#maybe I’m just fandom fatigued idk

[tinka-tank]

Can you guys watch him while I go smoke

[cupcakeslushie]

Okay this is just a general question but what other fandoms are you in?

I know about rottmnt, and I think that's justice league, maybe young justice. idk, I'm sorry. But what other fandoms do you like?

Yeah I’m mostly into TMNT and DC (Batman and YJ specifically) at the moment. I’ve been into Marvel the last few years, but kinda got fatigued with the movies. Star Trek (and Wars), Vox Machina (just the show, I don’t have the attention span for any other table top dnd podcasts 😅). Teen wolf, supernatural (gave up around season 8 or 9 cause damn).

I also like anime, so One Piece, Fmab, and a million other titles.

[chosetherose]

Why is no one mentioning the hypocrisy of Billie in regards to Taylor lately and all the fandom drama caused by this? My twitter timeline is just full of it and I can’t see anyone here mentioning it. I get not wanting to pit women against each other, but the way B has been behaving is quite disrespectful (even though she never mentioned Taylor). She has shaded people with “long albums”, said she doesn’t care about charts, her manager has been liking shady tweets towards Taylor, she has criticized artist releasing different variants of albums to go nr 1 and boost sales, spoken about how vinyls are bad for the environment and so on.

Only to release 22 (!!) versions of her album, I believe it was 10-12 different types of vinyls. Idc about her having variants or several vinyls and so on. I do care that she seems to be shading people only to use the same tactic (at an even bigger scale) to try and reach the nr 1 she absolutely doesn’t care about. I like her music, but don’t like how this is looking for her at all. She also brought that dude on stage who said Taylor didn’t write her own songs or whatever a while back. Taylor has done nothing but support Billie. Idk it’s just the whole “I don’t care about charts”, “people should care about the environment and not make several types of vinyls” only to turn around and to those exact things yourself. Not to mention the Gaza pin she wore, then went to Starbucks a few days later. And her manager is a Zionist.

People also seemed to take it as a dig towards Billie when Taylor released the BLOND:ISH remix because that artist is apparently very cautions about the environment.

I don’t follow Billie closely so I’m not up on any of this. I’m not doubting you Anon (I just haven’t looked it up for myself), but if this is true it’s very surprising. Maybe I’m just used to supporting someone who goes out of their way to not trash talk others.

Side note: I am fatigued by all the variations though. A full hypocrite because I understand only so many songs can fit on vinyls and I enjoy listening to the bonus songs on the three variants I have for TTPD 🤦🏻‍♀️. But I had to pay three separate shipping costs because they made it seem like I could never buy them together. Then you could.

[signanothername]

Been thinking about Mikey’s powers nonstop and I gotta actually talk about it or I’ll explode

Ok so one headcanon that most the fandom agrees on is that Mikey’s hands and arms gotten hurt after the events of the movie, which is a very logical conclusion to have

Here’s the thing tho

I don’t headcanon it myself, I’m more “Mikey’s hands are actually pretty ok after opening the portal to save Leo”

Why do I think that tho?

We see F!Mikey literally dying after opening a portal, and he’s a lot more powerful than his teen counterpart, so it’d be illogical to think that teen Mikey (who’s still a novice and a lot less powerful) to just be ok after opening a portal himself, and you’re absolutely right for thinking that

Just cause I think Mikey’s hands/arms were ok doesn’t mean I think Mikey was ok after the events of the movie, I just think that his powers affected him in a bit of a different light

Kay so one thing I wholeheartedly believe is that the turtles’ Ninpō is connected to one another, and in a way it protects them whenever they share a certain power beyond what they could handle

and that’s why it takes F!Mikey’s life but not teen Mikey, F!Mikey didn’t have the rest of his brothers to take a load of his powers and it’s obvious from how he looks a lot older than he should be that using his powers takes away from his life force

Junior asks Mikey to “help” Leo at the beginning of the movie, making me believe Mikey works as a healer for the resistance, and it makes sense considering medical supplies are hard to come by in the apocalypse, and the fact Mikey looks pretty old, I believe Mikey used his powers to heal people’s injuries and that in turn takes away from his own life

Back to my og point, teen Mikey’s hands start cracking exactly like F!Mikey’s hands, signaling he might meet the same fate, except in teen Mikey’s case, Don and Raph stand beside him, put their hands on each of his shoulders and let him know they’re with him

And we can see the cracks of his magic breaking away, after Raph and Don shared the load with him, what’s curious to me tho, is how Raph and Don’s arms start cracking like Mikey’s, but once they reach their shoulders (specifically the shot of Don’s shoulder mark that glows for a second) the cracks disappear

It’s like Don’s and Raph’s powers fought against Mikey’s powers in a way? Or maybe quite the opposite and simply worked with Mikey’s powers? Idk how to describe it so I’m leaving the screenshots man

Another thing I find really interesting, is that Mikey doesn’t seem to be struggling with keeping the portal open, he only struggled with opening it, so that means certain actions are easier than others, which makes a lot of sense

Opening a portal? Could kill him

Holding the portal open? Piece of cake

Closing the portal? Bitch please

F!Mikey didn’t have his older brothers to take a load of the damage that could come from his powers, hence why they take his life, and with the apocalypse, I wholeheartedly believe F!Mikey had to take some reckless decisions many times that affected his health and in turn made him weaker and weaker as time went on (physically speaking not mentally or magic wise)

Anyway, that’s why to me at least, the headcanon that teen Mikey’s hands end up damaged after the movie kinda misses the point of the entire scene with Raph and Don holding his shoulders

Then again to assume Mikey’s absolutely alright physically is just illogical, so to me I like to believe Mikey did suffer from physical consequences, but not his hands/arms

Considering that Mikey’s powers might be connected to his life force, I believe he could’ve suffered from really bad fatigue, maybe even fell ill for a few days or even weeks, it might’ve even affected his appetite and physical strength, making it a bit harder to be as energetic as he usually is and making it harder to Razzamatazz

And yes it might age him a lot faster than his brothers if he uses his powers relentlessly and recklessly

Anyway, thanks for coming to my ted talk

[raayllum]

hit upon an interesting realization regarding re: fandom fatigue in a way that i think is like, 75% internalized and maybe 25% external, which is to say: i’m tired of trying to convince people something is Good, particularly in the more than post 7-8 months since s4 aired. not that those feelings weren’t there before, but i’m tired of, idk. i don’t post to convince anyone of anything on purpose, but i’m definitely more hesitant to post theories now when i know they may attract more attention than i want in general, nevermind in an unsavoury way, or they’ll be cruel/smug when any given theory i’ve had is wrong or whatever. 

i’m not unaware of my high follower count and some of what that means in fandom, even if i do my best to ignore all of it because it’s Weird, but there have been times i’ve wondered about having another, secret side blog or something, just for meta or whatever, to have some distance. i’m tired of fanon / fandom / whatever else is attached to the show and the cast and crew filtering in and getting in the way of my enjoyment, i suppose. i’m here to engage with the story, not people, if that makes any sense?

i’m tired of seeing the same old arguments or points of contention about the same old things. i’m tired of the lack of faith or patience or grace for drawn out storytelling and bad faith reads. i’m tired of people pre-judging something before its released or finished. i’m tired of feeling like i have to convince people that i am a person, that my meta has merit since its based in what i got a degree in / make my livelihood in. tired of feeling like people take will always take my shit in bad faith or detract for whatever shallow reason they have, of people who ‘rebuttal’ but can’t actually analyse because like, i truly am all for different interpretations, but if you don’t ground that in an explanation and examples it’s just... so weak? an opinion, not meta.

and i think some of this overall fatigue has been compounded by pride month and the general somewhat emotional rollercoaster of the past 6ish months of my life all having overlap but

idk it makes me want to unplug and then re-plug myself into only the best of what i want to see and create and engage with. which is probably on me for not curating what i am seeing enough, or as much as i could be. but yeah, definitely time to reaffirm the Sign and start living by it again, because most of the time i do not have the bandwidth to even consider all this, but shit’s been hitting different lately & not in a fun way - so time to reassess, i suppose 

[nighttime-tea-party]

soooo idk who else to ask but like what happened to all the big names during the sebaciel renaissance?? I’ve kinda been off tumble pretty much since nsfw ban, but what happened to blogs like chromehopelite and ciel’s lingerire or vexing young master? Im sure there’s others I’m missing I just can’t remember but I feel like no one uploads on the sebaciel ao3 tag as much as it used to in like 2017 and 2018. hopefully the fandom will come alive again with a new season?

Hello! I have no idea what happened to Vexing Young Master but as for the others, as far as I know, Ciels Lingerie got obliterated again and again, both here and on twitter, and I guess at one point they gave up. Their latest twitter seems to have been hacked by crypto bros.

Chromehoplite is still around, just not in the fandom anymore. And who can blame them, considering the amount of vile messages they got on a daily basis.

To be honest, I've been active in the tumblr fandom for... Idk how long, before BoC, and it was the most prolific back when BoC aired. After that, it's been a downward spiral. It got a bit refreshment through BoM and BotA but not in the same way. Back during BoM, the fandom felt huge.

I think it's a natural development. Manga fandoms are most active when there's a fairly recent tv anime adaptation (movies just don't do it like tv shows). There hasn't been one in a long time, and additionally, we've had to put up with our main characters virtually missing from the manga for about half a decade now. The twin reveal was that long ago!

So I completely understand that the fandom has become the way it is now. I consider myself crazy for still sticking around the way I do (but I have no plans of changing that) but most people aren't as weird about Kuroshitsuji as I am.

That being said, I also believe that the fandom will have a real renaissance when the show airs again. I never expected that twitter-borne renaissance to hold on anyway because it was mostly just born out of spite against antis (which is valid but not enough to give people the motivation to stick with a manga that's barely progressing over the course of years). Chrome and the others were there before the twitter renaissance and they were there after it too to some extent, but I guess lives go on, priorities and interests change and also, fandom can just be really nasty and detrimental to your mental health sometimes.

Maybe we'll see some familiar people come back when the new show airs, who knows!

I hope my answer helped!

P.S.: from the perspective of a creator myself, the disappearance of popular creators coincides with a strong decrease of engagement with authors' and artists' works. You could say it's a hen and egg kind of situation but I think the common denominator is the lack of progress in the manga and everyone's fatigue with everything. In any case, from a creator's POV it does feel kind of discouraging sometimes when you feel like your skill has increased over time but people don't interact with it as much as they used to. Like, I know it's the size of the fandom but I sometimes think, "has my art gotten that bad?" and I mean I don't draw for attention or else I'd draw Genshin or sth like that but it is a little difficult to process anyway. Sorry for the rant.

[iloveuchuu]

I love BP dearly but when I tell you I’d never have paid for a born pink ticket I meant it. And a lot of blinks took some people criticizing the show as hate but is a valid criticism specially if you spent money for that. The tickets were super expensive (significantly more expensive than a ticket to see bts, who love or hate them always put on a great performance). I feel like the girls didn’t feel energetic or motivated during the tour and i am a firm believer they weren’t ready for a tour this big and YG just keep on adding dates despite the exhaustion to beat bts’ record and media-play with it and in case the renewal negotiations went down the drain and this could be their last BP tour.

And it wasn’t even just a bad performance one time. It was consistently bad all around. And the whole Jennie controversy I am going to be real — Jennie only puts effort when she likes the audience. Is that unprofessional? Idk. Maybe she just gives the energy the audience gives her. Lisa does consistently well but there’s not much she can do alone because the choreographies requieres an energy and a synchronization they severely lacked during tour. All the media outlets that went to review the show said the exact same thing. It’s not some racist and bigotry statements. The problem with blinks is that they take every criticism as hate and eat up every content even if it’s bad. This is why YG doesn’t put any effort in the material. They know fans will love it because they waited for so long and any content is better than not content.

👏🏻👏🏻 absolutely!!!!

I was a BLINK from debut up until just before Love Sick Girls where I became a much more casual listener and eventually fell off from following the girls much. Which is why it’s always funny to be labeled a hater by other BLINKs when we critique the group or the company. The fan mindset of “you have to love everything or nothing” is so toxic and at the end of the day really does negatively impact the quality of the music and fandom. I think if anyone should be free to express opinions and valid criticism it’s fellow BLINKs lmao

And exactly; the ticket prices were insane. I remember looking to see if I could afford cheaper seats and even those were priced so high. I was thankful that I ended up not going because of the quality of the concert performances but I do truly feel bad for the fans who spent that much money for what they got. You bring up such a good point about it feeling rushed for the sake of “outdoing”BTS; this is a phenomena I’ve noticed a LOT of over the last few years with many groups but YG especially with the girls.

Your last sentence is similar to my post about their album and basically sums up my feelings on the outcome of the tour too:

“YG and Teddy are relying on the popularity of the girls and the solid fan base to support the album (and it’s working). And while there’s nothing wrong with supporting the girls or liking the music on the album (if you do I’m happy for you, genuinely), I do think it’s unfair and lazy to the girls themselves and the fans to not put effort into the product.”

Why should fans settle for mediocre performances, songs, and experiences just because they want to support BP when the company who owns them are rich and capable? We shouldn’t be settling. I was talking with a friend about how much Blackpink would KILLLLLLL concept like "Cool Hot Sweet Love" by Red Velvet where Jennie could do a slower and more sultry rap, Jisoo and Rose could sing in their lower registers, it would be a more "mature/elegant" style. Or even a concept like After School's Bang could be SO COOL from Blackpink.

As for Jennie I always want to stress I sympathize with the fact that she may have some health issues, as someone who has a disability that comes with chronic fatigue and pain I understand. HOWEVER: The excuses I’ve seen ranging from “it’s her shoes” to “she was never trained properly” (quotes from her) to “she’s allowed to have a bad day” (from fans) are very telling when the same people excusing her (sometimes) lack of effort are also dragging other idols for their bad days.

I have seen how she performs for Western audiences in the same outfits that she claims are too hard for her to perform in poorly for Korean audiences, and that’s veryyyyyyy unprofessional to me.

And this is not me saying Jennie isn't talented or that she's horrible and the devil incarnate LMAO; I'm speaking purely from two places-

a former BLINK and a KPOP fan of over 13 years who has seen idols be professional even if they don't like the material/audience.

All this to say: The girls have talent, YG once again loves to mismanage a group once they bring in money despite the group having so much more potential, and I think it's reasonable for fans to be pissed about low quality and low energy concerts when they're spending upwards (and over) $200 for a ticket.

[dragoonwish]

sorry no pictures

key: 1) favorite time of day, 2) favorite aesthetic, 3) a color that describes you, 4) favorite quote, 5) current obsession (show, movie, book, anything), 6) favorite texture, 7) favorite outfit (or an outfit you wish you had in your closet), 8) any world universe or place you see yourself living in, 9) favorite flower.

@lulliza1224 was surprised to be tagged. Since you’re curious, I’ll happily answer, though I feel like I’m very boring (Or weird).

Night (also) I always feel that even when your in your darkest moments in life’s, it’s naturals. You need the dark to truly see some spectacular stars that shine. Like the night sky.

2) scenery usually with Sky or water. Just seem pleasant to look at serene even?

3) The color White, though how I see this is as a blank canvas, filled with infinite possibilities (as human emotions is unpredictable) maybe some days it will be filled with bright cheerful colors that could awe a crowd or other time maybe a darker tone of hue would cover this blank white.

3) “You can’t always be the best, Everyone’s best is different, But you can always do your best.” I drop out of my art major because I felt insecure and unworthy to draw compare to my peers, anxieties sink into my brain, I even stopped drawings for years afterwards. Only getting back into it a couple of years ago I looked back on this and found myself stupid, I always loved drawing, just realize I didn’t want to make a career outta it. And that’s fine. I always admire those who express their passion with writing or art. I will follow this, and continue to try and do my best, expressing what I love.

5) probably this is predictable but yes my current obsession is the Touchstarved game. The story itself is outstanding (even with just a the demo) and for the first time I’m in anticipation on how this will unravel upon release. All the characters are interesting which I could never come to hate. Also seeing the fandom making creative theories and wonderful art of all kinds does feed me until either more lore from the Studio or game release.

6) definitely fur, aaaa my cat always take away my fatigue just by planting my face on her coat, holding or petting her. When she in a good mood ofc she very moody sadly :’)

7) idk honestly anything comfortable, I typically wear graphic Tees, Black leggings and one of my two favorite sweater (that unproductivelycover my shirt lol). Though dressing like this people do mistake me for a child lol.

8) I always want to go on a little adventure play the hero in the games I play 🤔 though going as I am, I would most likely die… Attack on Titan universe? Yep joining the survey corp would get me killed… Touchstarved Universe? Yeah would probably die there too… also wouldn’t be smart enough with their whole currency thing… I guess no play like staying at home and having these adventures in my head lol

9) with the Japanese Hanakotoba (Language of flowers) I do have a new view of all flowers, though picking one, lol I would have to pick Forget me Nots, not because of the flower meaning of eternal love itself I find precious with this tiny blue blossom. Though in fact it was the first flower that I actually bloomed. (I had countless failures before trying to grow different flowers.)

I don’t know who to tag honestly?? 😰😣

tag game!

@hippodameia TYSM for tagging me!

key: favorite time of day, favorite aesthetic, a color that describes you, favorite quote, current obsession (show, movie, book, anything), favorite texture, favorite outfit (or an outfit you wish you had in your closet), any world universe or place you see yourself living in, favorite flower. original post

tagging: @sparetooth, @esta-elavaris, @sotwk, @dismalzelenka

[moved-to-cinnamon-phrog]

Alright, I know it’s an AU idea that has happened with so many other Fandoms, to the point of fatigue, but:

WIZARD OF OZ AU.

Casting:

Yellow as Dorothy. Idk it just makes sense to me.

Ratty as Toto. Now, for those who may not know, (but I’m sure some will) Ratty is whoever this recurring bowl belongs to: (Picture quality is awful I know but that’s the best I could do sorry XD)

Duck as the Scarecrow. Only instead of scaring off crows its butterflies.

Red as the Tin Man. I just think it would suit him, y’know? And he seems to have an affinity with hearts already, and with his usually monotone, seemingly uncaring demeanour it makes sense that he’d want to have a heart, and show more emotion.

Mayor Pigface as the Lion. I had NO CLUE who was going to be the Lion but then it hit me. I mean he lives in the woods for an amount of time right?

Shrignold as Glinda because I said so and it really suits him.

Sketchbook as the Wicked Witch of the West, who hates green but is green and if you bring it up with them they’ll go feral.

I had the idea that the Winged Monkeys could be drawings brought to life by Sketch which I really like for some reason XD

Tony as the Wicked Witch of the East because I don’t know what else to do with him.

And Roy as the Wizard of Oz himself.

Idk who the Munchkins could be though, maybe the Love Cult?

[featherymalignancy]

Look we’ve all been there and thought it so I’m just gonna come out and ask the tough question—

what the move when mutual you admire gets into a ship/fandom you don’t care for?

Assuming there are no tags being used for you to filter content out, is it better to just try and disengage from that content when it arrives on your dash, or do you take the bold (and arguably harsh) measure of unfollowing in order to better curate the content on your dash?

Idk, maybe it’s just not my day week year, but the socio-cultural fatigue is so real right now and I’m to find the balance between social media as a means of escape v. a source of anxiety and displeasure

[problematicfavesareproblematic]

Band of Brothers-

Cute/charming things they say when they walk into a room and see you/you walk into a room and they see you:

Babe: 

“oh SHIIIIIT! There’s my BABY! Do you see her, fellas? GodDAMN, I’m a lucky sonofabitch!” 

(you blush so hard and are just like Babe, we’re at work stahp it but he dgaf).

It’s embarrassing and always makes Martin glare so imploringly at you that you’ll go over to Babe just to make him be quiet. Because, you know, YOU’RE AT WORK. 

This bitch is shameless when it comes to loving on you, having once come to stand next to you when Sink was giving an important announcement and straight-up PINCHED. YOUR. ASS. 

how you didn’t yelp is a miracle, and how no one else seemed to notice was equally astounding 

(oh, the boys noticed. They kinda shipped it tho, so it was more a matter of hiding their joy). 

Needless to say, it only happened the once, something you made Babe swear after you pulled him aside and punched him in the arm. 

Don’t worry, you kissed it better.

Roe: 

bb boy doesn’t say anything at first, 

the smile he saves just for you is playing at his lips as you walk up to meet him, tho.

The moment you’re close enough that he can smell the  sweet mint of your gum, he’ll whisper something sweet like “hey you” or “mon amor”, or maybe just your name 

(bc let’s be honest, his accent is 10 out of 10 and he could read me the dictionary and I’d still rock an ugly giggle/snort combo). 

If it’s a more serious situation, like if you’re hurt oh lordy

he will literally shout your name until either you shout back or someone tells him where you are. 

I could see him being a face holder, in the sense that he does it to reassure himself that you’re okay and make sure he has your undivided attention. 

Since getting injured in Carentan, you hadn’t been as close to the frontlines as you had been, so when you were needed you are REALLY NEEDED, 

and even if he didn’t like it Gene knew you were the best at what you did. 

Gene also feels better if he knows where you are.

 Even when you eventually return to Easy, he will feel better knowing which Foxhole you’re in, and knowing he’s seen to it your first aid kit was fully stocked.

Liebgott: 

THAT FUCKER’S SMIRKING AT YOU SO OPENLY that whoever he had been talking to instantly goes 

*sigh* y/n’s just came in, didn’t she? 

And he won’t even ANSWER because he’s already shoving past them to walk up and eye you with obvious satisfaction. 

“Bout time you showed up,” he’d say casually, hands finding your hips giving them a quick squeeze. 

“Sooner we get briefed, sooner we can get outta here.” 

(You’re not fully sure what ‘getting outta here’ entails, but if the way he looked at you was any indication, you had a feeling it didn’t involve anything less than PG-13 sexy times.)

Bull: 

“Hey, little lady.”

He’ll say it no matter how tall or short you are, how wide or how narrow.

He will always say it to you that when you first see each other in the morning 

(sometimes, you wake up to Hey, little lady being kissed into the soft skin behind your ear.) 

(Once while on a 48 hour pass, he’d woken you up that way in a REAL bed and the two of you had nearly gotten him sent up Curahee for being late coming back because you’d ended up spending more time in that bed than either of you anticipated Whoops)

(Even if he had been late, he definitely wouldnt have minded, tbh. He fully considered going AWOL if it mean neither of you had to leave the bed)

but throughout the day he’s more concerned about getting his hands on some part of you whenever the two of you had been apart- 

even if it was for like five minutes. 

Nothing over the top- holding his arm up and out so you can step into his side, a press of his lips to your temple. 

Idk guys i just feel like he’d just love you so much that everyone would be able to see, which they do and they all think it’s fucking cute

Buck: 

He doesn’t always call out when he sees you, mostly because your eyes always seem to find his. 

The two of you could be across a field from one another with a thousand angry Germans between you, guns blazing, and the two of you would always spot each other like two honing beacons. 

If its downtime and you guys don’t have to be on your guard he’ll ABSOLUTELY wolf whistle in at you, 

You’ll see a stupid grin lighting up his face as he nods in your direction. 

“Take a look, boys. I think we’ve got ourselves a…” 

and he always waits until you’re close enough that he can wrap a quick arm around your waist and pat your hip. 

“Certified babe-asaurus!” 

(in a foxhole somewhere, a wild Babe’s head pokes up in confusion). 

You groan and boo him, and whoever he was with inevitably ends up booing him too.

But he doesn’t care because seeing you smile makes him so happy you guys.

Lipton: 

If you’re in public, he will quietly step up beside you and place his hand gently between your shoulder blades.

He’s not super into PDA, which you didn’t mind because what he didn’t show in physical touch he more than made up for in open admiration. 

He is in awe of you 

sometimes he worries you forget how highly he thinks of you, how highly everybody thinks of you 

(you don’t forget, but he’s just one of those people who will get intrusive thoughts like that and sometimes has a hard time shaking them so plz just let him say it ok?)

so he always whispers some praise with his greeting 

(Hey, beautiful...Doin’ okay, love?...What’re you thinking, brilliant girl?). 

It’d probably seem like overkill if anyone else did it but Carwood is just so goddamn sincere that you can’t help but duck a quick kiss to his shoulder. 

HOWEVER! 

If you two kids are alone….

OH BOI. 

He is handsy, coming up and caging you with his arms, 

probably pulling you close quickly so you lose your balance and he can hold you a lil bit.

(He likes to sweep you off your feet im so sorry)

 That’s when his praises are hushed and sighed between long slow kisses. 

Nixon: 

Like Liebgott, he’s a snarky motherfucker who will get the most self-satisfied grin on his face the moment he sees you, instantly turning on the famous Lewis Nixon charm ( something he’d long since decided belonged to you and you alone.)

“Uh oh,” he’d say, looking you up and down before raising an eyebrow.

(bc your hot but also he doesn’t want to get all flirty if you’re hurt or sick or something’s up bc ur not just something to flirt with- YOU ARE A BADASS WITH BADASS RESPONSIBILITIES AND THAT WAS SOMETHING HE very often and sometimes FOUND SO HOT THAT IT MADE HIM THINK HE MAY HAVE AN AUTHORITY FETISH this has been a PSA) 

“Here comes trouble.”

you roll your eyes, the behavior you once found cocky and arrogant having becoming endearing somewhere between Toccoa and England. 

He has absolutely no qualms about PDA (verbal or physical), so it’s up to you to reign him in 

(especially if he’s a lil tipsy, poor Luz didn’t need to hear Lewis’s sloppy and shameless plea for you to let him eat you out on top of piano he’d found in the attic of the billet he’d been assigned. You weren’t able to look at George for a week without wanting to die of embarrassment and Lewis Nixon didn’t get any for two weeks. He was sure to never make such a mistake ever again) 

And Dick had probably grown blind to how Lewis liked to pull you his lap and run his hands up and down your thighs while you played with his hair. 

Also, like Lipton, he probably saves the more explicit acts of PDA for when the company has scheduled downtime 

(but only bc you told him he needed to keep it in his pants any other time he tried to get cute with you)

but you can bet your ass his hand will always try to tap it (your ass, that is.)at least once

a day when he isn’t supposed to.

That’s when you get to punish him whoopsies

Dick: 

since the day you were introduced to Dick in Georgia, the boy always made sure to stand when you entered a room and will call you “ma’am”,

(you know, LIKE HE DOES ONLY BECAUSE HE HAS TO FOR SOBEL BC RANKS. I feel like he has a “we salute the woman, not the rank” speech queued up for anyone who tried to give him shit for it BUT THAT’s JUST ME)

but he has a knowing look in his eye that makes the term ‘ma’am’ feel anything but impersonal.

It confused the shit out of replacements, who would automatically stand because their superior officer (that would be Big Dick Winters) did- only to see you standing there in your fatigues with a coffee in each hand with a look of mutual confusion on your face. 

(bc while they like you, but they’re confused still bc while you’re a boss ass bitch,  you didn’t outrank him...or at least they theink you dont?) 

Babe had been the one to ask you about the longing looks and lingering glances, and when you didn’t know how to answer him you’d gone to Nixon, 

He’d burst into tearful laughter and was unable to get it together enough to explain anything.

Dick had been the one to bring it up the next time they were alone, weirdly enough, as she proofread his report for errors that didn’t exist. 

Because you warrant it, he’d said when pressed for a reason why he greeted her like a ranking officer, looking down at his boots as they both blushed like teenagers at a school dance. 

After that, he still stood wherever you walked in

but now he made a point to brush his fingers against yours at some point during the time you were together. 

He’s the definition of a slow burn friends-to-lovers story, and boi can get spicy LEMME TELL YOU.

(this is my first writing thing ever plz let a sister know if there are any glaring typos. Also i’m roughly 97 years late to fandom but I brought y’all some starbucks so plz let me in thank you)

[workingchemistry]

Fanfic Year In Review

Wasn’t tagged. I just want to lol.

How many works do you have on AO3?

37– 10 this year.

What’s your total ao3 word count?

239, 386. 13, 610 were this year.

How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

Unfortunately comic fandoms are weird in that they’re different for each comic which is different for almost every character. So I’m lumping DC into one DC category. So in total 4 I think. DC, Descendants, Star Wars, Newsies, and Detroit: Become Human.

Are there any new fandoms you want to write for?

Yes, but I’m writing for them under another less active account.

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

1. May I Hold You coming in at 3235 kudos.

2. Homeward Bound, Safe and Sound with 2114 kudos

3. Hide the Bullet with 1511 kudos

4. Finally I’ve Come Home with 1475 kudos

5. And I Will Make Thee Beds of Roses with 1170 kudos

Which of your fics do you want more attention for?

I don’t know. It’s hard to say I want more attention tbh. Some of my fics have been obscenely popular for no reason and it’s stressed me out so bad I stopped writing for a while. But if people wanted to comment on I Could Be in Someone Else’s Story I would send you platonic kisses.

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I try to! I have chronic illness/fatigue and that makes it hard for me to do hobbies like I used to even just a few years ago. When May I blew up I got really overwhelmed and now I’ve got 691 unanswered comments. Every so often I feel up to it and I’ll reply to 20-100 in a sitting but I haven’t been able to get it under 500 in two years. Also this sounds like a lot of comments but the oldest one is 821 days old and the newest is 13 days old so most of them are from years ago at this point.

What sorts of things do you normally write?

Found family fics. More recently I’m exploring romance. I also tend to write some variation of a dom/sub or aob AU. I’ve got a misogyny kink and I find it really hard to project onto women due to being afab brought up in a purity culture who is also not a woman.

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

I had to think bc I try to end on hopeful notes. But probably Just Don’t Go Without Me in which I try to explain why Bruce doesn’t notice Jason’s grave being disturbed with the most angsty reason possible.

What’s a fic that pushed you out of your comfort zone?

Not published yet, but I’m co-writing a story with @bionerd2point0 and we’re maybe getting a little spicy. Honestly bless her for dealing with my inexperience and anxiety. 😂

Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I don’t write crossovers so much as character transplants and probably my DC/Descendants AU, Singing This One Like a Broken Piece of Glass

Have you ever had a fic translated?.

Yeah. Two. Both in Chinese I think but idk if there’s regional dialects. 😔 I’m monolingual with a little Spanish and sign language. One is May I and the other is Homeward Bound

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes. Many times when I was younger, less frequently now but there’s one that I’m working on with Bio that I’m excited for.

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

May I. Idk. I’m so burned out on it and every time I sit down to write on it I don’t get more than a line or two. It’s not abandoned but the hiatus is lengthy.

What are you currently working on?

A Playmating AU with Bio, marvel stuff for another account, descendants stuff. Probably some other Jason stuff too but it’s coming much slower so idk if it even counts as actively working on it.

What are your writing strengths?

Evoking emotion?

What are your writing weaknesses?

Plot.

What was the first fandom you wrote for? Most recent?

Warrior Cats or LOTR. I started writing for both around the same time when I was 13/14 ish. Idk where any of it is and I quickly hopped into original fic exclusively for years until I wrote You’re Alone. Most recent is Newsies or Marvel.

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

You’re Alone ‘til You’re Not Alone It’s an old one but it was my first finished project in a long time and it did some neat things that were not common at all in the fandom at the time. (Robin Jay, aob with omega Jay, platonic aob)

What fic are you most proud of?

Currently When Everything’s Made to Be Broken I think. I was experimenting with a new style, narrative distance, and unreliable narrator that came together to be imo pretty cool.

[bettsfic]

You may have answered this before, but what happened your experience been like writing for/getting traffic to fics for dead or old fandoms? Eg breaking bad or the secret history. I always find myself thinking it’s not worth writing for an old fandom even if i have ideas but i’ve never actually done it so idk if that’s accurate

i love writing for small/old fandoms and rare pairs. my westworld fic is the only one in the caleb/dolores tag somehow, even though i shipped it so hard it launched me into breaking bad. i spent nearly all of last year hopping around in old/nonexistent fandoms and i had a really great time. if you look at the comments on my small fandom fics, they’re amazing. they’re so thoughtful and insightful and personal. i really love them. 

i’m not going to sit here and tell you traffic doesn’t matter. it matters to all of us to some degree, although possibly in different ways and for different reasons. it’s hard not to see traffic as a metric of belonging. you put yourself into something, you give it a platform, and perhaps its reception allows you to feel accepted or loved, or less alone, or briefly reassured that your existence has meaning. there’s nothing wrong with that. there’s nothing wrong with wanting to be seen. 

when i started writing fic, traffic and comments meant everything to me. i was absolutely in it for the attention, because i’d never received good attention before. i’d been accused all my life of “attention-seeking behavior” like it was a bad thing, like the solution to that often destructive behavior was to just ignore me until i suddenly grew a sense of self-acceptance and existential security all on my own, like getting mad at a plant for dying without any sunlight. a plant can only stretch toward a window so far.

my relationship with traffic was not a healthy one. for a long time i couldn’t separate myself from the work, so negative comments hurt me and positive comments defined me. i mistakenly believed that people who liked my writing liked me, when that’s the very opposite of the purpose of pseudonymous community writing. it took me a long, long time to realize and accept that nothing is about me. but that’s probably a post for another time.

after a few years of writing and posting fic, and attending workshops and receiving good mentorship, a very unexpected thing happened: i got enough attention. i didn’t think it was possible. i thought i’d just spend my life wanting more and more and never being satisfied. i couldn’t conceive of what “enough” of anything looked like. enough time, enough money, enough love. some of us spend so much of our lives hungry that we don’t know what fullness feels like. we don’t know what it means to be able to bear moments of emptiness because we know the things we need will always be in our reach. many of us, maybe even most of us, do not know what it means to trust that all our needs will be met on any given day, at any given time. 

something similar happened with sleep. i’d lived most of my life in a state of extreme sleep deficiency. waking up was the hardest part of every day of my life. then when i was 23 i was finally in a position where i could sleep as much as i needed to. for months i slept for 10 to 12 hours a day, and then slowly as i made up for all those lost hours of sleep, it slipped down to 9 and then 8. i fell asleep when i was tired; i woke up when i was ready. i let myself nap, but i found that i no longer needed to. i’d never known a life without fatigue, and then finally i was awake.

once i’d received enough attention, i started to see everything differently. whenever i wrote something, i started seeing it, not in terms of fearing its failure, but readying for its potential success. because i’ve found success is much, much harder to deal with than failure. once you separate yourself from failure, once you don’t let it affect your self-perception, success becomes terrifying. i have never met a single person who is emotionally prepared for the harrowing fallout of success. 

whenever i post anything, a tweet, a text post, a fic, i ask myself, “what if this goes viral?” what happens if i post a multi-chap fic in a new fandom that ends up becoming the next juggernaut? what happens if that fic gets 10k kudos and a thousand comments? 

a viral tweet or post eats up your activity feed for days. you don’t get anything for it, except every once in a while you might see yourself on a buzzfeed listicle. once, a student showed me a screencap of one of my own tweets that she’d seen on facebook. writing a popular fic is fun but it’s also, for me anyway, overwhelming, because i don’t see writing fic as a content/consumer situation. i see myself as a member of a community, and when you’re placed too high on a pedestal, you’re no longer a member of that community. you’re a content creator. it’s the difference between telling a story to your friends over drinks and acting on stage. when you’re done telling the story to your friends, they speak back to you. when you bow at the end of a play, all you can hear is applause. both are good things, but conflating the two is a bad idea. you’ll never be happy if you’re seeking applause but getting conversation, and you’ll never be happy if you’re seeking conversation but getting applause.

there are plenty of people well-suited to entertaining, who thrive on popularity and strive for fame. i’ve learned that i am not one of them. nor am i one of those people with a billion sock accounts, who hates attention so much they drop fics anonymously, or maybe don’t post them at all. i’m in a place where no matter what i post, i’m content with the reception i get. if i post a fic that gets 10 kudos and 2 comments, i’m grateful to those people who kudosed and commented. if i post the kind of wip that, when it updates, people tweet “X JUST UPDATED” and drop everything they’re doing to read it, and each chapter gets 50-100 comments, i’m grateful for that too. it’s very fun, waking up to lots of excited and kind comments. either way, i’m doing the work i enjoy: helping people, or myself, feel something, or escape, or believe in love and kindness and beauty if they’re in a dark enough place to doubt it. to me it doesn’t matter if that’s for me and two other people, or two thousand, or twenty thousand. it’s all good and worthwhile work to be doing.

[lavendersblues]

I can’t explain how exactly Reed900 came to be, but based on my experience I think that a lot of people looked at DC’s work and how one character was meant to fill the “jerk coworker” trope and another just kinda stood there silently staring for maybe 20 seconds and said “fuck you and your terrible representation and method of execution game-idea-wise, us creative folks are going to take these two and give them a story”

And then we did, everyone has some kind of background for Gavin (I’ve got a dozen+ with a friend shsjdnfn, but they all generally have the same underlying themes) whether it be a self-projection or just something they thought would be neat, and then molded the RK900 (usually called Nines/Richard, but other names like Connor/Conan/Caleb/Oleg/etc are used too obviously) to fit what they made for Gavin

In my personal case, I projected heavily onto Gavin with some mild exaggeration in certain areas to make personal things feel more valid and real. Then I gave him the RK900, and the two of them figured out working and living styles that benefited both of them. It helped Gavin’s walls come down, and I was able to heal through him.

Idk if it makes any sense, I’m super fatigued and brain dead but hopefully this offered some scraps of a perspective you can put together like an archeologist finding pottery shards

I love this. Fandom is amazing. Thank you. Now I’m off to bury myself in Reed900 fics

[microsuedemouse]

man it has been a MINUTE since I made my own post about anything fandom-related on this website but @suzirya is blogging about The Old Guard and I haven’t seen anyone else talking about it really and I’ve got. some thoughts

I had literally never heard of this movie at all until a few nights ago when we were eating dinner in the living room and my dad pulled it up and said ‘hey I want to watch this’ and played the trailer for my brother and me. We were pretty much like yeah, sure, we all enjoy a good action flick, and aside from my other brother (who was occupied with D&D) it ended up being the whole family watching it. and I enjoyed it WAY more than I’d anticipated, especially for something I’d never heard about.

if you don’t know what I’m talking about: drop what you’re doing and go watch The Old Guard on Netflix. (it’s a Netflix original so yes it will be there.) it’s a very fun and good action film based on a series of graphic novels about a small group of immortals trying to do what’s right. there are many selling points but one of them is that it will be very good for your little gay soul, bc Charlize Theron stars (in a character with no explicitly-stated romances but lots of relationships that will make you Feel Things) and two of the other main characters are two men who met during the Crusades and are just amazingly in love with each other. And not in a vague way that the straights can interpret as Powerful Friendship. They are explicitly in love with each other and so devoted and ugh.

ANYWAY. putting the rest of my chattering under a cut bc spoilers and also I’m a wordy piece of shit

1 - early in this movie I was thinking about how glad I am that Charlize Theron has stepped into this role of like... cool female action star, but also, her characters are never super sexed up. almost any female characters I can think of in action movies, if they’re part of the action rather than victims/bystanders, are always made sexy. even when they’re Strong sexy, they’re still... a lot sometimes? I was thinking especially of some Angelina Jolie stuff, Scarlett Johanssen, etc. there are probably lots of exceptions to this that I just don’t know but still - we’ve had Theron in several roles like this recently, and appearance-wise she’s treated with the same respect as her male counterparts, which is so fucking cool and also such a fucking relief. we all love beautiful ladies, obviously, but it’s so SO good to see our female heroes just doing their jobs, without us ever being made aware of their sexuality.

and as the movie went on this was hitting me more and more, and I was also thinking it about... everyone? like. the other female lead, played by KiKi Layne, was arguably more feminine than Theron but not any more sexualised. even once she’s out of her army fatigues she’s dressed with practicality in mind, and again, we never have her female-ness pointed out to us. and I was so about every bit of that. both objectively and as a person whose relationship to female-ness and femininity is kind of weird, it’s such a good thing to see leading women whose gender and appearances and bodies aren’t being focussed on that way.

and as a sidebar to that, while I wouldn’t describe any of the prominent male characters as unattractive by any means, none of them were like... Marvel-actor hot. and I just, idk, especially in action/superhero movies, that’s refreshing to me. a lot of them looked like Regular Dudes in a way that I find very appealing.

2 - can we TALK about Joe and Nicky. holy shit. my brother and I kept leaning over to each other to be like ‘if anything happens to either of them I’ll riot.’ I MEAN.

we got a genuine, explicit, on-screen established romance between these men. it was not implied, it was not just how the actors played it in the hopes that people would catch on - it was right there. they hold each other to sleep, they kiss each other with such love, they talk to other characters about how much they adore each other. they met during the Crusades. they’ve been in love for centuries! and they’re so sweet, so devoted, so adoring! and they never have any arguments or tension to further the plot (one of my personal most-hated plot devices in any story with an established relationship). they just spend this movie loving each other, protecting each other and their weird little family, doing anything they can for each other. they’re taken prisoner and spend their time awake joking and making each other smile. and the one singular bit of casual homophobia they encounter on-screen is met with a declaration of love so heartfelt and intense that the guy who made the shitty comment literally doesn’t know what to say - which is a brief but extremely good scene in the movie, imo.

oh, also worth noting: this romance is biracial and interfaith (inasmuch as either of them may be men of faith after being alive for centuries). just to add to how good this is to see on-screen. all of this on top of them being IMMORTAL AND UNKILLABLE. NO GAYS BURIED HERE

2.5 - can I talk for a second about how goddamn much I love seeing non-hetero romance in genre fiction!!! I know it’s getting easier to find, but still. genre fiction is very much my domain and I love seeing queer romance there, especially when it’s simply an accepted fact and the characters’ queerness isn’t central to the story. narratives about queerness are good and important and serve a function but most of them aren’t really my thing, personally. a story that’s about all kinds of other things but also has queer characters there, being themselves, being in love, is so 1000% my shit.

3 - also? Charlize Theron’s character, Andy?? fascinating from a queer perspective. she doesn’t have any explicitly-stated romance with anyone, but her relationships with other characters are so compelling and so interesting. The backstory about her and another immortal, Quynh, very very distinctly gives you the impression that they were women in love. everything about Andy’s guilt and bitterness over not having been able to find/save Quynh feels so much like there was a romance there. it could have been platonic or familial - they were together, without anyone else, for centuries at least, and therefore obviously developed a very deep love - but the way Andy talks about Quynh it feels so much like there was something left unsaid, or unresolved.

also, her scene with the clerk in the pharmacy. oh my god. this woman clearly recognises that whatever is going on with Andy, something is wrong, and she offers her help, no questions asked. she takes her into the back room and patches up her wound. this scene has such an inherent intimacy because of the close quarters and the privacy and the act taking place, but... there’s also this really interesting connection happening between them, where they recognise something in one another but don’t state it. (personally, I couldn’t help wondering if the clerk was a domestic abuse survivor, maybe? but there are so many ways you could interpret her character from her behaviour and dialogue in that scene, and I’d love to see other people’s takes.)

and then on the other hand you have her relationship with Booker, who’s been with her the longest out of any of the living immortals. they’re incredible. their relationship is so, so interesting and well-depicted! they have such chemistry, that you can easily read as romantic or platonic. they’ve been together for so many hundreds of years and they work together, trust each other, with such a deep understanding and love and respect. and it never quite tips over into the romance you kind of think it will, which imo only makes it that much more compelling - there are so many directions you could take that dynamic.

4 - and then on the topic of Booker: I am SO into the way his betrayal was handled.

he did, undeniably, betray the others. there’s no argument on that fact. his motivations were understandable (and heartbreaking), even to Andy, though certainly not an excuse. so yes, they were furious with him. reasonably so! but... that didn’t actually break their relationships with him. they didn’t leave him behind in the lab, even if in some ways they might have wanted to. and in the ensuing battle, they were still able to work together and trust each other as they always have. the damage done to their larger relationship was put aside to be dealt with after all of this, as it should be. and even when they did deal with it, what they agreed on was just a century of exile from their group. given the lives they’re all living, that seems like such a mild sentence.

but to me, it makes so much sense. again, these people have lived for centuries, and there are so few of them. they need each other. the bonds they’ve formed over all this time together - the trust, the love, the sense of family - would not only be vital to both their survival and their sanity, but also incredibly difficult to truly break. what he did would seem unforgivable from an outside perspective, and even after that century passed I’m certain he’d have to earn back their trust and respect, but it makes absolute sense that they’d be willing to take him back one day.

god. GOD. I’m sure there’s more I could talk about but this is what I can think of right now and I’ve been typing for like forty minutes probably so I’m done for now but.

god.

this movie and its characters GOT ME, guys. I’m really in it. ugh UGH

[codewordpumpkin]

CRAP like i said i am so sleep deprived, i forgot to actually ask the question that i came on here to ask hhhghhggh

So

If you had the choice to never have become a fan of the blavkoist, would you? Choose to be blissfully ignorant i mean? Knowinf what you do now about how dirty they would do us?

Say you still had all your friendships, still knew whatever you had learned about yourself/the world, still had the writing experience you gained, all of that stuff. So if you chose to still have experienced these last eight seasons of pain, you would be choosing the show for the show’s sake. Would you?

1) this made me lol even more than your first msg, especially bc I didn’t even notice the absence of your intended q

2) why so sleep deprived, anon?! Actually, I’ve been so tired recently, too. Like, bone-deep fatigue. Idk why. Maybe it’s the heat? Naps are absolutely necessary these days.

3) what a great q! idk if I understood it correctly (lol) but if I did..... then that means you’re asking me if I would choose to have never watched the show/never have known about lizzington/never have joined this fandom??

ugh, fuck. 

Well... I mean. 

Sometimes, when I’m feeling particularly angry at tptb, then yes, I do wish I had never learned about TBL in the first place bc god damn, the toxicity, the torture, the abuse that they put us through... plus all the time and heart and soul that was invested... 

BUT

I... think that I would still choose to have become an initial (emphasis on initial) fan of the show

Because if I never knew about the show, I never would have known about lizzington

I couldn’t care less about the show now (haven’t given a fuck about the “mythology” of the show for years) but lizzington will always hold a special place in my heart

I’m not exaggerating when I say lizzington will always be my otp

I love those two idiots 

I love them even more together 

because that’s where they belong

together

(in my headcanon, anyway) 

fuck whatever the fuck tptb did to the show

(I’m calling it “the show” now because I refuse to acknowledge it as The Blacklist because it is NOT the TBL that I first fell in love with. “The show” is now just a pathetic parody of a shitty comedy that takes place in an alternate universe)

... What was the question again??

Oh, right.

So, yes.

TLDR: 

I would still choose to have watched/become an original fan of TBL, BUT!!!! I would stop watching at the end of 3A this time around and remain blissfully ignorant to the eps/seasons that followed.