#many abused children still rely on their parents well past 18 like myself

[sticky943]

Parents are just totalitarian dictators at this point, children are just property, and parental authority needs to be smashed to pieces. (Note: I'm speaking from an American POV, this may not be true of all countries in the world. Also, I'm a child abuse survivor in college.)

Think about it. For the first 18 years of your life, you depend upon the same abusers who beat/yell at/scream at you -- and who could possibly SA or murder you with all that power -- for food, money, shelter, clothing, etc. They have total control over what you eat, where you can go, who your friends are, which school you go to, etc. If they want to send you to bed with no dinner, they could do that. If they want to hit you or make you eat soap as discipline, they can. (Still legal in the US.) If they think vaccines cause autism and don't want you to get vaccines, they can easily stop you from getting some.

You have nowhere to run, nowhere to flee, but if you do, you might as well be forced to go back to your abusers, and if you want to stay somewhere else, you need their permission (which they could easily deny). Emancipation is practically impossible b/c your abusive parents may not allow you to get a job or refuse to "help" you learn driving, and CPS demands an impractically high burden-of-proof from you to prove you're being abused. So your only hope is to take in more and more trauma, and wait until 18, when you're legally able to run away. But good luck escaping then. You may not have money or a job by then, or a driver's license. Your abusive parents still have access/control to your health insurance, phone plan, essential documents (birth certificate, passport), etc. Want to go to college? Good luck affording that without your parents' finances or financial info. So you still have to be in contact with the same pieces of shit that tormented you for the first 18 years of your life, for another 4-5 goddamn years. You better not disobey them or else no more financial "help" from them to you (like those LGBT classmates you mentioned, @lanthir).

But you know, FAMILY! EVERY PARENT LOVES THEIR CHILD! HONOR THY FATHER AND MOTHER! FAMILY VALUES! Nothing as good and low-risk-of-abuse like the good ol' American family, right?!

If you can't find anything wrong with this system, and how utterly anti-children's rights it is, I cannot help you.

As a kid, when your parents are poor, you're poor. If they don't have money, that means none of you have money. But if someone's parents are rich, that doesn't necessarily mean the kid is. Sometimes rich peoples' kids aren't rich kids, they're just some rich freak's exotic pets that can talk but aren't allowed to.

[usingourvoices]

The School-to-Prison Pipeline in Philadelphia

**Long Post Ahead!**

“The nature of the criminal justice system has changed. It is no longer primarily concerned with the prevention and punishment of crime, but rather with the management and control of the dispossessed.” ― Michelle Alexander, The New Jim Crow: Mass Incarceration in the Age of Colorblindness (2012).

What is the School-to-Prison Pipeline?

If you’ve been paying attention to the news these past nine months, you’ll recognize a familiar racial justice buzzword appearing in the title of the article. The school-to-prison pipeline, like police brutality and the war on drugs, is a part of a larger system of oppression aimed at minority individuals. In this case, minority children in schools. Minority students are more likely to face disciplinary measures in their schools, namely suspensions and expulsions, which have a drastic impact on their lives outside of the classroom. This includes students being more at risk of entering the criminal justice system. It is believed that this system is purposeful— a cog in the machine of mass incarceration that spins around us daily. Gass and Laughter (2015) sum up the school-to-prison pipeline explicitly: “in short, ‘priorities to incarcerate compete against priorities to educate.’”

The school-to-prison pipeline is an umbrella term referring to the different policies that have been enacted by federal and state governments in schools to curb misbehavior since the late 1980s. Such policies have included zero-tolerance, metal detectors, school police/security officers, surveillance, and in general, harsher school discipline measures (Goldstein, Cole, Houck, Haney-Caron, Holliday, Kreimer, & Bethel, 2019). It was believed by the SDP that, as Jonathan Kozol claims in Savage Inequalities (2016), ��the problems of the streets in urban areas... frequently spill over into public schools. These policies unintentionally affect students of color more so than white students. And, although students living in poverty are always in a place to face more severe consequences for similar actions, being from an affluent neighborhood does not necessarily exempt one from the school-to-prison pipeline. “A recent report by the Government Accountability Office, which relied on a previous set of federal civil rights data, found that racial disparities in school discipline “were widespread and persisted regardless of the type of disciplinary action, level of school poverty, or type of public school attended” (Blad & Mitchell, 2018). 

According to a research study on suspension trends in the School District of Philadelphia, there is evidence that “[finds] relationships between suspending students and negative student outcomes, including low academic achievement, grade retention, dropping out, decreased levels of civic engagement, legal troubles, and emotional and psychological disorders” (Park, Karakus, and Lesnick, 2019). Indeed, author of Restorative justice in urban schools: disrupting the school-to-prison pipeline (2016) Anita Wadhwa agrees: “just as people who are not valued in the service economy have been socially excluded and contained in prisons, young people who are unable to perform on grade level or adhere to behavioral norms are often excluded through suspension and expulsion and contained in alternative schools or juvenile detention centers” . From the same study, we learn that black and African American students are twice as likely to be suspended than white students, and Hispanic/Latinx students are 3.38 times more likely to be suspended in fifth grade than white students (Park, et. al). This data is consistent with statistics that have been discovered across the country that points to disproportionate suspensions between racial/ethnic groups. “Moreover, school attendance protects against misconduct, and thus, suspending or expelling students may actually increase future student misconduct,” reports the Children and Youth Services Review. “When out of school, many suspended and expelled students are unsupervised during the day while parents are at work, increasing opportunities for further delinquent behavior” (Goldstein et al., 2019). 

Both in-school and out-of-school incidents can result in legal action against students, including arrests, imprisonment, and court cases. “As a result, schools became the primary source of youth referrals to the justice system... transforming exclusionary school discipline policies into a school-to-prison pipeline” (Goldstein et al., 2019). This legal action can have a psychological and physical impact on students, not only marking them with a criminal record from a young age, but also increasing their chances of offending again. The school-to-prison pipeline ingrains ideas of mass incarceration into students from the time they begin pre-school throughout their academic lives and well into their futures.

History of School Discipline Measures in Philadelphia

Following the lead of other major U.S. cities in the early 1990s, the School District of Philadelphia implemented zero-tolerance behavioral policies to try to curb student violence and drug abuse. Those policies continued the long tradition of alienating people by socioeconomic status, ability, and especially, race through the ensuing decades. From 1993-2007, this included a sharp increase in the number of students suspended from school. “For example, although 21.6% of all students in grades 6 through 12 were suspended in 2007, nearly half (49.5%) of black male students in those grades were suspended and 16.6% of black male students in those grades were expelled” (Ritter, 2018).

Later in 2013, police analysts discovered that the SDP was the largest contributor to youth arrest referrals in the city, and a year later, it was concluded that “[Black and] African American students were involved in 75.0% of reported incidents in the SDP and accounted for 80.0% of arrests, despite constituting only 51.8% of the district's student body” (Goldstein, et. al). However, this was also the time that began to see improvements in the school policing system.

After reading the police analysis in 2013, former deputy police commissioner Kevin Bethel designed a diversion program to create barriers to arresting students. His plan saw a 84.3% reduction in student arrests in its first six years of implementation (Mezzacappa, 2020). Still, as of 2019, “14 million students attend schools with police but no counselor, nurse, psychologist, or social worker” (Mezzacappa, 2020).

The Diversion Program in Philadelphia

(Goldstein et al., 2019)

As mentioned above, Philadelphia’s Diversion Program is one of the city’s newest measures to minimize minority youth incarceration. Headed by Kevin Bethel, the program’s primary purpose is to prevent the involvement of the Philadelphia Police Department (PPD) in schools as much as is deemed safe by the program. The Diversion Intake Center (DIC) acts as a final check of qualification before an officer is dispatched to a school; if the student meets certain criteria (for example, being under the age of ten), then the PPD concludes its involvement and a social worker is sent to work with the student’s family within 72 hours (Goldstein et al., 2019).

PPD school officers, SDP school safety officers, and some school administrators received 8 training hours for the program, and the PPD officers obtained an additional 2.5 hours of training in adolescent decision making and positive behavior reinforcement (Goldstein et al., 2019). When an incident occurs that requires PPD school officers, the school first contacts their office. If the offence is minor enough, then the call is then transferred to the DIC. Only when this office determines that the student has no history of arrest is the student placed with a social worker. 

The program has shown success in its recent years, but the issue of youth incarceration has not diminished entirely; “still, the promises that once beckoned— the promises of technology, material comfort, democracy, human rights, fairness, basic respect, and decency— have not been fulfilled in much of the world” (Isbister, 2019). Already, plans to expand the Diversion Program include branching out to the surrounding community. Training and resources for teachers are also items that the community has deemed high priority (Blad & Klein, 2018). One could add that the students could benefit from more education, as Peggy McIntosh said “My schooling gave me no training in seeing myself as an oppressor, as an unfairly advantaged person, or as a participant in a damaged culture” (McIntosh, 2019). Another researched solution could also include restorative justice, which the U.N. defines as “a problem solving approach to crime that focuses on restoration or repairing the harm done by the crime and criminal to the extent possible, and involves the victim(s), offender(s) and the community in an active relationship with statutory agencies in developing a resolution” (Mccluskey et. al, 2018). Any step listed above would be one in the right direction, but a combination of the above would like combat the issue the strongest. “The lesson for those committed to fighting inequality… is to fashion a new agenda that gives more scrutiny to both racial and nonracial political and economic forces” (Wilson, 2008).

Works Cited

Alexander, M. (2012). The new Jim Crow: mass incarceration in the age of colorblindness. Revised edition. New York: New Press.

Blad, E., & Klein, A. (2018, April 11). Betsy DeVos Weighing Action on School Discipline Policy; GAO: Black students disciplined more. Education Week, 37(26), 18.

Blad, E., & Mitchell, C. (2018, May 2). Black Students Bear Uneven Brunt of Discipline, Data Show; Disparity in school arrest rates rose. Education Week, 37(29), 10.

Gass, K. M., & Laughter, J. C. (2015). "Can I make any difference?" gang affiliation, the school-to-prison pipeline, and implications for teachers. The Journal of Negro Education, 84(3), 333-347. 

Goldstein, N. E., Cole, L. M., Houck, M., Haney-Caron, E., Holliday, S. B., Kreimer, R., & Bethel, K. (2019). Dismantling the school-to-prison pipeline: The Philadelphia police school diversion program. Children and Youth Services Review, 101, 61-69. doi:10.1016/j.childyouth.2019.03.022

Isbister, J. (2014). Promises not kept: Poverty and the betrayal of Third World development. Bloomfield, CT: Kumarian Press.

Kozol, J. (2012). Savage inequalities: Children in America's schools. New York, NY: Broadway Paperbacks.

Mccluskey, G., Lloyd, G., Stead, J., Kane, J., Riddell, S., & Weedon, E. (2008). ‘I was dead restorative today’: From restorative justice to restorative approaches in school. Cambridge Journal of Education, 38(2), 199-216. doi:10.1080/03057640802063262

McIntosh, P. (2019). White Privilege: Unpacking the Invisible Knapsack (1989) 1. On Privilege, Fraudulence, and Teaching As Learning, 29-34. doi:10.4324/9781351133791-4

Mezzacappa, D. (2020, June 12). Movement for police-free schools reaches Philadelphia.

Park, J., Karakus, M., & Lesnick, J. (2019, March). Suspension Trends in the School District of Philadelphia, 2015-16 to 2017-18.

Ritter, G. W. (2018). Reviewing the Progress of School Discipline Reform. Peabody Journal of Education, 93(2), 133-138. doi:10.1080/0161956x.2018.1435034

Wadhwa, A. (2015). Restorative justice in urban schools : Disrupting the school-to-prison pipeline. ProQuest Ebook Central https://ebookcentral.proquest.com

[nerfherderbinniegirl]

What has been running through my mind since last Thursday

I have had so many thoughts since TROS came out.

Before it’s release I was beyond excited, hyper about it! It’s finally here, the conclusion, the wonderful finish to 42 years of amazing movies, ones that might not have been perfect, but built up to a wonderful story arc that I lived and breathed as a child and then as a younger adult. Now, as a middle aged adult female, who grew up with Princess Leia, Luke and Han, with Lando and Chewie of course, as well as Darth Vadar, as the background of my childhood, and I had gained Obi-Wan, Anakin, Padme, Shmi, and Bail into my inner circle of love for characters when I was in my 20’s and early 30’s; I was so excited because I had also in my 40’s gained Ben Solo (he was always Ben to me), Rey and Finn, with Rose, keeping Chewie nearby and giving me glimpses into the world that had never been perfect, but resonated with me.

Ben resonated with me most of all because of how my childhood went. I was a difficult child and teen. I say all the time that had I been born 25 to 30 years later than I was, I’d have been medicated from age 6 on. I had medical issues with my ears, my hearing. I developed severe anxiety around school and social situations, when my natural state is actually to be very outgoing. I am introverted in regards to my energy needs, however I am not a quiet person at all. I am too loud, too emotional, too intense for most people, my family most of all. I was the kid who cried too easily and stomped up stairs and slammed bedroom doors because of what I was lacking.

I lacked validation for myself, for my real feelings. Everything I experienced was real and concrete for me. I was not given any tools that worked for me, so I delved into myself. Deep inside I lived in a world that was private and a fantasy. I love fantasy novels, I have read more science fiction/fantasy than anything else, and all of it is always more fantasy than science. I loved Doctor Who growing up, watched it religiously every Sunday afternoon. I really had no choice but to rely on it to help me through my crippling anxiety and fear for every Monday morning. I was an embarrassment to my family, my mother did not know what to do with me, so she did nothing to change my coping skills. I was a 6,7, 8, 9, and 10 year old who did not know how to do anything of basic skills in school, had no friends for more years than I like to remember. I was bullied, and survived because we did not have the technology that we have now. I stopped having so many bad effects of my anxiety by the end of 5th grade because of a wonderful teacher, who was patient and funny. He never made me feel like a freak, though I was.

In my mind, I was stupid, worthless, unmanageable, unlovable, a problem. A problem that could not be solved. I wanted to leave my world and live elsewhere where I could become anyone I wanted to be. The transition from elementary school to middle school gave me the freedom within to change some things. I became more outgoing and tried to erase who I was in the past. I did not do that well, but I also made lasting friendships for the first time. My best friend since age 12 is a testament to that.

At 15 I planned to end my life. I still don’t know what stopped me, though I did not even follow through with any part of my plan. I pulled through, found meaning in music, books, my friendships. I survived even though I should not have. 

I share all of this because when I watched TFA the first time, I understood Ben Solo so deeply it scared me. I thought, I’ve been there, I’ve had those thoughts. I tried to fight back the same ways. I did think about ending my father’s life twice as an adult. Once at age 18 and once at age 27. He was a hurtful and abusive man. The damage done was intense. I could never feel comfortable around my friend’s fathers because of what I thought a father was supposed to be like. And at the same time I wanted my father’s love so much, I craved it. Even through all of the psychological abuse, through the conditioning that I was put through, to be the perfect daughter. “Don’t be so loud, be thinner, don’t grow your hair long, be what I want you to be, be less emotional, be more helpful, don’t be selfish, don’t ask for anything you want, be satisfied with what we deem is right for you.” These words were the pinnacle, and they happened 2 months before he died (not at my hands, cancer got him in the end): “When you are thin, then you will be beautiful, and then you’ll find a husband.” I was 27 years old, single, the last one in the family, but not the youngest, the middle. I was pathetic to my family. Unlovable completely because my own father could not see my beauty or think I was worthy of love. I wanted to kill him by driving him off the road and into a tree, off a bridge, something. But I kept my mouth shut because that is what I was trained to do, and I swallowed it down.

When I was really young, before age 2, my father was attentive and loving. I was the perfect little girl. My younger sister was born right before my 2nd birthday, and I was forgotten. All of a sudden it shifted. I have visceral feelings of being pushed aside, and warned to be careful with her, not to hurt her. I was not a hurtful person, I was not violent. I could have only been violent to myself. I spent so many years hating her because she took my place because my father could not find it in himself to have space for both of us.  

My mother was not much better, she was dismissive in her abuse. Forgetful and selfish in her own ways. They did not plan to have the 3 of us younger kids. We were all surprises! Yay! Wow, so now you are saddled with 3 more children you never planned for, and you actually have to parent them. What a concept! My mother was flawed in so many ways. She had the nerve to ask me if I needed her at my college and then graduate school graduations. Asked me if I needed her to see my first apartment. To all of you mother’s out there, aren’t you supposed to want to be present for those things? Wow. Though, with fucking bells on for my younger sister’s graduations! There are so many bad stories about how I was the throw away child in the family. It’s sick.

Ben was supposed to get better than he did! He was supposed to get what I finally found, belonging in love and with a made family. My husband is the best thing that every happened to me. He loves all of my quirky nature. He knows all of the stories. He’s heard my siblings make remarks about me, and treat me like I am a leper, and he knows me best. He loves me fully, protectively and intensely. Ben and Rey’s story spoke so strongly to me because it reminds me of us. They both want to protect the other, and they feel compelled to be with each other even when it is hard.

It’s a disservice to the fans to have Ben die at the end of TROS. They betrayed us with that ending. Ben and Rey earned their happiness and family. They earned their connection. I know in time it will hurt less, I’ve lost both of my parents and I know how grieving works for me, however I will never be okay with what DLF, JJ, Chris, Kathleen and Bob Iger took from us. And I was forever be grateful for the wonderment that is Rian Johnson, he is a blessing for all of us. He created a story that gave life to redemption and healing. He gave us love so deep and primal, not based on sexual attraction (not only, or at first – though that shirtless scene is brilliant) but based on understanding and deep affection for each other’s souls.

I will end with saying that I am a licensed marriage and family therapist. I work with couple’s and families to understand what drives us in relationships, and how to heal the past experiences so we can be the best people in our relationships and with ourselves. It’s work I had to do before I was ready for the deep and abiding love that I have with my husband, who brought me two wonderful parents who have helped heal this little girl inside to feel accepted and wanted as she is, even when she is too loud and too opinionated.

[asktemmie-frisk]

Baby Steps (ゴッドモードアーク (Goddomodoaku)) (God-mode Arc)

As everyone stepped into the skele-brothers' backyard, they all felt somewhat tense. Chara was especially nervous because she was thinking of what could happen if she couldn't manage. Undyne and Sans started setting up some targets; Papyrus got some test dummies ready to strike. Asgore got Chara a present that he had waiting for her for years. "Chara, I know you want to be able to fight, but I wanted to give you this." Asgore said, handing Chara a gift. Opening it up, Chara was surprised. "Dad..." Chara started, taken aback. "I...this...is for me? Why?" "If you are going to learn how to fight, you will need the proper tools and mindset. I cannot prepare you mentally, but what kind of father would I be if I did not at least give you the tools to succeed? I am not going to give you a handout, but I will give you a hand." "Dad...thank you." Chara gave her father a hug, and he returned it with a smile. "Don't worry. I'll make you and mom proud of me. I promise." "Chara, there is no need to." Toriel cut in. "Really? Why, mom?" "You already have." Chara teared up a little happily. "Thanks, mom." After the small family moment, Chara turned her attention to the make-shift training grounds set up in the backyard. "Okay, so I gotta admit, I'm very nervous right now. That being said, where do we start? Blocking, striking, dodging? What?" "Straight to business. I like that, but since when have you gotten yourself ready for a scrap?" Undyne admitted. "What?! What do you mean 'get ready'? Aren't you just supposed to fight or something?" "Nah nah nah. You're training right now. Normally, you WOULD be right, but since you've never did this before, chances are your reflexes could use some work. We're gonna start by doing a little stretching first." "Ah, come on! I just wanna do it already!" "Sorry, kid. This is how I did it when I was the captain of the royal guard. You think I'm just gonna bend the rules for you?" Undyne said, while stretching and prepping herself for training. "Well, I was thinking th-" "Nope! Sorry, kid. Now get to stretching. We got a long, hard road ahead of us." "Fine." Chara gave up and did as Undyne said. Asgore and Toriel practiced on their aim with their fire magic. Asriel and Mettaton sat and watched on the sidelines with a bored look on their faces. "Your majesty, aren't you going to train too, darling?" Asked Mettaton. "I don't need to train, remember?" Replied Asriel. "Yes, yes. We know what you were capable of as a flower, sweetie. I can't remember how many times you trashed my body. What was it? 10 times? 20 times?" "50 times." "Ah. Yes. Of course." Mettaton vindictively grabbed Asriel and threw him to his parents. "Oh, your majesty! Your son would like to train with you!" Asgore almost stepped on Asriel by accident before he heard Mettaton. "Huh? Oh, well that's gre-oops! Sorry, son. Almost didn't see you there." Asgore said giving his attention to his son. "So you wanna train with me, huh? Well, that's good. You will probably need it. You are not a flower anymore, so you cannot rely on your old attacks anymore." Asriel got up with his head tilted down. "You mean my...'friendliness pellets'?" Asked the young, cocky boss monster. Asgore simply tilted his son's head up to his gaze. "DO NOT get cocky with me, Asriel. If the situation gets worse, you need to defend yourself. Do I make myself clear?" Asgore's eyes flashed cyan and orange for an instant. "Crystal, dad." "Good. Now then, it is time that we teach you about magic. Unless you can tell us?" Asriel had a bored expression with a monotone so grating, he could be mistaken for a robot. "Magic is the expression of a monster's soul. It is through magic that shapes our very bodies. As our bodies shift and develop, our magic shifts and develops alongside it. It's also normal for magic to show traits about ourselves that are both good and bad in nature. For instance, say you can wield water. Water is flexible and freeflowing, but with the right conditions, its will is easily shaped." Toriel stopped the second she heard what Asriel said. "My my." Toriel said, astounded. "My child. So you DO know. You remembered what I taught you all those years ago. I'm so proud of you." Toriel and Asgore both stepped back. "Now Asriel, you see that target right there? I want you to use your magic to strike it." Asriel tried to summon an attack, but he couldn't muster up anything at all. He even pointed his fists at the target, but nothing happened but him making himself look like a fool. "You could not summon an attack, could you?" "Mom! Why isn't it working?! I thought something would just...like poof, or something, but nothing's happening, ma! Why isn't it working?!" Asriel started getting agitated, confirming that Mettaton and his father were right. Asriel then threw aside his pride, fearful for what could happen next. "Mom, dad, will you teach me how to use magic, please?" "Are you sure you are ready to learn, my child?" "Yes! Please! I'll do anything! Just please how to use it, mama! Please! I don't wanna die, ma!" "It is okay, my son. Calm down. Your father and I would be happy to teach you." "Really, ma?" "Of course! Your father and I have been waiting for the day we could do this with you, anyway! As long as you are willing to pay attention, we will teach you what you need to know." Asriel hugged his mother in relief. "Okay, mom. Sorry for the crap. I'll listen." "Thank you, my child. Oh, and one more thing your father and I wanted to ask you and Chara." "Yes, mom?" Chara asked while stretching her legs. "SINCE WHEN DID YOU TWO START SWEARING?!" Both Asgore and Toriel boomed at their children. "I want to know now! WHO TAUGHT YOU THOSE WORDS?!" Toriel was not amused at her childrens' language. "We got it from you, mom and dad!" Chara spat back. "Yeah, mom. Who do you think taught us those words? We got them mostly from you when you yelled at dad when we were younger." Asriel agreed with an almost blank look on his face. "You guys taught us those words. Didn't think we were listening, did you?" "I never yelled at your father; you take that back immediately, young man!" "If I'm wrong, then why did dad have bruises when you finished yelling at him for buying that one abandoned building in Snowdin?" "Yeah, Tori. I told you it could've be-" "AND I TOLD YOU THAT 'WE WOULD NEVER NEED THE GODDAMN PLACE'! FOR WHAT REASON COULD WE POSSIBLY HAVE TH-oh. Oh...no. So I really am the reason. Dammit. I knew there was something wrong when you said the f-word at dinner one night. I suppose I am to blame for another thing of our past, am I not?" "So not just a killer, an abusive wife, too? Yikes." Sans said, thoroughly weirded out and spooked by Toriel. "Awkward." Papyrus quiped. Everyone else just stared at the former queen in shock. "Hey guys, you can stop staring at mom now." Chara said, trying to defuse the situation while stretching her legs some more. "Hey, Asriel, can you help me real fast?" "Huh? Oh! Yeah, sure. Whatever." Replied Asriel. "Thanks. Now I need you to just grab my leg, and push it back. I need to really loosen things up." Asriel obeyed, but in a standing up position. "No, dude. I need you to get on your knees, and push back." Asriel was not in the mood to being embarrassed, but he did it anyway. "Sis, don't you think this is a little weird?" "Nah, it's cool. You're just helping me stre-oop. There it goes. Yeah, my leg just popped. That's better. Now push a couple more times, and we'll switch to the other one." Everyone was looking at the two, just snickering to themselves, except for their parents. "Okay, that's good. Now let's do this one." "Okay." Asriel was started to get embarrassed...and aroused, admittedly. He was really not in the mood to get turned on by Chara, whether or not they were related. "Come on, put your body onto it, and lean in. I wanna really make this one pop like the other one just did." Asriel started sweating upon hearing this. "Yeah, right there. Just like that. I really do appreci-whoa. Hey, Rei, what's that I'm feeling on the b-oh." Chara tilted her head up at her brother, only to see he was flustered, but didn't realize why until she looked at her leg. "Oh, man. Sorry. I didn't mean to do that to you. You should let go now." Chara whimpered with a blush. "Yeah. Thanks." With her permission, Asriel got to let go of Chara while they both sat down. They both shared an embarrassed glare at each other, blushing even more when Chara and Asriel made expressions to each other, with Chara's seemingly looking like she was saying 'did you want to fuck', with Asriel's expressions looking like a response saying 'yes, but that's gross, Chara'. Clearly both of them were noticeably embarrassed and aroused by the situation, even separating themselves from each other. They had never been more weirded out by each other than in that moment. "Asriel? Chara?" Toriel said, trying to get their attention. "Yes, mom?" They mumbled, still reeling from the moment. "Not until you're both 18. Also, let's get back to training." Toriel schooled her own children, and everyone just laughed. "MOM! HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN?! I DIDN'T ASK TO BE AROUSED! CHARA AND I ARE SIBLINGS! IT'S FUCKING GROSS, MA!" Asriel screeched, blushing wildly. "Yes, it is. Or it would be if you were both related by blood. Good thing you're not. It would be so much worse if you were." Asriel started angrily shedding tears, and Chara put her creepy face back on, fuming at her mother's words. Why the fuck would mom say that, she wondered. Did she know when I flirted with Asriel that one time? Whatever. After the awkwardness passed after 10 minutes, they finally got to the core of training. "Alright, kid. I think you're limber enough." Undyne said, congratulating Chara. "Finally. I feel limber, too." "Awesome. Now you see my hands? I want you to PUNCH THEM AS HARD AS YOU CAN! Act like my hands are your worst enemies, and PUNCH THEIR LIVING DAYLIGHTS OUT! NNGGAAHHH!" Chara responded with a punch hard enough to almost leave a bruise. "Wow. Pretty hard punch for a human. Now those targets! Take that knife your old man gave you, and slice them up! NOW!" Chara let out a battle cry, and slashed wildly and swiftly, laughing maniacally while making her creepy face the entire time. She even jumped back, and threw her knife at one of the targets she decimated with a lot of force, enough to plant the knife enough to warrant force to get it back! Undyne was colored impressed...thoroughly. "Nice job." She admitted. "Thanks." Chara replied, catching her breath. "Now, if only those were real humans...then I would have...lots...of...fun." "You know, you remind me of how I used to be when you say that." "Oh, yeah. You used to hate them, too. With a passion. You and I would be best friends if you saw what they did to me. Makes me wish I wasn't one. That's why I love being with the monsters. Unlike those animals that call themselves humans, you guys have more humanity than my species is capable of." Chara shed a few tears in anguish, but snapped out of it quickly. "All right. Back to training." "Right! Now then..." Undyne said with an evil, almost murderous grin. "LET'S SEE HOW YOU DEAL WITH ME! FUH-HUH-HUH-HUH!!" "FINALLY! This is what I was waiting for! NOW LET'S GO, FISH LADY!" Chara roared, peeling out towards Undyne. "YOU GOT IT, KID! NNGGAAHHH!" They dashed toward each other without hesitation. Chara slashed at Undyne, but got blocked by her spear. Undyne countered with a spear blasting toward Chara, and it pierced her soul, knocking her back into the wall. Oddly enough, Chara only lost 2 hitpoints. "What the fuck?! Undyne, that...should've hurt more?" Said a confused Chara. "Come on, kid. I ain't trying to kill you. If I was, you would've felt a lot more pain. But you know what you will feel? THIS!!" Undyne motioned to the Skeleton brothers, and Sans levitated Chara up, only to slam her into the ground. "OW! Fuck, Sans! I felt that, you dickhead!" Sans didn't care as he lifted her again, but got her back on her feet. Chara then tried to sprint toward Sans, but found she couldn't move her feet. "What?! Oh, fuck." Chara noticed a green glow from her chest. "As long as you're green, you can't escape! Unless you face towards danger, you're going to hurt like hell." "Okay. What the fuck is that suppo-Ow! Oof! AHH! FUCK, THAT HURTS!" Papyrus and Undyne unleashed an onslaught of bones and spears at Chara. "Chara! When I said 'face towards danger', I meant FACE TOWARDS THE BULLETS!" "Oh! Well then, you got it! Now I'm ready! Go ahead and throw some my way; I'll block'em!" Chara wasn't just talk; she blocked the attacks well enough to the point where it was like they were never made. "Not bad! How about this!" Undyne said, returning Chara's soul to normal. Papyrus attacked Chara overhead, but she blocked it with her knife. She then got smacked in the stomach by some of his bones. As she was recovering from them, more popped up, but she ended up jumping out of the way. "Excellent, human!" Papyrus congratulated. "Now that you can dodge...you'll be taking me on." Both of Papyrus' eyesockets surged orange and yellow with his entire body gaining an orange aura, albeit faint. Chara got shaken, but snapped out of it before a bone could strike her again. She slashed through it, jumping around wildly, not knowing what Papyrus would do next. Then she heard a blast. A skull-like cannon burst a beam that headed straight for Chara. She couldn't dodge fast enough, but she only got grazed by her shoulder. "Dammit! Fucking..." She muttered to herself. She focused on the pain enough to forget her surroundings and got blasted again. She screamed in pain. She lost half of her hp, and fell to the ground. "Come on, human. You have to get up! You won't learn h-WHOA!" Papyrus got close to her, and let his guard down long enough for her to slash at him. She was injured, and she only had half of her usual hitpoints, but she stood up anyway. "Don't underestimate me; I can still keep going!" She managed, feeling the pain flow through her. "Oh! Still up to actually fight? GOOD! Still though, why do you say that?" Chara put a smug grin on her face, and pulled some candy out of her pocket. It was monster candy. "This is why." She put a piece in her mouth, and recovered 6 hitpoints. "All right! I'm back! If I gotta face you, that's fine, but I ain't hurting you." "Very well, then. It sure was a BLAST to train with you!" Papyrus said, aiming the cannon again, but this time, at Chara's face. She ducked out of the way before it could do anything else to her. Papyrus kept firing them more while she was jumping about, dodging the beams with an almost graceful tone to it. She then noticed the bones being used again in combination with the cannons, but jumped out of their way before they fired. "My, my! I suppose she is a match for me, the great Papyrus! But how? And where is she now?" Papyrus looked for her until she grabbed and subdued him. "To be honest, I don't know. Perhaps some of your greatness is rubbing off on me." Chara said with a smile. "Very well, human. I suppose you managed to defeat me this time." Papyrus said, admitting defeat. "I must admit, you seem to learn very quickly, and that could be useful, especially in combat." Chara got off of Papyrus, and helped him get back on his feet. "Nice job, kid." Undyne said with a sharp-toothed smile. "Looks like you take after your dad after all." "Thanks. Now Papyrus, what were those things you shot at me with?" "Those? Well, Sans and I call them 'Gaster Blasters'." Papyrus happily answered. "We call them that as a way of honoring our father because he was the one who created them. Sans and I have countless blasters at our disposal, but we don't use them unless we have no choice, for they are a strain to use on our end." "Then, when you stopped Frisk from...you know what, was that your special attack you were going to use on him?" "Yes, but it was stolen from me by that annoying dog!" "Yikes. Guess it's good that Frisk stopped before things got much worse."  "Yes. I suppose it is. Still, one thing eludes me. How did you manage to disappear like that before I blasted at you again?" "You shouldn't have closed your eyes a second before you shot it off like that. I only barely had enough time to get out of the way." "Well...in that case, I think we can consider your training done for the day. Everyone?" Everybody else agreed, especially after seeing the light show. "Good! You did well today, Chara. As for everyone else but Sans, you can all go home now." So they did. It was a long, tiring, eye-opening, emotionally exhausting day. But at least it was finished. Or at least that's what they thought. When everyone else got back home in the evening, what happened next was...unexpected.

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A – Accidents

01. Have you ever been in a car accident? + -- Yes.

02. Do you have a lot of scars? + -- A fair amount. I'm sure many hae faded by now, though...

03. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone? + -- I don't count sparring, but I've had a few close calls. I gave them the opportunity to fight me since they seemed so eager, but they always walked away?? Like, hello, you outnumbered me. Surely the two of you can handle little old me. But oh well I guess.

04. Have you ever seriously hurt anyone by mistake? + -- Yes.

05. Have you ever had stitches? Where? + -- Apparently I was supposed to get stitches but nobody ever took me to the hospital, so I had to kind of handle it on my own.

B – Beauty

06. Do you consider yourself beautiful? + -- GOD no lol.

07. Are you self conscious of how you look? + -- Yes.

08. Do you put on a lot of makeup? + -- My skin doesn't tolerate any kind of makeup. I learned to deal without it.

09. Would you ever consider getting plastic surgery? + -- The only way to fix what puberty did to my skin is apparently extreme laser surgery. Too bad for me.

10. What do you think makes a person beautiful? + -- A kind heart. Among other things.

C – Consequences

11. What was the longest amount of time you’ve been grounded for? + -- A few weeks. I don't even remember what it was for.

12. What would you do if you got pregnant, keep it or have an abortion? + -- I would get an abortion. It's kinder than having to have me for a parent. Ugh.

13. Do you ever think about how your actions affect other people? + -- Yes.

14. What do you think is the worst punishment someone could give you? + -- Leaving me alone while you go do fun things.

15. What is one thing you wish you didn’t do, just because it wasn’t worth it in the end? + -- There's a lot of things.

D – Dealing

16. When you are mad at someone, how do you show them? + -- I usually let it blow over. It's not worth bringing it up.

17. Name a time when you had to be strong. + -- Losing multiple cats and friends in one year.

18. Have you ever dealt with a divorce or parents fighting? Any kind of abuse at home? + -- My parents fought a lot, and various other things.

19. When people at school don’t accept you, or have problems with you, how do you react? + -- Deal with it. :| I'm here and you're gonna suck it up.

20. Have you ever lost someone to death? Explain how you got through it. + -- You just move on. I don't think you ever fully get over it.

E – Experience

21. Have you ever had a job? Any volunteer jobs? + -- Yes.

22. Do you think that you are sexually experienced, or not at all? + -- No. There's still so much I don't understand.

23. Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far? + -- I have gone through a lot, but I can't really compare myself to others.

24. Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)? + -- Yes.

25. How old do you act? + -- Hopefully like an adult.

F – Family

26. Is there anyone in your family you don’t talk to? Why? + -- To my knowledge, there's no bad blood between myself and my family. If anything, I pushed everyone away.

27. If you had to choose, family or friends? + -- /shrug

28. Can you tell your parents or one of your parents anything? + -- No.

29. Do you have any siblings? If so, do you ever get jealous of them? + -- No.

30. How often do you spend ‘quality time’ with family members? + -- My entire family lives in the South. I do not.

G – Growing

31. How tall are you? How tall do you wish you were? + -- 5'2" and 3/4". :l I wish I was maybe 5'5" or 5'6

32. Do you think that you have grown more in the past year than any year before that? + -- Maybe emotionally.

33. As a person, do you think you are mature for your age or still act childish? + -- You asked this.

34. Are you scared to think that one day you will turn 30, then 40, then 50? + -- I don't want to, but there's nothing I can do about it.

35. Do you believe you still have a lot to learn? + -- Yes.

H – Hope

36. Love – real or not? + -- It is real.

37. Are you a pessimist of an optimist? + -- Depends.

38. Do you believe in fate, that everything happens for a reason, or do you think that our actions lead the way? + -- A little of both, but I  don't usually rely on "fate".

39. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive? + -- I believe in reincarnation.

40. What gives you hope when you just feel like dying? + -- Nothing ever "gave me hope". I just realized that I could get back up in the end. The hardest part was physically making myself do it.

I – Issues

41. Do you suffer from depression or constant sadness/loneliness? + -- Lol, probably. I don't know.

42. Do you have any type of disease or disability? + -- I don't know.

43. Are you currently in a hard relationship or have bad luck with the opposite sex? + -- No.

44. Do you think that you are alone in this world? + -- It really do be like that sometimes.

45. How often do you think about death, suicide or running away? + -- Perhaps more than I ought to.

J – Jokes

46. Say a word or phrase that would not be funny to anyone but you & one of your friends (an inside joke) + -- I got nothin'.

47. Are you usually the one who makes people laugh,Or the other way around? + -- No, I just piss them off with my puns.

48. Do you cry when you laugh hard? + -- It happens.

49. Write down a hilarious moment you had with someone that makes you laugh to this day! + -- Probably. I'm not awake dude.

50. Do you ever get in trouble for laughing or talking a lot during class? + -- No.

K – Knowledge

51. The purpose of school: to learn, to cause trouble or to hang out with friends? + -- You tell me. I couldn't function at school at all. :D

52. Do people refer to you as smart, dumb, or average? + -- People probably think I'm unintelligent. I'll let them think what they want.

53. What was the highest grade you have received (full course mark) ever? + -- I don't know. I don't remember much from those days.

54. What was your last average? This year would you like to maintain it or aim higher?

55. What do you find the most interesting subject to be (to study or to talk about)? + -- Many things! Languages, psychology, history, philosophy, mathematics/logic (moreso on how it applies to the universe than trying to memorize formulae), the arts. ALL THAT HAPPY SHIT.

L – Love

56. Are you currently in love? If not, have you been before? + -- I assume so.

57. Do people around you show you a lot of love (tell you they love you, hug you, kiss you, etc.)? + -- Sure.

58. Is love worth it? + -- I guess if you find the right person, sure.

59. Do you hate it when girls in their young teenage years say they ‘love’ someone that they’ve been dating for a few months? + -- It's ridiculous, but children do what children do.

60. Does it take a lot for you to say you love someone, or is it just a word? + -- I don't like to throw it around. I'd rather show it anyway.

M – Money

61. Do you believe that money makes the world go round? + -- :/ Yes, and I hate it.

62. Is your family on the poor side, average, or above average when it comes to money? + -- My family did not have much money.

63. Are you saving up for college/university, or planning to? + -- I tried, aha. I couldn't live with the idea of putting my parents in more debt than they'd ever owed in their lifetime, even for a small college. So I chose to wait until I was older. Unfortunately I still haven't gone.

64. Would you rather win millions of dollars & be set for life, or find the perfect person to marry & start a family with? + -- Blah blah blah

65. On a scale of 1-10, how important is money to you? + -- It isn't. I need it to survive, but that's about it.

N – Naughty

66. Are you a virgin? + -- No.

67. What do you think about doing sexual things with someone you’re not going out with? + -- I'm not really that kind of person.

68. Do you know anybody you consider a ’slut’? What makes you say that? + -- Eh.

69. If you could, would you erase some things you did in the past or make it so you did more? + -- Probably.

70. Do you consider yourself more nice or more naughty? You can’t say both! + -- Who says I can't say both? I'll say both if I damn well please. But I don't consider myself particularly "naughty". At least not with random strangers.

O – Openness

71. How long does it take for you to open up to someone? + -- Probably too long. Most people walked away before I could.

72. What does it take for you to fully trust someone? + -- I don't think I can.

73. Are you generally untrusting towards people because of past experiences, or any other reason? + -- No, I just don't want anyone to know.

74. When are you comfortable with someone sexually? + -- When I decide I don't care anymore. If they show they genuinely want to be with me, I guess.

75. When it comes to parents and close friends, what’s the limit of what you can tell them? + -- Hmm.

P – Positive

76. Have you ever had an experience with someone that didn’t necessarily end positively? If so, would you rather erase the memory of that person because of the sad times or keep the memory of that person because of the good times? + -- No, I will keep my memories.

77. Do you agree with the saying: better to have loved and lost than not have loved at all? + -- For me, no. I was content before I met my husband and I'd be fine after. But I also prefer being alone most of the time.

78. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic? What do you try to be? + -- A bit of both.

79. Do you agree that something good can come out of everything? + -- Possibly.

80. Have you ever had a time where something really bad happened, but something really good happened because of it? If so, please exlain what it was: + -- I'm sure, but I don't want to.

Q – Questions

81. When faced with a problem, do you ask for help or try to figure it out yourself? + -- I try to figure it out for myself first. I always get told "you need to ask for help blah blah". No, I don't. Let me do it on my own.

82. Do you often question the world and how we came about? What are some things you would like to know about creation? + -- I always question how things came about. And I don't know. What came before?

83. Do you think the government is truthful? If you could ask the president one question, what would it be? + -- LOL. I'm too conspiratorial for this survey.

84. When someone does something wrong to you, do you confront them and ask them why they did it or just let it go? + -- If I know them, then I'll bring it up casually or something. Could've been an accident. If I don't know them I might just shrug it off.

85. What is one unsolved mystery about the world that you want answers to? + -- There's a lot.

R – Respect

86. How do you show respect? + -- I treat everyone with politeness.

87. What can someone do for you to lose all respect for them? + -- Prove to me that you are a coward or generally a terrible person I guess.

88. Do you respect your teachers, parents, and other authority figures? + -- If they give me a reason to. I don't give out respect freely. I might do what you ask me, but I will do the bare minimum unless I actuallly care about what you have to say. Give me a reason to respect you, and I will work hard for you.

89. When you are disrespectful to your parents, what is the punishment? + -- My mom can't do anything to stop me. Not that I AM, but she's very old now.

90. If someone is mean to you, are you mean back or do you kill them with kindness? + -- Neither, but it depends on the situation. Like if you straight up hit me, well...

S – School

91. If you are still in school, what grade will you be going into?

92. When will you graduate high school/college? + -- I left years ago.

93. After high school, what did you do/are you planning to do?

94. Do you like or hate school? What do you like/hate about it? + -- I hated school. I couldn't function at all.

95. Have you ever been suspended, expelled, or dropped out of school? + -- I dropped out. After spending ages taking all these makeup classes on top of my regular studies, I had my counselor tell me to my face that I'd be good to go to graduate. And two weeks after school ended, I received a phone call telling me that no, I would not be graduating and that, if I wanted to, I'd have to pay them either $200 or $300 for either summer school or night school. I couldn't afford that, so I just didn't go back and acquired my GED, which was easier and I didn't have to study for it. :/

T – Temptation

96. Have you ever done something wrong, knowing it was wrong, because something inside of you said it was okay? + -- I mean... it's possible?

97. Has anyone ever pressured you to smoke or drink? Did you do it? + -- Nope. I've never smoked and I've no intention to.

98. Did you ever cheat on someone? Why did you do it? + -- My mom cheated on my dad multiple times. I've seen how it slowly tears the other person apart. I would NEVER do that to someone.

99. Did you ever want to do something sexual with someone you didn’t really know or love? What did you end up doing? + -- Not really. I don't think there's necessarily anything wrong with this, but my brain doesn't make the jump to "this person looks nice" to "I want to have sex with them" for some reason.

100. Do you give in to temptation easily, or are you more independent and strong willed? + -- In the middle. When it comes to junk food I'm more weak-willed, but other things not so much.

U – Unique

102. Do you do a lot of things because your friends are doing it? + -- Where's the other question? And uhh no?

103. Do you follow trends, wear whatever you want, or wear really unique pieces? + -- I don't pay attention to trends or fashion. There's times that I unintentionally, say, dyed my hair a "trendy" color - but it wasn't on purpose and it didn't stop me from dying my hair.

104. Do you give in easily to peer pressure? Do you do things such as smoke, drink, or have casual sex? + -- No. I rarely ever drink.

105. What makes you different from people your age? + -- I don't know and I don't care.

V – Value

106. What’s the most expensive thing in your room? + -- Probably the electronics.

107. What’s more valuable: your life or the lives of your loved ones? Would you sacrifice your life for other people? + -- The lives of my loved ones. I'd do what I had to do I guess.

108. What is something you value not because it cost a lot, but because it means a lot to you? + -- As far as regular material items, probably the little Stain merch I have. For anything else, it's my husband.

109. If there was a fire in your house/apartment, what is the first thing you would grab? + -- The cat.

110. Do you think past memories and experiences are more valuable than what could possibly happen in the future? + -- Of course. You can always look at them later.

W – Wishes

111. If you had three wishes, what would they be? + -- I dunno. Is there a genie involved? I don't like the idea of someone being enslaved to serve me, so that's out the window. I wouldn't feel right just wishing something out of thin air like that.

112. Would you rather wish yourself to be happy, or your loved ones? + -- Loved ones.

113. Do you believe that wishes come true if you really believe in them? + -- Just go out and do it man. If you sit around wishing you'll just wish your life away.

114. Have you ever had a wish come true? If so, what was that wish? + -- It only "came true" because I forced something to change. I made the necessary sacrifices to make it come true. Nothing more, nothing less.

115. Do you find wishing for things a waste of time because everything that’s meant to happen, will happen? + -- I think it's important to believe in something. But I also believe it's important to actually reach out to make them happen too. It's not just going to drop into your lap.

Y – You

121. Are you more independent or social? + -- Independent.

122. What is something that makes you very mad when you see it? + -- Oh god hahahaha. When they sweep my favorite holiday under the rug to ring in Christmas extremely early all for the sake of cashmoney.

123. Do you think that you have potential to do great things? + -- I don't know. I assume I don't, but I don't really think much about that.

124. Do you think people are born a certain way, or develop their personalities based on what they go through in life? + -- Genes definitely play an impact on a person's mentality and whatnot, but the environment ultimately shapes that.

125. Do you think people are generally good ? + -- "Good" and "evil" feel like really convenient terms to me nowadays. I think people believe that a) they are the hero of their own story, and that b) most people have "good" intentions. Unfortunately, good intentions do not a good person make.

Z – Zest

126. Are you currently happy with your life? Why or why not? + -- No. It's not where I want to be yet.

127. Do you go on FacebookCraze.com to get facebook survey’s and quizzes like this one? + -- No.

128. When change occurs, do you get scared or are you excited for it? + -- I just prepare for it.

129. Do you like to try new things, meet new people? + -- Yes.

130. What is the most motivational thing in the world? + -- When you have no other choice LOL