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casual-eumetazoa · 3 years ago

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i haven’t written a life update in a while and idk if anyone will read it but hey, typing out stuff like this can be helpful at untangling your thoughts sometimes, so might as well. no shade if you scroll past tho, enjoy the memes and DW posts and happy scrolling!

so. in terms of writing, which i’ve talked about the most on here, i’m more or less in the same place since the last update. i’ve started querying the novel in March, i’m through about 1/5th of my list of literary agents, so far nothing but form rejections from those. i am currently waiting on 4 responses i think, plus waiting on a query response from 3 publishers and 1 response after a full manuscript request from one publisher

the most recent thing that happened is getting a very nice and personal rejections from a publisher, which was the first after ~35 form copy-paste rejections from others. and the explanation was... the book is great (”very well-written and the issue isn’t with quality”) but they are not the best publisher for it. after i asked for querying advice, the editor wrote back an even more lovely email, and basically confirmed my guess: the book is niche, it doesn’t quite fit into any conventional sci-fi category, and therefore most publishers will not touch it because it is “unmarketable”. i knew already that publishing is a business and it is not at all about book quality, but this was perhaps the most honest articulation of it and i am very grateful for that email

the current plan is to keep querying anyway until i run out of agents and publishers... yes the chances are slim to none, but i’ve done all the work already and it would be a shame not to do it. maybe some of those agents or editors will at least get some enjoyment out of reading the manuscript or whatever. i’m just sending out a finished product at this point so might as well, it takes me a couple minutes to send an email

i am also trying to write a different novel (or rather re-writing an old one) but if i’m being honest, it hasn’t been going very well. grad school takes up a lot of my energy and whatever is left i spend on YouTube and other stuff. i am planning to do NaNoWriMo this year and i have all of my outlines and plans at the ready so maybe this will change soon

speaking of YouTube - i am ready to shoot my latest essay but it keeps getting delayed for a variety of reasons. maybe i’ll manage to do it on these weekends but considering that my boyfriend is coming over to the city, yeah, i won’t promise anything. i do very much care about that channel and i have like 5 or 6 ideas in the pipeline, it just takes a lot of effort. i’ve gotten to a point where i actually care about views and it ruined the fun of it a little bit but i’m trying to focus on the process. also, i have sent requests for shout-outs to 2 leftist youtubers who do shout-outs, did not get a reply from either, but who knows.

generally, i’ve been feeling kind of... uneasy and anxious about the creative stuff lately. as i am getting closer to graduating, i have to think about how i’m going to make money once my scholarship runs out. since i do not want (and cannot, actually) jump into phd right away, i’ll need to find some job - and with my chronic illnesses and neurotype and education/skillset, the possibilities are very limited. one thing i know i could do is tutor in biology, probably online, probably to high school and undergraduate students, and it seems like a very good fit for me. if by any chance you are reading this and know someone (including yourself) who needs a biology tutor btw, you are very welcomed to reach out.

anyway, point is, i feel kind of... foolish and childish putting effort into creative stuff when i could start tutoring already and actually make money. like, writing is the most fulfilling thing for me and it is the thing that makes me the happiest, but it is not a job. there is no way i can make stable income off of writing fiction. youtube is close in levels of fulfillment i get out of it, but i have like 60 subscribers right now and it will be ages before i will be able to get any money off of ads or patreon. so why am i spending time and energy on this stuff instead of working?

i know that mindset is exactly what i despise about the modern world but also, from a practical standpoint, i do need to eat and my family cannot support me indefinitely (as much as they would want to). so yeah, keeping a balance between “fuck capitalism, art is precious” and “i have 10 dollars on my bank account” is tricky

other than all that, i am doing pretty well and there is a lot in my life i am very happy with. so complaining feels... ungratefull. my life is kinda hectic though and that also makes it difficult to be creative sometimes. i am, however, a very stubborn aries moon who very rarely drops any projects after they’ve been started. so if creative inspiration won’t keep me going, the desire to Get Thing Done certainly will

#personal #update #d0n't rеblog pls

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flirting-with-psychology · 4 years ago

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1. Other than the expected things, what is something you’ve done every day for the past month? Written down a good thing every day

2. What is one way in which things have improved for you lately? I got a car

3. Do you have any bad habits you aren’t working on changing? If so, do you ever think you’ll try to break them? My eating habits. I want to lose weight but it’s just so hard to eat right

4. When was the last time someone surprised you with their reaction or behaviors? My mom sometimes surprises me with not overreacting to things I expect her to overreact to

5. Are you good at committing to things like nanowrimo or inktober? Not at all. I tried nanowrimo a couple times in high school and always gave up pretty quick

6. What is your preferred method of expressing yourself? Singing maybe? or writing? Mostly just venting

7. What outfit or clothing item have you been wearing the most lately? My hawaiian dresses or my leggings and tank tops

8. What kinds of videos do you like to watch on youtube, if any? Stuff about musicals

9. Have you had any snow yet? Is this normal for your region? Yes and yes

10. How would you describe your sleep schedule? Not good, edging more toward nocturnal

11. Have you ever reached out to a crisis center for mental health support? If so, how was the experience? No

12. When was the last time you did something you were afraid to do, and how was the outcome? Every time I have to go out in public now I am scared of it, but so far I haven’t gotten covid

13. What is one positive thing you believe about yourself? I am creative

14. What is something you have been through that has made you stronger? Braces? Idk

15. Other than money, what is something you wish you had more of in your life? Passion 16. Is there anything that you tend to ignore for the sake of your sanity? Responsibilities

17. What was the last thing you argued or debated about? Did you eventually agree, or did you have to agree to disagree? I had a disagreement with my dad about going to a sale in a store, and we didn’t agree but I haven’t decided for sure what I’ll do

18. When was the last time you were envious and what caused it? What types of things are you inclined to envy? I get jealous of girls my boyfriend has liked and of people who are doing things with their lives they enjoy

19. What is something you wish was different about your family? I wish my dad didn’t snore or make obnoxious mouth sounds

20. Name someone you miss and the last time you talked to them? Do you think you’ll ever talk again? My friend Shaina, it’s been a couple years and I hope I will talk to her again but I’m not sure 21. What is something unusual that irritates you? Is there anything that seems to bother others but doesn’t bother you at all? The sound of scratching nylon like on winter coats bothers me, but nails on a chalkboard doesn’t bother me as much as most people

22. What is your main struggle or focus in life right now? Covid and getting a job 23. What was the last piece of candy you ate? A reese’s cup

24. Are you more dramatic or stoic? Dramatic

25. When was the last time you wished you could take something back? I told my boyfriend i wasn’t enjoying kissing him when he had bad breath

26. What was the last thing you mailed? How about received (other than bills and such)? I don’t remember, probably packages

27. What was the last kind thing someone did for you? How about the last thing you did for someone else? My boyfriend stayed up late to hang out with me, and I paused the inaugural address because he had a meeting

28. If everything in the world that was happening now was because of something you were doing or thinking, what aspects of yourself would you have to improve to change the world for the better? I’d probably just have to kill myself if it was because of my thoughts because I can’t control those

29. What is your favorite thing to dream about? Interesting stories

30. Are you on medication for anything? If so, do you feel like it helps? Have you ever been afraid to take medication or had a particularly bad experience with it? I take advil for periods and it either doesn’t help or they would be even worse without it. In general I am afraid to take medications with side effects or anything I have to take every day

31. Do you prefer having long or short nails? Longish

32. Are you happy when summer ends, or do you wish it would last longer? I like when the weather gets cooler

33. How do you feel about the idea of turning 30? Or, if you already have, did your expectations or worries hold up to the reality? I am totally falling into the cliche of being scared of running out of time in my youth before I’m 30, especially with the pandemic stealing years

34. Just as a guess, how old do you think you’ll live to be? I don’t know, hopefully like 85

35. What keeps you going lately? The hope that it will be better

#survey

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clevercatchphrase · 5 years ago

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2019 year in review

So… The 2010’s are almost over. Huh. What a decade it’s been. Hard to comprehend how much has changed in 10 years. I can barely believe that I was in high school at the beginning of this decade, and now I’m a college graduate with 2 degrees who’s been working at the same job for the last 3 years. But trying to summarize the past 10 years in a single post is a good way to give myself an existential crisis, so let’s not do that! Instead, let’s just focus on 2019 because there has been more than enough shit that’s happened to me in this year to talk about.

PART 1 OF 2: 2019 AND 2020 GOALS AND RESOLUTIONS

Huh, looking back through my archives, I apparently didn’t make a tumblr post about my goals this year. I definitely had some, though. Lemme list ‘em off real quick, and then we’ll go through them point by point.

1) Pay off all my student loans 2) Finish some song comics 3) Make art for my Redbubble account 4) Finish the first rough draft/script of a game I wanted to make 5) Practice ASL 6) Sew some stuffed animals 7) Finish some fan fictions 8) Work on Ghost Switch 9) AMVs 10) Do some original writing 11) Make illustrations for my fan fictions

Okay, first off, the student loans. I was actually SO CLOSE to successfully completing this one bUT THEN MY CAR HAD TO BE A WHINEY PISS BABY AND HAVE ITS ALTERNATOR DIE ON ME WHILE I WAS ON THE HIGHWAY AND THEN A BLOW OUT THREE WEEKS LATER.

GOD, if I had to summarize this year in two words, for me it would be “Car troubles”. I swear I spent more on auto repair in the first third of this year than I ever have just freakin’ OWNING a car. All four of my tires had to be replaced, my alternator failed and my car literally just SHUT OFF while I was driving, and I was barely able to coast into a gas station. Both my front breaks and rear breaks were worn down the metal and I only learned this when my car was barely able to stop after I had to slam the petal down full force! I went in for an oil change, and they found some problems and then I didn’t get my car back for three days! I don’t even like owning a car! I hate driving! I hate my country’s refusal to provide universal, free public transportation! I NEVER ASKED FOR THIS!

Oh-kay… number 2. Finish some song comics. I didn’t finish any. But that doesn’t mean I didn’t work on them. I have made tiny progress, but that’s certainly better than no progress. One of these song comics I hope to be realizes is going to be a collab with one of my friends. It’ll be a long-time coming as it’s pretty low priority for the both of us, but if anyone else out there was disappointed with KH3’s ending, we’re gonna have ya’ covered… With SONG!

3. Make some redbubble art. I actually did this one! Not in the way I expected, but I added (technically) 3 new designs to my redbubble in the middle of the year. If you like butterflies and dragons, I got some product for you~!

Number 4, finish a script for a game I want to make. I… thought about this. I thought about this a lot, but I never put pen to paper, so… oops. It almost happened! I debated making this my main writing project for NaNoWriMo this year, but ended up having more inspiration for another story. Maybe next year? (god, I hope not. I don’t want to wait a full year just to write something)

Number 5, practice ASL. I just straight up didn’t do this and I only have myself to blame. Still keepin’ up that Danish Duolingo streak, though. 4 years going strong and not a day missed yet.

Number 6, sew some stuffed animals. Again, another one I just straight up didn’t do, but I have an excuse of trying to save money while my car crashed and burned in every other sense except literal this year. Hopefully 2020 will be different. I’ll definitely be able to pay off this last loan within the first half of 2020, and then I can start saving for whatever I want to buy.

Finish some fan fictions was number 7, and I did this! Well, I only finished, 1, but it was a story I’ve been working on for over 3 years, and it came out to over 200 THOUSAND words long, which is the longest thing I’ve ever written, and I’m quite proud of myself. Now that the big story is out of the way, and I’ve gotten into a good rhythm of working on Ghost Switch, maybe I can squeeze in some short writing sessions more frequently. (either that, or just wait for my car to break down again and then go on a writing spree in a pepboys. The lord and the fan fic discord know that’s solely why I finished my other fic this year)

Speaking of Ghost Switch, working on it was a goal this year too, and I did that! I kept it up all year and took a vacation in November and it was wonderful. While the major plot points have been in place since before I started drawing, I still need to script each arc beyond Snowdin, but hey, by the time we get there, it’ll be 2022 so I got time. (Note, don’t do this, kids. Script your stories and comics thoroughly before publishing. The road I’m on is paved with misery and pain and it will only end in tears unless I change lanes soon)

Number 9, amvs. Do people make AMVs anymore? Idk… the last one I made was... Jesus, 5 years ago? (it was a gravity falls/fall out boy crossover, if you were curious) I’ve been wanting to do 2 more for just as long, but in order for me to do that, I’d have to spend time re-watching the shows to find the footage, and then actually edit them together, and I just don’t…. feel like it. Maybe someday, but not any day soon.

10; do some original writing. I did this! For nanowrimo! I wrote the first draft of some original fiction I’ve been planning for a year or two now and it completely sucks! But it’s on paper now and I’m happy. Will I revise and edit it? Sure, but not for a while. I want to let it sit and forget about it and look at it with new eyes months from now so I can be sure I can make it better when time comes to rewrite.

11, make illustrations for my fan fics. Now that You Monster is done, I want to go back and add pictures to it. I didn’t do any this year, but I did keep a list of scenes I wanted to draw, so I have plenty of ideas to do as warm up sketches next year~ I kinda want to stream them~

So, that was 11 goals, and I successfully fulfilled 4 of them! That’s! Not a very good ratio… QmQ So, goals for 2020. Some I’m gonna keep from this year, some I’m gonna drop and some I’m gonna add. In short I would like to,

1) Finish paying off that last student loan 2) Put more stuff on my redbubble 3) Illustrate my own fan fics 4) Sew at least one stuffed animal 5) Make an enamel pin 6) Read one new book a month 7) Write one page a day/Complete at least one new fan fic 8) Learn Python or C# for the game I want to make 9) Finish fully scripting Ghost Switch 10) Boost my patreon

Most of these I think are pretty self-explanitory, but I’ll go into detail just a bit because I’m on a roll and typing my thoughts helps me feel less alone in the middle of the night when you’re super tired and you know you should probably go to sleep, but the toddler in you is throwing a tantrum and doesn’t wanna go to sleep just yet, but you can’t fight the progression of time either way.

Number 1- I should be able to reach this goal by the end of March. End of June at the absolute latest. Once that goal is met, my secret new year’s resolution will be unlocked as well!

Number 2- I want to put more art of my OCs on redbubble. These OCs are tied to the game I want to make. There’s already some art of them up there, but I want at least one piece for each character.

Number 3- Mostly for You Monster. Embrace the cardinal rule of fan fic and apply it to fan art. If you want to read about see art about certain ideas, scenarios, or what-ifs, you gotta make it yourself.

Number 4- I have 3 potential ideas to sew. One is definitely leagues easier than the other two and will probably be chosen if/when I have the time and materials.

Number 5- This year I got really, REALLY into the idea of making enamel pins. Unfortunately it’s a pretty big investment (like, $350 to make 100 pins you might not even sell). If this happens, it’ll probably be towards the end of the year, and if I get enough interest. I’m currently torn between making an original enamel pin and one based off Undertale. We’ll just have to see where this goes.

Number 6- Back in 2018 when I paid off one of my many student loans, I rewarded myself by spending over 200 dollars in used books. All these books had a theme; they were focused on dragons because I have a problem. I have not yet read a single one of these books I have bought, and I would like to fix that. I have, like, 20 unread dragon books, and even if I only read 12 out of 20, I would consider that an amazing accomplishment and money well spent.

Number 7- I currently have about 8 different WIPs I could work on. (well, I don’t know if I can even call them wips. More like, a general idea and a title written down.) I want to build good writing habits, and if I can write just 200 words a day, hell, even 200 words a week and just one of my 8 stories done, I would consider this goal met.

Number 8- I’m torn between making my game in unity or ren’py. I know jack shit about both. Ren’py is more user friendly, but unity will allow me more customization. (Lol, can you guess what kind of game I want to make yet?)

Number 9- I really just want the full story to be done and written incase anything goes horribly terribly wrong in my life and I find myself unable to continue making ghost switch in comic form. Then at least I can finish the story by other means, you know?

Number 10- It always surprises me every month when I get that patreon email saying I got paid. Sure, I don’t even make double digits on it, but it still awes me enough to know that people out there like my work enough to throw me a tip. I can’t thank my patrons enough for supporting me and I hope to one day be in such a good place I can update my comic/song comics/writing frequently enough without need for goals or milestones. But until that magical day arrives, money is always a great incentive for anything, I suppose. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

ALRIGHT. PART 2 OF 2: SHIT THAT HAPPENED TO ME IN 2019

Cheesus crust what a year. This year started off great! Back in late January Kingdom Hearts 3 FINALLY released, and let me tell you a little story. Back in the summer of 2006 I was a 13 year old middle schooler with no way of making money other than by doing house hold chores at a rate of 25 cents a task. A few weeks ago, I had a sleep over at a friend’s house and they let me play this weird game called “Kingdom Hearts” and god, I was instantly hooked on it. That summer, I did over 800 chores, enough to earn myself 200$ and buy myself a playstation 2 (just in time for the ps3 to come out, gg me) The only games I had for the ps2 were KH1, 2, Re:CoM and Okami, and I beat them all… except Okami. Miffed that the PS3 wouldn’t allow for backwards compatibility, little 13-year-old me made a promise. I looked myself in the mirror and said “I will not buy the next playstation console until KH3 comes out, AND BOY that was probably a good choice for me to make with my level of gaming. I’m even less of a casual gamer than the average casual gamer, but I have been waiting 13 years for this piece of closure, and I even told my friends and family that “the day Kingdom Hearts 3 comes out is the day I will buy a playstation 4”. My dad apparently thought this was the funniest shit, because he literally took the day off from work that Friday to drive me on base to get the game and console (he thought it would be less crowded than a regular walmart, I suppose). I paid $400 on a ps4 pro while he bought me the game. Again, I have an impecible sense of timing seeing as the PS5 is now right on the horrizion, but just like before, I’m not buying a new console until the next KH game is released. See you in 2045, sony~. While I was at the gamestop on base, I also picked up Okami HD and The Last Guardian. For all of February and even early March, I took my time playing through KH3. And…! It was the best disappointment I’ve ever played. After a month away from gaming, I started The Last Guardian and finished it in a couple weeks. I love trico and would die for him, but trying to get 100% completion on that game is udder insanity. Okami, HD, however… again after a month break after finishing TLG, I started replaying Okami. I think I had only managed to get about halfway through the game before I just… stopped playing it on my ps2 version. I am currently SO CLOSE to getting a 100% on the ps4 version. In fact, I’ve beaten the game. I only (techinically) need 2 more trophies to be done; 1st, escape the water dragon without being eaten, 2nd, I need to beat that dumb stupid race with Kai, in order to get the last bead on my rosary, as well as the top dog trophy. I hate her so much. I hate this race so much. It’s awful and bad.

Flash forward to December! Earlier this month I was at Barnes and Noble, buying myself a planner for 2020. I exit the store and notice that there’s a gamestop across the street. For shits and giggles I go inside to look at their game selection, and I find KH 1.5 and 2.5. Now, my PS2 died a few years back (it just won’t read my discs anymore, I don’t know why) and I haven’t been able to replay any of my other kingdom hearts games since. If you had seen me the day I finished kingdom hearts 3, after the ending credits rolled, you would have heard me say “Man…. I wish I could play kingdom hearts 2 again”. AND NOW I CAN, ALONG WITH BBS which I had never even played yet, but knew the story of. I’ve restarted playing kh1, and I was so happy to hear that familiar music when I booted the game up for the first time. While at the game stop, I also picked up Rime and Tearaway, two games that had looked interesting to me. At the time of writing, I’ve finished Rime and am 25% done with tearaway. Rime was…. An interesting experience. I learned about it through Jacksepticeye’s channel a couple years back and thought the art style was enticing. For a super casual gamer like me, I found the puzzles just the right level of challenging and exploring was a blast! The music gave me VERY strong Princes Mononoke vibes, but the overall story left something to be desired. Overall I had fun, and enjoyed completing this game to 100%. Now for tearaway. Can I just say this game is super fucking adorable? I know the original was on the ps vita and the gameplay there was arguably more diverse and imaginative, but this game is just so fucking cute I don’t care?? ALSO, this game’s sound track is ABSOLUTELY incredible and I’ve only heard the first fourth of it! Listen to The Orchards, Pig Riding, and Gibbet Hill Pilgrimage for a taste of their wonderful beats and fantastic use of string and woodwinds! God, I’m so excited to get some more games in 2020. I’m proud to say I currently own more ps4 games than I ever did with my ps2 (and now the majority AREN’T Kingdom Hearts titles!), and I’m still hoping to play Journey, The Witness, and Abzu before everything becomes ps5.

What else happened to me this year. Oh, I went to a doctor for, like, the first time in seven years. I also had my blood drawn for the first time ever, and the nurse said the most disturbing thing to me while she did it. Now, whenever I get shots, I refuse to look. I did that here. So she thought it would be appropriate to say to me “Can you feel your blood leaving your body?” Lady… You can clearly see I am uncomfortable with what is happening here. Why, of all the things you could say, did you choose to say that. Unfortunately, while my doctor is nice, she keeps wanting to run tests on me, that I just cannot afford with my current salary, and my monthly insurance is about to go up to 200$ a month, so I’ve cancelled my next appointment with them, and don’t plan to go back until it’s absolutely necessary. Capitalism is fun, guys. Preventative healthcare is for wusses.

I started going to a chiropractor on a monthly basis. Story time- I don’t know when it started, but sometime late last November I began to notice that I had a headache that just... wasn’t... going away? And each day it was starting to get a little worse. It made it hard for me to find a comfortable position to sleep, it made it hard for me to be in bright areas or move fast. So I said to myself “Okay, if this headache persist through the month of december, then something is proooobably wrong and I should go see someone about it. And hoo-boy were thing wrong with me. By the time this January rolled around, I couldn’t even stay on my feet for more than a few hours without it physically hurting to just BREATHE. So I started going to this chain called The Joint (A+ name, I know). THey aksed me “How are you doing?” I said “I’m in pain” and they said “We can help fix that!”. I’ve only been to a chiropractor once before in my life a few years back after my freshmen year of college because I began to notice my hips weren’t able to support me? LIke, I would lie on my back, and I couldn’t push my hips up when my feet were flat on the floor. I also couldn’t climb anything steep, because my legs just couldn’t push me up if my knee had to bend more than 90 degrees when I lifted my leg up. (Turned out both my hips were apparently out of place). This time only one of my hips were out of place (which they fixed. they said one of my legs was an inch “longer” than the other because I had been leaning all my weight on one leg when I stand). But two of my ribs were apparently “Stuck” which was why it was hurting for me to just breathe, and one of my shoulders was missaligned too, causing one of my trap muscles to constantly be streched, which was pulling on my skull, and causing the headache. Anyway, after they popped all my bones back into place, I still felt terrible, but by god, that night was the first time in weeks I was able to sleep without a migrane. A chiropractor can’t magically heal your arthritis, or fibro, but I definately think they have merit to keeping your posture good and helping your body with things like circulation. 10 outa 10, would recomend. It’s all the fun of getting your neck snapped without the dying!

Earlier this month I got together with two of my friends and we baked Christmas cookies. It was a lot of fun, as well as a great learning experience. A member of my family has a gluten allergy, so we used rice flour for most of the cookies. We learned this is a bad idea! The cookies will just fall apart! A few member’s in one of the friend’s family have nut allergies. Other friend and I knew this and were careful to avoid cookie recipes with nuts, bUT THEN COMPLETELY FORGOT THAT ALMOND MILK AND ALMOND EXTRACT COUNT AS NUT. IN FACT, ALMOND EXTRACT IS PURE CONCENTRATED NUT JUICE AND WE FELT SO BAD FOR ALMOST ACCIDENTALLY POISONING THE FAMILY.

Earlier this year me and these same friends took a field trip to Hobby Lobby and just dicked around the store for a couple of hours. It was super fun, 11 outa 10, would recommend, a great date idea for your artsy S.O.

Back in May I went to a wedding for the first time in my life. (well, not true, but the first one I could remember) we left at 5am, drove 5 hours to get there, hung out at a zoo and spent the night in a la quinta before the wedding day. I slept on the bathroom floor because my mom was snoring too loud in the main room and keeping me awake, and the rest of the day was just spent me trying to keep myself together because I was pissed off and tired.

Other than all of that, nothing really major happened to me this year. I guess one more thing I’ve tried to do this year is started the process of breaking certain internet addictions so I can use my free time for more personal projects. Seriously, I found myself watching way too much youtube and following blogs that didn’t even make me happy. I had a personal intervention with myself where I sat down and asked myself, “why do you watch these videos and youtubers? Why do you follow these blogs? Do you really enjoy their content? Do you really care? If you stopped watching/following them, would you even notice?” After critically thinking it over, I’ve found myself unfollowing several channels and blogs and suddenly I feel so much happier. I thought I would miss it, but I realized I didn’t really care if I saw their content or not. I wasn’t missing much. And now I feel like I have more time to draw, read and write. If you think you spend too much time consuming and not enough time creating, I suggest you try and de-clutter your internet habits as well. It’s done wonders to un-fuck my headspace.

And… well, that about sums up my year. How are your holidays going? Anything fun, exciting, dramatic happen to you this year? I hope your new year is warm and safe! Good night, everybody!

#new year's resolutions #year in review #long post #(seriiously this think is like 3k words)

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bronanlynch · 5 years ago

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Orchard, quilt, cocoa

orchard - share one thing that you’d like to happen this autumn. the boring answer is I wanna get a job, a more interesting answer is. Idk lots of things, I wanna make an alucard castlevania cosplay since I’ll have access to a sewing machine again, and I wanna spend lots of time petting my future roommates’ cats, and I wanna watch black sails w you, and I wanna fix my sleep schedule and do nanowrimo and stand in the ocean and figure out how to exist without classes + essay deadlines

quilt - how do you take your tea (or coffee)? tea, either with honey or with sugar and milk depending on what type of tea it is, I’m fond of fruity herbal teas or decaf earl grey (or any kind of decaf black tea tbh) (the milk is optional, the honey or sugar is not, same w coffee when I have it, which is Always decaf when I do bc I Cannot handle caffeine lol)

cocoa - if you could have any type of hair, what colour and cut would you have? either blue or silver would be p cool and I’m a fan of the one side shaved/just above shoulder length on the other side look but also if I’m being honest with myself I just want it maybe waist-length or like. to my lower back and honestly I like the color that it is naturally like. I wouldn’t mind if it was a lil more blond/gold for that peak blond pretty boy look but. I like that my hair as it is, is kinda different colors depending on the lighting

#thanks!#about me #answered #teacupnatasha

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melanoradrood · 6 years ago

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Monday Update

I haven’t done one of these in a while... maybe that’s why I fell off the wagon repeatedly.

NANOWRIMO

Fuck it. I fucked myself. I fucked myself hard. New gameplan for that project - I’m going to work on it slower, working on it when I KNOW that I have two hours to just sit down and hammer out a scene. Idk when I’m going to start posting it on AO3, but I’m going to keep working on it, because I love the idea, but I just can’t do it that fast.

SECRET SANTAS

Yup, I joined a secret santa project! So, I have to work on that one, but I won’t be posting about that, other than to say whether or not I’m done, I guess. THAT STATED, I’m also going to add the damerey gift project under this header for now - on the damerey blog, we’re doing a gift to the fandom type of thing, and I plan on participating in that as well, so yeah! I’m also going to try and join one other fandom’s secret santa, but it’s not for star wars, so idk if any of my followers care?

DAMEREY CONNECTION

I need to fill up the queue and get that gift project going, for sure. I just need to make a banner??? Can someone else make me a banner? I am just not feeling very photoshop able lately.

WRITING

I have to get something onto paper. I need to get writing again. Idk what it’s going to be, but I plan on posting at least two things on ao3 this week, whether it’s a short thing OR the start of a big thing, idk. I need a few calm hours to sit down and just write, I think. Maybe look through my google drive and just pick a project and go with it?

REAL LIFE

are you following me on instagram? You can see what I’m up to, baking or sewing or creating, over on insta. Just shoot me a message, and I’ll give you the link!

Y’all have a good week. Christmas officially starts, in my eyes, next week, so this is the last week to get your shit together!

xoxo wine mom

#monday check in

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sometimesrosy · 6 years ago

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story idea anon here! Im not 100% about everything I said exactly but to recap: I have a story idea for basically a series (5 books) and I’ve had it for awhile. The thing is, it’s sci-fi, which pretty much needs plot driven writing. I’m not good at that. It doesn’t make me wanna write. I’m good at character/feelings/relationship driven writing and that’s what makes me want to write and move the story forward. But I don’t wanna give up on the book just because I don’t know how to adapt.

(2) Obviously, because in order for things to happen, the plot is the thing that needs to move forward chapter to chapter in this kind of fiction. I know that. But it doesn’t seem to excite me, at all. I get excited about the slow burn I have mapped out, the story lines that will go on and complete each other from the first to the last chapter, the twists, the romance, the friendships and unexpected partnerships, the cliffhangers etc. All of it. But writing the things the characters are doing?

(3) As in plans and action scenes and fighting and bad guys and whatever? Nothing. It just seems like a chore and makes me procrastinate on moving forward. But I’ve had this idea for so long and I really like it and I really want to tell this story, I just don’t know how to do it right. Do I make it more character/feelings/relationship driven even though it doesn’t necessarily fit the genre? Do I power through the parts I don’t like even though it will make the process last longer? Do I change

(4) stuff? Do I try to change myself and my style? I don’t wanna just give up. Please help. (also i dont know if i’ve been on anon or not cause i just kinda started typing and didnt really stop)

Okay. Sorry for not answering this yesterday when I asked you to send in the missing #1 ask, but I had to do all sorts of other stuff and didn’t have the focus. Now it’s morning and i’m in writing brain, so let’s go.

All right, so it seems like you are struggling with the conflict between what you WANT to write and what you think you’re SUPPOSED to write.

The key to this struggle is to always let the WANT win over the SUPPOSED TO. Oh, well that sounds like I’m advocating complete and total writing anarchy! Who needs plot! Who needs structure! Nah I’m not. Not really.

BUT I am saying that you need to write the story you NEED to tell, the one that’s humming below your skin. Write the story you want to tell. Write the things that make you passionate. Write the things you’re good at.

Now this doesn’t mean ignore the plot or genre or the things you’re bad at. Facing the frisson of your fears and insecurities and struggles adds a tension to your work and leads you into new places that will surprise even you. So one of the things you can do when stuck between WANT and SHOULD is learn how to BALANCE them.

Okay, that doesn’t sound like letting the want win, but that’s how I work.

FIRST. FORGET ABOUT GENRE REQUIREMENTS. I mean, don’t. You know the world you’re writing in and the rules you have to follow. You know what you love about it, work with that. But it’s not as strict as you’re thinking it is. You get to BEND the rules, without actually breaking them. Sure, we love sci fi because of the action and ideas… and sure, i personally might have given up on the literary fiction genre because I was SO bored of it, but if you take the character and language driven style of literary fiction and combine it with the plot and concept driven style of sci fi, what you have is a DAMN FINE STORY. You see what I’m saying? You can use the best parts of BOTH to make your story better. BALANCE.

You don’t have to sacrifice who you are as a writer to write a particular genre. It’s part of you and it’s your voice and what makes you unique. I’ll tell you a secret. I’m actually a poet. I don’t write much poetry anymore, but I take my poetry and put it into my science fiction and fantasy. My whole writing style is based on, basically, the poetry of the world. I may not give each sentence the attention I would a poem, but the impulse is still there, even if the genre is miles away from what I’m writing. And that makes for a better story. Sometimes I think I’m a better fiction writer than poet PRECISELY because I use my poetry IN my fiction.

You aren’t WRONG as a sci fi writer because you like to focus on emotions and characters and relationships. You’re a sci fi writer with character driven stories. I guarantee you that people like that. Not all people. And some people will complain that it’s not hard enough or science fictiony enough or too girly or whatever, but, honestly, WHO CARES? Don’t write for everybody. You can’t please everybody. Write for yourself.

I personally prefer my science fiction to be character driven and I prefer to have some element of love in there, and I need to be able to connect to the characters emotionally. I think this is one reason why I prefer women writers. And one reason why I stopped listening to male critics about “What makes sci fi sci fi.” Because frankly, I’m more interested in how society works and how characters move within society than I am in whether or not my FTL space travel could conceptually work or the intricacies of war and weaponry. If boys want to play technology war in space, they can. I want to find out how that war affects my characters when it’s over and they have to keep living. Now what?

Oh. In case you didn’t catch that, there is definitely a gender driven status thing within the sci fi community that invalidates women’s stories and glorifies men’s stories, so please make sure that’s not what’s in your head while you are critiquing the kind of story you want to tell. Because if NK Jemisin’s THREE consecutive Hugo awards, and the backlash against her winning them, is not proof that we WANT the different stories, and how some people don’t want us to tell them, then I don’t know what is.

The sci fi and fantasy genre is always changing and shifting to allow for new ideas and ways of writing. That’s what it’s for. It’s speculative. And we like new ideas. There is lots of room for experimentation. There’s lots of room for alien thinking. lol. you see what I did there? The point is, sci fi is about new and different concepts and where they could take us. Go ahead and invent your own genre. Or maybe you’re not inventing it, and it’s already there as a subgenre and you never noticed. There is actually a sci fi romance subgenre, and it’s a subgenre of romance I think. I don’t tend to prefer it because it follows the tropes of romance rather than sci fi, but you can also write sci fi that focuses on romance, like Sharon Shinn. Her stories are very romantic. But definitely sci fi.

Okay, so that’s some conceptual stuff I want you to think about in regards to your writing process and style. But I also have some practical suggestions/tips/hints that might help you get over your hump. I’ve got two in my mind right now, lets see if I can come up with any others as I go along.

One trick. What I do sometimes, is to set up the overall, grand scheme plot, and really have no idea how I’m going to get there. Like that part you’re talking about, writing about what the characters are doing? None of that is set up. When I get there, I enter into the character motivations. Feelings, thoughts, backstory, personality, goals, desires, fears. ALL of these things are what move my plot forward. Because what I keep asking is, “how would this character react to this situation.” Now if I’ve done my job with character building then I will KNOW because I know my characters history and personality, and I can power the story with their growth and struggles. The question is always, “What Would MC Do?” I drive my plot forward by following my characters through the world I set up and basing their decisions on who they are. Some of them are emotional. Some of them are logical. Some of them are angry, some are pacifistic. All those characters are interacting with each other and shifting the story this way or that. This causes tension and gives us problems to solve and ways to solve it. You pick the ones that get you to your endpoint. Sometimes I think I’ve taken myself AWAY from my planned ending and I’m like, oh well, I guess I need a different ending. And then I get to the ending and, like magic, everything I set up starts falling into place and what I originally planned and thought had failed has been building all along. (GOOD JOB, SUBCONSCIOUS!) That has happened to me TWICE in the past year.

Another trick. This came from a twitter post where someone was saying how she wanted to just write stories about WLW in love, but she didn’t have a plot. And I said. What do you mean you don’t have a plot? That’s your plot. Love is the answer. Love is the goal. Obstacles to love are what your characters need to fight through. Love is how your characters find strength. I said, make love the super power. Make the villain be the one who is trying to kill love, whether individually or on a universal level. For sci fi there are so many ways to do that. Maybe they’re trying to create a solely logical universe. Maybe they’re cyborgs. Maybe they want to kill a planet that the MC loves, IDK. Use your imagination. Fit it to your story. Don’t create an obstacle and plot that doesn’t connect to your desire for character and relationships and love. MAKE YOUR PLOT ABOUT THAT LOVE. It’s sci fi, you can invent the technology to make it real. Or magic if you’re doing fantasy. IMO it’s the same thing.

Oh here’s another thing. Maybe you need to stop listening to your doubts and internal editor so much, telling you that what you’re writing isn’t right. The thing that helped me get over that obsession with doing it wrong was actually nanowrimo, which I did for the first time in 2006. If you’ve done it before, or if you haven’t, you might be ready to take on this challenge to write a novel in the month of november this year, for this project. You’ve been thinking about it a lot. It sounds like you’re ready. And if you have to focus on getting the wordcount done, and you start focusing on character instead of plot, you won’t have time to get worried about whether you’re being too charactery and not ploty enough. (how is charactery a word but ploty isn’t? anyway.) And then by the time you’ve written it, you can read it over and decide if your plot is thin or it doesn’t move you forward enough, and THEN you can ADD IN THE PLOT ELEMENTS that you don’t write in your process. WHAT? Or you can remove some of the slower character driven stuff and just use it for your character development. Or even take it out and turn it into a short story. THIS is the writing process. The revision process. Just write your little heart out, and then go back over it to add in the elements you’re missing and remove the things that don’t move the story forward.

TL;DR Whatchutalkin’ bout nonny. You’ve got a plot. You’ve mapped it out. It’s character driven. Stop doubting yourself. If you want more action, stick it in there. Make it relationship/character driven. Don’t change yourself. Make it work.

ps. i answer questions here about writing, no problem, but i have a writing blog where i try to collect posts (mine and others) about writing, and art and creativity @rosy-writes so if you want to follow or scroll that it might be more focused, although this blog is more active.

#writing advice #rosy-writes #amwriting #writeblr #writing sci fi #plot #character driven #writing practice #internal editor

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thewritenerd · 4 years ago

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Victor and Adam: NANOWRIMO Day 1

He heard his mother sigh and could picture her shaking her head clearly in his own. ‘Victor darling I know it seems a long time. But I know what you’re like, especially when you get an idea. If you don’t start preparing now you’ll never be ready. Speaking of plans, are you working on anything at the moment?’ ‘Nothing that’s gotten past the first stage,’ he replied. His mother made a humming sound but said nothing else. ‘There’s something else isn’t there?’ ‘Well I don’t know if you’ve made a decision yet but do you plan on bringing, oh what was his name, oh right Adam.’ Victor pinched his nose and sighed. ‘I’m not sure. I guess I could ask Igor to watch him for a few days.’ ‘Well let me know as soon as you can, I still need to plan seating arrangements.’ Her tone was still light but there was a clear strain to it. Victor knew she didn’t want Adam to come and he wasn’t big on the idea himself. ‘Well I’ll let you get back to work.’ His mother continued. ‘Bye bye.’ ‘Goodbye mother. Say hello to father for me.’ With that he hung up.

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It was getting dark by the time Adam got home from school. Victor could hear him talking to Igor as they approached the door. The sound was muffled so he couldn’t make out what was being said but from his tone Victor could tell the boy was very excited about something. Once the footsteps reached the door they stopped. Victor heard Igor say something then the heavier of the two footsteps walk away. Quickly picking up a pen Victor began writing, so as to make it seem he hadn’t just been staring at a wall for hours, as the door opened and Igor stepped in. ‘Will you be having dinner in the dining room or your office?’ he asked. ‘I’ll be having it in the dinning room. I need a change of scenery.’ Igor nodded. ‘It’ll be ready the usual time.’ He left muttering about how moving from one room of the house to the next did not count as a “change of scenery”. Victor ignored this and instead busied himself with clearing up his desk. At six exactly he made his way to the dinning room where Adam was already sat at one end of the table. Victor set himself down at the other as Igor came in carrying their dinner. Salmon, potatoes, carrots and asparagus all swimming in a sweet-smelling sauce. Once he’d set the plates down Igor set about pouring their drinks. Wine for Victor, white obviously, and water for Adam. Victor began eating without a word, Adam on the other side seemed very eager to talk. Telling Victor all about his new school and two kids he’d made friends with. Eventually Victor cut in, ‘If you’re not going to eat anything you should leave the room.’ Gesturing to Adam’s nearly full plate. Adam’s head dropped and continued eating his dinner in silence. Victor could feel more than see Igor glowering at him. Once their plates were cleared Igor cleared the table. ‘Shall I bring out your dessert now?’ he asked. ‘Yes. But only a small bowl for me.’ Victor replied. Igor then turned to Adam who shook his head and began to stand up. ‘I’m not hungry.’ He said as he began to leave. ‘Well if you get hungry later come to me.’ Igor called after him, before turning to face Victor. ‘I may not be an expert on children. But I do know when someone is eager to tell you something you can at least pretend you care. You didn’t even listen to a word he said,’ he scolded. ‘I did.’ Victor argued. ‘To some of it,’ he added under the weight of the old mans glare. Igor shook his head and made his way to the kitchen. ‘I know you’re not happy about current events. But there’s no need to take it out on the one person who had no say in any of this.’ Victor opened his mouth to say Adam didn’t really count as a person but decided against it. Igor was a difficult man to anger, but an unpleasant one if you unfortunate to do so. And he seemed to have grown rather attached to the boy.

Adam

Once in his room Adam shut the door, it had taken a good amount of self-control not to slam it, Adam sat down at his desk. He didn’t have much in the way of decorations. Or stuff in general. But he did have a computer. An old clunky thing not too dissimilar to the ones he’d seen in the school IT room. He had sat next to Chelsea and the two of them had spent their lesson setting up social media accounts for Adam. Or at least during the moments when the teacher hadn’t been looking. Chelsea insisted he should get all the ones ve and Nate used. ‘So we can share meme’s with you. And tag you in stuff,’ ve’d explained. The hardest part had been thinking of a username. Eventually he’d settled on JustAdam, Adam had already been taken. He didn’t have a description or a profile pic on any of his accounts, nor did he know what to put. Deciding to check his friends accounts for ideas he typed Chelsea’s url TaxidermyPrincess. Ver icon was a photo of verself wearing a green scarf made of feathers and ver lips pursed as if waiting for someone to kiss them. Ver description was a long one and just looking at it made his head spin. He tried Nate’s profile ? next. Nate’s icon was a picture of a spiral and his description was brief; Nate, 16, he/him, future mathematician, current school boy. More about me. The last part was a link Adam was just about to click on when a loud sound made him jump. Noticing a blue dot had appeared next to one of the icons at the top of the screen he clicked on it. Seeing he had a message from Chelsea he clicked on it.

Hey saw you were online. I’m bored. Wanna chat?

Adam started typing his reply.

Sure. What about?

IDK anything happening with you?

IDK?

You saying you don’t know what’s happening or are you asking me what IDK means?

What it means.

I don’t know

Why did you say it if you don’t know what it means?

No it means I don’t know.

….

Adam Frankenstein are you messing with me!

Maybe

Sitting at his desk Adam was grinning from ear to ear. Igor loved that kind of joke, pretending to be a confused old man when really he knew exactly what was going on. It could be frustrating at first but once he’d clocked on Adam found them very amusing.

You’re a bad friend you know that.

Adam’s grin fell.

I only meant it as a joke. I do it all the time with Igor I didn’t mean to upset you.

Hey it’s fine. I was joking too. Also who’s Igor?

He’s

He frowned. What was Igor. He worked for his dad but that was all Adam knew. Eventually he replied.

He looks after me.

Isn’t that your dads job?

No he’s a. Well he says he’s a scientist. But he never said what kind.

A biologist? He made you after all.

Maybe. I could ask. If he’ll listen.

Uh oh. Something happen?

I was just trying to make conversation at dinner and he didn’t listen to a word I said.

Ugh sucks ☹. Hey least you got me to talk to. And Nate.

Yeah I suppose.

Hang on I’m gonna find you something.

Ve spent the next few minutes sending Adam cat videos and best of clips of their favourite Let’s players. Which Adam watched as they talked. Eventually ve had to leave, Zoe, ver foster mum, wanted ver to help do some shopping. So Adam said goodbye before heading downstairs to grab himself some melon slices. As he was passing the front room he heard someone shouting. Stopping he leaned into the door, careful not to push against it as he did so. ‘Oh don’t give me that bull crap!’ he heard his father yell. ‘Old time’s sake my ass! You screwed up and I paid for it.’ There was a pause which was when Adam realised this was a phone conversation. ‘You’ll be wasting your time. And if you think I won’t strangle you into an inch of your life if you try to bring this up to my face you are very wrong indeed.’ Footsteps approached the door as Adam suddenly realised Victor was about to catch him eaves dropping. As quickly and quietly as he could, which with his stature wasn’t an easy thing to do simultaneously, he rushed to the kitchen disappearing just in the nick of time. The kitchen itself was empty. Igor having long ago retired to his room. Adam found the melon slices in the fridge. Igor always made sure there was some prepared ever since learning they were Adam’s favourite snack. He also found a can of Cream soda at the back. As he opened the can and took a swig Adam wondered what he could do next. Igor would probably open to another game of Chinese checkers. And maybe Adam could win more than one game this time. Or maybe he could go for a stroll around the ruins. No one had any problems with him going to the old dilapidated side of the castle as long as he didn’t try climbing any stairs.

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mercurialsmile · 7 years ago

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Another Update---What Now?

So. I finally won fucking NaNoWriMo I finished that shit 5 days early in fact. I’m pretty proud of myself but more than anything, I kinda wanna lay down and never open up google docs ever again.

That being said, rest is for the weak, I still have a lot of shit to do, so this post is kinda me organizing my ideas and spitting them out. When I talk/type out my ideas and share them, it helps me figure things out. Which is what this is, mainly.

As of right now, I still need to actually finish Mirroring Shadows (My NaNo novel) as tho it is now 50k words+, it’s not even halfway done yet. Kinda makes me wanna cry but that’s how it is I guess. Since I wanna get the “update every day during November” achievement for NaNo, I’ll prob end up still working on that until December 1st. Then I’m gonna take a break from Mirroring Shadows and return to it either when I am no longer sick of writing it and wanna continue it, or in January. We’ll see which comes first.

That being said, I will probably both be taking some breaks during most of December (both because of my current burned out-ness and also school shit) but once the semester ends, I’ll return to writing full-force hopefully unless my shitty mental health gets in the way.

During December, I hope to post a new BAP oneshot (this one is gonna be smut ;3c), chip away more at LiaL and try and get. SOMETHING done. At least a chapter. I hope. Aaand lastly, I will also be trying to finish Icarus. I’m more than halfway done with Icarus so we’ll see how that goes.

On top of all that writing mumbo-jumbo, I also wanna get to reading my first draft for my Counting Stars novel. As of right now, it is severely underwritten and a lot of it needs a complete rehaul and most likely, most of it will need to be rewritten from scratch.

I won’t get into the nitty-gritty writing process during December, tho. December will be me printing it out, reading its bullshit, hating it, and then marking it all up and figuring out a new outline for it. God. Fun. I guess. But not until 2018!

Now that NaNo is over, my main goal is, of course, “getting shit done that’s been sitting around.” I really wanna finish Icarus so I can be done with it and not have it on my plate anymore, I really wanna get back into the groove with LiaL so I can get that posted and put together again, and I ALSO am still applying edits to LiaFt.

AND ON TOP OF ALLLLL THAT STUFF I might be moving some of my fics over to WattPad. I haven’t decided quite yet. If I did, it would most likely be my more completed and... “”respectable”” fics. Sorry Triphile such as The Once Upon a Time Trilogy, Icarus, There’s Still No Cure For Crying, My Sincerest Apologies, and also some of my original works MINUS 30 Ways since 30 Ways is super old and misgenders Ophiel and I guess I should edit that but jesus that will take forever and I really don’t want to.

Idk. I’m throwing lots of ideas at the wall and most of them I’ll forgot. I’ll probably make a poll about whether or not I should post anything fanfiction related on WattPad, then do ANOTHER poll with what fics I should transfer over there.

Maybe. I might do that if I actually remember to do that.

Speaking of posting nonsense, I am debating on whether I wanna post Mirroring Shadows online. It might be a good idea to actually show my novels (or at least one lol) to people rather than just hope the charisma I totally have will interest people (note: I am being sarcastic. I am well aware my Charisma is like a -5 or smth).

Thing is, Mirroring Shadows isn’t done, I have no idea when it will be done, I am terrified of people ignoring my original writings as most people do bc it sucks I guess idk, and yeah. Which is why I am REALLY on the fence and will probably do a poll about this as well December is gonna be the month of polls I guess guys

Anyways. Yeah. That’s allll that’s up. I hope you can make sense of this gibberish I just typed out. There’s a lot of it.

ANYWAYS those are my plans, if you’re interested, want clarification, or have a question about something, just shoot me an ask, and I’ll be happy to answer it.

If not, if ya actually read through this entire post, like it so I know you read it please!

#shutuplanx #update

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pocketcucco · 7 years ago

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whining!!

idek WHY I bother participating in nanowrimo anymore because EVERY year, without fail, (okay except twice, 2007 and 2011) I’ve been miserable literally the entire time. I’ll start strong on day one and by day two I’ll be completely bored with whatever I’m writing and want to switch so I’ll either

a) tell myself to stick with it bc it’ll get better

b) switch to another story

or somethings c) just write a bunch of different things in one document

until I get to 50k. But EVERY SINGLE TIME I still hate whatever I’m writing and have to drag myself to the 50k mark. in 2015 I finally said fuck it, maybe I’m not cut out for writing anymore and didn��t write all month and sort of regretted it. I saw everyone else having fun and participated the next year but guess what?? hated what I wrote and dragged myself to the end of november

idk what’s wrong, like... I’ve tried different types of stories, different genres, different points of view and tenses, fanfiction and non fiction, everything, but I get the same results every time (except the two freak years). I keep wanting to get the magic back of 2007 and 2011 but I’m just not excited about my original writing anymore? I can’t get myself to care about my own characters or stories like I used to. like I stopped caring a few years ago when my depression was at its worst and even though I’m crawling out of that hole I’m still like bleh about my own ocs

which bums me out bc I lOVE hearing about my friends’ ocs and I used to love talking about my ocs and stories with friends. idk what happened. I want to love writing again and love my characters and love making stories

it’s only day two of nano and for the first time I’m so tempted to just give up

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feveredreams · 7 years ago

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this is a lot of questions indeedy

Tagged by @like-all-good-lions

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. At the end choose (we’re going with an arbitrary number) of people to be tagged.

LAST:

Last Drink: hot chocolate

Last Phone Call: My mom probs

Last Text Message: “you can’t go wrong, really”

Last Song You Listened To: Ariana Grande’s Into You, but 80s remix

Last Time I Cried: um. oh yeah watching that video about the woman who gave her kidney to her girlfriend, i was gay crying out of happiness.

HAVE YOU EVER:

Dated Someone Twice: pffffffffft this assumes a lot.

Been Cheated On: nah

Kissed Someone and Regretted It: nope

Lost Someone Special: not really.

Been Depressed: “been” depressed? wrong tense bud

Been Drunk and Thrown Up: Ya. promised myself I wouldn’t drink that much again but hey if that cute girl is at the party again I’m going to need some liquid courage...

IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

Made a New Friend: oh definitely

Fallen Out of Love: no

Laughed Until You Cried: not yet

Met Someone Who Changed You: for sure

Found Out Who Your True Friends Were: what does this even mean,,,is there a test they have to take?

Found Out Someone Was Talking About You: in a good way!

GENERAL:

How many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: erm. do friends who were irl friends first and then got on tumblr count? cuz then like, 5-ish

Do you have any pets?: two westies!

Do you want to change your name?: when I was a kid I wanted my name to be Jack. I’m cool with mine now tho

What time did you wake up this morning?: 8:30-ish

What were you doing last night?: writing for NaNoWriMo

Name something you cannot wait for: finding my people.

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yeah, there was a tom in high school who played trombone

What’s getting on your nerves rn?: myself

Blood type: honestly every time I ask my dad he makes me do a Punnett square so i have no clue

Nickname: Ni

Relationship status: single pringle, lookin to mingle

Zodiac sign: Pisces

Pronouns: She/her

Favorite tv show: You’re asking me to choose? good one. (the 100 before Lexa died, I guess)

College: Davidson College

Hair colour: dark brown, with occasional streaks of light brown/bronze in the sunlight

Long or short: it’s long af now (down to my lower back) but i’m cutting it tomorrow to abt shoulder length

Do you have a crush on someone: not one with feelings. I suppose it’s just attraction now, and testing the waters

What do you like about yourself: my weirdness, and general adaptability

FIRSTS:

First surgery: do wisdom teeth count? that was this summer

First piercing: has not happened and will not ever happen, probs

First best friend: a girl who lived down the street from me named Emma. Her mom had an enormous garden in the backyard and we’d pretend it was a jungle

First sport you joined: swimming I guess

First vacation: I think my parents took me to Disneyland when I was like, 5? idk, i wasn’t a conscious human then

First pair of sneakers: no idea.

Eating: i’m gonna say it was probably baby food, since that’s what babies eat.

Drinking: had hard apple cider and got tipsy. Then i went to college and got lit.

I’m about to: go the fuck to sleep, maybe write some more to hit word count for today

Listening to: the white noise of my space heater.

Want kids: depends

Get married: I suppose that’s the societally accepted idea. it’s got financial benefits plus you can call your s.o. “wifey”, so yeah

Career: what a good question! wish I had a straightforward answer. right now i’m on the track to be an environmental science major, and I’ve loved enviro and science since I was a kid so this is the logical, make a living plan. But I also need a creative outlet like I need oxygen, so being a writer would also be rad as fuck. but also probably not the best, financially.

WHICH IS BETTER:

Lips or eyes: EYES AS FUCK

Hugs or kisses: ..both?

Shorter or taller: I’m like, five foot, so everybody is taller than me

Older or younger: if i extrapolate from past data it turns out I like older women

Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous romance?

Sensitive or loud: these aren’t really opposites, but sensitive, I suppose

Hook up or relationship: relationship but I feel like a hookup is somehow more feasible.

Troublemaker or hesitant: the former is what I want to be, the latter is what I tend to be

HAVE YOU EVER:

Kissed a stranger: I wish

Drank hard liquor: heck yeah. beer is disgusting.

Lost glasses/contacts: glasses, yeah. I once wore a pair into the ocean somehow not realizing that this would, in fact, be a bad idea.

Sex on first date: depends.

Broken someone’s heart: not that I know of. broken my own heart, fo sure

Been arrested: nope

Turned someone down: not that I can think of

Fallen for a friend: I mean..kind of

DO YOU BELIEVE:

In yourself: at times, if I’m feeling reckless

Love at first sight: used to, but now I think it’s rather impossible. a nice thought!

Heaven: i’ll get back to u on that

Santa Claus: my parents never even told us he was real so.

Now you know. I know i tagged a bunch of ppl earlier for the other thing but hey....if you’re feeling down for it, no pressure

@randomnerd192 @bathed-in-m0onlight @jedifighterpilot2727 @fuckingmonet @seigetsu-ren @taylstorm @paint-and-suffering @takohime

#wow that was long #should've written some more for nanowrimo but #eh #answered ask #ask meme

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imagine-hamilfluff · 7 years ago

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The Night We Fell in Love

Thomas x Male Reader

Masterlist

Word Count: 3083

Request: Jefferson x Male Reader?

A/N: It’s officially Camp NaNoWriMo! And I promised one last imagine before I cut myself off from the imagine world to finish IIHMC (hopefully this month). I’m slightly cheating by posting this though, because I wrote it a really long time ago when I was inspired to, and it’s really far down on the request list, but it’s what you’re getting, lol. Fun fact! Thomas is my favorite character to write because his personality is just like my best friend’s, so it’s v easy for me, ha. (Also, I know the end is rushed but idk how to fix it, I’m sorry.)

Thomas tried to ask you out for a week before he gave up.

If you could call it giving up.

“Y/N, wait! I’m not asking for anything romantic at all. You’re clearly not interested, but my friends and I are going to this amazing jazz band tonight that you would love,” he talked rapidly as he threw his body in front of your to block you from walking out of the doorway. His eyes were wild, but his grin remained mischievous.

You studied Thomas. He was admittedly attractive, but he also wasn’t any different than the boys you had dated or hooked up with before. His smile would make anyone weak in the knees; his mind was probably keeping a mental checklist entitled “Pants I Want to Get In”. The connection with him would be breathtaking for a very limited amount of time, and the fallout from the relationship would never quite be healed. And beyond all of that, Thomas was also just kind of an asshole.

You had sworn off these boys so violently, just being within a foot of Thomas repulsed you.

A sigh escaped your lips as you contemplated Thomas’ offer. You had heard of the band, and actually was planning on making a point to go. Though Thomas had never been a part of that plan.

Gritting your teeth and suppressing a groan, you finally replied, “Maybe I’ll see you there.” Thomas’ face lit up, and you rolled your eyes pushing past him.

As you walked out the door, you heard his voice call out after you, “Don’t worry! I won’t do anything to make you fall in love with me tonight.”

Your face immediately flushed with heat, but you convinced yourself it was just anger. He was lucky you didn’t rescind decision right then and there. Instead you just walked faster and more determined towards your dorm.

When you returned to your dorm room, you heatedly relayed Thomas’ latest offer to your roommate. Alex gave a disappointed frown when he heard you were going to the band despite hating Thomas.

“I like the band anyway,” you defended yourself. But Alex just shrugged his shoulders from his bed.

“I just think you should avoid this Thomas dude altogether. He sounds like trouble and an ass.” Though you couldn’t disagree with Alex’s logic, you couldn’t seem to convince yourself not to go to the concert. Besides, you told yourself, if anything did happen tonight, what was one night with Thomas that you didn’t already endure with other guys? Not everyone could be as lucky as Alex and have a John.

As you went to leave the room later that night for the concert, Alex suddenly sat up from reading his book laying on his bed. “Hey, Y/N?” You turned around quizzically and met Alex’s eyes. “Don’t fall in love tonight.”

You scoffed at the proposition. “Alex, that is the last thing that’s going to happen to me tonight.”

But you were wrong.

When you arrived at the venue, you were quickly able to seek out Thomas and his friends. Introductions were made to Angelica, Abigail, George, and James. Thomas explained Abigail’s boyfriend John couldn’t make it, and you smiled at them all, hoping your smile didn’t look too forced.

Your group took up a whole table in the small club, and you got seated between James and--of course--Thomas. But the evening wasn’t near as hateful as you expected it to be. You almost effortlessly assimilated into their group of friends, and eventually you were able to relax so much you could hold a light conversation with Thomas… or maybe it was the alcohol that allowed you to do that.

Either way, you actually managed to enjoy yourself. And the band was definitely worth any torture Thomas could have put you through during the night. Though the alcohol was definitely beginning to have more of an effect on you, you noticed after you had a light banter with Thomas about the best musicians out there and both of your gazes lingered a little too long on each other. You must have been imagining the look in his eyes, however, for when you shook the moment off and looked back at him, he seemed completely unperturbed in a conversation with George.

At one point in the night, Thomas left to get another round, and Angelica and Abigail went to the bathroom. You sat silently and contemplatively, listening to the slow song that was currently playing. George across the table hummed softly along, when a voice began speaking beside you.

“So Thomas couldn’t get you either then, I take it?” James asked, with a sloppy grin on his face. The question caught you off-guard, but you quickly recovered with a small chuckle.

“Oh he tried,” you stated rolling your eyes. “You?”

With a smirk, James gave a little laugh. “Oh yes, he tried.” He looked at you like he was considering something, but then nodded at something out past your shoulder. You turned around and saw Thomas with hands filled with beer stopped halfway back to the table by a girl, and by the look in Thomas’ eyes, no one at the table was getting any more alcohol any time soon. “I wouldn’t worry about him anymore,” James commented lightly, “He’s moved on.”

With a mischievous grin to mask the sour feeling in your stomach, you turned back to James and noted, “I would, however, like him to come back to me long enough to get my beer.” A brilliant grin broke out on James’ face, and it unexpectedly made your insides warm and eased whatever was troubling you earlier.

Your conversation with James continued long into the night, and you found you both were essentially the same person. And it was just so infectious to meet someone you just automatically clicked with. You learned James didn’t actually go to your school, but one across the city. He made a point though to journey to this side for “good friends and company”, he worded it.

At the end of the night when you were you were all getting up to leave, Angelica snuck behind you and James and whispered “Get a room”. A blush immediately warmed your face, but not unpleasantly; James chuckled and put his arm around you as he stood up. Out of the corner of your eye, you noticed Thomas staring at you with an emotion you couldn’t quite pin.

No, you were sure you were just imagining it, for when your eyes met Thomas’, he held a light expression on his face, and began teasing you. “I told you, you would like this band,” he boasted with a wink, then quickly turned without another word and left the club.

You ignored the small pang in your stomach and focused instead on the amazing guy you just discovered: James. With a grin, you both exited the club with arms wrapped around each other.

It only took James three days after that to ask you out.

And now only three years later, you both were still happily together in a serious relationship; quite the opposite of your best friend Thomas, who was soon going to run out of people to bring home from the club, you were convinced.

“You know the deal,” Thomas said to you seriously as you laid sprawled out on the couch. “James gets you two nights a weekend; I get you one. We’re going to the club.” You groaned. You wished your boyfriend and best friend weren’t also good friends that could trade away your time. Though it did make things run pretty smoothly, you admitted to yourself regretfully.

“We never do anything but go to the club. I get drunk. You get drunk. You come home with the boy or girl of your choosing. You get laid. I call James because I’m bored. And then in the morning I make your night buddy breakfast, and send them on their merry way,” you complained, reciting exactly what happened every Saturday night. Thomas laughed, unable to deny the truth of it. He roughly sat down on top of you, and you shot him a glare.

“Well, that’s your own fault,” he stated simply. You looked at him confused. “You don’t have to make them breakfast,” he shrugged. You playfully tried to shove him off of you, but he just forced himself down on you until your foreheads were touching.

His eyes were so close to your face that they blurred, but you could still see his blue eyes gazing into yours. Your stomach flipped. He pulled this shit on you all the time, and for someone who had a steady boyfriend and loved said steady boyfriend, it should not have this type of effect on you.

But it did. It always did.

Reacting as you always did, however, you rolled off the couch pinning him under you. His breath caught from the fall, and he smirked. You felt his hands grab your waist, and you bit your cheek as you rolled your eyes. A neutral expression fought to keep its place on your face, as you were acutely aware Thomas was aware of you hardening on his hips. But as this wasn’t the first time either of you found yourselves in this situation, Thomas let out a brash chuckle. Keep it playful, you reminded yourself.

“Imagine if James walked in on us like this,” he teased you innocently. With a smirk, you leaned down until your lips were a fatal distance apart.

“He wouldn’t bat an eye, because he knows how much of a whore you are,” you responded with a gleam in your eye. With this, Thomas let out a loud laugh and let your hips go. You quickly jumped up and turned to walk towards your bedroom.

“A whore and proud,” Thomas proclaimed, still laughing. You gave out a little chuckle.

When you reached your bedroom door, you turned and made a face at Thomas. “Why did I ever agree to share an apartment with you?” you asked sarcastically, as well as contemplatively.

“They could make a show about us!” Thomas called after you as you shut your door, and you shook your head still laughing. “The Whore and the Prude! Only showing Saturday nights.” You laughed heartily at the joke and proceeded to change into clothes for the club when your phone started ringing.

You picked it up eagerly when you saw it was James. “Save me, we’re going to the club again,” you half joked with him, immediately as you answered the phone. There was a long pause.

“Hey, Y/N, I’ve been contemplating this for awhile…”

You don’t know how much time passed before Thomas knocked on your door.

“Dude, seriously, if we don’t leave soon, I’m not going to get-” He cut off as soon as he saw you curled up on the floor staring at your phone. He stood in the doorway waiting for you to say anything. Slowly, you let your eyes meet his.

“James, um… James just, uh… He.” You closed your eyes and sighed, and then reopened them to find Thomas’ worried face. “He just broke up with me,” you finally admitted, immediately averting your eyes as soon as the words hit the air. The silence hung for several seconds before Thomas spoke.

“He what?” You could feel his eyes on you, looking for you to contradict what you had just said, but you kept your eyes trained downward. Thomas’ eyes moved to the phone. “He broke up with you over the phone?” When you didn’t respond, he became indignant. “That utter bastard, I’m going to-”

“Don’t,” you said quietly. Thomas stopped and looked at you, pain in his eyes. “You’ll only make it worse.” It had been almost fifteen minutes now, and still not a single tear had fallen from your eyes. You felt numb. “Can I-” You stopped and swallowed quickly before continuing. “Can I get a raincheck on the club?” You looked up and met his eyes once again.

He looked at you with such empathy, it made you want to look away again, but you held his blue eyes with yours. “Of course,” he said simply. “I’ll stay home with you, so-”

“No,” you said a bit too harshly. Thomas looked taken aback, and you didn’t have the strength in you to look at him anymore. “I just need to be alone right now.” I just need to not be with you right now.

He stayed silent for a moment, then finally said, “Okay. Call me if you need anything.” You nodded mutely and listened as he slowly backed his way out of the room and eventually left the apartment.

You curled up once again, pushing your head into your knees. James’ words rattled around in your brain.

“I think we both know who you fell in love with that night.”

“I don’t hold it against you.”

“You two act more like a couple anyways.”

You had loved him. You knew you had. You wanted to marry him. You were going to pick out a ring. You were going to live out the rest of your lives together.

You paused. Weren’t you supposed to cry when someone you loved broke up with you? You shook the thought from your head. James was delusional. There wasn’t any way Thomas-

Thomas.

You had tried so hard not to think his name. But as soon as you did, your thoughts became overflowed.

Waking up to early morning violin practice, and coming out of your room groggily to a chipper Thomas. Having to cook almost every meal, because if Thomas cooked, you knew it’d be mac and cheese. Thomas complaining you didn’t eat enough mac and cheese. Having to put a blanket around his shoulders after he passed out while studying. Seeing Thomas walk around the apartment unperturbed after a shower with just a towel around his waist. His endless taunts and horseplay. Making breakfast for his overnight guests, but being the one who gets to stay with him when breakfast is over.

Of course you were in love with Thomas, you admitted to yourself for the first and only time. And only then did you allow yourself to cry. James was right.

After you allowed yourself to grieve over the fact you stayed with an amazing man for three years so you wouldn’t have to address your feelings for the annoying, arrogant man who would probably never settle down with anyone, you slowly moved yourself to the couch and put on a movie. Anything to ignore reality. You were half asleep when the door to the apartment opened and closed.

You weren’t sure what time it was, but you knew it was too early for Thomas to have brought anyone home. You sat up groggy and confused. And there was Thomas. Just staring at you helplessly.

Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion. “Thomas? What are you doing back so early?” you whispered for no reason.

He too, responded in a hushed voice. “It just didn’t feel right to leave you like this.”

His answer caught you off-guard, and you pondered it for a moment. “That’s very thoughtful of you, Thomas,” you responded, straining to keep the tears from exploiting themselves. “But don’t worry about me. I’m fine. Or I’ll be fine.”

His face looked pained. “No, I,” he grimaced and closed his eyes, rubbing the back of his neck with his hand. “I’m telling you I couldn’t bring someone back here while you’re here like this.”

You stared at him confused. Finally, you replied in the same tone, “And I’m telling you not to worry about me.”

He threw his hands up, and let out an exasperated sigh. You looked at him with wide eyes as he began pacing the living room, trying to figure out what was going on. When he finally calmed himself down, he stopped and looked at you with those wild blue eyes.

“When I say ‘leave you like this’,” he struggled to explain, “I don’t mean ‘leave you while you’re upset’.” He gave you a pointed look, but you still had no idea what he was talking about. He hung his head and buried it in a hand, and then he looked up at you and tried again. “I mean ‘leave you while you’re single’.”

You stared at him for a while, noting he was visibly cringing waiting for a reply. But you still didn’t quite understand.

“ ‘Leave you while you’re single’? Thomas… Just because I’m single doesn’t mean you can’t hook up with people. I’m seriously, fi-”

A loud, annoyed grunt escaped Thomas’ mouth, along with a “God damn it, Y/N.” You looked at him confused, but before you could read his face, he lunged at you.

It took your senses a few moments to catch up with what was happening. His warm, soft lips--which you had teased many times before--pressed hungrily into yours. His fingers greedily ran through your hair. You moaned softly as you felt him straddling your hips. You felt your hands slip under his shirt to graze his warm skin.

Suddenly, he quickly broke your embrace and stared at you with disbelief glittering in his pale blue eyes.

“Shit,” Thomas muttered, quickly backing off of you and stumbling on the coffee table in the process. “I’m a horrible friend. Shit. I’m sorry- I shouldn’t have- I-” He cut off, his wide eyes pleading with yours. You stared at Thomas, stunned, trying to find the right words to say.

Because you had so much to say, but you mind was completely clogged by that kiss.

Thomas, observing your state of panic, ran his fingers through his hair, and turned from you. “Shit!” he said, out loud this time, visibly cringing as he said it.

You both stayed frozen for a long while. Eventually, you broke the silence. “Thomas?” you asked quietly. His body stiffened at the sound of your voice. “I- Am I going to have to make breakfast for myself tomorrow morning?”

Thomas slowly turned and met your eyes, questioning whether he heard you right. You let your eyes hold his steadily, allowing them to confirm his thoughts.

“You’re going to have to make yourself breakfast a lot of mornings,” he commented slowly.

Laughing, you stood and embrace Thomas, running your fingers through his thick, curly, dark hair and pulling him back down on top of you.

This was an arrangement you could stand behind.

#hamilfluff #thomas x reader #jefferson x reader #thomas jefferson x reader #thomas jefferson x male reader #hamilton imagine #thomas jefferson imagine #jefferson imagine

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isadorator · 8 years ago

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A Fic Year in Review - 2016

It's that time again~ And I wrote so much this year, holy shit. As usual, any concrit and comments are welcome~~ (as are requests, when open lol)

January

what are THOOOOSE a superhero's holiday

Oh jeez. Both these fics got way more attention than I thought they would. But I keep underestimating the ML fandom tbh. The first was basically me goofing around and I somehow ended up promising to write a sequel since everyone wanted one (which I...still need to do.....). The second was a flag for both my descent into ladrien hell and also a return to my nsfw ways orz;;;;

February

you are gold and silver (1/2)

IT TOOK. SO. L O N G. TO WRITE THIS. Although this fic is firmly in AU territory now thanks to being beautifully jossed by canon, it helped me realize just how much I needed to grow in order to write romantic intimacy in a believable way. So, I made it my goal to work on it until it was up to my own standards.

(I...still need to finish this fic too......)

March

jackady ladrien drabble prompts (1/2):

ribbons

fan merchandise

artistic muse

make-outs

stuck in a small place

rain

smiles

croissants

never have i ever

i want to touch them

jackady ladrien drabble prompts (2/2):

damsel in distress

beauty facial masks

visible marks

ice cream sandwiches

volpina ladrien drabble prompts (1/9):

the 4 times adrien pretended to shower to hide from ladybug (and the 1 time he was actually showering when she calls out his bullshit)

disney

halloween

tried to kiss your lips but i missed

magic

staring into each other’s eyes

Ah, the plan being put into action! With the release of actual ladrien eps, I had the perfect excuse to write romantic scenario after romantic scenario using submitted prompts. Which also meant I accidentally created a secret love affair AU and wrote more smut whoops. Still, they were super fun! I took a break halfway through to write some Inuyasha-inspired marichat that just would not leave me alone (also fun).

(....I promised to write a continuation of the 'never have i ever' prompt, didn't I alrjkdsflaks. AND TANGLED AU SHIT I ALMOST FORGOT)

April

volpina ladrien drabble prompts (2/9):

music

moaning

sweat

bath

they go on a date together

soulmate au

photographs

“i love you. i’m completely and utterly in love with you. please don’t get married.”

the one time ladybug actually catches adrien in the shower

ACTUALLY in the shower

“of all the people i could’ve gotten stuck in an elevator with and it just had to be you.”

mirror

More ladrien prompts/romance practice~ The music prompt is still one the most cracktastic things I've ever written lol. Managed to make two more AUs with this batch that I've already started to expand on: the soulmate AU and the auteur AU. Lastly, in a surprise twist, the fucking elevator prompt managed to gather over 1k in notes. Probably because I ripped off Sailor Moon but. Still.

May

volpina ladrien drabble prompts (3/9):

another shower scene

porn

away from home

“you have mom’s smile.” he said this to ladybug once, but he thinks it again and again and again. but ladybug is better: she is real.

calling bullshit

untitled continuation of a comic by pozolegirl

volpina ladrien drabble prompts (4/9):

under the covers

eyelashes

mega nachos

“i heard that the spots on your bodysuit corresponds to chakra points? so… what happens if i touch this?”

cute nose/forehead kisses

their first time

happiness

“i need you to pretend we’re dating…”

“is there anything you’re not good at?”

More Volpina prompts! Again, I like experimenting with them :D Also wrote a continuation of that Christmas comic because it was just way too cute~~

June

ladrien june 2016 drabble prompts (1/6):

love poem

awkwardness

games

i can show you the world

first love

everyone can see it

shower scene

jealousy

it’s a trap

insecurities

sins cannot be undone

ladrien june 2016 drabble prompts (2/6):

jealous fangirls/boys

“you have her smile”

gabriel | hawkmoth’s reaction

it’s not you, it’s my enemies

secret dating

window kisses

Oooooh boy. The triple whammy of Ladrien June, Ramadan, and starting my summer job. I was excited to have a month dedicated to just ladrien (as if I hadn't already dedicated most of my year to it lol) but fell behind pretty quickly thanks to my lack of free time. I aim to finish them this year!

And Ramadan. Man. It always sends my mental health straight into the toilet. Not because of the holiday itself, but because of the way my family treats it. Idk. I tried to flush away the bad feelings by punching out 'sins cannot be undone' in one night. And it helped, I suppose. It's definitely the rawest thing I wrote this year and I still have very strong feelings about it.

July

three sentence prompts:

ladynoir, spy au

nino and marinette, karaoke au

ladrien, bodyguard au

ladrien, superman/lois lane au

adrien and tikki, baking au

alix and kim, and the one-time-max-actually-won au

alya and marinette, vigilante au

adrienette, foreign countries

ladynoir, and the elevator game/ritual

Between work and writing various wips that I still haven't posted yet (*coughcoughconjugalvisitcough*), I only posted stuff from this meme. I had fun (the goal) and the adrien&tikki kwamiswap AU one is still my fave |D *slams fists on table* LET ADRIEN BE A BAKER!!!!

August

untitled continuation of a comic by geek-fashionista insomaniac and the chaton pile

UMMMM My summer job ended by this point, so my only excuse for not posting much is it's all tied up in unpublished wips and...I was freaking out about starting school next month for the first time in y e a r s;;; Just some drabbles for the sidekick AU (not mine) and my own, sleep-deprived ideas (that I...still find hilarious alkdjfhalksd I DID NOT EXPECT ANYONE ELSE TO???)

September

volpina ladrien drabble prompts (5/9):

embarrassing hobbies (aka: adrien is secretly a popular ladynoir fanfic writer)

water

mlnsfweek prompts (1/3):

laughter

roleplay

make 'em blush

we've got time

"i can’t believe we survived" sex

wet dreams

virginity

STILL REALLY STRESSED ABOUT SCHOOL, which translated into a lot of writing. Did a couple of Volpina prompts, including time ≠ water. Which. Got way more attention than I expected;;;; And that I...also promised to expand on......;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

And then #mlnsfweek hit and I'm actually really proud of myself for finishing the whole week, even if it was late~ /o/ Did some random scenarios, including some futurefic for the timebreaker AU. I still cackle every time I think of the wet dreams prompt tbh XDDD

October

volpina ladrien drabble prompts (6/9):

inside a video game

horror movies

“who crawls through someone’s window at 4 am to go for ice cream?!”

aching muscles from running all over the city, and then: "would a massage help?"

chocolate

discovering their sensitive spots

“so close” from enchanted

As usual, more Volpina prompts in between school and wips. Not really much to say except it was around now (or maybe September? My memory is horrible) that I realized I had developed a pretty good grasp on romance and could start working on upping my daily wordcount. I really want the mental stamina to complete a chapter fic one day...

November

mlnsfweek prompts (2/3):

marks

School REALLY started to pick up in difficulty and I signed up for a fic exchange and a fanzine. Despite really wanting to, I didn't have time or energy to do more than one prompt for the #mlnsfweek redux, but I plan to complete it~ I have Ideas.

December

oh, the things i do for you (the bubbler remix)

volpina ladrien drabble prompts (7/9):

bruises and scars

cold hands, warm hearts

I'm never, ever committing to more than one fic deadline near exam time ever again. I nearly died last month as I rushed to complete these fics, my studying, and prep for my vacation that started right after exams (I'm still recovering;;;). The remix is currently the longest fic I've written to date, including my wips! Holy shit!!!

Both were done very last minute, but I'm pretty happy with how they turned out. I tried to finish the last of the Volpina prompts before the end of the year, but alas, time was not on my side. Better luck next year~ :'D

Total Year’s Output: ....58,718 words;;;

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d predicted?

.......This is almost twice as much as I did last year. I actually passed the NaNoWriMo standard. Oh my god. There is no fucking way I would have predicted this last year. And that's not counting all the wips aaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH—

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January 2016?

Uhhhh, Bustier/Mendeleiev, definitely. Also DjWifi?? I just wasn't into it at all last year, but now I'm rooting for them. Also, I did not expect to write this much smut, but here we are. ALSO MARIE/ADRIEN/MARINETTE AKA THE OT3 AKA LOVE SQUARED (the homestuck in me will never die)

What’s your favourite story of the year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you happiest.

Happy...? Hmmmm....There's stuff that makes me laugh, that I'm proud of...

...I know it's not published yet or even done, but...probably conjugal visit. Not only is it chock full of my favourite type of ladrien, it's...sort of my thesis on emotional intimacy? It's proof of my progress. I look at it and I can feel my determination to grow and to move on from the mental rut I was stuck in for most of my life, that I won't let my past keep my from recognizing my own emotions and learning empathy, not forever.

(Maybe that's pride and contentment and hope more than happiness, but I'll damn well take it)

Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the New Year?

I ALWAYS SAY THIS but...I really want to finish my wips.....and I want to start an actual chaptered fic. Not a one-shot collection or a drabble collection. Long, plotty, gen or romance (or both!!), chapter fic. I want to write something that will keep people up all night, lying to themselves when they say 'just one more chapter'. I think I actually have a shot at completing one now, at my current skill and confidence level |D

#procrastinating on the newest fic with memes #what a why to start the year #isayear #isameme

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