#makingrealchangesfromunrealplaces

[narcichondriac]

Mess. Cleaning. A HUGE waste of time and a huge lesson learned. I'm super thankful for trump because he has shown who I'd like to really keep out of my life. There is something in me to learn from this. It's discretion. Discretion, for me, is to stay the hell away from lying, cheating, skuzzy people who smile in your face and tell you they "unfollowed" you for political reasons aeons ago when you've only been "friends" for a couple weeks. Color me disengaged. Color me a liar. Color me someone who doesn't know how to keep my mouth shut and stay out of flies' nests. Thankful for my REAL fam on here. The ones who don't pour poison down my ears n throat and tell me it's good for me and they're being honest, telling me what I need to hear: I know the truth. I've been blind until now but these people were using me for numbers, using me for some bizarre social leverage, and actually gave NO SHITS about me as an individual or my fam... #byefelicia. Totally over the haters. I'm all about open respectful discussion but when you and your crew I DONT EVEN KNOW start leveling accusations at me as a fucking human being? Bitch please. I love shadow work - all day every day, anytime at all. But don't judge me and gossip about me and smile in my fucking face. You tell me how you feel. This is why I love everybody. EVEN SHITTY PEOPLE. Because it gives me leverage to go to their face and speak my truth. That I love them, respect them and what they bring to the table - that I wish I could help them see something my way. But when I do that and I am met with ridicule and shame and aggression and flat out hate - I don't have time for you, personally in my consciousness. I will take your lessons - I will learn from you - but I will not give you the pleasure of my friendship or my smile anymore and I hope you get your toxic claws out of my beloved family as well, you Medusa. #isallifthisreallyjustme #shadowworksucks #drinkinghelps #shadowwork #shadowwoekrocks #empowered #makingrealchangesfromunrealplaces posts) . . . #theconsciousparent #thecontinuumconcept #ppd #ittakesavillage #postpartum #ppp #postpartumdepression #sadmama #strugglingmama #momswhohurt #momswhofeel #empoweringParen (at Fairfield, Iowa)