#man sometimes ill just draw things huh.

[pineappical]

 i really wanted to post those gifs too but i wanted them to be side by side so heres also a drawing of these two idiots (affectionate) failing miserably at roblox bingo :-)

[hanjisungslag]

attack on titan headcanons #10

synopsis: how the characters react when you, their s/o, gets hurt. 🩹

characters involved: eren, mikasa, armin, jean, connie, sasha, reiner, bertolt, annie, levi, erwin and hange

notes: i am cooking up a storm, so watch out for that & also hit double digits!!

☆ eren jaeger

bro is INFURIATED

“WHO DID IT HUH?! ILL KILL THEM WITH MY BARE HANDS-”

oh.. you got injured in training? poor babyyy☹️

he’s super sweet and gentle with you.

if anyone tries to go near you though.. he’s super scared they’re gonna accidentally hurt you😭.

so he’s always at the edge of his seat ready to rescue you if needs be.

he gets all of your food, water, clothes, bandages etc.

then the nurses catch him doing it and have to YANK him off of you, once again.

☆ mikasa ackerman

so incredibly caring and concerned 🤍

she was the one who found you on the expedition with a broken leg

she refuses you to the hospital

lets the nurses do their jobs (thank god)

she really wants to be able to help nurse you back to health as well though..

she gives you the next best thing aka massages.

she literally comes in everyday and gives you 3 massages minimum a day

she’ll also sleep in the hospital with you most days.

☆ armin arlert

nothing less than an angel.

for however long you’re in the hospital, he’ll bring you flowers

in there for 3 weeks? new flowers every week.

in there for a week? new flowers every other day.

reads you books every night to help you sleep

sleeps there EVERY single night

always gives good morning and good night kisses

keeps you updated with what’s going on with everyone and training to make sure you don’t miss out.

makes sure to surprise you by bringing your friends there too!! it was a super sweet surprise.

when you’re sleeping, he goes around asking nurses if they need help😖.

☆ jean kirstein

UGH TERRIFIED FOR YOUUU

he has to hype himself up before going to see you in hospital because it just breaks his heart.

but being able to see you, hug you, know that you’re being taken care of makes him feel wayy better.

he’s just happy to see that you’re not too badly injured.

just a sprain from training!

he likes to draw things for you from the outside

or you guys draw together.

yk that cute game where one person draws a squiggle and the other person has to make into a drawing?

yeah, you guys do that. and it’s frickin adorbs😡

☆ connie springer

you went to do some late night training by yourself

and cornelius found you on the ground. in a lot of pain.

he rushed you to the first aid

fastest anyone has EVER seen that man run

you got cleaned up but had to take a break from training until you were better.

definitely tries to make you laugh all the time

even with your injury, he still wants to see you happy and smiling 🤍

☆ sasha braus

aw bless her cotton socks.

your injury wasn’t fatal enough to warrant a hospital stay

but the nurses said to stay home and rest up!

you had to take care of your scar

in her own time, sasha headed over to first aid to ask the nurses how to help you properly☹️.

you literally do not lift a finger!!

she does everything for you, like cleaning it up, wrapping it up etc.

and she’s really good at it and all…

☆ reiner braun

he’s like a scared little boy.

he’ll sit by your side and tell you it’s all okay

but when he’s alone.. HE GETS SO UPSET

sometimes he’ll take ‘bathroom breaks’ just to pull himself together because he hates seeing you in this state :(.

really affects his everyday life

but he hides it well.

BIGG celebrations as soon as you’re out of hospital

is literally like a servant, will get you everything and anything you want.

☆ bertolt hoover

GAH SO ANXIOUS!!

he bakes you cookies for being so brave☹️.

he stays with you all day long until the nurse finally tells him he has to go.

it breaks his heart leaving you but he gets up bright and bloody early to see you in the morning

like i’m talking the second the hospital opens up.

☆ annie leonhart

she’s not nervous,

your injury wasn’t fatal or anything.

she’ll still visit you, of course ;)

she also makes sure to tell you how brave you are

since you are scared of hospitals.

she’ll giggle at your wimpy-ness though.

like you were getting patched up and you were just like trying not to scream

and she was just standing there chuckling at you.

☆ levi ackerman

so so so scared, secretly.

he has lost one too many people

but to lose you? that would completely and utterly BREAK him.

it was a pretty gnarly injury as well…

which was rather terrifying for both you and him

but he’ll keep a cool persona around you.

if he’s unable to visit due to work, he’ll ring the hospital and asks how you are.

he’ll always make time to come see you though, no matter what!!

☆ erwin smith

he hears from his assistant that you’ve been put into hospital

he runs STRAIGHT over and makes sure to comfort you.

he’ll stay till dark when you’re asleep and pay the nurses a visit too

he asks them to take extra good care of you.

if he’s unable to see you, he makes sure to call you up every single day

or at least have SOMEONE come check on you.

☆ hange zoë

GAH!! FREAKS OUT!

hange has seen it all at this rate

but doesn’t seem to heavily affected.

they’ve never really had anyone close to them be extremely injured

they were sooo scared though :(.

it was really sad for everyone to see hange’s energy so low but

they couldn’t help it!!

all they could think about was their poor love in hospital :(.

when they’re around you though, they try to stay positive! and tells you all about their work to keep you both distracted.

[nafohcnis]

omg yeah YEAH you’re so right sometimes i REALLY think about how jd didn’t even remember the perfect family harmony EXISTED at first. until FLOYD reminded him

and then he fell into old habits of perfectionism bc well. they had to be Perfect . Floyd’s Fuckin Life Was On The Line . holding a grudge for 20+ years is a lil wild from bruce & clay LMAO i like the interpretations where they’ve slowly started to forgive him over the years but the shock of his arrival/immediately talking abt the perfect family harmony made all the hurt feelings come rushing back

the family fight scene where jd sarcastically asked if branch thought they were going to be a happy family is sooo. like he’s seen how his brothers are reacting to him and pretty much thinks. huh they dont want me around okay fine….. ill save floyd and then repress any feelings i have about this for another 20 years.. but manages to stumble straight into branch’s insecurities and cause him to get angry back

i thinks about him a lot yeah.

YESS YESS YOU GET IT… MAN!!!’ ugh the last thing.. ITS SO MESSED UP IM GONNA PUNCH A WALL!! man u really cover eveyrthing in this im gonna explode for reals. ESspecially with how ENTHUSIASTIC he greets everyone and then they completely disregard him like 'FUCK you john dory' so he's like umm ok bye then </3 and it backfires AGAIN ugh i dont wanna just repeat what u already said but.. UGH!!!

rush drawing cuz man i i need them dead.

[gilsart]

I just KNOW that Frederick the Great is tweaking in his coffin right now with the victory of the rotten orange.

It's jover for all of us in politics 💀, we need a hero (historical political figure from Prussia who happens to be gay)

Oh no we do NOT need a comeback no thank you nuh huh not agreeing with this he better stay dead 🚩🚩🚩

All jokes aside!

I think we need to talk about this statement you made. I'm european, that means I'm not directly affected by Tr*mp's election, but I will be in the near future considering most politicians in my country love to lick fascist boots (not surprised, they're fascists themselves). This is a premise to say that we are collectively sinking deep in a pile of shit, but that I'm also used to fascist ideology comfortably sitting in Parliament chairs as I am used to anachronistic statements, so here's my two cents about what you just said.

I admit I have no idea if by "tweaking" you mean tweaking with joy or tweaking in horror, I've seen the verb being used in both contexts and English isn't my first language, but this doesn't matter. Whatever you meant, I wouldn't make a statement like this one to talk about the current situation, if I were you. Now, I know you were probably joking and that's fine, but I still feel like it is my responsibility to answer back to you with what I think about this, especially with what is happening right now: we need to stop thinking about historical figures with our 21st century mindset, ESPECIALLY when it comes to political matters like, for example, segregated and oppressed communities' basic human rights.

Especially when talking about queer historical figures such as Frederick, considering the time he was born, lived and died, he wouldn't even know what the word "gay" means. He wouldn't use the word "homosexual", he wouldn't know how to label himself, he wouldn't think like we do because we're talking about an 18th century rich white man. And he probably wouldn't align with any feminist ideology, as wouldn't most (if not every, but I'm not educated enough to speak on behalf of historical feminism) male figures from his time period. When thinking about it, being considerate enough towards oppressed communities as to, for example, not use certain slurs is a fairly new thing. The words used to describe a gay man back then would be considered extremely offensive right now – not to mention being a lesbian was equated with being mentally ill.

To mix historical figures and modern day society is anachronistic and aside from not leading us anywhere it can be extremely dangerous. What you said was innocent, I think, so I'm not accusing you of anything, and while anachronism can sometimes be funny (like, for example, a meme or a drawing) when dragged into modern society's ideology, it becomes a double-edged sword. Especially when it comes to Frederick. Idolizing him lead to some very bad stuff. N*zis glorified him as a hero and a great German leader prefiguring H*tler. Joseph G*ebbels commissioned artists to render fanciful images of Frederick, Bismarck, and H*itler together to create a sense of historical continuum amongst them and legitimise the Regime by doing so. To this day there are people who proudly call themselves "Prussian nationalists" which in the year of our lord 2024 is rather pathetic (wake up, Prussia doesn't exist anymore, guys) and deeply concerning. These people have reached out to me in the past and I ever so quickly blocked them.

When it comes to a drawing, something silly, something done lightheartedly, it is one thing. When people (not just me, people) draw modern AUs with historical figures just to have fun, with nothing problematic attached to it, that's just what it is: a drawing. But when it comes to politics let's remember that these people are dead, have been dead, and better stay dead and the fuck out of Parliament seats, politicians' mouths, and human rights movements because most of the time they wouldn't even know what the hell we're on about. And that is okay. They have done their time on Earth and we can study them, like them, make content revolving around them like I do along with many other people, but what we cannot do is use them to say they'd stand by us and agree with us because that takes us nowhere.

I'd like to end this by saying I'm not attacking you, and if you feel like I am or would like to talk about this further feel free to DM me. This is just a general message to everyone to not come to me with anachronistic takes, be they voluntary or involuntary, because I'm way too used to them not to start being really annoying.

[timbrhead]

metanoia. | pt 04 - i‘m not entirely here, half of me has disappeared

𝐢𝐧𝐟𝐨:

>> welcome, my name is 𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐚, and ill be your scriptwriter (^‿^✿). my story will be kind of an choose-your-own-adventure story with a poll at the end of every part, where you can vote how the story continues.

This will be honkai star rail x fireader story with these elements: reincarnation, slow burn, i gave reader a proper personality (sry, not much customisation there), does not follow the original storyline

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𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 (this is important);

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you were anticipating something, but this was not at all what you were expecting.

when you first saw the general, looming over you with his towering height, you thought he wasn't real. he didn't seem like someone that could exist.

his appearance fit that of a general and more. it exuded authority and wisdom from the many years he had lived, and his whole appearance demanded attention. the metal accessoires on his armour clanked with each step as he approached you, and his amber eyes widened slightly as he saw you, before a gentle smile stretched across his face.

„mei lian..."

he almost breathed out, before stepping back, urging you to sit on the seat before his desk. another servant brought a teapot to his desk, handing it to him. He grabbed a cup. „when i heard the news that you were back, i could almost not believe it. how long has it been, two months? with everything going on, i thought i had lost my dear attendant."

he said, pouring you a cup of tea. you accepted it with a bow of gratitude, smiling slightly. after that, a silence set over you two, making you lightly squirm in your seat. you didn't know what to say to the high-profile man, without making him suspicious that you weren’t the mei lian that served him two months ago. you take a sip, feeling his eyes bore into yours.

after a long, sullen silence, a soft laughter echoed through the quiet room, and he began to peel his eyes off, focussing on the documents before him.

„i'm glad to have you back, mei lian. it wouldn't be the same around here without you."

he smiled, casting one last glance at you.

„and look at you, already so eager to work for me again. missed me, huh?", he teased, before gently urging you away to fetch him some papers.

...he certainly left you dumbfounded, that was for sure.

but at least the work has proven itself not to be too hard. you mainly did some household chores for him, reporting him of the latest events on the xianzhou luofu, and sometimes even walking through the city to get errands.

occasionally, you could feel his eyes on you though. It felt unnerving, but each time you hesitantly asked if something was wrong, he would just chuckle, telling you that it was nothing. he said that he just missed you.

but you had a hunch that he was onto you, making your mind wander back to last night; where you entered mei lian's house for the first time.

———

you admit, setting a foot into a home that did not belong to you and having to pretend it was, was pretty hard.

the flat was small, cramped even, with several things scattered throughout the messy hallway. it almost felt eerie as you walked through the once lively home. you felt like an intruder as you walked further into the flat, searching for a sign of mei lian‘s family, and from the looks of it, it seemed like they all left in a hurry before they all disappeared. or died. you winced as you thought of this very possible outcome.

the apartment had two bedrooms, a kitchenette and a small bathroom, all very compact in a small space they shared. you first stepped into the first bedroom, examining it. it was split in the middle, with one half being rather plain, work documents scattered across the surface of the desk and a closet filled with clothes and shoes, accompanied by a small mirror on the wall.

the other half was a bit more decorated, with posters and drawings pinned on the wall, stuffed toys neatly set up beside the pillows. the desk was filled with calligraphy equipment and what seems to be unfinished schoolwork. You stepped a bit closer to the desk, having seen a picture frame cramped between cups filled with pens, and various notebooks stacked on top of eachother.

It was a picture of mei lian and what seemed to be her little sister. they both had a big smile on their faces, and by the looks of it, it was her sisters first day of school. she has a big schoolbag on her bag, and they were posing in front of the building. you took the picture out of the frame just in case, to identify the little sister. you cleaned up a bit, mainly sorting through mei lian’s work documents before moving on to the next bedroom.

this room belonged to a pair of twins it seemed, judging from the pictures hanging from the wall over the bed. they were both rowdy boys, with the one holding a starskiff and the other holding a spear in one photo. you pocketed this photo as well. you gaze through the room, toys scattered everywhere, and their desks filled with stationary and little trinkets.

mei lian seemed to spoil them a lot. there was no sign of their parents though, you guessed that they weren’t around, judging from the fact that not one of their colleagues said anything about her parents upon her reappearanc. you didn’t have anything better to do, so you cleaned up the mess a bit, gathering everything that might seem important on the low table in the living room. after that, you checked the fridge, your nose scrunching up at the sight of rotten food inside. It seemed like the family‘s leave wasn’t planned at all.

you eventually settled down on the couch, feeling exhausted after all what has happened. you wonder if mei lian would feel at home here. ‚probably not‘, you thought, ‚her family isn’t with her, after all‘.

you sigh at that, stepping into her room, trying to make yourself comfortable on the bed. luocha was right. it was hard, living a life pretending to be another person. you kinda wished that he was here with you now. you missed his soothing voice, and the way he calmed you down. his warmth. he was like a rock you could lean on, someone you could turn to in a time of need.

you have said your goodbye to him at a dock, with him slipping you his phone number in case of emergencies. you contemplated multiple times during your cleaning wether or not to call him, tell him that maybe you have made the wrong decision. but something always stopped you in the last moment. …no. you needed to find mei lian‘s siblings, first and foremost. you could worry about yourself later.

———

maybe you should have put more thought into this though, your mind reprimanded you as you looked into the searing golden pools of jing yuan‘s eyes.

you thought that everything went smoothly. you tended to his garden, brought him the meals the chef prepared for him, and from the looks of it, he seemed satisfied by your service. this was how most of your day had gone. but when you were just about to leave, you turn to him, wanting to ask about your siblings. you wince slightly as you were reminded of mei lian‘s words.

But before you could say anything, you were suddenly interrupted by the general.

„you…“

his voice rumbled through the now empty building, the other servants being long gone, leaving only you two here. you noticed that his voice has changed, it was deeper, more sharp. it boomed through the hall, and— you flinch back as he was suddenly behind you, cornering you against a wall.

„you are not really mei lian, correct?“

he smiled, his hands behind his back. you freeze. what was—? „i know my personal attendant. i worked with her for almost a decade, you tend to recognise eachothers character after such a long time.“ he chuckled, his eyes boring into you. you suddenly felt small, caught between a lion‘s paw. he was scary, with the way he could immediately look through you.

„so, who are you, if i may ask? i would suggest that you answer honestly, whoever you are. i won‘t be so nice again if you attempt to fool me a second time.“

his voice hardened, and you could see the lights flickering in the giant hall. you gulp—a threat from the general himself. if you didn’t play your cards correctly, you might die a third time.

you take a deep breath before answering, a poor attempt to calm down.

back on a semi-regular upload schedule! i will give my best to be as consistent as I can with these parts now.. so please don’t forget to vote on what the reader should do next!

taglist; @shadowypeachsweets

- xoxo, laina

[onmyo-jin]

For the prompts: HeiHua HeiHua HeiHua! A few possibilities:

That tumblr post about the two professors who had a legendary rivalry and only the TA knew they were married.

That freaking raccoon keeps stealing the birdseed from every new "raccoon proof" bird feeder Xiao Hua puts out. THIS IS WAR.

Snow White and the Huntsman

Something based on a piece of fanart!

[so many options! I might come back for some of the others but this one is based on this beautiful drawing by @ohyka because I am weak for hand kisses]

It was, subjectively, intellectually, even objectively, gross.

They'd been climbing up the rocky mountain for ages, they were bothy grimy and sweaty, and who knows what those hands had touched even before they came into contact with mother Nature's honest dirt.

Still, when Xiazi caught him when the brittle stone gave way under his foot, Xiao Hua was... touched. Yes, that had to be the word for it. Moved seemed too strong a description, appreciative was too cold-- yes, Xiao Hua was touched. That had to be the thing that was fluttering in his stomach, that and gravity's sudden pull. The ropes would have held him of course, he was no novice climber. Still, Hei Xiazi was no novice either. He must have known the ropes would hold, surely? He'd lept to Xiao Hua's rescue without a second thought regardless.

Perhaps moved might be accurate enough...

"Hua'er-ye, aren't you gonna let go of my hand now?" A stupid question from a foolish man. The grin was not remotely tempered by his eternal sunglasses. Of course Xiao Hua was going to let go. They were halfway up a mountain, dangling from ropes (secure ropes! strong ropes! but still, they were dangling terribly inelegantly). It would be ill-advised indeed to hold on, a waste of energy at the very least. His mouth had already betrayed him as those thoughts circled his mind: "No. That's my hand now."

"Hua'er?" Tch, so informal. Where did the man get the guts to call Xiao Hua that?

Using his free hand and the now more solid footing, he boosted himself up on a tiny ledge, dragging Xiazi along. Having no choice but to follow, Hei Xiazi jumped after him-- not even thinking about it! Was the man trying to fall off of the mountain or what?

Slightly breathless, they sat side to side for a moment.

"Hua'er-ye, what do you need another hand for, huh?"

"Whatever I want," arrogance was easy, always easy. Sometimes he regretted learning that particular smokescreen, but he refused to take back his words. Perhaps there was something else he could do-- which was gross, and unthinkable, so it was best just not to think about it at all.

He didn't need to see Hei Xiazi's eyes to tell they were wide as saucers when Xiao Hua lifted his hand to his lips, and pressed a kiss to that warm skin. He wasn't going to react to the way he could feel Xiazi freeze up under his hand, to the breath he heard halt on its way in to Xiazi's lungs. The red on his cheeks must be from the exertion of the climb, as well.

When Xiao Hua finally released his hand and sat back, Xiazi's hand remained flaoting between them for a too-long moment. Xiao Hua had enough time to wonder if he'd broken the man's remaining braincells, until--

"Hua'er-ye, do you need a hand with any other things?" He didn't need to look to see the grin-- he looked anyway and even caught that damned eyebrow wiggle.

Was it too late to jump off the mountain anyway?

[ikeromantic]

Optional

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Sasuke, D is for Dear, 🥹

Mitsuhide, S is for Secret, 🫣

Ieyasu, A is for Appetite, 😉

Kenshin, B is for Beauty, 😘

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For these please don't feel even a little bit like you need to do them, but if any catch your fancy and you just want to I won't complain! ❤️

I chose Ieyasu. I think he needed a little more love ^_^ I feel like this ended up being more 😘 than 😉, but here we go! Approx. 900 words.

Ieyasu felt an itch under his skin. Not literally. He would have preferred literal. An itch could be resolved. Scratched until satisfied. Treated with some medicine. Ignored, even. But this itch . . . tossed herself in his way every day. He could not find a place she did not haunt. And when she was not there in form, she was in his thoughts. 

Her presence was driving him mad. He could not focus on work. His only escape was in the rigor of sword practice. Which was why the pale morning sun found him in the practice yard, faced off against Masamune. 

“Again,” Ieyasu called, and lifted his sparring sword. 

“Hungry for another round, lad?” Masamune laughed and came at him once again. So far, the one-eyed dragon held four victories to Ieyasu’s three. He probably thought the young warlord was hoping to draw even. If he really knew the reason . . .

Masamune’s practice blade caught him in the thigh. Ieyasu threw himself out of the way. His own sword whistled through the air in a wild slash that the dragon easily avoided. 

“You getting tired?” Masamune’s grin was infuriating.

“No.” Ieyasu answered the challenge with a flurry of slashes, changing his stance in a whirlwind of motion. He was a good swordsman. Great, even. But so was Masamune. He only managed to drive the one-eyed dragon back, his edge catching nothing but air. 

“Huh.” Masamune circled, looking for an opening. He wasn’t one to waste energy on an ill-timed strike. “Not tired then. Distracted?”

Ieyasu ignored the question. He lunged forward, but his attack was parried. He danced back to a defensive posture. 

“Hmmm. But distracted by what?” Masamune’s grin widened. “If a man had to guess . . . I bet this distraction has big eyes and a sweet smile and hair that -”

“Shut up.” Ieyasu’s jaw clenched so tight it hurt. Was he so obvious? Or was the one-eyed dragon so intuitive? “I am not distracted.” He launched another attack and this time scored a glancing blow to Masamune’s side. 

He laughed off the hit, and used the moment to create his own opening. Masamune’s sword slammed into Ieyasu’s upper shoulder. A hit that in a real fight might have been lethal. “No? Maybe just hungry then.” 

“I ate.” Ieyasu ignored the sweat that trickled down his forehead and back. The throbbing pain in his shoulder and leg. He could feel the bruises there already swelling. 

Masamune’s blue eye glinted with a fierce playfulness. “Sure, but it’s about what. Sometimes a man gets hungry for just one, specific thing.”

Ieyasu darted forward, another slash and another parry. He was not going to dignify this ridiculous line of conversation with a response.

“Nothing else will satisfy.” Masamune grunted as he repelled another attack. He leapt and shifted. “That hunger eats at you.” He brought his sword around to almost land another blow to Ieyasu’s damaged shoulder. “Nibbling at your spirit.”

“Nothing is nibbling!” Ieyasu barely managed to avoid being hit again. He went on another full out attack, and for a moment there was no conversation. Only strained breath and the screech of dulled edges sliding off one another. 

Masamune took a hit to his arm, but ignored it. He lunged into the blow and used his momentum to knock Ieyasu off his feet. His sword came down fast, stopping just short of Ieyasu’s throat. The metal rested coolly against the blonde’s hot skin. “You can’t think until you sate it, lad.” 

They shared a look. Ieyasu felt a tangle of burning emotions well up in his chest. Annoyance, affection, desire, shame . . . all of it coming too fast and hard to swallow down. These were feelings they both understood, a brotherhood of trauma, stress, and loneliness.

Masamune let him up. 

Ieyasu stood and walked out. He barely noticed what he passed, where he was going. He wasn’t thinking, just moving. Letting his heart lead, in all its wildness and contradiction. His feet led him forward until he found himself there, standing in front of her. 

She sat there with a swath of fabric in her lap, a needle and thread in hand. Her smile lit up her eyes as she saw him, so bright and sweet and naive. 

He couldn’t take it anymore. Ieyasu held out his hand. 

The chatelaine set down her work and took it, one brow rising in an unspoken question. A question that remained unspoken as he pulled her close. Holding her so tightly that neither could properly draw breath. 

His mouth found hers, crushed her lips to his. She was so soft, so sweet. The taste on her lips of mint and tea and honey. The warmth of her tongue as she pushed past his barriers to return the kiss with the same passion that burned in him. Ieyasu thought, as he kissed her, that Masamune was so very wrong. 

The hunger in him was only growing as he tried to satisfy it. Holding her, kissing her . . . he wanted more. He wanted all of her. Not just the feel of her body but the joy in her heart. The love in her gaze. Every sigh, every glance. She’d broken him wide open. Torn down his walls and left him bare and desperate. 

When he finally drew back from the kiss, his lungs aching for air, he rasped three little words. ”I love you.”

[aurumacadicus]

More serial killer Bucky I guess. 😒 Tw: blood and gore and self harm and depression and suicidal thoughts and beloveds this man is a serial killer. This is past revenge he gets too much pleasure out of it. He chooses not to hurt Tony much but that’s an exception not the rule. He once tried to strangle Steve for getting in his way and Steve almost broke his neck in response these men went to sleep and woke up WRONG. They are not nice people.

Also I’m saying this so no one gets on my ass: The illnesses Bucky mentions are in quotations because until he actually researches them, Bucky thinks they’re fake. They didn’t have that shit back before he fell from the train and he is ASTOUNDED to know that he and Steve probably have some form of PTSD. But that’s future Bucky’s problem. He’s got Hydra to kill.

Watch out for under the cut.

—

“You need to go check on Tony,” Steve says. “I’ve got too many enemies on my tail. I can’t go. He’s not answering his phone.”

Bucky takes a deep breath and lets it back out. “I’m on my own job.”

“He’s not answering his phone and I can’t get to him,” Steve says flatly. “If he’s dead when I get back, that’s your fucking problem.” He hangs up before Bucky can say anything in response. The dial tone sounds judgmental.

Bucky looks at his phone for a moment, sighing, then crushes the Hydra goon’s throat in his metal fist, not caring about the blood splattering over him. He would have preferred to draw it out, but he hadn’t started his homicidal bender just to watch the kid who got him out of it die. His phone rings again. He answers it.

“I told him you killed his parents, by the way,” Steve says, voice clipped. “So he might try to shoot you. I don’t know,” he adds, sounding frustrated. “He might hand the gun to you to finish the job, too. He’s taking this medicine. I think sometimes it helps and sometimes it doesn’t.” He sighs angrily. “I kinda thought they’d be able to fix this by now. The human body is a mistake. Have you heard of AIM?”

"No," Bucky says simply. He’s been hyper-focused on Hydra.

“Fucking piece of shit future things were supposed to be better without me--” Steve says, and then there’s the sound of shooting, and then he hangs up again.

Bucky considers looking into AIM, then decides he can deal with them if and when he runs out of Nazis to kill.

Tony’s front door is unlocked. It irritates him. Most people are scared off by locked doors, go looking for easier targets then. A locked door would at least buy someone time to protect themselves if the invader was intent on getting in.

“Are you here to kill me?” Tony asks where he’s sprawled out on the couch. “Finish the Stark family off forever?” His head lolls forward, and he blinks at him slowly, bruises under his eyes, greasy hair sticking to his damp forehead.

Bucky walks over to grab him by the front of the shirt with his metal hand. Tony doesn’t stand up when he tugs on it, so he shrugs, dragging him over to where he assumes the bedroom is. That seems to warrant a reaction, apparently, because he scrabbles uselessly with his grip. He makes his way through the bedroom to the bathroom.

“What is this?” Tony finally asks. “Is this a prosthetic? Why is it made out of metal?”

“To torture me,” Bucky answers. It could be a joke. It mostly isn’t. He opens the shower door and thrusts Tony inside. He means to draw his hand back, but Tony had a grip on him, so he slides a few inches before Bucky stops. “You’re gross.”

“It’s not gonna kill me to stay gross a little longer,” Tony huffs, twisting his arm this way and that. “This is sloppy. They really were trying to torture you, huh?”

“Chronic pain makes you tired. When you’re tired, you’re easy to control,” Bucky says. He sounds like he’s repeating it. He doesn’t know where he’s heard it before. One of the Hydra scientists, probably. It makes sense.

Tony’s face twitches, but whatever was there, it’s gone before Bucky can parse it. “I could do better,” he says, wrinkling his nose in disdain.

“You can’t even bathe yourself regularly,” Bucky says flatly. “Melding metal with a nervous system? Please.”

Tony jerks his head up to glare at him, and it’s the most emotion he’s seen on his face. “Oh yeah? Fucking watch me.”

He pulls his shirt over his head and throws it at him, and Bucky ducks on instinct. He stoops to pick it up and wonders why, remembers someone yelling at a bunch of little girls to pick their clothes up after they bathe. It sounds like his voice, maybe. He decides not to think about it. It wouldn’t help. He takes a moment to examine Tony’s arms. All he sees is the faded pink lines, he notices with approval. The scars will probably always be visible, but at least it doesn’t look like he’s got any new marks.

Tony throws his pants at him. He catches them and can’t help but think he aimed them at his head on purpose. His aim isn’t very good. But then, his everything isn’t very good right now. His ribs are too visible. He could use a few good meals.

Tony shoves his boxers down, and Bucky can’t help the noise he makes when he sees the wounds inside of his thighs. Razor marks in two rows from mid thigh up to the crease almost up to where thigh met pelvis.

Bucky has his flesh hand around Tony’s throat before he even realizes, shoving him up against the tiles with a snarl. He feels Tony’s throat work beneath his hand, but there’s no pleasure in it--there’s no fear in Tony’s wide eyes, no anxiety. He doesn’t even struggle. Bucky drops him, disgusted, and Tony drops to the floor with a gasp as he spits, “You’d be happy if I killed you, wouldn’t you?”

Tony clutches at his throat, as he continues sucking in air, but he doesn’t answer, staring up at him from under his lashes with what might be disappointment, if Bucky was generous, except that he mostly looks like he feels nothing at all.

It’s wrong. People shouldn’t want to... What had Steve said? Medicine. Tony was sick. Something was making him feel like this.

“Shower,” Bucky tells him sharply, catches sight of the razor on the shower shelf, and reaches in to snatch it.

Tony looks like he wants to complain, but thinks better of it in response to Bucky’s sharp glare.

Bucky waits for the shower to start before he goes through the bathroom cupboards and drawers, then out into the bedroom. He finds a couple more razors. Takes those too. Finds a couple orange bottles and examines them. Googles the names to figure out what they are. Doesn’t understand any of the words, really.

“What’s serotonin?” Bucky asks when Tony comes out of the bathroom, and Tony lets out a startled bark of laughter. “They didn’t have that when I was in the army,” he continues defensively, and Tony laughs harder.

Tony gets dressed, and Bucky googles what the fuck a dopamine is. Doesn’t care that Tony’s getting close until his hands are on his metal wrist. “This really is garbage,” he huffs, unimpressed. “I know I could do better.”

“I won’t hold my breath,” Bucky says flatly. “You’re still trying to die. You don’t even lock your door.” He slants Tony a sharp look. “Is that because you’re hoping someone will come in and hurt you?”

“Maybe, but so far it’s just been your contrarian ass,” Tony grumbles. “Saved my life twice even though you regularly kill people. Even my own parents. So unfair.”

Bucky turns his judgmental slant to a full-on glare, outraged. Tony doesn’t even notice, making him turn his arm so he can examine the elbow joints in motion. “Do you have any self-preservation in that emaciated body of yours?”

“Celebrities are supposed to be thin,” Tony scoffs.

“I don’t know what that means,” Bucky tells him, unimpressed, and then jerks his arm free and stands. “Answer your fucking phone.”

“I was mugged,” Tony says with a blase shrug, and then snaps, “Don’t fucking choke me if you’re not gonna finish the job,” when Bucky reaches out for him again.

Bucky pauses to consider this. Maybe a good slap would help?

Tony tips his head back to look up at him, purring, “Or unless you’re gonna finish the job, if you know what I mean. I like when my daddy chokes me while I’m riding him.”

“Gross. I knew your dad,” Bucky says. Remembers the way Howard looked up at him, blood dripping down his face, and asked, “Sergeant Barnes?” before he beat him to death. “Don’t call me that. You’re twelve.”

“I’m twenty-two,” Tony exclaims, offended.

It's the most emotion Bucky has seen on him, even more than in the bathroom. “Answer your fucking phone,” he says, instead of ‘sounds fake’ or ‘no way.’ “I had to leave in the middle of a job. If I have to do that again, I’ll be very angry.”

“I don’t fucking care,” Tony says, and Bucky has to credit him for being honest.

“Maybe you can fix my arm,” Bucky says, instead of telling him he’s annoying. “If you live long enough.”

Tony’s eyes immediately go to his arm again. Speculative. Interested.

Bucky leaves. Takes a few days to do a deep dive on “depression” and “bipolar” and “anxiety” and wonders when they started existing outside of shell shock, except apparently that isn’t a thing anymore. Takes another few days to research the medication he’d found and texts Steve that he doesn’t think what Tony’s taking is helpful. Suggests different options.

The only response he gets is “why is Tony taking my blood????” and “WHY IS TONY DRAWING ARMS??????? ARE YOU GETTING A NEW ARM????? I’m gonna tell him to put a smiley face on where the star is now.”

[dgiacomo]

More then a Munday Ask, mine is a Munday request: take it easy on your ask blog. Love your art but it is also important to rest once in a while. Take care of yourself, drawing can be stressing sometimes.

[Huh? I'm confused, anon... drawing is my outlet and it has always helped me feel better. XD Did I give off the impression I was struggling to perform? Getting asks and writing my story brings me happiness and energy, if anything, it's lack of engagement with others that tires me out!

I mentioned I was struggling to draw but that's only because the past week I haven't been well... it's not a case of not wanting to draw, not drawing when I want to is torturous, it was just difficult to concentrate whilst ill (torturous), but I still wanted to...

Unless you guys really want me to... stop? Surely not? *scratches head*

Giacomo's state of mind doesn't reflect my own, if you're worried? Please don't worry about me, I just want to have fun with you guys and draw a dumb man! TT_TT

Honestly, the best way to refresh me and keep my morale up is to engage with the blog, stick likes on posts so I know you guys are there, send in asks to Giacomo about dumb little things, even if you don't think it's important! Every single ask towards the blog brightens my day and keeps me going... I WANT to draw, I WANT to entertain you guys... and my inspiration is highest when I know you guys are having fun. =) It's honestly been hard last week because of being ill and getting no asks XD I just assumed you were just all busy with important things and exams etc.]

[truthdawn]

thoughts/ideas that ive had with the rise turtles under the cut (btw its kinda long and its just me rambling. youve been warned)

ive had 2 ideas for aus. One of them is like a splatoon au and the other one ive just titled “bad ending”. I’ll elaborate a bit more on that lower but first the splatoon stuff:

ok so the turtles might be octolings just because I want to stay more lore accurate so ig living in a sewer would be the splatoon equivalent of being an octoling before splatoon 2 (and octo dlc) events (but I really wanna just make designs for both species for all brothers anywayssss)

also new idea I literally had while typing this but what if eye masks were color of masks. so like raph having a red eye mask, mikey have a orange one, etc

ANYWAYS ive already decided (for now) what weapons each brother uses:

-raph uses a splatling, probably a hydra. or maybe tenta brella

-donnie uses a charger or a blaster (but most likely the charger.

-leo uses any splatana. I dont think he’d care which one in particular

-mikey will either use a slosher deco (since it has zipcaster) or an inkbrush. uhhhh yea their ink would probably be different colors. maybe the ends of the hair would be tinted green though. or maybe during specials itd be the same colors for all of them. btw specials would be the same as using their ninpo

splinter would be like cuttlefish to the agents in regards to the turtles. so he’s not their biological father nor the same species but hes still a father figure. april would be an inkling

OH OH NEW THOUGHT. since in the show mikey would hide in his shell sometimes I think the splatoon equivalent of that would be going squid form (or in their case octopus form)

uhhh I havent watched the movie yet but I know a lot about it SO I guess that the equivalent of the krang in this universe would be like. mr grizz. I dont think itd be like a tartar type of infection because you can physically remove the krang from your body and once youre sanitized you cant remove it (unless its like an agent 3 thing) but personally I think an infection more like the fuzzy ooze would fit better because unlike getting sanitized it makes the victim feral WHICH has more similair behaviors to the krang than getting sanitized

OK NEXT IS THE “bad ending” au idea

again, havent watched the movie yet (trying to finish the tv show first, im on episode 14) but basically its an au where everything is bad and nothing is happy (<- could not for the LIFE of me figure out how to phrase it and ended up with this. sorry lol)

but uh ig to make it a bit more clear (man my grammar sure is something rn huh?) I wanted to make an au where the ending was already “set” but I could add things like backstories and lore sooo imma have fun with that once it happens >:D

ill have to watch the movie to flesh out the events a bit more but what I have right now is that casey was never able to find/warn the turtles in time of krang invasion and that ended up with each of the turtle brothers getting corrupted. AGAIN. I WILL WATCH THE MOVIE. AND READ LORE. sorry if this seems inaccurate to movie stuff (even though this au really only needs the lore from the very beginning of the movie)

a little spoiler for the au (because I kinda wanna make little comics or stories for them..) but raph got corrupted first, then mikey (but hes not technically “fully” corrupted), then donnie, and then leo. april and casey are both still alive but splinter is missing. not dead or anything but just missing

ANYWAYS. *claps hands together* HEADCANON TIME (also ideas that ive had to draw. you can use them too if you want just credit me mk)

once raph got flipped over on his shell and instead of helping leo used him like a beyblade. he was NOT happy

mikey has (on several occasions) drawn on his brothers shells when theyre asleep or not paying attention (for donnie he draws on the battle shell lol)

if mikey really wants their attention he'll scream really loudly

sometimes leo will put stuff in donnies coffee to make him sleep especially if donnie hasn't sleep in a while (cause donnies a stubborn bitch who thinks sleep isnt real)

raph once got so mad he broke an entire arcade game and then had to go get a new one (haha L)

all of them dont think they need therapy (they do)

sometimes when donnie talks for too long leo will just go "BREATHE."

final headcanons below because I wanted to separate them from the rest (what happens in arguments depending on the brothers arguing)

mikey barely argues with anyone but when he does argue (and is serious about it) he does NOT hold back

raph and donnie arguments are usually what its like to have arguments online (donnie tries to explain why hes right and raph just goes "nuh uh ur wrong and im right")

raph and leo arguments are much more common and heated than stated above. raph will usually raise his voice towards leo and then leo will just not care and try to make a joke out of it (that always turns out badly). sometimes they even cry lol

donnie and leo arguments are VERY physical. leo would say something and then when donnie says something back hed push or shove him and then that turns into a full blown fight

they always make up though :3

heres the end. you made it through this. congrats and thank u for reading my rambles about stuff. this will not be the last time btw. feel free to ask questions about any of this or use my headcanons for stuff (credit me though if ya do). thats it buh bye (this is all queued ill still probably be asleep by the time this posts lol)

[bigredaltoids]

A (Hopefully) Short Introduction to all of my Major Stories

I’m going to be posting quite a bit about my stories on here, so I thought: “Hey! Why not give a short introduction to all of your little dumbbell stories?” So here’s that. Feel free to introduce your stories and characters. Let’s make this a community effort, shall we?

Short Stories

Stateside

Stateside is ancient. It’s five years old, meaning that if it was a person, it’d be in kindergarten. It’s about, you guessed it, the U.S. states going on wacky, sometimes absurdist, adventures. Stateside is character driven comedy, like a lot of what I write. Characters who are damn iconic my mind are of course, Texas, my home state, a wild and reckless but good hearted fellow, Wisconsin, the town drunk who’s a little on the slow side but also has a good heart, Delaware, a jaded old man who cares deeply about each and every one of the states even if there have taken years off his life, Ohio, a science nut who lacks social skills, California, a murderer superstar who’s also a bit of a jerk, and Missouri, the sailor mouthed observatory keeper who may or may not be a bit unhinged.

I could go in for hours about Stateside, but I’ll leave it here for now. (So much for this being short, huh).

Tales from High Ridge (working title)

This could technically go in the children’s section, but they’re technically short stories so I’ll put them here. Tales from High Ridge is about an ensemble cast of anthropomorphic animals who go on little adventures together, learning lessons about friendship and teamwork along the way. I’ve already started on the first story, The Grump of High Ridge, about Fox, Bear, and Armadillo encountering the ornery Badger, who fiercely guards the treehouse in the woods.

The stories are meant to be a bit more serious than my other children’s affairs, with one character, Mule, living in poverty, and another, Rhino, living with a seriously ill mother. I have big things planned for this series and while it’s currently on the back burner, I’m excited to see where it goes.

Novels

The Cicadas

The Cicadas is about a baseball team, the titular Cicadas, winning a championship game and beyond. The series of what I intend to be three young adult novels are less about baseball and more about the lives of these nine ball players as they grow from graduating high school to being grown adults with serious responsibilities who finally discover what they want to be. I have the lives of these characters very well planned out and the story itself is better outlined than almost anything else I write. I’m just putting it on the back burner because I want more experience in the adult world before I attempt a story covering those themes. I still love the Cicadas and I’m constantly drawing art for it, I just want to focus on other projects for a while.

The Great Watson

Another story that’s on the back burner right now is The Great Watson. It’s about five friends, Watson, Levi, John, Isaac, and Mason on their way to college. On the way, there’s a lot of reminiscing about the good times and the not-so-good times. It’s shaping up to be a pretty nice story. I have high hopes for it. Since this section is short, I’ll describe the characters a bit. Watson is a small black bear with a fighting spirit. He hates being underestimated and held back. He’s very strong willed. (The original story was about boxing, by the way).

Levi a kangaroo and is laid back, outgoing, easily distracted, and fun loving. He’s big on parties and girls but he’s also a true friend.

John was valedictorian. He wants to be a doctor and dedicates his whole life to studying. He’s pretty serious and doesn’t really have much fun. He’s basically Levi’s foil. Isaac is quiet and unapproachable to strangers. He can be sarcastic or blunt to the point of being mean, but he’s pretty cool when you get to know him.

Finally, Mason is a rich son of a gun who’s still pretty naïve. He’s the kind of guy Do-Wacka-Do was written for. He’s basically Isaac’s foil.

Mixed-Up Morality (working title)

This story is about Todd, son of a police officer, being pulled into the throws of temptation during the summer between eighth grade and freshman year. In addition to getting in trouble with his parents and his own conscience, Todd also has to deal with rotten Calvin and his “gang”. Good thing he has four great friends that stick by him through thick and thin, right? This story gives me a lot of trouble. It’s based on a story I wrote in middle school, but I can’t seem to get the POV or framing right. I can’t even decide if I want a young adult novel or a middle grade one. I love all of my ideas and characters for this story, but the technical details are really messing me up.

I have other stories planned in this same series, but I have the self restraint to have not started them yet. Aside from one, I’ll just call Westley. I won’t give it its own section, but it’s about an autistic boy who must overcome his fear of speaking out in order to save a good friend. That one I’m really excited for.

Children’s Stories

Red Ox

Red Ox is about a group of young farm animals going on adventures that often involve being imaginative or creative and learning life lessons along the way. I’m currently toying with both books and screenplays, and the current book I’m on is about finding stimulating things to do during summer, like going swimming, riding bikes, or reading books. I think it’s a really sweet little series.

Badge

While I wrote a book for Red Ox, I wrote a screenplay for Badge. Badge is about an autistic badger who, through a combination of being himself and learning new social skills, makes and maintains friendships with Lawrence, a young boy in a wheelchair, Maggie, a somewhat troubled young lady, and Hunter, a boy from a land far away (A.K.A. England). He also helps out at his father’s store and hangs out around his house. You know, slice of life stuff. His thing is collecting buttons and pins, which I think is very cute considering his name.

Screenplays

The Careers (working title)

This series is about four of my made up creatures, flumbols and fuzzwoliks, all living in a small house in the middle of no where. The main gimmick is that all of these men have very different careers and personalities. There’s Freddy, the muscular and kind of slow fireman who can smell smoke from four states away, Sam, the worldly and intelligent sailor who is obsessed with killing sea monsters, Aaron, the idealistic and tech-obsessed astronaut who swears he’ll be the first flumbol on Mars, and Pip, the serious and tired policeman who is so tired and serious he might not even qualify as a straight man. I also imagine him sounding like Roger Miller at the beginning of Boeing Boeing 707.

Ernest (working title)

Ernest is a character I love. His concept is to be as absurd and surreal as possible while still being funny and playing around with concepts that I find interesting. For example, what if everything has sentience? I haven’t written much for Ernest, so that hasn’t been tackled, but what if it was? There’s a lot of possibilities, because Ernest’s world doesn’t obey very many laws and is more of an imagination realm than anything else. I also hope to keep a bit of character driven comedy. You know, just to keep things Ernest.

Other

The Ballad of Tex Watkins

This is my newest story, so I don’t know what I want to do with it. I thought of making it a series of children’s chapter or middle grade books, but after thinking over the story and themes, I’m thinking that might not suit it. I don’t know. If you have any insight, let me know. Anyway, Tex Watkins is about Tex Watkins, the son of a murdered sheriff in the town of WillBill. He’s now being trained by the ruthless Wyatt Feasbert and overworked Mr. Coccyx to become the next sheriff, but Tex really isn’t the sheriff type. It’s definitely a comedy, but there are dark themes in it. I know grief is going to be a big one. I’m really excited for this story, just like with all the others, but it needs to find its place.

Thank you for reading this monster of a post. Be sure to tell me about your own stories, and if you’re feeling exceptionally generous, tell me which of my stories you liked hearing about the best.

Have a nice day!

[crowscrafts707]

I don't make a lot of posts on here but can I just say-what in the fresh mother of fuck happened to fandoms lately??? Like I mind my business and it's in one ear and out the other, but it seems like people are going absolutely apeshit these days,,, what happened to headcanons? Tf happened to people seeing something they don't like and simply just "huh well ill move on with my life cuz I don't like this character/that person's version and not interact"

Now if you share smth about a character it's like kids freak out and send a witchhunt after you. What happened to fun??? Does anyone remember that?? Having 100s of AUs for everything because if it didn't happen in canon you could just...write/draw whatever you wanted???

I keep seeing people getting attacked over LGBTQIA+ headcanons and people threatening them cuz "tHaTs nOt cAnOn FuCk yOu" and it's atrocious. Yall know the block button is there for a reason??

The internet is your Oyster and yall keep eating the buffet food that yall actively DONT LIKE. curate it how you want. The more hate comments that you send the more you're gonna see that content broski, just choose the not interested option, block, and move on, it's truly not that serious

Also don't freak out over someone else's opinion on a character? Let people enjoy themselves.

Idk maybe I'm just old school and frankly don't care that much about character takes, but making posts about how a character can ONLY be this way and then they lose their mind and start threatening and sending hate when someone else thinks differently.

Like they're fictional bro, they can be anything. Turn them into fucking Shrek if you want to, you have the power, and it's not that serious. So long as it's not an ethnic stereotype, some type of erasure, or that line of shit, who cares.

Make your headcanons, do your fanfics and fanart. And if you see something you don't like-just don't interact???

I wonder if people actually enjoy media sometimes or if they're just using it as an excuse to troll and spread hate. Like do you ever take the stick from out of your man or are you chronically online sitting in your desk chair. Is it fused with your asscrack, have you never felt joy since you shoved the stick up there? Were you born a bitter bitch or did someone else's headcanon character come into your house and hold you hostage?

Long winded rant thing but yeah people need to chill. Another note I'd like to add, cuz this is sort of related to posts I've seen-i saw someone say that 1 character can be trans because he's like...macho masc and shit, but then character 2 can't because character 2 doesn't make masculinity his whole personality and is "too soft" basically. They make character 2 cis, agender, transfem, literally everything else but oh no don't ever make character 2 trans because hEs nOt mAn eNoUgH basically.

which is WILD to me, that's some serious deep rooted gender roles you're projecting brother, but sure. Thing is tho, I blocked and moved on and now it's in one ear and out the other, which I think is smth a lot of people need to do now instead of sending hate threats over FICTIONAL THINGS

Anyways thanks for coming to my tedtalk have a great day

[inkats]

🌼 - How old are they? (Or approximate age range)

🥊 -What do they love to do? What do they hate to do?

🎹 - Do they have any hobbies?

✂️ - What is one of your OC’s worst memories?

🧠 - What do you like most about the OC?

🎓 - How long have you had the OC?

For both of em! (Also if u can pls tell me their names DX)

I like forgot how to draw them today so. ill put old doodles where relevant. thank you for not asking name origins they're embarrassing. Theyre named Rinnie and Minho and they're only still called that because. Minnie. rest under cut.

🌼 they are my little chew toys, so I draw them at literally every age ever. Usually though they're around 17-25? ish. few months age gap usually to like. 5 years sometimes. 👍

🥊 Minho hates. he hates. hes a little hater all he likes doing is sleeping and looking out the window and watching creatures when hes outside. He loves the whimsy but doesn't believe in it. Rinnie plays/ed hockey for a while thats sort of his thing, he has fun. He really doesn't hate anything, or more can't hate anything? He's very if I'm positive about it things'll work out! It has to happen anyway! That being said cooking is stressful scary dont like it.

🎹 Minho makes music! I know very little about music so. I dont draw this a lot but it's a big thing for him :) And then Rinnie knits, but he's a very stressed out everything is hard any time not spent on the grind is time wasted kind of guy, which means. he doesn't hobby loads.

✂️ When I say they're my chew toys... in the zombie au which im like. really into rn. when it happens minho loses a lot of people fast which sucks ass for him. and then rinnie. when his love gets sick <3 oTL If you had a specific ver in mind. sorry.

🧠 This is a hard one I just love them oTL My favourite thing about Minho... hes. cute <3 hes pretty. and mean. love that in a man. Rinnie is just a very comforting figure hes like. everything. hes cozy and nice and warm <3

🎓 oh wait i think i still have my first drawings of them.

uhm T.T this is. rinnie. i guess. from 2018 this was his birth. and then. agh the second one is only from 2020 ! ? Ive been on that grind huh. this is definitely not my first drawing of minho bc he was made in peak kpop era (2018-2019) but was all I could find 👍theyre. 5ish year old now god. but theyre barely the same people too.

[fangtastic-vampyra]

not a bad idea huh..

SOOOO... IVE BEEN TAKING PHOTOS ALMOST DAILY, NOT TO BE A THOT, --

BUT, TO , SEE MY CHANGING EXP, TO, SEE, THE TOLL OF THINGS HAPPENING SUCH AS BEING TARGETED , A SRA, AND MKULTRA VICTIM.

I LOOKED VICTIMIZED IN '16, - broke up with Vainemoinen.

DRUGGED OUT BUT VERY CREATIVE lol... IN 17, 18 & 19 .. DECENT "HEALTHY" WEIGHT, "8" , WHICH I WOULD KILL TO BE THAT SIZE, ON T AND EATING AND BEING RAPUNZEL WELL CASSIUS IN MY PRISONER TERRET UMM... RAPUNZELS CASTLE REFERENCE..I GOT BIG, LIKE "ALPHA" VOMITS DUDE BIG. UGH >_> IM TRYING TO BE WHAT I LOOK LIKE. LOLOLOL. I WANT TO BE A LEADER, AN INFLUENCER, A GUIDE, A LIFE COACH, A NURTURER, A DOCTOR. I WANT TO FREAKING HEAL PEOPLE.

SLEPT A LOT, WAS TRAUMATIZED FROM ER AND PSYCH WARD, AND RECOVERING, PHYSICALLY, AND MENTALLY, A LEISURELY MOMENT, THEENNN THEY MADE IT TO WHERE WE CANT SMOKE INDOORS.. UGH THAT WAS HORRIBLE, I WAS SO WORRIED I WAS GOING TO GET CAUGHT.. UM, THEN, IN 20, AND 21, I WAS IN THE PSYCH WARD AGAIN, ETC, AND EVEN WENT TO JAIL AND GOT OUT ON $300 BAIL..... CONT. INTO...

22ISH WAS LIKE IN A MENTAL HEALTH COURT PROGRAM BC... MY OUTPATIENT PROGRAM RECOMMENDED ACT UH THEY ARE OK...GOT A FELONY FOR USING PEPPER SPRAY (ON AN ELDERLY BUT EXTREMELY CREEPY VETERAN DUDE THAT HAD SUPPORT POLICE ETC ALL ON HIM AS A COAT)...

THEY REDUCED IT TO A MISDEANOR, GOT MORE POLICE BRUTALITY, 5 MANLETS THREW ME ACROSS THE ROOM.. YAH IM A DUDE BUT IM AFAB OKKKK. IM STILL IN A FEMALE BODY. RESPECT IT OR ILL DO SOMETHING BACK. IM THE BADDEST "WITCH" THERE EVER WAS. MANLET SLAMMED MY HEAD INTO A POLICE CAR, THEY HAD A CHAIN ON MY WAIST, ATTACHED TO MY CUFFS LIKE IT WAS FUCKED UP BRO.

CUZ OF HURRICANE IDA '22 WAS SPENT AT MY MUMS, GOT A LIL HIGH, UH, DRUGGED OUT PIX, BUGGY EYES AND WHATNOT, IDC, I THINK DRUGS SHOULD BE LEGAL... CUZ I WAS HIT BY IDA, AND SHIT, I WAS AT MY PARENTS, UHM,

AT THE END OF 22.. DEC... ALMOST ON CHRISTMAS I GOT MY OWN APARTMENT, NOW HELPING MAN AND HIS SON, I AM A FRIEND OKAY.. VAMPIRE THOUGH ^_^ VAMPYRA WITH WIFI, AND MET A LOT OF LONELY ASPIES, I THINK DEW & TOXICITY MAKES ME LOOK LIKE ONE, HEAD SWATTING AND REPEATED ATTACKS MADE ME UM, SORT OF DEAF.,.ISH??? I WEAR CONTACTS, SO THATS ANOTHER DISABILITY, BUT I BELIEVE IN THE POWER OF .. HEALING... URSELF.. <3333 yOU Are the person you have to live with forever, make it a good trip, make ur mind a good place to be, make ur life ur dream, if u dont like ur life, make better decisions... everyone deserves a 2nd chance...I feel like SOMETIMES GOD HAS A KID'S FACE..Priest, Hierophant, etc.. Priest/ess.. Arcane/Left hand path, but still jovial towards helping random others.

(YOU CAN NEVER HAVE ENOUGH PHOTOS, SOMETIMES THEY ARE ALL U HAVE OF SOMEBODY ETC, UR MEMORYS.. AND WRITING THINGS DOWN..EDIT.. OR DONT.. BE CREATIVE, DRAW SOMETHING.. PAINT.. AND ME? I HAVE HAND ARTHRITS SO I.. LOVE JOURNALING ON COMPUTER AND YOU CAN JUST NEVER GET ANOUGH OF LOOKING BACK)

[that-one-guy-who-does-the-thing]

i hope we get a new intro sometime this season

ok so this is OUR steven in this melon baby i believe

LAPIIIS oh my GOD THE MELONS ARE FEEDING M..malecite? MALEKITE DREAM STEVENS

STEVEN WE LOVE YOU AAAAAAAAGH I LOVE YOU STEVEEEEN oh wait jasper is down in the crack of the earth im sure that wont come back to bite steven and peridot anytime soon

unrelated kinda but ive been singing along to the intro and i think just once they should replace "we'll always find a way" with "we'll do it anyway" idk i just think it would be cool if it was more thematically relevant

steven: yknow i actually kinda feel bad for the zombies

uh ohhhh steven is psychic and feels the gem shards dying

the big bubble/.....................................

i love you green thing

nooo... lapis lazuli from mindcraft....... come back...... again...

A WHOLE NEW WORLD

oug is this another hologram backstory i smell??? :D

steven: you WILL become sister number 5...... or... 7..?

steven universe how to draw anime artstyle.................

steven: you WILL be friends

oh my god the rubies are so cute

nice falling episode. reminded me kind of of season 1 stuff. a bit. we've been doing so much continuity it's nice to have just a falling episode

who is this old man DEAD BEAT DAD?????? OF COURSE THE TITLE OF THE EPISODE

this old man looks like his breath smells really bad but always points his mouth at your nose when he talks

ADS NOOO FUCK OFF oh onion you are a Weirdo

HES NOT THE STEPDAD HES THE DAD WHO FUCKING STEPPED. UP.

holy fuck greg

if i really wanted to i could analyze the lyrics of that ending song that seems to be playing a different part of a full song every episode but unfortunately my first ever ex who i had a terrible ending with used to sing it and also im just not that into songs like that in the first place they make my heart and sinus areas weird so ill just not

yknow im just realizing it's cool seeing the difference between pearl and greg's interactions with steven -- particularly in the "this is a different person than rose quartz" department. greg has consistently seen steven as his own son for the entire time, but pearl has in the past fixated on steven technically being rose. fun.

THEYRE GOING TO EMPIRE CITY FROM SONIC UNLEASHED..... AND BRINGING PEARL YAY MORE CHARACTERS WHO ORIGINALLY DIDNT GETTING ALONG LEARNING TO BE FRIENDS!!!!!! wow that sure does happen a lot on this show huh. well, i'm not complaining, i love seeing people be friends :O)

oh... this ep is gonna end with greg spending all of his money

"it's over isn't it why can't i move on" all being sung on the same note is such a good little uh, uh, uh, whatever it's called. symbolism? whatever singing the same note over again is like not moving on an instrument

STEVEN CAN PLAY PIANO

yay theyre friends ! :D

GREEN THING BACK AT THE HOUSE and shes a DOOOORRRRKK !!!!!!! :D

oh christ not this guy again ok let's see it. any character development gonna stick this time?

oh no oh no oh no oh no please get out of lars now

ok lars switched was not very painful to watch for the most part because steven is just awesome

GREG IS THAT GUY THAT WANTED TO FUCK HIS CAR FROM THAT ONE TV SHOW

cgi car spotted cgi car spotted oh FUCK ITS THAT LOSER FROM THE DANCE

i love them.. yea i was thinking we hadnt seen connie in a while

food

hi onion

PSYCHIC STEVEN EPISODE

i love rose's portrait being super scrunched up because the camera is looking at it from a weird angle

man ben shapiro would really hate this show wouldnt he

something about this shot on the beach with the cheese in the water and the water on the horizon is super familiar to me for some reason

i love you garnet

gee i hope they. get around to the whole curing all the corrupted gems thing instead of just leaving them bubbled for the entire show.... say, come to think of it, that sounds like a plot thread that could be spun out into an episode about "dont just sit around at a place you're stuck at because if you do nothing then nothing gets better"

LAPIS IS BAAACK

JASPER IS BAAAACK ohhh shes an allegory for abusive relationships ..oh wow that was short

oh hey rose

CONNIE EPISODE LETS GOOOOOOO

jasper is acting... weird

oh thats why ok then

CONNIE EPISOOODE

oh. oh no amethyst is un-character developing. steven is outgrowing the gems because he has connie also.

ohhh its the plot of the next episode...

yknow pearl's hair reminds me of duster mother 3. i know i always say that about hair that goes backwards but shes also got the sideburns

theyre always overcoming differences and resolving interpersonal conflict super fast... or maybe i just avoid interpersonal conflict so much that i dont know how it's supposed to work?? or maybe because the runtime is 11 minutes.., oh well it's cool to see people be happy with each other

oh! an old friend!

bismuth seems cool :o)

oh,,, she did NOT get the good ending in undertale...

ROSE LORE ROSE FORESHADOWING

LAPIS AND GREEN ONE

I THINK JASPER IS HERE

oh no no no it's not jasper its her dogsWAIT NO IT IS JASPER

ANOTHER STEVEN FUSION UEEAAAAAAHHH

jasper's perverted fusion motif is kinda ,idk the word but im noticing it. noticeable? kinda cool? interesting? idk

omg are they gonna do that thing that one episode of adventure time did where they did a bmo centric episode where finn and jake were gone all day but then a season or two later they went back and showed finn and jake's side of the story

"hey you guys wanna be prisoners too?" thats fucked up amethyst haha

i love the rubies i hope they become our friends

STEVEN IN SPACE?????

:( mom stopped at the neutral ending in under tale

oh! thats it for the season? ok woah ok then ., uhhh ok so full disclosure i think i already know about the twist with pink diamond but i could also just be making shit up

watching steven universe for the first time. still on season 1. im noticing over half of the episodes are like... it's like regular show in that the first like half of the episode is relatively normal and kind of slice of life??? or at the very least just kind of stuff happening, and then after that shit picks up to a thousand, but unlike regular show it's taken super seriously and oftentimes what feels like act 3 movie character development happens out of nowhere. like idk some of these episodes have moments that would feel more deserved if there was more buildup or if it was part of like a multi-part special or something.

but other episodes are more like early adventure time. i cannot explain why

[missmeinyourbones]

ok but what about gojo + l “what will become of me once i’ve lost my novelty?” 🥺

“WHAT WILL BECOME OF ME ONCE I’VE LOST MY NOVELTY?” (S. GOJO)

part of L’s RED (TV) EVENT!

“Satoru,” your melodic voice draws him out of his own thoughts.

He assumes it’s not the first time you’ve called him, based off of your slightly agitated tone. Not willing to risk you repeating his name a third time, he finally begins to tune in to your words. 

“Are you even listening?” you nag him a little bit, hands on your hips while you stare at him from the kitchen sink. He thinks you look like a scolding parent, and it excites him for the future.

He chuckles, rubbing his temples while encouraging you to continue, “Sorry, sweets, what’d you say?”

You step away from the dish you were washing, turning the faucet off and making your way towards your lover. Your gentle steps cause the floorboards beneath you to slightly creak—if they hadn’t made such a god-awful noise, you don’t think he would have noticed you slowly crawling his way.

You throw the dishrag in hand over your shoulder, crossing your arms as you lean against the kitchen’s entryway, “You’re quiet, which terrifies me.”

He chuckles again at your confession. He hates worrying you, but he also loves the way that he can be honest with you. He feels like he’s caught between a rock and a hard place, so he puts the ball into your hands with a simple and vague response.

“Just thinking,” he mumbles, uncharacteristically. Of all the years you’ve known Satoru Gojo, he has never once mumbled. He loves the sound of his own voice far too much to do so. 

With the ball in your court, you push. You always do when it comes to his softer side; it’s one of the many things he appreciates about you.

“About anything in particular?” you egg him on further, praying for him to use you. Lean on you. 

“Yeah-” he begins, surprised by his own willingness. “Yeah,” he repeats, “About how silly it is that I’m the honored one, huh?”

He feels your eyes harden on him, shocked by the unprecedented topic of conversation. “Sometimes I think that’s all there is to me.”

While Satoru was annoying and brash and proud, he was also human. It’s in moments like this one that you remember how fragile he truly is. He’d never expressed any ill-will towards his ability or status—usually using it to brag in a teasing manner. As he sits in front of you, the usually towering and abrasive man looks small. 

Noticing your perplexed expression, he goes back to what he knows best. He attempts to lighten the matter with humor.

He quips, “Ya know? Like, what will become of me once I’ve lost my novelty?”

It’s that comment that moves your feet from the kitchen and into his lap. You force your way between him and the table, determined to make yourself fit. You were always so determined, Satoru pines; it’s how you managed to worm your way under his skin, into his heart.

Now comfortable on his lap, you force him to look at you. You remove his glasses, gently placing them onto the table. You want to be able to see his eyes while you caress the curvature of his face.

You hold his jaw and speak with conviction, “You’ll still be mine, just like you are right now.” His gaze softens as you watch his pupils dilate. He’s never looked more vulnerable than he does in your arms, right now. “That’s not something that fades with time,” you conclude.

His goofy grin returns as he mocks your soft words, “Yeah? There’s no expiration date in the fine print of your loving-me-clause?”

“No. If there was one, it’d be up by now.”

He laughs. A real one. It uses his whole body as his head is thrown back, eyes closed with amusement. He loves when your quick like that. You love him, regardless of how quick he can be.

“Thank you, angel.”

NOTE: anon, i need to personally thank you for requesting this. this specific lyric paired w satoru is INSANE...i want to cry just thinking about it. it fits him so well, i am so thankful u paired the two together. i hope you enjoy reading this just as much as i did writing it <3