#made youtube videos w my mom about them...

[otto-wood]

it's my parxiversary :') happy SEVEN YEARS to me and my parx obsession and thank you waterparks for everything. i love you forever 💕

i have entertainment posts queued all day to celebrate her bday and the anniversary of me putting it on during release morning (therefore intentionally listening to parx for the first time ever) and going, "wow, that song was so good. wow, that song was so good. wow, that song was so good." at every track and then being like oh my gosh i love this album and then starting the slumber party and watching the draw that band interview (my first parx video ever! i LOVED their personalities!) and watching the interview where awsten feeds geoff berries (gifset here!) and intentionally listening to their other music and completely falling down the rabbit hole and just. yeah :)

[aloesarchives]

JJK Drabble #2

Tw/Warnings: Fem!Reader, Fluff, Fluff Brainrot, Domesticity, Family Man Toji, Usage of Wife and Mom, JJK Oc added

Pairing: Toji Fushiguro x Fem!Reader

Reader: Female, Usage of Wife and Mom

AU: Modern/"Toji Lives" Au

(A/N): I'm back! Well, kinda of. Long story short, dealt w/college stuff and had a health scare that kept me away from writing. Also had a mini burnout too. More is explained here!

Thinking about Toji taking up crocheting and knitting because he saw how expensive yet cheaply made certain items like blankets are made. So he buys a simple set to try it out, following Youtube tutorials and watching videos for ideas. Once he masters the basics, Toji is LOCKED IN once again. Making full on hand-made blankets, scarves, hats, mittens/gloves, stuffed animals, covers/cases, bags, scrunchies, even damn rugs. Anything you ask him for, he’ll make it. This ends up being very practical to Toji because he saves so much money by just making them at home himself. It has to be the premium, natural, good quality type. Organic cotton, wool, cashmere, alpaca/llamas, silk, linen, mohair, bamboo, hemp, all of that. Tell him about polyester or something and he tells you to put that shit back. He buys the premium yarn nearby, locally, or gets them imported internationally. Gets every and any colors because he never wants to be limited when making his projects.

There was a throw blanket you wanted for the couch but it was expensive and the size was a lot smaller than you hoped. The next day, you come home to see Toji making it for you. The same color but better quality and inexpensive, and it was the size you wanted too. You were happy and amazed that he made it within a day. Living off your praise and approval, Toji just makes everything. Since he can’t get carpal tunnel or arthritis, his hands and wrists never get tired from working. Though, his posture does get bad and his back aches from being hunched over. The blanket in your bedroom with Toji? He made that shit with fucking love and care. He actually made multiple ones depending on the weather and season. 

Man has even made throw pillows, regular pillows, water bottle cases, table cloths, coasters, bags, cushions, and made your own curtains. I mentioned before that everything in your home was either made, customized, or renovated by Toji. This stays TRUE because almost all the pillows and blankets in the house are his creation. The blankets and pillows that cover Megumi and Tsumiki’s beds? All Toji. Both pillows and blankets match each other and are in respective colors for the two. Megumi has one at his dorm because it gets cold over there and he hates sleeping in the cold. 

If you are a stuffed animal fiend, like me, you ask Toji to make you any stuffed animal you want. Definitely make squishmallow dupes for you if you asked him. In your personal room/office, there’s a pile of stuffed animals in the corner from Toji that you pluck one from the pile and hold it while relaxing or walking around the house. The ones he loves to make are bees, dragons, whales, dolphins and dogs. And they’re so soft and huggable, you squeeze them all the time. Toji just grins to himself knowing the things he makes brings you and the kids happiness.

Toji “Anything my wife wants, my wife gets. No questions asked” Fushiguro

It’s normal for you to come home to see Toji crocheting/knitting away at something. You either find him in three places at home: the engawa in front of the courtyard and garden, the family room with the shoji doors open, or in his personal room/office. Mostly, he sits outside sitting on the engawa working away at something. It makes him work better, or so he says. Makes his own needles and hooks because of his big hands. Megumi still has his crocheted stuffed puppy when he was younger, still going strong even though it’s been worn down from love. Tsumiki has all the Sanrio characters knitted/crocheted as gifts from Toji.

Tsumiki always wears her hair up in a ponytail, Toji makes her scrunchies in her favorite designs and colors. Her favorite cardigans and pullover sweaters that keep her warm during fall and winter were made by Toji because he wanted to try making outerwear. Luckily it worked in his favor. Tsumiki asked Toji if he could make her a tote bag because she needed a bag for outings. She comes home from school one day to see three of them in different sizes. She has those cute little flower keychains on her school bag and outing bags too because she asked Papa Toji for them. The massive white and blue circle rug in her room is from Toji.

Megumi’s winter scarf, earmuffs, and hat are made by Toji too. Megumi will never admit it out loud but he appreciates that Toji made it for him. They keep him and he doesn’t feel the wind chills nipping at his face. Megumi also appreciates his dad for making his stuffed animals. I’m projecting here but Toji made a set of plush stuffed animals after his shadows. His divine dogs, all of them. Megumi keeps them on his stuffed animal net in the top corner above his bed. Megumi wears a jacket and hoodie made by Toji all year round because of how versatile they are. In general, they’re Megumi’s favorite clothes to wear too.

Thinking about asking Toji to make a present for Nobara and Yuuji on their birthdays. You asked Nobara what her favorite color and style was while Yuuji said he wanted a new hoodie. Toji makes them pretty fast and the two are in love with their gifts. Nobara is wearing her bag EVERYWHERE, and I mean, EVERYWHERE she goes. Yuuji, like Megumi, ends up loving his hoodie that you always see him wear when he’s in casual clothes. Since Nanako and Mimiko grew up with Megumi and Tsumiki, one of Nanako’s cardigans and a pair of her socks are made by Toji while Mimiko only has a random plushie Toji made for her when she was younger because Suguru had to clean the other one.

Not me thinking about how Tsumiki, Megumi, and Mayumi(JJK OC) baby blankets are handmade by Toji himself with their own individual design and patterns. Megumi and Tsumiki’s are still in good condition even though they were lovingly used by the two throughout their whole life. Their baby hats, socks, and certain outfits were all made by him. He keeps them all in individual boxes to not lose them. Gets sentimental and nostalgic that you catch him staring as he holds the small clothes in his big hands. Reminiscing about Megumi and Tsumiki being babies and small children, now realizing that they are growing up before his eyes.

God, all of it is thoroughly well knitted and crocheted that people thought you bought it from a store. “No, actually my husband made it for me. Isn’t he skillful and amazing?” Your friends and co-workers lowkey ask you if Toji is willing to take commissions for them. They’ll pay for it obviously but they want good quality home-made items Toji makes which gives you an idea. You asked Toji if he considered making orders for other people besides his family. He did think about it but he said he would get overwhelmed when receiving orders and packing them up. You asked him if dealing with the orders and packaging them would help him change his mind. So you unintentionally set up a small business with Toji. His shop consists of blankets, bags and baskets of any kind, pot holders, rugs, coverings, and pillows. It runs where one week is for receiving orders, one month is for making them, and another month to send them out. Making a spreadsheet/list for Toji to show what he needs to make. Probably gets finished with all the orders in two weeks or something.

For some reason, Toji wears eye-glasses when he knits and crochets. You don’t know why but it makes him more handsome that your brain rots/short circuits every time you see him working away. He got you all flustered and down bad it’s insane(but absolutely valid). But you don’t understand why he would need them since he already has better vision and eye-sight than 99% of the population.

“Honey, since when do you need glasses?”

“I need it so I don’t strain my eyes when working on them?”

“Can you, like, squint? You already have 20/10 vision. You don’t need glasses when you have superhuman vision, Baby.”

“Doll, just because I have good eye-sight doesn’t mean my eyes aren’t as sensitive. My eyes are still bugged by light, shit hurts and gives me headaches. Anyway, can you pass me the blue yarn in front of ya?”

Megumi and Tsumiki always see you with their Toji. You’re chilling and minding your own business with their baby sister napping away while Toji is working away at a rug because he is bored. Even though he’s been doing this since they were young, the two still can’t get over how their dad can make a king-sized blanket(start to finish) in four hours. Or when they come home from school and see Toji finishing up on a big and long green dragon, turning to Megumi and Tsumiki asking them, “Do you two think your mom would like this?” Or they could be chilling then Toji asks them to try on the projects he finished to see how they look. Tsumiki and Megumi are his main critics, you are too but you aren’t bothered by certain details to criticize Toji’s projects so he leaves it to the kids.

Mayumi(JJK OC) is chilling by Toji as he’s working away, either sleeping away or playing with her stuffed animals close within sight. Being the three year old she is, she sometimes hides underneath the unfinished blankets and pops up from under to surprise Toji. Papa Toji gives his iconic DILF chuckle that has you  GEEKING and GIGGLING like a damn school girl when you get the chance to hear it every time. He just pats her head, calling her a little rascal or princess, then resumes.

I’m projecting once again but you know those cute crochet dolls? Like the ones with the big black eyes, big head, small body, and no mouth? Toji made those of the entire family. There’s one of himself in his iconic black compression shirt, white sweatpants, and kung fu slippers. He added a little scar too where his mouth would be. Then there is your’s, all pretty and pristine with your iconic outfit. Toji getting your colors and features down to the bone. Next is Megumi and Tsumiki, literal carbon copies of their real versions. Toji said Megumi’s hair was the hardest part to make lol. Then Mayumi’s doll is later added once she’s born. The mini Fushiguro Doll set sits on the top shelf of a pristine black display case, next to the tv, in the family room. 

He’s the type of guy you wouldn’t expect to be good at a skill like this then later found out he’s an absolute master and god among men. Toji doesn’t parade around craftsmanship because he knows how some guys have fragile egos. But he won’t shy away when people ask him about his work. Pulls out his phone to show people the things he made with two needles, one crochet hook, and a shit load of yarn.

Satoru, being the shitter he is, tries to tease and bully Toji about it. To which you reprimand and scold him for it. But Toji doesn’t care about dealing with his antics because it’s a practical skill and keeps him out of trouble. Then you remind Satoru that his winter scarf he always wears was made, the one you gifted him for his 18th birthday, was made by Toji at your request. Satoru never wore any scarf because he thought you made it for him. But for you to tell him Toji actually made it for him, Satoru shuts himself up and doesn’t shit on Toji anymore.

Toji loves it when his family uses/wears the things that he made. Usually wears a goofy smile or grin on his face to conceal his prideful yet satisfied self, knowing his creations are appreciated and loved by his family.

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[madness-combat-confessions]

A madness combat ship (Sanford x Deimos) ended my 5 year long relationship.

Okay so to give a little background info, I love watching madness combat videos, even the fan made ones, I binge watch them. On average, I spend about 8 HOURS DAILY watching madcom animations, it's my guilty pleasure. No one knows about this, as I keep it a good secret.

One day, when I was meant to be at school, I was watching some madcom fan videos. My mom came in and was shocked. So she didn't see what I was doing, I hid my phone under my pillow and told her to LEAVE because I didn't want her to know what I was watching. I got away with it, but the same day, I was around my GF's house, and we were watching a movie. I was watching madcom fandom animations the whole time, and I was so sneaky, she didn't notice! She was trying to make advances on me and she put her hand on my thigh. I didn't think much of it and KEPT SCROLLING.

She noticed that I was watching youtube shorts when I was watching ''Madness combat 69: Sanford and deimos.fla (fanmade)'' and in the middle of the video when the scene Sanford and Deimos finally make out, ALL OF THE SUDDEN MY PHONE'S VOLUME WENT UP TO THE MAXIMUM OUT OF NOWHERE. She immediately took her hand off of my thigh and SCREAMED: ''ARE YOU SERIOUSLY WATCHING TWO GRAY BEANS MAKE OUT WHILE YOU'RE IN FRONT OF ME?! DO YOU HAVE ANY SHAME WHATSOEVER???''

I'm currently sitting on her porch, bawling my fucking eyes out. I'm not sure if I'll ever recover from this, but atleast I have my madcom ships >w<

I imidiently recognised the reference 😭

[slugtranslation-hypmic]

Hey Slug! Now that all snippets are out, what are your thoughts so far on the BB songs for the 3rd DRB? I'm especially excited for Ichiro's. It reminds me of Hiphoppia but with less intense dream vision feel and more funky back alley hip hop stuff. Jiro's sounds good too tho!

I love anon asks like this that remind me to go look at the new stuff that comes out... I would never think to do it otherwise. Thank you; it's very sweet of you.

Let's fire up the old YouTube and give them a listen.

Ichirou -- H歴維新 / The H Age Revolution

(Side note about the title: I'm using "revolution" here in a general sense, but this specific wording is evocative of the Meiji Restoration, the political revolution in the late 1800s that ended the regime of the Tokugawa shoguns and "restored" the old social order under the emperor while radically transforming Japanese society as a whole. Here, we should understand that Ichirou is tearing down Chuuouku's reign to usher in a new state of society.)

(Fifteen seconds in) YOOO this goes hard. I like this beat and the vaguely military-esque theme w/ the horns.

(At end of preview) DAMN okay. Give me a sec to get my thoughts in order.

Every time I see the language in these songs, I'm reminded of a video of an NHK presenter guy reading the lyrics of one song and announcing dryly, "They're all very good at kanji."

I love how this is much punchier than Break the Wall. Ichirou seems to be much more of an active agent in it, not just the figurehead leader of a revolution--and I LOVE that. It's great to see Ichirou embracing his individuality and not simply playing into the image of MC BB that others want him to be.

I also love all the callbacks to previous songs, quite literally going back to basics. ペンは剣より偽りがない ("The pen is mightier than the sword, and that's a fact!") goes all the way back to Hypmic's very first song's ペンは剣よりヒプノシスマイク ("The Hypnosis Mic is mightier than the sword")

Can't wait to get the full version and learn the lyrics. Seems like a hella fun song to rap.

Jirou -- Sunshine

(Five seconds in) Getting "This Means War" vibes.

(Fifteen seconds in) Bro what is this autotune... This sounds like the opening of Rhyme Anima season 2.

(Forty-five seconds in) "I'm ready; the wind's pushing me along; I'm flying with the wings Ikebukuro's given me" Hell YES Jirou you get that identity independent of Ichirou

(Fifty seconds in) "I can't shake the past. I take my scars with me off into a future--a future that's still unknown." Yo this is bars. (I'm butchering its lyricism but whatever) I love that Jirou is actually acknowledging his past and his struggles instead of pushing it away. You notice how his comments on the past are always either "Ichirou was so cool" or "Saburou used to be such a cute kid; what happened?" ? It's good to see him finally being honest enough to touch on his hurt feelings.

(End) Hmm... I don't know how I feel about this one at first liston. I really like Jirou's voice actor's singing voice, so I'm kinda not feeling the autotune. On the other hand, his singing voice definitely has more of a sweet/young flavor, and I can see the authors wanting to lean away from that to make him sound more adult. I think my issue is this song sounds... idk, a bit too idol pop rock to my tastes. I don't mean that idol pop rock is a bad thing; it's simply not my personal preference.

Here's a selection of people in the comments having a normal one:

"Wtf he's hot now"

"I'm picturing Jirou going to school the day after this song drops and his friends being like 'EYYY' and he's like 'Aw, you listened to it? Thanks, guys!' Then a bunch of girls swarm him and he deadass has no idea what they're on about it"

"Say it isn't so... Not my sweet baby boy dumbass Jirou... They made him hot af..."

"I feel like a mom watching my widdle Jiro-chan grow up"

Saburou -- 朱夏 / Maturity

(Side note about the title: Japanese borrows some terms for stages of life from ye olde Chinese (<- very technical term) wherein stages of life correspond to colors and seasons. You may know the word "seishun" (blue spring) or have seen blue = youth as a recurring piece of imagery in Japanese media. (BSD's Blue Period, anyone?) "Shuka" (red summer) is the stage that encompasses most of adulthood; it's the summer or prime of a person's life. The word conveys a sense of energy and a greater understanding of the world than in the youthful seishun period. Sounds like the Hypmic authors want to convey that our baby boy is growing up! *sobs into a hankie*)

(Five seconds in) Chill lofi hip-hop beats for studying

(End) Hmm... Musically, I liked the piano as a consistent piece of imagery for Saburou. It was a little too chill for me, but I always say this and always warm up to Hypmic songs over time lol.

Lyrically, I kept thinking throughout the video "This would be easy to translate" because Saburou monologues for most of it haha. Apart from the imagery related to seasons and the BB's heat/energy "firing" him up to reach the hot summer of adulthood, most of the song is surprisingly literal and straightforward. Saburou states in plain terms that he wants to go be his own person (seems to be the running theme of this album), but it's a departure from his usual style of complex imagery and vocabulary. I would guess that's on purpose, as the song opens with "All through my childhood, I could never wait to grow up. I'm a better rapper than Ichirou, but no one ever sees me as anything but an accessory to him. At least I'm better than Jirou in every way-- oh, who am I kidding? Look at me going on like an edgy middle schooler. I'm always smart, collected, calm--but on the inside, I'm NOT okay!" That is, Saburou is purposefully throwing away his attempts to look smart and mature for his age. He's allowing himself to be rough and emotional like any fourteen year old.

Really fun start to an album; can't wait to hear all the songs! Thanks again for sending this ask, anon.

[lynxgirlpaws]

♥ lynxgirlpaws tubmlr ♥

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[confessions-official]

i keep thinking about this one person i used to know on twitter back in 2020-2021 back when puppychan was being harrassed by transphobes

they were a system who was at first harrassed by one of those "fake system cringe" subreddits, but then they started to defend the use of nazi labels on the 4chan design on one of those app human designs, then they had been racist to a korean person (though apparently the dms couldve been faked? but a glitch like that was possible? dont actually take full word for this im just discussing what events happened that made me recall that person got into specifically), had obbessed over a youtuber / musician they liked to the point of faking grooming aligations and made nsfw of their avatar, had traced art by someone else who had done alot of personal pieces, and *apparently* had a tiktok account that showed people how to racefake being japanese (but iirc the evidence on that is really flimsy)

after this i found out they had made a post about killing everyone who left them for being problematic, and me being 14 i decided to come back into their life for abit, i dont exactly remember what led to this but the last time i was 100% in contact w this person they were suibaiting publically before deactivating

at some point i discovered a google slideshow someone made about this person, i dont know how, but it was directed at their mother, i dont actually know if they sent it to their mom but that just feels so werid (and they mentioned that they mightve faked a speech imediment? which is like ok, whyd you save those videos?)

last time i knew 2 years ago they were a proshipper account and some other doc was released, i cant find it anymore and its probably for the best

but they were 12 at the start of this, i hope theyre doing better, or atleast learnt from that behavior, its been 4 years, i feel so torn cuz i genuially remembered having a blast w this person but yknow, with all of this, i just really hope they got the help they deserve

one thing i will say is that i once found an imgur post with screenshots from them as some typeof evidence or whatever, and i was featured on there as like a friend replying (back then alot of us did this thing where we went "boobs on the tl" and everyone would go "OMG WHERE???" n spam the replies, and i was the latter in the screenshot) which stuck in my mind for some reason

 

[skinnybinnietitties]

Im bouta kms I sWEAR😀

HELLOOOOO Fellow kind my first post bouta be a stupid ass rant bc I got into shit😭

(My spelling and grammar are literally shit I'm so sorry...)

So basically on last weekend my mom caught me cutting in my room and taking pictures of it. I was in my room trying to blow off some steam w my slicey bcuz my mom kept calling me and needing me to get stuff for her and my lil siblings because she was doing my sisters hair and around the middle end of my session my mom calls me while I have a bunch of blood still on my and a good bit of the blood smeared on my thigh bc thts my safe zone but I didn't have any pants on bc it was easier to access the area I was cutting. Before I come out of my room my mom is calling me and getting more and more pissed off bc I'm not coming and when I do she keeps asking me what took me so long and what the hell I'm doing so I obviously tell her nothing while trying to pull my shirt down (it stops at the beginning of my knee) and cover my bloody nails so she doesn't see them. And after I fin8sh doing what she asked me to do I go back to my room and decided it would be a good idea to take a few pictures and videos bc why not (wanna punch my self in the face jst thinking about this shit😭) and after I'm done making 2 more cuts on video I decide I need music so I was picking some then all of a sudden I hear my mom's footsteps coming to my room and mind you I had FUCKIJG gasue packets and wipes that were sufficiently bloody enough to need an explanation. Anyways she bust in my room and I wasn't thinking properly ofc bc I jump up and grab a tissue off my dresser and hide it in my hand and turn off my phone. When I so that dumb shit I leave my blade on my nightstand and when she walks to my side of the room because we have a division curtain because I share a room she looks at me and is like "what's in your hand??" "what were you just doing??" type shit and when she sees me try to leave the room she goes and closes the door and when she does that I swipe my blade onto the floor and start panicking thinking "oh yeah your cooked your so done😭" so eventually she sees what sin my hand and makes my ass sit down and originally the excuse I used was that I hurt my self trying to cut something off my bra with a knife BUT😮‍💨 tht evolves into cutting my nipple and soo after my kitty cat by accident and her thinking I was going at it🥲😭. She believed the last one not before asking me if I hurt my self and when I told her I acted like that because I was embarrassed asf about it and panicked but during those poorly made excuses she says something about my phone and I yeet it behind my bed to "get later" because mind you I had the video plus other cutting sessions along with ana progress and just other screenshots and downloads I don't want her to see PLUS I have this hellish thing called Family link where she can lock my device and block apps (clearly didn't help because I have accessed the internet from an app that doesn't even show how much time I've spent on it plus other things) so I'm not supposed to have YouTube or tiktok or anything like that so if she were to go through my phone it would get taken away and I really got this phone in may becau6my last one was taken away for more than a year so obvi don't wanna get in trouble. Okay getting side tracked but anyways so when I yeeted my phone she made me get it and told me ima check your stuff so I go into the living room and ask can I watch her look and she says yes with a side eye. When she checks everything and doesn't see anything she says I feel like I'm missing something and finally clicks my pictures and before she can click the gallery I tell her you shouldn't click that because it's stuff you don't wanna see on there but obvi she does anyways and gasps when she sees my thighs and when I try to grab the phone she grabs my wrists and makes me get away. Eventually she makes me go in her room and strip to my undies and bra off and checks but she only sees cuts on my once safe zone and time skip blah blah blah she asking me a bunch of questions and stuff I end up saying too much about how I am essentially a people pleaser and I'm not satisfied with my life yada yada.

Not enough space so making a part 2 to the story for who ever wants to read this💀

[james-a-b]

W!

!!!!! getting one ask for this game surprised me tbh, two is incredible and you need to know that if i were a golden retriever i would be wagging my tail SO fast

anyway, they've done a fair number of things that have surprised and delighted me, but my favourite is and always will be the moment they broke out in song during TATINOF.

To provide some context there- at the time, youtubers doing a show the way Dan and Phil did was absolutely UNHEARD of. No one had ever done anything like it before, and no one really knew what to expect. The show I saw was in Seattle, near the end of the US leg of the tour, but Dan and Phil had asked everyone to avoid spoiling the show for others, and I'd managed to avoid any spoilers that WERE out there pretty much entirely. I went in blind.

That day was the best day of my life. Not solely because I was seeing TATINOF; Seattle is my favourite city and we went on the underground tour and ate a pizza that was almost bigger than our table and went to the pop culture museum, where they had a Dalek and a Cyberman and a bunch of other really cool movie/show props, but seeing Dan and Phil was definitely the highlight of the day.

I'd been depressed for almost a decade and actively suicidal for going on six years at that point, but when I first discovered Dan and Phil in the fall of 2015, I realized for the first time that the way I was feeling and had been feeling wasn't just a natural part of growing up. They seemed so alive and so so happy in a way I'd never seen from an adult before, and it gave me hope that maybe I could feel that way again, too. So they meant and still mean a great deal to me. They saved my life.

TATINOF had just begun touring the UK when I started watching, and then in early 2016 they announced they were coming to America. Now, I'm Canadian, and I was living in Kelowna, BC, so I was understandably disappointed when the nearest show was in Phoenix, Arizona, too far to travel to. But then, a month later, they announced more dates, and Seattle was among them. So I begged my parents to get me to Seattle for the show.

Mom bought my ticket, and Dad arranged a Seattle trip. Mom offered to buy me a VIP ticket, by the way, but I thought about it and then decided I'd rather have a regular ticket in part because I was such a new fan and in part because the thought of standing in front of them and being seen made me want to spontaneously combust. (I did get a VIP ticket to II, and then I ended up spending the first half of the show hyperventilating bc I got too excited/overwhelmed lmao)

I remember specifically choosing a balcony seat because while I knew Dan didn't enjoy audience participation from an audience perspective, I wanted to play it safe. Just in case. And Dan did make some jokes about asking for audience participation, so I'm actually glad I did. My heart could barely handle things as is!

The show was... indescribable. I'd taken art to submit to crafty corner, and while it wasn't chosen, I was absolutely beside myself just knowing they'd seen it. And during the show, they took things so much farther than anyone ever expected them to, with the suggestive themes of the fanfiction part (brokeback montain references?? only one tent??? this was YEARS before they came out, mind, and they'd NEVER really leaned into or encouraged that sort of thing before) and then Dil being revealed as the entity causing everything, and then, on top of literally every amazing incredible thing they'd already done in the show, they started SINGING??

We knew they did little songs for things like baking videos, but that was a FAR cry from performing onstage, and they were hardly professional singers, so a musical number was absolutely the last thing I expected to actually happen. I absolutely screamed myself hoarse during the course of that show, as did most everyone else in that theatre, but I don't think I've ever screamed so loud as I did when they started singing.

So... yeah. That's my answer.

(ask game here)

[y0itsbri]

wooooah looks like i have some ketchup to do! 🍅

tagged by the beloved @creepkinginc @mmmichyyy @milkovetti

rules: list eight shows for your followers to get to know you better.

stranger things

shameless

killing eve

bob's burgers

modern family

new girl

the good place

rupaul's drag race

tagged by @celestialmickey @energievie @mmmichyyy @vintagelacerosette for Tag Game Tuesday Wednesday Day!: Fandom Edition 💫

your name: bri

your age: twenties

your first fandom(s): maybe selena gomez or icarly?? but twilight was the main one! with sprinkles of the hunger games and divergent. omg then youtubers like o2l... miley cyrus, ariana grande, justin bieber, then one direction, harry styles, queen

your current fandom(s): right now mostly stranger things (steddie brainrot has me in the TRENCHES). i also keep tabs on the maneskin, maya hawke, aftg and greta van fleet tags.... young royals gifs keep pulling me in too....

how did you first get into fandom? watching the movies wasn't enough. must see everyone's art and theories

how long have you been engaging with fandom spaces? i've always been not normal about something or other. but rly have only made meaningful connections w people in gallavich fandom <3

how often do you read fanfics? part of the relaxin' routine -- so as much as i can

top 3 characters from your current fandom(s): steve harrington, eddie munson, robin buckley

have you ever written a fic for a fandom? yuh (link in bio)

have you ever drawn fanart for a fandom? if so, drop a link! yuh (link in bio)

share a personal headcanon that you feel very strongly about: eddie munson is alive and well he told me himself :-)

you’re trying to convince a friend to get into your current fandom(s) with you. what episode, clip, or scene are you showing them? the gossip music video!

and finally, what does fandom mean to you? seconding macy w community and creativity!

tagged by @celestialmickey @heymrspatel @vintagelacerosette for Tag Game Tuesday ✨

name: bri

age: twenties

where in the world are you? oh my god so i moved here like a year ago but i just realized i live in the SOUTH. like deeeep south (usa). i'm a southerner now????

the meaning behind your URL: yo! it's a me!

your second favorite color: i simply cannot rank the colors

any pets? cat n hermit crab that i just spent so much money on today sdfhljksdfh happy babies happy life

favorite season: fall

last thing you read: daisy jones and the six

last song you listened to: 2 minutes to midnight - iron maiden

what are you wearing right now? black socks with neon green ghosts on them, sweatpants from middle school that my mom described as 'very 80s', a smashing pumpkins oversized t shirt, a brown and blue plaid sweater, a red jasper crystal necklace, a red guitar pick necklace, hair in pigtail braids. also glasses. gotta tie the image together

a hobby of yours: strummin on the guitar

your comfort show or movie: watched abbott elementary on my last sick day and that was nice!

and finally, what are you up to today? runnin errands on my day off

tagged for a picrew by the dearest @vintagelacerosette @ian-galagher

anotha picrew by @creepkinginc @ian-galagher @vintagelacerosette

i rly love the vibes on this one

aaaaaaand tagged by @mishervellous 10 songs/10 people tag game 🎵

cold as ice - foreigner

paranoid - black sabbath

i was made for lovin' you - kiss

light my life - greta van fleet

masculinity - lucky love

modern love - houndmouth

m - the cure

head over heels - tears for fears

mama - mcr

square hammer - ghost

tagging all y'all who haven't been tagged or smth or other from this list (yes you i'm looking at you)! also the besties @pinkmatter-mp3 @grumpymickmilk @scarcrosseduntouched @gallawitchxx @gardenerian <3

[magnoliamyrrh]

Omg my family members did that too my mother would literally comment on how cute my pussy was as a little kid cause it was so chubby 😐 and like grab my boobs all the time. My dad has cooled off now that I’m 18 but he used to grab my butt/ribs all the time every time I hugged him to complain about how skinny I was. He also made a lot of jokes abt how I was tryna seduce him/be his second wife just . . . yuck

??? okay so like. im not crazy and the only one. but also im fucking sorry

this shit is so fucking weird and creepy and deranged and i absolutely do not understand it. yea my mom always grabbed at my boobs too and made comments and it always just made me want to dig myself into the ground, the grandmother who didnt raise me did too and so did some aunts/extended family. meanwhile my dad was occasionally actually molesting me and whoring me out so like. not appreciated. and the grandma who actually raised me would make gross ass comments like the one above all the time and like. mess around w my pussy until i was like idk 5-7 like ??????? and the youtube video i was talking abt was this korean dad on this show and he was just openly talking abt essentially "playing" w/molesting his sons genitals for minutes on end until the kid would get uncomfortable and try to get him to stop. and the whole crowd was just laughing and being like oh that's so cute. it was absolutely insane to witness and the comments were all like,,, yea this shit is normalized and deranged. like what the fuck is happening actually. i wish i could bleach that shit out of my brain

and uf i feel u on that too, im sorry :/ . my stepdad did that shit until i turned around 18 too, and when i was a teen i started always wearing rly bagging clothes in the house bc it made me so uncomfortable. i still do that and being around him just makes my skin crawl a lot of times. like it should not be accepted for your dad/stepdad to grab your ass and make comments abt it why is the world like this

when our generation has kids were going to have to make such drastic changes in how we raise them we have so much bullshit in balkan cultures that just. cant continue. its so not normal that we grew up just being expected to take being sexualized by family as a normal thing

[cripplingparanoia]

Vanilla Chai Latte: its more than that. :)

Flat White: both?

Cappuccino: joy!

Mocha: author, performer/artist, funeral home director/graveyard worker

Pumpkin Spice: yellow VW bug w Daisy rims

Jasmine Tea: id go to Japan, because I've been obsessed w it my whole life, before I even knew about anime I was trying to learn Japanese on rosetta stone & buying books on the culture.

Old English: if I'm gonna die, my bf, so we can be together. If not, my arch nemesis, so when I get saved I can leave her to die :)

Iced Chocolate: aside from my boyfriend, only fictional characters and women catch my attention, but currently I don't have a y girls I like, atleast not any I talk to or anything. One of my HS crushes added me on fb recently, but other than that, no, not really, aside from my ongoing crushes on characters, like Snape and Kylo Ren lol

Carmel Frappe: Sally Face and Minecraft

Iced Lemon Tea: Artist - XXXTENTACION & Joji, Band: Nirvana & MCR

Iced Cafe Mocha: hot chocolate or tea w honey & lemon, big warm fluffy weighted blanket, background noise TV show, reading a book in bed :)

Hot Chocolate: V E R Y

Carmel Macchiato: M bf :)

Green Tea: 5'2"

Earl Grey Tea: survival by ANY means, but especially surviving the kill self instinct 😭

Mint Tea: my favorite ways to relax are by reading, listening to music, watching movies and TV, watching YouTube and playing video games, and giving myself a spa day or a little treat :)

Vanilla Latte: ive never personally tried it but this made me think, why not combine the two, lol. that sounds fun to me

Iced Coffee: yes! The Farthest Away Mountain by Lynne Reid Banks

Italian Soda: we start the date at a little mom & pops cafe in Old Town, and take a walk down Main Street afterwards, stopping in a few little shops along the way. Afterwards, we head to the art museum. for lunch, we have a picnic outside by the sculptures, & then go back in for a little bit. we then go to the botanical gardens and finish our date at a nice restaurant. When he takes me home, he surprises me with flowers & deserts, & we eat them & watch a movie until we fall asleep.

Sparkling Water: In a sense, I have physical "types", but I usually only worry about physical attraction after everything else, and I'll probably find someone physically attractive by default if I like their personality. A big one is if they treat me with more respect than anyone else, whether that's a man or a woman, because I date to marry & I'm not spending my life being treated the same or less than a stranger, that's so damaging to my self esteem. But also, someone who is usually kind to others, unless they don't deserve it. Someone who not only loves but is good with animals and children. Someone who knows when and when not to raise their voice with me & in general. Someone who also wants to be married and have kids. There are probably more I can't think of,but I'm already taken anyway so 😂

Orange Juice: the question is, have I ever NOT? (a few times, but mostly no[now I have a Forever Valentine tho])

Rose Hip Tea: I actually love telling this story way too much. I was with this guy I met at v stock in the mall playing Pokemon cards in a league. We were on the 2nd floor of the v stock, & there were these big windows w large ledges by the bookshelves, & I was leaning over it, propping myself up on my hands, & he came up from behind me & grabbed my chin & kissed me, not like a long kiss but not a peck or anything either. It was so romantic & then I got a nosebleed like an anime girl 😭😭😭 I broke up with him like a week later for getting a haircut 😭

Herbal Tea: Something that smells like the beach or the ocean

Cafe Asks ☕️

Vanilla Chai Latte : Are you in love? Flat White : Coffee or Tea? Cappuccino : What’s your middle name? Mocha : Dream Job? Pumpkin Spice : Dream car? Jasmine Tea : If you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be and why? Old English : You’re stranded on an island, who do you bring with you? Iced Chocolate : Do you have a crush on someone? Caramel Frappe : Favorite video game? Iced Lemon Tea : Favorite song/band? Iced Cafe Mocha : Favorite thing to do on rainy days? Hot Chocolate : Are you an affectionate person? Caramel Macchiato : You’re travelling the entire world but you can only take one person with you. Who do you take? Green Tea : How tall are you? Early Grey Tea : The inevitable Zombie Apocalypse is upon us! What’s your plan of action? Mint Tea : How do you relax? Vanilla Latte : Board games or drinking games? Iced Coffee : Do you like reading? If so, what’s your favorite book? Italian Soda : Describe your dream date Sparkling Water : Describe what qualities you look for in a person Orange Juice : Have you ever had a valentine? Rose Hip Tea : Describe your first kiss Herbal Tea : You’re at a candle shop, what scented candle do you buy?

[michiquette]

‎‧₊˚✧[𝙙𝙖𝙞𝙡𝙮 𝙡𝙤𝙜]✧˚₊‧

from november 1st to november 13th

:✧ ̗̀➛ friday 1st

intake: 886/800

i feel crazy motivated to starve! well, not to starve. just restrict heavily and exercize a lot. i really want to be skinny. but i wonder if my mental health is going to start to get all fucked up because of it. my head is starting to hurt but i don't know if it's hunger or the caffeine.

tbh. i feel very low energy and my stomach won't stop rumbling and i'm sure i'm gonna shit myself if i go on a walk. so i won't

i did go on a walk. lol.

i had a small argument with bunny that quickly turned into suicidal thoughts that won't stop.

mindfulness: half then got interrupted.

:✧ ̗̀➛ saturday 2nd

intake: 450/800

very plain day. depressing, really. i woke up at 7am, then went back to sleep til 11am. had a coffee and a fruit salad, then went back to sleep at 15pm and woke up at 19pm.

i did no exercise, just laid in bed most of the day. not satisfactory but i genuinely didn't feel like doing anything else. not even watching youtube videos which is my comfort activity. had a lot of feelings of emptiness but almost no urgency about it. i mean, i do want to hurt myself a little but just a normal amount even argued with bunny, kinda. he stopped responding and i just took a nap about it. i was annoyed but i didn't have the energy to breakdown if that makes sense. just pure anhedonia today.

i canceled the call with him and he just said okay. it didn't bother me that much. i would say i canceled it because of: 10% get a reaction 40% don't have the energy to talk 50% i genuinely feel like it would cause a fight and i don't want that.

a while later had a mental breakdown. he didn't text me goodnight and that felt like the end of the world to me. from 00 to 2am i was completely distraught and considered ending it multiple times. even fidgeted with the pills i have in my possession and counted them.

i do think reading the symptoms of an overdose scared me a little, it will take some time to make peace with it. also, i really don't wanna go without writing letters to say goodbye. mostly because i wanna make sure to let everyone know that they did the best they could and it's all my fault and not theirs.

mindfulness: done, 5mins. average performance

:✧ ̗̀➛ sunday 3rd

woke up with a raging headache and i feel dead inside (still) but i weighed myself and lost 600gr and that's good. it's probably dehydratation but whatever,

:✧ ̗̀➛ monday 4th

we didn't work and i spent most of my morning at my sister's house cuz the power was out in my house. it was only my mom and i, which means it was one of my favorite mornings.

i don't know what i did during the day.

at night i met up w bunny to go grocery shopping together. and we didn't ds later cuz i still didn't have electricity in my home. we (my family and i) hung out at my sister's for a bit and i played with my niece that drew a heart that said i love you and gave it to me.

:✧ ̗̀➛ tuesday 5th

gave my presentation. i was really nervous, i mean, my stomach hurted and i thought i was going to vomit. but when i saw that one of my classmates was nervous too i mostly just wanted to reassure her. i feel like i spoke normally and i didn't mess up that much. i felt really disconnected to everyone else's presentations. they were very corny, in my opinion. but there were some good ones (like mili's)

i walked around the city during my free time. accidentally got myself join in a charity org.

for my next class i started to feel sick. i don't know what it is, i think i`m somatizing or whatever.

:✧ ̗̀➛ wednesday 6th

i went to sleep quite late (around 1am) and i had multiple lattes during the day which made me sick. i worked, and after i think i took a nap? i don't remember.

i didn't get to ds with bunny this night but i didn't overreact about it. actually, i was the one who brought up the idea of skipping ds this night so he could rest. i think that made me have some kind of power over the matter.

:✧ ̗̀➛ thursday 7th

went to my psychiatrist appointment by myself (my mom said she wanted to come with me, but changed her mind cuz she felt sick with the flu).

i didn't get a coffee after the appt because i felt like that would only be fun if i had my mom with me. also, i didn't wanna spend money - which seems stupid cuz i did buy cookies and an alfajor and a white monster.

i texted my mom that i wanted to have mate with her when i came back and we did.

after i took a nap and i felt bed-rotty again. i knew i had to get up but i just didn't feel like it. i finally did when it was time for the meeting. i think i had some ugly thoughts based on what i tweeted abt being a rotting corpse and how being alive is a nightmare.

when on ds with bunny i felt incredibly irritated by the noise of him talking. it's just the noise tho.

:✧ ̗̀➛ friday 8th

slept basically all day. was awake for short periods of time in which i ate, fed my cat, and worked.

:✧ ̗̀➛ saturday 9th

felt sleepy for most of the day but around 5pm i started to feel more awake. i journaled a lot and had mate with my mom. it was a very calm day.

at night i talked with bunny and we didn't argue. i think he was scared that i hadn't replied to his texts about not dsing last night but i was just sleeping.

:✧ ̗̀➛ sunday 10th

i'm working and i assume i'll be done by 2pm max. my stomach hurts a lot but i'm still eating fried things, a latte and candy.

:✧ ̗̀➛ monday 11th

:✧ ̗̀➛ tuesday 12th

:✧ ̗̀➛ wednesday 13th

[vampire-biter]

Vampire-Biter intro!

(I’m finally making one yes I know. 😓)

Haiiii! I’m batty as you already know- (probably if you’ve known me for a while)

Basic info-

My name is Apollo/Mune! But yall are always free to call me bats/bat/batty or any other form of bat!)

I just turned 20 on the 5th of June (and my back is somehow already killing me)

Im a trans demi male

My Prns are he/they/xey/it

My looks (if for some reason you wanna draw me I guess 😭😭)

White? If you couldn’t guess 🤷🏻

My eye color: hazel/brown

hair color: red-ish brown

Hair Shape: short and curly

height: 5,8

(I’m Also A Baby Bat- Hense The Name! ^^)

Redacted Info About Meee!

If I could Be Any Form Of Empowered I Would Be a Vampire (obvi? but i also got it on a quiz so-), Dream Walker, Or Shifter

And If I Could Be Any De(a)mon I Would Be A Sadism Demon (Edit From The Fact I Thought I Would Be A Desire Demon, I’m Still Upset With This/hj)

My Sona is Just A Long hair Very Red OR Black (Color Not Skin Tone-) Goth Person 😭

I Cannot Find A Purple Version Of Goth Outfits But Trust Me I Would Have Them, Here’s Also A Reference To My Outfits? (Also These Aren’t Entirely Goth Makeup Choices! I Don’t Like How Makeup Feels On My Face So It Wouldn’t Be Completely Full Face 😭)

Not the type of person you would expect to be a dream walker but still 🙏☹️

Would definitely have a listener and their name would be something cheesy like dreamboat (ik I’m so original) they would also call their listener lupa (wolf in Italian) BECAUSE FUCK DARLIN BEING THE ONLY SHIFTER >:(

Playlist (music) for my sona will be coming soon and a icon with a fake cassette tape 😡

I would also like to make an audio but I cannot voice act well might try though so! ☹️

You should subscribe to my YouTube to see if i do 🤨

(Updated cause I actually made a YouTube for va work :D)

Hehe 😼

(All stuff that I need to make WILL TAKE TIME please give me some of it and be patient pleaseee 😓)

Hashtags I use!!

Not redacted related omg? <- random thoughts

Battytalks / batty talks <- pretty much anything tbh??

Batty headcannons <- head cannons about a tadnom redacted character :D (unless otherwise stated it’s not redacted!!)

Batty moots!! <- talking more to moots than other people I guess??

Batty rants <- srs talks

Batty writes <- stuff I want to write or stuff I wrote and wanted to share (not used yet!!)

Batty drawings <- art I’ve done :D (idk if it’s been used yet :,) )

Batty makes videos <- me making videos but it’s a new one so there isn’t many yet!!

Batty tweets <- im surpised i didnt put it here but yeah! tweets of redacted characters ive done!!

Battys family <- my irl blood family stuff!! (R, H, Mom, and Step-Dad or J)

Alr signing off for now!!

- Mune! 🦇

[sealegsagain]

Found something I filled out in 2010. I think I'd like to do it again with my answers now. Now:

100 Truths: After you've filled this out, tag 10 people and have them do the same:

1. Last beverage? Hazelnut coffee, cream and sugar

4. Last song you listened to? Angel Olsen - If it's alive, it will (live at Kim's Video and Music NC April 16, 2011)

5. Last time you cried? January or December, I think

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:

1. Dated someone twice? You mean broke up and then came back? Not that I think about it.

2. Been cheated on? Yeah

3. Kissed someone & regretted it? Not usually

4. Lost someone special? Yeah

5. Been depressed? Who hasn't?

6. Been drunk and threw up? a very long time ago. Before 2016, definintely. The last time that I actually felt ill from it was 2016.

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:

Purple, black, teal, silver, dark blue

THIS PAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

1. Made new friends? Yep, bangface people mostly

3. Laughed until you cried? Unfortunately not

4. Met someone who changed you? Not that I can tell right now. Ask me in a few more years.

5. Found out who your true friends were? Everyone has their place, so I'm not about to put folks in "true" and "false" categories, but it was nice seeing who stepped in to help during some things I went through, yeah.

6. Found out someone was talking about you? Nah

7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list? Yep

8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? Most of them

9. How many kids do you want to have? It's kind of out of my hands at this point with age and PCOS, but I don't see kids in my future

10. Do you have any pets? I'd have cats here if it was allowed.

11. Do you want to change your name? I did. I was known as Elizabeth till I graduated high school. Liz since then. Answer to both. Keeps things interesting.

12. What did you do for your last birthday? Dinner and drinks with Bill at Ikebana, Same with my mom at Bramble and Brine in Lewes. Honestly was wonderful

13. What time did you wake up today? 9:10 am, Work has my body on a schedule where this is what feels like sleeping in is

14. What were you doing at midnight last night? Listening to WTJU, organizing files

15. Name something you CANNOT wait for?

Paying off my car. Leaving the continental USA again.

16. Last time you saw your dad? A few weeks ago

17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? I would have been smarter with my money

18. What are you listening to right now? Nothing atm.

19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? They're awesome.

23. What's getting on your nerves right now? Sunday Scaries

24. Most visited webpage? Youtube. haha.

This is random how it just starts re-numbering here; but oh well...

1. What's your name? If you don't know by now..

4. Zodiac sign? Sagittarius

5. Male or female or transgendered? Cis female, she/they

6. Elementary? These sound like identity theft questions

7. Middle School? If you don't need to know

8. High school? You already do

10. Hair color? Light brown w/ red and blonde pieces

11. Long or short? Long, wish it were longer

16. Height? 6'

17. Do you have a crush on someone? Nope

18: What do you like about yourself? That'd be an essay that I don't have room for

19. Piercings? Just the ears. I'm boring.

20. Tattoos? None

21. Righty or Lefty? Righty

FIRSTS :

22. I'll choose wisdom teeth removal. They did sew those up.

23. First piercing? Ears.

24. First friends? Don't remember. Elementary School

26. First sport you joined? Tennis. I wasn't great at it

27. First pet? Jasmine the cat

28. First vacation? Disney World, Orlando

29. First concert? BB King with my mom

30. First crush? Memory Hazy.

RIGHT NOW:

49. Eating? Had A bagel and leftover bulgogi for breakfast

50. Drinking? Lacroix fizzy water

52. I'm about to? Bathe, antique store, groceries

53. Listening to? nothing atm

55. Waiting for? Tonight. Oh oh oh... when you will be here in my arms (but nothing really) --------------------------------------------

stopped here, will finish later

YOUR FUTURE :

58. Want kids? Nah

59. Want to get married? If things align that way

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

68. Lips or eyes? eyes

69. Hugs or kisses? kisses

70. Shorter or taller? close to my height is nice

71. Older or Younger? either

72. Romantic or spontaneous? I think they're the same thing.

73. Nice stomach or nice arms? arms?? muscles don't matter to me.

74. Sensitive or loud?

75. Hook-up or relationship?

HAVE YOU EVER :

78. Kissed a stranger? within talking to them the first time the same day.

80. Lost glasses/contacts? in all senses of the word, including contacts actually ejecting themselves from my eyes!

81. Cried during a movie? Amelie, without fail. several others.

82. Broken someone's heart? been told I have... ask me this when I was Gina's age and I'd say it was impossible for me to.

83. Had your own heart broken? That's like asking me if I'm alive

85. Been arrested? can't say I have been, or want to be.

86. Turned someone down? Yeah. One actually took it well! I don't want to believe in ladder theory.

87. Cried when someone died? of course.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:.

89. Yourself? I want to.

90. Miracles? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBBzrHXu1Fg&feature=related

:D

91. Love at first sight? Never happened to me. Maybe for others. Love requires interaction, not just seeing.

92. Heaven? no. I think I know why people believe in it though (as a concept, not judeo-christian)

93. Santa Claus? I miss people actually SLEEPING on Christmas eve. I believe in the Santa ritual even if gifts are not exchanged in the morning. No gaming all night for one night a year :p

95. Kiss on the first date? depends. *thinks back to how many times it was a mandatory-or-never thing* Let's debate, kids.

96. Angels? They have cool names Ariel, Gardriel, Sharmiel. but no.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now?

Definitely. Daily. Wish he knew it. Made a very bad move lately. Feel sick.

98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Nevah. I almost combusted from guilt when I went on casual dates with two different guys in the same week once.

2010:

100 Truths: After you've filled this out, tag 10 people and have them do the same.

1. Last beverage? diet coke

4. Last song you listened to? Ayu Trance 3 in the car on the way to the vigil.

if you're listening to music, you're steps ahead of me.

5. Last time you cried? if you can't remember, that's good. me- New years eve.

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:

1. Dated someone twice? what length of time is that

2. Been cheated on? Guy said he broke up with his ex, then slept with her again. found out about it online. :p

3. Kissed someone & regretted it? Only one person is a regret to the point I regret my memories. Their name started with an L

4. Lost someone special? It would have been awesome if they stayed in my life.. I think. not sure. Hurt to lose them though.

5. Been depressed? clinical symptoms, not clinical length

6. Been drunk and threw up? ..... regrettably yes. I don't want to get that drunk ever again. If you do, you'll want to throw up all day the next day. :(

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:

1. deep blue

2. violet

3. silver

4. marine

THIS PAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

1. Made new friends? o' course

3. Laughed until you cried? Maybe once or twice did my stomach hurt from laughing. No water tho.

4. Met someone who changed you? Change can't be pinned on one person.

5. Found out who your true friends were? There was no weeding out event.

6. Found out someone was talking about you? I wish they were :p~~ I think at this point, I'd see it as amusement.

7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list? If I were kissing someone, it's likely I'd have the courtesy to add them

8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? All but a few, and those I've known long enough for it to count.

9. How many kids do you want to have? None of my own, now, thanks. Future: one perhaps?

10. Do you have any pets? LOUD kit-kat

11. Do you want to change your name? I did. I was known as Elizabeth till I graduated high school.

12. What did you do for your last birthday? Went to an art show. My. Just thinking about it cheers me up.

13. What time did you wake up today? 7 yesterday.. I had finally reset myself to diurnal and I messed up last night.

14. What were you doing at midnight last night? waking up from a nap, I think

15. Name something you CANNOT wait for? oooh I love looking forward to things :)

Makes life worth living. Philly next weekend. But seriously, my next pell grant check, then I can do things I need to do.

16. Last time you saw your dad? last Sunday

17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? the qualit

18. What are you listening to right now? a cover of poker face done by chris daughtry... needless to say, scarred for life.

19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? cannot say I have.

23. What's getting on your nerves right now? Aw Gina, Lady Gaga shouldn't get on your nerves ;) But right now? Worries, arguments.

24. Most visited webpage? It's all moving towards 2.0 and I can see it. This one! ha.

This is random how it just starts re-numbering here; but oh well... (indeed it is)

1. What's your name? gina grace magnesia cilantro zwicky. ( I like your name.! Mine's Elizabeth Anne Peek. very borin)

4. Zodiac sign? Sag with a vag

5. Male or female or transgendered? I used the answer to #4 to make that clear

6. Elementary? glen ave k-3/north salisbury magnet 4-6

7. Middle School? wicomico middle

8. High school? WIHI

10. Hair color? NOT GINGER (Gina, Gingers are awesome)

11. Long or short? mediano.

16. Height? 5'11 Eh meh. Giant lady. used to it by now. Tall ladies of the world: you can still attract men. Have for ages

17. Do you have a crush on someone? Without emotions. without feelings. life is just a clock.. ticking (but seriously, not at the moment)

18: What do you like about yourself? I look at other people and think I'm not so awful.

19. Piercings? Two standard

20. Tattoos? Blanque

21. Righty or Lefty?

FIRSTS :

22. First surgery? not going to talk about that here

23. First piercing? ears- 7. they made one of the holes too low. :p

24. First friends? What the hell kind of question is this??

26. First sport you joined? tennis? Lots of rollerblading..

27. First pet? Praying mantis in a jar

28. First vacation? fraaaance!

29. First concert? BB King with my mom

30. First crush? Christopher Henry in 1st grade. The fact that I remember his name is frightening

RIGHT NOW:

49. Eating? pickle chips (lol what else is new)

50. Drinking? nada.

52. I'm about to? Stay awake all day, go to craft store, finish organizing music @_@

53. Listening to? not my brother's hardstyle anymore, WHY WONT HE LISTEN TO ANYTHING ELSE?

55. Waiting for? the next step

YOUR FUTURE :

58. Want kids? uh, most likely NOT.

59. Want to get married? YES

60. Careers in mind? nature tv show host! (i'm thinking, like, the female version of bear grylls) XD

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

68. Lips or eyes? eyes

69. Hugs or kisses? kisses

70. Shorter or taller? either

71. Older or Younger?

72. Romantic or spontaneous? I think they're the same thing.

73. Nice stomach or nice arms? arms?? muscles don't matter to me.

74. Sensitive or loud? WHO SAID SENSITIVE WAS THE OPPOSITE OF LOUD

75. Hook-up or relationship? I think I'm done with hook-ups

HAVE YOU EVER :

78. Kissed a stranger? within talking to them the first time the same day.

80. Lost glasses/contacts? in all senses of the word, including contacts actually ejecting themselves from my eyes!

81. Cried during a movie? Amelie, without fail. several others.

82. Broken someone's heart? been told I have... ask me this when I was Gina's age and I'd say it was impossible for me to.

83. Had your own heart broken? That's like asking me if I'm alive

85. Been arrested? can't say I have been, or want to be.

86. Turned someone down? Yeah. One actually took it well! I don't want to believe in ladder theory.

87. Cried when someone died? of course.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:.

89. Yourself? I want to.

90. Miracles? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBBzrHXu1Fg&feature=related

:D

91. Love at first sight? Never happened to me. Maybe for others. Love requires interaction, not just seeing.

92. Heaven? no. I think I know why people believe in it though (as a concept, not judeo-christian)

93. Santa Claus? I miss people actually SLEEPING on Christmas eve. I believe in the Santa ritual even if gifts are not exchanged in the morning. No gaming all night for one night a year :p

95. Kiss on the first date? depends. *thinks back to how many times it was a mandatory-or-never thing* Let's debate, kids.

96. Angels? They have cool names Ariel, Gardriel, Sharmiel. but no.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now?

Definitely. Daily. Wish he knew it. Made a very bad move lately. Feel sick.

98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Nevah. I almost combusted from guilt when I went on casual dates with two different guys in the same week once.

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No i hate actually how much my dad has shaped me into a person and how i interact with things. I hate that i'm just like him sometimes and i express my feelings in the exact same dysfunctional way sometimes. That i lash out in anger sometimes. That i hate when people do things the "wrong" way. I hate that i had to fear him every weekend when he came home because what if the rooms werent clean enough and he would yell or be mad. I hate that i had to walk around eggshells around him when he was in a bad mood so he wouldnt yell at me, and i hate it more that it still fucks me up to the point that i run away when someone is upset bc im afraid of them. I hate that i would have such horrid anxiety abt him coming home on the weekends or staying at home for longer that i wished he hadn't come in the first place. I hated so much how he would twist my moms words, and read through all her messages and browse through all her history and shit on her and me for how long we both spent on the computer so i learned to delete history to get away with more computer time. I hate how one time he slapped me so hard on the thigh that it left a bruise but he denied it later so i have no fucking clue if it actually happened because hes never been physical w me and my mom but i remember it so vividly. It was 1 time and never again and in 3rd(?) Grade and i still remember it every now and then. I dont like it that i hated being at home because 80% of the time they were fucking arguing with my mom in the kitchen over something HE made up because HE was jealous of my mom or didnt like sth that my mom did bc HE didnt like it. He caused her so much grief and she had to put up with it and i followed suit because i wanted him to like me so i was nasty to my mom to please him. I had to listen to him rant abt mom and just nod along because i didnt know what to say. And then he started getting better and he wasnt so argumentative anymore so me and my mom were like omg hes changing. And then he fucking died. And i had to watch him die at the hospital while repeating to myself he will be fine becwuse hes a big strong man who has never been sick so he MUST survive, all while doing homework for logo class. And i woke up on tje morning of the 28th dec at 5am with the thought that my dad is probably dead. I brushed it off like haha im just anxious and went to sleep again. He died at 4am. I knew, i felt it.

And now i miss him so often because he was just misguided and didnt know how to deal with his emotions properly. But he still hurt me so bad and my mom even more from what shes told me. And i dont hate him at all even though i would be so scared of him id be nauseous and id cry before he came home bc i was so scared he woild be mad at me. i love him so much but i see him in my dreams so often and hes always so mean and rude in them and it sucks because i miss his hugs and i want him to hug me again and make jokes with me till im crying and i want to wake up on a saturday and go to tje kitchen to see him watching a russian youtube video about construction or "тор 10 момент" compilations while he eats his megapacked mayo grill sandwich and then he turns the water to boil so i could have tea. I want my dad to calm me down again because he was the only person who could do it at times. I want to be like hey dad im struggling with schoolwork can i just sit next to you and brainstorm out loud until i come up with something and yiu can help me think. Hey dad look im knitting a sock hahah yeah i know im crazy for that haha yeah. I miss him but i dont miss tjat he was so awful all tje time. Why couldnt he just be normal why did he have to be a controlling little freak who wanted everyone to do just as he wanted it to happen. And now wjenever sth happens i always find a way to connect it to my dad without wanting to. I hate it. I dont want to think of him as much because all my thoughts about him are so confusing and complex because of the person he was and it makes me feel worse and more confused and yet also nothing. Im happy my dad is dead because my mom is in a much happier relationship right now and i no longer fear coming home because What If hes in a Bad Mood and therfor walking too loud will make him yell. And then he will claim he didnt. While he clearly did