#mama lilith says behave

[pippisevilthrallsummoningblog]

Marduk sucks. Be the most blasphemous? Even to yourselves. Mortiis = Samael?

More likely than you think.

Now I love Kronos for sounding the warning with Venom. Funny angel, Chamuel. Always leads to what's good (pink hair is a DEAD giveaway).

Chamuel does believe in a thing called love, even in the Darkness. I love you, like my Grammy always said. THAT is CHRISTLIKE.

Blond beast my ass. The princes of WAR and PEACE beckon through the AUTHORITY of GREAT GOD MARS.

Holy Planet Caravan you will be free on the BLACK SABBATH after we put the heads of the WAR PIGS on a stake in the STRANGE WORLD of TRANSYLVANIA.

[munsonsmixtapes]

Paint Me

Benedict Bridgerton x fem!inexperienced!American!reader

summary: your mother finds the things that you have been doing with Benedict and reveals to you a very scandalous secret that could change everything

word count: 2.5k

part one part two part three part four part five part seven

March 15, 1817

You and Benedict had spent more time in between your sheets than either of you would have cared to admit. Almost every night he was crawling through your window and he was gone by the morning when your mother had come to wake you up. With how loud the two of you were, it was a shock that neither Vivian nor Lilith had caught on to what you had been doing. 

But everything suddenly came crashing down when your mother had burst into your room as soon as Benedict had left and by the look on her face, you could tell that you were in trouble. You quickly covered up your naked body with the blanket that was covering it and she didn’t seem to care, whatever she was going to bust you for seeming more important. 

She pulled back the blanket and nodded to herself before shaking her head at you, looking even more disappointed in you than she had ever been before. Your blood ran cold as her eyes made contact with yours, feeling her anger chill your bones. Now you were scared of what she was going to say.

“Just as I suspected,” she sighed, running her hands through her hair. “You have not bled since last month and it is about time for you to bleed again and yet, there is no blood on your sheets where there should be.” You had no idea what she was referring to. So, you hadn’t started your period yet. It was just late this time so there was no reason to be upset with you.

“Mother-”

“I don’t want to hear your excuses. You are with child, aren’t you?” How would that have been possible and how could she have jumped to that conclusion? Out of all the things that you could have been, being pregnant definitely wasn’t one of them.

“No, mama!” You laughed as you stood up from the bed. “I don’t even understand how that could happen.” And that was true. You really had no idea what she was talking about. You knew all about sex now, but had no idea it could lead to a baby. That part was still fuzzy and now you were almost afraid to ask.

“I know you have been having relations with that Bridgerton boy and now you are having his baby, aren’t you?” She crossed her arms over her chest, not quite believing your words. Of course, she wanted grandchildren, but not out of wedlock. And the fact that you were going to give her the first one when it should have been Lilith was really throwing her off. And people were certainly going to find out about it and she’s going to look like a terrible mother who just let you run around behaving like a whore.

“Not that I know of. Mother, I don’t even know how I could be with child, so there is absolutely nothing for you to worry about.”

“Oh dear,” she sighed and sat next to you on the bed, taking your hands in hers. She explained exactly how a person became pregnant and you were starting to panic, remembering that Benedict had come inside you multiple times in the few weeks you had been sleeping together. One mistake and you were going to be a mother. You couldn’t be with a child! You were still a child yourself! And Benedict would have certainly stopped speaking to you once he found out. 

To confirm your suspicions, your mother took you to a doctor and just like you both had suspected, it was true. You were going to have a baby and now you really had no choice but to get married to Benedict. But what if people found out you were pregnant before the wedding, or what if they found that the timeline of your pregnancy didn’t line up with your wedding date? 

Perhaps it was karma for sleeping with a man out of wedlock. You supposed it was what you deserved for your behavior. Or maybe it was just what you thought because it was what you had been taught your entire life. That it was wrong to engage in that kind of behavior as an unmarried woman, but as soon as the knot was tied, it was perfectly fine. 

As soon as you got into the carriage to take you home, you had it take you to the Bridgerton home with every intention of breaking the news to the person you trusted the most. You felt like you had to tell someone and it was only right for you to tell the very first friend you made since moving back to London.

-

“Well, this is certainly unexpected,” Kate let out a nervous laugh before taking a sip from her tea. The two of you were in the study and as much as you had wanted Anthony to be there, you knew that he would have had something to say and you weren’t in the mood for him to be angry with his brother. And it seemed like they both had gone somewhere to try to put their differences aside, so they weren’t in the house anyway. 

“I know,” you lowered your head in shame. “Should I tell Benedict?”

“I think it would be hard to hide something like that after long, but that is up to you.” She set her teacup down and rested her hand on top of yours, giving it a loving squeeze.  

“You’re not going to tell anyone, right?” Kate was not a gossip and wouldn’t tell anyone if that wasn’t what you wanted. She was going to keep your secret as long as you wanted her to and had no intention of telling a single soul unless you told her that it was okay to do so.

“Of course not,” she shook her head. She felt honored for being the first person outside of your mother to know about the news and she wouldn’t dare betray you. Especially since you were starting to become a sister to her. 

“Not even Anthony?” Anthony was Kate’s husband after all and you understood that trust and honestly was important to the both of them. But at the same time, you knew that all hell would break loose as soon as he got wind of your pregnancy and that Benedict was the father.

“Darling, especially not Anthony. This will just be between us.” She winked then took another sip of her tea. 

“Good,” you nodded. “So what are Anthony and Benedict up to today? I know you said that they were trying to make amends and I was wondering-” As soon as the words left your mouth, Kate’s fell open and her teacup clattered to the saucer that was sitting on the table. Her eyes were wide and she quickly stood up from the table, grabbing hold of your wrist as she did so. 

She pulled you out the door of the study and headed down the hall, practically running once she got down the stairs. She called for someone to have her horse ready and there it was as the two of you got out the door. Without a word, she helped you onto the horse and you scooted back so she could take the reins and then the two of you took off to your unknown destination. Well, unknown to you.

You still had no idea what was going on and were almost too afraid to ask. It seemed like something had happened and Kate had been too focused on getting out of the house to bother to tell you what exactly she was worried about. 

Kate knew that Anthony had discussed dueling his brother, but she had no idea that he was actually going to go through with it. She knew that he liked to take over the father figure role since Edmund had passed away, but sometimes it went too far. And she thought that dueling his brother was at that point. 

“Where are we going?” You asked as the horse raced through the woods, getting through them faster than you could have ever imagined. You were feeling scared and weren’t sure what to think of what was happening. The events were going by too fast for your mind to make sense of it.

Your heart raced in your chest at the uncertainty and for once, you had no idea what she was going to say. It seemed like the two of you were going to stop something from happening, but what, you didn’t know. What could have been so important that it required the two of you to travel across town on horseback? 

“We have to stop them,” was all she responded as she pulled on the reins to get the horse to go even faster. Now you two were practically flying through the trees and you barely had any time to register what you were even seeing. 

“Benedict and Anthony! I can’t believe I didn’t see it sooner, but they are going to duel!” Your eyes widened at her words and now you understood her urgency. If you didn’t get there fast enough, something horrific was definitely bound to happen. You just hoped you were going to get there in time to stop it. 

“Why?” You made an assumption, but you thought that you should have heard it from her to know that you were right.

“I’ll tell you later.” 

You got to the part of the words where the men were standing. They had their guns already pointed at each other, one of the triggers ready to be pulled at any second. Anthony seemed really to kill and Benedict looked like he would have rather been anywhere but there.

Kate helped you off of the horse and the two of you made a beeline for them, wanting to put the ridiculousness to an end. Kate stood between them and grabbed each of their weapons before tossing them aside. She gave them each a look and shook her head, showing how disappointed she was in them. 

Benedict hadn’t even wanted to duel. He had just wanted to make amends with his brother like Anthony had told him that they were going to do. He led him out into the woods and handed him a weapon, telling him that time was up. That because there hadn’t been a proposal that they had no choice but to duel. Thank god Kate had stopped them at just the right time. 

“What is going on?” Kate asked as she looked back and forth between the two of them. They both started talking over each other and none of their words were intelligible, almost as if they were children and that certainly seemed to be what they were acting like.

“Enough!” She cut them off. “One at a time.”

“We were going to duel because he won’t marry y/n.”

“I don’t care if he doesn’t marry me,” you responded and all three heads turned to look at you. 

“What is she doing here?” Anthony asked. “It’s not safe for her to be here.”

“We came to stop this ridiculousness,” Kate replied. 

Benedict’s eyes locked on yours and you motioned for him to come over to you. He practically ran over to you, pulling you into an embrace before pulling away, moving some of your hair out of your face. He watched your head raise to look him in the eyes and you wordlessly brought your hands up to your stomach and his eyes widened as he realized what you were trying to hint at. He rested his hands on top of your eyes and gave you a questioning look and you just nodded in response. 

Benedict could see your eyes watering and felt his getting misty as well. Before you could say anything, he grabbed onto your hands and pressed a kiss to each of them then pulled you in for a gentle kiss, pouring all of the feelings he had developed for you over the past few months into it.

“Marry me,” he said once he pulled away and your lips parted as you thought over his words.

“I will,” you replied and he pulled you into another kiss before pulling you over to Anthony to tell you the good news. 

March 20, 1817

“Well, that is wonderful!” Violet exclaimed in response to Benedict telling her the good news. He had just announced your engagement to his family. Everyone had been surprised but happy for the two of you nonetheless. 

Kate seemed to be even happier than you and Benedict about the whole thing. She was just so excited that you were going to be part of the family and that she was going to gain another sister. Despite her husband’s opinions, she had been secretly rooting for you and Benedict. She just knew that you would be one to make him want to settle down and she couldn’t stop smiling to herself because she was right. 

Everyone else seemed to be happy as well that you were joining the Bridgerton family and that Benedict had finally found a wife. Your mother was even happy about the engagement, even though she was sure that it was only because of your pregnancy. She couldn’t find any other reason as to why he would have wanted to marry you. But she was still confused as to how you had gotten an engagement before the diamond of the season, though. Lilith had gotten many suitors, but she hadn’t been courting anyone. 

But even she could be happy for you. She had really turned over a new leaf since your father had passed away and the two of you had gotten closer over the past few weeks. And her niceness had seemed genuine unlike your mothers. She really did want you to be happy and had even apologized profusely for the way she had treated you over the years. You were reluctant to accept it, but decided that it was what your father would have wanted, so you did. 

You eyed Francesca that was off to the side and she waved you over as Benedict engaged in conversation with Colin. She had been visiting from Scotland and seemed to have come back just in time for the exciting announcement. She pulled you into a tight hug then pulled away so the two of you could get a good look at each other.

“Well, you certainly have been busy,” she teased. “I know you liked him a lot and I’m so happy for the both of you. I’m even happier to be able to call you my sister now.”

“And the same goes to you,” you grabbed hold of her hands and gave them a squeeze. Just then, your conversation was cut off by something clinking against a glass. You both turned and your fiance was hitting a champagne flute with a spoon to get everyone’s attention. 

“Everyone, I’d like to make a toast to my bride,” Benedict gestured to you. You gave her hand another squeeze then headed back over to him and he took your hand in his before pressing a kiss to your knuckles before going into his speech about how much he cared for you and how he was going to do just that for the rest of his life. In that moment, you truly felt like the luckiest girl in the world.

[syrup-s0-gh0stly]

Radiohusk school AU!

Me and @pest-lady were thinking of a plot for a rp, so we created this!

They study at a good prestigious school.

Alastor is there because he is very smart, and Husk is there because his parents are rich.

Alastor's mother is a working class hero and raises him alone, and he is mama's boy and really wants to become a man she could rely on, so he tries very hard to study. He has a cross on his forehead from sitting and reading at night, often falling asleep with his head on the table. He wears braces and brushes his teeth because mom says so, and if mom said so, then you have to do it😇

He is an egomaniac and is too concerned about his image to notice how much teachers are annoyed by the way he behaves. And he's just a troll and likes to correct teachers

As teachers we have Adam Eve lilith and Lucifer (probably more but I haven't thought of it yet)

Lilith is also the principal.

Due to some circumstances, Alastor became a victim of sa from the Lucifer and Lilith.

It makes him feel fucked up and disgusting for himself and for them. But he can't tell his mom about it, because he doesn't want her to worry, and even more so he doesn't want to change school.

But he finds his solace in Husker

He's a furry creature you can jam him😈

Since Husk's parents are wine magnates, they are first of all rich bitches.

And they also treat him very disdainfully, so he is left on his own, and he gets in touch with all sorts of people from casino, bars and other poor establishments.

Husk often feeds Alastor with parental supplies, and both of them being scholded for it, but it repeats again and again anyway. Husk is used to being in the shadows and existing to please others.

[dead-lights]

workout buddies

I built a little library in the attic of wolfsbane manor as a wedding present for Morgyn. They returned to their wholesome dynamic after getting married, and all has been well.

I stepped away from the Vatore household for like 5 minutes to check on the retired sages (Tess is now besties with the Grim Reaper after hanging out with him at the wedding - it's my favorite) and when I came back to Forgotten Hollow they'd adopted a cat. Welcome to the family, Hilda - she is a playful, cautious, glutton. She is very much Lilith's cat.

Lilith holds regular vampire club meetings at the manor. Morgyn actually hasn't been attacked before (tho Vlad bit Emilia at least once when I had both magic club and vampire club going on at the manor) but when Elle stumbled across the duplicate they'd summoned to clean up after all those messy vampires, she got a bit thirsty.

I felt kinda weird about that, given the origin of vampires. I wasn't sure if Caleb would be able to stop her, but given that he was standing right there, I figured he should try to intervene. He commanded her to leave. They're both grand masters so that was a bit of a gamble, but it worked!

I'm not sure exactly what happened, but Lilith managed to develop a somewhat positive relationship with Kristopher when I wasn't looking (he shows up at a lot of Morgyn's events). Given that they are both extremely buff, I had the brilliant idea to start an occult workout club. Rory, Kristopher, and Lilith are all pretty evenly matched physically so it seemed like a potentially fun idea.

It's called "We Aren't Friends," it meets at the Moonwood Mill library, and I invited a bunch of buff werewolves, Elle (in case Lilith needed someone to spar with) and Vlad.

regular football practice was great. Lilith and Rory actually ended up with a positive relationship, so I decided to up the difficulty.

Difficult football practice turned out to be a mistake, first with Rory and later with Kristopher. While the wolves were able to catch all of Lilith's throws, she got hit in the head every time. I stopped practice before their relationship dropped back into the red.

Eventually, the group made their way into the library gym, with Rory literally walking all over Kristopher.

For shame, Rory. Even Vlad's getting swol and you're just on your phone.

Watching Vlad flail at the punching bag with Kristopher and Rory in literal beast mode made me so happy :D And gotta love the vampire punching bag when there are 3 vampires in the room Rory could be punching instead.

When Vlad's noodle arms got tired, he went over to bother the alphas, possibly to remind Rory about how she promised to fuck him up if ever they met, possibly to throw a yo mama joke at Kristopher. Who can say.

this looks familiar... don't worry rory, that's just his vampire idling animation face, he's not attacking.

Caleb is not much of one for the heavy exercise, but he, Morgyn, and the cat came along as well. Morgyn loves libraries! Caleb took the opportunity to catch up with Lily. things are getting better! possibly because she doesn't recognize this gentle soul...

Lily seemed to be kinda tired by that point, and eventually she left the gym to hang out with Caleb and Morgyn in the books part of the library. For someone who was just in a room with Vlad Straud, she seems awful scared off that little kitty.

The club ended up being less dramatic than I'd expected. Everyone behaved, even Vlad. And while Caleb/Lily and Lilith/Rory aren't quite friends, a few days later I checked neighborhood stories...

YEAH. Tbh that's more surprising than if they'd just fought and sniped like I expected. Rory can't get along with Kristopher, but apparently Vlad is ok. Maybe they can beat Greg up together idk

[floralkittygambler]

Reposting for reasons

Response to Honest’s post here: Doing this to spread this awareness more as I know theres a bit of a rift in the critical community - plus I really fucking go on. Im PISSED and I do apologise however it NEEDS urgent addressing. I know people will hate me for it but Im used to hate and honestly? Hating rather than helping to solve the issue only furthers my fucking point here. So yeah this is so more people are aware (no offense to any of those involved in said rift either, but this is an important message. Thank you for understanding and if I can do anything to make all sides comfortable, then please message me and I’ll do my upmost.) “ More awareness of this is needed. Even if it’s your favourite, you can’t justify their shit but rally against another’s shit. Have people tell you you’re experiences arent real or invalid because, like Husk, people have - in real life - shipped you with someone you are far from comfortable with but you still treat them like a person. Because you have basic respect. And people force you to accept harassment, touching, stalking, advances for THEIR satisfaction. People use you for their fantasies. But you’re just a ‘tsundere’ for it. Or you have addiction issues but people think being with another addict will ‘save’ you because you’re apparently too incompetent to save yourself. Love isnt some magic fuckin cure so stop romanticising it as a fuckin saviour. It’s gross and fuckin creepy. Get stalked and have someone NEVER accept your no just because you show youre still decent enough to not treat them shitty or any different from anyone else. Try having someone way older or way younger (both in morally fucked up ways) advance on you and people encourage that. People you’re supposed to feel safe around.

People touch you when you pull away or show discomfort. Follow you home. Have pictures of you and wont accept you dont like them like that and it’s not ‘playing hard to get’ or ‘the thrill of the chase’. Fuck. OFF. In fact, Im not only disappointed in the fandom. Im disappointed in the entire team who some should know better from their OWN personal experiences - or at least the bare minimal of being a fucking adult. Im disappointed in especially females (sorry idk whether girl or woman is more appropriate here-) who statistically are more likely to have experienced something similar at some point in their lives think this is a cute gay moment. No. Angel is made out as a fucking predator - Im not saying he is, Im saying that his persistence is very fucking unwelcome like one. People like Husk dont need that fucking invasiveness. They/We need patience and someone on our level. Angel’s I know are the fuckin polar opposite - and some of them I know are very sexually harassing, including unwanted touching. It’s a shitty way to present gay people. Gays are fuckin people. Some are cunts and some arent. It’s a HUMAN thing. But considering the shit theyve been subjected to, presenting a gay as a victim only to also show them as a perpetrator is insulting! And for those Ive seen argue this about how people like AD wouldnt know how to express their love normally and whatnot? His pig. His best friend. He’s in his fucking 30s. There are literal real life criminals who get molested as kids and then go on to molest kids. Not all who grow up like that turn into nonces. Stop just fucking STOP justifying and romanticising this bullshit! I used to see the good in AD but now he makes me fucking sick. Especially with my verrrrrry fucking real traumas and connections. But fuck me, eh? Because this fictional guy matters so much more. Fuck real victims. And whilst we’re at it, fuck AD too when it suits your fetishes! Sarcasm aside, the fans and the team need to straighten up their abhorrent behaviour. Stolas. Fucking clearly having an affair, knowingly fucking up his daughter’s mental health and bribing a guy into sex who only wants the book and nothing more. He even has a fucking warning button over Stolas- Guys, how do you think any of this is cute? Even the team gross me out- I genuinely see potential and talent and it’s all gone to shit to satisfy horny teens, horny adults, and literally everyone who doesnt for the life of them understand being an adult is more than sex, drugs, violence and swears! I REALLY want to keep enjoying HB/HH but it’s getting harder and harder with such ignorant and bordering lazy creators (note: lazy as in wont do the fucking research or actually listen to real criticism and victims), such despicable fans (yeah, some HDers fuckin mocked that they triggered my ED, yet they had the fucking NERVE to support Angel’s potential ED AND laugh and blame me for me getting treated so badly for actually having the balls to call Angel and the teams hypocrisy. I got told to kill myself, that my problems arent real - oh but Angels apparently is! Which... They *are* but AD isnt real so technically only onlookers will suffer and not a drawing  - and they just excused their toxic behaviours. These people are like “aww poor angie babey!” yet fuckin INSULT sex workers. All this red in Hazbin yet it feels everyone and they mama colour blind. The issues are getting worse and fans are outright becoming EVIL, VILE, Vindictive little bullies - from kids to adults. You SHOULD be ashamed of yourself if you conduct yourself in such a manner. And you need to readjust your attitudes and behaviours because the only fuckers getting hurt are actual fucking victims. Ever been violated and been gaslit so much you STILL fucking question it’s reality? So you drown that shit out yet somehow it’s effects still hit you? Fetishise it. Make it your uwu gae couple goals, you’re no better than people believing Harley and the Joker werent toxic af. If this shit happened to you, most of you would actually SEE where we’re all coming from. Also, stop making gay a fetish - you’re like those creepy old men in the alley heckling lesbians to make out so they can wank off. Gays, no ALL the LGBT+ are fucking people too. So dont give me that bullshit then start turning everything just gay or just straight to mentally wank off to. It’s degrading and dehumanising. And yes, fiction does effect reality. You crush on a fictional character? Mourn one? Support one? Hell, fuckin jerk off to one - that’s affecting reality. Remember how in fiction all blacks were treated as villians? Look how theyre treated IRL. JAWS, great classic unfortunately their was a spike in shark killings over a fucking movie - the shark in the movie wasnt even real for the most part because they dont behave like that! (Also the animatronic was so shit they genuinely had so many issues - I think they even took to naming each one! Some fun trivia there!). Tiger sharks are more nasty than great whites as tiger sharks will hunt and eat a human. Great whites prefer seals and dislike human flesh, they just mistake us for seals. Hell, theres the toothless basking shark - theyre often SWAM WITH by divers for being so friendly. Yet Jaws made people think all sharks are bloodlusting over humans. Slenderman was created for a fucking contest and that influenced a stabbing (NOT Victor’s fault). Watch a horror movie that isnt based on a real life event and tell me that at least ONE has left you peaking over your shoulder. Stella may be a bitch - we dont know for certain - but try getting cheated on. Y’know what? Try growing up in such a broken home like Octavia. Yeah reaaaaaal fucking cute now, huh? Funny how as well y’all petition for male victims to be taken seriously then laugh when fictional males experience this abuse, further adding to stigma. You can be hit on by the hottest mf on the planet but if you arent interested, that should be respected! Also we’ve all been inspired by at least one fictional character so yeah. Yknow, since I was little Ive been fighting for sex worker and homeless rights. But HH/HB treatment of both leave a bitter taste in my mouth. I’ll still fully support sex workers and the homeless, but that’s the fucking effect this show is having. Bearing in mind I wont ever share everything Ive been through - and I shouldnt fucking have to in order to be believed and validated (obvs proof is required in a legal case but that’s a whole other topic). Why should I share MY fucking pain especially when you fuckers have belittled and triggered it more so? We have our rights to our secrets but fuck ME you lot NEED to start acting appropriately and like decent fucking humans. ‘iTs HeLl’ yeah and welcome to Earth- the team and yourselves live HERE. You obide by THESE rules. And as someone with beliefs (and a LOT of ancient fucking texts and studies on this shit) their Hell isnt even a proper Hell! It’s closer to purgatory and even then it’s not. Regardless, it’s a poorly built world with the lore consistently changing per episode and tweet, with many plot holes, and is apparently easy to get into - even via accidentally watching porn according to a stream. If youre gonna parade youre a fucking expert and research into demonology and use real believed figures, at least get THAT right. In fact, Lucifer and Lilith (and Stolas tbf) are ESPECIALLY risky as theyre a lot more complex than most easy access texts will tell you. Likewise, Stolas’s first introduction and main focus is sex. He’s one of the FEW Goetia demons that dont have some involvement in relationship issues at ALL. He’s known for astrology, crystals and herbs but hes also known to aid MONEY troubles (it’s lesser known but it’s true! HB Stolas is an insult to the Prince). Turning Vodou into something evil is vile considering it’s powerful and liberated slaves. Pentagrams are nothing to do with Satan, they’re magic based sigils. Upside down cross is the symbol of a SAINT. It’s just some edgy attempt to trick people into believing they know more than they do. Also you should NEVER dabble and doodle sigils without knowing the meanings or respecting what they behold. Vox and Val, real fuckin cute way to make them look like a stupid fucking highschool drama instead of a fucking SEX TRAFFICKER (note: real pimps often target YOUNG folks too - aka minors - and groom them into sex work. Theres different types of pimp. Viv has shown barely any understanding of ‘the game’ and its a fucking insult to injury. Yes we KNOW what a fucking pimp and prozzie are! We dont need to see it. We need REAL AWARENESS.) and a fucking scheming bastard of a CEO salesman botman. And yet even THEN lets go a step further and make some yandere wuv on boyfweind aboose! Fuck off- Now I love a good anime but these tropes are getting fucking dangerous now. And unrealistic to real love and relationships. Kids nowadays know fuck all on a healthy relationship (neither did the fuckin 50s tbf) and Im seeing more romaticism and glorifying abusive situations. Like the show ‘You’. Ok, there’s a fuckin bloke online who slaughtered innocents and kidnapped yet people commented how cute he is on his IG and that they want to be kidnapped or killed by him next. Dont believe me? Look up Peter Manfredonia Connecticut and the comments people left him and then tell me why shit like whats being presented in HH/HB ISNT fucking concerning - because it is. For a series about redemption, it’s brilliant at the opposite (Quote from the creator herself, Viv has posted that it’s influencing her bad choices. Even as a joke, proof’s in the pudding). And the overall focus on sex in the way Viv does is so immature and really creepy, and this is from an ADULTS perspective. From one adult to another, Im concerned as to why any of them think this is a normal fixation. Then again they’ve hired quite a large amount of dodgy folks and even a child. Most of this shit gets avoided with a basic background check like most companies run. I DO like Hazbin. Or the premise. I love some of the cast and spite the others. In Helluva, I just like a tiny portion of the cast. And I critique it so harshly because Viv DOES need a wakeup slap, grounding to reality, people who arent going to big her up or kiss her arse for once and shape her up to be the best she can be. The actually reach and even surpass her potential. And to reach where you need to be, there’s a lot of harsh lessons youll face. That’s life. Shes chosen one of the most HEARTLESS industries and if she blocks out critique as ‘hate’ then she’s not strong enough and wont last. It’s just another unprepped YanDev again (except I dont believe Viv to be a nonce. Even with her dodgy past and dodgy present, I think her perspective on sex and relationship with sexuality is FAR from healthy BUT I dont believe she’s a pedophile. Ive bled my fair share and so far, I just think her sex perspective isnt healthy or mature for her age. But there’s little to nothing to suggest actual noncery - dont worry about accusations there. But YanDev is totally a dirty predator. Just clearing that up). Viv NEEDS some harshness and stability if she wants to do things right. And it’ll make her fucking cry but if she loves these projects as much as she claims to, then you’ll sacrifice blood, sweat and tears for that shit. Even the strongest points are mediocre at best when properly observed. She CAN do more, but she’ll have to face the harsh music. Viv wont see this, but if she does, I dont care if it upsets her. Why? Because this is that much of an issue - something she’s cultivated - that she needs to take action and not ignore it or be secretive about it. She needs to grow up and get tougher skin. Im not saying this to cause her pain. In fact, I wouldnt waste my fucking limited time if I DIDNT care. Trust me, I have duties to be met at a certain quota every single day. I say this shit only because I give a shit and care. If we met, she’d fucking hate me. But people like me are good for shaping people up to their potential. And we arent always this ‘tough love’ either. But when someone needs that level of harshness to help themselves, we’re not afraid to lose people or cause upset if the results end up being the best for them. If she ever saw this, she needs to re fucking evaluate her message, her story, and those she’s choosing to welcome into her circle. And all Im seeing is one rookie mistake after the other. Her paid patreon discord. Just like the messages Honest has posted on her side of being harassed (not in Vivs fyi), Ive experienced shit and bullying and even stay silent on their for being attacked for a group I fuckin paid to be in and yet I feel isolated. It’s all arsekissing and ‘thank you viv’ (thats an actual channel-) and it feels like a place of borderline worship and people trying to appease her 24/7 whilst kicking others with different opinions down. There’s so many I love but I aint kissin yer fuckin arse. Ask the closest friend I have - we’re fucking raw and wont just side with each other just because. We’ll call each other out if we think they’ve fucked up and then help each other build themselves up better. Because real fuckin people who actually care wont just want to be adored by you. They’ll care enough to point out your bullshit and help you, even if they upset you at the time. They’re real and upfront with you. People like us arent always the easiest to be close to either because we arent afraid of upsetting someone if it’s in their best interest and to help them. Likewise, we dont go out looking for fights either. Most times, we’re fuckin soft bastards- All this shit listed is the fuckin surface level of the real life hell of this fandom. And unsurprisingly, those who experience little to no toxicity have always been higher on that popularity ‘food chain’ - enough admirers and shared opinions that people wanna arse kiss regardless of their OWN feelings as well as neutral perspectives. I’d say you’re the lucky fans, but you’re not. You’re sheltered, and that isnt always the best way to be sadly. As for the fans. If Ive upset you. Well... I dont care. Because many of you have actively sought me out and weaponised my traumas against me. You never cared about my feelings then. Why should I care about yours? Im not doing this out of malice. Im fed up of humans behaving so pathetically yet claiming to be high and mighty. Most of you have been arseholes to those in and out of the community. The victims and non-victims alike. Hardly any of you considered once my real suffering. You put a drawing over a life. Many lives. You had the audacity to tell me Im full of shit. Some even using my real traumas to make a mockery of me and those Im around with a very similar history. Some with traumatic histories that differ from my own. You hardly ever considered the real lives of those effected. So no, Im not sorry for having the fucking balls to this day to still stand up for our rights and give us a voice that’s long been stolen. Im not sorry for being a fucking victim. Im not sorry for saying what desperately NEEDS voicing. And Im not sorry for not conforming to you or any fandom just to belong. We deserve better than to constantly be your fuckin arse monkeys (well... the trope is butt monkey but yknow-) and to be mistreated, misrepresented and harmed by you. You’re no different to the school bullies who give speeches on anti-bullying day. And I hope every single one of you starts looking into yourselves and improving. PS: Depending on the texts you read, Lucifer is said to have been redeemed or to be redeemed. Fun fact to haunt yalls with~ “

[blackphoenixalchemylab]

Motherhood In Many Faces, Painted In Perfume

Ahead of a day which means the world to so many (and remains an emotional biohazard zone to others), Ali Zagat (Silvertree on the BPAL.org forum) composed this paean to the many aspects of motherhood as they’ve been expressed through our perfume blends over the years. How touching! With her permission, it’s shared below.

As a business we tend to radiate Big Mom Energy year round, drawing scent inspiration from mythic and historical figures as well as the trials of everyday, real life mommery. But holidays like Mother’s Day are also an opportunity to honor chosen family, including those who are there for others’ offspring at crucial moments. The important thing is that we’re still part of a huge network of people caring for each other, which is right where we want to be. 

(While it’s too late to get anything delivered by Sunday, we are here for you with a last-minute reminder that BPAL gift certificates are available in any amount, and are delivered via email instead of postal service!)

A Mother’s Day 2019 Scent Roundup

People of every culture have celebrated and worshipped mothers and motherhood since the dawn of time. Today, most of us opt to take mom out to brunch or buy her flowers, rather than make a pilgrimage to the closest shrine to Demeter in her honor. But why not make a little extra effort for the mother-goddess who gave you (or your children) life? We’ve consulted our oracles and come up with some modern-day equivalents to the tithe of your first harvest.

UBI BENE, IBI PATRIA

We can’t say it better than Lilith (via Beth) did: “Home is wherever [your] loved ones are.”

MOTHER’S HOT GHOSTS

A hot-flash figment, or contact with the other side? Only Mother knows… and she’s not telling.

The woman who taught you “Do no harm, but take no shit” would enjoy pretty much the entire Activism line -- especially Like A Girl, Nasty Woman, Nevertheless, She Persisted, and Abolish ICE.

BLISS

Skip the cliched chocolate sampler and go right for the chocolate perfume.

WICKED

Okay, this one’s a bit shady, but if your (step)mother has a good sense of humor, why not?

BASTET

Mama Bear? Try Mother Lioness. Anyone who’s justifiably been on your mom’s bad side would endorse this pick.

HECATE

If your mom leans into her feminine mystique at all, this sophisticated gourmand blend is a must-try.

KALI

The protectress, the supreme mother goddess, the one who watches over death and birth alike. Y’know, mom.

PERSEPHONE

Demeter’s beloved daughter. “If you’d only listened to me….”

YEMAYA

Lady of the Ocean, source of all that lives. The first sound you hear is your mother’s blood rushing around and through your body, sustaining, nourishing, and giving you life.

SHUB-NIGGURATH

No list of mom-appropriate scents would be complete without the Black Goat of the Woods with a Thousand Young, a fact that became apparent to this writer after a series of blood-curdling, hyper-realistic nightmares that went on at least a week longer than they needed to. Iä! Iä!

Speaking of nightmares....You probably gave mom some sleepless nights when you were a young’un, so help her catch up on lost Zs with SOMNUS and TKO.

MAMA-JI

Just like “the version of me in India,” Mama-Ji represents power and time, creation and change, preservation and destruction. This is the mom who casually slings the line, “I brought you into this world, and I can take you right out of it” over her shoulder when you’re acting up in the back seat on a long road trip.

SARAH, THE MOTHER BEAR

The powerful, nurturing, fierce and fiercely practical matriarch of Pretty Deadly is a compelling character, a homesteader on the American frontier who seems to have stepped straight out of ancient legend.

NORMAN’S GRANDMA

While most people don’t use “old lady perfume” as a good thing, this scent turns “you smell like my grandma” into the highest compliment. A comforting scent that evokes pure love and nostalgia.

HEROINE

Assertive and complex, strong yet subtle, this is a scent for the butt-kicking moms who climb mountains, shatter glass ceilings, and delight in not being well-behaved women. [Currently out of stock, that’s how good.]

DAWN: MOTHER

A goddess of birth and rebirth, Dawn is a modern, unorthodox heroine. Her scent is an exotic floral blend befitting the protectress of witches and guardian of the planet Earth.

This Mother's Day, honor the one who gave you life by establishing a cult to Cybele in her honor. Or if you can’t do that, you can at least support a woman-led small business and redeem yourself after buying her that bottle of designer impostor perfume when you were in high school.

Iä! Iä! Happy Mother’s Day!