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â remus lupin masterlist ...
scars (801 words)
remus will forever be loved by you and his marauder brothers, all scars be damned. remus x fem!reader.
defending you (1.7k words)
remus lupin knows when to keep his mouth shut, and as do you. until it comes to each other. remus x fem!black!reader. sirius x sister!reader. platonic!james x reader.
more coming soon ...
#mads' thoughts đ#remus lupin fluff#young remus lupin x reader#remus lupin x reader#remus lupin#young!remus lupin#masterlist#marauders era#imagine#fluff#one shot#marauders x reader#fluff imagine#marauders
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so.. you did dom!theo headcanons. now the people need sub!theo headcanons ofc âșïžâđ»
- im people, sunnyyangie
sub!theo is really vocal about his needs⊠he whines at your ear with arms tightly wrapped around your body from behind so you can feel how hard he is for you as he talks on and on about how badly he needs you to please him. he shamelessly rubs his boner against your ass, and is ready to slouch on the floor right there and then so you can sink on his cock, riding him till he canât form a sentence
he often has his bratty moments not gonna lie, mostly when heâs really horny (telling you that heâs gonna do it himself if you donât make him cum or refusing to admit that he loves being a sub), but after you scold him properly he quickly learns to know his place
sub!theo loves receiving oral and handjobs and they turn him very babbly which he usually isnât when heâs dominant. heâs addicted to the way you play with his cock and the sloppier and playful you are with it the better. he cannot shut up about how amazing you are even if he wanted, and with each orgasm you get out of him he turns more and more into a broken record; âlove itâ, âmoreâ, âplease gimme moreâ all of that but multiplied
i say âwith each orgasmâ, because i feel like he secretly likes to tests his own limits sometimes. he enjoys falling apart when itâs for you, and he has fun seeing how many times you can make him cum. he doesnât mind the pain and the tears, all that matters is that heâs entertaining you with his overwhelming multiple orgasms that keep on going till he physically canât do it anymore
sub!theo loves being praised, but also degraded. especially when it comes to his cock and the way he performs in bed. he gets so turned on when you tease him about his pretty cock that he doesnât know how to use well; telling him that from now on youâre gonna tie him up so you can get off with it yourself. but heâs the happiest when you praise him, compliment him for how good he is, how handsome he looks all fucked out in your bed. it really boosts his ego when he sees how much you love toying with him because of the pure adoration you have for him - he literally gets off on how obsessed you are with him
he loves it when you cover his whole body in love marks, lipstick stains while reminding him that heâs yours and yours only. he doesnât mind the moments when you get a bit possessive, itâs actually the opposite. he loves it when you also take intimate pictures and videos of him cause he knows what youâre gonna use them for in the futureâŠ
#đ: xhdream inbox#â sunnyyangie#oh iâm mad đ#p1harmony hard thoughts#p1harmony hard hours#theo hard thoughts#p1h hard thoughts#taeyang hard thoughts#p1harmony smut#choi taeyang smut#piwon smut#theo x reader#piwon x reader
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You should just stop talking about how mad you are that they walked back on their decision - a LARGE part of the fandom could not afford a subscription, YOU weren't one of those people - therefore you have no idea how it felt to think you had to say goodbye to them and their content.
actually it's my blog and i'm allowed to feel however i want and post whatever i want and YOU do not have to read it. also some of the people who couldn't afford it are my friends and they were sad but they weren't being fucking awful miserable goons about it like apparently that large part of the fandom felt was appropriate.
#im mad that the second they attempted to do something good for themselves and their company - which is their livelihood - they were fucking#viciously and PERSONALLY attacked and those people who claim to love them and be sooo sad to lose them were actively wishing and plotting#for their downfall. im mad they were Bullied into walking it back.#thought that might have been clear from all the other posts about it saying Literally exactly that.#sorry i didnt disclaim my single sentence tag with all the nuance behind it. hope this helps.#anon#wtv#đ
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Is Alien Stage good I haven't watched seen a Vivinos vid since pink b club
Jesus jumpscared me there Mr. Devil ! I havenât seen you interact with me in while
And itâs great! From the two rounds Iâve watched the music and animation is amazing. The angst is delicious. Tragic romance đ€đœ âš
Definitely not a casual / comfort watch tho
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And you've fallen into my trap card, glass of water rn you know the rules and then bed. I've got my eye on you /lh /hj
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YOU FUCKER đ«” HOW COULD YOU /j
#this is cruel and unusual punishment btw#i was ab to sleep anyways tbh. but if i dont wake up to a ridiculously long ask in the morning about#smth that occurred to you overnight or your latest au thoughts im gonna be mad /j#đ anon#also took down the timezone post cuz i dont like just having it Out There but still wanted to lyk<3
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I get how you feel. A lot of my own self worth Iâve put into my ability to create in one way or another. Put all my eggs in one basket. And Iâm a similar way Iâve felt like my mind is slipping. My memories are fuzzy, my hands shake more than they ever have, and some days tend to feel more like blurs or like Iâm supposed to be dreaming than that Iâm actually living it. I donât know if you care for this solidarity, but Itâs tough living with a brain that doesnât agree, that feels like itâs actively fighting against you. A lot of peoples advice doesnât really work when your not in the right headspace, and itâs not like you can force yourself to change that headspace either. I find your work beautiful though, and despite your anguish I look forward to seeing you create more if youâd share it.
Hello, anon. Thank you for taking your time out to share about your own experiences. I talked to some others about this prior, and Iâm glad that people are kind enough to still reassure me on this matter at hand. Putting all of your eggs in one basket is adequately put to describe most of my frustrations with this life the longer it goes on. At first, my only companion was my own brain, which opened the gateway to all sorts of wonderful opportunities and things for me to do â but now, as you said, itâs become hostile and I have to fight it everyday, or at least on an unhealthily regular basis. In a war of attrition, I became more and more bitter. A lot of things are dull these days because of this angry, vague sense. Reality doesnât feel suitable for me anymore, but what remains alluring is the creations of others that I still want to participate in (games, movies, art). I hope you are able to find your own way and grasp firmly that better sense of Something through the fog as well m(__)m
#ASKS đ#Iâm actually relieved that Iâm not the only one#who feels that everything feels so faraway and blurry#I rarely have motivation to do anything#and somehow everyone irl around me seems to think thatâs Normal and Ok#so I thought for a long time I was raving mad for feeling this way
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Top 5 favourite Vernon eras?
ask me my top five anything !
( @ikigaisvt asked me the same thing [ wondering about your top five vernon era đ€Č-sammy <3 ] whehjgrghsdjg i love u guys. i am smushing these together just so i don't post the same thing twice <33 ) ( all of this is retroactive becauseee fml was my first svt cb so i wasn't around for any of these but i have consumed an ungodly amount of content so i can reasonably confidently make this decision )
FEAR.
home;run
don't wanna cry (look. blond vernon can just be so deeply personal, okay)
black eye
hot
#đ - mailbox.#đ - ask games.#â€ïžâđ„ - moots.#hi rj<3#hi sammy<3#THIS WAS ACTUALLY WAY HARDER THAN I THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE.#ready to love era vernon is sooooo up there with all these. so is rock with you. if i could've said all of the eras. i would've.#fuck#whehgfdgf i am so very in love with him#nobody asked by dwc is especially personal bc i watched their killing voice VERY early on into listening to their music#i mean literally within the first like. week. lmao because i wanted to get a feel for their title tracks and bigger songs ig. but anyway#atp i had just barely gotten their names straight and i did not even nearly have their voices figured out yet.#so when they started dwc and i realised it was vernon singing that first part?? OOF. y'all i fucking WHIMPERED. OUT LOUD.#(ok so basically my bestie who is also a dolly introduced me to svt JUST as the black eye promos were dropping)#(and bc of that like. i knew vernon existed. i thought he was cute as hell and i knew he was a rapper and that he had a song coming out)#(but i didn't really know a lot about him beyond that? i was told he was in the hiphop team and thought 'neat. sounds like my type of guy')#so KV was the first time i was like oh FUCK this guy??? can SING???????? like S I N G?????? it felt like being hit with a slab of concrete#so then i ended up watching the mv eight thousand times and all of the live performances and descended into madness very very quickly#aaaaaaand there's a bunch of messily presented context for anyone who was interested lmao thank u for listening BYE<3
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You got this mellow! Learning is hard but you're trying anyway and we're proud of you!
thank u đđđđđđđđ
#đ - love letters#secret admirer#GROWL#BUT IT MAKES ME SO MAD#BC#LEARNING IS NOT HARD FOR ME#SCHOOL IS WHAT I AM GOOD AT#AND#IM NOT DOING GOOD AT IT#today i literally thought about giving up on my dreams of being a PA bc of this LMAOOOOOO#itâs only a 4 week class#so even if i suck#itâs fine#whatever#if it was a bio class i would be screwed#but itâs just a math class#BUT IM SO GOOD AR MATH#FBSHSHSHS#I SHOULD HAVE JUST TAKING STATS DURING A REGULAR SEMESTER
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You can just say you find the xmas pics cute. Iâd rather you be honest
ok thank you for not shooting me <3
#like i got to the point that i donât care and accepted that louis is ok w the kid being in his life#i donât think itâs fair to come for the sisters and saying theyâre playing both sides when hl do the exact same thing lmfao#i lived through 2015/2016 so i donât believe heâs the dad however i think he accepted that role so idgaf anymore#if heâs okay w it then shrug#i donât think itâs ever ending so i ainât getting mad or anything anymore itâs whatever. just having fun#i am not posting stuff about bg just wanted to give my opinion thatâs it i just donât care#and yes i thought the pics were cute hehe i donât think the sisters are evil for posting that when theyâve been doing it since before he was#even born afaik#anyway thatâs all#babygate#< for tagging purposes#đ
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Hello!! Yesterday, apparently, I caught you in an angsty mood... so I wanted to ask if you have any alternative opinion about Gwi and his previous lover...
I'm in an angsty mood most of the time because that's who I am as a person akdjhak
But other opinions about Gwi and his previous lover... Tbh I'm not sure how much and how correctly I remember but I'll try!
I'd love love love to see how things would turn out if he turned her... I imagine he'd have to keep her alive against her will and that'd be so interesting to watch but it also makes me think if he'd truly be okay with that, with her hatred for him on display 24/7, always fearing she'd get out to die instead of having to live this monstrous life...
I also think he'd be extremely upset by her not accepting the new lifestyle or like he'd feel some strange and self-destructive sort of validation?? Sort of like when you do a shitty thing and someone calls you a shitty person and you use that to justify feeling shitty over your whole entire being (does that make sense or is this too specific?)
Another thing I like to think about is if he really loved her or just what she represented, or like if he treasured her just because it was the one familiar person he had left and that's why he cared for her
#i fr can't get over how broken gwi was after her death đ#the white robes the voices the madness... they just don't make men like that anymore...#đ non nons~#lsh thoughts
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only thing iâm hoping for is a ranpo appearance. itâs been too long, i miss my man :(
- âïž
i had so so much faith heâd show up this month, my favorite detective in the world :â( november is a MUST my star !! iâm rooting so hard w/ you
#.* reverieâs loves (Ëá” Ëà·#đp.o. send to: âïž anon!#OKAY BUT THE CHAPTER ?? WHAT R YOUR THOUGHTS on this MADNESS :â)#bsd spoilers#js in case
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â sirius black masterlist ...
amortentia (3.8k words)
one thing about you is that you could not stand sirius black. one thing about sirius black is that he could not stand you. enemies to lovers. sirius black x fem!hufflepuff!reader.
more coming soon ...
#mads' thoughts đ#imagine#fluff#marauders era#marauders x reader#one shot#fluff imagine#sirius black#sirius black x reader#sirius black fluff#sirius black angst#marauders#young!sirius black#young!sirius black x reader
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[A blurry photo, taken in a rush. You can make out a tall-ish figure. They have two different colored eyes, and white hair tied in a low ponytail. They're looking at their phone, incredibly confused.]
??!?!!??
#đ ~ ê° . . txt ê±#đ ~ ê° . . phia ê±#đ; BTWWWW im fine. Gelato is walking with me and she's more bite than bark#đ; seriously. Shes fought and won Multiple battles i thought she was gonna lose. I don't know how she does it....#muse mixup madness#pkmn irl#pokemon irl#rotumblr#pokeblogging
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LOVED YOU AT YOUR WORST - r.c series - NINE
pairings: ex!sweethearts; rafe x thornton!reader; rafe x sofia. chapter warnings: mentions of leukemia; death; pregnancy; abortion.
đMASTERLIST
Rafe had been through a ton of traumatic bullshit by the age of fourteen.Â
His mom had been battling leukemia since he was ten, it started off as an infectionâbut it turned into one of those long, drawn-out wars that tricks you into thinking thereâs hope when there isnât.
It would go away for a bit, just enough to make everyone think the fight was over, and then itâd come slamming back worse every time.
When he was fourteen, it finally took her for good, when heâd been silly enough to believe she might pull through.Â
To be fair, he was only a little kid waiting on a miracle, praying sheâd wake up one day magically cured.
Now, when he looked back on it, he hated himself for being so naive. The signs had been there all along, the nurses whispering in the hallways, Ward turning into this void of a human, who looked at him like he didnât know how to fix it anymore. The talks his mom would have with him about how âno matter what happens, youâll be okay.â
That phrase haunted him for years.
Her death didnât wreck him; it tore him apart and left him in tiny pieces that didnât fit together the same way. He wasnât the same kid afterward, not even close.
He got angrier, distant.Â
He didnât recognize who heâd been before it allâsome kid who really believed in happy endings.
He didnât believe in much after she died, people let you down, life ripped everything good out of your hands. Why bother holding on to anything at all?
It wasnât just the grief; it was the guilt.
Heâd get mad at her, sometimes, for being sick. Heâd slam his door and cry into his pillow because he just wanted a normal life, a mom who wasnât always tired or in pain or hooked up to some machine.
He hated himself for that.Â
The day of her funeral, he remembered everything, even though he wished he didnât. The church smelled like old wood and lilies, that smell that never left you once it sank in.
People kept coming up to him, patting his shoulder, saying things like, âSheâs in a better place now,â or âStay strong, buddy.âÂ
He wanted to yell at them, shake them, make them shut up. She wasnât in a better place. A better place wouldâve been here, alive, laughing at his dumb jokes, or rolling her eyes at him for leaving his shoes in the hallway. It wouldnât be six feet under, locked in a box, shoved into a hole in the ground like she never existed.
He didnât cry, not when they opened the casket for everyone to say their final goodbyes, not when his dad stood up and choked through some half-assed speech that was mostly apologies and memories, not when they lowered her into the ground, the ropes creaking as her casket disappeared into the earth.Â
He just stood there, hands in his pockets, staring straight ahead, as if he wasnât even present. Inside, though?
His his chest was on fire.Â
He refused to let even a single tear fall, it felt pointless, it wasnât going to bring her back. It wasnât going to fix anything. And deep down, he thought he didnât deserve to cry, if heâd been stronger if heâd prayed harder, or been a better son, sheâd still be alive.
The sound he remembered the most was the thud of dirt hitting the coffin after the service. It was final, loud, the earth itself mocking him. People around him sniffled, hugged each other, wiped at their eyes, but Rafe just stood there, staring down into the hole, fists buried in his pockets until his nails dug into his palms.Â
He kept thinking about how wrong this all was, this wasnât where she was supposed to end up, and none of this was fair.
She shouldâve been there.
She shouldâve been standing next to him, arm around his shoulder, telling him to stop slouching, whispering something to make him laugh in the middle of all this sadness. Instead, she was in there, soon the dirt would cover it up, and thatâd be it.Â
Gone. Just like that.
After the service, Rafe didnât try to stick around for the house gathering, he wasnât going to survive that. All those people crowding the living room, balancing paper plates of casserole, acting like they gave a fuck about his mom. It was fake, all of it.Â
Theyâd forget about her in a week.
He slipped out when no one was paying attention, cutting through the side yard and heading to the only place that felt halfway normalâthe old skate park behind the rec center. It was run-down as fuck, but he and his friends used to hang out there all the time, sitting on the busted ramps, talking trash, or just doing nothing.
When he got there, it was empty, which was exactly what he wanted. He climbed up on the old half-pipe, sitting cross-legged with his elbows on his knees, staring at the cracked pavement below.Â
He couldnât stop replaying the day in his head, the casket, the dirt, the stupid better place comments. His chest felt like it was breaking in a million tiny pieces, but he still couldnât cry, his body just wouldnât let him.Â
Instead, he just sat there, wishing the world would leave him alone for five minutes.
Thatâs when he heard footsteps behind him.
He thought about runningâdidnât need anyone seeing him like this, especially not now. But then you spoke.
âFigured Iâd find you here.â
He didnât look at you right away, just exhaled sharply, running a hand through his hair. âYeah? Well, congrats. You win the prize.âÂ
He wasnât in the mood to be nice, even to you.
But you didnât flinch, you never did. Thatâs one of the things he liked about youâyou didnât get scared off when he got like this. You just climbed up next to him and sat down.Â
You didnât try to say all that comforting bullshit people had been feeding him all day, and he was grateful for that.
âYou okay?â you asked eventually.
He snorted. âDo I look okay?â
"Sorry, stupid question."
He sighed, hating that he was being asshole to his best friend, "It's fine."
When he finally glanced at you, you were watching him, trying to figure out what to say. It made him nervous, the way you looked at him. You always did thatâyou cared about what was going on in his head, you saw more than what he let people see.
âIâm not gonna sit here and pretend I know what youâre feeling,â you said finally. âBut you donât have to do this alone, Rafe. You know that, right?â
If only you knew what you would be going through just three short years later.
He wanted to snap at you, tell you to leave, he was fine, but the words wouldnât come. Instead, he just stared down at the pavement again, âFeels like I do.â
You didnât say anything, just moved closer, close enough that your arm brushed against his. It wasnât much, but it was enough to make him feelâŠsomething, less alone.
Rafe didnât know how long you both sat there, couldâve been ten minutes, couldâve been an hour. Time didnât feel real anymore, you didnât push him to talk, which he appreciated more than heâd ever admit, you didnât throw out any of those awkward âitâll get betterâ lines. You just sat with him.Â
âYou can talk to me, you know.âÂ
He shook his head without looking at you. âThereâs nothing to say.â His voice was rough, flat. âSheâs gone. Thatâs it.â
âYou donât have to pretend like it doesnât suck."
He clenched his jaw, staring at the pavement like if he looked at you, everything would break.
âWhatâs the point?â he muttered. âCryingâs not gonna change anything. Itâs not gonnaââ His voice cracked, and he swallowed hard, trying to force it back.
âRafe.â You sighed, and this time âYou donât have to hold it together for anyone, okay? Itâs me.â
That broke him, actually broke him. His chest felt tight, suddenly he couldnât keep it in.
His breath hitched, his shoulders shook, and before he knew it, tears were sliding down his face. He tried to stop it, to hide it, scrubbing his hands over his face, but it was no use.
âShit,â he choked out, his voice cracking once more.
âHey, hey,â you said quickly, and before he could pull away or do something stupid like tell you to leave, you scooted over.
He froze for a second, unsure what to do, but then he remembered the funeral, the whispers, the dirt hitting the casket, all the things he couldnât stop thinking aboutâhe just let it all out.
The first sob ripped out of him so suddenly it startled him, he hunched over, elbows on his knees, hands gripping his hair, as if he could physically stop himself from breaking. But it didnât work.
Another sob followed, and then another, and soon they were pouring out of himâloud, messy, completely out of his control. He couldnât stop it, and he hated it.
He leaned into you, his forehead pressing against your shoulder, and just cried. When he felt your arms instantly wrap around him, pulling him into a hug as if youâd been waiting for his permission, he shattered completely.
âSheâsââ His voice caught in his throat, and he had to stop, gasping for air as the tears kept coming. âSheâs gone. Sheâs gone, and Iââ He broke off.
It was ugly and loud and nothing like how heâd pictured himself breaking down, but he didnât care. You didnât tell him itâd be okay or try to make him stop, just held him, your arms tight around him.Â
âI miss her,â he whispered, his voice so small it barely sounded like him. âI miss her so much, and IâI donât know what to do.â
He couldnât remember the last time heâd cried like this, and part of him hated how exposed it made him feel. He hated crying in front of peopleâanyone. But right now, with you, he didnât feel embarrassed.Â
âI know,â you nodded, your hand moving in small circles on his back. âI know. Iâm so sorry.â
âIââ he choked out, his voice breaking. âI canâtâthis isnâtâitâs not fair.â
âItâs not,â you didnât want to scare away the fragile pieces of him that were finally surfacing. âItâs not fair. None of it is.â
He couldnât stop shaking or gasping for breaths that hitched in his chest. The more he tried to push it all backdown, the harder it fought to claw its way out. For years, heâd kept it buriedâburied so deep he thought heâd never have to deal with it.
âI hate it,â he managed, the words tumbling out in a jagged mess. âI hate that sheâs gone. I hate that I didnâtââ He stopped, gripping his hair harder. âI didnât do enough. I shouldâve been better, done somethingâanything.â
âStop. You canât do that to yourself.â
He shook his head violently, âBut I did. I gave up on her. I stopped believing sheâd get better, IâI got mad at her for being sick. What kind of son does that? I didnât even say goodbye the way I shouldâve. I justâI left the hospital because I couldnât take it anymore, and then sheââ His voice cracked again, and his hands dropped from his hair to his lap, clenched into fists âSheâs gone, and I left. I wasnât there when sheââ His breath hitched, and he buried his face in his hands.
âYouâre a kid. Itâs not your fault, okay? None of this is.â
âBut it feels like it is,â he shot back, âI shouldâve done something, anything. I just feel soââ He stopped, letting out a shaky exhale. âEmpty. Like nothing I do matters anymore.â
âIâm not going anywhere.â
The way you said it, so certainâHe didnât know why, but it cut through the noise in his head just enough to let him breathe again.
âI donât know how to keep going,â he admitted, âI donât know how t-to live without her.â
Growing up, Rafe had always been a mommaâs boy.Â
She was his safe placeâthe one person who didnât make him feel like he had to be someone else. With her, he didnât have to try so damn hard to be tough, or perfect, or whatever the hell his dad wanted him to be.Â
Ward wasnât the kind of dad who let his kids cry on his shoulder or told them he loved them every day. No, Ward was the kind of dad who believed in rules.
Men didnât cry. Men didnât show weakness. Men didnât mess upâor, if they did, they sure as hell didnât admit it.
He expected Rafe to follow those rules like they were gospel.
The worst part? His rules about what it meant to be a man stuck with Rafe, even when he didnât want them to. When his mom got sick, he found himself choking back tears in the hospital bathroom, staring at his reflection and hearing Wardâs voice in his head:Â âCrying doesnât solve anything. Youâve gotta be strong, for her, for your sisters.â
He had this idea in his head of what Rafe was supposed to beâstrong, dependable, successful. He didnât yell or lose his temper like some dads back then, he just made him feel like shit in this fucked up way.
Rafe tried, shit, heâd tried, but it felt impossible.
Every time he looked at his mom, pale and tired but still managing to smile at him like he was her whole world, he felt like he was dying too, then heâd feel guiltyâfor being so weak, for wanting to break down when she was the one fighting for her life.
It didnât help that Ward had always had a soft spot for Sarah. Everyone could see it, even Rafe. She was the golden child, the one who could do no wrong, the one Ward went out of his way to protect.Â
If Rafe screwed up, it was a lecture or a punishment, but if Sarah did? Ward would just shake his head and say, âSheâs still young. Sheâll learn.â
It used to piss him off more than he wanted to admit. It wasnât that he hated herâshe was his sister, and he loved her. But how could he not resent her? He felt invisible when she got all the attention and the understanding, while he was expected to man up and deal with it.
After her funeral, things changed.
Rafe became quicker to snap, to walk away from anything that felt too hard. He was only himself around you, behind closed doors, never for preying eyes. Sarah grew colder, retreating into her own world where everything was controlled and distant.
Every time they spoke, it ended in shouting matches, slamming doors, or long stretches of silence that neither of them attempted to solve.
Except when you were there.
Ward got even colder, the grief had frozen whatever part of him used to care. He threw himself into work, making sure Sarah was okay, and barely even looked at his son. When he did, it was usually to tell him to pull it together, or to stop being so âmoody.â
Rafe started to wonder if he even cared that he was falling apart, if he ever noticed the nights Rafe stayed out too late or came home smelling like booze. If he saw the way he avoided talking to him, how he flinched whenever Ward brought up his mom. But if his dad noticed, he never said anything.Â
He thought it was just Rafe being Rafeâangry, unpredictable, a disappointment.
Fast forward to the present, and he hadnât felt this helpless since that day at the funeral, not even when Wardâs died four months ago.Â
You werenât in his life anymoreâhadnât been for a while and you were possibly pregnant.Â
He wasnât a hundred percent sure, but it made sense, everything lined up with that possibility. He thought back to everything youâd been through together, the times youâd been there for him when no one else was, how youâd seen the pieces of him no one else cared to.
Now, you were having his kidâand he was hearing about it from Topper?
Rafe spent the first hour after Topper dropped the news pacing his bedroom like a caged animal, his heart wouldnât stop racing and he felt like a ticking time bomb.Â
The Rafeâthe one who flew off the handle, yelled, broke things, and pushed people awayâwas begging to get out. But Topperâs voice kept replaying in his head, he had to act right, be calm, for your sake. To prove himself.
The problem was, that staying calm wasnât his strong suit.Â
Heâd spent years burying every emotion he couldnât control under layers of anger, and now he was supposed to sit with the hurricane in his chest and figure out how to make things right.Â
For the first time in a long time, he realized he didnât even know where to start.
That night, he locked himself in his room, ignoring his phone, his friends, everyone. None of it mattered anymore, the only thing he could think about was youâand the baby.Â
He spent hours pacing, running his hands through his hair, trying to think of what the fuck he was going to say.
What was he gonna say after everything heâd put you through? After the fight, the distance, the way heâd shut you out when youâd been nothing but good to him until that point?
He sat down on the edge of his bed, head still in his hands, and let himself feel everything heâd been avoiding. The fear, the regret, the anger at himself. He thought about youâhow you used to look at him like he wasnât just a mess of a person, youâd stuck by him even when heâd given you every reason to leave.
You werenât here anymore.
Heâd pushed you so far away you hadnât even told him about the situation yourself. Why would you anyway? He ghosted you and the next time you saw him he was with someone else. He could still see the look on your face when you saw him that nightâarms slung casually around Sofia, while you sat in your car, eyes wild, you hadnât tried to step outside, hadnât yelled or made a scene, you simply drove off.Â
It wasnât until an hour later and terrible text message to you, that drunk and pissed at himself, he realized just how badly heâd screwed up. But by then, the damage was done, and heâd been too much of a coward to fix it. What followed was a sea of bad decisions and nights he couldnât remember, trying to drown out the ache of losing you.Â
Heâd been drinking for Wardâs death until that point, now he did it for you.
Everything was catching up to himâthe way he let his dadâs voice in his head drown out his own, making him let you slip through his fingers.
He didnât deserve youâhe knew that.
By sunrise, Rafe was still wide awake, sitting on the floor of his room surrounded by half-crumpled pieces of paper. Heâd been trying to write down what he wanted to say to you, but everything sounded wrong. Heâd never been good with words, not the kind that mattered.
He wasnât a dad, wasnât even close to being the kind of guy who could be a dad.Â
What the fuck did he know about raising a kid? Changing diapers? Teaching someone right from wrong? Being patient? But the thought of youâof you carrying his kidâhit him differently.
At first, it had been pure panic. You hated him, what if you didnât want him involved? What if he was just like Wardâcold, distant, always expecting too much? What if he screwed the kid up the same way he felt like heâd been screwed up?Â
He pictured it without meaning to: you holding a tiny bundle in your arms, your face soft in a way he hadnât seen in so long. A kid with your smile, your laughâbut his eyes. Or his messy hair. It scared the shit out of him.
What if she doesnât even want to keep it?
Rafe hadnât let himself go there at first, it was a lot to wrap his head around, the idea that there might not even be a child to fight for.Â
The thought of you going through this, struggling to make a choice that he couldnât help with, made him feel useless.Â
Frustrated, he grabbed his keys and headed out, needing to clear his head. The island was silent this early, the kind of calm that used to make him feel trapped, but now, though, it was a relief. He drove aimlessly for a while, the salty air whipping through the open windows, until he found himself parked at the beach.
He didnât know why heâd come hereâwell, youâd always bring him here when he spiraled. He sat there, watching the waves crash against the shore, feeling a weird sort of clarity that he hadnât felt in months.Â
Perhaps it was the silence, or the way the ocean didnât care about all the fucking mess in his head, but something about it made him stop spiraling for a second.
He started to think about what Topper had saidânot just about staying calm, but about proving to you that he still cared. That wasnât something he could do with words alone, not after everything. Heâd have to show you, heâd have to be the version of himself you used to believe in, the one who wasnïżœïżœt ruled by his worst impulses.
Rafe knew the first step before he could even think about talking to you: he had to end things with Sofia. They werenât official, but they might as well have been.Â
People talked, made assumptions, and sure, heâd let them. It was easier that wayâless explaining, less having to deal with the uncomfortable truth that heâd only been with her to fill the empty space you left behind. It was cruel, but at the time, he hadnât cared.Â
Sofia wasnât you, but she was there, and more importantly, she didnât expect anything from him. Keeping things going with her wasnât just a bad idea; it was disrespectful. To you, to her, to himself. He couldnât pretend he cared about her like thatânot when his heart had never really left your orbit.
When he showed up at her place that morning before work, she didnât seem surprisedânot even a little. Sheâd seen the writing on the wall for weeks now, but tonight, seeing him standing there, just confirmed what she already knew.
She watched him like she was waiting for him to get to the point, but not impatientlyâjust resigned, she already knew what he was about to say.
âCan I come in?âÂ
She let him in without a word, she wasnât mad, not really. If anything, she felt sadâmostly for him, a little for herself. How the fuck was he supposed to explain this without sounding like the worst person alive?
âYou okay?â she asked quietly, she wasnât being politeâshe was trying to read him, figure out where this was going.
Rafe didnât sit, didnât take off his jacket. He stayed standing, hands shoved deep in his pockets, trying to find the words that wouldnât make this worse. âIââ He cleared his throat. âI need to talk to you about something.Â
She raised an eyebrow, her lips pressing together in a tight line. âBe honest.â
âThis...this isnât fair to you,â he started, his words tumbling out fast, âI shouldâve been real with you from the start, but I wasn't," He swallowed hard, âYou deserve better than me using you to forget someone else.â
Sofia didnât say anything at first, just crossed her arms loosely, not making it easy for him, but she wasnât making it harder, either.
âI shouldnât have dragged you into this,â he continued, forcing himself to look at her. âIt feels wrong and itâs not because of you. Youâre great. Youâve been...youâve been more patient with me than I deserve.â
Her lips curved into a small, almost imperceptible smile, one that wasnât quite happy but wasnât cruel either. âBut youâre still in love with her.â
He didnât know why it shocked himâSofia had always been perceptiveâbut hearing her say it out loud made it real in a way it hadnât been before.
âIââ He hesitated, but there was no point in denying it. âYeah.â
âI knew,â She nodded like sheâd been waiting for that confirmation. âI figured. I told myself it didnât matter becauseâbecause I thought maybe youâd move on. Maybe I could help you move on. But you didnât, and Iââ She pressed her lips together, shaking her head as her arms tightened around herself.
Rafeâs brows furrowed. âWhy didnât you say anything?â
She shrugged, the movement almost casual.Â
âBecause I really like you,â she admitted, âI knew. The party? When you got blackout drunk after seeing her leave? Or the country club, when you nearly started a fight defending her? I know you drove her to the hospital too. I kept hopingâGod, I kept hoping youâd see me, that youâd let me be enough.â
Heâd known she caredâhe wasnât blindâbut hearing her saying like that made him realize just how he fucked up. She wasnât wrong. He had been trying to numb himself, to drown out the reality of losing you, and she had been the collateral damage.
He looked away, guilt twisting in his chest. âI didnât mean to drag you into this. That wasnât fair to you.â
âNo,â she agreed, her tone firm but not unkind. âIt wasnât, but I donât think you meant to hurt me either, you were trying to hurt yourself. It's still stupid of me to try, knowing you need to figure your shit out, but you donât have to end things. I know what I signed up for, Rafe. Iâm not asking you to choose me over herâIâm just asking you to try."
There was no anger in her voice, no bitternessâjust exhaustion. It made him feel like a piece of shit because she deserved to feel angry, to lash out at him. But instead, she was still trying to give him a way out, a way to make this easier on himself.
âIâll take whatever part of you I can get.â
It wasnât desperate or pleadingâit was resigned. She already knew the answer, but she couldnât help saying it out loud.
Rafe shook his head, his jaw tightening as he fought to keep his composure. âNo,â he said, his voice firm. âYou deserve someone who can give you everything. Thatâs not me.â
âWhy not?â she pressed, her tone insistent.
âBecause all of me already belongs to her,â Rafe admitted, his voice breaking at the end. âIt always has, it always will.â
Sofia blinked, her lips parting slightly in surprise, but she didnât look hurtâjust...sad. She nodded slowly, her shoulders dropping in defeat.
âI hope she knows what she has, and I pray you show her," She stood up and motioning toward the door. âWe both deserve better than a guy who drinks himself to death after seeing her at a party. So do you.â
Rafe didnât move right away, unsure if he should say something more, apologize again, explain himself better.Â
âThank you,â he said finally, his voice quieter than he meant it to be.
âDonât thank me,â she replied, âJust do better.â
âI shouldnât have let it go on this long,â he confessed, âI justâI didnât know how to stop.â
Her expression softened just enough to show the tiniest sliver of empathy. âFor what is worth, I think she still loves you too, even if she hates you more right now.â She paused, her hand resting on the doorknob, but she didnât turn around, âNext time, please donât do this to someone else, and donât do it to her again, either.â
She still loves you too, even if she hates you more right now. He wanted to believe it, needed to believe it. The faint possibility, that you might still love him, it meant he had a chance but it also meant he could screw them up even worse.
He stood slowly, âThank you,â he repeated,âFor...everything.â
She didnât look at him, but she nodded, opening the door and holding it for him. âTake care of yourself,â she said, and it wasnât cold or angryâjust sad.
By the time he got back to his car, he knew she wasnât wrong, about any of it.Â
She hadnât screamed or cried or made him feel like the asshole he knew he was, that made it worse. If his mom was here, she wouldâve smacked him across he head for hurting two amazing women at the same time.Â
He hadnât been ready to deal with his feelings for youânot when he started whatever the fuck it was with Sofia, not when he ran into you at that party, not when he defended you at the country club.
Heâd been running, hiding, trying to bury everything under distractions that only made him feel emptier.
He leaned back against the headrest, closing his eyes, and for a moment, it was like he was fourteen again, sitting on the edge of his momâs hospital bed while his mom teased him.
âCome on, sweetheartâ sheâd said, her voice playful, even through the weariness. âYouâve been talking about her birthday for weeks. I think you like her more than youâre letting on.â
Rafeâs head shot up, and his ears burned red. âMooomm,â he groaned, dragging out the word, âitâs not like that, sheâs my best friend.â
âSheâs your pretty best friend,â sheâd corrected, smiling at him in that knowing way only she could. âYouâre gonna pick out something nice for her, right?â
âI already did,â he mumbled, pulling a small velvet box from his pocket and holding it out like it was some great secret. Inside was a delicate bracelet heâd saved up for, something special, something he thought youâd like.
His momâs smile had softened, the teasing fading into something more tender.Â
âSheâs lucky to have you,â sheâd said, reaching out to ruffle his hair. âEven if you are a little knucklehead sometimes.â
Heâd ducked away, embarrassed but secretly pleased, tucking the box back into his pocket.
âMâm not a knucklehead,â he complained, but she just laughed, and it was one of the last times he remembered hearing her laugh like thatâfree, unburdened, just his mom.
âSheâs a good one. Youâve got good taste.â Her smile softened, and the teasing faded into something gentler. âI hope Iâm still around when you get married. Iâd love to see you happy like that.â
The words were a punch he hadnât expected. He opened his mouth, but nothing came out. What could he even say to that? He wanted to argue, to tell her she would be, but the look in her eyes stopped him.
She knew. She always knew.
He just nodded, biting the inside of his cheek hard enough to taste blood. âMe too.â
She squeezed his hand. âPromise me something?â
âAnything,â he said without thinking because he meant it.
âWhen you find that personâreally find themâdonât let them go. Not for anything.â
He nodded again.
Years later, standing in a stupid fucking car alone, those words haunted him. Heâd found that person, heâd had her and heâd let her go.
âGod,â he muttered, the self-loathing reaching a new high, âIâm so sorry, mom.â
As terrifying as it was to think about being a dad, to think about raising a kid when he was still trying to figure out his own life⊠the idea of losing this chanceâof losing you, or the baby, or both, for good âscared him even more.
For the first time in a long time, Rafe Cameron felt something close to hope, but it was tainted in so much fear and uncertainty, that he wasnât sure what to do with it.
The rest of the day, he forced himself to slow down.Â
He went back home, cleaned up the disaster of a room heâd been holed up in, and tried to think like a normal guy instead of a walking disaster. He even let Topper come over, though his patience for his relentless commentary wore thin fast.
âYouâve got one shot at this, dude,â Topper said, perched on Rafeâs desk like he owned the place. âIf you go in there guns blazing, sheâs just gonna think youâre the same old Rafe. And honestly? You canât blame her.â
Rafe rolled his eyes, but he didnât argue, Topper was right, as annoying as it was to admit.
He spent the evening coming up with a planâjust enough to make sure he didnât go in blind. He practiced what heâd say in his head, pacing the kitchen while the sun sank below the horizon. Every time he started to panic, he forced himself to breathe, to remember why he was doing this.
By the time 24 hours had passed, he didnât feel ready, but he knew he couldnât wait any longer. The thought of you sitting somewhere, thinking he really didnât care or that he wouldnât step up?
That was worse than any fear he had about facing you. So he grabbed his keys, and headed out, this time, he wasnât running away.
Rafe stood by your door, heâd gotten in the property using the gateâs code, one heâd hoped you had changed to keep him out, but you hadnât.
Heâd never been good at patience, never needed to beânot when he could push his way into anything. But this was different, you were different, always had been.
The wood under his hand was cool, in a way that pissed him off because it reminded him that there was a barrier between you and him, again, always.
He wanted to scream, kick the fucking thing down like the old Rafe wouldâve, or instead use the keys youâd given him years ago. Instead, he stood there, swallowing his pride because you were worth it, even if it was tearing himself in half.
His knuckles dragged down the frame, fist clenching as if the pressure would ground him, keep him from losing his shit. He wasnât here to fight, wasnât here to make your life harder, no matter how much you thought he was.Â
The door rattled slightly when he pressed his forehead against it, eyes squeezing shut. âFive minutes. Please.â
Nothing.
His jaw worked, teeth grinding against the words he wanted to say but couldnât, not if he wanted you to open the door. He couldnât do this anymoreâthe back-and-forth, the lies. He wasnât sure what broke firstâyour resolve or the knot in his throat.Â
When you didnât answer again, he sank to sit on the porch, back against the door like he could still feel you on the other side. You were thereâclose enough to touch if there wasnât this fucking door between you.
That was his fault.
He used to be the guy youâd let in without thinking twice, shit, there was a time when he didnât need to knock.
He was in, part of your life, part of you.
Now, you were holed up, scared of him. Yeah, that ate him alive. Heâd earned that fearâevery cold shoulder, the slammed door, he deserved it.
He shouldâve been different, been better, been someone you didnât have to lock out. You were scared, and it killed him because it wasnât just fear, it was him. He was the reason you didnât feel safe enough to let the secret out, the reason your voice cracked when you told him to leave.
He had put that look in your eyes, the one he couldnât unsee, no matter how hard he tried.
âFuck,â he muttered.
He could almost hear you breathing, shakily, like you were preparing yourself to outlast him.
He wanted to push. Fuck, he wanted to shove the door open, make you look at him, make you tell him everythingâbut that was the old Rafe, he took what he wanted, and bulldozed through whatever stood in his way.
Where had that ever gotten him? Nowhere but here: on the wrong side of a door, the wrong side of you.
He exhaled, long and slow, hand falling limp to his side.
What the hell was he doing? Forcing his way in, forcing answersâthat wasnât going to fix this. It never did. Youâd push harder, build the walls higher, and he couldnât stomach the idea of you hating him more than you already did.
âOkay,â he said quietly, his voice strained. âI get it.â
He didnât know if you could still hear him, perhaps you were blocking him out completely. Maybe you were curled up with your hands over your ears. He hoped you werenât crying, though the thought twisted and turned something deep in him.
âIâm not gonna push you,â he said, hating how defeated he sounded. âYou donât owe me anything.â
He ran a hand down his face, swallowing hard, trying to keep it together.
âI just... I just want you to be okay.â He hesitated, then pressed his palm flat against the door, wishing he could reach you somehow, without scaring you, âBaby or not.â
He waited, hoping for somethingâa sound, a movement, anything, but the silence was absolute.
His heart clenched as he pushed off the door and took a step back, his shoes scraping against the porch. He didnât want to leave, he never wanted to leave, but this wasnât about what he wanted. Not anymore.
âIâm sorry,â he apologized, almost to himself, "I'm so sorry. Iâm sorry it took me this long, okay?â
He stopped halfway, looking back, hopingâprayingâfor some sign. A light flicking on, the sound of the door creaking open, your voice calling his name, anything.
But the house stayed still, it had already moved on from him.Â
He didnât remember deciding to drive to Poguelandia; he felt it in his gut, in the pit of his chest, this pounding certainty that Sarah knew something he didnât. You wouldnât tell himâbut Sarah? Youâd chosen her to drive you home from the hospital just a few days ago.
She was the only person that could lie to his face properly, he couldnât fucking figure her out, she was always deflecting shit wherever they talked.
By the time he pulled up to the poguesâ little hideaway, the sky had darkened, the place lit only by the glow of string lights and the hum of voices inside. He sat in the truck for a second, staring at the house, willing himself to calm down.
Barging inâloud, pissed, impulsiveâwasnât going to get him what he needed. But fuck, it was hard not to.
He climbed out, slamming the door behind him with just enough force to feel better for half a second. The screen door creaked as he stepped up to the porch, and he could already hear them insideâSarahâs laugh, JJ cracking some dumbass joke, the rest of them chiming in like they didnât have a care in the world.
He hated this, hated how they all looked at him, as if he was some ticking time bomb ready to explode. They werenât wrong.
Rafe knocked, hard and sharp, the laughter inside cut off instantly. Footsteps approached the door, hesitant. A second later, it swung open, and there she was, his sister, looking at him like he was the last person she wanted to see.
âRafe,â she said, one hand still gripping the door. âWhat are you doing here?â
He didnât waste time with pleasantries. âWe need to talk.â
Her brows pulled together, suspicion creeping into her expression. âNow? Seriously?â
âYeah, now,â he snapped, stepping closer, his voice low enough to keep from drawing the othersâ attention. âDonât make me say it in front of them.â
She hesitated, glancing over her shoulder toward the voices in the living room. âRafe, I donât thinkââ
âDonât,â he cut her off, his tone sharper than he meant. He swallowed hard, forcing himself to soften, to keep it together. âI need you to tell me the truth.â
She glanced back again, then sighed, stepping out onto the porch and closing the door behind her. He was already pacing, hands twitching at his sides, hardly able to contain the energy inside him.Â
The way she looked at himâwary, guardedâonly made it worse.
âWhat the hell is your problem?â she asked, crossing her arms, like she was already bracing for a fight.
âMy problem?â he barked out a laugh, sharp. âYou really wanna play dumb right now? Youâve been keeping something from me, Sarah. I know you have.â
Her brows knit together, feigning confusion, âDude. Whatâs this about? I donât know what youâre talking about.â
âBullshit,â he hissed, stepping closer, âDonât lie to me. I already know, okay? I know about the baby.â
She didnât say a word, didnât confirm a thing, just stared at him like he was some wild animal.
âWhere did you get the idea that sheâs pregnant?â
His mouth opened, then closed. It felt wrong to snitch on Topper when heâd been one making him pry a little more.
âWell?â she pressed, âAnswer me. How did you come up with that?â
Saying it out loud felt like admitting heâd been just as reckless and intrusive as everyone expected him to be. His hand ran over his face, trying to stall.
âI didnât just make it up.â
Sarahâs eyes narrowed, her patience waning. âNo shit. So where, Rafe?â
He glanced away, then back, his voice defensive. âTopper said something, okay? He heardâhe thoughtââ Rafe stopped, knowing how weak it sounded.
 âTopper? Youâre taking life advice from Topper now?â
âHe didnât mean anything by it!â Rafe was quick to defend him, âHe just... he mentioned some things, and it got me thinking. Thatâs all.â
âThatâs all?â Sarah repeated, âYou barged over there because Topper mentioned âsome thingsâ ? Jesus Christ.â
His hands flew up in frustration. âWhat was I supposed to do? Pretend I didnât hear it? Ignore it and hope it went away? I needed to know!â
âNo, you didnât,â Sarah shot back. âYou wanted to know. Thereâs a difference, and itâs the difference that keeps getting you into this shit.â
âDonât look at me like that,â Rafe pointed a finger in his direction, âLike Iâm crazy or something. Iâm not stupid.â
"Youâre just not worth the energy right now."
Instead of crying like he wanted to, he let out a dry laugh, pacing back and forth in front of her.
"Right. Sure. I can see it all over you, just say it."
She shook her head, her lips pressing into a thin line. "You donât know what youâre talking about. Neither does Topper.â
âStop lying!â His voice rose, loud enough to echo into the dark yard. âJust stop. You know something.â
Sarahâs jaw clenched, and for a moment, Rafe thought heâd finally cracked her. Except instead of giving him what he wanted, she just let out a slow breath, meeting his eyes with a steadiness that made him feel like a child fighting for his favorite toy.
âYou want to know the truth?âÂ
âYes,â he bit out, his chest heaving.
She stepped forward so they were only inches apart. âThe truth is, you donât deserve to know. Not yet.â
Everyone kept telling him the same thing, couldnât they see he was already trying?
He staggered back a step. "What the fuck does that mean?"
"It means, that whatever youâre looking for, whatever answers you think you deserve, theyâre not yours to take. Not until you can handle them without breaking everything you touch."
He flinched, her words striking something inside him, âYou donât get to decide that for me,â he said, almost desperate.
âIâm not deciding anything,â she replied, her eyes never leaving his. âYouâve spent these last few months making everything about you. Your pain, your anger, your needs.â
He glanced away, âSo, what? You donât trust me?â
Her silence was louder than anything she could have said.
âYou donât,â he murmured, the realization bitter in his mouth.
"I donât," she agreed, âYouâre still not the person she needs you to be, and until you can prove you can do thatâwithout me, without anyone holding your handâyouâre better off not knowing.â
âIâm trying. I swear to fucking God, Iâm trying. I donât know how to fix it.â
âSheâs scared youâre going to hurt her againâwhether you mean to or not. Youâre dating someone else, for godâs sake.â
âI ended it. This morning.â
Sarahâs eyebrows lifted slightly, âDoesnât change the past, Rafe. And it sure as hell doesnât make everything better overnight.â
Rafe flinched, the words sinking into him like stones. "Why the fuck do you think Iâm here? I donât want to hurt herâI canât do anything if she wonât even talk to me."
Topper still had that number.Â
You hadnât hidden it well enough, he hadnât done anything with it, but it was tempting. All he had to do was call, just to confirm, he told himself. Not to pry, simply to know for sure.
âWhatever youâre thinking, donât. This isnât something you can force your way into. She would never forgive you, please be smart.â
His first instinct was to lash out, fire back some venom-laced retort that would sting as much as her tone. He nodded, swallowing hard.
âOkay,â He dragged a hand through his head, âI know that, I know. But I canât just sit here, doing nothing. I need to... I need to show her I can do better. That I am better.â
âYou need to crawl through hell to understand a fraction of what sheâs going through; you need to stop thinking about what you want and start thinking about her.â
His hands fell to his sides, limp, the fight suck out of him. She was rightâhe hated that she was. This wasnât about him anymore; it never had been.
 âWhat can I do?â
Her expression softened, not with forgiveness but something sadderâshe wanted to believe he could. âYou start by fixing yourself, then you wait. Until sheâs ready, if sheâs ready. Youâve got to mean that, Rafe, you screw this up again..."
"I wonât," he said firmly, cutting her off. "I canât."
âOkay.â
âWhat if sheâs not ready?â
He had no right to demand more.
âYou keep going, keep trying. Not for her, not for anyone elseâjust for you.â
By the time he got back in his truck, the hurt in his body hadnât lifted. His momâs words echoed in his mind one more, âWhen you find that person, donât let them go. Not for anything.â
Maybe that started with learning to be the person who deserved to hold on.
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(The cards I got ace of pentacles, ace of cups, 2 of cups, page of cups, and the fool)
Hello my dearest,
What can I say? I didn't even meet you and yet I still miss you. Am I going mad, my love? I am working towards my goal and I have almost everything i need at the moment but why do I still feel that longing and sadness, am I insane for this? my life has been okay, I work or study and do what needs to be done, but is it weird to say i am searching for you? I hope you feel the same way⊠sometimes i dream of you or have that romantic dreams where you are there and when i wake up⊠nothing? It's making me lose my mind, i can't really talk about it with everyone, they will or might think i am just desperate for some shit, but i am not i want something serious, i want you. I have fun too i sometimes go out with my friends we laugh together, but still when I look at them or when they talk about their lovers or text them in front of me, i just miss you.. Am i being too much? probably but i wanted to tell of this to you, I feel like i need some rest or space from everything or just go somewhere where i can be alone with my and your thoughts, but the responsibilities are holding me back , I wish you were here to hold me and tell me everything will be okay. Sometimes I feel like we make some telepathic or some sort of connection and i feel that intense vibrations in my body, I haven't even met you and here I am being vulnerable, But i know you will love this side of me, will you not? I also want to tell you you're doing great and you will achieve everything you have dreamt of please take proper care of yourself, I wanna meet you soon, and have the love , fun i never experienced or had, You know love, what's funny thing is? I never had something serious or people had just taken advantage of me, but you without even meeting you, i can tell you are what i need. Please be patient for me, universe is in work and they will help us meet at divine timing and I can't wait for it. Until then, my love.
Phew so intense they had a lot to say to you, and they seem so sweet, don't they? i wish you meet them soon.
Pile 2:
(the cards I got 3 of cups, the star, 5 of cups and king of cups)
hey ;)
Hello my star, what are you up to nowadays? Are you having fun without me? wait don't answer me that i might get jealous over it, what's wrong with me I am not scaring you away am I? I tend to speak my mind, and show what I feel, because that's how I am. But sincerely tho, i hope you are having fun and celebration and you are enjoying your life, you know this is what we should do? Like just enjoy our times, I know how hectic life can get and we all deserve the break, so do it for you don't let anyone tell you that you are not doing enough because my star , you are and i already swooning over here from the thoughts of you, would you like to hear about my life too? I will tell you what I am doing nowadays, I had lost something precious to me, I know not a way great way to start a conversation right? But i wanna tell you, I lost something, i hate that I did, but to be honest? If it leads me to you , then i am willing to sacrifice anything for it, i wish we could meet sooner, but i know this distance this gap between us only increase our love towards each other, because distance makes heart grows fonder right? Now I wont deny when I lost that thing I was sad and even cried, But now I am healing and your thoughts are helping me? Do you miss me too at the same time? and wonder what we could have been doing if we were together? Because I do. Always. It's not even funny at this point. Gosh your thoughts make me feel all romantic thoughts, you are such a tease by the way hiding away and making desperate for you, don't you worry my star , I will take my revenge when I meet you, sweet revenge, I will tease you so much that you will regret meeting me late, Don't worry I am just kidding, i tend to get intense sometimes, but your thoughts are responsible they make me like this. But right now I am working towards something I am saving money for us our future and maybe kids too? Well, its a conversation for later⊠But if you don't want kids we can always have pets, right? I want to give you the world, and care for you so much for you. Now, I have to go⊠Duty calls, but remember I miss you, and I love you even if we haven't met yet.
Pile 2 your fs sounds like a total flirt and a good person, and I love it for you! You guys deserve it <3
Pile 3:
the cards I got (knight of wands, 9 of wands, 3 of wands, 8 of wands)
Hello sexy wanderer,
Do you know what kind of thoughts, I have for you? You my sexy wildcat, you are a pure goddess and you are so beautiful, and what can I say i have such dreams for you, I just wanna tear off your clothes, i will just leave it at that, You feel like a dream come true. Wherever I go I imagine having intense intimate moments with you, and I don't even know why, such a hold you have on me, and guess what we haven't even met yet. I have to say so much to you but i will hold out for now, I don't wanna scare you away, but its totally opposite I don't wanna scare you away but i also want to impress you, I wanna have enjoy small moments with you. I would like to make out and show everyone who you actually love. Not them who stares at your beauty or just wanna have fun with you but me, you chose me, i will show that I am a proud men, and worthy of you, right now I am travelling to far away lands I like doing that you know, but i am gonna coming to meet you soon. And you believe me when i say i will sweep you off your feet and give everything you are worthy of. See you soon.
Wow, they seem too passionate, and you know what? Good for you guys! Their message was short but their energy? give me a fan right now because I need it! They are definitely fire sign and love travelling, and their sexual drive? HIGH. They gave me so much hot kind of energy, I love it for you guys, i totally see you both meeting soon!
Pile 4 :
(the cards I got 4 of pentacles, the magician, ace of wands, strength, The Hermit, 6 of cups, 3 of pentacles)
Sweetheart? Once, we meet I am not letting you go ever, But i will make sure you know that I deserve you, I might make mistakes here and there, but that's just me being foolish or silly, but I never intend to fight with you or hurt you, You know I am a bit overprotective, but if you don't like that I am willing to change my ways for you, Right now there is so much work pressure on me, i feel overwhelmed so I decided to talk with you, even though we are not in each other's lives right now, I feel I can talk to you about anything you make me feel safe like i can be myself, i never had that, it was always me making efforts, but with you i can feel we are each other's light, and I wish we cross each other's path soon, right now i am enjoying my alone time, I am not dating around, I am waiting for you sweetheart, and I have a feeling we will know we are the ones for each other. I feel we have known each other in past lives or we might have each cross each other's path, but that time timing might not be right, And we both needed to learn some lessons before we meet again, and honestly? I'd like that. I wanna be the best men for you. I love you, and for you I am willing to fight anything or anyone, Some people think i am workaholic, but they don't know what I feel, or who i feel for the person i feel for is you, you make me wanna be a better man, i wish there wasn't this much wait for us to meet, I have so much to tell you, Sometimes I end up fighting with my close ones, I regret it, I am a very calm person but when someone provokes me? I can't take it. I am working on that too. And that's why we are having our self journey's together and let's meet at our best, sweetheart. Till then remember I am here waiting for you and trying to be a best person who deserves you. I love you my sweetheart.
Okayyyy, very masculine and hardworking energy, they or you might be spiritual too, you meeting will be for the best, for some of you i feel friends to lovers trope going to be here, your man sounds so sweet yet tired. But he is doing his best, you guys got a gem.
Thank you for stopping by! Take care and remember you are loved <3
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GABI HOW COULD YOU POST THAT ABOUT STEPBRO JAKE YOU KNOW stepbro enha are my weakness (the thought plagues my brain ALL the TIME!!!!) and i was thinking abt it (again.. no one is surprised.. and ur post + the no doubt mv only fuelled my craziness) so. iâm gonna need to set the scene w corporate worker intern blah!jake. followed in his dads footsteps because the money is good and heâs got a knack for the math, but that doesnât mean the job itself isnât GRUELLING :( so when his dad marries your mom and introduces him to the sweetest little stepsister it genuinely feels like heâs been given a gift. youâre eager for a big brother to gossip with ân jakeyâs just so accommodating and lets you sit on his thigh and babble about whatever you want as long as your pjs are thin enough that he can distract himself guessing at the colour of your panties. he canât help himself from resting his hands on your waist and subtly repositioning you, grinning when bouncing his thigh jusâ a little has you squirming and stuttering! he definitely makes pervy comments too :( calls you his wife ân jokes about marrying you because coming home to you lounging in his bedroom is something that gets his slacks all tight in the front! he asks for a kiss on the cheek goodbye if youâre up early enough ân expects one when he gets home â you brush it off as accidental when he turns his head too fast ân you catch his lips instead. buys you the prettiest things and insists on spoiling you with shopping sprees that have him ruining his expensive boxers at the thought that youâre being mistaken for a couple :( like This Jake fully embodies the mean bully you talked abt in your post whenever heâs had a tough day or something you do ruins his fantasy â he likes thinking about you as his pretty little wife, not his slutty stepsister prancing about in the clothes he paid for, dolling yourself up for some stupid date! (as always, this is crazy long but i think you might expect this from me now.. also referring to me as ur angel baby did irreparable damage to my sanity gabi âm blushing and twirling my hair rn i cant)
â lots of love ân kisses, ur fairy anon
warnings: stepcest + creampies + masturbation + handjob ment. + daddy kink + orgasm denial + dacryphilia + pregnancy ment
đ: m gna eat u omg r u kidding me im so obsessed with this, my brain is melting n im drooling đ”âđ«
calls you his wife ⊠yeah this is so⊠âm moaning. he totally would, n heâd even get u a cute little ring to wear, fantasizing about how itâd catch the light when he gets you to stroke his cock đ”âđ« jerks off n nearly moans your name while thinking abt his cum leaking from his tip onto your ring :( maybe youâd even be a good little wife n clean them off with your tongue
god forbid you take the ring off, though! your husband stepbrother is absolutely livid when he finds out that youâve left it on your vanity rather than keep it on for your date; n yeah its actually Very hot seein ur big brother all mad, his button up shirt undone at the top, sleeves rolled up n displaying his thick n veiny forearms, and his hair is all messed up as he plays the role of an overprotective big brother (is it in ur head or is he sounding a bit possessive?) but all you can picture is tugging on it while he fucks you, n youâre beating yourself up mentally for even thinking about your brother in that way (little do you know he needs to put a baby in you)
something you do ruins his fantasy⊠r u joking me.. sure this can go with the lil date idea but.. jake getting genuinely upset when you call him your brother đ”âđ«đ”âđ«đ”âđ« would your brother tease your virgin cunt every time he had you in his lap? or press kisses to your neck while running his hands over your thighs, daring to pull at your sleep shorts n shallowly slide in your needy little pussy? either youâre even more of an airhead than he thought, or you enjoy watching him struggle to maintain his composure because thereâs no way you dont know he wants you
he would absolutely love the two of you being mistaken for a couple n jakeyâs quick to speak over your denial, a sweet smile on his face as he replies with a âthank youâ to every person that calls you two a cute couple <333 when you ask abt it he just kisses your cheek (a bit too tenderly to be in a stepsibling kind of way) n says its just âtoo much of a hassleâ to correct everyone⊠n even asks you if itâs such a bad thing for people to think heâs ur bf⊠are you embarrassed of him?
when jake finally gets you desperate enough for him, he has so much fucking fun making you say filthy things n has even more fun watching you squirm at his dirtytalk.
his pace is unbearable, youâre unable to do anything but take it as he batters your cervix with his fat cock n manipulates your body, pushing n pulling your legs to feel you even deeper. âdâyou like havinâ my cock inside your tight cunt? does it feel good, princess?â he questions, voice thick with arousal.
but youâre too fucked out to reply, of course you like it but thereâs no way you can form a coherent sentence as he keeps up the brutal pace, his tip hits your cervix with every thrust n heâs relentless. youâre so close, so fucking close andâŠ
oh. itâs gone. your impending orgasm fades and it has your face crumpling, tears pouring down your cheeks at the lack of stimulation. whyâd he stop? why why why why wh-
âi asked you a question, angel. yâgonna be a good girl n answer me?â a sniffle from you, and then: âjakey! please donât stop, âm sorry âm sososo sorry please fuck me! pleaseplease it feels so fuckinâ good! love my brotherâs cock so much-â he cuts you off with a harsh slap to your tit, a sneer forming on his face at your surprised gasp.
ââm not your fuckinâ brother. god,â he laughs humorlessly. âam i gonna have to fuck you until you get it through your dumb little head?â
jake pinches your nipple between his fingers n twists it enough to cause a jolt of pain to shoot through you n make your walls clench around him. âiâm not your brother,â he thrusts into you harshly with each word. âân youâre not my fucking sister, got it?â
your bottom lip trembles, eyes screwed shut with pleasure as he resumes fucking you n jakeâs brain is foggy, he canât believe heâs ballsdeep in your pussy n before he knows it, he spills his deepest desire to you
âyouâre my wife,â jake sighs, pressing his forehead to your own. âsay it. say youâre my wife.. my sweet little wife, god look at you. takinâ my cock so well, âs like you were made for meâ
itâs not long before your orgasm builds yet again, white hot pleasure consuming you n his words send you over the edge, pussy spasming n clamping down on his thick cock until you cream around him.
ââm your wife, jakey! âm your wife, yourwife yourwife, fuck. fill me up, knock me up, jakey.â you wraps your arms around him to pull him close, pressing your lips to his ear before whispering, ââm gonna make you a daddy.â
jake cums with a deep, guttural groan, his teeth clenched as thick, hot cum spurts from his cockhead and fills your womb to the brim. legs wrap around his waist to keep him inside you n it takes him a second to realize your lips are moving n youâre talking to him. âsorry princess, whatâd you sayâŠ?â
you giggle n bat your lashes up at him, still wet from your tears, i said, âdo you wanna go again?â
#âĄ.signed. sealed. delivered.#âĄ.the honeypot#âĄ.sweetheart: my fairy#m gonna CUMMMMMNN#hes so sexy i want him to be my stepbrother#actually go away stepbro jake⊠i need to makeout with my sweet angel baby <333333333333 hehe#u r so cute i need to smooch u rn#missed u sooooososo bad my fairy u will always match my freak i adore u#enhypen#jake sim#sim jaeyun#enhypen x reader#enhypen smut#enhypen x reader smut#jake sim x reader#jake sim x reader smut#jake sim smut#sim jaeyun x reader#sim jaeyun x reader smut#sim jaeyun smut#đ.breeding#đ.stepcest#đ.daddy kink#đ.dacryphilia#đ.masturbation#đ.handjob#đ.pregnancy
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