#lreal life

[softaikiria]

Querido Nadie; estoy cayéndome a pedazos.

Y vuelvo a llenar una página con tu nombre y lo peor es que no quiero volver a verte nunca más o eso es de lo que intento convencerme. Tengo un trato conmigo misma, solucionar cosas del pasado y dejar a mi conciencia en paz o quizás simplemente quiero saber si lo nuestro podría haber sido algo más, ¿pero algo más como qué? Cuando miro atrás suelo recordar momentos malditos, algunos retoques de maldad en palabras camufladas con aroma a rosas del desierto. Rosas del desierto, las recuerdo bien, alguna vez me dijiste que eran tus flores favoritas, ¿lo siguen siendo? Me obsequiaste dos de estas, una al comenzar nuestra relación la pusiste sobre mi oreja y me miraste con ternura, la segunda fue luego de cortar e intentar y volver a intentar estar juntos. Aquella vez tiré la flor al suelo y me miraste con decepción. La había tirado, siempre odie esas flores… no, es mentira, las odie luego de conocerte.

Querido Nadie, no escribo esto para llenarte de elogios, escribo esto para recordarme tus caricias que dolían sobre mi existencia. Las rosas del desierto solo me recuerdan a tu mirada llena de ternura aquel día, pero no es un recuerdo puramente hermoso. Anteriormente, habías comenzado a hablar de ella, ella y sus ojos azules, ella y su cabello rubio… todo lo contrario a mí, ella que parecía tan libre y yo que era tan torpe. Recuerdo las comparaciones y las inseguridades, recuerdo que me habías jurado no sentir nada por ella, pero no sabías que un pajarito de boca suelta y con costumbres malévolas me había contado tus más traviesos secretos. Ah, yo era tan inocente y estaba enamorada. ¿Y siento una angustia amorosa enorme o es en realidad la necesidad de sentir algo diferente o simplemente sentir algo? Como te digo, me he liado en un bucle de malas sensaciones, algo así como estar enredada… atascada en un hombre a quien ya no quiero tocar.

La otra noche soñé que te daba un beso, uno sin mucho tacto que se siente más bien como un roce de labios con un enorme espacio de polvo alumbrado por el sol. Sí, un espacio casi infinito, pero sentí tu respiración y me estremecí tanto que intenté mirarte, pero desperté. Tengo estos sentimientos confusos que no me dejan descansar tranquila en donde lucho por saber que siento o simplemente fluir con ellos, pero no lo consigo. Te he imaginado con otras mujeres y he llorado y luego estuve feliz y luego tan enojada que quise romper algo, ¿es esto normal, es extrañarte, necesitarte o una obsesión? Pero de algo estoy segura y es que ya no te quiero ¿o si? Estoy tan confundida y siento que me vuelvo loca, que pierdo la cabeza cada vez un poco más, ¿cómo debo sentirme? Caí en un sueño tan extrañamente corto en donde te veía yéndote de la mano con ella. Otra mujer, una de cabello oscuro que competía por obtener todo lo que tuve y lo que tengo. Ah… sé su nombre, su cara, conozco su cuerpo y su voz. He luchado con ella y ella está aquí ahora, ¿correrás a sus brazos o son estos disparates míos que me hacen alucinar tanto que veo cosas que no son? Estoy celosa, lo admito, podría matarme de llanto y ahogarme en mis penas o podría odiarlos o simplemente nada. No me entiendo.

Querido Nadie: no quiero volver a verte nunca más.

[stoicmike]

College did not prepare me for life after college... -- Michael Lipsey

[asphaltfchewinggum]

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Toronto lreal life

[samanthasbarkss]

Was Interlude In Prague good?

Okay so this os going to be a long answer, and i was actually planning on maybe doing a blog post, if i could ever be bothered to write one

I loved Sam’s performance in it and I thought the singing is good, and I love Mozart���s music so that was also good to hear.

However, I hate to say it, I just could not get into the love story. I think it was partly because Mozart was married, had a child and was also going through the death of one of his children at the time too, so i really could not feel any sympathy for him at all. Also Morfydd’s character was not my favourite. I think insipid is too strong a word, but maybe there just needed to be more to her character. I think she seemed a bit too naive and sheltered. Her singing voice was lovely. But I could not really get behind the ‘love’ story, i think it did not have enough time to build up and I dont think they knew each other long enough for me to really feel sad about how it ended. I think that is the trouble with pairing a fictional character with a historical one; it is obvious that it wont work out well and so maybe it’s also the forgone conclusion that stops me from supporting their story. Also I am not sure if I ever really felt much chemistry there.

I know people took issue with the villain, and I sort of saw it, but more i had issue with how others reacted to him. I could see some realism in him and unfortunately there are people like him in the world so I did not see him as unrealistic, though I could understand why some might say he was too pantomime-y and too obviously evil. It was a different time back then, and being rich, powerful and influential meant that he could get away with a lot. Then again we do still see that in modern life too.

And like i sad Sam’s character and singing was really good, ad I wish Samantha had a bigger role, particularly as her character, Josepha/Josefa is an actual historical figure and was really fascinating herself.

I loved the costumes too - and the make up design was good, oh and the set pieces, i could tel lreal effort was put in there. And as I have mentioned the singing was good. I remember Samantha telling me about her opera trianing for this film and it really showed. (also for one of the concerts I went to i could hear her do some of her more operatic warm ups, it was so cute)

I really think that if they focused on the historical characters and not on the fictional ones it could have been a really great film. I mean Josepha was considered to be the best voice of her age and was said to be a muse for both Mozart and Beethoven.

I am glad the film did not go into the whole question about whether Josepha and Mozart were lovers, so there is a positive there. And I love how the pair interacted in the story too; like old friends and some of their scenes together were hilarious. I know Sam and Anuerin were in Bitter Harvest together so I think that helped, but I think Samantha is really good at creating chemistry with people in general

But all in all, I liked Samantha’s role, the singing parts and the historical parts, but I think the love story let it down,

Anyways, thanks for the ask nonnie :)

[chicleeblair]

Spine surgery tomorrow. For real this time. Yikes.