#makes me want to be 16 againnn

[ducavalentinos]

Listening to Avon makes so soo nostalgic, it brings a lot of good memories.

[awakenedevildays]

「quitting cigarettes and picnics」 Art Donaldson x F!reader

you can read the other parts here!

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"no smoking" you take the cigarette from his hand just as he is about to light it with the lighter, you sit up on the picnic blanket and his head falls against the grass in frustration.

"Not againnn" he whines, his hand still in the position it was when he still had the cigarette between the fingers. 

"it's bad for your health" you say a stern tone, trying to come across as assertive, you've been trying to get him to stop smoking for some time now, you place the cigarette back in the packet carefully.

"Please, I smoked only four the whole week!" he reaches for the packet again but you put it in the back pocket of your jeans 

"And I'm really proud of you, but let's keep it that way and also, tennis players don't smoke".

 "Federer actually doe-".

"I don't care what other tennis players do" you interrupt him and Art laughs out loud as you slap his shoulder lightly. 

"I'm serious Art, smoking is a horrible addiction, and it's not good for your health at all" he looks at you from his lying position, an affectionate smile on his face as you show your concern for his health. 

His hand reaches for yours and bring it to his lips to kiss it "It's hard to stop, I've been doing it since I was 16, give me some time I promise I'll stop, for you" his hands takes yours over his heart.

The feel of his lips against you your hand calms you down a little, it's a small and simple gesture, but it means a lot. Hearing him say that he wants to stop smoking for you makes your heart flutter. You look into his eyes and see sincerity there, "I don't want you to stop for me, I want you to do it for yourself" you say in a serious tone, your eyes locking with his to emphasize the importance of this decision.

"Look, if you give me one last cigarette I'll never smoke again" his pinky is out for you to take and you look skeptical at him "you promise?" you ask.

"I swear."

You study his face, your eyes looking him over for any sign of dishonesty, after a moment of searching, you see nothing but honesty in his expression. You link pinkies with him and chuckle "okay, but only because you pinky promised" you joke while grabbing the packet out your pocket and hand him the cigarette, a few moments later the cigarette is lit between his lips and he inhales from it. 

You watch him intently, the way his lips wraps around the cigarette, the way his chest puffs up as he inhales the smoke, taking in every detail of this moment "I gotta say... you look really hot right now" you admit and Art rests his back against the tree you two are resting under, the sun is warm and the breeze is so pleasing on the skin, Stanford's park in spring is so beautiful, he is so beautiful.

A slight smile forms on his lips as he takes in another drag from his cigarette. He looks over to you and whispers playfully "not as hot as you" his eyes locks with yours, his focus solely on you and the way your eyes sparkle in the sunlight. He lifts his hand and gently brushes a stray strand of hair out of your face, his touch sending a shiver down your spine.

He holds in the smoke for a few seconds before blowing it out in the opposite direction, away from your face. He takes another drag from the cigarette, savoring the taste and the feeling of the smoke filling his lungs one last time. He lets out a small chuckle and looks back at you, a playful glint in his eyes. "You really think I'm hot when I smoke?" he teases, his voice low and husky as he holds the cigarette between his fingers, you nod. 

"Maybe I shouldn't stop then" your brows furrows slightly as you try to maintain a serious expression, but his teasing words and his cheeky smile make it difficult to keep a straight face. You pretend to consider his proposal, to be deep in thought before responding with a playful tone "hmm... I guess you have a point there" you say with a wry smile as you try to keep up the facade of seriousness, "but I think you would be hotter if you did what I ask" Art scoffs.

"always so bossy".

You chuckle softly, "what can I say? I like taking charge" you reach out and grab his hand, lacing your fingers with his, your thumb gently caressing the back of his hand. A mischievous smile forming on his lips. 

"Not always though" he answers and you blush. He grins even wider when he sees your red cheeks, relishing in the fact that he can have such a strong effect on you with just a few words. "aww, did I make you blush? " he teases, gently pinching your cheek, you swat his hand away and he realizes he totally forgot the cigarette he has in his other hand.

He chuckles with you and takes a final drag from the almost finished cigarette before extinguishing it on the grass, making sure it is completely out, he grabs your wrist to get you near him "alright, no more smoking, I promise" he says with a smile before leaning in "I think I deserve a kiss" but you push him by his chest. 

"No kissing". 

He pouts dramatically, his lips sticking out in a playful show of disappointment "aw, cmon, just a little kiss?" he pleads, trying to coax you into giving in to his charms, but you're not budging. 

You hold firm, shaking your head with a smile and chuckle "nice try, but nope, I hate tasting the tabacco when we kiss". 

He lets out a long, dramatic sigh and feigns a wounded expression, "oh, that's right" he says, his shoulders sagging as he looks up at you with a pitiful look, "but what about just a peck on the cheek, huh?" he reaches out and pokes your side, you yelp "just a little kiss, I'm desperate for your affection" he says with a playful grin, "don't leave a man hanging".  

You sigh and lean in to kiss his cheek softly, "thank you" you whisper and he smiles lovingly at you, you feel his hand slip into your back pocket, placing the cigarettes there, it's a small gesture, but it means a lot. A sense of trust and comfort washes over you as you look up into his eyes, the love and admiration you have for him clear as day. You smile and lay next to him, your head on his chest as you close your eyes, the birds chirping are bullying you to sleep and you hug his waist tightly. 

As he holds you in his embrace, his fingers caress your back, lulling you into a state of contentment and relaxation. For a moment you're both quiet, just enjoying each other's company in the warm summer air, the gentle rustling of leaves and the sound of the other students nearby creating a peaceful soundtrack to the scene. He shifts slightly, pulling you closer to him as he rests his chin on top of your head.

"We should get up, we don't want to be waken up by the sprinklers... again" you mumble and Art laughs at the memory.

"You're right, we definitely don't want that" he says with a grin, he runs his hand down your side to give your hip a squeeze and gives you one last lingering kiss on the top of your head before reluctantly letting go of you, sitting up straight. With a content sigh, he stretches his arms above his head before getting up on his feet, you're up on yours seconds later.

After folding the blanket to put it in Art's backpack his hand takes yours "wanna sleep in my room tonight? we could order take out and watch a movie" he suggests and you nod happily "sounds good" you yawn and rest your head on his shoulder as he guides you towards his room. 

"Brush your teeth first, I wanna kiss you" you mumble and Art laugh softly 'always so bossy' he thinks as he looks down at you lovingly. 

"yes m'am". 

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I can't stop writing and posting lol, but he would stop smoking for you and I will die on that hill.

Do not copy or repost.

[cupidlovesastro]

hiii againnn, i completely forgot about the house and degrees hahaha

my big 3:

libra sun in 6th 6°

aqua moon in 10th 16°

taurus rising 2°

thanks in advance 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻 and sorry for the other ask :)))

hiiiii, yes i saw your other ask, it’s totally okay! i will answer this one !

sun in libra can mean you have traits like keeping peace and harmony, avoiding conflict, caring about beauty, aesthetics, being social, and wanting balance. on the other hand, some might see you as “shallow” or “flakey” even if your not. you enjoy socializing with people, even if your not an extrovert, you just enjoy talking. you also could be a people pleaser. like never saying no, and caring a lot about what others think. you have this in the 6th house which means you find usefulness in helping or being there for others. you also might enjoy helping people with their make up and clothes. skin care could be something you prioritize, as well as a make up routine. you could be a very logical thinker and be into social work, or being in the justice system. with these being in the 6th degree, it amplifies your need for routines, and usefulness. if you have pets you probably have a hard time saying no to them, and you might have a routine that you do with them. like feeding schedule, playtime, bathing, etc !

moon in aquarius means your emotions can be thought through , deep, rationalized, unpredictable, and misunderstood. things that could both you are things like humanity, society, how the world is changing, the earth, your friends, and feeling like an outcast. you value your individuality, and you enjoy being different, but not to the point that your are alienated. you also could have emotions that are unpredictable and uncomfortable for you to feel. so sometimes you care, other times you don’t, but a lot of times your emotions are hard to feel. you often think through them instead of feeling them. you also could get really upset thinking about society and how it’s changing, or just all the issues in it. you have this in the 10th house meaning you could struggle with this aspect of yourself. it’s an area where you need to have more discipline or need to discipline yourself less for feeling them. you could also have a distant or absent father figure in your life. your future career could involve social work or doing things that help an entire community of people. you also have a high chance of being pretty famous and liked by people! 10th house represents fame and public image, and aquarius represents being a humanitarian! so you and your group could be rebels, or go “against” societal norms. you could also get social media famous or become an influencer through social media! you have these in the 16th degree, which means your emotions are probably amplified due to it being the cancer degree and cancer is ruled by the moon. you have a lot of empathy for the world, for people in general, especially friends. you have a very deep and soft side of you that you might reject sometimes because your scared of all the emotions that flow through you

your ascendant is in taurus which means you might have a thicker build. you could have wide set eyes, longer nose bridge, a medium/ big sized nose, good collar bone and neck structure, nice voice. softer features, feminine features, and you also care a lot about your looks and how you present yourself to people. you enjoy being lazy, and wearing comfortable clothes, but you will dress your best when you have to. you also could like perfumes/ colognes, showers, skin care, good meals, soft blankets, etc. things that really feed your senses. you have this in the 2nd degree so it just emphasizes your taurus feature/ behavior. you could be more reserved, and love to relax a lot

i hope this helps ! i had to kind of rush these so i’m sorry if something is typed wrong or didn’t make sense. feel free to ask me questions🩷

[myguiltypleasuresmanifested]

Tyler and Marilyn Sorry but what the actual fuckkk?

Listen... This shit... was weird. and you CANNT tell me I'm the only one who sees it.

So Tyler is meant to be 16 in this right? Cool. Let me take you through the video.

CLIP ONE

"Tyler HONEY, make MAMA happy?"

Dude why? Why use MAMA when it's tied to sexual kink...I...

CLIP TWO

"Tyler will do anything for me"

....ummm what's up with the innuendos?? But okay okay...I'm overthinking. I'ma let it slide, it's all good.

CLIP THREEE

wHy the actUAL FucKK are your hands all over his face and chest? It's the way she does it too!! like she's COMFORTABLE putting her hands on him. Like she OWNS him. Like this is how they ALWAYS are. Like this is NORMAL.

CLIP FOURRRR

BARFF ewwww stop touching his hand like that ewww but okay okay you're trying to get the plant poison on him whatever.

Why are you taking your goddamn time STROKING his hand like that?

It's like she's ENJOYINGG it and I cant- throws up all over keyboard

CLIPP FIVEEE

AGAINNN with the FACE STROKING BITCH WHYYY

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, MY PERSONAL FAVORITE; CLIP SIXXXX

Is he.... chained up....and NAKED?!

a 16 year old BOYY... chained up and naked... in front of a grown ass woman...oh god it's happening again... I - throws up all over keyboard again

Listen.... I got weird vibes from them okay.... Like the whole thing is set up in a way that makes SAing him sooo easy.

No free will

Needs a master

Practically a slave

Does everything she want and can't say no to her

She's very comfortable putting her hands on him

She doesn't see him as a person, only as a tool. Not to mention her weird ass family abuse and see outcasts as less than and not deserving of any basic human rights.

Had him tied up naked in her cave????

My poor baby Tyler :(

Honestly If I was Wednesday and I found out the boy I liked/loved was abused, groomed, brainwashed, targeted, abandoned, tortured and possibly SAed, I wouldn't have left him alone. I would've made it my personal fucking mission to put Marilyn in the fucking grave that bitch.

ugh.

I'm done.

I hate this.

[jennyandvastraflint]

3,4,6,8,15 & 16 for the Doctor Who ask game!

Hehe, thank you for the ask!

3. Who is your favourite Doctor? Why?

My favourite is 13! She's just so... on the one hand quite optimistic and hopeful, on the other so terrible at communicating (I like that in a woman apparently) and broody, and she gets so much trauma, my poor skrunkly. I have a particular soft spot for her because her era made me feel properly represented a lot. Also side note, I adore her costume. But 13 is the one I also imagine in my head when I say "the Doctor". (with 12 coming close as well)

4. Who is your least favourite Doctor? Why?

Only counting those I saw, I don't particularly like Four, but the ones I enjoy least are generally Ten and Eleven. (This is gonna piss some people off) I'm trying to figure out which I like less, but it depends on my mood. Ten because I found Series 2 annoying to watch (I am at best neutral towards TenRose, don't really care and find it very annoying at worst), and Ten's treatment of Martha makes me want to bang his head against a wall. Also, he yells soooo much and I get it blah, but urgh it annoys me a lot. (Me during The Martian Invasion of Planetoid 50: Shut up Ten 🙄)

For Eleven, I think my quarrels are with some of the writing, but also Matt Smith gives me the creeps. I again don't like him shouting because uhhhh, idk men shouting is really, ready uncomfortable. I think his characterisation fell apart a bit after the Ponds left...

I feel like I have more textual things to point to with Ten (well there's SA scenes as a "joke" with both and in 12s era which I generally hate), and with Eleven it comes down to me just being creeped out by Matt Smith for no reason I can really point out.

6. NuWho or Classic Who? Why?

NuWho for the simple reason of I've actually watched all of it and it's more approachable to me (it engages my at times hyperactive brain better) plus all my favourite beloveds are from NuWho. I do hope to watch at least a few episodes of each Doctor (or companion actually) at some point!!! So far I have the very first ep, Doctor Who and the Silurians, the Infernoverse story, most of Sarah Jane, and most of Ace.

8. Favourite outfit of the Doctor's? Why?

Thirteen, definitely. I love the style she wears (recommend the video on her costume with Ray Holman!). From the wide trousers to the boots to the shirt (rainbow hellooo!), to her EARRING!!!! I'm in love with the earring!

15. What is your favourite companion outfit and why?

Uhhh... Instinctively said Yaz's PotD one! I actually have a vaguely similar yellow jacket! That being said, while I'm not a fan of Clara, her wardrobe is to die for (specifically thinking of the Under the Lake/Before the Flood outfit... I like yellow, HU XD)

16. Who's your favourite Doctor/Companion duo?

Oh, I'm torn between Thirteen & Yaz and Twelve & Bill. Am I allowed a double answer? 😂 I love Thirteen and Yaz (as Thasmin or outside of that) for the way they just immediately clicked and are so on one wavelength a few episodes in (think "Couldn't you reverse the polarity or something?" "Yasmin Khan, you speak my language."), and just their entire dynamic.

And Bill and Twelve are just soooo grandpa and granddaughter and it's so much fun (Bill deserves so much more), and Bill calling him out on his bullshit? Her calling him a penguin with his arse on fire? Delicious. (S10 was also by far Twelve's strongest season)

So yeah. I can't decide between those two.

I hope you are satisfied with these answers, and thank you for the ask againnn

[suckmybigtoeoikawa]

I LOVE YOUR ENERGY WTF,, all of your writing is top tier omg,, i was wondering if i could request suna, semi, tendou, akaashi, and futakuchi w/ a short s/o who has like a tiny waist, small boobs, etc. except their butt is big?? like their petite and then bam big butt and wide hips?? does this even make sense?? thank you for reading this <33

Girll yessssss, I’m jealous I wish my body was like that, god daum 👴🏾

AND THANK YOU FOR GASSING ME UPP OMG 🤪👊🏾

Suna

🍃: he likes to lay on you

🍃: ENOUGH SAID

🍃: Suna is a ass man

🍃: your figure often has him confused in a good way, he likes how different you body is compared to the other girls

🍃: he’s the type to hug you while your staring and he’s sitting and he grabs you ass

🍃: he also may lay on your chest and on maybe on you butt

🍃: you guys also take a lot of selfies so yk those selfies where he holds onto your ass, yeah a lot of those

🍃: also the type to put his hands in your shirt

******

3:16 pm

You and Suna have been staying at each other’s houses back to back. This time you were at his house. I imagine that his bed is very comfy so you guys don’t wanna leave it and also it’s easy to fall asleep in it.

You usually wear hoodies whenever you come over his house but for some reason this time you were wearing a regular shirt.

“Do you think that that your a robot?” Suna asks

“Ayo what?”

“Like I saw this thing online and it just made me think like... what is I’m real and your not... you know”

“...🧍🏾‍♀️”

After a point less conversation about robots, you guys both started to drift off to sleep.

5:48 pm

You woke up in a sweat, and it was hella hot. You turn over to look at Suna and see him still rested peacefully. You look down and see that his hand was under your shirt and holding your boob.

👁👄👁

You didn’t know what to do but you decided to grab your phone and take a picture. Now whenever you show him he blushes and ask if the next time he can do it again, it’s up to you wether or not you wanna say yes or no 😌

Semi

◻️: I hate to say this so often but Semi is the type to get Jealous

◻️: and lemme just push some more publicity for my stories here 😌

◻️: so when he does get jealous best believe he’s gripping onto your hips 😌

◻️: probably gonna squeeze them to depending on how he be getting

◻️: you might have to shoo him off like

◻️: BACK 🤺 BACK 🤺 BACK I SAY🤺 BACK🤺

◻️: other than that I believe he’s pretty chill

◻️: his favorite part of you is your hips

◻️: he’s gonna use you as his personal heater, blanket, and stuffed animal

◻️: y’all will be watching movies or whatever and he’s gonna hold onto like his life depends on it 😩

*****

“You’re comfy” he says while nuzzling into your neck

“thank you” you say still engaged on the movie

Some more time goes by and at this point you the only one engaged in the movie, Semi is about to fall asleep.

“Sweetheart” he says in his raspy voice (AHHAHAHAHAHAHHHH I JUST GOT BUTTERFLIES)

“yes” you say still watching

“Can you turn over?” He asks

“what?” You say

“I said can you turn around real quick”

You turn to face him, but your body stays facing the the tv

“What do you need?” You ask

“Nooooo” he whines

“I need you to turn all the way around”

“Like do a 360?”

“No just stand up real quick”

You stand up and now your looking down at him

“Okay good now straddle me”

“But i wanna watch the movie” you say

He looks up at you with pleading eyes

“Pleaseeee, you can still watch the movie”

“.........fine” you give in and straddle him

“Is this what you wanted?” You say annoyed

“Yes” you can hear him smiling

He holds onto you with his dear life and starts to fall asleep, while you try to watch the movie almost snapping your neck 😐🔪

Tendou

💋: Simce your short yk, he believes that it’s his responsibility to take you everywhere

He may say stuff like

“Your so cute and Smol🥺😩”

“I wanna put you in my pocket 🥺”

💋: so then he thinks it’s okay to pick you up

💋: he picks you up while your straddling him so he has hands on your ass

💋: and he’s gonna take you everywhere

💋: He so happy that he’s with you

YOU BOOST HIS EGO SOOOO MUCH

💋: Since Tendou is insecure he so glad he has you to come to

💋: HIS BEAUTIFUL GIRLFRIEND 🤪🤪

💋: he’s the type to kiss down your waist to you hips

💋: and then tell you how much he loves your body

——-

Your probably just standing in front of your bathroom mirror changing out of your shirt.

Then as your not paying attention Tendou comes up from behind you and tickles your waist.

“AHH BITCH” you scream and punch him in the lip

“Owwwww” he whines

“Oh I’m sorry 😅”

You walk him over the the toilet and you sit him down as you look over his face, it wasn’t that bad

“I’m sorry againnn” you hug him

“It’s fine”

“Well this would be a great time to talk about your day right?” You say moving away from the hug

“My day was alright I’m glad I got to see you” (literally says it with hearts in his eyes) he coos

“Aww I’m happy to see you too” you smile

“What were you doing?” He asks

“I was just trying on shirts” you responded

He then lifts up your shirt and starts the hood onto your waist

“Don’t ever let someone hurt you..okay” he says while hugging you

“I won’t” you smile while rubbing his head

He kisses you your stomach (This lowkey sounds like a pregnancy story omg), then stands up. At this point he’s looking down at you. He leans in for a kiss and smack your ass.

“Anywho, Do you think Ushi Gushi watches porn?”

Akaashi

🍃: he’s being respectful

🍃: when he looks at you ass he is looking respectfully 😅

Just very, very, very respectfully 😳

🌊: he’s the type to hold onto your hips endearingly yk?

🌊: like he would come up behind you and hug you nothing sexual unless you want it that way 👀

🌊: he’s secretly eyeing people to back away from you

🌊: and if someone talks about you

😐+🔫+👹+🦉= 🚫🧍

🌊: he’s gonna grab his ski mask, his gun, and bokuto and their off

Let’s ride 🔫👹

🌊: he may also rub his hands down your sides and then hug you

🌊: he has 1,000,000,001 ways to hug you 🤪

🌊: and a million and one ways to murk a bitch

🌊: if you ever complain about your lower or upper half of your body he’s gonna come over and hug you and tell you why you should appreciate that part of your body

🌊; he shows a lot of affection through his words and what he says he means

*****

“Baby, I feel like my boobs are small” you whine

He comes over to you and hugs you from behind, now the both of you are looking at yourself in the mirror.

“Don’t say that, your boobs are just right, you also have a beautiful body 🥺”

*********

🌊:he calls your body beautiful, don’t at me 😩

Futakuchi

🧩: he is as smooth as a cucumber 😌

🧩: he probably walks up to you and goes “damn imma smooth dude *cue lightskin lip bite*”

🧩: please beat his ass up 🙂

🧩: he’s gonna enjoy it too

🧩: I feel like when he first saw you he was like all flirty and shit yk

“Hey lemme walk you around the school”

“Uhm okay, thank you”

As soon as you turned around he was like

“GOD DAUM 👴🏾”

🧩: take all his rights away because he will be barking like a dog

🧩: constantly touch you on you ass

🧩: he’s always slapping it to and then on top of it he grips it after

🧩: and that shit hurts but he doesn’t care

🧩: also the type to fake bang you

🧩: ... in public

🧩: .... hard

🧩: like uhm calm down stop right now

🧩: just a horny bastard-

🧩: LEMME STOP IM SO MEAN 🤪🤪

********

You won’t talk to Futakuchi because of what happened in the grocery store today. You and Futakuchi were at the grocery store getting some groceries (ofc).

You were simply just walking and all of a sudden *SLAP* *SLAP*

That slap was so loud, it woke up animals in the lion king ✋🏾 the fact that he slapped both of your cheeks 👴🏾🔫

Everyone was looking in your direction but Futakuchi didn’t care he was looking at some bread

“Wheat bread or White bread?” He asks

Then later when y’all were looking for pasta, you dropped the box and went to pick it up. You did this without thinking that your boyfriend was behind you. Then *SMACK*, it sent you into the shelf a little bit, this dude really had the audacity to grab where he slapped to 😐

Which is the reason why you both are driving home in silence. It’s up to you on whether or not you accept his apology or don’t talk to him for a few days or weeks, all in the end he loves your frame so much 😩.

*********

I’m sorry y’all this took me a while I was busy with school and then I just didn’t feel like writhing but I finished it and I hope you enjoyed it 😩

MASTERLIST

I hope you enjoyed it 🤍 Please Like, comment what you think and follow 🤍 have a great day 🤍

[pixeles]

@Izzy’s Dag-Dag The Artist… Tag

By @morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy​

Tag Tag @poisonedsimmer AGAINNN~ Thanks for the tag I'm glad you include meeee! (◍•ᴗ•◍)✨

~ Rules ~

Show us a rendition of yourself in your own art! Can be anything! Sims render? Random stick figure? Picrew? Go nuts! (Just be sure to tag the artist if you use someone else's picrew!!!!) Tag the blogs you want to know, and don't be a dick that's it! Also, feel free to answer as vague or in-depth as you want. And if you don't want to answer a question for any reason just don't vibe with it! Skip it if you wanna! Also make sure you tag me and use #dagdagtheartisttag so I can see it!!!!!!!!

~Questions~

1.) Do you prefer to be referred to by your name or blog name?

Umm, call me by the blog name or "pix" if you want it to be shorter

2.) Where are you from?

Of this planet <(￣︶￣)>

3.) Do you have pets? 

Yep, a bitter little four-legged furry companion. I love him and my friend does not, it is an unrequited love. He loves to show me his beautiful teeth and fangs every time I'm around him (Please don't get me wrong, I don't mistreat him or anything like that, he's just like that, I won't tell the story)

4.) Tell us about your "dream"

Although traveling is very tiring (yes, I know) I would love to know many places (I already have a mental list lol), to know new cultures! since when you die the only thing you take with you (of course) is what you have lived, what you have experienced, enjoyed, learned in life.

I do not know if it is considered a dream, it is simply something I want to do, but if I do not achieve it, I will simply not feel frustrated

5.) Aside from art, what are your hobbies?

I love playing music, now I am trying to learn to play new instruments, draw, also a few years ago I loved to practice martial arts, they are tough but great! for X reasons I had to leave them, but I hope to get back to them, one day.

6. )Does anyone irl know about your blog?

Nope, a friend knows that I have Tumblr but she has no idea what it is or what it is for.

7.)Do you know anyone from your blog irl?

No...

8.) What are some fun facts about you?

Funny... Well, I am quite a case 😅 (or so they tell me), the truth should be answered by someone who knows me because I would not know how to tell you ... ummm, I could sometimes release some stupid comment that is irrelevant and that people laugh of that (without the intention of being funny). I forget the names of the people and I was embarrassed later yeah I'm a little clueless 😬

9.) What’s your day job?

¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯

10.) Do you have a celebrity look alike?

Mmm ... I'm unique, nobody looks like me 😎✨, HAHAHA just kidding, that I don't know..

11.) What's your aesthetic?

Simple. I like everything. So it may be very varied.

12.) What kind of artist are you?

Art...For art the first thing that comes to mind is drawing.So, those who draw with pencil and paper?

13.) How did you get into your form of art?

I have caught inspiration from other people and their style, things that I see on the internet that catch my attention and I suppose that all that becomes ... something?. I would not know how to define it.

14.) What do you watch/listen/read/anything else while you create?

Normally (if I am very focused) I listen to quiet instrumental solo music as a LoFi for example. But I like almost all genres of music.

15.) What is your favorite of your own creations so far? 

Well I would say that I have no favorites at the moment

16.) How would you describe your art style?

I don't have an artistic style hahaha I catch things from one place to another, I put it all together and that's it. Anything could come out, a vomit with glitter and with beautiful things for example.

17.) What is more satisfying to you coloring or outlining? 

Outline i guess

18.) What meme would you use to describe yourself?

19.) What character from any media form do you most identify with?

Hmmm...I was thinking about this question for a while but I don't know...

20.) If you were on the run, what would you change your name to?

Alex. I have my reasons

21.) Have you ever or do you want to change blog names?

I did it several times, it is difficult for me to choose something

22.) God forbid Tumblr decides to pull a MySpace and lets us have page songs, what song would you choose? 

It would be some instrumental solo song

23.) Oh yeah, I'm still on the MySpace train and I'm starting discourse! Who's your top 8?

Call me stupid but I did not understand this question very well and the truth is, I have not had MySpace, I just found out about the existence of this, so in response to this I will say the ones I like And they seem great to me!!. No order is specific.

🦝Racconium

🌆Magic-bot

🌌Darte77

🗻Poisonedsimmer

🏙️Natalia-Auditore

24.) Did you understand those references or did you have to look them up? (I'm fully away I'm ancient, but are you?)

I still do not understand HAHAHAHA!

25.) One last question; why are you like that?

Dag dag?

Now tag tag!!!

Some of the people I had in mind are already tagged. So...

If you do not agree with this tag you can ignore it completely, it is totally understandable! 😁

@fesim

Good vibes only! ~

[ttheblues]

1 , 4 , 6 , 10 , 12 , 14 , 16 , 21 , 24 , 25 enjoy !;)

Why hello there!✨🦕✨

1. What song makes you feel better?

Shittt, this is so hard😭😭. I would have to say it’s a toss up between I Guess That's Why They Call It the Blues or Give Yourself A Try. Both songs hold good memories to them..

4. What flower would you like to be given?

Defo pink peonies🥺🥺🧠

6. Say three nice things about yourself(three physical and three non-physical)

Fuckkk, right let's start with the easiest the non physical👌🏽

1.I love being able to help people, even if it’s just taking their mind off something small I guess? Is that a good listener? Who knows🙅🏻‍♀️🙅🏻‍♀️. 2. I am not afraid to speak my mind. 3. I can be really creative when I want to be.

Physical:

1. my eyes, only recently I’ve come to love my eye colour! 2. don’t know if this odd, but my fingernails are pretty strong💅🏼. 3. 🍑.

14. Favourite feel-good show?

Againnn, I can’t pick one😭😭. Probably have to be This Country, such an easy and enjoyable watch OR a bit of GBBO 🍰.

16. Compliement the person who sent you this number.

What can I say! You have such a lovely personality § you are so pretty! Also your love for dogs is just🥰(Betsy bless her🐕🐕).

21. If you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be?

Stop being such a moody little fucker⛈

24. What’s something you do to de-stress?

I would literally listen to the rocketman album on repeat with a face mask on👋🏻👋🏻. It’s great.

25. What's the best personal gift someone could give you(playlist, homemade card, etc.)

Okayy, so if someone gave me a list of songs that they’ve personally chosen, that would make my day. I’m also a sucker for photo albums👨🏼‍🎨. Tbh I’m so easy to please, you could find something on the street § I would still cry😟😟.

thank u smm🥰🥰✨

[mazojo]

I was wondering if you had any ideas/headcanons for the kids of the LIs of Love and Legends?

Heyy anon! Yess I love me some head canons of my mainsss which I adore, ill try my best

Saerys

- Okay so they have twins I LOVE TWINS STORYLINES asdghejw, one boy and one girl

- They get Saerys eyes I may have a slight weakness to characters with heterochromatic eyes ;w;

- I think being born from a Demon and human one of them will be full on demon and the other will be more humanoid. Maybe this will cause conflicts due to jealousy? bUT somehow through a twin connection where one is dying or something (the angst tho) the one with the demon powers gets to share some and they conquer the world together??? IDK LET ME DREAM Lol

- MC would totally let them skip school to train and although Saerys would be resilient at first, he would let them because he loves his family and would teach them everything they needed to know to stay safe and protected.

- The girl would probably be kind of mysterious and edgy and the boy more goofy. They would be super competitive between them but protective when it comes to dangers surrounding the other.

- Twins would probably act more like parents than actual MC and Saerys which are just confused half of the time, but they would do anything for their family

- Lots of trips to Chicago, Saerys would be frustrated at how easily they grasp the concept of a smartphone when he still gets scared when the ringtone starts chiming.

August

- They probably would have a biG family, like 6 kids big lololl

- Oldest to youngest their ages would be 21 (boy), 17 (boy), 15 (girl), 10 (girl), 9 (boy) and 5 (girl)

- They would bicker, like a lot. Specially the 17 year old boy and the 15 year old girl who would totally fight for who is the best in combat and both act like alpha’s to the family lol. 

- The boy who is 21 years old would be the protective one, always ensuring his siblings are okay and would totally be the mom friend tm

- 10 and 9 years old would be troublemakers and best friends, boy would be a bit shy but 10 year old girl would be a mischief kween

- 5 year old girl would grow to be the strongest in combat and lead the general army due to constantly wanting to keep up with her brothers and sisters, she would be sassy and have the best comebacks when growing up lol

- August and MC would have playfully fights on who is the best parent and their kids would just sigh and roll their eyes when they start listing all the ways they are better than the other (ending in them being all couple-y lollolol, kind of like in “Anything you can do��)

Altea

- Twin girls againnn asfkhre I am weak okay??

- They would totally swap clothes and pretend to be each other all the time

- They both get magical powers and would try to prove to each other who is the most powerful, only to be interrupted by Altea who would separate them with her magical boss self of course doing this only to prove she is the most powerful one lolol.

- MC and Altea would be such supportive parents tbh, attending all events and cheering their babiesss

- They would be d r a m a t i c and probs extroverted

- Twins would love to visit Chicago and totally find every single excuse for Altea and MC to take them. They love the fact they can lead a double secret life, teens worrying about makeup all day and epic wizards beings in secret tune in to next episode of Hannah Montana loll

Iseul

- Another big oneee, 3 boys and one girl (who would be the eldest) but the boys act like they have to protect her. Girl would be 16 years old while the boys 11, 9 and 8

- Iseul, MC and the kids would have prank competitions all the time ending in full on wars lol

- The kids would love Iseuls family and would be constantly hanging out with queen Isahara, specially the girl, which would make Iseul groan at all the family embarrassing bonding time.

- Probably super sporty family, all belonging to sport clubs in school and rivalry on to who was the best (even though the youngest one was the best by a mile because he got those archery skills from papa)

- Loaaaads of camping trips, if Girl Scouts existed in magical land, they would totally be scouts.

- The 11 year old boy would be player-ish and be on relationships since birth which MC doesn’t really approve off but Isuel be giving his boy high fives.

- 9 year old would totally take on his dads humor and laugh at the most inappropriate situations and walk into dangerous situations all the time because he can be kinda clueless leaving it up to their siblings to rescue him (never a better time to bond than in danger amaright?? lol)

Reiner

- 2 boys that are 1 year apart from each other age wise.

- Oh god Reiner would totally be that dad who makes dad jokes 24/7 and the boys and MC would just groan every-time.

- I imagine the youngest one being super gentleman-ish and the elder a troublemaker

- When it comes down to who would take Reiners position the older brother would totally give his place to his brother and go live in Chicago to lead a seemingly normal life.

- MC would be super jealous of who they date because who dares touch her bois, break their heart and ill break you, while Reiner would just calm her down with terrible puns that end up cracking a smile on her.

- They would be opposites but they got each others backs, they complement each other

Helena

- Helena and MC would have one girl and one boy that are 5 years apart from one another, the girl being the eldest.

- They would fight allll the time and would so have magical powers, kind of like a the incredibles Violet and Dash relationship.

- The girl would totally go through her emo face while the boy would embarrass her in public which would end up in bickering 

- Helena would be protective m o m while MC would be lost half of the time, she would totally read a parenting book.

- Oh god but it would totally be Dash and Violet dynamic

- Also like the boy would be really curious and nosey, snooping through her stuff and teasing her for her crushes, earning a magic blast and starting small fights Helena stops with a swish of her hand.

- Although they fight all the time, they genuinely care about the other and secretly help each other out when the other is in trouble (like if the boy is being bullied and the girl notices, she would threaten the bullies making the best imitation Helena, or if the girl fell asleep in the living room, the boy would take her to her room and made sure she rested).

Alain

- They have one girl and she is Alain’s and MC’s literal world

- She would be nerdy and shy, probably smart and hates conflict

- She would be super pretty and get tons of guys after her but would be kinda clueless when it comes to love, would probably end up falling with the least expected person. Also as a side note Alain would probably threaten every boy that enters the house while MC chuckles at his jealousy over 13 year old boys

- MC and Alain would totally read bedtime stories up until she has to talk with them about how 10 years old do not need their parents reading to them anymore lol

- Alain would totally leave embarrassing little notes in her lunchbox she pretends to be annoyed about but secretly would keep because his dad is the best

- Would love going to Chicago and would laugh with MC at how clueless her dad looked and jumped at every sign of danger (which basically meant every car that passed by)

AhhHhhH I actually got so excited writing these and hopefully they give us some kids seasons soonnn

[insert-a-suitable-gay-username]

dear, her next love.

Hello. Sana.. alagaan mo si joyce. Sobrang swerte mo kapag nakuha mo na loob niyan, and never ever give up on her. Minahal ko din ng sobra yang mokong yan hahaha pero i guess it’s time to let go. So ipapaubaya ko na yung nararamdaman ko para sakanya, please take time to read this one by one to understand her more. (and to hurt her less.. please?)

1. Siguro, madami kayong problema na madadaanan and minsan mahirap i-open up si joyce. Please, never ever make the same mistakes as i did na lagi siya pinipilit mag open okay? It will take time pero she would eventually open up din kahit bit by bit.

2. Si joyce.. she’s amazing. Overthinker nga lang, kaya always make sure na she’s enough. More than enough to be honest.

3. Make sure to give her/or show her little things that would cheer her up or make her happy kahit walang occasion, maaappreciate niya yun sobra.

4. Speaking of appreciation, di siya masyado marunong magbigay ng reaction kapag may binibigay sakanya pero deep inside naaappreciate naman niya talaga kaya dont you worry brad/besshy, natutuwa talaga yun.

5. I loved her, because she has a very kind heart. May malaki siyang soft spot para sa mga nakakatanda and sa mga bata, (kahit awkward siya minsan sa mga bata, gusto niya talaga sila deep inside heh pag hindi annoying) lalo na sa mga nasa lansangan.

6. Talented din siya oh diba what a catch! haha, kahit sinasabi niyang hindi. Gumagaling na siya sa pag drawing and oil pastel, you should see her works ang ganda na talaga. tapos, marunong pa siya magpiano what even, di nga abot ng kamay ko yung ibang keys samantalang sakanya ang effortless lang wow. Ang bilis pa niya matuto. I’m super amazed kapag nagsesend siya saakin ng recordings of her playing, titirisin kita kapag di mo naappreciate yang mga ipagsesend niya sayo ha nako ka, may araw ka din sakin.. charot.

7. She has a very beautiful voice, hindi ko lang alam kung bakit di siya naniniwala na magaling din naman siya kumanta (minsan hehehe joke) kaya mission ko para sayo, please try your best na ipafeel sakanya na magaling siya, and that her voice is music to your ears okay? Kung di siya music sa tenga mo aba'y sisipain din naman kita pagkatapos sapakin, no big deal. char againnn. Maybe.

8. Magaling siya mag lead kapag siya na ang leader, tapos she would really put effort sa mga gagawin (kahit as a normal group member lang din) Andami ko nang times na nakikita na maeffort siya pagdating sa mga ganun, lalo na pag affected yung grades niya. Kahit nga sa mga projects niya ang effort din niyan eh, galing galing talaga hehe. It shows na kaya din niya gampanan mga responsibilities niya even if she’s sooooo lazy sometimes. She’d still make sure na ginawa niya lahat ng tama.

9. Did i ever mention na artistic siya? if oo, then oh well.. i’m gonna mention it again anyways. Oo, artistic siya. Ang galing din ng pagcalligraphy niya huhu.

10. Marunong siya magskateboard, tas yung ibang tricks din. Damn. Damn talaga.

11. Magaling siya mag acting, like shet??? Have you seen her act?! Nakaka bilib siya. Hands down. Para kang nanonood ng ibang tao kapag nag aact siya. Also, sumali yan sa contest ng sabayang pagbigkas sa pasig. Don’t me. Galing niya non, tapos ang effort niya sa lahat ng practices niya.

12. Magaling magbasketball, may pagka sporty yan eh hahaha. Get you a girl who could shoot!

13. Mahusay sa filipino, lalo na kapag nagfform ng constructed sentences. She really does know how to clearly express her thoughts beautifully.

14. She likes cute stuff. Lalo na yung mga design na aesthetic pero cute, mga tumblr-ish style with small cartoons or designs. Oh, and if i were you, make sure na kapag nasa sm ka daan ka lang sa stationary dep. (or any store with stationary) buy her any cute thing na useful tas ibigay mo lang. Her smile after receiving it will really brighten your day because trust me, it worked for me. Sobrang worth it.

15. Sobrang caring niya, and thoughtful. May ibang times nga na kapag naggive up na ako sa isang project, siya na mismo yung gumagawa eh. Pero syempre i never took it for granted, kaya ikaw din. Never. Take. Her. For. Granted. She deserves the best arayt?

16. She lovesss dogs. Esp golden retrievers and pugs, send her pics of them every once in a while yeah?

17. She hates ketchup and extravagant food. She prefers food na comfortable para sakanya na kainin and yung simple lang. Take her somewhere na di niyo pa napupuntahan, she likes adventures instead of being cooped up lang sa isang room.

18. She has a vast knowledge about OPM songs, hilig nga din niya dun eh. Pero depende din naman yun sa mood niya, minsan naaapektuhan ng kanta yung mood niya tas nadadama na niya talaga hahaha.

19. Straightforward siya, sobra. Ipopoint out lang naman niya kapag may something na mali or iba sayo, and it’s for your sake din. (i actually got angry lagi dati pero ngayon ko lang talaga narealize na she was doing it for me)

21. Mahilig kumuha ng pictures, lalo na kapag nature. She has nice shots, pwede na mag photographer char

22. Hyper and halipaparot, minsan lonely kaya don’t ever leave her alone.

23. Remind her to always drink water and eat at the right time, minsan nakakalimutan niya kasi uminom ng tubig eh.. pero i trust na you’ll take care of her.

24. Tinatago niya minsan (or lagi..) kapag may sakit siya, alagaan mo nalang siya in subtle ways and don’t overdo it. Magugulat ka nalang na ang init na pala niya o masakit na yung ulo.

25. Conscious yan sa cheeks niya, kasi feeling niya yun lang yung tumataba sakanya. Kaya ayun, di na tuloy kumakain masyado hahaha. She’s still beautiful kahit medj chubby na cheeks niya, sabihin mo yan lagi kasi it’s true.

26. Mahilig siyang magpalibre wahaha pero minsan nahihiya lang o kaya nagpapabebe pa, nag iipon kasi lagi yan eh hmp.

27. Kapag matagal na kayo, minsan nawawala siya sa mood makipag usap. And please respect that nalang, lalo na’t baka may problema siya or nag ooverthink. Paalalahanin mo lang na andyan ka lang lagi para sakanya.

28. Okay oh god. Pinipigilan ko na luha ko at this point. Siguro alam mo naman kung gano ko siya minahal kaya please.. PLEASE. paki ingatan.

29. Funny, witty, and charming siya. like how????

30. Eto. Sobrang importante. Brad, (or besshy whatevs u want to be called) Siguro alam mo naman na din diba? She is so beautiful. You’re doing a good job whenever you remind her she’s beautiful. Panlabas nga niya e, kay ganda na. What more pa sa loob? Whenever bagong gising siya, puro muta, tulo laway man o magulo ang buhok, beautiful. Kapag tumatawa siya nang sobra, na yung tipong minsan tumataas yung boses niya, beautiful. Kapag nanghahampas siya o nananakit kasi natutuwa o nahihiya, beautiful. Kapag nagtatago yan kasi umiiyak or pinipigilan umiyak, beautiful. Kapag tinanggal na niya glasses niya, beautiful. Kapag she’s drenched from the rain, adorably beautiful. Kapag haggard na haggard siya after walking long distances tapos mainit, still..beautiful. Kapag nag i love you na yan sayo.. everything would feel right. She’s breathtaking, and everything would feel wonderful din. She’s not just a pretty girl, and instead, she is so much more. Keeper yan.

31. Clingy yan. Cute nga eh. Never ever call her annoying, or anything na makakapag overthink sakanya.

32. BTS stan and k-drama lover. Wag maapektuhan kapag masyado na niyang crush oppa niya, ikaw padin naman number one sa puso niya hehe. Also, give her time din kung gusto niya manood or what.

33. Watches anime and reads manga. Nothing to say here.

34. Lagi siyang involved sa mga school activities, gusto niyang magka award talaga. Kaya gagawin niya talaga lahat para makuha yung mga yon. Support her, always.

35. Ipush mo siya sa mga gusto niyang salihan pero takot lang, makakayanan niya yun promise. Basta ipush mo lang ng ipush.

36. Hold her hand. Even if sabihin niyang pasmado siya, then hawakan mo padin. Kiss her on the forehead to let her know that you love her. Make her feel super appreciated.

37. Scratch her back slowly kahit wala pa siyang sinasabi, she loves it. Run your fingers through her hair, and wag kang maaannoy kapag binalik niya kamay mo sa buhok niya after mo tanggalin hehe.

38. Wag na wag mong gagaguhin. Kapag ginago mo yan, hala sige. Lagot ka sa mga kaibigan niyan, lalo na saakin. She’s a very sweet and lovable person, bakit mo gagaguhin?

39. She has her own way of expressing her feelings for you m'kay? Be patient and kind.

40. Marunong siyang umintindi ng tao, lalo na pag kaclose. Observant din yan nukaba, sobrang wise pa. Hindi din yan nagsusugar coat kaya be ready.

41. Lagi mong iparamdam na worth it siya ha? salamat.

42. Complicated siyang tao, pero kahit ganun never give up on her. Try mo intindihin kahit hindi mo talaga maintindihan, try ka lang ng try.

43. Love her hard.

All in all, ayan. Madami ka pang madidiscover sakanya, maybe may mga nabago din sa mga sinabi ko, maybe wala. Gusto ko lang alagaan mo yan kasi sobraaang worth it. To be honest, gustong gusto ko na siya bumalik saakin. Pero kung masaya na talaga siya sayo, then sige. I’m happy that she’s happy na she found someone new. Pasayahin mo lang, treat her like a princess/bestfriend. Be there for her lagi, especially when she needs you. Give her the love that she deserves, kasi she is worth it. You are so so damn lucky alam mo ba yun? Kaya do your best to keep her, Goodluck and cheers! I wish you both the best :)

3:28 am

[kyandice]

14/02

It’s Valentine’s Day and before today i was in Malaysia for a few days and I could only think about the things i could buy for Bryan. Lmao I bought a bag of snacks and chocolates and I was extremely excited before giving it to Bryan. So yay when I got into his room and stuff he started eating those cheese sticks anyways I love their cheese. I forgot what brand that was but I swear that brand has the best cheese in the world. So Bryan also almost finished the box of cheese dips with me he wanted to save like a box for his sister, but well he told me that his sister didn’t like the cheese soooo boohoohoo maybe small kids have slightly different taste buds. So while I was in Malaysia I went to this store and well it was filled with anime stuff and idk kpop stuff. There was like a lot Pokémon stuff to so i decided to fill the Valentine’s Day bag that I’m giving Bryan filled with Pokémon stuff. I really forgot how much I spent on that shop but I bought a Pikachu plush 20-25cm I thinkkkkk I don’t rmbbb maybe smaller lolll. And I also got like a few tiny legendary Pokémon figures they aren’t like real legit figures but i thought it would be kinda cuteee. So I kinda made a box and put it in so it wouldn’t look that awkward scattered around in the bag. There was also this fake Lego Pokémon thing and I decided to buy it for him because it looked kinda cute I don’t think he kinda fixed it buttt :

 So we had decided to Skype each other. Well apparently it’s 15/02 but like I haven’t slept so it’s counted as 14/02. And yea. Around 12am Bryan asked me to do something that I just didn’t want to do so he became angry and I became angry. And then Bryan suddenly cut and ended the call on me so I got angry and I told him that other guys wouldn’t treat me like that. I mean I don’t get angry fast, but when I do I go all destructive I’ll get insensitive to other people’s feelings and I will do anything just to make that person feel down. Also when I get angry, I don’t get angry easily and instead I’ll get angry because it was a built up thing or something. So after he cut the call with me i got angry and then I texted him saying like insensitive stuff to him. 

 But then after I said all those angry stuff to him he said I broke his heart and he said he was the worst boyfriend ever and I started breaking down and started crying. So I realized I was angry and I didn’t mean everything I said but then when it tried to call him again he didn’t pick up. I guess I’m a bitch when I’m angry tbh I don’t deserve anyone. i become mean and I’m a pure asshole when I’m angry I just want to put people down to feel better about myself I’m such a coward

 Edit: this Lego Pokémon thing would prolly be his first Lego toy after like yearssss

 15/02

So I woke up worried and like legit I woke up with my heart thumping real fast cuz I was really worried about Bryan because of ystd night. So apparently I woke up late and by the time I reached Macpherson Mrt, Bryan was already there and then I started tearing up a little cuz I thought he was still upset with me. and well guess what he had a paper bag on his hands and he passed it to me and he said Happy late valentine’s day. Then I started crying.

Like I would always make sure he tells me when he’s back from home so I wouldn’t be so worried about him. And well he told me he was back home, but like actually he lied to me and he went all the way just to shop shoes for my Valentine’s day gift. First of all, I was so touched and like cuz he said that ystd night on skype was a prank and then I felt so bad for saying all the bad stuff to him. so I became like fuckingg guilty and i cried more.

(p.s. we promised each other not to get each other gifts for Valentine’s day cuz it was exam period and I didn’t want him or me to spend time for each other choosing our gifts rather than studying. but like since I was in msia, I might as well buy for Bryan stuff since I wasn’t even studying so like, might as well. but Bryan bought it when he could spend that time studyingggg.)

Anyways I appreciate that a lot and omg I was extremelyy happy and surprised also when he gave it to me. Like, I didn’t even expect ittt. I didn’t even expect any gift since like we also made a compromise not to give each other gifts but oh wellll

 So when we reached the sch library, I could finally see what Bryan bought for me. and to tbvvvvvh the first thing I was looking for was a card, and I was kinda disappointed that there wasn’t a card inside the bag. but when I opened the shoe box there was a card so I immediately brightened up :DDD and like I read the card at the same spot without putting it down like thrice before looking at the shoes. anyways the shoes are like damn nice. okay, i slept with the shoes I’m not even kidding I’m like so in love with my shoes I love black andd pastel pink so much it’s like two of my most favourite colours and it also has my name engraved on in istg the shoes are like so beautiful I cant stop looking at it even after I went back home. BUT THE SHOES ARE FUCKING $100+ LIEK WTF DUUUUDEEEE. FUCK HE CANT SPEND SO MUCH MONEY ON ME AGAIN. FUCK I FEEL DAMN BAD SIAAAAAA

 well after that, since it was still earlyy (arnd 9am?) we decide to just get out of sch library to like go his house againnn. Well we met Cindy on our way to the Mrt and what happened afterward was even funnier. Apparently when we came back we decided to join Cindy and the rest to study at the library, Cindy asked what we did while we were out we said we ate lunch but I forgot what Bryan said but he lied to Cindy, but cuz Cindy saw us outside the mrt she caught Bryan lying and lmao I legit facepalmed cuz hahahah we’re sorta exposed.

 so yeaaa we studied in the library with Cindy and I was studying math while Bryan was studying OC. he asked me a few questions about OC I tried to recall but then a few seconds later I had my hand flicked away again by Bryan.

like okay I’m happy he’s being straightforward with his feelings with me. like if he’s annoyed he’ll show it. AND I really like and appreciate that but sometimes he goes too harsh and I’m like urghhdskjhfldsajhfsdf

 Anyways Cindy and the rest decided to eat dinner and like I thought Bryan was still angry with me so I didn’t join them cuz like I want Bryan to enjoy his meal but oh well. instead of studying while they were eating I took out Bteh’s old phone and went on tinder I had 7 other Bryan matches anyway lmao. I also shopped online and there’s alot of things I want to buy after all my exams are over. and omggggg I want this softball keychain its damn cuteeee it’s like only $2+ with shipping blahblah but yaaaaaassss I wna get ittttt. But right, after that it was like 6:30pm and I have to go home cuz “curfew”. (my parents never mentioned anything like curfew but everytime i step home after7:30 pm I will be like scolded and tadaaaaa urghsdfnbsdf;kjf;kdf)

 16/02

I finally got my contact lensees. yayyyy I can finally wear them to training and I wouldn’t feel as insecure again. people also say that I look uglier without contacts on sooooooo,sighhhh. and sometimes Bryan would joke about me being ugly without contacts and that’s when I get insecure the most. also like at times, he would tell me about how he finds a certain girl pretty on ig and ill get insecure and jealous shit like wtf but yeah. but like, I appreciate he’s being honest too but I do get like sad and insecure when he talk abt how pretty other girls are. like Angeline okay omg I hate it the most when he talks abt fantasizing Angeline I hate that shit. like normally ill just be sad. but like Angeline, I get triggered whenever he talks abt her. but like again I appreciate and like his honesty, he tells me stuff but I also can’t help but feel insecure and sad tbh idk what I want lmao. maybe girls are confusing after all.

 17/02

Bryan started watching pewdiepie play undertale. he was kinda scared too but like I guess undertale is not as scary as five nights of Freddie’s but it tends to scare a person emotionally soooooo lol okay. I’ve asked Bryan to watch Flowey’s boss fight but he didn’t want to cuz he kinda didn’t want spoilers and like wanted to watch it in order. but oh well, in the end, he spent his money on undertale and he didn’t play the game apparently cuz he didn’t found it fun as he watched all the spoilers and now finding it boring with. I asked him to play geno but he also didn’t want to screw to game up. he wanted to start with pacific/neutral but he found it boring so sighhhhh.

 19/02

it was grading today I was vvvv nervousss. it is like legit my grading in 10years. And apparently now is non contact???? contact used to be allowed in sparring for gradings welllll. so I was huhhhh no head kick huhhh and also went like waitttt no contact???? Kim mdm heard me and she like snapped at me saying: yes laa u so long never grading meh? (well I wanted to talk back and said like welll it has been 10years since my last grading, but hahahaha no balls) no beef with kim mdm shes nice, im okay with her but I think she was triggered during that grading day. There was this girl, like I don’t personally know her (ig name aka beaticecwl??????) but she asked kim mdm smthing and idk what kim mdm snapped back but I saw this Beatrice mouthing wtf as she looked away lmaoo. still no beef with her tho I’m totally alright with her.

And then for grading, I made this mistake for my red belt pattern I screwed up like wtf omg I didn’t put my feet close tgt and that Indian judge/referee ( lmao idk what to call him) pointed out my mistake and I was like shittttttt.

after that, i had to sparr with this another girl and then sparr with RAPHAELLLL?????? I was like wtf what this fucking Indian guy doing. even it is like a non contact thing its like wtfff still unfairrr. also after i was done with the whole thing, everyone told me like that indian guy kept looking at me. so much so that he missed joseph doing some fancy kick, i forgot what kick he did but lmao that Indian guy, fking black face, like this means two ways but hahahaha ok.

After grading i just went to bishan library to study with him. it was like a vvv nice library okay next time i wna study with Bryan there.

 20/02

exams are tmr and I know no matter how much I study now, I still will fail lmaoooo sighhhhh. But anyways Bryan and I ended upp shopping at bishan and welppppp we bought lego characters tgttt yayyy. the lego store was like closing down so it had sales .and omg lego characs are fucking cute I cannot I want more of them but what is money :’)

Edit: so our first lego charcater we got tgt was supergirl and superman heheheeeee

 21/02

The first thing I woke up was to remember that it was Justin’s birthday. although like we don’t even talk anymore and I also can’t ignore the fact that Justin hates me,but I still rmb the days when he was a vvvvv good friend of mine and I guess i really appreciated him sooo :’) i wished him hbdae and like well, he didn’t even want a convo with me he just replied: errr okay thanks. oh wellll.

well so im officially done with math exam, i didnt do well i guess, but i couldnt say i did bad either,i did mehhhh, maybe a fail or a boderline pass. idk lmao i hope i pass for math :)))

Also today I saw Xavier in nyp at first I was kinda excited seeing an old classmate so i rushed in and called his name and said hi before even thinking. well i wasat least expecting a fake smile and a hi, but instead he just turned around, saw me, and went like, “oh, ewwww?”. and then at that moment Bryan was also there and i feel so bad like idc if I’m exaggerating but like I felt ugly immediately like wtf Xavier is a piece of shit i wish that he would die lmao. he’s a fucked up fuckboy like wtf he dumped his ex for another girl in poly Xavier should die. so anyways after he said likee “ewwww” I’ve never felt so ugly in my life before like tbh i want to cover my face and just dig a hole and cry in the toilet. im like insecure and the way he Xavier replied me; I just wanted to kill him. i got fucking angry while im feeling also fucking lousy about myself. I wanted to like run to xavier and smack his girlfriend although she did nothing then punch the hell out of xavier. but lmao i have no balls and I rmbered that xavier is some muay thai champion somewhere lmao idc and he has a lot of yaknoooowww friends so i shouldn’t like mess with him and stuff. but at my end ,i was like near to my tears and fuck ive never hated Xavier this much before like what did I seriously do to Xavier back in sec sch.

like back in sec sch, at a point of time when all the boys were making fun of me and stuff I was a little disappointed and upset that Geralyn was still talking and having fun with those boys. like esp Xavier and Christopher. like tbvvvvh i just stopped hanging out with them for awhile cuz like everyone found christopher cute and goodlooking, and chrisopther was making fun of me and stuff.

okay, I’ve never talked about this before and I really don’t want to but I guess I should like just say it. so it was Christopher who started making fun of me. I never knew why but I guess because I dated his brother K and well. maybe they both salty so they want to make my life a living hell. and at first, everyone else was okay with me. and Christopher, being a goodlooking guy, he became popular and well more guy wanted to like click and hang out with him. so to gain more attention Christopher decided to make fun of me more so he can bring me down and make himself look better. and also dianwei, he never had any friends so he had to also make fun of me so he could click with Christopher. I seriously don’t blame them, like they did this to survive school LMAO I BLAME THEM THEY CAN JUST DIE LMAO UNTIL NOW I HOLD GRUDGES. I WAS LITERALLY BULLIED LOL I DONT WANT TO SAY ‘BULLY’ CUZ LIKE FUCK IM SO ANGRY TYPING THIS RN. but yea after the end of sec 4 I just finally asked jashap and euan like: why do the guys in class hate me so much, what did I ever do to them and why are they just so mean to me. Then jashap and euan said like: “ is not I say one ah, the rest of the guys said that they don’t like you cuz you think you cute, but I think it’s a bullshit excuse la. you sometimes think you cute but I think Geralyn worse ley. I only think you cocky in sports but that’s all right cuz you’re really good and I understand if you get a little cocky.” and I srsly think it’s a bullshit excuse also.

I just feel insecure la. like if this wouldn’t happen in sec sch I wouldn’t be so insecure I will be like fucking confident, ill know my worth welllll i know I’m just decent looking i mean like seriously i dont wna tell myself otherwise but i tend to tell myself that im ugly and stuff. nvm i dont even understand myself rn. anyways even when Dianwei, xavier and christopher were making fun of me geralyn,wuli and emilyn always seemed to have fun with those boys and they always hangout and im always felt left out. cuz if i try to like join them christopher ,D and X will always like: eh, can ask her go away. fuck them even after i go away they W,G&E will still talk with the boys and im like nvm.

 And then everytime i try to tell geralyn how i feel, like: eh geralyn im sad and blahblahblah, then she would like brush it off and reply things like: its okay laaa. and ill be like (in my brain: WHAT DO U MEAN ITS OKAY LOLLL) Ookay i cant blame gerlayn. Shes pretty, everyone wants to hangout with her, be her friend. all the guys wants to talk with her and stuff. so i cant really blame her when she has to choose sides like me or the guys. and i know geralyn is a nice girl and she wont just give up on one side. She will like try to make continue being friends with both side. and i think this would one day bring Geralyn to her downfall. Like for geralyn, she must stop being so nice and seriously choose a side she thinks benefit her. she cannot choose 2 conflicting sides and make freinds with both like its really difficult to to see each other fight while youre friends with both. even if history were to repeat again, i would want geralyn to pick a side. even she would stop being friends with me i rather have it that way then she try to be friends with 2 conflicting side. i would understand geralyn if she didnt pick me and i wouldnt blame her, really.

  23/2

Today is Tammy’s bdae and shes also a vvv good friend. well we dont talk much anymore. but we used to click with each other since she was into horoscopes, anime and welllllll same stuff as meeee???

well bryan and i also decided to study today at bishan library and instead we went shopping again like omg istg we have the worst self control ever. we decided to just watch the SAO movie, the ordinal scale one. Anyways we went to that lego shop on sale again before the movie started and i bought batgirl and batman, bryan bought batman, joker & a box of nexo knights lego set. lmao istg bryan is still like a cute little kid. you should see his face when he fixes legos its just so cute lmaoooo. right now i just want to collect alot of lego characters omgggg welpppppp

after i went home,i tried studying for cep but lmao, i was alr in like holiday mood and like even if i studied it wouldn't srsly help la.

Anyways about the sao movie it was nice like i had feels but much of it was like confusing and lmao idk but yeah it was nice but lol kirito jesus-kun againnn. I wanted to watch sao with Tammy’ for her bdae but like fuck i damn lazy and tbvh i dont want to spend time with people who are no longer close to me. like i see no reason to like hangout with them. its awkward even after yall talk out of 'how’s life been’ and its just awkward so mehhhh. like if it’s yile or wuli or geralyn, its okay and it wouldnt be as awkward. i mean, i think im awkward to like almost everyone like, i cant keep the conversation going i have nothing to say and most of the times i dont initiate the conversation and it feels like i didnt put in the effort to like talk to them but sigh oh weeeeellllsss.

(but i really studied because bryan motivated me but like i accidentaly slept at 2am. siannnn faail laaaaa

lmao repeat sem alrrrr sighurghslfdkjhfdsakf)

anyways my father is like listening to some chinese songs now like i dont understand the lyrics but the song is like so nice and touching i feel like crying

24/2

Today is like cep exam and duh i wasnt even alittle bit ready. so lmao i just did 3 conversion questions and i decided that im done with the paper. i cant even confirm that my conversions will be crrt but i was ready to fail this anyways sighhhh. i left the exam hall after an hour and went to the toilet and poo-ed. and while poo-ing i had a message from Wuli that she wanted to meet me. so yay, we met up and she passed me some care pakage thing (the pakaging was like srsly cute) so after that i walked home tgt with wuli then i walked back to the mrt to meet Bryan. And wtf it was raining heavily fuckkkkk and i couldnt go back home to take my umbrealla cuz my fking maid was at home urghas;fh;dsaf. well so i met up with Bteh to study (apparently to study) but we went to dhoby to weeb it out. Bryan got me that sonic charcater gacha from one punch man and omg its so cute. I love bteh so much like hes the sweetest thing ever (wheres that crying emoji)

anyways, i had my whatsapp updated,REGRETSSSSSS. wa is like more laggy now on my stupid xiaomi phone with all the whatsapp story and shit wtf. why everyone copy snapchat fucking lame siaaaaa.

and peeepoooo :(((((, when i went back homeeee, i realised one of my sawamura’s feet missing and im like sooo soooo soooooo saddd fuckkkk. i wna find blue tack or clay soon to make his feet.

 25/02

its a saturday and wellll my 18th bdae isnt the best but it isnt one of the worst either. The best bdae would still be like 2 years ago which was my last softball game at Nationals back in sec 4 :DDD

lmao then tzewan told me that vincent made fun of me during lecture and well i cant believe he did that but oh weellll not everyone can be trusted. so much for trusting him and being such a good friend. i dont wna brag, but he fucking wouldnt get tgt with his ex if it wasnt for my help lmao what a bitch. i also realised that zane, vincent esp aloy didnt quite like a girl hanging out with them, so well i get left out everytime too. yaknow, after this, i feel that history might be repeating itself. first in sec sch, now in poly. isit like really my fault? like seriously, where did i went wrong. i mean i never had the same problem with girls before. but i didnt really quite like hanging out with girls soooo. its either im a loner arnd sch or i hang out with guys and end up having problems like this. so i told bryan like abt the whole thing abt vincent and then he got angry because he wanted me like to make a police report of him giving me sexual harassment HAHA out of revenge( vincent asked for sex like twice ). but lmao i no balls so bryan got angry. Bryan’s kinda cute when he get’s angry

only sometimes tho. actually last sem i was extremely motivated not to fail anything cuz i rlly dont want to like remodule and get seperated from jeffrey and vincent but oh well. now i dont mind remoduling cuz V,A and Z doesnt mean anything to me now.

 and just when i thought i was gg to have a bad bdae, because of fucking vincent, well apparently i have other friends that would cheer me up. Bryan tried cheering me up, and i enjoyed the meal with my family too.

but tkd ppl made everything bttr like most of them wished me hbdae and yayyyyy it made me happpy soo :DDDD ck also sent a pm and like thats damn cute of ck to do soooo.

but like,im kinda salty and i envy how everyone bought regine a stuff toy and like celebrated and bought her a small cake like okayyyyyyy. LIKE I DONT GET IT IM CLOSER THAN YALL THEN REGINE IS TO YALL WTFFFFFFF. okayyy nvmmmmm

welllll i told my father i want to start learn how to crochet (so i also can make bryan stuff) he let me spent like alot items in daiso to buy yarns and stuff yayyyyyy.

 26/27 of feb

I sneaked out of my house to see bryan. he ubered to aljunied’s mcd and he actually bought a star wars lego set and some rabbit woman from the batman lego movie. Well, we went to some void deck and he started fixing the lego thingy again. idk but he looks fucking cute when he does that?????

but okayyyy after that we ubered back to tpy and I waited for bryan to go back and shower until 5am. so like we didnt sleep the whole night and i feIt kinda guilty cuz it was like bryan’s exam and he was tired af. so after Bryan’s OC exam we went shopping and we went to like more lego shops and bought more lego characters :DDDDDDD like omg all i want to do now is to like collect lego characters :DDDDD and like we had to feel each packet for batman. i found harley quinn and yayyy. I also felt for a few batmans and yayyy i got someee. and andddd my junior said that she had all the harley quinns and she wanted to give it to me so yayyyyyyyy

 28/02

so today is my last paper, it’s fucking ipc and lmaoooo im not ready for it. okay so i left the exam hall after an hour lmao its a sure fail i dont even know how to do anything.

BUT YAY exams are over and I can finally haveee funnnnn. So we went to like tpy’s the singpost thingy. Bryan was like gna collect smthing and I thought he was gg to get the phone cover that he bought. well turns out the parcel was for me its like something he bought for my bdae :DDDDD and like we went to pastamania to eat. fuckkkk i was like vvvvvv excited to open the thinggg. the pakaging felt like that it might be a mug. well, i gget to open the pakaging before eating andddddddddddd IM LIKE SO HAPPY Bryan got me a Toriel figure frm Undertale like fuck it’s so cute istg. I didn’t like really expect anything for my bdaeee presyy????? like I thought he gave me the sonic gacha alrrrrr. but tbh im afraid he spent quite alot money on me so urghksdhlkhfkdsf. AND I FOUND OUT THE SHOES COST HIM $200+ NOT $100+ FUCKKKK BRYAN WHY

So since we wanted discounts on the lego stuff we buy frm the lego store, we went to watch the batman lego movieee. so like if u show your ticket, you can become a member and you’ll have like 10???20??% off for like discounttt???? but yeahhhh Bryan got a membership and yayyyy. The movie was vvv funny and cute like omg I like Joker the most he’s damn cute????

fuck i bet this thingy is gna have alot of typo error i didnt even check the 3rd time but whatev i wanted to post it for a vvv long time but ok idc anymo :D

dont ask me why im spamming here with lego gifs they are fking cute okaiiiiii