#maybe Lloyd is sent to the neverrealm by overlord and comes back with golden oni form?

[umishiqu]

read from left to right and if you can’t read um. the dialogue is in read more:

lloyd: i just want to have someone I can trust and someone who can trust me wholeheartedly. is that so hard?

akita: that’s…

akita: that’s because you are a sad little boy with abandonment issues because your parents decided to leave you to fend for yourself at a very important stage of your development, only to come back when it seemed like you were worth something so you’ve always held yourself up to a high standard because you believe it is the only way to keep the small amount of trust others had in you.

lloyd: what?

akita: likewise if there is the smallest sign that others disagree with you or you believe you did something wrong, you process it by pushing close ones away from you because you don’t want to know if they will leave you left to fend for yourself first. again. the you that you are now, who is benevolent, won’t be able to survive if you lived in circumstances like that again. keeping these emotions hidden from others only makes them question your credibility so you’re stuck between a rock and a hard place where not saying something makes you feel like you’ve brought this upon yourself only anyway so you’ve accepted the consequences of being untrustworthy, but you fear saying something that could possibly hurt those closest to you and they will never forgive you again, deeming you untrustworthy. you’ve been put on two extreme ends of trust and betrayal from the same people that you’ve now lost the ability to determine who to keep in your closest circle and who not to, who in your closest circle will you accidentally hurt and who will you not, and who in your closest circle will accidentally hurt you and who will not, to determine the people you surround yourself with. you keep track of all of that because you are scared of the consequences. you don’t want to hurt ever again.

lloyd: ugh

akita: …

akita: you are… part oni and dragon, yes?

lloyd: yeah, why?

akita: did you unlock those forms?

lloyd: no, and i rather it stay that way. what’s another power given to the green ninja to freak everyone out more, right?

akita: …hm.

akita: vex the formless was known as a manipulative man who was spiteful because he lacked another form. however, many don’t know that he was fearful as well.

akita: even before his ceremony, he was afraid of what others would think of him if he did not receive a form.

akita: because of that, he was also afraid of displaying any doubt of himself so willingly to others, in fear that they may become true… and it only became a cycle to suffer from. by the time he entered his ceremony, he was so heartbitten by fear that he could not display his true, raw emotions to let out his true, raw form.

akita: he had believed his fears to be justified. the elders only told him that they would welcome him with open arms anyway. however, he thought their words to be lies, and left our village, never to return for quite a long time.

akita: no formling is told this story before their ceremony. the elders say that personal belief is built when fear is conquered for something, not in spite of something.

lloyd: …so then why did you tell me this?

akita: you saw the type of man that vex became, yes? fearful, manipulative, and spiteful.

lloyd: not helping.

akita: if you continue to believe you are unworthy of love, then eventually, you will be.

akita: however, right now, you have people who will accept you for you no matter what happens.

akita: believe in them. believe in yourself.

akita: do not give up. do not fear the unknown.

akita: you will find your form soon enough. and once you do…

akita: use it to protect the ones you hold closest to your heart.