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cried a little sketching this out ngl
#caleb widogast#critical role#frumpkin#wip#lo art#im so sad I’m nearly at the end it’s making me tear up fr#Can u believe I only started c2 in may/June this year#Instant blorboism
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lesbian pride flag colourpicked from mariah may and mina shirakawa
#mina shirakawa#mariah may#aew#stardom#rose gold#lesbian#[guy whos still living in june:]#happy pride month! i hope mina and toni dont make mariah choose between them at the ppv end of this month :(#wouldnt it be cute if they all dated each other? mariah deserves two girlfriends shes such a good support for toni always!#id in alt text#media described
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Books of 2024: June Wrap-Up.
Okay, y'all have Convinced Me--I'm going to start doing little wrap up posts! Behold: a shelf of what I read in June (not pictured: the bookmark at page 466 of ORDINARY MONSTERS, because despite having read two (2) books worth of book so far, I'm still not quite done with that one).
June was kind of a slow reading month for me (I did a LOT of writing, looking back--nice). I wanted to take OTHER TERRORS and THE ELEMENTS OF ELOQUENCE a bite at a time so the horrors and figures of rhetoric (respectively) didn't all run together. Both of those, much like A SHINING, turned out to be pleasantly leisurely wanders, whereas MONSTERS is kind of a plod.
I already did bigger write-ups for TERRORS and SHINING, linked in the bullets below.
OTHER TERRORS - ★★★★ Great bite-sized horror anthology with a really inclusive mix, as promised! I enjoyed most of these (always nice in an anthology!)
A SHINING - ★★★★ Weird fucked up heavy little book in translation, lit-fic flavored, but very approachable, I thought. Tiny enough to swallow in a sitting, but also kind of exhausting to do it that way? I'll definitely reread this one in the future.
THE ELEMENTS OF ELOQUENCE - ★★★ Fun romp through rhetoric! The examples were fun, and I appreciated the humor, but I also find myself still uncertain what a bunch of the figures actually ARE, definitions-wise, despite having read a book full of so many of them (I did just buy his recommended A HANDLIST OF RHETORICAL TERMS to help with that, at least, which is. almost entirely. definitions by volume). Neat thing to have on my references shelf, but it wasn't as excellent as I was hoping it'd be.
ORDINARY MONSTERS - 466/658 pages read; will report back later (but it's not looking good, folks).
#books of 2024#books of 2024: june wrap-up#other terrors#a shining#the elements of eloquence#ordinary monsters#jon fosse#mark forsyth#jm miro#is this anything??#i don't actually usually rate things on GR if they're not 4/5#(rarely 1/2)#i almost never rate 3s#so i pulled the 4 stars from my goodreads but made up ELOQUENCE after the fact#also ordinary monsters does NOT need to be this long holy fuck#anyway i finished writing a novella at the end of may#wrote a short story at the beginning of june#spent a weekend in a hotel making Liminal Space Notes for revision purposes#and then spent a week picking at that scene at the end of june#had a great time on the writing front#it does in fact mean words goes slower though#oh heck i'm also partway through alpha reading a friend's manuscript too huh#that's not on my Read In June but i read like 40 pages of that so far XD
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currently at That Point which occurs once every few months where one briefly begins pacing around the house teary eyed contemplating selling their own organs or becoming an online scammer or getting on anxiety meds so you can bear the risk taking required to be a hitman or so on and so forth.... why must everything so Expensive... Surely all would be healed in life if only I had one big plate of lasagna and a simple loan of $40,000 ... auoughhh....
#And then you just eventually shrug and go 'welp. nothing i can do i guess' and sad cartoon music plays as you shuffle back to your room#It's just hard with my specific physical and mental issues since it's like.. I couldn't really handle most jobs. I can't handle school. I'm#100% aromantic and asexual so I'll never get married so I can't get money that way. I have too much issues with social cues#+ too nervous temperament + too low energy to put effort into lying and having a fake relationship just for money. so on and so forth etc.#Really I should have just been born into a middle class family. Which I guess everyone says. but ESPECIALLY considering my#chronic conditions kind of hampering my ability to function 'normally' or be Independent in a regular way. I'm always going to be#in some way sort of beholden to the whims of people around me who I must depend on. so... well of course they might as well have been rich#lol like that would have been better for me of course.#AAANyway... Just thinking about another stupid fucking climate change summer... months keep going by so fast.. soon it will be so again#And it's like such SMALL things would make drastic improvements for me. Literally if I just had a place with central AC#then like 75% of my issues with summer would vanish instantly. literally. But instead it's like.. having a cheap hot apartment + only#half functional dinky window ac + my illnesses that make me heat sensitive + living in a part of the country that keeps getting hotter +#inability to leave the house much meaning I can't just go spend time in a cooler place etc. all factors which combine together to make#it just utterly miserable for MONTHS and mentally draining. And literally ALL I would need to fix that is just...#have a place with central AC that works.. (or move to a colder country/area but that also takes money. Or just not have illnesses#that make me heat sensitive. but that I can't control). etc. etc. I guess it's just the nature of the constant background frustration of#being part of The Masses under our current manifestation of unmitigated capitalism. Such minor details would make such huge#quality of life improvements and yet will remain ever out of reach. ONE little thing could change your whole life but you can't even have#that. so many 'If only' scenarios. etc. And of course obviously I am incredibly thankful just to have anywhere to live at all. food to eat#. any sort of stability whatsoever no matter how fragile it feels/is. But that still doesn't make it not frustrating occasionally to look#around and see how relatively little would have to change in order for you to be a decent percentage more comfortable and yet#how still far away even those ''small'' seeming goals are. etc. etc.#Seriously think I've been traumatized by the summer or something somehow lol like thinking about it being warm weather eventually#makes me nauseous with panic. It's just SOOO much labor. micromanaging windows and fans and blocking every ounce of light#and not being able to cook (cant even afford a single degree of temp increase due to the stove) for months and barely being able#to sleep for months and the claustrophobia of days on end crawling out of your skin because it doesnt even get cool enough at#night to offer relief so you're just always feeling trapped.. hgrhh...#It starts getting hot here sometimes in May but mostly June then lasts through October now.. thats like half the year almost.. ARghhH#anyway... If any extremely rich person reading this would like to buy me an air conditioned house in exchange for multiple years worth#of art (I will paint murals on all of your grand dining halls and make all the custom sculptures you could ever want etc) then.. hewwo :'3c
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Some tiny bmc stuff i never actually posted on my account
#be more chill#bmc#tiny bmc#jeremy heere#michael mell#tiny jeremy#tiny michael#boyf riends#tiny boyfs#if those drawings seem familiar it's because I put them all in anonys inbox end of may to early june#don't you dare to make a for forever reference#my art
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yeah sure that's how i'll [re]come out
#zymart#zymtalk#rant in the tags ->#okay listen to me this is really important and also i have a witness. this was not intentionally supposed to be posted on june 1st#the stars just aligned for this to be at its funniest. which means its also easier for me to dismiss LOL#i drew this like a week ago after trying to draw a whole like. 5 page comic about it and then stopping it mid-board#bc it was horrifying imagining being perceived that much. so i needed to make it into a joke instead and this was the funniest route#and then i was like 'UGH. UGH!!!! i can not be 20 and deal with this like im 13. if i dont post it by the end of the week#then [the witness to all my rants on this topic. shoutout to twig bc they got the most of it] can joke abt it as if i did anyway'#and now its the end of the week and i looked at the date and went 'oh my god didnt may just start what happened'#'WAIT ITS JUNE FIRST. GOD. THATS TOO FUNNY TO NOT SAY SOMETHING' and who am i if i dont prioritize the bit honestly#in all honesty. kinda hate it! not bc of internalized homophobia but actually bc of internalized arophobia that has somehow been emphasized#after having my brain shift from '1000% aromantic without a doubt no exceptions' to 'just arospec ig lol??'#but tragically as it turns out. you can not just try and self analyze yourself into speedrunning closure.#horrible news for the oscar zymstarz community frankly#SO i needed a way 2 justify shoving this off my plate and into the trash as fast as possible.#im impatient and cant acknowledge my own emotions. its a flaw im working on it#oh and for all the ppl who know the running gag abt 'my allegations' [i do not have any real allegations for anyone not in jems server]:#that was in fact just a running gag for like well over a year and a half. like that was just a long running bit COMPLETELY unrelated to thi#i only started having this weird sexuality shift or whatever not too long ago lol. like long enough to go through 4 of the 5 stages of grie#[evidently bc like. im posting this. i got close enough to 5 to throw in the towel ykwim]#but on 'oscar zymstarz emotional acknowledgement' time that is....... not long.#but yeah ig tldr like. still ace [thank god] just arospec [probably demiro? i hate trying to figure out my own labels] instead of Aro now#idk none of this is that deep but also like it kinda is unfortunately bc i have to actually talk abt it to be able to ignore it ykwim#but i did! we're done talking abt it now! and now i can act like i dont care and try to make jokes about it to speedrun the rest of it#anyway. Happy Pride everyone. Fukign kitty.#side message to jem. by no means does this mean im not still gonna bully you. its a sign of love but also it is you specific bullying 🫶#you are not safe#edit: this is karma for saying 'thank god'. might be demiace too. this is the worst month of my life /j
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Rarely I ever ventpost on tumblr but when I do it’s because the chronic pain induced insomnia is getting to me and I’m ready to morb about how it’s so bad sometimes that it takes me 4 fuckin hours to get out of the house
#also I’m just kindof upset because it’s like. ok. i’ve suspected for a couple years now that the shit that has been going on has been endo#or perhaps pcos that has gotten out of hand. and like. I’ve been dealing with this shit for 7 years and nobody’s done a damn thing about it#and it’s frustrating because like. I know I’m not making it up. I have back aches all the time. the flare ups are consistent and there is a#pattern to them that doesn’t match anything else that docs have suspected. the pain is real and the insomnia from it is so fucking#debilitating. but like I was just looking at an old ultrasound I got a year ago and they said like ‘everything normal’ and I’m like??? what#and I have another appointment with a new gyno place that doesn’t have a terrible reputation for not doing a damn thing with their patients#but that’s not until june… and I’m really at my wits end NOW#and it’s like nobody listens. nobody cares. meanwhile this shit made me contemplate suicide 5 years ago#and I’m scared that I’m just doomed to this suffering forever#… starting to think it may have been a mistake to stop my antidepressants lmao#even though they gave me a lot of issues too#oh yeah and my old therapist bailed on me today and I’m upset about that too because I was really looking forward to seeing her. she’s#extremely helpful when I see her but lmao this week just told me to go fuck myself I guess#and like no wonder I’m deeply reaquainting with lotr again that shit got me through high school
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Doubting if i should still do a d.t.i.y.s, it may be easier to just do one at 500
#like i have the art#but im either gonna have no time to add in prizes with a fair deadline#or im gonna have to make the deadline really short due to stuff in may and june#or have the d.t.i.y.s end around mid june#and the drawing is so busy i feel bad#theres a parasol made of individual flowers#maybe i uh#maybe its the hairspray talking#did i mention i inhaled a lot of hairspray before writing#(not intentionally)#moxx's contemplations
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ohh my god i cannot wait for the next few days to be over
#its not it yet but the general time is so so stressful for me#spring is always quite tough but may-june is the worst with the peak being right around now#i always get so overwhelmed by the weight of things that have happened very long ago#it makes me feel like any progress i made is just gone though i know it is not the case#last year i spent a specific day heavily dissociated but it ended up culminating into a panic attack/breakdown so foul#that i had to call a friend to walk with lest i went actually insane#i hope that this will not happen again this week#i do apologize for all these personal posts though
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To the girl who told me I was pretty in an Albertsons Starbucks in New Mexico—find me I wanna talk
#my thoughts#seriously the timing of that compliment could not have been more perfect#I didn’t want to go into the store because I felt like a hot mess#we had camped the night before and I hadn’t brushed my hair because I accidentally packed up all the brush before I did it#and I was in my comfy clothes because we had a long car ride ahead of us#so I was feeling self conscious and to get a compliment of such high status hit me hard#it wasn’t that my shirt looked good or anything it was just saying that I myself was pretty#and in such a raw state of myself it made me feel so good#and she was so pretty too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#so yeah if you were a Starbucks barista in Albertsons in Taos New Mexico end of may/beginning of June last year and complimented#a random stranger just know that it is probably my favorite compliment I have ever received and thinking on it makes me happy
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✨Commissions open! closed✨
DM me here or on discord, both @katimanki or fill this form :)
if you have any questions or concerns ask away, my DM's and ask box are always open💖🌈
Commission info also here :)
#byler#stobin#klaine#stranger things#glee#commission sheet#I've been meaning to properly open commissions for years now#and I was supposed to do it by the end of may this year#but then my pride art happened and June was just so busy busy#now I have one week with no plans so I had time to make this. I had made the sheet back in may but I scrapped it#and then I completely redid it. and I did the google form thing too.#commissions open
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looking myself in the mirror like am I really about to completely reshuffle the lover boy timeline just so i can get the single release of i want your sex in there and write beau’s live reaction
#if I want to make it i have to set the timeline back by TWO MONTHS!!!#right now it starts June 20 into 21st and it has to be on the 20/21 because Bobby **** on the 21st#at first I was like okay so I’ll go back one month into may#and the single dropped in the us on the 18th COME ON#I am actually curious at exploring the discourse and controversy though bc it fits with the novels themes#I mean it could be fun!!!! I just have no idea how long I want the timeline to be still#the only thing I know is it needs to extend to October because there’s three major plot points there#that can’t happen in any other month#which would make it at least 6 months#if I want valentines that would make it a ten month timeline#I feel weird because RR and until heaven both had clear ending points#I mean at one point rr was four fucking years but once that was taken away I knew when it needed to end timeline wise#here it’s like well just see how the pacing goes#I almost want to end it at halloween/november bc that would be 1 year after RR ends#but that would also mean george michael faith dropping in time with the emotional climax LOL#wait if i do it like that then beaus essentially spending the whole novel waiting for george michael to release his debut solo album WAITT#that’s so funny in just the right way
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also I need to start working on the inbox trick or treating drawings which means I have to come up with some fun potion ideas but I think it'll be fun trying to come up with them and make fun little designs.
I might make a couple of little potion bottle templates and then use those as a base and see what I can do from there
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#working on halloween stuff in June I guess because otherwise I will leave it too late and not end up doing it in time#but also I kind of wanna like actually plan for stuff and make sure I have stuff prepared#because I might as well make the most of being able to look forward to stuff and having an excuse to celebrate#having stuff to look forward to and trying to make plans for much later in the year#is how I'm dealing with a lot of medical anxiety and irrational fears that may or may not be related to our delusions#but having plans and stuff to get excited about is also just good for our depression in general so I want to really lean into that
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How it all started. Happy anniversary to this parasocial relationship, I guess.
#samblogging#it's actually all bc of my OC#i made sam his faceclaim#i think the dec 2018 post indicates when i decided on it first#after i watched snow white & huntsman which is still one of my faves#i first saw sam in my cousin rachel in 2017 which was incidentally out in june too#i'm making june my samiversary month instead of may. it's also his bday month#so what i'm saying is sam had been on my radar for a while even tho i hadn't watched thg (bc i how i am with that series)#i watched him in peaky blinders and he blew my mind. one of his best performances#this time last year was hard tho. i thought that maybe i should just end it bc i couldn't cope#and all the while he must already have been cast as monte cristo!#and now all those amazing projects honestly i think billy dunne was just a transformative role for him. he's only coming into his prime!#the awards will come#mypost
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June SplatOC has two different AUs where she gets to be angsty and drive the plot around herself but in her canon her biggest plot issues are "unmedicated anxiety" and "setups so cheesy they're too much for even the most obvious of romcoms"
#JUNE IS IMPORTANT. TO ME.#but she tends not to move any plot herself- rather being brought along by May#to be fair shes like. 11. when the plot Happens To Her.#and then severe anxiety stemming from that stops her from ever pushing the plot herself#anyways her two AUs are a swap AU between Jake and May where its May and June living w Parker#and then one where its a 'what if canon OE happened to my OCs' where May is Eight and June ends up lost in the metro#i am NOT elaborating on the Maeight AU however </3 too self indulgent </333#however June gets to be The Angstiest Teen Ever bc she hates May's girlfriend and wants to make rage music about it
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hey there, friends !
so. it’s may. there have been Many rumors about s5 production start dates. i think both david and joe have mentioned june as a set time, and apparently there’s a recent rumor about preliminary filming this month with certain cast members while others may be busy. idk. i Do know that there’s a potential for s5 to be affected if the writer’s strike happens -- which we should be hearing more about soon.
as far as we know, they haven’t finished writing s5 yet. earlier seasons were still being written as the show was in production, and even just last season, the duffers made changes and added scenes late into filming -- like the jonathan and will scene from the finale. if the strike happens, the way things are done behind the scenes could change, or production could be pushed back further.
things seem to be moving as normal for now. and we’ll know more as more news (about the strike + production) becomes available.
#i said i wouldn't post updates like this anymore#but i don't have anyone to talk to about this show and i love to keep updated on my own#and i think we need to be prepared for the potential of production being pushed further back in the event of a strike#i know there are like... casting rumors being thrown around and i'm not sure how legit those are#and with those rumors it seems the plan is for production to run from june 2023 to june 2024#which... we just can't know anything until it's actually happening#anyway. i'm doing a rewatch now and making more gifset plans and stuff#and i think i'll be back on here more after may 15th when this season of 911 ends lol#soooo many posts saved to the drafts to fill up the queue and i'm excited about that#also. can we talk about a wrinkle in time#like... it's literally all about love and hope and i don't know how they could be clearer about that#i hope they start posting books every friday tbh#not like i have time to read all of them but. research is fun#lex talks
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