#martyrwails

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I want to have a penis and a vagina at different times and also both at once is that REALLY too much to ask

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Me when I’m a boy who moans like a girl wahoo!

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Took a big nap n woke up instantly feeling horrible abt myself struggling not to feel the call of the void rn

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I’m so sorry the only thing that gets me hard while domming is utter cruelty and depravity and also unhinged violence against the girl I’m fucking, the worlds not ready for me yet.

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I love. Womenem. I love them sOOO MUCH which is why i cant date them because i will fall into a PIT OF SNAKES!! For a woman

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I think I am craving giving a woman head again goddammit

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Catboy heat is one endured with a vengeance

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I’m. I’m afraid I’m adding ‘mother’ to the list of titles. Maybe.

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Sorry im nearly incapable of writing sbt sex thats consensual I love cnc too much 😔

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If youre grossed out by feet youre weak there I said it

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Somethin about high waisted schoolboy shorts. Need some NOW

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I genuinely feel sooo bad about being submissive and masculine and I feel even WORSE for wanting women/tomboys/mostly non-men to dominate me like genuinely it feels so embarrassing. Sorry I’m not useful to you. Sorry I wear the pants and take the hormones and gain the muscle just to sink to my knees and beg for your attention like a child. Sorry for crying so easily, sorry for apologizing, sorry for wanting to be held. You can fuck my face until you cum if you want idk

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Sorry for not answering messages I am a frightened little cat sometimes

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Does anyone else carefully trim up and edit their sexual desires before they share them so you make sure its perfectly moral and not creepy and not rapey or weird or do I just have ocd

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Ive been feeling so utterly horrid for like the past four days (ALL OF WHICH WERE MY PRECIOUS DAYS OFF) and ive been too sad and tired to do laundry or remember to brush my teeth so I will be having my edible and getting really high and I will not be acting any more mature than maybe 15 yrs old tonight and I am going to try my best to be ridiculously horny because im back on hrt and a sub butch’s sweaty victorian sex drive is basically divine

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SORRY FOR THE VENTTT im sorry forgive me

I hate tthat I still find my ex so attractive. I’m vaguely sure i have them blocked i get so paranoid abt them finding me bc like. Idk they were fuxking scary sometimes. Like not always, but when they were angry at me holy shit i wasnt a fan and I have a hard time admitting that both as a butch and as someone who loved them and wanted to defend them that they werent crazy abusive. But like. Idk i still find ways to blame myself and to miss them. I havent had the fortune of safely/enjoyably having sex with many people, so when something happens thats like. Just right and just what you needed but couldnt ask for. You hold onto it forever. And for me it meant a lot because like. It wasnt even that it got me off it was just that I felt loved and seen in my entirety. It was hard that my first and longest relationship after being groomed was probably the most frightening one. I think im still so scared of them and I wish I wasnt. I think I nees to atart realizing that it was horrible and Im allowed to grieve it because I did het hurt, very badly