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Something I noticed is that Polites is like. The most stubborn and Eurylochus is the least.
Granted this could be because Odysseus is the captain so he kinda HAS to let him do what he wants (until mutiny) but still, heâs the least set in his ideals and doesnât hang onto them quite as strong as the other two. (As proven by him changing his mind during Scylla.)
And also something I noticed is that Polites is the most reasonable person in their trio?? Like people say heâs the himbo and the heart but Iâd make the argument that heâs also holding quite a lot of the brain cells. (He trusted the lotus eaters and they didnât lie. Sure they omitted a detail, but they do also have an actual parasite for a brain. Not to mention, it was probably the only food for a long distance since the lotus eaters were just humans who were probably starving as well.) (contrast this with âMutinyâ Eurylochus and âDarkest momentâ Odysseus who were being just completely unhinged.) (granted they did just have to see their friends die and then relive their deaths in gorey detail via underworld shenanigans but I digress!)
I know right!! poli is stubborn and persistent where euryl is much more likely to give in and stop nagging, only euryl is much more /vocal/ about it when he does have something to say, where poli voices his disagreements to odys in private and much more gently (or at least, thatâs how it seemed in full speed ahead and open arms; euryl questioned odys outright but dropped it almost immediately while poli waited until they were alone to talk with odys).
Although Iâd think that being second in command to odys captain position would come with more liberty to question him; thatâs euryls job, to keep the man in power in check and provide a second opinion (although tbh I have. no clue what Iâm talking about thatâs just what makes sense to me hahaâ). Too bad poli dies early â I would have liked to see how he would have reacted to odys saying âdonât question me or everyone diesâ lmao (I want to say that he would not have stood for that, but weâll never know *sigh*).
The way I see it, and bear in mind that I havenât heard all the clips yet haha and Epic is only a fourth of the way finished, euryl has a very⊠do what is best for the majority, save as many people as possible kind of mindset â and morals donât necessarily have a place in that when peoples lives are on the line, while poli more has a strict sense of morals that he tries to do his best to follow, though I do think heâd be willing to compromise on them when lives are at stake
I definitely agree that poli seems like the most reasonable out of the three of them but to me in more of a⊠he seems a bit better adjusted to not being at war kinda way than the other two yknow? Odys n euryl are expecting a fight no matter what, they see the world as more of a kill or be killed kind of situation, where poli seemed to have recognized and come to terms with not being constantly waiting for a fight. He spread tgat a bit to odys before he died, and odys then tries to spread that to euryl. Personally I think theyâve all got a number of braincells â even if odys lost his while giving away his name address and social security number. Odys managed to win a war while keeping every single one of his people alive and while Iâm sure he didnât do it on his own, he had to be using his braincells haha. Maybe theyâre just tired from carrying the warâ
#youâre gonna have to give me a minute to answer ur other asks lol I just got off the phone and Iâm starving I need f o o dâ#lovely to hear ur analyses as always :D#admittedlyâ havenât heard darkest moment yet but Iâm a sucker for characters just going. off the fucking rails so thatâs next#on my to listen list (once luck runs out is capable of /not/ being looped in my brain 24/7 lmfao)
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Also I'd like to participate in the matchup event (daiya) if that's alright! I'll try my best to provide you with enough info, it's my first time interacting with someone here đ
mbti : intj 5w4
likes : hobbies include exploring/understanding anything that peaks my interest, whether it be analysing the shit out of an anime or an anime character, nosleep stories, open ended debates, a good manga, I also like to get to know about other people's hobbies listening to their take on anything and everything
dislikes : sweets... and people who don't try to "see the other side of the coin" Or are too controlling, strongly opinionated about anything in particular and aren't willing to change for, ignorance in general and liars.
what I look for in a guy :
stability comes first, it takes painfully long for me to trust someone because i prefer those who are more likely to stay rather than casual acquaintances. I'm a being of few words and I expect respect and someone who doesn't restrain me. Won't drift away even when I'm rather out of touch for a while. Optimistic, mature, energetic, straight forward, simple hearted people are really attractive to me. My love language is quality time and I don't like when people act like they know me, I like when they observe, or are thoughtful, kind, considering and someone who is patient and tries, genuinely, to get to know the person I am (not prying thođ€) I tend to be harshly honest mostly. People who understand space and I can freely voice myself and doesn't have to live in a constant fear as if expecting them to leave are definitely a win for me, and I'll try my hardest to love and appreciate them anyhow I can!
(I hope it's alright and congratulations again! đ„ł)
a/n: hello! enjoy! @neraiiuchii !
DIAMOND NO ACE
miyuki kazuya
first daiya boy is miyuki! miyuki also kind of thinks like an analyst, so i thought it would be so cuteâŽlike you guys would have deep conversations, literally about anything. you get him into nonsleep stories and that is his newfound obsession! :D always asking you for recommendations and is honestly not too scared about it. after every game, he watches and analyzes the scorebook and gameplay with you; he really values your input on them and even encourages you to be a manager; but not like cooking for the team and things, like analyzing the games and coming up with strategies to make them even better. ah, that is so cute! you guys bond over how you both dislike sweets, and it makes it easier for him to cook foods you like because of your similar tastes. miyuki has grown up in a way where he does not express his feelings well, but he isnât closed mindedâŽhe will listen to you and give you the space he needs because in fairness, he needs that as well. in addition, this makes hime extremely observant and patient with you <3 your trope with him is definitely best friends to loversâŽi mean miyuki wouldnât just choose anyone, right? he knows you like the back of his hand, of course heâll choose you hehe. miyuki loves spending time with you on his off days, and these dates consist of you both at home or at his dorm, him cooking, then taking a little stroll talking about anything and everything in depth. he loves the little things you do that show that you love him, itâs just a gentle reminder that youâre by his side and he doesnât have to go through anything alone.Â
takigawa chris yuu
and ur second boy! chris! chris is a bit more on the optimistic side of the spectrum, and it comes along with kindness and pure, sweet love :> he loves hearing you talk about your interests because he feels like he learns so much from you. he constantly asks you questions to get you to explain it further, and sometimes heâll do his own research so next time, he can converse back. he really admires you for your analytical skills. chris is anything bu controlling or close-minded, he is literally a good soul and we all need a chris. heâll offer his own opinion but will ultimately reach a common ground because he knows everyone has different opinionsâŽhe just wants to reach an understanding. again, i feel like this is a friends to lovers trope, but he was in love with you all this time. he knows how much you value getting to know someone, and he really respects that. but he couldnât help but not fall for the way you articulated your thoughts into words, or how you smile when youâre listening to your friends talk. with that, he is extremely patient with you. chris is very observant about your feelings, so donât bother hiding anything from him. although, he wonât sugar coat anything, and youâll get hard, honest truth. like miyuki, he loves the little things you do for himâŽit gives him so much happiness.
*ïŒâżâreblogs and likes are appreciatedââżïŒ*
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Hiiiiii i love your works!!! Could you do sugawara helping his s/o with a bunch of hwk that they've procrastinated on for so long they can't look at it without breaking down in tears and frustration??? thank youuuuu â€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïžđ„șđ„șđ„ș
ofc!!! i love him sm this is such a cute concept pls
- so ur sitting there, barbecue sauce on ur tiddies with ur bio homework, almost just hitting your head on your desk multiple times bc it would just make it go away-
- you got it like two weeks ago, ur teacher knew it would take a while since it was about 10ish pages of just reading then two sides of a4 of questions....hell naw
- but you being the ace procrastinator you are managed to hold it off for a wholeass two weeks!!! until the night before it was due in!!! go you babe!!!!!!
- LUCKILY u have someone on speed dialÂ
- none other than our koushi sugawara
- mans is a biology nerd tell me otherwise he loves animals and the environment HHH IM IN LOVE WITH HIM PLS
- âhey sugar!!! :Dâ âcan you please help me with my bio homework its stressing me out:((â âaRE YOU CRYING ILL BE THERE IN FIVE-âÂ
- and by five he meant seconds literally
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âyeah, thank you mrs l/n. ILL HELP YOU I PROMISE! I LOVE YOU! JUST DONT CRY, TELL ME YOURE NOT GONNA CRY!â you jumped up to hear him frantically running upstairs, your mothers light chuckle echoing behind him.Â
âo-okay, i wonât cry!â you laughed a little, significantly more awake as he flung your room door open, pulling you into a hug, gentle yet meaningful.
âim here now, kay? itll be okay, youll be fine!â he stroked the back of your head, slowly entwining his fingers into the roots of your hair as you nuzzled your head into his neck, the scent of freshly baked cookies and fresh soap filling your nostrils. ânow, letâs look at what this says sugar.â still half hugging you, he moved over to your bed, picking up the piece of paper with two fingers.
after a few minutes of him reading in silence, your head on his shoulder the whole time, he turned to you.
âok, i get it! you calmed down, sugar?â you nodded, smiling. just from his presence even being there you were automatically happier, he had that effect on you. all the boys on the volleyball team laughed about it, teasing that you were wrapped around his finger, as he was yours, smitten with eachother.
âi know what that one means..â you pointed to question five, then picking up your notebook and showing him your little notes on it. âand that one. but its question two b thats confusing me.. and the rest of them, to be fair.â you laughed a little, as he smiled at you.
âthats okay! i understand them all, i think, so ill go through them with you one by one. ill stay here all night if i have to, sugar, you come first.â he kissed you on the head as he lifted the paper up so you could both see it from lying down, and started to explain the first question.
âok.. i think iâm done!â you said, leaning back in your chair, making it move back a little as your boyfriend jumped awake from the bed.
âhm? yay, thats incredible sugar! let me see..â he motioned for you to bring the paper over, and his eyes drifted across the page, analysing your words. âperfect! that sentence theres really good, youd get full marks at an exam just for that sentence alone.. this is all amazing! im proud of you, darling.â he smiled as you hopped onto your bed, him pulling you in to be the little spoon.
âthank you, really. i love you so much.â you said, turning your body around to face his, you both nose to nose.
âi love you too, sugar.â he said before kissing you gently for a few seconds, pulling away for a moment before you kissed him back again, more powerfully, catching him off his guard. âoh, wait..â he pulled his phone out, and you felt yours buzz from the table.
deadchi- suga i know youre at y/ns but for GODS SAKE YOU BETTER NOT FALL ASLEEP IN PRACTICE
you- JESUS CALM DOWN also how did you know he was here- yoonbum that u
the holy spirit- heard my name
loml- I WONT I PROMISE PINKY PROMISE
salt- fuck off its 3am
milk boi- THEN WHY ARE YOU AWAKE-
queen- go to sleep pls im tired y/n back me up
simp 1- KIYOKO
simp 2- KIYOKO
you- OKAY WERE GONNA GO TO SLEEP NOW BYE
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thank u for requesting!!! box is always open kith kith
#sugawara#suga#sugawara imagine#hq sugawara#sugawara x reader#sugawara x you#haikyuu#haikyuu!!#hq#hq imagines#hq x reader#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu x y/n#haikyuu fanfiction
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(abandoned) itâs late, just stay
john wick / reader genre: sugar daddy au rating: general, mature themes words: 2.4k warnings: sugar daddy relationship, slight john wick 2 spoilers i guess a/n: this 1 is for me. i wrote her in a heat,,,sheâs literally not finished. but im adding her to my online portfolio 4 the memories. Also fyi the profile was made before i indulged in seeking arrangements and as a sugar baby i know that ur not allowed to mention 90% of brooklynbabyâs bio in ur bio but who cares man this is fiction and im making it up
At that, she tossed her head back with a laugh and leant forward. âAnd since when are sugar babies a relationship status?â
Sometimes, John doesnât really know how he gets himself into awkward situations.
The first few occasions, he figured it was merely a case of being in the wrong place at the wrong time. While, actually, this always worked out in his favour, John began to notice that it was more frequent that he ended up at a bar with some people he didnât really know, or being invited to a baby shower as the date of a woman he had never even met before. Granted, John enjoyed company whenever he could get it, and whenever it avoided conflict; however socialism has never been his strongest asset. No, he simply prefers silent gestures or glances across rooms, âeye conversationsâ where he says hello and nothing else for the remainder of the evening.
âYou just need to loosen up a bit,â is what Addy had told him, whilst slipping him a glass of straight Bourbon. It had been a relatively quiet evening in the Continental, and just when John thought he could have five minutes of peace and quiet, Addy has slipped in his line of sight. âYou know, go out. Make new friends.â
âYouâre my friend,â John replied. He made no room to elaborate on that statement, swallowing the contents of the drink and pushing it back to her with a short nod. She sighed and rolled her eyes, doing her job.
âNo, you know what you really need?â He didnât answer, glancing at her through his hair as she filled his drink and rested her weight on her elbows. Instantly, John didnât like the feeling in his stomach when Addy raised her eyebrows suggestively, tugging on her bottom lip with newfound excitement: âI think you need to get laid.âÂ
And when John scoffed with humour, she tried again, âand not like, laid as in you have a one night stand. No- hear me out, John! You should invest in a sugar baby. You know, someone you can spend time with when youâre not doing the dirty work for everybody else. Itâs fun, and frisky, and also means you can start spending some of the millions you have stashed somewhere not being used.â
She tutted like a scolding mother, âSelfish boy.â Addy then smiled, âMaybe instead of retirement, what you really need is something to help you unwind.â
John scoffed, gulping back the Bourbon. âIâm married.â
At that, she tossed her head back with a laugh and leant forward. âAnd since when are sugar babies a relationship status?â
Thatâs really all the thinking he had done on the subject of John- John fucking Wick- investing in a sugar baby. He simply took it in stride, almost complimented by the assumption that he was attractive and rich enough to have someone leaning on him for money and sex, and stored it away for future thought when he was lost and drunk. John never actually considered the possibility of âputting his bills to good useâ until fucking Santino DâAntonio decided to light a bonfire inside his house. Having lost virtually everything related to Helen, he found himself back at the Continental, back to listening to Addy sympathetically give her condolences and five seconds later, introducing him to Seeking Arrangements.
John doesnât know why heâs doing this, staring at the laptop screen that smiles at him. For circumstances, Addy had loaned him her laptop for the evening he spends at the Continental, and heâs too busy browsing the elaborately made profiles that he barely registers the fact that he is still wearing his suit. He pulls at the cuffs of his blazer and is midway through taking it off when he stumbles across a profile- one of which is oddly amusing- titled brooklynbaby. He racks his mind for the reference but canât seem to place it.
âA sugar baby suggests that I sleep with them, and as I said,â John had mentioned back in the bar, âIâm married.â
Addy had grabbed his hands and groaned, âLook- you might surprise yourself. And, Iâm not suggesting that you throw your wife away for somebody new. Iâm just saying you need to...make use of yourself. Honestly, youâre too sexy to be stored away like this. Most sugar babies are dumb and unobservant, they wonât even know who you are.â
brooklynbaby makes an adorably hilarious first impression, and John is hesitant to browse her profile. If he wanted to âmake use of himselfâ by investing all of his personal time into somebody who in truth wanted him for his dick and his bank balance, then it needed to be somebody at least near to his wavelength. Somebody who was smart, but clueless at the same time, and somebody who was the complete opposite of Helen. The last thing he needed on top of a handful of a baby was the guilt of moving on. But still, even when he pinned her tab and returned to scrolling through the profiles, John realised that most sugar babies were simply trolls hidden behind pretty pictures, or girls who wanted money for pleasure and not for need.
He went back to brooklynbaby. Three times. Three times, before he pinched the bridge of his nose, muttering a quiet, âOh, fuck it,â and favoriting her account, and pressing to send a message.
Even online, John was never great with words. He typed, and backspaced, and typed again, trying to come up with something interesting to make up for the bland profile he made around thirty minutes ago.
From: johnwick So. You like dogs?
If Addy were here, she would have slapped him.
Almost immediately after it sends, John lets out a frustrated noise and tears his gaze away from the screen. Dating just wasnât like how it was when he met Helen. Why did everything have to be so complicated, and mysterious, and why the hell does he even have to waste his money on somebody when he could be saving this money to eventually, whenever the day comes, retire? John wrestles with the dilemma of deleting the whole account when a notification bell rings through the laptop speakers.
From: brooklynbaby yes, I love dogs!!! :D (typing) do you have a dog?
John breathes a sigh of relief.
From: johnwick Yes. I do.
From: brooklynbaby oh, great. :) (typing)
Johnâs leg begins to bounce quickly, the table wavering with the glass on top, like an earthquake. Suddenly, brooklynbaby stops typing and John stills. Why did she stop? Did he do something wrong? Honestly, women are so hard to please nowadays.
From: brooklynbaby want to be my sugar daddy?
Never mind.
From: johnwick I would.
From: brooklynbaby cool
Neither him or brooklynbaby says anything for a few moments, and John doesnât notice. After-all, he is still a working man, busy with life and revenge and trying to stay alive for more than three seconds. When he goes back to the laptop and sees no reply, he frowns.
From: johnwick I am sorry. I really donât know what Iâm doing. What am I supposed to say?
He makes a mental reminder to have words with Addy later.
From: brooklynbaby /(*u*)/ youâre cute we could make dinner reservations and talk over terms if youâd like!!! i say reservations because theyâre fancy and if anything goes wrong, we can pretend weâre⊠business partners? discussing business?
Without even really realising, John finds himself laughing shortly, settling back into the chair. All of this feels weird, as in typing to a stranger heâs planning to spend his money on and occasionally fuck. John quickly revisits her profile and spends four minutes analysing her profile picture. If this is her, then sheâs really very beautiful. A steal.
From: johnwick When are you free for dinner?
From: brooklynbaby hmm well iâm dogsitting tomorrow, but i can be free for the day after!!!! is that okay ^_^
From: johnwick That would be fine. [Address] at 7pm, does that work for you?
brooklynbaby pauses.
From: brooklynbaby omg am i gonna have to dress fancy?
From: johnwick Donât feel pressured. I only own black.
From: brooklynbaby wellâŠ.guess iâll bring out like one of my old uni party dresses :( but you have to promise not to judge me!!!
John laughs again. At some point during the evening, he ends up with a planned dinner reservation at one of the most expensive restaurants in Brooklyn, and heâs also 2 grand poorer thanks to the generous donation in brooklynbabyâs bank account for a nice evening outfit.
When John returns the laptop to Addy the following morning, he was admittedly expecting the rant that followed. She had glared at the laptop being handed back over the bar and refused to serve him until he came up with a reasonably valid excuse as to why he wasnât putting himself out there for a bit of company. John had blinked with an unimpressed look and drummed his fingers.
âI have dinner reservations with someone tomorrow at 7pm. Also- can I have a drink?â
But of course, with work being as tedious as ever and with his whole day being completely ruined by a blood stained shirt and poor room service for the first time in his many years of frequenting the Continental, John didnât amuse himself with brooklynbaby until he logged onto the site on his phone, and saw that she had messaged thrice during the day. He almost felt guilty, until he saw a string of numbers at the end of the last message. He deemed it less necessary to read her above messages and instead went right to texting.
brooklynbaby ok. so should i just ask for mr john wick when i get to this restaurant??? sorry for so many texts im just kinda nervous
me Yes. I booked under my name and I will be waiting for you when you arrive. Why are you nervous? Didnât you ask me to be here?
brooklynbaby well if weâre going to be technical then YOU asked me to dinner first :P and im nervous because i have nooo idea who you are send a picture?
John sank into bed.
me Maybe I like the element of surprise.
brooklynbaby seems a lil unfair that you get to see me but i dont get to see you :( ive seen ur dog before you thats saying something
me You could have used any image. If weâre going to be technical, I donât even know your name, or if that is really you in the image.
John really hadnât been expecting a full blown nude image at 4:15pm in the afternoon, but he will admit that it was nevertheless what he needed to break some steam. He had arrived at the restaurant twenty minutes earlier than expected, but thatâs okay, Mr Wick. Right this way! Now that he was sitting here, at an empty table overlooking Brooklyn and the lights, with an already ordered bottle of wine, John could understand and relate to the first date nerves. He hadnât felt this way in a long time. Not since-
brooklynbaby uhhh im kind of here like ten minutes early should i wait outside for you :3
He laughs, mostly to himself.
me Iâm already up here. I ordered a rosĂ©, is that alright?
brooklynbaby YES IM RUNNING
And, surprising himself also, John had clammed up and reached for his glass. Thankfully, the owner of this restaurant knew John by face and order, because, after-all, this had been his go-to with Helen. These days, he doesnât have time to go out to new places and eat new things, and so had panicked, and picked a place with sentimental value, and a history of good food. He gulped back his glass of Bourbon and waited until the door at the other side of the room opened meekly, and he tried to appear vacant as the waiter led a woman across the room and towards him.
âYour date, Mr Wick.â
He left curtly and brooklynbaby followed his body as he left, her feet firmly glued to the floor as her head looked back over her shoulder. John took this as an opportunity to look at her body, covered in a beautiful dress he felt proud of paying for. Finally, brooklynbaby looked towards him and paused, observing him and his clearly surprising appearance. John then remembered the gash on his cheekbone and the way he probably looked very off-putting with an unshaven face and long hair, but brooklynbaby smiled softly and raised her brows, beating him to helping her in her chair as she quickly sat down and looked at his glass.
âHow did you know I liked beards?â
John didnât say anything for a moment. âI didnât.â
brooklynbaby rolled her eyes with a grin. âOf course you didnât.â She looked up, then, properly taking in his face. John did the same, looking at every feature present and coming to the quick conclusion that yes, she was definitely the woman in the pictures, and yes, she was one of the most gorgeous humans he had ever seen on planet Earth since Helen herself.
âYouâre not what I expected,â she said honestly. âBut, more than my expectations. I donât believe Iâve really introduced myself- Iâm Y/N. Y/N L/N.â
He tried it out in his head. Y/N. Y/N L.N, Y/N L/N, Y/N Wick-
âJohn,â he replied and she sniggered and rested her chin in her palms.
âYouâre seriously so handsome,â she complimented. âAre you sure youâre not married, or something?â
Her gaze panned to his hands where she noticed the wedding band, and for a moment, she hesitated. John wasnât ashamed of the ring, nor embarrassed to be seen wearing it. He toyed with it on his finger, looking at her from across the table. âItâs complicated.â
Y/N nodded meekly. âI see.â She cleared her throat, âdivorce? Planned divorce? Affair?â
âNo, Iâm widowed,â he tried out a joke, but she only looked more uncomfortable. Her mouth gaped and she fumbled for words.
âOh, John, Iâm really sorry- no, really, Iâm so sorry,â she stumbled, and John watched her carefully across the table. âGod, how fucking insensitive. Sorry, I guess that just. Wow, that never really crossed my mind. That sucks, Iâm sorry.â
âItâs in the past,â John said, finding finality in that sentence. âIâm trying to move on from it.â
Y/N nodded sympathetically. âNo, yeah, wow, I get it. Completely. I...hope I live up to great expectations, then?â
John smiled and looked past her, noticing the waiter rounding the corner with the bottle of rose. âYouâre getting there, Miss L/N.â
#imagine if i was good and finished this it would be glorious#john wick#john wick x reader#john wick scenario#john wick imagine#john wick smut#john wick sugar daddy#john wick 2#unfinished#gwoongi
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so grateful for ur mdzs and cql analyses. canât believe you do all that for free but learning from other peopleâs deep dives into themes and meta and criticisms helps increase my understanding and appreciation for the story. canât wait to see more from you
ah!!! thank you so much ;A; idk, I really do just enjoy doing it! and I love hearing from people that Iâve helped them understand something or made them consider something from a new perspective! :D so thank you!! thatâs one of my favorite comments to receive. đ iâm a pretty slow with the content generation these days, but youâre always free to go trawling through my #mine tag to see what else Iâve got buried on this blog. thank you so much!!!
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hey i read the twitter thread thing and i say this as a fan of mewgulf - i think the problem w tharntype and non-con isnât types past but how tharn acts when heâs passed out drunk. and i donât think that should be seen as a character flaw like i donât think what he did is a forgivable thing for a character. imo itâs the only flaw of the series but it is a MAJOR one. feel free not to respond to this btw. ily and your blog. this is not intended as an attack on u at all. ur a legend :)
Helloooo! I appreciate your ask and love love love that I get to talk to you about TharnType :) And thank you for the praises that I really donât deserve lmao
First of all, I really get it. I get ttts is complicated and controversial and itâs not for everyone. Thereâs something that @type-go-grrr said that really encompasses the ttts experience for me and that was that: "you donât love ttts without hating them in the beginningâ. Also this post was really good at explaining how you can like something and still be cognizant about its problems.Â
In my quest to find meta/analyses about ttts, I have found more discussions about Typeâs homophobia vs. Tharnâs behaviour/non-con actions. Perhaps because Typeâs homophobic actions were louder (we literally see and hear Type call Tharn a f*g) and perhaps because Typeâs character development is the easiest to spot and see in comparison to Tharn. So I know when people defend ttts, theyâre quick to point out Typeâs character development as âevidenceâ to why ttts is good. But Iâve always wanted more analyses on Tharnâs character and his actions in the beginning so Iâm so happy about this ask!Â
Now, Iâm not exactly too sure what you mean when you say Tharnâs actions in ep 1 shouldnât be seen as just a character flaw. The concept of casting Tharnâs actions as just a character flaw doesnât really fit/make sense (like Type being super stubborn and aggressive is a flaw and Tharn being needy is flaw). Itâs not really a flaw that he wanted to feel type up when he was drunk???? So forgive me and correct me if Iâm interpreting your words incorrectly.
Tharn feeling Type up and kissing him when Type was passed out, is very clearly wrong. I think most ttts stans understand this. I saw in some tags someone wrote, âlike the fans know it ainât shit. donât tag it we knowâ.Â
So we know. We know ep 1-3 was wrong, controversial, and uncomfortable to watch. Even later, with Lhongâs actions were also controversial, uncomfortable and wrong (another issue I could write an entire post about).Â
But itâs not romanticized. Tharnâs actions did not go unaddressed.  (âIâm sorry. Itâs okay to hate me.â and later when Tharn is speaking to the seniors that Type called f*ggots, âI kept approaching himâ and âIf you didnât touch him the way I did, he wouldnât have insulted youâ and âThis is all my fault, not his.â [honestly, that entire conversation is so interesting. I could probably write a yet another entire post about it]). And although I know heâs speaking directly about the bathroom-bj scene, I would think it extends to the scene in ep 1 too, especially with the way it seemed like the director made the conscious choice to mirror the love scene in ep 13 with ep 1.Â
Is it forgivable? No. Tharn doesnât even think it is. Itâs why he apologizes but doesnât expect forgiveness. Itâs why when he touched Type after the infamous bbt scene, he looked at himself in the mirror. Itâs why he couldnât go through with dinner with Lhong and had to go back to his dorm to see Type. To make sure he was okay? Maybe. Maybe not. I donât think Tharn was in that headspace yet to truly let himself care for Type.Â
I think Tharn in ep 2/after the drunk scene, was also not in that headspace to sympathize or see right from wrong regarding Typeâs homophobic behaviour. All he saw was a homophobe, being extremely homophobic and aggressive directly towards him. Similarly, the seniorsâ first series of actions was also to call Type out for his homophobic slurs and words by posting the ordeal on the internet. And like the seniors, Tharn did the same: condemning Type and even going as far as provoking Type by messing with him (enter the ep 1 scene where he wanted to see Type wake up âto find out [Type had] been spending the night with [Tharn]â).
And this is why I love ttts so much. There are so many layers to it and you could simply go with: âNon-con, rape, and homophobia is wrong. Itâs unforgivableâ. And it is and should be. But the world doesnât always work like that (like cancel culture). What do you do after you realize the actions and thoughts you had were wrong? Can you change? Can you ask for forgiveness? Are you worth being forgiven? Will others forgive you? What do you have to do to earn forgiveness? What would that look like?Â
Ttts presents to us with one possibility of what that might look like. Itâs not perfect, by any means, and we know that.Â
And so yeah, I really love ttts. Like A LOT. But, like most fans will tell you, we know and Iâm not focussing solely on the tender and soft parts of it. Episode 2 is one of my favourite episodes and itâs triggering af. The first time I watched it? I was just ready to pretend ep 1-3 didnât exist. I couldnât wrap my head around it. I felt guilt and shame for liking such a âproblematicâ show.Â
But the more I rewatch it, the more I see the way ttts tried to address those really controversial storylines that were thrown at our faces in the beginning. So itâs sooo satisfying to see what Tharn and Type become by ep 13. We went from âI hate gays like youâ to âLetâs spend the rest of our lives togetherâ.Â
Anyway, I could go on for longer but then this post would be insane. I do hope this post opens up healthy and productive discussions about the series and I look forward to it all :D
#tharntype#tharntype the series#thank you for the ask and pls!!!#i need an excuse to ramble on about tharntype so please talk to me about it#gk asks#anonymous#ttts meta
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Hello, I always love checking your tumblr âșïž, you influenced me to play Morrowind, Hogwart's Mystery and Masquerade Bloodlines and I had great time (your OCs are becoming like a real people by now to me) . Are you taking prompts with kissing now? If so, then could you do 2 or/and 11 with Velyne and Julan? Have a nice day đ
Okay so first off, thank you???? It makes me so happy to know that people actually pay attention to my rambling and that itâs helping to allow other people to experience some excellent games :D And Iâm glad you enjoy my OCs!! Some times I just feel like Iâm annoying people when I rant about them ._.â
Anyways, hereâs the drabble, I hope you enjoy ^^
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It was late. Secunda and Messer were high in the sky, and Velyne was double-checking her pack, ensuring she had everything she would need. There was no saying how long she would be away, but the supplies she had ought to last a while before they needed to be replenished.Â
She heard the rustling of the yurtâs flap and knew immediately who it was, though she didnât look up. Looking at him, hearing his voice, even meeting his gaze would make this harder than it already was. But she had to do this, and this time it would have to be alone. The Ahemussa needed its Ashkhan and its Gulakhan now more than ever; she couldnât ask either of them to accompany her on what was a very personal mission.
This curse had begun with a Telvanni. It seemed fitting that it end with one too.
âVel,â Julan called softly.
She wanted to reply, but there were no words she could think of that would make things any simpler and any that dig spring to mind stuck in her throat. They had already argued, had shouted themselves hoarse over the issue, and the facts remained the same. She was going and he was staying, and that was final.
So she carried on arranging supplies that were already neatly stowed away, and toyed with straps that were already adjusted.
âVel.â He was closer now. âCanât it wait til morning. Ayrea will-â
âWill be fine,â she cut over coarsely. âShe has the whole clan to look after her.â
âShe wonât want the clan. Sheâll want her mother,â he said sternly, now standing directly behind her. âWould you really take away her chance to say goodbye?â
âIf it means that I canât change my mind? Then yes.â
The words were harsh, but she knew that the moment that those big pink eyes looked up at her, sparkling with tears and accompanied by a trembling lip, her resolve would crumble and she would be unable to bring herself to do what must be done. She needed a cure, a proper one. For this damnable disease to be expunged from her, once and for all. And while it brought her no pleasure to turn to a Telvanni - especially one such as Neloth - a Telvanni might be the only one who could do something about it.
Finally she straightened up, shouldering her pack. She checked the straps, still looking for excuses to not face her own husband.
He didnât give her one.Â
Instead he stepped around to her side, turned her to face him, and began to adjust the straps himself. Velyne winced. He wasnât looking at her face, just focusing solely on the task of ensuring the straps were tight enough and that the weight was even across her shoulders.
âThere,â he murmured, hands settling on her shoulders as he finally met her eyes. He was smiling sadly, his eyes glistening. âYouâre all set.â
For a long few seconds, neither of them said a word or moved an inch. A thousand words passed between them, silent but heard, and Velyne took the chance to memorise his face.
The years had aged him significantly from the young, brash Ashlander sheâd fallen in love with. The lines were deeper, crowâs feet crinkled the corners of his eyes, his hair was longer and accompanied by a beard, and both were peppered with tiny wisps of silver. He wore piercings in his ears and on the bridge of his nose - courtesy of Velyne herself - and now he wore the garb of an Ashkhan rather than the leathers heâd adopted back when they faced down Dagoth Ur.Â
The last two centuries showed on him, and it was why her condition frustrated her. Her skin was still smooth, untouched by the ravages of time, and her hair was still a pure, silky black. So many lamented that they did not share her unaging beauty; they would natter on and on of their envy of her, wishing that they could look half so young at such an age. Even Shani ribbed her about it from time to time, prodding Velyne to share her âsecretsâ with everyone else.Â
Not one of them understood what it was like. Not one of them could understand why she wanted her curse gone. Why she would leave her husband, her child, and her clan behind to rid herself of eternal youth and beauty.
No one. Except Julan.
Slowly, his hands raised to the sides of her head, cupping her cheeks, and she knew he was analysing her face as she had analysed his own. A little security if the worst came to pass. If anything happened and if this was the last time they ever saw one another againâŠ
It was as if the thought had crossed from her mind to his, as he pressed his lips hard against herâs, silencing it before it could take root in either of them.
Velyne grabbed his waist and kissed back hard, ignoring - or perhaps oblivious to - the tears prickling at her eyes.Â
Julan was warm, as he always was, but somehow it was more intense than ever before. Like she was experiencing that enveloping warmth for the first time, and found herself not wanting to leave. He represented so many things to her. Warmth, safety, love⊠Home. Julan had given her a home, a family, a place to belong where she was more than just some thief. And she was leaving it all behind in the hopes of a cure that might not even exist.
Suddenly he broke the kiss.
âSorry,â he whispered. âI shouldnât have-â
She yanked him back in, silencing him before he could pull away, before he retracted that feeling of safety.
Maybe she shouldnât have. It made leaving harder. But was it so wrong to take another minute of comfort when she knew it could be months or years before she experienced it again? A stolen moment wouldnât hurt that badlyâŠ
Or maybe it would. Right now she didnât really care. She just kissed hard until the need to breathe forced them apart once more, breathing hard and cheeks flushed a dark purple.
âI love you,â he whispered after a moment of extended silence.
âI love you too,â she replied, running a hand over his cheek. âIâll miss you.â
âIâll miss you too. JustâŠâ He paused, his gaze intense. âMake sure you come back alive.â
âIâll do my best, but you know what these Telvanni are like,â she joked weakly. âFor all I know, Iâll end up with tentacles for eyes.â
His face softened, and he couldnât quite stop himself as he chuckled and shook his head.
âAnd Iâll love you still, tentacles and all.â
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Revenge is a Dish Best Served... Hot? (m)
When your roommate keeps you up late at night with her noisy rendezvous with male overnight guests, you and Seokjin team up to plot your revenge... How? With a taste of her own medicine, of course.Â
Dedicated to my roommate :â) ily, but please let me sleep....Â
Warning: Seokjin smut
Word Count: 17,051Â
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Your heart stops in your chest when you walk in through the door of your apartment after a long day at labâto find your roommate snuggling with a strange man youâve never seen before on the couch. They look up at the sight of you and casually hold up their hands in greeting, but your roommate doesnât even bother to move from where sheâs practically lying in the strangerâs lap.
âYouâre back from lab late,â Lei calls out to you.
You cautiously set your bag on the counter and think through your words before responding, âYes⊠and I have to wake up tomorrow at six in the morning to set up an experiment.â
âAw, you poor thing,â she offhandedly comments before turning back to her new male companion.
You remain standing in the foyer for a few moments, staring at the way she snuggles back into his embrace without a second thought. But neither of them notice your heated glare, and you have no choice but to moodily march into your bedroom⊠the one located directly next to the living room in which they currently occupy⊠with the very couch they sit on pressed against the wall of your room, your bed mere concrete inches from their canoodling⊠Luckily they arenât having sex this time.
Not that thereâs anything wrong with that. Normally, you are completely cool with your roommate having visitors over. Boyfriends, dates, one-night stands, whatever. Youâve had your fair share of hookups in the past, and itâs not your right to judge⊠when these hookups take place in the privacy of oneâs own bedroom, that is. But your roommate has this strange preference for canoodling in your shared spacesâŠ
And with only a thin wall to separate you from them, you can hear them as clearly as if they were standing right before you. You groan as you hastily change for bed and dive for your earplugs. But of course, itâs useless. You can still hear the high-pitched squeal of your roommateâs giggles through the spongey material. And with each passing second, the anger in the pit of your stomach heats until it reaches its boiling point.
Jin!!! You angrily text your best friend, in lieu of stomping out in the living room and giving the inconsiderate couple a piece of your mind like youâd really like to, Sheâs doing it again!!!!
Like always, it only takes him a minute to respond, Lei?
Yah. Who else? Ugh, im going fucking crazy!!!
What guy is it this time? The one who grunts like a pig during sex or the one who asked to borrow a pair of your socks?
Neither! Itâs a new guy :(Â
Just tell them to shut the fuck up.
Akljslkfjsdkflsk
Srsly, ___. Just do it.
>.< ur no help! Forget it.
Want me to come over and do it for u?
N.O. trust me, Jin, thatâs the last thing id ever want.
Y? bc u cant stand to see me saving ur ass again?
No, bc ud only make things worse w/ that scary face of yours.
Not my fault ur blind and cant appreciate beauty.
U look like a mean alpaca
Wut??? Y u lyin? Bitch, im beautiful and u know it!
Whatever. ur no help. Now ill just suffer through the rest of the night listening to their gross scream laughing.
Wanna sleep over instead?
Nah, u live super far away. Just forget it. Maybe I can try to shove two pairs of earplugs in D:
U need 2 just grow a pair and deal with this problem instead of avoiding it.
Asjdflklsdfk maybe one dayâŠ
Aite, coward. But donât turn to me crying.
⊠why are we even friends again?
Bc no one else likes you.
Jin, r u saying u like me�;)
No. I tolerate u. plz donât go putting words in my mouth.
Ya ya whatever. love u too, baby <3
Istg if u call me that one more timeâŠ
Goodnight, baby đ đ đ
âŠgoodnight
You smile fondly at that last message. Why is Kim Seokjin such a tsundere? Pretending that he doesnât care for you, when you know that he probably sees you as a little sister to him. But heâs not Jin if heâs not cold and aloof. Shaking your head in amusement, you place your phone down and lie down on the bed with a smile on your face.
Youâre not sure what higher power allowed you to befriend someone like Kim Seokjin years ago in college, but you thank that unknown deity on a regular basis. You donât know how youâd survive the stress of grad school without Jinâs snarky, dramatic, mostly unwarranted comments every day. Just thinking of your best friend is relaxing enough to put you to sleep and within minutes, you feel your exhausted mind drifting off⊠Untilâ
âHEHEHEHEHE, youâre so funny!â
Leiâs high-pitched giggling instantly slams you back into full consciousness. You lay there, staring up at the ceiling in defeat, before flopping over to muffle a scream in your pillow. Fuck your lifeâŠ
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âWhat are you still doing?â Jin groans as he watches you type furiously at your kitchen table.
âSorry, I just need a few more minutes,â you say as you hastily type another line of code.
âI thought you wanted to grab food!â he exclaims, âWhy are you like this?â
âShh,â you shush him, âGo stare at your reflection in the back of my laptop and shut up.â
Jin sighs dramatically, âI think itâs very irresponsible for a full grown adult woman like yourself to demand that someone drives her to lunch, only to stand them up.â
âRelax, Iâm not standing you up,â you mumble as you hastily delete your line of code and reconsider it, âI just need another second to rerun these analyses⊠And no one told you to pick me up! I couldâve just taken the subway.â
âAnd get mugged again?â he snorts, âLike Iâm going to let that happen. I canât deal with that again.â
You shoot him a wry glare, âNot everyone can drive around in their fancy little cars, Mr. Rich Kid.â
âPsht. Youâre the one who chose to be a broke ass grad student. Who would willingly want to be a student for another four years?!â
âSix years,â you quietly correct him.
âSix years?! Okay, that settles it. Youâre officially insane.â
âAt least I enjoy it! Youâre the one who sold your soul to the corporate overlords and have to suffer through that boring financial⊠wait what do you do again?â
âHow do you know nothing about me?! Investmentââ
âYeah, yeah, whatever. Can you come take a look at my analyses?â
âOh my god⊠I knew there was a reason you wanted me over,â Jin says with a good-natured sigh as he scoots over to peer at your laptop screen, âYour silly overeducated mind canât handle a bit of math.â
You scowl at him as you show him the output of your analyses, âJust tell me if this is right or notâŠâ
âWhatâs the magic word?â he chimes in a singsong voice.
âSweet cheeks?â you offer.
He immediately scowls, âForget it. Do your own damn analyses.â
âI didnât mean that!â You exclaim, clinging onto his sleeve before he can walk away, âIâm sorry, dearest Jin! You are as rich in intelligence as you are in beauty! Please bless me with that sexy brain of yours!â
His lips twitch at your exaggerated words, but to your relief, he concedes, âFine,â he sighs dramatically, âBut only because you asked so nicely.â
You feel the urge to retort back, but you stifle it down in order to show him your output screen, âPlease look this over and let me know where I fucked upâŠâ
âWhat a noble man I am, helping you with the most basic math,â heâs as dramatic as always as he pulls your laptop towards him.
âYes, my savior!â you pretend to swoon.
Jin actually cracks a smile at that, and opens his mouth to respond, but at that moment, two bodies come crashing in through the front door. Your gut twists in annoyance when you identify the intertwined bodies as Lei and her new man aggressively making out in the doorway.
At least they have the decency to briefly separate when they realize that there is company in the apartment, âOh, hey guys,â Lei greets the two of you.
Both of you hesitantly wave back. Normally, she would spend longer chatting with the two of you (or flirting with Jin, more like), but this time, she is too engrossed with her new friend. As soon as she finishes greeting you, she reattaches her lips to her male companionâs, and they messily stumble onto the couch to make out more.
You stare at them with a disgusted look on your face, before you quickly catch yourself and politely clear your throat, âSo, Jin, what do you think about my analyses?â He doesnât respond, so you poke him after a second, âJin?â
âSorry, what?â he says, forcibly tearing himself from the stomach-turning spectacle, âI canât concentrate when Iâm literally on the verge of vomiting.â
You quickly shush him, horrified that your new guests on the couch might hear his offensive words, âDonât be like this! Itâs a beautiful and natural part of life!â
He ignores you, âIs this the shit you have to deal with on a daily basis?â Jin asks you in horror.
You wince, âPretty muchâŠâ
âDamn⊠Ok, Iâm gonna go beat them both up for you. This is unacceptable.â
âNo!â you hurriedly grab his hand before he can follow through on his threat, âCome on, letâs just leave. Arenât you hungry?â
â___, you seriously canât keep running away from confrontation!â
âI know, butâugh!â Frustrated, you shut your laptop and tighten your grip on his hand to forcibly drag him out of the apartment, âLei, Iâm leaving!â You call out before you step outside, but of course, she doesnât even notice.
As soon as you shut the front door behind you, you whirl around in the hallway to face Jin, âI know that this is gross and really inconsiderate, but what can I do?â
âJust tell her to fucking stop,â he says, his solution as simple and blunt as always.
âI wish I could! But you know that her motherâs the landowner of this apartment complex. Iâm paying barely half the rent of what a nice two-bedroom apartment like this downtown should go for! I canât afford to piss her off!â
âThatâs such bullshit,â Jin growls, âYou canât just let her get away with everything she wants because she can hold this over your head. Move out. Hell, if you need somewhere to stay, you can crash with me.â
âUgh, itâs really not that simple. Thatâs not a permanent solution.â
âNeither is just letting her get away with this without any consequences for the rest of your life.â
âYeah, I know⊠I just need to think of a better approachâŠâ
âFine. If you wonât talk to her, then get back at her.â
That makes you pause, âWait⊠what?â
âTwo can play that game,â he explains, âHow is it fair that she can be so inconsiderate and rude fooling around with guys in your shared living space? So you should do it too. And sheâd be a complete hypocrite if she found fault in it.â
âIâŠâ you blink as you try to think it through, âWait⊠thatâs not such a bad idea, actuallyâŠâ
âOf course it isnât,â he says at once, âIâm a genius, after all.â
âNo, youâre really stupid,â you absentmindedly inform him as you mull over his suggestion, âWait⊠no, I think this actually could work, Jin! Wow, I just need to find a man to fool around with in front of her! This is exciting!â You exclaim, beaming at this point.
âYes, exactly. Give her a taste of her own medicine. She probably lacks the basic empathy to understand how gross this is. So you need to let her know how it feels.â
âOk,â you grin, âI think I will, thanks Jin! Iâll call Jung Hoseok tonight and ask if he wants to come over.â
âWaitâJung Hoseok?â Jin asks with a wrinkle of his nose, âAre you really going to go down that route again?â
âSure, why not? I mean, heâs the ultimate fuckboi, and I would never date him, but thatâs not what I want from him tonight, now is it? And I think Hobi would always be down for a hookup with no strings attached.â
Still, Jin clicks his tongue in disapproval, âThat seems excessive and rather dangerous for this ploy, ___.â
âDangerous?â You repeat in surprise, âHow so?â
But he only ignores you, âWhy do you actually have to hook up with someone for real? Why canât you just fake it?â
Your brow furrows in confusion, âFake it? How would I fake it on my own? Do you want me to pretend to masturbate or something, you pervert?!â
He cringes at the very thought, âNo way, you nasty. I was just saying that Iâll help you act it out in front of her.â
âYou? Really? Why would you do something like that?â you ask, shocked by the very thought.
He shrugs, âWhy not? Itâll be fun. You know Iâd love nothing more than to get back at that gross, overly touchy roommate of yours.â
You pull a face of sympathy when you remember all the unwarranted flirting and excessive skinship Lei had subjected Jin to over the years youâve lived with her. âBut she knows weâre friends. Sheâll never believe that weâre hooking up.â
âWhy not? Iâm hot. Of course youâd want to fuck me.â
You glare at him, but donât have the energy to discipline him for once, âBut why would you want to fuck me? Thatâs the unbelievable part!â
âWhy not?â he says in a flippant tone, âIâm hot and horny, youâve got tits, weâve been friends for years, and things just fell together. Boom, done. Now letâs go get omelets.â
âSeokjin, theyâve long stopped serving breakfast.â
âDamn it, woman!â he exclaims, âI told you to hurry up!â
You canât help but grin at that, âGuess weâre just going to have to eat fried chicken again!â
He shoots you a glare, âAgain?â
You beam back, âYup!â
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âOk, sheâs supposed to come back from the grocery store any minute now,â you hiss at Jin that next weekend, when you finally find the time to put your plan into action.
âAlright, what should I do?â he asks as he flops down on the couch next to you.
âHmm⊠Iâm not sure,â you say as you awkwardly swing your legs over his.
He easily lifts your legs and drags them over his lap, âShould I take off my shirt?â he asks, fingers already fidgeting with the top button.
âNo!â You exclaim, sitting up to grab his hands, âWhatâs wrong with you?!â
âOh please,â he says with a roll of his eyes, âYou know you want to see it.â
âNo, I donât,â you snap back, and for good measure, you pull up the front of his shirt to cover him up to the neck, âKeep that nasty shit to yourself.â
âHow is she ever going to believe that weâre fucking?â he sighs.
You pull your legs off of his lap, âI knew I shouldâve just called Hoseok,â you groan.
âNo, we can make this work,â he says, suddenly leaning down to lay on top of you, hands pressed into the cushions on either side of your face to keep from crushing you, âIsnât this better?â
But you flush at his close proximity. Whenever you think that youâve finally gotten used to his impossibly handsome face, he proves you wrong. And lying on top of you like this, with his face inches away from yours⊠You can see every detail of his face from the sharp angles of his jaw, to the intensity of his dark gaze, and the fullness of his pink lips. Flustered, you squeeze your eyes shut, and blindly fumble out of his grip.
âNo, itâs not!â You exclaim as you shove him off of you.
He looks at you, surprised by your dramatic reaction, âWhatâs wrong with you?â
âN-nothing! I just⊠I want to be on top instead!â You practically shout as you push him on his back.
Confused, Jin nevertheless complies, âAlright, fine. Whatever floats your boat, you crazy woman.â
You sigh deeply. Heâs a lot less threatening now that heâs on his back with his lips far away from yours, and you find yourself finally able to relax. Until you realize that you need to climb onto his body. âI just donât want Lei to get the wrong impression,â you mutter as you awkwardly shuffle around on the couch, looking for the best position, âCanât let her think that youâre the one in charge here.â
Jin snorts, but nevertheless crosses his arms behind his head and watches you make your approach under half-lidded eyes, âWhatever helps you sleep at night, babe. Now climb on up.â
Your face nearly explodes with heat from his casual use of the pet name. âYouâre so annoying,â you grumble under your breath as you swing a leg over his waist. But it feels ten times more awkward to straddle him, and you quickly scramble up to hover above his stomach instead, avoiding his crotch like the plague. Thereâs a moment of uncomfortable silence. Thenâ
âIs this normally how you hook up with guys, ___?â Jin asks as he cranes up his head to try to look at you.
You scowl down at him, âAre you questioning my methods?â
âYup. Stop being so damn awkward and sit down on me already.â
You flush at his word choice, âJ-Jin, Iââ
But he grows impatient with your hesitance and takes it upon himself to grab you by the hips and yank you down on him so that you straddle him around the hips, making you sit directly on hisâ
âJin!â You yell out in indignation, your face as hot as a furnace at this point as you grab at his vast shoulders for balance.
That smug bastard is as unfazed as always, âWhat?â he says with a cock of an eyebrow.
You tighten your grip on his shoulders, âNothing,â you spit out, âYouâre just really⊠skinny,â you say, dragging your nails down his torso as a punishment.
He snorts in response and grabs your hands to flatten against his chest, âDoes it feel like Iâm just skinny?â he says as he forces you to feel the hardness of his pecs.
âYes,â you growl, âYou bony ass bitch.â
His face scrunches into a scowl and he opens his mouth to offer you an undoubtedly biting retort, but at the moment, the front door swings open.
âHey, ___, Iâm back. How areâAH! What is that?â Lei squeals when she realizes that youâre lying on top of a man, âWait, is that Kim Seokjin?!â
Your best friend awkwardly pops his head out, âHi.â
âOh my fucking god⊠Are you guys hooking up?!â
ââŠUhâŠYes?â
Jin winces at your robotic answer and tries to make up for it by smoothing a hand up your thigh, making you jump in surprise, âItâs been like a year now,â he informs her, âWhere have you been?â
Lei just shakes her head as she puts down her grocery bags on the ground, âI shouldâve known. You guys were always too close to just be friends.â
But that comment makes you frown, âWhat do you mean by that?â
Jin slaps a hand over your mouth, effectively shutting you up before you can question her further, âJust shut up while weâre still ahead,â he growls into your ear, âAnd fool around with me.â
âWhat are you talking about?!â you hiss back, alarmed.
Instead of responding, he splays a large hand across your lower back and shoves you flush against him. It takes everything in your power to keep from squealing out in surprise, but when Jin unexpectedly bites down on your earlobe, you canât help the squeak from bursting out.
âThe hellâs wrong with you?â he whispers in your ear, âCanât you moan like a normal person?â
âI-Iâm sorry? I just wasnât expectingâeep!â you squeal again when he presses a kiss to the sensitive skin under your chin.
He pulls back with a sigh, âWhy are you acting like this? Youâre the one who wanted to cause a scene, didnât you?â
âYes, I did, but Iââ You stop there, embarrassed. How can you explain that you were expecting to just roll around, faking it? How naĂŻve could you be?
Jin sighs again, âFine, you can suck on my neck instead,â he says, craning his head upward to allow you access.
You pause at that, gazing down at the sight before you with wide eyes. Here is the most attractive man you have ever seen in your entire life, laid out before you like a seven-course meal, just waiting for you to have a taste. Your mouth waters, and if not for your crippling embarrassment, you might have dived right in to eat him whole. But this is your best friend⊠your platonic best friend who has never seen you as a woman. Heâs just doing this as a favor to you, and you wonât allow yourself take advantage of the situation and enjoy this too muchâŠ
Easier said than done.
The moment you lean your face down, his masculine scent overwhelms you, making you lightheaded at once. You silently say a prayer in your mind, then lean down to press your lips against his neck. Itâs a dry kissâjust a peck of your lips to his skin, but it still makes shivers slide down your back. How many times have you imagined touching him like this? Back in the budding years of your friendship during college, this was all you could think about. It would drive you insane, fighting back your urges to touch him, and staying awake at night stewing over your jealousies of his new fling of the week. It canât be healthy opening this door again, when youâve been doing so well keeping non-platonic thoughts of your friend out of your mind for so long⊠But how can you resist?
When Jin makes no sound of protest, you grow bolder, greedily parting your lips, and before you can second-guess yourself, you flick your tongue over his pulse point. Thereâs a beat of silence, where you realize what youâve done and crippling embarrassment fills you. Youâre just about to sit up and beg for forgiveness, when Jin does something very unexpected. He weaves a hand through your hair and pushes your head closer.
âJin,â you whisper against his neck, shocked by the action.
He simply hums in response, âKeep going.â
Your heart is fluttering like a little bird in its cage as you silently obey. As though intoxicated, you canât help but plant a series of open-mouthed kisses across the expanse of his neck, admiring the way his muscles flex as he twists his head to allow you room. But when you graze your teeth across a prominent vein, he suddenly groans.
âDo that again.â
The low, rumbly quality of his voice makes shivers wrack your body as you jump to do as he says. You gently sink your teeth into a patch of skin under his ear and soothe over the bite marks with your tongue until he groans again. You know that the sounds are probably for showâto feign pleasure to your snooping roommate, but you canât help the way they send heat straight to your core.
Another few seconds of this, and Jin begins to shift from underneath you, presumably from discomfort. Instantly feeling guilty for sitting on him so heavily, you spring up to relieve him of your weight. But youâre a bit fuzzy with arousal and miscalculate your movements, unintentionally sliding down on him further⊠until your thigh rams into a strange hardness in the left leg of his jeans⊠wait could that beâ?
âUgh, how long are you two going to continue doing that?!â Leiâs shrill voice breaks you from your reverie.
You spring away from Jin as though burned, âWh-what?â your voice is trembling, but you canât help it.
Lei glowers at you from across the room, âI am trying to make dinner here.â
As though completely unperturbed by what had just occurred on the couch, Jin smoothly answers for you, âWhatâs wrong, Lei?â he asks with a perfectly arched brow, âDoes this bother you?â
She glares back, âNot at all,â she spits through gritted teeth. âYou know what? Iâll just eat out.â And with that, she snatches her purse off the counter and marches out the door.
You flinch as the door slams after her. Then you turn to stare at Jin with wide eyes, âOh my god⊠I canât believe that actually worked.â
He chuckles, âI told you it would, didnât I?â
You laugh along with him, even as you peel yourself off his body and slide to the floor, âThanks, Jin. She actually believed it! Now sheâll think before hooking up with a guy in our common space again!â
âGreat. Just let me know if you need my help again,â he says as he rises to his feet.
âWait, are you going somewhere?â you ask in confusion as you watch him pick up his phone from the coffee table and slip it into his pocket.
âYeah, I have work in the morning. I should go home and prepare.â
âBut I thought we were going to get dinner after this?â
âNext time,â he says as he makes his way to the door.
Youâre a bit stung by his cold rejection. He doesnât even have the decency to look at you as he blows off your dinner plans. Normally, youâd scold him for this kind of behavior, but this time, youâre a bit relieved that heâs leaving after such an awkward encounter.
âOk. Iâll text you?â
âYeah. See you later,â and without a second glance, he walks straight out of your apartment.
As soon as the door closes behind him, you collapse into an undignified pile on the ground, groaning weakly and clutching at your still pounding heart. What the hell had happened back there?!
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Unfortunately, it becomes apparent over the next week that your ploy with Jin did not work at all. Lei brings home a new guy less than three days after your romp on the couch, and to your utmost dismay, they go at it all night long. Youâre basically a walking zombie the next day at school, horrifying your lab mates by the way you hog the French press throughout the entire day.
By the time you finally leave lab that evening, youâd like nothing more than to just faceplant in bed hibernate for about a decade. You trudge into your apartment complex, let yourself in through the front door, and nearly jump out of your skin in surprise at the sight of Kim Seokjin chilling on the couch.
âAHH! You scared me!â You exclaim, clutching your heart in fear, âHow did you get in here?!â
âYour doorman recognized me and let me in the building,â Jin informs you, completely unfazed by your dramatic reaction.
âOh⊠that makes sense⊠Wait, no! How did you get into my apartment?!â
âI have a spare key.â
âOhâŠâ You say, blinking at the realization. ThenââWait, what?! How do you have a spare key?!â
âYour mom gave me one.â
âShe did what?!â
âShh. Keep your voice down. Youâre so noisy,â he says with a wince. âI wouldnât have had to barge in here if you would just pick up your phone⊠Why are you so late?â
âLate for what? âŠOh shit. We were supposed to have dinner tonight, werenât we?!â Wide-eyed, you dive for your phone, and sure enough, there are three missed calls, all from Jin. âIâm sorry, I donât have service on the subway.â
He scoffs, âI couldâve just picked you up from lab.â
You hastily shake your head at the very thought of it, âSeriously, itâs not a big dealâŠâ
âFine⊠what do you want to eat?â
You hesitate, âJin⊠itâs always nice to eat out with you⊠but maybe itâd be nicer to get take out?â
He squints at you in suspicion, âWhatâs up with you?â
Damn! How did he see through you so quickly? You widen your eyes, trying to play innocent, âNothing! I just⊠wouldnât this be more convenient?â
Still, he scrutinizes you from head to toe with those sharp eyes of his, âWhy are you saying this? And why do you look so terrible? Do you have manuscript deadlines again?â
âNo, thatâs not it,â you quickly say, not wanting to worry him.
âMidterms? Bad meeting with your advisor?â
âNo, no. None of those. Seriously, donât worry. I just didnât sleep well last night and Iâm kinda tired.â
He leans forward so far that his nose nearly brushes you, making you instinctively jump back in surprise, âItâs Lei again, isnât it?â
You freeze at that, like a deer caught in the headlights, âN-no?â
But he sees through you like youâre transparent, âUgh, so our scheme didnât work?â
You awkwardly drop your eyes to your feet as vivid memories of what had transpired between the two of you in this very room come flashing back, âNo, I donât think so⊠But hey at least we tried, right?â
You donât have to look up to know that heâs boiling with anger, âHell no!â he curses, âAre you seriously going to let that asshole get away with it? No, weâre just going to have to think bigger!â He dramatically declares.
âJinâŠâ
âTrust me, ___weâll make her regret messing around with you like this.â
âOkâŠâ you warily agree, âIf you say soâŠâ but you canât shake the excitement that bubbles in your chest at the thought of what he has in store for you.
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The next day, you find yourself propped up on the kitchen counter with Jin standing between your legs.
âWhen is Lei coming home?â he asks as he casually rubs his large hands over your thighs.
But youâre too distracted by the feeling of his warm palms on your bare skin that you canât think, let alone respond. Why did you choose to wear shorts today, of all daysâŠ?
â___?â he says your name in confusion when you take too long to respond.
You jerk your head up in surprise, âY-yes?â
He frowns at your strange behavior, âYour roommate⊠Lei. When is she coming back?â
âI⊠umâŠâ you blink hazily at him, too mesmerized by the beauty of his perfectly symmetrical features up close to process his words, âWhat?â
He raises an eyebrow, and tries to ask the question for the third time, when thereâs the sound of a key in the lock. âHurry and kiss me.â
âW-what?!â
But at that moment, he reaches forward to cup your face in both hands and presses his lips against yours. The door slides open, and Lei curses at what she finds in the kitchen, but you barely notice. Youâre too fully engrossed in the heady sensation of Jinâs silken lips sliding against your own.
âHi guys, Iâm home!â Lei practically yells to catch your attention.
Jin pecks your lips one more time before he pulls away to flash her a displeased look over his shoulder, âHey.â And with that, he leans in to kiss you again.
Normally, youâd be embarrassed by this public display of affection, especially with your best friend of the last half-decade. But you canât process anything other than the fact that the most beautiful man on planet earth is kissing you⊠finally. Never in a million years would you have ever predicted such a thing.
âWhat are you doing?â Jin whispers to you between long, languid kisses, âKiss me back.â
That makes you realize that youâve been completely still this whole time, unable to move one inch from fear as you passively accept his kisses. Tentatively, you begin to move your lips against his, but as soon as you reciprocate, Jin suddenly freezes. For a moment, youâre terrified that youâve offended him somehow. Are you a terrible kisser? Do you disgust him?
But less than half a second passes before he emits a sound from the back of his throat that sounds suspiciously like a moan, then deepens the kiss. Surprised by the action, your hand instinctively flattens against his chest, but youâre unsure if this is to push him back or urge him closer. Jin interprets it as the latter and steps forward until heâs flush against you, forcing you to feel the hard lines of his body.
You must be possessed. Thereâs no other way to explain it. Why else would you take it upon yourself to explore the firmness of his torso with interest? It is completely unlike you to boldly slip your hands under his thin t-shirt and grope at the tight muscles of his stomach like a fucking pervert.
To make matters worse, Jin doesnât provide an ounce of resistance as he eagerly arches into your touch and slides his hand from your face to grab at your hips instead. Then, he suddenly grabs at your thighs, forcing them to lock around his waist. And thatâs when you feel it again. The strange hardness in his jeans that you felt a week ago during that incident on the couch. And there is no fucking way of mistaking it this time: Kim Seokjin is aroused. He has a fucking boner that you caused. What the fuck is happening?!
At that realization, heady arousal slams into you with the force of a sledgehammer. All you can think about is grinding against his erection. You want to touch him, kiss him, feel him all over. But most of all, you just want to make him feel good. Itâs more than a desire at this point, but a raw need. At this point, you are so drunk off the sensations of his hard body pressed against yours and his sinful tongue sliding down your throat that you almost do something very stupid. Your hands dart to his belt, tingling with the need to touch himâ
But the hard slam of a door makes you break away from him with a little yelp.
âYou guys are fucking disgusting,â Lei mutters under her breath as she escapes to her bedroom.
Thereâs a brief moment of disoriented tension between you and Jin where all that can be heard in the kitchen is your heavy pants. But then he steps away from you, leaving you cold from the lack of contact.
âJinâŠâ you whisper in a small voice, âWh-what was that?â
Despite his harsh breathing, your best friend seems relatively unaffected by what had just transpired between the two of you. He nonchalantly shrugs, âWhat do you mean?â
You stare at him for a moment, but the sight of his flustered appearance, with his full lips swollen by your kisses and his cheeks tinged a rosy shade of pink, only makes the voracious desire in the pit of your stomach flare with need. You tear your eyes away, âI⊠I donât know. I think⊠I think we may have taken that too far.â
âWhatever. It worked, right?â his tone is unexpectedly cold as he responds.
You glance up in surprise before lowering your gaze again, âYeah⊠but what just happened⊠um⊠should we talk about it?â
âWhatâs there to talk about?â he snaps, âWe took it too far, right? Weâre just friends, right?â
âRightâŠâ you hesitantly reply, wondering what youâve said to piss him off so much, âJust friends⊠nothing else⊠Itâs not like weâre attracted to each other or anything crazy like thatâŠâ you say, praying that heâll object to that obvious lie. The burning erection in his pants is undeniable proof otherwise.
He snorts, making you look up in hopeful surprise, âDonât you even try lying to my face.â
ââŠJin?â
âThereâs no way youâre not attracted to me, so donât even try with that bullshit.â
That was not what you were expecting at all. Angered by his arrogance, you flash him the deadliest glare that you can muster, âYouâre so full of yourself, Kim Seokjin. Do you really think that every girl in this universe wants to hop on that dick?â
âOf course not,â he smoothly says, âbut you clearly do.â
âHow is your head so fucking big?â you snap, horrified by how spot-on he is with that assessment. âAnd look whoâs talking: you were hard as a rock, asshole.â
Jinâs eyes pop open, as though shocked that youâve noticed. âYeah, so what?â he spits back, even as he awkwardly hovers both hands over his crotch area, âIâm human, of course Iâm gonna pop a boner if someoneâs fondling me in such a perverse way! Donât think youâre special.â
Your face heats at the insult, âReally? So you werenât attracted to me at all? You wouldâve just popped a boner for anyone?â
âYeah, exactly,â he says with a glare, âItâs just like masturbating, isnât it? Being touched feels good.â
âGreat,â you growl, âWell you can go take care of that yourself, dickface.â
âOr you could do it for me.â
That makes you stop in your tracks, âWh-what?â
He rolls his eyes at your dramatic response, âDonât get any ideas in that simple little mind of yours. Itâll just feel a bit better than my own hand.â
Anger flares in your chest from his condescending tone, and before you know what youâre doing, youâve reached over to grab him roughly through the pants. âDoes this feel just a bit better than your own hand?â you mock him as you massage his erection with both hands.
Jin licks his swollen bottom lip before shooting you a glare relatively devoid of any real anger, âBarely.â
Your eyes flash, and then youâre reaching into his pants to grab his bare cock. This time, Jin canât help his instinctive reaction to your touch, doubling over as though heâd been punched, â___!â
You ignore him to squeeze what you can of his length in the restrictive confines of his pants. âTell me you donât want this and Iâll stop.â
His eyes dart to yours, âDonât you fucking dare do that or I swear to god, ___.â
You resist a shiver at the sound of his uncharacteristically deep voice thatâs dropped an entire octave with arousal. Drunk on his reactions, you would happily obey, but a new thought pops in your mind about how the two of you arenât alone. You pause and try to remove your hand from inside his pants, but Jin quickly grabs your wrist, fearful that you might leave him hanging, âLei could come out and see us,â you remind him in a hushed voice.
He relaxes slightly at that, âThen weâll go into your room,â And without waiting for a response, he drags you in that direction.
He practically bursts into your bedroom and kicks the door shut behind him. You blush at the sight of your messy, unmade bed, but Jin gives zero fucks as he eagerly sprawls across your sheets and yanks at his belt. As you watch him, you canât help but feel a bit of trepidation. This is your best friend of half a decade. If you cross this line, you might as well be flushing years of friendship down the toilet. What are you doing right now?
But at that moment, Jin finally gets his belt undone and yanks down his pants and boxers without a second thought, his hard dick instantly bouncing up to slap against his stomach. As soon as your eyes land on his throbbing length, youâre done for. All thoughts about the ethics of this situation drop from your mind as you crawl onto the bed after him, eyes fixated on his bare cock and practically salivating at the sight.
Jin watches you from under hooded lids, seemingly nonchalant as he lays back against your headboards, hands propped behind his head, but when you grab him in your warm hand again, his entire body spasms.
You canât get over the feeling of him in your hand, so hard and big, yet velvety-soft to the touch. And the way he keeps twitching, as though trying to jump closer to the heat of your hand, is intoxicating.
You gently squeeze him from base to tip, marveling when copious amounts of precum slide down his cock from your action. It slickens your movements, allowing you to give him longer, harder strokes with each passing second.
After a minute or so, Jin suddenly crashes his head back against the wall with a loud groan of frustration. Startled, you look up at him, and nearly jump out of your skin in surprise to find him already staring down at you, his gaze so heated that you feel almost painfully hot in your own skin.
âJinâŠâ you whisper his name, cringing at the dry, broken quality of your voice. You lick your lips for moisture, ignoring the way his eyes lock on the gesture, and try again, âJin, whatâs wrong?â
âNothing,â he says, but the word comes out as a strangled groan, âFuck.â
No matter what bullshit he tries to tell you, you know that he likes this. He likes this a lot, if the way he shivers and pants, his hands clenching and unclenching in the sheets underneath him is any indication. His teeth are gritted so hard that you can see a muscle jumping in his cheek, revealing just how difficult it must be for him to hold back his sounds.
You pout slightly at the realization. Youâd like nothing more than to hear him moan for you. But you have a role to play hereâyouâre supposed to be completely indifferent, and begging for him to moan your name would ruin that purpose, no matter how much you want it. Somehow, you still value your ego more. Just like he does.
So you pump him harder, lowering your eyes to your work to avoid the heat of his gaze, and biting down hard on your bottom lip to resist the urge to taste him⊠The hot precum leaking from his tip is so tempting, but you force yourself to stay strong. You canât let him win, like he always does. Not this time. Itâs been your mission in life to prove to him that youâre not just another one of his fawning fangirls hanging onto his every word. You refuse to be that person⊠maybe because you want to be more than just that to himâŠ
If you let your emotions take control right now, then youâll be doomed. Youâll let him know how much you care⊠How much youâve always cared about him. And then heâll just laugh you off, like probably does with all the other love-struck admirers. You stand no chance. This will be as much as youâll ever get from him.
And with that in mind, you suddenly slow down your pace, realizing that this is the only chance youâll get to ever touch him. You close your eyes as you try to remember every detailâthe weight of his cock in your hand, the very texture and warmth; his ragged breathing and the way he looks, whole body drenched in sweat. Itâs then that you realize with a sinking heart that no man will ever compare. That this is it.
âFuck, ___,â Jin groans, tearing you away from your thoughts, âAre you trying to kill me?â
You ignore him to wring your fist up his length, paying special attention to the sensitive head of his cock.
Jin curses again, âFucking hell, ____! Why are you doing this to me?â He shifts in obvious discomfort on the bed, hips lifting towards your stingy touch.
âWhat do you mean?â you say as you examine his heavy, pulsating erection. Itâs so hot and red, you can only imagine that heâs practically at his bursting point. You almost feel sorry for him. But if he hates this so much, he can just get himself off. His hands are just about as good as yours, apparently.
Jin throws his head back and groans deeply when you slide a thumb across his slit, âYouâre fucking doing this on purpose, arenât you?â
âWhy would I do that?â you snort, âArenât you just getting a little desperate?â
âYeah, because I want to fucking cum and youâre making it impossible,â he spits back, âWhy are you so lazy? Why canât you put in some fucking effort?â
âIâm just not interested,â You smoothly lie through your teeth, âThis is so boring to me.â
âIf weâre just friends and youâre not attracted to me whatsoever, then why the fuck are you even doing this?â Jin growls.
Heâs got you there. âAnd if youâre not attracted to me either, then why do you want this so badly?â you shoot back, instead of addressing his question.
âBecause your hands are soft and I want to fucking cum on them!â he practically snarls, âDonât you dare think this has anything to do with you.â
Your nostrils flare in anger, and youâre almost tempted to just drop his cock and stomp out of the room. But that would mean that youâve let him get under your skin. And youâre determined to not let him affect you one bit.
âFine,â you snap. And with that, you begin jerking him off as fast as you can.
Jinâs entire form crumples at once, as he practically folds his larger frame over you. Heâs a bit slow with his reactions this time and doesnât have the self-control to hold himself back before a strangled moan tears through the room.
You ignore him and the wetness in your underwear as you impatiently stroke him towards his orgasm. His precum is still flowing, but itâs not quite enough, and you quickly duck your head to spit on him to further lubricate your movements.
Clearly not expecting that, Jin shouts out your name, astonished by the vulgar action, â___!â
âShut up,â you growl in response, redoubling your efforts. Heâs so close right now. You can feel it viscerally as if it was your own pleasure. The way his arms shake with the effort to keep him upright, the way his breathing goes haywire, and the way every muscle in his body tenses like a coil⊠Heâs either on the edge or right there. And true to your expectations, it only takes another minute of your harsh pumping before heâs suddenly latching out to grab you with both hands.
âFuck!â he shouts, entire body trembling as he bursts all over your hands. Any semblance of self-control disappears at that instant, where he helplessly jerks his hips up into your hand, desperate for more friction.
You patiently stroke him through his orgasm, using his excessive cum as lubrication. He meets you stroke for stroke, and the fluid motions of his hips makes your mouth go dry. Youâve never seen anything so fucking hot as Kim Seokjin when consumed mindless by his powerful orgasm.
But all good things must come to an end, and a few seconds later, he pushes away your hands with a shiver of overstimulation. You reluctantly withdraw and stare down at your cum-coated hands. For a second, youâre nearly overcome with the need to taste him by sucking his cum off of your fingers one by one. Somehow, you resist and reach over to pluck a few tissues from the nightstand, âEw.â
Jin is still breathing too hard to respond. He shakily brushes his sweaty bangs off his forehead and tucks his spent length back in his pants, âSh-shut up.â
You ignore him to reach for the hand sanitizer instead, intentionally rubbing it on in front of him to prove a point.
A heavy silence suffuses the room, and you have no idea how to address it as you carry on with your act. You realize that the logical course of action is to kick him out of your apartment⊠But you donât really want to do that.
âCome on,â Jin says, breaking through the tension, âLie on your back. Iâll eat you out or something.â
But the way he says it makes it sound like a chore, and your face heats at the implication, âForget it, asshole. Donât even front. I know what a selfish bastard you are.â
His brow furrows with indignation, âWhat the fuck? Iâll prove to you just how wrong you are. Get on your back, kid.â
Clearly that was the wrong thing to say to him as it just encouraged his competitive drive. You try a different approach, âNo way. Why do you think I would ever want that?â
âAre you still playing this game? Calm down and let me rub one out for you.â
His crassness makes you shrivel up in embarrassment. Thereâs nothing youâd want more, but you know that the moment you drop your pants, heâll realize how turned on you are⊠Youâve already soaked through your panties at this point, and you wouldnât be surprised if you left a stain against the bed sheets. And he canât know how aroused you are from just pleasuring him. You would never survive the embarrassment.
âStop it,â you say, âJust leave me alone.â
Youâre not sure if youâre more relieved or disappointed when he concedes. âFine,â he bites out, âI didnât want to go through that effort anyways, so you spared me.â
That stings more than it should. âWhatever. Just go home, asshole.â
Jin doesnât even look at you as he angrily buttons his pants and yanks his clothes back into place. Then, without sparing you a single word, he marches straight out of your bedroom. You count down from ten in your head, and the moment you hear the front door slam shut, you collapse onto your bed with a deep groan. It feels like all the energy has left your body, making you feel exhausted enough to sleep for a decade.
What you had just done to Jin⊠That was single-handedly the sexiest experience of your life. And yet⊠why do you feel so empty?
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You donât speak to Jin for the next week. For most friends, this is a pretty normal occurrence. But you and Jin are so close that itâs odd to not speak to him for even a day, much less an entire week. The first few days are tough. You almost forget that youâre fighting multiple times throughout the week, and pick up your phone to complain to him about the harsh feedback your advisorâs sent you, or the annoying thing Leiâs done this time, before you collect yourself.
But when the 10-day mark rolls by, you feel your defenses crumbling. You find yourself pausing in the hallway outside of your apartment, staring down at your dry phone with a frown. Normally Fridays are your bi-weekly dinner dates with Jin. Itâs been a tradition between the two of you since you were in your second year of university. Surely, he wouldnât be petty enough to forget this⊠right?
Youâre about to pull up Jinâs contact in your phone to call him when a family of four nearly plow you over in their hurry to the elevator.
âSorry, Miss!â the frazzled mother yells out before she shoos her children into the elevator.
Itâs too hazardous to stand out here in the busy hallway, so you quickly unlock the front door of your apartment unit and let yourself in before hitting the green âcallâ button. Youâre just about to toss your keys on the counter when a loud vibration makes you jump in surprise. Oh, you thought you were home alone. Lei was supposed to be out until late tonight. You look up to greet her, but the smile slides right off your face when you find someone much bigger than Lei sitting in the living room. The keys slip between your fingers to fall to the ground with a loud clatter.
âOh, shit.â
But Jin beats you to it, rushing across the room to pick up your fallen keys for you, âHere,â he says as he hands them to you.
âThanks,â you resist the urge to shiver as his fingers brush yours. Then you drop your gaze to your feet, too overwhelmed by his sudden appearance to look him in the eye, âJin, what are you doing here?â
âTch, donât tell me you forgot about our dinner night?â
You peek up at him in embarrassment, âReallyâŠ? Youâre not still mad at me?â
He rolls his eyes at that, âHow can I be mad at you for something so stupid? Come on. Put down your backpack and letâs go.â
Suddenly overwhelmed with emotion, you lurch forward to throw your arms around his neck in a painfully tight embrace, âIâm sorry, Jin!â
He chuckles as he hugs you back, âDonât be, ___... Seriously. Donât be.â
Youâre not sure what he means by that, but you donât care. All you know is that you have your best friend back, âLetâs never do anything so stupid again.â
His smile doesnât reach his eyes when he finally lets you go, âIf you say so.â
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Jin insists on walking you back to your apartment after dinner (even though his car is parked just on the curb), and you decide that itâs only proper to invite him in for a drink. But as Jin watches you fumble around in the kitchen with a beer in his hand, he suddenly shoots you with an unexpected question:
âHey, ___, have you ever thought about me as more than a friend?â
You nearly drop the glass you had been cleaning in shock, âWh-what?â
âWeâve been friends for a long time. Surely you must have thought about it one time or the other?â he calls out as casually as if he was discussing the weather.
You slowly put down the glass as you deliberate your next words carefully. But how can you evade the question without straight-up lying to his face? âI⊠Iâm not sure why youâre asking me that,â you slowly say.
Jin sighs deeply and plops down his beer on the coffee table, âStop cleaning and come sit with me for a second.â
Thereâs no way you can reject that simple request without appearing suspicious, so you reluctantly wipe your hands and join him, âWhatâs up, Jin?â you ask as you cautiously take a seat next to him on the couch and fold your legs underneath yourself.
He pauses for a moment, fiddling with the hem of his oversized cream sweater, before speaking, âI know that Iâm not your type. Thatâs what youâve been telling me since we first met. But surely over the past five years that weâve been friends, it must have crossed your mind at one point or the other, right?â
You gnaw on your bottom lip, unsure of his intentions behind this line of questioning, but terrified, nevertheless, âIâm not sure what you mean, Jin.â
He sighs in frustration before trying again, âCome on, ___. You can be honest here⊠Have you ever thought about fucking me?â
Your mouth instantly goes dry at his question, and for a moment it feels like you canât breathe. âWh-what are you--? Why⊠I-I never!â you choke on your words, then hurriedly backtrack to try to fix your mistake, âI mean, Iâm not blind. I can admit that youâre objectively hot, but that doesnât mean that I want toââ You break off, embarrassed beyond belief, âGod, Jin! Where the hell is this coming from?!â
But the tall dark-haired man purses his lips together tightly and steamrolls on, âReally, ___? So youâre trying to tell me that in our five years of friendship, not once did you ever think about me sexually?â
You take a moment to inhale deeply and brace yourself, âNever,â you lie through your teeth.
His eyes narrow, âReally?â
âReally.â
He cocks his head to the side as he considers you, brow furrowed as though deep in thought. Then, he unexpectedly lets out a bark of laughter, âBullshit.â
Your eyes widen in shock, âExcuse me?â
âYou heard me. Bullshit,â he growls, âI know itâs not all in my head. I know that you want me, ___.â
Your face heats with indignation, âWhat the fuckâs gotten into you these days?!â you seethe, âI know how you act with the other girls, but can you keep your oversized ego in check with me at least?!â
âFine, if youâre not the least bit attracted to me, then come here,â he says, grabbing you by the hands to drag you closer to him on the couch so that your thighs touch, âDo you really feel nothing when Iâm this close to you?â
âNo!â You exclaim at once, though you canât help the way your body floods with warmth at the feeling of his hands on your skin.
âReally? Look at me, ___. You seriously donât want to kiss me right now?â
âNo, not at all!â you shriek as you try to rip your hands out of his grip, but heâs a lot stronger than you expected.
âSo what youâre trying to say is that you feel nothing for me,â he presses on, a strange desperation flashing in his eyes before he quickly masks it, âThere is absolutely no attraction between us, and youâll only ever see me as a friend?â
âYes,â you lie, since itâs all youâre good at, âI donât like you, Seokjin, and I never will.â
At that, he drops your wrists as though burned, âAlright,â he mutters in a bitter tone, âI understand.â
You suck in a deep breath through your teeth to try to calm your pounding heart. It doesnât work. âGood,â you whisper in a hoarse tone. Then you rise to your knees and smash your lips to his.
Jin is completely still for the longest, most devastating second of your life. Youâre about to furiously apologize then throw yourself out the window in disgrace when he suddenly grabs you by the back of the neck and forcibly deepens the kiss. And then his tongue is in your mouth, boldly pressing past your teeth and curling with yours as his fingers tighten around your neck, holding you captive.
His kisses are nothing like the modest, chaste ones he gave you in the kitchen a week and a half ago. This time heâs on the edge of violent, devouring you whole and holding onto you so hard that you have zero chance of escape. Itâs as though heâs afraid that you might try to leave again. But you wouldnât even if you could. Because this has been five whole years in the making. Youâve wanted him since the first time you laid eyes on him. And now that youâve finally got himâŠ
You feel like youâre drowning under the heat of his touch. Itâs like the blood rushing through your veins has turned to molten lava, burning you from the inside out. Youâre completely powerless as you get swept up by your desires, like a leaf in the wind. All you can do is relish the sensations, clinging onto Jin with both hands as you silently beg him for more.
And he does not disappoint. Without missing a beat or breaking the heated kiss, Jin shoves both hands up your shirt, hot fingers trailing along your stomach and ribcage for a second before he boldly grabs your breasts. You gasp into his mouth in surprise, and the sound turns into a guttural moan when Jin slides his mouth from yours to suck deep bruises into the tender skin under your jaw. The multitude of sensations leaves you breathless. But before you can rip off your shirt to allow him better access, Jin suddenly jumps up and hauls you off your feet with formidable strength you werenât aware he possessed.
His lips are on yours again before you can comment on this new development, distracting you with hot kisses until your back hits something springy. You break from the kiss with a yelp of surprise to find yourself in your bedroom, pressed flat against your messy sheets as Jin continues to mouth at the crook of your neck. Somehow, he had carried you to your room when you were unaware. And now that heâs not limited by the awkward positioning of your bodies on the couch, heâs able to lower himself on top of you, trapping you under his broad frame with no restrictions.
âJin!â You yell out in shock when a shift of his hips has you feeling the painfully hard erection in his jeans for the first time.
He ignores you to yank on one of your legs, forcing it to wrap around his waist and allowing himself surface area to grind against as he loses himself to his lust. And then it hits you like a slap to the face that this is actually happening. That this isnât going to be some casual make out session or another quick handjob. That after all of these years of fantasizing and waiting, youâre finally going to have sex with Kim Seokjin. This is actually happening.
âSeokjin,â you murmur his name when he begins nipping down to your cleavage, making him freeze in his tracks.
ââŠYes?â He asks as he stares up at you with fearful wide eyes. You instantly recognize the trepidation in them, confusing you for a moment before awareness dawns upon you. Heâs scared⊠because he thinks that you might ask him to stop. And you know that he would. He would do it in a heartbeat if thatâs what you wanted. But heâs so aroused that it wouldnât be anything short of excruciating.
So you giggle softly to dispel his fears and affectionately lean up to nip his earlobe, âTake off your clothes, Jin,â you whisper in his ear.
Your sultry request incites something within him, because less than a second passes before heâs shooting up onto his haunches and ripping off his clothes at lightning speed. You gasp out loud at the sight of his bare chest, hungry fingers darting to touch the hard muscle, but before you can make contact, Jin pushes your hands away to undress you as well. In a blink of an eye, your shirt hits the ground along with your bra. Jin pauses for a moment there, distracted by the mouthwatering sight of your breasts, but quickly refocuses when you wiggle out of your jeans and carelessly kick them off to the ground, leaving you decked in only a pair of thin cotton underwear. And together, the two of you peel them off your legs, leaving you entirely naked before him.
âFuck,â he curses, eyes shamelessly devouring you from head to toe as he runs his tongue over his lips over and over, practically salivating at the sight of your bare body spread out across the sheets.
Embarrassed, you try to cover yourself with your hands, âJinâŠâ
He possessively rips your hands from your body and pins them above your head, âDonât you dare cover yourself from me,â he growls before covering your lips with his swollen red ones again.
His grip is as strong as steel around your wrists and you couldnât break free even if you wanted to. You never knew that your handsome, princely best friend possessed such strength, and itâs sexy to say the least. He had always seemed almost delicate, like he would be flimsy in bed, but you couldâve have been more wrong. It feels like a wall of concrete is closing in on you, surprisingly well-defined muscles rippling with every movement, and you feel light-headed from the intensity of your arousal.
âFuck me, Jin,â you beg as you careen your hips up for friction.
He curses softly at this, but somehow resists, instead slipping his hand down to cup your mound, âHow are you so fucking wet?â he asks in shock as he easily slides a finger inside of you.
You clench down on him at once, moaning at the sensations when he begins curling his finger inside of you. But itâs not enough. Not when you know how big and thick his cock is, and how much more nicely itâd fill you up than his slender fingers. âSeokjin,â you whine, âPlease just fuck me.â
He bites down on his plump bottom lip at that, but somehow manages to refuse you with a shake of his head, âNo. I gotta stretch you out first, baby. So I donât hurt you.â
âI can take it, Jin!â you exclaim, practically thrashing underneath him when he slips another finger inside of you, rocking them both up against your g-spot in a way that makes you see stars in your vision.
Jin groans softly as you clench around him as hard as you can, clearly imagining his dick in the place of his fingers⊠which he could easily have, if he wasnât so damn stubborn. âN-not yet,â he says, but the tremble of his voice gives him away.
âPlease!â you mindlessly beg, âI want your dick so bad, Iâm going to die if you donât fuck me right now! Please, Jin!â
He falters at that, and when you lean up to bite down at the thick muscle of his neck, Jinâs resolve crumbles entirely. âFuck, okay,â he breathlessly agrees, and with one last harsh twist of his thumb against your clit, he rises onto his knees to yank at his belt. âGet a condom.â
Youâre so distracted by the residues of pleasure that continue to buzz in your system that you canât process his words for a moment. But when you finally do, you hastily shake your head, horrified by the very thought, âIâm on birth control⊠And we know each other. Youâre clean, right?â
âYes, of course!â
âThen please cum inside of me, Seokjin,â you purr, wrapping both legs around his waist and rubbing your drenched slit against the front of his crotch.
His eyes darken at that, and in a blink of an eye, he has his jeans and underwear shoved to mid-thigh and his burning hot erection gripped in his hand. You canât help the gasp that tears from your throat at the sight. Heâs bigger than you remember. Not only is he long, but unbelievably wide in girth. You like dick as much as anyone else, but this is almost excessive. For a split second, trepidation breaks through the cloud of arousal. Thereâs no way he will fit⊠not without a great deal of pain, at least.
Jin senses your hesitation, and he lowers his head to give you a soft, reassuring kiss, âI told you to give me time to stretch you out,â he says as he gently slides the flat of his cock against your pussy lips.
That snaps you out of it, and you quickly shake your head, absolutely resolute as you spread your thighs for him, âI donât care. Do it next time. Right now, I just need you to fuck me before I go insane!â
Jin pauses at that, âNext timeâŠ?â
You ignore him to lift your hips up, grinding your sopping wet pussy against his dick, âPlease just put it in, Jin!â
He chokes back a groan at that and licks his lips, âFuck, alright.â And his former line of questioning lost through this distraction, he shakily presses the head of his cock against your entrance, biting down hard on his bottom lip when it pops past the barrier, allowing him to sink in a good inch or two before he forces himself to stop. âA-are you okay?â he asks, voice quivering as hard as the arms trying to brace themselves on either side of your head.
Itâs a bit uncomfortable having your entrance stretched this wide to accommodate his girth, but itâs not intolerable. So you nod your head and spread your legs wider, allowing him a full two more inches into your delicious heat before you press a hand against his stomach to stop him. âOw, give me a moment,â you say with a wince.
He jerks his head in a curt nod, trying to be respectful of your needs, even as his hands grip around the sheets tightly enough to turn his knuckles white. In the minute he allows you, he restlessly noses around your neck, darting his tongue out to taste random spots, as though seeking any distraction to keep from shoving the rest of his cock inside of you like he desperately desires.
Taking pity on him, you raise your hips to meet his until youâve got nearly half of his enormous cock inside of you. Already, itâs a bit more of a stretch than you can handle, and your body automatically attempts to push this foreign item out of you by tightening and squeezing around him. Itâs completely instinctive, like a knee-jerk reflex, and you realize too late that itâs the absolute worst thing you could do to a man with his self-control shred to tatters.
The moment he feels your walls clamping around him as tight as a vice, Jin throws his head back with a gasp, then slams the rest of his length inside of you with a single jerk of his hips.
Youâre suddenly overwhelmed, filled to the hilt, and youâre sure heâs hit your cervix by the sharp pain that stabs your lower stomach upon impact, but you wouldnât dare stop him. Even the pain is poignant, the sharpness chased by the sweetest aftertaste of pleasure that has you hungry for more.
âA-are you okay?â he breathlessly asks, even as he begins to surge forward in your heat, hips immediately picking up a rapid pace.
âYes!â You yell out, âPlease donât stop.â
âFuck,â he curses as he digs his fingers into your thighs hard enough to bruise. âFuck, fuck, fuck, you feel so good.â
You wrap your legs tighter around his narrow waist in response, silently urging him on as he literally fucks the thoughts out of your mind. As a result, neither of you notice the bang of the front door swinging open until a voice calls outâ
â___, Iâm home!â
You stiffen at the sound of Leiâs voice and dig your nails into Jinâs back to keep him from moving, âShit,â you whisper, eyes wide with fear at getting caught, âWe need to be quiet!â
Jinâs hot pants fill the air as he struggles to hold himself still inside of your hot pussy when all he wants to do is fuck you into oblivion. He manages exactly ten seconds before his eyes flash dangerously, âFuck that shit,â and with that, he pulls back on his heels and slams into you so hard that your entire body knocks back into the headboard, and a scream of his name come tearing from the back of your throat before you can help it.
âSeokjin!â
Thereâs the sound of something clanging noisily as it hits the ground in the other room, followed by Leiâs cursing, âWhat the fuckâŠ?â
Jin laughs under his breath as he continues to drill into you, delighting in the shrieks and bubbles of noise you helplessly emit. âFuck, ____,â he moans dramatically, so that his voice can be heard through the thin walls, âYou feel so good.â
You bite down on your bottom lip to hold back your laughter as you catch onto his wicked plan, âOh Jin, please fuck me harder!â you wantonly moan at the top of your lungs, âHarder, baby, harder!â
Jin flashes you a brilliant grin before reaching up to bang his fist against the headboard, the loud thuds echoing throughout the room, âLike this, baby?â he half-yells, even though he has fallen motionless inside of you.
âFuck yes!â You scream so loudly that even Jin jumps in surprise.
That is the last straw, and a second later, you hear the front door opening, âYou guys are fucking disgusting!â Lei shrieks in the shrillest voice imaginable before slamming the door shut.
Thereâs a brief moment of silence before Jin blinks at you, âDo you think we finally got your revenge?â
âI sure hope so⊠What more can we do?â
A stunning smile stretches across Jinâs handsome face as he peers down at you, âWant to take this to her bed instead?â
You stare at him with huge eyes for split second, shocked beyond belief. He stares back with a raised eyebrow. Then, the tension breaks and the two of you burst into hysterical laughter.
âThis is crazy!â you yelp as tears fill your eyes from how hard youâre laughing. This whole thing is just so ridiculous! Not in a million years did you ever imagine yourself to end up in such a wild situation! You clutch your aching tummy as you continue to be overcome by peals of laughter, and as a result, you donât notice that Jin has fallen deathly silent until he suddenly grabs you by the hips with a snarl.
The laughter dies in your chest as you take in the sudden intensity of his cold stare, âJinâŠ?â
He tightens his grip around your hips when you shift around to try to look at him better, âStop. Fucking. Moving.â
You instantly obey, freezing to ice as the implications of his words hit you like a ton of bricks. Your hearty laughter, with him buried deep inside of you, has probably shaken him up in the most agonizing way possible⊠Flustered, you nervously chuckle, unintentionally constricting and vibrating around his cock again.
Jin falls on top of you with a tortured groan, hands sinking into the pillow on either side of your head as he helplessly drives his hips forward into your warmth, âI thought I told you to stop moving,â he hisses as he pulls out just to ram himself inside of you, up to the hilt. And just like that, the tension breaks as the desire to cum rushes back, ten-fold.
âOh my god, Jin,â you groan as he begins to mercilessly pound you into the mattress, âHow are you so fucking big?â
He chuckles breathlessly, âI hope youâre not in too much pain in the morning.â
âIâve already lost feeling in my legs,â you say, even as you wrap them tighter around his lithe waist, âWhat is this damn elephant trunk of yours?
That makes him laugh again, sweaty face flushing with a tint of pink, âIâm sorry baby girl.â
âDonât be,â you groan, âBecause itâs fucking awesome.â
âI promise Iâll be gentler next time,â he guarantees you through heavy pants, âBut right now⊠I need to cum⊠fuck, Iâm so close, ___.â
âMe too,â you groan, blindly lifting your hips for more. And as a result, youâre too dazed by your need for an orgasm to process the meaning behind his words. This whole situation should be unbearably uncomfortable and weirdâyouâre fucking your best friend of half a decade, after all. But for some reason, it feels right. Like you were meant to have him buried in your pussy. Youâve never known what empty felt like until now that youâve finally experienced the ecstasy of complete fullness.
Warmth is bursting at the seams of your legs, coloring your vision a rosy tint, but still, itâs not quite enough. So you slip a hand between your sweaty bodies, seeking that extra boost that will send you off the edge. But before you can rub yourself to completion, a hand knocks yours to the side.
âLet me,â Jin offers, brow wrinkled in concern as he resumes drawing circles around your clit for you. It takes you a second to recognize the emotion on his face as jealousyâover your own touch on your body. Itâs so childish and yet endearing that you canât help but laugh at his illogical reaction. However, your amusement quickly dies in your chest when Jin vindictively digs his thumb into your clit with the perfect amount of pressure, sending you catapulting towards your orgasm so fast, you experience whiplash.
âOh my god,â you whimper as you trash from underneath him, practically bucking him off, âIâm going to cum!â
Jin moans from deep in his chest in response to your warning and leans down to suck a hickey into your neck, âDo it,â he breathlessly commands you, âCum for me now.â
Like a puppet on a string, your body automatically obeys, and with just one last hard slam of his cock into your fluttering walls, you squeeze your eyes shut and cum all over him. The white-hot pleasure overwhelms you, filling every cell of your body with blinding light such that your mind blanks entirely. Consequently, youâre too caught up in your own pleasure to notice when Jin stiffens above you, his own release triggered by the sudden vice-like clamping of your walls over his dick. He cums noisily, grunting your name and spitting various curses as he snaps his hips back and forth, riding out his orgasm in bliss.
When heâs emptied every last bit of his hot semen inside of you, Jin finally pulls out with a deep sigh of contentment. Thereâs a few minutes of blessed silence where the two of you simply lie there, nuzzling into each other with soft kisses, and listening to your racing hearts slow. You feel sluggish with exhaustion in the aftermath of your orgasmic bliss. And it feels so nice to have Jin gently mouthing at your neck as he holds you close to his body, both arms looped possessively around your waist like he never wants to let you go. Your eyes feel so heavy that you canât help but close them, as you reason with yourself that it couldnât hurt to doze off for just a few minutesâŠ
But of course Jin has to go and ruin the peaceful atmosphere with his big, fat mouth.
âSee? I knew you were attracted to me,â he chuckles, voice muffled by your skin.
And just like that, the mood breaks and your jaw drops with indignation, âWhat the hell?â you angrily shove him off of you.
Bewildered by your sudden shift in mood, Jin nevertheless rolls over onto his back, âHuh? ___, whatâs wrong?â
âHow are you so fucking arrogant, Kim Seokjin?â you growl as you hunt for your clothes.
âWhat? No, Iâm not!â He protests in confusion, âHow is it arrogance when Iâm just stating facts? Youâre clearly attracted to me! Why else would you have jumped me like some kind of feral animal?!â
Your face grows hot at the unflattering reminder, âOh my god, shut up, Jin. I must have had a minor stroke or something. I donât know what else could have possessed me to act in that a way. Iâm such a basic bitch!â
âWhy are you acting this way? It was good, wasnât it?â he asks with a touch of defensiveness.
It was more than good. It was amazing. Mind-blowing, really. But thereâs no way in hell youâll boost his ego by letting him know that. âYou have a big dick, Iâll give you that. But that doesnât mean shit.â
He colors at your insult, âAnd you think youâre all that? All you did was lie down and take it, ___. I might as well have been fucking a ragdoll or something.â
âOh yeah? Well look at you, asshole. I gave you a handjob and let you fuck my pussy. And what did I get in return? Just a bruised cervix.â
Jin splutters at the complete unfairness of your words, âB-butâwhat are you evenâI tried to reciprocate, but you wouldnât let me!â
You choose to ignore that, âAll I hear are excuses! I seriously canât believe you, Jin. Were you honestly expecting me to fall to my knees and thank you for blessing me with your dick?â
âWhy not?â he hotly shoots back, âYou were literally begging me to fuck you earlier. I think you could show a bit more appreciation.â
You heat up further as you remember the shit you said in bed, but you resolutely refuse to allow any embarrassment or weakness to show in front of him, âI donât know who you think I am, Kim Seokjin. But Iâm not one of your fangirls who pray that youâll look in their direction, and allow you to use them like disposable sex dolls. That wonât work with me. Iâm more than that. Jin, you know I am,â you say, hoping that he will agree with your statement.
To your disappointment, he snorts in derision, âYeah right. You may pretend to be all high and mighty, but I know youâre just as thirsty for this dick as the rest of them. Just admit it, babe.â
Your ego is torn to shreds, yet you make you last attempt, desperate to not let this opportunity slip past you, âI wonât be another one of your playthings, Jin. I deserve better.â Thereâs a brief moment of silence following your confession. Youâve wanted to say this since you first caught feelings for him all the way back during college, and the fact that youâve finally gotten this off your chest is both liberating and completely terrifying. You know that your chances are slim at best, but you canât help but hope against hope.
âTch, whatever,â is Jinâs gruff response when he finally catches his breath, âFuck you too.â And with that, he collects his clothes and stomps out of your bedroom.
You sit there for a long time after he leaves, helplessly staring after him. Not even in your wildest dreams or most frightening nightmares could you have ever predicted him reacting in this way. With all of your years of friendship, you actually believed him to care about you. So his blunt, heartless rejection is agonizing to say the least. You had expected an awkward rejectionâmaybe a half-assed hug and a promise that youâd find someone else at worst. But you have never witnessed such coldness from this man who you had considered to be your best friend.
Suddenly wracked with shivers, you slowly slide under the covers and pull them over your head. The remnants of his cum is still seeping out of you, sliding down your leg to stain your sheets, but youâre too numb to care. You can only lie there and stare up at the ceiling as you fight the urge to cry.
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You canât bring yourself to crawl out of bed the next morning until nearly noon. You know that you look like a hot mess with your hair matted and eyes swollen from crying. All you want to do is grab a glass of water from the kitchen to keep from dehydration, then spend the rest of the day cooped up in your bed.
Unfortunately, as you pour yourself water in the kitchen, Lei hears the commotion from her bedroom, and hurriedly rushes out to intercept you.
â___!â She yells your name, making you cringe.
God, you really need to get your own apartment⊠You take another long swallow of your water before you slowly put the glass down, ââŠYes?â
She places both hands on her hips, clearly upset with you for some reason you canât fathom, âHow dare you pull a stunt like that last night!â
You wince at the volume of her voice, âWhat do you mean?â you ask, glancing longingly past her to the open door of your bedroom.
âDonât you even try to play dumb, ___! That stunt you pulled with Seokjin! How could you do that to me?!â
âWhat the hell are you even talking about?â Irritation fills you for the first time at her hypocrisy, âMaybe we were a little loud, but so what? You bring home men all the time!â
âThatâs not what Iâm pissed about!â She says with a childish stomp of her foot, âAre you kidding me right now, ___?!â
âLei, I really have no idea what youâre trying to say!â you exclaim, frustrated by this situation. Why is she acting up like this when youâre already feeling so miserable?
âYou canât possibly be this dense!â she practically shrieks at you, making you heat with anger, âI donât care if you hook up with random guys! I care if itâs Kim Seokjin!â
âWhy?â You yell back, âWhatâs so different about that asshole?!â
âWhatâs so different?â Lei repeats, dumbfounded, âAre you fuckingâheâs different because I liked him!â
It takes a few seconds for you to process her unexpected confession. You open your mouth, as though to reply, but your words fail you. Instead youâre left gaping at her like a fish out of water as you try to wrap your mind around this. âWh-what?â you finally croak out, âLei, what are you even saying?â
âDonât even try to play dumb,â she huffs, âI know how close you are to Seokjin. I bet he told you fucking everything! That lying bastard⊠Can you believe he rejected me by saying that he didnât want to ruin our friendship, but then he goes and screws around with you just a year later?!â
Youâre still reeling. âHold on,â you say as you dig your fingers into your suddenly aching temples, âI need a moment to process thisâŠâ
But Lei ignores you to continue ranting, âSeokjin is an asshole, and we all know this. Iâm not surprised. And I donât care if youâre dating now. Thatâs fine. I donât even care that you guys show your sickening PDA in front of me⊠But to fuck the guy who you knew I liked so noisily when you knew I was home?! Now thatâs actually messed up, ___.â
You wince at the accusation, âItâs not like that, Lei. I seriously didnât know!â
Your roommate sniffs loudly, âYeah right, bitch. I hope that youâre pleased with yourself,â and with that, she turns dramatically on her heel to march out of the apartment.
âWait, where are you going?!â You anxiously call after her.
âTo fuck Jung Hoseok!â She informs you with a perfect flick of her long curls over a shoulder.
You flinch in shock, âWait, youâve fucked him too?â
âI guess he got tired of waiting for you,â she snickers before she slams the door shut.
You stare at the front door for a few seconds, contemplating your next course of action. What you really want to do is chase after your roommate and clarify this huge misunderstanding with her, but itâs clear that she wonât be receptive to anything youâre saying right now. So you decide to put that problem on the backburner. But for the meantimeâŠ
Your expression darkens as you pull out your phone to scroll to Jinâs contact. Done with being sad, your tears have all dried up and now youâre just pissed. Time to get some answers from this shady fuckboi.
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âOh,â Jinâs eyes widen at the sight of you on his front door step less than half an hour later, â___... when you said that we needed to talk over the phone earlier, I didnât realize that you meant in person⊠and right now.â
âWhy? Is not a bad time?â
He shakes his head and moves out of the way, âNo, please come in.â
You remove your shoes at the entrance before slowly walking across the vast apartment and taking a careful seat on his expensive leather couch. He lives by himself in a luxury apartment tower in the heart of the city. This is what happens when you donât make the poor decision of entering a six-year doctoral program and living in near-poverty conditions until youâre thirty. Must be niceâŠ
âHow did you even get in here?â Jin asks as he pops open two beers from the fridge and hands you one.
You gratefully accept the icy beverage, âThe security guard let me in.â
âWhat? Why?!â
You shrug as you take a sip, âI dunno. He seems to think that I live with you.â
âOh⊠Thatâs weird.â
âYeahâŠâ
Things between the two of you are still awkward from the events of last night. All you can think about when you look at him is how good he looked in your bed, drenched in sweat and swollen red lips parted in pleasure. But the heat rising in your blood quickly chills over when you remember the way he had rejected you and crushed your ego mere moments afterwards.
âI had a really interesting discussion with Lei earlier today,â you say as you take another cautious sip of your beer.
âOh?â His eyebrows raise in surprise, âAbout what?â
âAbout something that transpired between the two of you last yearâŠâ
âOhâŠ?â He folds his hands awkwardly in his lap, and it might just be your imagination, but does he suddenly look nervous?
You twist in your seat to face him, âJin⊠why didnât you tell me that Lei asked you out?â
His face blanches at the accusation and it seems like he wants to deny it at first, but thinks better of it, âI⊠I just⊠I mean, I didnât see the importance of bringing up something like thatâŠâ
âHow is it not important?â You snap back, temper rising, âLei is my roommate. And youâre supposed to be my best friend! How could you have kept such a thing from me?â
He shrugs and drops his gaze to his lap, clearly abashed, âI dunno⊠It just wasnât a big dealâŠâ
âOf course itâs a big deal!â You practically yell at him, horrified by his heartlessness, âAnd to fool around with me in front of her when you knew she liked you?! How could you have done such a thing?!â
His ears are flushed pink at this point, âYouâre right. Iâm an asshole. I deserve thisâŠâ
But his apology still doesnât explain shit. âYouâre not normally like this!â You exclaim in frustration, âWhy are you acting all shady and weird?! This isnât like you!â
He shrugs again, unable to make eye contact at this point even if he wanted to. His broad form is shriveled up with shame, making him look like a little boy caught stealing. âI donât knowâŠâ
That answer isnât good enough, âCut the bullshit, Kim Seokjin!â you growl at him, âAnd just tell me, once and for all: Why didnât you tell me about Lei?!â
He chews his plush bottom lip for a few seconds as he mulls over his answer, âBecause I didnât want to,â he finally admits.
Youâre practically tearing out your hair at this point, âAnd whyâs that?!â
âI just didnât want to!â
âWhy the fuck not?!â
âBecause I was afraid that you would never date me if you knew!â
The confession hits you like a slap of icy water in the face. Itâs so unexpected, so completely disorienting that you canât even wrap your mind around it. For a moment, you fear that youâve misunderstood, ââŠWhat did you say?â
Jinâs entire face is as red as a tomato with embarrassment, but with enormous courage, he forces himself to venture on, âYouâre a loyal person, ___,â he says in a small voice, âIâve known you for five years now, and I know that you value your friendships above all else⊠Chicks over dicks, right?â he says with a humorless chuckle, âI knew that if you ever found out about Lei having feelings for me, that Iâd be off-limits. And then Iâd never have a chance with you!â
Oh god⊠What is he even saying right now? Could the great Kim Seokjin, the ultimate playboy with girls throwing themselves at his feet, begging for a chance, actually have feelings for youâŠ? This canât be real. âJinâŠâ you whisper his name, âDo you⊠do you like me?â
He winces at your question and buries his burning hot face in his hands, unable to respond except for a stiff nod of his head, âMore than thatâŠâ he finally manages to choke out.
Your world spins dizzily around you, and youâre grateful that youâre sitting, otherwise you might have fallen over with the way your knees suddenly weaken to mush. âB-but⊠but why havenât you ever said anything to me?â You croak, trying to process this bewildering situation, but it still feels like youâre in a dream.
âAnd get my heart broken?â he snorts, derisive, âNo thank you.â
âHow are you so positive that Iâd reject you?â You ask, looking up at him in confusion.
âAre you serious, ___?â he says in astonishment, âYouâre the one who tells me every day how youâre not attracted to me. And that you only see me as a friend.â
You flush at the accuracy of his words, âYes, but thatâs because youâre a fuckboy! All you do is hookup, and you donât care for relationships.â
âMaybe thatâs because Iâve been waiting for the right one.â
That statement takes your breath away, âBut⊠b-but,â you stammer, âWhy didnât you say anything?â
âWhy does it matter?â he bitterly counters, âYou never reciprocated my feelings, and Iâm not good enough for you, so why bother?â
âWhat?!â you explode at that. Youâve never heard anything so untrue. âWhat the hell are you talking about?! No one said that!â
âYou have!â
Your face scrunches into a deep scowl, âWhat the fuck? No way! I would never say something like that!â
âAre you kidding me?! ___, you literally just said this to my face last night!â
âI did not! Do you have listening comprehension problems or something? Because thereâs no way I would everââ
â âI deserve betterâ,â He spits out, quoting you word-for-word, âI get it⊠And I agree, okay? You do deserve someone better than me. But saying that to me like ten minutes after my dream of getting to touch you finally came true⊠That was too cruel, ___. Even you have to admit that.â
Youâre so taken aback by his rant that you canât even speak for the next few seconds. All this time⊠through the past five years of friendship and secret longing⊠this was all due to a simple misunderstanding? For a frightening moment, you fear that you might cry.
âJin,â you whisper in a strained tone when you finally find your voice again. He peeks up at you in curiosity. You take a deep breath to stay calm, then firmly place both hands on his shoulders, forcing him to look you straight in the eyes. You wonât tolerate any misunderstandings this time. âJin,â you say his name again, your voice clear and firm this time.
âYes?â He says, looking up with a glint of hope shining in his eyes.
You squeeze his shoulders, and without breaking eye contact you say in the most serious tone you can muster, âYou are the dumbest motherfucker I have ever met.â
His face crumples at once, âWhat?!â
You ignore his offended expression and tighten your grip in his broad shoulders, âYou have no language comprehension skills whatsoever, and I fear that you might be illiterate,â you inform him with a straight face.
âWhat the fuck are you talking about?!â Jin exclaims, bewildered by your unexpected attack, but offended nonetheless, âIâm smarter than you, at least!â
You shake your head while kindly reaching a hand up to stroke his handsome face, âGod must have invested all his time in your face, and forgotten about your brain, you dumb son of a bitch.â
He sits up with indignation, âLook at who canât even write a simple line of code! I do all your homework for you, you idiot! How dare you call me stupid when you couldnât survive grad school without my help?! If Iâm illiterate, then youâreââ
You cut him off with a rough kiss that momentarily takes his breath away.
Instantly, the anger slides off his face, replaced with something much softer. Jin slowly runs his tongue over his lips and looks up at you with dreamy, half-lidded eyes, âItâs not fair for you to kiss me like that when you want me to shut up⊠Especially when you know how I feel about you.â
You playfully flick his nose in response, âItâs not my fault that youâre too dumb to realize that Iâve been in love with you since our second year of uni.â
His subsequent reaction is so hilarious that you wished you thought to capture it on film. With his doe eyes bulging, jaw dropping, eyebrows shooting into his hairline, Jin looks like a clown or some kind of slapstick comedian and you canât help but giggle at his reaction, âYouâre so silly.â
That snaps him out of it, âWhy am I the one who gets all the blame?!â He exclaims in indignation, âYouâre just as dumb as me, if not more! Why would you insist that you werenât attracted to me?! What did you expect?! For me to try to make a move, thinking that you would never reciprocate? If Iâm dumb, then you literally have an IQ of fifty!â
âHow am I dumber than you?â you gasp, âYou canât understand spoken language!â
âYeah? Well you canât talk!â he shoots back, â âI deserve better.â How did you expect someone to interpret such a vague statement?! How can you criticize someone for misunderstanding when you canât even speak properly?!â
His neck is turning red with anger, the veins bulging and his eyes as wide as a frogâs. You open your mouth to berate him, but instead burst into laughter, âOh my god,â you choke out between semi-hysterical sobs, âHow am I in love with such a crazy madman?!â
He pauses at that, âWait⊠youâre in love with me?â
âYeah, dumbass. If you didnât have the language comprehension skills of a seven-year-old, youâd realize that when I said âI deserve better,â I meant that I wanted to mean more to you than just a hookupâŠâ
He falls silent at that, mouth forming a perfect âOâ of realization. ââŠThat does make a lot more senseâŠâ
âYupâŠâ And with that, you pull out your phone to rapidly type out a text message.
Jin looks at you with a pout, âWow, you confessed your feelings not even a minute ago and youâre already on your phone! Is this what our future relationship will look like?!â
You glance up from your phone to shoot him a wry grin, âCalm down, you needy child. Iâm just texting my friend who recently got licensed as a neuropsychologist. Weâre getting tested for our first date,â you say as you affectionately ruffle his black bangs.
Jinâs eyebrows shoot up with surprise, âWhy? You know weâre both cleanâwe literally had sex yesterday!â
âWeâre not getting tested for that,â you chuckle, âIâm setting up an intelligence assessment⊠So I can prove that my IQ is higher than yours, once and for all!â
His jaw drops at that unexpected turn of things, âYouâre insane!â
âAm I?â you shoot back, âOr are you just chicken?â
He shakes his head with reluctant amusement, âFine. Letâs do this. But how are you going to explain to our future children that you brought their father to take a fucking IQ test to prove a point for their first dateâŠ? Whatever,â he says with a scoff, âPlease hand me that dictionary on the coffee table.â
ââŠFuture children?â you numbly repeat, even as you follow his instructions. Then you quickly snap yourself out of it, âWait, what are you doing with that dictionary?â
âStudying up,â is his curt reply, âI have to beat you at the test to prove to you how dumb you really are.â
Gasping with indignation, you quickly drape yourself over his shoulders to ogle at the small print of the book in his hands, âYouâre on, asshole!â And with that, you reach over him to rapidly flip through the dictionary, trying to disorient him while soaking in as much information as possible.
This whole situation is ridiculous. Itâs unbelievably childish and you should be ashamed of this type of behavior at your age⊠Yet, when Jin briefly turns his head to press a kiss against your cheek before evilly blocking your view of the dictionary, you canât help but smile. Because as immature and absurd as this situation may be, for some crazy reason it feels right.
âYouâre also going to write Lei a heartfelt apology letter for your behavior,â you say with a little nip at his ear.
He stiffens at the reminder, his neck flushing with embarrassment, âYes, of course. Iâll go and do it right now.â
But you stop him with a hand on his thigh, âIt can wait until the morning,â you inform him, âBut for nowâŠâ you rub your palm over the bulge forming down his left pant leg. âI promise Iâll be patient this time.â
Jinâs eyes are heavily dilated when he twists around on the couch to look at you, âYou better,â he says in a quiet, rumbling voice, âBecause this time, I intend on enjoying you.â
Your pulse quickens and liquid heat fills the pit of your stomach. Because for some reason, his words sound like a warning⊠âYes, please,â you say in a hushed whisper, eyes as round as saucers.
âAnd this time, you wouldnât dare accuse me of not reciprocating,â he murmurs, hot breath fanning across your face, âIâm going to eat you out until you fucking beg me to stop.â
âOh God,â you croak, arousal dampening your underwear at the very thought.
âNo,â he smirks, âJust call me âJinâ.â
Thereâs a brief moment of silence as you slowly process his lame joke. ThenââOh my god, Jin!â You groan as you shove his face away from yours, âWay to ruin the mood, dumbass!â
âWait, what? No! Come on, ___, you know that was hot!â he says, lowkey panicking as he tries to reach for him again.
You simply sigh as you situate yourself on the couch with your legs spread, âYeah, yeah. Whatever. Just start eating me out so I donât have to listen to your dumb dad jokes any longer.â
âYah! How dare you?! Iâll have you know that hundredsâno, thousands of girls would have killed toââ
âShut up and get to work,â you bark with a rough tug of his hair.
Chastened, he instantly drops to his knees, ââŠYes maâam!â
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Authorâs Note: Please donât ask me about any sequels or updates! This is solely a one-shot and will not be continued :) But Iâd love any feedback!Â
#jin smut#seokjin smut#bts smut#bts scenarios#jin scenarios#jin scenario#i started writing this during my finals week#and i STILL remember how irritated i was!!!!#guys plz be respectful towards ur roommates!#also i apologize in advance for the crack nonsense in this fic#i cant even explain it myself lmao
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ur charttttt (rippo this was so long)
Taurus sun
okay so ur very reliable and (usually)  keep calm in wILD situations, can be difficult for others to get you to see a new point of view (likeâŠur very stubborn), but very faithful and loyal! Choosy with friends, appreciate finer things in life, will always make sure others are feeling loved and appreciated ( I love you whjhsdjf), youâll have an argument just for the pleasure of making up again, you enjoy the outdoors and ur JOKES. You hate to feel as if youâre being used/manipulated, you wanna know that youâre safe, you have a fear of loss
Leo moon
you like being the centre of attention (when ur in a comfy situation), good comedic timing, protective, Â talented organizer, youâre naturally bossy so youâd be good delegating certain jobs for other people to do (although deep down u wanna treat everyone fairly), you need validation (I love you!) and u sulk a lot.. .you care a lot about your social image and ur attracted to power/status. Easy to reason with, passionate, you can get so caught up in the moment that you say things that you wont remember later, you HATe ingratitude (you wanna hear that âthank youâ). Â You have a lot of pride and u wanna take charge of everything, very idealistic, can be jealous in relationships, you donât take advice well but youâre more than happy to give it
Aries mercury
quick thinker, you cba to see every point of the problem (youâd rather just make a decision), you get to the point (wtf no o uy D ON T), can appear aggressive at times, ur very childlike so can act out of frustration, you ignore anything that u think is irrelevant, negative criticism is taken personally (even if it wasnât meant that way), idealistic, attached to ur ideas and jump from different ones if other ideas seem more interesting, excellent promoters (tell that to lush), u know how to motivate people and make it sound fun, competitive, you argue for the jokes, jump to conclusions, brutally honest, impatient, will do anything to win an argument, you try to be original and stand out (cough cou hg LUSH), quick to share ur onions even if no one wanted it, full of nervous energy, u donât like being told what to do
Gemini venus
u know a lot about everything so thatâs what you talk about, a bit of a tease heheh, ur taste change a lot so itâs difficult to keep up, youâll speak about ur relationship for ages but wont talk about the deep stuff, natural flirt, ur notâŠdishonest but you wont say the whole truth,  âa good convo is the best form of foreplayâ (AUJHKSJDHJKHDAKJD VNANIALLA), u want someone to share ur ideas with and have an interesting relationship, u might travel a lot (yeh), u analyse every little thing in a relationship, loves to gossip, you hang out with a lot of different people, ur ufkinckj jokes
Scorpio mars
okay so u seemcalm and collected on the outside but underneath ur just a MESS of emotions (you donât show this side to people), ur able to see all the fakes, you love challenges and testing urself (very self-disciplined), low self-esteem but you turn this outwards and try to make others feel better, when youâre angry ur veryâŠcalm and it can be scary, very passionate and sensual, like ur very konky (haha yukhei watch out) and very intense so âŠrippoâŠand youâre really possessive of your partner
Aries Jupiter
u attract all those good vibes and everything to you is an open door to opportunity, can be a bit risk taker, super optimistic and u just wanna improve urself, you add excitement to your life and inspire others to do the same, love to travel and new challenges that others will think âtf thâŠthatâs impossibleâ,  can get overconfident and if it gets TOO wild then u can take advantage of others to feel superior but if u learn self control then all this good fortune will come ur way
Taurus Saturn
deep need to feel secure (emotionally and financially), you like strict control over ur daily tasks (so u need routine) and you gotta work hard for everything that you get (true) and will to do so to attain ur goals, patient and disciplined, not very spontaneous, does well in politics or business (YOU!!!), you donât really rush to decisions, undervalue or overvalue possessions, settle for all or nothing, loyal, trustworthy, hard to persuade to see a different view, donât want to appear selfish, can be jealous and stubborn
Aquarius Uranus
devoted friend who wants to help those in need, you have difficulties with who you choose as friends (who might take advantage), you love to socialise and wanna be where the action is, a talent for understanding and explaining complex ideas, empathetic Â
Aquarius Neptune
idealistic (again), super loyal and passionate, seen as a dreamer, u have a talent for bringing people together, you just wanna help others
Saggytits pluto
you need to explore and gain new experiences cuz  you think thatâll help you in situations, ur friendly (as long as no one messes with ur freedom ksdjshdf), ur excited about reaching goals in life, may have difficulty with people who have different beliefs to u, adventurous and you hate boredom, risks add to the adventure ;) , optimistic, you can be a bit of a fOOL and u donât like being humiliated (even if it was one tiny mistake that no one even saw).. u know urself that u messed up so that just stresses you out
Scorpio Lilith
associated with power and violence, very konky uhsdjksdfsh just. .. very dark and wild. . .
Virgo rising
intelligent and reserved, ur shy in new situations so you need time to warm up to people, but this can make u seem detached or critical (but under this ur a loyal friend hejhdhf), ur alert to your health and can be a picky eater, you worry a lot and attract people who need your help (but sometimes it can be a bit awkward), u analyse everything around you, complain while adapting to new environments, you donât like public displays of affection (but in private hehjsdkjfhsdj a whole other story), organised but also very messy, like to gossip, curious, you like to keep busy and always wanna do something
Gemini midheaven
ur good a multitasking, can keep calm through crisis, strong sense of intuition that helps u be creative, you prefer careers that use words (so like politics speech and JOURNALISM jkjsdkfh it you), you need space to think and u get that tunnel vision when you get too involved with an idea, always improving urself, curious, âknowledge is power yoâ Â
#THANKU ILY FOR DOING THIS FOR ME#WJAT THE HECK TJOUGH THIS IS SPOOKILY ME#LIKE I AM AN IDEALIST AND I AM LOYAL AND FKXNDKFRNDKD YE ah i sulk a lot hehehe#and hahahahahahaa gemini venus and scorpio mars/lilith :))))#my chart#taurus#absolute favourite#submission
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Youâre so welcome dear aera! đ & thank YOU as well. Bc Iâm having a lot of fun talking with you, itâs not quite that easy to find someone like you. also Iâm so damn flattered everytime u call me smart Hehe
But for real, do ur thing. Iâve always been a person who loves to imagine and I donât know what would I do without imagination. I think thatâs what made me a story lover and thatâs why I love reading stories, watching anime & movies & series, and even playing video games. Isnât all these imaginative worlds amazing? and I also can learn a lot from them. Iâll gladly lose myself in ur worlds as well So again, for real, just go wild. Itâll be appreciated :D if possible, I hope one day Iâll be able
to read that book of yours! =). And I major in finance ^.^ , was it expected? .. So I guess we both are business students! :D howâs ur org comm? What do u like about it? I actually took a course called âorganizational behaviorâ and other two other courses called âbusiness communicationâ. I imagined them as a snippets from what you study :)
Iâm saddened to hear youâre having a hard time. Iâd donât what to say, but itâll pass! and I trust that youâll manage.. And after all of that youâll be stronger just Keep going! I wish you all the best dear. Iâm reallly happy I managed to cheer u upđ„șyou rlly cheer me up as well! Luv u!
ASEEL!!!! I'm flattered as well to know you're having fun talking with me (bc I love talking with you and I'm SO HAPPY this is two-way asddfghjjkkl-đ„șđ„șđ„ș). And damn well you should receive that compliment because you! Are! Smart!!! And nothing you say can convince me otherwise đ.
Wow, you're a finance major! I didn't actually expect that bc I thought your course is inclined to humanities, seeing as how well you make your textual analyses and your knowledge in psychology. Anyway yes, we're business students! Though org comm is more on the humanities side bc it centers around communication (duh aera, obviously). But since org comm is a new course in my country, it's been a hassle telling people (especially older ones) again and again "ooh org comm is not mass comm bc org comm focuses on communications surrounding and operating within organizations, etc." Then they'll only nod their heads briefly and then I'll see that look in their face and the tone of their voice as they mutter "okay." That feeling they don't care since my course doesn't belong to any major science field (this is really a big deal among Asian older generations). So in the end, when they ask me what I major in, I just dismissally tell them "Business." đ
Even if I initially wanted to study literature, I eventually learned to love my course. What I love most about it is its inherrent flexibility. This course guarantees me a job in any field - medical, business, art, advertising, etc. Since people connections matter the most in every field and most of them function the best in organizations so yeah đ€·đ»ââïž. Oof, I'm curious about this organizational behavior and business communication! Can you tell me more of them?
You're right about the things you said about imagination! I think the world actually heavily relies on stories. From your country's history, to the story you tell to your future employers in job interviews, to how people ended up making these laws, money, and whatever - everything has a story in them which are necessary for everyone to know to learn how to live.
Shucks, I feel teary-eyes now. To have you say you'd want to get lost in my worlds...and much more read my book once I get to publish one is one of the greatest compliments anyone has ever sent to me đđđ. All these years I've been writing, I only had my family and bestfriends say they'd want to read my book when I get to publish one. And now, to know a reader of mine I managed to have by my side through my writings and online ramblings, wants to read my book - I'm beyond overwhelmed đđđ. God, I feel so overwhelmed with happiness right now. I used to only dream of receiving words like this. Now that I'm finally here, I don't know what to do but just ramble my gratefulness no words can actually exactly express. I do hope one day I could publish a book. And if I ever do, I'll make sure you're one of the first people to know âșïž. Seriously, thank you so, so, SO much for supporting me.
You're right, these hard times do pass. I'm okay now, actually. Moreso when I received these kind messages. Thank you so much for cheering me up! You always manage to put a smile on my face no matter the situation I'm in. I wish you all the best, too, Aseel! I love you! đ
#aera blushes#love letters đ#aseel đ#thank you for stopping by and making me feel so loved once again!#oof my message is super long ahdjks I rambled A LOT again#i love it when I check my inbox and know from the first glance it's your messages#HEHEHEHE THAT'S SO CUTE UWU#also#what about aera#bc i shared too much again about my life asdfghjkl
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