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people don’t see Kusuo and Kuusuke’s relationship for what it is because the format isn’t what they’re used to. They speak the love language of metered resistance, push and pull, harsh words and empty spaces where the emotions go. They can’t say what they are feeling. They can’t do it either. They do everything else instead. Brothers’ love languages are fights. Strangers’ love languages are kind favors and nothing asked in return. They occupy that liminal space between the two. They don’t realize how much they mean to the other. They don’t realize how much the other means to them.
Kuusuke pulls at Kusuo, trying to break his walls down and trying to break all of him down with it. Kusuo threatens to do the same to him, all the while trying to figure out how not to hurt him. Neither of them really mean it. Except when they do. Kusuke provokes kusuo, Kusuo hurts kuusuke, again and again and again. kuusuke comes to understand this is the only kind of contact he will ever have with his brother. He pulls away. Kusuo tries to forget; estranges him in his mind. Kusuo sees kuusuke as a stranger at their next meeting; Kuusuke has never known Kusuo so well as he knows him that day.
There are hard feelings that seem insurmountable. Kuusuke knows things that Kusuo doesn’t. Kusuo doesn’t know this, but he can sense it. He doesn’t understand, now. Kuusuke does. Kusuo had loved him all this time. And Kuusuke has loved him more than Kusuo could possibly understand.
You wouldn’t hurt someone you didn’t love. you wouldn’t hurt them because you wouldn’t see them as some part of yourself. they would be someone different to you. but hurting your brother is just self harm, contextualized. it gives meaning and structure to what doesn’t make sense in your life. He can suffer like I can. he feels what I do. and yet he isn’t you. he is the other person you could not become.
He is your equal; your mirror and he is who you are not. He is a perfect stranger. he exists on a different plane. He reminds you of yourself.
He is your brother.
#I am feeling feverish again so#I shall make bad decisions by posting about kusuke and kusuo on tumblr#kusucest#if I feel better this weekend ill try and finish that long ass essay#that has been clawing at me#for now enjoy not so canon posts about the saiki brothers: the anthology. 1/? posts#i sure hope half the fandom has me blocked already because itll be awkward if not#trying to explain to people that this isnt canon I am just having fun#I think#man I feel weird#ill lampshade the “it isn’t that deep!” with “but it could be. right? if we all wanted to believe it could?”#some people don’t understand that fighting and frustration IS love#it comes from the same place. all too strong emotions come from the same place#saikicest#sarah speaks
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*percy seen from a far, wearing a suit*
piper: do my eyes deceive me or is percy jackson wearing formal clothes? since when does he have the ability to look like a domesticated human being?
frank: how come HE, percy of all people, king of untidiness, can wear a cream linen suit and look like a celebrity, but when i tried one on i looked like a man-child going to a high school dance?
hazel: sweetie it’s just because it’s such a casual suit, and you’re much more elegant than percy is!
annabeth, turning to them: um okay, hi percy’s best friends? can you guys compliment him without insulting him?
leo: his ass looks incredible.
grover: has he been working out?
annabeth, side eyeing them:
annabeth: okay, you have all now either insulted him or hit on him. how about from now on, you do neither?
rachel: how about we do both? because i’ve actually just perfected doing them at the same time
#for the record i don’t think his friends disrespect him#i just needed to write something about annabeth defending him (which almost feels ooc after wrath 🙄#while also trying to keep it light#he’s the king of *casual*#and he pulls it off#i love the thought of his friends all giving him a hard time and annabeth being like PLEASE DON’T DISCOURAGE HIM FROM DRESSING NICE#because that girl loves to see her man in a suit#which is canon#by the way#anyone remember paris?#anyway#also i think leo always makes things weird#in the best way possible#percy jackson#annabeth chase#leo valdez#piper mclean#frank zhang#grover underwood#hazel levesque#rachel dare#percabeth#pjo#percy jackson and the olympians#heroes of olympus#incorrect quotes#pjo incorrect quotes#rick riordan#riordanverse
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#in honour of zzz release#zzz#zenless zone zero#billy kid#billy zzz#nicole demara#nicole zzz#anby demara#anby zzz#zzz memes#cunning hares#kota original content#anby also gotta be nonbinary#one letter away from enby i mean cmon#anyway i love these goobers#Man i feel weird tagging this so extensively
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sometimes you just need somebody else to point out the obvious. thank goodness for mikey and her gender collecting habit!
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#tmnt#tmnt 2k3#tmnt 2003#tmnt 03#tmnt fancomic#2k3 donatello#2003 mikey#2003 donnie#2k3 michelangelo#tmnt mikey#tmnt donnie#tmnt 2003 donnie#michelangelo splinterson#donatello splinterson#teenage mutant ninja turtles#queer#tmnt 2003 donatello#turtle trek#art#my art#donnie just cant help but see two women share intimate space on screen and feel.....weird#why is that donnie OOH OOH#NOW YOU KNOW YOU DUMMY#its not that important to the conversation but i h/c donnie as a he/him lesbian#the point is more that he knows why he feels strange about his attraction#because his attraction is not that of a straight man cuz hes not that but he does like women and it feels weird to him#and hes been looking into queer genders with mikey (cuz of st) and yet still couldnt figure it out#Mikey dancing around the issue gently as he can making him truly understand each step before going in for the kill#cuz she knows Donnie needs it laid out proper before he’ll get it
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The height difference in ITSV vs in ATSV is killing me 😭 Miles and Gwen were so shorter than Peter, now they're almost as tall as him
#i remember back when it was weird for me to see them older now it's weird for me to see them younger feels like it's been decades#they were babies#peter b parker#gwen stacy#miles morales#spider man into the spider verse#into the spiderverse#spider man across the spider verse#across the spiderverse#spiderverse#sick of comments how they're standing in front thats not why they look tall they are taller in the second one they're standing#in front of him in both pics#if you didnt see how much they grew up while you were watching sucks to be blind as you#i chose these pics for a reason cuz they're on the same distance from peter in both#but you can tell they grew
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How did y’all choose your names? Was it just trial and error?
#maybe I can ignore it and just keep my given name#but something eats at me#I HAVE to change my name and idk why#Opal feels disconnected from me in a weird way even though it’s been my name for 22 years#like the name is MINE but it’s not MY name if that makes sense#idk man I’m figuring all this stuff out by myself#in between doing adult shit#I wish I transitioned as a teen when experimenting was more acceptable
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Okay but have we thought about how scary odysseus interacting with the gods /his knowledge about such things it must have been for his crew?
Its well known that odysseus is Athenas favorite, even before the Trojan war. But what does that look like from the outside? Are their conversations in some other plain? Does odysseus sometimes just glaze over and you just have to trust its a god speaking to him and not aome other fit? Out in the open? During the war odysseus was frequently doing really bizarre things on Athena's say so. Bit you also know your captain is a freak and lier so which is it this time? The gods will or odysseus just tucking with you? There's a little wariness there. But it's well known. And been like this forever.
But then you start encountering more monsters. More gods. They all talk to your captain. Your captain stops sleeping. Your go between for you and the captain starts committing crimes against the captain, starts bad mouthing him. More of your friends have died then in ten years of war. And every other day there's a new god talking to your captain. What mortal man has the interest of this many gods? What mortal man can get up in the gods faces to yell at them. What mortal man has the powers to overcome the witches they encounter the power to over turn gods spells? What mortal man's tongue is so gilded he convinces these powers to help them? And doubt comes creeping in.
#the odyssey#epic the musical#odysseus#Odysseus's crew#outsider pov my beloved#But no seriously what does odysseus's life and causal interactions with the gods look like from the average man#Is your captain being weird because of the gods or because he's fucking with you and is about to laugh in your face#It's 50/50 either way and how do you tell#I have many thoughts and feelings about odysseus's unnamed crew#Typing this out I just realized that odysseus's crew don't know how he got circle on their side#All they know is he waltzed into her palace was not affected by her magic and then convinced her to turn everybody back and help them#The conspiracies that must exist around this man#Also odysseus got Athens blessing as a child how did he change after that?#How did eury and pilties feel about their interactions being spied on by a goddess?
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Instead of writing a fanfic like a normal person this oneshot turned into two separate, contextless things,
#sorry it’s how my brain works (sometimes can only see things in terms of tv scene-)#tumblr exclusive video fancy…#dcmk#my art#(quietly coughing and spluttering) OK alright I can feel the creative brain explosion slowing down. geez#coughs.#nyways. weird that there hasn’t really been a main case where poison is involved in a certain way#If I watch my own scribbled boards for too long im gonna get too embarrassed to post. Send post#Subarus hair is still infuriating by the way like take that off your normal hair is easier. The beanie is easier#you like Have to have the side corners on this haircut or it doesn’t look right#anyways. shiho ptsd moments I think she kind of gets irritated that shinichi doesn’t react the same so when he does she gets like#weirded out and vindicated and a little protective. Like woah wait. Love that you understand me rn don’t like that you feel bad I am going…#to…………. ssssssssssit here about it…………………………….. uhhhh. do you want. a rubix cube to get your mind off it#I don’t want to talk about my feelings I just want you to get it. you don’t wanna talk about your feelings either which is……………. Hmmmmmm#I like her. love of my life miyano shiho#masumi sera#conan edogawa#ai haibara#akai shuichi#let conan swear. HE SWEARS A LOT BUT LET HIM SWEAR IN ENGLISH I KNOW HE KNOWS THEM#man needs his emotional support akai family they like him#rigorous trials to being approved by the akai matriarch but everyone else likes him already and have already picked him up multiple times#and shuichi would let him swear
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Been thinking about it
#art#fanart#my art#original art#doodles#sketch#shitpost?#Splatoon#Splatoon art#Splatoon fanart#Splatoon fan art#Splatoon big man#big man Splatoon#big man#mantaro#Splatoon memes#splatoon 3#i know how weird my tags can be sometimes. I use this as if it was my diary#anyway dear diary i feel like I’m actually going insane#nothing new. just had to say this because idk what else to say and I have to keep my compromise of putting some random hit in my tags#but honestly yeah idk might die tomorrow or something#i have to get up early tomorrow#but im here having a crisis then drawing the possible ways that big man can carry a#crossbody bag
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The only way he can get her to listen
#bireena#bi han x sareena#sareena x bi han#bi han#sub zero#sareena#mortal kombat 1#the only canon thing I want about Sareena from mk11 is her love of ratty little white dogs#it just feels so weird that she would like those but I think it’s funny#bi han likes studying her weaknesses#not sure what for.. combat? entertainment? who knows#i certainly don’t wanna know what goes through that man’s brain#he’s insane#doodle#my art
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GENSHIN IMPACT ⟡ an everlasting dream intertwined
#genshin#genshin impact#genshinedit#genshinet#clorinde#navia#lyney#furina#m:gifs#m:*#m:gifs:clorinde#m:gifs:navia#this was highkey really weird/hard to color... i think mostly due to my inability to narrow down a color palette here#but i'll leave it at that i desperately need to sleep ajkljfads#i also debated cropping lyney out so i could make bigger gifs#but alas. i would feel bad so you are spared small magician man.
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happy birthday to technoblade
#art#illustration#mcyt#technoblade#technoblade fanart#technoblade25#lordofshibasart#i Could write a paragraph in the tags on how much hes impacted me and how it feels weird#but thats not Really my thing haha#anyway happy birthday big man <3
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op doodles i never posted(ithink). can you believe it was shanks and luffy again
#I SAID I'D POST ALL MY ART HERE BUT IT FEELS WEIRD MAN. IT FEELS LIKE PUTTING CLOTHES IN MY DESK DRAWS OR SOMETHING. WRONG#however i will get used to it#one piece fanart#my stuff#monkey d. luffy#red haired shanks
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having seen at least the rough outlines of all the romances now I have to say that I think emmrich's is probably objectively the best in terms of coherence and completeness of story arc (with the understanding that ultimately the 'best' romance is whichever one makes YOUR heart sing anyway so objectivity is a silly thing to claim that way, it just felt like it's the arc with the most well-paced focused content and the least dangling threads)... but lucanis' is my favourite haha. just. the whole kneeling before your beloved full of reverence but without any of the distance that usually implies??? his complete undramatic certainty and calm in every scene with rook after this, having spent the whole game caught between fear and longing???? mr. lives in a pantry but it says nothing about my psyche don't worry about it it's purely for tactical reasons that I keep myself contained in a small dark room not entirely unlike a cell, love among the parsnips -- finally coming to rook in their room and it's so comfortable and comforting???? after all the times rook supports and comforts him through the game he's finally able to return the same to them when they need it while being so calm and steady and it's so fucking sweet and feels so effortless and with no price attached?????? he basically assigns himself the role of your bodyguard and he WILL stab a god over it??????????????? the turn to protector (which was in his heart all along longing to get out and find a place) of it all????? he sounds like he's found himself unexpectedly stumbling into such a soul-lightening state of revelatory existential relief, full on 'you only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves' mary oliver style, and he goes and he shares that with rook and protectively envelops them in it when they're hurting??????????????????????????? hello for the maker's sake hello can anyone hear me?????
#listen I was forged in the fires of garrusmancing. I went through two whole games just to get a gentle headbutt and some tender words#before me3 comes along and rewards you for your tenacity more fully#me? the reyes romancer???? I have the strength and headcanon game to bear the relative lack of content before the end#when the endgame is this good I am willing to hold out for it haha the way he looks at rook towards the end......#I also really liked taash' (it's really sweet) but I don't think I have any rooks ready to go right now who would go for that vibe#emmrich for sure is going to be my either crow or shadow dragon romance it really is very good! and extremely goth not unrelatedly#undeniably that old man has the most game out of anyone in this story. the move with the flower??? I'm sorry????#I actually like that lucanis' romance blooms out of the safety of an established friendship more than anything (again. avowed garrusmancer)#but emmrich... he's got some next level romantic stuff going on and is being both so wholesome and such a freak about it lmao#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#rook x lucanis#rookanis#all jokes aside I totally respect and understand that people are a bit disappointed and frustrated -- they're not wrong to feel that!#there really are some gaps in content there for the midgame#however I was personally custom built by experience to get the most out of this scenario as possible and by god I will#just as I feel that ryder and reyes go off and have some soul-shrivingly good sex after the first kiss#(it makes that arc make a lot more sense to me haha)#I think rook and lucanis Get Up To It after the second coffee date. weird of them to not show us that but okay I'll fill it in myself then
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im eatimg all ur art can we feed more on howdy plz i beg im still hungry for more
At this point I feel I’m creating half of the fandom’s howdy content LMAOOO (just more excuses for me to draw my favorite worm man 😔🥄🥄🥄🥄)
Headcanon: the one apple Wally has is the old ass apple he found baby howdy in as a child
#Every time I see my boy howdy anywhere I get all excited and happy#It’s a constant “LOOK ITS MY WIGGLY WORM BOI ;;;;;”#And I flail around giggling like a weirdo#Know my crimes I will die for howdy smhh#Welcome home#welcome home howdy#howdy pillar#welcome home wally#wally darling#welcome home sally#sally starlet#Wallypillar#I still feel giddy whenever I see music man too-#I have a weird trend liking bug men
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quick helen richardson doodle <3
#i think I accidentally drew a religious icon or something#helen richardson has been living free in my mind for the past 24 hours and it's weird!#but man. i feel really gay for her#i literally started with drawing michael distortion but end up with her and. woah.#anyway i think she's cool <3#the magnus archives#tma#tma fanart#the magnus pod#the magnus archive fanart#helen richardson#tma helen#tma the spiral#the distortion#<- not really but kind of????#tma the distortion
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