#mahanon adaar everybody

[thelittlestboi]

Its Sad boi hours

Going through some of my old save files (I tend to make a new save just after every major event so I can use the old file to replay the fun bits) and I came across one that was seemingly a dud, (me bull dorian and Cassandra in the hinterlands collecting shards) but I triggered (either by accident or maybe this is why the file existed who knows) the flirty dialog between bull and dorian the whole "conquer you" bit and I have .... thoughts. This gonna be long so scroll on or buckle up

Imagine if you will, pinning after these two, two of the most handsome men who also happen to be into men, who Also happen to represent two of the biggest parts of yourself. (A mage and a qunari) You adore them, you recognize yourself in them and you unsurprisingly develop huge fat crushes on the both of them.

But its just not quite clicking. You can flirt with Bull all day, he'll let you but its kinda like talking to a wall. He either ignores the more cringe attempts you have flirting (trying to bring up lovemaking after 2 whole conversations), or just kinda skirts the whole conversation.

While flirting with Dorian is like trying to impress the man who is better at everything. Can't complement his face, he knows he's pretty, can't complement his magic, he made time magic, we get it he's great. Can't even give him his amulet back without him yelling at you. (Which is a whole thing. I get it and its heart breaking how love starved Dorian is that he can't even accept a simple gift but thats a different rant) But Mahanon is trying so fucking hard to get these people to like him, he comes back every day and considers himself so lucky to have these men in his live as he tries to figure out who, ultimately, hes gonna really give it his all too.

So he brings them both on missions, he values thier skills and thier input and they get along well enough.... really well... and now Bulls flirting with Dorian.

And thats gotta hurt so bad. Like you've been vying for these men to notice you and instead you've ended up setting them up to each other. And yea bull says "I've got the hints" later and I feel like that makes these moments even worse?

Bull knows the inquistor has the hots for him and he blatantly and I have to belive purposely flirts with others in front of him just to see his reaction. Cassandra and Blackwall no big deal nothing is gonna come of that. But Dorian??? Oh the stab of rejection. The anger and betrayal he feels, mixed with the guilt of being upset.

He should be happy for his friends, excited for this (possibly) happy union of these two amazing men that he respects and looks up too. But he's not, he's angry and hes hurt.

He hears all the things he wished Bull would say to HIM but instead he has to listen to Dorian reject it. Turning down the very thing mahanons craves so deeply(like really that could not be more dead set on mahanon kinks if bioware tried). He wants to scream, he wants to cry, he wants to fire Bull right then and there cause its hard to not take it personal. He wants to shake Dorian till his arms break, wants to scream in his all too pretty face the hes an idiot, throwing away what could have been a perfect moment.

But he can't. Hes the inquistor and frankly there are more important things that need to be taken care of. (Ah to sprinkle in the weight of the world and the crushing need to be everyones savior all while dealing with the growing feeling of imposter syndrome) So he has to swallow all of that up, gotta push it down into a little ball of knots to deal with later. Im both happy and sad there's no dialog options for the inquistor after that scene. I dont think bioware would give me the option to cry silently, but I would and Mahanon does.

He tightens his hold on his staff as his heart tightens in his chest. His lips would tremble as he'd bite his tongue, not a sound would be heard, and from his back you'd think he hadn't even heard them. But the tears that stream down his face, that turn to ice and dissipate into nothingness before ever reaching his chin. They hold all the words he wish he could say.

[thelittlestboi]

I'm a pacifist like institutionally but I'm absolutely certain that violence solves at least some problems on a much smaller level. I don't believe in wars or nuclear weapons or military campaigns I do believe in the power of that guy who punched the nazi in the face so hard his entire media presence immediately crumbled to dust

[paragonrobits]

im thinking about doing a dragon age inquistion AU where all possible inquisitors are present and the true inner circle of the Inquisition, Varric jokingly called them the Iris and the name sort of stuck

probably some things like:

The Adaars are a brother-sister team from a very large family of Vashoth in the free marches. Herah is a mage, a big-hearted motherly sort who loves messing with her friends, its a sign she likes you; as the eldest, she’s used to taking responsibility for others. probably the overall ‘leader’, so to speak. her younger brother Kaaras is a huge tower of muscle that is very quiet, waiting and listening. He’s really a bit shy and introspective, but thinks of himself as a bodyguard for everybody, he is the ultimate brother for everyone, he will protect you and then he will hug you. he will probably cry a little bit. so will herah, they are very emotional

the Cadash cousins are from the Carta but they don’t like it and have been trying to get out their whole lives, this Inquisition thing is kind of a godsend for them. Edric is a charmer and a professional pain in the neck, and Malika is more... straightforward. If she ignores you, that probably means she likes you. otherwise she will headbutt you and then she’ll tell you to piss off already, but she’s very protective of the ones she DOES like, she’s just not too chatty

the Laevallans are... no one is sure how they’re related. they just... are and no one is willing to ask too much about it. they are VERY touchy about human oppression and violence towards elves and deeply suspicious of humans. they’re fine with dwarves and qunari, though. ‘its mainly humans that try to screw us over’ they say. Mahanon is a little more amiable but also fully prepared to fireball you with a smile on his face, while Ellana will warn you right off the bat that she will kill you and EVERYONE YOU HAVE EVER KNOWN if you backstab her and her friends. fair warning. she might apologize if she grows to like you, which she probably will

Maxwell and Evelyn Trevelyn were both moderates during the whole rebellion but privately would love to get back to the position that their families had; Maxwell in particular is a bit of a snob about it but he’s not particularly jerky about it. he’s mostly just a sarcastic little shit. Evelyn could take it or leave it, mostly she’s happy to have a chance to do some real good. she is extremely embarrassed about everything humans have done, she apologizes on behalf of her species a lot, it makes people very awkward

(all ships are canon, all of them)

[thelittlestboi]

IF THIS WAS IN FRONT OF ME ID EAT IT I LOVE THIS SO MUCH

I was tagged by @blarrghe for WIP Wednesday but I didn’t see it until this morning so uhhh

WIP Thursday

I’M LEARNING TO DRAW THE IRON BULL