#man is STRUGGLING and its so funny

[deathfavor]

@yeonban​ said: ❛  Oi,  Seiroku.  Where  do  you  think  you're  going?  ❜  Soma's  voice  resounds  through  the  halls,  having  followed  the  other  inside  the  building  sheltering  their  wounded,  and  he  sounds  almost  incredulous  at  Seiroku's  presence  here,  on  his  way  to  the  injured,  as  though  in  spite  of  his  profession,  he  wasn't  supposed  to  be.  ❛  You  won't  find  anyone  in  there.  They're  all  off  for  the  day,  you  know.  ❜  The  statement  isn't  exactly  accurate,  there  are  still  one  or  two  medics  tending  to  the  severely  wounded,  but  he'd  made  sure  the  shifts  would  be  evenly  distributed  so  that  they,  too,  would  get  to  indulge  in  the  rarity  of  the  festival.

Those  shifts,  however,  did  not  include  Seiroku,  and  Soma  planned  to  keep  it  that  way.  ❛  And  that  goes  for  you,  too. ��Quit  trying  to  work  and  go  enjoy  the  festival.  ❜  It's  baffling  that  he  even  has  to  say  this,  and  he'd  have  most  assuredly  penned  the  doctor  as  a  workaholic  if  not  for  the  growing  confusion  in  the  air.  The  general  had  meant  to  leave  after  delivering  the  comment,  body  already  half-turned  towards  the  entrance,  but  he  remains  silently  staring  at  Seiroku  instead,  and  after  a  moment  longer  he  turns  to  face  the  other  once  again.  ❛  ...You  do  know  there's  a  festival  happening  today...  don't  you?  ❜

  The place felt more like a ghost town than somewhere a large band resided with the empty streets and hallways as Seiroku made his usual path to the medical wing. (Strange – the idea of a usual path.) It made Soma’s voice all the more audible and engulfing when he called out as the black dog came to a halt mid-stride. Had the tone been any different he might have been concerned. But it sounded confused and astounded, which in turn only made him confused as he turned around to face the general with a puzzled expression. What was he doing? The same thing he usually did. But why was it suddenly causing this reaction today?

  “…Off for the day?”  His brows furrow – and the implication that he should KNOW this makes him frown slightly. Why would he know this? SHOULD he have known this? He could always make the excuse that he wasn’t sure if it applied to him yet it would hardly be effective given how involved he’d become. At least the matter of a day off explained the emptiness to some degree. It was vexing to him as a strategist to not know this fact though.

  His confusion only deepens at the grand general’s next sentences. The nice thing was that the man in front of him tended to be quite expressive which made it easy to read. But on the other hand, such clear expressions only rub salt into the wound of his own ignorance.

  “  Fest..ival…?  “  The word comes out almost like two separate words, the explanation for everything delivered upon him like a hammer striking metal. That’s why the day was off and everyone was gone. It wasn’t just a day off, but a rare occasion. Shock settled clearly onto his features in response to this news.

  It is a rare event in which Seiroku is thrown entirely off his rhythm. He almost always remained composed and calm even in the most chaotic moments, polite and mannered regardless of another’s behavior or actions. But now it feels like he has been thrown into the middle of a whirlpool with nothing to hold onto. White hot embarrassment erupts into a raging fire in his chest, ears turning a bright shade of red, a red that started to creep forwards to his cheeks. (And the stark contrast between all white clothes and long black hair did nothing to hide the red – if anything, it simply made its appearance all the more noticeable. The face veil certainly didn’t help hide anything.) It was one thing to be outmaneuvered as a strategist or be caught by surprise from something unexpected. He could handle that with his signature calm or with quick reflexes and adjustments, and even admire or appreciate and acknowledge someone else’s skill. It was another matter to be because he didn’t know something. Especially when everyone else seemed to.

 Should he have known? He can’t remember ever going to a bushi festival. Had he ever been to one? There were no memories – if he had, then the void from the surgeries must have eaten that memory, but he’s certain he’s never been to one.

  There is nowhere to hide. Not when Soma is staring at him so intently, the confusion and then genuine shock seeming to have held the general in place to look at him. It’s mortifying. Seiroku can’t remember the last time he’d felt so ignorant and embarrassed, especially in front of someone else. Maybe when he was still receiving his education and messed an answer up. It’s disgusting and appalling how small his embarrassment makes him feel. It makes him angry with himself to want to hide, though nothing but his embarrassment shows on his face. No wonder Soma had been so baffled by him being here.

  “  I-  “  Silver tongue fails him as he uncharacteristically struggles to speak, and it feels like he’s burning from embarrassment.  “  No.  “  Seiroku finally admits. The fact this memory would be preserved in that damn black crystal too- “  I wasn’t aware…I’ve never been to a festival.  “  That much was a truth. He’d been too focused on education, and then if there had been one in his old band, he’d probably been forced to work through it. And naturally he hadn’t attended any since joining the obsidian eight or even prior to that when he’d turned his back on the bushi life. His head turns to stare at the wall as if it was suddenly very interesting; anything to try to soothe the wounds of embarrassment.

[sushiisiu]

bike + doodles

[xxplastic-cubexx]

you open my Super Important Documents and its just pictures of charles xavier

[angel13xo]

see guys natsu saying sorry to lucy in the recent episode IS A BIG THING RIGHHTT???

like im not crazy that should've been a way bigger, more serious moment!!!! (why'd he make that weird ass joke after he's never made any joke like that before 💀😭)

and i'm pretty sure he doesn't say sorry often or even at all (he probably does and i don't remember *goldfish brain*)

BUT LIKE CMKOOOONNNN HIM BOWING AND SAYING SORRY THAAAAATTTT IS A NALU MOMENT NOT THE GROPING AND THE WEIRD JOKES PLZ GUYSSS i understand (kind of - not really) that it's funny and it's a gag in the show but ITS BEEEN YEARS PLZ GET SERIOUS A LIL BIT MORE IM DESPERATE

NALU WAS LITERALLLLYYY EVERYTHING IN THE GMH AND FINAL SEASON AND TARTAROS ARC SO WHYS IT LIKE THIS NOW CMOOOONNN WE CAN DO BETTER THAN THISSSSSS 😭😭😭💀💀

(sorry for the rant - i'm also not caught up in the manga - not a manga reader really but maybe one day - )

[buwheal]

Man although I can't send this and have Spamton see the image (cuz it would be text instead) I'll send it to you and you can give me your opinion about it.

What do you think...

...about...

...snowy Spamton?

IT SNOWED YESTERDAY YESS!!!

(this was on a car btw, which made it even better)

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

"Cuhut it out- you guys!" "Nu-uh, not until you're all perked up first! You don't want those gym challengers meetin' with an ol' mopey leader, do ya?" "Whitney's right, dear friend. No need to hide that beautiful smile of yours, alright?~"

What it takes to cheer up Johto's beloved ghost boy 👻💕

[fyodior]

i think the reason i cling to male characters so much despite being sapphic is that im like literally obsessed with the idea of a man loving me and being nice to me. something that has never occurred

[skitskatdacat63]

Stop flirting....

[greasydumbfuck]

also just for the record. no matter how much utterly stupid shit i say or draw about him, frank actually makes me so deeply sad. this old man should be picking up his grandkids but he cant. i think about him too much and im so sad

[batcavescolony]

S4 E3 Supernatural

Now THIS is a good episode. Castiel took Dean back in time to 1973! We find out Sam and Dean's maternal grandparents, Samuel and Deanna Campbell, and Mary are hunters. On top of that, Azazel is playing match maker so he can have his little psychic children be the best of the best, and he made a deal with Mary to revive John after he killed him. Also as if Azazel hasn't killed enough of Sam & Dean's family they killed Samuel and Deanna too. Oh this is so interesting, then Castiel taking Dean back, saying destiny can't be changed but Sam is going down a dark path and either Dean stops him or angels do.

[hoshiina]

I should return to my roots one of these days (akatsuki hyoga)

[fiovske]

the thing abt mizu is that she is extremely non-binary in such a genderqueer way that she has homoerotic energy w men and extremely sapphic energy w women.

[misspickman]

People who call tim a cheater for the ari steph thing are wild to me 1) theyre 14 do u guys think 14yos are great at Relationships 2) he breaks up with ari as soon as he can when he realizes he wants to date steph yes that surprise kiss happened and wasnt great but return to point 1) and also surprise kisses are like. One of the top comic bullshit bits

[bl-inkstone]

ok i'm supposed to be writing an essay but all i can think about right now is yan!childe as your childhood best friend that you, somehow, stayed with all the way to the present. he's not violent nor does he restrict you or anything — he's actually pretty tame for the most part. the yandere part is just him being overtly clingy and obsessive, and maybe a little (a lot) possessive over his title as "your best friend". you could read this to be romantic or platonic but either way, he'd love you til celestia permanently tears your bond apart, which is never if he has anything to say about it. just thinking about childe clinging to his childhood friend and constantly bringing up all the dumb promises they made back then to a) tease them as friends do and b) ensure that they'll never leave

[miallurk]

sliding into asks cause i hit reblog last time like an idiot

what song do I have assigned ? :)

Oh i am. So so so insane great trees help me. (<- stupid mf who can't decide because "oh this is too romantic" "oh but this is too trauma to me" "oh but this is too sad what if they won't like it" SHUT UP. Your brain is stupid ffs.)

Fleür - Теплые коты(Warm cats)

"Come play, wool the owner’s sweater,

Tear the book to pieces, sharpen your claws on the chair.

Come to me from the world of strange winter dreams, spit on prejudices, wake up your cats!

We will pet everyone who purrs, warm, sleepy, real, running your hands into furry bellies.

All things are uncertain In the strange human world. Constant are soft purring cats!

Claws can dig into the leg, but the leg, believe me, is not a heart,

Cats don't hurt like people sometimes do.. A warm cat will comfort me, lie on a sore spot

And I will fall asleep hugging a warm cat."

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

i think i finally realized why ive been feeling so damn depressed lately again

sorry for writing this here. im really hurting actually. im not good. i feel a bit helpless too. idk who to talk to bc i dont want to burden anyons and i donf feel like anything could console me right now

Like. fuck me man. thanks for saving me but. why the hell are you not here. i dont want to do this without you. i hate only being able to remember you. i was supposed to grow old with you, not without you.

And. honestly. even with all this bullshit i say here, all the endless times i spend trying to write down my feelings, abt you, about all the pain ive felt my life, it doesnt get better. not at all. and no words, no poetry takes it away and i truly feel like nobody will ever truly understand how suffocated i felt all my life.

and i want to change thanks to you but. i dont know. nothing's satisfying enough.

no matter what, i truly only feel great when im in that daydream like world you created.

and these past days ive been thinking a lot that. i really wouldnt mind dying right now. not at all. because at least i know what happiness feels like. and i want to stay in that state. probably, even in this life your music will bring me happiness, but i want to be trapped in it.

im tired of being so unseen, and even when im seen, im hurting. but i dont know whats hurting. i think im just really tired thats all.

and. ye. i feel brave tbh. i still havent posted my video to instagram, bc im not brave for that. i dont know. and i feel like a hypocrite bc everything is true that i wrote there but at the same time these are my thoughts currently

in a long while i looked up suicide methods again. i feel so hopeful, but im not really sure if really for the future. jm sorry this is probably alarming. i will probably not kill myself but. idk. im not sure actually. i dknt know what to say. i wasnt cut out for this wordly shit.i feel unlovable but even if im loved, i donf want to be. i dont want anything. just let me stsy in this quiet place snd just. disappear. i wouldnt want my family to hurt if i die but i wont know about it anyways. idk man. i feel strongly i could die calmly this time and thats nice. bc 6 years ago i was terrified, and hurt. but now im content and kind of ready idk man. its not a terrible feeling, its a "this is it, it was nice while it lasted" ig.

there are no clouds in my head actually. i truly dont feel like im thinking irrationally, i feel like this would just be like. the end goal i was looking for. to feel true love once. it was nice.

no goodbye yet bc idk how id kms even if i do. But ill tell u guys if i found something.