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hey do you have any tips for binge eating or impulsive eating

here's a post i have on my account! i will definitely make more soon

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hiii i had a question about your diet. what does omad mean?

hii! omad means one meal a day

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hi!! idk if you’re still taking requests but i saw you were doing personalized diets and i was wondering if you could make an effie trinket diet? she’s such a skinny queen 😍

hii yes ofc! would you like any rules or cal set? like res limit idk how explain sorry

[mariscandyheart]

baby you wouldnt last a minute on the creek by chiodos

my dumb ass just realized this was a song 😭😭 listening rn though

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omg our stats are so similar!!! im also 5’1 and around 140 pounds (i dont own a scale so thats an estimate lol) sorry if that was weird btw

not werid at all! and i totally understand the scale i need a new one so bad omg mine lile doesn't work 😭

ps. we should totally be friends :)

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If you don’t listen to Peirce the veil you should def try them out their music is amazing! (I saw u like sleeping with sirens and Ptv is very similar)

hii! i actually do listen to ptv but i definitely need more song recs because i only know a few by them 😭

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I need to confess cuz I'm bawling 😭 I threw away food. I feel guilty. But I had no choice and no one to give it to. Here's the thing, I live with my narcissist mom, and she's super spiteteful, and because she's alone, she sabotages my weight loss because if I like myself, she knows I'll move out. She knows my mental health is heavily dependent on my weight. Pun not intended. She often eyes my body up and down, not even subtly, and if she spots weight loss, she says cruel stuff and within the next few days the house would be bursting with foods she knows are my weaknesses. This is the second year I begged for no cake on my birthday.... she bought an entire chocolate cake and a few slides from a variety of other cakes. We have 3 bags of chips in the house (my kryptonite), pie, 3 cooked meals, biscuits, bread, etc. Even if I eat a normal amount a day, it will get spoiled. I HAVE to overeat if I'm to finish it all before it perishes. This insanity was brought on by the fact that I was sick with a bad flu on Christmas, had no appetite, and lost 4 pounds. The funny thing is I'm not even remotely thin. I stand at 174 lbs as of Jan 7th. So there's no reason for her to be pestering me to eat constantly and acting this way except abuse and control. She's scared she'll lose control over me. But I'm so broken. I'm unemployed, I pushed away my friends, and I hate what my body has become. It is truly stopping me from even attempting to get my life together and escaping. I haven't been below 178 lbs in years. And I'm done. I never want to see that number or any number above it ever again. So today, while mom was at work, I threw away a few servings of stew, pumpkin pie, and cake. Just enough to look like I've eaten. But I feel so yucky about it. Guilty, ungrateful, and wasteful. But I also feel like my life depends on it, and I obviously can not be honest with mom, so I had to do this.😭 But it made me cry, and I just wanted to tell someone immediately 😢 so sorry for the rant

hello! first off I'm so sorry you have to go through this you don't deserve this at all i hope you find your way out of that household 🙁💔

secondly it's okay to improve yourself to me it sounds like your mom is jealous of you? it's your life of you want to improve yourself you can. and also don't be ashamed or gulity for wasting food you didn't ask for it, she bought it because she wanted to.

i understand the whole control thing, and my advice is to stop letting her control your life. it's your life not hers and try and subtly take control, like try looking for a job possibly (if your old enough) and then you can say you want to buy some of your own foods that way she might stop.

again take this with a grain of salt i don't know too much about your situation or the Instensty so please be careful and stay safe 💞🫂

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i'm 16, still in high school, and i have a friend who is ana and it feels like such a competition...thoughts? should i use her as like motivation or cut off the friendship? she doesn't know i know she has an ed but she suspects mine. it all goes unspoken :/

hii :)

i totally understand this my own friend had ed habits and this was before my own ed started but i also have these thoughts

it can be hard because you want to be a good friend and help them but at the same time it makes you feel jealous? anyways we still talk about wl but i trend very lightly because i would never want my friend to fall back into her habits

i personally think that's your own decision to leave a friendship I'm not completely sure what your dynamic is like but i wish you luck! i would just try and understand your two different people with different lives. i also found myself trying to compete with my friend but i told myself she wouldn't do the same with me

(i hope this is helpful i genuinely am bad at giving advice 😭)

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I'll try and make this one today!

hi!! idk if you’re still taking requests but i saw you were doing personalized diets and i was wondering if you could make an effie trinket diet? she’s such a skinny queen 😍

hii yes ofc! would you like any rules or cal set? like res limit idk how explain sorry