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popstar - jude bellingham
summary: y/n is in her popstar era and has a fan in the form of madrid's starboy
SMAU!
liked by pedri, oliviarodrigo, beabadoobee, and 32, 726 others ynusername working hard or hardly working?
badbunny YAYAYA my baby come home soon
leahwilliamson Gorgeous girl x
user60293 WHEN WORLDS COLLIDE
user60132 I already know the amy winehouse influence will be insane
ynusername oh you know it
liked by blonded, lukehemmings, sabrinacarpenter, and 41, 736 others ynusername oh italy
user60383 WHAT A SHOW
littlesimz we have to link up someday
blonded Girls will go to Italy once and come back alt
ynusername go record some music christopher
judebellingham very european
user21293 WHY IS Y/N FRIENDS WITH SO MANY FOOTBALLERS?
liked by user56230, phoebebridgers, calumhood, and 44, 492 others ynusername sorry for the spam but EUROPE!?!?!?!
kevinabstract ur so cool i wish i was u
sabrinacarpenter AAAAAAAAHHHH
judebellingham Sparkly
ynusername still need tix ? user02931 I CANT I CANT I CANT I CANT
liked by pablogavi. ynusername, vinijr, and 672, 729 others pedri đ´đđ
ansufati â¤ď¸
ynusername pepiiiii
user60219 HOW MANY FOOTBALLERS DOES Y/N KNOW???
ynusername too many đ
user49320 y/n really catching all the footballers like their stones
liked by judebellingham, lukehemmings, oliviarodrigo, and 56, 832 others ynusername madrid may have the best fans shhhh
user98273 MADRID GIRLIES RISE!!!
judebellingham What a show â liked by ynusername
user44392 WHAT THE FUUUUUUCK
pedri Come to Barca and we'll show you the best fans
ynusername nah i'm good
liked by ynusername, vinijr, philfoden, and 5, 873, 923 others judebellingham Recent âď¸
vinijr đĽđĽ
user09273 that looks a whole lot like a y/n concert...
user63882 Tell me why I have the exact same photo but at a dif angle... jude we see u
jobebellingham Much better weather than birmingham tbf
ynusername what a pretty concert!
judebellingham What a pretty girl!
liked by oliviarodrigo, judebellingham, pedri, and 109, 726 others ynusername spain + digi camera = heaven
user25309 GAGGED
user78201 this is literally the hottest couple of all time
sabrinacarpenter digi never disappoints
user90123 I NEED the timeline of their relationship omfg
judebellingham this is cute
user05316 Bro is down so bad that he turned off caps-lock
liked by casemiro, ynusername, edermilitao, and 7, 983, 022 others judebellingham When your girl is so pretty, all you can do is stare. Happy one year anniversary baby, I love you too much to keep it a secret.
ynusername aww thank you judey đ
judebellingham Hi baby
user89302 how the actual fuck did no one know about this???
user92634 'i love you too much to keep it a secret' OKAYYY
leahwilliamson thank god, I don't have to keep this a secret anymore
user66539 CONFIRMED! hottest couple of all time
hehe let me know if you guys liked this! SAY SOMETHING IS COMING SOON I PROMISE!!
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5SOS wildflower wallpapers! || please reblog/like if saving/using!
#5sos#5secondsofsummer#5 seconds of summer#5soscalm#calm5sos#calm album#wildflower#lukehemmings#calumhood#michaelclifford#ashtonirwin#luke hemmings#calum hood#michael clifford#ashton irwin#iphone#lockscreen#lockscreens#lock screen#lock screens#aesthetic#homescreen#home screen#wallpaper#wallpapers#wall paper#wall papers#home screens#homescreens#pastel
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I got bored and made this. The words around him are all just word pictures I already had in my phone.
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5sos locks made by me ^^ #5sos #lockscreen #5soslockscreens #5soslockscreen #calumhood #hood #calum #michael #clifford #michaelclifford #ashton #irwin #ashtonirwin #luke #lukehemmings #hemmings #5sospack #5soslayout #5sospacks #5soslayouts #calumhoodpack #calumhoodpacks #lukehemmingspack #lukehemmingspacks #lukehemmingslayout #lukehemmingslayouys #michaelcliffordpack #michaelcliffordpacks #michaelckiffordlayout #michaelcliffordlayouts #ashtonirwinpack #ashtonirwinpacks #ashtonirwinlayout #ashtonirwinlayouts #wallpaper #5soswallpaper #5soswallpapers
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Just some appreciation for Luke's amazingly wild curly locks. đđ #ashtonirwin #ashton #ashy #ash #irwin #lukehemmings #luke #lukey #hemmings #calumhood #calum #cal #hood #michaelclifford #michael #mikey #mike #clifford #ashton5sos #luke5sos #michael5sos #calum5sos #5secondsofsummer #5sosfam #5sos
#hood#mikey#lukehemmings#luke#5sosfam#luke5sos#calum5sos#ashton#5secondsofsummer#hemmings#irwin#lukey#cal#michaelclifford#calumhood#ashy#michael5sos#ash#ashtonirwin#michael#calum#ashton5sos#5sos#mike#clifford
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wildflower (made with flowers from the music video) lockscreens/wallpapers!
please reblog/like if using/saving! :)
#5sos#5 seconds of summer#5secondsofsummer#wildflower#wildflower music video#lockscreen#lockscreens#lock screen#lock screens#luke hemmings#calum hood#michael clifford#ashton irwin#lukehemmings#calumhood#michaelclifford#ashtonirwin#homescreen#home screen#homescreens#home screens#wallpaper#wall paper#wallpapers#wall papers#aesthetic#iphone#colorful#tumblr
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calum hood lockscreens!
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#5 seconds of summer#5secondsofsummer#5sos#calum hood#calumhood#lockscreen#lockscreens#homescreen#home screen#home screens#lock screen#lock screens#luke hemmings#lukehemmings#michaelclifford#michael clifford#ashtonirwin#ashton irwin#aesthetic#tumblr#wallpaper#wallpapers#wall paper#wall papers#colorful#iphone#green#black#white
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Three versions of the lockscreen I made đ I got bored I guess
#i hope you like it#5sos#lukehemmings#5 seconds of summer#ashton irwin#calum hood#michael clifford#lock screen#luke 5sos#5sos lyrics#ghost of you#youngblood
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Look at this lock screen I made Iâm kinda proud of it.
#lukehemmings#michael clifford#calum hood#ashton irwin#5sos#5 seconds of summer#lock screen#luke5os#calum 5sos#michael 5sos#luke 5sos#ashton 5sos#5 sauce#phone#home screen
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Over And Out (l.h)
End Up Here - Part 4
Pairing: Luke Hemmings x 5sos! Fem! Reader
Summary: A tour. A secret relationship. And rumors only grow...
Warnings: Angst, mild smut. Mentions of harassment, sexual harassment, sexual abuse, physical abuse, verbal abuse, creepy men, jealousy, alcohol, cheating, fighting, sexism, and many frustrations. Language and some grammatical errors (English is not my first language, Iâm sorry)
Word Count: 10k
Authorâs Note: this is the most frustrating thing Iâve ever written, I believe. Next part will be up on March 14th. Remember that Reblogs, Fedback, Comments and Likes are very important! You have no idea how much they help me â¤ď¸ Hope you like it and Happy Reading đŚđťâ¨
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Series Materialist || part 1 || part 2 || part 3
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lukehemmings and away and away we go âď¸
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5sosfan4eva THEY ARE TOTALLY DATING
âŞď¸ calumlovesash I hope theyâre not 𤢠she was much better with Madden or Josh. At least theyâre famous
yn5sos Iâm changing seats with Michael
âŞď¸ lukehemmings @yn5sos đĽş
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@5sos EUROPE ARE YOU READY?!
âI canât believe weâre already here!â Y/N cheered as they got to the hotel.
Itâs been a month on the road already and they finally had a few days to rest before traveling to yet another destination. They had the idea of doing a tour to promote not only their new singles and tease the album release thatâs bound to happen next year, and it ended up being one of the most incredible ideas they had after spending almost a year without doing shows.
They started with a small tour in Europe, then they will move on back home in Australia for a couple of shows, and then the big finale in the United States where most of their shows were already sold out. By that time, the fans wouldâve already listened to the new songs and be even more hyped for the new album.
Luke was the newbie on tour, this not being the first time he traveled away from home, but the first time he did it with people he cared about. He was having the time of his life with Y/N, the boys, and their s.o. It all felt like a dream. He was actually living the life of a rockstar on his summer break, even if most of the things they did they had to keep it a secret.
When Y/N invited Luke on tour there was no way he wouldâve said no to her - not just because he pretty much canât say no to her, but thatâs another story.
She said she wanted to take it slow and that was exactly what they were doing. They didnât put a label on whatever they had going on, but rather they enjoyed the moment stealing kisses and nights whenever they could.
They would sneak out into each other's rooms late at night, longing to be closer. They would spend hours upon hours tangled in the sheets, loving each other and sharing whatever was on their minds at the time. Making those moments their own amid their borrowed time between destinations. A moment for the two of them.
Luke found it weird at the beginning; hiding their relationship from the world until it became official. But these last few months he could see a change in Y/N, she seemed happier, more open to talking about her feelings and her past. He understood that this was important to her, to live a normal life until she feels ready to share it.
If time is what she needed, time is what sheâll get.
The boys and their girlfriends were all supportive. They too understood the importance of keeping some things private as well as the changes in Y/Nâs behavior. They were all happy to see their friend back, just in time for tour.
But it was almost impossible to control what was put in the media. The fans already know who Luke is and that he spends a lot of time with the members of their favorite band. They speculate about his relationship with Y/N, creating rumors that even though he wants to, he canât confirm nor deny. And when it came to the media outlets, those were much, much worse.
They didnât say much about him âThe privilege of being normalâ Said Calum once. But they did have a lot to say about Y/NâŚ
âY/N L/N is back at it again with a new man?!â
âNo tears this time? Y/N L/N Caught smiling and getting cuddly with a member of her team! Can she mix work and pleasure?â
âSerial heartthrob Y/N L/N seen with other men while still refusing to talk about her most recent break-up? Sounds fishy to me!â
âWhat was she thinking?! Y/N L/N was spotted in an outing with his ânew friendâ wearing very thin shorts and a crop top. Not so family-friendly apparentlyâ
Horrible things were written about her every day but she ignored them as if they didnât exist. Luke wished he could do the same.
Every little article, tweet, or comment about Y/N made his blood boil. It was clear that they were completely made up to be some âbig newsâ when the reality was far from that and they kept disrespecting them and their relationship even if it was still on the down-low.
But Luke could not stop reading them. It was addictive how he couldnât resist clicking on her name every time it popped out, not because of some morbid reasoning behind it, but because those articles seemed to know more about Y/N than Luke himself. People kept talking about a past he didnât know she had. Were those made up as well? Or are they based on reality? Would he be able to know the difference?
Truth was, he couldnât. He loves Y/N blindly, he got to know her in one of the most genuine ways but it feels like that is not enough. Itâs almost like she is living a secret life he doesnât get to know.
He wonders when it will end. This seemingly permanent stage of seating on the sidewalk, waiting for the light to turn green so they could walk freely into their relationship. Where people will support them, respect her and let them be happy. But that could never happen when sheâs the one who doesnât want to move.
Luke respects that she is not ready to talk, as she said time and time again. But he just couldnât comprehend how she, right now, could be so at peace while her name is thrown through the mud and back. Smiling with the boys as they take pictures for promo while management arranges the check-in. Does she not know what they are saying about her or she just accepts it without any retribution?
He was asking himself all these questions as he watched her so happy, his mind tormenting him with a dark cloud over their sunny day. He wants to protect her, but he doesnât know how or if she would even let him.
And yes, maybe that was selfish of him. Banging on a closed-door with his heart in his hands. But what about the person with the key and the lock? Aren't they a little bit selfish too?
âHey!â He heard Kat said as she sat beside him, nudging her shoulder against his.
Luke turned to her, his eyebrow still locked in a frown as he muttered a little âheyâ
The blonde girl scrunched her nose at him âYikes, what's happening that it has you all worked up, buddy?â
Luke pressed his lips on a thin line as his eyes traveled back at Y/N. She was laughing at something Ashton had said when she turned to look at him.
Y/N smiled, winking at him as she waved. Luke stared at her for a while, a small smile playing on his lips as he raised his hand in acknowledgment. He could feel his heart skipping a beat every time their eyes met, but the dark feelings in his mind made his expression turn sour the moment Y/N turned around again, something that didnât go unnoticed by the girl sitting next to him.
âYou read them again, didnât you?â Kat asked, already knowing the answer just by looking at how his shoulders tensed the moment she asked it.
They were all aware of the tabloids and the stories, being a regular occurrence to them, but not for Luke. They all knew this was new to him as well and how overwhelming it might be. So they all tried to ground him as much as possible, not letting him get affected by it as he had before.
âNow why are they saying that?!â He spat as he threw his cellphone on the leather couch, calling the boy's attention.
It was a normal day at the studio. They were all getting lunch as they laid back in the break room while Y/N and their girls went out to get them coffee.
Calum was the first one to speak, confused by his friend's sudden outburst âUh, what exactly? And who?â
âThis!â He said, grabbing his phone and tossing it at Calum. The rest of the boys gathered around as Luke plopped himself down on the couch.
Ashton began to read out loud âSeeing the growing rumors of Y/Nâs mystery man, hereâs a list of every guy we wished would date herâ
âOkay thatâs fucked up,â Michael said, swallowing his food.
âItâs better than the last oneâŚâ
âWhat?!â Luke asked, outraged that there are worse things out there.
âDude, chill,â Calum said, âWe understand this is beyond fucked, especially now that youâre dating or whatever. But you getting this angry at it wonât solve anythingâ
âWonât solve anything?!â He said in a loud tone âThatâs my girl theyâre talking about. My girl dating other guys while sheâs with me!â
âBut they donât know that,â Michael argued.
Luke shook his head, taking his phone back from Calumâs hands as he started typing furiously.
âWhat are you doing?â
âWhat does it look like Iâm doing?! Letting them know that they can go fuck themselvesâ Luke answered, eyes still on the phone, a second away from pressing send before Calum snatched his phone.
âNo!â He said âYou are not going to out your relationship without her consent!â
âBut-â
âPlus, I already took care of it,â Ashton said, holding his phone up âI tweeted at them telling them how incredibly disrespectful theyâre being, now the fans are onto them and I already messaged management to deal with itâ
âAnd thatâs it?â Lukeâs eyes winded âThatâs all youâre gonna do?â
âThatâs all we can do right now,â Ashton said with a sigh, sitting next to it âWe know these situations suck, theyâre horrible and dehumanizing and we are glad more people are realizing just how shitty the media is. But if we respond to every rumor there is itâs going to be a never endless battle, itâs going to backfire. We know, we triedâ
âBut all the stories are aimed against herâ Luke said, running a hand through his face with frustration clear in his eyes âShe didnât do anything wrong!â
âWhy do you think that is?â Michael chimed in âThink about Taylor Swift, Katy Perry, Miley Cyrus, Britney Spears⌠They aim for women because they think are easy to killâ
âWhich theyâre not. It makes them stronger somehow. I wouldnât have been able to handle it if I was themâ Calum said âWomen are stronger than you think when it comes to this, Y/N includedâ
âWeâve been living with this kind of shit show for years. We defended her with knives and teeth, dragging every single outlet that posted something against her. But that shit only made it worse for herâ
âThey loved the attention they were receivingâ Ashtonâs voices laid with sarcasm âEvery interaction we had they profited from it, creating even more rumors, one worse than the other, just so they could have the clicks. Eventually, Y/N asked us to stop defending her publicly and she decided to ignore it altogetherâ
âBut we still fight for her, though. We flag the post, demand they take it down, talk to PR and management for damage control, and even sue for defamation a couple of times. Sheâs never got to go through any of that on her own, we wouldnât have allowed itâ
âAnd what am I supposed to do, then?â Luke asked, a mix of frustration and desperation filled his voice âJust do nothing?â
âBe there for herâ Calum answered like it was the most obvious thing in the world âSupport her. Love her. Comfort her. Whatever she needs. Sheâs a strong woman, one of the strongest we know. But there will come a time when she will have to lean on someone, and you have to be there and ready for her. She trusts you. Donât let her downâ
Kath placed a hand on Lukeâs shoulder, understanding the manâs pain.
âI just-â He said with a sigh âShe never reads them, you know? The articles. But I do, I canât help it. They seem to know more about her than me and thatâs just-â
âFucked?â
âYeah,â He said as he took a long breath âI donât know⌠Iâm trying. This is all very new to me and sheâs a professional at dealing with this kind of shit. But at the same time, she never tells me anything, how she feels about them or if theyâre real or not. Itâs fucking me upâ
Kat hummed âAnd I assume you donât ask her about it eitherâ
The girl crooked an eyebrow at Luke, seemingly seeing through him âI- I donât want to pushâ
She sighed and patted his shoulder âLet me tell you something, Luke. From girlfriend of a celebrity to the boyfriend of a celebrityâ She started, earning Lukeâs complete attention âWhen I started dating Calum we decided to keep it private, out of the eyes of the media and even from some of his friends. It was good at the beginning, great even! But the heart is ambitious and it always ends up wanting more. We fought a lot during those times, part of us wanting to hold on to what we had but at the same time longing for some kind of freedom. In the end, we did end up going public, as you know. We endure a lot of hate, we still do. But we knew what we were up against, youâre still trying to figure that out. But Iâm telling you to know there is something youâre lackingâ
âAnd what is that?â Luke asked with curiosity.
âCommunicationâ Kat smiled sweetly at him âHow do you expect to reach a meeting point while youâre sitting here in your own dark cloud and sheâs over there with no clue of whatâs happening with you and vice versa?â
The blonde girl got up from her seat next to him, giving him one last piece of advice before walking towards Calum âDonât give up before you try. No one said it was going to be easy but, itâs your choice to see if itâs worth itâ
Luke watched her walk away, rousing her arms around Calumâs waist as she smiled sweetly at him, giving him a small peck. Luke smiled at their love.
He thought about their friends, how in love they are with their partners and how free they are to love publicly, facing the retaliations of being in the public eye. But they seemed happy, they were happy. And he realized he wanted that for him and Y/N.
His mind drifted off to the possibility of going public, cleaning the air once and for all. No more âmysterious guyâ or âY/Nâs possible secret loverâ heâd be Luke Hemmings, the proud boyfriend of singer Y/N L/N. They could be happier, free. They could fight those rumors together and face the stormy weather that would come. Heâd defend her until the end of times, protecting her with his life and supporting her in everything she does. He wanted that for them. But it wasnât his sole choice to make.
âBabe!â He heard Y/N call.
She was walking up to him, a playful smile on her face as the nickname rolled off her tongue. She was wearing one of his hoodies, making her look small as she approached him.
He noticed that her eyes were shining, lately, they always did and he couldnât get enough of them. He could get lost in her eyes willingly, throwing away the map and making himself home.
He loved her. Oh, he was so in love with her he didnât even know what to do. The more he thought about it, the more sure he was about wanting to love her freely. He just wished she thought about it too.
âI got our keysâ She smiled, pulling two cards out of her back pocket.
âOh?â Luke asked playfully with a grin drawn into his face âAnd where am I supposed to sleep this week?â
In order not to create any suspicion about their relationship, they decided that Luke will have his own hotel room on tour - even though everyone knows thatâs not where he sleeps or where he wakes up in the mornings. Usually âLukeâs roomâ is used to store the extra luggage they carry.
Y/N fake pouted âSadly, Mr. Hemmings. Your room is at the other end of the hallâ
Luke gasped âThat far away?! Is there any way I can be⌠closer?â
The girl bit her lip as she rounded her arm around his waist, standing on her tippy toes as she softly whispered in his ear âLetâs see what I can do about that, Sirâ
Y/N giggled as she heard Luke let out a soft groan, pecking his cheek with a small kiss as she stood in front of him again âBaby, youâre going to be the death of meâ He said, trying to get a hold of her by her waist. But she was quicker, swiftly moving a step back as she started walking towards the elevators. One last look over her shoulder got him grabbing their things as he followed her without any questions.
The elevator ride is quiet, the beating of their hearts being the soundtrack to their wait as they reached their floor. Y/N didn't look at him as she walked towards the door, unlocking it with one swift movement of the wrist and leaving it open for Luke to come in after her.
When he opened the door, she was nowhere in sight. He wondered if she hid somewhere, this not being the first time she would jump and scare the shit out of him. But then, his ears picked up a soft humming coming through the bathroom door, and with a devilish smile he let their luggage at the side of the closet, he locked the door and made his way to her.
Y/N was humming one of her favorite songs when Luke caught her reflection in the mirror but she was not looking at him. She was putting some lotion in her hands, fingers tracing up until her upper arm with barely-there touches.
âRemember we have a party in a couple of hours, Hemmings,â She said when she felt him getting closer âWe should get ready soonâ He just hummed in agreement, not really paying attention to her words.
Softly, he placed his hands on either side of her hips, pulling her closer to him. Y/N kept ignoring him as she dried the excess of product out of her hands and it wasnât until Luke pushed away some of her hair and started kissing along her neck that she finally gave him a proper response to his action.
Luke smirked as he felt her let out a shaky breath as his lips traced the shell of her ear, kissing it softly before moving lower and lower, kissing and sucking on her skin as slow as he could, making her tremble under his touch.
âLuke,â She said, holding her breath as she felt his calloused hands travel under the hoodie she was wearing. His hoodie. The one that always smelt like him.
âHmm?â He asked, not stopping his movements for a second.
âWe- uhmâ The girl stuttered in a whisper when his hands started touching her over her bra, softly rolling over the nipples and making them hard âWe should - oh - we should start getting ready soonâ
âWe should, huh?â He asked, voice raspy and low âIt will be rude to go a little bit late. Wouldnât it?â
Y/N let out a sigh when his hands left her breasts, trying to regain her breath before she lost it all over again when his fingers started playing with the hem of her jeans.
His fingers wandered carefully, fiddling with the button and zipper until they werenât an issue. His lips grazed her neck up and down, kissing it softly as his fingertips finally reached her center.
She let out a soft moan when she felt him over her panties, tracing her lips over them and feeling her arousal âIâm sure they could wait a little bit longerâ He said as he pressed a finger to her clit over the fabric âWe need to take care of a few problems before that, donât you think?â
He pressed his hips onto her, a soft whimper escaping her mouth when she felt his growing erection against her.
âSo wet for me, my loveâ He groaned as her hand flew to the top of his hair, trying to find balance as she tugged on his curls âAlways so beautiful for meâ
âLuke-â
He opened his eyes just in time to catch her staring at him through the mirror with a desperate look in her eyes. It took him less than a second to spin her around and press her against the countertop, ceasing his lips into her like she was his last meal on earth.
She tangled her hands behind his head, fingers deep into his hair as he grabbed her by the back of her thighs, easily lifting her off and taking her to the king-size bed where they made sure to lose track of time between kisses and moans as they satisfied their needs with each other, over and over again until they fell through the abyss of pleasure together, whispering sweet confessions as their breath went back to normal.
It was easy to say that they were the last ones to reach the lobby. What was hard for them to ignore was the knowing looks and teasing smiles from their friends that were waiting for them for a good amount of time.
âDonât say anythingâ Y/N threatened Ashton as he opened his mouth. But he just laughed
âIf you want Luke to walk around with his fly open then sure, Iâll keep my mouth shutâ
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The ride to the party was filled with laughter and chit-chats. They were all in a great mood to finally have a mini-break in between shows and what better way to celebrate it than at a big party?
Luke stole glances from Y/N as she talked to Bethany. She looked beautiful with her black dress, making Luke proud and a little bit snug about him being the one who would take her home afterward.
But he knew that after tonight they needed to talk. And not âtalkâ like they usually do. No, this time he was going to express his concerns to her, his hopes for them, and confess his love for her over and over again. He wanted her to know how he feels, he needed to know where they stand and what she needs to feel more comfortable and what he can do to help her feel at ease.
He just needs reassurance, something to hold on to while he provides the same for her. In the end, he knew they would be okay.
After a few minutes, they reached the house of the host. Luke marveled at the mansion that stood proudly in front of him. When Y/N mentioned a party with some label associates, she never mentioned that the party was going to be hosted by the president and owner of the label.
He felt Y/N tug on his hand a couple of times before separating herself from him and going to stand next to the girls.
For a moment Luke forgot that they needed to keep appearances and couldnât be together romantically in public. He could feel his heart aching as he watched her walk away with her friends, laughing together as they stepped into the party.
âHey,â Michael said behind him, following the eyes of the sad man next to him âItâs just one nightâ
He tried to be comforting, but all Luke could wonder was: Would it be just for a night?
The party was wild. Thatâs the first thought everyone has in their minds as they step through those doors into a world of darkness mixed with neon lights, smoke machines, and three open bars scattered around the hall. People were separated into groups: The ones who were too drunk to stop dancing, the ones not drunk enough to start dancing, and the ones who were networking their way into the industry.
Everyone that was someone was at that party. Producers, artists, songwriters, performers, agents⌠You name it. It was a party for the big leagues and Luke could not help but feel out of place the moment he stepped foot into the scene.
âHey! 5 Seconds of Summer. Câmere!â A voice called over the music.
Standing not too far from them there was a man, his bald head shined under the lights as he held a drink to his lips, beckoning the band to come over.
Y/N and the guys started walking towards the man without a second to wait, leaving Luke and their girlfriends to witness the interaction from afar.
âWhoâs that?â Asked Luke, getting closer to Danielle as they watched their partners laugh with a bunch of men who were now surrounding the band.
âThatâs Anthony Kellinghsâ She answered, swiftly grabbing a drink from one of the trays carried by the passing waitresses âHeâs one of the big bosses in the industry. Ashton said his team approached them not too long ago to see if they would be interested in changing labels and work with themâ
Luke glanced back to the group. Y/N was standing next to Calum, talking about something that made Anthony smile even though her face was serious. He did not like the way that man was looking at her.
Anthony laughed loudly, making other guests turn his face towards them. Y/N and the boys shared a confused gaze as they laughed awkwardly along with him. The bald man kept laughing, clearly intoxicated as he lowered his hand and rounded his arm around Y/Nâs waist.
Lukeâs breath got caught in his lungs as he watched how Y/Nâs body movements came to a halt and her eyes widened in discomfort, her smile seemed stiff but she didn't stop laughing or talking to the guy. Luke could feel his blood boil as he watched his girl in the arms of someone else, acting like nothing was happening and that everything was fine, in front of him.
âWhat the fuck?â He muttered under his breath. Debating on whether he should go and punch that dude in the face. No matter how important he was in the industry, he wanted him away from Y/N immediately.
But he didnât move and neither did Y/N. Luke didnât know if it was because she physically couldnât or becauseâŚ
No, he rejected that thought immediately. It was clear to him by her eyes that she was desperate to get away from his touch. And apparently not only to him because the moment that man put his hands around her Ashton and Michael called his attention away from her, moving a few steps back so Y/N could have more space to free herself the moment she could. Calum had his eyes on her, too, with his arm placed to his side as if he were to take her away from there at any second.
Yet the man did not move an inch away from her. Instead, his hand trailed lower with every word he spoke, until Luke couldnât see it anymore. All he could see whatâs Y/Nâs uncomfortable face as she suddenly jumped forward, fear written all over her eyes.
Luke let out a curse as he took a step forward, ready to beat that manâs face to dust. But he stopped when he felt a hand on his shoulder.
âWait!â Danielle said, eyes locked on the scene played in front of them.
Luke stared ahead and let out a breath of relief when he saw Calum taking Y/N away from the group and towards the bar, seemingly excusing themselves to get a drink. He saw how his friendâs arm rounded around her shoulders, making it impossible for her to look back and for anyone else to notice her face as they walked away with no intentions of coming back.
Luke lost sight of them as he watched them disappear into the party. âGood,â he thought âAt least sheâll be safe and away from himâ But that thought did not calm the rage he felt towards the creep that dared touch her in front of her friends.
âIâm going to kill himâ He hissed, once again trying to step forwards but once again being pushed back by Ashtonâs girl.
âThe guys got it covered,â She said, her sweet voice laced with a warning as she whispered loud enough for only them to hear âThey will handle it and make sure they never work with that man, ever. Itâs not the first time this has happenedâ
âThis happened before?!â Luke said, attracting some curious eyes to him. But he couldnât care less about it at the moment.
The girls looked at each other and then at Luke. How could they explain to the man that this happens more times than Y/N would be able to admit? They knew first hand how the industry was full of creeps and disgusting men, having dealt with them in the past as well, but Y/NâŚ
She was the front girl, the main focus of attention. She was beautiful, talented, hot⌠thatâs all they saw, never caring about her caring personality, or how intelligent she was, how she was the driven force of 5SOS. She was more than her looks, she was a girl trying to live her dreams. But men only seem to see one thing.
âIâm going to check on them,â Kat said as she walked towards where Calum disappeared with Y/N. Bethany mentioned going to Michael to try and make them get away from the conversation they were still having with that fucker.
And Luke stood there, not able to do anything âY/N wouldnât want you to cause a scene, thatâs why the boys never do it anymore. She knows how important image is for all of them and a scandal is the last thing they need right now. Especially if some ârandom dudeâ goes and punch one of the biggest names in the industryâ
Danielle was right and he hated that. He hated that he couldnât do anything to defend his girl because she didnât want to be defended. But the fact that she knew how to handle these kinds of things didnât make it any less wrong or difficult for him to ignore. More so because their relationship was still kept a secret.
Luke couldnât help but think that maybe if people knew they were together, things like these wouldnât happen. After all, the only thing men like Anthony respected was the presence of another man.
Ashton and Michael returned after a minute, both of them with their jaws clenched and eyes filled with the same feeling of powerless Luke felt.
âWhere is she?â Ashton asked, standing beside Dani and holding her close by the waist, almost as if he were scared something might happen to her.
âKat went to check on them, they still havenât returned,â She said, comforting her boyfriend by running her hand up and down his arm.
âThis is bullshitâ Luke murmured, frustration lacing his voice as he grabbed one drink from one of the waitresses and drowned it in one go without flinching. He turned around and started walking away from the group.
âWhere are you going?â Michael asked, half concerned and half furious from him walking away at this moment.
âI need airâ He answered as he took another drink and walked through the garden doors. Not even sparing a glance back when Y/N called his name as she watched him go.
Luke spent most of the night going back and forwards between the main hall and the garden. He drank whatever was being offered to him and sat down on a bench as he watched the casual smokers come outside, accompanying him from a distance.
He knew he was being childish. He didnât understand much about the industry, nor how people that worked in it were. All Luke knew was that Y/N was nothing like them; she was not greedy, nor was she a creep, she wasnât evil or ill-hearted and she didnât deserve what happened.
He wanted to be with her, apologize for his shitty behavior, and tell her that he loved her. Because he did. He loved her with all his heart and it hurts him to see her like that. But every time he stepped through those doors back to the main hall - every time more intoxicated than the others - she was nowhere to be found. Or she didnât want to be found, but that didnât stop Luke from looking for her.
And every time, wherever he found her, she would have company. Sometimes she would be with the boys and their girlfriends laughing along with some other group of people - usually men - that stood a little too close and personal with her. Other times she would be on her own, talking to some guy or girl he didnât know, too preoccupied with her conversation to even notice Luke standing at a distance, looking at her with longing eyes as he tried to find the courage to talk to her.
Then, he would go back to the bar, order his drink and go back outside or with the group, tightening the grip on his glass as he watched the girl he loves being swept away in conversations he couldnât be a part of, after all, he was just one of the composers and her friend. Nothing else.
The guys and their girlfriends tried to cheer him up, including him in conversations and inviting him to dance. They knew how new this was to him, having to remind themselves every once in a while when they caught his sad eyes dancing across the room on the looks of his fleeting love.
âShe came looking for you a few minutes ago while you were outside,â Dani told him the third time he came by the group.
âWhy didnât she go out with me?â He asked, eyes on Y/N as she talked to Michael and one of the producers they met in London a few years back.
âShe was going to,â Ashton chimed in âShe walked over there but I think Niall caught wind of her and they started to catch upâ
Luke clenched his jaw at the thought of Y/N with other men. His mind couldnât help but to go back to all those articles about her exes, her possible new partners, her possible future partners. Cheating scandals, break-up songs, parties where she didnât leave alone⌠All the things she refused to acknowledge came to the surface, hitting Luke in the face as he realized that they might not all be lies.
He hated to think about her that way, to think that he didnât trust her enough or that she didnât trust him enough or whatever the fuck was wrong with them. But as he saw how Y/N hugged a stranger, all his thoughts went out the window.
âWho is that?â He asked no one in particular.
âWho?â Bethany asked in response, following Lukeâs stare towards her friend âOh, thatâs Joshâ
âJosh? As in Josh Benthlow? Her ex?â
Beth furrowed her eyebrows as she saw the look of pure rage on the blondeâs eyes âUh, yeah? But you got something wrong thereâ She said, âThey never datedâ
Y/N laughed at something Josh said, pushing him playfully on the shoulder as he kept telling his story. Luke recognized the look in his eyes; it was the same way he used to look at Y/N when they first met: Pure adoration. And, he didnât know if it was the alcohol in his system that was making him see things that werenât there, but he could swear he saw Y/N flirt back at him.
âFriends donât act like thatâ He spat, taking another sip from his drink, already losing count of how many he had that night.
âHey!â Beth called his attention, taking the drink from him âThatâs enough now. Alcohol is making you act like a complete assholeâ
âI-â
âI donât care.â She said, interrupting whatever he had to say before he even said it âLook, I get that youâre getting used to all of this. But you need to stop with the jealous act right this instant. Sheâs famous, yes, they all are and that means that you will have to share her with the world whether you like it or not. Itâs her dream after all, and besides Y/N would never do something like that to hurt you and you know itâ
Did he?
Not long after the group decided to go back to the hotel, having already stayed at that party longer than necessary given that they have a show the next day. The ride back was quiet, everyone either being too tired to even speak or too smart to try and cut the tension that was being created by the new coupleâs behavior. Even when Y/N sat next to Luke he didnât acknowledge her, keeping his eyes looking outside the window the whole car ride.
Y/N was one of the first ones to get out of the car, walking up to the elevators and not waiting for anyone as the doors closed.
Luke clenched his jaw as he contemplated not going to their room tonight, fighting with the feeling of not wanting to see her and the feeling of never wanting to let her go.
âYou need to go there right now,â Calum said, taking a step next to Luke but not looking in his eyes âHaving been her friend for so long I can see that sheâs upset⌠Nah, fuck that. Even idiots can see that sheâs upsetâ
Luke scoffed âSheâs the one thatâs upset?â Voice laced with sarcasm.
Calum hummed âGuess not every idiot can see thatâ He pressed the button of the elevator and hoped in with Kat, not waiting for Luke as the door closed in his face, but not before saying âYouâre not the only one hurting, you know?â
It took another 20 minutes for Luke to open the door of their room. Again, Y/N was nowhere to be seen, but the light coming from under the closed bathroom door let him know that she was there.
He sat at the edge of the bed, hands covering his face as he now wished he hadn't drunk as much as he did. His head was spinning, he couldnât decipher if it were because of the alcohol or because of his intrusive thoughts that wouldnât leave his head.
Y/N got out of the bathroom for what it felt like an eternity later. She was wearing her Spongebob pajama and her hair was tied in a messy bun. Her makeup-less face looked tired as she didnât glance at Luke before sitting by her side of the bed.
They stayed in silence for another five minutes before she decided to speak.
âAre we going to talk about tonight?â She said, voice neutral of any emotion.
Luke scoffed âNow you want to talk?â
She ignored him âI didnât see you all night, Luke. I was worriedâ
âOh, you were?â He mocked with cruel sarcasm as he got up from the bed and started pacing around the room âFunny way to show it you werenât around!â
âI wasnât around?! Luke, you spent half the night outside! Every time I came over you were nowhere to be found!â
âAnd every time I was there you were too busy talking to other peopleâ
âI was working, Luke!â She said with a groan, massaging her temple as she turned to look at him âItâs part of my job to make connections at these kinds of events. And if you didnât notice, Calum, Ashton, and Michael did the sameâ
âWell, you must be pretty damn good at your job then!â
Y/N looked at him, shocked by the way he was speaking to her âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
Luke was angry at her question. How could she not know? âWhy donât you ask Josh what I mean?â
âOh my fucking GOD,â She said with the loudest tone heâs ever heard her talk âThatâs what this is all about?! Heâs a friend!â
âI was a friend, too and we still fucked!â Luke matched her tone of voice, probably waking the people in the room next to theirs.
Y/N laughed humorlessly âYou have no right to-â
âAnd whose fault is that? Huh? Whose fault is that I cannot call you my girlfriend in front of other people? Whose fault is that I have to stand to the side and watch you flirt with every guy on earth just because âitâs your jobâ?â He asked âY/N, Iâm trying so hard for you to let me in and the only thing you do is push me away! Are you embarrassed by me in any way?â
âNo,â She said, finally meeting his eyes and seeing no more anger in them, just an incredible sadness for both of them âNo, of course notâ
âThen why?â Luke asked, taking a step towards her and cupping her cheek with one hand âWhy canât you let me protect you? Why canât I be with you freely? I know some things are hard for you to talk about, love. I get that. But Iâm drowning here, not knowing what to think or what to say to make you trust meâ
Y/N stayed quiet as she looked into his eyes before looking away. Luke sighed.
âWe donât have to talk about this right now. But weâll have to do it eventuallyâ
âI know,â She said with a string of voice.
âSorry for the things I saidâ
âIâm sorry, tooâ
Luke wanted to kiss her, to comfort her. Even though he is still mad at her, he still has this need to protect her from the wrongs of the world. But sheâs got to let him in first.
Instead, Luke placed a kiss on her head and walked towards the bathroom to get changed for the night. When he came back Y/N was already asleep on her side of the bed, her back turned to Lukeâs side.
He let out a sigh as he turned off the lights, laying down facing the other side as he murmured a âGood nightâ Barely missing the soft sniff she gave in response.
The next morning Luke woke up without her by his side. He felt a tug in his heart as he remembered all the things he said to her, the cruel way in which he implied that it was all her fault when both of them had a bit of blame to put in their names. He wouldnât be surprised if in the middle of the night she decided to leave and sleep somewhere else.
He grabbed his phone from the nightstand, ready to give her a call and apologize properly, hoping sheâd pick up. But just as he was about to press the call button, the door opened.
Y/N walked in, sandwich and orange juice in hand. A small smile came to her lips when she saw him already awake.
âHey,â She said softly, almost like if there were someone else in the room that was sleeping âYou missed breakfast, so I bought you this. Itâs now much but-â
âThank you,â Luke said with complete honesty.
Y/N nodded, walking up to his nightstand to place the drink and the sandwich. But before she could walk away again, Luke grabbed her softly by the arm.
âLuke-â
âIâm sorry,â He said, his baby blue eyes looking into hers. He was sad to see no emotion in them compared with how shiny they were yesterday before the fight âI didnât mean itâ
Y/N let out a sigh as she sat on the bed next to him âNo, youâre notâ She said almost resignedly âAnd yes, you did. And itâs okay, I deserve itâ
Luke shook his head, feeling even worse than before âNo, Y/N I was out of place and-â
âYou were, but that didnât make your words any less than truthful. I hurt you, Luke. Even without wanting toâ She said with a broken voice, but the tears didnât come âBut I want to change that. Tonight, we can talk after the concert. Okay?â
âI donât want to pressure youâ His hand flew to her face, placing a strand of hair behind her back. She smiled softly and kissed the palm of his hand.
âI know, but I want toâ Finally, she got up from the bed and started walking into the bathroom, gathering some of her things. âWeâll start early today with some interviews and sound check, and the girls wanted to go shopping so theyâll meet us there. I will send a car for you before the concert and then weâll talk. Alright?â
She grabbed her back and headed towards the door, giving Luke one last look and a soft smile before she left.
Luke didn't forget how she didnât kiss him before she closed the door.
*
The day passed by and Luke was still in their room. He sat in front of the table with his notebook and pen, writing up words that, at that moment, reminded him of her.
He didnât like how they were acting with each other. How quick everything went to shit after last nightâs mistakes when words were louder than actions until those words became apologies.
Y/N said he didnât mean his apology, and deep down he knew it to be true. He regrets the way he told her, admiring that he would have handled things a little better than he did. But he meant what he said about her pushing him away by not communicating. They were both trying but apparently, they sucked at it.
Truth was, there was no one to blame. Truth was, they were both at fault. And, truth was that he would still fall to his knees for her the moment she asked. Because he had never loved someone as much as he loved her.
When the time of the concert was almost upon him, he quickly jumped into the shower, ignoring all the beeps and rings of his phone as his thoughts and hopes filled his mind. He thought about what he was going to say to her, and he hoped that they could finally get past this and leave this whole situation behind; to start over and just be free.
He was putting on his shirt when his phone started beeping again, finally checking it to see what the fuss was all about.
Thousands upon thousands of notification flooded his screen, and they all said the same thing:
âY/N AND MADDEN BACK TOGETHER?!â
âTHE ENCOUNTER OF THE YEAR! MADDEN BANKS AND Y/N L/N SEEN TOGETHER AGAIN TALKING ON THE OUTSIDES OF THE VENUEâ
âOMG Y/N X MADDEN SHIPPER REJOICE AS THE COUPLE SEEMS TO HAVE REKINDLED THEIR RELATIONSHIP AFTER CHEATING SCANDALâ
Luke felt as if an elephant was standing on top of his chest, losing his balance and falling to the bed with his phone in hand, unable to look away from his screen.Â
His breathing became elaborated as his eyes filled with tears as he read the tweets and article titles. He knew he shouldnât click on them. He knew. And yetâŚ
âLead singer of the band 5 Seconds of Summer, Y/N L/N was last seen talking to her ex-boyfriend, Madden Banks, in a secluded alley outside the venue where the band is going to perform their concert tonight.Â
We last saw the couple last year around August when Madden announced their breakup after cheating scandals came out to the surface. None of the parties made any comments about it, but it was set to believe that Y/N was the one who committed the mistakes after a set of tweets on Bankâs personal account where it said that he was feeling âbroken-heartedâ by the situation and he hoped no one had to get through that ever again.Â
Now it seems that the past is the past! As Y/N and Madden were caught by paparazzi talking again, and by the looks on both their faces it seemed like their relationship was not over after all!Â
We are still waiting for confirmations from either of them but congratulations to the couple â¤ď¸â
A set of pictures were attached to the article. All of them of bad quality and from questionable sources.Â
On the first one, you could see Madden smiling with Y/Nâs back facing the camera. On the second one, Madden was closer to her, almost cradling her face as if to kiss her. The third picture had Madden pointing out the paparazzi, a surprised expression plastered on his face as Y/N appeared out of focus. The last picture had Y/N walking away with Madden following behind, both of them with angry faces seemingly for being interrupted.Â
Luke was gripping on his phone tightly, a sense of rage coming over him as he wiped his tears furiously and walked up the door. Turning off his phone before he could read Y/Nâs message:
Y/N: itâs not true! Let me explainâŚ
*
He did not go to the concert that night, nor did he stay in their bedroom, opting for sleeping in the room that was originally assigned to him.Â
His emotions walked him into a bar last night, letting him drown his sorrows in alcohol as he slowly drifted away from his senses. He doesnât remember getting to the hotel, but he does remember not wanting to be with her that night. Feeling betrayed and used, what was the point?Â
It was pretty late when he woke up the next morning, too late for Y/N to even be in the hotel knowing that they still needed to do a lot of press before traveling to their next destination. It was sufficient to say that he was not going to go with them.Â
He was about to book a flight when he noticed his phone died while being turned off last night. He was in such a rush that he forgot to bring his charger with him, but he felt confident that it was safe for him to go back to her room now that she was gone. He would pack all his things and leave, he was not about to endure any of this shit anymore, no matter how much it hurts him.Â
When he opened the door to her room, however, Luke noticed that he was not alone.Â
âYou didnât come last nightâÂ
Y/N was standing by the window, looking at the street through the thin curtain, hoping she might catch a glimpse of Luke walking back to her. She was wearing the hotelâs robe and had her hair tied in a ponytail. Her voice was fragile, tired, and broken as if she spent all night crying.Â
âGood,â thought Luke âat least weâll both be miserableâÂ
Luke didnât answer that, instead, he just asked âI thought youâd be doing the press tourâÂ
She shook her head, her back still facing him as she sniffed âI couldnât go. I didnât know where you wereâÂ
He wouldâve thought it was touching and he mightâve felt bad for her if she hadnât shattered his heart the night before. So he said nothing.Â
âI needed you last night, Luke,â She said, voice a little firmer as she finally turned around. Lukeâs heart ached when he saw her delicate figure, she looked sick, pale, and tired. Her eyes were puffy and her nose was red from all the crying. Part of him wanted to go to her and hold her, but her betrayal was still too fresh on his skin.
Luke scoffed âSure you didâ He didnât intend for his voice to sound with such malice, but it was almost as if his tongue had a brain on itself âWas Madden not enough?âÂ
âStop,âÂ
âIs he here?â He asked, voice mocking interest as he walked around the room âCâmon Asshole!â He called, opening the closet doors and walking into the bathroom âYou won, motherfucker, you can have her! Itâs not like itâs hard anywayâÂ
Her eyes widened at his words, cheeks turning pink at the realization of the insult âLuke!â
âWas this part of your plan?â He asked, turning towards her with nothing but the rage inside his eyes âTo bring me here to make him jealous? To make me fall for you so easily? Is that why we never went public? Ha! Shouldâve known you just wanted a free pass to whore around while still making sure you have a secure fuck waiting back at the hotelâÂ
Y/N froze. Not even Luke could believe the words that were coming out of his mouth, but he was too far gone in his own anger to process them or to take them back.Â
âThis is the part where you apologize,â She said, eyes filling with tears she refused to spill.Â
âNo, this is the part where I tell you to fuck offâ Luke spat, taking a step towards her, not realizing how she flinched as she took a step back âYou know, I tried so fucking hard for months to make you happy. And every day I read those fucking articles that were talking shit about you and every fucking day I told myself that those werenât real. That you werenât like that⌠surprise, surprise! Looks like the cat is out of the bag. Makes sense! Thatâs why you never wanted to talk, you never wanted to admit to what you did because you never take any fucking responsibilities for the damages you cause! I thought I knew you, at least some parts of you. Turns out everyone is right about you. Every fucking word of itâÂ
He turned around, ready to grab his things and go, but the adrenaline was kicking in and he just couldnât stop.
âTell Madden that heâs an idiot for taking you back,â He said with his back turned to her âThat he shouldâve left your cheating ass alone. Let you get what you deserveâ
âI never cheatedâ She mumbled, voice barely above a whisper.Â
He scoffed âYeah, rightâÂ
âI never fucking cheated!â Y/N raised his voice, making Luke turn around to face her. Her face was red with tears and she had her fist clenched to her sides, knuckles white from all the pressure she was putting in.
âI never cheated on Madden! I never fucking cheated on you! On anyone! He cheated on me, repeatedly and with several people for all the course of our relationship! I never touched a person outside ANY of my relationships. I have been nothing but faithful to you and now youâre throwing that shit at me without knowing an ounce of my side of the story?!Â
You want to know, Luke, why I never tell the story as it was? Why itâs so fucking hard for me to tell the story even to the people I love?âÂ
It was a challenge, he knew from the look in her eyes that she was not going to stay quiet any longer. She didnât even wait for his answer.Â
âI was fucking abused, Luke! Physically, mentally, sexually⌠you fucking name it! During that whole relationship. Want me to tell you the details or you could figure it out yourself?! I was getting beaten almost daily! I had to hide the bruises and cuts in front of the guys as they slowly watched me fall apart. I had to lie to them for YEARS because I genuinely thought he loved me. He said he did so I believed him. It wasnât until one night where he got too far that I had to tell myself that it was enough. But what could I say? I was so fucking embarrassed I couldnât go to the media that calls me a liar every chance they have! I couldnât go to the police because he has money and could easily get away with it! I was so fucking alone until I met you and⌠You took his sideâÂ
Luke felt like his heart was taking a punch with every word that she said. Every tear that fell off her eyes was like a knife in the back. The guilt was eating him inside out, crashing into him like a tsunami. He shouldâve kept his mouth shut, he shouldnât have let his emotions take the reins, he shouldâve... He felt all of his emotions turn to mush, all but shame as he stared into her eyes knowing he was the one who fucked up.Â
âY/N-â
âI needed you last night when he cornered me. I needed you by my side as I broke down backstage because you werenât answering your phone. How do you think I felt when I came into our room and found it empty? I was ready to tell you everything and then you just decided that wasnât worth it anymore. That I wasnât worthy anymore. All without giving me a chanceâ She cried, shattering sobs running through her body as she remembered the feeling of hopelessness she had âNot only that, but I come to find this on your side of the bedâ
She threw his notebook at him, he didnât need to open it to know what she read. Already regretting leaving it there.Â
âSometimes, you're a stranger in my bed
Don't know if you love me or you want me dead.
Some days, you're the best thing in my life
Sometimes when I look at you, I see my wife
Then you turn into somebody I don't know
And you push me away
Fight so dirty, but your love's so sweet
Talk so pretty, but your heart got teeth
Late-night devil, put your hands on me
And never let goâÂ
She recited the words by memory, having read them over and over again as she waited for him to come back.
âIs that really how you see me, Luke?â She asked, voice broken as she looked into his eyes.Â
Luke felt his body tremble with shame as he looked at her. He has never seen her look so sad and fragile before, the smile he loved so much was gone and he knew he might never see it again. He wanted to scream that thatâs now how he saw her at all. Those words were written out of frustration, out of anger. He wanted to tell her that sheâs the most amazing, loving, strong, intelligent person he know but... how could he even look her in the eyes?
He knew that he went too far. That he shouldâve given her a chance to explain what happened instead of just letting the media fill his brain with lies; lies he believed without question because of his insecurities. He broke the strongest girl heâs ever known, but she was still standing.Â
Despite the hurt, he caused her, she was still standing in front of him. Demanding answers he doesnât know how to give. Still being so much braver than him.
âY/N, I-â He began, voice breaking as he was left speechless. How could he ask for her forgiveness now that he broke every ounce of trust she held for him?Â
âLuke, I think you should leave,â She said, rounding her arms around her torso as she looked back at the window. Unable to hold her gaze to him any longer.Â
âNo,â Luke begged of her. Pleaded, even âY/N, baby donât-âÂ
âLeaveâ She repeated more firmly âIf Iâm such a monster, the best thing we can do is for you to go homeâÂ
She turned her back to him once again, and he knew that he had just lost the battle he was too scared to even fight.
Y/N cried silent tears as she heard him gather his belongings and pack his bags, feeling as if she might collapse into the floor if she werenât holding herself too tightly. If she concentrated, she could hear him cry, too, until he closed the last of his bags and walked through the door.
Because, after all, he would still go to the ends of the world if she asked.
.
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