#m: chen yuzhi

[stayuntilthefoglifts]

"You know the ship is good when they both need therapy" at its finest.

[tytangfei]

You bully me too much. Bully you too much? You can jump out. A gentleman doesn't make things difficult for others. I'm not a gentleman.

Killer and Healer (2021)

[luxhesperus]

when i tell you i let out the most inhuman noise 😭

[lunarriviera]

starting to sense a theme here

[gabrielokun]

[noraigo]

can we please talk about jiang yuelou and chen yuzhi?

if you told me a couple of months ago that i wouldn't get over a series about a hot-tempered policeman and a gentle doctor, i wouldn't have believed you. however, here i am and i cannot fathom the fact that this series is so underrated. the chemistry, the whole plot, the characters: chen yuzhi, jiang yuelou, chu ran, yu tangchun, among many others, are so well-built and i think that just for this, it deserves more recognition.

BUT, i’m solely here to talk about these two. can we appreciate how beautiful their relationship is? i am aware that they fall under the bromance trope, but you cannot convince me they are merely close friends, not when the whole series is based on a bl novel. although they start off a bit hostile (i know, i know), the evident infatuation jiang yuelou develops towards chen yuzhi and vice versa is so romantic. he finds everything the doctor does endearing, from his quiet surprises to the way he’s always trying to help him psychologically. yuelou suffers emotionally due to his bipolar disorder, with violent outbursts and unstability that makes him throughout the series, you get to know that yuelou is not the kind of person to seek help, that he would rather confront everything by himself than ask guidance. yet, somehow — he always comes to yuzhi when he’s uneasy or confused. it’s not a secret in the police bureau either, song rong and sun yongren (the most loyal characters i’ve seen in a series, i have to say) are pretty much aware of his liking towards yuzhi’s company. even jin dacheng himself insinuated that both of them didn’t have an innocent relationship at all.

the hugs, the touches, THE LOOKS! oh my goodness, their stares were the death of me. i am the kind of person who never skips initial and final credits, so i was very eager to know the hospital scene that happens at the very end of the credits, because i was sure it would become my favourite. i was right and i won’t forget the feeling i was experiencing: the look of relief on yuelou to see yuzhi alive before his eyes, but being on the verge of tears because he knew yuzhi almost didn’t make it? it's a mixture between guilt, relief and love, all in one. absolutely delightful. it’s a repetitive pattern though: yuzhi gets in trouble, yuelou goes crazy and once he’s safe in his arms again, it’s like a part of yuelou’s soul is being reassured that the most important person in his life is alive, safe and sound. because, oh my… in the novel, yuelou considers the doctor his zhī jǐ: a person who understands him deeply no matter what, similar to a soulmate. thanks to an user on tumblr and their translations, i could get to know that, in the audiodrama, yuelou’s feels go beyond platonic. “you’re more significant than friends. people touch you, it’s the same thing as them going after my life.” THIS IS SO RAW AND EMOTIONAL, I’M GOING TO FAINT. the fact that even when yuelou and yuzhi were in danger, as zhan junbai was watching them over, yuelou straight up says: (on my own words, as my memory has been failing me lately)

“is there something between us that can’t be said? we're of the same mind.” i’m so... give me a minute, please *inaudible screams and screeches*

one thing i noticed a lot while watching the series is the fact yuzhi is a very gentle, soft-spoken and intelligent character, which already makes him likable (oh, i LOVE kind-hearted characters) but when you see him through yuelou’s pov — slow motioned movements, timid dimpled smiles, a person whose demeanour is described as pure even — he becomes even more lovable and that’s how yuelou sees yuzhi. how crazy in love yuelou must be to stare at yuzhi while doing mundane things, such as having dinner together? absolutely not focusing on the plate underneath him. instead, grinning with doe eyes as he watches yuzhi looking at the snowy night. ROMANTICISM ON ITS PEAK.

however, for me, the most special thing is to see yuzhi reassuring yuelou by holding his hand so dearly, by hugging him out of relief to see him alive too, by cradling his hand on yuelou’s cheek to brush his tears away. THE ENDING, I CAN’T CONTINUE MY LIFE AND PRETEND NOTHING HAPPENED.

yuzhi is slowly passing away on the other’s arms. yuzhi always wants to be near him and it gets highlighted in his final words, he was too wishing to eat tang yuan with now commissioner jiang yuelou. even on death, he’s under the snow with him. even on death, yuelou’s fondest memories are with chen yuzhi, for he keeps their photo together close to his heart despite grieving his absence and having to take care of yuzhi’s little sister. yuelou simply sits on his home all alone, with the emptiest eyes which once had the entire galaxy shared with yuzhi. not moving, not doing anything. i felt like i was mourning with yuelou, i will never forget how he quietly lays down beside yuzhi’s body while crying his heart out when he realized the inevitable.

WHY? WHY IS THE ANGST SO BRILLIANT WITH THEM? THE LONGING, THE YEARNING, THE LOVE. i’m afraid i won’t enjoy anything that doesn’t remind me of them. there was a before and an after in me, it literally reseted my entire smooth brain.

everyone, go watch killer and healer. 37 episodes are definitely worth the time!

just look at them, i will respectfully combust.

[killerandhealerqueen]

Ep. 25

Ep. 33

Don't mind me, just fucking losing my mind over the fact that the two people who are the most important to Jiang Yuelou said this to him

This is fine.

I'm fine.

[friendlynbhddevil]

So, story time!

When I started watching Killer and Healer, I was (still am) in love with the song that used to play at the end of each episode. Even after I had finished watching the entire show, the song stuck with me. So, I used to listen to it almost on a daily basis while going to and coming back from school.

This was back in 2021. Basically when Spotify served the very purpose of its existence.

I remember being sad when I couldn't find it there. But, thanks to a very kind uploader on YouTube (they included the translated lyrics too, bless them), my moping didn't last long.

Fast forward to today, I found myself listening to the songs posted on the tag game posts. Among these was the title track of the show's OST.

Out of habit, I scrolled through playlists with the title Killer and Healer on Spotify before my search was finally over.

I don't know why I'm writing this. However, what I do feel is a whole ton of gratitude for the existence of fandoms. My heart is happy :>

So thank youuu 😭😭 (Thank you so much @killerandhealerqueen)

Here's the link if anyone wants to give it a listen:

And here's the video:

[a-single-log-bridge]

Jiang Yuelou : Okay- i- uh need t-to tell you something

Chen Yuzhi : You're finally proposing

Jiang Yuelou: How did you know?

Chen Yuzhi : You've dropped the ring three times during dinner today

Chen Yuzhi : I even picked it up once

[bl-is-totes-my-jam]

A gift for my friend @killerandhealerqueen

Chu Ran, We love you. But you need to get in your head that Jiang Yuelou is Chen Yuzhi-Sexual!

[nineninepetals]

“It’s in the eyes. Always the eyes.”

[x]

[stayuntilthefoglifts]

I'll take care of you.

It's rotten work.

Not to me. Not if it's you.

in cdrama.

For people asking:

Word of honor - Wen Kexing & Zhou Zishu

Justice in the dark - Luo Weizhao & Pei Su

The untamed - Wei Wuxian & Lan Zhan

Guardian - Shen Wei & Zhao Yunlan

Reunion 2: mystery of the abyss - Hei Yanjing & Xie Yuchen

You are my hero - Xing Kelei & Mika

Killer and healer - Jiang Yuelou & Chen Yuzhi

The spirealm - Ruan Nanzhu & Ling Jiushi

You are my hero - Shu Wenbo & Ruan Qingxia

You are my hero - Shao Yuhan & Xing Keyao

[faydeus]

Jin Dacheng cockblock to your service

[luxhesperus]

FUCK OFF???? JIANG YUELOU NOT ONLY GAVE CHEN YUZHI A CLINIC AND CARVED THE PLAQUE (堂之余) WITH HIS OWN HANDS TOO???

(oh mydramalist was not kidding when they tagged it with 'homoerotic subtext' because i'm definitely starting to see it 🫣🫣)

[shadowsofmoonracer]

Me finding a new Chinese drama to get emotionally invested in: 😌👍🏻🤭

Said drama: Police/Detective lead and his Consultant friend (may or may not be wearing a khaki colored jacket)

Me: ….clearly I have a type

If anyone has any recommendations of such drama please hit me up I need my detective/consultant fix 😌

[gabrielokun]