#makingmylifebetter

[lostgirldigitaldiary]

THE PATH IM GONNA PURSUE.

Hi, good morning. life has been a total disaster as my blog page knows lmaoo. but today i had a moment, a connection to my old self. i wanted to be a teacher when i was young. it was what im passionate about. but i never got ahold of it since my family wasn't a big fan of it. that's why it never crossed my mind. but i had time thinking and realizing, it is my true self. it is what i desire.

support or no support im gonna be a teacher, i will be what my heart is screaming to be. im gonna get the life myself wants and need.

i am going to make my dreams come true, i will make it happen.

It's between me and MYSELF & God, and i promise i am going to make it happen.

they might be thinking i am a failure, a disgrace but i am not that to myself. I don't have to prove them wrong that I am not that but I will prove to myself that i am not a failure.

my opinion to myself is what matters, not THEIR opinion.

I GOT THIS, FIGHTING!

xoxo, thelostgirl.

[stormblessed95]

Ok so what I’m gonna say is gonna be v controversial to some people so if I get cancelled I get cancelled:

1. some of y’all are crazy bad at reading people you don’t know. Thinking that anyone in the chopstick situation was for real upset/mad is with peace and love unreal for me. I get that it’s hard to pick up on subtle social cues sometimes when it’s not your literal way of making a living (unfortunately for me it is), but you have got to evaluate a situation and see the material at least a few times if you’re gonna make assumptions abt someone being toxic/abusive.

2. As a 30yo woman in a 10+years relationship I can promise you my dudes, this play fighting is normal. In fact some of us enjoy it. Some of us get off on being right or being made to submit or being embarrassed in public (consensually ofc). Just because you don’t see your parents playing like that in front of you it doesn’t mean it’s not happening. It just means they aren’t nasty. And no, not every couple is like that and no, I’m not claiming that Jikook are together (actually impo they aren’t) but I’m begging you all to stop making sweeping statements and generalization witnessing one moment that isn’t fairytalesqe and you would consider weird because if Jimin was a girl you’d be on high alert. I promise you it’s as normal as any weird ass flirting can be.

This one I'm way late to, but if you know (and remember) then you know and imma just post it anyway lol sorry @makingmylifebetter for not seeing this when the conversation was happening!

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[the-scrunchymamalife]

So I found this on my computer in one of the folders that their father uploaded from his phone. This was taken May 11th, 2017. This depicts what and how my life has been since majority of Odyns life. I have both kids, always. This was before our major issues came to surface. We have never recovered since. I have never had a picture taken of me/us where I have not taken it myself. I was very surprised to have found this, though it doesn't change anything, I'm happy to have this one picture of my life. #momlife #athena #odyn #mylife #thepasthurts #singlemom #icandothis #makingmylifebetter

[lookalivelove]

There is NO REASON

Okay, so I am writing my paper I will do some of my husband’s work for him I will go to work tonight Maybe I will go for a jog tonight or tomorrow

Tomorrow I have my job interview I have my suit and paperwork all ready I have thought about the interview questions It will happen or not happen, whatever

Right now I am going to just write this paper and drink a cup of water

[lookalivelove]

I have

Not smoked in 12 days Gone to yoga every day for four days in a row Kept up on everything kinda Bought and eaten fruits and veggies Went to church last week, going today So, like, I'm doing it, right?

[lookalivelove]

Today was

Stupid, garbage day. But I went to yoga I didn't smoke Tomorrow is scary

[lookalivelove]

I did not smoke

I had a job interview. I went into the city. I got dressed. I did it again today, friends

[lookalivelove]

Welp!!!!

I think things are looking up!! Still hard but I finally know my work is paying off!!!!

[lookalivelove]

Okay this day

Was muuuuuch better But still scary Scary forever Or at least for the next two weeks I ate all the food in the house but I don't care fuck that not my number one concern bro I went to yoga I didn't smoke I'm doing homework It's fine just fine baby

[lookalivelove]

Today so far

Is still scary, but I am getting it done bro

[lookalivelove]

I am making my life better

Three days no smokes Organized my closet Did my homework Helped husband with his homework Have a job interview tomorrow refuse to be scared