#lyrics: ''self esteem'' by the offspring

[spocksgotemotions]

thought I’d figured out a song for the Worf edit I need to make but no, it doesn’t work like I want it to… sigh back to the drawing board

[itscauseimbatman]

When she's saying that I'm like a disease

Then I wonder how much more I can spend

Well, I guess I should stick up for myself

But I really think it's better this way

The more you suffer

The more it shows you really care

Right? Yeah, yeah, yeah

[riveatstoes]

assigning the sanders sides my liked songs

i’ve wanted to do something similar to this for a while. i did this (kind of) with just taylor a few weeks ago but this is DIFFERENT! so basically the rules were that i had to assign EVERY song in my liked songs on spotify to one of the characters, and then i shortened the lists for brevity. the criteria wasn’t very strict so it came out,, as well as you’d expect it to. there’s also a few at the end that are pairs/groups of characters rather than just one.

the criteria:

general vibes of the song/artist

lyrics (most of the time i cherrypicked the lyrics HARD though)

projecting my own hcs onto them using the songs as tools to do so

one of logan’s is only there because of an animation meme.

also some of these can be taken as prinxiety/logicality/intrulogical based because they’re rotting my brain.

Logan

- The Dark Of The Matinée, Franz Ferdinand

- Bang Bang, K’NAAN, Adam Levine

- Delicate, Taylor Swift

- Birds, Thomas Sanders

- Scott Street, Phoebe Bridgers

- Fortnight, Taylor Swift, Post Malone

- Antisocial, Anthrax

- Powers, boygenius

- Chinese Satellite, Phoebe Bridgers

- Here We Go Again, Paramore

Roman

- Souvenir, boygenius

- Applause, Lady Gaga

- Crazy In Love, Beyoncé, Jay-Z

- You Spin Me Round (Like A Record), Dead Or Alive

- Self Esteem, The Offspring

- Sad Beautiful Tragic, Taylor Swift

- love is embarrassing, Olivia Rodrigo

- The Night Begins To Shine, B.E.R.

- On My Own, Ross Lynch

- I Want You Back, *NSYNC

Patton

- Hard Times, Paramore

- Waiting Room, Phoebe Bridgers

- Get The Funk Out, Extreme

- Thick Skull, Paramore

- Pocketful Of Sunshine, Natasha Bedingfield

- Fire Flies, Gorillaz

- That’s When, Taylor Swift, Kieth Urban

- Graceland Too, Phoebe Bridgers

- Black Hole, boygenius

- Still Into You, Paramore

Virgil

- Green Eyes, Red Face, Lucy Dacus

- Dancing With Our Hands Tied, Taylor Swift

- Second Chance, Shinedown

- Moon Song, Phoebe Bridgers

- ballad of a homeschooled girl, Olivia Rodrigo

- Salt In The Wound, boygenius

- Thick Skull (Re: Julien Baker), Paramore

- All The Things She Said, t.A.T.u.

- I Know The End, Phoebe Bridgers

- Mean, Taylor Swift

Janus

- Ignorance, Paramore

- Rolling In The Deep, Adele

- Stick Season, Noah Kahan

- Build God, Then We’ll Talk, Panic! At The Disco

- Feather, Sabrina Carpenter

- Potential Breakup Song, Aly & AJ

- Ain’t It Fun, Paramore

- Angel Of Small Death And The Codeine Scene, Hozier

- Big Man, Little Dignity, Paramore

- COPYCAT, Billie Eilish

Remus

- Misery Business, Paramore

- Maneater, Nelly Furtado

- The Kids Aren’t Alright, The Offspring

- This Fire, Franz Ferdinand

- Why’d You Only Call Me When You’re High, Arctic Monkeys

- Motion Sickness, Phoebe Bridgers

- I Ain’t Got Time!, Tyler, The Creator

- The Bitch Is Back, Elton John

- Don’t Threaten Me With A Good Time, Panic! At The Disco

- EVIL, Melanie Martinez

Bonuses!

- Janus & Patton: Who Are You, Really?, Mikky Ekko

- Roman & Virgil: Electric Touch, Taylor Swift, Fall Out Boy

- Logan & Remus: I Can See You, Taylor Swift

- The Dark Sides: Not Strong Enough, boygenius

- Logan & Patton: Oh No!, MARINA

[gettin-edgy-all-the-time]

the stages of an Offspring fan

normie: only knows one song if any (and its probably Pretty Fly)

casual listener: knows some of the popular songs' lyrics, just realized they have albums other than Smash and Americana

lowkey fan: knows the majority of the popular songs' lyrics and some of the slightly less popular songs, recently discovered either Splinter or Rise and Fall, Rage and Grace and is wondering how the album didn't do better

fan: knows all of the popular songs and most slightly less popular songs by heart, has picked a favorite 'obscure' song and probably has a favorite album even if they havent listened to all of their albums

hardcore fan: feels that so much of the discography is underrated (spoiler alert it is), in the middle of listening to all the albums, and knows the lyrics to Self Esteem and Pretty Fly better than their own apartment/house

favorite band: favorite song is the one that made them fall in love with the Offspring, has listened to every single song, 9/10 if their playing music Offspring is in the playlist, vehemently believes there is an Offspring song for every occasion (and theyre right)

me: makes an entire shitty tumblr blog specifically to post about the Offspring

[arcadiabaytornado]

the offspring song "self esteem" is peak chloe pining about rachel as she goes about does her own thing

This song is so so so so sad in the context of Rachel and Chloe's relationship. The lyrics that felt to a punch to a gut were:

"Now I know she's playing with me. That's okay 'cause I've got no self-esteem."

"When she's saying, oh that she wants only me. Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends."

[anaisbebe]

WIP Playlist Tag

Thank you for the tag, @honeybewrites!

Rules: Choose 10 songs that remind you of your WIP or which overall fit the story's plot, aesthetic, or vibe

I love collecting music that reminds me of my WIP. Usually they remind me of specific characters, so that's what I'll be doing today! These songs fit RVO (Red Veil of Order).

Sober- TOOL This song reminds me of Chaos... "Why can't we not be sober? I just want to start this over... Why can't we drink forever? I just want to start this over..."

Pet- A Perfect Circle Reminds me of Tartarus, for sure. I've made art to these lyrics before. "Safe from pain, and truth, and choice, and other poison devils... See, they don't give a fuck about you, like I do... Just stay with me, safe and ignorant"

Bottom- TOOL Tartarus, again, but in Act Two. (His hatred era.) "And I can sink no further, and I cannot forgive you. There's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you..."

Capital G - Nine Inch Nails Chaos! There is a line of dialogue based off this song in the novel!! I repeat, Chaos! "Don't try to tell me that some power can corrupt a person- you haven't had enough to know what it's like. You're only angry cuz' you wish you were in my position, now nod your head because you know that I'm right, alright!"

Head Like a Hole- Nine Inch Nails Erebos and Tartarus in Act Two! It's pretty easy to tell who would sing what, given their dynamic... But hey. "Bow down before the one you serve. You're going to get what you deserve!"

Suck- Nine Inch Nails Chaos... Yeah. "I'll heal your wounds, I'll set you free. I'm Jesus Christ, on ecstasy."

Platinum- Orgy Erebos's contradicting attachment to Tartarus. Also, I imagine Erebos sounds like the singer. "Something dirty's got you dear, makes you want to be with you. Something painful's with you dear, makes me want to be with you."

Tear You Apart- She Wants Revenge Finally, I talk about my other characters. This is such a Luna and Theodore song. "But their lips met, and reservations started to pass, whether this was just an evening or a thing that would last- either way he wanted her, and this was bad"

Cryin' Like A Bitch!! - Godsmack Definitely how Erebos treats Chaos. Except Chaos doesn't cry- ever. Or, this is Chaos when he's drunk. "And you can run, your little mouth all day, but the hand of god just smacked you back into yesterday!"

Self Esteem- The Offspring Yeah, Chaos to Erebos. It's quite sad especially since Chaos is much more powerful than Erebos... put manipulation is strong. "Now I know, I'm being used, that's okay man cuz' I like the abuse. Now I know, she's playing with me, that's okay cuz' I got no self-esteem."

Anyway... this took me much longer than it should've, but it was so fun. I adore music! And yes, I love all these songs!

[fandom-trash-xl]

Character Mixes 4/?: Caulifla and Kale

SIDE A: CAULIFLA Punkish tomboy, tough Saiyan blood pumps in her veins... but she's still got a sweet spot for her girl~

You're Gonna Go Far, Kid - The Offspring Ain't It Fun - Paramore Take a Hint - Victoria Justice & Elizabeth Gillies (Victorious soundtrack) Girls - MARINA Jenny (I Wanna Ruin Our Friendship) - Studio Killers I Wanna Be Your Girlfriend - girl in red It Means Everything - Pedro Silva (OMORI OST)

(A/N: To get some of the more punkish tracks for her I actually had to tread out of my usual vibe for jams a little bit to get You're Gonna Go Far, Kid and Jenny. Could definitely use the former for a fight scene. Also considered Born2Run by Penelope Scott but I felt some of the lyrics were a bit too real-world-events for a fictional character.)

SIDE B: KALE Soft, shy, working on her self-esteem, pining for the one who sees her. She's got a tough side, she just needs the confidence to let her feelings loose.

Pink in the Night - Mitski Boys Will Be Bugs - Cavetown Cloud 9 - Beach Bunny Strawberry Blond - Mitski Doctor - Jack Stauber Stay Soft - Mitski Brutal - Olivia Rodrigo

(A/N: Kale was actually a bit tricky to do at times since some of the sweet stuff could apply to the Caulikale ship as a whole. I did manage to find some Kale-sided sweets for this side. Brutal is definitely a bit more intense than the rest of her mix- but that's her on the edge track, when her temper finally snaps.)

TAPE TWO: CAULIKALE/KALE-IFLA A pair that's tough to separate. Another side of them comes to light with this crush; Caulifla sweetens and Kale perks up. Honestly, a lot of this is just pure lesbian Chex Mix.

Still Into You - Paramore Be Strong and Hit Stuff - Casey Lee Williams (RWBY Volume 8 soundtrack) We Fell In Love In October - girl in red Homecoming - girl in red Magnet (Kasane Teto & Genbu Cover) - ELGD (original by Minato) Girls - girl in red Space Girl - Frances Forever

(A/N: I really love Be Strong and Hit Stuff for their tournament getting stronger together vibes. It was actual tricky to find other stuff that hit that mark, so I treated this more as what they'd vibe to- The Lesbian Chex Mix if you will (note: that phrase randomly came to me one night when I was planning this character mix and it's been on mind ever since). Also, when putting these together, I always act so hesitant with adding some of these tracks like I have to ration them out sparingly and I can only use them for one character's aesthetic. But that's not a rule that exists- heck, there are overlap tracks between Kale & Cabba and Frieza & Hit. Anyway, I've also found that Space Girl works really well for Kuriza x Bulla/Kurla. Just noting this.)

[hawkssucks]

ok i just listened to your jin song reccs and you are now CEO of Jin Playlists!!!🎶i loved the whiplash between sadness runs thru him and then eminem. jin listening to eminem is canon to me now! i put some random songs from the offspring into the rotation (kids aren’t alright, bad times roll, you’re gonna go far kid, gotta get away) and the lyrics were saur accurate esp: “Now dance, fucker, dance, man, I never had a chance” like yeowchh

YOU DONT KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS TO ME… the highest honour I could receive is my music HCs being liked. I take this stuff too seriously. Also CHOICE Offspring takes, those are the exact songs, Self Esteem is also a really good one. Maybe once I clean up my Jin playlist I’ll share the link, I have a tendency to add songs on a whim and it gets kinda bloated.

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

y'know which love songs are really cool?

the punk ones. like Dear Lover by Social Distortion or Self Esteem by Offspring. like. yeah. those are neat. those fuckin slap. hell yeah. the lyrics are Great and so is the music itself like fuck yeah

[multisockdrifting]

its crazy that whenever you need somebody by rick astley and low self esteem by the offspring are basically the same song lyrically. just wouldnt have guessed those two would have such strong theme crossover i guess

[glittter-vamp]

🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to?

I know a quite a few...

Self Esteem by The Offspring

Hey by Pixies

Makes Me Ill By NSYNC

25/8- Bad Bunny

Come Into My Arms by Judy Torres (IYKYK)

I could go on forever lmao

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #442

“the more you suffer, the more it shows you really care, right?”

Would you ever sell your soul? No. Do you believe that something is going to happen in 2012? Welp, clearly not. I never believed it. Have you ever been to the Grand Canyon? No, but I'd love to! When was the last time you slept in someone else’s bed? Uhhh not since I visited Sara, I think. Do you like your music loud or at a reasonable level? Loud, for sure. Louder than I should listen to. Did the last person you kiss have a tattoo? No. What’s the last song you heard? "The Bird and the Worm" by The Used. Has anyone told you they missed you lately? No. What are you most likely to do when you’re exhausted; take a nap, drink some coffee, or go for a run to get yourself pumped up again? Naps definitely win. What are you most likely to pick if you got to choose your topic on a research paper; drug abuse, mental illness, or the death penalty? Mental illness, for sure. What is your favorite month of the year and why? October, bc aesthetic. What’s your least favorite animal? Probably wasps. They're mean fuckers that kill bees. What was your class song when you graduated? Some super shitty country song. Have you ever had to spend the night outside (not camping)? No. What`s the scariest living animal that you`ve petted? A tarantula, I'd say. She was a sweet rose hair that I literally did pet, which you absolutely should not do to tarantulas, but I knew nothing about them at the time. The urticating hairs on their abdomens cause serious itching, and I tell ya, that sure happened. So did you play old school Nintendo or Atari or Sega? If so which one? We had an old Atari for a long time. When/where did you meet your first love? In the hallway, during my sophomore year of high school. Is there anyone you dislike, that you have to see/speak to regularly? Hm, what qualifies as "regularly," really? I don't like my sister's husband, who I see semi-regularly, but I don't really talk to him. Does your family eat any unique foods for Thanksgiving that aren’t the norm? If so, what are they? Nah, not that I can think of. If you eat oatmeal, do you add water or milk to it? What is your favorite flavor? Milk; I don't like it with water. I only eat the apples and cinnamon kind. Was the last video you watched on YouTube a music video? If not, what was it of? It's a let's play. Have you ever been brave enough to cut your hair in a very different way? If you have, did you regret your decision after? Yes, and I still love it. What was the last book you had to read for school? Did you enjoy it, or were you just trying to get through? The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood. I loved it. Has anyone you know personally ever won the lottery? If so, how much did they win? Would/have you ever play(ed) the lottery? No to both questions. I have a very addictive personality, so I don't really mess with dangerous things that might tempt that behavior. What band/celebrity/etc. do you know the most information about? Who would you like to learn more about? Markiplier, ha ha. As for who I'd like to know more about... hm. Have your friends met the last person you kissed? Girt has. Who has made the biggest difference in your life? Jason. You get a text from someone saying that they want to hang out - who would you most like it to be from? Also Jason. -_- What is the name on your birth certificate (feel free to withhold your last name for privacy reasons)? Brittany Marie is all you need to know. Even if shopping isn’t your favorite... every girl has a favorite store. What’s yours? My favorite physical store is Hot Topic, but my favorite store overall is Rebel's Market, which I'm pretty sure is just an online source. Which type of undies do you wear most: Thongs, bikini/briefs, bootyshorts, or granny panties? Don't you dare laugh, I prefer "granny panties" lmfao. They're what I'm comfortable in, okay. How many nail polishes do you have, if you were to take a guess? *I* have none. Idk about Mom, but I know not a lot. Are you on birth control? Do you use condoms? I use birth control to regulate my period and ease cramps. If I was sexually active though, both would be musts for me. When did you start your period? How did you react? Who did you tell first? When I got home from school sometime in middle school. I don't remember exactly how old I was, but I was EXTREMELY upset. Like, I cried, because I didn't feel like a kid anymore. My mom was the first to know. Have you ever had sex while on your period? If so, would you ever do it again? NO NO NO NO THAT SOUNDS SO GROSS LKASDFJ;AJW;LKERJA;WEJLRKQWLKE;JR. Which way do you swing (boys, girls, or both)? I'm bi. Or pan. I really don't know. Tell me ALL about your longest/most serious relationship. Are you still in that relationship? How about I don't, because doing that I'm sure will send me in a PTSD spiral. No, we're no longer together. Who is your ALL TIME best friend (don’t count your boyfriend, either, silly!)? Sara. I don't think I've been as close with any other best friend. Which one of your friends has the best singing voice? SARAAAAAAAAAAA. What shade are you in foundation or concealer? I don't have a clue. I don't wear either. Have you ever showered with someone? Boy or girl? Were you completely naked? "Were you completely naked." No, I shower with underwear on. I've showered with my little sister as well as my best friend as a kid. I've never shared a shower as an adult and don't want to. Do you think you’re good enough for the person you like? No. Are you a cuddler or no? If I'm really into you, YUP. And if it's not hot. Wouldn’t it be kinda annoying to have to share a bed every night? No. I miss it sometimes. Have you ever walked on a beach at night? Yes. It's beautiful. Could you go the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? Pretty easily, yeah. Would you marry someone you didn’t love if you were paid 10 thousand dollars? No. I just wouldn't be able to stomach doing that. I'm solely marrying for love. Have you had sex today? I haven't in many years. Do you still care about your last ex? Very very much! Do you own more then one bathing suit? Nope. Is there any alcohol in the fridge? Yeah, but none I like. Who have you recently made up with after fighting? Nobody. Who do you WANT to make up with? Jason. Megan. Do you get scared easily? Hm. It really depends on the situation. Have you seen UP? Never the full movie, actually. I need to. How many coats of mascara do you use? I use it so rarely that I barely know. Two, maybe? What’s your favorite bracelet? The one Sara gave me. I used to always wear it, but it's worn down with time and is too loose for me now, so it's just with my jewelry. What color hair does your mom have? It's naturally gray now, but she dyes it black. Favorite song to listen to when you are mad? "Headache" by Motionless In White does it. What restaurant would you want to work at? NONE. I ain't working with hungry people. I don't want to work with people - period. When people ask “how are you?” do you say “good” even if you aren’t? Depends on who's asking. If it's a stranger or someone I barely know, odds are I'm just going to reply with "fine" or something like that. Were you honestly a good kid? Yes. Is anything wrong with your eyes? I have to wear glasses, so. Have you kissed or hugged anyone today? No. What is your mom’s and dad’s favorite TV show? I don't really know for either. Mom watches loads of shows, and I don't live with Dad, so. I know he really likes The Big Bang Theory, though, which Mom also loves. Have you ever suspected your mom or dad of having an affair? No, but ~supposedly~, Dad did with his now-wife. I don't know what the fuck is true between my parents, though. Do you think buying second hand clothes is gross? It depends on the type of clothing (ex., used underwear is a huge fucking no), as well as the state it's in. Does it gross you out when your parents kiss? They're divorced. That would be incredibly weird, uncomfortable, and impossible with how I know at least Mom feels towards Dad. Do you have a playlist made on YouTube? Yeah, multiple. Do you like dollar stores? I mean, sure? They have good deals occasionally and are a good option to stop for a quick snack or something. Mom doesn't actually *shop* in them, though. What’s the last thing you bought from one? I think a honeybun. Do you think it’s weird how babies are made? Well, yeah. Science can be crazy, though. Have you ever lost a friend over the opposite sex? No. Are you comfortable in a short skirt? I wouldn't be comfortable in ANY skirt. Do you and your family go on a vacation ever year? We essentially never do. Vacations cost money. We don't have money to spare. When you were going out with your last ex and you had the chance to date your celebrity crush, would you have left your bf/gf for them? No, because it's not like I know him personally, while I know her very deeply. Who was your most romantic moment with? Jason. Do you sweat easily? Like you wouldn't BELIEVE. A side effect of one (or even multiple) of my meds is hyperhidrosis, so I can sweat an ocean in two minutes, it seems. It's disgusting, and I am so self-conscious about it. What’s one memory you wish would just vanish? Just a specific moment with Jason that is particularly agonizing to recall. Are you in love with someone? No. Partying or watching a movie? Partying isn't my thing. I'd have more fun watching a movie with friends. What pisses you off the most? Child molesters/rapists, probably. Where do you want to be at a year from now? I just want a job by then, dude. I also hope I've lost a lot of weight. Do you like pickles? Only dill pickles. If you saw someone broken down on the side of the road, would you stop to help? Honestly, no. I don't trust people. What do you do with your plastic grocery bags after you unload your things? We put our plastic bags into one big bag for later use. Have you ever slept in a water bed? Yes. How often do you use Flickr? I don't. I only ever check my friend's for meerkat photos, ha ha. Share three nice memories you have of the person you fell hardest for. No, unless you want me to cry. Have you ever made any of your friends cry? Not deliberately of course, but yes. Do you look decent in your most recent photograph? God no, I look high. Out of all the guys you know, who would you trust to not cheat on you? Girt. I know he never would, especially because HE'S been cheated on. How do you plan on disciplining your children? NOT by physical means, I can tell you that much. If I actually had kids, I'd teach them through (hopefully) primarily deeply talking things out. If need be, there'd be time out, grounding, things like that. I do NOT support methods like spanking your kid, so that's a big no. If you could live in another country, would you? What country? Yes; Canada. If you could change your name, what would you change it to? Quinn, probably. What’s one health problem you wish you didn’t have? It's a tie between depression and anxiety. What is your cure for hiccups? NOTHING works for me. It's the worst. Did you ever do anything in class that annoyed other students? I mean, I don't think so. Have you used a Ouija board and had a freaky experience with it? I've never messed with one, and I don't want to. I don't know if I believe in their supernatural abilities or not, but I ain't fuckin around and finding out. Do you stick with a political party, or vote for who you like best? I pick based on their policies and morals, not necessarily their party. Do you know anyone who is an albino? No. Word search or crossword puzzle? Word searches. When you watch a game show, do you like to see people win or lose? Aw, who wants to see them lose? It's great to see people win and be so excited. Do you have a pair of fake redneck, vampire, etc. teeth? No. What is your favorite Pixar film? Finding Nemo. Do you get really mad when you lose a game? Not at all. I'm not very competitive, and games are about having fun. When was the last time you used a pay phone? I actually don't think I ever have. Who did you have your most amazing kiss with? Jason. Do you go to church every Sunday? I never go to church as I'm not religious. If you had to get famous for one of the following, which would you choose: music, acting, writing, modeling? Writing. What do you think of girls with huge boobs that don’t wear bras in public? Who the fuck cares. If they're comfortable and at least have a shirt on, let 'em. Most women have breasts, big whoop. Do you even like politics? God no. What’s it like at raves? Oh god, I'd never go. Have you ever had a dream in which you were making out, or more, with someone? lol yes

[tennoshinigami]

[gettin-edgy-all-the-time]

all my thoughts and feelings about the offspring in one big post

I owe this band so fucking much for all they’ve gotten me through so far so here’s a kind of overview of how I got into the band and why they mean so much to me

before you read on though, trigger warnings for depression, anxiety, and implied suicidal thoughts for the like second half the post

So the first offspring song I heard was either The Kids Aren’t All Right or Come Out and Play and I remember being pretty young but still recognizing the songs. my little kid mind used to hear ‘carburetor’ instead of ‘keep ‘em separated’ and absolutely loved that guitar riff from Come Out and Play.

The next two songs I remember are Pretty Fly For A White Guy, Gotta Get Away, and Self Esteem. I distinctly remember my dad singing along to Pretty Fly in the car. I think Gotta Get Away was the first offspring song I knew all the words to and was a large part of the reason I got into the band (it is my favorite offspring because of this). When I first listened to Self Esteem I related to it because I did not, in fact have much self esteem and the line ‘the more you suffer, the more it shows you really care right?’ really hammered home how good the song is for me.

Then at some point in there I learned the lyrics to Gone Away. I really liked the lyrics kind of related to the grief even thought the song was about losing someone but I could not explain why. I think I just like themes of pain and loss in stuff that I listen to or read.

Fast forward a few years of me being a casual listener to my freshman year of high school. I kinda felt like shit. I had no real friends for the first few months, my depression had gotten worse the second half the school year, I had started to question my gender and sexuality, and I was just very lost in general. I found You’re Gonna Go Far, Kid (and Teenagers but that’s for a different post) and related to it and it became the song I could take my anger and depression out through.

Somewhere in there Gotta Get Away became my anxiety anthem. I have always struggled with a little bit of social anxiety but once I got to high school where I didn’t know any body and there was a lot more stress from schoolwork my anxiety went through the fucking roof. Honestly it’s still pretty bad today but at least I can cope better, in part thanks to Gotta Get Away.

Then several months ago I went to see The Offspring live. I think that concert was the first time I heard Let The Bad Times Roll and the only lines I could make out were ‘let me know when you decide: apathy or suicide’ and ‘oh baby let the bad times roll.” Then I think I also heard Staring At The Sun for the first time there and I liked it because the chorus was very screamable. I saw Dexter play Gone Away on the piano and now it’s one of my goals to get good enough on piano to play it.

Shortly after the concert I listened to the entire Let The Bad Times Roll album because I loved the song Let The Bad Times Roll so much. It kind of came at just the right time because I started to get depressed again after that and what kept me going was the line ‘let me know when you decide: apathy or suicide.’ I related heavily to it because during that period I was either apathetic or depressed or both the majority of the time. And some other songs from the album like Behind Your Walls and Army Of One have really stuck with me. After listening to that album I started listening to all their other albums, which is what I consider the start of my obsession with their music.

I discovered Rise and Fall, Rage and Grace, which is possibly my favorite album (it’s hard to choose). Half-Truism had me in a vice grip for months mostly because of the line ‘your own liberation will leave this behind’ because at the time i was both grappling with myself over whether or not to come out and trying to decide if I wanted to go to therapy, and both of these would possibly change my life in ways I was not ready for (Spoiler alert I didn’t do either). I also loved the songs Trust In You because it is honestly pretty relatable for me and Kristy, Are You Doing Okay? because I think it’s just such a beautiful and sad song.

At some point pretty far into my listening to every Offspring album I started this blog because The Thoughts were piling up and I needed somewhere to put them before people started to think i was crazy.

Then life got stressful again and depression and anxiety got a hell of a lot worse. My birthday was in there and I just felt like shit because I felt I hadn't done anything in that year of my life. I was questioning my purpose in life and asking myself why I was even still alive. I didn't feel like I had anything to look forward to. I found out that The Offspring had their eleventh album in the works on my birthday through a local radio station's dj randomly talking about it. Maybe its stupid or whatever but the new album has given me something to look forward to and a reason to keep going.

At the time I was also trying to figure out how the hell I would fit into a punk music scene when I was also looking toward higher education and a career in the sciences. In my head that made me a fake or a poser or some stupid shit and because of this I had decided that there was not point in me learning to play guitar if I wasn't going to go anywhere with it (looking back this was a totally irrational thought but i guess that stupid little voice in the back of my head isn't rational either). Then i learned (from a random ass tumblr meme no less) that Dexter had a phd in microbiology. Those notions of 'you cant play guitar if you want to go into the sciences' went right out the fucking window. I've been learning guitar ever since and one of my greatest motivations is getting good enough to play all my favorite Offspring songs.

This last thing is kind of a weird coincidence that I think is pretty cool. So I also have the nickname Noodles. My aunt gave me the nickname when I was really little because I loved the noodles at a local chain restaurant. I don’t know when I figured out that I had the same nickname as Noodles, but I do remember thinking that it’s kind of awesome to share a nickname with a member of your favorite band.

Congratulations you’ve made it to the end of All My Thoughts And Feelings About The Offspring In One Big Post. I know it’s a pretty long post and honestly I’ve probably forgotten stuff and definitely wasn’t able to go into my opinions on all of their music. I think I might do a series of posts going into my thoughts about each album (I originally started this blog with this series in mind), but that’s for another time. Thank you for reading or even just skimming this. The Offspring mean a lot to me (obviously), and I might come back and add onto this post as time passes.

[thinkingcancausedeath]

The more you suffer, the more it shows you really care!

-Self Esteem|The Offspring

[positively-negative09]

“I know that I’m being used, that’s okay because I like the abuse.”

— Self-Esteem by Offspring