#lovelaydays

[lovelaydays]

Hi.

It was about time to post this message. I’ve been thinking about it lately, and I’ve also mentioned it a few times on Tumblr, at the end of 2016. Without me knowing it, I stopped being active here. I no longer see myself a fangirl, the type who dedicates her time for a blog. My life has changed a lot lately, I’m in my 20s and although it’s scary, I still have to prioritize other things now, it’s that time when you must make important decisions, because those decisions will later on affect your life . time to adult, you name it.

I am happy that I decided to have this blog in the first place, and I am thankful for the happy memories I’ve made here with you, my dear followers, please always stay happy and healthy, let’s not fight (xingmis I am talking to you) – thank you for almost 4 wonderful years during which we laughed and cried together.

This blog, lovelaydays, has been like a home to me, I hope that it also made other people happy, because it sure made me happy.

About my personal life, I am now a part timer, yep, tomorrow is the first day I am working only 6 hours instead of 8. I needed this change since a few months back, because work has been taking over my life lately, and I need more time for myself. It gets extremely stressful at times, and very frustrating. I get angry so easily. Thus, I am seriously considering learning a foreign language aside from English, and I think I should give it a try with French (I’ve been studding French in school but I didn’t like it). I have to start from somewhere, in case I want to leave this job in the near future.

Now, about my love life, uhmmm… Okay, there’s someone in my life. Actually, I’ve made a few posts about him, here and there, he’s a coworker, and my crush. I will tell you the full story. I realized I like him about 1 year ago, yup. It was more of an attraction to me. I hated him at first, I really did. He was the weirdest guy ever, anti-social, never said Hi to me, never even looked at me, and when he did, he had this angry look on his face. He helped his girlfriend get this job here and they broke up about 6 months after. He became an overhead at work, which was even more awkward for them.

Somehow, me and his ex, we get along well; it made me feel bad about myself, that I liked him, because she was telling me how heartbroken she was after they ended their relationship and the happy time they’ve spent. I made myself a promise back then, that I will never have a romantic relationship with someone at work, I don’t even want to befriend someone more than necessary. Work should be kept separate from your personal life, or at least that’s what I thought. So, I tried to suppress my little crush. A little too much, because he noticed that I ignored him at work. And he started staring at me, from afar, which made it even more difficult for me. “Act normal”, I kept saying that to myself.

Until one day, when we had lunch together at the cafeteria, with another guy (his best friend, around which I could act normally). As always, I hoped that they don’t invite me to have lunch together, I even stayed in the locker more than necessary, hoping that I will take the next elevator. But I then said “whatever I will just go with them what can possibly happen”, I came out of the lockers room and went towards them. They were happy and of course they told me to go with them. So, I did. We ate and discussed about New Year’s Eve. New year’s resolutions. They were going outside to smoke, but he came next to me and stared at me while I was still eating. “Do you want to hang out with me sometime”, he said. I never thought that he would ever consider me attractive for him, so I asked if it was a trick question. He laughed, and I eventually said yes. “Is this a date?” I once again asked. “it is”, he said. I tried to convince him at first, that I am just a curiosity for him, and that it will pass. “We can go out, you get to know me and that’s it”. He never backed down, and he told me that he seriously wants to fall in love with me.

It started on that day, and it is going great so far, one thing I know for sure: I have never felt this way about someone. I want him to be happy and I want to protect him, that kind of feeling.We are so different so he is trying so hard to please me. 

I don’t know what love is. I believe that 2 people can develop strong feelings toward each other, like a drug, but I don’t think it lasts for a long time. It can turn into respect and getting used to each other - that is called marriage. That’s what I think for now. I am inexperienced, I might change my opinion in a few years from now.

I don’t know how things will turn out, but I regret nothing. I told him to keep this a secret, at least for now, because I don’t like gossips. And I would feel even more awkward if she knew about us. There are a few people at work who know, and they won’t spread it, I hope. 

Anyway, back to the main point, I am not closing the blog, it’s part of me. I will visit you from time to time, silently watching you. I won’t be spamming you anymore with my personal posts. Feel free to unfollow me anytime, I am already amazed and grateful that so many people have stayed with me until now.

I hope you are just as happy as I am, or more. Thank you for taking the time to read this long message.

I wish you all the best,

Xoxo,

Ramona.

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hi, you are amazing, i am in love with your blog

i am amazing??? you are in love with my blog??? what did i do omg wow no no NO nO this is the other way around thank you for being so sweet i am in love with you :(( thank you so much   ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[prankchanyeol]

lovelaydays replied to your post “lovelaydays replied to your post “BTW!! GET READY FOR THE...”

i just did the math now, so one hour until the real thing, its because i could not find any live streams working wtf, and i found one that is actually working and showing the red carpet https://aqstream.com/mnet/Mnet

Yasssss!! i am happy yo are watching em too we can all fangirl together aksnkansa. If you have any problems with that stream whatch this one http://www.gayofestival.com/2016/10/mnet-05.html it works perfectly!!

Ahhh so cool, im watching it alone ;; well with my dogs hahhaha hope you two fangirl hard lmao

[greentaolatte]

lovelaydays replied to your post: [[MOR] My dad texting me, is such a weird...

thats so sweet omg :D

LOL, thank you! I mean really, I don’t have a problem about it;-- aside from the second hand embarrassment, but he’s great.  The nickname I’ve given him though, just came on the past few weeks. (I’ve even added the appropriate ring tone to it on my phone because it relates to that person. lol)  Even my mom has come to the agreement about it and it’s a good round of laughs here. LOL *sigh* I really do love my dad though. lol He’s funny, but I will never admit that because he’d gladly rib me about it, for WEEKS! Especially, since it’d be some kind of retribution for me always being sarcastic about his jokes for so many years. lol :P <3

[sevnghyuns]

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[syubtae]

lovelaydays replied to your post: im sorry but i just read a post and i ...

Homie don’t consume yourself on stupid people.just know that bts finally won and bigbang won as well and they both deserved to win

thank you for this omg yes im so so happy both are winning/won tbh i want to cry now bc im emotional lmfaooo <33333

[iixing]

homie omg omg happy birthday have a great one, i hope that all your wishes come true,stay healthy and hapyy

well ur here so my wishes have come tru ~

[gdragons-seoul]

lovelaydays said: wish you good luck :D

Thank you so much! ♥ 

[dkjisoo]

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url: hellolesbeauexo name: lisa nickname: les birthday: 07/10/1996 gender: female sexuality: heterosexual height: 164.5? time zone: Australian Eastern Time Zone (UTC+10:00) what time and date it is: 9:22am, 6th of October avg hours of sleep: 8 hours otps: taohun, krissoo, xiuhan, sekailu, err all of them lol last thing i googled: my time zone HAHAHA first word that comes to mind: scared last thing i said to my parents: i'm going to failllllllllllllllllllll sorry one place that makes me happy and why: long car rides? idk i guess the feeling isn't exactly happy but its so serene and nice and comfy and i just get to stare at stuff and think yehhh how many blankets do i sleep under: two last movie i watched: lets go for last drama haha because i don't remeber.... Line Walker - Hong Kong drama recommended by goindownhighexo. BUT I REALLY WANT TO WATCH MAZERUNNER COS THE BOOK WAS EFFING AWESOMEEEE 3 things i can’t live without: friends family internet something i plan on learning: superpowers forrealz  a piece of advice for my followers: there's always hope (+ don't be a bum like me) you have to listen to this song: wong fei hung - hero of china

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lovelaydays answered to your post: I’m not just talking with myself ...

monica what the hell

Hahahah unni :'D I'm so bored xD I don't have anything to do today ;')

[wuyifanxing]

lovelaydays I read that manga and watched the anime *uuu* kou or touma?

[prankchanyeol]

lovelaydays replied to your post “BTW!! GET READY FOR THE MULTIFANDOM MESS MY BLOG IS GONNA BE TODAY. ”

alba how much time until mama?

Supposedly the red carpet ends in about an hour, so then the mamas start! are you gonna watch em??

[luhandeiz]

happy birthdayyy

thank you, love! ^^ same to you!

[sevnghyuns]

lovelaydays replied to your photo “so i made a video!!! please be nice, i am just trying this out and do...”

you are so cute and im gonna cry

hehehe thank you, come here cry on my shoulder then :3 

[jiyeolie]

This is a tumblr hug. Pass this to at least 10 of your favorite tumblr blogs to show how much you love them as best buddies. Make sure you don’t break the chain. Happy tumblr hugs ~!

THANKYOUU

[elaysium]

*hugs you real tight* Would you please send this to the first ten people on your dash to keep it going? Make someones day with a hug! :D

thank you so much!