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osamustar · 3 years ago

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hellooooo i am new to the genshin community i hope you enjoy my work! i look forward to writing more genshin fics in the future !

i rewrote this shit like a million times i put way too much time into this even tho it’s short— i’m so nervous to post this shit bro anyways

the ending is open to interpretation, if anyone who sees this wants a continuation i might just make a part two idkkk……

Alatus

No warnings provided, proceed with caution

Just nice fluff with the pretty boy

“Alatus?”

“Yes my love?”

“I love you.”

That was the last time the Yaksha had ever seen you. Morax had slain the god ruling over Xiao, but you were no where to be found. Two thousand years later and the Adeptus is still left wondering the lands of Liyue in a frantic search for you. Zhongli watched over the warrior, wishing he knew your whereabouts, wanting to put an end to his pain. Xiao spent most of his nights awake, staring at the stars, wondering if you were up there with them. Xiao closed his eyes, taking in a deep breath. “Alatus…” His eyes shot open, looking around him for where the familiar voice had come from. “Y/N..?” He whispered. He sighed, thinking that he must be hallucinating. If you were really there he would’ve been able to find you by your call. His head thudded against the ground as he fell back down onto his back, running his fingers through his teal locks.

“Alatus.”

Again? But he couldn’t sense you anywhere. He had to be hearing things. Maybe he had finally gone mad. He groaned, holding his head. “Alatus.” Again. He was getting ticked off. Was this some kind of trick? Was someone messing with him? “Fuck off…” He mumbled, pulling his knees up to his chest. He could feel his chest begin to tighten, his eyes getting watery. He let out a soft huff, lifting his head up to rest his chin on his arms. As much as he felt like he was numb, his feelings towards you would never fade away. You were the only thing he had ever loved. He liked to think that he would throw everything away for you if he had to, but he knew it was his duty to protect this land.

“Alatus.”

Xiao was seriously about to lose it. He was on the brink of falling into a fit of madness. That was until he saw it. A soft light coming from inside a crevice of rock in the side of the mountain in front of him. Xiao sprung to his feet, scrambling over to the odd occurrence. “Come.” Come? Was this where you had been all this time? Had he finally gotten close enough for you to call for him? Xiao was quick to discover the seal blocking the way. He sighed, staring at the lettering and symbols, trying to figure it out. A gentle hand picked at his own, bringing him out of his thoughts. He was not frightened, he felt safe. He turned his head to the figure beside him. It was you. Your spirit, guiding him. Your gaze was fixated on the seal, your hand pressing Xiao’s into it. Your eyes closed, slowly fading away along with the seal.

Xiao wanted to run inside and encase your body with his, but he was scared. He hasn’t seen you in two thousand years. What if he had lost his touch? Was he still what you had wanted? What if he finally broke and unleashed on you? He fought away as his thoughts, forcing himself inside of the abode. It was dark at first, but opened up into a whole other world. Stars filled the sky, with a bright full moon. Floating islands filled with lush grass and luminescent flowers. Towering cherry blossom trees, and elegant butterflies fluttering around. There you were, head resting against the trunk of one of the large trees, peacefully sleeping. He stood there admiring you, feeling a soft smile creep up onto his lips. The Yaksha walked over and sat down beside you, laying his head on yours, closing his eyes. It felt so peaceful in here, he was thankful. Thankful you hadn’t been locked away in a chamber, suffering. You were almost free in here, and that was better.

Xiao fell into a deep slumber beside you. The first time he had slept in thousands of years. He had found you again. He was at peace. No nightmares. No dreams. Just sleep. Something he had needing for a very long time.

You stared at your lover as he slept away. You had carefully moved him into your lap when you woke up. All you wanted to do was stare at his pretty face. He looked so calm, as if every ounce of stress had left his body. You ran your fingers through his hair, bringing it away from his face. You brushed the backs of your fingers against his cheek, caressing it. The sunlight pierced through the leaves of the blossom tree, illuminating his face with soft light. You smiled, leaning back against the tree, looking up at the clouds. As much as you wanted to run out into the real world, you were used to it here. This was your home. You were thankful that the god who locked you away gave you such a beautiful prison.

“You’re so beautiful.” The raspy yet sweet voice of your lover graced your ears. You smiled, looking down at him. “Good morning…” You whispered, cupping his cheek. His hand wrapped around yours, pressing his face into it, shutting his eyes. He took a deep breath, and exhaled, wanting to feel your touch forever. He didn’t realize how touch starved he was until now. He had been alone for so long he forgot what it felt like. Especially yours. Xiao looked up at you, eyes locking with yours. You stared at each other in a comfortable silence, the gentle sound of leaves rustling in the background.

Xiao sat up, holding your face, bringing towards his, pressing his lips to yours. You closed your eyes, melting into his touch. He laid you down in the soft grass, propping himself up over you. Your fingers ran through his hair as you smiled into the kiss. You were finding it hard to hold back your happiness. You pulled away with a giggle, looking into his golden orbs. “Where have you been…” You whispered. Xiao pressed his forehead against yours, sighing, “I’ve been searching for a very long time, my love.” “I’ve been calling for you.” You murmured, kissing his lips. “I’m so sorry…” He sounded like he was about to cry, “I could’ve prevented this from happe—“ “No… Alatus, my love… No…” You smiled, holding his face to look him in the eyes, “none of this is your fault. None…” You whispered, watching the dread in his eyes slowly fade away. “I love it when you call me that…” He sighed, laying down beside you, playing with your hair. “Why? It’s just your name.” You giggled, finding it odd. He let out a raspy chuckle, smiling. “I’ve been going by Xiao for quite some time now…” He explained. “Xiao? I like it…” You turned onto your side to face him, propping your head up with your arm. Xiao was in love with how his new name rolled right off of your tongue. He couldn’t stop staring at you. You were addicting. “Well, Xiao, why don’t you show me around the new world?” You broke him out of his trance, the cloudiness in his eyes dissipating. He grunted, sitting up, “Yeah…” So much was ahead of you and this was just the beginning.

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#xiao x reader #xiao #genshin #genshinimpact #xiao x reader fluff #fluff #xiao x reader headcannons #headcannons #genshin x reader

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rukia-kuchiki-divided · 4 years ago

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Can i still ask for otp asks? If so, then # 5, 11, 14, 17, 19, 25, 26, 27, 28. (I'd go for more but maybe next time)

OTP Asks | Closed (I made an exception for this one because I felt like it... lol)

(~Under readmore for length. Tagging @cosmic-canons @cc-ichigo-kurosaki for reference~))

5. What activities do they enjoy together?

~Honestly, there aren’t many activities Ichigo and Rukia don’t enjoy doing together. They just fit together so seamlessly but also don’t need to be together for everything. Like they aren’t codependent in that way. Remember when Ichigo was training with the vizards and Rukia was content to not disturb him? All she needed to know was that he was safe. That’s it. She trusts Ichigo to do whatever it is he needs to do and that he will tell her when he is ready. She trusts him. Ichigo is perfectly fine spending time alone while Rukia is doing whatever she needs to do and vice versa. But in general, they just enjoy each other’s company, regardless of what they are doing. It can be anything from training together all the way to just reading/drawing while in the same room as the other - looking over every so often and exchanging a smirk or teasing face.~

11. What causes them to fight?

~Okay, this is important because it DOES happen - and it’s usually the result of miscommunication. But neither of them is one to hold a grudge for very long without talking about it. I’ll give an example:

In the Hueco Mundo arc when Ichigo left without trusting that Rukia would come back. I know they didn’t “fight” per se in the sense that they yelled back and forth or whatever - but that’s not how Ichigo and Rukia seriously fight. When they are actually fighting (and that’s when one has wounded or hurt the other), it’s silent. Rukia didn’t yell at him, not until after she slapped him to jolt him to his senses. Then she explains that he hurt her by not knowing she would never have abandoned Orihime in Hueco Mundo.

Rukia and Ichigo don’t fight about silly things like leaving a toilet seat up or not capping the toothpaste. They’ll yell and argue about it but they aren’t fighting, not really. But when they close off to the other, when they try and shoulder the pain on their own and don’t trust the other to have their back - that’s when they fight and it’s an eerie sad silence until resolved.~

14. What would be a dealbreaker?

~An abuse of power. That’s the deal breaker. If either one were to abuse their power and take advantage of those weaker than they are, but especially each other. I think if Ichigo were to turn on Rukia and like break her trust, it would really break her. She's had such a hard time relearning to trust and depend on others again and Ichigo was at the very center of that healing. ~

17. What senses (sights, smells, feelings, etc). remind them of each other?

~Ichigo: the warm glow of a sunset just before it falls below the horizon; the sweet smell of cinnamon, cloves and honey that brings to mind a crisp autumn day curled up indoors with a warm fireplace; a feeling of safety, stability, like it's okay to let your guard down and be yourself around him because he'll protect you no matter what.

Rukia: The soft reflection of the full moon on freshly fallen snow; the light hint of lavender and iris on a warm summer breeze; the feeling of clarity, of compassion, of someone staring into your very core and seeing into your very heart and accepting it in whatever condition it may be.~

19. If they could each write a single line in their marriage vows, what would they be?

~ Ichigo: "From the moment I looked into those violet eyes, I knew we were connected for life times."

Rukia: "It was you, Ichigo, that broke through the ice I had formed around my heart, melting it with every action you did until I had no choice but to trust you. You made me want to live again in my darkest time." ~

25. What moves do they know work on the other?

~Rukia does this cute little pout and bats her eyes in a way that makes Ichigo roll his own and give in to her whims (usually Chappy related).

Ichigo acts like he *doesn't* want to do it until Rukia pushes him to do it knowing full well it's what he wanted the whole time. ~

26. What are their favorite parts about physical affection/sex?

~Ichigo's: He just loves the physical connection of touch. It doesn't matter to him if it's sexual in natue or just affectionate. He just really enjoys having a physical connection with Rukia. He sits close enough that his arm is draped over her shoulders or his knee just touching her leg. If they are cuddling, he puts his arms around her and buries his face in her neck. Sexually, I imagine he loves to run his fingers up and down her body, just feeling her alive underneath his touch and enjoying the little shivers he'd cause.

Rukia's: She also likes to have a physical connection though her version is a bit rougher. She does allow those soft moments and the touches to happen. But she also loves to be a little more forward. Biting, scratching and *edging* Ichigo are all things she loves to do. She'll let him get close with his cuddles and then start biting that sensitive spot on his neck she knows too well. She'll mark him (consensually of course) and drive him wild before letting him release. ~

27. Do they have any kinks/fetishes that they share?

~Well I actually think they both switch and are able to be "tops" or "bottoms" interchangeably depending on the mood of their partner. As far as fetishes, I'm not really sure yet. I think Ichigo does think Rukia looks *very good* in a sexy rabbit costume. Rukia isn't a virgin but she's not super experienced either. Ichigo is … probably a virgin but not because he *couldn’t* get it but he just isn't interested. I think Ichigo is the type to really only do that with those he is in a serious relationship with.

I think they would honestly both enjoy exploring this with each other. ~

28. Write a ~300 fantasy one of them has about the other.

~okay my brain isn't working for this one right now but I promise to do one in the future… so raincheck on this one? But I will give you two ideas I had, one NSFW and one SFW:

~Ichigo fantasized about Rukia meeting his mom.

~Rukia fantasized about Ichigo making out with her at Kuchiki function and just throwing smirks at the nobles judging them all while dodging Byakuya’s glare.

should I turn those into drabbles?? ahhh idkkk~

#hellsbella #rukiakuchikidivided #☽ ❂ IchiRuki - The Sun and The Moon ❂ ☾#❊Rukia - Main Verse❊#❊Closed Meme - Mission Complete❊#ask #❊Ask - Inquiry Accepted❊#❂ Ichigo - My Nakama - The Black Sun ❂#❊Rukia - The Moon in the Midnight Sky❊#❊Rukia Headcanons - The Heart and Mind❊#hc #headcanons #ichiruki #~i hope this made sense lol

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autumn-foxfire · 4 years ago

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Ahhh just saw the rei flower scene. Still creeps me out. In the anime it feels so “no look he’s apologised. The flowers” cause reis smiling. She’s wasn’t smiling in the manga, that felt better and more “he’s not trying to leave us behind and pretend we don’t exist” eeeee hated the smile feel gross now.

In the high-end fight, Endeavour was thinking about how his body overheats and was saying "that's why" as flashback of the todo fam were shown. Why was that a thing?? Am I missing smth? Like yeah your body can overheat, that's why you forced a woman with an ice quirk into marriage to have kids I????? Why was that brought up????

Ah fuck Maybe I seeing it all wrong but this Endev v HE bit feels so weird "You know he never gave up, he's stubborn" (summary) Like yeah that's not a good thing when you just had flashbacks and were talking about his abuse. LIke I get It, in this context they're saying he's so stubborn etc so he wouldn't back down in the fight but you can't but that as a good thing after that's also what caused the abuse of his Family???? I'm so uncomfy aha

OH THAT'S WHY LOL NVM

Okay I get why all of that was brought up lol my brain is so slow. but idk the "My body can't handle high temperatures so that's why" when talking about the family feels so off but maybe I'm seeing it wrong. IDK I just feel kinda weird about the whole thing, it clearly shows E has changed as a person and I respect that, and I felt the familys reactions to the fight but I just feel so off, maybe i'm looking at it too much like "okay, and?" but, hes changed now, now what? IDKKK

Hawks' "you were the only one seriously trying to surpass him" BOTHERS ME, obvi hawks doesnt know, but we do and were made to think about the todo fam cause flashbacks. HE being a reflection of what Endev was is good and cool and the "burn up and be put to rest" as him destroying his former self once and for all nice good, why do I still feel weird lmafo, I dont like E but I dont hate him and I respect and accept his change, maybe cause felt more 'this is it' rather than "theres still more"?????

Sorry about using your inbox to scream about the last couple eps but I'm just so conflicted, the framing on the flashbacks with the "that's why" really threw me the fuck off and felt really weird. ANYWAYS ty again

I’m so glad you were too distracted by watching the episode to see the screwup I made of your earlier ask XD

Many people were upset about her smiling and I can understand why, for me personally, I just think they added the smile because she was talking to her kids and not that she actually thought fondly of Endeavor or what he did. I just interpret as her smiling at Natsuo because I can’t think of any other reason she would smile in that scene T-T (someone I spoke to once gave a good reason why she was smiling but I can’t remember what they said... damn goldfish memory).

I think it’s important to remember that this is only the start of Endeavor’s redemption and so while he is changing as a person (which is something we can see) he’s still not at the point of fully accepting his crimes and what he did. Right now he’s still trying to excuse them, almost, by rationalizing why he committed them in the first place. I think you felt uncomfortable with the “burn up and be put to rest” part because it does feel like his past is going to be brushed off because he defeated the monster he saw in himself in Hood, however that isn’t the case. I think that line was more to symbolize that the person Endeavor used to be won’t be making a return and all he can do now is move forward (whatever that future holds for him). It’s him saying he won’t fall into the patterns of the past again.

As for Hawks, yeah he has no clue. In fact Hawks is a really good way of Horikoshi showing us that no one has a clue what happened with the Todoroki family (even Hawks who turns out to be a fan that has looked up to Endeavor for a long time). I think it was a smart way of setting up Hawks later connection to Dabi while also showing us the audience that the Todoroki abuse is very much a family secret.

Overall, I think the Hood fight was a pretty good start to Endeavor’s redemption but I can understand why it would make you feel uncomfortable at times. It doesn’t really help that it is only one episode and it’s a lot to process as well. The more you watch the fight, the more you can analyze what actually went down and enjoy it for what it is (in my opinion).

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed seeing Hawks in action! I know Endeavor had the most screentime but Hawks was the true MVP in that battle and we all know that :p

I’m actually looking forward to the Endeavor agency arc being animated because it really does show us how much Endeavor has grown from this moment (and we get to see more of that delicious Todoroki drama) but we’ll have to wait awhile T-T

(Also I didn’t mind you rambling in my ask box, it was pretty fun to read!)

#bnha #bnha endeavor #endeavor #bnha enji todoroki #enji todoroki #thanks for the ask!!#Anonymous

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plasticbullet · 4 years ago

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BET YOU WON'T ANSWER THEM ALL

1: Full name

I've gotten creepy messages on here so I'm gonna keep that private lol

2: Age

3: 3 Fears

Abandonment, driving by semi-trucks, bugs

4: 3 things I love

Music, coffee, nature

5: 4 turn ons

Sense of humor, intelligence, height, big hands.. happy trails are sexy

6: 4 turn offs

If they're rude, judgy, closed-minded, or act fake

7: My best friend

Tammy

8: Sexual orientation

Straight

9: My best first date

I have no idea honestly. First dates are always weird

10: How tall am I

5′5″

11: What do I miss

Not having anxiety, traveling, when my boobs were bigger

12: What time was I born

11:30 pm

13: Favourite color

Yellow, green, blue

14: Do I have a crush

It’s more than a crush, but yes

15: Favourite quote

"This is cracking me out" - my kid

16: Favourite place

The forest, Havasupai, California

17: Favourite food

Just about anything Italian. Or with a lot of cheese

18: Do I use sarcasm

Pretty often

19: What am I listening to right now

Wind blowing through the window. It’s like 65 degrees here I love it

20: First thing I notice in a new person

If they seem nice or not

21: Shoe size

7 or 7.5 depending on the shoes

22: Eye color

Blue

23: Hair color

Reddish dark blonde

24: Favourite style of clothing

Grungy but hot

25: Ever done a prank call? Yes

27: Meaning behind my URL

I’ve answered this a couple times before, I’m too lazy

28: Favourite movie

Peanut Butter Falcon

29: Favourite song

All the ones that make me feel things the most

30: Favourite band

A Day to Remember, Brand New

31: How I feel right now

Relaxed

32: Someone I love

My son

33: My current relationship status

In something

34: My relationship with my parents

They’re cool

35: Favourite holiday

Christmas

36: Tattoos and piercing I have

Treble clef on the back of my neck, pierced ears

37: Tattoos and piercing I want

I’m good for now! Maybe more one day

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

I don’t even know, I’ve used this shit off and on since I was 16

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? Nope!

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? Yep

41: Have you ever kissed the last person you texted?

Nope

42: When did I last hold hands?

Held hands with my son today

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? Like 20 minutes

44: Have you shaved your legs in the past three days? Yes

45: Where am I right now? In my room

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

Probably one of my friends lol

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

Loud unless I’m sleepyy

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? No

49: Am I excited for anything? 🎄🎄🎄

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

Yepp I think so

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

Sometimes if I don't want my kid to sense my stress. Or during boring conversations

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

Today

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

🤷🤷🤷

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

I don’t think so

55: What is something I disliked about today?

I was super sleepy, slept until some stressy dreams woke me up, and can't go back to sleep 🙃

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

That guy from My Octopus Teacher

57: What do I think about most?

People I love, things I have to do, and the randomest shit imaginable

58: What’s my strangest talent?

I barely have any normal talents

59: Do I have any strange phobias? No

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind it unless I feel cute

61: What was the last lie I told?

Something about Santa to my kid

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Depends!

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

I feel like ghosts are possible, our energy could keep existing in some ways after our body dies who knows. Aliens exist for sure. Just not anywhere near our planet imo

64: Do I believe in magic? No

65: Do I believe in luck? I believe in good karma

66: What’s the weather like right now?

Kinda chilly/breezy but nice

67: What was the last book I’ve read?

Read Fox in Socks to my kid

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? No

69: Do I have any nicknames? Kind of

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

One time a horse stepped on my foot and it was bruised for months lol

71: Do I spend money or save it? Both

72: Can I touch my nose with my tongue?

Noo! I just tried though hahah

73: Is there anything pink 10 feet from me?

A crayon

74: Favourite animal? Sloths but I love all animals

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

Sleeping surprisingly

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

I can't think of anyone I hate enough to make a good joke out of this

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

Colorado Symphony version of The Stable Song by Gregory Alan Isakov

78: How can you win my heart?

Good conversations, make me laugh, show me you care, show me good music, etc

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

Nice things, I don't know lol

80: What is my favorite word? Fuck

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

I ♥️ all the ones I follow

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

Realistically I would have a panic attack and say something stupid 😂

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? Not that I know of!

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

Maybe the power to pause time so I could sleep or do whatever for however long I want without wasting any time. Or maybe the ability to teleport

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? Idk I can't think of one

86: What is my current desktop picture?

It’s the default one, I don’t go on it very often lol

87: Had sex? Yes

88: Bought condoms? No the guys always did that

89: Gotten pregnant? Yes

90: Failed a class? No

91: Kissed a boy? Yes

92: Kissed a girl? Yes

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Yes

94: Had a job? Yes

95: Left the house without my wallet?

Yepp I used to forget it all the time

96: Bullied someone on the internet?

No I'm not a pussy ass bitch

97: Had sex in public?

If you count in a parked car, yes

98: Played on a sports team? Yes

99: Smoked weed? Yes

100: Did drugs? A while ago

101: Smoked cigarettes? Yes, quit a while ago

102: Drank alcohol? Yes

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

Nope! I tried one time just for fucks and it did not last long

104: Been overweight? No

105: Been underweight? Yes

106: Been to a wedding? Yes

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Yes

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

Yes. Marathons and binge sessions

109: Been outside my home country? Yes, Mexico

110: Gotten my heart broken? Yes

111: Been to a professional sports game? Yes

112: Broken a bone? Nope

113: Cut myself? Yes

114: Been to prom? Yes

115: Been in an airplane? Lots of times

116: Fly by helicopter? No

117: What concerts have I been to?

Oh fuck I know I’ll leave some out. Kelly Clarkson (don’t judge me I was 12), All Time Low, Avenged Sevenfold, Papa Roach, Blink-182, Fall Out Boy, Flogging Molly, Jason Mraz, Ed Sheeran, Atreyu, Escape the Fate, went to Warped Tour a couple times in high school so a bunch more emo bands

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? No

119: Learned another language?

A decent amount of Spanish

120: Wore make up? Frequently

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? Yes

122: Had oral sex? Yes

123: Dyed my hair? Yes

124: Voted in a presidential election? Yes

125: Rode in an ambulance? No those are expensive

126: Had a surgery?

Does getting my wisdom teeth removed count

127: Met someone famous?

Saw Alice Cooper at a Cheesecake Factory one time

128: Stalked someone on a social network?

Not stalked, more like checked up on lol

129: Peed outside? On camping trips

130: Been fishing? Yes

131: Helped with charity? Yes

132: Been rejected by a crush? Probably!

133: Broken a mirror? No

134: What do I want for my birthday?

Christmas is coming first idk

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?

I have one kid whose name I won’t be posting publicly, annnd I’m open to having another kid sometime in the future but not set on it. No names in mind for that lol

136: Was I named after anyone?

My parents are Catholic so they named me after St. Kieran

137: Do I like my handwriting? It’s alright idk

138: What was my favourite toy as a child?

I liked my toy horses and barbies the most probably

139: Favourite TV Show?

Idk I have lots of favorites. I've probably rewatched The Office the most out of all of them tho

140: Where do I want to live when older?

Somewhere chill, surrounded by lots of nature. Arizona doesn’t have much of that lol

141: Play any musical instrument?

I can play the piano but it’s been a while

142: One of my scars, how did I get it?

One on my knee from a car accident

143: Favourite pizza topping?

I love onions on my pizzaaaa

144: Am I afraid of the dark?

No, unless I watched a scary movie or something

145: Am I afraid of heights? No

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?

Got caught sneaking out when I was 15. Countless other things I can’t remember

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Yep!

148: What I’m really bad at

Doing things on time, paying attention when I’m not interested in something

149: What my greatest achievements are

Having an amazing kid, got first prize in the science fair in 6th grade for gluing a fucking key finder mechanism to the back of a shoe charm (shoe finder), was on time to something once

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me

Idkkk

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery

Give a lot of it to some family, save a lot of it, get a new house, set aside a savings for my kid, buy a sloth or something

152: What do I like about myself

Fuck I don't know, I try my best hahah

153: My closest Tumblr friend

@spencerwithac

154: Something I fantasize about

Sex in public

155: Any question you’d like?

Nope this was plenty thank you

#🖕

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itsjusta · 4 years ago

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WEEKLY UPDATE # 9

Dec. 6

I slept good gabii and dali rako ka sleep kos gikan ko cry hahah but my heart is so heavy doe idkkk a lot of thoughts bother me. getting news about your lovelife makes my heart heavy because aishhh but i’m really happy for you doeee

i will try not to cry na cos i’m always crying na doe i look like an idiot naaa i just hope the heaviness goes away cos it’s so lain sa feeling (i cried after dis doe hahaahahah 🥺)

it’s 10:30 am pa but i’m crying na aishhh why i cry in the morning and at night aishhhh why does everything have to hurt this much doe :( i really am happy for you but it hurts so, so much to see you opening your heart and giving your love to another. i’m happy na you’re going to new places and going on adventures that we didn’t have the opportunity na to go to. it hurts na we didn’t have the chance to go to these places together but i hope you fill this new chapter of your life with adventures and i hope you have the best time of your life ❤️ i’ll support u gyd bsag unsa pana 🤗 someday soon, i will get over with all this pain. somedaaaay.

today was just chill but my heart was heavy the whole day. i dont like days these doe but its okay, i will see better days. i just wish btaw na by one year na break nata, i’m gonna be better and you’ll also be genuinely happy na. i hope things will be better for us by then.

also at dinner doe i was pusa-ing the sili in my sauce and i remember when we have sauce kay ako gyd tig lata sa sili cos ma scared ka and imo i cover imo eyes or magpalayo hahahahah aishhh what a scaredy cat 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

i also looked at mom’s pics in her gallery doe she has pics of us sa house atong mga april and i miss those days aiissshhh i was happy back then, we were happy. i wasn’t dealing with a heartbreak, i was just enjoying quarantine pa and now its been months na so sad and kapoy hayst ux2 ko nalang bumalik :(((((

Dec. 7

separate post hehe

Dec. 8

Woke up with a heavy heart doe. This morning, I asked for strength from the Lord. I have a feeling you and I are gonna undergo a lot of changes doe. idk i’m so weird but i have a feeling you will start to distance yourself from me and it’s gonna be super hard for me gyd so i’m asking na my heart can take the pain 😔

but u know what, i went to the backyard today and i saw na it’s such a beautiful day today doe. the sun is up and it sounds so calm and i realized na i should not waste a beautiful day like this being sad hehe and i wanna say this to u but im shy cos u didnt reply to me na hahaha but i want u to also enjoy this beautiful day!!! ♥️♥️ i hope you will be happy today doe and good luck with everything! (HEY IDIOT U VISITED TUMBLR JUST BEFORE I WROTE THIS PLS COME BACK AND READ THIS PART COS I REALLY WANT U TO READ THIS PARAGRAPH 🥺)

after the sun went down, na sad napd dayon ko doe aishhh i get so annoyed with my thoughts doe cos i always think like where u are, what u doin stuff like dat and it annoys meee cos ako ramay gaka bother nge :((( so i sometimes turn my active status sa messenger off so i dont see nga offline ka or online naka doe aishhhh i hate this brain doe dapat not na sya sge think about saimoha everyday!!!!

also, u played poker tonight and i just wanna tell u to amping pauli doe cos its very gabii na u drive safely okay and i hope u have fun playing but dont gasto too much 🤦🏻‍♀️ i’ll just say this here cos i dont want u to think na im samok samoking u too much hehe pls amping always!

Dec. 9

I went to the backyard again this morning and I talked to the Lord doe and naka cry ko hahah I just told Him everything has been so hard doe and I wish for the bad days to end soon. Right now, I think I’m just borrowing strength nalang gyd from others doe cos my heart is so tired na doeee hehe but i know all of this will end i can fully accept na gyd everything and even then, i will always have love for you. Thank you also doe for giving me strength. 🤗

Today was a better day doeee not so many things running through my mind heheh

Dec. 10

Heyyy thank u so much for today doe and for the gifts heheh i had fun today!!! and i was really happy cos its like our tambays sauna here in the house na we just being idiots lang 🥺 i’m also happy that we’re not awkward doe cos aish dats so lain hahahah

u know i imagined na i would cry a lot this day cos i was planning to tell u gyd like face to face of my feelings, like how i’m so proud of u and how i will always be there but idk i get shy na dayon in person HAHAHAH but i think u got my msg na with the letters doe cry pa gani ka a lot heehhe not my fault 🤪🤪🤪

also i hope not ko ipa maoy2 na dayon the next days cos ang motto raba sako life karon kay happy for 1 day, sad for 1 month! ahhahah grrr 😡 but thank u very much!!!!! dat was a much needed hang out doe thank u ♥️

if u want a break from everything, i’m always just here in the house with the idiot dogs hahahah i’m always here for u doe!

Dec. 11

it’s back to my old life nga wala i look forward again!!! hahahaha 😢😢 I went to the dentist today to pa pasta doe and i tot everything was okay na with dad like balo na sya pila cos mom man nag say saiya doe and mom said okay na but when i said now nga 4,700 tanan including my pills he pamalikas doe i was so bv

i said to mom cancel nalang cos dad was yawyaw na big na daw au gasto saako teeth and i wasn’t the one raba gyd nga nag say magpapasta many it was mom but i thought nag agree najd sila doe aishhh i dont like gyd nga mangayo kwarta kay daddy doe cos it makes me feel utangan and i dont like feeling like dat cos i dont wanna be indebted to him i dont like having connections with him hahahah

i think i cannot have gyd a good relationship with him doe cos i got traumatized by the things he did in the past maybe if i have money na in the future magpa therapy ko doe to resolve issues in my past maybe ma forgive nako sya and ma okay2 nami doe and i think i’ll also become a better person if i can resolve my issues with him doeee

mom also chika that she didnt ila u yesterday abi niya tig deliver ka sa lazada kay ikaw daw nag tunol and nag mask and kalo pa gyd daw ka hhahaha aishhh she just asked a few things also doe hehe u visit dis idiot again soon! i uban2 also to her sa laguindingan naa lang gihatag kay ate sweet

i was also pissed with khalid doe cos he got a task na tig 2000 words each two kabuok and i said 1,500 he said overpriced daw?!?!? he said 1k ra daw kayahay buh!!!!!! aish idk doe if im really overpricing i wanna ask u now but i think u dont wanna talk to me now doe heheh next time nalng if mag talk nata

its gabii na doe and naa ko friend nag chika saiya 2020 tas nag ask sya how my 2020 went issa naka hilak na nuon ko doe cos it makes me cry to remember everything jd HAHAHAH aisshhh imbis wala pako ka cry today 🥺

Dec. 12

good morning!! u amping going to binuangan doe!! 😊

i went to the mall this afternoon i like to lakaw2 cos it takes my mind off things but usahay ra au ko makalakaw aishh

Dec. 13

today was a very boriiing and long day doe nag tan awa rajd ko teen wolf tibuok adlaw as in!!! i also cried for like 5 mins kay mag sleep unta ko pero aish u know what, bisag dugay2 na inani ako life like wala jd koy ka storya whole day, mag tan awa rako, lain gyd ghapon sa feeling doe. it’s like anad naman ko nga inani pero dili gihapon ko anad nga i feel so empty doe like idkkk hollow lang jd ang feeling :((

i just miss really being happy gyd doeee now i mostly feel like okay lang or sad. usahay lang ko ma happy but not gyd genuinely happy and it still makes me cry doe loollzzttt days like these i really want someone to say na all will be okay, but ako nalang gyd mag tell sa ako self ana doe cos days like these all i got is myself gyd

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survivor-guyana · 6 years ago

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Rites of Passage

It is now time for the Rites of Passage. Use this time to reflect on your journey in this game as well as the people who left for you four to be where you are now. Please play the audio and enjoy your experience.

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Dani: We didn’t talk much, but you didn’t deserve to go day 1.

Jess: The victim of exam season (I believe) and an unfortunate timezone. You fought until the end and I have so much respect for that.

Alyssa: Queen of menopause <3 You seemed like such a chaotic sweetie!!! Happy to have been in the same season as you!

Dani: You were such a fun player even though we only got to play for a few days. Looking back, I realize you were SO ready to play and I’m happy I got to play with a fun girl like you! BUT DAMN DONT DO SO MUCH ON DAY 1 OK.

Jess: Oh my god. I think you attempted to play more game in the 4 or so days you were in the game than most people play all season. Your departure provided me with EASILY the highlight of my season (menopause) and for that I’m thankful.

Dani: We were allies, but when we got swapped you went onto a tribe with 5 favorites. I really wish we got to work together more.

Jess: We’ve ran into each other from time to time but never truly got to play a group game together. I was pretty excited to see you in this game and was sad when you left. See you around!

Alyssa: We didn’t connect super well on our first tribe but I’m sorry you got a pre-merge boot!

Chelsea: Like Nick, I did not get to talk to you that much so I am hoping that we get to play again sometime so that I can talk to you more.

Dani: JENNNAAAA!! YOU WERE SO ROBBED. Girl I was SHOCKED when you left and so sad. You were so fun to be around and you stuck with us fans even though you were a favorite, which I totally respected. You did not deserve to go home the way you did!! I really wish I got to play more with your adorable self<3.

Jess: I never got to meet you but your departure really set the tone of this game so thank you!

Dani:

You are such a good player and I was totally threatened by that. I had to get you out regardless of how fun you were to play with.

Jess: I kind of got the feeling you didn’t like me at times but the way you left was fucking iconic. Keep snatching those wigs on your way out the door!

Alyssa: NICK!!!! I’m so sorry I did you dirty!!! I knew you were going that round but didn’t say anything to further my own game… I’m so sorry ☹ You are so so so so SO real and I LOVE that. Hope life is treating you well buddy <3 Alexa, play “Have It All” by Jason Mraz

Chelsea: I know we were on the same tribe starting out but we never really talked too much. You seem like a nice person and I wish that maybe we got to talk more. I was pretty quiet at the start because I was intimidated by how little people I knew and I was trying to get a feel for everyone.

Dani: You were the reason Jenna got out and also the reason I was almost voted out. I respect your game play, but phew am I glad you left.

Jess: You have a buff so obviously you are a legend. I’m really sorry for giving you probably the most stressful experience during a competition, ever. If I wasn’t a complete dumbass we might have won? And could have been sitting in this final 4 SORRYYYYYY.

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Chelsea: The dog emoji did not leave when you did.

Jess: The man, the myth, the mother fuckin’ LEGEND. You went inactive for days and somehow are still talked about to this day (ICONIC). 01010100 01101000 01100001 01101110 01101011 00100000 01111001 01101111 01110101 00100000 01100110 01101111 01110010 00100000 01101110 01101111 01110100 00100000 01110000 01101100 01100001 01111001 01101001 01101110 01100111 00100000 01110100 01101000 01101001 01110011 00100000 01100111 01100001 01101101 01100101 00100000 01100010 01100101 01100011 01100001 01110101 01110011 01100101 00100000 01101001 01100110 00100000 01111001 01101111 01110101 00100000 01100100 01101001 01100100 00100000 01001001 00100000 01001011 01001110 01001111 01010111 00100000 01111001 01101111 01110101 00100000 01110111 01101111 01110101 01101100 01100100 00100000 01101000 01100001 01110110 01100101 00100000 01101011 01101001 01101100 01101100 01100101 01100100 00100000 01110101 01110011 00101110 (Dog)

Alyssa: So I found out after you were voted out that this was your first ORG ever???? Congratulations on making jury! I’m so happy for you! Hope you’re enjoying all this tea everyone is spilling as they come in. Jury can be SO fun when there’s a bunch of secrets in the game and now I K N O W there were a TON! See you at FTC! Alexa, play “Legend” by Twenty One Pilots

Chelsea: Once we merged and I got a chance to talk to you, you seemed cool but then you got really pushy about who I was voting for on the originally JD vote. I told you that I was in the middle of a serious challenge for another game and you wouldn’t stop messaging me lmfao. That pushiness does not work well with me so ngl, I was kinda glad that you went home.

Dani: MY MAN, MY CHICKEN MAN, MY ROBBED MAN, WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO?! You did not deserve to go out the way you did. You were truly someone I was loyal to throughout the entire game and I hated seeing you go. I am astonished at how hard you try at this game and I absolutely loved meeting you.

Jess: For your first org (I think) you were pretty impressive. You were easily one of the biggest strategic threats in this game and I strongly believe if people didn’t catch on to that so quick you would have given me a run for my money. I wish we could have spent some more time pre-merge because I think we could have been a force to be reckoned with in this game. (We could have called ourselves The Timbits or the Doubles Doubles).

Alyssa: Sammy… king of editing… I’m so sorry you got done dirty like you did. Devon really is the king of throwing people under the bus, huh??? Can’t wait to talk to you at FTC <3 Alexa, play “7 rings” by Ariana Grande

Chelsea: Sammy: I am so sorry that you got voted out when you did. I was hoping that we could stick together but that fell short because of LIES. ily and I hope we play together soon. <3 PS thank you for editing the music video, I still watch it to this day.

Dani: You were so funny in the main chat, but for some reason we couldn’t hold a conversation. I loved your music video. You tried getting me out and that was when you got out. Idkkk you’re a cool dude, but a pretty bad liar.

Jess: The man with the editing skills like no other. Honestly, most of the time I just thought you were way toooooo cool for me. For some reason we both sketched each other out like no other and that wrecked any potential we had

Alyssa: Hi Tim! I’m so sad we didn’t really click in this game ☹ You are such an absolute king and you stanned me so hard and I absolutely adored that??? I just didn’t feel like I had a chance at being your #1 this game and so I has to vote you out. Hope life has been treating you well <3 Alexa, play

Chelsea: You were very nice to me in the short time that we worked together and you were the one to warn me about Aidan and Devon (even though I didn’t really listen) and I appreciate you for it. I wish that you had made it farther in the game then some of the sneaks who did, but I respect you and want to play with you again!

Dani: We didn’t talk much, but you gave me really good advice when I was going through a hard time so thank you for that <3

Jess: Honestly you were probably one of the NICEST people I’ve ever met playing a game. For some reason the stars just never aligned and we just couldn’t be on the same side. I truly hope everything is well with you and everything is looking up!

Alyssa: JD…. I’m so sorry about the unanimous round. I was not down for playing chicken with everyone and we knew the only person we could get our divided tribe to vote out unanimously was you. I’m so sorry your time here was cut short and that we didn’t get to know each other better. You are an absolutely drop dead gorgeous QUEEN and I am so happy I met you. Alexa, play “Brave Honest Beautiful” by Fifth Harmony ft. Meghan Trainor

Chelsea: We had one conversation privately and it was when your name was going around but Mitchell was actually going home. I felt bad and reached out to you because I knew that it was going around that I was voting you, but I didn’t! I kinda got the vibe that you were annoyed with me from the message that I sent you, so I never really reached out again. I just wanted you to know that I never had any intention on voting you that one round and I’m sorry for the miscommunication.

Dani: You were extremely fun to play with even though it got a little crazy towards the end!

Jess: My Canadian sister! You were honestly probably one of the people I was MOST excited to meet while watching intro videos (ask Johnny!). I wish we could have talked more in this game and I really wish I didn’t unintentionally sketch you out. I hope our paths cross somehow in the future and we can show these people what Canadian girls are all about! (Or as some maybe say “a-boat”).

Alyssa: Maynor, I was so disappointed when I heard you were telling people about our conversations before you were voted out… I really think if that didn’t happen, it could’ve easily been me, you, Guac, and Jess at F4. You know I love you to DEATH and I’m sorry you had to die for us to kill TJ’s idol. PS we need to do tequilla shots together at FTC or you’re fake!! Alexa, play “Don’t Threaten Me With a Good Time” by Panic! at the Disco

Chelsea: Maynor: You are a very likeble person and seemed to get along with me just fine. We always agreed on votes for the most part but we only really talked when it came down to votes. I know we tried having normal conversations but we were both busy with our own lives. I appreciate your effort in always reaching out to me even if our conversations were short. Let’s play another game soon!

Dani: We went through a lot together and I lost trust in you after you voted for Jenna in the beginning. It was great playing with you and I literally LOVED talking to you. You were sooo funny and a great drinking buddy!

Jess: Honestly, a lot of people might argue that Alyssa was my favourite person this season but it was you (sorry Alyssa). Our late-night drunk chats and your drinking CUPS of tequila were easily some of my favourite moments in this game. On the fans tribe you were one of two people I really got along with. For some reason towards the end we lost trust with each other and I think that killed us in the end. I hated the way your vote went down and I really regret not trying to send you a life vest when you needed my help. I just couldn’t shake off the fact that I believed you would always pick Jones over me </3. I’m sorry.

Alyssa: TJ… I’m sorry this game played out the way it did. I really did think on our first tribe that our gameplay styles would work SO well together and was genuinely excited to see you again at merge. But when Jess started telling me how much you were buying into these ideas of me being in all different alliances, I knew that even though you said I was one of the people you trusted the most, that couldn’t be true. And I couldn’t say the same for you either when I had formed other strong connections after our time together and before merge. You refused to go out quietly by making us all shit ourselves when you were wearing that hat at tribal and I respect the SHIT out of you. Alexa, play “Kool Aid” by Katelyn Tarver

Chelsea: I enjoyed playing with you but I’m a little bit upset that you made that group chat without me in it lmfao. I hope we get to play again one day and that I get to be included in your vote chats ;) I feel like together we are one good player with your smarts and my social game.

Dani: You worked so hard in this game and I really enjoyed talking to you.I respect your game play hard and I wish you could have gone further.

Jess: Ugh another killer vote-off. You already know how much I love and respect you in these games. You’ve easily become one of my best friends on these various platforms we play games on. I know there were soooooo many people hoping we would play another classic TJ/Jess game and were heartbroken when I had to turn on you. If there’s anyone here who I KNOW can respect gameplay it’s you. I just couldn’t save you once you sank your ship by over-playing your hand. Doing that would have put me in so much trouble with too many people and that wasn’t a risk I was willing to take. I’m really sorry. One of my biggest regrets in this game was not being straight up with you about your send-off. I’m sorry life got rough for you during this game and I hope you know my door is always open when you need someone to talk to or distract you. Soooo many things killed us in this game and I think everyone in this game is lucky it did or else we would BOTH be sitting in the final 4 right now. PS: Some would say the student became the master this game. Hope there are no hard feelings on your end!

Alyssa: Aidan, I’m still hella fucking pissed off at your last comment at me lol Commenting on peoples’ appearances stick with them a long time! Not cute! Anyway, you’re a legend who says whatever he wants 100% of the time with no filter, and you made this season really fun. @ Johnny: “It wasn’t unanimous, you dumbass.” I’m sad I didn’t get to talk to you more! I think in another game setting we could’ve done WERK together. But I guess since I had a huge target on my back it wasn’t worth getting super close to me in this game. Alexa, play “Say It to My Face” by Madison Beer

Chelsea: You have a pretty strong social game but it got you in trouble when you were voted out. I thought that by having you as an ally would benefit me because of both of our social games, but the difference between you and me is that I don’t twist things or lie to people. I caught onto that pretty fast when I talked with other people and we compared conversations. Anyway, I had fun playing with you but I don’t know how closely I would work with you in the future. ;p

Dani: AIDAN THERE IS SO MUCH I COULD SAY RIGHT NOW BUT I’D PROBABLY START CRYING BECAUSE I’M AN EMOTIONAL BITCH. You were so ROBBED. We made a friendship that I feel like will last beyond the game and I hope we meet up one day. When you got voted out I was in absolute shock and wanted to cry. THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU AND PLEASE DONT EVER CHANGE. <3

Jess: Your one-liners, drags, and comebacks are like no-other. Honestly you fucking amazed me. However, you were probably the person I was MOST afraid of in this game. Your were hands down the BIGGEST threat to win and for some reason I still wanted to work with you (which just shows how fucking good you are at these games). On the fans tribe you were my #1 and someone I wanted to go FAR with in this game and I genuinely meant that. However, so many things fucked us over in this game. I think our biggest issues were a mixture of paranoia, my relationship with Alyssa, and us not trusting each other enough to truly cross reference the shit we were being fed. I’m truly sorry you had to be blindsided. You were easily in the most powerful position in this game with your advantage and I hope you can respect the move that was made against you. I know you are pissed at me and rightfully so but just know that it was nothing personal. - Your favourite Social Climbing Canadian Cunt.

Alyssa: Guac… I’m really happy because I kind of gave you an ROP before you were voted out? Telling you before tribal was one of the best things I’ve ever done. I wouldn’t have been able to live with myself if I were complicit in an unnecessary blindside against you. I love you so much and the real tragedy of this game is that we never got to be the iconic pre-made F2 that we could’ve been. I missed you IMMEDIATELY after you were voted out. You brought so much love and positivity in this game and I am so happy that we got to go through this experience together. I 100% deserved your attempt to get me voted out. There’s only so many times you can leave someone you call your ally in the dark. Love you long time <3 Alexa, play “The Hype” by Twenty One Pilots.

Chelsea: You are super sweet and if I hadn’t had a group that I was working with closely, I probably would have worked with you even more than I did in the game. I hope that you understand why I had to flip back to my original group on your vote and that we can play again one day!

Dani: You’re super cute and funny. Rate: 11/10

Jess: Oh Jones. I’m pretty sure at this point you just want to scream “GO BACK TO PARTY CITY, WHERE YOU BELONG!” at me and I’d deserve it. I know we already had our talks about what went wrong with us during the game but I once again want to apologize for at any point making you feel like crap. Me, you, and Alyssa were the iconic trio this game deserved to have but our loyalties just never were with the same people. I didn’t think you had the fight in you to do some of the things you did in this game and you proved how much of a boss ass bitch you were. I respect the shit out of you. I HOPE you still want to talk to me outside of this game because I honestly think we could be amazing friends! <3

Alyssa: Oh Devon, how you disappointed me… I told you I don’t shoot my gun unless you cock yours! And you were getting ready to shoot! Despite the fact that us four ladies see you as the ex-boyfriend who we found out had three other girlfriends, I loved playing this game with you! You were truly iconic and the reason why we HAD to get you out is because you had a M A J O R chance of beating us at the end of this game. Stop sending the dog emoji and we can still be friends after this <3 Alexa, play “Loyal to Me” by Nina Nesbitt

Chelsea: ………Hi Final 3 partner!! Oh wait, you wanted final 3 with Jess. OH WAIT, no you def wanted final 3 with me because Jess and Alyssa NEEDED to be broken up. OH WAIT, wrong again!! You wanted final 3 with ANYONE who would get you there by being a total SNAKE. Devon, I commend you on your tricks to get yourself far in the game, but I am so pissed that you made it this far by playing the way that you did. I have prided myself on not being a sneaky player and always being pretty honest with the people I work with. I feel dirty that I stayed close with you and allowed you to have some control on who I voted and how I felt about certain players in the game. You pulled me and Sammy aside early on to spread lies about Jess and Alyssa so that Sammy and I would say that we want them out, and then you went to Jess and told her that Sammy hated her. All were lies but you caused a lot of drama that was right under our noses. All of this was on call so that there is no paper trail and I am SO HAPPY that us ladies outlasted you. Karma is a biotch! I should have known that you weren't just "working" with me when you said you were gonna "lay low" about the Aidan vote. You are probably really nice as a person outside of these games, but I honestly don't think I could ever trust you in a game again. The fact that you so easily made your way through the game at the cost of others makes me think that you have done this plenty of times before. Sorry, I don't feel bad that you got voted out; you deserved it. Slkdjflksdjflksdjflkfjl <3 I have cooled down, so with all that being said, I can’t be TOO pissed off because you played a game that got you close to the end. You outplayed and outwitted so many people and I have to respect (even though I disagree with) the way that you played your game.

Dani: I really thought on day one that you were going to be loyal and stay loyal. You showed time and time again that that was not the case. Aside from everything that happened in the game, I really think we formed a friendship that’ll last beyond the game.

Jess: Devon, Devon, Devon where do I begin?! (Dog) I really hope you take the time to read this even though I know you are really upset with me. You were my ride-or-die since our Hosororo days. We didn’t have the best relationship on the fans tribe so I was extremely hesitant to work with you but found a way into my ice-cold Canadian heart. You made me feel like I was your number one in this game and I truly believed it….. until about a week ago. If you were to ask someone who they felt most comfortable with in this game.. 9/10 people would have said: Devon. It didn’t matter if they were a fan or a favourite….. which made you arguably the MOST dangerous person in this game. What you may not know is: I actually did have that super-idol that first tribal (could only be used once.. THANKS FAVOURITES <3) and I highly considered taking you out during first tribal. From Day 1 I knew you were going to be a force to be reckoned with in this game. Your elimination was the MOST stressful for me in this game and the most rewarding at the same time. I felt like such an asshole lying to you all day about using my idol on you even though I knew that you were saying the same things to me that you were saying to everyone else. You pinned everyone against each other and magically stayed safe for sooooo many rounds (I’m JEALOUS). You played the game I think EVERYONE wanted to play. You let me and Alyssa take the heat while making our targets bigger at the same time, you pinned “alliances” against each other, and you thought you made final 3 deals with EVERYONE LEFT IN THE FINAL 5. You came in guns blazing and I respect that so much. You were probably the best player all season and I enjoyed getting to know you! Hopefully there are no hard feelings <3

Alyssa: Queen Chelsea, Thank you for being an ever-present fun person through this game. You're not a cardboard box to me <3 Alexa, play "thank u, next" by Ariana Grande

Dani: We didn't talk much, but you're really pretty.

Jess: Chelsea Chelsea Chelsea. One of my biggest regrets in this game was not getting to know you sooner. I hope you know that you are SO MUCH MORE THAN A FUCKING CARDBOARD BOX because you are a fucking queen. I hope we can get to know each other outside of this game because i'm pretty sure we have A LOT IN COMMON <3

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st4rg1r111 · 5 years ago

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pt2- I’ve addressed it and also the fact I want to get married. But he can’t talk about the future because he will literally go crazy about talking something he’s not capable of doing atm. But he is okay with doing that once he does have a job. And he’s asking if I’m gonna be his girl that I should be just that. Idkkk I feel like I’m getting punked and he mentioned that I’m very empathetic so I’m understanding BUT still give me some sort reassurance idk.

I had a response for part 1 of your anon but I didn’t post bc I just saw your request not to post it bc you don’t want anyone to see, which I completely understand. So I’m gonna try to respond to part 2 as best as possible lol... I honestly just feel like a relationship should consist of reassurance & communication. And it doesn’t seem like he’s providing either of those. & if your goal is marriage, then maybe try reevaluating the relationship. Is this someone you see as marriage potential? If so, why? If not, then why not? I have to refer to your first anon but I don’t wanna get too specific & blow your cover so I’m gonna be a bit vague here.... but if you feel as though his personal issues are getting in the way of having a healthy and functional relationship, then maybe he’s not meant to be in a relationship at all at least for the moment. I know that may be a hard pill to swallow, but think about what YOU want. Put your needs & wants first. And once he does get a job, then put it to the test & see if he’s willing to discuss the future then. If he continues to give excuses, then it’s honestly not worth it. Also, I sense that you have a strong intuition. The way you speak as though you genuinely know something isn’t right but also don’t want to assume or jump to conclusions. Pay attention to that. Trust your intuition when it comes to this situation. And don’t let your empathy & ability to be understanding allow you to get taken advantage of. It’s one thing to be understanding & it’s another thing to be someone’s doormat. If you don’t mind, I’m open to you messaging me through here so I can respond to your first anon in private & possibly give some more advice. I’m no expert & I don’t want to pry too deep into your business, but I don’t mind giving any advice I can. I really feel like what I had to say there is a huge chunk of this response. Either way, I wish you the best of luck in this situation 💙

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On a scale of 1 to 10, how much would U hate me if I said all of them ? :-))

you are SO lucky i have no homework due tomorrow

EDIT this took me so goddamn long i hate u

1. When did you both get together?

september 16th 2016 !

2. Who made the first move?

you did ! she told me she liked me ha

3. How long have you been a couple?

13 months

4. How did you first meet?

this freaking website sjhfdag

5. Were you already close friends before going out as a couple?

yes :”)

6. Are you/Were you ever in the same class at school?

7. Are you long-distance?

yea :(

8. Are you in an open, regular or committed relationship?

idk what ‘regular’ means but we are so exclusive it’s embarrassing

9. Do you live together?

not yet

10. Are you engaged? If yes, describe your proposal. If no, what ring would you like?

no but i wanna engrave things on our rings for each other (her idea)

11. Are you married? If yes, describe your wedding. If no, would you consider marriage?

not yet

12. Which one of you is older? What is the age difference?

she’s 2 years older

13. Which one of you is taller? What is the height difference?

HA i’m like 3 inches taller

14. Do you share any of the same hobbies/interests/passions?

yea we are both interested in politics/arts/animals and we like a lot of the same shows and movies and music

15. What fictional couples would you compare yourselves to?

uhhhhh this is a hard one i’m gonna go with the falsettos lesbians

16. Sum up your relationship in 6 words or less.

perfect wonderful safe happy healthy magical

17. Doodle a little picture of you both as a couple.

lmao i was doing this yesterday here we are with our future dog named jesse

18. Describe your relationship using only emoticons.

i’m on my laptop but all the smiling and heart ones19. Share a cute photo of you both together.

ATTRACTION20. Top 5 fav things about your partner.

her intelligence

her sense of humor

her kindness and patience

how she always makes me feel better even when im in the worst mood

how she always gives me good advice

21. Your partner’s top 5 fav things about you.

i believe shes said my writing ? yikes

my sense of humor on occasion

my taste in women obviously

my extremely outspoken opinions

all my many talents (sike)

22. What physical traits do you find most attractive about your partner?

her eyes / eyeliner

her hair

her body

her skin is so soft and nice

her hands are also soft and she’s good with them if u know what i mean

23. What physical traits does your partner find most attractive about you?

hair

eyes

mmmm eyelashes

***** lmao

hands probably

24. What personality traits do you find most attractive about your partner?

oh man i just listed it but she’s literally the kindest most generous most patient person ever

25. What personality traits does your partner find most attractive about you?

i’m literally awful but she’s said my humore

26. Do you hold hands in public? Any other public displays of affection?

yea we kiss and hug in public lmao

27. List your top 3 turn-ons about your partner.

the fact that she’s a top and d*minant

when she kisses my neck

when we make out esp in the shower

28. List your partner’s top 3 turn-ons about you.

straight from her ladies and gays

apparently my sex noises

the fact that i trust her (i completely do)

my lips n kissing :)

29. How would you seduce your partner? How would they seduce you?

we do a fair bit of sexting and when we’re together we make out or have sex in the bath or bed slakhsjkg this is nsfw

30. Innocently or not, where do you like your partner to touch you?

EVERYWHERE

31. Describe your partner’s eyes.

beautiful and so full of light and so expressive and looking in them makes me feel safe and at home

32. Describe your partner’s hair.

very soft and silky and nice to touch

33. Describe your partner’s smile.

literally the most beautiful thing ive ever seen. landscapes and sunsets dont have shit on her

34. What is your partner’s voice like?

just very soothing and warm

35. What is your partner’s scent like?

like her vanilla (i think) perfume and v warm shgjkhg

36. How does your partner impress you? How do you impress them?

shes SO SMART and she wont admit it but shes so good at art and she’s just so strong and i impress her by sending her writing that then gets her in trouble at school and by performing

37. What outfit would you like to see your partner in? What would they like to see you wear?

she likes this sheer black shirt i have and when i wear her sweatshirts and i think she looks gorgeous in anything pink and in my clothes

38. Show your fav picture of your partner that they’ve posted online.

have you ever in your life seen such an ethereal gorgeous goddess i dont think so

ROMANCE39. Do you have cute pet names for each other?

baby, babe, love, angel, princess, wife, etc

40. What’s one of your favourite memories as a couple?

the most recent one i have is us laying in my bed post sex watching breaking bad and her falling asleep in my arms and just feeling so full and safe and happy and like i could stay in that moment forever

41. Describe your favourite date so far?

oh god SO MANY but when we went to see dear evan hansen in july that was pretty spectacular

42. What’s the sweetest thing that your partner’s ever done for you?

everything but for our anniversary she made me a whole book of reasons she loves me and it’s my favorite gift in the whole world

43. Do either of you get jealous?

we both do to a healthy degree

44. Is one of you protective of the other?

we both are in different ways

45. How do you both like to kiss?

we like to make out :’) but we kiss a lot casually like waking up or to say thank you :’’)

46. How do you both like to cuddle?

i’m usually the little spoon

47. What’s a gift that you’ve given to your partner? And one they’ve given to you?she gave me this aforementioned book and I gave her a necklace I think she really likes also once a scrapbook

48. Are you an openly mushy couple or a reserved couple?

mushy jshgjfgagf

49. Does one of you like to cook for the other?

we literally just go out everywhere but i’m a better cook lmao

50. Do you have unique ringtones/images for each other on your phones?

we have lots of emojis by our names and cute icons for each other

51. Have you ever had your initials written on a tree or in the sand?52. What’s “your song”?

ilysb by lany

53. Do you own any items that are a special symbol of your relationship?

we have promise rings and matching necklaces ! and i have a locket from her and she has a necklace from me

54. What did you both do for Valentine’s Day?

she got me flowers and a bracelet and i got her a bathbomb and chocolates i think :’)

55. Do you express your love lavishly or discreetly?

both !

56. What’s the funniest thing you can remember your partner doing?

when she asked me to prom she gave me a stuffed whale and when i squeezed it it said ‘whale you go to prom with me’ and i died

57. Does thinking about your partner still give you butterflies?

yes she’s all i think about in school

58. What’s the weirdest part of your relationship? Idkkk I think we can be very weird and comfortable with each other and I love that

BEING TOGETHER59. Fav things to do together on a rainy day?

go to a coffee shop and talk

60. Fav things to do together on a sunny day?

go out walk around get coffee go swimming if we can !

61. Got any plans together for next week?

no :( just facetiming i wont see her till november :(

62. What’s your favourite thing to share together?

a bathtub

63. What did you do for your partner’s latest birthday? What did they do for yours?

her birthday is in a month and i’m pretty happy about my gift for her and for my bir

64. Where would you like to go on holiday together?

paris !!

65. You have a whole weekend to yourselves and 500 in cash- what do you do?

oh man we’d probably go somewhere uhh with 500 probably just somewhere in america maybe cali and get a hotel and lots of coffee and walk around

66. How would you comfort your partner on a bad day? How would they comfort you?

the other day i burst into tears and she was so helpful and let me be stupid and just hugged me :( and i try to do the same for her even though i give shit advice

67. Where would you both get takeout together?

pizza probably

68. What’s the longest time you’ve been apart?

2 months

69. What things remind you of your partner? What things remind them of you?

ahs, cats, psychology, eyeliner, red hair remind me of her, brba, game of thrones, broadway reminds her of me

70. Has your relationship changed at all since it first started?

we’ve definitely built so much trust and grown together and changed opinions and stuff

71. Have you ever worked on a project together?

uhhh not that i can think

72. Have you both influenced each other in any way?

yes

73. Have either of you made sacrifices for this relationship?

hm not anything huge idt

74. Has you discovered anything surprising about your partner?

sure she surprises me all the time

75. How have you both made a positive impact on each other’s lives?

she’s made me so happy and made me want to be a better person and helped me figure out what i want/who i want to be and i think i’ve encouraged her and made her happy :)

76. What do you both mutually agree is the most important part of your relationship?

trust and love

EVERYDAY LIFE77. What are the everyday things you both do to show you care about each other?

we tex gm and gn, we buy each other food and stuff when we’re together, we always check in on each other

78. Do you follow each other’s blogs/twitter/instagram?

duh

79. Is there a favourite place that you both frequently go to together?

any coffee shop esp one in my neighborhood called gather

80. What TV shows do you like to watch together?

breaking bad, the office, american horror story, and i recently made her start glee bc she isn’t a real lesbian

81. How do you relax together?

cuddling and listening to music or watching tv

82. What sleep positions do you tend to sleep together in?

spooning with her as the big spoon

83. Do you borrow each other’s clothes or other items?

yessss

84. Do you ever share the bathroom together?

yea lmao

85. How do you both keep in touch when you’re away from each other?

text, skype, ft, calling, rabb.it

86. Do you share secrets between each other?

yea she knows everything about me

87. Do you rotate house chores or do you each have assigned chore duties?

we dont live together yet but we both do all stuff lmao

88. Do you remember how your partner takes their coffee/tea/bar drinks?

iced coffee w/ cream and sugar or iced chai latte

89. What does your partner think of your Tumblr?

shes my biggest fan :’)

90. What characters do you play as together when playing multiplayer games?

uh we aint gamers

COMPATABILITY91. Are you both introverted/extroverted or opposites?

i’m a little more extroverted

92. Who is the more dominant/submissive one?

alexis is more dominant fjhsadhfjsg

93. What are some major differences between you both?

i have a shorter temper than her skfhjadgs

94. When are you both “in your element” together?

when we’re chilling in a park or in bed just cuddling and talking wow gay

95. Who would win in an arm-wrestling contest?

ALEXIS WE DID THIS ONCE AND IT WASNT EVEN A CONTEST

96. What are each of your zodiac signs and how do they compare?

pisces and scorpio and we are v compatible

97. What are each of your MBTI types and how do they compare?

ngl i dont know either of ours

98. What are each of your Hogwarts houses and how do they compare?

i’m a ravenclaw and alexis is slytherin and i think it works out great

99. If you were both in a dating sim, what character tropes would each of you be?

i’ve never played sims

100. If you were both animals what would you be? Would you be the same animal?

we’d be cats i think

101. How does your partner’s wardrobe differ from yours?

you wear more tee shirts then me probably i wear more sweaters and button downs

102. Have you ever both said something at the exact same time?

yeah but not anything like groundbreaking ha

103. Rate your relationship on a scale of basic vanilla (1) to extremely kinky (10)

6-7 sometimes less depending on the mood shkfjadsjf

104. Mix your fav colour with your partner’s fav colour- what is the result?

peach :’)

105. If you were both ingredients, what would each of you be and what would be the resulting recipe? (e.g. PB & jelly sandwich)

we’d be fruit in a smoothie i’d be raspberry and she’d be strawberry

106. Which of you would win in a Pokemon battle? Assign yourself and your partner a fitting Pokemon type (e.g. water, grass, poison etc). Are either of you super effective against the other?

i literally could not tell you one (1) pokemon

CONFLICT107. What happens when you argue with each other? How do you both make up?

ok we really dont argue a lot but when we do we just talk about what’s happening that we’re upset about and we talk and process and explain it lmao gay

108. What’s something that your partner does that annoys you? How do you annoy them?

ummm she doesn’t have a lot of traits that like genuinely annoy me idk how to answer this

109. What are some imperfections that you love about your partner?

?? you are perfect idk you can occasionally procrastinate but same

110. What are some imperfections that your partner loves about you?

i get v aggressive and defensive very fast

111. Has your partner ever accidentally hurt you? Have you accidentally hurt them?112. Is there anything about you that your partner just doesn’t understand?

probably why i get so mad at ppl who aren’t her so easily skdlgjajg

113. Is there anything about your partner that you just don’t understand?

how she’s so patient and forgiving lmao

114. When was the last time you cried about your relationship and why?

yesterday bc i missed her

115. What is something you love that your partner hates?

dark chocolate

116. What is something you hate that your partner loves?

most horror movies

117. When was the last time you had to apologise to your partner and why?

i dont really remember the last major thing honestly

118. Do either of you get too clingy?

we are both clingy and we love it

119. Do you have any insecurities about your relationship?

i mean shes like. out of my league but i trust alexis a lot so not really

120. When was a time that your relationship was put to the test?

idk distance is always a test i guess we’ve never had any major (or minor) threats of a breakup

121. What would your partner have to do to make you end the relationship?

i love her pretty unconditionally

RELATIONS122. Does your family approve of your relationship?

yea my parents love her

123. What do your friends think of your relationship?

my friends love alexis

124. How do you both act together around others as opposed to when you’re alone together?

we talk a lot of shit when we’re alone sdjkbfhdjga but honestly it’s a lot of pda either way

126. Do you think you and your partner look similar to each other?

i don’t esp since i cut my hair

127. How does your partner treat you special compared to everyone else in their life?

she buys me cute gifts and i think you tell me more than most people ? also you give me or*asms :)

128. Do you both have a mutual friend group, or only separate friendship groups?

mostly separate friends bc long distance but we’re friends with each other’s friends

129. What’s a common misconception about your relationship?

i think people sometimes think it’s less serious than it is bc long distance lmao sike

130. Has your relationship affected any of your relations with others?

not really

131. Has anyone tried to sabotage your relationship?

no sdkfjhdkjf

132. Quote something somebody has said about your relationship.

“i wanna find someone who loves me like you love alexis”

133. Quote something somebody has said about your partner.

a random girl in my school hallway: “your gf is so pretty!” me: ik

FUTURE134. What do you hope for the future of your relationship?

we’re gonna stop being long distance in less than 2 years, then we’ll move in together and probably get married after college asjkdhfajdgs ahh

135. If you both got married, what would you want your wedding to be like?

classy but small with our close friends and outdoors with live music

136. Can you imagine what your ideal home would look like?

ideally a big penthouse looking over central park with lots of windows and a big bed and a clawfoot tub

137. Do you have kids/want to have kids? What would they be like?

we’re gonna adopt one daughter name undecided she’s gonna be happy

138. If you could do anything for your partner what would you do?

i’d make it so that you never had to feel sad of stressed again and i’d pay your college funds and i’d buy us a house

139. Do you think you’ll still be together when you’re old and wrinkly?

i know it

140. Got any relationship advice?

hmmmm trust your partner. communicate and tell them about things we do that a lot and it’s one of my favprite things about us

#I LOVE YOU! MORE THAN ANYTHING AND ANYONE!#me #alexis #louheartsharry #asks

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