#makes me so fuckig insane

[megatraven]

i can't believe alex pined over mc for years and all it took to push past the professional boundary was to [reads notecard] be working a case together for once, forcing proximity that ruined any chance they ever had at remaining professional :)

[mephoj]

what did you think of the iii finale?

SO sorry i meant to answer asks sooner but i just kept putting it off to better word my thoughts later. so um. Well

ill be very brutally honest, i thought the iii finale was stupid as all hell. i don't have the right words right now to fully elaborate on the specific parts i hated (maybe if i remember ill add onto this in a reblog,) but everything about it felt so unnecessarily rushed and nothing like the energy of the original show that i loved so much. and im not saying this to be a hater !!! trust me, i avoided speaking on the finale for a while on purpose, in case i just needed time to process it (i was iffy on the alien plot in ii14 on the first watch too but now i LOVE it, so yknow that can happen with sudden new twists and characters sometimes)

i really really wanted to like it, but as it simmered in my head more, and the more i rewatched it, the more ridiculous and out of place it all felt. they weren't just throwing spaghetti at the wall until it stuck at this point, they threw out the whole damn pot and wasted it all. (does that even make sense?)

most of all, it just felt so deeply disappointing. it did have some interesting parts (like the reference to the s1 finale or opening more on mephone issues) but they did them all so strangely, all i can think about is all the ways it could've been better. and thats honestly way more frustrating than just being plain bad.

so many characters were filed down and reduced to clean, perfect Nice Ones by the end just so they could have a sweet feel-good ending which really doesn't fit into any of the rest of the current show's tone, especially if they plan to connect it back to s2. on top of that, it all felt so undeserved and empty. there was hardly any real conflict, emotional or otherwise lasting any longer than 5 seconds at a time throughout the entire season for the character's rest by the end to truly feel cathartic. it felt more like those shallow kids movie endings where everyone dances together and everythings fine. and sure, i know kids are the primary AE audience, but so much of iii just felt near insulting how much the the characters would talk down and overexplain every single emotion they felt and end every conflict with a hug or whatever. its like watching petty toddler fights lmao

this is more than i was expecting to write and ill admit its mostly about my issues with how they wrote mephone by the end but whatever lol i do not like most of iii . sorry 👍

[watery-melon-baller]

average adobe experience

[ghostlygunk]

youre right and you shoul say it (:

YOU GET ME!!!!!! YOU FUCKING GET ME!!!!!!

[voldkat]

tnts au is making me go insane /pos

[shalpilot]

hey so kidkiller is. first of great ship name everyone pack it up it doesn’t get better than that. second off I’m like aaaaa liiiiiiitle fucked up still and thinking about them has me INSANE. fellas is it gay to call a man your one singular only-one partner. Fuckigg. Fellas. Childhood rivals turned friends turned “this isn’t technically a relationship but we’re obsessed with each other” turned oh they’re smoochin now huh wow that’s. that took them a while to come to that conclusion they’re making up for lost time huh. they’re making me insane. Their dynamic is so fuckig fun dude. two meatheads (one slightly less) just fucking shit up together holding stupid metal hands. i hate them. Kid out here defending his boy’s honor like a particularly yappy guard dog. Killer being like “okay :)” (the :) is /gen) because it’s not a surprise he’s heard it a million times before Kid’s shit idiot love language is WORDS OF AFFIRMATION LOUD EDITION and ACTS OF SERVICE FUCK YOU MODE. zoro going lol must be rough having a captain like that I get it and Killer going What Do You Mean. He’s Perfect. i just know they’re so fucking annoying all the time. what did you do to my partner. my partner. partner

[rtc-confessions]

rtctok makes me go crazy fuckig insane i hate it so much. half yhe people there sexualise the hell out of mischa/gus halper, sexualise the hell out of NISCHA, undermine the shit out of constances existence (this makes me so so mad), i could go on for hours, as a newer fan who found rtc THROUGH tiktok.

im not saying EVERYOJE there is bad. im just saying like maybe 70% of users on rtctok are absolute shit and they cause a lot of the problems people speak about on here. i understand with the rise in popularity of rtc theres GONNA be more toxicity/toxic and shitty-people fans but rtctok is actually not real cause what the hell

dude ive seen people on there who're mad that gus halper has a WIFE????? i swear leave him alone. also makig rape jokes about constance is not funny and never will be.

tl;dr (my bad i made this too long on accident) rtctok sucks shit

[starjunkyard]

House thinking that he has cuddy and wilson wrapped around his finger is so funny bc ...like Yeag .He kinda does but also House will smugly smirk to himself like "Tch........ They have no idea that i just manipulated them into letting me do (Insert insane thing)............. Im like kira from Hit anime death note....... tch.......... Hah..........." When in reality wilson and cuddy have put up with house for so long They know exactly how his fucked up ratmaze of a mind works so they exploit it to make him . U know. actually Do his job butHOUSE THINKS HES WINNING

Like they know house so well they Have him on a leash . They have him so whipped But House thinks hes soooooooooooooo smart he doesnt even realise it Its so

Its like when yr trying to get your fucking . Dog to eat some medicine but yoy cant let him know you WANT him to eat the medicine because then he FUCKIG N WONT So u have tolike . Pretend u dont even want him to eat the medicine like Whatever . I dont even want u to eat the medicine actually . This medicine is sooooooo good waow so delicious i want it all for myself If u eat it i will be soooo sad .I'll be so upset Dont eat it.......... Omg stop dont eat it................. And then yr dog will eat it out of spite and youll be like "NOOOOOOOOOOO.... OMG I CANT BELIEV E U ATE IT U ARE SO CRAZY.... WTF...." And he will feel so smug and proud of himself Like hes some evil little creature rebelling against nature and law when really he i s just. so Stupid

[yeonlust]

taehyun thoughts again...... i was watching the gq korea behind and GODDAMN HE LOOKED SO GOOD?? imagine like a friends to lovers situation with tyun and you're hooking up for the first time and he keeps teasing before he even gets to fuckig u :'( hes leaning over you and kinda just drinking in the sight of you... so sweet but also kinda mean w it.. asking you if he can touch you and when ur nodding and gasping out yes please hes like "yeah? you want it?" smiling down at u and shit like OOHHH HES SO CRAZY and then when hes finally touching you just running his palms over ur waist and hips you keep squirming and moving around and he giggles at you like "what? can't think already? it's okay, baby. don't need to think. i'll take care of u, dumb u down a bit, how about that?" LIKE HE SAYS THE CRAZIEST THINGS in this teasing lilting voice making eye contact w u and smirking a little I CANT DO THIS

MNNNNAONWIWNBHBABWJWB

no he literally would be nasty like i swear if he’s feeling up for it he will tell you the dirtiest shit, like explaining what he’s gonna do to you… how you make him feel���.

the thought of him just teasing like that.. please i’m begging i need it. i’m fully convinced he would just love to tease you and make you wait, or he just loves to see your reaction just to get a confirmation of how needy you are for him.. he would love that shit. like i said he’d just tell you the nastiest shit, tease you, make you beg even… but then he’d go and tell you how good you are for him and when you’re done he’d tell you the same and just tell you the sweetest things. his duality drives me insane i can’t stand him

[catboymoments]

as some1 who binged Like . Nearly a half of grey’s anatomy when i was in a mentally odd place in middle school it gets fuckig WILD . if ure watching it now Let Me Tell you. It gets really insane. it will make ur eyebrows raise. Your heart may get torn out by the teeth. i dont think middle school norse has ever known peace since watching it.

IM SO SCARED. I JUST STARTED SEASON 3…

[trainingdummyrabbit]

GRABS AND SHAKES YOU HELLO I HEREBY WELCOME YOU IN THE YUI AGENDA LOVE TO SEE I'M NOT THE ONLY INSANE ONE

MAY BOTH SIDES OF YOUR PILLOWS BE COLD AT ALL TIMES!!!!! thank you for that swap au it is so cute Yui and Mui having great and horrible communication so true (both could kill an upper rank but for same different reasons you feel me)

!!!!! FELLOW YUI APPRECIATOR! GRABS U AND SHAKES U!!!! iam spidermanpointing at u SO HARD RN TYTYYYYY <333

iam just shrimply. fuckig obsessed w these tiny little things, they mean the Whole Entire World 2 me orz..

AND !!!! IM GLAD YOU LIKED TH FUNY LIL AU POST THEYVE BEEN HAUNTING ME FOR FUCKIG EVER i will just. never get over them!!! especially bc like.

the way that swap!mui functions (especially towards the beginning of the au) is simultaneously so similar and so different from how he acts the way yui remembers it. because mui is still like, ridiculously airheaded, tending to just follow him around blindly-- but at the same time, he just. will sometimes just decide Not to listen to yui. he's completely focused in on his Own impulses, which is so much harder to deal with for his brother (who's kind of used to mui following along when he makes decisions).

and its a persistent thing! they both end up trying to act over each other, insisting that they know what theyre doing more than the other. or at least, yui does. when mui makes up his mind, more often than not he just Does It. arguing with someone who doesnt speak Is a little hard, after all. its just!!! they rely on each other on such a deeply intrinsic level, but because of the nature of what mui becomes, theres a lot more Actually Conflicting Decisions they Both come to. thats like... the Entire first leg of their arc, actually. learning/remembering/relearning how to communicate with (or, more accurately: listen to and Trust) each other, despite and Through the absolute bullshit they have to put up with Constantly. staying close, but not Too close, yknow?

. anyway i just shrimply think they deserve to Kill! for Funsies and Profitsies! thatse it <33

[orgelposting]

bc of my idol spinterest i am quite fond of when jpop starts referencing kpop or the other way around i just think theres a point where it starts feeling more like youre trying to make money off a trend (this is with jpop referencing kpop in specific) rather than just like an Homage and it starts being deeply annoying to look at

i think a good example of doing it in a way thats Right is probably shhis bc their music is #1 good(for the most part fuck oh my god) #2 its not limited to just that one specific genre of terrible fucking edm #3 listening to their music you can pinpoint their influences and these choices that are made feel like theyre done by people that actually know what theyre doing. fly and flys intro being most likely a reference to after schools bang is so COOL to me because not only does imas actually have connections to after school (one of the members being on imas kr) but also referencing something as old as that feels like an actual appreciation rather than just a money grab compares to like oh my god just being a worse version of aespas black mamba

i need to edit this to include Motto which is essentially just a twice homage with the choreography referencing twice choreos and the mv having a location quite similar to one in the likey mv(iirc) and the song being so distinctly early twice that when i heard it for the first time my brain automatically put the TWICE! in the intro. and also idolish7s poisonous gangster which i dont actually care a lot for that song but its made by someone who worked with shinee in the past and the song is very obviously inspired by THE SHINEE WORLD DOO BOP out of all songs and its really fuckig funny to me

on the other hand theres like countless examples both in real and multimedia idols that are either Objectively good but have that distinct Youre trying to make money off of me feel (eg enstars' ruby love which if you listen to it its very obviously meant to be kpop inspired and is made by someone who has worked with nct but also it leaves me with a weird taste in my mouth bc it feels like You Are Trying Really Hard To Market To Me) (or like ldhs iscream whose music i really enjoy but it still leaves me with a weird feel) or the worst outcome which is Terrible song AND youre trying so fucking hard to market to me (48gs trying to do kpop inspired singles, criminally dinner, that one love live song i forgot its name for some reason my bad, etcetc theres way more im too lazy to think of them right now)

also like deresute doing the sheincore kpop gg outfits for fav+rica even though 1 of these characters dresses in decora kei and another is a FARM GIRL still pisses me off so bad like are you insane

[daenystheedreamer]

Ok idk if this counts as a fandom confession... But my main problem with Jon//sa is that it's just so boring? There's no spice, no flavour, other than the incest. (Honestly think nearly all Jon ships are like this, don't think he needs a romantic relationship for his story after ygritte)

honestly girl thats so real #amen. i lovelovelove jon snow but he is like idk not insane enough to make ships for? stavos is insane, braime is insane. theres spice. meanwhile jons relationships are all pretty normal or lack real romantic spice? jonsa is a can of worms but its pretty boring all thinks considered. i like jonsam but its just friends to lovers which is just. a normal relationship. jonsatin is cute but more situationally dynamically and i like it mostly cos it gives satin character building :) jon x val is like Oh shes hot. jon x melisandre.... literally a porn plot theres nothing there fuckig DAVOS x melisandre is more fun. oh and jonerys i guess which isnt all that interesting romantically to me? theres just the taboo of it and thats the only roadblock. theyre way more fun as besties or rival chosen ones!! cant believe i forgot jonerys LMAO

[underfalls-36]

taking the 👀 you tagged that one post with earlier as an invitation to go utterly insane in your askbox now . Okay . So.

Ducktales spoilers ahead obviously .

ijust . ford and della both had large parts to play in (but werent Entirely responsible for) the construction of the machines that led to them disappearing for a Long Long time shortly after arguing with thejr twin . god im so fuckig normal they wrre alone for so long im going to gnaw on a.brick THEY BOTH GOT BACK AT THE VERY END OF S2 E11 TOO YOU KNOW Hhhhhhhhh and immediately upon reuniting with their twin starting yelling wt eachother (but della and donald hugged right after and jt makes me soso sad that stan and ford didnt im hhhhh) also i dont know if youve seen the images of special edition of johrnal 3 (it comes up.easilg if you google) but if u have the . The fact that neither of them were able to even breathe properly during their time Not On Earth gets me. i dont know . also the very specific scenario of playing one of their favorite games that they are surprised is still around with their ~12 year old autistic hat wearing relative . Im so normal. you know im soso salty we didnt get much portal ford content della got a whole epsiode on what she was doing on the moon its even called Whatever Happened To Della Duck?! well i think ford shouldve gotten a Whatever Happened To Stanford Pines?! and i will forverr be salty that he didnt . we didnt get like ANYTHING like he couldve at least had a flashback yk?? and hhhhgh the way they were both briefly convinced their twins were Gone during the finales . same lighting in those scenes too i have a pre existing post on their parallels with some screenshots btw i need to reblog that . and Hhhhghhh . HhHGHhHzhH . I just

Do you udnerstamd

AND THE WAY THEY BOTH HAUNTED THE NARRATIVE FOR AN ENTIRE SEASON AND A HALF THE WHOLE OVERARCING MYSTERY BEING WHAT HAPPENED TO THEM AND SUDDENLY THEYRE BACK AND EVERYONE IS FORCED TO COME TO TERMS WITH THAT. IM CHEWING ON CEMENT. THE REDEFINED FAMILY DYNAMICS. EVERYTHING IS DIFFERENT NOW BECAUSE YOURE HERE AND WOW. NOBODY FIGURED THIS WOULD HAPPEN IN A MILLION YEARS BUT YOURE STANDING RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. SORRY IM NORMAL

FHSKnedhsjs bro

The connections

I wish we got to see more of portal Ford too

Would've loved that :(

[megatraven]

lyrics that make me so fuckig insane you have no idea

[gayspock]

the spiral 🤨

its like it hits the 3am mark and i start to lose it i think. who said that ive been losing it non-stop. whatever. i dontknow. i feel like screaming a little bit. anyone elsefeel like this. im just sort of tired now and have been for the past few days. i feel insanity spike up again when i think too hardabout how it doesnt matter over andover again. theres never a resolution theres never any relief it just shuts up cuz ur so fried you cant even think straight any more or cuz of whatever. i'llshut up for a few more months it'll happen again i cant ever findanything or help myself no matter how hard i try i keep trying it means nothing its worthless as it always was and as you know it is and continues to be and people say its not worthless youre not trying hard enogh youre not doing it long enough. its all i am at this point its all ive ever been its nothing but that/ its the onlyfucking thing in my head and nobody fuckingbelieves it because you cant be serious you havent done it enough nobody can be that fucking hopeless but youre proving it all to be truewith the fact you wont even swallow it . i dont know. i think about how sometimes you cant even have that. ifeel like im nothing but a joke all thetime. and people think so little of me, iknow they do. i dont thinkanyone hasnt ever thought much of me and i jsut get so angry every time someone tries to make an example out of it bc they do nothing but prove me irght but im not evenallowed to fucking say it orim a bitch. i wish it mattered i wish i could jsut say things to people everyones like be fucking truthful but dont be in the way that you actually mean bc we dont likke it we dont like you i think theres projections that people think they like but . i feel fucking crazy everytime im so fucking . fucking upset but im not doing enough its never enough what i can do and i dont know thats not even the point the point is icantkeep doing it i cant keep myself afloat . i can cry this over and overagain i just want a break or jsut one thing to feel okay or right just for a second. i

i dont know sorry the therapy thing again i thinkthe classic "im more mentally illt han you" vibe i feel so often this patronising fucking. energy from others who somehow manage toperceive me this specific fucking niche i exist in when im upset where im jsut such a fucking laughable joke even when its the rock bottom and eveyrthing im thinking andfeeling is so trivial and i just need to do it better to try it harder that im not fucking doing it well enough that i give up so easy that im forcing myself into it that its anyone of these things theres apart of me that just wants to beg down on my knees like pelase just for fucking once please think im a person and its rather pathetic i think abotuthis to everyone i feel like im going crazy i wishi was a person i feel so unreal i wish i existed fully in apersons life i wish itwasnt stretches of nothing of nothing and nothing and fucking screens all the time and still nothing in thosefor the majortiy of the time too i wish i wasnt so far away i wish i wasnt the afterthought i wish i could feel like i existed and properly did exist but i cant ever seem to latch on as i am i cantdo anything as i am and i try and it doesn twork i try to be me i try to be content keep trying everything it never makes sense im not trying enoughstill i dont know i dont know what its worth and even if its achievable it doenst feel like it means anything ay more i cant keep doing this and for what i keep spending every day i feel like every ounce of my life for he better part of a decade is just trying to keep my fuckig head on my shoulders and its not fucking sustainable but what else is there and im meant to betrying harder to be getting better theres nothing i can do im genuinely fucking alone and people dont like to hear it and im genuinely fucking hopeless and there is no way out and i cant evenf ucking have that thought ifeel nuts i hate myself so much

and i feel myself becoming more rancid every dayi will admit no matter how much i try to stop myself. really sharp fucking pangs of anger and upset at fucking everything that i cant fucking suffocate and its getting harder not to lash out at fucking everyone for every little fucking thing bc it sets me off and i cant just get a fucking grip but i dont know i wish there was something more susbtantial for once than just that and just this but also what does it even matter any more liek it mattered in the firstplace and im not just being delusional. whatever whatever its os stupid its so fucking humiliating how upset ive been getting i jsut keep crying over everything because i cant have anything i cant do anything keep trying to do things i try and i try and i try and its never meant anyhting i just feel so much spite and icant stop it its not fucking fair that people just exist and maybe theydont do it easily but they still manage todo something i feel so fucking alone people keep trlling me everyone feels alone feels isolated . so do they! but its not. that i hate being thatfucking asshole but its not that its not jsut the now its the fucking forever its the fundamental root cause theresosmething wrong with me it feels like i cant ive never not once felt like ive been seen i dontknow if i can even like peopel back at this point . people oh im so alone theysay butidont . i feel so fucking angry because theyve still managed to have had a partner or to have some sort of fucking companionship or family and i jsut sit. alone in the dark and i have done for years and no matter where i go ro what i do i keep trying i remember at uni i did try i did i tried to entrer circles but i just keep. falling to the wayside and i wish it was like i was rotted on the inide or i was trulky repulsive but i jus tthink theres nothing there i think theres nothing inside me to like i think i cant be anything and i think nobody wants nothing which is what i am and have been for such a long time bynow because i cant fucking piece anything together theres notihng . id ont know i keep thinking stupid things theres stupid things i keep crying about i thought about getting a cat or something that wouldnt fucking understand me enough for me to reject me but itd be unfair and unreasonable to try and bring anyhting into it my stupid fucking black hole existenc e how it wouldnt be realistic how nothing is its really embarrassing how fucking minute it is sometimes how such little things keep tipping me off i got angry i getupset everyone else has osmething or some interes tor something they can manage it with i cant find anything i think thats jst

part of it though i keep trying to find these threads out ii keep trying to find littlethings little hopes only to follow them through and just everything comescrashing down huge nos huge fuck yous it never fucking works out it never goes anywehre every time i try to get happy it just feelslike im slapped in the face and theres so many more thingsits nonstop its neverending theres not just one fucking thing to be happy about or to be proud about or to be satisfied with no matter what i do and it just feels so so ufcking insulting sometimes that you have to pretend it and force it up just to satisfy eeveryone else but i just cant do it i keep thinkign about it and i cant do it ive never done anyhting i can just feel like meant anything and its so embarrassing it sounds fucking melodramatic but its true and nobody will jsut . even let me have tha t and no one even fucking sees it happenign i just the onyl time when its not like this is actively trying to fucking disconnect myself form everything and lose mself in shit i still fucking hate but is manageable but thats going nowhere its nowhere its more nothing an d i dont know i feel like i used to thought it would matter if i kept blowing up like something could change but my head hurts so badl and i dont fucking care to pretend i fucking respect it either cuz they dont i just think i dont know im a stupid fucking cunt and i always have been and if ucking wish people would just say it to my face and theres a part of me that just fucking hates fucking everyone because who fucking cares what the fuck else can i even manage i cant if im never going tofucking anything to people why why i jsut need something for once i want to fucking hit someone so they can hit me back or fucking something so at least imreal even for a fucking second bleh bleh bleh beofrei realise even that i dont know i feel like m not serious enough whatever