#strugglingmama

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Ok I had to do this when I saw my friend Kesley do it. I have barely any photos from my senior year but this one is kind of the trend... awkward super staged and not in a good way teenage angst... vs pure #authenticliving and happy fulfillment in the bliss of #rawmotherhood. I'm SUCH a better person now... thank heavens!!! I have definitely got a ways to go but I'm so much further along... hell I've actually started!!! Almost 30 but I'm finally living the life I've always wanted. #thenandnow #throwwaybackwednesday #theconsciousparent #thecontinuumconcept #ppd #ittakesavillage #postpartum #ppp #postpartumdepression #strugglingmama #momswhohurt #momswhofeel #empoweringParenthood #postpartumanxiety #ppa #loveyourself #theartofslowliving #gratefulmama #motherhoodbliss #motherhoodrising #theartofmotherhood (at Fairfield, Iowa)

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#rawmotherjood is about taking shifts being "crazy," and remembering to always #acts fool. Life is TOO SHORT to go around frowning all the time. Keep your head up and your heart strong. Make each other laugh. Find the effing humor in how seriously we take ourselves!!! Enjoy letting loose. Enjoy reflecting, enjoy your expansion, however it manifests, and don't let anybody's interpretations of your expansion and manifestations thereof distract you from your vision and your growth and your progress. Setting New Years resolutions or new year goals is not about meeting someone else's expectations or maintaining status quo or managing loss or minimizing or creating or whatever - THERE IS NO ONE STOP SHOP FOR GROWTH! What works for you may trigger and deteriorate someone else - don't be hurt! Don't be offended! Keep doing you. What hurts you may bring joy and peace to another - let that be. It's not always my battle. It's not always worth exploring or understanding. I'm not always ready for every level of growth that everyone else is experiencing all day. Part of nurturing relationships and cultivating trust in a family or friends is letting yourself be (wherever and whatever that entails) and letting others be too (whatever that entails). Creating a nurturing environment where you feed each other instead of stifling each other's experiences is developed by holistically witnessing one another: showing up and seeing you as you are and not intentionally or unintentionally placing expectations or demands on one another. Letting it be as it is and loving it for where it is at : no matter where that is. Appreciating the journey. Appreciating the pain. Forgetting what I wrote on the last half of this but no longer caring!!! Bwahahaha!!! In a goofy silly picture... I see the point of it all. #theconsciousparent #thecontinuumconcept #ppd #ittakesavillage #postpartum #ppp #postpartumdepression #sadmama #strugglingmama #momswhohurt #momswhofeel #empoweringParenthood #postpartumanxiety #ppa #loveyourself #theartofslowliving #wildandfree #littleandbrave #oureverydaymoments #fiercelittleones #childhoodunplugged #letthembelittle #ThoughtfulJane #EmmelineJane (at Fairfield, Iowa)

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Enjoying this restorative process. It's not soon depth that it feels like a drain or a waste of money or time but it's big enough to take up a lot of time and I think it's s perfect project to start the year with - I'm excited about my new morning self-care rituals and my nighttime self care rituals... I feel like making myself a priority and learning to treat myself the way I'd like to be treated by others is an important but real good twist on the golden rule. Especially if you've ever suffered self harm or self hatred, self loathing. Lifting up those rusty layers and getting to the root neglect and cause of these consistent patterns of negativity that make us feel trapped is so important and huge to really renew, clean and restore our personal bones to pure acceptance and worthiness of love and bliss and compassion and understanding. When we know we have a have a birthright to these things and a sort of militant duty, so to speak, to protect those things we know we have a birthright to - then we are really taking the first step to creating honest and true friendships with ourselves and others. Then we can see what we have manifested in our current situation by past feelings of unworthiness, lack, and so on. Then, when a situation comes up where you feel compromised or undervalued or just completely berated and dissed, you can have the strength to back up and go "hey - I'm sharing a different opinion, not getting personal." Then you can walk away, reassess, and if you need to remove yourself from a toxic pattern of behavior or thinking - just do it! You can walk away from a bad or toxic feeling feeling and you owe nothing to anybody but honor to yourself for trusting your intuition. My only goal is to be more aware of my vibration and the messages I'm sending you, beautiful darlings. . #theconsciousparent #thecontinuumconcept #ppd #ittakesavillage #postpartum #ppp #postpartumdepression #sadmama #strugglingmama #momswhohurt #momswhofeel #empoweringParenthood #postpartumanxiety #ppa #loveyourself #theartofslowliving (at Fairfield, Iowa)

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This is my mantra for the year. In some way, I will honor it in every aspect of my day. I want to finish the dishes. I want to clean the floors. I want to clean the walls/dust/etc. I want to put away all my clothes. I want to finish putting shelf liner in the kitchen. I want to finish putting the photos in their online albums. I want to finish writing out everyone's cards with our new address and pictures and send them, with links to the favorites online archives so everyone can see her adorable growth and our beautiful experience of childhood, parenthood, and beautiful union 😍 I want to finish my many book projects and creative projects, and update all my blogs and create a new format to access all of my growth in one place/way... But I am going to make some more #tea. I'm going to do a self-live tarot reading to see where I am failing in my journey to personal development and empowerment 😍 and I'm going to enjoy some meditation and yoga before cleansing rituals and bed. 2017. Is all about self care for me. I know I can be a much happier and more fulfilled person and enjoy all of my relationships and discoveries more by tuning in to and respecting and drawing wisdom from my growth and ability to learn and be humble and also to give and create and be powerful. Journaling, friendship, family, tea, yoga, meditation, Pinterest, creativity and magickal-spiritual work and explorations and divining and discoveries are all rituals of self care and nurture our soothe our souls and our core being, and when we intentionalize and integrate magick into our life (something I used to be way more active and vocal about and I've sort of fallen off the wagon for a while but I'm getting back on again more frequently and with much greater clarity and respect) we start seeing our growth and our struggles much more empathetically and in a way that cultivates respect and trust with ourselves, and therefore ultimately with others as well. . #theconsciousparent #thecontinuumconcept #ppd #ittakesavillage #postpartum #ppp #postpartumdepression #sadmama #strugglingmama #momswhohurt #momswhofeel #empoweringParenthood #postpartumanxiety #ppa #loveyourself #theartofslowliving (at Fairfield, Iowa)

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Mess. Cleaning. A HUGE waste of time and a huge lesson learned. I'm super thankful for trump because he has shown who I'd like to really keep out of my life. There is something in me to learn from this. It's discretion. Discretion, for me, is to stay the hell away from lying, cheating, skuzzy people who smile in your face and tell you they "unfollowed" you for political reasons aeons ago when you've only been "friends" for a couple weeks. Color me disengaged. Color me a liar. Color me someone who doesn't know how to keep my mouth shut and stay out of flies' nests. Thankful for my REAL fam on here. The ones who don't pour poison down my ears n throat and tell me it's good for me and they're being honest, telling me what I need to hear: I know the truth. I've been blind until now but these people were using me for numbers, using me for some bizarre social leverage, and actually gave NO SHITS about me as an individual or my fam... #byefelicia. Totally over the haters. I'm all about open respectful discussion but when you and your crew I DONT EVEN KNOW start leveling accusations at me as a fucking human being? Bitch please. I love shadow work - all day every day, anytime at all. But don't judge me and gossip about me and smile in my fucking face. You tell me how you feel. This is why I love everybody. EVEN SHITTY PEOPLE. Because it gives me leverage to go to their face and speak my truth. That I love them, respect them and what they bring to the table - that I wish I could help them see something my way. But when I do that and I am met with ridicule and shame and aggression and flat out hate - I don't have time for you, personally in my consciousness. I will take your lessons - I will learn from you - but I will not give you the pleasure of my friendship or my smile anymore and I hope you get your toxic claws out of my beloved family as well, you Medusa. #isallifthisreallyjustme #shadowworksucks #drinkinghelps #shadowwork #shadowwoekrocks #empowered #makingrealchangesfromunrealplaces posts) . . . #theconsciousparent #thecontinuumconcept #ppd #ittakesavillage #postpartum #ppp #postpartumdepression #sadmama #strugglingmama #momswhohurt #momswhofeel #empoweringParen (at Fairfield, Iowa)

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My beautiful light. Her essence is infinite ✨ I'm so thankful to have my tools, my lessons, my core strength. I am connected to everything, connected to every thing else, always. Our ancestors are live in us with all of their lessons and loves and pains. Let's forgive each other 🌞🌚🌙⭐️💥⛈🌤⚡️☀️✨💦💦🐚🍄🌰🌺 #theconsciousparent #thecontinuumconcept #ppd #ittakesavillage #postpartum #ppp #postpartumdepression #sadmama #strugglingmama #momswhohurt #momswhofeel #empoweringParenthood #postpartumanxiety #ppa #loveyourself #theartofslowliving #wildandfree #littleandbrave #oureverydaymoments #fiercelittleones #childhoodunplugged #letthembelittle #ThoughtfulJane #EmmelineJane #theCreatorClass #gratefulmama #motherhoodbliss #motherhoodrising #theartofmotherhood (at Fairfield, Iowa)

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The heart of my heart 😍😍😍 #theconsciousparent #thecontinuumconcept #ppd #ittakesavillage #postpartum #ppp #postpartumdepression #sadmama #strugglingmama #momswhohurt #momswhofeel #empoweringParenthood #postpartumanxiety #ppa #loveyourself #theartofslowliving #wildandfree #littleandbrave #oureverydaymoments #fiercelittleones #childhoodunplugged #letthembelittle #ThoughtfulJane #EmmelineJane #theCreatorClass #gratefulmama #motherhoodbliss #motherhoodrising #theartofmotherhood

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New coffee/tea mug. Looks like lots of beautiful influences lately. Loving the loved on, lost, and broken things lately. Intentional, protecting, powerful - feeling rooted in the earth and excited to be alive, feeling in tune with feminine and masculine energies, feeling like I know who I am, where I've been, and where I am going, feeling in love with everything from the microbial bases of life to the cosmic dust I the stars and far off galaxies, feeling like I finally have something worthy to say, my voice is worthy of being heard, feeling the places I seek and the things I long to see are all around me: feeling understood. Feeling understanding, and compassionate, on a microscopic level. . . Thankful for the lessons and the stories 😍😍😍 . . . #theconsciousparent #thecontinuumconcept #ittakesavillage #postpartum #strugglingmama #momswhohurt #momswhofeel #empoweringParenthood #postpartumanxiety #loveyourself #theartofslowliving #gratefulmama #motherhoodrising #rawmotherhood #tea #teareasons #selfcare #selflove #beyourownfriend #thehangedman #tarot #tarotreasons #thefoolsjourney #foolsjourney #mamawitch #chaoswitch #chaosreasons #unityconsciousness #selfcarerituals #ritualreboot (at Fairfield, Iowa)

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Over the last couple months, Emmy has been maturing really quick... she is really starting to understand how to help and when playing is the most possible fun (most of the time)... she's gotten more and more excited about seeing papa when he gets home and getting to cuddle with him and play together. It's an insanely humbling experience. While the last 18 months has been spiritually, physically, and emotionally draining, I'm still not ready for her to be "free" of me. I'm overwhelmed with gratitude and wonder when she squeaks squeals and chases her papa and yodel all over the house. And even though though I get frustrated when I haven't taken a minute all day to rejuvenate or appreciate myself, a part of my hearts tugs and grieves for that little baby who always wanted only mama. It's been a serious honor and pleasure watching this little beautiful soul and precious lady grow up and into herself 😭😭🙏🏾🙏🏾😊💖 I'm lucky to know you, #EmmelineJane, and don't forget your #playfulheart. Your joyful spirit will thank you for remembering to notice your many many beautiful lights💖💪🏾✨🌸💯 #theconsciousparent #thecontinuumconcept #ppd #ittakesavillage #postpartum #ppp #postpartumdepression #sadmama #strugglingmama #momswhohurt #momswhofeel #empoweringParenthood #postpartumanxiety #ppa #loveyourself #theartofslowliving #wildandfree #littleandbrave #oureverydaymoments #fiercelittleones #childhoodunplugged #letthembelittle #ThoughtfulJane #EmmelineJane #theCreatorClass #gratefulmama #motherhoodbliss #motherhoodrising #theartofmotherhood (at Fairfield, Iowa)

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She's growing up right before my eyes just like you all said 😭😭😭 what do I do?????? Loving this beautiful soul so so much... asleep at 8:00pm 😳😳😳💤💤💤😴😴😴 me too I hope!!! 😍😍😍 #theconsciousparent #thecontinuumconcept #ppd #ittakesavillage #postpartum #ppp #postpartumdepression #sadmama #strugglingmama #momswhohurt #momswhofeel #empoweringParenthood #postpartumanxiety #ppa #loveyourself #theartofslowliving #wildandfree #littleandbrave #oureverydaymoments #fiercelittleones #childhoodunplugged #letthembelittle #ThoughtfulJane #EmmelinJsne #theCreatorClass #gratefulmama #motherhoodbliss #motherhoodrising #theartofmotherhood (at Fairfield, Iowa)

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This girl 😍😍😍 #theconsciousparent #thecontinuumconcept #ppd #ittakesavillage #postpartum #ppp #postpartumdepression #sadmama #strugglingmama #momswhohurt #momswhofeel #empoweringParenthood #postpartumanxiety #ppa #loveyourself #theartofslowliving #wildandfree #littleandbrave #oureverydaymoments #fiercelittleones #childhoodunplugged #letthembelittle #ThoughtfulJane #EmmelinJsne #theCreatorClass #gratefulmama #motherhoodbliss #motherhoodrising #theartofmotherhood (at Fairfield, Iowa)

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(Continued from previous post) This article sums up my perspective on parenting. Doing our best in what feels most right and natural for us. * http://www.coachingforwholeness.com/blog/is-this-really-possible-one-familys-experience-of-natural-parenting * This one is good for establishing firm and gentle boundaries. • http://www.coachingforwholeness.com/blog/the-key-to-well-behaved-children-who-listen-to-you-while-fully-respecting-them • This is a great resource for finding ways to supplement your child's diet (and yours!) with healthy immune boosting nutrition. It has some antivaxx stuff on there, but try not to let it bother you and just read the other stuff. Combined efforts for us!!! * http://www.safbaby.com/boosting-babys-and-toddlers-immune-system-naturally/ * Couldn't find an article but this book is great for older kids or building the foundation to that. * https://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/1476739544/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?qid=1427816938&sr=8-1&keywords=keep+calm+and+parent+on&dpPl=1&dpID=51DrMbjGwgL&ref=plSrch&pi=AC_SY200_QL40 * This has some great tips for working with ourselves to build more self compassion. PRO TIP; self compassion is a SURVIVAL mechanism in parenthood. • http://www.creativechild.com/articles/view/conscious-parent-tip-cultivating-self-compassion/1#page_title • My 18 month old #EmmelineJane LOVES helping me. Even if she is making a mess... "thank you for your help! Can you put x/y/z in the garbage/on the table/take it to papa/show the kitty/etc? Anything I can do to "empower" her even when I think she's being "bad," helps her to want to help me, and helps me maintain perspective - being thankful for her spirit and building strength in us both to work better as a team. Good luck all. Sometimes mommy just has to take a break, turn on word party, monster in Paris, or kipper on Netflix, or song of the sea on amazon, or signing time or nursery rhymes on YouTube, and just... #mommyneedsabreak. That's ok. Do it. Make it work for you. I BELIEVE IN YOU AND LOVE YOU! . . . #theconsciousparent #thecontinuumconcept #ppd #ittakesavillage #postpartum #ppp #postpartumdepression #sadmama #strugglingmama #momswhohurt #momswhofeel (at Fairfield, Iowa)