanted someone to know. In the light glowing through the paper paneling of the door behind them, it’s hard to make out Johnny’s expression. Not that Daniel’s looking, or anything. “That blows,” Johnny finally says. He takes a swig of beer. “You should unfriend her back.” Daniel can’t help the laugh that bubbles up at that. He feels oddly light. Better. “That’s not how Facebook works, Johnny.” A huff, rendered softer by the darkness. “It should be.” “Yeah, everything’s a fight with you, isn’t it?” There’s a pause before Johnny says, “Not everything, LaRusso.” They don’t say anything else for a while after that.

it was something i had a lot of fun with while writing though sometimes i was staring at my word doc and going "am i just being aro? am i being too aro??? does this make ANY sense???!!"

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