#maybe i just hate myself lmfao

[cringelordofchaos]

I actually passed as the gender I thought I wanted ti be today without even trying and... Like, a month ago I would've been so fucking ecstatic... now I just feel nothing .. man

[lunarharp]

into the deep end - 30k T orufrey fic, focusing on memory trauma, disability, and romance.

the sweet oblivion of the victim, the poisoned freedom of the other.

for one moment - it had felt like two parts returned - the needed reunion of two disparate halves. no more secrets, no more pain.

the moment you get to give back what you never wanted to take. that moment, under the night-blooming flowers, when they had both let out the same single broken sigh of relief.

but they were never whole to begin with, were they?

qifrey swore he wouldn't say 'sorry' to this man any more if he could help it - sorry is cheap now. he didn't want to be in a position ever again where you only have 'sorry' left. so he just looks down into the threads of his blanket, strains his eye until it hurts, feeling his insides - his throat, heart and head - burn with pain. he expects more, but olly says nothing.

olly says nothing.

[piplupod]

"if i isolate myself and just focus on doing my own thang free from the pressure of the eyes of others, then I become more comfortable w myself and gain some semblance of being assured in myself" okay good BUT ->

"if i spend time alone doing my own thang without the pressure of eyes of others for very long and let myself just exist, then i will indulge in things that make me happy, and the things that make me happy tend to be outside of the general view of "normal interests", and this will make me into a very strange person who has very specific interests and is annoying to others bc they became too comfortable with their weirdness and forgot they have to be normal"

so basically i have to just. hate myself a little bit all the time because if I like myself then I annoy people. argrgrhgrghh

[bright-and-burning]

i log into tumblr for two minutes. i make it three posts down the dash. i burst into angry tears.

[cartoon-skeleton]

corporate graphic design marketing art jobs are making me go so crazy I’m legitimately considering going thru the arduous process of becoming a tattoo artist because at least that sounds somewhat rewarding and interesting; if I imagine myself negotiating with rich artists in some stuffy gallery in ten years it makes me want to throw a boulder at my window

[straightlightyagami]

you know until relatively recently i thought i'm at least like.. noticeably above average appearance-wise, i took it basically as a given since i was a little kid. but then i realized i'm actually ugly as fuck and nobody would ever pay any attention to me or find me good-looking or hot or whatever and i will be alone forever and die alone. so.

[popsicle-stick]

quite an unsettling experience going online and discovering that MJ from the new spiderman 2 game Looks Almost Exactly Like You

[intertexts]

finallyyyyy ordered new harp strings everybody clap n cheer...!!!!!!

[lesbiansanemi]

When will I learn that I don’t actually like bnha that much

[butchlifeguard]

i dont wanna decide on a career unfortunately everyone wants me to soso bad

[keii]

Every time I see new manga panels of Sasuke and Sakura's relationship, I feel more and more compelled to go back and reread Naruto in its entirety to see if their relationship, at any given point, makes any sense from the beginning to the current chapters in Boruto because no matter how many good ass fanart I see of them... it's so hard for me to register them as an actual married couple with a child LMAO Their dynamic just seems so boring what do they even talk about-- what do they even do. And don't get me wrong... It's nice seeing what Sasuke would be like in a relationship, but damn it's so... bland...

[silasbug]

my first exam is tomorrow morning. playing guitar instead of learning sounds like a great idea, bug.

[sammygender]

i have this problem where i actually really like work that dwells on like. homophobia and transphobia or whatever. to a worrying extent. and always makes its gay characters face it. and makes them meet with tragedy. like of course i detest the fact that its often/was often the only thing that exists but me, personally, i sometimes LIKE it. i find it cathartic. and besides it feels realer and rawer to me than the 20th quirky bisexual on like sex education or heartbreak high or whatever new teen show there is. theres something so much realer about so much ‘problematic’ 2000s gay representation lmfao

[junieswrlds]

the currently . aha.. hahahaahahahhaaha

[merry-the-cookie]

idk how to price this fucken button / badge cus on one hand its a big ass 6cm dude and im proud of the drawing on the other hand how much are u gonna pay for a BADGE............ idk what tf im doing i feel like im undercharging and overcharging at the same tiME

[noxtivagus]

i love. fiction. it distracts me so much 🥹