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[xarablack]

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[litviral]

🌺💗💗🌻🌺 #Mondaymotivation . . . . . . . . . . . . #mondayquotes #quotes❤️ #lifelessons101 #inspirationquote #motivation💪 #litviral #keepgrowing #makeacomeback https://www.instagram.com/p/BsVTL2jhZ8J/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1wl3y1ui5pka7

[bibilium]

Here we explore 12 Bible verses about falling down and getting back up again. We also discover four keys to make epic comebacks.

[theycalledmebonni]

On Wednesdays We Wear Pink

Coming out of addiction and that kind of life and trying to reenter society is like trying to get a seat at the mean girls table. You literally feel like you have completely forgotten how to function around “normal” people and in a way you have.

I remember when my husband first exposed me to that kind of life and all of a sudden I was spending days awake with people who had been using drugs for the larger portions of their lives but at the very least for years and as they would all sit around and talk about when they did this drug or that drug for the first time or the time that they all got high and did [blank] or their time in jail. I sat and played candy crush like i was some kind of wall hanging.

Once my husband said, “No wonder no one likes you, you don’t ever talk to anyone you just sit there.” I looked him dead in the face and asked what he expected me to talk to them about. How was i going to join in? The flow of conversation would undoubtedly be impeded when an exchange like this happened:

“Yeah so that one time when I was shooting up heroin in the bathroom of the McDonalds and then the cops came in to serve my VOP warrant, you know what I mean about that feeling...”

and I come back with. “Yeah, one when I was on a mission trip with my church teaching vacation bible school to kids in low income housing i was really afraid that i was gonna get caught kissing this guy from the sister church when we went kayaking. Crazy times.”

seriously. no.

 I didn’t talk because I had nothing in common to talk to them about. I had never experienced those things.

But something weird happens when you spend time in that life. You start to assimilate.

You ever heard that tale about putting the frog in boiling water? So it goes that if you drop a frog into boiling water, the frog will immediately jump out. BUT, if you put the frog in regular water and then you start to heat it to boiling the frog will literally stay there and be boiled to death because it just adjusts to the temperature of the water.. The same thing kinda happens.

The longer you stay in the trap the more you start to feel removed from your life before or from the “normal” society. The more you feel like you don’t belong there or anywhere. You have lost relationships and you have lost friends and now you realize that it’s hard to reconnect because some may not know why you fell off, or some have gone on with their life and they have families and responsibilities and you are ashamed. Or they know what you have been doing and they don’t want that around their kids etc. Or you know the only time that you really miss your old life is at 3am when you can’t sleep for the dope that you did earlier and your ole man is taking apart a 1987 truck and you are left alone with your thoughts and you can’t message them then because regular people are effing asleep. 

You change until you don’t even think that you belong back in that “normal” life.

But then, a miracle. You decide that you don’t want to stay there anymore and you will not give drugs another second of your time and you start to want to get back to pre-world war Z life and so you start to try to reconnect.

and you find that you have the same problem. you find it hard to talk to your non-drug life friends because they want to talk about their investments and their job and you are like...”yeah, so see this vein here, this is my driving vein. Funny thing, the only time that the ole man could hit me there is when i was driving the car coming back from a dope run” and the look at you like you have snakes crawling out of your head and they are uncomfortable and you are uncomfortable and you want to crawl back into a hole.

addiction makes people uncomfortable because they don’t know how to react and I know this because I was once that person. I have apologized to someone once because i saw them physically become uncomfortable when i made some old drug life reference.

Let this serve as a PSA to “normal” society. Ranking right up with stopping the drugs is trying to get back into society. Trust me when I tell you that it is probaby the single biggest issue that we face. Because it causes in us all of the feelings that we escaped by using. We worry about being misunderstood, we worry when applying for a job because what f they ask why there is a huge gap in our employment? what if they want to go into detail about any kind of legal history, what if we are stunted in going forward because we are looked at and judged by a past that we are wanting and trying so hard to leave behind. what if we try to talk to our old friends and they don’t want to talk to us. What if they just think that we ghosted them and it wasn’t that we didn’t want to talk to them it was that we didn’t want you to see us strung out, we didn’t want you to know that we were like that. What if we have damaged relationships so bad that they can’t be repaired. What if your kid points out our tract marks and asked about them..or our scars from cutting. What if you invite us over and someone starts to talk bad about addicts. What if they ask us what we have been doing or what job we have and we can say nothing because life didn’t go like we planned and no we don’t own a car or a home we are struggling to work at Burger King and pay off our court costs?

We want our lives back. We want YOU back. We want US and our lives back. We are TRYING...please understand. Please understand that we are happy for you. Please understand that you don’t have to feel bad that you are where you are and we are where we are because we are alive and we are trying and we want to make it. If we try to message you on facebook or buy your new baby a gift please let us. We have literally felt like the scourge of society and our families for a long, long time. We have literally felt hated and rejected by everyone even ourselves and now we are clean and we are just trying to get our life back so hard. if its hard for you to talk to us because you don’t understand what we have been through or because we hurt you please TELL US. i would rather you say eff you than just say nothing. If you don’t want the gift because you think it was bought with drug money or will come from a drug house say that or let us send it and throw it away because it took A LOT for us to even write you. and being able to enjoy little things like seeing people we loved when we were happy be happy makes us feel like somebody again.

If you know someone trying to get their life back from abuse or addiction or mental illness or incarceration; GAS THEM UP. We are trying. We go to bed not thinking of the progress we made that day but of all the ways that we still didnt measure up that day.

and if you are reading this and you are like me struggling to get back on track and to join the land of the living again. I see you.

Great job staying clean today.

Great job using one less time today.

Great job calling your mom today.

Great job putting in that job application even though you are scared of rejection today.

Great job not hurting yourself today.

Great job showering today.

Great job. I am so proud of you and whether you wear pink or not you are welcome at my table and in my circle anytime and every time. Because I’ve been where you were and i’ve been where you want to be. 

And on Wednesdays...we all make it.

[startupsupreme]

Tomorrow is another day! “Yesterday is not ours to recover, but tomorrow is our to win or lose.” ~ Lyndon B Johnson . . #tomorrow #tomorrowxtogether #tomorrowisanewday #tomorrowisanotherday #tomorrowismine #myday #recover #rcovery #comeback #makeacomeback #fightback #staystrong #win #winorlose #winwin (at Startup Supreme) https://www.instagram.com/p/CAzrljanXq8/?igshid=c0r9dqkz7pqo

[officialcooldadsclub-blog]

Giving up is easy, coming back takes nerves of steel. Apart from great education for kids, inculcate nerves of steel. Ultimately, grit is what counts..! Remember why you chose to fly at the first place. #grit #makeacomeback #dadsareawesome😎 #cooldadsclub https://www.instagram.com/p/B2k6onxnAqJ/?igshid=40y7wkkqyohj

[merrymemoriescraftsnj]

So true! I think I could rule now with the huge bin I have that I can barely close...oops! 🤣🧶 Have a good Tuesday! #yarn #yarnspiration #thatyarnlife #yarnfordays #yarncrafts #plasticcanvas #ilovetosew #creatingismything #plasticcanvascrafts #vintagecrafts #oldschoolcrafting #makeacomeback #relaxing #somuchyarn #sharingmycraft #merrymemoriesnj https://www.instagram.com/p/By2uIXYAVxm/?igshid=1hut500r51htw

[theflyingmong]

This is the Batman i miss :'(

[noriecouture-blog1]

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[thebeigemamba]

#makeacomeback #blackmamba🐍 @kobebryant (at Harlem, NYC, NY)

[felixjj77]

Only love can uncover the beauty that is veiled. Disappointments, pains, upset and setback can often make your heart go cold in several areas of life. The Samaritan women in the scripture is a depiction of such a thing. She tried many marriages, relationships and all seems to end in disappointments; hopelessness. But her life got changed the moment she met Jesus. From then on her life had a purpose and meaning. The beauty inside of her got revealed. The scripture goes on to say "many Samaritans from that village believed in Jesus because of the women's testimony." Your defining moment is here! You might have gone through a lot, more than I could ever think of, but what I can tell you from my life is Christ love makes you come alive. You've a purpose to accomplish, a dream to chase, and a legacy to leave. It all starts when you get to sense the love He has for you. Uncover the hidden beauty! #hiddenbeauty #love #yourlifehasapurpose #meaning #makeacomeback #chaseyourdream #comealive #youreloved #lifechanging #cometojesus #findlife

[kittymcmittens]

April Meme 2017

[theycalledmebonni]

These two make me want to lose my ever loving MIND sometimes. They are a responsibility that I inherited but I swear as much as I threaten them with finding a new home. They are my ❤️

[freshbaked74]

Guess who decided to #makeacomeback #NIKKI

[theycalledmebonni]

Tables

The other night you said you thought that you were losing me.

I didn’t really know what to say to you.

I told you that I understood. 

That I understood why you would feel that way and that i understood why you would be upset about it.

You asked me to tell you that you were just crazy, that you weren’t really losing me.

I hesitated, and you heard it too. I could have lied. I could have told you what I knew you wanted to hear.

But in those few seconds of hesitation my mind went back. My mind went back to a night that I stood, face and neck wet with tears, barely able to breathe, at one point on my hands and knees in the darkened doorway of a building with no electricity where i had been sequestered all day waiting on you because you said that you “may come and see me” that day. You finally showed up in the middle of the night and I was so excited that I finally got to have some time with MY husband. But instead you just walked in and said something about dope and that you had to hurry because she was waiting on you to get back. 

I cried, I begged you to stay but instead you shoved me off and you started to get in her car to leave. I remember grabbing at your clothes and I remember standing there in that doorway. Crying and begging you, begging you, to kiss my forehead and tell me that everything was going to be okay. I remember saying, “Please, even if it’s a lie I just need to hear it right now to give me some hope to go on”

and you wouldn’t.

I was begging you to LIE to me, just so I could hear it come out of your mouth and i could try to believe it.

and you wouldn’t.

You would, and DID, lie to me about a million other things when it was convenient for you, and when it would benefit you, but the one time that I was BEGGING you to LIE to me so that i would be able to have some even false hope... you wouldn’t.

You would lie to me to make YOU feel better but you wouldn’t lie to me to make me feel better even when I was begging you. To LIE.

and that wasn’t the only time. How many times i begged you for your time. I begged you, my HUSBAND to make me feel like I mattered to you. I begged for crumbs. for CRUMBS from you.

And now here we were. You asking me to give you some reassurance that things were going to be okay. That we were still going to be together. That everything that your heart and mind were saying about our relationship weren’t true.

I remembered how easily you told me you were done, but still kept holding on to me and then once when i asked you why you would cheat on me like that you said, “I told you i was done.”

Now you are going to sit here and tell me that you love me and you want to be my husband and yada yada.

I couldn’t tell you that. 

I couldn’t tell you that you weren’t going to lose me. I could have said it but it would have been a lie and a lie hurts worse than any truth. 

My how those tables have turned.

I’m not happy that you may be hurting. I’m not happy that you may be sad, I’m not happy that you are sitting there feeling the things that you made me feel but i’m not sorry either.

I’m not sorry if you are feeling abandoned. I’m not sorry if you are feeling not good enough, or left, or ignored, or unwanted, or empty, or lonely, or alone, or lied to, or mistreated. I’m not sorry if you feel that way because when you had the option to choose me and to choose time with me you didn’t. Now I don’t have that choice. I can’t choose to see you or spend time with you everyday.

One thing about them tables baby: they always turn.